1 00:00:00,080 --> 00:00:02,599 Speaker 1: My roommate is a nightmare, so I want to warn 2 00:00:02,680 --> 00:00:04,920 Speaker 1: my friends about her. I am really lost on what 3 00:00:05,040 --> 00:00:08,879 Speaker 1: to do about my nightmare roommate. We have been friends 4 00:00:08,880 --> 00:00:11,920 Speaker 1: for nearly our entire lives, but now that we moved 5 00:00:11,920 --> 00:00:15,560 Speaker 1: into an apartment together, her behavior towards me has changed 6 00:00:15,680 --> 00:00:19,600 Speaker 1: a lot. While we are really good half of the time, 7 00:00:19,920 --> 00:00:23,000 Speaker 1: the other half and it's been slowly increasing. I am 8 00:00:23,120 --> 00:00:26,840 Speaker 1: constantly walking on eggshells. By the way, this comes from 9 00:00:27,000 --> 00:00:30,160 Speaker 1: the bug four on the r slash. Okay, storytime stopper. 10 00:00:30,360 --> 00:00:33,479 Speaker 1: Is this the bug in our chat? Bug? Let us know? 11 00:00:33,560 --> 00:00:35,320 Speaker 1: Let us know. I think she may have some sort 12 00:00:35,320 --> 00:00:37,760 Speaker 1: of mental illness. And while I have encouraged her to 13 00:00:37,760 --> 00:00:41,479 Speaker 1: get help, whenever she makes comments she thinks she doesn't 14 00:00:41,560 --> 00:00:44,880 Speaker 1: need any I get verbally and emotionally attacked every week, 15 00:00:45,200 --> 00:00:48,120 Speaker 1: and I'm exhausted. That is not fun. No, the problem 16 00:00:48,200 --> 00:00:50,480 Speaker 1: is we were supposed to room Jorry. 17 00:00:50,560 --> 00:00:52,600 Speaker 2: I just looked at this person's profile and they go 18 00:00:52,640 --> 00:00:55,920 Speaker 2: to NC State University, which I know where that is, well, 19 00:00:56,360 --> 00:00:57,280 Speaker 2: North Carolina State. 20 00:00:57,520 --> 00:00:58,480 Speaker 1: Would y'all look at that? 21 00:00:59,080 --> 00:00:59,680 Speaker 3: Look at that. 22 00:01:00,080 --> 00:01:02,200 Speaker 1: The problem is that we were supposed to room with 23 00:01:02,240 --> 00:01:06,720 Speaker 1: our two close friends next semester. They were friends at first, uh, 24 00:01:06,760 --> 00:01:10,280 Speaker 1: but when Eleanor started at our college, I introduced her 25 00:01:10,319 --> 00:01:13,720 Speaker 1: to them and we all meshed together really well. I 26 00:01:13,760 --> 00:01:16,920 Speaker 1: believe Eleanor is the roommated question. I think we'll confirm 27 00:01:16,959 --> 00:01:19,520 Speaker 1: that in a second. After everything that I will describe below, 28 00:01:19,760 --> 00:01:23,200 Speaker 1: I decided that I will not live with Eleanor again, 29 00:01:23,840 --> 00:01:27,280 Speaker 1: no matter what. She has been borderline emotionally abusive and 30 00:01:27,319 --> 00:01:30,360 Speaker 1: I'm pretty sure she did something to my emotional support 31 00:01:30,400 --> 00:01:35,200 Speaker 1: animal legit Esa, prescribed by my psychiatrist for a severe 32 00:01:35,280 --> 00:01:40,120 Speaker 1: anxiety and depression. Oh this, Eleanor, You're about to get 33 00:01:40,120 --> 00:01:44,120 Speaker 1: some some Hayton, because that's heinous that. I am the 34 00:01:44,120 --> 00:01:45,199 Speaker 1: type of person who will. 35 00:01:45,040 --> 00:01:47,199 Speaker 2: Take a dog, right is it a dog? 36 00:01:47,360 --> 00:01:51,680 Speaker 1: It's a doggy, or it's an animal, but you know 37 00:01:52,400 --> 00:01:54,280 Speaker 1: it's messed up. It's the puppy in the sense of 38 00:01:54,320 --> 00:01:56,880 Speaker 1: its sweet babe sabe. I know, Riley. 39 00:01:58,520 --> 00:01:59,960 Speaker 2: I just wanted to know if it was a dog 40 00:02:00,320 --> 00:02:03,440 Speaker 2: rus banter, So they held your question for later, going, 41 00:02:04,480 --> 00:02:05,080 Speaker 2: oh my gosh. 42 00:02:05,240 --> 00:02:07,240 Speaker 1: So I am the type of person who will take 43 00:02:07,280 --> 00:02:10,120 Speaker 1: a lot of crap, a recovering people pleaser role, but 44 00:02:10,160 --> 00:02:12,360 Speaker 1: when it comes to those I care about the most, 45 00:02:12,720 --> 00:02:17,920 Speaker 1: I am extremely protective. It has been freaking aching me 46 00:02:18,440 --> 00:02:21,040 Speaker 1: not to talk to friends number one about it because 47 00:02:21,040 --> 00:02:23,960 Speaker 1: we talk about everything together, and she also has a 48 00:02:24,000 --> 00:02:27,600 Speaker 1: pet that I worry about being in harm's way with Eleanor. 49 00:02:28,200 --> 00:02:30,919 Speaker 1: I don't want to cause drama or gossip, though, which 50 00:02:31,040 --> 00:02:33,280 Speaker 1: is a problem. They are her friends too, and I 51 00:02:33,320 --> 00:02:36,079 Speaker 1: feel guilty for talking crap and saying things about her 52 00:02:36,200 --> 00:02:38,600 Speaker 1: behind her back. For the sake of the story, I 53 00:02:38,639 --> 00:02:41,560 Speaker 1: will be giving people nicknames. My pet will be moke Up, 54 00:02:41,919 --> 00:02:45,040 Speaker 1: my roommate will be Eleanor. So. Before I get it 55 00:02:45,120 --> 00:02:49,359 Speaker 1: and went to what happened on Friday morning, the smoking 56 00:02:49,880 --> 00:02:53,080 Speaker 1: gun moment thing, I should give you all a little 57 00:02:53,080 --> 00:02:55,520 Speaker 1: bit of background. Over the past few months, she's been 58 00:02:55,520 --> 00:02:58,320 Speaker 1: getting more and more anxious and aggressive in the apartment. 59 00:02:58,560 --> 00:03:00,720 Speaker 1: She gets really angry at me over a lot of 60 00:03:00,760 --> 00:03:03,760 Speaker 1: little things and then takes them out on me, such 61 00:03:03,800 --> 00:03:07,920 Speaker 1: as the one time I washed a dish with tomato sauce. 62 00:03:08,320 --> 00:03:10,080 Speaker 1: Washing the dish with tomato sauce. 63 00:03:09,919 --> 00:03:11,720 Speaker 3: I think there was it had tomato sauce in it 64 00:03:11,760 --> 00:03:12,919 Speaker 3: had tomato sauce on it. 65 00:03:13,040 --> 00:03:16,360 Speaker 2: I'm saying it was a pan the Sorry. I know 66 00:03:16,400 --> 00:03:19,880 Speaker 2: it's before three minutes, but it is a you know 67 00:03:19,919 --> 00:03:23,440 Speaker 2: those pan, the uh oh gosh, iron pan. It's an 68 00:03:23,480 --> 00:03:25,360 Speaker 2: iron pan, and you can't wash it with cast iron, 69 00:03:25,480 --> 00:03:28,560 Speaker 2: thank you, cook. And you have to wash it without soap. 70 00:03:29,080 --> 00:03:30,160 Speaker 3: You gotta do it a certain way. 71 00:03:30,240 --> 00:03:32,200 Speaker 1: Maybe, oh, he says. It was mostly water at this 72 00:03:32,240 --> 00:03:35,520 Speaker 1: point in it and it went down the drain because 73 00:03:35,600 --> 00:03:38,360 Speaker 1: it might clog the drain. Okay, washed a tomato dish 74 00:03:38,440 --> 00:03:41,440 Speaker 1: that might clog the drain, run the run the. 75 00:03:41,360 --> 00:03:45,480 Speaker 2: Disposal, disposal, and like tomatoes are mainly water too. 76 00:03:46,120 --> 00:03:49,000 Speaker 3: That's if it's tomato, like you, I don't know. 77 00:03:49,560 --> 00:03:52,560 Speaker 1: She got irritated that our friend called her to check 78 00:03:52,640 --> 00:03:54,680 Speaker 1: up on her the other day and it ruined her 79 00:03:54,680 --> 00:03:55,440 Speaker 1: schedule for. 80 00:03:55,480 --> 00:04:01,680 Speaker 3: The day, almost could have destroyed I'm. 81 00:04:01,600 --> 00:04:05,200 Speaker 1: Upset on that note. She almost got mad because I 82 00:04:05,240 --> 00:04:08,000 Speaker 1: did the dishes for her one time and that ruined 83 00:04:08,040 --> 00:04:10,040 Speaker 1: her schedule for the day. How dare you? How are you? 84 00:04:10,120 --> 00:04:11,040 Speaker 3: How freaking dare you? 85 00:04:11,200 --> 00:04:13,920 Speaker 1: I literally did the dishes for her and baked brownies 86 00:04:13,960 --> 00:04:16,320 Speaker 1: because I knew she was having a stressful day and 87 00:04:16,480 --> 00:04:17,480 Speaker 1: I wanted to help. 88 00:04:17,680 --> 00:04:17,800 Speaker 3: No. 89 00:04:18,040 --> 00:04:21,360 Speaker 1: Unacceptable. Whenever we are in the apartment together, she gets 90 00:04:21,440 --> 00:04:23,800 Speaker 1: irritated a lot of the time. If I talk to her. 91 00:04:24,120 --> 00:04:26,680 Speaker 1: She spends a majority of her time playing her switch 92 00:04:26,720 --> 00:04:29,320 Speaker 1: in bed or studying, and rarely ever wants to talk 93 00:04:29,440 --> 00:04:32,600 Speaker 1: or spend time with me. Before becoming roommates, we discussed 94 00:04:32,600 --> 00:04:35,000 Speaker 1: that we are both going to be fairly social and 95 00:04:35,200 --> 00:04:38,440 Speaker 1: would like spending some time every day just talking and stuff. 