1 00:00:06,440 --> 00:00:11,320 Speaker 1: Hello, my beautiful listeners, Welcome to this episode of Cheeky's 2 00:00:11,320 --> 00:00:15,360 Speaker 1: and Chill. First and foremost, thank you so much for 3 00:00:15,400 --> 00:00:18,520 Speaker 1: being here, and I hope you're having an amazing day. 4 00:00:19,520 --> 00:00:21,400 Speaker 1: And if you're not for whatever reason, make sure you 5 00:00:21,440 --> 00:00:23,400 Speaker 1: just take a deep breath. Let's take one together. 6 00:00:23,520 --> 00:00:29,960 Speaker 2: Actually, everything is going to be okay. 7 00:00:30,200 --> 00:00:35,040 Speaker 1: We are here. There is no better place than the present. 8 00:00:36,040 --> 00:00:39,680 Speaker 1: And talking about the present. That is something I talked 9 00:00:39,680 --> 00:00:43,040 Speaker 1: about at my album release party, and that is what 10 00:00:43,120 --> 00:00:45,920 Speaker 1: this episode is going to be all about. I'm not 11 00:00:45,960 --> 00:00:49,519 Speaker 1: sure if you guys saw on social media, but I 12 00:00:49,560 --> 00:00:52,680 Speaker 1: did have my album release party a few days ago, 13 00:00:53,080 --> 00:00:59,360 Speaker 1: and it was wonderful. It was a lot better than 14 00:00:59,400 --> 00:01:04,399 Speaker 1: I hadn't to say. To be honest, I decided for 15 00:01:04,440 --> 00:01:05,960 Speaker 1: it to be on a Wednesday because I was born 16 00:01:06,000 --> 00:01:09,120 Speaker 1: on a Wednesday. I wanted it to be on the 17 00:01:09,240 --> 00:01:14,360 Speaker 1: nineteenth because one plus nine is ten and ten equals one, 18 00:01:14,400 --> 00:01:17,400 Speaker 1: which is new beginnings. So I had it all figured out. 19 00:01:17,440 --> 00:01:21,200 Speaker 1: There was also a new moon that night, so everything 20 00:01:21,280 --> 00:01:24,920 Speaker 1: was just aligned the way it has been with this album. 21 00:01:25,760 --> 00:01:29,080 Speaker 1: I didn't know how I was going to start. I 22 00:01:29,080 --> 00:01:31,959 Speaker 1: didn't know the songs, how was going to write the 23 00:01:31,959 --> 00:01:34,880 Speaker 1: songs that I had in my soul, but it's all 24 00:01:34,959 --> 00:01:37,679 Speaker 1: just worked out so beautifully. And that's how the album 25 00:01:37,720 --> 00:01:40,320 Speaker 1: release party was. I know there were a few people 26 00:01:40,360 --> 00:01:43,520 Speaker 1: that were hurt that weren't invited, and I didn't do 27 00:01:43,560 --> 00:01:49,880 Speaker 1: that intentionally. It just crept up so quickly that I 28 00:01:50,600 --> 00:01:52,080 Speaker 1: don't know. I felt bad because I did receive a 29 00:01:52,120 --> 00:01:56,320 Speaker 1: lot of messages afterwards people that were having I think 30 00:01:56,360 --> 00:01:58,600 Speaker 1: fomo and not only that, but they were hurt because 31 00:01:58,600 --> 00:02:03,240 Speaker 1: they felt that they should have been there. But nonetheless, 32 00:02:03,720 --> 00:02:12,040 Speaker 1: it was absolutely magical that day. I got there at 33 00:02:12,080 --> 00:02:15,960 Speaker 1: like three pm for soundcheck. I wanted it to be 34 00:02:16,120 --> 00:02:21,600 Speaker 1: in an outside venue because this music just makes it 35 00:02:21,720 --> 00:02:24,040 Speaker 1: feel very like I want to be connected to nature. 36 00:02:24,480 --> 00:02:27,240 Speaker 1: So that was very difficult to find a place, especially 37 00:02:27,320 --> 00:02:29,640 Speaker 1: in November where it's freaking cold. And mind you, it 38 00:02:29,680 --> 00:02:33,639 Speaker 1: had been raining for like five days straight, okay, and 39 00:02:33,680 --> 00:02:36,400 Speaker 1: then the day before the sun came out and it 40 00:02:36,440 --> 00:02:38,920 Speaker 1: was supposed to rain that day. I had checked the 41 00:02:38,919 --> 00:02:42,359 Speaker 1: forecast and it was gonna rain every day except Wednesday, 42 00:02:42,400 --> 00:02:45,880 Speaker 1: and I'm like, look at God, like every day literally 43 00:02:45,919 --> 00:02:51,040 Speaker 1: except Wednesday, and the rain stopped that Tuesday. It was 44 00:02:51,080 --> 00:02:53,120 Speaker 1: a little cloudy, but the sun was starting to like 45 00:02:53,240 --> 00:02:57,480 Speaker 1: peek through. And then Wednesday, you know, after rain, the 46 00:02:57,560 --> 00:03:03,240 Speaker 1: day is just freaking beautiful. Everything's clear, the sky was blue, 47 00:03:03,360 --> 00:03:05,600 Speaker 1: the sun was so amazing. It was chilly, but it 48 00:03:05,639 --> 00:03:08,320 Speaker 1: was just a beautiful, beautiful day. So to me that 49 00:03:08,440 --> 00:03:11,400 Speaker 1: was like, oh my gosh, God, you are so good, 50 00:03:11,560 --> 00:03:14,400 Speaker 1: because I was a little scared for it to rain 51 00:03:14,440 --> 00:03:15,959 Speaker 1: because I'm like, well, people don't want to be in 52 00:03:15,960 --> 00:03:19,000 Speaker 1: the rain and it's an outside event. But it was 53 00:03:19,040 --> 00:03:22,360 Speaker 1: a beautiful day. So anyway, I get to the venue 54 00:03:23,080 --> 00:03:25,640 Speaker 1: because we had to do rehearsals. I had rehearsal the 55 00:03:25,760 --> 00:03:30,079 Speaker 1: night before, and I felt really good. I was telling 56 00:03:30,080 --> 00:03:36,760 Speaker 1: my manager, Richard that I felt different in the sense 57 00:03:37,080 --> 00:03:39,520 Speaker 1: of again, this was my first time performing these songs 58 00:03:39,560 --> 00:03:42,600 Speaker 1: live in front of a crowd and live in general. 59 00:03:43,360 --> 00:03:48,320 Speaker 1: But after our last rehearsal before the actual showcase, I 60 00:03:48,440 --> 00:03:51,640 Speaker 1: was telling him that it felt different because I felt 61 00:03:51,680 --> 00:03:54,480 Speaker 1: like I was a part of the band, like it 62 00:03:54,560 --> 00:03:57,440 Speaker 1: wasn't like my band. And then me, it was like 63 00:03:58,360 --> 00:04:00,720 Speaker 1: it just was different because I feel very connected to 64 00:04:01,080 --> 00:04:05,680 Speaker 1: like my actual banda avena BANDA, but this was so different. 65 00:04:05,720 --> 00:04:09,760 Speaker 1: I felt like I was in the music and it 66 00:04:09,920 --> 00:04:11,760 Speaker 1: just I don't know if that makes any sense at all, 67 00:04:11,800 --> 00:04:13,320 Speaker 1: But I just felt like I was a part of 68 00:04:13,360 --> 00:04:17,000 Speaker 1: the music. The instruments and my voice were just so 69 00:04:17,120 --> 00:04:20,599 Speaker 1: aligned and it felt very different. I felt like I 70 00:04:20,600 --> 00:04:22,760 Speaker 1: had a lot of soul space, like a lot of 71 00:04:22,800 --> 00:04:27,840 Speaker 1: space to just sing without having to belt, without having 72 00:04:28,320 --> 00:04:37,640 Speaker 1: to force it. It doesn't feel as exhausting. And again this 73 00:04:37,800 --> 00:04:41,799 Speaker 1: is not to rel Fucci, you know, to banda because 74 00:04:41,800 --> 00:04:44,400 Speaker 1: I love band that. I was like the most amazing 75 00:04:44,480 --> 00:04:48,040 Speaker 1: school I could have ever had, because it's difficult to 76 00:04:48,520 --> 00:04:52,000 Speaker 1: sing banda. There are so many instruments that your voice 77 00:04:52,000 --> 00:04:55,799 Speaker 1: is basically competing with. And with this type of music 78 00:04:56,320 --> 00:04:58,960 Speaker 1: which we just had. We had the guitar, we had percussions, 79 00:04:59,120 --> 00:05:04,760 Speaker 1: we had the bass, piano, and then my backup vocal 80 00:05:04,839 --> 00:05:08,599 Speaker 1: and myself. It was just very spacey and I was 81 00:05:08,640 --> 00:05:11,400 Speaker 1: able to play with my voice and it was just amazing. 