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Speaker 1: The Nicky Glazer Podcast, Nicky Gazer. Here's Nicky. Hello, welcome

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Speaker 1: to the show. It's Nicki Glaser Podcast. I'm Nicki Glazer.

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Speaker 1: It is Tuesday, Well, it's Monday here. I don't want

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Speaker 1: to lie to you guys. We're doing a double up

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Speaker 1: episode because I'm going I think I'm leaving tomorrow for

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Speaker 1: Where Angels. Yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah. I'm guest hosting Kimmel.

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Speaker 1: I was like, what am I going out there for.

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Speaker 1: I'm um, I'm the guest host for Jimmy Kimmel Live

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Speaker 1: this Thursday. Please DVR a tune in. I want them

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Speaker 1: to see a spike in ratings, um, so that people

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Speaker 1: are like people seem to like her. So far, that

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Speaker 1: has not been what the bock Lazer effects meant. It's

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Speaker 1: meant canceled her show after one and a half seasons.

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Speaker 1: At at most, that's a whole season one show you're

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Speaker 1: gonna be That's gonna be crazy. Yeah. A lot of

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Speaker 1: guest hosts for Kimmel are do too. I'm glad. I'm like,

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Speaker 1: there was a part of me that was like, but

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Speaker 1: I'm so glad because I get to pack it all.

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Speaker 1: Like I get stressed out about these things, and two

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Speaker 1: would make me a lot more stressed out than one.

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Speaker 1: And it's energy into one. But to would and feel like, Okay,

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Speaker 1: I'm the second one. I could kill it. Like there's

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Speaker 1: no no I think I'm gonna kill I have, honestly

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Speaker 1: I have. By the way, Chris Convey is with us.

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Speaker 1: My boyfriend. Hi, Chris, Andrew's here, We're all here, Luigi's here.

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Speaker 1: Noahs in Arizona. Um, Chrissy, look great, Tan. Yeah, I

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Speaker 1: was doing some yard work the other day outside. Okay,

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Speaker 1: stop with jeans, no shirt. You wearing jeans. I wasn't

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Speaker 1: wearing your shirt. Everything was cut off conversation. Um, well fine,

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Speaker 1: let's talk about Kim. He went to your yard. I

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Speaker 1: went over to pick you up the other night and

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Speaker 1: it was popping off. You had a sprinkler going. I

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Speaker 1: got some color going out there. Yeah, you got like

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Speaker 1: you have fall pots getting. I don't know what that is.

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Speaker 1: It's like you put Yeah. He was having a genocide.

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Speaker 1: Um of the fourteenth century. I don't know it was

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Speaker 1: that even close. He's a singer from I think that

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Speaker 1: was like, yeah, that was actually recent was the killing fields.

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Speaker 1: He was like one of the worst genocides modern day genocides.

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Speaker 1: Christ I envisioned an English lounge. Yeah, well you did

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Speaker 1: vote for them in American Idol and it was weird

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Speaker 1: for everyone. Well, I mean, genocide is better than listen

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Speaker 1: to Simon cow You were just not a Reuben Stuttered fan,

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Speaker 1: and you had to show it in some way. He stuttered.

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Speaker 1: All right, Um, so this Jimmy Kimmel thing, you've done

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Speaker 1: it before. Your Yeah, this is okay. Um, Yeah, you

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Speaker 1: hosted Kimmel before, but it was during the cook COVID

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Speaker 1: and it was during which was was so cool to

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Speaker 1: be asked it was. It was around the same time too.

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Speaker 1: I think Kimmel takes I like that he takes vacations

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Speaker 1: and he like he gives the hands over the reins

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Speaker 1: to other people. You don't see Colbert doing guest toasts.

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Speaker 1: Kim is a notoriously hard worker. Yeah, but the fact

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Speaker 1: that he takes vacations is really cool that he like

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Speaker 1: knows how He's just a guy that like loves like

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Speaker 1: you know, everyone on his show is like family. He

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Speaker 1: just likes spending quality. Yeah, when you're there, you fill

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Speaker 1: up on breadsticks, your poor did you did they pay

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Speaker 1: you for this? Yeah? But it's it's not. I'm just saying,

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Speaker 1: like a lot, yeah, but they give you. Kim is

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Speaker 1: still doing fine. He's like making money on vacation. It's

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Speaker 1: not like Wayne Benstein's money. I'm gonna say, welcome to

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Speaker 1: Jimmy Kimmel Live. I'm your guest, so snaky. It's not

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Speaker 1: going to be like welcome to Nicki Glazer Live. I

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Speaker 1: mean I might say that as by Jimmy something. No,

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Speaker 1: but it's some it's so so. I guess hosted in

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Speaker 1: July of two thousand twenty. I mean it was like

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Speaker 1: when things were still scary and I hit it in

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Speaker 1: a house in my head that was six months ago. Really,

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Speaker 1: I feel like it in my head is exactly as

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Speaker 1: far as it was, which is rare for me. Everything

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Speaker 1: always seems like demented in time. But um, yeah it was.

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Speaker 1: We weren't together. We were just friends. We're friends. We're

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Speaker 1: friends and out we're watching normal people. We're hanging out

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Speaker 1: and like we were on the port or he was

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Speaker 1: think you visited that summer and you showed your boobs

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Speaker 1: to him or something. Something that happened where your friendship.

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Speaker 1: Oh I don't know. I remember that you weren't there

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Speaker 1: for that. Of course, Oh I thought you were there first.

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Speaker 1: Andrew showed some stuff that yeah, we're putting stress fish

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Speaker 1: Laser kind of covered us getting back together, but not

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Speaker 1: in the way of like what really happened. I mean,

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Speaker 1: it's it's crazy. It's constantly evolving, it really is. And

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Speaker 1: I do think that we have a better shot of

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Speaker 1: making it because of all of our breakups than a

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Speaker 1: lot of people do. I think a lot of people

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Speaker 1: would have walked away a long time ago. Smart people

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Speaker 1: would have walked away even should we just like, it

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Speaker 1: shouldn't be this hard, which is a great point. Sometimes people,

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Speaker 1: you know, when they talk about the relationships, so like

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Speaker 1: I just knew because it was easy. It's just Nikki,

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Speaker 1: it's supposed to be easy. You just know because it's

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Speaker 1: then they have issues. Everybody has issues. Yeah, everybody except

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Speaker 1: Brandan Andrew. Yeah, they're perfect. It's weird, totally easy at first,

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Speaker 1: different pages, like maybe one of you liked wanted something

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Speaker 1: you weren't communicating exactly properly, Like it's tough, it's I

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Speaker 1: don't like this whole thing of questioning your entire relationship.

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Speaker 1: If it's not easy. Well, anything that's great. Anything that's great.

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Speaker 1: Kobe Bryant him practicing, and that's not easy. But I

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Speaker 1: Nicki Glazer Tour, first theater date, I think it was

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Speaker 1: that weekend was our first theaters and we were taking

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Speaker 1: when you found out? Absolutely? I was in at a

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Speaker 1: my relationship with Nikki. I don't double back on stories,

426
00:21:35,840 --> 00:21:37,520
Speaker 1: and I do appreciate that you double back on that.

427
00:21:37,760 --> 00:21:40,040
Speaker 1: Like every time we break up, I go, this is it.

428
00:21:40,800 --> 00:21:43,760
Speaker 1: If we break up, it's never going to get back never,

429
00:21:43,960 --> 00:21:46,480
Speaker 1: And my friends always just like mmmmm, so this is

430
00:21:46,560 --> 00:21:48,720
Speaker 1: this is the time, this is where it's going to stick.

431
00:21:48,760 --> 00:21:51,560
Speaker 1: And so it is nice to know that we will

432
00:21:51,600 --> 00:21:54,800
Speaker 1: allow for you. Will you will get back together with

433
00:21:54,800 --> 00:21:58,520
Speaker 1: me if if, if it's the right yes, and the

434
00:21:58,680 --> 00:22:00,760
Speaker 1: gist of the all of it was yet to hear

435
00:22:00,800 --> 00:22:03,400
Speaker 1: somebody talk about double back. This isn't a double back.

