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Speaker 1: Welcome to the Good Stuff. I'm Jacob Shick and I'm

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Speaker 1: joined by my co host and wife, Ashley Shake.

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Speaker 2: Jake is a third generation combat Marine and I'm a

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Speaker 2: gold Star granddaughter. We work together to serve military veterans,

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Speaker 2: first responders, frontline healthcare workers, and their families with mental

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Speaker 2: and emotional wellness through traditional and non traditional therapy. At

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Speaker 2: One Tribe Foundation, we.

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Speaker 1: Believe everyone has a story to tell, not only about

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Speaker 1: the peaks, but also the valleys they've been through to

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Speaker 1: get them to where they are today.

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Speaker 2: Each week, we invite a guest to tell us their story,

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Speaker 2: to share with us the lessons they've learned that shaped

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Speaker 2: who they are and what they're doing to pay it

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Speaker 2: forward and give back.

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Speaker 1: Our mission with this show is to dig deep into

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Speaker 1: our guest journey so that we can celebrate the hope

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Speaker 1: and inspiration their story has to offer.

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Speaker 2: We're thrilled your joining us again.

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Speaker 1: Welcome to the Good Stuff.

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Speaker 2: Our guest today is Jennifer Seidner Johnson, who's an incredible lady.

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Speaker 2: She's a great friend, and she's an executive at Torchies

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Speaker 2: Tacos's Best. Today She's here to tell us her story

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Speaker 2: and the story of her late husband, West Point grad

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Speaker 1: This is the heroing tale of the night Jennifer survived

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Speaker 1: being shot six times by her husband when he had

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Speaker 1: an undefined episode. It is important to Jennifer to tell

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Speaker 1: In opening up and talking about mental.

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Speaker 2: Health, she epitomizes what it means to be a warrior,

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Speaker 2: and this conversation is proof positive that everyone has a

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Speaker 1: From the moment Jennifer walked in the room, we felt

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Speaker 1: the abundant power of her presence and her energy.

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Speaker 2: Jennifer Sidner Johnson, we are so excited that you're here

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Speaker 2: with us on the good stuff. Thank you for being here.

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Speaker 2: It is great to see you.

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Speaker 3: Thank you for having me. We've grown a great opportunity

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Speaker 3: to be here tell the story with you today.

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Speaker 2: We truly appreciate you being here. It's great to see you,

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Speaker 2: and we are so thankful that you have the courage

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Speaker 2: to come and tell us your story. It is one

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Speaker 2: heck of a story. We were kind of living it

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Speaker 2: alongside from a distance. Obviously, you were down in Austin

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Speaker 2: and we live up here in Dallas, but our mutual

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Speaker 2: and dear friend Natalie Woods Stanier was keeping us posted

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Speaker 2: all along the way along your journey. So let's just

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Speaker 2: start from February twenty twenty one snovid.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, so, if you remember, we're still trying to come

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Speaker 3: so we were already in survival mode. My husband was

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Speaker 3: like chopping firewood all day, and you know, we have

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Speaker 3: So I also I feel like these are little blessings

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Speaker 3: But I feel like there was almost a decision pitched

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Speaker 3: So I don't know if you ever saw that news

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Speaker 1: I've actually shared with Ashley, people very close to me,

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Speaker 1: willing to meet you halfway. Now. Obviously that's not every instance, right,

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Speaker 3: Okay, good, I share it because that really happened. And

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Speaker 3: like why I had the vision of that specific lady,

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Speaker 3: I can't. I don't know, but that's my truth. Like

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Speaker 2: So it's still pitching that dark and you had called

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Speaker 2: nine one one, The call went through, So what happened next?

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Speaker 3: Again, if you remember, I had put it on speaker,

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Speaker 3: one dispatcher heard the whole thing, so i'd actually when

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Speaker 3: He had not he had shot himself in the room. Okay,

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Speaker 3: That's how I learned my husband had passed. What went

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Speaker 1: Make it either to say, like, I think it's really

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Speaker 3: Yes, that is so spot on. I couldn't say it

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Speaker 1: And that's the I mean, it's the body's way to

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Speaker 1: You know what happened. He was a high probability, right,

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Speaker 1: that's something shitty was going to go down. Another difference

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Speaker 3: Yeah, bingo, because that from then on a like pain.

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Speaker 2: Because of the extreme circumstances that this all happened.

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Speaker 3: to be able to get to me because of the

434
00:23:20,560 --> 00:23:25,480
Speaker 3: ice flights. They couldn't drive. Again, you get that phone

435
00:23:25,520 --> 00:23:27,199
Speaker 3: call and they couldn't even get to me.

436
00:23:28,080 --> 00:23:30,560
Speaker 1: I can't fathom that as.

437
00:23:30,440 --> 00:23:33,240
Speaker 3: A parent, I know, so Luckily, my mom had my

438
00:23:33,280 --> 00:23:36,760
Speaker 3: best friend's phone number, Elizabeth, and she called her, and

439
00:23:36,800 --> 00:23:40,520
Speaker 3: so Elizabeth was the first person at the hospital with

440
00:23:40,640 --> 00:23:42,880
Speaker 3: me when I woke up the next day.

441
00:23:43,760 --> 00:23:46,159
Speaker 1: So that was the beginning of the hell of a journey.

442
00:23:46,160 --> 00:23:47,960
Speaker 3: By the time I'd woke up, I had already had

443
00:23:48,040 --> 00:23:51,080
Speaker 3: a lot of surgery. Wanted to kind of get me

444
00:23:51,560 --> 00:23:53,800
Speaker 3: quit bleeding and everything. So one was just just to

445
00:23:53,800 --> 00:23:58,720
Speaker 3: get everything to survive and get me stable. Then I

446
00:23:58,760 --> 00:24:00,760
Speaker 3: had a lot of surgeries for I hope I get

447
00:24:00,760 --> 00:24:04,280
Speaker 3: this word right, bridement, just to get all the gunpowder

448
00:24:04,359 --> 00:24:07,600
Speaker 3: and everything. So because I guess at first in the er,

449
00:24:08,000 --> 00:24:10,960
Speaker 3: they just especially with my face, they try to like

450
00:24:11,160 --> 00:24:13,800
Speaker 3: close a lot of things up, but if you have

451
00:24:14,080 --> 00:24:18,680
Speaker 3: gunpowder anything in there, it'll continue to disintegrate the tissue.

452
00:24:19,040 --> 00:24:21,080
Speaker 3: So they actually had to go back open up and

453
00:24:21,160 --> 00:24:24,520
Speaker 3: just I had several if you will, just cleaning ye.

454
00:24:24,680 --> 00:24:27,439
Speaker 1: Wash outs, wash out surgery, surgery, that's what they call

455
00:24:27,520 --> 00:24:29,240
Speaker 1: them wash outs.