96 00:04:38,760 --> 00:04:40,680 Speaker 3: But it turns out she lied, she didn't want to 97 00:04:40,720 --> 00:04:42,200 Speaker 3: talk to you, and she's a dirty liar. 98 00:04:42,360 --> 00:04:47,080 Speaker 1: Dare I say dirtier than that? Tomatoly dish disgusting, disgusting, 99 00:04:47,240 --> 00:04:52,440 Speaker 1: discocust DISGUSTINGO. The only reason I ever wanted to be 100 00:04:52,600 --> 00:04:55,440 Speaker 1: in our apartment was because I had Moke up, the 101 00:04:55,480 --> 00:04:58,360 Speaker 1: emotional support animal there to keep me company and help 102 00:04:58,400 --> 00:05:01,360 Speaker 1: me with my anxiety. It is Moke. We don't know 103 00:05:01,600 --> 00:05:04,440 Speaker 1: a bet a little bit. I get extremely anxious in 104 00:05:04,480 --> 00:05:06,960 Speaker 1: the apartment because I always seem to be walking on 105 00:05:07,000 --> 00:05:10,400 Speaker 1: eggshells to appeal to Eleanor, who will take it out 106 00:05:10,400 --> 00:05:13,520 Speaker 1: on me whenever she is in a bad mood. Literally, 107 00:05:13,680 --> 00:05:16,480 Speaker 1: anytime something has gone wrong with an exam or her 108 00:05:16,520 --> 00:05:20,000 Speaker 1: schedule gets messed up, everything ends up being my faults 109 00:05:20,040 --> 00:05:22,440 Speaker 1: and she starts crying and going off of me. Also 110 00:05:22,640 --> 00:05:25,320 Speaker 1: again to remind you, her schedule being disrupted or is 111 00:05:25,400 --> 00:05:28,159 Speaker 1: her friend checking up on her. OPI doing the dishes 112 00:05:28,160 --> 00:05:32,480 Speaker 1: and making her brownies. These are the activities that gets 113 00:05:33,720 --> 00:05:34,680 Speaker 1: her schedule messed up. 114 00:05:34,880 --> 00:05:35,680 Speaker 3: Yeah, this is too far. 115 00:05:35,800 --> 00:05:39,440 Speaker 1: Oh you saved me time and made me a tasty treat. 116 00:05:40,560 --> 00:05:41,560 Speaker 3: I'm brownie? Sound good? 117 00:05:41,680 --> 00:05:45,120 Speaker 1: All right? Focus? Everything ends up being my fault and 118 00:05:45,160 --> 00:05:47,680 Speaker 1: she starts crying and going off on me. Then not 119 00:05:47,880 --> 00:05:51,279 Speaker 1: even fifteen minutes after she finishes, she will be completely 120 00:05:51,320 --> 00:05:55,000 Speaker 1: back to her normal self. It's really draining and anxiety inducing. 121 00:05:55,400 --> 00:05:58,640 Speaker 1: Even typing this out, my heart is beating through my chest. 122 00:05:59,200 --> 00:06:02,000 Speaker 1: I feel crazy too, because roughly half the time she 123 00:06:02,200 --> 00:06:05,160 Speaker 1: is a good and carrying roommate slash friend slash roommate, 124 00:06:05,360 --> 00:06:09,039 Speaker 1: while the other half she is literally psycho and has 125 00:06:09,080 --> 00:06:12,359 Speaker 1: me in fear for my safety. It's gotten worse and 126 00:06:12,400 --> 00:06:15,160 Speaker 1: worse throughout the semester as her fits of anxiety and 127 00:06:15,200 --> 00:06:18,800 Speaker 1: anger happen more and more. I think the best way 128 00:06:18,839 --> 00:06:21,479 Speaker 1: to describe how awful it's been recently is to type 129 00:06:21,520 --> 00:06:24,720 Speaker 1: out what happened the week I decided to get the 130 00:06:24,760 --> 00:06:28,320 Speaker 1: heck out of Dodge and commute the last few days 131 00:06:28,400 --> 00:06:31,839 Speaker 1: before winter breaks. So it seems like OP skipped town 132 00:06:32,600 --> 00:06:35,040 Speaker 1: like maybe like winter her parents' house or something. But 133 00:06:35,160 --> 00:06:38,159 Speaker 1: in Eleanor's eyes, you abandoned me. 134 00:06:38,760 --> 00:06:41,200 Speaker 3: Again. This is like your roommate that's not your partner. 135 00:06:41,360 --> 00:06:44,000 Speaker 3: You don't get to say you have to stay here, really, 136 00:06:44,480 --> 00:06:47,840 Speaker 3: but I can. I can leave, even if I want 137 00:06:47,880 --> 00:06:52,640 Speaker 3: all my roommates to never leave. I'm I leally have 138 00:06:52,760 --> 00:06:53,320 Speaker 3: to let them go. 139 00:06:53,520 --> 00:06:56,080 Speaker 2: You're down to right now, but I know it's upsetting, 140 00:06:56,120 --> 00:06:57,880 Speaker 2: but do You're not even here for my news party. 141 00:06:58,560 --> 00:07:04,240 Speaker 1: You abandon me, but but you you have bandon me. 142 00:07:04,360 --> 00:07:07,360 Speaker 3: It's true. That's how I feel. I feel like this 143 00:07:07,360 --> 00:07:08,560 Speaker 3: little worm, all. 144 00:07:08,640 --> 00:07:13,080 Speaker 1: Sad onto the week that changed everything. I think this 145 00:07:13,200 --> 00:07:17,920 Speaker 1: is basically an update here Monday. I brought Mocha this week? 146 00:07:18,080 --> 00:07:19,960 Speaker 1: What is is it? Emotional support dog? 147 00:07:20,680 --> 00:07:22,040 Speaker 3: Okay, it's a dog. 148 00:07:22,200 --> 00:07:24,560 Speaker 1: Yep, it's a dog, not not the drink. 149 00:07:24,640 --> 00:07:27,280 Speaker 2: Yep, to be clear, noy, what is it? 150 00:07:27,360 --> 00:07:27,760 Speaker 1: What is it? 151 00:07:27,800 --> 00:07:28,640 Speaker 3: I want to know what it is? 152 00:07:29,800 --> 00:07:33,480 Speaker 2: I was saying, like, who is Mocha iced with almond 153 00:07:33,520 --> 00:07:33,960 Speaker 2: milk here? 154 00:07:34,000 --> 00:07:35,920 Speaker 1: So that I bring her every week so that Eleanor 155 00:07:35,960 --> 00:07:38,200 Speaker 1: doesn't have to deal with the horrible noise all the time. 156 00:07:38,280 --> 00:07:40,600 Speaker 1: Because I was extra stressed out and I really needed 157 00:07:40,640 --> 00:07:42,640 Speaker 1: her to help me be grounded because she's a huge 158 00:07:42,640 --> 00:07:46,160 Speaker 1: part of my therapy and coping mechanisms. Eleanor already didn't 159 00:07:46,160 --> 00:07:49,120 Speaker 1: seem super happy that Mocha was there, but I hadn't 160 00:07:49,120 --> 00:07:51,680 Speaker 1: had Mocha there in two weeks, so I figured it 161 00:07:51,720 --> 00:07:54,160 Speaker 1: was just her usual reaction to being thrown off of 162 00:07:54,200 --> 00:07:57,440 Speaker 1: her strictly planed schedule. But if op I feel like 163 00:07:57,480 --> 00:08:00,400 Speaker 1: it be breathes, it'll throw elean Roford. What is the 164 00:08:00,520 --> 00:08:01,280 Speaker 1: schedule like? 165 00:08:02,240 --> 00:08:02,760 Speaker 3: I don't know. 166 00:08:03,040 --> 00:08:05,320 Speaker 1: Mocho is being very well behaved and I didn't notice 167 00:08:05,400 --> 00:08:07,720 Speaker 1: anything unusual out of her, so I was surprised when 168 00:08:07,760 --> 00:08:10,360 Speaker 1: Eleanor began having problems with her. So early on in 169 00:08:10,360 --> 00:08:12,600 Speaker 1: the week, I walked in and Eleanor wasn't there, so 170 00:08:12,680 --> 00:08:17,000 Speaker 1: I just cared for uh Mo mocap before heading out 171 00:08:17,120 --> 00:08:18,880 Speaker 1: for a basketball game that I was running late for. 172 00:08:19,040 --> 00:08:21,240 Speaker 1: I waited outside for a few minutes, and on my 173 00:08:21,320 --> 00:08:24,640 Speaker 1: way out, Mocha wasn't loud, so I left in good conscience. 174 00:08:24,880 --> 00:08:27,600 Speaker 1: She never said anything that night, just that she made 175 00:08:27,680 --> 00:08:29,840 Speaker 1: some noise when Eleanor was out in the living room, 176 00:08:29,840 --> 00:08:32,640 Speaker 1: But Eleanor also walked out there and didn't say hi 177 00:08:32,760 --> 00:08:35,360 Speaker 1: or anything. It just ignored Mocha, which is something I 178 00:08:35,400 --> 00:08:38,400 Speaker 1: repeatedly have told her is not helpful because Moca will 179 00:08:38,400 --> 00:08:42,280 Speaker 1: get really upset. Keep in mind we had also had 180 00:08:42,280 --> 00:08:45,400 Speaker 1: this conversation prior to agreeing to live together, which I 181 00:08:45,400 --> 00:08:50,080 Speaker 1: think is important context. Hey, Moca will make noise. I 182 00:08:50,080 --> 00:08:52,280 Speaker 1: guess if you don't acknowledge her or something like that, 183 00:08:52,400 --> 00:08:58,480 Speaker 1: or acknowledged them, and everyone's like an agreement. What are 184 00:08:58,480 --> 00:08:59,160 Speaker 1: we finding out? 185 00:08:59,160 --> 00:09:03,080 Speaker 3: What is is Moca? Moca? 186 00:09:03,520 --> 00:09:04,000 Speaker 1: What are you? 187 00:09:04,200 --> 00:09:09,040 Speaker 3: Mocha? Moca is a pet? Okay, see this was like relevant. 