Speaker 1: Yes, I've been cheated on, but I also have cheated
Speaker 1: before you, guys, and it's something that I'm not proud of,
Speaker 1: and it definitely ruined the relationship. If I look back now,
Speaker 1: everything that I've learned, how I've matured, there's absolutely no
Speaker 1: way on earth that I would deal with half of
Speaker 1: the things I dealt with in that relationship. I'm not
Speaker 1: going to tell you that if your partner cheated or
Speaker 1: you're cheated, the relationship is broken forever. It's going to
Speaker 1: take a lot of work, though, and you have to
Speaker 1: forgive and try to forget. Hello everyone, Happy Monday. Today
Speaker 1: is actually the last Monday in the month of June,
Speaker 1: and that means we're pretty much halfway through the year.
Speaker 1: I hope you're all doing great and counting your blessings
Speaker 1: if you didn't know, that's something I do every single morning,
Speaker 1: and I recommend you guys do it too. We have
Speaker 1: a pretty interesting episode in store for you today. It's
Speaker 1: all about cheating in relationship. So let's get into it
Speaker 1: and do the damn thing. This is checks and chill. Alright, guys,
Speaker 1: So let's talk about cheating. It's obviously a major form
Speaker 1: of betrayal when you cheat on someone you supposedly care about,
Speaker 1: your violating their trust. I don't know if you guys know,
Speaker 1: but I've been cheated on in the past. It's something
Speaker 1: I've talked about briefly in a recent interview, and I
Speaker 1: want to talk about it more here on my podcast
Speaker 1: because this is where I feel safe. So Wow, Like
Speaker 1: I said, cheating is definitely a form of betrayal. It
Speaker 1: is disrespectful. Obviously, there are people that feel that texting
Speaker 1: someone that you shouldn't be texting is cheating, Flirting is cheating. Basically,
Speaker 1: anything that you wouldn't want your partner to do you
Speaker 1: should not be doing. And I completely agree with that.
Speaker 1: And I'm going to start off by first saying that, yes,
Speaker 1: I've been cheated on, but I also have cheated before
Speaker 1: you guys, and it's something that I'm not proud of.
Speaker 1: I was young and it definitely ruined the relationship. So
Speaker 1: let me go back. So, the first time I was
Speaker 1: cheated on that I knew of, that I found out
Speaker 1: was with my very first boyfriend, my former boyfriend, the
Speaker 1: one that I think I talked about a little bit
Speaker 1: here um on one of the episodes. I was basically
Speaker 1: nineteen when I met him. We lasted like four years.
Speaker 1: We were engaged. We were going to get married in December,
Speaker 1: I believe of like two thousand six. Oh my gosh, yeah,
Speaker 1: I was December December sixteen, two thousand six, I remember precisely.
Speaker 1: So a lot happened. I'm telling you. I was young.
Speaker 1: I was very attached to my siblings, I was attached
Speaker 1: to my mom. I was afraid of marriage. Basically, I
Speaker 1: woke up one day and I said, I don't want
Speaker 1: to get married. I told him on a Wednesday, I'll
Speaker 1: never forget. A month before getting married, we had the location,
Speaker 1: we had the honeymoon, I was getting my dress made,
Speaker 1: and I just woke up one Dana said I can't
Speaker 1: marry you. Like I'm not ready. I still want to
Speaker 1: be with you, but I'm not ready to get married.
Speaker 1: Of course, he was devastated, he was heartbroken. He was
Speaker 1: just like, how can you do this to me? Which
Speaker 1: I completely understand. I was just afraid. I was afraid
Speaker 1: to leave the nest. I was afraid of not being
Speaker 1: there for my siblings, for my mom. And although my
Speaker 1: mom loved him and said he can move in with us,
Speaker 1: obviously he didn't want that He's like, no, we need
Speaker 1: to have our own home. But I was just very
Speaker 1: attached and that I think was the first big thing
Speaker 1: in our relationship. Um, he started acting different, and of
Speaker 1: course I got attention from someone else and I kissed him.
Speaker 1: Here's here's the thing. He never found out about that.
Speaker 1: But I don't know if he listens to this podcast.