456
00:24:29,440 --> 00:24:31,639
Speaker 3: So a lot of that. Then you kind of start

457
00:24:31,680 --> 00:24:36,639
Speaker 3: to go into the rebuilding surgeries, and then that's where

458
00:24:37,600 --> 00:24:40,480
Speaker 3: you learn like that's not a hey, it will be

459
00:24:40,560 --> 00:24:42,959
Speaker 3: a couple of weeks and we'll get y'all hied up

460
00:24:43,000 --> 00:24:45,720
Speaker 3: and send you on your merry way. I won't ever

461
00:24:45,760 --> 00:24:48,560
Speaker 3: forget when my surgeon kind of sat and he's like,

462
00:24:48,920 --> 00:24:50,760
Speaker 3: it'll probably be like a year and a half, and

463
00:24:50,800 --> 00:24:53,840
Speaker 3: I couldn't believe what he was even telling me I

464
00:24:53,880 --> 00:24:56,159
Speaker 3: have a surgery tomorrow. So it's been like two and

465
00:24:56,200 --> 00:24:58,920
Speaker 3: a half years, so he probably was even being conservative

466
00:24:58,960 --> 00:25:03,000
Speaker 3: on his head. It hit me really hard when I

467
00:25:03,040 --> 00:25:06,840
Speaker 3: heard that at first, because you do think like you

468
00:25:06,880 --> 00:25:10,919
Speaker 3: want to kind of, I don't know, move on. And

469
00:25:11,520 --> 00:25:14,760
Speaker 3: patience was the hardest thing for me.

470
00:25:15,040 --> 00:25:19,720
Speaker 1: And I don't It is such a bullshit word. They

471
00:25:19,800 --> 00:25:23,040
Speaker 1: have to come up with it, yeah, like patient, Like

472
00:25:23,720 --> 00:25:26,280
Speaker 1: I remember, it just pissing me off the fact that

473
00:25:26,280 --> 00:25:28,840
Speaker 1: that was the word because I was a bat, like

474
00:25:28,840 --> 00:25:30,600
Speaker 1: it was. I was not a good one. Like the

475
00:25:30,720 --> 00:25:33,639
Speaker 1: nurses would do paper rock scissors every night, okay to

476
00:25:33,760 --> 00:25:36,399
Speaker 1: see who got my chart. I was not a good thing.

477
00:25:36,440 --> 00:25:36,840
Speaker 3: Okay.

478
00:25:37,119 --> 00:25:40,080
Speaker 1: I remember when I was really able to start to

479
00:25:40,200 --> 00:25:44,040
Speaker 1: analyze my wounds, and I remember because my love leg

480
00:25:44,119 --> 00:25:47,040
Speaker 1: was intraction, my left arm was intraction. I remember one

481
00:25:47,080 --> 00:25:50,320
Speaker 1: day they took my left leg out of traction to

482
00:25:50,359 --> 00:25:55,400
Speaker 1: clean the rods and stuff so the skin didn't grow up.

483
00:25:55,440 --> 00:25:57,320
Speaker 1: The rods, right, so they had to clean them and

484
00:25:57,359 --> 00:26:00,159
Speaker 1: make them push them back down and all this, and

485
00:26:00,200 --> 00:26:01,960
Speaker 1: I remember it was the first time I had seen

486
00:26:02,040 --> 00:26:05,520
Speaker 1: the back of my leg because I'd seen the front

487
00:26:05,680 --> 00:26:08,160
Speaker 1: and I saw the back and I was like, damn it,

488
00:26:09,119 --> 00:26:12,080
Speaker 1: what else have I not seen? That is like jacked up?

489
00:26:12,600 --> 00:26:14,960
Speaker 1: And then I remember seeing my thighs and seeing where

490
00:26:15,000 --> 00:26:16,879
Speaker 1: they had taken the skin and doing all and it

491
00:26:16,920 --> 00:26:19,359
Speaker 1: was just like this thick kept on giving in a

492
00:26:19,480 --> 00:26:21,760
Speaker 1: very negative light, and I was like, how much more

493
00:26:21,760 --> 00:26:24,200
Speaker 1: are you going to rob from Peter to give the ball? Yeah,

494
00:26:24,240 --> 00:26:26,400
Speaker 1: like I need to be briefed on this ship. Yep,

495
00:26:26,680 --> 00:26:29,040
Speaker 1: you know, And it's you're right. It is a very

496
00:26:29,480 --> 00:26:31,200
Speaker 1: long process.

497
00:26:30,800 --> 00:26:33,159
Speaker 3: Yeah, because I think in my head and just me,

498
00:26:33,240 --> 00:26:34,840
Speaker 3: I was like, let's just do it all at once

499
00:26:34,880 --> 00:26:36,879
Speaker 3: and get it over with. That's not how it works

500
00:26:37,119 --> 00:26:40,280
Speaker 3: at all all. So I mean it's been you know,

501
00:26:40,600 --> 00:26:43,359
Speaker 3: a couple of years, cause like you gotta do a

502
00:26:43,400 --> 00:26:46,199
Speaker 3: step and then let that heale and see how it

503
00:26:46,280 --> 00:26:47,960
Speaker 3: works and how it doesn't work and if you have

504
00:26:48,040 --> 00:26:50,000
Speaker 3: to redo, and then you go to the next step

505
00:26:50,040 --> 00:26:52,280
Speaker 3: and next step. There's a few times where I might

506
00:26:52,280 --> 00:26:56,080
Speaker 3: have not taken the news so well, because you know,

507
00:26:56,440 --> 00:26:59,040
Speaker 3: but and so that's why I'm and like the patience

508
00:26:59,119 --> 00:27:10,440
Speaker 3: was the hardest thing for me, because yeah.

509
00:27:06,760 --> 00:27:10,680
Speaker 1: I'm curious to know from the very beginning, how long

510
00:27:10,720 --> 00:27:13,520
Speaker 1: were you in the bed? Like we're in the hospital,

511
00:27:13,560 --> 00:27:16,040
Speaker 1: I should say, yeah, but before you were allowed to

512
00:27:16,359 --> 00:27:17,240
Speaker 1: leave the hospital.

513
00:27:17,480 --> 00:27:20,800
Speaker 3: I kept getting transferred to different hospitals because I was

514
00:27:20,840 --> 00:27:24,479
Speaker 3: in a trauma hospital, and this is kind of what

515
00:27:24,520 --> 00:27:26,639
Speaker 3: I would go through. It was like, so I was

516
00:27:26,640 --> 00:27:29,840
Speaker 3: there for probably like two months, and then in that

517
00:27:29,920 --> 00:27:32,119
Speaker 3: time I had to be patient, like between surgeries or

518
00:27:32,200 --> 00:27:35,679
Speaker 3: like we're a trauma hospital, we don't like maintain, so

519
00:27:35,720 --> 00:27:38,520
Speaker 3: then they would send me to another hospital while I

520
00:27:38,600 --> 00:27:41,080
Speaker 3: was healing from a knickt surgery, and then I have

521
00:27:41,160 --> 00:27:44,040
Speaker 3: to come back to the trauma hospital. So I did

522
00:27:44,080 --> 00:27:47,760
Speaker 3: that probably for three three and a half months, and

523
00:27:47,800 --> 00:27:51,439
Speaker 3: then I went to impatient rehab hospital after that.