82 00:05:11,440 --> 00:05:13,520 Speaker 1: I was like, dude, I'm so excited. I'm so freaking 83 00:05:13,560 --> 00:05:18,600 Speaker 1: excited to do this tomorrow. And it was a beautiful night. 84 00:05:18,600 --> 00:05:22,320 Speaker 1: It was a beautiful rehearsal. We laughed, We connected so well, 85 00:05:22,320 --> 00:05:24,039 Speaker 1: which to me is very important because if we're going 86 00:05:24,120 --> 00:05:26,440 Speaker 1: to go on stage, it is my first time playing 87 00:05:26,440 --> 00:05:28,520 Speaker 1: with these guys I had just met them like a 88 00:05:28,560 --> 00:05:33,080 Speaker 1: week before, and well most of them. Anyway, it was 89 00:05:33,080 --> 00:05:35,800 Speaker 1: a really nice night. We freaking at the studio because 90 00:05:35,800 --> 00:05:39,039 Speaker 1: we rehearsed at the studio. We had Chinese food and 91 00:05:39,080 --> 00:05:41,080 Speaker 1: we were talking and the connection was there. 92 00:05:41,120 --> 00:05:41,679 Speaker 2: It was great. 93 00:05:41,960 --> 00:05:43,560 Speaker 1: So I fell asleep in a really good mood. I 94 00:05:43,600 --> 00:05:47,599 Speaker 1: woke up on Wednesday in a freaking amazing mood. I 95 00:05:47,680 --> 00:05:49,960 Speaker 1: went outside, I did my whole prayer. I was like 96 00:05:50,040 --> 00:05:52,239 Speaker 1: under the sun, like the whole thing. It was just great. 97 00:05:52,279 --> 00:05:55,920 Speaker 1: I was so so excited that day because I'm like, Wow, 98 00:05:55,960 --> 00:05:58,800 Speaker 1: this is it. This is the beginning of something new 99 00:05:58,839 --> 00:06:03,000 Speaker 1: for me, and I can't wait. I took it very 100 00:06:03,040 --> 00:06:05,360 Speaker 1: easy that day, and I didn't go to the gym 101 00:06:05,400 --> 00:06:07,120 Speaker 1: because I was like, I want to keep all my 102 00:06:07,279 --> 00:06:09,800 Speaker 1: energy when I have as much energy as I possibly 103 00:06:10,200 --> 00:06:13,159 Speaker 1: can for tonight, and so I took it very easy 104 00:06:13,200 --> 00:06:18,760 Speaker 1: that morning. Finally got to sound check at three o'clock, 105 00:06:19,480 --> 00:06:22,080 Speaker 1: and of course that's where I kind of started getting 106 00:06:22,080 --> 00:06:24,120 Speaker 1: a little nervous because everything was supposed to be already 107 00:06:24,160 --> 00:06:26,480 Speaker 1: set up for me when I got there. You know, 108 00:06:27,160 --> 00:06:29,200 Speaker 1: the musicians were supposed to have their sound check and 109 00:06:29,200 --> 00:06:33,839 Speaker 1: do their like line check with their instruments, but you know, 110 00:06:34,320 --> 00:06:37,880 Speaker 1: shit happens. It's an outside event. The venue was in 111 00:06:37,920 --> 00:06:41,240 Speaker 1: a residential area, which I didn't know because I just 112 00:06:41,680 --> 00:06:44,440 Speaker 1: chose it through pictures and videos because I'm. 113 00:06:44,279 --> 00:06:44,760 Speaker 2: Like, I knew it. 114 00:06:44,760 --> 00:06:45,880 Speaker 1: I felt it in my heart as soon as I 115 00:06:45,920 --> 00:06:47,359 Speaker 1: saw I was like, this is it. But I didn't 116 00:06:47,360 --> 00:06:50,479 Speaker 1: know that it was in a residential area, so we 117 00:06:50,560 --> 00:06:54,320 Speaker 1: had to kind of keep the music at a certain level. 118 00:06:55,520 --> 00:06:57,800 Speaker 1: So that was a little bit frustrating. So I got 119 00:06:57,839 --> 00:07:00,960 Speaker 1: there and I was a little annoyed, and then things, 120 00:07:01,320 --> 00:07:03,800 Speaker 1: you know, weren't flowing. So I didn't do my sound 121 00:07:03,880 --> 00:07:07,000 Speaker 1: check until like five o'clock. And mind you, the party 122 00:07:07,040 --> 00:07:10,560 Speaker 1: started at six. So I got there with my I 123 00:07:10,600 --> 00:07:12,680 Speaker 1: obviously wasn't ready. I was going to do hair and 124 00:07:12,720 --> 00:07:14,680 Speaker 1: makeup there, so I just got hair and makeup. I 125 00:07:14,680 --> 00:07:15,880 Speaker 1: was like, you know, I'm not gonna let this like 126 00:07:15,880 --> 00:07:18,120 Speaker 1: bother me. Everything's gonna be okay. Everything's working out the 127 00:07:18,160 --> 00:07:22,360 Speaker 1: way it needs to work out, and that's okay. Finally 128 00:07:22,360 --> 00:07:25,880 Speaker 1: did my soundcheck. Everything was amazing. I was like, okay, 129 00:07:25,960 --> 00:07:28,080 Speaker 1: my in ears sound good, like we're freaking like, this 130 00:07:28,120 --> 00:07:31,920 Speaker 1: is great. The place was looking phenomenal. I was so happy, 131 00:07:32,600 --> 00:07:35,840 Speaker 1: and finally did my sound check again. 132 00:07:35,960 --> 00:07:36,600 Speaker 2: It was good. 133 00:07:36,840 --> 00:07:41,600 Speaker 1: Got ready and didn't come out until like maybe about 134 00:07:41,640 --> 00:07:46,400 Speaker 1: six forty five, and people were already getting there. People 135 00:07:46,400 --> 00:07:49,480 Speaker 1: were very punctual. People were not running on what I 136 00:07:49,560 --> 00:07:54,080 Speaker 1: call Mexican time, because you tell someone or you told 137 00:07:54,080 --> 00:07:56,160 Speaker 1: like a Latino, okay, be here at six, and they 138 00:07:56,200 --> 00:07:58,040 Speaker 1: end up getting there at seven. But a lot of 139 00:07:58,080 --> 00:08:00,040 Speaker 1: people were running on time, which is really cool. I 140 00:08:00,040 --> 00:08:01,440 Speaker 1: think people were just excited to get out of the 141 00:08:01,480 --> 00:08:04,080 Speaker 1: house because it wasn't raining anymore, so that was really cool. 142 00:08:04,080 --> 00:08:05,960 Speaker 2: It made me really happy. Dude. 143 00:08:06,160 --> 00:08:08,480 Speaker 1: This whole thing was supposed to just be for seventy 144 00:08:08,480 --> 00:08:10,320 Speaker 1: five people, and it was supposed to be something very 145 00:08:10,360 --> 00:08:16,280 Speaker 1: small and intimate, because in reality, it was an idea 146 00:08:16,400 --> 00:08:19,120 Speaker 1: for my docu follow because my docufollow cameras were there, 147 00:08:19,600 --> 00:08:24,600 Speaker 1: and I wanted to do this and show the people 148 00:08:24,640 --> 00:08:28,760 Speaker 1: watching my docu follow that everything we had been working 149 00:08:28,800 --> 00:08:31,880 Speaker 1: on that you guys will watch soon. It was all 150 00:08:31,920 --> 00:08:34,840 Speaker 1: for this for this showcase, right, But then it just 151 00:08:34,840 --> 00:08:43,679 Speaker 1: started growing. So from seventy five people, it turned out 152 00:08:43,720 --> 00:08:46,320 Speaker 1: to I think like one hundred and fifty people were there. 153 00:08:47,160 --> 00:08:49,240 Speaker 1: It was crazy, and I had only gotten the place 154 00:08:49,240 --> 00:08:52,160 Speaker 1: for one hundred and twenty people. So I just had 155 00:08:52,160 --> 00:08:54,040 Speaker 1: to keep adding because people were like confirming at very 156 00:08:54,120 --> 00:08:55,960 Speaker 1: last minute. That is a very latinal thing to do. 157 00:08:56,000 --> 00:08:58,439 Speaker 1: People did not rizp until the day of or the 158 00:08:58,520 --> 00:09:00,719 Speaker 1: day before that. I was like, oh my gosh, guys, 159 00:09:00,760 --> 00:09:02,640 Speaker 1: you guys are stressing me out. But anyway, I was 160 00:09:02,679 --> 00:09:06,360 Speaker 1: just happy that everyone was there, and I wanted there 161 00:09:06,400 --> 00:09:08,079 Speaker 1: to be a lot of food. I was like, it's 162 00:09:08,080 --> 00:09:10,920 Speaker 1: going to be cold, we need and it can't be 163 00:09:11,040 --> 00:09:13,280 Speaker 1: just any bosola. It has to be from a particular place, 164 00:09:13,360 --> 00:09:17,480 Speaker 1: and I want it to be Boyo chicken, red and green. 