WEBVTT - Kat Dennings 0:00:07.480 --> 0:00:24.680 I'll seeks all that's okay, becaus no one here. 0:00:24.680 --> 0:00:30.400 It is hello, and welcome to another week of teen Beat. 0:00:30.520 --> 0:00:35.480 I'm Danielle Fischel, podcaster, TV director, celebrity ballroom dancer, mother 0:00:35.560 --> 0:00:39.720 of two, and one half of Coryantopanga dot Com, a 0:00:39.800 --> 0:00:43.160 website made by ABC when I was eighteen years old 0:00:43.440 --> 0:00:47.879 for viewers to RSVP to my fictional televised wedding, and, 0:00:48.040 --> 0:00:51.440 in addition to the website, my entire teenage existence from 0:00:51.479 --> 0:00:54.520 twelve to nineteen years old unfolded in front of a 0:00:54.560 --> 0:00:58.440 live studio audience and millions of viewers at home. Whether 0:00:58.480 --> 0:01:01.160 it was my first kiss or my first haircut, pop 0:01:01.200 --> 0:01:04.920 culture saw it all, So now thirty years later, it's 0:01:04.959 --> 0:01:08.160 time to turn the tables. My goal here on Teenbeat 0:01:08.280 --> 0:01:11.320 is to sit down with interesting people who have accomplished 0:01:11.360 --> 0:01:16.199 interesting things, in hopes that learning about their untelevised upbringings 0:01:16.400 --> 0:01:20.120 will help us understand who they've become. Since their journey 0:01:20.160 --> 0:01:23.520 through puberty wasn't detailed in issues of TV Guide, the 0:01:23.600 --> 0:01:25.680 least they can do is share it with me. Now 0:01:26.240 --> 0:01:29.160 I gave you my childhood, it's time we hear yours. 0:01:30.000 --> 0:01:33.800 And this week I think I've found the perfect guest, 0:01:34.200 --> 0:01:37.319 like those little gold necklaces that say your name incursive. 0:01:37.760 --> 0:01:40.280 She was first seen on Sex in the City, but 0:01:40.400 --> 0:01:44.120 since that debut, this youngest of five children has never 0:01:44.200 --> 0:01:47.400 stopped working. Whether it was a scene stealing turn in 0:01:47.440 --> 0:01:50.280 The Forty year Old Virgin or the charming rom com 0:01:50.400 --> 0:01:54.160 lead in Nick and Nora's Infinite Playlist, she quickly became 0:01:54.240 --> 0:01:59.120 the actress everyone noticed, so Hollywood responded. She'd appear on 0:01:59.160 --> 0:02:02.000 TV sets for six seasons as Max Black on the 0:02:02.080 --> 0:02:05.520 hit CBS sitcom Two Broke Girls. Then, thanks to the 0:02:05.600 --> 0:02:09.480 Thor Movies and WandaVision, she became my favorite part of 0:02:09.520 --> 0:02:15.640 the Marvel universe, only behind Babygroot. Shouts to Babygroot, throw 0:02:15.680 --> 0:02:19.440 in the house, Bunny, Dollface, big Mouth, and her current 0:02:19.520 --> 0:02:23.440 gig starring alongside the grunting genius of Tim Allen on 0:02:23.560 --> 0:02:27.079 ABC's Shifting Gears, a show that just returned to its 0:02:27.120 --> 0:02:30.640 second season and features more cars than all of the 0:02:30.639 --> 0:02:34.080 Fast and Furious movies combined, And you've got a bona 0:02:34.120 --> 0:02:37.920 fide star. Sure, she is effortlessly cool and has the 0:02:37.960 --> 0:02:41.160 complexion of an eighteenth century portrait of a Nepo baby. 0:02:41.200 --> 0:02:45.440 But I have the feeling that deep down somewhere inside 0:02:45.840 --> 0:02:50.160 is a cringe friendly teenager ready to break out and reminisce. 0:02:50.960 --> 0:02:55.360 Please welcome to the podcast one of my absolute favorite 0:02:55.440 --> 0:02:58.760 human beings, because keep in mind, Babygroot is an alien tree. 0:02:59.360 --> 0:03:01.000 Cat Dennings. 0:03:01.960 --> 0:03:06.560 Wow, I when I die, will you please? You'll drive me? 0:03:07.120 --> 0:03:10.399 I will, I will, but I hope I die before you. 0:03:10.400 --> 0:03:13.680 No, I refuse. Wow. Thank you? Was that made me 0:03:13.720 --> 0:03:15.440 feel very accomplished. 