524
00:27:51,760 --> 00:27:54,199
Speaker 1: So I'd be we're talking like months on end a

525
00:27:54,280 --> 00:27:56,560
Speaker 1: year maybe close not quite.

526
00:27:56,400 --> 00:27:59,920
Speaker 3: A year, but months. Yeah, because even in the reh

527
00:28:00,080 --> 00:28:02,800
Speaker 3: ab and we can go through but how to relearn

528
00:28:02,880 --> 00:28:05,879
Speaker 3: how to use my arm, my leg, and how to

529
00:28:05,920 --> 00:28:10,280
Speaker 3: relearn how to swallow talk everything I don't know about

530
00:28:10,320 --> 00:28:11,160
Speaker 3: you Jennifer.

531
00:28:11,200 --> 00:28:13,520
Speaker 1: But I've never met a physical therapist that I like.

532
00:28:14,760 --> 00:28:20,280
Speaker 3: They're there to hurt you. Never let never let a

533
00:28:20,320 --> 00:28:22,639
Speaker 3: physical therapist say, oh, we're just going to do a

534
00:28:22,680 --> 00:28:26,679
Speaker 3: massage today. That might sound really nice. That is going

535
00:28:26,720 --> 00:28:27,160
Speaker 3: to be your.

536
00:28:27,040 --> 00:28:32,760
Speaker 1: Worst They're liars, all of them. Yeah, thank you to

537
00:28:32,840 --> 00:28:36,520
Speaker 1: physical therapists out there. You guys just equals suck factor.

538
00:28:36,680 --> 00:28:37,160
Speaker 1: That's it.

539
00:28:37,440 --> 00:28:43,920
Speaker 3: But thank you for the work that you arms details.

540
00:28:44,280 --> 00:28:47,680
Speaker 2: So what did you think about when you were there

541
00:28:47,680 --> 00:28:48,960
Speaker 2: in the hospital for that long?

542
00:28:49,680 --> 00:28:54,400
Speaker 3: Actually, I think it was a pretty great patient. Again, sorry,

543
00:28:54,480 --> 00:28:57,440
Speaker 3: I'm going to be that person, I guess, but I

544
00:28:57,440 --> 00:29:02,120
Speaker 3: don't know. Something click to me pretty early that one.

545
00:29:02,320 --> 00:29:05,360
Speaker 3: I kind of had a vision that I'm gonna make it,

546
00:29:05,680 --> 00:29:08,320
Speaker 3: and when I go on, I wanted to get out

547
00:29:08,320 --> 00:29:12,480
Speaker 3: of there and I just was gonna think really positively

548
00:29:12,560 --> 00:29:15,000
Speaker 3: about it and the other thing that happened to me.

549
00:29:15,440 --> 00:29:19,280
Speaker 3: So again, it was twenty twenty one. When I got

550
00:29:19,320 --> 00:29:23,360
Speaker 3: to that hospital, it was totally overwhelmed, so it was

551
00:29:23,360 --> 00:29:27,239
Speaker 3: still COVID, so they're already full with COVID patients. And

552
00:29:27,240 --> 00:29:30,760
Speaker 3: then the ice storm created a lot of trauma patients

553
00:29:30,960 --> 00:29:33,680
Speaker 3: from accidents and things that happened and they had run

554
00:29:33,720 --> 00:29:39,960
Speaker 3: out of rooms, and I was I remember seeing these

555
00:29:40,040 --> 00:29:43,000
Speaker 3: nurses come in and they were like they couldn't even

556
00:29:43,040 --> 00:29:46,080
Speaker 3: go home because of the ice storm, so they were

557
00:29:46,160 --> 00:29:46,800
Speaker 3: living there.

558
00:29:47,080 --> 00:29:49,440
Speaker 1: Another element. You don't even think about it, like that

559
00:29:49,520 --> 00:29:50,480
Speaker 1: doesn't cross your mind.

560
00:29:50,560 --> 00:29:53,440
Speaker 3: Yeah, one day, this nurses came in my room and

561
00:29:53,480 --> 00:29:59,480
Speaker 3: she just broke down crying. She was just exhausted and sure,

562
00:29:59,520 --> 00:30:02,440
Speaker 3: and I I remember having that opportunity and I'm like,

563
00:30:02,640 --> 00:30:04,720
Speaker 3: I want to talk to her and like uplift her.

564
00:30:04,880 --> 00:30:07,160
Speaker 3: And I remember at the end of it, I was

565
00:30:07,200 --> 00:30:09,040
Speaker 3: just trying to build her up and make her feel

566
00:30:09,080 --> 00:30:11,320
Speaker 3: like appreciated and everything, and she was like, I can't

567
00:30:11,360 --> 00:30:14,400
Speaker 3: believe you're sitting where you exactly and you're the one

568
00:30:14,520 --> 00:30:17,400
Speaker 3: like lifting me up in my day, I felt it

569
00:30:17,520 --> 00:30:20,800
Speaker 3: in me like this is going to be my approach

570
00:30:21,000 --> 00:30:24,360
Speaker 3: to life, how I'm going to try to impact others.

571
00:30:24,400 --> 00:30:27,240
Speaker 3: So I actually had the approach like any nurse, anybody,

572
00:30:27,240 --> 00:30:29,920
Speaker 3: any the people that cleaned my room, anybody I could

573
00:30:29,960 --> 00:30:32,600
Speaker 3: touch while I was in there, just trying to me to.

574
00:30:34,680 --> 00:30:37,920
Speaker 2: Any an impact on the fact that you listened to

575
00:30:38,000 --> 00:30:40,240
Speaker 2: that voice, the fact that you embraced it and you

576
00:30:40,280 --> 00:30:43,280
Speaker 2: didn't let you know the negativity seep in or the

577
00:30:43,640 --> 00:30:45,720
Speaker 2: why me or any of that. You said, you know what,

578
00:30:45,800 --> 00:30:47,320
Speaker 2: I'm going to turn this into a positive.

579
00:30:47,360 --> 00:30:48,120
Speaker 3: That's beautiful.

580
00:30:48,240 --> 00:30:51,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, I believe that's God given. I really do. We

581
00:30:51,480 --> 00:30:53,960
Speaker 1: all have a choice to make all the time. You

582
00:30:54,000 --> 00:30:55,480
Speaker 1: wake up and you fight for good or you fight

583
00:30:55,520 --> 00:30:57,840
Speaker 1: for evil, and it's a daily decision, yeah right, and

584
00:30:57,880 --> 00:31:00,840
Speaker 1: it can switch midday. It's something that is a conscious

585
00:31:00,880 --> 00:31:05,960
Speaker 1: effort throughout the entire day. I feel like that you've

586
00:31:06,000 --> 00:31:08,760
Speaker 1: really gotten close because I also believe that every human

587
00:31:08,800 --> 00:31:11,320
Speaker 1: being on the planet is born with an inner warrior, right,

588
00:31:11,360 --> 00:31:13,400
Speaker 1: and that has nothing to do with your job. You know.

