WEBVTT - Solo Shows (with Caitlin Reilly) 0:00:00.320 --> 0:00:01.400 What's up every guys. 0:00:01.400 --> 0:00:04.440 Before we start this episode, we have a really exciting 0:00:04.480 --> 0:00:07.360 thing coming up on our Patreon. I recently lost a 0:00:07.440 --> 0:00:10.680 bet and had to write a musical in an entire day, 0:00:10.880 --> 0:00:13.960 and that musical happened to have to be about Lemon 0:00:14.000 --> 0:00:17.959 to Lemon, the guy who introduced Vanilla to Hollywood, a 0:00:18.040 --> 0:00:19.880 Jeremy character from the two hundred person panel. 0:00:20.120 --> 0:00:23.080 And now we're gonna read it live. We got Miles 0:00:23.079 --> 0:00:25.600 bon signor, Paul F. Tompkins and way too many other 0:00:25.640 --> 0:00:29.480 people helping us out do the live reading on August 0:00:29.720 --> 0:00:33.200 twenty third, Sunday at three pm Pacific time. 0:00:33.560 --> 0:00:36.000 It is a live stream event, so get your tickets 0:00:36.000 --> 0:00:37.600 on the Patreon ten dollars tier. 0:00:38.200 --> 0:00:40.639 Head to the Patreon. It's gonna be so much fun. 0:00:40.680 --> 0:00:41.680 We hope to see you guys there. 0:00:41.720 --> 0:00:42.760 We don't know what it's gonna be. 0:00:43.040 --> 0:00:43.879 We're so excited. 0:00:44.040 --> 0:00:44.479 Bye. 0:00:45.080 --> 0:00:52.280 Enjoying the episode, Welcome back to Artists on Artists on 0:00:52.360 --> 0:00:54.959 Artists on Artists. This week on the show, we have 0:00:55.040 --> 0:00:57.279 some fun artists artists that work alone. 0:00:57.480 --> 0:00:59.440 It's one people shows. 0:01:00.000 --> 0:01:03.320 Solo shows are a specific art form where one person 0:01:03.480 --> 0:01:07.119 puts on an entire play by themselves. One man shows, 0:01:07.160 --> 0:01:10.640 one woman shows, one people shows. They're specific to the 0:01:10.760 --> 0:01:15.039 artist and reveal a lot about them. 0:01:14.040 --> 0:01:18.960 Whether it's talking about your traumatic life backstory or doing 0:01:19.000 --> 0:01:24.120 a musical all by yourself. These musicals and plays are 0:01:24.480 --> 0:01:25.640 tour deforces. 0:01:26.120 --> 0:01:29.520 So sit back, relax, and get ready for no intermission. 0:01:30.040 --> 0:01:37.640 Let's listen in. Wow, unbelievable. I'm so excited to be 0:01:37.720 --> 0:01:38.319 with you guys. 0:01:38.840 --> 0:01:41.520 This is literally so cool. 0:01:41.840 --> 0:01:42.920 This is so cool. 0:01:43.040 --> 0:01:47.280 I can feel the artist's energy and the house tonight. 0:01:47.640 --> 0:01:50.120 Syah, yeah, I'm sorry. 0:01:52.280 --> 0:01:53.040 This is well. 0:01:53.160 --> 0:01:55.040 Also, can I just say, like, right off the bat, 0:01:55.120 --> 0:01:59.400 like working on a solo show can be so isolating, right, 0:01:59.480 --> 0:02:02.160 it can be the most isolating experience and unless you 0:02:02.240 --> 0:02:04.919 have a director like bounce things off of like, it's 0:02:05.000 --> 0:02:08.480 just you and the work all day long. And so 0:02:09.000 --> 0:02:11.920 to see other people who are going through this city. 0:02:14.000 --> 0:02:19.800 It's so good. I love books. I always say I 0:02:19.840 --> 0:02:25.000 always say, who's my biggest biggest critic? My journal? There, 0:02:25.360 --> 0:02:27.200 I'm like, who's my second biggest critic? 0:02:27.480 --> 0:02:31.120 All my tech cues, Yes, it's. 0:02:30.960 --> 0:02:32.120 My biggest critic. 0:02:32.480 --> 0:02:37.079 My cue lab file huge. 0:02:37.960 --> 0:02:40.440 I think my biggest critic is probably Jesus Christ. 