436
00:22:03,480 --> 00:22:07,640
Speaker 1: This is is you know when people hear you say like, oh,

437
00:22:07,640 --> 00:22:08,919
Speaker 1: I got to spend money on this and I got

438
00:22:08,960 --> 00:22:10,440
Speaker 1: to buy a car and all these things. It sounds

439
00:22:10,440 --> 00:22:14,280
Speaker 1: like you're bragging, but it's like, Nikki built this entire thing.

440
00:22:14,720 --> 00:22:16,879
Speaker 1: You know, obviously there's people that help, but NICKI worked

441
00:22:16,960 --> 00:22:19,560
Speaker 1: really really hard to do all of this, and it's

442
00:22:19,640 --> 00:22:22,080
Speaker 1: you know, it's one of the it's a real success story.

443
00:22:22,200 --> 00:22:25,840
Speaker 1: She pulled herself up by her heel straps. You always

444
00:22:25,840 --> 00:22:29,240
Speaker 1: do say that the that you always remind me of that, like,

445
00:22:29,400 --> 00:22:32,360
Speaker 1: it's really cool that you've done this thing. It's insane.

446
00:22:32,600 --> 00:22:35,160
Speaker 1: But I will say that it would not have been

447
00:22:35,200 --> 00:22:38,199
Speaker 1: possible had I not had financial help from my parents,

448
00:22:38,440 --> 00:22:42,440
Speaker 1: you know, like when they I would get over draft fees,

449
00:22:42,480 --> 00:22:44,480
Speaker 1: my mom would put like, there was a time I

450
00:22:44,520 --> 00:22:48,200
Speaker 1: think my parents probably lent me. And this isn't even

451
00:22:48,240 --> 00:22:50,119
Speaker 1: counting what they spent on my college education, which they

452
00:22:50,160 --> 00:22:53,080
Speaker 1: paid for it the whole thing. So they probably spent

453
00:22:54,160 --> 00:22:58,120
Speaker 1: loaned me ten dollars over the course of uh several

454
00:22:58,160 --> 00:23:01,720
Speaker 1: months when I was in l A, just drinking too much,

455
00:23:01,920 --> 00:23:05,160
Speaker 1: not babysitting enough, not tempting getting fired from temp jobs

456
00:23:05,200 --> 00:23:07,280
Speaker 1: because they'd be like this isn't temporary enough and you

457
00:23:07,280 --> 00:23:08,959
Speaker 1: shouldn't come in tomorrow. I'm like I have one day

458
00:23:09,040 --> 00:23:11,200
Speaker 1: left there, like we'd rather train someone new. We're terrible,

459
00:23:11,440 --> 00:23:13,520
Speaker 1: but they really helped me out and and I was

460
00:23:13,560 --> 00:23:15,920
Speaker 1: able to pay them back, which is great over time,

461
00:23:15,920 --> 00:23:19,359
Speaker 1: and just you know, but I never had that, I

462
00:23:19,400 --> 00:23:21,120
Speaker 1: wouldn't have been able to do it. I'm not saying

463
00:23:21,119 --> 00:23:23,560
Speaker 1: that you didn't have any help, but I conceded the

464
00:23:23,560 --> 00:23:25,680
Speaker 1: idea that you know, you you had help, and people

465
00:23:25,680 --> 00:23:28,040
Speaker 1: have help and stuff, and that's great. But I just mean, like,

466
00:23:28,359 --> 00:23:31,119
Speaker 1: if people are rolling their eyes at any sort of

467
00:23:31,119 --> 00:23:32,879
Speaker 1: money spending or any sort of things that sound like

468
00:23:32,880 --> 00:23:34,840
Speaker 1: a money brag, like, yeah, you had you had some

469
00:23:34,840 --> 00:23:37,440
Speaker 1: help from your parents, but this isn't like you were

470
00:23:37,520 --> 00:23:39,840
Speaker 1: handed the keys to some sort of for you know,

471
00:23:40,320 --> 00:23:43,440
Speaker 1: You're not like, you know somebody who has inherited everything.

472
00:23:43,600 --> 00:23:44,840
Speaker 1: You know. I know people that are like, oh, they

473
00:23:44,880 --> 00:23:47,600
Speaker 1: started this company, and it's like, well, their parents are

474
00:23:47,760 --> 00:23:50,160
Speaker 1: super millionaires and all of their friends are like, yes,

475
00:23:50,680 --> 00:23:55,960
Speaker 1: well and you know the best thing about which is weird.

476
00:23:56,680 --> 00:23:59,120
Speaker 1: That would be so awesome. I forgot Aunt Peggy gave

477
00:23:59,200 --> 00:24:03,680
Speaker 1: you yes undred bucks every birthday because I'm am your goddaughter, um,

478
00:24:03,720 --> 00:24:06,560
Speaker 1: which means nothing, but it means that I get a

479
00:24:06,640 --> 00:24:08,399
Speaker 1: hundred extra dollars on my birthday than any of the

480
00:24:10,240 --> 00:24:13,640
Speaker 1: fact my aunt Peggy is my godmother. Really that's cool.

481
00:24:13,720 --> 00:24:16,240
Speaker 1: I love her she and she's also like a cool

482
00:24:16,400 --> 00:24:20,320
Speaker 1: California and she's californa successful real estate right. It is

483
00:24:20,359 --> 00:24:22,480
Speaker 1: weird when people brag about money, because it happens a

484
00:24:22,560 --> 00:24:26,080
Speaker 1: lot on the Internet where people go, I'm worth eighty

485
00:24:26,119 --> 00:24:28,119
Speaker 1: million dollars and it's like such a high number, and

486
00:24:28,119 --> 00:24:30,879
Speaker 1: then they get so much attention they don't get negative

487
00:24:30,880 --> 00:24:33,280
Speaker 1: shipped for it, but there's like a weird number, and

488
00:24:33,600 --> 00:24:36,199
Speaker 1: there's a weird number in between, like eighty million, and

489
00:24:36,200 --> 00:24:39,040
Speaker 1: then like if you say I spent fifteen thousand on clothes,

490
00:24:39,040 --> 00:24:41,320
Speaker 1: people like, oh my god, I can't. But if you

491
00:24:41,359 --> 00:24:45,320
Speaker 1: say I fucking that dude, I want to like suck

492
00:24:45,359 --> 00:24:47,879
Speaker 1: his dick because he's great. It's a weird it's a weird,

493
00:24:48,000 --> 00:24:49,600
Speaker 1: like amount of money you used to be able to

494
00:24:49,640 --> 00:24:51,919
Speaker 1: stay I'm a millionaire and people would go, whoa, And

495
00:24:52,040 --> 00:24:55,359
Speaker 1: that means that honestly, of course, being a millionaire, you're

496
00:24:55,440 --> 00:24:57,520
Speaker 1: you're set. I mean, Chris has always told me, what

497
00:24:57,600 --> 00:24:59,520
Speaker 1: is it three million dollars? Well three is really good,

498
00:24:59,560 --> 00:25:03,479
Speaker 1: two million in two millions to retire and just I

499
00:25:03,520 --> 00:25:06,000
Speaker 1: can't wait to be rich enough to give everyone I

500
00:25:06,040 --> 00:25:08,800
Speaker 1: care about two million dollars and go stop working, pursue

501
00:25:08,840 --> 00:25:12,280
Speaker 1: what you love and put it in something safe and

502
00:25:12,480 --> 00:25:15,960
Speaker 1: that it will gain the right amount of interest in things.

503
00:25:16,080 --> 00:25:18,280
Speaker 1: Put it in a Vanguard index fund. You're gonna be fine.