589
00:31:13,400 --> 00:31:15,440
Speaker 1: That doesn't mean like you have to put on a

590
00:31:15,440 --> 00:31:17,560
Speaker 1: camouflage and go to war like that's not That's not

591
00:31:17,600 --> 00:31:20,840
Speaker 1: what I mean. I mean that like inner voice that

592
00:31:20,880 --> 00:31:24,840
Speaker 1: we all have. Yeah right. And I feel like that

593
00:31:24,960 --> 00:31:29,640
Speaker 1: you started feeding that gladiator immediately. It's obvious. It's prevalent

594
00:31:29,680 --> 00:31:31,680
Speaker 1: to me because you're here now only two years like

595
00:31:31,760 --> 00:31:36,920
Speaker 1: not even you know, that's relatively short timeframe for you

596
00:31:37,000 --> 00:31:40,960
Speaker 1: to be sharing what you're sharing now, and it's like, damn,

597
00:31:41,000 --> 00:31:42,320
Speaker 1: it makes me feel like I can you know, I

598
00:31:42,320 --> 00:31:44,080
Speaker 1: can do better, Like I can do better I can

599
00:31:44,160 --> 00:31:47,600
Speaker 1: do better perspective. It's a perspective in mindset.

600
00:31:48,120 --> 00:31:50,240
Speaker 3: I will say, there are a lot of nurses and

601
00:31:50,320 --> 00:31:54,160
Speaker 3: even some of the doctors you know mds telling you

602
00:31:54,240 --> 00:31:56,040
Speaker 3: that they would come in and be like they could

603
00:31:56,080 --> 00:31:57,959
Speaker 3: almost tell if someone who's gonna make it or not

604
00:31:58,080 --> 00:32:02,240
Speaker 3: make it all based on that mindset, like do you

605
00:32:02,320 --> 00:32:06,120
Speaker 3: believe it? Do you believe it? And are you fighting

606
00:32:06,160 --> 00:32:10,040
Speaker 3: for it? And are you already living like you're you know,

607
00:32:10,240 --> 00:32:13,640
Speaker 3: I'm going to live. And I was very interesting to

608
00:32:13,680 --> 00:32:17,239
Speaker 3: hear again that medical staff see you know, whatever you know,

609
00:32:17,320 --> 00:32:21,560
Speaker 3: medicine or surgeries or whatever they could do, they knew

610
00:32:21,960 --> 00:32:23,680
Speaker 3: that there's something else to it. Right.

611
00:32:24,360 --> 00:32:28,360
Speaker 1: That's another element to me when I say, God will

612
00:32:28,400 --> 00:32:30,640
Speaker 1: meet you half with are you a victim or you

613
00:32:30,680 --> 00:32:32,960
Speaker 1: a victor? And that's a daily decision, yeap.

614
00:32:33,480 --> 00:32:35,320
Speaker 3: And even some of the nurses that would come in

615
00:32:35,360 --> 00:32:38,040
Speaker 3: and talk to me and the ones that'd be really overwhelmed.

616
00:32:38,080 --> 00:32:41,760
Speaker 3: What was overwhelming him are the patients that quit trying.

617
00:32:41,920 --> 00:32:42,040
Speaker 1: Right.

618
00:32:42,200 --> 00:32:44,600
Speaker 3: So when I went to the rehab hospital, I did

619
00:32:44,600 --> 00:32:47,760
Speaker 3: have the joke that I had a little competitive spirit.

620
00:32:47,960 --> 00:32:50,240
Speaker 3: So I was like I go in there and I'm like,

621
00:32:51,000 --> 00:32:53,280
Speaker 3: I'm going to be the fastest on that now I

622
00:32:53,320 --> 00:32:56,200
Speaker 3: was competing with all like eighty plus year old drying

623
00:32:56,280 --> 00:33:00,920
Speaker 3: hare like. But that's awesome, But what would make me

624
00:33:01,000 --> 00:33:03,600
Speaker 3: so sad? I remember calling my parents and everything are

625
00:33:03,760 --> 00:33:06,320
Speaker 3: You would see people that had just completely given up

626
00:33:06,440 --> 00:33:11,239
Speaker 3: and just like sit on the machines and just and

627
00:33:11,280 --> 00:33:13,800
Speaker 3: you just knew you just it's over.

628
00:33:14,520 --> 00:33:18,880
Speaker 1: The will to live is a very real thing.

629
00:33:19,360 --> 00:33:23,040
Speaker 3: Not just my experience almost dying, but also getting the

630
00:33:23,120 --> 00:33:25,800
Speaker 3: fight and seeing the difference between fighting and not fighting

631
00:33:26,160 --> 00:33:29,600
Speaker 3: to live. That has given me a lot of perspective too,

632
00:33:30,040 --> 00:33:34,160
Speaker 3: from this journey I've been on, so I've definitely seen that.

633
00:33:34,800 --> 00:33:37,680
Speaker 3: I feel like there was something clicked in me, something

634
00:33:37,760 --> 00:33:39,800
Speaker 3: came out of me pretty early that I made a

635
00:33:39,800 --> 00:33:41,440
Speaker 3: decision that I was going to live and I was

636
00:33:41,440 --> 00:33:43,360
Speaker 3: going to fight for it, and I wanted something good

637
00:33:44,120 --> 00:33:46,840
Speaker 3: and that carried me through a lot. And like that

638
00:33:46,960 --> 00:33:50,280
Speaker 3: inner warrior that you talked about, I would say that

639
00:33:50,640 --> 00:33:52,760
Speaker 3: I certainly did not know I had that within me.

640
00:33:53,360 --> 00:33:55,080
Speaker 3: I don't think a lot of people thought I had

641
00:33:55,120 --> 00:34:01,040
Speaker 3: that within me, but I sometimes can't believe it. I've

642
00:34:01,080 --> 00:34:06,120
Speaker 3: been able to do overcome, achieve even through this, and

643
00:34:06,160 --> 00:34:10,480
Speaker 3: I think a lot of people were really surprised how

644
00:34:10,520 --> 00:34:12,959
Speaker 3: hard I was able to fight through a lot of this.

645
00:34:13,440 --> 00:34:16,280
Speaker 2: And we are so truly proud for you and proud

646
00:34:16,320 --> 00:34:21,680
Speaker 2: of you, so incredibly proud of you for that. Let's

647
00:34:21,680 --> 00:34:23,120
Speaker 2: talk about your support group.