188 00:09:09,120 --> 00:09:12,199 Speaker 3: It wasn't just a dog. Moke has been a parrot 189 00:09:12,200 --> 00:09:14,240 Speaker 3: this whole time, and you probably like, oh my god, Sophia, 190 00:09:14,280 --> 00:09:17,600 Speaker 3: while should bring it up, Moc is probably a freaking dog. No, 191 00:09:17,720 --> 00:09:19,920 Speaker 3: MOGA's a parrot. And that was relevant information because now 192 00:09:19,920 --> 00:09:22,160 Speaker 3: we know that, like, Mocha is probably pretty freaking loud. 193 00:09:22,520 --> 00:09:26,440 Speaker 1: Yeah, is probably like squawking. 194 00:09:26,679 --> 00:09:28,880 Speaker 2: Yeah, you know, why aren't you talking to men? 195 00:09:29,240 --> 00:09:33,040 Speaker 1: All right? Oh? Wait is that video of Mocha? Can we? Oh? 196 00:09:33,520 --> 00:09:37,280 Speaker 3: Is really cute? I think is sleeping? Oh some squawking 197 00:09:37,400 --> 00:09:39,600 Speaker 3: Whitney Anderson did call it moch is a parrot? 198 00:09:39,600 --> 00:09:40,480 Speaker 1: Ha ha ha ha. 199 00:09:41,679 --> 00:09:43,120 Speaker 2: I don't think it has like a name. 200 00:09:43,200 --> 00:09:46,040 Speaker 3: It doesn't attach its name here though it's mocha. I mean, 201 00:09:46,200 --> 00:09:47,360 Speaker 3: why would you call it mocha? 202 00:09:47,600 --> 00:09:49,360 Speaker 2: Hey, I was wondering if you could help me. I've 203 00:09:49,360 --> 00:09:50,080 Speaker 2: been at something. 204 00:09:50,760 --> 00:09:56,160 Speaker 1: Oh no, Okay, it seems it's the best we can 205 00:09:56,320 --> 00:09:56,920 Speaker 1: figure out. 206 00:09:57,080 --> 00:09:57,840 Speaker 3: That's probably mocha. 207 00:09:57,920 --> 00:10:00,200 Speaker 1: Oh, p has a parrot, has a parrot. But we 208 00:10:00,240 --> 00:10:02,360 Speaker 1: think it's Smoka because only we think so. We're not. 209 00:10:02,360 --> 00:10:05,240 Speaker 1: I'm sure, but that's as far as we can tell. 210 00:10:05,320 --> 00:10:08,640 Speaker 1: The pair's Mocha. AnyWho, back to the story, So keep 211 00:10:08,640 --> 00:10:10,560 Speaker 1: in mind, we also had this conversation prior to agreeing 212 00:10:10,559 --> 00:10:13,360 Speaker 1: to live together, and I have a binder she has 213 00:10:13,440 --> 00:10:15,880 Speaker 1: access to detailing what will help with noise and what 214 00:10:15,960 --> 00:10:19,240 Speaker 1: set smoke offful not noise. That's detailed Tuesday. I woke 215 00:10:19,320 --> 00:10:21,840 Speaker 1: up that morning and she said something, but due to 216 00:10:21,880 --> 00:10:24,480 Speaker 1: my sleeping disorder, I didn't process it. When you get 217 00:10:24,480 --> 00:10:26,559 Speaker 1: to Thursday, you will see that I wish I had 218 00:10:26,600 --> 00:10:29,320 Speaker 1: processed it at that moment because I would have ran 219 00:10:29,760 --> 00:10:32,920 Speaker 1: out of there. Nothing else really happened on Tuesday. I 220 00:10:33,000 --> 00:10:35,199 Speaker 1: was back and forth a little bit because I had 221 00:10:35,200 --> 00:10:37,840 Speaker 1: a doctor's appointment that morning, but there wasn't really any 222 00:10:37,960 --> 00:10:41,160 Speaker 1: tension or anything, because both of us were up and moving. 223 00:10:41,679 --> 00:10:44,280 Speaker 1: The only thing is that I had Mocha up late, 224 00:10:44,440 --> 00:10:49,760 Speaker 1: which probably didn't help by making Mocha irritable. The next day, 225 00:10:50,120 --> 00:10:53,000 Speaker 1: I had a really bad sleeping disorder moment and accidentally 226 00:10:53,000 --> 00:10:55,440 Speaker 1: fell asleep in the living room with the lights on. 227 00:10:55,640 --> 00:10:59,360 Speaker 1: We're context. Wednesday, I got a text from her after 228 00:10:59,360 --> 00:11:04,800 Speaker 1: my tutorings that Moe was apparently being pissy. I rushed 229 00:11:04,840 --> 00:11:06,640 Speaker 1: back as quickly as I could, and when I got there, 230 00:11:06,760 --> 00:11:09,400 Speaker 1: Mocha was dead silent, not a peep, not a peep. 231 00:11:09,679 --> 00:11:12,439 Speaker 1: When I walked in, Mocha readed me with a happy chirp, 232 00:11:12,679 --> 00:11:16,000 Speaker 1: and that was it. Chirp that even more corroborated ever, 233 00:11:16,400 --> 00:11:20,439 Speaker 1: that Mocha is the barber. The TV was no longer 234 00:11:20,480 --> 00:11:22,800 Speaker 1: on for her, it shuts off itself sometimes, and the 235 00:11:22,920 --> 00:11:25,760 Speaker 1: lights were not fully on, but she was silent. I 236 00:11:25,840 --> 00:11:29,080 Speaker 1: mentioned those things because Mocha will only persistently make noise 237 00:11:29,160 --> 00:11:31,040 Speaker 1: if the lights are off. She doesn't like the dark 238 00:11:31,360 --> 00:11:34,840 Speaker 1: when it's not bedtime. If she is actively being ignored, 239 00:11:35,000 --> 00:11:37,200 Speaker 1: she thinks you have forgotten about her, or if she 240 00:11:37,280 --> 00:11:39,760 Speaker 1: is bored because the TV or music is turned off. 241 00:11:39,800 --> 00:11:41,680 Speaker 1: I love that she needs to listen to TV. 242 00:11:41,720 --> 00:11:43,880 Speaker 3: Ort needs, she needs her news. 243 00:11:44,000 --> 00:11:47,120 Speaker 1: Let's get Subway surfer asap for a little Mocha. 244 00:11:46,920 --> 00:11:47,439 Speaker 3: Let's put it on. 245 00:11:47,520 --> 00:11:50,760 Speaker 1: Okay storytime there eh join the stream. Joint chat joint Chat, 246 00:11:50,760 --> 00:11:53,080 Speaker 1: Mocha and she is stuck in the silence. I also 247 00:11:53,240 --> 00:11:56,240 Speaker 1: accidentally had Mocha up late that night, but now I'm home, 248 00:11:56,600 --> 00:11:58,720 Speaker 1: I really don't think it was because I accidentally had 249 00:11:58,760 --> 00:12:01,240 Speaker 1: her up late last night and she was perfectly fine. 250 00:12:01,360 --> 00:12:04,480 Speaker 1: When I got home from tutoring, I noticed that Eleanor's 251 00:12:04,520 --> 00:12:08,800 Speaker 1: behavior was off, and I asked her if she was okay, 252 00:12:08,520 --> 00:12:13,960 Speaker 1: and she just said mmmmm yeah, mm hmmm, mm hmmm. 253 00:12:17,559 --> 00:12:18,120 Speaker 3: That's it. 254 00:12:18,400 --> 00:12:21,280 Speaker 1: That's it. So I figured if something had happened, she 255 00:12:21,320 --> 00:12:23,599 Speaker 1: would tell me. I ended up sitting out in the 256 00:12:23,640 --> 00:12:26,120 Speaker 1: living room trying to avoid her in her mood, to 257 00:12:26,200 --> 00:12:28,480 Speaker 1: avoid getting lashed out at I was sitting on the 258 00:12:28,480 --> 00:12:31,439 Speaker 1: couch with Moke on my shoulder when Eleanor came huffing 259 00:12:31,480 --> 00:12:34,160 Speaker 1: out of the room. Mocha walked herself into her cage 260 00:12:34,200 --> 00:12:36,800 Speaker 1: and hid behind me. This is a really weird behavior 261 00:12:36,800 --> 00:12:39,320 Speaker 1: for Mocha. She never puts herself in her cage unless 262 00:12:39,320 --> 00:12:41,679 Speaker 1: she has to poo. Poo or it needs to drink 263 00:12:41,720 --> 00:12:44,360 Speaker 1: some water. She normally, though, will just go to the 264 00:12:44,400 --> 00:12:46,720 Speaker 1: top of her cage since it has a little playground 265 00:12:46,800 --> 00:12:49,000 Speaker 1: up top. Eleanor came into the room with a really 266 00:12:49,040 --> 00:12:52,280 Speaker 1: aggressive energy and was just acting really weird. So I 267 00:12:52,360 --> 00:12:55,760 Speaker 1: asked her if she was okay, and she lost it. 268 00:12:56,120 --> 00:12:57,880 Speaker 3: Eleanor eleanor Eleanor. 