Speaker 1: Maybe his because I'm really cool with his wife now
Speaker 1: they have three boys, he's happily married. I'm very happy
Speaker 1: for him. Her and I are cool, so I'm sure
Speaker 1: she listens to it. I think so now he's going
Speaker 1: to know, but he doesn't know. And the reason I'm
Speaker 1: saying is because I don't want to talk about being
Speaker 1: cheated on and not first saying that I have also
Speaker 1: felt in this area. And anyways, I got some attention.
Speaker 1: He was acting weird, as he should because I had
Speaker 1: just broken his heart and I just canceled our engagement,
Speaker 1: our wedding. I called it off, and he just wasn't
Speaker 1: being the same. And I got attention from someone. I
Speaker 1: went out to like a nightclub with my friends, and
Speaker 1: he was a very cute guy. He was a lot
Speaker 1: older than me, a lot older than him, and I
Speaker 1: don't know, I just I liked him. There was something
Speaker 1: about him. He flirted with me and gave me some attention.
Speaker 1: We kissed and nothing went further than that, but we
Speaker 1: did kiss, and that's still cheating, you guys, even flirting.
Speaker 1: I was I was wrong, and again he didn't find out,
Speaker 1: but then he continued to act weird, and I found
Speaker 1: out that he had also gone out and met this
Speaker 1: girl at like, like I think I was working or so.
Speaker 1: Then I remember exactly why I wasn't with him that night,
Speaker 1: but I didn't go, and he went out and there
Speaker 1: was a very pretty girl. She had black hair with
Speaker 1: green eyes, and I think I looked through his phone
Speaker 1: or something and he was texting this Girl'll never forget
Speaker 1: because we were baptizing his sister's son, who is still
Speaker 1: my godson. I love their family very much, and he
Speaker 1: was like on his phone and I'm like, he's been
Speaker 1: so weird, like ever since we like called off the engagement.
Speaker 1: He was acting very very different, and he was just like,
Speaker 1: not like it seems like at all into me. I
Speaker 1: felt like he was a little disgusted. He was just
Speaker 1: very disappointed. But then I never will forget that he
Speaker 1: was just on his phone the entire time at the party,
Speaker 1: like the family was there, everything, and he was just
Speaker 1: in a corner texting. So I looked through his phone,
Speaker 1: and sure enough, he was talking to a girl, and
Speaker 1: I got her number, and of course I called her
Speaker 1: and I spoke to her, and I was devastated. Mind you,
Speaker 1: I knew what I had done, but we were, I guess,
Speaker 1: doing the same thing at the same time, which means
Speaker 1: a relationship was over obviously, and he had just met her,
Speaker 1: I think, like two weeks ago, and she told me,
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I had no idea he had a girlfriend.
Speaker 1: He told me he was single. He told me that
Speaker 1: he had just broken up with his girl friend. But
Speaker 1: the thing is her friend. I guess I knew who
Speaker 1: he was, had noticed him from, like I don't know where,
Speaker 1: but this friend of hers knew that he worked with
Speaker 1: my mom and that he was my boyfriend. So I
Speaker 1: think she knew. I don't know if she was lying,
Speaker 1: but legs skip they were talking. She said that they
Speaker 1: had only kissed, they hadn't had sex. It had only
Speaker 1: been two weeks that they had like been talking, and
Speaker 1: apparently he's like, I could see myself marrying you. I
Speaker 1: could see myself having kids with you, this and this
Speaker 1: and that, and then she was at first really cool
Speaker 1: when I spoke to her, and then she became a
Speaker 1: bit and I was like, what the hell. Of course
Speaker 1: I was devastated. Of course I told him off. I
Speaker 1: was just like, how could you do this to me?
Speaker 1: This entire time, you guys, I was being a hypocrite
Speaker 1: because I knew what I had done. Obviously I didn't
Speaker 1: tell him, but of course either way, I was hurt.