648
00:34:23,320 --> 00:34:28,680
Speaker 3: Oh my gosh. So one of the things I think about,

649
00:34:28,880 --> 00:34:32,400
Speaker 3: and it's almost like so weird to say, is like,

650
00:34:32,880 --> 00:34:35,640
Speaker 3: I don't know how one of the hardest years of

651
00:34:35,640 --> 00:34:38,040
Speaker 3: my life ended up being one of the best years

652
00:34:38,080 --> 00:34:42,560
Speaker 3: of my life as well. It was all because I

653
00:34:42,560 --> 00:34:48,880
Speaker 3: have never experienced the love and support of community and

654
00:34:48,920 --> 00:34:54,000
Speaker 3: the power of prayer that is the secret of making

655
00:34:54,040 --> 00:34:59,439
Speaker 3: things happen in this world. And I had so much

656
00:34:59,440 --> 00:35:07,040
Speaker 3: support of friends, my my employer torches tacos. If I

657
00:35:07,080 --> 00:35:10,520
Speaker 3: can shout them out, we love.

658
00:35:11,480 --> 00:35:13,960
Speaker 1: If you don't like tacos, we can't hang out.

659
00:35:15,080 --> 00:35:19,320
Speaker 3: Church communities, not only in where I live, around the world,

660
00:35:19,640 --> 00:35:23,680
Speaker 3: Like prayer change everything, like coming through UNBELI I mean,

661
00:35:23,880 --> 00:35:27,640
Speaker 3: I feel it, you really do feel I just I

662
00:35:27,680 --> 00:35:31,560
Speaker 3: can't explain it. But I was just so surrounded. I

663
00:35:31,560 --> 00:35:35,320
Speaker 3: had people like Natalie come stay with me and.

664
00:35:35,800 --> 00:35:39,120
Speaker 1: We facetimed and I can't and I remember not because

665
00:35:39,120 --> 00:35:40,400
Speaker 1: sometimes in that face.

666
00:35:40,400 --> 00:35:43,680
Speaker 2: It's like Natalie always face times, Jake, and we never

667
00:35:43,760 --> 00:35:45,480
Speaker 2: know what's going to be on because.

668
00:35:45,239 --> 00:35:50,239
Speaker 1: God only knows what is about to happen in that exchange.

669
00:35:50,400 --> 00:35:53,080
Speaker 1: And then it's like if we're around the boys, I'm like,

670
00:35:53,280 --> 00:35:57,319
Speaker 1: is this going to be our kids? Appropriate? Like what?

671
00:35:57,920 --> 00:36:01,040
Speaker 1: But I know there's always a point, like there's always

672
00:36:01,080 --> 00:36:04,960
Speaker 1: a reason for it, and then so I always answer.

673
00:36:05,200 --> 00:36:07,799
Speaker 1: But I remember when we facetimed, and I don't remember, man,

674
00:36:07,960 --> 00:36:12,799
Speaker 1: it wasn't too long though, after you had gone through

675
00:36:12,800 --> 00:36:16,200
Speaker 1: what you went through. But I do remember talking to

676
00:36:16,239 --> 00:36:19,080
Speaker 1: you and like I felt your spirit then, like you

677
00:36:19,080 --> 00:36:21,920
Speaker 1: were already at the place that you were talking about

678
00:36:22,000 --> 00:36:26,640
Speaker 1: that you've been in since this has happened. I felt that.

679
00:36:26,800 --> 00:36:28,480
Speaker 1: I remember having you know, I showed you almost skin

680
00:36:28,560 --> 00:36:30,440
Speaker 1: grass and all my crap, you know, and it was like,

681
00:36:31,320 --> 00:36:33,080
Speaker 1: this is what I remember from this, and this is

682
00:36:33,120 --> 00:36:35,120
Speaker 1: you know, it's a marathon, not a sprint for sure,

683
00:36:35,760 --> 00:36:37,680
Speaker 1: you know, but it was so helpful.

684
00:36:37,840 --> 00:36:39,480
Speaker 3: I remember that, And I remember I had you look

685
00:36:39,520 --> 00:36:42,279
Speaker 3: at where they had taken my fibula and plant and

686
00:36:42,280 --> 00:36:44,280
Speaker 3: the skin graft and everything. You're like, oh, that looks

687
00:36:44,320 --> 00:36:44,799
Speaker 3: so good.

688
00:36:45,960 --> 00:36:49,279
Speaker 1: Okay. I think I told you on the call too,

689
00:36:49,360 --> 00:36:52,359
Speaker 1: Like I remember when they tried to transplant some they

690
00:36:52,400 --> 00:36:55,399
Speaker 1: amputated again to try and do a bone transplant from

691
00:36:55,400 --> 00:36:57,880
Speaker 1: my fibio to my left arm, and you know that felt,

692
00:36:58,200 --> 00:37:02,399
Speaker 1: but no knocked a certain tried and it was oddly enough,

693
00:37:02,440 --> 00:37:05,000
Speaker 1: when I realized it felt. I was doing a live

694
00:37:05,120 --> 00:37:10,000
Speaker 1: radio interview in my left arm just like kind of

695
00:37:10,000 --> 00:37:13,600
Speaker 1: semi explode, and my dad was in there with me,

696
00:37:14,080 --> 00:37:17,319
Speaker 1: and my dad's very he didn't like that stuff, and

697
00:37:17,360 --> 00:37:20,000
Speaker 1: we're standing. It was a radio studio where it just

698
00:37:20,040 --> 00:37:22,600
Speaker 1: had like the round tables that you stand all the

699
00:37:22,600 --> 00:37:25,840
Speaker 1: hosts stand up right, they're not seated, And I remember

700
00:37:25,920 --> 00:37:28,480
Speaker 1: what happened, and I remember my dad's face like going

701
00:37:28,520 --> 00:37:30,400
Speaker 1: as wide as your shirt. And I was like in

702
00:37:30,440 --> 00:37:34,000
Speaker 1: the middle of talking, like had his shirt like moving

703
00:37:34,080 --> 00:37:37,680
Speaker 1: him towards a seat so he doesn't faint, because you know,

704
00:37:37,680 --> 00:37:40,520
Speaker 1: I'm worried about my dad fainting in his head busting

705
00:37:40,600 --> 00:37:43,759
Speaker 1: open doing this, and so I'm like talking, do not

706
00:37:43,920 --> 00:37:47,719
Speaker 1: missing a beat, like pushing him towards this seat. My

707
00:37:47,960 --> 00:37:50,840
Speaker 1: arm's oozing in. The radio host is like, what in

708
00:37:50,920 --> 00:37:53,560
Speaker 1: the hell is going on right now? Like it was

709
00:37:53,680 --> 00:37:56,200
Speaker 1: never adult moment, you know, but yeah, it was. I

710
00:37:56,239 --> 00:37:58,640
Speaker 1: remember that that convo with you, and it was like

711
00:37:59,320 --> 00:38:04,600
Speaker 1: because I remember remember being in the hospital and I

712
00:38:04,640 --> 00:38:07,239
Speaker 1: don't think I ever in my life have had that

713
00:38:07,440 --> 00:38:12,840
Speaker 1: much time to think and just be. I learned in

714
00:38:12,920 --> 00:38:17,560
Speaker 1: the hospital. I was twenty two. That's where I learned

715
00:38:17,840 --> 00:38:21,960
Speaker 1: what being present means, especially with oneself. And it was

716
00:38:22,000 --> 00:38:23,960
Speaker 1: forced on me obviously. I mean, I'm not like I

717
00:38:24,000 --> 00:38:26,799
Speaker 1: was going to go play kickball anytime soon. Like I

718
00:38:26,880 --> 00:38:30,239
Speaker 1: was forced to learn what it meant to be with oneself.