0:03:15.639 --> 0:03:21.120 Well you are. You are spectacular. And when we first 0:03:21.160 --> 0:03:24.400 worked together, I had the honor of directing an episode 0:03:24.400 --> 0:03:28.400 of Shifting Gears during the first season and I literally 0:03:28.800 --> 0:03:32.000 came home to my husband and thought, it's going to 0:03:32.040 --> 0:03:34.640 be awkward to tell him that I have fallen in 0:03:34.639 --> 0:03:37.240 love with Cat Dennings. It's just it's going to be awkward. 0:03:37.280 --> 0:03:40.640 I'm not going to be And I felt so like scary. 0:03:40.800 --> 0:03:43.200 I was like, no, you don't understand. I want to 0:03:43.240 --> 0:03:45.800 be her friend for life, Like I just I want 0:03:45.800 --> 0:03:47.960 to spend all my time with her. And then at 0:03:47.960 --> 0:03:50.760 some point during the week, I just told you that 0:03:50.960 --> 0:03:55.040 story and you were like, I had the same conversation 0:03:55.160 --> 0:03:56.160 with my husband. 0:03:56.760 --> 0:04:03.000 I the love was instant. Look, there are multiple soulmates 0:04:03.000 --> 0:04:03.600 in this world. 0:04:03.720 --> 0:04:05.360 Uh huh, you are one of them. 0:04:05.360 --> 0:04:10.400 For me, Okay, like, yes, you're you for those listening 0:04:10.400 --> 0:04:15.560 and watching. You know, Danielle already. But the light and 0:04:15.600 --> 0:04:19.920 the beauty emanating from all when you stand in Forever, 0:04:20.120 --> 0:04:25.000 it is crazy. You're so I mean, you're more than 0:04:25.160 --> 0:04:30.240 just beautiful, but like the beauty is annoyingly intense. It's 0:04:30.320 --> 0:04:31.919 so unfair that. 0:04:32.800 --> 0:04:35.680 Oh my gosh, look who's talking. No, seriously, love. 0:04:36.000 --> 0:04:39.840 And may I say, what a director, what a director 0:04:39.880 --> 0:04:40.200 you are? 0:04:40.560 --> 0:04:41.440 Thank you. 0:04:41.440 --> 0:04:47.840 You obviously grew up doing multiicam, but not everyone absorbs yea, 0:04:48.400 --> 0:04:53.080 and not everybody can take like the best version of 0:04:53.200 --> 0:04:57.760 multiicam and execute it like that. You're just You're wonderful. 0:04:57.839 --> 0:05:02.160 You're wonderful, wonderful person, gorgeous. 0:05:02.320 --> 0:05:06.080 It's very unfair, very listen, I feel all those exact 0:05:06.120 --> 0:05:09.680 same ways about you, except you are also an incredibly 0:05:09.839 --> 0:05:13.400 talented actor, and I don't have that you. I mean, 0:05:13.960 --> 0:05:16.839 I watch you. No, I really don't you think. No, 0:05:17.400 --> 0:05:20.880 this isn't about me, but I know you are. Everyone. 0:05:21.040 --> 0:05:23.560 By the way, everyone coming into the show, coming into 0:05:23.600 --> 0:05:28.520 direct shifting gears, literally every person on set says, oh, 0:05:28.720 --> 0:05:31.960 just wait till you meet kat oh boy and just 0:05:32.000 --> 0:05:35.920 says everyone feels about you the way I feel about you. 0:05:35.960 --> 0:05:39.520 So it's not shocking that I feel this way about you. 0:05:39.520 --> 0:05:41.760 You're just You're a remarkable human being. And it's one 0:05:41.760 --> 0:05:44.320 of the main reasons why I wanted to sit down here, 0:05:44.360 --> 0:05:46.240 and one of the main reasons why I created this 0:05:46.279 --> 0:05:47.560 podcast so that we could hang out. 0:05:48.360 --> 0:05:52.520 Good. I'll create any podcasts you want to hang out 0:05:52.520 --> 0:05:54.279 with you. I mean, we need to just get lunch. 