165 00:09:18,120 --> 00:09:20,760 Speaker 1: I also want there to be Champoao and gon cheat. 166 00:09:20,760 --> 00:09:22,800 Speaker 1: That's because again, it's going to be cold outside and 167 00:09:22,840 --> 00:09:25,600 Speaker 1: I want to make sure my guests are fine. We 168 00:09:25,720 --> 00:09:28,960 Speaker 1: had hot dogs, guys. We had a macha on coffee cart. 169 00:09:29,000 --> 00:09:36,360 Speaker 1: We had permanent jewelry station, a juice bar, a fruit table. 170 00:09:36,640 --> 00:09:40,400 Speaker 1: There were so many things. But that's that's like what 171 00:09:40,440 --> 00:09:42,000 Speaker 1: I'm all about. Like, if you're going to come over 172 00:09:42,000 --> 00:09:44,560 Speaker 1: to my house, if I'm going to host, I'm going 173 00:09:44,640 --> 00:09:46,959 Speaker 1: to make sure that you eat delicious. 174 00:09:47,000 --> 00:09:48,000 Speaker 2: I love feeding people. 175 00:09:48,160 --> 00:09:51,440 Speaker 1: I love going to restaurants and feeding people and showing 176 00:09:51,480 --> 00:09:53,680 Speaker 1: them my favorite foods, like that's why I have foody 177 00:09:53,679 --> 00:09:55,800 Speaker 1: on the go, Like it's really part of my love 178 00:09:55,920 --> 00:09:58,360 Speaker 1: language is to feed people. And I'm like, people are 179 00:09:58,360 --> 00:09:59,840 Speaker 1: going to be cold, but they're not going to be hungry. 180 00:10:00,480 --> 00:10:03,480 Speaker 1: So that was amazing. I got so many compliments on 181 00:10:03,480 --> 00:10:06,240 Speaker 1: the food. People were just so happy and yeah, I 182 00:10:06,280 --> 00:10:08,640 Speaker 1: think the only kind of thing that kind of threw 183 00:10:08,679 --> 00:10:10,760 Speaker 1: me off was the level of the music that had 184 00:10:10,800 --> 00:10:14,080 Speaker 1: to just be controlled because we were in a residential area. 185 00:10:14,720 --> 00:10:17,760 Speaker 1: But other than that, everything was great. I was able 186 00:10:17,800 --> 00:10:21,720 Speaker 1: to say hi to I think everyone, and that was 187 00:10:21,840 --> 00:10:24,600 Speaker 1: very important to me. I thought, for whatever reason, I 188 00:10:24,640 --> 00:10:28,040 Speaker 1: was going to be able to enjoy the party a 189 00:10:28,040 --> 00:10:30,840 Speaker 1: little more. And not that I didn't enjoy it, but 190 00:10:30,880 --> 00:10:32,640 Speaker 1: I thought, Okay, I'm going to be able to just 191 00:10:32,760 --> 00:10:36,880 Speaker 1: dance and really, but no, I had I'm not kidding. 192 00:10:37,000 --> 00:10:40,520 Speaker 1: I think I had two different outfits. Of course, I 193 00:10:41,960 --> 00:10:44,760 Speaker 1: had my let me go out and say hello to 194 00:10:44,800 --> 00:10:47,880 Speaker 1: everyone outfit and then my performance outfit. So to me, 195 00:10:47,960 --> 00:10:49,720 Speaker 1: it was important. I was like, before I go on stage, 196 00:10:49,760 --> 00:10:51,880 Speaker 1: I want to be able to tell everyone and say 197 00:10:52,000 --> 00:10:55,920 Speaker 1: hello and thank everyone for being here personally. And you 198 00:10:56,000 --> 00:10:59,480 Speaker 1: know what threw me off, a lot of people, like 199 00:10:59,559 --> 00:11:01,600 Speaker 1: a lot of people were like, cheeky's do you understand 200 00:11:02,240 --> 00:11:05,559 Speaker 1: that artists don't usually do this. They are like they 201 00:11:05,600 --> 00:11:07,800 Speaker 1: come out, they say hi from Afar, and they do 202 00:11:07,880 --> 00:11:09,839 Speaker 1: their thing and they're not really in the party. And 203 00:11:09,920 --> 00:11:13,240 Speaker 1: you're coming around and saying hello to everyone, And to me, 204 00:11:13,320 --> 00:11:17,000 Speaker 1: I'm like, oh, well, I guess I'm just Janee, you know, 205 00:11:17,320 --> 00:11:20,760 Speaker 1: And this is important. I am so grateful that people 206 00:11:20,800 --> 00:11:23,720 Speaker 1: came out on a Wednesday, as cold as it is, 207 00:11:24,440 --> 00:11:26,840 Speaker 1: to come and listen to this new music that is 208 00:11:27,000 --> 00:11:30,920 Speaker 1: very different. And I made sure that I said, hey, 209 00:11:31,040 --> 00:11:35,760 Speaker 1: this is a soul and sound ceremony, a celebration. It's 210 00:11:35,800 --> 00:11:37,920 Speaker 1: not like a party, because when you put party, that 211 00:11:37,960 --> 00:11:40,079 Speaker 1: means we're gonna drink and freaking party. Like, yes, there 212 00:11:40,120 --> 00:11:43,280 Speaker 1: was alcohol, there was an open bar, but it was 213 00:11:43,280 --> 00:11:46,680 Speaker 1: more of like, you're coming here to feel something, to 214 00:11:46,880 --> 00:11:49,600 Speaker 1: heal some part of you. And so I needed to 215 00:11:49,600 --> 00:11:52,559 Speaker 1: set that tone. And before I go any further, let 216 00:11:52,600 --> 00:11:55,800 Speaker 1: me describe my outfit. Okay, because I was wearing a 217 00:11:56,440 --> 00:12:00,480 Speaker 1: brown corduroid dress that was short in the front and 218 00:12:00,559 --> 00:12:03,280 Speaker 1: had like ruffles at the end of it. In the back, 219 00:12:03,360 --> 00:12:05,480 Speaker 1: it was long, and I had my little cowboy boots 220 00:12:05,480 --> 00:12:08,160 Speaker 1: because I just feel like the cowboy boots still represent 221 00:12:08,320 --> 00:12:12,400 Speaker 1: like Bandan and very much Cheeky's, you know. So I 222 00:12:12,440 --> 00:12:15,119 Speaker 1: mixed the Cheeky's engine and I had like little torquoise 223 00:12:15,200 --> 00:12:19,319 Speaker 1: necklace on. My hair was down. I felt very comfortable, 224 00:12:19,600 --> 00:12:22,600 Speaker 1: like that was important. I always have to feel comfortable 225 00:12:22,600 --> 00:12:24,400 Speaker 1: because if I don't feel comfortable, you'll be able to tell. 226 00:12:25,000 --> 00:12:26,760 Speaker 1: So people were loving that outfit. I had a little 227 00:12:26,800 --> 00:12:29,559 Speaker 1: cute little belt that matched my necklace. The only thing 228 00:12:29,559 --> 00:12:31,560 Speaker 1: that sucked is that I was only in that outfit 229 00:12:31,679 --> 00:12:34,920 Speaker 1: for like, oh my gosh, like an hour, I think 230 00:12:35,000 --> 00:12:37,040 Speaker 1: an hour and a half. And that was me just 231 00:12:37,040 --> 00:12:39,199 Speaker 1: saying hi to everyone. I wasn't really able to eat 232 00:12:39,320 --> 00:12:41,120 Speaker 1: or drink or anything. I was just saying hi to 233 00:12:41,160 --> 00:12:43,280 Speaker 1: everyone because a lot of people showed up, like more 234 00:12:43,280 --> 00:12:47,040 Speaker 1: than I had expected. So after that, I was like okay. 235 00:12:47,120 --> 00:12:50,480 Speaker 1: I introduced a friend of mine, Gustavo Gallindo, who I 236 00:12:50,559 --> 00:12:53,480 Speaker 1: met at the writing camp for this album, and he's 237 00:12:53,520 --> 00:12:56,720 Speaker 1: super talented and he does sound bowls and he plays 238 00:12:56,720 --> 00:13:01,560 Speaker 1: a flute and he facilitated a lot of the healing 239 00:13:01,640 --> 00:13:05,480 Speaker 1: work that we did every day at the writing camp. 240 00:13:05,760 --> 00:13:09,080 Speaker 1: So I wanted to bring that vibe to the release party. 