719
00:38:30,800 --> 00:38:32,799
Speaker 3: I love that. I have a lot of people ask me,

720
00:38:32,960 --> 00:38:35,560
Speaker 3: like again a little over two years out of it,

721
00:38:35,640 --> 00:38:37,640
Speaker 3: like how are you in this place now? And I'm like,

722
00:38:38,200 --> 00:38:42,040
Speaker 3: I had so much time with myself in that hospital

723
00:38:42,120 --> 00:38:46,480
Speaker 3: to think about so much stuff, like I don't it

724
00:38:46,640 --> 00:38:48,720
Speaker 3: just I am. It put me in a different place,

725
00:38:49,120 --> 00:38:51,120
Speaker 3: in a place that I feel like I have had

726
00:38:51,120 --> 00:38:54,640
Speaker 3: a lot of opportunity to work through a lot of things.

727
00:38:54,719 --> 00:38:56,600
Speaker 3: And you know, I will say at first, I was

728
00:38:56,600 --> 00:39:00,239
Speaker 3: a little worried because at first, like I almost couldn't think,

729
00:39:00,280 --> 00:39:02,799
Speaker 3: like I would just stare off I remember, and I

730
00:39:02,800 --> 00:39:04,840
Speaker 3: would be worried about myself, like am I going to

731
00:39:04,880 --> 00:39:07,520
Speaker 3: be able to function at work anymore? Right? Is my

732
00:39:07,640 --> 00:39:12,759
Speaker 3: brain and a function normally. I did have a lot

733
00:39:12,760 --> 00:39:15,960
Speaker 3: of shock and a lot of payments. You know, at

734
00:39:16,000 --> 00:39:19,880
Speaker 3: first where I started worry like, ooh, I hope you

735
00:39:19,880 --> 00:39:22,279
Speaker 3: know I'm going to be able to really think and

736
00:39:22,360 --> 00:39:25,719
Speaker 3: function normally. But then as I kept going, then yeah,

737
00:39:25,760 --> 00:39:29,000
Speaker 3: you just get a lot of time to reflect. And

738
00:39:29,440 --> 00:39:31,120
Speaker 3: the other thing I would think, kind of what Yousus

739
00:39:31,120 --> 00:39:33,640
Speaker 3: said is that's one of the gifts I think that

740
00:39:33,680 --> 00:39:36,640
Speaker 3: I've been given out of this is being more present.

741
00:39:37,920 --> 00:39:42,680
Speaker 3: I find myself a lot of times just pausing wherever

742
00:39:42,719 --> 00:39:45,160
Speaker 3: I am, and when I get this feeling like I

743
00:39:45,200 --> 00:39:48,359
Speaker 3: shouldn't be here. I would all be going on and

744
00:39:48,400 --> 00:39:50,880
Speaker 3: I wouldn't be here. So it feels like the sneaky

745
00:39:51,040 --> 00:39:53,839
Speaker 3: like I'm being able to see what would be going

746
00:39:53,880 --> 00:39:56,120
Speaker 3: on if I was gone, but I'm here, like because

747
00:39:56,120 --> 00:39:58,719
Speaker 3: it feels like that, like, oh, I got a second

748
00:39:59,040 --> 00:40:02,160
Speaker 3: chance at this. But the other part of it is

749
00:40:02,200 --> 00:40:06,240
Speaker 3: that it actually makes me actually kind of step back

750
00:40:06,920 --> 00:40:10,080
Speaker 3: and start taking everything in. Like I'll be in a

751
00:40:10,160 --> 00:40:16,680
Speaker 3: Starbucks and I'll just start looking around and notice everything

752
00:40:17,000 --> 00:40:23,000
Speaker 3: like the colors, the textures that think, the smells, and

753
00:40:23,160 --> 00:40:26,399
Speaker 3: I just try to like consciously take it all in,

754
00:40:26,600 --> 00:40:29,319
Speaker 3: Like if you're just standing in line, but really like

755
00:40:29,520 --> 00:40:32,960
Speaker 3: absorb the world a little bit more. And the other

756
00:40:33,040 --> 00:40:36,359
Speaker 3: thing that happens to me more now is if I'm

757
00:40:36,400 --> 00:40:38,400
Speaker 3: standing in line with y'all, I'll be looking at you

758
00:40:38,440 --> 00:40:40,279
Speaker 3: and I'll be thinking in my head because I don't

759
00:40:40,320 --> 00:40:43,200
Speaker 3: want to stay out loud and say people think I'm

760
00:40:43,200 --> 00:40:46,200
Speaker 3: a weirdo. It's like, oh my gosh, guys, like we're

761
00:40:46,200 --> 00:40:49,759
Speaker 3: all like standing here doing life together right now, Like

762
00:40:50,160 --> 00:40:52,319
Speaker 3: how are we like standing on this earth and the

763
00:40:52,400 --> 00:40:55,080
Speaker 3: same time, like we're gonna have to get a Starbucks

764
00:40:55,120 --> 00:40:57,840
Speaker 3: and like really soak that in. I know that sounds

765
00:40:57,880 --> 00:41:00,359
Speaker 3: completely it's awesome.

766
00:41:00,120 --> 00:41:00,680
Speaker 1: Start living.

767
00:41:00,719 --> 00:41:04,640
Speaker 3: And that is something that was given to me from

768
00:41:04,680 --> 00:41:07,959
Speaker 3: this experience that I know a lot of people can't

769
00:41:07,960 --> 00:41:11,239
Speaker 3: have and it probably sounds totally insane, but I have

770
00:41:11,320 --> 00:41:14,400
Speaker 3: those moments now where I'm just like, guys, we're totally

771
00:41:14,440 --> 00:41:15,399
Speaker 3: doing this right now.

772
00:41:16,960 --> 00:41:21,400
Speaker 1: The power of that is indescribable. And I think the

773
00:41:21,560 --> 00:41:26,880
Speaker 1: takeaway is that you don't have to experience being blown

774
00:41:26,960 --> 00:41:31,239
Speaker 1: up or being shot or whatever to choose to do

775
00:41:31,280 --> 00:41:35,960
Speaker 1: that right like, you don't have to do it's a choice. Yeah,

776
00:41:36,000 --> 00:41:39,480
Speaker 1: And sometimes it's forced upon you, and sometimes you never

777
00:41:39,520 --> 00:41:40,200
Speaker 1: get the chance.