0:02:40.720 --> 0:02:44.239 Yeah, whoa Christ critic? 0:02:44.800 --> 0:02:45.680 Christ? Is your critic. 0:02:45.720 --> 0:02:46.240 He doesn't. 0:02:46.280 --> 0:02:47.040 He's not with you. 0:02:47.800 --> 0:02:49.760 Oh he is with me, is with me all the time. 0:02:50.480 --> 0:02:53.240 And as someone who you know, sort of going into 0:02:53.280 --> 0:02:56.399 this journey and sort of making my own show, sort 0:02:56.440 --> 0:02:59.120 of telling me story and sort of being a vulnerable 0:02:59.120 --> 0:03:03.040 in that way, it's it's really crazy to sort of 0:03:03.200 --> 0:03:06.160 have this experience and to think to yourself as you're 0:03:06.200 --> 0:03:13.280 on stage and you're thinking, Wow, that's my purpose. Literally chills, 0:03:13.560 --> 0:03:16.240 I know, And that's God. 0:03:16.320 --> 0:03:19.280 Sometimes I feel like a theater magic work for me personally. 0:03:19.320 --> 0:03:21.519 I think I think the work is like living for sure. 0:03:21.720 --> 0:03:22.640 It's work for sure. 0:03:23.160 --> 0:03:24.000 The audience too. 0:03:25.400 --> 0:03:27.399 Theater aspect of it. 0:03:27.560 --> 0:03:29.000 Yeah, Like, and I just want to say thank you, 0:03:29.040 --> 0:03:31.960 Like we were joking around for you to bring us 0:03:31.960 --> 0:03:35.000 to a like for me, for you to bring me 0:03:35.080 --> 0:03:37.240 to a place that reminded me of the importance of 0:03:37.280 --> 0:03:41.200 what we are doing as individuals. Really reminded me the 0:03:41.240 --> 0:03:44.680 importance of what we're doing. Ye, the beauty and the 0:03:44.800 --> 0:03:48.480 art and the I mean Dionysus, you know, to pay 0:03:48.600 --> 0:03:51.440 homage to the Greek god himself. 0:03:51.160 --> 0:03:53.280 The god of theater and tradition. 0:03:53.600 --> 0:03:57.800 Yes, yes, but thank you and wine and why did 0:03:57.800 --> 0:03:58.760 you have more to say all. 0:03:58.600 --> 0:04:01.120 That I did, but it's all right. I just wanted to. 0:04:01.080 --> 0:04:02.960 Piggyback off that for a second. You know, you sort 0:04:02.960 --> 0:04:07.200 of mentioned dan Isis and although we do kind of 0:04:07.760 --> 0:04:10.720 in terms of theater and sort of like the old 0:04:11.240 --> 0:04:13.120 world and sort of like you know, you think about 0:04:13.120 --> 0:04:16.120 like the old like Roman Greek choruses and stuff like that, 0:04:16.240 --> 0:04:19.440 but at the same time, I do I do kind 0:04:19.520 --> 0:04:22.720 of want to steer away from talking about like other 0:04:22.800 --> 0:04:26.680 deities totally because I do think just if I could 0:04:26.720 --> 0:04:28.839 just I just wanted to say that, like, in terms 0:04:29.040 --> 0:04:34.080 of telling a story and being on stage by yourself 0:04:34.200 --> 0:04:37.719 and being one directed with source, that is sort of 0:04:37.720 --> 0:04:40.760 the main energy at play. That is sort of like 0:04:40.839 --> 0:04:43.800 the drop in story, right, And if you're in the 0:04:43.839 --> 0:04:46.080 drop in story, then you're in the drop in phase. 0:04:47.560 --> 0:04:49.560 If I could just say too, like, and I totally 0:04:49.640 --> 0:04:52.440 respect your faith, but to be honest, I don't know. 0:04:52.480 --> 0:04:53.200 It's not about faith. 0:04:53.160 --> 0:04:56.159 It's about source, Okay, So I respect your source. 0:04:56.200 --> 0:04:58.720 But for relationship, so I respect your relationship. 