241 00:13:09,160 --> 00:13:11,400 Speaker 1: I'm like, I want us to be all on the 242 00:13:11,440 --> 00:13:13,959 Speaker 1: same frequency, So when I feel it, I'm going to 243 00:13:14,000 --> 00:13:16,800 Speaker 1: go ahead and introduce you, and you'll do that for 244 00:13:16,840 --> 00:13:19,959 Speaker 1: about ten minutes, and I wasn't able to hear it. 245 00:13:20,000 --> 00:13:21,400 Speaker 1: I knew what he was going to do, but I 246 00:13:21,400 --> 00:13:23,560 Speaker 1: wasn't able to experience it myself because I had to 247 00:13:23,559 --> 00:13:25,679 Speaker 1: go get ready and change into like my performance ouf it. 248 00:13:26,640 --> 00:13:29,400 Speaker 1: So I was supposed to go up at eight pm 249 00:13:29,440 --> 00:13:31,960 Speaker 1: and everything was pushed back about thirty minutes or so. 250 00:13:32,960 --> 00:13:36,800 Speaker 1: But when I introduced Gustavo, I let everyone know what 251 00:13:36,920 --> 00:13:40,040 Speaker 1: the vibe was, that this is more of an experience, 252 00:13:41,000 --> 00:13:43,600 Speaker 1: and I was like hoping that everyone was open to it, 253 00:13:44,200 --> 00:13:47,720 Speaker 1: and from what I had experienced at the writing camps, 254 00:13:48,120 --> 00:13:51,160 Speaker 1: he makes you do this thing of putting your hand 255 00:13:51,200 --> 00:13:54,679 Speaker 1: over your heart and really that brings you to being present, 256 00:13:55,480 --> 00:13:58,080 Speaker 1: and everyone did it. I got a lot of different 257 00:13:58,160 --> 00:14:00,840 Speaker 1: comments and feedback that people were like, dude, I don't 258 00:14:00,880 --> 00:14:04,400 Speaker 1: know what happened, but the energy shifted and we all 259 00:14:04,440 --> 00:14:08,440 Speaker 1: were like there and present and connected in some way. 260 00:14:09,120 --> 00:14:11,320 Speaker 1: And that's exactly what I wanted, because we did that 261 00:14:11,360 --> 00:14:13,400 Speaker 1: at the writing camp and that was like my vision 262 00:14:13,440 --> 00:14:14,960 Speaker 1: and I was like, I don't know, but I need 263 00:14:14,960 --> 00:14:16,640 Speaker 1: Gustavo to be here. I don't care how much he 264 00:14:16,720 --> 00:14:19,240 Speaker 1: charges me, but this is the vibe, and I want 265 00:14:19,280 --> 00:14:22,280 Speaker 1: to do this at my concerts as well, or at 266 00:14:22,320 --> 00:14:25,680 Speaker 1: these shows, cause again it's it's a different vibe completely. 267 00:14:26,320 --> 00:14:29,400 Speaker 1: So that's why I'm calling it the al Ma Delus experience, right. 268 00:14:29,800 --> 00:14:31,440 Speaker 1: So I wanted to bring a little bit of that 269 00:14:32,120 --> 00:14:34,520 Speaker 1: to the release party or to the release celebration, should 270 00:14:34,520 --> 00:14:36,880 Speaker 1: I say. And people loved it from what I hear. 271 00:14:37,000 --> 00:14:39,240 Speaker 1: I mean again, I wasn't there, but they were telling me, oh, 272 00:14:39,240 --> 00:14:42,080 Speaker 1: he made us put our handover our heart and he 273 00:14:42,160 --> 00:14:44,960 Speaker 1: was playing the flute and he had his sound bowls, 274 00:14:45,480 --> 00:14:48,200 Speaker 1: and that was exactly what I wanted. And people loved it, 275 00:14:48,280 --> 00:14:51,640 Speaker 1: even people that have never had a sound bath, or 276 00:14:51,680 --> 00:14:53,800 Speaker 1: have never experienced a sound bath. We're like, dude, this 277 00:14:53,920 --> 00:14:57,200 Speaker 1: is awesome. There's something here. So that made me really happy. 278 00:14:58,840 --> 00:15:00,960 Speaker 1: And while that was going on, I was in my 279 00:15:01,040 --> 00:15:04,800 Speaker 1: dressing room getting ready and changing. I put my outfits together. 280 00:15:05,160 --> 00:15:07,800 Speaker 1: Actually the first one my stylist had already put together 281 00:15:07,840 --> 00:15:09,360 Speaker 1: for me. He had already put it to the side 282 00:15:09,360 --> 00:15:11,240 Speaker 1: for me. I just chose to wear it that night. 283 00:15:11,920 --> 00:15:14,800 Speaker 1: But my performance outfit, I didn't know what I was 284 00:15:14,840 --> 00:15:17,240 Speaker 1: going to wear until that day. I wanted to see 285 00:15:17,280 --> 00:15:18,760 Speaker 1: how I was feeling that day, and again I was 286 00:15:18,800 --> 00:15:20,680 Speaker 1: so happy. I was dancing, and I was like in 287 00:15:20,680 --> 00:15:22,840 Speaker 1: my glam room, listening to the music and getting in 288 00:15:22,880 --> 00:15:25,640 Speaker 1: the vibe, and I knew that I wanted something light. 289 00:15:25,680 --> 00:15:28,200 Speaker 1: I knew that I wanted to be barefoot. Again, it's 290 00:15:28,240 --> 00:15:30,920 Speaker 1: an outside venue, and I was a little worried. I 291 00:15:30,960 --> 00:15:32,040 Speaker 1: was like, I don't want to get sick. But I 292 00:15:32,080 --> 00:15:33,800 Speaker 1: was like, Okay, I'm not going to call that upon myself. 293 00:15:33,840 --> 00:15:36,280 Speaker 1: I'm just going to go with the vision. So I 294 00:15:36,400 --> 00:15:39,040 Speaker 1: just had that in mind because obviously outfits looked different 295 00:15:39,200 --> 00:15:41,960 Speaker 1: when you have shoes or high heels or boots or not. 296 00:15:42,400 --> 00:15:44,600 Speaker 1: And I was going to be barefoot. So I tried 297 00:15:44,680 --> 00:15:48,080 Speaker 1: on so many different things, and the outfit I wore, 298 00:15:48,920 --> 00:15:56,440 Speaker 1: I felt was very weirdly beautiful because I wore like 299 00:15:57,240 --> 00:16:02,600 Speaker 1: a fringe top that was very loose with a fitted 300 00:16:03,280 --> 00:16:06,640 Speaker 1: skirt that was similar. They were very similar in color, 301 00:16:06,680 --> 00:16:10,280 Speaker 1: they were like a bone color, but they were very different. 302 00:16:10,320 --> 00:16:12,680 Speaker 1: There was lace on the skirt, but somehow I made 303 00:16:12,720 --> 00:16:14,240 Speaker 1: it work, I tucked it in. I was like, okay, 304 00:16:14,280 --> 00:16:16,520 Speaker 1: I'm gonna make like, just show my waist a little bit, 305 00:16:17,280 --> 00:16:20,040 Speaker 1: because again, this is my first time performing this music 306 00:16:20,080 --> 00:16:22,240 Speaker 1: and I need to be comfortable and I need to 307 00:16:22,240 --> 00:16:24,720 Speaker 1: be able to move around. And that's exactly what I 308 00:16:24,760 --> 00:16:28,280 Speaker 1: focused on. And when I first showed Kim, my assistant, 309 00:16:28,280 --> 00:16:30,080 Speaker 1: the ALPHI, she's the only one that saw it before. 310 00:16:31,000 --> 00:16:32,640 Speaker 1: I said, what do you think? And you should have 311 00:16:32,680 --> 00:16:37,600 Speaker 1: seen Kim's face. She was like, well, she didn't like it. 312 00:16:38,080 --> 00:16:40,480 Speaker 1: She was like, well, I don't know, like the shirt's 313 00:16:40,480 --> 00:16:41,960 Speaker 1: a little loose, like maybe you need it. Like she 314 00:16:42,040 --> 00:16:43,520 Speaker 1: wasn't really feeling it. But I was like, you know what, 315 00:16:44,680 --> 00:16:46,320 Speaker 1: I'm feeling it, and I need to trust it. I 316 00:16:46,320 --> 00:16:47,840 Speaker 1: was like, look, kim my hair. I don't have my 317 00:16:47,880 --> 00:16:49,640 Speaker 1: hair and makeup done right now. It's fine, you just 318 00:16:49,640 --> 00:16:51,240 Speaker 1: have to trust me. She's like, yeah, yeah, it doesn't 319 00:16:51,280 --> 00:16:54,080 Speaker 1: look bad, but it's not what I expected. I'm like, yeah, 320 00:16:54,120 --> 00:16:55,360 Speaker 1: I was like, I get it. I was say, but 321 00:16:56,360 --> 00:16:58,840 Speaker 1: what I love the most. Because my stylist wasn't available. 