WEBVTT - “I WALKED ACROSS THE BORDER” 0:00:02.520 --> 0:00:04.240 Hello, Hi, What is your name? 0:00:05.080 --> 0:00:05.760 It's Rolando? 0:00:06.160 --> 0:00:08.520 Rolando. What's going on? Oh? 0:00:08.560 --> 0:00:11.360 Well, I sent you the text? You know you want 0:00:11.360 --> 0:00:13.520 to hear how I got to the US. 0:00:14.040 --> 0:00:19.920 What I tell me as if you set me nothing? 0:00:21.680 --> 0:00:23.120 Bet So. 0:00:26.160 --> 0:00:30.560 You know I've been in the US for about I 0:00:30.560 --> 0:00:35.280 don't know. Now it's been eleven years, and I didn't 0:00:35.320 --> 0:00:42.120 really get here, uh you know the plain way per se. 0:00:42.320 --> 0:00:45.279 I'm from uh, Central America, and you know I kind 0:00:45.280 --> 0:00:46.599 of walked here when I was fifteen? 0:00:48.920 --> 0:00:49.840 You walked here? 0:00:50.800 --> 0:00:51.239 Yeah? 0:00:51.840 --> 0:00:52.920 From where? From where? 0:00:54.280 --> 0:00:57.320 Central America? I don't want to say the country, but 0:00:58.080 --> 0:00:59.160 the Central America. 0:00:59.360 --> 0:01:00.880 Why don't you want to say the country? 0:01:02.120 --> 0:01:04.640 I don't know. I guess I'm I don't want to 0:01:04.680 --> 0:01:08.920 put a specific country to it. Well, I guess everybody 0:01:08.959 --> 0:01:10.960 from Central America does it. 0:01:11.040 --> 0:01:16.199 I'm Salvadorian, Salvadorant. How far away is El Salvador from 0:01:16.920 --> 0:01:19.240 the US? And what's the walking? How long it take 0:01:19.240 --> 0:01:20.080 you to walk there? 0:01:21.640 --> 0:01:24.880 I guess I shouldn't say walk. I mean I did 0:01:25.040 --> 0:01:30.440 take some you know, car transportation here and there, but 0:01:32.120 --> 0:01:34.560 it was with like a do you know what a 0:01:34.600 --> 0:01:36.680 coyote is? U? 0:01:38.240 --> 0:01:38.440 Oh? 0:01:38.480 --> 0:01:45.280 Ship? Yeah? Yeah, like a coyote? Yeah, yeah, like, uh, 0:01:45.680 --> 0:01:50.200 those are people who are who like they they bring 0:01:50.280 --> 0:01:51.560 bring people over the border. 0:01:52.680 --> 0:01:59.280 Yeah, for a payment. So it's actually it costs my mom, 0:01:59.520 --> 0:02:03.120 I believe Eve about ten dollars for the trip. 0:02:03.560 --> 0:02:08.120 Wow. Yeah, and she sent just you. 0:02:09.320 --> 0:02:15.760 Yeah, so it's just me wow. I basically it started 0:02:16.000 --> 0:02:20.520 at like five am, no, like three am in Al Salvador. 0:02:21.000 --> 0:02:24.160 I was you know where they put the luggage in 0:02:24.240 --> 0:02:31.040 the buses at the bottom. There was like four kits 0:02:31.840 --> 0:02:36.840 at the bottom to cross from Al Salvador to Guatemala. 0:02:37.639 --> 0:02:38.040 Wow. 0:02:38.720 --> 0:02:42.639 And then once you're on the other side, then somebody 0:02:42.720 --> 0:02:46.200 from that side picks you up and then essentially drives 0:02:46.240 --> 0:02:52.400 you up to the Mexico border, because you know, Mexico 0:02:52.440 --> 0:02:57.000 still doesn't like immigrants coming from the bottom either, which 0:02:57.040 --> 0:03:01.960 is interesting to hear. Right, But once you do cross 0:03:02.240 --> 0:03:07.840 over to Mexico, then they like pay a cartel a 0:03:07.880 --> 0:03:11.120 fee to get over or whatever, and they allow you 0:03:11.160 --> 0:03:15.680 to get over. And once you cross over, then they 0:03:15.680 --> 0:03:22.680 get you onto like a mini bus essentially, and then 0:03:22.720 --> 0:03:24.720 you drive through all of Mexico until you get to 0:03:24.760 --> 0:03:27.880 the border and at the border right before the river. 0:03:29.120 --> 0:03:31.239 I don't know if this is too much information at once. 0:03:33.360 --> 0:03:35.119 No go ahead, I am following. 0:03:35.880 --> 0:03:42.040 Okay, So once you get to the border, they have 0:03:42.200 --> 0:03:46.520 like a house right before the river crossing onto the US. 0:03:47.240 --> 0:03:51.440 Right now. The crazy thing is that, you know, at 0:03:51.480 --> 0:03:53.400 the time I was fifteen, I thought I was only 0:03:53.400 --> 0:03:59.280 going to see people from you know, Latin America. There 0:03:59.400 --> 0:04:03.600 was so many different people from so many different countries. 0:04:04.640 --> 0:04:09.280 I'm talking India, China, you know, all the way down 0:04:09.320 --> 0:04:14.600 from like Brazil and people that you know, you wouldn't 0:04:14.640 --> 0:04:18.080 expect to be there. It was like super strange. And 0:04:19.440 --> 0:04:22.279 there was this Indian guy that had like some like 0:04:22.400 --> 0:04:25.960 crazy gold chains, like he looked like he was loaded 0:04:26.000 --> 0:04:32.600 with money, you know. So basically we're at this point, 0:04:32.920 --> 0:04:38.680 we're right before the river right now, we get a 0:04:38.839 --> 0:04:43.360 guide the nose to Path on how to make it 0:04:44.800 --> 0:04:51.279 to the US, and I mean, I don't really care 0:04:51.360 --> 0:04:55.240 because you know, it's a long time agoing out. But 0:04:58.080 --> 0:05:00.719 and I'm also not illegal anymore, by the way, got 0:05:00.720 --> 0:05:03.479 through the whole system and was able to get a 0:05:03.520 --> 0:05:09.680 green card. But once you get the guide. I remember 0:05:09.720 --> 0:05:11.960 we crossed the river at night and we had to 0:05:12.000 --> 0:05:14.480 wait at the other side of the river and we 0:05:14.520 --> 0:05:19.080 heard it like a loud splash next to us and 0:05:19.200 --> 0:05:21.599 on that, you know, we didn't know what it was 0:05:21.640 --> 0:05:24.360 and I looked over and it was like an alligator. 0:05:26.640 --> 0:05:29.719 Obviously we're freaking out, but we still have to wait 0:05:29.760 --> 0:05:32.080 for the guide at the other side of the river 0:05:32.600 --> 0:05:35.800 for to reach us. So he finally makes it to us, 0:05:35.880 --> 0:05:39.679 and I believe we walked for two nights. We would 0:05:39.680 --> 0:05:43.520 only walk during the night because during the day, you know, 0:05:43.960 --> 0:05:47.000 immigration could see you or whatever. And once you make 0:05:47.040 --> 0:05:52.520 it to the other side, then a pickup truck just 0:05:52.600 --> 0:05:55.080 picks you up, and you got to run to it 0:05:55.200 --> 0:05:58.280 because if you don't, you might be left behind. Even 0:05:58.279 --> 0:06:01.800 though you've paid ten thousand dollars to be there and 0:06:01.880 --> 0:06:05.160 to get help, they don't care. And then once you're 0:06:05.200 --> 0:06:09.640 in Texas at this point, right once you're in Texas, 0:06:10.760 --> 0:06:13.960 they asked for like an addition of two thousand dollars 0:06:14.360 --> 0:06:17.359 for you to be free or the kurttail basically sends 0:06:17.360 --> 0:06:17.799 you back. 0:06:21.200 --> 0:06:23.080 How did you get the two thousand dollars? 0:06:24.480 --> 0:06:27.840 So it was kind of like an additional like fee 0:06:27.880 --> 0:06:30.159 that they wanted. And I remember at the time my 0:06:30.200 --> 0:06:32.840 mom had like, you know, obviously she's already paid ten k, 0:06:34.040 --> 0:06:36.039 so how is she gonna get you know, more money, 0:06:36.080 --> 0:06:38.640 and she told me that she ended up borrowing money 0:06:38.640 --> 0:06:43.119 from everybody that she could and she got the money together. Wow, 0:06:43.440 --> 0:06:44.960 was able to pay it. 0:06:45.440 --> 0:06:48.320 So so and do they do they take did they 0:06:48.320 --> 0:06:51.960 take her ten k? And then say they were going 0:06:52.040 --> 0:06:54.520 to do everything? And then once they got you there 0:06:54.880 --> 0:06:57.120 be like, hey, we need another two k or else 0:06:57.160 --> 0:06:58.599 we'll send you back type shit. 0:06:58.680 --> 0:07:02.680 Pretty much? Yeah, pretty much because at that point, you're 0:07:02.880 --> 0:07:06.279 they have you in Texas and there's like plenty of 0:07:06.360 --> 0:07:10.040 articles that you can see everywhere, but like there's a 0:07:10.080 --> 0:07:13.440 lot of like cartel activity like near the border in Texas, right, 0:07:13.920 --> 0:07:16.760 So they'll they'll rent like a whole house and they'll 0:07:16.800 --> 0:07:19.400 have a lot of immigrants come to that one house 0:07:19.440 --> 0:07:22.040 as a hub, and then they send them across the US. 0:07:23.240 --> 0:07:26.520 Those cartel guys are real jerks, dude. 0:07:26.520 --> 0:07:30.200 They're like it's a crazy like how they It's like 0:07:30.480 --> 0:07:32.360 it's kind of wild how organized they are. 0:07:33.600 --> 0:07:33.840 You know. 0:07:35.560 --> 0:07:39.360 So, I'm curious about a few things. What was it 0:07:39.480 --> 0:07:42.120 that inspired your mom in the first place to send 0:07:42.160 --> 0:07:46.240 you from El Salvador to America? What was the thought process? 0:07:46.400 --> 0:07:49.680 What was waiting for you in America? 0:07:50.320 --> 0:07:53.840 Yeah, have you ever heard of what's it called the 0:07:54.040 --> 0:07:54.679 MS thirteen. 