0:04:58.720 --> 0:05:00.200 There's just a lot of them, So I think I 0:05:00.240 --> 0:05:02.480 want to leave open room space for that, if I. 0:05:02.400 --> 0:05:04.320 Can ask you for a second, because I'm the kind 0:05:04.360 --> 0:05:07.640 of person I'm just so like just so like curious 0:05:07.640 --> 0:05:08.240 about people. 0:05:08.839 --> 0:05:10.479 That's so, yeah, that's interesting. 0:05:11.120 --> 0:05:13.800 Yeah, I'm a curious little kitten. 0:05:14.040 --> 0:05:16.680 I can ask, I know, but I'm speaking if I 0:05:16.680 --> 0:05:18.920 could ask, what is your show about? 0:05:19.480 --> 0:05:29.320 So my show is about your show? Like I've heard 0:05:29.360 --> 0:05:30.720 about all your shows. I haven't been able to see 0:05:30.720 --> 0:05:32.839 any of them. I'm really excited to, like, so you 0:05:32.880 --> 0:05:33.520 go ahead. 0:05:33.279 --> 0:05:36.240 Yeah, okay, great, Yeah, So my show is called My 0:05:36.360 --> 0:05:39.719 Messy Exes and it's my relationship with every religion. Right, 0:05:40.160 --> 0:05:43.719 I've tried every religion in my life, and I basically 0:05:44.279 --> 0:05:47.640 come out as every single god you've ever heard, and 0:05:47.839 --> 0:05:50.400 I perform as some sort of messy X like you're 0:05:50.440 --> 0:05:52.680 on tender Like I'm an ex calling you back like 0:05:52.720 --> 0:05:53.520 on a bad date. 0:05:53.760 --> 0:05:55.040 So I do Jesus Christ. 0:05:55.360 --> 0:05:59.160 Jesus Christ is messy and sloppy and is really guilty 0:05:59.200 --> 0:05:59.800 and toxic. 0:06:00.160 --> 0:06:02.560 Right, And then I come out as Vishnu. 0:06:02.760 --> 0:06:02.960 Right. 0:06:03.040 --> 0:06:05.600 And then I come out as Muhammad, and then I 0:06:05.680 --> 0:06:07.960 come out as you know, you come out. 0:06:07.839 --> 0:06:12.839 As you do because for me, I've tried them all. Okay, 0:06:13.520 --> 0:06:15.680 I'd come out as every single type and you. 0:06:15.839 --> 0:06:17.920 And how long were you practicing Islam? 0:06:17.960 --> 0:06:20.280 For about six months in college. 0:06:20.320 --> 0:06:22.160 Okay, so you can, and so you would know that 0:06:23.040 --> 0:06:25.600 the biggest gravest you can do is babe. 0:06:27.680 --> 0:06:30.359 Genuinely, like maybe one of the most disrespectful things you 0:06:30.400 --> 0:06:31.160 can of course. 0:06:31.839 --> 0:06:34.440 And guess what, but I go there right like just 0:06:34.440 --> 0:06:36.880 sweet Charlie, you know what I mean, Like I'm like, Charlie, 0:06:36.920 --> 0:06:37.919 hebdo Oh. 0:06:37.760 --> 0:06:39.799 God, oh god. 0:06:39.960 --> 0:06:42.799 Okay, So one thing I do like about you, Okay, 0:06:42.839 --> 0:06:45.320 I'm interesting and I push the boundaries like that's for 0:06:45.440 --> 0:06:49.080 me solo shows, I push the boundaries and you walk 0:06:49.120 --> 0:06:52.280 in and there I am, and I'm breastfeeding, like literally 0:06:52.360 --> 0:06:54.799 breastfeeding and frank like that's what I'm using. 0:06:57.040 --> 0:06:59.880 Well, it's okay because I'll be real. We were all 0:07:00.000 --> 0:07:05.640 the other night where we did Jolly Fringe Sampler, which 0:07:05.680 --> 0:07:08.359 is a show where you do ten minutes of each 0:07:08.680 --> 0:07:11.480 show and it's sort of like an advertisement to get 0:07:11.560 --> 0:07:14.640 people out to see your show. And picking ten minutes 0:07:14.680 --> 0:07:18.720 out of one hour was so hard, but you your 0:07:18.800 --> 0:07:21.960 ten minutes was so interesting because it like it you 0:07:22.080 --> 0:07:25.320 got all of these texts to come up from all 0:07:25.360 --> 0:07:27.280 the gods and they were texting you like it was 0:07:27.320 --> 0:07:30.520 really hooty calls and it was like really funny. 