269 00:12:57,640 --> 00:13:00,800 Speaker 1: What did Opie do? Make you cookies this time? I 270 00:13:00,880 --> 00:13:04,600 Speaker 1: hate chocolate chip. Give me macadamia dot. That's not what 271 00:13:04,640 --> 00:13:07,720 Speaker 1: I want. She started off by saying that she was 272 00:13:07,800 --> 00:13:12,199 Speaker 1: mad because our friend had called and messer her schedule, 273 00:13:12,559 --> 00:13:17,120 Speaker 1: her perfect Christine schedule schedule that she had planned for 274 00:13:17,200 --> 00:13:20,840 Speaker 1: the afternoon. On top of that, her homework wasn't the 275 00:13:20,920 --> 00:13:23,720 Speaker 1: exact kind of assignment she thought it was going to be. 276 00:13:23,880 --> 00:13:30,040 Speaker 1: That's all Opie's freaking faults. Then she started going on 277 00:13:30,160 --> 00:13:32,760 Speaker 1: about how Mocha was being irritable when she was talking 278 00:13:32,800 --> 00:13:34,920 Speaker 1: on the phone, and no matter where she stood in 279 00:13:34,960 --> 00:13:38,120 Speaker 1: the house, she couldn't satiate her. When I tried asking 280 00:13:38,200 --> 00:13:41,079 Speaker 1: if she had acknowledged her or if the light TV 281 00:13:41,160 --> 00:13:44,320 Speaker 1: slash lights were on, she reported, it isn't on me 282 00:13:44,400 --> 00:13:48,760 Speaker 1: to comfort your bart which is true somewhat true. I 283 00:13:48,800 --> 00:13:51,320 Speaker 1: guess the only thing there is they talked about it 284 00:13:51,880 --> 00:13:53,640 Speaker 1: upon it, and you know what, she has a whole 285 00:13:53,679 --> 00:13:58,360 Speaker 1: binder and I'm sure communicated, but that's there and everything else. 286 00:13:58,400 --> 00:14:00,920 Speaker 1: So it's like, at that point, you're kind of only 287 00:14:01,040 --> 00:14:03,720 Speaker 1: hurting yourself by not using the tools like the binder 288 00:14:03,760 --> 00:14:06,679 Speaker 1: at your disposal. Yeah, that you know, but yes, it's 289 00:14:06,679 --> 00:14:09,800 Speaker 1: also not her responsibility. I digress. I completely understand her 290 00:14:09,840 --> 00:14:12,920 Speaker 1: thought process behind that. I never asked her to comfort Mocha. 291 00:14:13,160 --> 00:14:16,000 Speaker 1: I only asked that she was courteous and polite, because 292 00:14:16,000 --> 00:14:19,080 Speaker 1: that way Mocha wouldn't feel so scared or threatened. She 293 00:14:19,200 --> 00:14:21,720 Speaker 1: then talked about how she doesn't like Mocha and said 294 00:14:21,720 --> 00:14:24,080 Speaker 1: that she wasn't going to talk to me anymore because 295 00:14:24,120 --> 00:14:26,760 Speaker 1: she didn't want to be a bee to me, and 296 00:14:26,880 --> 00:14:30,280 Speaker 1: proceeded to ignore me for the night. I love how 297 00:14:30,280 --> 00:14:31,640 Speaker 1: she's like, Hey, I don't want to be a bee 298 00:14:31,680 --> 00:14:33,400 Speaker 1: to you, so I'm just going to completely ignore you 299 00:14:33,440 --> 00:14:34,560 Speaker 1: and never acknowledge you and never. 300 00:14:34,600 --> 00:14:35,360 Speaker 3: I'm not going to talk to you. 301 00:14:35,640 --> 00:14:38,000 Speaker 1: That that is that's great behavior. 302 00:14:38,040 --> 00:14:40,880 Speaker 2: Collective communication, Yeah. 303 00:14:40,120 --> 00:14:43,960 Speaker 1: No communication. This was so weird because when I first 304 00:14:44,000 --> 00:14:46,200 Speaker 1: got home, she was sitting in the room and talking 305 00:14:46,240 --> 00:14:48,200 Speaker 1: and laughing on the phone with her family about the 306 00:14:48,240 --> 00:14:51,000 Speaker 1: same crap that happened during the day that she ended 307 00:14:51,080 --> 00:14:55,040 Speaker 1: up bishing at me about. Only a few minutes later. Well, 308 00:14:55,120 --> 00:14:57,040 Speaker 1: a little while later, she came out to eat a 309 00:14:57,080 --> 00:14:59,520 Speaker 1: snack at the table and had a mini conversation with 310 00:14:59,560 --> 00:15:02,960 Speaker 1: me while acting completely normal. She even started complimenting my 311 00:15:03,040 --> 00:15:05,560 Speaker 1: bag I had and was being super cheerful, like the 312 00:15:05,680 --> 00:15:09,640 Speaker 1: happy light just switched, just went off in her head. 313 00:15:09,960 --> 00:15:12,560 Speaker 1: I began talking to my mom that night about looking 314 00:15:12,600 --> 00:15:15,360 Speaker 1: for options for living next year because I was so 315 00:15:15,480 --> 00:15:17,800 Speaker 1: tired of her random blow ups and I felt like 316 00:15:17,840 --> 00:15:19,680 Speaker 1: no matter what I did or whether or not Mocha 317 00:15:19,760 --> 00:15:21,920 Speaker 1: was present, she was always taking out issues on me. 318 00:15:21,960 --> 00:15:23,240 Speaker 3: Eyes. I think that's the solution. 319 00:15:23,720 --> 00:15:26,840 Speaker 1: Yeah, and op, he's talking about living, working with her 320 00:15:26,840 --> 00:15:30,160 Speaker 1: mom to find her a new place, Yeah, a new place. Yeah. 321 00:15:30,240 --> 00:15:31,840 Speaker 3: No, I think that's a solution. I think there's not 322 00:15:31,920 --> 00:15:34,000 Speaker 3: that much you can do in terms of like talking 323 00:15:34,040 --> 00:15:36,520 Speaker 3: to her, because it seems like she's pretty unreasonable. So 324 00:15:36,560 --> 00:15:38,280 Speaker 3: I think at this point it's like, just move out, 325 00:15:38,280 --> 00:15:38,960 Speaker 3: find new roommate. 326 00:15:39,120 --> 00:15:41,360 Speaker 1: Yeah, and like, you know, they probably have some sort 327 00:15:41,360 --> 00:15:43,040 Speaker 1: of leaves or anything. But hey, you know, what start 328 00:15:43,080 --> 00:15:45,680 Speaker 1: planning now so you can get out as quickly and 329 00:15:45,680 --> 00:15:48,800 Speaker 1: effectively as pausible. Doggie knew, DOLLI you dow. She really 330 00:15:48,840 --> 00:15:51,360 Speaker 1: scared me that time because when she was talking about 331 00:15:51,400 --> 00:15:54,400 Speaker 1: how she didn't like Mocha and that she was lost 332 00:15:54,440 --> 00:15:57,160 Speaker 1: as to how Mocha didn't like her. Geez, when you 333 00:15:57,280 --> 00:15:59,280 Speaker 1: act the way you have acted, I wonder why. I 334 00:15:59,360 --> 00:16:01,840 Speaker 1: also think it's very interesting and also cute that the 335 00:16:02,200 --> 00:16:05,080 Speaker 1: bird is so like emotionally attuned, that moch is so 336 00:16:05,200 --> 00:16:07,800 Speaker 1: emotionally attuned. I don't know much about birds. Taken me 337 00:16:07,880 --> 00:16:11,040 Speaker 1: very clever, I'm learning today. They're very smart. Such a smart. 338 00:16:11,160 --> 00:16:12,920 Speaker 3: Crows are very smart, that's true. 339 00:16:13,640 --> 00:16:17,640 Speaker 1: Crows probably no crows things, how you feel. I like 340 00:16:17,760 --> 00:16:19,520 Speaker 1: crows growing up. 341 00:16:19,600 --> 00:16:22,760 Speaker 2: They'd always steal the corn in our field, so we 342 00:16:22,800 --> 00:16:25,800 Speaker 2: would always have to like shoot, we scarecrows. Didn't work. 343 00:16:25,800 --> 00:16:26,800 Speaker 2: So what we had to do is we had to 344 00:16:26,800 --> 00:16:30,520 Speaker 2: get little tiny pieces of wood like this and spread 345 00:16:30,560 --> 00:16:32,400 Speaker 2: them across the rows of corn and then have like 346 00:16:32,920 --> 00:16:34,880 Speaker 2: two wires, one this way one the other way, so 347 00:16:34,920 --> 00:16:36,240 Speaker 2: if they go to land, it would get in their 348 00:16:36,280 --> 00:16:38,080 Speaker 2: feet and then they'd like freak out and go away. 349 00:16:38,280 --> 00:16:38,920 Speaker 3: Oh ouch. 350 00:16:40,000 --> 00:16:41,680 Speaker 2: It didn't hurt them. It's just like you know how 351 00:16:41,760 --> 00:16:45,400 Speaker 2: cat doesn't like to like land on aluminum foil. It's 352 00:16:45,480 --> 00:16:46,520 Speaker 2: like that kind of the thick. 353 00:16:47,880 --> 00:16:50,920 Speaker 1: Much. Eleanor was clenching our fists turning red. 354 00:16:53,040 --> 00:16:56,120 Speaker 2: Man, come on, keep dying. 355 00:16:59,600 --> 00:17:05,840 Speaker 1: Light headed? Your face is so funny? 356 00:17:06,800 --> 00:17:09,040 Speaker 3: Is a shirt? 357 00:17:09,200 --> 00:17:12,520 Speaker 1: Oh wow, we did too good of a job on that. 358 00:17:12,640 --> 00:17:15,280 Speaker 1: My gosh. She was clenching her fists and turning red, 359 00:17:15,359 --> 00:17:18,960 Speaker 1: which really scared me. Makes sense. I should have never 360 00:17:19,080 --> 00:17:21,800 Speaker 1: left Mocha alone with her again. I will beat myself 361 00:17:21,920 --> 00:17:25,160 Speaker 1: up every day for letting Mocha be in the same 362 00:17:25,320 --> 00:17:30,879 Speaker 1: room with Meca after that. But a very very tragic 363 00:17:30,920 --> 00:17:31,720 Speaker 1: I see you in the comments. 