0:07:55.600 --> 0:07:59.080 MS thirteen, Yeah, no, sir, what is that? 0:08:00.160 --> 0:08:03.160 So at some point MS thirteen was like the most 0:08:03.240 --> 0:08:06.240 dangerous or one of the most dangerous gangs in the world, 0:08:06.960 --> 0:08:10.520 and it started in the US during a civil war 0:08:11.040 --> 0:08:13.559 in Central America. I think I believe it was around 0:08:13.640 --> 0:08:17.520 like towards the end of the eighties seventies, if I'm 0:08:17.560 --> 0:08:20.320 not too wrong there, But there was a civil war 0:08:20.440 --> 0:08:22.600 Central America, which a lot of Americans don't know about, 0:08:24.360 --> 0:08:27.560 and it was an Alsavador. A lot of people migrated 0:08:27.600 --> 0:08:31.400 to the US during that civil war. They saw the 0:08:31.520 --> 0:08:35.600 gangs in around California, and a lot of those you know, 0:08:36.160 --> 0:08:39.680 Hispanic people there ended up making their own gangs and 0:08:39.720 --> 0:08:44.560 then they got deported back to Osavador. Now because of 0:08:44.600 --> 0:08:50.199 those gangs, I had to leave the country. They typically 0:08:50.240 --> 0:08:53.440 want you to join the gang around like fifteen sixteen, 0:08:53.480 --> 0:08:58.120 seventeen years old, and at that time, it was like 0:08:58.240 --> 0:09:01.640 crazy dangerous, Like you couldn't go out side with like 0:09:01.920 --> 0:09:05.640 anything branded, like wearing anything branded, so like if you 0:09:05.679 --> 0:09:10.920 had Nike shoes, forget about it, they were gonna steal them. 0:09:12.040 --> 0:09:15.040 Now the country has become a completely different place, like 0:09:15.960 --> 0:09:18.560 it's I would argue it's safer than the US, which 0:09:18.600 --> 0:09:22.720 is crazy to think, but it's completely different. I'm even 0:09:22.760 --> 0:09:23.840 thinking about moving back. 0:09:25.160 --> 0:09:27.920 Interesting, Okay, hold on to those thoughts because I have 0:09:28.120 --> 0:09:32.640 I have more questions. So basically, there's a it's like 0:09:32.679 --> 0:09:36.320 a draft almost. It's like you either join the gang 0:09:37.000 --> 0:09:41.560 or you'll be terrorized by it. Those are two or killed. Yeah, 0:09:42.000 --> 0:09:44.440 it was usually killed. Yeah. 0:09:45.480 --> 0:09:48.800 Like I had a couple of friends that you know, 0:09:48.880 --> 0:09:54.160 I grew up with and they're no longer around, you know, 0:09:54.320 --> 0:09:59.319 So it's it's wild that I had the opportunity to, 0:10:00.040 --> 0:10:01.200 you know, to be able to leave. 0:10:02.520 --> 0:10:03.400 What happens to your mom? 0:10:04.559 --> 0:10:06.040 She's still in the US with me? 0:10:06.840 --> 0:10:08.440 Oh when did she? When did she come? 0:10:09.440 --> 0:10:11.680 So that's the thing. So I kind of missed that, 0:10:11.920 --> 0:10:14.760 I guess. But she came to the US first, and 0:10:16.040 --> 0:10:17.800 the idea was for her to be in the US 0:10:17.800 --> 0:10:20.000 for two years and buy a house in a Salvador 0:10:20.280 --> 0:10:20.960 and move back. 0:10:22.200 --> 0:10:22.400 You know. 0:10:22.520 --> 0:10:26.040 That didn't happen. She ended up staying in the US, 0:10:26.120 --> 0:10:28.439 and then she got me to come over to the 0:10:28.559 --> 0:10:35.839 US instead to you know, have a better life. And yeah, so. 0:10:38.040 --> 0:10:40.400 There were two quick Oh yes, why do you think? 0:10:41.360 --> 0:10:43.360 Why do you want to come back to El Salvador, 0:10:43.440 --> 0:10:46.000 and why do you think it's better than the US. 0:10:46.040 --> 0:10:52.959 Now, I wouldn't say it's like like better than the US, 0:10:53.440 --> 0:10:58.160 but I don't know. I feel like this whole political 0:10:58.200 --> 0:11:00.880 stuff that's been going on, I'm a little tire of it. 0:11:01.720 --> 0:11:05.880 And it's just, you know, I have had so many 0:11:06.040 --> 0:11:11.040 racist things said to me, and it's just, you know, 0:11:11.240 --> 0:11:13.680 I'm not trying. I usually try not to let it 0:11:13.720 --> 0:11:17.319 get to me, but it's it gets exhausting after a. 0:11:17.280 --> 0:11:22.439 While, you know, go ahead, Yeah, No. 0:11:22.600 --> 0:11:26.000 And owning a you know, I really want to buy 0:11:26.040 --> 0:11:30.040 a house. Yeah, And I just even if you pay 0:11:30.080 --> 0:11:32.000 off the whole thing, you still got to pay taxes 0:11:32.040 --> 0:11:35.280 on a yearly. Where if I was in Al Salvador 0:11:35.360 --> 0:11:38.040 and I own twenty acres, I don't want to pay 0:11:38.080 --> 0:11:39.760 taxes for nothing? 0:11:40.880 --> 0:11:43.199 Is that really true? You don't have to pay property 0:11:43.240 --> 0:11:45.520 tax and El Salvador as far as I. 0:11:45.520 --> 0:11:46.040 Know, No. 0:11:46.320 --> 0:11:46.560 Yeah. 0:11:46.640 --> 0:11:49.120 My mom actually just finished building a house in Al 0:11:49.160 --> 0:11:52.680 Salvador and she just paid taxes on the land that 0:11:52.800 --> 0:11:54.160 she bought and that's about it. 0:11:54.960 --> 0:11:59.960 Wow, that's that's interesting. I didn't know that UH countries exist, 0:12:00.160 --> 0:12:03.080 right't have to pay property taxes on your land because 0:12:03.080 --> 0:12:05.240 it's weird in the US at least, it's like you 0:12:05.360 --> 0:12:09.520 never actually there's never, like you pay off your fucking 0:12:10.640 --> 0:12:12.960 your ship and then you never have to pay anything 0:12:13.000 --> 0:12:14.520 ever again. It's like you pay off your shit and 0:12:14.559 --> 0:12:17.800 then you got to pay all these extra fees forever 0:12:17.920 --> 0:12:18.760 until you die. 0:12:19.800 --> 0:12:23.000 That's the thing. Is that like even like let's say 0:12:23.000 --> 0:12:24.959 you own the house and then you know you're going 0:12:25.000 --> 0:12:27.000 through some bad times and you can't pay the taxes, 0:12:27.240 --> 0:12:31.319 the you know they're going to take it away. Yeah, yeah, 0:12:31.440 --> 0:12:33.839 you know so. But yeah, I've been in the US 0:12:33.840 --> 0:12:38.240 for like ten years now. It's you know, hopefully my 0:12:38.360 --> 0:12:44.240 accent is not too too thick, but now I have 0:12:44.360 --> 0:12:46.200 had my ups and downs in the US, you know. 0:12:46.320 --> 0:12:52.000 But it's it's definitely a uh, not a place to 0:12:52.080 --> 0:12:56.120 retire at, that's for sure. I don't know if you've 0:12:56.160 --> 0:12:58.600 seen a lot of people are retiring in Mexico from 0:12:58.720 --> 0:13:00.320 the US. 0:13:00.720 --> 0:13:04.959 Yeah. Oh, my whole my YouTube feed is all this 0:13:05.280 --> 0:13:09.720 like retire for forty dollars a month in you know 0:13:10.840 --> 0:13:15.520 this Southeast Asian or Latin American or Central American country. 0:13:15.720 --> 0:13:18.840 That's all all the videos. I mean, No, America is 0:13:18.840 --> 0:13:24.520 a terrible place to retire. There's it's such a expensive 0:13:24.679 --> 0:13:28.200 place to live. Like if you compare I mean, if 0:13:28.200 --> 0:13:32.160 you take American dollars anywhere outside the US, you're balling. 0:13:32.400 --> 0:13:35.199 And then I assume, like, yeah, if you were making 0:13:35.200 --> 0:13:39.120 your money and like in Mexico, like in pesos, and 0:13:39.200 --> 0:13:42.880 you fucking came up to the US, like you just 0:13:42.880 --> 0:13:43.880 get fucked. 0:13:44.760 --> 0:13:48.120 That, And like even even down to like the fruit, 0:13:48.400 --> 0:13:55.200 the produce, everything is healthier. I recently went back to 0:13:55.320 --> 0:13:59.640 visit some family in Alsavador, and I was kind of 0:14:00.080 --> 0:14:03.520 mind boggled at how cheap everything was. Like I think 0:14:04.240 --> 0:14:07.640 like six of us eight we went out to eat, 0:14:07.640 --> 0:14:09.880 and I think I only spend like forty dollars. 0:14:09.920 --> 0:14:14.160 Crazy, yeah, crazy, yeah, I mean six people going out 0:14:14.160 --> 0:14:19.480 to eat in America, there's about three hundred and forty dollars. 0:14:19.440 --> 0:14:23.760 You know, So especially I live in the New Anglan area, 0:14:23.840 --> 0:14:26.560 and my god, everything is so expensive over here. 0:14:26.760 --> 0:14:27.720 Are you in Boston? 0:14:29.120 --> 0:14:30.680 Yeah? 0:14:30.760 --> 0:14:31.040 Cool? 0:14:31.440 --> 0:14:36.520 Cool, near nearer there. But by the way, I wanted 0:14:36.560 --> 0:14:41.000 to ask you something I've always you know, I've listened 0:14:41.040 --> 0:14:44.200 to your I mainly listened to you on the podcast, 0:14:44.240 --> 0:14:47.160 by the way, cool, I don't really clock in on 0:14:47.160 --> 0:14:49.520 on on twitch, but I tried to do as much 0:14:49.520 --> 0:14:53.440 as I can. I thought I thought it would be cool. 0:14:53.800 --> 0:14:56.200 And I don't know if you think this would be 0:14:56.320 --> 0:14:58.400 you know, interesting or not, but I thought it would 0:14:58.440 --> 0:15:03.760 be cool to have a Spanish vers of the Gek okay, 0:15:04.920 --> 0:15:07.560 but it wouldn't be like, you know, it's like a 0:15:07.640 --> 0:15:10.320 take on the gek, but it would be like a parrot, 0:15:10.360 --> 0:15:11.360 but it's in Spanish. 0:15:11.920 --> 0:15:15.240 Are you are you saying you want to do? Are 0:15:15.280 --> 0:15:17.080 you saying you want to dress up as a parrot 0:15:17.120 --> 0:15:19.320 and take phone calls in Spanish? 0:15:19.440 --> 0:15:21.480 I would love to, Yeah, but I didn't know if 0:15:21.480 --> 0:15:25.200 it would be like cloiche or like, you know, rude 0:15:25.560 --> 0:15:26.720 to do something like that. 0:15:27.040 --> 0:15:30.120 I don't give a fuck. I don't own the concept 0:15:30.160 --> 0:15:31.720 of taking phone calls. 0:15:32.280 --> 0:15:34.720 Yeah, people have. 0:15:34.680 --> 0:15:37.760 Been People have been doing this for for forever. People 0:15:37.760 --> 0:15:41.680 have been doing this since you know, in radio days. Yeah, 0:15:41.720 --> 0:15:43.840 it's so fun. I'll get dude, it's so fun. I 0:15:43.880 --> 0:15:46.320 get d ms like this of people being like, am 0:15:46.320 --> 0:15:48.560 I can I do a call in show? Or is 0:15:48.600 --> 0:15:50.880 that encroaching our territory? And I'm like, dude, I fucking 0:15:51.720 --> 0:15:54.320 people have been doing people have been doing Man on 0:15:54.400 --> 0:15:57.640 the Street interviews and phone calls forever. I don't I 0:15:57.680 --> 0:16:01.080 don't own this ship. Go ahead, but like still on 0:16:01.320 --> 0:16:04.040 or something like that. See, I don't even Yeah, there's 0:16:04.040 --> 0:16:07.040 a billion stuff like this, but but I want to 0:16:07.040 --> 0:16:12.240 ask you this. So tell me there's gotta be some 0:16:12.320 --> 0:16:15.840 reason people are still sticking around in the US. Tell 0:16:15.880 --> 0:16:20.520 me in the past eleven years. Has there been pros 0:16:20.720 --> 0:16:23.760 Has there been stuff where you're like, all right, this 0:16:24.760 --> 0:16:27.360 stuff is at least better than it was back home. 0:16:27.440 --> 0:16:31.200 Is there anything you can think about. 