Speaker 1: I was just like, I can't believe you do this
Speaker 1: to me. I never in a million years thought that
Speaker 1: he would do that to me. He bought her flowers,
Speaker 1: he took her in our car. She's like, oh yeah,
Speaker 1: I was in his car and his BMW and your
Speaker 1: guys initials are on the head rest, and I'm like,
Speaker 1: oh my gosh, she's not lying. So she told me
Speaker 1: all these details. I like was obsessed with her. She
Speaker 1: was a beautiful girl, like fellow negro, like completely different
Speaker 1: from me. I have green eyes, but they're a little
Speaker 1: bit like hers were like green green. So I was
Speaker 1: just like obsessed. I was like, oh my god. So
Speaker 1: of course we broke up for a little bit. He
Speaker 1: begged me and I just it was never the same.
Speaker 1: It was never the same. The relationship was over when
Speaker 1: him and I think him and I were actually I
Speaker 1: think I had just done the same thing, like maybe
Speaker 1: like a month before, you know what I mean. So
Speaker 1: it's like we were both, like I think, just trying
Speaker 1: to make it work because we were comfortable. But I
Speaker 1: guess it was just over anyways. I forgave him, and
Speaker 1: I told myself, I'm gonna make him fall in love
Speaker 1: with me even more and I'm going to let him
Speaker 1: go when I'm ready. And that's not the right thing,
Speaker 1: but um, I was younger, and I'm admitting to it
Speaker 1: because I've learned so much from that situation that I
Speaker 1: feel like I ruined something good. And I've told you
Speaker 1: guys this before. He was a really great guy. He
Speaker 1: is a great guy. I love his family. I still
Speaker 1: have communication with Michael mare her little boy. That's out
Speaker 1: a little boy anymore. He's like sixteen years old now.
Speaker 1: And you know, I learned from that situation at maslic Okay,
Speaker 1: you cheated on me, I'm gonna make you fall in
Speaker 1: love with me, and then I'm going to leave you.
Speaker 1: I never felt the same after that, and I basically
Speaker 1: broke up with him. I think we lasted maybe like
Speaker 1: a couple of months. It just didn't work out because
Speaker 1: it wasn't the same, and quite frankly, I was having
Speaker 1: feelings for this other person. I had stopped talking to
Speaker 1: him after I was like, no, this isn't right. But
Speaker 1: then once we broke up him and I started talking again,
Speaker 1: he was no good for me, that other dude at all.
Speaker 1: I met him at a club. Okay, he was like
Speaker 1: a bouncer at a club. It's just it was not good.
Speaker 1: I needed to learn my lesson. So I feel like
Speaker 1: I lost something good. And it was because I was young,
Speaker 1: because I was too attached to my family, and I'll
Speaker 1: never forget he told me, if you give so much
Speaker 1: for your family that one day, this is what he said,
Speaker 1: word for word he said, and I was like, no,
Speaker 1: that's never gonna happen. Like I'm gonna always be there
Speaker 1: for my mom, always going to be there for my siblings.
Speaker 1: And basically that relationship ended him and I tried maybe
Speaker 1: like a couple of years after, and it just didn't work.
Speaker 1: It's just once you break that glass and that trust you, guys,
Speaker 1: just it's never the same. And now he's happy and
Speaker 1: everything happens for a reason, and I'm happy for him.
Speaker 1: And I learned myself that I don't ever want to
Speaker 1: treat someone that way because I was so focused on
Speaker 1: my siblings, on my mom, that I was not giving
Speaker 1: my relationship the place that it required, the place that
Speaker 1: it deserved. And I learned because there were times on
Speaker 1: him and I were on our way to a date
Speaker 1: and we had things planned, my mom would call me
Speaker 1: or one of the kids, and I would just like
Speaker 1: drop it just to go, you know, to go help
Speaker 1: my mom or whatever. And because I felt for a
Speaker 1: long time that's what I had to do, you know
Speaker 1: what I mean. But I also always left him like
Speaker 1: well where do I stand? You know? And he was
Speaker 1: a good guy. He was loving to me, he was respectful.
Speaker 1: I was just afraid, and I also did things that
Speaker 1: I think karma came back and bit me in the ass.
Speaker 1: So that's what happened with the first time I found
Speaker 1: out that they cheated on me, and that was tough.
