1 00:00:00,040 --> 00:00:02,320 Speaker 1: Welcome in to him Breakup All Mental Wealth Podcast with 2 00:00:02,440 --> 00:00:06,400 Speaker 1: Jay Lazer. I'm Jay Glazer, back from my wedding. Feeling 3 00:00:06,440 --> 00:00:09,039 Speaker 1: great still for all you who while I was gone 4 00:00:09,240 --> 00:00:12,760 Speaker 1: tuned in and listened to the podcast with Rosie and 5 00:00:12,800 --> 00:00:15,120 Speaker 1: I and if you haven't yet, please tune in. It 6 00:00:15,240 --> 00:00:17,560 Speaker 1: was such a great journey. First of all, my wife 7 00:00:17,600 --> 00:00:20,840 Speaker 1: is so incredible for what she's done to get to 8 00:00:20,880 --> 00:00:23,239 Speaker 1: where she is in life, from a small town in 9 00:00:23,320 --> 00:00:27,440 Speaker 1: Idaho to taking over Hollywood to being a huge successful 10 00:00:27,480 --> 00:00:31,800 Speaker 1: businesswoman and now taking care of me and all my issues. 11 00:00:32,520 --> 00:00:34,400 Speaker 1: But what we've done at a later point in life 12 00:00:34,400 --> 00:00:36,360 Speaker 1: to find love is great. But let me tell you 13 00:00:36,400 --> 00:00:41,080 Speaker 1: what this did for me personally. I've always felt this 14 00:00:41,240 --> 00:00:44,839 Speaker 1: unlovable thing about me, and I've always feel like my story, 15 00:00:44,960 --> 00:00:47,879 Speaker 1: my racket in my own head has always been I 16 00:00:47,880 --> 00:00:51,199 Speaker 1: don't deserve love, I'm not worthy of it. So I 17 00:00:51,200 --> 00:00:53,840 Speaker 1: would sabotage things, and then I would get angry at 18 00:00:53,880 --> 00:00:56,640 Speaker 1: myself in the universe, even though like I know the 19 00:00:56,720 --> 00:00:59,120 Speaker 1: universe and God loves me, but I'm like, maybe there's 20 00:00:59,160 --> 00:01:01,680 Speaker 1: things in the universe against me. And that was always 21 00:01:01,720 --> 00:01:06,480 Speaker 1: my racket, and I was always at wark with myself 22 00:01:06,520 --> 00:01:10,119 Speaker 1: because of it and gang. When I finally went through 23 00:01:10,520 --> 00:01:13,640 Speaker 1: with this wedding with Rosie fifty four years of age, 24 00:01:14,360 --> 00:01:17,039 Speaker 1: I woke up the next morning, I looked at my 25 00:01:17,160 --> 00:01:21,360 Speaker 1: ring and I said to Rosie, this is literally literally 26 00:01:21,920 --> 00:01:25,679 Speaker 1: the happiest day of my entire life. I didn't know 27 00:01:25,760 --> 00:01:29,840 Speaker 1: I was capable of feeling this kind of joy. I 28 00:01:29,880 --> 00:01:31,960 Speaker 1: really didn't know I was capable of it. I've never 29 00:01:32,040 --> 00:01:34,720 Speaker 1: had this level of joy. Like I laugh a lot, 30 00:01:35,000 --> 00:01:38,280 Speaker 1: I play a lot, mess around a lot, but there's 31 00:01:38,280 --> 00:01:41,479 Speaker 1: always this thing inside me that it doesn't ever let 32 00:01:41,520 --> 00:01:45,960 Speaker 1: me feel just complete joy on a past joy. And 33 00:01:46,000 --> 00:01:50,080 Speaker 1: that's what depression does. And this day I felt so 34 00:01:50,200 --> 00:01:53,320 Speaker 1: much joy because I was able to put that story 35 00:01:53,960 --> 00:01:57,480 Speaker 1: that I always told myself to bed, that old racket 36 00:01:57,680 --> 00:02:00,360 Speaker 1: and I've been living a whole life and went to 37 00:02:00,440 --> 00:02:03,000 Speaker 1: bed and I was able to turn the page again. 