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Speaker 1: From Futuro Media. It's Latino USA. I'm Maria Inojosa and

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Speaker 1: today Anything for Selena, dear listener, Today we have something

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Speaker 1: super super special for you. It's an episode from our

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Speaker 1: newest podcast, Anything for Selena, and this is a collaboration

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Speaker 1: between Futuro Studios and wbu R in Boston. The podcast

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Speaker 1: is a deep dive into Selena Quintania's lasting impact on

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Speaker 1: Latino identity and American belonging, hosted by journalist Maria Garcia.

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Speaker 1: And I'm gonna hand things over to Maria right now.

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Speaker 2: If I was somehow asked to say only one thing

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Speaker 2: about the place I'm from, it would be that it

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Speaker 2: has this un forgettable smell. When it rains. It's slightly floral,

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Speaker 2: but mostly it's this very specific, cool, earthy desert aroma.

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Speaker 2: And there's usually a calm, clear breeze which carries these

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Speaker 3: Oh my god, there it is.

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Speaker 2: The smell comes from the creosote bush, a resilient plant

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Speaker 2: that thrives only in this particularly arid landscape. Especially after

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Speaker 2: a thunderstorm, the creosoap bush releases a bunch of these

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Speaker 2: oil compounds into the air, stuff found in citrus rosemary pines,

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Speaker 2: and it just smells like the earth. Exhales Creosot can

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Speaker 2: live for thousands or tens of thousands of years. It's

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Speaker 2: one of the oldest living things on the planet. And

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Speaker 2: here this ancient brush grows at the foot of the

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Speaker 2: Franklin Mountains and the valley they nessl below. Cutting through

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Speaker 2: the desert valley is the Rio Grande, dividing two cities

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Speaker 2: and two countries, al Paso, Texas to the north and

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Speaker 2: Sudethwattas in Mexico to the south. This story, my story,

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Speaker 2: long before I became a journalist and moved to the

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Speaker 2: East coast, begins here.

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Speaker 3: Well, I remember seeing Opasso from the hill where Mamonina lived.

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Speaker 2: This is my brother Jesse. Well, actually his name is Jesusilias,

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Speaker 2: but it goes by Jesse. He was five when I

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Speaker 2: was born in Suethwattas, just a few miles from the border.

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Speaker 2: One of his very first memories is looking across the

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Speaker 3: We could see Utube, we could see the building's a highway.

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Speaker 3: We could see the other side.

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Speaker 2: My parents could see the other side too. In Mexico,

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Speaker 2: we lived in a Vessigna. These tenements studio apartments, all

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Speaker 2: one bathroom outside. My dad, like a lot of folks,

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Speaker 2: already crossed the border practically every day to odd jobs

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Speaker 2: in El Paso, like at an egg factory. He and

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Speaker 2: thirteen to help their families. The other side of the

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Speaker 2: border looked safer, quieter, the kind of place that could

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Speaker 2: afford my brother and I the life our parents couldn't have.

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Speaker 2: When I was three, my parents took all the money

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Speaker 2: they saved and moved us across the border to a small,

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Speaker 2: refurbished trailer in the most rural, undeveloped outskirts of El

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Speaker 2: Paso County. The land was dry and flat, untouched.

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Speaker 3: And I remember getting off the car seeing those huge

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Speaker 3: there's snakes, And when we first moved out here, there

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Speaker 2: One of my earliest memories ever is the smell of

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Speaker 3: We were ecstatic as a family, you know, we loved

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Speaker 2: Basically, we still went to Wattis every weekend. There was

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Speaker 2: staying up way late. I remember what is always being loud,

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Speaker 2: like fun loud. We danced into the early morning hours

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Speaker 2: at either of my grandmother's houses. A root of cousins

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Speaker 2: eating street tacos, glistening in the dark amber of the

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Speaker 2: Mexican street lamps. This was my early life, Mexico on

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Speaker 2: the weekend, the States during the week. Soon I started school.