0:05:54.360 --> 0:05:55.760 I mean, you know that would be nice. 0:05:56.200 --> 0:05:59.960 We we This is how Hollywood is. You meet someone 0:06:00.680 --> 0:06:03.320 you really want to hang out and then life jobs 0:06:03.400 --> 0:06:06.000 this that, or in my case, you get the fluent 0:06:06.080 --> 0:06:10.039 Bronchite is fifty times exactly. Okay, But I'm going to 0:06:10.080 --> 0:06:13.200 be hanging out with you and get prepare yourself. 0:06:13.320 --> 0:06:16.640 Okay, I'm prepared. We also we both love bread too, 0:06:16.720 --> 0:06:20.360 so we did talk about having a pajama bread cheese hangout. 0:06:20.640 --> 0:06:22.800 You know what, never gave me food poisoning bread. 0:06:22.960 --> 0:06:29.080 No, exactly, thank you, You're right. Let us Okay. I 0:06:29.800 --> 0:06:31.640 want to talk about the fact that you are the 0:06:31.720 --> 0:06:36.320 baby of five kids. This must come with its own 0:06:36.480 --> 0:06:40.680 set of creating personality traits and hang ups. What is 0:06:40.720 --> 0:06:43.479 the best thing, and what is the worst thing about 0:06:43.480 --> 0:06:44.479 being the youngest of five? 0:06:45.360 --> 0:06:50.640 Well, the interesting situation with my siblings is that both 0:06:50.720 --> 0:06:54.479 my parents were married before okay, they got together, so 0:06:54.640 --> 0:06:58.040 there's a big age gap between me and my siblings. 0:06:58.560 --> 0:07:03.320 And my dad was eighteen years older than my mom. Okay, 0:07:03.600 --> 0:07:14.000 so standal. So my oldest sister, Claudia is in her sixties. 0:07:14.240 --> 0:07:16.960 Oh okay. 0:07:15.720 --> 0:07:19.960 So so my older siblings are in their fifties and 0:07:20.160 --> 0:07:21.160 early sixties. 0:07:21.520 --> 0:07:26.000 So you're talking twenty to thirty plus year age difference. 0:07:26.320 --> 0:07:29.840 Yes, So I really grew up just me and my 0:07:29.920 --> 0:07:33.200 older brother Jeff, who's seven years older. We share the 0:07:33.240 --> 0:07:37.640 same two parents. It's confusing, But so my older siblings 0:07:37.640 --> 0:07:40.080 were more of like aunts and uncle vibes because they 0:07:40.080 --> 0:07:43.960 were so much older, and so I saw them a lot, 0:07:44.040 --> 0:07:47.200 but not like in growing up in the same house. 0:07:47.240 --> 0:07:49.440 So I really never felt like I was the youngest 0:07:49.440 --> 0:07:52.440 of five in the way that maybe someone would think 0:07:52.640 --> 0:07:54.560 in the same house as their siblings. 0:07:54.640 --> 0:07:57.560 That makes sense, So it's probably probably wasn't as easy 0:07:57.600 --> 0:08:00.160 to get away with things. I was imagining. I have 0:08:00.240 --> 0:08:02.680 children under one roof and you being the youngest, and 0:08:03.040 --> 0:08:05.240 by the time the parents get to you they're just exhausted. 0:08:05.520 --> 0:08:08.680 Oh well that was true. That was true. They okay, 0:08:08.920 --> 0:08:13.120 they once I came along. You know, my brother's seven 0:08:13.200 --> 0:08:16.000 years older than me, so he's seven and out comes 0:08:16.040 --> 0:08:19.440 this little girl who's a nightmare. I mean, like from 0:08:19.440 --> 0:08:23.240 what I have been told and what I remember, I 0:08:23.560 --> 0:08:28.400 was a real tough baby. Like really yeah, so you 0:08:28.400 --> 0:08:30.840 know you think, oh, we've done this a lot of 0:08:30.960 --> 0:08:33.679 times before. We've got a lot of kids in our life. 0:08:33.679 --> 0:08:36.920 I'm sure this one will be great. No. I mean 0:08:37.320 --> 0:08:41.319 I didn't sleep through the night till I was very old. 0:08:41.800 --> 0:08:42.760 Okay, okay. 0:08:42.840 --> 0:08:48.920 I couldn't eat solid food. My my soft head thing. 0:08:48.960 --> 0:08:54.640 What are the fontinell collapsed emergency? I got like the 0:08:54.679 --> 0:08:57.400 flu as an infant. My head collapsed inward and I 0:08:57.440 --> 0:09:00.760 almost died. My fine dies, I'm fine. So like there 0:09:00.800 --> 0:09:05.000 was a lot of like baby drama. Never slept, how 0:09:05.000 --> 0:09:06.760 did nurse all the time, couldn't eat food? 0:09:07.280 --> 0:09:10.200 Just nightmare person, Oh my goodness. 