0:16:30.480 --> 0:16:36.360 Honestly, just being able to like express yourself, you know, 0:16:37.000 --> 0:16:41.360 because like if I was back in Olsavador, like religion 0:16:41.440 --> 0:16:44.440 is such a huge part of the culture that like 0:16:44.800 --> 0:16:47.480 me saying something like, oh, you know, I don't really 0:16:47.520 --> 0:16:50.480 believe in God, it's like like almost like frowned upon, 0:16:50.600 --> 0:16:53.880 you know, like being able to just really be yourself, 0:16:53.920 --> 0:16:56.200 like you know, from time to time, I pay my nails, 0:16:56.840 --> 0:16:59.640 you know, and or if I wanted my hair to 0:16:59.680 --> 0:17:03.160 be paid. There's plenty of people doing that in the US, 0:17:03.920 --> 0:17:09.879 you know, where in other countries it's just not you know, 0:17:10.560 --> 0:17:12.480 you're gonna get some weird looks and you're not gonna 0:17:12.480 --> 0:17:13.119 be comfortable. 0:17:13.680 --> 0:17:14.000 M m. 0:17:14.800 --> 0:17:19.440 You know that's pretty cool. I think that like being 0:17:19.480 --> 0:17:22.480 able to open a business and kind of like get 0:17:22.520 --> 0:17:26.440 it going fairly quickly is pretty cool too. I don't 0:17:26.440 --> 0:17:30.679 have one on my own, but it seems like everybody's 0:17:30.720 --> 0:17:32.159 opening on LLC lately. 0:17:34.280 --> 0:17:35.640 Is that something you thought about doing? 0:17:36.480 --> 0:17:41.520 Yeah, I have. I have a photography business, and I 0:17:41.560 --> 0:17:47.840 do YouTube here and there, but it's I love cameras 0:17:47.840 --> 0:17:51.119 and like anything media related. Like when I got my 0:17:51.160 --> 0:17:53.280 green card, the judge asked me. He was like, hey, 0:17:53.880 --> 0:17:55.399 you know, once you graduate high school, what do you 0:17:55.440 --> 0:17:56.760 want to do? And I said, I want to be 0:17:56.800 --> 0:17:59.880 a movie director, not realizing how long that can take, 0:18:00.040 --> 0:18:01.560 but you know something I can still do. 0:18:04.280 --> 0:18:06.359 You said, what do you make YouTube videos about? 0:18:07.920 --> 0:18:12.760 Mainly cameras? And I got an e bike recently. It's 0:18:12.800 --> 0:18:15.240 mainly I'm like, yeah. 0:18:15.240 --> 0:18:21.359 Dude, okay, So I actually I'm in New York now 0:18:21.800 --> 0:18:24.920 and I think I'm gonna get a fucking e bike. Dude. 0:18:24.960 --> 0:18:27.080 I'm like, I'm like going to the e bike stores. 0:18:27.119 --> 0:18:29.800 I'm shopping around for it. I'm trying to get one 0:18:29.840 --> 0:18:32.320 of those. Yeah, I mean, yeah, I'm trying to get 0:18:32.320 --> 0:18:33.720 an e bike. Do you do you suggest it? 0:18:34.800 --> 0:18:39.560 I so suggest that the only anxiety about it that 0:18:39.640 --> 0:18:43.320 I have right now is that apparently they're like super 0:18:43.920 --> 0:18:48.440 easy to steal or like people love stealing them, right, 0:18:48.520 --> 0:18:51.959 So that's the only issue. But it's funny. I actually 0:18:51.960 --> 0:18:53.560 got the e bike because I have a friend that 0:18:53.640 --> 0:18:55.840 lives in New York and I want to take it 0:18:56.000 --> 0:18:58.080 right around in New York because it seems like it'd 0:18:58.080 --> 0:18:59.280 be a lot of fun to do that there. 0:18:59.600 --> 0:19:02.760 The old problem is when you when you're riding an 0:19:02.800 --> 0:19:07.040 e bike, there is a chance that you will get 0:19:07.080 --> 0:19:11.199 hit by a car and die m h yeah, or 0:19:11.359 --> 0:19:13.680 w for the rest of your life and people will 0:19:13.680 --> 0:19:14.320 make fun of you. 0:19:15.560 --> 0:19:17.440 I just watched well, I mean, I guess you could 0:19:17.440 --> 0:19:19.240 say that about anything though. I mean, you can walk 0:19:19.240 --> 0:19:21.760 outside of the house and trip and hit your head, 0:19:21.800 --> 0:19:22.000 you know. 0:19:23.800 --> 0:19:24.440 Yeah, it's true. 0:19:25.440 --> 0:19:25.680 True. 0:19:26.600 --> 0:19:28.680 The e bike I got, it's like a thousand dollars. 0:19:29.359 --> 0:19:32.439 It's like a cheap o like electric e bike that 0:19:32.480 --> 0:19:35.520 looks like that one of those like cafe erasers. 0:19:36.560 --> 0:19:38.480 That's cool. I was looking at something like I was 0:19:38.480 --> 0:19:41.479 looking at something like that around that price range. 0:19:41.760 --> 0:19:44.600 Yeah, I got amos on it. I'm like pay a 0:19:44.640 --> 0:19:46.959 month be for it. So it's not even like anything 0:19:47.080 --> 0:19:49.680 crazy extensive because they can go up to like five K. 0:19:51.280 --> 0:19:54.399 So what do you do with your life in the 0:19:54.560 --> 0:19:56.840 US right now? 0:19:56.840 --> 0:19:59.359 I'm actually going to school. So I'm going to school 0:19:59.400 --> 0:20:02.800 to have like a a solid job. I'm getting Uh 0:20:03.960 --> 0:20:09.080 it's essentially cybersecurity. That is an umbrella degree. So it's 0:20:09.160 --> 0:20:12.320 just in the tech stuff that's to have a solid income. 0:20:12.760 --> 0:20:17.240 I'm really passionate about, like the photography stuff, but it's 0:20:17.280 --> 0:20:20.040 so difficult to get business with that. That's just not 0:20:20.520 --> 0:20:22.400 that reliable. It's like I'm trying to be a rock star. 0:20:22.480 --> 0:20:26.160 You know, it can happen, it's just I shouldn't rely 0:20:26.240 --> 0:20:27.000 on it too much, you know. 0:20:30.200 --> 0:20:32.480 So if you if you did go back to El Salvador, 0:20:32.520 --> 0:20:33.680 when do you think you would do it? Would you 0:20:33.720 --> 0:20:34.959 wait until you finish school? 0:20:35.920 --> 0:20:38.119 Yeah? Pretty much? So you know what I want to do. 0:20:38.240 --> 0:20:42.800 I want to get a degree in the US to 0:20:43.280 --> 0:20:46.840 you know, try to do something within the US that's 0:20:47.080 --> 0:20:51.560 tech related and potentially like be remote. Like it'd be 0:20:51.680 --> 0:20:54.600 so cool to have a job that pays you US 0:20:54.720 --> 0:20:58.760 money and live in a country like Ol Salvador where 0:20:58.800 --> 0:21:00.240 stuff is a little bit cheaper. 0:21:00.280 --> 0:21:04.680 You know, or like yeah, I mean that's the that's 0:21:04.720 --> 0:21:07.080 that's the life hack right there. And also, you know, 0:21:07.119 --> 0:21:08.480 I was just thinking that I literally just had the 0:21:08.520 --> 0:21:14.960 star just now. I'm like, you know, it's really I 0:21:14.960 --> 0:21:17.000 think the thing that holds me back from moving to 0:21:17.040 --> 0:21:18.479 a foreign country is that I just I don't know 0:21:18.520 --> 0:21:24.159 anyone in El Salvador or or Southeast Asia or anything 0:21:24.240 --> 0:21:27.720 like that. But for you to take your US dollars 0:21:27.760 --> 0:21:30.840 and your US job and go back to a foreign 0:21:30.920 --> 0:21:33.719 country where you have I mean not a foreign country, 0:21:33.800 --> 0:21:37.439 but to go back to home, to go home, have 0:21:37.480 --> 0:21:40.560 your friends and your family. Yeah, and you're and I 0:21:40.640 --> 0:21:42.360 mean you'll just be balling the fuck out. 0:21:43.359 --> 0:21:47.760 Yeah, correctly, you know. And like a house, you can 0:21:47.800 --> 0:21:49.800 definitely get a house of like fifty thousand dollars and 0:21:49.840 --> 0:21:50.240 they'll be. 0:21:50.240 --> 0:21:53.639 Like a nice house. That's crazy, you know. 0:21:53.880 --> 0:21:56.639 Stuff is it is here and they're cheap and what not. 0:21:57.160 --> 0:22:00.320 By the way, if you want to travel around there 0:22:00.480 --> 0:22:02.680 also there was like the perfect place to go right now. 0:22:03.240 --> 0:22:07.440 And apparently I didn't know this, but belief like their 0:22:07.440 --> 0:22:13.520 main language is English really yeah, and then the secondary 0:22:13.560 --> 0:22:17.200 language is a Spanish I guess. I guess they also 0:22:17.240 --> 0:22:19.040 have a lot of like I think it was Mormon people. 0:22:19.720 --> 0:22:23.440 There's like a huge community of Mormons, and I believe 0:22:23.480 --> 0:22:28.440 it was Mormons. But yeah, I thought that was kind 0:22:28.440 --> 0:22:31.240 of wild too, that most people don't know that. 0:22:32.680 --> 0:22:37.640 What's your name again, Orlando? Rolando, Orlando. It's been really 0:22:37.640 --> 0:22:39.800 good talking to you. This is this has been super interesting. 0:22:40.800 --> 0:22:41.080 Cool. 0:22:41.119 --> 0:22:43.240 Thanks man. 0:22:42.920 --> 0:22:45.919 Is there anything else you want to say to the 0:22:45.960 --> 0:22:47.399 people of the Actually, no, I want to do that. 0:22:47.400 --> 0:22:48.840 I want to do this real quick before I before 0:22:48.880 --> 0:22:51.360 I let you go, does the chat have any questions 0:22:52.080 --> 0:22:54.439 for Orlando about any of this stuff. I'm gonna let 0:22:54.440 --> 0:23:00.480 the chat ask a few questions. Someone said, someone in 0:23:00.520 --> 0:23:02.840 the chest said, if you die on an e bike, 0:23:03.359 --> 0:23:08.480 you deserve it. And you know what, I don't. I 0:23:08.520 --> 0:23:13.439 don't know the thing that you said about, like you 0:23:13.520 --> 0:23:18.040 can you can die just walking outside. Your likelihood to 0:23:18.080 --> 0:23:20.439 die riding an e bike in New York City is 0:23:20.480 --> 0:23:23.639 way higher than just walking around. Yeah, but like undeniably. So, 0:23:24.200 --> 0:23:27.160 uh okay, what's what's the top speed on your e bike? 0:23:29.040 --> 0:23:33.040 I think it's thirty miles per hour? It can do forty, 0:23:33.080 --> 0:23:36.359 but I'm a fat ass, so like it only tops 0:23:36.440 --> 0:23:40.240 up at thirty, so it's not so crazy fast. 0:23:40.960 --> 0:23:48.760 Someone said, uh uh, well, what do you do now 0:23:48.840 --> 0:23:51.439 for work? You said you're in school, but do you 0:23:51.520 --> 0:23:52.680 do work too? 0:23:53.720 --> 0:23:59.640 Unfortunately, I do sales. I work at a wireless company 0:24:00.040 --> 0:24:00.920 selling cell phones. 