322 00:16:58,880 --> 00:17:00,920 Speaker 1: He has some personal things things going on right now 323 00:17:01,120 --> 00:17:03,760 Speaker 1: that he had attend to. So I put the outfit 324 00:17:03,800 --> 00:17:07,520 Speaker 1: together and I took so many different, so many different 325 00:17:07,560 --> 00:17:09,680 Speaker 1: jewelry pieces that I had in the closet because again 326 00:17:09,760 --> 00:17:11,800 Speaker 1: I was like, I don't know, like I just have 327 00:17:11,920 --> 00:17:14,080 Speaker 1: this vision and I'm going to take everything I need 328 00:17:14,119 --> 00:17:15,680 Speaker 1: to take and it'll work out. I was like, I'm 329 00:17:15,680 --> 00:17:17,760 Speaker 1: only going to take this option for clothes because this 330 00:17:17,800 --> 00:17:19,320 Speaker 1: is what I'm going to wear no matter what, Like 331 00:17:19,359 --> 00:17:21,560 Speaker 1: I'm committing to this. This is what I'm committing to. 332 00:17:23,040 --> 00:17:24,360 Speaker 2: And it worked out. Guys. 333 00:17:24,480 --> 00:17:26,800 Speaker 1: People really really loved it, and I feel like now 334 00:17:26,800 --> 00:17:29,080 Speaker 1: that I watch the videos, I'm like, wow, it was cute. 335 00:17:29,400 --> 00:17:31,800 Speaker 2: Even like my hair. I had told my hair guy. 336 00:17:31,920 --> 00:17:38,000 Speaker 1: I sent him Tony Tony Wonderhands is my hairstylist, and anyway, 337 00:17:38,080 --> 00:17:40,879 Speaker 1: I sent him pictures the night before of what I 338 00:17:40,920 --> 00:17:42,520 Speaker 1: wanted my hair to look like. I was like, dude, 339 00:17:42,560 --> 00:17:44,480 Speaker 1: I know it's late, but can you get some type 340 00:17:44,480 --> 00:17:47,480 Speaker 1: of string I want like indigenous something in my hair, 341 00:17:47,480 --> 00:17:49,639 Speaker 1: Indigenous braids or something, and I only want it for 342 00:17:49,680 --> 00:17:51,800 Speaker 1: the performance. So we only have twenty minutes to get 343 00:17:51,800 --> 00:17:53,880 Speaker 1: it done. So he was super stressed out. I had 344 00:17:53,920 --> 00:17:56,400 Speaker 1: just let him know the night before, but he got 345 00:17:56,400 --> 00:18:00,919 Speaker 1: it done and he got like these leather like guys 346 00:18:00,960 --> 00:18:02,800 Speaker 1: that oh my gosh. I didn't even want to take 347 00:18:02,840 --> 00:18:06,520 Speaker 1: them off, like almost looked like like dreadlocks, but with 348 00:18:06,680 --> 00:18:09,359 Speaker 1: string in my hair. And I wanted more, but there 349 00:18:09,440 --> 00:18:11,560 Speaker 1: was only time for two. But I think like it 350 00:18:11,600 --> 00:18:16,600 Speaker 1: worked out perfectly. And Richard, my manager, was very worried 351 00:18:16,600 --> 00:18:18,679 Speaker 1: because he's like, it's cold, your clothes seems to be 352 00:18:18,760 --> 00:18:22,480 Speaker 1: very thin, and I wasn't even I didn't even tell 353 00:18:22,520 --> 00:18:24,320 Speaker 1: him that I was going to walk out barefoot, because 354 00:18:24,320 --> 00:18:26,760 Speaker 1: I did. What I did was I'm like, so I'm 355 00:18:26,800 --> 00:18:31,760 Speaker 1: not completely barefoot. I got like nude socks, and then 356 00:18:31,880 --> 00:18:33,680 Speaker 1: over the nude socks that were like kind of short 357 00:18:33,680 --> 00:18:35,480 Speaker 1: so you couldn't really see that there were long socks, 358 00:18:35,520 --> 00:18:39,000 Speaker 1: there were short socks like ankle socks. I put nylons 359 00:18:39,280 --> 00:18:42,040 Speaker 1: over the socks, so I wasn't barefoot barefoot, but I 360 00:18:42,040 --> 00:18:45,040 Speaker 1: could still feel the cold going through my feet. But 361 00:18:45,119 --> 00:18:46,800 Speaker 1: I was like, I'm going to just not stress them out. 362 00:18:46,840 --> 00:18:49,480 Speaker 1: I'm going to come out with like my little they're 363 00:18:49,480 --> 00:18:52,560 Speaker 1: called Rothi's like little like slip on shoes, just so 364 00:18:52,600 --> 00:19:01,160 Speaker 1: he doesn't get nervous. So my whole was I wanted 365 00:19:01,160 --> 00:19:03,679 Speaker 1: to have an entrance. I was like, okay, guys, I 366 00:19:03,720 --> 00:19:06,679 Speaker 1: know this isn't like an actual show show, but this 367 00:19:06,760 --> 00:19:12,040 Speaker 1: is my first time performing these songs, and the first 368 00:19:12,080 --> 00:19:15,080 Speaker 1: impression is everything. And I knew that there were going 369 00:19:15,119 --> 00:19:17,439 Speaker 1: to be a lot of industry people and a lot 370 00:19:17,480 --> 00:19:19,880 Speaker 1: of people that were curious. Even my friends were very 371 00:19:20,920 --> 00:19:27,640 Speaker 1: curious to see the Janet side on stage because they've 372 00:19:27,640 --> 00:19:30,520 Speaker 1: seen me as Cheeky's and even myself, I didn't know 373 00:19:30,560 --> 00:19:33,120 Speaker 1: what I was going to do. I'm not a huge planner. 374 00:19:33,160 --> 00:19:35,280 Speaker 1: I don't really like to plan what I'm going to say, 375 00:19:36,200 --> 00:19:38,040 Speaker 1: even on stage. I'm just like, I'm going to let 376 00:19:38,200 --> 00:19:42,280 Speaker 1: just the moment speak for itself, and that always works 377 00:19:42,280 --> 00:19:45,919 Speaker 1: out for me. But I knew that I wanted an entrance, 378 00:19:46,240 --> 00:19:49,439 Speaker 1: and when I told Richard what I wanted, He's like, 379 00:19:49,480 --> 00:19:51,879 Speaker 1: are you sure you want to pay just this amount 380 00:19:51,920 --> 00:19:55,399 Speaker 1: of money for drummers to come in with you? And 381 00:19:55,440 --> 00:19:58,720 Speaker 1: I'm like, yes, this is what I'm envisioning, and I 382 00:19:58,720 --> 00:20:01,240 Speaker 1: think it's worth it. So I got what I wanted, 383 00:20:01,280 --> 00:20:03,520 Speaker 1: and I was so happy. The entrance I had was 384 00:20:03,560 --> 00:20:06,680 Speaker 1: so awesome in my I mean, I think people really 385 00:20:06,760 --> 00:20:09,360 Speaker 1: liked it. And so basically I had two guys from 386 00:20:09,359 --> 00:20:11,879 Speaker 1: Peru who I had just met that day really nice guys, 387 00:20:12,520 --> 00:20:14,240 Speaker 1: and I told him exactly what I wanted that I 388 00:20:14,240 --> 00:20:16,280 Speaker 1: wanted to to, Like I wanted the DJ to be 389 00:20:16,280 --> 00:20:18,280 Speaker 1: playing a song, and then all of a sudden it 390 00:20:18,320 --> 00:20:20,480 Speaker 1: turns off, like there's no announcement that I'm coming out, 391 00:20:20,520 --> 00:20:24,200 Speaker 1: but like you hear the drums and the flute because 392 00:20:24,200 --> 00:20:26,720 Speaker 1: I love the flute. So Gustava was playing the flute 393 00:20:26,840 --> 00:20:29,480 Speaker 1: and I was hiding, and then whenever I felt it, 394 00:20:29,840 --> 00:20:32,800 Speaker 1: I walked out and I kind of like went through 395 00:20:32,840 --> 00:20:35,960 Speaker 1: the two guys that were playing the drums, and that's 396 00:20:35,960 --> 00:20:39,680 Speaker 1: where it started. And I sang all five songs because 397 00:20:39,760 --> 00:20:42,439 Speaker 1: Richard only wanted me to sing four, but I'm like, 398 00:20:42,640 --> 00:20:45,439 Speaker 1: there are five songs on this album. I'm either going 399 00:20:45,480 --> 00:20:48,639 Speaker 1: to sing three or five because four it just doesn't 400 00:20:48,640 --> 00:20:50,920 Speaker 1: feel right, you know. And we went back and forth 401 00:20:50,960 --> 00:20:53,040 Speaker 1: with that, but again I was like, dude, I need 402 00:20:53,040 --> 00:20:55,640 Speaker 1: to be very outspoken about this music because it means 403 00:20:55,680 --> 00:20:58,359 Speaker 1: so much to me. It needs to be exactly what 404 00:20:58,440 --> 