0:07:30.400 --> 0:07:32.800 The different gods trying to booty call me and try 0:07:32.840 --> 0:07:35.920 to get me to have sex with them aka part 0:07:35.920 --> 0:07:39.440 of their religion, because religion to me is a sex cult. 0:07:40.600 --> 0:07:42.240 Anyways, my name is. 0:07:42.400 --> 0:07:47.320 A Chauncey feather Butt, and I'm so excited to be here, 0:07:47.840 --> 0:07:51.000 and I love pushing the boundaries like South Park has 0:07:51.040 --> 0:07:54.160 gone limp and it's time for me to step in. 0:07:54.320 --> 0:07:57.000 That's I've never heard anybody say something like that. 0:07:57.520 --> 0:08:00.680 Yeah, I just want to be edgier and I want 0:08:00.680 --> 0:08:03.400 to go pushing it and I'm loving doing it. I 0:08:03.440 --> 0:08:06.160 want to apologize. I think you've gone behind me. I 0:08:06.200 --> 0:08:08.119 want to polize for going forty minutes long. 0:08:08.200 --> 0:08:10.920 It's all right, I'm totally all right. It's okay, it's 0:08:10.920 --> 0:08:13.440 all right. Speak. I guess I'll go. 0:08:14.360 --> 0:08:15.160 I thought we were okay. 0:08:15.160 --> 0:08:15.800 Oh yeah, no you go. 0:08:15.920 --> 0:08:16.560 No, no, you. 0:08:18.120 --> 0:08:20.640 Have a discuestion because I've really wanting to talk to you. 0:08:22.480 --> 0:08:23.480 I think you should go. 0:08:23.560 --> 0:08:26.320 No no, no, no, no, no no no seriously seriously you go 0:08:26.440 --> 0:08:28.000 no seriously no. 0:08:27.800 --> 0:08:30.880 No no you Yeah, I don't have to tagle. 0:08:31.240 --> 0:08:31.600 I can't. 0:08:31.680 --> 0:08:33.920 I can't go honestly, I can go last, you can 0:08:33.960 --> 0:08:35.600 go next. I can go last. It is not a 0:08:35.600 --> 0:08:36.920 big My name is. 0:08:37.440 --> 0:08:45.000 Daisy Man and I am the author, creator, director, lighting designer, 0:08:45.559 --> 0:08:53.720 marketing designer, social media coordinator, choreographer, musician and director. 0:08:53.400 --> 0:08:55.600 Of the solo show To. 0:08:55.920 --> 0:09:02.959 Hell and Back. And this is about It's about my journey. 0:09:04.000 --> 0:09:07.520 Don't cry, I'll cry stop. I'm gonna get through this. 0:09:07.559 --> 0:09:10.480 I've done eighteen shows already. I have to be able 0:09:10.520 --> 0:09:11.040 to get through. 0:09:10.880 --> 0:09:11.640 This without crying. 0:09:11.760 --> 0:09:12.559 Yeah. 0:09:12.600 --> 0:09:17.640 When I was twelve years old, I was fully set 0:09:18.120 --> 0:09:21.480 at school in Beverly Hills. I had friends, I had 0:09:21.600 --> 0:09:24.960 everything I could ever wanted. And then my family moved 0:09:25.000 --> 0:09:30.240 me to San Diego. Fuck, and my entire world was 0:09:30.320 --> 0:09:32.679 flipped upside down overnight. 0:09:32.840 --> 0:09:33.760 All of a sudden. 0:09:34.160 --> 0:09:39.840 My peers were not child stars, working actors, photographers, models, artists. 0:09:40.040 --> 0:09:41.800 They were surfers. 