0:09:11.640 --> 0:09:15.000 Yeah. And my mom said she was nauseous and barfing 0:09:15.160 --> 0:09:17.920 every single day of her pregnancy and she could only 0:09:18.000 --> 0:09:22.680 eat vanilla Hogandaw's ice cream. Which the joke is that 0:09:22.720 --> 0:09:24.600 this is why I look like this. 0:09:26.120 --> 0:09:28.959 That's where you got that gorgeous porcelain skin. It's actually 0:09:29.040 --> 0:09:30.080 Hogandaw's ice cream. 0:09:30.360 --> 0:09:35.040 Because both my parents are very dark really and brown 0:09:35.080 --> 0:09:39.000 eyes like black hair, both of them very opposite. Like, 0:09:39.080 --> 0:09:41.080 I don't know, no one knows what happened, but it 0:09:41.080 --> 0:09:42.199 could be the ice cream. 0:09:42.520 --> 0:09:44.400 Could be the ice cream. My mom also ate a 0:09:44.400 --> 0:09:46.000 lot of ice cream when she was pregnant with me. 0:09:46.080 --> 0:09:49.439 She used to she would eat the only thing she 0:09:49.480 --> 0:09:54.840 could stomach was Hormel chili from the can and ice 0:09:54.960 --> 0:09:59.040 and ice cream, So she would eat like family size 0:09:59.320 --> 0:10:04.760 Hormel chilly and then two giant scoops of ice cream 0:10:04.800 --> 0:10:06.280 that she would walk to the pharmacy together. 0:10:06.320 --> 0:10:08.720 Well, all the protein is why her hair is so good. 0:10:09.160 --> 0:10:25.320 There you go, that's probably what it is. Probably Okay, 0:10:25.480 --> 0:10:27.920 what were you When did you kind of grow out? 0:10:28.000 --> 0:10:30.319 Would you say? When did you grow out of being 0:10:30.360 --> 0:10:32.280 maybe a troublesome baby? 0:10:33.000 --> 0:10:39.600 Oh? Maybe in my twenties? I yeah, I really like 0:10:39.960 --> 0:10:45.160 absorbed all of the attention and resources from my parents 0:10:46.080 --> 0:10:48.520 until I was in my twelve really till I moved out. 0:10:48.600 --> 0:10:53.280 I'm really serious. I was a mess. My brother then 0:10:53.440 --> 0:10:57.240 became like a super intellectual and went to like an 0:10:57.240 --> 0:10:59.920 Ivy League College, went to Brown University, and like a 0:11:00.240 --> 0:11:02.280 very smart person and I'm like the dumb one who 0:11:02.360 --> 0:11:03.439 like got all the attention. 0:11:04.320 --> 0:11:04.880 It's true. 0:11:05.120 --> 0:11:09.240 I mean just a fact, just staying now. 0:11:09.400 --> 0:11:14.319 For him also, but but yeah, I really like popped 0:11:14.320 --> 0:11:18.360 out knowing that I wanted to do whatever it was 0:11:18.440 --> 0:11:23.280 that like movies are, like, wanted to be in that. 0:11:23.880 --> 0:11:25.920 How did you know did you watch a lot of 0:11:25.960 --> 0:11:27.040 movies as a young kid. 0:11:27.280 --> 0:11:29.439 Well, the weird thing is I was not allowed to 0:11:29.480 --> 0:11:32.680 watch TV unless it was like PBS, unless it was 0:11:32.720 --> 0:11:37.000 like Sherry Lewis and Plant, Tessme Treet or whatever. But 0:11:37.120 --> 0:11:40.079 like and then we could rent movies from the library 0:11:40.120 --> 0:11:40.680 back then. 0:11:40.679 --> 0:11:43.120 Kids, let me tell you about a library. 