504
00:25:18,560 --> 00:25:21,359
Speaker 1: So I do want to say that I recently I

505
00:25:21,720 --> 00:25:25,040
Speaker 1: I give away a lot of money to um, something

506
00:25:25,040 --> 00:25:27,280
Speaker 1: that I've never shied away from that I really I

507
00:25:27,320 --> 00:25:30,359
Speaker 1: almost enjoy it more than the person who gets the

508
00:25:30,400 --> 00:25:32,720
Speaker 1: money gets it. My friend the other day was telling like,

509
00:25:32,800 --> 00:25:34,680
Speaker 1: you know, just reached out and was like, hey, thinking

510
00:25:34,720 --> 00:25:37,440
Speaker 1: about you, love you. How are you? And I wrote

511
00:25:37,440 --> 00:25:39,919
Speaker 1: back like, good, how are you? And she was not

512
00:25:40,000 --> 00:25:43,080
Speaker 1: at all asking for anything. She was just honestly just

513
00:25:43,119 --> 00:25:45,280
Speaker 1: being like, I'm grateful you're my friend, just thinking of you.

514
00:25:45,880 --> 00:25:47,680
Speaker 1: Because my voice was sucked up and she was checking

515
00:25:47,680 --> 00:25:51,639
Speaker 1: in and I go, how are you? And she was like, UM, honestly, financially,

516
00:25:51,720 --> 00:25:53,720
Speaker 1: it's just I'm stressed out right now. And I go,

517
00:25:54,280 --> 00:25:57,240
Speaker 1: We've never talked about this, but I and this does

518
00:25:57,280 --> 00:25:59,440
Speaker 1: not go out to besties. This, please do not send me.

519
00:25:59,520 --> 00:26:01,200
Speaker 1: Venmoor has people do it a lot where they're like

520
00:26:01,320 --> 00:26:04,159
Speaker 1: hundred dollars like my I can't do it on that,

521
00:26:04,760 --> 00:26:07,800
Speaker 1: but if you become one of my good friends, if

522
00:26:08,040 --> 00:26:10,040
Speaker 1: if you're someone who I know would do it for me,

523
00:26:10,920 --> 00:26:12,879
Speaker 1: I will. I will give you anything you need to

524
00:26:12,920 --> 00:26:15,440
Speaker 1: the point where I'm not like jeopardizing my own financial

525
00:26:16,200 --> 00:26:18,240
Speaker 1: you know, situations. So I told her, I was like,

526
00:26:19,080 --> 00:26:20,800
Speaker 1: just so you know, I don't think we've had this conversation.

527
00:26:21,200 --> 00:26:24,600
Speaker 1: I have more money than I probably deserve to have.

528
00:26:24,920 --> 00:26:27,480
Speaker 1: I am a single woman, I have a dog. I

529
00:26:27,520 --> 00:26:29,479
Speaker 1: do take care of my family in some ways, but

530
00:26:29,520 --> 00:26:32,880
Speaker 1: not in ways that you know I can I help

531
00:26:32,920 --> 00:26:35,439
Speaker 1: you if it would. What's the amount that would make

532
00:26:35,480 --> 00:26:38,240
Speaker 1: it so you don't stress today or tomorrow, and that

533
00:26:38,359 --> 00:26:39,800
Speaker 1: will give you a little like just tell me the

534
00:26:39,840 --> 00:26:41,000
Speaker 1: mount and I'll let you know if I could do

535
00:26:41,040 --> 00:26:53,359
Speaker 1: it or not. And she I gave. What I also

536
00:26:53,400 --> 00:26:56,320
Speaker 1: said was I want you to know I don't expect

537
00:26:56,320 --> 00:26:58,239
Speaker 1: it back because when you lend up money, I go,

538
00:26:58,359 --> 00:27:00,440
Speaker 1: I would like it back someday because I just feel

539
00:27:00,440 --> 00:27:02,159
Speaker 1: like you're the person that would if you're able to

540
00:27:02,480 --> 00:27:03,760
Speaker 1: doesn't have to be tomorrow, it doesn't have to be

541
00:27:03,800 --> 00:27:05,840
Speaker 1: in five years. It can be in fifty years, like

542
00:27:06,680 --> 00:27:09,160
Speaker 1: or pay it forward to someone else, and I said,

543
00:27:09,160 --> 00:27:11,639
Speaker 1: it will never affect our friendship, which how can you

544
00:27:11,640 --> 00:27:14,640
Speaker 1: really say that? But I know that when I've lent

545
00:27:14,680 --> 00:27:16,800
Speaker 1: money to friends, I forget how much I've given them.

546
00:27:16,960 --> 00:27:19,200
Speaker 1: I don't think about it all the time. I don't

547
00:27:19,200 --> 00:27:22,440
Speaker 1: it really. My mom's always like, Nick, we owe you this,

548
00:27:22,520 --> 00:27:25,280
Speaker 1: and I go, will you stop? I do not remember?

549
00:27:25,440 --> 00:27:27,399
Speaker 1: And it's not And it's probably because I'm bad with

550
00:27:27,440 --> 00:27:29,119
Speaker 1: money and I kind of like to just like forget

551
00:27:29,240 --> 00:27:31,239
Speaker 1: what I've spent. I'm not someone who keeps receipts. But

552
00:27:31,600 --> 00:27:33,560
Speaker 1: I said to her, it's not going to affect our relationship.

553
00:27:34,119 --> 00:27:36,760
Speaker 1: I it will not be you. If you if you're

554
00:27:36,800 --> 00:27:39,199
Speaker 1: feeling bad about owing me money and if you're going

555
00:27:39,240 --> 00:27:41,119
Speaker 1: to carry any guilt about this, and it's going to

556
00:27:41,160 --> 00:27:43,040
Speaker 1: affect you wanting to hang out with me, do not

557
00:27:43,320 --> 00:27:44,800
Speaker 1: do not let me give it to you. But you've

558
00:27:44,800 --> 00:27:47,000
Speaker 1: got to if you accept this, you've got to promise

559
00:27:47,080 --> 00:27:48,600
Speaker 1: me you're not going to be weird around me and

560
00:27:48,640 --> 00:27:50,840
Speaker 1: feel like, oh, I have to buy her coffee and

561
00:27:50,880 --> 00:27:53,040
Speaker 1: you can't. You're not gonna let me buy dinners? Still, like,

562
00:27:53,119 --> 00:27:56,520
Speaker 1: because you owe me. It's not that I know that

563
00:27:56,600 --> 00:27:59,320
Speaker 1: I have been blessed to be born in America with

564
00:27:59,400 --> 00:28:01,480
Speaker 1: parents that's a boarded me and loved me and accepted

565
00:28:01,520 --> 00:28:04,520
Speaker 1: me for who I was, who supported me financially. I

566
00:28:04,560 --> 00:28:07,320
Speaker 1: fell into an industry that is very lucrative that I

567
00:28:07,359 --> 00:28:10,159
Speaker 1: happened to have a good bed, good at I have

568
00:28:10,200 --> 00:28:12,520
Speaker 1: a brain that helped me work. Like I got lucky

569
00:28:12,600 --> 00:28:15,040
Speaker 1: to get all these things. And I don't look at

570
00:28:15,080 --> 00:28:17,479
Speaker 1: you not having money right now as you being lazy

571
00:28:17,840 --> 00:28:21,080
Speaker 1: or you being um less than you know. I think

572
00:28:21,119 --> 00:28:24,159
Speaker 1: some rich people look at poor people is like fucking

573
00:28:24,200 --> 00:28:26,959
Speaker 1: work more. Just like you just didn't do it right,

574
00:28:27,040 --> 00:28:28,840
Speaker 1: do what I did. And it's like even if they

575
00:28:28,840 --> 00:28:31,160
Speaker 1: could do what you did, they you know, I've talked

576
00:28:31,200 --> 00:28:33,399
Speaker 1: about this extensively on the show, But it's like, you

577
00:28:33,400 --> 00:28:35,080
Speaker 1: don't get to choose the brain you're born with. You

578
00:28:35,080 --> 00:28:37,600
Speaker 1: don't get to choose your parents. These people who are born,

