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Speaker 1: Hey, guys, I'm Gailie Shure and this is too much

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Speaker 1: to say question, so turn it out of you. Okay,

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Speaker 1: fingers crossed that I get to do this episode in

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Speaker 1: my home studio. The neighbor was playing her music. If

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Speaker 1: you guys have been following along, it's been kind of

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Speaker 1: a trend um. She stopped, so I'm hoping it doesn't

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Speaker 1: I'm talking to you guys. So I'm really excited to

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Speaker 1: finally be using the space. I I can't complain to

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Speaker 1: her because it's like, not it's not her problem that

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Speaker 1: I have to record a podcast, you know what I mean, Like,

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Speaker 1: I don't need that kind of karma of complaining about that.

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Speaker 1: So this UM these past few weeks, I've been really

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Speaker 1: interesting because I like officially got diagnosed with a d

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Speaker 1: we think Kaylee might have this thing. And you know,

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Speaker 1: I think that there's this misconception that UM being neuro

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Speaker 1: D or dyslexia or anything like that means you're stupid

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Speaker 1: and it doesn't um. But back in like, you know,

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Speaker 1: the early two thousands when this was happening, I think

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Speaker 1: my mom kind of interpreted as that I don't know.

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Speaker 1: I'm probably not going to even talk to her about it,

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Speaker 1: because guess what, I figured it out as an adult,

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Speaker 1: But for my entire life, I thought that I was

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Speaker 1: I don't know how to explain that type of laziness though,

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Speaker 1: because I can work a sixteen hour day and you know,

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Speaker 1: be motivated and do it. But I can also put

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Speaker 1: off answering one single email for six weeks. I've responded

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Speaker 1: to emails six weeks too late. And if a task

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Speaker 1: it becomes like this scary monster, like this thing that's

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Speaker 1: when I finally sit down and sucking do it, it

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Speaker 1: normally takes me like twenty minutes, but it just happens

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Speaker 1: over and over again. Where these there's these tasks that

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Speaker 1: I hate it and I don't know how to. Like

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Speaker 1: I thought kind of everybody had that much of a

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Speaker 1: Does it still rule our lives? Yes? And I just

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