364 00:17:31,840 --> 00:17:36,760 Speaker 2: No Moca, no yeah, I will say there are no 365 00:17:36,920 --> 00:17:39,960 Speaker 2: more pictures on Reddit of Mocha after this post. 366 00:17:40,560 --> 00:17:43,399 Speaker 1: As well as Thursday, I woke up in the morning 367 00:17:43,600 --> 00:17:46,240 Speaker 1: and immediately went out and stayed with Mocha in the 368 00:17:46,280 --> 00:17:49,280 Speaker 1: living room, keeping her calm okay, once Eleanor was awake, 369 00:17:49,440 --> 00:17:52,080 Speaker 1: I took out the trash after triple checking. I was 370 00:17:52,160 --> 00:17:55,200 Speaker 1: okay because Moca might get mad and noisy for a minute. 371 00:17:55,400 --> 00:17:58,600 Speaker 1: She did it, and Eleanor was acting like she had 372 00:17:58,720 --> 00:18:01,920 Speaker 1: never been bothered by the NOI and I was perfectly 373 00:18:02,000 --> 00:18:03,760 Speaker 1: fine because it was such a short period of time. 374 00:18:03,880 --> 00:18:08,280 Speaker 1: I also love how Op is Mocha's emotional support person. Yeah, 375 00:18:08,480 --> 00:18:08,920 Speaker 1: it's cute. 376 00:18:08,960 --> 00:18:09,520 Speaker 3: It's a mutual. 377 00:18:09,800 --> 00:18:11,119 Speaker 1: It's gonna make it even sadder. 378 00:18:10,920 --> 00:18:11,440 Speaker 3: Oh my gosh. 379 00:18:11,520 --> 00:18:14,879 Speaker 1: She left around one pm, and I ended up staying 380 00:18:14,920 --> 00:18:16,960 Speaker 1: home for my first class to get work done and 381 00:18:17,160 --> 00:18:18,960 Speaker 1: to stay with Mocha because I had a group that 382 00:18:19,119 --> 00:18:20,879 Speaker 1: night and I didn't want her to be upset and 383 00:18:20,960 --> 00:18:25,080 Speaker 1: possibly upset Eleanor again because I emotionally could not handle 384 00:18:25,359 --> 00:18:27,480 Speaker 1: being yelled at again. Eleanor ended up going to a 385 00:18:27,520 --> 00:18:30,040 Speaker 1: friend's house to sety, which really ticked me off because 386 00:18:30,080 --> 00:18:32,520 Speaker 1: I was slash am pretty darn sure that she went 387 00:18:32,600 --> 00:18:35,040 Speaker 1: over there to talk crap to them about Mocha and 388 00:18:35,200 --> 00:18:37,480 Speaker 1: make it seem like Mocha is so terrible because we 389 00:18:37,560 --> 00:18:39,880 Speaker 1: are we were all supposed to room together next year. Yeah, 390 00:18:39,920 --> 00:18:42,359 Speaker 1: she's talking crap to the other two friend number one 391 00:18:42,400 --> 00:18:44,200 Speaker 1: and two they were planning on living with. When I 392 00:18:44,359 --> 00:18:47,960 Speaker 1: was leaving my last class, she texted me asking if 393 00:18:48,040 --> 00:18:50,040 Speaker 1: I was on my way home and whether or not 394 00:18:50,240 --> 00:18:52,960 Speaker 1: Mocha would be okay to be by herself for a minute, 395 00:18:53,000 --> 00:18:56,119 Speaker 1: which really confused me. Because she has never ever seemed 396 00:18:56,119 --> 00:18:59,119 Speaker 1: to care about Mocha like that. The only way she 397 00:18:59,240 --> 00:19:01,680 Speaker 1: has ever been kind or caring to Mocha is when 398 00:19:01,720 --> 00:19:04,520 Speaker 1: she uncovers her cage, if she wakes up before I do. 399 00:19:05,160 --> 00:19:07,680 Speaker 1: But that's more for Eleanor as well being, because Mocha 400 00:19:07,760 --> 00:19:09,840 Speaker 1: will get upset if you are in the room, walking 401 00:19:09,880 --> 00:19:13,080 Speaker 1: around and doing things. If she's covered, it's scary not 402 00:19:13,240 --> 00:19:15,480 Speaker 1: being able to see what's going on. It makes sense. 403 00:19:15,480 --> 00:19:17,320 Speaker 1: It's like, hey, why am I still in the dark, 404 00:19:17,320 --> 00:19:19,399 Speaker 1: What's going on? I told her no, that Mocha was 405 00:19:19,440 --> 00:19:22,280 Speaker 1: perfectly fine and asked how she had been behaving. She 406 00:19:22,400 --> 00:19:24,480 Speaker 1: said that she had been fussy and that she had 407 00:19:25,000 --> 00:19:27,840 Speaker 1: just been ignoring her with her headphones. Why the heck 408 00:19:27,920 --> 00:19:32,080 Speaker 1: didn't you do that yesterday? Eleanor, you have solutions, but 409 00:19:32,560 --> 00:19:35,120 Speaker 1: leons are so many solutions we could we could be using. 410 00:19:35,200 --> 00:19:37,840 Speaker 1: A Few minutes later, after she left, I saw her 411 00:19:37,920 --> 00:19:40,000 Speaker 1: in her cars my bus arrived. I walk up to 412 00:19:40,080 --> 00:19:47,040 Speaker 1: the door. It was dead, silent, same condition as yesterday 413 00:19:47,240 --> 00:19:49,680 Speaker 1: where she was in the semi dark, but it was okay. However, 414 00:19:50,280 --> 00:19:52,119 Speaker 1: I noticed her pacing in her cage. 415 00:19:52,040 --> 00:19:54,320 Speaker 3: Acting she's live, She's live. 416 00:19:54,560 --> 00:19:58,240 Speaker 2: Yeah, man, I was worried. 417 00:19:58,480 --> 00:20:00,760 Speaker 1: She was pacing in her cage acting really anxious, okay, 418 00:20:00,880 --> 00:20:03,119 Speaker 1: which set me off. I had a religious group that night, 419 00:20:03,640 --> 00:20:05,520 Speaker 1: but the time Eleanor was supposed to get back was 420 00:20:05,600 --> 00:20:07,800 Speaker 1: later than my group, so I ended up going Before 421 00:20:07,800 --> 00:20:10,560 Speaker 1: I left, though, I comforted Mocha, who felt much better 422 00:20:10,640 --> 00:20:13,119 Speaker 1: after some snuggles, and I put the TV on and 423 00:20:13,240 --> 00:20:15,360 Speaker 1: colorful lights for her so she would be happy while 424 00:20:15,359 --> 00:20:17,560 Speaker 1: I was gone. I also gave her some treats so 425 00:20:17,840 --> 00:20:20,920 Speaker 1: she wasn't even phased when I left. I talked to 426 00:20:21,040 --> 00:20:23,480 Speaker 1: my mom the whole car ride to church because I 427 00:20:23,680 --> 00:20:26,840 Speaker 1: was an anxious mess. I just knew that Eleanor had 428 00:20:26,880 --> 00:20:29,560 Speaker 1: done something to Mocha because Mocha had never acted like that, 429 00:20:29,960 --> 00:20:31,879 Speaker 1: and I felt so selfish for going to church, but 430 00:20:32,000 --> 00:20:34,080 Speaker 1: I literally didn't know where else to turn because I 431 00:20:34,160 --> 00:20:36,840 Speaker 1: felt lost and scared. I got back a few hours 432 00:20:36,880 --> 00:20:39,080 Speaker 1: before Eleanor got home, and I just sat there and 433 00:20:39,200 --> 00:20:40,920 Speaker 1: tried to come up with a game plan for next 434 00:20:41,000 --> 00:20:43,480 Speaker 1: year because they had no idea what I was supposed 435 00:20:43,480 --> 00:20:46,200 Speaker 1: to do after the past twenty four hours. But I 436 00:20:46,440 --> 00:20:49,080 Speaker 1: needed to get Mocha out of there. I made up 437 00:20:49,119 --> 00:20:51,600 Speaker 1: my mind no matter what what, I ended up doing 438 00:20:51,680 --> 00:20:54,560 Speaker 1: living wise, Moca would never be in the apartment with 439 00:20:54,720 --> 00:20:57,440 Speaker 1: Eleanor again, because I knew in my gut that she 440 00:20:57,720 --> 00:21:01,240 Speaker 1: that something bad had transpired, because there was no other 441 00:21:01,359 --> 00:21:04,240 Speaker 1: reason that Mocha would be acting like that. So did 442 00:21:04,280 --> 00:21:04,520 Speaker 1: you do? 443 00:21:05,040 --> 00:21:07,120 Speaker 3: What did you do? Eleanor what a jodo? 444 00:21:08,000 --> 00:21:11,160 Speaker 1: The moment I saw Moca pluck a feather out after church, 445 00:21:11,680 --> 00:21:13,680 Speaker 1: I died a little bit inside because I knew I 446 00:21:13,760 --> 00:21:16,200 Speaker 1: had failed to protect my baby from that monster, which 447 00:21:16,240 --> 00:21:17,040 Speaker 1: I guess it's like a. 448 00:21:18,760 --> 00:21:19,720 Speaker 3: Set of stress, I think. 449 00:21:19,880 --> 00:21:22,800 Speaker 1: Yeah. At midnight, she cheerily came into the room and 450 00:21:22,920 --> 00:21:25,720 Speaker 1: said she needed to talk Eleanor not Mocha the bird, 451 00:21:25,840 --> 00:21:28,480 Speaker 1: and I knew exactly what she wanted to talk about. 