0:09:42.000 --> 0:09:45.160 Yeah, it's so hard, and in San Diego is fucking 0:09:45.200 --> 0:09:47.920 awful it thank you for saying that. 0:09:48.160 --> 0:09:51.880 Yeah, because it is hell. And so it's a mix 0:09:51.920 --> 0:09:56.160 of storytelling, a little bit of song. It's also a 0:09:56.240 --> 0:10:00.679 little bit of I pay homage to the odyssey as well, 0:10:00.720 --> 0:10:03.520 because moving to San Diego was sort of my odyssey 0:10:04.040 --> 0:10:08.280 and uh, so far, Yeah, it's so far, and so 0:10:08.480 --> 0:10:12.840 it really was this this sort of like hellish journey 0:10:12.880 --> 0:10:16.920 that I am really excited to tell on stage. And 0:10:17.160 --> 0:10:21.680 I'm just can't believe that I get the opportunity to 0:10:21.720 --> 0:10:22.760 do so, can. 0:10:22.600 --> 0:10:26.040 I say, like you taking the hellish journey back and 0:10:26.080 --> 0:10:29.360 reliving it every night on stage? 0:10:29.800 --> 0:10:31.280 I can't imagine the. 0:10:31.160 --> 0:10:34.720 Cathartic energy you're having this summer, like the cathartic transformation 0:10:34.800 --> 0:10:35.280 you're having. 0:10:35.559 --> 0:10:39.520 Yeah, yeah, I mean it's been a lot of healing, right, yeah, 0:10:39.559 --> 0:10:41.840 And I know that, like I know, I know, I 0:10:41.880 --> 0:10:44.880 know solo show is not therapy. A solo show is 0:10:44.920 --> 0:10:45.560 not therapy. 0:10:45.640 --> 0:10:49.079 That's like it is, right, Yeah, I'm sorry. Can I 0:10:49.160 --> 0:10:49.520 hug you? 0:10:49.880 --> 0:10:52.679 Yeah? Yeah, I'd actually love that. 0:10:53.240 --> 0:10:56.040 I just sort of feel like like it's tuned. Like 0:10:56.160 --> 0:10:58.160 I'm just I don't want to like give you just 0:10:58.200 --> 0:11:00.600 like a little bit of love, no, honestly, because and 0:11:00.640 --> 0:11:03.160 I wanted to thank you, like thank you for sharing 0:11:03.200 --> 0:11:05.800 that story and thank you for being but because a 0:11:05.840 --> 0:11:08.839 lot of receptives are not vulnerable like that, but you are, 0:11:09.200 --> 0:11:10.640 and so I do appreciate you being. 0:11:11.080 --> 0:11:13.360 I just like I just like so much coming from you, of. 0:11:13.360 --> 0:11:15.400 Course, and I just want to share I'm like, I 0:11:15.440 --> 0:11:17.360 love you like just sort of an a jentle. 0:11:17.160 --> 0:11:19.520 Oh my god, can I say that I love you? 0:11:19.880 --> 0:11:20.360 My god. 0:11:21.160 --> 0:11:23.560 I feel like we would love to do like goat 0:11:23.600 --> 0:11:24.439 yoga together. 0:11:24.880 --> 0:11:28.840 Oh my god, yoga. 0:11:29.520 --> 0:11:30.320 Actually I've got. 0:11:30.240 --> 0:11:31.880 Dog yoga yoga. 0:11:31.920 --> 0:11:32.960 I'll do whatever you want to do. 0:11:33.120 --> 0:11:33.680 Oh my god. 0:11:33.920 --> 0:11:36.400 I'd love to hang out and get coffee or something. Say, 0:11:37.000 --> 0:11:42.320 of course, are we done, guys, We're done. 0:11:43.440 --> 0:11:44.400 I just wanted to say. 0:11:44.240 --> 0:11:45.760 That, what were you guys texting each other? 0:11:45.920 --> 0:11:50.960 Nothing? No, we were texting, you were I wasn't texting. 0:11:51.520 --> 0:11:57.280 I I'm not on anybody's text threats. So what it's 0:11:57.320 --> 0:12:01.200 all right? I'm kind of is the text the text 0:12:01.200 --> 0:12:04.400 third killer? I've post a meme or something like that, 0:12:04.440 --> 0:12:06.160 and for some reason it just goes silent. 0:12:06.760 --> 0:12:08.319 I think somebody only said that like once. 0:12:08.559 --> 0:12:11.680 Yeah, no, maybe, well I guess I'll go. My name 0:12:11.720 --> 0:12:16.520 is Spencer Ruffian and my show is called own Nuts. 0:12:17.760 --> 0:12:21.679 It's kind of a crazy show about the exploration of 0:12:22.160 --> 0:12:25.160 like nuts, and I use nuts on stage kind of 0:12:25.160 --> 0:12:28.760 like show and ultimately really it's like this funny like 0:12:29.320 --> 0:12:32.000 clown show about like nuts. But really what it's about 0:12:32.080 --> 0:12:33.080 is like, am I straight? 