0:24:01.359 --> 0:24:04.000 Totally thought you were gonna say you do e bike sales. 0:24:04.600 --> 0:24:07.840 Yeah, no, I tell cell phones. And it's been really 0:24:07.880 --> 0:24:10.280 boring because all of these new iPhones that are coming 0:24:10.320 --> 0:24:11.840 out are the same thing every year. 0:24:11.880 --> 0:24:12.040 Man. 0:24:15.440 --> 0:24:15.560 Uh. 0:24:15.960 --> 0:24:18.320 Someone asked, will you bring your mom to America? Your 0:24:18.320 --> 0:24:19.840 mom's your mom's already in America with you. 0:24:20.359 --> 0:24:22.600 Yeah, she was the first one here and then she 0:24:22.680 --> 0:24:23.480 brought me over here. 0:24:25.119 --> 0:24:25.239 Uh. 0:24:25.400 --> 0:24:28.560 Someone said, you can't look cool on an e bike. 0:24:28.680 --> 0:24:31.080 I disagree. I think I've seen some e bikes and 0:24:31.119 --> 0:24:32.520 I'm like, these would be really cool. 0:24:33.400 --> 0:24:36.280 Honestly, that was like my biggest concern because. 0:24:36.040 --> 0:24:38.280 That sounds like sounds like a lot of people in 0:24:38.359 --> 0:24:40.359 Chad are jealous that they don't have e bikes, is 0:24:40.359 --> 0:24:41.520 what I'm getting there. 0:24:41.520 --> 0:24:44.920 There's so much fun and they're like honestly, most people 0:24:44.920 --> 0:24:47.880 think they're like more expensive than they actually are. Every 0:24:47.920 --> 0:24:51.520 one for a thousand dollars on Amazon, and if you 0:24:51.560 --> 0:24:54.159 want to, you can pay monthly for it. If you 0:24:54.200 --> 0:24:56.760 want to pay monthly for it, I think it's like 0:24:56.880 --> 0:24:57.880 thirty dollars a month. 0:24:58.800 --> 0:24:59.879 Wow, I just have to pay this. 0:25:00.240 --> 0:25:02.200 Yeah, yeah, I just have to pay the shipping, which 0:25:02.280 --> 0:25:04.760 is like I think it was like two hundred or 0:25:04.760 --> 0:25:05.400 something like that. 0:25:07.480 --> 0:25:10.400 Final question, someone says, Oh, do you have any other 0:25:10.480 --> 0:25:13.679 family members down there who are planning to come to 0:25:13.720 --> 0:25:14.240 the US. 0:25:15.880 --> 0:25:18.679 You know, it's funny. I've asked multiple people, Like my 0:25:18.760 --> 0:25:21.520 dad lives on there, like you know, most of my family, 0:25:21.600 --> 0:25:25.240 like my grandparents. They they you know, now that the 0:25:25.240 --> 0:25:28.040 country's doing better, they don't want to leave. They're pretty 0:25:28.040 --> 0:25:28.760 happy over there. 0:25:29.600 --> 0:25:32.200 How long did it take for the country to do 0:25:32.720 --> 0:25:35.240 better and not be overtaken by gangs? 0:25:35.680 --> 0:25:38.919 There's a look into this president because he's been doing 0:25:38.960 --> 0:25:43.000 a lot of cool stuff. But his name is Naibu Kelle, 0:25:43.800 --> 0:25:46.360 so it's just a Salvadorian president. He's a younger guy. 0:25:46.359 --> 0:25:51.040 I think he's I forget how old. He's within forty 0:25:51.440 --> 0:25:55.800 to thirty age range. And he changed the country completely. 0:25:56.560 --> 0:26:00.800 He basically if you had Gang Tatoo's, if you wereang affiliated, 0:26:00.800 --> 0:26:06.760 you were going to jail. So everybody that's affiliated to 0:26:06.840 --> 0:26:11.200 that gang is currently in jail. And a brought down 0:26:11.359 --> 0:26:13.600 the crime rate like too crazy. 0:26:13.280 --> 0:26:18.720 Low, Wow, that sounds like, uh, what a crazy like 0:26:18.880 --> 0:26:21.360 thing to tackle, Like, how had he crack down on it? 0:26:21.359 --> 0:26:25.920 It must be like insane amounts of corruption to the 0:26:26.320 --> 0:26:26.760 deal with. 0:26:27.000 --> 0:26:29.800 Yeah, he basically went into he went into the government. 0:26:29.920 --> 0:26:34.080 He did an investigation on everybody that worked under his 0:26:34.440 --> 0:26:41.120 you know name, and essentially fired anybody and through anybody 0:26:41.160 --> 0:26:43.800 that wasn't doing their job correctly obviously if they were 0:26:43.800 --> 0:26:48.280 breaking the lot and you know, to jail. Yeah, exactly. 0:26:48.880 --> 0:26:51.240 So there's plenty of videos on YouTube about it. But 0:26:51.920 --> 0:26:54.080 it's pretty cool and it's not. The crazy thing is 0:26:54.080 --> 0:26:56.800 like not that many people know about it, and it's 0:26:56.920 --> 0:26:59.520 like two countries away on this side of the planet. 0:27:01.280 --> 0:27:03.360 Get fucked. All right, i gotta check out El Salvador. 0:27:03.400 --> 0:27:05.359 I'm gonna put it on my I want to travel, 0:27:05.800 --> 0:27:08.320 I want to go most places before I die. I 0:27:08.320 --> 0:27:10.399 think that's what you should do, is you should see stuff. 0:27:10.960 --> 0:27:12.720 So all right, I'll put it. I'll put El Salvador 0:27:12.760 --> 0:27:17.080 on my list. Yeah you like him, beautiful. Have a 0:27:17.080 --> 0:27:18.400 good night, Rolando, Thanks for colling. 0:27:18.880 --> 0:27:20.160 Take care nice. 0:27:22.359 --> 0:27:26.560 That's a good call. Attention listeners of the Therapy Gecko podcast, 0:27:26.760 --> 0:27:30.000 do you know that I do a live version of 0:27:30.040 --> 0:27:34.720 this podcast on stage in person in front of real people, 0:27:35.160 --> 0:27:38.640 and that I'm doing this live show in several cities 0:27:38.680 --> 0:27:42.520 across the United States this year, and that tickets are 0:27:42.600 --> 0:27:47.280 available right now at therapy geckotour dot com or at 0:27:47.280 --> 0:27:50.200 the link in the episode description. It is all true. 0:27:50.440 --> 0:27:53.639 I'm currently on my third tour doing Therapy Gecko Live 0:27:53.800 --> 0:27:57.119 all around the country and it is the most fun, sick, 0:27:57.680 --> 0:27:59.920 amazing thing ever and you should come out and be 0:28:00.119 --> 0:28:02.639 part of it. The shows involve a mix of material 0:28:02.720 --> 0:28:07.280 and presentations for myself combined with a group Gecko therapy 0:28:07.359 --> 0:28:10.520 session where members of the audience come on stage to 0:28:10.600 --> 0:28:13.440 share things from their lives in front of a big 0:28:13.440 --> 0:28:16.840 group of people, just like we do here on the podcast. 0:28:17.040 --> 0:28:19.080 Whether you're a fan of the podcast or you have 0:28:19.280 --> 0:28:21.359 no idea what this is and you clicked on it 0:28:21.400 --> 0:28:23.679 by accident, you're gonna have a great time at the 0:28:23.720 --> 0:28:26.800 live show once again. Tickets are available right now at 0:28:26.920 --> 0:28:30.720 therapy geckotour dot com or at the link in the 0:28:30.760 --> 0:28:34.280 episode description. These are really fun shows. They're always wild, 0:28:34.400 --> 0:28:43.080 they're always unpredictable, and I hope to see you guys there. Hello, Hi, 0:28:43.160 --> 0:28:43.920 what is your name? 0:28:44.280 --> 0:28:44.480 Hi? 0:28:45.640 --> 0:28:50.920 I'm Bean, Bean, what's up bean, I'm a gecko. 0:28:52.320 --> 0:28:53.520 Hi, nice to talk to you. 0:28:54.160 --> 0:28:58.480 How's life? Life is a little. 0:28:58.240 --> 0:28:59.880 Crazy, But I don't know. I guess I'm a good 0:29:00.200 --> 0:29:00.880 in a bad way. 0:29:02.000 --> 0:29:04.760 Life is a little crazy. It might actually be the 0:29:04.800 --> 0:29:06.520 craziest thing there ever was. 0:29:09.000 --> 0:29:10.760 I guess we wouldn't have anything else to compare it 0:29:10.840 --> 0:29:13.120 to otherwise, but it's pretty crazy. 0:29:15.200 --> 0:29:17.440 Well, what do you want to talk about today? 0:29:19.440 --> 0:29:22.719 So? As I said in my text, I am an 0:29:22.800 --> 0:29:29.240 online content creator, an online adult content creator, and I'm 0:29:29.360 --> 0:29:31.600 kind of living a double life. Like my parents don't 0:29:31.600 --> 0:29:34.840 know about it, Like I don't know, like I'm twenty nine. 0:29:35.040 --> 0:29:37.320 Was not necessarily like they have to know about it, 0:29:37.400 --> 0:29:40.120 but I am very close to them, and like I 0:29:40.160 --> 0:29:44.000 tell them, I so work at Walmart and I don't. 0:29:44.240 --> 0:29:46.920 And it's just like keeping track of all these lives 0:29:46.960 --> 0:29:50.560 isn't fun. And I'm like putting my faith out there 0:29:50.560 --> 0:29:53.120 and getting more popular. So I'm like, it's going to 0:29:53.120 --> 0:29:55.680 happen eventually, and I don't know how to address it. 0:29:57.600 --> 0:30:03.840 You're getting more popular? What's you your main platform? 0:30:04.440 --> 0:30:06.720 I post a lot on like Reddit and set life, 0:30:07.960 --> 0:30:10.560 and I'm starting to get more popular on Twitter or 0:30:10.560 --> 0:30:12.320 I guess X now mm hmm. 0:30:13.880 --> 0:30:16.000 And let me ask let me ask you this. Are 0:30:16.000 --> 0:30:16.920 you having fun? 0:30:20.360 --> 0:30:24.280 Yes, for the most part, I am having fun, But 0:30:26.600 --> 0:30:29.400 I don't know, like because I'm starting, like I'm actually 0:30:29.400 --> 0:30:31.880 doing this like full time now, like how I support myself. 0:30:31.880 --> 0:30:33.960 It's starting to feel like a job, like I guess, 0:30:34.000 --> 0:30:36.400 like at the end of the day, like and you 0:30:36.480 --> 0:30:39.880 think like you gets tired of it. Oh yeah, sometimes 0:30:39.920 --> 0:30:43.080 like I get so burnt out, like pretending that like 0:30:43.280 --> 0:30:47.040 I am more attracted to these guys than I really am, 0:30:47.080 --> 0:30:48.880 just like for the sake of making content. 