579
00:28:37,680 --> 00:28:40,000
Speaker 1: no one wants to be poor. No one wants to

580
00:28:40,000 --> 00:28:42,239
Speaker 1: be even lazy. Even if they are lazy, no one

581
00:28:42,280 --> 00:28:44,360
Speaker 1: wants to be lazy. They might be suffering with depression

582
00:28:44,440 --> 00:28:47,239
Speaker 1: or whatever. So I told her that, and and then

583
00:28:47,280 --> 00:28:49,360
Speaker 1: I just vent motor amount that I thought was a

584
00:28:49,400 --> 00:28:52,280
Speaker 1: lot um to give a friend that was like, would

585
00:28:52,360 --> 00:28:54,440
Speaker 1: suffice based on what I hurt because she didn't give

586
00:28:54,440 --> 00:28:56,280
Speaker 1: me a number, and I knew she was like hesitating,

587
00:28:56,320 --> 00:28:58,640
Speaker 1: so I just go just fucking take this. And then

588
00:28:58,680 --> 00:29:01,800
Speaker 1: she wrote back and she was like, actually, can I

589
00:29:01,880 --> 00:29:04,760
Speaker 1: get this amount? And it was, uh, it was almost

590
00:29:04,880 --> 00:29:06,960
Speaker 1: it was like probably more than I had already given

591
00:29:06,960 --> 00:29:08,640
Speaker 1: her to the point where I couldn't venmo because it

592
00:29:08,680 --> 00:29:11,960
Speaker 1: would go past my limit. So and I said, fuck, yes,

593
00:29:12,600 --> 00:29:15,720
Speaker 1: yes I can. It's a crazy amount of money, but

594
00:29:16,200 --> 00:29:18,000
Speaker 1: what a joy that I can do this. And she

595
00:29:18,120 --> 00:29:20,040
Speaker 1: is now out of debt. She doesn't have to go

596
00:29:20,120 --> 00:29:22,680
Speaker 1: ask her parents, who she's kind of estranged from, for money,

597
00:29:22,920 --> 00:29:24,920
Speaker 1: she doesn't have to take gigs she doesn't want to

598
00:29:24,920 --> 00:29:27,840
Speaker 1: do like and she's such a great person that puts

599
00:29:27,840 --> 00:29:29,680
Speaker 1: so much good out in the world. That is going

600
00:29:29,720 --> 00:29:34,600
Speaker 1: to be what you said that like you kind of

601
00:29:34,680 --> 00:29:37,040
Speaker 1: enjoyed it more than she did. So because about that?

602
00:29:37,080 --> 00:29:40,959
Speaker 1: Did you enjoy? Because it makes me feel good because

603
00:29:41,200 --> 00:29:46,040
Speaker 1: I know that I am giving someone I love relief.

604
00:29:46,240 --> 00:29:48,680
Speaker 1: It's like giving someone like giving my mom a foot rub.

605
00:29:48,920 --> 00:29:52,560
Speaker 1: It's giving like something's hurting her and causing her chronic pain,

606
00:29:52,920 --> 00:29:55,920
Speaker 1: and we're it's like me figuring out how to relieve

607
00:29:56,000 --> 00:29:59,240
Speaker 1: this pain instantly, and that feels good to like limit

608
00:29:59,360 --> 00:30:04,200
Speaker 1: suffering on this planet. And she is someone who's so um.

609
00:30:04,280 --> 00:30:06,720
Speaker 1: She's given me so much in terms of support and

610
00:30:06,760 --> 00:30:10,960
Speaker 1: emotional caring and like being there for me that I mean, honestly,

611
00:30:10,960 --> 00:30:13,720
Speaker 1: I feel like I I just I she gave that

612
00:30:13,760 --> 00:30:16,440
Speaker 1: back to me. And things that are not tangible, that

613
00:30:16,480 --> 00:30:18,280
Speaker 1: aren't aren't financially, but it was this. It was It's

614
00:30:18,280 --> 00:30:21,800
Speaker 1: an exchange almost, and and I know that that relief

615
00:30:21,840 --> 00:30:23,720
Speaker 1: that she feels she's going to be able to put

616
00:30:23,840 --> 00:30:25,800
Speaker 1: so much more good out in the world that is

617
00:30:25,840 --> 00:30:28,960
Speaker 1: going to trickle out. And then she when she becomes

618
00:30:29,040 --> 00:30:30,800
Speaker 1: rich enough to do it, she will do that for

619
00:30:30,840 --> 00:30:33,720
Speaker 1: someone else, I believe, and I know she would do

620
00:30:33,760 --> 00:30:35,280
Speaker 1: it for me. I one time went to a guy's

621
00:30:35,320 --> 00:30:37,440
Speaker 1: funeral and I said, I'm going to this funeral. I

622
00:30:37,440 --> 00:30:40,000
Speaker 1: don't really know him, but I bet if I died,

623
00:30:40,040 --> 00:30:41,959
Speaker 1: he would go to mine. And I think that's how

624
00:30:42,000 --> 00:30:44,560
Speaker 1: we should kind of look at life. Is like, I

625
00:30:44,600 --> 00:30:46,360
Speaker 1: don't think i'd lend money to someone who wouldn't do

626
00:30:46,360 --> 00:30:49,959
Speaker 1: it for me, even though I have UM, but I

627
00:30:50,000 --> 00:30:52,760
Speaker 1: do think it just I don't know it just feels

628
00:30:53,200 --> 00:30:55,160
Speaker 1: I like spending money on other people more than myself.

629
00:30:55,240 --> 00:30:56,840
Speaker 1: But I did spend a lot of myself in Boston,

630
00:30:56,840 --> 00:30:58,200
Speaker 1: and I got myself a ring that had a p

631
00:30:58,440 --> 00:31:01,440
Speaker 1: on it for Poppy and my mom was like, well

632
00:31:01,440 --> 00:31:03,680
Speaker 1: what about Arlow and Forest? And I'm like, well, that's

633
00:31:03,720 --> 00:31:07,080
Speaker 1: too many letters. And also this in this ring was

634
00:31:07,120 --> 00:31:10,160
Speaker 1: kind of expensive. I went to, like this gold dealer,

635
00:31:10,360 --> 00:31:15,360
Speaker 1: it would be fat, yeah, and yeah, we can't have that.

636
00:31:15,600 --> 00:31:17,640
Speaker 1: And the peak kind of looks like a g sometimes,

637
00:31:18,000 --> 00:31:20,000
Speaker 1: so that's not gonna be good. But I gotta pee

638
00:31:20,080 --> 00:31:24,200
Speaker 1: because I like because for me, a little girl in

639
00:31:24,280 --> 00:31:26,959
Speaker 1: a way, she's my favorite. And Forest and Arloe might

640
00:31:26,960 --> 00:31:28,720
Speaker 1: watch this some day long after I'm long gone and

641
00:31:28,720 --> 00:31:30,840
Speaker 1: be like what the funk? But like when you're a

642
00:31:30,840 --> 00:31:33,360
Speaker 1: woman and you see a little girl, like there's something

643
00:31:33,520 --> 00:31:35,080
Speaker 1: I kind of look through lens of my life of

644
00:31:35,120 --> 00:31:37,800
Speaker 1: making decisions of like what I want this for Poppy.

645
00:31:38,040 --> 00:31:39,720
Speaker 1: And so it's just a little nice reminder. I'm not

646
00:31:39,760 --> 00:31:41,920
Speaker 1: wearing it right now, so I can't what I want.