Speaker 1: And from there I was like, Okay, I'm gonna make
Speaker 1: sure that in every relationship I am, if we break up,
Speaker 1: it's going to be because of them, not because of me,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna do what I can, and I'm gonna be
Speaker 1: good and I'm gonna be respectful. And then I met
Speaker 1: someone else, and he also cheated on me. So a
Speaker 1: few years go bye, I meet someone else. I was
Speaker 1: with him for about four years and a half. I
Speaker 1: was determined to make the relationship work for many, many,
Speaker 1: many reasons. Uh, if you guys want to know you
Speaker 1: guys can read both of my books. I mentioned it
Speaker 1: in pradon or Forgiveness and in Unstoppable, so I talked
Speaker 1: about a little bit more in depth. But anyways, I
Speaker 1: was determined to make that relationship work. I was going
Speaker 1: to be the best girlfriend ever. I was not going
Speaker 1: to cheat. I was afraid of what could come around
Speaker 1: and bite me in the ass. Like I had ruined
Speaker 1: that first relationship. I feel like I ruined it. Anyways,
Speaker 1: he also did his thing. You know, it wasn't right
Speaker 1: what he did, but I take responsibility for my part.
Speaker 1: And I was also afraid of him. I thought, oh
Speaker 1: my gosh, this guy. I don't know what he could do,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. So I was faithful. I
Speaker 1: gave my everything to the relationship. I wanted it to
Speaker 1: work because my mom did not approve of that relationship
Speaker 1: from the beginning, because he had five kids, because he
Speaker 1: had two baby mamas, so on and so forth, and
Speaker 1: I was determined. I was like, I'm gonna make this
Speaker 1: relationship work. And it did for a little while. It
Speaker 1: was a very odd relations ship. If I look back now,
Speaker 1: everything that I've learned and now that how I've matured
Speaker 1: and I've grown as a woman, there's absolutely no way
Speaker 1: on earth that I would deal with half of the
Speaker 1: things I dealt with in that relationship now. But I
Speaker 1: was young, and to be honest, he helped me grow
Speaker 1: up in every way, So I'm grateful. He helped me
Speaker 1: grow up as a woman, as an artist. He taught
Speaker 1: me a lot of the business. He helped me a
Speaker 1: lot with Johnny, like a lot. So I'm grateful. He
Speaker 1: has his business, he has his record label. And back
Speaker 1: then he had what you would call del models, And
Speaker 1: there was just a bunch of these girls, hot girls
Speaker 1: you know that would you know, take pictures with their merchandise,
Speaker 1: with the tanga, the whole thing. I knew a few
Speaker 1: of them. I was cool, I was cordial with them.
Speaker 1: They were nice to me, They knew who I was.
Speaker 1: They knew I was his girl, and basically he cheated
Speaker 1: on me with one of them. Again. I had his
Speaker 1: past code to his phone. He gave it to me
Speaker 1: like pass code. He said, here, here's the past code.
Speaker 1: And I never really looked into the phone because I
Speaker 1: felt like, if he's giving it to me by himself
Speaker 1: without me asking, then he's probably not doing anything right.
Speaker 1: So I would never look at his phone, not even
Speaker 1: when he was asleep or anything like. I just I thought,
Speaker 1: oh my god, he gave me his past code. How
Speaker 1: nice he has mine, Like there's nothing to hide. Anyways,
Speaker 1: we were at his office one day and he had
Speaker 1: mosticos there and a few friends and some of his
Speaker 1: friends girlfriends. We were all sitting together and he left
Speaker 1: his phone on the table and I got curious. He
Speaker 1: was drunk, and I just got the phone. I picked
Speaker 1: it up. This was, I want to say, two years
Speaker 1: into the relationship. And I picked up the phone and
Speaker 1: I put in the past code and I just looked
Speaker 1: and then there was like an email that I was like,
Speaker 1: oh what, I wonder why this email is not registered?
Speaker 1: You know, it was in his text messages, so they
Speaker 1: were emailing from like texting. Should I say from an email.