0:30:49.000 --> 0:30:53.480 You know, you know, everything just becomes a job. I mean, 0:30:54.160 --> 0:30:57.360 you know, I'm a I'm a this is my job 0:30:57.400 --> 0:30:59.880 as being a gecko and talking to people. And it's definitely, 0:31:01.440 --> 0:31:05.080 you know, while still fun, while still while a great, 0:31:05.960 --> 0:31:14.120 amazing job, still a job. You know. Yeah, it's so okay. 0:31:14.200 --> 0:31:17.800 So well, I guess fun maybe funds not the word 0:31:18.440 --> 0:31:22.000 fund's part of it. Are you are you sure? Are 0:31:22.040 --> 0:31:28.400 you enjoying it's Are you happy with it being what 0:31:28.440 --> 0:31:29.920 you are doing with your life? 0:31:33.400 --> 0:31:33.680 Yes? 0:31:34.240 --> 0:31:38.800 And no again, I like before this, all I was 0:31:38.840 --> 0:31:41.400 doing was like working in retail and I was going 0:31:41.400 --> 0:31:43.200 to be a chef, like I went to culinary school, 0:31:43.240 --> 0:31:45.800 and I being a chef is just not for me. 0:31:45.880 --> 0:31:49.600 It's way too stressful. So like all things considered, like 0:31:49.680 --> 0:31:53.000 this is way better than anything else I've ever done. 0:31:53.040 --> 0:31:56.200 I'm having fun. But I also like worry because you know, 0:31:56.400 --> 0:31:59.040 like there's such a stigma around like doing stuff like 0:31:59.080 --> 0:32:01.520 this and being a sex I mean, I guess I'm 0:32:01.560 --> 0:32:04.280 not necessarily sex worker, but I am. At the same time, 0:32:05.440 --> 0:32:07.880 I like worry because, like I put my face out there, 0:32:07.960 --> 0:32:10.400 so like if I choose one day to not do this, like, 0:32:10.440 --> 0:32:12.840 am I like fucking myself up in the future? 0:32:12.920 --> 0:32:16.120 You know, well, what in what way do you feel 0:32:16.160 --> 0:32:18.120 as though you're sucking yourself up in the future? 0:32:20.320 --> 0:32:25.080 Like if I don't know, I guess like I've always 0:32:25.080 --> 0:32:28.080 had the fear or the idea instilled me. Like everything 0:32:28.120 --> 0:32:31.080 on the internet last forever, and it's incredibly true. Like yeah, 0:32:31.280 --> 0:32:35.200 even if I delete everything, like people save stuff and 0:32:35.280 --> 0:32:39.400 like they can continue to post it so it doesn't disappear, right, 0:32:39.800 --> 0:32:43.200 So if like a future employer sees that and they're like, oh, 0:32:43.360 --> 0:32:47.040 that's not okay, and so another like I've made some 0:32:47.160 --> 0:32:49.600 content like at work, and like that's also like a 0:32:49.640 --> 0:32:53.200 reason like why God, It's like so popular. I didn't 0:32:53.200 --> 0:32:53.720 know what. 0:32:53.720 --> 0:32:57.200 Can I can I ask where you work? Were you, 0:32:57.760 --> 0:33:01.239 uh were sticking your penis sense of donut holes at 0:33:01.240 --> 0:33:02.000 the Chrispy Kreme? 0:33:03.440 --> 0:33:04.240 Yeah you caught me? 0:33:06.520 --> 0:33:08.840 No, I was. I was like taking my tips out 0:33:08.880 --> 0:33:13.240 of like the retail store I worked at, and nice. 0:33:14.360 --> 0:33:17.640 I got worried that I would eventually like get caught 0:33:18.200 --> 0:33:22.920 and people like start to recognize me in like anyways. 0:33:22.960 --> 0:33:26.120 Like I wasn't like overtly like saying like oh hey, 0:33:26.160 --> 0:33:27.880 this is where I work, but like people would recognize 0:33:27.920 --> 0:33:29.520 me like oh hey, I like your stuff, and like 0:33:29.520 --> 0:33:33.320 it made me worry. So I just quit And now 0:33:33.360 --> 0:33:34.120 this is what I'm doing. 0:33:34.560 --> 0:33:39.880 Well, okay, future employers, what yees? All right? I mean 0:33:39.920 --> 0:33:44.160 you're you're twenty nine, right, yeah, uh, you've been alive 0:33:44.240 --> 0:33:47.720 long enough that and while all these things could change, 0:33:48.120 --> 0:33:51.000 you've been alive long enough that you have some semblance 0:33:51.120 --> 0:33:58.960 of an idea of how you want to live, right, yeah, okay? 0:33:59.640 --> 0:34:00.560 What so. 0:34:03.280 --> 0:34:06.520 Like when you really break it down, in what way 0:34:06.560 --> 0:34:11.279 do you feel as though people knowing that you've you've 0:34:11.320 --> 0:34:16.440 done porn or whatever negatively interferes with that way that 0:34:16.480 --> 0:34:19.359 you want to live your life? Like that's the that's 0:34:19.400 --> 0:34:21.840 the real if you if like we've through all the 0:34:21.840 --> 0:34:23.799 bullshit and all the people being like, oh I've seen 0:34:23.840 --> 0:34:27.080 your tits, Like, that's the real question. It's the real 0:34:27.160 --> 0:34:28.400 question to ask yourself. 0:34:29.920 --> 0:34:36.799 Yeah. Yeah, I guess I don't know. My biggest fear 0:34:36.800 --> 0:34:40.880 is I just don't want to get fired from another 0:34:40.960 --> 0:34:42.600 job because you're like, oh, I don't want you taking. 0:34:42.400 --> 0:34:43.160 Your tits out here. 0:34:43.520 --> 0:34:48.000 You know, I understand that. But but are you not? 0:34:48.160 --> 0:34:50.400 I mean, is this is it a financial worry? 0:34:50.440 --> 0:34:50.719 Are you? 0:34:51.040 --> 0:34:54.360 I assume are you? Are you making good money doing this? 0:34:56.040 --> 0:34:56.239 Yeah? 0:34:56.480 --> 0:35:01.279 A decent amount, okay, And and I don't know, Like 0:35:01.400 --> 0:35:05.080 I mainly like I'm just like on fansly and everything. 0:35:05.120 --> 0:35:09.200 I don't have an only fans anymore. But it's been 0:35:09.239 --> 0:35:15.120 pretty chill. And I guess I also worry about like 0:35:15.160 --> 0:35:19.160 my safety and everything, like because oh, sure, I'm like, 0:35:19.320 --> 0:35:22.880 I'm a single female and like I live alone, so 0:35:23.120 --> 0:35:26.839 like putting myself out there so publicly does that put 0:35:26.880 --> 0:35:27.960 me in danger as well? 0:35:28.200 --> 0:35:28.480 Enough? 0:35:28.719 --> 0:35:36.600 I sure so, But I guess, like I mean, do 0:35:36.640 --> 0:35:38.960 you for the future, do you want to work for 0:35:39.000 --> 0:35:41.160 yourself or do you want to get a job working 0:35:41.160 --> 0:35:41.839 for someone else? 0:35:43.040 --> 0:35:44.880 Honestly, I kind of like working for myself. I like 0:35:44.920 --> 0:35:47.680 having my own schedule and doing what I want when 0:35:47.719 --> 0:35:48.040 I want. 0:35:48.920 --> 0:35:51.279 I mean to get super practical. I mean if I 0:35:51.320 --> 0:35:54.360 were you, If I were you, I would just you know, 0:35:54.800 --> 0:35:58.040 do this for as long as you want to save up. 0:35:58.680 --> 0:36:00.960 Just like, do it for as long as you want 0:36:01.000 --> 0:36:03.640 to save some money. And then when you don't want 0:36:03.680 --> 0:36:05.960 to do it, take whatever money you saved and start 0:36:06.360 --> 0:36:10.799 something else. Yeah, because when you cause, we don't, I 0:36:10.960 --> 0:36:14.520 just I And this has nothing to This is not 0:36:14.560 --> 0:36:19.760 a like it could be sex worker, it could be anything. 0:36:19.960 --> 0:36:22.759 This is like we don't we don't live in a 0:36:22.880 --> 0:36:29.440 universe where your capacity to do things is so heavily 0:36:31.480 --> 0:36:35.080 gate kept by what other people think of you, you 0:36:35.120 --> 0:36:37.279 know what I mean? Like, we don't. I don't think 0:36:37.320 --> 0:36:42.120 we live in that universe so much anymore. And that's 0:36:42.200 --> 0:36:44.360 and that's why I don't think you you maybe have 0:36:44.440 --> 0:36:48.239 as much to worry about as you think fair enough. 0:36:51.400 --> 0:36:53.359 So I told you that, Like my parents don't know, right, 0:36:53.840 --> 0:36:57.960 and I'm I don't think that they would stop talking 0:36:57.960 --> 0:37:00.840 to me, like because of that, Bicyley, Judge me, I 0:37:00.880 --> 0:37:04.919 am worried about the possibility of my sister cutting off 0:37:04.960 --> 0:37:08.000 contact with me and my niece is just because she's 0:37:08.200 --> 0:37:10.719 just not like porn at all. I don't know if 0:37:10.760 --> 0:37:12.600 she'd ever do that, but I worry about things like 0:37:12.640 --> 0:37:13.120 that too. 0:37:13.719 --> 0:37:16.759 You know, that would be really sad. That would be 0:37:17.280 --> 0:37:19.359 that would be really sad. And I'm sor I'm and 0:37:19.400 --> 0:37:24.520 I'm sorry to hear that you feel like your sister 0:37:24.520 --> 0:37:25.000 would do that. 0:37:26.520 --> 0:37:29.239 I hope she wouldn't, but you know, I get worried 0:37:29.239 --> 0:37:31.480 about these things. 0:37:33.640 --> 0:37:37.960 MM, well, do you want to plug? You can plug 0:37:37.960 --> 0:37:38.879 if you want. 0:37:39.640 --> 0:37:42.160 No, No, no, no, it's okay, okay. 0:37:44.320 --> 0:37:47.400 No, I'm sorry to hear about that. I don't know. 0:37:47.480 --> 0:37:49.200 I don't know what to do because that makes me 0:37:49.239 --> 0:37:52.279 sad because, like I mean, I don't know. Man, if 0:37:52.360 --> 0:37:55.520 if I found out my sister was doing porn, I 0:37:55.520 --> 0:37:57.879 wouldn't give I wouldn't want to see it. But uh 0:37:59.040 --> 0:38:02.200 I wouldn't. I wouldn't. I wouldn't give a shit. It's sheer, 0:38:02.440 --> 0:38:05.399 especially if she's twenty nine years old. 0:38:06.280 --> 0:38:09.920 Yeah, I am an adult and I can make my 0:38:10.000 --> 0:38:13.040 own decisions. 0:38:14.280 --> 0:38:16.920 Yeah, what would so? I mean, if you were to 0:38:17.000 --> 0:38:18.799 start another business, what would you do? 0:38:24.480 --> 0:38:27.200 I mean, I don't know. I guess I just I 0:38:27.640 --> 0:38:30.360 love being creative, and I actually found out that I 0:38:30.480 --> 0:38:34.600 like editing, So maybe like being a full time editor 0:38:34.600 --> 0:38:35.400 for somebody. 0:38:35.160 --> 0:38:37.479 If I wouldn't have to worry about like it's. 0:38:37.440 --> 0:38:40.360 My I feel like it's a lot easier if I'm 0:38:41.400 --> 0:38:44.360 working from home and not customer facing and worrying about 0:38:44.400 --> 0:38:47.440 like people recognizing men those things like that. But could you, 0:38:47.560 --> 0:38:49.080 like I just don't want to be like stocks or 0:38:49.080 --> 0:38:53.040 anything like that, so sure, sure, yeah, I don't know. 0:38:53.080 --> 0:38:54.920 There's so many options I'm thinking about, like going back 0:38:54.960 --> 0:38:58.040 to school and everything too. I don't know. I don't 0:38:58.040 --> 0:38:59.400 know what I want to do with my life. I 0:38:59.440 --> 0:39:01.560 just want to be mostly happy. 