00:21:01,320 Speaker 1: I want, and so respected it and we did five. 405 00:21:01,359 --> 00:21:02,000 Speaker 2: We did the five. 406 00:21:02,840 --> 00:21:06,280 Speaker 1: The first song that I sang, which is Soulmos, was 407 00:21:06,800 --> 00:21:10,120 Speaker 1: the last song we rehearsed because that was the song 408 00:21:10,160 --> 00:21:13,080 Speaker 1: that was left out. There was a miscommunication, but either way, 409 00:21:13,119 --> 00:21:15,359 Speaker 1: they learned it. And I was like, I want to 410 00:21:15,359 --> 00:21:18,480 Speaker 1: start with this song because of the meaning behind it 411 00:21:18,560 --> 00:21:21,359 Speaker 1: and what the song says, and I dedicated it to 412 00:21:21,400 --> 00:21:23,840 Speaker 1: the crowd. I said, this is my dedication to you guys, 413 00:21:23,880 --> 00:21:26,560 Speaker 1: thank you for being here. And basically what the song 414 00:21:26,600 --> 00:21:32,040 Speaker 1: says is this earth, this land is all of ours. 415 00:21:32,080 --> 00:21:34,320 Speaker 1: It's not anyone's, but all of ours, you know, And 416 00:21:34,359 --> 00:21:37,080 Speaker 1: that's what basically the gist of the song is. And 417 00:21:37,160 --> 00:21:39,320 Speaker 1: with everything going on in the world, I thought it 418 00:21:39,320 --> 00:21:41,879 Speaker 1: would be a good way to start it. And it 419 00:21:41,960 --> 00:21:46,919 Speaker 1: was awesome, and of course, you know, things happen, and 420 00:21:47,720 --> 00:21:49,800 Speaker 1: at first I was a little thrown off because I 421 00:21:49,800 --> 00:21:52,240 Speaker 1: couldn't really hear my in ears and they kept cracking, 422 00:21:53,400 --> 00:21:56,480 Speaker 1: and I don't know what changed on the board, but 423 00:21:56,720 --> 00:22:00,960 Speaker 1: it wasn't the sound that I had when I rehearsed, 424 00:22:00,960 --> 00:22:03,399 Speaker 1: and it could have been not the engineer's fault. Actually 425 00:22:03,440 --> 00:22:05,760 Speaker 1: it probably was just there are more people in the 426 00:22:05,840 --> 00:22:09,639 Speaker 1: room and sound changes, so I wasn't getting the same 427 00:22:09,880 --> 00:22:12,920 Speaker 1: feedback as far as like sound goes in my ears 428 00:22:13,480 --> 00:22:17,359 Speaker 1: that I was when there wasn't anyone there, So that's normal. 429 00:22:17,440 --> 00:22:19,080 Speaker 1: I just it caught me off guard. So at first 430 00:22:19,119 --> 00:22:21,600 Speaker 1: I was like, oh my gosh, everything's already so new, 431 00:22:21,680 --> 00:22:22,720 Speaker 1: and then I just started getting a. 432 00:22:22,680 --> 00:22:23,640 Speaker 2: Little bit more comfortable. 433 00:22:24,080 --> 00:22:26,600 Speaker 1: Like the middle of the second song, I think was 434 00:22:27,000 --> 00:22:29,919 Speaker 1: when I started feeling very comfortable and people were singing 435 00:22:29,960 --> 00:22:33,320 Speaker 1: and happy, and the vibe was great, and just like 436 00:22:33,400 --> 00:22:37,359 Speaker 1: the stage with the tree over me, it was just 437 00:22:37,400 --> 00:22:41,200 Speaker 1: the vibe, guys, like it was even better, like I said, 438 00:22:41,240 --> 00:22:43,919 Speaker 1: than I expected, and then what I had envisioned. So 439 00:22:43,960 --> 00:22:49,280 Speaker 1: I sang so almost then Fennichs, then Flores, then good Morning, 440 00:22:49,280 --> 00:22:52,000 Speaker 1: and then Pamihenthe. So I wanted to kind of leave 441 00:22:52,040 --> 00:22:55,200 Speaker 1: the crowd on like a high, you know, And I 442 00:22:55,240 --> 00:22:58,440 Speaker 1: think it worked out beautifully and I got a lot 443 00:22:58,520 --> 00:23:02,760 Speaker 1: of very very great comments there and then afterwards and 444 00:23:03,320 --> 00:23:05,520 Speaker 1: Richard and the team were like, We're so proud of you, 445 00:23:05,680 --> 00:23:09,400 Speaker 1: and just felt really good because it's been a long 446 00:23:09,440 --> 00:23:13,280 Speaker 1: time coming and it's still scary. It's still scary till 447 00:23:13,320 --> 00:23:16,760 Speaker 1: this day. I still sometimes have doubts of like, Okay, 448 00:23:16,840 --> 00:23:18,840 Speaker 1: do I want to continue, do I want to finish 449 00:23:18,920 --> 00:23:20,639 Speaker 1: the second part of the album, which would come out 450 00:23:20,680 --> 00:23:23,320 Speaker 1: in March, because this is just an EP, this is 451 00:23:23,400 --> 00:23:28,199 Speaker 1: just an introduction, and I'm like yes, I have to 452 00:23:28,280 --> 00:23:31,280 Speaker 1: finish what I started because the doubt comes in and 453 00:23:31,359 --> 00:23:36,000 Speaker 1: because we already have it all figured out with my 454 00:23:36,119 --> 00:23:39,879 Speaker 1: banda music that that's just like the easier way, to 455 00:23:39,920 --> 00:23:42,320 Speaker 1: be honest, but I'm like, no, I don't want the 456 00:23:42,359 --> 00:23:44,679 Speaker 1: easier way. I want this way and this is what 457 00:23:44,760 --> 00:23:48,160 Speaker 1: feels right. And I'm sure you guys can relate. When 458 00:23:48,200 --> 00:23:53,960 Speaker 1: you're starting something new or you know, stepping into something different, 459 00:23:54,880 --> 00:23:57,639 Speaker 1: you have those doubts of damn, is this really what 460 00:23:57,720 --> 00:24:00,600 Speaker 1: I want to do because it takes work, it takes 461 00:24:00,640 --> 00:24:03,560 Speaker 1: hard work, and I'm basically starting all over again. Guys 462 00:24:03,600 --> 00:24:07,119 Speaker 1: like Cheeky's like I can do with my you know, 463 00:24:07,200 --> 00:24:11,439 Speaker 1: eyes closed. But Jane, it's like this is different. But 464 00:24:11,440 --> 00:24:12,800 Speaker 1: then I'm like, I don't want to think about it 465 00:24:12,840 --> 00:24:15,720 Speaker 1: too much because I know how I felt on stage. 466 00:24:15,800 --> 00:24:17,360 Speaker 2: I know that I wanted. 467 00:24:17,119 --> 00:24:23,560 Speaker 1: More and granted in my head like it wasn't perfect. 468 00:24:23,960 --> 00:24:26,119 Speaker 1: Maybe the people that were there didn't really realize it, 469 00:24:26,200 --> 00:24:31,320 Speaker 1: but it wasn't perfect because of course with the cracking 470 00:24:31,400 --> 00:24:33,919 Speaker 1: and everything. The songs are new. I was forgetting the lyrics. 471 00:24:33,920 --> 00:24:35,760 Speaker 1: I forgot them like three times. I think on certain 472 00:24:35,800 --> 00:24:38,040 Speaker 1: parts it could have been the nerves. It could have 473 00:24:38,080 --> 00:24:41,360 Speaker 1: been like the cracking, the distraction, but I was very 474 00:24:41,359 --> 00:24:43,119 Speaker 1: honest on stage. I was like, guys, thank you for 475 00:24:43,200 --> 00:24:45,720 Speaker 1: being patient, Like this is my first time singing me 476 00:24:45,840 --> 00:24:48,640 Speaker 1: songs live, and I'm so grateful that you guys are 477 00:24:48,640 --> 00:24:51,040 Speaker 1: here and that you guys are listening. But I that's 478 00:24:51,080 --> 00:24:54,280 Speaker 1: just who I am. That's very janee. I'm very just honest. 479 00:24:55,040 --> 00:24:57,320 Speaker 1: And I had to because I was like, I'm pretty 480 00:24:57,359 --> 00:24:59,480 Speaker 1: sure people can notice, but like in my head, I 481 00:24:59,560 --> 00:25:05,119 Speaker 1: just did think it was going to be different, but 482 00:25:05,200 --> 00:25:09,760 Speaker 1: it was perfectly imperfect. And I'm very very proud of 483 00:25:09,760 --> 00:25:13,679 Speaker 1: myself and I'm so grateful with my band, and I 484 00:25:13,720 --> 00:25:15,240 Speaker 1: want to go on tour, like I want to go 485 00:25:15,280 --> 00:25:20,440 Speaker 1: on tour with this, Like I the next day, I 486 00:25:20,520 --> 00:25:25,200 Speaker 1: was exhausted, but it was a different type of exhausted. 