0:12:33.600 --> 0:12:33.720 Right? 0:12:33.760 --> 0:12:35.520 Because you read about clown classes, right? 0:12:35.559 --> 0:12:39.040 I read about clown classes. That sounds so fun, but 0:12:39.800 --> 0:12:44.119 I couldn't afford it because headshots and like acting classes 0:12:44.360 --> 0:12:46.760 and comercial classes and so I couldn't afford it. So 0:12:46.800 --> 0:12:51.200 I was like, I will take it by doing. I 0:12:51.240 --> 0:12:53.800 will do my own show to take a clown class, 0:12:53.800 --> 0:12:56.679 because like that's la, that's like the grind set. That's 0:12:57.360 --> 0:12:58.040 you need to like. 0:12:58.000 --> 0:12:59.280 When you want to learn a language and you have 0:12:59.320 --> 0:13:01.520 to go to like a nut their country and just 0:13:01.520 --> 0:13:02.280 like fall into it. 0:13:02.600 --> 0:13:04.840 Yeah, So like my show is like ultimately like am 0:13:04.880 --> 0:13:07.040 I straight? Because it's like a question I've had for 0:13:07.040 --> 0:13:09.800 a long time and the good the good or bad news? 0:13:09.840 --> 0:13:10.559 Is I am straight? 0:13:11.000 --> 0:13:14.560 Like yeah, oh my god, you spoiled the egg. 0:13:15.000 --> 0:13:18.439 Well, like it's like the spoiler helps. 0:13:18.200 --> 0:13:22.080 You can say, can I give you a compliment? Your 0:13:22.200 --> 0:13:26.280 stage is so messy after thank you? Do you shower 0:13:27.240 --> 0:13:27.840 on the floor? 0:13:27.920 --> 0:13:33.439 It is covered in any imagine nutshells covered in loop. 0:13:33.440 --> 0:13:36.400 And that's like your skin, like you are cad. 0:13:37.240 --> 0:13:41.520 Yeah, I kind of like an ugly little gremlin creature 0:13:41.679 --> 0:13:44.760 covered in like puss and stuff like that that discovers 0:13:44.800 --> 0:13:47.240 a nut and it just goes but zoinkers from there 0:13:47.280 --> 0:13:48.000 and the things you. 0:13:47.880 --> 0:13:50.360 Ask the audience to do I've never seen anyone ask no. 0:13:51.200 --> 0:13:54.000 The best thing about my shows is one, you're gonna 0:13:54.000 --> 0:13:57.480 see my penis. Two, I'm gonna make somebody in the 0:13:57.559 --> 0:14:02.520 audience so deeply uncomfortable they'll question their own sanity. And 0:14:02.679 --> 0:14:05.080 three at one point at the end of the show, 0:14:05.160 --> 0:14:06.760 you'll be moved like that's again. 0:14:06.880 --> 0:14:09.000 I really liked the opening scene when you kind of 0:14:09.080 --> 0:14:11.600 hatch out of that egg. Yes, I thought that. 0:14:11.520 --> 0:14:13.400 Was really beautiful because like for me, that was like 0:14:13.559 --> 0:14:18.080 my that was the question, this looming question, hatching out 0:14:18.120 --> 0:14:19.520 of the egg? Am I straight? 0:14:19.880 --> 0:14:23.520 Can I ask what the like what the significance of 0:14:23.720 --> 0:14:25.680 making the audience member the nut chugger? 0:14:26.760 --> 0:14:29.160 Like, I just think that's funny, Like like it just. 0:14:29.080 --> 0:14:31.000 Feels weird to give one audience member like all this 0:14:31.040 --> 0:14:31.800 bucket of nuts. 0:14:31.920 --> 0:14:34.000 Yeah, to chug there the chug nut chugger, And it's 0:14:34.000 --> 0:14:36.600 like hard because it's like big hazel nuts, Like they 0:14:36.600 --> 0:14:37.800 can't chug a hazel nut. 0:14:37.840 --> 0:14:39.800 Have you ever had someone say no to being the 0:14:39.880 --> 0:14:40.400 nut chugging? 