0:39:04.719 --> 0:39:10.680 Well that's good. I think you'll be okay. I don't 0:39:10.719 --> 0:39:12.719 know if that's an empty thing to say, but I 0:39:12.760 --> 0:39:13.439 feel that way. 0:39:16.560 --> 0:39:19.239 It's a comforting thing, like just like reminding yourself like 0:39:19.280 --> 0:39:20.440 you're going to be okay sometimes. 0:39:20.480 --> 0:39:22.319 You know. I'm gonna ask the chat if they have 0:39:22.360 --> 0:39:25.600 any questions for you? Is the chat? Do you have 0:39:25.600 --> 0:39:27.840 any questions? What's your name? Bean? To Chat? Do you 0:39:27.880 --> 0:39:35.840 have any questions for for Bean? What is Bean? I 0:39:35.880 --> 0:39:40.400 assume Bean is not your real name? No, that's did 0:39:40.440 --> 0:39:44.960 you how did you arrive at the name Bean, So. 0:39:45.560 --> 0:39:47.520 I don't even my mom used to call me Bean 0:39:47.560 --> 0:39:49.560 growing up, and it's something that popped in my head. 0:39:51.080 --> 0:39:57.360 Someone asked, Uh. Someone asked, what the craziest porn you 0:39:57.400 --> 0:39:58.040 have ever done? 0:39:58.280 --> 0:40:02.320 Is the crazy? 0:40:04.520 --> 0:40:09.480 I don't know, probably like doing a gang bang, or 0:40:09.560 --> 0:40:15.000 like a spit roast, or just like getting fucked in public. 0:40:16.080 --> 0:40:18.960 A spit roast. That sounds Does that hurt? That sounds painful? 0:40:20.800 --> 0:40:23.359 Well, it depends on how you do it. But if 0:40:23.360 --> 0:40:26.520 you have like somebody on each end, you know it's 0:40:26.560 --> 0:40:27.080 not too bad. 0:40:28.520 --> 0:40:31.640 Uh. Someone wants to know what the largest amount of 0:40:31.680 --> 0:40:32.680 money you've made is. 0:40:36.120 --> 0:40:39.680 I made a lot more on only fans like I. 0:40:39.680 --> 0:40:42.240 I think like the largest amount I made in a month, 0:40:42.360 --> 0:40:44.400 which's probably like four to. 0:40:44.440 --> 0:40:48.520 Five thousand, it's pretty good. Someone says, do you have 0:40:48.640 --> 0:40:51.480 friends who you can share this part of your life with? 0:40:53.400 --> 0:40:55.480 Yes, I have a couple of friends. I need more 0:40:55.480 --> 0:40:56.600 of them, but don't we all. 0:40:58.000 --> 0:41:00.080 Do you have other friends who are who also do 0:41:00.160 --> 0:41:00.880 this for a living? 0:41:03.080 --> 0:41:06.920 No, I need more content creator friends. Also, I need 0:41:07.040 --> 0:41:09.920 real therapist as well. But that's because I'm I mean, 0:41:09.920 --> 0:41:12.320 I'm not unemployed. I'm self employed. I don't have a 0:41:12.360 --> 0:41:13.319 health insurance. 0:41:12.960 --> 0:41:15.319 At the moment. By the way, I'm just seeing a 0:41:15.440 --> 0:41:18.920 fucking real therapist is so Uh it's so hard to 0:41:19.200 --> 0:41:21.400 even if you're going through your insurance, it's so fucking 0:41:21.400 --> 0:41:22.120 hard to find one. 0:41:23.520 --> 0:41:24.759 That's a whole other issue. 0:41:25.040 --> 0:41:25.759 Uh. 0:41:25.800 --> 0:41:26.920 There's some more questions. 0:41:27.280 --> 0:41:27.400 Uh. 0:41:27.600 --> 0:41:30.080 Someone wants to know how often do you leave feeling 0:41:30.239 --> 0:41:33.480 satisfied with your experience versus unhappy? 0:41:37.120 --> 0:41:40.279 I feel like a good seventy five percent of the time. 0:41:40.320 --> 0:41:44.040 I feel satisfied, but sometimes like things just like make 0:41:44.080 --> 0:41:47.640 me feel icky, you know. Uh. 0:41:47.760 --> 0:41:49.960 Then finally someone asked, are you saving money? 0:41:52.120 --> 0:41:55.640 No, I need to be. I have a trip coming 0:41:55.719 --> 0:41:59.000 up and I've been saving money for that, but I 0:41:59.000 --> 0:42:00.520 put down more money for other things. 0:42:00.360 --> 0:42:05.960 You know, well being thanks for Sharon. Yeah, someone suggested 0:42:05.960 --> 0:42:08.600 a roth ira this is This would be the second 0:42:08.880 --> 0:42:11.480 I'm on a new kick where I set up all 0:42:11.480 --> 0:42:15.120 my callers with wroth iras at the end of each call. 0:42:16.160 --> 0:42:16.759 What is that? 0:42:18.520 --> 0:42:21.279 It's like you put money into an account and then 0:42:23.440 --> 0:42:26.600 in a hundred years, when you're dead, it'll be worth 0:42:28.560 --> 0:42:35.160 more money. Being Is there anything else want to say 0:42:35.200 --> 0:42:40.160 to the people of the computer before we go, And 0:42:41.000 --> 0:42:41.399 thank you. 0:42:41.360 --> 0:42:44.359 So much for talking to me, Thank you chat for 0:42:44.560 --> 0:42:48.480 having interesting questions. I hope you all have a great NYE. 0:42:48.920 --> 0:42:51.040 And I don't know, I don't have anything else to say, 0:42:51.200 --> 0:42:52.239 just thank you, have. 0:42:52.200 --> 0:42:57.680 A good night being, thank you you too, goodbye. You 0:42:57.719 --> 0:43:02.360 know I've been thinking about it, and please let me 0:43:02.400 --> 0:43:06.520 know in the comments or the or the what did 0:43:06.560 --> 0:43:11.360 you think of this podcast? Spotify Interact fucking thing. I 0:43:11.400 --> 0:43:14.920 think retirement accounts are stupid. I opened one, I put 0:43:14.960 --> 0:43:16.399 a little bit of money in it, but I kind 0:43:16.400 --> 0:43:19.560 of think they're dumb because what I'm all right, so 0:43:19.640 --> 0:43:25.879 the wroth Ira you put okay, you pay taxes right 0:43:26.680 --> 0:43:29.799 on your money, and then after that you take that 0:43:29.920 --> 0:43:33.520 money and you put it in a roth Ira account 0:43:33.680 --> 0:43:35.840 and then you can invest it in the stock market, 0:43:36.680 --> 0:43:41.880 and then when you're sixty years I think sixty years old, 0:43:43.239 --> 0:43:48.680 you can take the gains out tax free. But you can't. Basically, 0:43:48.760 --> 0:43:54.480 you can't touch that money until you're sixty years old. 0:43:54.880 --> 0:43:58.480 So it's like, look, I might be who's I might 0:43:58.520 --> 0:44:01.160 be dead by then? What the fuck am I saving 0:44:01.680 --> 0:44:05.200 money for for a time when I'll be dead? I 0:44:05.280 --> 0:44:07.560 think it doesn't make any sense. And even if I'm 0:44:07.560 --> 0:44:09.240 not dead, Like let's say I make it to sixty. 0:44:09.320 --> 0:44:11.640 I'm probably I'm gonna only have like a couple of 0:44:11.719 --> 0:44:19.400 years after that, So don't open a retirement accounts. Spend 0:44:19.480 --> 0:44:23.600 all of your money on funkal pops and ice cream. 0:44:24.560 --> 0:44:26.640 That's my official and you can quote me on that. 0:44:28.120 --> 0:44:31.640 That's something I said and I mean, and I will 0:44:31.640 --> 0:44:39.480 never change my opinion on ever. And I and you 0:44:39.520 --> 0:44:45.400 know what, I am an official financial advisor. Keep that in. No, 0:44:45.480 --> 0:44:53.000 I'm not. I'm not an official financial advisor. Never Hello, Hey, 0:44:53.040 --> 0:44:55.200 what's up? Hello? 0:44:55.320 --> 0:44:57.160 Are you the get go? 0:44:57.600 --> 0:44:58.319 Yes? Who are you? 0:45:00.160 --> 0:45:01.000 My name is Jay? 0:45:01.360 --> 0:45:02.040 What's your name? 0:45:03.360 --> 0:45:03.520 Uh? 0:45:03.640 --> 0:45:03.839 Jay? 0:45:04.960 --> 0:45:07.520 Joe? I asked you that twice? Didn't I? 0:45:07.760 --> 0:45:08.320 No, that's okay. 0:45:08.680 --> 0:45:11.640 I think I have like I I think I have 0:45:11.719 --> 0:45:17.680 like dementia or something. No, it's okay, I might it's 0:45:17.719 --> 0:45:23.200 really bad. Oh shit for really, No, I'm I'm I 0:45:23.200 --> 0:45:26.719 don't know who cares? What's your name? Again? That was real? 0:45:26.760 --> 0:45:29.720 That wasn't a jit, That wasn't a bit. I genuinely. 0:45:33.200 --> 0:45:34.680 I used to see like ghost as a kid, and 0:45:34.719 --> 0:45:37.839 sometimes I'm like, I'm ordering if it's real or if 0:45:37.840 --> 0:45:40.200 it was just me having schizophrenic episodes all the time. 0:45:40.600 --> 0:45:43.160 But then other people will come forward and be like, yeah, 0:45:43.160 --> 0:45:45.920 I've totally seen ghosts too, and so it makes me 0:45:45.920 --> 0:45:46.960 feel less crazy. 0:45:47.520 --> 0:45:50.839 Well, Jay, what's your name again? No, that was a joke. 0:45:51.080 --> 0:45:54.040 What do you want to talk about today? Uh? 0:45:54.080 --> 0:45:56.880 Well, it'd be cool if you could give me life advice. 0:45:59.360 --> 0:46:01.240 I don't know. I guess I could talk about ghost stories. 0:46:01.239 --> 0:46:02.520 I could talk about having cancer. 0:46:03.880 --> 0:46:07.919 I'm sorry, you want me to give you life advice? Oh, yeah, 0:46:07.920 --> 0:46:09.080 that'd be great about what? 0:46:10.800 --> 0:46:14.840 So? The thing is, I'm living with my parents, and 0:46:14.880 --> 0:46:16.880 I had to live with my parents because I got cancer, 0:46:17.840 --> 0:46:21.640 and I'm broke on my ass. I don't really feel 0:46:21.640 --> 0:46:24.400 like I'm living my life to the best that I 0:46:24.440 --> 0:46:28.359 can be, especially considering I nearly fucking died. I don't 0:46:28.440 --> 0:46:30.120 know how to proceed. I don't know how to go 0:46:30.239 --> 0:46:32.520 forward or to how to like rebuild my life back 0:46:32.600 --> 0:46:36.040 up to where it used to be because I feel 0:46:36.080 --> 0:46:38.960 like I've awful sense of independence and my parents are 0:46:39.000 --> 0:46:43.360 like kind of crazy but not really Like it's tolerable 0:46:43.400 --> 0:46:47.239 most days if I'm respectful, but sometimes like something will 0:46:47.280 --> 0:46:49.799 happen and it'll flare up and then I sort of 0:46:49.880 --> 0:46:53.960 like claim show up again. But would you say free rent? 0:46:54.520 --> 0:46:58.719 But emotional distress. Should I stay living at home, save 0:46:58.840 --> 0:47:00.880 up money, get the fuck out of the country, or 0:47:02.880 --> 0:47:06.759 move out don't have a lot of money, I might 0:47:06.800 --> 0:47:09.280 potentially not be able to move to my dream country. 