647
00:31:41,920 --> 00:31:44,080
Speaker 1: Probably to listen to me rattling on, probably not, and

648
00:31:44,120 --> 00:31:45,520
Speaker 1: I should have that ring on to remind me to

649
00:31:45,600 --> 00:31:48,120
Speaker 1: change subjects. But I also don't think that everything is

650
00:31:48,160 --> 00:31:50,200
Speaker 1: to be equal. Every time, like like one of my

651
00:31:50,360 --> 00:31:52,400
Speaker 1: nephews comes up to me and it's like, hey, Chris,

652
00:31:52,400 --> 00:31:54,440
Speaker 1: I want to show you this thing. Somebody in the

653
00:31:54,440 --> 00:31:57,760
Speaker 1: family will be like, well, now show show team man,

654
00:31:57,880 --> 00:32:01,240
Speaker 1: and it's like, we're forty years we don't need these

655
00:32:01,280 --> 00:32:06,280
Speaker 1: kids to treat us equally. It's so exhausting. You're visiting

656
00:32:06,280 --> 00:32:08,600
Speaker 1: your nephews recently, did you encounter anything with that of

657
00:32:08,680 --> 00:32:12,800
Speaker 1: like having to I think depending on the age, the

658
00:32:12,880 --> 00:32:16,000
Speaker 1: more I feel like I have to give the older

659
00:32:16,040 --> 00:32:19,400
Speaker 1: one more time because he'll remember it in a in

660
00:32:19,400 --> 00:32:21,200
Speaker 1: a weird way, like I'm like, oh, this will be

661
00:32:21,240 --> 00:32:23,880
Speaker 1: more meaningful for me to throw to football with him

662
00:32:24,120 --> 00:32:26,400
Speaker 1: because he could actually catch right now, as opposed to Leo,

663
00:32:26,480 --> 00:32:30,720
Speaker 1: who's essentially black out drunk until you're like four, that's

664
00:32:30,720 --> 00:32:32,480
Speaker 1: when you start waking up for him, and then I'll

665
00:32:32,520 --> 00:32:35,400
Speaker 1: give him just as much time. But I feel like, also,

666
00:32:35,440 --> 00:32:37,560
Speaker 1: it's just more fun to hang out with the older one.

667
00:32:37,880 --> 00:32:41,320
Speaker 1: But the middle of Leo, I won't stop talking. He'll

668
00:32:41,320 --> 00:32:45,200
Speaker 1: tell stories that make no sense, never talks how old

669
00:32:45,200 --> 00:32:49,040
Speaker 1: is Leo? Like four or five poppies? So quiets hit

670
00:32:49,080 --> 00:32:52,720
Speaker 1: it off with kids at different like you know, different times,

671
00:32:52,720 --> 00:32:55,360
Speaker 1: and I've never seen someone better with kids than this guy.

672
00:32:57,280 --> 00:33:00,600
Speaker 1: Do you love so much because she's hilarious and I

673
00:33:00,640 --> 00:33:05,800
Speaker 1: love her because she is It's I learned how to

674
00:33:05,880 --> 00:33:08,680
Speaker 1: be from her. Of like I remember the freedom of

675
00:33:08,720 --> 00:33:10,760
Speaker 1: not being worried about what my hair looks like, what

676
00:33:10,800 --> 00:33:15,600
Speaker 1: my skin looks like, what um like, just being what's

677
00:33:15,600 --> 00:33:18,680
Speaker 1: important is what's right in front of me. And I'm

678
00:33:18,760 --> 00:33:21,080
Speaker 1: and she's I will say, she is poppy. If you're

679
00:33:21,080 --> 00:33:24,080
Speaker 1: watching this in the future on the hologram in front

680
00:33:24,120 --> 00:33:27,880
Speaker 1: of you, you were a little bit like you were

681
00:33:27,920 --> 00:33:29,680
Speaker 1: a four year old. That was like getting into something

682
00:33:29,680 --> 00:33:31,440
Speaker 1: like the other day. I was like, oh, I get

683
00:33:31,960 --> 00:33:35,560
Speaker 1: how you can love someone so much, but also like

684
00:33:35,800 --> 00:33:37,800
Speaker 1: be like I don't want to see this person again,

685
00:33:38,000 --> 00:33:40,520
Speaker 1: like just so mean. Just the way she was like

686
00:33:40,520 --> 00:33:42,520
Speaker 1: talking to me of like do this, and I go,

687
00:33:43,400 --> 00:33:45,720
Speaker 1: who are you talking? I would never talk to my

688
00:33:45,760 --> 00:33:48,000
Speaker 1: aunt that way. Like I was scared of my aunt

689
00:33:48,040 --> 00:33:49,840
Speaker 1: and there was some part of me that was just like,

690
00:33:50,280 --> 00:33:53,480
Speaker 1: screw you, lady, but it was but she at the

691
00:33:53,520 --> 00:33:57,280
Speaker 1: same time, she kids are acting out when they're feeling frustrated,

692
00:33:57,280 --> 00:33:59,640
Speaker 1: when they're feeling scared when they're feeling not like seen,

693
00:33:59,720 --> 00:34:02,320
Speaker 1: and so I was able to get through to her eventually.

694
00:34:02,360 --> 00:34:05,280
Speaker 1: But I was laying in her bunk bed with her

695
00:34:06,200 --> 00:34:10,840
Speaker 1: and the top she asked for me to do it.

696
00:34:10,920 --> 00:34:13,560
Speaker 1: Usually she's like, no, I don't want Nicky, I want Mommy,

697
00:34:13,640 --> 00:34:15,600
Speaker 1: but she was like, I want Nikki, and so I

698
00:34:15,640 --> 00:34:18,799
Speaker 1: was laying down with her with the money in the ring. Yeah,

699
00:34:18,880 --> 00:34:21,120
Speaker 1: as soon as she found out about my spending spring

700
00:34:21,120 --> 00:34:24,439
Speaker 1: in Boston, she was like, hey, crawling in that bag

701
00:34:24,480 --> 00:34:26,400
Speaker 1: of coins onto the top bunk. But I was just

702
00:34:26,440 --> 00:34:28,600
Speaker 1: in this bunk bed with her, and I was looking

703
00:34:28,640 --> 00:34:30,920
Speaker 1: at her, and I love how quickly kids fall asleep.

704
00:34:30,920 --> 00:34:34,000
Speaker 1: They're kind of like you, Chris, like just out very fast.

705
00:34:34,440 --> 00:34:36,160
Speaker 1: But she was it was like hot in the room

706
00:34:36,160 --> 00:34:37,759
Speaker 1: and she was kind of tossing and turning, and she

707
00:34:37,840 --> 00:34:40,920
Speaker 1: looked so much like my little sister that it like

708
00:34:41,520 --> 00:34:45,080
Speaker 1: my love for her was so I couldn't handle it.

709
00:34:45,160 --> 00:34:47,120
Speaker 1: I had to leave because I was like, I just

710
00:34:47,880 --> 00:34:50,080
Speaker 1: I can't handle how much I love this. I just

711
00:34:50,080 --> 00:34:52,680
Speaker 1: want to like just stare at her, like she was

712
00:34:52,760 --> 00:34:54,920
Speaker 1: just so cute the way she was like kicking the sheets,

713
00:34:54,920 --> 00:34:58,919
Speaker 1: and like I just I felt overwhelmed with like love

714
00:34:59,000 --> 00:35:00,799
Speaker 1: her because she reminded me much of my little sister.