452 00:21:28,920 --> 00:21:30,920 Speaker 1: I had called it earlier when I was talking to 453 00:21:31,040 --> 00:21:33,000 Speaker 1: my mom, that she was going to come back and 454 00:21:33,119 --> 00:21:35,280 Speaker 1: talk about how living with my bird was too much 455 00:21:35,400 --> 00:21:38,680 Speaker 1: and she couldn't do it anymore. She approached the conversation 456 00:21:38,840 --> 00:21:40,560 Speaker 1: by sitting on the opposite side of the couch and 457 00:21:40,600 --> 00:21:44,680 Speaker 1: placing several pillows in between us, okay, which I found 458 00:21:44,720 --> 00:21:47,720 Speaker 1: odd because pillows were not about to ease the blow 459 00:21:47,960 --> 00:21:51,159 Speaker 1: of the words being said during this conversation. If the 460 00:21:51,200 --> 00:21:53,879 Speaker 1: combo details are confusing. I can attach the screenshots of 461 00:21:53,920 --> 00:21:55,720 Speaker 1: what I sent to my mom, It's hard for me 462 00:21:55,840 --> 00:21:59,280 Speaker 1: to remember every little detail of the conversation because this 463 00:21:59,560 --> 00:22:02,920 Speaker 1: is when medicine for my neurological disorder had just worn 464 00:22:02,960 --> 00:22:06,680 Speaker 1: off and I was feeling incredibly sleepy and not okay. 465 00:22:06,960 --> 00:22:10,800 Speaker 1: Also shout out to Hannah Ma Hannah again donating twenty 466 00:22:10,840 --> 00:22:18,840 Speaker 1: five Bukerroonees shushes in the chat with the very Hannah 467 00:22:19,119 --> 00:22:21,359 Speaker 1: esque short, sweet to the point caption. 468 00:22:21,520 --> 00:22:26,399 Speaker 3: Mocha kind of like a Harambe esque mocha. You know, 469 00:22:26,520 --> 00:22:30,480 Speaker 3: Mocha Mocha Justice from moketect Mocha at all costs. 470 00:22:30,600 --> 00:22:33,240 Speaker 1: She started off saying that she's sorry if it's inconvenient 471 00:22:33,280 --> 00:22:35,000 Speaker 1: for me because I had a busy weekend coming up, 472 00:22:35,280 --> 00:22:37,520 Speaker 1: but she didn't want to hold in her feelings anymore 473 00:22:37,640 --> 00:22:40,040 Speaker 1: because she didn't want to be stretched out think about 474 00:22:40,080 --> 00:22:45,440 Speaker 1: the conversation all weekend so she could relax. Not a 475 00:22:45,480 --> 00:22:48,200 Speaker 1: great start. She knew I had a full workday with 476 00:22:48,480 --> 00:22:50,400 Speaker 1: both of my jobs, and I literally had my whole 477 00:22:50,440 --> 00:22:52,920 Speaker 1: weekend jam packed with work, helping a friend and getting 478 00:22:52,920 --> 00:22:55,960 Speaker 1: homework done. But apparently my feelings and well being still 479 00:22:56,160 --> 00:22:59,080 Speaker 1: don't matter. She began talking once again about how much 480 00:22:59,119 --> 00:23:01,040 Speaker 1: she hated Mocha and how she didn't think that she 481 00:23:01,080 --> 00:23:03,320 Speaker 1: could live with her again. She almost slipped up and 482 00:23:03,600 --> 00:23:08,000 Speaker 1: nearly said that she had decided after and Jolly said 483 00:23:08,040 --> 00:23:10,080 Speaker 1: something which I believe is maybe one of the two friends, 484 00:23:11,200 --> 00:23:14,119 Speaker 1: but then quickly recovered correcting herself, and she said she 485 00:23:14,320 --> 00:23:17,280 Speaker 1: knew after being in the quiet at en Jolly's house. 486 00:23:17,680 --> 00:23:20,240 Speaker 1: She said a few more things about just not liking 487 00:23:20,280 --> 00:23:22,480 Speaker 1: the noise that Mocha makes and being confused about her 488 00:23:22,560 --> 00:23:25,359 Speaker 1: yelling because I don't know why she wants my attention. 489 00:23:25,520 --> 00:23:27,440 Speaker 1: If she doesn't seem to like me, I don't know 490 00:23:27,480 --> 00:23:28,840 Speaker 1: how to comfort her. Ma'am. 491 00:23:29,119 --> 00:23:31,200 Speaker 3: She is a big old binder, big old. 492 00:23:31,040 --> 00:23:34,080 Speaker 1: Binder, and listen, Maybe she knows. Maybe Mocha knows a 493 00:23:34,119 --> 00:23:36,200 Speaker 1: few words and it's cute. Maybe Mocha can, you know, 494 00:23:36,320 --> 00:23:40,440 Speaker 1: chirp and communicate. But Mocha is a bird. Not only 495 00:23:41,080 --> 00:23:45,399 Speaker 1: are you two having problems communicating with English, Mocha at 496 00:23:45,480 --> 00:23:48,440 Speaker 1: least does not know the full English dictionary. I'm assuming 497 00:23:48,560 --> 00:23:50,280 Speaker 1: I'm like trying to figure out where're going with this. 498 00:23:51,800 --> 00:23:54,639 Speaker 1: She's like, I don't know, she just doesn't like me. 499 00:23:54,680 --> 00:23:57,400 Speaker 1: I don't know how to comfort her. You can't talk 500 00:23:57,520 --> 00:24:00,760 Speaker 1: to the bird and figure it out like it's it's 501 00:24:00,800 --> 00:24:01,120 Speaker 1: a burt. 502 00:24:01,240 --> 00:24:05,879 Speaker 2: Yeah, uh, it's a parrot, and yes you can, John Parrott. 503 00:24:06,000 --> 00:24:09,240 Speaker 1: I'm saying. I'm saying Mocha probably doesn't know. Moca can't 504 00:24:09,320 --> 00:24:12,640 Speaker 1: have a a talk you would have like with a therapist. Yeah, 505 00:24:13,240 --> 00:24:14,520 Speaker 1: am I wrong? I don't know. 506 00:24:14,720 --> 00:24:20,200 Speaker 2: No, Mocha, are you doing okay? Yes, Mocha yousside? 507 00:24:20,600 --> 00:24:24,560 Speaker 3: Yes really yeah okay. 508 00:24:25,359 --> 00:24:27,000 Speaker 1: I love your Mocha voice. Mocha. 509 00:24:27,040 --> 00:24:29,159 Speaker 2: Do you feel emotionally supported today? 510 00:24:29,680 --> 00:24:29,880 Speaker 1: Yes? 511 00:24:32,440 --> 00:24:36,880 Speaker 2: Yes, God, you know, like that's all that you can. 512 00:24:36,840 --> 00:24:40,280 Speaker 1: Have a conversation. I just want to watch freaking videos 513 00:24:41,800 --> 00:24:44,560 Speaker 1: like talking dude. They're so good at dancing with their 514 00:24:44,600 --> 00:24:47,200 Speaker 1: little heads and then it starts to dance, dude. 515 00:24:47,400 --> 00:24:48,400 Speaker 2: Parrots are fine. 516 00:24:48,840 --> 00:24:50,840 Speaker 3: I wouldn't want to live with a parrot, though, I'll be. 517 00:24:50,840 --> 00:24:53,840 Speaker 1: Honest, that's true. Yep, I live with the big Foot. 518 00:24:56,800 --> 00:25:03,480 Speaker 3: What Sam Knight, he'll stomp, Oh, he goes, Samn he goes. 519 00:25:04,080 --> 00:25:05,120 Speaker 3: It's just the hallway. 520 00:25:05,240 --> 00:25:06,280 Speaker 1: It's a big old stepper. 521 00:25:06,359 --> 00:25:06,520 Speaker 3: Yeah. 522 00:25:06,560 --> 00:25:08,080 Speaker 2: But I'm ready for this year because I need to 523 00:25:08,080 --> 00:25:10,080 Speaker 2: get up earlier. So he's gonna help me there. 524 00:25:10,000 --> 00:25:12,080 Speaker 1: We go, Wow your alarm, Yeah, I get it. 525 00:25:12,200 --> 00:25:15,639 Speaker 2: Whenever Sam gets up like yeah, we should just like 526 00:25:15,720 --> 00:25:17,199 Speaker 2: go out for a walk after that and be like, oh, 527 00:25:17,320 --> 00:25:18,359 Speaker 2: roll up, let's do it. 528 00:25:18,440 --> 00:25:19,399 Speaker 3: That's what Sam and I've been doing. 529 00:25:19,640 --> 00:25:20,160 Speaker 2: That's cute. 530 00:25:20,359 --> 00:25:22,040 Speaker 1: That's cute. Now, I don't know why she wants my 531 00:25:22,080 --> 00:25:24,000 Speaker 1: full attention if, just like me, I don't know how 532 00:25:24,040 --> 00:25:26,920 Speaker 1: to comfort her. This part really ticks me off. Ticked 533 00:25:26,960 --> 00:25:29,399 Speaker 1: me the heck off because, like I said earlier, I 534 00:25:29,480 --> 00:25:31,480 Speaker 1: made it very clear what would help, and she made 535 00:25:31,480 --> 00:25:33,480 Speaker 1: it very clear that she was not willing to do that. 536 00:25:34,160 --> 00:25:36,399 Speaker 1: She then prodded me to respond, and I told her 537 00:25:36,520 --> 00:25:38,840 Speaker 1: that I wasn't comfortable saying anything right in that moment 538 00:25:39,119 --> 00:25:41,000 Speaker 1: because I have a lot of emotions going through my 539 00:25:41,080 --> 00:25:42,680 Speaker 1: head and I don't want to say anything that I 540 00:25:42,760 --> 00:25:46,240 Speaker 1: will regret that will make God unhappy, not for the 541 00:25:46,320 --> 00:25:47,080 Speaker 1: good Man upstairs. 542 00:25:47,920 --> 00:25:50,200 Speaker 3: I mean, op, he's religious because she went to a 543 00:25:50,680 --> 00:25:51,400 Speaker 3: religious event. 