0:11:43.280 --> 0:11:48.559 Yeah, you could rent films really weird, weird, old, strange 0:11:48.600 --> 0:11:51.400 films that I was like obsessed with these random things 0:11:51.800 --> 0:11:55.280 and whatever. It was like I've thought about this a 0:11:55.320 --> 0:11:57.439 lot because I've seen this with like my little nieces 0:11:57.440 --> 0:12:00.840 and nephews and stuff. It's like that natural thing for 0:12:00.960 --> 0:12:05.240 babies and children to want to imagine and yes, like 0:12:05.600 --> 0:12:07.560 make believe in dream and things like that. And I 0:12:07.600 --> 0:12:10.679 think I just wanted to I wanted to live in 0:12:10.760 --> 0:12:14.000 that because that was like and then a movie was 0:12:14.080 --> 0:12:17.880 like the ultimate make believe dreamy thing that I was like, 0:12:17.920 --> 0:12:20.360 I don't know what this is, but I gotta do it. 0:12:20.440 --> 0:12:22.800 I'm not sure why it happened so young, but I 0:12:22.880 --> 0:12:24.160 was like, this is it. 0:12:24.440 --> 0:12:25.800 You just knew you fell to calling. 0:12:26.440 --> 0:12:27.400 Yeah. 0:12:27.440 --> 0:12:29.000 Well, I want to get to the fact that you 0:12:29.040 --> 0:12:32.680 were somehow able to convince your family to move to Hollywood. 0:12:32.679 --> 0:12:34.440 I want to get to that and how that what 0:12:34.640 --> 0:12:37.480 magic you used in order to do that. But before 0:12:37.520 --> 0:12:40.160 we do, I want to talk about that you grew 0:12:40.240 --> 0:12:45.280 up like we all did, in a historically protected house 0:12:45.440 --> 0:12:51.360 constructed in sixteen ninety five rural Pennsylvania. Or if I 0:12:51.440 --> 0:12:54.760 had a penny for every time I've heard that, can 0:12:54.800 --> 0:12:59.000 you tell our listeners a little something about penn Cottage? 0:12:59.520 --> 0:13:03.080 Oh my god, I would love to. First of all, 0:13:03.440 --> 0:13:06.959 it was haunted, as as is anything else in the 0:13:07.000 --> 0:13:11.280 way it was so haunted. It's it's a beautiful It 0:13:11.320 --> 0:13:13.760 still is there today because it's it's not legal to 0:13:14.080 --> 0:13:15.200 ever demolish it. 0:13:15.640 --> 0:13:18.400 A protected home. I love it the. 0:13:18.440 --> 0:13:21.800 Historical society because I remember that we moved in and 0:13:21.840 --> 0:13:25.320 it's just a very lovely old home. But in on 0:13:25.360 --> 0:13:27.560 the East Coast, it's not very it's not like a 0:13:27.559 --> 0:13:29.840 big deal to live in an old house. You don't really, right, 0:13:30.320 --> 0:13:33.840 But there is a stone carved thing that says like 0:13:33.920 --> 0:13:38.520 sixteen ninety five or ninety whatever insane here that could 0:13:38.559 --> 0:13:42.080 be on it. And every year the Historical Society would 0:13:42.120 --> 0:13:45.480 do a tour through the house. So but I we 0:13:45.559 --> 0:13:50.640 lived there. So I'd be like eating my like Barbera's 0:13:51.160 --> 0:13:55.080 flakes or whatever and reading Calvin and hobbson and would 0:13:55.080 --> 0:13:59.040 come like fifteen little old ladies like with pamphlets like 0:13:59.160 --> 0:14:02.040 what like looking at our house like as if it 0:14:02.080 --> 0:14:02.480 were like. 0:14:03.920 --> 0:14:05.200 Like look at this relic. 0:14:05.600 --> 0:14:09.240 Yeah. So they did that every year, and it was 0:14:09.360 --> 0:14:10.560 just hilarious. 0:14:10.800 --> 0:14:12.880 And you know it. 0:14:13.200 --> 0:14:17.360 The walls were like five feet thick, these stones, like 0:14:17.440 --> 0:14:21.760 they don't make them like that anymore. Nope. And it 0:14:21.800 --> 0:14:26.640 was it was haunted. It was haunted. There were the classics, 0:14:26.720 --> 0:14:31.000 like you know, lights turning on and off, doors opening 0:14:31.040 --> 0:14:31.800 and closing. 0:14:33.400 --> 0:14:35.760 Did you see the door opening closer? Just hear it? 0:14:36.120 --> 0:14:39.400 No, I saw that shit. There were like places on 0:14:39.440 --> 0:14:43.920 the stairs that were ice cold. There were I of 0:14:43.920 --> 0:14:44.760 course lived. 0:14:44.520 --> 0:14:45.480 In the attic. 