Speaker 1: So I looked at it and there pops a picture
Speaker 1: of an ass, like you know, all these like provocative
Speaker 1: photos of this girl. And at first I didn't know
Speaker 1: who it was. I just knew it was a girl
Speaker 1: obviously because it was it was an ass and some tits,
Speaker 1: you know. So I was like, oh my god. And
Speaker 1: then I saw his comments and how he said yummy
Speaker 1: and like put the tongue and like all these emojis,
Speaker 1: and they were like gonna meet up. I was supposed
Speaker 1: to fly out to Miami to do like a tribute
Speaker 1: to Selenam that weekend, and they were supposed to meet
Speaker 1: up while I was gone. So I read all of this.
Speaker 1: Of course, I got furious because I'm like I basically
Speaker 1: I felt at that time that I had lost my
Speaker 1: relationship with my mom because I defended this relationship, and
Speaker 1: I just felt completely emotionally destroyed. Like I was like,
Speaker 1: what the hell is going on? I got crazy. I
Speaker 1: went up to him in front of all his friends.
Speaker 1: I choked him. I said, I can't believe you did this.
Speaker 1: I took his phone. I left. It got really bad,
Speaker 1: you guys, really bad. I scratched up his car. He
Speaker 1: was kind of staying with me a little bit, like
Speaker 1: at my mom's house. He was helping me there. He
Speaker 1: helped me out a lot. You guys like, he wasn't
Speaker 1: like the type of guy that was like a freeload
Speaker 1: or anything. He was just stayed with me because Johnny
Speaker 1: was so young, and he really did help me a
Speaker 1: lot in so many things. Anyway, So he was staying
Speaker 1: with me a little bit at my mom's house, and
Speaker 1: and he would help me financially there. And so I
Speaker 1: had some of his stuff, so I put it all
Speaker 1: in black bags. I stuffed it in his car. My
Speaker 1: plan was to take his car full of his stuff
Speaker 1: and just jam it and crashed it into his office.
Speaker 1: That was like gonna be my grand entrance. Thank God
Speaker 1: I never did that. That was in my thought. I
Speaker 1: was just very furious. I wrote up, scratched up his car.
Speaker 1: It got really bad. Anyways, With that being said, we
Speaker 1: broke up for a couple of months. This girl, this
Speaker 1: is the thing. I was super disappointed because, unlike the
Speaker 1: first time that cheated on me, she said that she
Speaker 1: had no idea who I was. We don't know her
Speaker 1: friend knew who I was, but she says she did it.
Speaker 1: She said that she was under the impression that he
Speaker 1: was single. So okay, but this one they a girl
Speaker 1: worked at the office. I was there every other day.
Speaker 1: Everyone knew that I was his girl, and she was
Speaker 1: disrespecting me. So I took it more of like, you're
Speaker 1: disrespecting me as a woman, and I'm not going to
Speaker 1: allow you to do that. Obviously, things changed after I
Speaker 1: forgave him when we got back together, because she wasn't
Speaker 1: a friend of mine, but I was cool with her.
Speaker 1: I was very nice to her. I knew her brother.
Speaker 1: Her brother and I went to school together, and there
Speaker 1: she was filling with my man was going to meet
Speaker 1: up with him. They were going to have sexual intercourse
Speaker 1: while I was gone working. I just couldn't understand. I
Speaker 1: was like, how is it that a girl could do this?
Speaker 1: I was just more disappointed in her. Anyways, of course,
Speaker 1: we broke up. We boke. We broke up for like
Speaker 1: two months. I made him suffer because I was obviously devastated,
Speaker 1: and he did. He begged me and begged me every
Speaker 1: single day, Like I kid you, not like he begged me,
Speaker 1: and I forgave him. I forgave him because I was
Speaker 1: grateful with him because I wasn't ready to let him
Speaker 1: go because I loved him. But ever since that happened,
Speaker 1: everything changed within my heart, like it was just something
Speaker 1: just changed and it was never the same again. And
Speaker 1: I think the same thing happened there where I was like, Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna let this other person, this other woman
Speaker 1: come and think that she's gonna quote unquote take what
Speaker 1: I've worked so hard for, because I had given so
Speaker 1: much that relationship and I helped him change so much,
Speaker 1: and he had already changed so much that I was like,
Speaker 1: I've already put in so much work. I'm not just
Speaker 1: going to move out of the way for a girl
Speaker 1: to come in and just looking she has it easy,
Speaker 1: you know. So it was a little bit of ego
Speaker 1: in there as well. And of course, like everything I
Speaker 1: just mentioned, like I there was love, there was history.