487 00:25:25,280 --> 00:25:28,200 Speaker 1: I feel like I was because I did take off 488 00:25:28,200 --> 00:25:29,760 Speaker 1: my shoes. I forgot to tell you guys that part. 489 00:25:29,760 --> 00:25:31,280 Speaker 1: So I did take off my shoes. Like when I 490 00:25:31,320 --> 00:25:33,400 Speaker 1: walked out, I had my little slippers on, and then 491 00:25:33,400 --> 00:25:35,480 Speaker 1: I took them off midway and I left them in 492 00:25:35,520 --> 00:25:37,760 Speaker 1: the middle of like whatever, I don't even remember where, 493 00:25:38,160 --> 00:25:42,280 Speaker 1: and I went on stage barefoot. So the next day 494 00:25:43,440 --> 00:25:45,480 Speaker 1: I was feeling it a little bit in my throat, 495 00:25:45,840 --> 00:25:47,960 Speaker 1: and I was like, okay, I'm feeling a little bit sick. 496 00:25:48,000 --> 00:25:50,600 Speaker 2: But it could have also been just it was a 497 00:25:50,640 --> 00:25:51,760 Speaker 2: lot going on, you know. 498 00:25:51,800 --> 00:25:54,239 Speaker 1: I wasn't able to just sit down and eat and like, 499 00:25:54,320 --> 00:25:57,879 Speaker 1: you know, but I'm fine with that because for real, like, 500 00:25:58,760 --> 00:26:02,760 Speaker 1: I was very very happy that all the people that 501 00:26:02,800 --> 00:26:06,320 Speaker 1: I invited were there, so that made me really happy 502 00:26:06,320 --> 00:26:07,920 Speaker 1: and I wanted to show my appreciation. 503 00:26:08,840 --> 00:26:09,480 Speaker 2: But I was. 504 00:26:11,240 --> 00:26:13,080 Speaker 1: Tired the next day, and I think that's when a 505 00:26:13,160 --> 00:26:15,240 Speaker 1: little bit of the doubt came in, which is weird 506 00:26:15,359 --> 00:26:17,760 Speaker 1: because I'm like, what is this, Like, I know how 507 00:26:17,800 --> 00:26:20,480 Speaker 1: I felt yesterday. I know I'm getting such great feedback. 508 00:26:21,240 --> 00:26:24,239 Speaker 1: Why am I feeling like this? And I think it 509 00:26:24,320 --> 00:26:27,720 Speaker 1: was just the fact that I'm very hard on myself 510 00:26:27,760 --> 00:26:29,800 Speaker 1: sometimes and I'm like, oh my gosh, I could have 511 00:26:29,840 --> 00:26:31,320 Speaker 1: done better. I could have done this, I should have 512 00:26:31,359 --> 00:26:34,520 Speaker 1: practiced more, and all that starts coming in. Instead of 513 00:26:34,640 --> 00:26:39,639 Speaker 1: just appreciating the good things, I focused on one little 514 00:26:39,680 --> 00:26:44,080 Speaker 1: thing instead of like really focusing on Hey, all these 515 00:26:44,080 --> 00:26:47,399 Speaker 1: people showed up. Everyone was happy. The feedback was great. 516 00:26:47,400 --> 00:26:50,480 Speaker 1: Everyone said, your voice sounded good, it sounded amazing. Why 517 00:26:50,480 --> 00:26:54,159 Speaker 1: are you fixating on this little thing. Shit happens, Janney. 518 00:26:54,440 --> 00:26:56,760 Speaker 1: So I kind of had to like talk my way 519 00:26:56,800 --> 00:26:59,800 Speaker 1: through it, and everything was better and I felt better. 520 00:27:00,520 --> 00:27:02,479 Speaker 1: And I did get a little sick on Friday. I 521 00:27:02,520 --> 00:27:05,119 Speaker 1: was in bed all day, but I thought it. I 522 00:27:05,160 --> 00:27:08,879 Speaker 1: was like, no, take my vitamin see. And I was 523 00:27:08,920 --> 00:27:11,320 Speaker 1: in bed most of the day on Friday, but I 524 00:27:11,359 --> 00:27:12,720 Speaker 1: think my body just needed the rest. 525 00:27:12,760 --> 00:27:13,800 Speaker 2: I think it was just such a. 526 00:27:13,800 --> 00:27:18,399 Speaker 1: High and then you know, the low and it was 527 00:27:18,440 --> 00:27:21,159 Speaker 1: so drastic that I just needed to listen to my 528 00:27:21,160 --> 00:27:23,240 Speaker 1: body and rest. And I did that and I felt 529 00:27:23,280 --> 00:27:24,879 Speaker 1: a lot better, and I was just I'm like, I 530 00:27:24,960 --> 00:27:27,639 Speaker 1: just want to spend some time with myself because the 531 00:27:27,720 --> 00:27:29,199 Speaker 1: medio had to work. So I was in bed with 532 00:27:29,240 --> 00:27:32,560 Speaker 1: the dogs and I was just like chilling, guys, big chillen. 533 00:27:33,400 --> 00:27:37,199 Speaker 1: And I was able to like really think about the 534 00:27:37,280 --> 00:27:40,639 Speaker 1: event and really focus on the good and the positive things. 535 00:27:40,760 --> 00:27:44,000 Speaker 1: And I feel a lot better and I'm just I'm happy. 536 00:27:44,080 --> 00:27:47,119 Speaker 1: I'm happy. This is new. And when something's new and 537 00:27:47,160 --> 00:27:50,840 Speaker 1: it's unfamiliar, you know, you feel and you doubt things. 538 00:27:51,000 --> 00:27:53,480 Speaker 1: And that's what was happening. And I just wanted to 539 00:27:53,520 --> 00:27:55,760 Speaker 1: share that with you guys, because I know, a lot 540 00:27:55,760 --> 00:27:58,119 Speaker 1: of people saw it on social media, and again, like 541 00:27:58,160 --> 00:28:00,520 Speaker 1: I mentioned in the beginning of the episode, there were 542 00:28:00,600 --> 00:28:03,000 Speaker 1: people that were a little hurt that I didn't invite them, 543 00:28:03,000 --> 00:28:05,119 Speaker 1: and it wasn't intentional. It just you forget, you know 544 00:28:05,119 --> 00:28:06,640 Speaker 1: what I mean, Like I need to make a list 545 00:28:07,040 --> 00:28:08,800 Speaker 1: of like these are the people I need to invite 546 00:28:08,840 --> 00:28:11,760 Speaker 1: to these events. You know. That was another thing that 547 00:28:12,359 --> 00:28:14,040 Speaker 1: brought me down a little bit because I did get 548 00:28:14,040 --> 00:28:17,359 Speaker 1: messages from like people, thanks for inviting me, and I'm like, dude, 549 00:28:17,440 --> 00:28:21,400 Speaker 1: like I and some of those people I haven't even 550 00:28:21,480 --> 00:28:24,560 Speaker 1: responded to because it was just a little bit of 551 00:28:25,600 --> 00:28:28,320 Speaker 1: disappointment a little bit because I get it, but I 552 00:28:28,359 --> 00:28:31,960 Speaker 1: was like, dude, I'm sorry, Like I it wasn't even intentional. Anyway, 553 00:28:32,760 --> 00:28:36,919 Speaker 1: I've been praying about that of just showing me the 554 00:28:36,920 --> 00:28:38,560 Speaker 1: people that are meant to be in my life and 555 00:28:38,600 --> 00:28:42,480 Speaker 1: in this new vibe and who isn't and it's just 556 00:28:42,520 --> 00:28:45,080 Speaker 1: kind of showing for itself. But anyway, that's besides the point. 557 00:28:45,680 --> 00:28:47,480 Speaker 1: The reason I wanted to talk about this because I 558 00:28:47,520 --> 00:28:50,440 Speaker 1: wanted to talk about the experience, and I got a 559 00:28:50,440 --> 00:28:54,160 Speaker 1: lot of great feedback on even on social media, So 560 00:28:54,280 --> 00:28:58,280 Speaker 1: thank you guys. For that, but also because I want 561 00:28:58,320 --> 00:29:02,440 Speaker 1: you guys to no Like I always tell you, I'm 562 00:29:02,520 --> 00:29:06,400 Speaker 1: just like you. You know, I'm not superwoman. 