778
00:41:40,440 --> 00:41:43,840
Speaker 3: Yeah, it is pretty powerful when you do it, and

779
00:41:43,880 --> 00:41:46,040
Speaker 3: I would so. Yeah, as much as you can just

780
00:41:46,280 --> 00:41:48,840
Speaker 3: take a moment and just step back and just be

781
00:41:48,960 --> 00:41:54,000
Speaker 3: present and taken all of it is so so important.

782
00:41:54,120 --> 00:41:57,160
Speaker 2: Time is our most precious commodity, and time and time

783
00:41:57,200 --> 00:41:59,400
Speaker 2: again we're reminded of that you did get a second

784
00:41:59,440 --> 00:42:04,719
Speaker 2: chance at life. Thinking about you being in the hospital

785
00:42:04,800 --> 00:42:07,280
Speaker 2: going through all of this rehab that you went through

786
00:42:07,719 --> 00:42:10,760
Speaker 2: at the same time mourning the loss of your husband. Yeah,

787
00:42:10,880 --> 00:42:13,560
Speaker 2: let's talk about Noah, because he was a force to

788
00:42:13,600 --> 00:42:14,080
Speaker 2: be reckoned.

789
00:42:14,160 --> 00:42:18,080
Speaker 3: He was and I have to say in the hospital

790
00:42:18,120 --> 00:42:20,840
Speaker 3: when I was having that energy wanting to touch others, Also,

791
00:42:20,880 --> 00:42:23,520
Speaker 3: what was going into a mind is that energy that

792
00:42:23,640 --> 00:42:26,160
Speaker 3: was just lost in Noah Because if for those that

793
00:42:26,280 --> 00:42:31,080
Speaker 3: knew Noah, I had never met a more extroverted person

794
00:42:31,120 --> 00:42:34,640
Speaker 3: in my life. And he had this power of wo

795
00:42:35,160 --> 00:42:38,120
Speaker 3: that he could just enter a room and if he

796
00:42:38,160 --> 00:42:41,399
Speaker 3: didn't already know half the room, he would make sure

797
00:42:41,440 --> 00:42:45,680
Speaker 3: he had impacted at least someone that matter, and oh

798
00:42:45,719 --> 00:42:47,560
Speaker 3: my gosh. Yeah, and I had never seen a force

799
00:42:47,640 --> 00:42:50,120
Speaker 3: like that. And I was pretty conscious again in the

800
00:42:50,160 --> 00:42:54,400
Speaker 3: hospital like that force had just left and it was

801
00:42:54,400 --> 00:42:57,160
Speaker 3: such an amazing energy that had impact on my life

802
00:42:57,200 --> 00:43:00,200
Speaker 3: because I am an introvert. I was like, I just

803
00:43:00,440 --> 00:43:03,480
Speaker 3: lost that and like somewhere in my head and my brain,

804
00:43:03,520 --> 00:43:05,560
Speaker 3: I was like, I need to take that part of

805
00:43:05,640 --> 00:43:09,000
Speaker 3: him with me, No, and carry it on.

806
00:43:09,360 --> 00:43:11,680
Speaker 2: And you are. And it's so. I mean, I can

807
00:43:11,719 --> 00:43:14,440
Speaker 2: feel it across the table from you. That's exactly what

808
00:43:14,480 --> 00:43:17,600
Speaker 2: you're doing. And by you having the strength to come

809
00:43:17,640 --> 00:43:21,800
Speaker 2: even tell this story, you are doing that because I

810
00:43:21,880 --> 00:43:23,799
Speaker 2: knew No. I met him a couple times through the

811
00:43:23,840 --> 00:43:26,640
Speaker 2: standiards and he was he was magnetic, he had that energy,

812
00:43:26,680 --> 00:43:29,400
Speaker 2: had a great smile, and that you knew when his

813
00:43:29,480 --> 00:43:32,960
Speaker 2: presence entered the room, just like you just said. And

814
00:43:33,040 --> 00:43:36,440
Speaker 2: you have the same effect on people. And it's not

815
00:43:36,640 --> 00:43:38,920
Speaker 2: just because of this journey that what happened to you

816
00:43:38,960 --> 00:43:41,799
Speaker 2: didn't define. Maybe it woke something up inside of you.

817
00:43:42,360 --> 00:43:44,800
Speaker 2: But here you are doing that and giving that gift

818
00:43:44,840 --> 00:43:45,440
Speaker 2: to us.

819
00:43:45,719 --> 00:43:49,120
Speaker 1: I think that's the reason that you're able to have

820
00:43:49,200 --> 00:43:52,080
Speaker 1: the courage you have that's on display to day right

821
00:43:52,120 --> 00:43:56,280
Speaker 1: because what you're doing right now, to me, that epitomizes

822
00:43:56,400 --> 00:44:00,839
Speaker 1: the very meaning of warrior. Okay, just because you got

823
00:44:00,840 --> 00:44:03,480
Speaker 1: shot out or whatever doesn't make you work right because

824
00:44:05,080 --> 00:44:09,240
Speaker 1: me getting severely wounded was a moment in time doesn't

825
00:44:09,239 --> 00:44:12,680
Speaker 1: define who I am, who I am and who I

826
00:44:12,760 --> 00:44:15,520
Speaker 1: evolve Intwo's up to me, not what's happened to me,

827
00:44:16,320 --> 00:44:20,399
Speaker 1: and it's on display with you. So of course you're

828
00:44:20,480 --> 00:44:26,520
Speaker 1: channeling all the good and then you're burning the pain

829
00:44:27,080 --> 00:44:32,359
Speaker 1: and the bad is fuel for the good. That's a thing, right,

830
00:44:32,400 --> 00:44:36,000
Speaker 1: And sometimes you're forced into that, and sometimes it takes

831
00:44:36,040 --> 00:44:39,319
Speaker 1: you down another path because again it's a choice. Every

832
00:44:39,400 --> 00:44:44,400
Speaker 1: day you absolutely are doing exactly that and like freaking

833
00:44:44,800 --> 00:44:49,320
Speaker 1: kudos in the strong enough word, but like just welcome

834
00:44:49,320 --> 00:44:51,520
Speaker 1: to the badass arena.

835
00:44:52,560 --> 00:44:55,160
Speaker 3: So I think the other thing I'll want to say

836
00:44:55,320 --> 00:44:59,160
Speaker 3: is there is the physical part of going through the

837
00:44:59,160 --> 00:45:04,080
Speaker 3: hospital and kne but that wasn't actually the hardest part

838
00:45:04,120 --> 00:45:08,120
Speaker 3: for me. The hardest part of any of this that

839
00:45:08,200 --> 00:45:12,120
Speaker 3: I really struggled with is the why behind it, and

840
00:45:12,400 --> 00:45:16,880
Speaker 3: the point of not exactly sure what happened that early

841
00:45:16,960 --> 00:45:21,600
Speaker 3: morning and knowing that we'll never have answers of what

842
00:45:22,239 --> 00:45:28,279
Speaker 3: actually happened, like why did he act like that and

843
00:45:29,040 --> 00:45:32,200
Speaker 3: you know, try to take mine and did take his

844
00:45:32,239 --> 00:45:38,480
Speaker 3: own life? We'll never know that question, and uncertainty has

845
00:45:38,520 --> 00:45:41,600
Speaker 3: definitely been the hardest thing for me to grapple with

846
00:45:41,640 --> 00:45:42,400
Speaker 3: through everything.