0:14:47.360 --> 0:14:50.400 As if the Omen and all these movies. I mean, 0:14:50.400 --> 0:14:51.960 I don't know if there's an attic at the omen, 0:14:52.000 --> 0:14:54.120 but there's all these movies. There's an attic for a reason. 0:14:54.480 --> 0:14:57.560 Yea like heat the ghost rise to the top. 0:14:58.600 --> 0:15:01.480 Wait, you were like Lydia deep, Yes, like a real 0:15:01.560 --> 0:15:04.400 life Lydia dats Yeah, I. 0:15:04.720 --> 0:15:08.640 Well listen now, I did find a photo. You can 0:15:08.640 --> 0:15:10.840 tell me when the right time to show. This photo 0:15:10.920 --> 0:15:17.480 was photo that encapsulates my awkward teen Please let's see 0:15:17.480 --> 0:15:21.960 it now. I lived in the attic and it was 0:15:22.120 --> 0:15:22.720 very creepy. 0:15:23.360 --> 0:15:27.520 But speaking of teen beat, yeah. 0:15:26.880 --> 0:15:28.880 Every time i'd go to New York for an audition, 0:15:29.680 --> 0:15:33.040 I would go to the what's it called Hudson News. 0:15:33.720 --> 0:15:38.160 Hudson News up a teen beat, tiger beat. 0:15:38.600 --> 0:15:41.960 Most of what you were in. I would tear out 0:15:42.160 --> 0:15:45.479 the Jonathan Taylor Thomases, and I would tear out the Hansens, 0:15:46.000 --> 0:15:49.920 and I would paper my room with these things and 0:15:50.000 --> 0:15:54.240 your attic. Yeah, this is my room and this is me. 0:15:55.000 --> 0:16:01.120 Oh my goodness. Perhaps you see the hands in standy 0:16:01.720 --> 0:16:04.160 do standy? Yeah? 0:16:05.040 --> 0:16:08.280 Somebody? Perhaps the children don't know what that is, but 0:16:08.360 --> 0:16:08.880 I know you do. 0:16:09.320 --> 0:16:12.320 Of course I do music, and I. 0:16:12.280 --> 0:16:14.160 Can send you a better res photo of this. 0:16:14.280 --> 0:16:15.680 Yes, so we will need to post that. 0:16:17.160 --> 0:16:19.920 And I went there and they had like CDs on 0:16:19.920 --> 0:16:23.280 that thing and I was like, hey, hey, listen, were 0:16:23.320 --> 0:16:27.240 you what happens to the standy when you're done? They 0:16:27.240 --> 0:16:29.400 were like, I don't know. I was like, I am 0:16:29.440 --> 0:16:32.040 gonna need it, and they were like all right, and I. 0:16:32.000 --> 0:16:33.560 Got did they just give it to you? Or did 0:16:33.600 --> 0:16:34.200 they charge you for it? 0:16:34.240 --> 0:16:35.560 Now? They gave it to me. I think they took 0:16:35.600 --> 0:16:39.560 pity on me or they were scared, which I wouldn't understand. 0:16:39.880 --> 0:16:42.400 You're like, I need to take this handsOn hand standing to. 0:16:46.000 --> 0:16:49.440 I don't know how I got to this but from 0:16:49.440 --> 0:16:51.960 the house. But yeah, so I made this terrifying haunted 0:16:52.000 --> 0:16:53.320 house my own. Let's just say that. 0:16:54.640 --> 0:16:57.360 How did you then end up in a Hansen music 0:16:57.440 --> 0:17:01.360 video later on? And what what must have that been 0:17:01.480 --> 0:17:05.840 like for your little brain in your heart? 0:17:06.160 --> 0:17:09.560 To this day? It is probably my best, my biggest 0:17:09.600 --> 0:17:11.439 accomplishment in my career. 0:17:11.640 --> 0:17:14.880 And I'm not joking, right, it's a that's a true 0:17:14.960 --> 0:17:15.560 statement for you. 0:17:15.800 --> 0:17:18.600 This is called manifestation folk. 0:17:19.359 --> 0:17:22.720 You're right, you were doing the secret before anyone had 0:17:22.760 --> 0:17:24.040 heard of the secret. 0:17:23.760 --> 0:17:26.240 Sincroting that shit since I was he old what is 0:17:26.280 --> 0:17:26.880 this eleven? 0:17:27.040 --> 0:17:27.280 Yeah? 0:17:27.440 --> 0:17:32.479 I don't know. Okay, I was Pinteresting before Pinterest. I 0:17:32.680 --> 0:17:38.680 was vision boarding my life, my ceiling. Isaac's on my ceiling. 