563 00:29:06,720 --> 00:29:07,680 Speaker 2: You know there are. 564 00:29:09,120 --> 00:29:14,480 Speaker 1: Things and doubts and times that I question myself. But 565 00:29:14,520 --> 00:29:16,600 Speaker 1: at the end of the day, when you know that 566 00:29:16,720 --> 00:29:19,200 Speaker 1: you're doing things for the right reasons and your heart 567 00:29:19,280 --> 00:29:24,280 Speaker 1: is in the right place and you know that what 568 00:29:24,320 --> 00:29:27,840 Speaker 1: you want to do will help others, there will always 569 00:29:27,880 --> 00:29:31,920 Speaker 1: be that thing, that energy, whatever you want to call it, 570 00:29:32,840 --> 00:29:36,720 Speaker 1: of doubt and fear that try to tap into that 571 00:29:37,080 --> 00:29:40,479 Speaker 1: place of light. It happens to me as well, and 572 00:29:40,520 --> 00:29:46,200 Speaker 1: we just need to stay diligent and hold the line 573 00:29:46,400 --> 00:29:50,080 Speaker 1: and know where we're going and why we're going there. 574 00:29:50,240 --> 00:29:52,680 Speaker 1: And I even had to remind myself of that the 575 00:29:52,720 --> 00:29:57,800 Speaker 1: next day, even after having a beautiful, wonderful, successful night, 576 00:29:58,280 --> 00:30:01,800 Speaker 1: those doubts still came through, and that fear, because again, 577 00:30:01,880 --> 00:30:06,520 Speaker 1: this is very new, and it's so new that it's 578 00:30:06,960 --> 00:30:09,880 Speaker 1: it is starting all over and trying to find that 579 00:30:09,960 --> 00:30:13,160 Speaker 1: audience that's into this. But I have a very good 580 00:30:13,200 --> 00:30:17,200 Speaker 1: feeling and I think something great is going to happen, 581 00:30:17,240 --> 00:30:20,600 Speaker 1: not only for my career, but for the people that 582 00:30:20,640 --> 00:30:23,000 Speaker 1: are going to choose to listen to this music and 583 00:30:23,040 --> 00:30:26,320 Speaker 1: come to this experience of al Madlus, these concerts, these 584 00:30:26,360 --> 00:30:28,920 Speaker 1: shows that I'm going to have, and it's going to 585 00:30:28,960 --> 00:30:31,160 Speaker 1: be so big and so amazing that I'm going to 586 00:30:31,240 --> 00:30:34,160 Speaker 1: look back at this moment and know, Okay, now I 587 00:30:34,200 --> 00:30:37,400 Speaker 1: get it. Now, I know why I was feeling that way, 588 00:30:37,440 --> 00:30:41,840 Speaker 1: because something out there, the energies that don't want this 589 00:30:41,920 --> 00:30:44,680 Speaker 1: to happen. It just it starts seeping in. And I'm 590 00:30:44,680 --> 00:30:47,840 Speaker 1: not saying there's like one person or someone doing some 591 00:30:47,920 --> 00:30:50,080 Speaker 1: type of witchcraft, that's what I'm talking about. What I'm 592 00:30:50,080 --> 00:30:52,840 Speaker 1: saying is just you know, there's energy, there's good, there's bad, 593 00:30:52,920 --> 00:30:54,719 Speaker 1: the ying, the yang, you know, and I don't want 594 00:30:54,720 --> 00:30:56,840 Speaker 1: to get too much into that, but that was my 595 00:30:56,880 --> 00:30:58,280 Speaker 1: whole point, and that's why I wanted to share this. 596 00:30:58,360 --> 00:31:01,160 Speaker 1: I wanted to obviously talk to you guys about how 597 00:31:01,960 --> 00:31:04,440 Speaker 1: it was and my experience and the behind the scenes 598 00:31:04,480 --> 00:31:06,880 Speaker 1: in a very intimate way here on my podcast, but 599 00:31:06,960 --> 00:31:08,560 Speaker 1: also to let you guys know that at the end 600 00:31:08,600 --> 00:31:12,600 Speaker 1: of the day, I am human and just like you guys, 601 00:31:12,960 --> 00:31:17,280 Speaker 1: I have days like that and it's normal and we 602 00:31:17,320 --> 00:31:20,400 Speaker 1: need to be patient and we need to learn not 603 00:31:20,440 --> 00:31:22,920 Speaker 1: to be so hard on ourselves. And that was my lesson. 604 00:31:23,400 --> 00:31:25,840 Speaker 1: I have to stop being so hard on myself and 605 00:31:26,000 --> 00:31:28,120 Speaker 1: just enjoy the moment and enjoy the present. And I 606 00:31:28,200 --> 00:31:32,520 Speaker 1: kept saying that that night, like there's no other time 607 00:31:32,800 --> 00:31:36,440 Speaker 1: than the present, Like that is the best gift precente 608 00:31:36,480 --> 00:31:40,000 Speaker 1: the present. It's in the word presence, present, you know. Anyway, 609 00:31:40,320 --> 00:31:42,880 Speaker 1: Let's just focus on the power of now, guys, and 610 00:31:43,000 --> 00:31:48,280 Speaker 1: appreciate the good things. And we need to normalize celebrating 611 00:31:48,760 --> 00:31:52,920 Speaker 1: ourselves and celebrating the good things and not fixating on 612 00:31:52,920 --> 00:31:54,760 Speaker 1: one little bad thing because that's. 613 00:31:54,600 --> 00:31:55,880 Speaker 2: Always going to be there. There's going to be a 614 00:31:55,880 --> 00:31:56,280 Speaker 2: lot of light. 615 00:31:56,360 --> 00:31:58,760 Speaker 1: Again, like the Ying and the Yang, There's always going 616 00:31:58,840 --> 00:32:00,720 Speaker 1: to be a little bit of dark or a little 617 00:32:00,720 --> 00:32:03,000 Speaker 1: bit of sadness or a little bit of doubt and fear, 618 00:32:03,480 --> 00:32:07,560 Speaker 1: but we can't let that take over all the beautiful, 619 00:32:07,600 --> 00:32:11,120 Speaker 1: positive things that we have going on. So that was 620 00:32:11,160 --> 00:32:15,239 Speaker 1: a reminder for myself, for you guys, and everyone that 621 00:32:15,280 --> 00:32:18,280 Speaker 1: was there. Thank you, everyone that watched the videos on 622 00:32:18,320 --> 00:32:21,400 Speaker 1: social media, thank you so much that left comments. For 623 00:32:21,480 --> 00:32:23,600 Speaker 1: the people that are listening to the album and telling 624 00:32:23,640 --> 00:32:26,880 Speaker 1: me that this music is changing them and making them 625 00:32:26,920 --> 00:32:30,720 Speaker 1: feel something that have never felt before. That is confirmation 626 00:32:31,720 --> 00:32:34,080 Speaker 1: for me, like you have no idea. So I'm so 627 00:32:34,160 --> 00:32:36,040 Speaker 1: grateful because I know that I'm meant to do this. 628 00:32:37,040 --> 00:32:38,479 Speaker 1: I know that I'm meant to do this, and I 629 00:32:38,560 --> 00:32:40,960 Speaker 1: have to go back to that place of I know 630 00:32:41,040 --> 00:32:45,760 Speaker 1: what I felt when this idea lit up my soul. 631 00:32:46,400 --> 00:32:48,520 Speaker 1: It was an idea, It started off as an idea. 632 00:32:48,600 --> 00:32:53,000 Speaker 1: Now it's here, it's a reality. So just tapping into 633 00:32:53,040 --> 00:32:54,480 Speaker 1: that so that I can keep on going. And I 634 00:32:54,480 --> 00:32:56,360 Speaker 1: can't wait for next year for you guys to listen 635 00:32:56,400 --> 00:33:00,080 Speaker 1: to the full album that comes out in March, and 636 00:33:00,120 --> 00:33:04,080 Speaker 1: hopefully the series of dates that we'll have with al 637 00:33:04,080 --> 00:33:07,840 Speaker 1: Madlus experience. So AnyWho, guys, thank you for listening, Thank 638 00:33:07,880 --> 00:33:10,840 Speaker 1: you for being here, thank you for being interested in 639 00:33:10,840 --> 00:33:13,040 Speaker 1: my life and what I have to say and in 640 00:33:13,080 --> 00:33:15,560 Speaker 1: my music. I pray for you guys all the time. 641 00:33:16,200 --> 00:33:19,200 Speaker 1: I wouldn't have a podcast if it wasn't for you guys, 642 00:33:19,440 --> 00:33:22,560 Speaker 1: So thank you for coming back every week to listen. 643 00:33:23,320 --> 00:33:25,880 Speaker 1: I'm very grateful and I love you guys, and I 644 00:33:25,880 --> 00:33:28,880 Speaker 1: hope you enjoyed this episode. Thank you for being a 645 00:33:28,880 --> 00:33:31,000 Speaker 1: part of my journey. I will catch you on the 646 00:33:31,040 --> 00:33:38,080 Speaker 1: next episode of Cheeky's and chill your favorite podcast. 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