715
00:35:00,800 --> 00:35:03,920
Speaker 1: And I also was like if I was a bad person,

716
00:35:04,000 --> 00:35:07,360
Speaker 1: the things I could do, like if someone ever gets

717
00:35:07,400 --> 00:35:10,239
Speaker 1: like I know, my mind goes to both places. But

718
00:35:10,320 --> 00:35:13,680
Speaker 1: like I like, just being like in a bed with

719
00:35:13,719 --> 00:35:16,000
Speaker 1: a child makes me go, is this even okay? Because

720
00:35:16,000 --> 00:35:18,480
Speaker 1: I don't want to encourage Poppy inviting adults into the

721
00:35:18,520 --> 00:35:22,319
Speaker 1: bed that she doesn't know, Like she doesn't know, you know,

722
00:35:22,520 --> 00:35:24,759
Speaker 1: you just know that she's like that if if she

723
00:35:24,840 --> 00:35:27,400
Speaker 1: invited any adults or maybe sitter or like you know,

724
00:35:27,440 --> 00:35:29,719
Speaker 1: where there aren't nannycams in the dark, I'm just like

725
00:35:29,840 --> 00:35:31,840
Speaker 1: and then I start going to that and I feel

726
00:35:31,880 --> 00:35:34,319
Speaker 1: like and then I start getting a reach like if

727
00:35:34,360 --> 00:35:37,600
Speaker 1: anyone ever tried to fucking touch this, like what I would,

728
00:35:37,600 --> 00:35:40,360
Speaker 1: and it just becomes too I think that's why I

729
00:35:40,440 --> 00:35:42,319
Speaker 1: kind of shy away from having kids. Is not only

730
00:35:42,320 --> 00:35:44,280
Speaker 1: because I have depression and I feel like it would

731
00:35:44,280 --> 00:35:46,719
Speaker 1: just rub off on them and they would resent me

732
00:35:46,719 --> 00:35:48,080
Speaker 1: and I wouldn't be able to show up for them,

733
00:35:48,120 --> 00:35:51,759
Speaker 1: but also like I can't love something that much, like

734
00:35:51,800 --> 00:35:53,960
Speaker 1: it's just too scared. And then let them like learn

735
00:35:54,000 --> 00:35:59,160
Speaker 1: to drive go to school. For the firste I was

736
00:35:59,239 --> 00:36:01,000
Speaker 1: on the top bunk and I was looking at you know,

737
00:36:01,040 --> 00:36:03,560
Speaker 1: the metal that holds the kids in, and it was

738
00:36:04,239 --> 00:36:06,800
Speaker 1: there was a pretty big gap and then it wasn't

739
00:36:06,840 --> 00:36:09,239
Speaker 1: that high, and I just all like, because I fell

740
00:36:09,280 --> 00:36:12,759
Speaker 1: off a top bunk multiple times, So I'm just like,

741
00:36:13,080 --> 00:36:15,200
Speaker 1: which explains a lot, Like I fell on my head

742
00:36:15,880 --> 00:36:17,720
Speaker 1: from very high and then it didn't put me higher.

743
00:36:18,880 --> 00:36:21,200
Speaker 1: Did it affect the shape of your head? Just here

744
00:36:21,239 --> 00:36:28,719
Speaker 1: and here right here? Doesn't know? I think you look great, concrete,

745
00:36:29,320 --> 00:36:32,520
Speaker 1: bad dude. But I was looking at it and I

746
00:36:32,560 --> 00:36:35,520
Speaker 1: couldn't I was like having trouble sleeping thinking I was like,

747
00:36:35,520 --> 00:36:38,520
Speaker 1: why aren't they and my they're like the best parents ever, like,

748
00:36:38,760 --> 00:36:41,840
Speaker 1: but like I couldn't get out of my head, like, no,

749
00:36:42,000 --> 00:36:46,040
Speaker 1: they're just gonna fall. They're and as aunts and uncles,

750
00:36:46,080 --> 00:36:49,440
Speaker 1: we don't really know how Like it was so just

751
00:36:49,760 --> 00:36:51,600
Speaker 1: they're just sensitized at this point to like all the

752
00:36:51,680 --> 00:36:54,439
Speaker 1: dangers that they've seen and they aren't really real fears. Well,

753
00:36:54,560 --> 00:36:56,920
Speaker 1: Augie who seven, you know, he did a camp there

754
00:36:56,920 --> 00:36:58,719
Speaker 1: where we were on a mountain and they just went

755
00:36:58,840 --> 00:37:01,399
Speaker 1: hiking up the mountain and I'm like envisioned, like because

756
00:37:01,440 --> 00:37:05,000
Speaker 1: I get my my fears get projected onto the kids. Yeah,

757
00:37:05,120 --> 00:37:08,680
Speaker 1: so like you know, me hiking and seeing jagged cliff rock,

758
00:37:08,920 --> 00:37:11,480
Speaker 1: I I think like they're just gonna Why would a

759
00:37:11,560 --> 00:37:13,960
Speaker 1: kid not know to just walk off? You know, Like

760
00:37:14,120 --> 00:37:16,520
Speaker 1: it's like when you're walking a dog or whatever, you

761
00:37:16,520 --> 00:37:18,600
Speaker 1: see these goats that climb up the mountain and you're like,

762
00:37:18,680 --> 00:37:22,080
Speaker 1: how did you know to just not die? Yeah? Or

763
00:37:22,360 --> 00:37:26,080
Speaker 1: a squirrel on a a tightrope, but like you know,

764
00:37:26,239 --> 00:37:29,600
Speaker 1: squirrel at the circus um. Yeah, So I just project

765
00:37:29,680 --> 00:37:32,240
Speaker 1: all these fears onto them and that's like it's tough,

766
00:37:32,320 --> 00:37:34,320
Speaker 1: like I don't know, but like I it just shows

767
00:37:34,320 --> 00:37:37,480
Speaker 1: how I love them. Obsession and as a child was

768
00:37:37,520 --> 00:37:40,880
Speaker 1: that my sister. Once I learned about kidnappers and murder

769
00:37:40,880 --> 00:37:43,800
Speaker 1: and all those things and like what that people prey

770
00:37:43,840 --> 00:37:48,200
Speaker 1: on children? Like, I was like like I couldn't. I

771
00:37:48,239 --> 00:37:50,600
Speaker 1: was obsessed with my sister. It was only eighteen months

772
00:37:50,640 --> 00:37:52,600
Speaker 1: younger than me that she was going to get up

773
00:37:52,600 --> 00:37:54,239
Speaker 1: because she was such a more free spirit than me.

774
00:37:54,520 --> 00:37:56,920
Speaker 1: I knew I was never going to be alone with

775
00:37:57,000 --> 00:38:00,319
Speaker 1: a man. And I was a funky look at kid,

776
00:38:00,400 --> 00:38:04,759
Speaker 1: like nobody's too trusting and I remember there was like

777
00:38:04,800 --> 00:38:06,920
Speaker 1: someone spotted a weird van where a guy talked to

778
00:38:06,960 --> 00:38:08,600
Speaker 1: some kids in our neighborhood, and it got around like

779
00:38:08,640 --> 00:38:10,640
Speaker 1: there was a van and some kids like you know,

780
00:38:10,680 --> 00:38:14,840
Speaker 1: it's probably a guy looking for direction, Like like, if

781
00:38:14,880 --> 00:38:17,080
Speaker 1: you're a creepy guy, are you gonna drive the card

782
00:38:17,160 --> 00:38:19,200
Speaker 1: that's the create Like you know what I mean, Like,

783
00:38:19,239 --> 00:38:23,279
Speaker 1: are you gonna I'm like, stop doing the thing that ever,

784
00:38:23,480 --> 00:38:25,920
Speaker 1: stop being the stereotype. Yeah yeah yeah, So if you're

785
00:38:25,960 --> 00:38:28,439
Speaker 1: driving a creepy van, you probably I don't know, there's

786
00:38:28,440 --> 00:38:30,480
Speaker 1: a strong chance you are still creepy, yeah, because you

787
00:38:30,480 --> 00:38:33,920
Speaker 1: can do that's there's no windows back there anyway. So

788
00:38:34,280 --> 00:38:37,319
Speaker 1: I remember being obsessed that my sister and my mom

789
00:38:37,360 --> 00:38:39,160
Speaker 1: would just let my sister go, and I'd be like,

790
00:38:39,960 --> 00:38:41,440
Speaker 1: but there's nothing you can do as a kid to

791
00:38:41,480 --> 00:38:44,520
Speaker 1: be like Lauren stay. So I would try to come

792
00:38:44,640 --> 00:38:47,200
Speaker 1: up with ways to keep her inside, like let's play

793
00:38:47,200 --> 00:38:49,680
Speaker 1: school in the basement, like just anywhere but out there,

794
00:38:49,680 --> 00:38:52,799
Speaker 1: because you're gonna get stolen and it's going to ruin

795
00:38:52,880 --> 00:38:57,000
Speaker 1: my child. It's all about me. Um. But what I

796
00:38:57,040 --> 00:38:58,960
Speaker 1: wanted to say before about this book that I'm reading.