0:47:09.680 --> 0:47:11.000 What is your advice? Good serve? 0:47:12.239 --> 0:47:14.000 I don't know if I have advice. I have questions. 0:47:14.120 --> 0:47:16.560 Or do you still have cancer? Nope? 0:47:16.680 --> 0:47:17.799 Intermission as of March. 0:47:18.200 --> 0:47:21.000 Well look at that, well, look at that you have 0:47:21.080 --> 0:47:25.719 the you have you have. You have something more important 0:47:25.719 --> 0:47:28.839 than money, which is you're not dead. This is good 0:47:29.400 --> 0:47:33.200 because think about think about how broke dead people are. 0:47:35.400 --> 0:47:38.399 They don't got no money, no assets. Everything's to their 0:47:38.520 --> 0:47:40.600 next of kin. I mean, sometimes you die and you 0:47:40.880 --> 0:47:43.440 leave behind sounds of dead right when? 0:47:43.560 --> 0:47:46.320 But when when you leave, when you leave something behind, 0:47:46.360 --> 0:47:48.799 that means you don't have it anymore. So when you 0:47:49.440 --> 0:47:53.240 leave behind your money, you go broke. The Elon Musk 0:47:54.320 --> 0:47:58.319 when he dies, I'm going to be richer than him. 0:47:58.800 --> 0:48:01.600 He'll have he will have own money in the after. 0:48:01.640 --> 0:48:04.520 You will be richer than Elon Musk when he dies. 0:48:04.719 --> 0:48:09.239 So think about all the wealth that you have right 0:48:09.239 --> 0:48:11.200 there in that that you're not dead. 0:48:12.600 --> 0:48:14.759 Good thing I didn't so I'm super rich. 0:48:15.239 --> 0:48:18.560 I mean for real, you actually are super rich because 0:48:18.560 --> 0:48:23.319 you didn't die. That's amazing. What so now you're how 0:48:23.640 --> 0:48:25.000 long have you been in remission? 0:48:26.320 --> 0:48:27.400 Only a couple of months? 0:48:27.520 --> 0:48:28.200 So okay. 0:48:28.520 --> 0:48:31.480 My plan was I'm going to stay in the country 0:48:31.800 --> 0:48:34.200 for as long as I'm in remission until in cancer free, 0:48:35.120 --> 0:48:37.120 just because I feel like it's a nightmare to like 0:48:37.239 --> 0:48:41.480 go to another country and like deal with health bullshit 0:48:42.120 --> 0:48:45.520 while potentially not having insurance in that country. I think 0:48:45.520 --> 0:48:47.080 they could go to Japan. I hear they have good 0:48:47.080 --> 0:48:48.080 foreigners insurance. 0:48:48.200 --> 0:48:51.279 But do you do you have any money? Do you 0:48:51.320 --> 0:48:52.200 have any savings? 0:48:53.000 --> 0:48:57.480 Honestly no, I'm like in the negatives because I was like, oh, 0:48:57.600 --> 0:48:59.799 I have a job now I can like go on 0:49:00.040 --> 0:49:02.920 these little trips. And then they fired me, Like do 0:49:02.960 --> 0:49:06.000 you have a job now? Nope? I'm still looking. 0:49:06.239 --> 0:49:10.839 Okay, I mean you're and you're you're twenty three, yep, 0:49:11.840 --> 0:49:15.960 why here's years. I feel like I feel like more 0:49:16.000 --> 0:49:20.640 and more I'm becoming like a fine of personal finance 0:49:20.880 --> 0:49:26.399 gecko or something. If I how long you've been looking 0:49:26.440 --> 0:49:26.879 for a job. 0:49:28.960 --> 0:49:31.400 I got fired Monday, So since then. 0:49:31.880 --> 0:49:32.680 What was your job? 0:49:34.160 --> 0:49:36.560 I was working at a coffee shop. It was honestly, 0:49:37.280 --> 0:49:40.240 I really loved it. The environment was great, my coworkers 0:49:40.239 --> 0:49:40.680 are nice. 0:49:40.719 --> 0:49:41.879 But I just showed up to late. 0:49:42.200 --> 0:49:44.160 I just showed up late to work literally every day. 0:49:44.640 --> 0:49:47.360 So that was fair understandable. 0:49:47.600 --> 0:49:48.640 Yeah, I have a great day. 0:49:49.120 --> 0:49:53.440 The other half they fired me. I was like, I 0:49:53.440 --> 0:49:55.279 probably don't want to say it out loud because I 0:49:55.320 --> 0:49:56.840 feel like it'll give me away. 0:49:57.600 --> 0:50:01.960 But that being said, wow, what do you mean gave you? 0:50:02.200 --> 0:50:03.680 Give you away? 0:50:04.560 --> 0:50:07.200 Oh? I just kind of want to. I don't want to, 0:50:07.239 --> 0:50:10.080 like give the I don't want to give this company 0:50:10.200 --> 0:50:13.120 ship because I think the way they handled the situation 0:50:13.400 --> 0:50:16.719 was really poor. But that's my personal opinion. 0:50:18.040 --> 0:50:19.080 Was it Starbucks? 0:50:20.640 --> 0:50:23.799 No, it was not Starbucks. I'm actually applying for Starbucks both. 0:50:26.360 --> 0:50:27.800 Was it uh, Duncan Donuts? 0:50:28.840 --> 0:50:30.720 No, Dutch Bros. 0:50:30.760 --> 0:50:33.640 Coffee shop? I can easily guess that. I'll just go 0:50:33.719 --> 0:50:36.880 down the list of coffee shops. Okay, okay, was it 0:50:36.960 --> 0:50:44.040 Dutch Bros. No? Was it Tim Horton's No. Fuck, I 0:50:44.040 --> 0:50:45.560 don't know any other coffee shops. 0:50:47.920 --> 0:50:50.760 That's okay. I give you for trying. 0:50:50.880 --> 0:50:56.120 Good job, but I guess back to your situation, why 0:50:56.120 --> 0:50:59.480 don't you just fucking you want an Actually, I actually 0:50:59.480 --> 0:51:02.600 I think I actually have advice. I mean, how bad, Like, 0:51:03.080 --> 0:51:05.680 how bad is your situation with your parents? 0:51:07.640 --> 0:51:10.520 Well, most of the time they can be civil and 0:51:10.600 --> 0:51:12.719 have definitely grown a backbone over the years and been 0:51:12.760 --> 0:51:16.359 able to like establish better boundaries with them. But it's 0:51:16.360 --> 0:51:19.920 honestly really stressful, like kind of being in an environment 0:51:19.960 --> 0:51:24.239 where I'm like semi controlled all the time and do 0:51:24.440 --> 0:51:28.440 and like queer and they're homophobic, so that's really stressful too. 0:51:28.880 --> 0:51:31.360 Do they hit you? No? 0:51:31.360 --> 0:51:31.560 No? 0:51:31.719 --> 0:51:34.640 Okay, okay, are you do you feel like you're in 0:51:35.000 --> 0:51:36.399 an in danger at all? 0:51:39.680 --> 0:51:44.719 So not anymore, is the short answer. 0:51:47.200 --> 0:51:50.640 Okay, what's the long answer? 0:51:52.280 --> 0:51:54.799 The long answer is they were kind of shitty when 0:51:54.800 --> 0:51:58.560 I was younger, but I think they just had their 0:51:58.560 --> 0:52:02.879 own mental shit they couldn't deal with that affected their 0:52:02.920 --> 0:52:05.960 ability to be good parents. And on top of that, 0:52:06.200 --> 0:52:08.480 they just kind of never really addressed any of their 0:52:08.560 --> 0:52:12.440 mental issues. So I feel like it's sort of like 0:52:12.800 --> 0:52:17.320 ricocheted back on to me, and that was like super 0:52:17.320 --> 0:52:20.080 stressful to grow up with. But now that I'm an 0:52:20.120 --> 0:52:22.760 adult and like getting cancer definitely kind of like soften 0:52:22.840 --> 0:52:29.160 them up a bit. Unfortunately, unfortunately, like terrible, terrible things 0:52:29.160 --> 0:52:32.239 happening to you brings people closer to you, is my experience, 0:52:32.960 --> 0:52:34.560 which is not ideal. 0:52:34.640 --> 0:52:39.960 But yeah, well, what's your dream country that you. 0:52:39.920 --> 0:52:41.160 Said, Australia? 0:52:41.640 --> 0:52:45.480 Love Australia. Why Australia. 0:52:46.000 --> 0:52:48.319 I did a study abroad there, like right before I 0:52:48.320 --> 0:52:50.920 got cancer, and then it was like amazing. It was 0:52:51.680 --> 0:52:54.360 it was like they had literally beaches along the coast 0:52:54.560 --> 0:52:56.399 and like the it was just so like. 0:52:58.480 --> 0:53:01.840 No offense that no offense to Australians. But it's just like, 0:53:03.320 --> 0:53:06.239 I mean, Australia's fucking It's like if you had told 0:53:06.320 --> 0:53:09.799 me that your dream country was somewhere less expensive than America, 0:53:10.400 --> 0:53:14.440 which is most places, which is most places really, but 0:53:15.000 --> 0:53:16.439 Australia I think might be more. 0:53:17.840 --> 0:53:19.960 Yeah, it's a million dollars to my house. 0:53:23.360 --> 0:53:25.839 So you want to go to you want to move 0:53:25.880 --> 0:53:26.680 to Australia. 0:53:27.800 --> 0:53:31.400 Yes, ideally that would be a very wonderful. 0:53:32.480 --> 0:53:33.320 Life goal. 0:53:33.640 --> 0:53:34.720 Bucket list item. 0:53:35.920 --> 0:53:39.160 Okay, do you have a degree of any kind? And anything? 0:53:40.040 --> 0:53:41.520 I do in what? 0:53:41.680 --> 0:53:42.320 Art studies? 0:53:43.280 --> 0:53:44.799 Art studies? Okay? 0:53:44.760 --> 0:53:44.960 Yeah. 0:53:47.360 --> 0:53:49.560 I was like, oh, it'll be fine, I'll get a 0:53:49.560 --> 0:53:52.200 degree in something I like doing, and now I cannot 0:53:52.280 --> 0:53:53.359 get a proper job. 0:53:53.600 --> 0:53:57.400 So yeah, yeah, yeah, you kind of fucked yourself a 0:53:57.440 --> 0:54:01.759 little bit. It's okay. It's up. By the way, I 0:54:01.840 --> 0:54:05.439 just want to say it's okay to admit when you've 0:54:05.480 --> 0:54:09.400 taken an l there's no shame in it. Really, it 0:54:09.640 --> 0:54:14.920 really is. But I really, genuinely I mean this. If 0:54:15.000 --> 0:54:16.800 I were you for the rest of my life, I 0:54:16.800 --> 0:54:20.320 would actually just look at every I would just add, 0:54:20.440 --> 0:54:22.799 but at least I didn't die of cancer. To the 0:54:22.920 --> 0:54:27.279 end of every single thing he ever said, I mean, 0:54:27.360 --> 0:54:28.880 anyone anyway, you don't have to You don't even have 0:54:28.920 --> 0:54:31.600 to have had cancer to do that. You know, you 0:54:31.840 --> 0:54:34.319 can do that. If you never had cancer, you could 0:54:34.320 --> 0:54:36.040 be like, oh I got a flat I could be like, 0:54:36.040 --> 0:54:38.040 oh I got a flat tire and I'm locked out 0:54:38.080 --> 0:54:41.560 of my apartment. But at least I didn't get shot 0:54:41.640 --> 0:54:43.600 in the head just now, and you can. 0:54:43.920 --> 0:54:44.080 You can. 0:54:44.120 --> 0:54:45.840 There's a lot of happiness in that. There really is 0:54:45.880 --> 0:54:48.560 an unlimited amount of happiness in that. Here's what I 0:54:48.560 --> 0:54:52.120 think is, why don't you, like, do you you need 0:54:52.160 --> 0:54:55.600 you need like a logistical plan. You need to like 0:54:55.760 --> 0:54:59.959 go on the fucking internet and look up and find 0:55:00.200 --> 0:55:04.239 a dollar amount that that you need in your bank 0:55:04.239 --> 0:55:09.680 account for you to you need a plan you need 0:55:09.680 --> 0:55:12.560 a dollar amount that it would cost to execute that plan, 0:55:13.400 --> 0:55:18.080 and then another plan uh as to how you are 0:55:18.120 --> 0:55:22.200 going to save up that dollar amount. So you need 0:55:22.239 --> 0:55:28.280 two plans. That's my advice is to go on the internet, chat, GPT, 0:55:28.480 --> 0:55:33.240 whatever the fuck and develop and execute those two plans. 