38 00:02:03,440 --> 00:02:05,560 Speaker 1: It's fifty four years. There's a lot of work to 39 00:02:05,600 --> 00:02:09,240 Speaker 1: get there. And I always told everybody, like anything you 40 00:02:09,280 --> 00:02:12,240 Speaker 1: want life, find out who the best isn't doing more 41 00:02:12,240 --> 00:02:14,560 Speaker 1: than them. I think I did more than anybody to 42 00:02:14,639 --> 00:02:16,680 Speaker 1: get to this point. Like I worked my butt off 43 00:02:16,919 --> 00:02:20,239 Speaker 1: to constantly work, and I'm still very flawed. I still 44 00:02:20,280 --> 00:02:22,679 Speaker 1: have a lot of issues and still go through them, 45 00:02:22,960 --> 00:02:25,839 Speaker 1: but now I can communicate too Rosie how to help 46 00:02:25,919 --> 00:02:28,640 Speaker 1: me through them. I hope when I have my grade 47 00:02:28,880 --> 00:02:31,480 Speaker 1: is they don't last as long as they did in 48 00:02:31,520 --> 00:02:34,840 Speaker 1: the past, but if they did, I know how to 49 00:02:34,840 --> 00:02:37,560 Speaker 1: fight them a little bit better. But at least that 50 00:02:37,760 --> 00:02:40,280 Speaker 1: racket that I always told myself if there were things 51 00:02:40,320 --> 00:02:43,600 Speaker 1: against me that were preventing me from having love, They're 52 00:02:43,639 --> 00:02:45,960 Speaker 1: done and over. And I'm so glad I didn't give 53 00:02:46,040 --> 00:02:50,640 Speaker 1: up or quit before these fifty four years. When I 54 00:02:50,680 --> 00:02:53,760 Speaker 1: get to this spot in this fifty fourth year of 55 00:02:53,760 --> 00:02:57,480 Speaker 1: my life, because now I get to feel this level 56 00:02:57,480 --> 00:03:01,480 Speaker 1: of joy I just didn't know was ever possis. I 57 00:03:01,520 --> 00:03:04,000 Speaker 1: hope this propels me to be a better person. Hope 58 00:03:04,040 --> 00:03:05,840 Speaker 1: it propels me to be able to help more people. 59 00:03:06,400 --> 00:03:09,600 Speaker 1: I hope it propels Rosie and I to be able 60 00:03:09,639 --> 00:03:11,600 Speaker 1: to give advice and teach others how to find love 61 00:03:11,720 --> 00:03:14,160 Speaker 1: later in life. I never thought I could be in 62 00:03:14,200 --> 00:03:17,360 Speaker 1: that position. But I started my career as an NFL 63 00:03:17,560 --> 00:03:19,920 Speaker 1: reporter and I was fighting at the time, and you know, 64 00:03:20,160 --> 00:03:23,240 Speaker 1: continue to be an NFL insider and mixed martial arts 65 00:03:23,240 --> 00:03:26,480 Speaker 1: and you know, wrestle box mixed martial arts, fought and 66 00:03:26,520 --> 00:03:29,560 Speaker 1: hosted the MMA World and never expect that I would 67 00:03:29,560 --> 00:03:32,639 Speaker 1: doesn't shift to help people with mental health, but give 68 00:03:32,680 --> 00:03:35,480 Speaker 1: advice about how to find love. Certainly didn't expect that. 69 00:03:36,000 --> 00:03:38,080 Speaker 1: But I've been through those battles and those wars of 70 00:03:38,600 --> 00:03:42,040 Speaker 1: the emotions of what they tell you. So I am happy. 71 00:03:42,320 --> 00:03:45,800 Speaker 1: I'm still really enjoying life. We're going to continue to 72 00:03:45,840 --> 00:03:50,240 Speaker 1: try to feel like we're on our honeymoon surely forever, 73 00:03:50,560 --> 00:03:53,040 Speaker 1: for these next two months until the NFL season starts 74 00:03:53,120 --> 00:03:55,640 Speaker 1: up again. So I appreciate you all on this journey 75 00:03:55,640 --> 00:03:58,480 Speaker 1: with me. I am squarely in the blue, and it's 76 00:03:58,480 --> 00:04:00,760 Speaker 1: a different type of blue than I've ever felt. Let's 77 00:04:00,840 --> 00:04:01,960 Speaker 1: keep walking this walk together.