797
00:38:59,239 --> 00:39:03,160
Speaker 1: It's called how To change your mind or something like that.

798
00:39:03,320 --> 00:39:04,879
Speaker 1: We don't know. Let me just see what it's called again.

799
00:39:04,960 --> 00:39:07,759
Speaker 1: Were you protective over your brothers, Chris, did you guys

800
00:39:07,800 --> 00:39:09,840
Speaker 1: have Yeah, we were protective of each other, but we

801
00:39:09,920 --> 00:39:12,560
Speaker 1: fought too. Yeah, but it's one of those but it's

802
00:39:12,560 --> 00:39:14,480
Speaker 1: one of those things. And we never punched in the face.

803
00:39:14,520 --> 00:39:16,520
Speaker 1: But it's a lot of wrestling and stuff like that.

804
00:39:16,560 --> 00:39:18,200
Speaker 1: But if you know, it's one of those things where

805
00:39:18,239 --> 00:39:20,280
Speaker 1: it's like we could fight each other, but the second

806
00:39:20,320 --> 00:39:26,160
Speaker 1: somebody said something to the other one, it's like, well, yeah,

807
00:39:26,200 --> 00:39:29,239
Speaker 1: they're so protective of each other. And and and now

808
00:39:29,280 --> 00:39:33,879
Speaker 1: even like it quick like even like your radio gig,

809
00:39:33,960 --> 00:39:35,879
Speaker 1: like you came to town to do the radio gig

810
00:39:35,960 --> 00:39:38,640
Speaker 1: to hold a spot for Tim because he was he

811
00:39:38,680 --> 00:39:40,920
Speaker 1: wasn't able to get that gig, so you were like,

812
00:39:40,960 --> 00:39:43,439
Speaker 1: I'll keep a place for you until you become free

813
00:39:43,480 --> 00:39:46,719
Speaker 1: to work here again. And then like like you guys,

814
00:39:46,760 --> 00:39:49,560
Speaker 1: look at we all have gotten each other jobs and

815
00:39:49,640 --> 00:39:51,480
Speaker 1: we've tried to work with each other a bunch. But

816
00:39:51,719 --> 00:39:54,120
Speaker 1: the best is when you're like really young and you're

817
00:39:54,160 --> 00:39:57,080
Speaker 1: like fighting. Anytime the two of us would fight, the

818
00:39:57,160 --> 00:39:59,360
Speaker 1: other one would like come in and like get like

819
00:39:59,480 --> 00:40:05,160
Speaker 1: kicks in whoever whoever was like, you know, look on

820
00:40:05,239 --> 00:40:06,759
Speaker 1: the out it would be like me and Tim are

821
00:40:06,800 --> 00:40:09,160
Speaker 1: fighting current company, Like Chris was a jerk to me

822
00:40:09,200 --> 00:40:12,160
Speaker 1: today and get you a middle meddal Yeah, number two

823
00:40:12,160 --> 00:40:14,560
Speaker 1: in birth or number one in their hearts. Yeah, yeah,

824
00:40:15,560 --> 00:40:18,879
Speaker 1: what are the year difference? Eighteen basic basically two years,

825
00:40:19,320 --> 00:40:21,359
Speaker 1: So it's Tim eighteen months than two years in current.

826
00:40:21,520 --> 00:40:24,080
Speaker 1: So you guys are Kai and Khakis four years after

827
00:40:24,120 --> 00:40:27,000
Speaker 1: that and you're the middle child of three boys as well. Yeah,

828
00:40:27,040 --> 00:40:29,600
Speaker 1: two years and nine months is my older brother and

829
00:40:29,640 --> 00:40:34,400
Speaker 1: then years younger. We would fight. Yeah, he outsmarted me

830
00:40:34,440 --> 00:40:38,080
Speaker 1: a lot, but I was the better athlete power him.

831
00:40:38,160 --> 00:40:40,520
Speaker 1: I could. I was small though, I was really small.

832
00:40:40,600 --> 00:40:43,520
Speaker 1: But you had heart. The guy had heart. I had

833
00:40:43,560 --> 00:40:46,440
Speaker 1: a lot of heart. I really did. They remember coach

834
00:40:46,440 --> 00:40:48,440
Speaker 1: Wally Myers. He goes, if you had the heart of Colin,

835
00:40:48,520 --> 00:40:50,680
Speaker 1: you guys would all be all State. And I was like,

836
00:40:50,719 --> 00:40:52,640
Speaker 1: but you're kind of saying I sucked in a way too,

837
00:40:53,239 --> 00:40:55,200
Speaker 1: in a big way, that's what they say. And Rudy,

838
00:40:55,239 --> 00:40:57,360
Speaker 1: they were like, if anybody had half the heart of Rudy,

839
00:40:57,360 --> 00:40:59,640
Speaker 1: they'd be all American. They'd end up in jail for financials.

840
00:40:59,719 --> 00:41:11,000
Speaker 1: You're the Florida Rudy. It's like, hey, come on, we'll

841
00:41:11,000 --> 00:41:14,920
Speaker 1: be right anti semitic, but thank you with the call

842
00:41:15,000 --> 00:41:22,520
Speaker 1: back ham grip. We'll be right back up. Alright, we're back, Um,

843
00:41:22,520 --> 00:41:25,040
Speaker 1: sorry for interrupting your book thing. No, no, no, I

844
00:41:25,040 --> 00:41:27,319
Speaker 1: actually wanted to say the thing about like if you

845
00:41:27,360 --> 00:41:29,600
Speaker 1: had as much hard as Andrew Colin. It reminds me

846
00:41:29,640 --> 00:41:31,759
Speaker 1: of when I was in field hockey and my I

847
00:41:31,760 --> 00:41:34,720
Speaker 1: think I've told this before, but my coach's husband called

848
00:41:34,760 --> 00:41:36,560
Speaker 1: me one day. I was calling her and I think

849
00:41:36,600 --> 00:41:37,719
Speaker 1: he was on the phone. He was like, they were

850
00:41:37,719 --> 00:41:40,160
Speaker 1: about to have a baby, and he was like, I

851
00:41:40,200 --> 00:41:43,680
Speaker 1: just hope my daughter turns out like It would be

852
00:41:43,719 --> 00:41:45,799
Speaker 1: great if she turned out exactly like you. You're someone

853
00:41:45,840 --> 00:41:47,200
Speaker 1: that I would hope my daughter would be like. And

854
00:41:47,239 --> 00:41:49,840
Speaker 1: I thought he was talking about my like playing, and

855
00:41:49,840 --> 00:41:51,880
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, I'm not even that good. I

856
00:41:51,920 --> 00:41:54,239
Speaker 1: feels like he goes, oh god, no, not that just

857
00:41:54,440 --> 00:41:58,040
Speaker 1: in general, and I remember being both offended and like delighted.

858
00:41:58,239 --> 00:42:00,600
Speaker 1: But I remember him being like, oh wait, no, you

859
00:42:00,600 --> 00:42:02,840
Speaker 1: think I'm talking about your No, I read your English paper.