Speaker 1: There was so much that had happened with my family,
Speaker 1: with my mom that I felt like I need to
Speaker 1: make this relationship work. And I tried, and again I
Speaker 1: was still faithful. I did not cheat on him, even
Speaker 1: though he had cheated on me when we were broken
Speaker 1: up for those two muths. I met someone, but obviously
Speaker 1: that's not cheating because we were together, you know what
Speaker 1: I mean, he knew about it. He found out later.
Speaker 1: He wasn't happy about it, obviously, but I never cheated
Speaker 1: on him anyways. That I think was the beginning of
Speaker 1: the end for our relationship when I found that out
Speaker 1: and it was hard to trust him. He really did
Speaker 1: make a lot of changes and said, you know, and
Speaker 1: it really felt like he wanted the relationship to work,
Speaker 1: but because he had done what he had done, he
Speaker 1: then didn't trust me because he felt that I was
Speaker 1: going to do that. It was his guilty conscious. So
Speaker 1: the relationship was just it was doomed to be honest
Speaker 1: from that moment on, and a lot of things changed
Speaker 1: in his office because of it, and a lot of
Speaker 1: just things changed in the relationship. And anyways, it didn't work.
Speaker 1: The bottom line is that it did not work and
Speaker 1: the trust was lost. And I think trust is definitely earned,
Speaker 1: and I think he was doing what he could to
Speaker 1: make the relationship work and for me to earn his trust.
Speaker 1: But I think ultimately was his guilty conscience that ruined
Speaker 1: the relationship because he felt like, oh, she's out traveling,
Speaker 1: she's gonna cheat on me. Like it was constantly in
Speaker 1: the back of his mind, and that was a huge
Speaker 1: part of why it didn't work out. One time, I
Speaker 1: was at the gym, and it's when I lived in Corona,
Speaker 1: and there was an older man and I told him
Speaker 1: about what was happening. He said, look, honey, I've been
Speaker 1: married for forty years. He said, I have cheated on
Speaker 1: my wife. And let me tell you. This is what
Speaker 1: he told me. He said, every man cheats at one
Speaker 1: point in their life. One of two things happens. Either
Speaker 1: they like it and they continue to do it, or
Speaker 1: they don't like it and they feel so bad that
Speaker 1: they'll never do it again. He's like, but every man
Speaker 1: cheats at one point in their life. So I'm like, okay, well,
Speaker 1: maybe it's not gonna be on me, but maybe he
Speaker 1: cheated on his ex girlfriend and he learned his lesson
Speaker 1: and he won't cheat on me. It's kind of how
Speaker 1: I saw it, because it kind of did like mess
Speaker 1: me up a little bit. I'm like, well, that sucks, like,
Speaker 1: but I guess it's bound to happen. I like to
Speaker 1: think that there are faithful guys out there now with
Speaker 1: with Emilio. You know, you guys know that I'm in
Speaker 1: a relationship and I have. I like to say, I
Speaker 1: think the healthiest relationship I've ever been in. To be honest,
Speaker 1: he's gone through his share of things. He also was
Speaker 1: treated on, he also cheated, and it also taught him
Speaker 1: what he wants in a woman and what he doesn't want.
Speaker 1: I think that's why our relationship works because we've both
Speaker 1: been through our share of relationships where we've hurt the
Speaker 1: person and they've hurt us, and now we're just like, Okay,
Speaker 1: let's make this work. Let's be honest, let's put everything
Speaker 1: on the table. But I think it takes time and
Speaker 1: it takes experience to get to that point, you know,
Speaker 1: whether it be in the relationship that you're in and
Speaker 1: they've already cheated on you, you know, and you forgave them,
Speaker 1: and you guys, are moving past it and forward. Because
Speaker 1: here's the thing. I'm not going to tell you that
Speaker 1: if your partner treated or you're treated, the relationship is
Speaker 1: broken forever. I think through therapy, through intention of you
Speaker 1: wanting to make it work, it can work. It's going
Speaker 1: to take a lot of work, though, and you have
Speaker 1: to the first thing is forgive and try to forget,
Speaker 1: because if you keep bringing that ship up all the time.