0:14:41.040 --> 0:14:44.080 Yeah, that's awkward. 0:14:44.440 --> 0:14:45.160 Does that happen? 0:14:45.560 --> 0:14:49.280 It's so funny it happened once. I know you can't 0:14:49.320 --> 0:14:50.960 say no. What did you do Yeah, I said, I 0:14:51.000 --> 0:14:53.080 gave it to them anyway, and they loved it, I think. 0:14:54.280 --> 0:14:57.360 And then so everyone else has been chugging nuts. Everybody 0:14:57.360 --> 0:14:59.320 else's kind of then sat there going like what do 0:14:59.440 --> 0:14:59.680 I do? 0:14:59.760 --> 0:15:04.480 And I what if someone's allergic to nuts? 0:15:05.320 --> 0:15:08.560 Chugging a nuts? What chugged? Oh? 0:15:08.600 --> 0:15:11.480 This is you playing like the closet version of yes 0:15:11.840 --> 0:15:12.640 do I like? 0:15:13.240 --> 0:15:13.760 Oh yeah? 0:15:14.040 --> 0:15:16.520 When you switch back and forth between the closet version 0:15:16.800 --> 0:15:18.359 and the outside version. 0:15:18.240 --> 0:15:20.840 Like literally it's like like, oh, yeah, I guess I'm 0:15:20.960 --> 0:15:23.880 just like, uh yeah, I'll see you later. Richard. He's 0:15:24.000 --> 0:15:27.680 that my best friend. I like his nuts. There. I 0:15:27.920 --> 0:15:30.240 was wondering what was going to happen for the rest 0:15:30.280 --> 0:15:32.360 of my life the way Yeah, I saw that. That 0:15:32.480 --> 0:15:33.080 was crazy. 0:15:33.240 --> 0:15:39.600 Sorry, sorry, No you can you can go if you 0:15:39.680 --> 0:15:39.920 want to. 0:15:40.040 --> 0:15:41.080 Yeah, do you want to go? No? 0:15:41.280 --> 0:15:42.440 No, no, no you can go. 0:15:42.560 --> 0:15:42.880 I can go. 0:15:43.160 --> 0:15:44.640 No no, no, I can go last. It's okay, No 0:15:44.720 --> 0:15:46.320 you should go. No no, no, I can go last. 0:15:46.960 --> 0:15:48.280 But you weren't done, and I don't want to step 0:15:48.320 --> 0:15:48.680 on your time. 0:15:48.720 --> 0:15:52.880 I was so I was done yesterday, Queen can I can. 0:15:55.520 --> 0:15:58.960 Everyone's getting I just sort of feel so like moved 0:15:59.040 --> 0:16:01.400 by your story nice and I just I mean, it 0:16:01.440 --> 0:16:04.119 must be really really hard to like question your sexuality 0:16:04.160 --> 0:16:07.000 like that, you know what I mean, like really really hard. 0:16:07.120 --> 0:16:09.040 I felt like the process was super vulnerable, and. 0:16:09.200 --> 0:16:11.760 Like it's just beautiful, like real really vulnerable. 0:16:12.360 --> 0:16:13.800 It's amazing you found at the end you're not. 0:16:13.920 --> 0:16:18.240 Gay, Yeah, to sort of come right back around like yeah, like. 0:16:18.320 --> 0:16:20.120 Sometimes like when you ask a question, you already know 0:16:20.160 --> 0:16:22.280 the answer. But I had to do all that soul 0:16:22.320 --> 0:16:24.600 searching because I feel like for my career had been 0:16:24.680 --> 0:16:26.480 like so much better if I was by. 0:16:28.040 --> 0:16:31.240 Yeah, well queer is really like in right now really so. 0:16:32.280 --> 0:16:35.000 One person shows Yeah, it would make the whole process 0:16:35.120 --> 0:16:37.640 so much easier, really, you know, the whole solo show 0:16:37.680 --> 0:16:39.480 process so much easier. 