544 00:25:51,600 --> 00:25:55,080 Speaker 1: That's true. Also that I kind of like saying, like, 545 00:25:55,320 --> 00:25:56,800 Speaker 1: I don't want to say anything that would make God 546 00:25:56,840 --> 00:25:58,159 Speaker 1: unhappy right now, that's. 547 00:25:58,080 --> 00:26:00,480 Speaker 3: Just gonna be in If I keep speaking, can I'll 548 00:26:00,600 --> 00:26:01,720 Speaker 3: upset the Good Lord? 549 00:26:01,920 --> 00:26:05,320 Speaker 2: So I'm gonna shut them out use the Good Lord's 550 00:26:05,359 --> 00:26:05,880 Speaker 2: name in vain. 551 00:26:06,400 --> 00:26:06,520 Speaker 3: Now. 552 00:26:06,600 --> 00:26:09,320 Speaker 1: She kept prying, and there were a few other things said. 553 00:26:09,760 --> 00:26:11,920 Speaker 1: She kept prying about my thoughts, and I made a 554 00:26:11,960 --> 00:26:14,240 Speaker 1: few comments that I'm not particularly proud of because I 555 00:26:14,320 --> 00:26:16,560 Speaker 1: was extremely irritated and felt concerned. 556 00:26:17,680 --> 00:26:21,240 Speaker 2: She brought up her previous point, what not concerned? 557 00:26:21,320 --> 00:26:21,639 Speaker 3: Cornered? 558 00:26:26,040 --> 00:26:28,240 Speaker 1: She kept crying about my thoughts, and I made a 559 00:26:28,280 --> 00:26:31,520 Speaker 1: few comments that I'm not particularly proud of because I 560 00:26:31,680 --> 00:26:36,399 Speaker 1: was extremely irritated and felt cornered. True, And here I 561 00:26:36,640 --> 00:26:40,320 Speaker 1: was thinking, Sophia was like, oh yeah, she's like cornered. 562 00:26:40,359 --> 00:26:47,000 Speaker 1: I'm like, you're so right, like exactly almost like literally 563 00:26:47,080 --> 00:26:49,680 Speaker 1: said that. Then I literally couldn't comprehend it enough to 564 00:26:49,840 --> 00:26:53,040 Speaker 1: read the word right. Well, she brought up her previous 565 00:26:53,119 --> 00:26:55,640 Speaker 1: point about Mocha not liking her stuff, and she said 566 00:26:55,680 --> 00:26:58,440 Speaker 1: she was fine with Mocha staying for the semester since 567 00:26:58,480 --> 00:27:02,080 Speaker 1: she agreed to it Mocha injustice, but she didn't want 568 00:27:02,119 --> 00:27:05,840 Speaker 1: to live with her next year. My petty, spiteful booty 569 00:27:06,280 --> 00:27:09,159 Speaker 1: clapped back with, well, I've tried telling you ways to 570 00:27:09,200 --> 00:27:11,600 Speaker 1: calm her down, but you said you weren't interested in 571 00:27:11,640 --> 00:27:14,399 Speaker 1: calming her down, So I don't know what to tell you. Luckily, 572 00:27:14,560 --> 00:27:16,680 Speaker 1: you don't have to worry about her anymore because I 573 00:27:16,800 --> 00:27:20,720 Speaker 1: will be taking Mocha home tomorrow and she will not 574 00:27:20,840 --> 00:27:23,479 Speaker 1: be returning. I'm not sure what happened, but she has 575 00:27:23,520 --> 00:27:25,680 Speaker 1: been acting anxious and scared, and I can visibly see 576 00:27:25,800 --> 00:27:28,280 Speaker 1: she is picking up on the tension and hatred when 577 00:27:28,400 --> 00:27:31,359 Speaker 1: you walk in the room. I understand she's a bird, 578 00:27:31,800 --> 00:27:34,760 Speaker 1: but she can pick up on negativity and hostility because 579 00:27:34,800 --> 00:27:38,960 Speaker 1: it's in your body language. We're not done yet. Every 580 00:27:39,000 --> 00:27:41,719 Speaker 1: time you address her or speak to her, you're negative 581 00:27:41,760 --> 00:27:43,560 Speaker 1: in act cold, and I don't want her in an 582 00:27:43,680 --> 00:27:46,400 Speaker 1: environment where she feels that way. I also can tell 583 00:27:46,480 --> 00:27:49,080 Speaker 1: something happened this week, and I'm not sure what, but 584 00:27:49,200 --> 00:27:51,800 Speaker 1: obviously she isn't safe here. Therefore, I will be taking 585 00:27:51,840 --> 00:27:54,640 Speaker 1: her home because I'm not comfortable. I'm not awake, I'm 586 00:27:54,720 --> 00:27:57,479 Speaker 1: not feeling good because I am not comfortable with her 587 00:27:57,560 --> 00:28:00,560 Speaker 1: being here anymore. I am looking for other opportunities for apartments, 588 00:28:00,600 --> 00:28:02,320 Speaker 1: and I have had several people offer to live with 589 00:28:02,400 --> 00:28:05,200 Speaker 1: me next semester, and I will be looking into living 590 00:28:05,280 --> 00:28:12,000 Speaker 1: with them because obviously this isn't working. Oh freaking drum. 591 00:28:13,400 --> 00:28:16,520 Speaker 1: I mean Honestly, everything Opie said was great. I felt like, 592 00:28:16,760 --> 00:28:18,680 Speaker 1: what do you think, like it was there anything that 593 00:28:18,840 --> 00:28:22,359 Speaker 1: was communicated to harshly or crossing the line or anything. 594 00:28:22,960 --> 00:28:26,639 Speaker 3: Hmmm, I don't think so. 595 00:28:27,119 --> 00:28:30,720 Speaker 1: Yeah, right, I don't think so. Like the only thing 596 00:28:31,280 --> 00:28:34,000 Speaker 1: wrong about this is she's gonna be like, you are 597 00:28:34,119 --> 00:28:35,040 Speaker 1: ruining my schedule. 598 00:28:35,240 --> 00:28:37,119 Speaker 3: Yeah, that's it all comes down to the schedule. 599 00:28:37,359 --> 00:28:40,959 Speaker 1: It's it's it's she's just going to have a completely stupid, 600 00:28:41,040 --> 00:28:44,000 Speaker 1: completely unnecessary overreaction Eleanor is. 601 00:28:44,360 --> 00:28:46,360 Speaker 3: Yeah, but she was gonna have that regardless of whether 602 00:28:46,440 --> 00:28:47,920 Speaker 3: or not you brought this up. So I feel like 603 00:28:48,120 --> 00:28:49,920 Speaker 3: just getting this off your chest and being like, you 604 00:28:49,960 --> 00:28:53,160 Speaker 3: know what, we're not living together, don't worry, like, because 605 00:28:53,200 --> 00:28:55,000 Speaker 3: I think the whole time Eleanor has been like I 606 00:28:55,080 --> 00:28:56,680 Speaker 3: don't want to live another year with a parent, blah 607 00:28:56,720 --> 00:28:58,800 Speaker 3: blah blah blah blah blah, and he's like, don't you 608 00:28:58,920 --> 00:28:59,960 Speaker 3: freaking worry you won't. 609 00:29:00,280 --> 00:29:02,880 Speaker 1: Yeah, Like, honestly, great communication on this part. Like I 610 00:29:02,920 --> 00:29:06,040 Speaker 1: feel like she broke down everything without making the big 611 00:29:06,080 --> 00:29:08,640 Speaker 1: man upstairs man if I do say so myself. She 612 00:29:08,720 --> 00:29:10,960 Speaker 1: then chimed in with the fact that she understands that 613 00:29:11,080 --> 00:29:14,000 Speaker 1: I have that I have to obviously consider my mental 614 00:29:14,080 --> 00:29:16,320 Speaker 1: health and stuff when it comes to next year, and 615 00:29:16,680 --> 00:29:19,120 Speaker 1: I cut in that I am going to be concerned 616 00:29:19,160 --> 00:29:21,000 Speaker 1: about the well being of my bird as well. If 617 00:29:21,040 --> 00:29:22,880 Speaker 1: it comes to picking between you and my bird, I 618 00:29:22,960 --> 00:29:25,640 Speaker 1: will pick my bird ten times out of ten because 619 00:29:25,680 --> 00:29:28,320 Speaker 1: she has done more for me than most people ever have. 620 00:29:29,400 --> 00:29:32,200 Speaker 1: As we've discussed before, she's a huge part of my therapy, 621 00:29:32,360 --> 00:29:35,200 Speaker 1: hence why she's registered as my emotional support animal, and 622 00:29:35,400 --> 00:29:38,400 Speaker 1: as I've told you, has literally been the one to 623 00:29:38,520 --> 00:29:41,840 Speaker 1: snap me out of it when I have self harming thoughts. 624 00:29:42,080 --> 00:29:44,720 Speaker 1: She is my priority and will always be my priority. 625 00:29:44,880 --> 00:29:45,680 Speaker 1: Elinor try. 626 00:29:47,760 --> 00:29:53,760 Speaker 3: Just like hey, hey happy yeah happy happy wers mo 627 00:29:54,000 --> 00:29:57,840 Speaker 3: happy mo happy. He's like I'm cured. 628 00:29:59,520 --> 00:30:03,440 Speaker 1: Boom. Same mocas the girl. Honestly, Moca's the best, like 629 00:30:03,560 --> 00:30:06,360 Speaker 1: Mocha's the Goda. Mocha is a Goda. She kind of 630 00:30:06,360 --> 00:30:09,200 Speaker 1: got teary after that, Eleanor did, and I definitely went 631 00:30:09,240 --> 00:30:11,960 Speaker 1: a little far. But after three minutes of continuous prying 632 00:30:12,040 --> 00:30:14,680 Speaker 1: and me telling her that I wasn't ready, I just snapped. 