Speaker 1: It's going to ruin the relationship. If you're going to
Speaker 1: forgive the person, forgive them and let it go, do
Speaker 1: your best to let it go and work past it
Speaker 1: and work together and make the changes necessary on both ends,
Speaker 1: on both sides to make the relationship work and move forward.
Speaker 1: For me personally, I think if Emilia were to cheat
Speaker 1: on me at this point, I would just have to
Speaker 1: let go of the relationship. As much as it hurt me,
Speaker 1: I don't think I want to put myself through what
Speaker 1: I put myself in the past, like say, Okay, I'm
Speaker 1: gonna make this work. I'm gonna make them fall in
Speaker 1: love with me. I'm gonna make them, in a way
Speaker 1: suffer for what they did. You know what I mean, Like,
Speaker 1: I don't have time for that. I'm like more mature now.
Speaker 1: I don't have the energy, I don't have the time
Speaker 1: for it. And we both are on the same page.
Speaker 1: If we were to cheat on each other, it's kind
Speaker 1: of like, okay, let's just part ways because the relationship
Speaker 1: won't be the same and we're we have to be
Speaker 1: okay with that decision. Now. I know of people that
Speaker 1: other celebrities and have forgiven there their partners for cheating
Speaker 1: and they moved past it and they're okay. Maybe I
Speaker 1: don't know. I honestly don't know. But I think right now,
Speaker 1: if you were asking me right now, if I found
Speaker 1: out that the media cheated on me, right now, I
Speaker 1: would have to let go of the relationship because I
Speaker 1: just I don't want to deal with that, you know
Speaker 1: what I mean. And I don't want to put him
Speaker 1: through ship because I probably would like I would probably
Speaker 1: become a bit and i'd probably I won't be the same,
Speaker 1: I know myself, So why put him through that? And
Speaker 1: why put myself through that? You know? And he's also
Speaker 1: told me I'm not going to deal with that. It
Speaker 1: would be done, so we have that mutual understanding. Anyways.
Speaker 1: Someone once asked me, is an emotional versus a physical
Speaker 1: cheating situation is one worse than the other. I think
Speaker 1: they're both bad, to be honest, I mean, I think
Speaker 1: it would hurt me more if my partner was emotionally
Speaker 1: involved with someone, you know what I mean, like versus
Speaker 1: it be just a one night stand. I think both
Speaker 1: are bad, but I think it would be like the
Speaker 1: one with my very first boyfriend, he was emotionally involved
Speaker 1: with that girl, like he was talking about marriage, about children,
Speaker 1: about moving in together within two weeks. That killed me.
Speaker 1: That killed me because I'm like, dude, how like you
Speaker 1: know what I mean, Like what the hell? Like I
Speaker 1: was just I couldn't believe it. I really couldn't believe that.
Speaker 1: I think just like devastated me even more Versus with
Speaker 1: like that other dude. It was more of like, let's
Speaker 1: just bone you know what I mean, Like it is
Speaker 1: what it is, is just have sex. It still hurt me,
Speaker 1: of course, but I feel like I was able to
Speaker 1: get over that one a little easier because I still
Speaker 1: stayed for two and a half years after that, Like
Speaker 1: we still stay together anyways. I think, yeah, if you're
Speaker 1: gonna get if you're cheating on your partner and you're
Speaker 1: getting emotionally involved with someone else and you're giving them
Speaker 1: more attention than you're even giving your significant other, than
Speaker 1: you should not be in that relationship at all. You
Speaker 1: need to let go. There's something wrong. You're obviously not
Speaker 1: into your partner if you're emotionally involved with someone else.
Speaker 1: That's something that I'm like, I cannot and if I
Speaker 1: could just give anyone advice, anyone that is listening that
Speaker 1: has been cheated on. I'm not one to tell you
Speaker 1: what to do. I can just speak from experience. And
Speaker 1: if you have been cheated on, and if you chose
Speaker 1: to forgive that person, that's admirable, Like I get it.