0:16:39.880 --> 0:16:40.040 You know. 0:16:40.120 --> 0:16:44.280 What I keep finding is that the appetite for watching 0:16:44.360 --> 0:16:45.560 people talk about. 0:16:45.320 --> 0:16:48.200 Being by is really huge huge. 0:16:48.320 --> 0:16:50.360 People are excited when it's brought up at any sort 0:16:50.360 --> 0:16:52.840 of show, and they love when they dive into it. 0:16:52.840 --> 0:16:54.080 Because it's Yeah. 0:16:55.000 --> 0:16:57.120 My favorite part though, is when you finally say that 0:16:57.320 --> 0:17:00.600 you are not gay, and if the nutshrug is finished 0:17:00.600 --> 0:17:02.200 with the bucket of nuts at the bottom of the 0:17:02.280 --> 0:17:04.200 nut bucket, it says not get. 0:17:04.640 --> 0:17:06.040 So you could get it spoiled earlier. 0:17:06.160 --> 0:17:08.119 You have to to get through all of the nuts 0:17:08.160 --> 0:17:09.360 to figure out, like where. 0:17:09.160 --> 0:17:11.360 It was my journey, Like I had to get through 0:17:11.480 --> 0:17:14.200 all of the nuts to realize I'm straight. That's amazing, Like, 0:17:14.359 --> 0:17:15.880 I thought that was so cool. 0:17:16.000 --> 0:17:17.040 It was really beautiful. 0:17:17.359 --> 0:17:20.520 That actually came to me in a dream. Well, like 0:17:21.200 --> 0:17:23.680 I would. I would I would like the idea that 0:17:23.760 --> 0:17:25.720 it came to me in a dream, If that makes sense. 0:17:26.000 --> 0:17:28.399 Yeah, like that, I would like, Like, I think that 0:17:28.440 --> 0:17:30.320 would be a cool idea that. 0:17:33.320 --> 0:17:35.000 The idea of it being in a dream, Well to 0:17:35.080 --> 0:17:37.480 be if I had a dream like this, that's a 0:17:37.560 --> 0:17:38.360 dream itself. 0:17:39.080 --> 0:17:44.600 Dream, that's a day dream. Thank you, that's a day dream. 0:17:44.640 --> 0:17:48.640 Gave me in a day dream, because every every thought 0:17:48.760 --> 0:17:51.080 is a dream within itself, and every thought is sort. 0:17:50.920 --> 0:17:54.200 Of a is a prayer to sorce I'm sorry, I'm 0:17:54.320 --> 0:17:56.920 taking up too much space right now. One of you 0:17:57.280 --> 0:17:58.439 have to introduce yourself. 0:18:00.160 --> 0:18:06.960 Okay, Okay, you got this. I'm sorry, I'm just like 0:18:07.080 --> 0:18:11.040 kind of nervous. It's okay if I go right, yes, yes, 0:18:12.160 --> 0:18:16.600 this is your Okay. My name is Sydney Keivler and 0:18:16.640 --> 0:18:24.160 mothhemer and uh and my one woman show my One 0:18:24.240 --> 0:18:26.360 Girl Show, One Lady show, I guess I should say, 0:18:26.680 --> 0:18:30.800 is called Bully question Mark, and it's about the fact 0:18:30.960 --> 0:18:33.280 that a lot of people that I went to school 0:18:33.359 --> 0:18:36.440 with do claim that I was a very violent bully 0:18:36.520 --> 0:18:41.840 to them. I don't necessarily remember it that way. If 0:18:42.080 --> 0:18:44.160 if you were to push me up against a wall, 0:18:44.640 --> 0:18:48.000 and that sort of be my answer, And so it's 0:18:48.040 --> 0:18:52.679 sort of it's sort of an exploration of lost memory 0:18:53.520 --> 0:18:56.439 and sort of an exploration of grief. 0:18:57.640 --> 0:18:57.840 Yeah. 0:18:58.040 --> 0:19:01.600 Yeah, it's just touching me and of finding you know, 0:19:01.960 --> 0:19:05.280 those that those that think you bully are sometimes just 0:19:05.440 --> 0:19:08.040 bullying themselves and it has nothing to do with you. 0:19:08.600 --> 0:19:08.840 Literally. 0:19:09.080 --> 0:19:12.399 Yeah, I will play just so just because I you know, 0:19:12.560 --> 0:19:15.240