847
00:45:42,719 --> 00:45:45,640
Speaker 2: So how do you feel about him.

848
00:45:45,880 --> 00:45:48,200
Speaker 3: I know a lot of people don't like this, but

849
00:45:48,280 --> 00:45:51,800
Speaker 3: I actually think he had the greatest loss. I always

850
00:45:51,840 --> 00:45:55,360
Speaker 3: put myself back at that early morning, and if you

851
00:45:55,400 --> 00:45:58,400
Speaker 3: remember how I started telling his story, like he was

852
00:45:58,520 --> 00:46:02,040
Speaker 3: not in his full capacity. Now again, I don't know

853
00:46:02,080 --> 00:46:04,880
Speaker 3: if that was tied to his diabetes. I don't know

854
00:46:05,480 --> 00:46:10,640
Speaker 3: if he was wrestling with you know, voices in his

855
00:46:10,680 --> 00:46:14,000
Speaker 3: head of depression. We don't know if as pt as

856
00:46:14,000 --> 00:46:17,600
Speaker 3: a d We don't know. I don't feel like he

857
00:46:17,760 --> 00:46:21,279
Speaker 3: was acting with his full capacity. So I feel like

858
00:46:22,080 --> 00:46:25,840
Speaker 3: there was a big loss there. I do feel like

859
00:46:25,920 --> 00:46:29,040
Speaker 3: mental health that is a big thing that has impacted

860
00:46:29,200 --> 00:46:34,880
Speaker 3: my family's life. But overall, he was a complex man.

861
00:46:35,320 --> 00:46:38,279
Speaker 3: When he was good, he was the best. Anyway he

862
00:46:38,320 --> 00:46:40,800
Speaker 3: was bad, and he was often the worst. I feel

863
00:46:40,840 --> 00:46:43,160
Speaker 3: like that about all of us, and we've got to

864
00:46:43,200 --> 00:46:46,319
Speaker 3: give grace, Like people are very complex people and they're

865
00:46:46,360 --> 00:46:48,640
Speaker 3: dealing with a lot of things, and even for we've

866
00:46:48,640 --> 00:46:52,240
Speaker 3: had other people that have chosen to take their lives

867
00:46:52,320 --> 00:46:55,080
Speaker 3: and it's hard to understand. But I was not in

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Speaker 3: their shoes, and I do not know what that would

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Speaker 3: be like. I would love to be able to help

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Speaker 3: any way I can, but I'm definitely gonna not be

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Speaker 3: the one that passes judgment on that, even when I'm

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Speaker 3: the victim. Yeah, I loved him and love him. Good.

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Speaker 1: Listen, that, like, what you're choosing on the daily is

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Speaker 1: one of the reasons you are where you are right now.

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Speaker 1: I know it for a fact, and I think that

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Speaker 1: there is so much power in that because it's hard.

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Speaker 1: It's the harder thing to do. The easier thing is

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Speaker 1: the anger, resentment, all the shit. Because we have so

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Speaker 1: much more to draw from when it comes to those emotions.

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Speaker 1: It makes it so much easier because it's a very

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Speaker 1: little effort. The fact that you're choosing love, grace, forgiveness, joy, gratitude,

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Speaker 1: You're able to feel the things God intended forced to

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Speaker 1: fill the way He intended for it to be felt,

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Speaker 1: and you're just scratching the surface on the power in that. Like,

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Speaker 1: I am so stoked to see where you go from here.

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Speaker 1: It is literally just the beginning, and it's all because

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Speaker 1: of you and God, you know that, but mainly because

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Speaker 1: of you and your mindset and your conviction and that

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Speaker 1: I am going to live well in spite of it all.

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Speaker 1: Just stay the path.

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Speaker 2: I'm officially going to change your name to Grace's. That's it. Sorry, Sorry,

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Speaker 2: Jennifer is now Grace.

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Speaker 3: Can I end with that? Just one bunny?

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Speaker 2: Absolutely.

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Speaker 1: So.

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Speaker 3: One of the things I did not share, but I

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Speaker 3: hope your listeners will get quite a kick off and

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Speaker 3: it'll be my last advice I'll give is also when

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Speaker 3: I was coming to and laying there thinking I was

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Speaker 3: dying and leaving the earth. So I had been doing

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Speaker 3: keto and running, and I had lost a lot of

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Speaker 3: weight before this, like seventy pounds. I had really worked

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Speaker 3: hardy seventy pounds I did, and.

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Speaker 1: So I really would you lost a small human?

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Speaker 3: I did. I had been working really hard. But as

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Speaker 3: I was laying there on the ground, I had to

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Speaker 3: tell you that one of my dying thoughts was about food.

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Speaker 3: So and this is how I know that food is

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Speaker 3: so important to me in my life, because I literally

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Speaker 3: had the thought like my last meal was a freaking salad.

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Speaker 3: This is this all literally happened. I literally was there

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Speaker 3: like I would have ate something good if I knew

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Speaker 3: my last day. So now I try to tell everybody

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Speaker 3: I can, like eat the cookie. Start with dessert, because

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Speaker 3: one of your dying thoughts might be.

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Speaker 1: About you got a damn salad.

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Speaker 3: It was the last thing you had, and don't let

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Speaker 3: it be a damn salad. So that'll be my parting

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Speaker 3: wisdom I give to your listeners.

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Speaker 1: Love it. That is the good stuff. I'm making a

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Speaker 1: shirt dot. Don't let it be a salad. Eat the cookie,

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Speaker 1: Eat the damn cookie, the cookie.

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Speaker 3: Love it.

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Speaker 2: Thank you so much, Jennifer, Thank you. I am so

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Speaker 2: grateful for her strength to come and share this with us,

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Speaker 2: all of the life advice that she gave us. And

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Speaker 2: we will never forget Noah. He was such a great

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Speaker 2: human and a great light on this earth. And Jennifer

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Speaker 2: is too.

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Speaker 1: That's right, and she's carrying it forward for not only herself,

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Speaker 1: but Noah and everybody else. She is leading from the

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Speaker 1: front and it is an honored privileged to call her friend.

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Speaker 3: Agreed.

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Speaker 2: Thank you so much for listening. We hope this episode

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Speaker 2: touched you today, and if it did, please share it

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Speaker 2: and be part of making someone else's day better.

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Speaker 1: Put on your badass capes and harness your and her Jennifer,

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Speaker 1: and go be great today and remember you can't do

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