Speaker 1: Make sure that you are forgiving for the right reasons
Speaker 1: first and foremost, because that's something I didn't do. I
Speaker 1: was not forgiving for the right reasons. So make sure
Speaker 1: you are forgiving for the right reasons. Children are involved,
Speaker 1: You have children together, you've been together for years. Obviously,
Speaker 1: you love that person and you want to make this work,
Speaker 1: and I think through therapy, and you both have to
Speaker 1: be on the same page. That person also has to
Speaker 1: want to go to therapy. And you're gonna know. You're
Speaker 1: gonna fill it in your heart when someone is completely sorry,
Speaker 1: but you'll know this person is really sorry, and no
Speaker 1: one should judge you if you decide to stay with
Speaker 1: the person and forgive them. I think that relationships can
Speaker 1: work if both are putting in the same amount of
Speaker 1: effort to make it work. Just make sure that you
Speaker 1: forgive and you try to forget. I know it's easier
Speaker 1: said than done, but you have to forget. You can't
Speaker 1: keep bringing that thing up because it's just gonna create
Speaker 1: more dense and more cracks in the glass. It will
Speaker 1: eventually just break completely. Now, if you're the one cheating,
Speaker 1: you need to check your heart personally, That's what I feel.
Speaker 1: You need to check and reflect and analyze the relationship
Speaker 1: you're in, because if you're doing that, then that means
Speaker 1: you're not happy, you're not attracted to the person you're with,
Speaker 1: or you're just greedy and you want that person. You
Speaker 1: want to have your cake and you want to eat
Speaker 1: it too. So I would just say leave the person
Speaker 1: you're with. If you want to cheat, leave them, not gonna.
Speaker 1: Don't hurt yourself and don't hurt them. That's just my
Speaker 1: personal advice. I'm telling you. I've been on both sides
Speaker 1: of the spectrum, and it's not nice. I don't like
Speaker 1: to hurt anybody, and I don't want to be hurt,
Speaker 1: and I think we just need to treat people the
Speaker 1: way we want to be treated. We're not perfect. I
Speaker 1: asked for forgiveness. I'm like, God, forgive me, like I don't.
Speaker 1: I don't want to hurt people. I really don't like
Speaker 1: all those things that I did when I was younger,
Speaker 1: like it just taught me and it molded me to
Speaker 1: be the woman I am today. And the main thing
Speaker 1: is I want to be a positive force, a positive
Speaker 1: addition to someone's life. I'm not here to hurt anybody,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. I don't want to hurt
Speaker 1: anybody's feelings. I want to be something good in their life,
Speaker 1: something that they can be proud of, like they had,
Speaker 1: you know, like my footprint. I was here and it's
Speaker 1: it's it was a good experience, you know, which is
Speaker 1: why I feel bad for what I did when I
Speaker 1: was three, you know what I mean. Like you're young,
Speaker 1: You're dumb, I'm sorry, Like you're barely learning. But make
Speaker 1: sure that the things that you've done also teach you
Speaker 1: and you learn that lesson that you're meant to learn,
Speaker 1: so that moving forward and in your future, you can
Speaker 1: be happier and have peace in your heart and in
Speaker 1: your mind. I know everyone feels differently about whether or
Speaker 1: not you should stay with someone who has cheated, but
Speaker 1: I think everyone should make their decision and do what
Speaker 1: they feel is right for them. So if your friends
Speaker 1: or family open up to you about it, just listen
Speaker 1: and support them and try not to judge them too harshly.
Speaker 1: That's just something that I truly believe. With that being said,
Speaker 1: we are going to close out the episode and give you,
Speaker 1: guys my motivational quote for this beautiful Monday. I actually
Speaker 1: have two quotes for you guys today. One is, breaking
Speaker 1: someone's trust is like crumbling up a perfect piece of paper.
Speaker 1: You can smooth it over, but it's never going to
Speaker 1: be the same. The next one is the secret of
Speaker 1: change is to focus all of your energy not on
Speaker 1: fighting the old, but on building the new. Alright, guys, well,
Speaker 1: thank you so much for listening, for being here with me.
Speaker 1: I hope that you learned a little bit more about
Speaker 1: me from my mistakes, and a little bit for you
Speaker 1: for your future. For your present, Elsaki, I love you guys.
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