633 00:30:15,080 --> 00:30:17,400 Speaker 1: She then nodded her head and tried reassuring me that 634 00:30:17,520 --> 00:30:19,840 Speaker 1: she wouldn't do anything to Mocha and that she's not 635 00:30:19,960 --> 00:30:22,600 Speaker 1: sure what happened, and I responded with a very clearly 636 00:30:22,680 --> 00:30:23,840 Speaker 1: sarcastic I trust you. 637 00:30:24,840 --> 00:30:27,480 Speaker 3: I trust you. It sounds like doesn't trust them. 638 00:30:27,560 --> 00:30:29,440 Speaker 1: I agree if I were to read into that, if 639 00:30:29,480 --> 00:30:31,000 Speaker 1: I were to read into the part where she said 640 00:30:31,400 --> 00:30:34,200 Speaker 1: I said it sarcastically, yeah, I would have to agree 641 00:30:34,200 --> 00:30:37,320 Speaker 1: with you. Syvia, thank you. Astute observation would shut her 642 00:30:37,400 --> 00:30:39,440 Speaker 1: up for a minute, because she knew I didn't trust 643 00:30:39,520 --> 00:30:43,280 Speaker 1: her at no way. She mentioned she understood about the 644 00:30:43,320 --> 00:30:45,160 Speaker 1: whole living thing, and I told her that I would 645 00:30:45,240 --> 00:30:47,760 Speaker 1: much rather live with Mocha instead because I'm tired of 646 00:30:47,840 --> 00:30:51,120 Speaker 1: the constant drama and I'm emotionally exhausted because no matter 647 00:30:51,280 --> 00:30:54,640 Speaker 1: what I do, it's always something which is absolute facts. 648 00:30:55,200 --> 00:30:56,920 Speaker 1: She tried to wash a dish and make your brownies, 649 00:30:56,920 --> 00:30:58,320 Speaker 1: and you go off on her. Come on, though, she 650 00:30:58,480 --> 00:31:01,280 Speaker 1: said she she understod and I told her that it 651 00:31:01,320 --> 00:31:04,680 Speaker 1: didn't matter because by Mocha no longer being at the apartment, 652 00:31:04,760 --> 00:31:07,000 Speaker 1: there was nothing keeping me at the apartment. So don't 653 00:31:07,000 --> 00:31:08,920 Speaker 1: expect me to be there because I won't be there. 654 00:31:09,160 --> 00:31:15,160 Speaker 1: Is op at this very moment, at this point, twisting 655 00:31:15,440 --> 00:31:17,920 Speaker 1: the knife kicking her while her down just a little, 656 00:31:18,440 --> 00:31:19,560 Speaker 1: just a little bit. 657 00:31:19,960 --> 00:31:23,120 Speaker 3: M I feel like she's probably just like so fed 658 00:31:23,200 --> 00:31:24,360 Speaker 3: up and it's all kind of coming out. 659 00:31:25,760 --> 00:31:27,240 Speaker 1: I think you're right. I think you're right. I think 660 00:31:27,280 --> 00:31:29,840 Speaker 1: it's it's so pent up. And while she might be 661 00:31:30,920 --> 00:31:34,200 Speaker 1: seemingly reasonable now that she's not really so. The apartment 662 00:31:34,360 --> 00:31:36,520 Speaker 1: was no longer a home space to be without Mocha 663 00:31:36,640 --> 00:31:38,880 Speaker 1: because all she ever does is ignore me and get 664 00:31:38,920 --> 00:31:40,800 Speaker 1: mad at me when I try to have social time. 665 00:31:41,120 --> 00:31:43,520 Speaker 1: When we talked about moving into the apartment, we talked 666 00:31:43,560 --> 00:31:46,280 Speaker 1: about having times where we did homework and watched movies 667 00:31:46,360 --> 00:31:49,080 Speaker 1: and stuff together. But all she wants to do nowadays 668 00:31:49,320 --> 00:31:52,960 Speaker 1: is ignore me. It's her favorite hobby apparently. So don't 669 00:31:53,000 --> 00:31:55,680 Speaker 1: expect me to just sit around and be isolated. Yeah, 670 00:31:55,720 --> 00:31:57,240 Speaker 1: you can't. Can't expect me to just sit on my 671 00:31:57,360 --> 00:32:00,800 Speaker 1: freaking booty, my moody, not lift my life just because 672 00:32:00,800 --> 00:32:03,600 Speaker 1: you want to your favorite hobby. That gating me. Yeah. 673 00:32:03,600 --> 00:32:08,080 Speaker 1: A schedule, Yeah, from her schedule is wake up at 674 00:32:08,200 --> 00:32:11,080 Speaker 1: eight am, wake up eight oh one am, ignore op, 675 00:32:12,120 --> 00:32:15,200 Speaker 1: keep doing that twelve pm. It's like, stop. 676 00:32:14,960 --> 00:32:17,800 Speaker 3: Ignoring schedule, you know, like in the movie The Grange. 677 00:32:17,960 --> 00:32:21,440 Speaker 3: Have you seen the Grange carry version right yays like 678 00:32:22,560 --> 00:32:27,800 Speaker 3: wake up and breakfast, two pm, wallow in self pity. Yes, 679 00:32:28,280 --> 00:32:28,920 Speaker 3: that's that's. 680 00:32:28,840 --> 00:32:30,920 Speaker 1: Eleanor has literally Eleanor's schedule. 681 00:32:31,040 --> 00:32:32,040 Speaker 2: Though that was. 682 00:32:33,520 --> 00:32:35,440 Speaker 1: Great reference. I told her that I grew up in 683 00:32:35,480 --> 00:32:37,160 Speaker 1: a loving home where we spent a lot of quality 684 00:32:37,200 --> 00:32:39,640 Speaker 1: time together eight meals, watch movies, or just did our 685 00:32:39,680 --> 00:32:42,000 Speaker 1: separate things in the same space so we could all 686 00:32:42,040 --> 00:32:44,040 Speaker 1: still be together. I'm not used to the silence and 687 00:32:44,120 --> 00:32:46,160 Speaker 1: being isolated in my own home, so I'm not just 688 00:32:46,240 --> 00:32:48,880 Speaker 1: gonna sit in the apartment to be ignored and yell that. 689 00:32:49,720 --> 00:32:51,640 Speaker 1: I definitely at one point added that if she wants 690 00:32:51,680 --> 00:32:55,640 Speaker 1: to isolate herself, that's fine, but I was done, okay. 691 00:32:55,760 --> 00:32:58,800 Speaker 1: She then finally understood that I was too irritated to 692 00:32:58,840 --> 00:33:01,280 Speaker 1: be polite and asked me if I wanted space. So 693 00:33:01,480 --> 00:33:03,960 Speaker 1: nice of you to consider my feelings after stating them 694 00:33:04,040 --> 00:33:06,600 Speaker 1: for the sixth time in this conversation, She then said 695 00:33:06,640 --> 00:33:11,640 Speaker 1: that she loved me, which I scoffed, whoa, because no 696 00:33:11,720 --> 00:33:13,880 Speaker 1: one who loves somebody would treat them the way that 697 00:33:13,960 --> 00:33:14,920 Speaker 1: she's treated me this semester. 698 00:33:15,160 --> 00:33:18,320 Speaker 3: That's true. I'm reading this book by Belle Hooks All 699 00:33:18,320 --> 00:33:21,480 Speaker 3: about love, and she says abuse and love cannot co exist. 700 00:33:21,920 --> 00:33:25,920 Speaker 1: That is a very true statement, bar bars bores. She 701 00:33:26,040 --> 00:33:28,640 Speaker 1: then said she loved me again, and I dryly set 702 00:33:28,680 --> 00:33:33,560 Speaker 1: it back. I love you. She then walked out of 703 00:33:33,600 --> 00:33:35,440 Speaker 1: the room and went to sleep immediately, while I was 704 00:33:35,480 --> 00:33:37,480 Speaker 1: stuck crying and staring at the ceiling for an hour 705 00:33:37,520 --> 00:33:40,040 Speaker 1: and a half. Because I was so upset and lost, 706 00:33:40,240 --> 00:33:43,080 Speaker 1: I went to the room, grabbed my pajamas in my blanket, 707 00:33:43,160 --> 00:33:45,720 Speaker 1: and slept on the couch because Moco was really anxious. 708 00:33:45,800 --> 00:33:48,880 Speaker 1: Oh she's like sleeping near Moco? Do you give her comfort? Yeah, 709 00:33:49,360 --> 00:33:51,760 Speaker 1: I guess, I guess you probably can't move, maybe the 710 00:33:52,640 --> 00:33:54,040 Speaker 1: cage is too heavy to bring it to a room 711 00:33:54,080 --> 00:33:57,440 Speaker 1: or something. Yet also comforting me and being present. I 712 00:33:57,560 --> 00:34:00,080 Speaker 1: texted my mom about everything and was so lost. I 713 00:34:00,160 --> 00:34:04,160 Speaker 1: turned to my Bible, which ended up on Ephesians four 714 00:34:04,280 --> 00:34:06,720 Speaker 1: twenty six through twenty seven. Did I say that right, Riley, 715 00:34:07,080 --> 00:34:09,880 Speaker 1: a motivational verse that talks about not letting your anger 716 00:34:09,960 --> 00:34:12,640 Speaker 1: win and giving the devil a foothold. Not today, Satan, 717 00:34:12,800 --> 00:34:15,360 Speaker 1: Me and Mocha are on the case. I ended up 718 00:34:15,400 --> 00:34:17,799 Speaker 1: praying for like thirty minutes and put Mocha to bed. 719 00:34:18,120 --> 00:34:20,600 Speaker 1: I didn't end up falling asleep until three on the couch, 720 00:34:20,680 --> 00:34:22,800 Speaker 1: and woke up roughly twenty minutes in the span of 721 00:34:22,920 --> 00:34:23,440 Speaker 1: three hours.