0:55:35.400 --> 0:55:38.000 Okay, I appreciate that. Appreciate that you. 0:55:38.120 --> 0:55:39.799 Have you looked into this ship? Have you? Have you 0:55:39.920 --> 0:55:45.040 gone moving to Australia Reddit on Google and seeing what's up? 0:55:46.000 --> 0:55:49.600 Oh shit, I didn't think about Reddit. I don't mostly 0:55:49.680 --> 0:55:52.319 like looking up travel agencies. 0:55:52.280 --> 0:55:54.239 But a lot of them are travel agencies. 0:55:55.560 --> 0:55:59.560 Yeah, like they'll be there's like international travel agencies, at 0:55:59.640 --> 0:56:02.600 least for Australia, and they can if you pay the money, 0:56:02.600 --> 0:56:06.000 they help you like establish which visa you can use. 0:56:06.200 --> 0:56:07.879 And by the way, by the way, by the way, 0:56:07.920 --> 0:56:10.640 bye way, by the way, before you move to Australia, 0:56:11.239 --> 0:56:14.280 before you buy a visa, you know, take a trip. 0:56:14.640 --> 0:56:15.200 Have you ever been? 0:56:16.160 --> 0:56:17.960 Oh yeah, that's where I did my study abroad. 0:56:18.200 --> 0:56:19.800 Oh right, okay, you told me that, told me that, 0:56:19.840 --> 0:56:21.719 All right, so you've been all right? I mean, how 0:56:21.800 --> 0:56:23.759 much is a visa? 0:56:24.360 --> 0:56:26.799 It was a lot. Well for a visiting visa. It's 0:56:26.800 --> 0:56:32.280 only like I think three and fifty American dollars. 0:56:32.680 --> 0:56:33.560 I am really. 0:56:33.320 --> 0:56:34.479 Sure that's like nothing. 0:56:34.560 --> 0:56:38.000 Yeah, yeah, yeah for just like a work in it's 0:56:38.040 --> 0:56:42.840 like a it's like a work and vacation visa or 0:56:42.840 --> 0:56:45.040 something and you can pay there for like six months. 0:56:45.080 --> 0:56:49.520 And that's the one I got, so like, yeah, this 0:56:49.600 --> 0:56:51.640 is if you want to go to Australia, this is 0:56:51.640 --> 0:56:54.440 your call. You don't get a visa and then but 0:56:54.480 --> 0:56:56.919 the thing is to say there permanently. You can either 0:56:57.000 --> 0:57:00.880 like recycle that visa every year, or you can like 0:57:01.000 --> 0:57:03.640 find some way to like have a job sponsor you are, 0:57:03.680 --> 0:57:10.319 like uh, or like if you have a family member 0:57:10.320 --> 0:57:12.680 in Australia, you can like you connect with them or something. 0:57:12.760 --> 0:57:16.160 But this is just like honestly, I'm talking out of 0:57:16.160 --> 0:57:18.480 my ass, Like I have no fucking clue how to 0:57:18.520 --> 0:57:20.880 get any of this done. I just know it exists 0:57:20.920 --> 0:57:23.760 and can happen, but I don't know how to. Like 0:57:24.400 --> 0:57:26.640 I feel like the hot take would be like, oh, 0:57:26.720 --> 0:57:29.200 get a job to sponsor me, but then like they're 0:57:29.240 --> 0:57:31.120 probably going to really overwork me, and the whole reason 0:57:31.160 --> 0:57:33.160 why I want to be in Australia so I can 0:57:33.280 --> 0:57:36.000 go to the beach, like the really cool. 0:57:36.080 --> 0:57:39.240 The whole reason you want to go to Australia's to 0:57:39.240 --> 0:57:48.920 go to the beach. Yeah, okay, hold on, dude, if 0:57:49.200 --> 0:57:54.800 I seriously all dude, dude, dude, If all you want 0:57:54.840 --> 0:57:58.520 to do is like work as little as possible and 0:57:58.560 --> 0:58:01.880 go to the beach, there are eight billion other countries 0:58:01.920 --> 0:58:05.200 that are way better to do that in than Australia. 0:58:06.480 --> 0:58:08.000 Yeah, but. 0:58:10.360 --> 0:58:12.600 Well, for really you can do that, but just Australia 0:58:12.680 --> 0:58:15.120 is the worst place to do it. It's it's too expensive. 0:58:16.600 --> 0:58:20.320 Huh okay, fair enough, fair enough, Like. 0:58:20.360 --> 0:58:25.360 Go to fucking if. I mean, if you really wanted to, 0:58:25.560 --> 0:58:27.560 you could get it. You could live in your parents' 0:58:27.600 --> 0:58:34.000 house for two years and never leave your room and 0:58:34.160 --> 0:58:37.360 save up all your money and then take it to 0:58:37.800 --> 0:58:45.640 some random town in Southeast Asia and just hang out 0:58:45.680 --> 0:58:49.480 there for a while. And you know, I just Australia 0:58:49.560 --> 0:58:51.640 is just the worst place for you to do this plan. 0:58:51.720 --> 0:58:55.280 I think we'll go crazy. I don't know. It's your life, 0:58:55.280 --> 0:58:57.960 it's your life, that's my only My only advice to 0:58:58.000 --> 0:59:00.160 you is to come up with a dollar amount that 0:59:00.200 --> 0:59:02.560 you need to do whatever you want to do, and 0:59:02.600 --> 0:59:04.520 then a plan on how you're going to get there. 0:59:06.160 --> 0:59:09.680 It's my own advice. And to also just be like, hey, man, 0:59:09.680 --> 0:59:12.360 I didn't die of cancer, Like we're chills. I want 0:59:12.360 --> 0:59:16.400 to tell you I was. I was with my friend 0:59:17.720 --> 0:59:20.640 and we were like, we were in d C. And 0:59:20.680 --> 0:59:22.560 we were walking by the water and we wanted to 0:59:22.560 --> 0:59:26.760 smoke a joint and we were like, we asked this 0:59:26.840 --> 0:59:30.720 guy for a lighter. He was like taking some shit 0:59:30.760 --> 0:59:34.120 out of his car. Uh, he was ripped. He was 0:59:34.160 --> 0:59:36.360 super ripped. He had a shirt on it. He had 0:59:36.360 --> 0:59:40.640 a shirt on that said I Love Jesus. And he 0:59:41.160 --> 0:59:42.560 was like, he was like, let me go. I think 0:59:42.560 --> 0:59:47.200 I have a lighter in my car. And we were like, 0:59:47.240 --> 0:59:49.800 how you doing today, man? And he was like he 0:59:49.920 --> 0:59:56.400 looked us, he like made he made really sincere eye 0:59:56.440 --> 1:00:00.200 contact into both of our eyes, not at once that 1:00:00.200 --> 1:00:06.600 would look funny, but and he said very sincerely. He said, 1:00:06.840 --> 1:00:11.000 I'm doing incredible. I woke up today like like as 1:00:11.000 --> 1:00:13.000 if we were as if we were like crazy for 1:00:13.120 --> 1:00:16.640 asking he was. He's like, I woke up, I'm breathing, 1:00:17.840 --> 1:00:20.479 and he and my friend and I just thought about 1:00:20.480 --> 1:00:24.320 that all day. Just this guy. It's really impacted us. 1:00:24.400 --> 1:00:27.680 And I was like, man, that guy, he really knows 1:00:27.720 --> 1:00:33.040 the fucking secret to life. This guy. Uh so you 1:00:33.080 --> 1:00:38.960 know carry that and uh, Australia sucks. No, Australia doesn't suck. 1:00:39.000 --> 1:00:41.280 I didn't mean that. I actually like I like Australia 1:00:41.280 --> 1:00:43.920 a lot. It's just expensive compared to anywhere else you 1:00:43.960 --> 1:00:46.240 can escape your life to go to. 1:00:47.960 --> 1:00:53.720 That's real, that's real. It's beautiful. But I guess what city? 1:00:53.760 --> 1:00:54.840 What city do you want to go to? 1:00:56.200 --> 1:00:57.040 The worst one? 1:00:57.160 --> 1:00:57.600 Sydney? 1:00:58.280 --> 1:01:01.280 So why hold on? Why is it the word? Why 1:01:01.360 --> 1:01:03.160 is I I had a great time in city? Why 1:01:03.240 --> 1:01:04.440 is Sydney the worst one? 1:01:04.800 --> 1:01:04.960 Oh? 1:01:05.000 --> 1:01:07.120 It's it's like financially it's the worst one. 1:01:07.320 --> 1:01:09.520 Oh yeah, and it's also. 1:01:09.320 --> 1:01:12.280 The tourist part, so it's like impossible to buy a 1:01:12.320 --> 1:01:17.840 house in if you want to go to the Astralia. 1:01:18.440 --> 1:01:20.640 Yeah, I went. I did a tour of Australia. I 1:01:20.640 --> 1:01:23.320 went to Sydney. I played a show there. I I 1:01:23.360 --> 1:01:29.000 went into a stranger's home and I jammed with them. 1:01:30.360 --> 1:01:32.800 We met music together. It was crazy. It was a 1:01:32.840 --> 1:01:37.480 good time. Yeah. 1:01:37.520 --> 1:01:41.360 That sounds like that sounds like the ideal Australia experience. 1:01:42.200 --> 1:01:48.480 You can have that experience in any place. Yeah, what's 1:01:48.560 --> 1:01:50.000 your name again? R? Jay? 1:01:50.160 --> 1:01:50.360 Jay. 1:01:50.480 --> 1:01:54.160 It was Jay, right. Yeah, Look who has to mention now? 1:01:54.240 --> 1:01:55.160 Not not your boy? 1:01:55.560 --> 1:01:55.880 Uh? 1:01:56.400 --> 1:01:57.600 Jay, is there anything else you want to say to 1:01:57.600 --> 1:01:58.960 the people the computer before we go? 1:02:01.360 --> 1:02:04.960 I guess do all the things you want to do 1:02:05.040 --> 1:02:07.040 with life, because you never know when you'll end up 1:02:07.040 --> 1:02:07.880 in a hospital bed. 1:02:09.040 --> 1:02:10.560 Hey, take care of Jay, have a good one. 1:02:11.080 --> 1:02:12.320 Oh, thank you you too, Bye bye. 1:02:13.200 --> 1:02:16.680 Never Becon goes on the line making your phone calls 1:02:16.760 --> 1:02:19.920 every night. Never Beacon goes to nice Hide. You're just 1:02:19.960 --> 1:02:24.400 teaching you about good life. Money's not gonna be an expert.