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Speaker 2: On the first day of first grade, my teacher called

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Speaker 2: me Mary. My actual name is Maria Elena, a name

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Speaker 2: passed down for my grandmother. My mom says no one

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Speaker 2: to Mary it was okay. She just kind of found

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Speaker 2: Maestro this Lama made Mary and she was like, who's

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Speaker 2: that were? Mary? Mary? Oh, it didn't really even occur

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Speaker 2: Mexican name. I remember what it felt like as shame

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Speaker 2: took form inside of me. In the third grade, a

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Speaker 2: I was born in Watts. He confronted me like I

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Speaker 2: I panicked. I said, there must have been a mistake.

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Speaker 2: The kid who confronted me he was white, the son

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Speaker 2: of a wealthy farmer who employed seasonal Mexican workers. Kids

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Speaker 2: like him were at the top of the elementary school hierarchy,

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Speaker 2: boy's dad. My school was predominantly Latino, but there was

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Speaker 2: assimilated these moments of shame, of lying. They feel like

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Speaker 2: some of the oldest wounds in me. But I thought

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Speaker 2: I needed to be Mary. Mary wasn't born in Mexico.

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Speaker 2: She didn't listen to Spanish music. She listened to TLC

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Speaker 2: and Brandy and Boys to Men. She spoke English perfectly.

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Speaker 2: She was American. And here's the thing. I became Mary,

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Speaker 2: or at least partially did. I became more articulate in

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Speaker 2: in Mexico called me a bocha, a Mexican American who

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Speaker 2: So I was increasingly feeling out of place in Mexico

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Speaker 2: two in subtle but painful ways, and I felt a rejection,

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Speaker 2: a stigma in both countries. I was always toggling between

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Speaker 2: in the world. These two realities never came together. That

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Speaker 2: seven eight year old me, My entire life up until

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Speaker 2: that point had been defined by the border, and this

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Speaker 2: and Maria. It wasn't just on a map. It felt

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Speaker 2: then something changed my life. I saw a completely new

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Speaker 2: way of being. I discovered Selena Republica Mexicana, Theresa Corcos

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Speaker 2: Christie Slena. I know I had heard her music before

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Speaker 2: and been vaguely aware of her, but I specifically remember

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Speaker 2: the first time I really saw Selena on TV. I

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Speaker 2: must have been about seven. She had this cascade of

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Speaker 2: emanating from her body. People just loved her. I loved her.

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Speaker 2: She usually wore these skin tight pants or a mini

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Speaker 2: from a leather jacket or sea through blouse. There were

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Speaker 2: a lot of rhinestones and hoop ear rings.

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Speaker 3: Thretfley Selena, you got it, take it away, Yes.

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Speaker 2: And her dance moves. She do these elaborate twirls and

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Speaker 2: sway her hips so rhythmically. She shimmied her shoulders like

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Speaker 2: my cousins in Mexico. Other times she'd like bust out

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Speaker 2: the Roger Rabbit or even the Moonwalk.

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Speaker 4: Know that just at that.

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Speaker 2: She sang bouncy Mexican cumbias like the ones I Danced

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Speaker 2: modern synthesizer sound to them. But then she would switch

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Speaker 2: it up and sing these traditional Mexican mariachi songs that

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Speaker 2: my parents loved and mac and then bam, she'd sing

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Speaker 2: a song in English that sounded like something I would

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Speaker 2: hear on my top forty station with R and B influences.

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Speaker 5: Eurois on them.

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Speaker 2: She was this force on stage and off stage. She

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Speaker 2: was always joking and being silly. She never seemed to

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Speaker 2: take herself too seriously. I remember someone asking her what

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Speaker 2: she'd do if she wasn't a famous singer, and she

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Speaker 2: was like, I don't know, work at a fast food joint.

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Speaker 2: Chippians stookas and Senorita.

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Speaker 6: No Sam rahnd water Berg.

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Speaker 2: To seven year old me in nineteen ninety three, it

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Speaker 2: felt nothing short of revolutionary to see a Mexican American

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Speaker 2: was and have the world love her for it. When

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Speaker 2: I discovered her, Selena was in her early twenties and

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Speaker 2: already a total star. She'd been singing since she was nine,

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Speaker 2: touring Texas cities. I remember seeing her on TV winning

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Speaker 2: at the Tihano Music Awards. Who that is so call?