0:17:39.800 --> 0:17:41.359 I love that, Okay, I love that. 0:17:41.640 --> 0:17:44.320 So look, I don't know how this happened, but once 0:17:44.720 --> 0:17:49.879 Twitter rip came along, you could follow these people that 0:17:49.920 --> 0:17:53.119 you never could have access to. I mean, this is 0:17:53.200 --> 0:17:55.760 good and bad, as we know, it's very bad, but 0:17:56.359 --> 0:17:59.040 you could suddenly you could have access to the thoughts 0:17:59.040 --> 0:18:02.760 of these people. So I followed Hanson, Zack and Isaac 0:18:02.800 --> 0:18:05.159 or whoever was on there. And I think I had 0:18:05.200 --> 0:18:09.439 been quite vocal ever since I was doing interviews about 0:18:09.520 --> 0:18:10.800 how much I loved Hansen. 0:18:11.200 --> 0:18:15.720 Okay, I still listen. They're great, Yes they are. 0:18:15.880 --> 0:18:19.720 Oh look, So I had been vocal about how much 0:18:19.760 --> 0:18:22.080 I loved them many times, and I think Two Very 0:18:22.119 --> 0:18:25.760 Girls was was was popular or something at that time. 0:18:25.800 --> 0:18:29.400 So they they they saw something about it, and I 0:18:29.680 --> 0:18:34.280 straight up gotta gott a d m yes, Taylor Hanson, 0:18:35.600 --> 0:18:39.359 and he was like, hey you ever. I was like, yeah, mhm, 0:18:39.840 --> 0:18:41.960 I'll do it for I will pay you. 0:18:42.440 --> 0:18:46.560 Yeah, yeah, I will do anything you want. I will 0:18:46.560 --> 0:18:47.440 clear the calendar. 0:18:48.400 --> 0:18:51.320 I was whatever, Yes, So I got to be in 0:18:51.359 --> 0:18:56.600 a handsome music video with my friend Nikki Reid, and 0:18:57.920 --> 0:18:59.800 it was one of the best days of my life. 0:19:00.760 --> 0:19:02.960 It was so sal it was it was so surreal, 0:19:03.000 --> 0:19:05.600 and I know that you know this, but like when 0:19:05.640 --> 0:19:08.760 you're a teen, I'm just a say girl, because I 0:19:08.760 --> 0:19:10.919 don't know what it's like to not be that You're like, 0:19:11.880 --> 0:19:19.680 your obsessions are so important, Like my love for Hanson 0:19:19.760 --> 0:19:25.439 at that time was was so like important to me 0:19:25.640 --> 0:19:29.159 and they were a part of my daily existence in 0:19:29.200 --> 0:19:33.359 a really pure, precious, like sweet way. Where you know, 0:19:33.640 --> 0:19:35.960 so as an adult, you kind of like your brain 0:19:36.080 --> 0:19:40.480 finally like closes up or whatever and you like being 0:19:40.520 --> 0:19:44.280 insane or maybe not in my case, less a little 0:19:44.400 --> 0:19:47.439 less demented, not not completely, but like you know, I 0:19:47.440 --> 0:19:50.320 don't have obsessions and I don't feel the obsessions that 0:19:50.400 --> 0:19:55.200 I did as a young kid. But something like opened 0:19:55.280 --> 0:19:57.640 up in that day where I was fully able to 0:19:57.680 --> 0:20:02.640 like close the circle and like reck how like magical 0:20:02.880 --> 0:20:07.359 and and crazy. It was that like this person got 0:20:07.400 --> 0:20:10.640 to like be in a music video with them. That's 0:20:10.720 --> 0:20:14.200 just it's just nuts. And the fact that I'm sitting 0:20:14.240 --> 0:20:17.440 here talking to you is also crazy. Because I watched 0:20:17.440 --> 0:20:20.719 Boy mus World religiously. I mean it was. It's just 0:20:20.800 --> 0:20:24.879 so weird how these things happen. I mean, it's just 0:20:25.040 --> 0:20:25.959 it's it's weird. 0:20:26.960 --> 0:20:29.800 Do you think I thinking back to your The Haunted 0:20:29.840 --> 0:20:32.080 House and you talked about the fact that the ghosts 0:20:32.119 --> 0:20:35.639 were you saw, you saw doors opening and closing, and 0:20:35.640 --> 0:20:37.960 you were up in the attic and they rise. Do 0:20:38.000 --> 0:20:40.440 you think that Do you have like like a guardian 0:20:40.480 --> 0:20:45.000 angel ghost who helped you manifest all of your dreams? 0:20:45.320 --> 0:20:48.680 Oh my god, that's so interesting. I wonder. I mean 0:20:48.720 --> 0:20:52.960 I felt like specifically, and this is very wooloo everyone, 0:20:53.080 --> 0:20:57.520 but yeah, in that attic, I felt very much like 0:20:57.560 --> 0:21:00.840 there was a little boy living up there. And I 0:21:00.920 --> 0:21:02.960 know it sounds creepy, but it wasn't. It was like 0:21:03.000 --> 0:21:05.240 a sweet thing because I was a little kid and 0:21:05.320 --> 0:21:07.359 I felt like it was somebody my age up there 0:21:07.440 --> 0:21:09.240 because I had all my toys and stuff, and I 0:21:09.280 --> 0:21:13.159 would see, I don't lock me up, put me in 0:21:13.160 --> 0:21:17.200 the padded room. I would see like I had a dollhouse, 0:21:17.600 --> 0:21:20.239 and I would see like out of my peripheral, like 0:21:20.320 --> 0:21:23.720 somebody kneeling like looking into it, like playing with it. Yeah, 0:21:23.920 --> 0:21:26.680 And it didn't feel creepy. It didn't feel like scared. 0:21:26.560 --> 0:21:29.040 You weren't scared. You were just like, oh, there's someone 0:21:29.119 --> 0:21:29.960 looking in the docks. 0:21:30.040 --> 0:21:32.240 Yeah. So I felt like the presence of this little 0:21:32.280 --> 0:21:35.119 boy up there at all times. I don't know what 0:21:35.160 --> 0:21:39.199 that means. But at a house that old, lots of 0:21:39.359 --> 0:21:43.199 people died, so it was just a sweet thing. And 0:21:43.240 --> 0:21:46.280 I always I think I named him. I don't remember 0:21:46.280 --> 0:21:48.280 what it was, but it was just like that was 0:21:48.320 --> 0:21:54.560 like a constant presence. Yeah, exactly. So I don't know 0:21:55.480 --> 0:21:57.479 that would be very that would be so what if 0:21:57.520 --> 0:21:59.439 it was like Ralph, my ghost Ralph? 0:21:59.600 --> 0:22:01.640 Like, well, that's what I'm saying, Like, have you ever 0:22:02.000 --> 0:22:04.199 now Here's sorry, this is this is a wo too 0:22:04.200 --> 0:22:06.160 woo woo for everyone. Then you can just go listen 0:22:06.200 --> 0:22:09.159 to another podcast. But I love this stuff. It was 0:22:09.200 --> 0:22:13.359 his name Ralph. No, okay, I thought, I'm going, okay, 0:22:13.520 --> 0:22:16.680 have you ever felt his presence ever again? Since after 0:22:16.760 --> 0:22:19.840 leaving the house, did you ever feel anything like his 0:22:19.920 --> 0:22:20.480 presence again? 0:22:20.560 --> 0:22:23.879 No? No, I stayed with that very much like the 0:22:25.160 --> 0:22:30.160 house was contained in itself when we left. I did. However, 0:22:31.320 --> 0:22:35.800 I did feel when we were moving out or when 0:22:35.840 --> 0:22:37.919 we were leave because my mom I would leave to 0:22:37.960 --> 0:22:41.200 go to La for my work. And come back. And 0:22:41.960 --> 0:22:45.159 one of the last times we left, I felt I 0:22:45.240 --> 0:22:51.320 felt aggression towards me or leaving. And maybe I'm reading 0:22:51.320 --> 0:22:54.159 into it, but like little kids are really tuned into 0:22:54.960 --> 0:22:59.040 young people are tuned into like the veil or whatever. Huh, 0:22:59.359 --> 0:23:01.280 And so I felt like there was anger at me 0:23:01.440 --> 0:23:07.040 for like leaving for long period, right, yeah, I don't. Unfortunately, 0:23:07.080 --> 0:23:10.560 like I missed that house, the wonderful house, and I've 0:23:12.040 --> 0:23:15.560 my brother and his now wife, my sister in law 0:23:15.680 --> 0:23:18.719 one who I love. They went to look at it 0:23:18.760 --> 0:23:23.480 and found out that it is now an airbnb really 0:23:24.400 --> 0:23:27.920