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Speaker 4: I like to thank every one of you who had

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Speaker 4: supported Selena Zina's for many, many years. It has been such

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Speaker 4: a long time since we've been in the music business.

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Speaker 2: I would see her in commercials on Texas TV stations.

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Speaker 4: Can't be Wanted Again from Coca Cola Classic, It's that

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Speaker 4: be that coming you away.

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Speaker 2: I remember people constantly talking about how she would be

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Speaker 2: album she was working on. But honestly, this wasn't the

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Speaker 2: most impressive thing to me. What completely blew my mind

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Speaker 2: was that she had crossed over into Mexico, the Mexico

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Speaker 2: where kids made fun of me for not speaking Spanish perfectly,

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Speaker 2: I should be my home country, that sometimes felt like

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Speaker 2: it was slipping away from me. But here was Selena,

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Speaker 1: Selena Borgo and Dolana.

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Speaker 2: When I would mess up my Spanish, I felt this

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Speaker 2: pang of humiliation and panic. But Selena was messing up

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Speaker 4: Well, likes saying that he.

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Speaker 2: That is said rock When she sang her Spanish sounded

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Speaker 2: just fine, but she didn't learn to speak it until

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Speaker 2: she was an older teenager. Here was Selena saying stuff wrong,

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Speaker 2: translating out loud, struggling for words in Spanish and sometimes English.

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Speaker 7: Just like me.

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Speaker 6: It's just like a cute name, like hi, Peffy, what

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Speaker 6: do you do?

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Speaker 4: Pupfi? You know, like a garino, like a Gomez, garm likeation.

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Speaker 2: Like when you know you. Selena switched between Spanish and English,

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Speaker 2: Mexican and American in the public eye, and there were

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Speaker 2: no cruel jokes, no shame in her accent, just adoration.

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Speaker 2: She'd declare herself a proud Mexican. To me, it was

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Speaker 2: as if she told Mexico, I don't sound like you,

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Speaker 2: but this heritage is mine to claim to. It's never

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Speaker 2: too late to get close to your roots, She'd say.

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Speaker 2: Her identity as a Mexican American wasn't some novel detail

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Speaker 2: people would find out about her no. It was central

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Speaker 2: to her presentation as an artist and as a person.

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Speaker 2: She was ex blicitly Mexican American, and just the way

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Speaker 2: she looked really made an impression on me. Growing up

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Speaker 2: on Univision and Mexican programming, all I mostly saw on

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Speaker 2: television were these Mexicans with fair skin and often with

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Speaker 2: blonde hair and light colored eyes. I remember watching Selena

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Speaker 2: on Mexican shows and thinking, she's looks more Mexican than

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Speaker 2: the host, and most people in Mexico probably thought the

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Speaker 2: same thing, too. Oo, dummy, shout out to you if

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Speaker 2: you recognize this, that lenovela opened from your childhood. Selena

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Speaker 2: made cameos as herself on this hugely popular Mexican show.

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Speaker 2: Her halting Spanish, contrasting the heavily enunciated sound of mostly

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Speaker 2: Selena won a Grammy Award for Best Mexican American Album

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Speaker 2: The day that changed my life and the country forever.

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Speaker 1: Hey, we're back. We've been listening to anything for Selena.

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Speaker 1: It's a collaboration between wbu R and Futuro Studios, hosted

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Speaker 2: I don't remember if I went to school on March

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Speaker 8: Recapping our top story to Hanna Recording star and South

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Speaker 2: Details poured in Selena had been shot by the president

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Speaker 1: Selena wanted to become a household name, and earlier this

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Speaker 2: We played her music loud, We cried for her loud.

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Speaker 2: Her iconography is ubiquitous. She's on candles and T shirts

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Speaker 1: Selenagilastinas was the soundtrack of our lives.

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Speaker 9: There was a lot of pride that people took in

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Speaker 2: I spent months in quarantine thinking about Selena and me

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Speaker 2: I'm Maria Garcia and this is Anything for Selena, a

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Speaker 5: There will be no more Selena ILOs Dinos. Do you

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Speaker 2: Here, that's next time on Anything for Selena.

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