860
00:42:04,239 --> 00:42:06,759
Speaker 1: Good grand Now you haven't talked to boys for all

861
00:42:06,800 --> 00:42:09,080
Speaker 1: four years of high school. That's hard to get for

862
00:42:09,160 --> 00:42:12,719
Speaker 1: this guy across town. I've never like in love with

863
00:42:12,800 --> 00:42:15,839
Speaker 1: you and really would have had art. I was just

864
00:42:15,880 --> 00:42:18,279
Speaker 1: so scared of boys. I really was. I want to

865
00:42:18,320 --> 00:42:20,920
Speaker 1: see like a side by side of YouTube, like photos

866
00:42:20,920 --> 00:42:24,879
Speaker 1: from high school, like sometimes senior year would they date,

867
00:42:24,920 --> 00:42:27,560
Speaker 1: And I think you would have been into me. I

868
00:42:27,640 --> 00:42:30,480
Speaker 1: was a little I got a little chunky um towards

869
00:42:30,480 --> 00:42:32,239
Speaker 1: the end, but not in a way that like it

870
00:42:32,280 --> 00:42:34,040
Speaker 1: was adorable. I mean, you've seen one picture of you

871
00:42:34,080 --> 00:42:39,680
Speaker 1: where I looked like a sub librarian. That adorable I was.

872
00:42:39,840 --> 00:42:42,440
Speaker 1: But you and your friends were the funniest thing. You

873
00:42:42,440 --> 00:42:44,560
Speaker 1: would have liked, my friend. So I'm always so impressed

874
00:42:44,600 --> 00:42:47,640
Speaker 1: with you and your friendships. They were I am, so

875
00:42:47,800 --> 00:42:49,560
Speaker 1: I'm also so proud of them. Okay, So the book

876
00:42:49,560 --> 00:42:51,920
Speaker 1: i'm reading, it's called Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself.

877
00:42:51,960 --> 00:42:54,719
Speaker 1: I found it on reddit um. It was recommended in

878
00:42:54,880 --> 00:42:58,279
Speaker 1: the subreddit books as a book that's changed someone's life.

879
00:42:58,320 --> 00:43:00,000
Speaker 1: And then I posted about it yesterday in my instant

880
00:43:00,000 --> 00:43:03,040
Speaker 1: game story and my friend Brian Frangie, our friend, wrote

881
00:43:03,040 --> 00:43:06,640
Speaker 1: to me and said, this book changed my robot. Brian Frandie,

882
00:43:07,080 --> 00:43:09,719
Speaker 1: this book changed my life and um, he said it

883
00:43:09,719 --> 00:43:11,759
Speaker 1: really helped me. What did he say? He really helped

884
00:43:11,800 --> 00:43:14,680
Speaker 1: me yesterday? He's what a good guy. Brian Frangie is

885
00:43:14,719 --> 00:43:17,279
Speaker 1: one of the funniest people. Got him on the show.

886
00:43:17,680 --> 00:43:20,239
Speaker 1: You have to have him on the show. He's so funny.

887
00:43:20,440 --> 00:43:22,880
Speaker 1: He's so funny. He has a website called the Apple

888
00:43:22,920 --> 00:43:28,359
Speaker 1: List where wait, is that what it's called. He says

889
00:43:28,400 --> 00:43:31,000
Speaker 1: that I'm the number one Apple influencer, which is true.

890
00:43:31,480 --> 00:43:35,320
Speaker 1: And he does cartoons and he's written for Adam Ruins

891
00:43:35,360 --> 00:43:38,240
Speaker 1: everything a ton of he does stand up um. Apple

892
00:43:38,320 --> 00:43:41,279
Speaker 1: rankings is what it's called Apple rankings dot com and

893
00:43:41,360 --> 00:43:44,160
Speaker 1: it's a hilarious description of the best apples and the

894
00:43:44,160 --> 00:43:45,920
Speaker 1: worst apples and he ranks them all. So if you

895
00:43:45,960 --> 00:43:49,360
Speaker 1: want to check out Apple Rankings. But anyway, Brian, I

896
00:43:49,680 --> 00:43:53,960
Speaker 1: posted it and he goes, um um. This was a

897
00:43:54,000 --> 00:43:55,920
Speaker 1: seminal work in the program I did to deal with

898
00:43:56,000 --> 00:43:59,120
Speaker 1: recurring symptoms. It's also definitely in the Sarno Realms. Dr

899
00:43:59,480 --> 00:44:01,160
Speaker 1: you know John starting to Know the back doctor that

900
00:44:01,360 --> 00:44:03,200
Speaker 1: has the book Healing Back Pain. If you have a

901
00:44:03,239 --> 00:44:05,319
Speaker 1: friend that is suffering with back pain, send them that

902
00:44:05,400 --> 00:44:07,839
Speaker 1: book and their back pain will go away. And he said,

903
00:44:07,880 --> 00:44:10,560
Speaker 1: And I can think almost everyone can benefit from this perspective,

904
00:44:10,600 --> 00:44:13,440
Speaker 1: but all depends what your goals are. And um, so

905
00:44:13,600 --> 00:44:17,760
Speaker 1: I'm reading this book and it's blowing my god damn mind.

906
00:44:18,280 --> 00:44:21,560
Speaker 1: Because we were talking about prayer before. So I've always

907
00:44:21,560 --> 00:44:24,239
Speaker 1: been like, I just got into praying, like when I

908
00:44:24,280 --> 00:44:26,880
Speaker 1: got in eating sort of recovery about like choosing a

909
00:44:26,920 --> 00:44:29,279
Speaker 1: god of my own understanding, higher power type thing, and

910
00:44:29,320 --> 00:44:30,759
Speaker 1: I didn't really know what it was, but I just

911
00:44:30,840 --> 00:44:32,719
Speaker 1: knew that when I did pray and I asked God

912
00:44:32,719 --> 00:44:35,520
Speaker 1: for help or ask God like I remember doing Bill

913
00:44:35,560 --> 00:44:37,719
Speaker 1: Maher and being so nervous about it on backstage, and

914
00:44:37,719 --> 00:44:39,799
Speaker 1: I was just like, and I've never done things like this,

915
00:44:39,840 --> 00:44:42,960
Speaker 1: but I was just like, God, will you please be

916
00:44:43,160 --> 00:44:45,040
Speaker 1: with me during this whatever that means. And I'm not

917
00:44:45,480 --> 00:44:48,000
Speaker 1: a religious person at all, and so but it just

918
00:44:48,040 --> 00:44:50,480
Speaker 1: helps me and I just I've seen the benefits of it.

919
00:44:50,640 --> 00:44:52,839
Speaker 1: But this book has made me realize the science behind

920
00:44:52,880 --> 00:44:56,759
Speaker 1: it because it's talking about quantum physics this book, and now, Adams,

921
00:44:56,880 --> 00:45:00,400
Speaker 1: I don't know anything about quantum things, what quantums was,

922
00:45:01,040 --> 00:45:04,239
Speaker 1: and this is obviously the dumbest person that could ever

923
00:45:04,280 --> 00:45:05,640
Speaker 1: be telling you about it, what it is. But what

924
00:45:05,680 --> 00:45:08,080
Speaker 1: I've learned from this is that atoms used to be

925
00:45:08,120 --> 00:45:11,000
Speaker 1: thought of as you know, the atoms that make up matter.

926
00:45:11,520 --> 00:45:14,960
Speaker 1: We're all thought of as material, and then there's energy

927
00:45:15,040 --> 00:45:16,960
Speaker 1: in the world and there's material, and atoms are all

928
00:45:17,000 --> 00:45:20,040
Speaker 1: just material. Once you zoom in, there's like a physical

929
00:45:20,120 --> 00:45:22,480
Speaker 1: thing that you can see. But what they found was

930
00:45:22,560 --> 00:45:25,600
Speaker 1: that the atom would only show up where you wanted

931
00:45:25,640 --> 00:45:27,640
Speaker 1: to see it. So it was a ball of energy

932
00:45:27,680 --> 00:45:30,520
Speaker 1: that would be invisible unless you you focused on a

933
00:45:30,600 --> 00:45:32,400
Speaker 1: certain part and then it would show up. So it

934
00:45:32,520 --> 00:45:36,640
Speaker 1: showed that when you give your focus, your attention as

935
00:45:36,680 --> 00:45:39,920
Speaker 1: a human being, your consciousness, you give your focus to something,

936
00:45:40,400 --> 00:45:44,279
Speaker 1: you can materialize matter that is not there and it's

937
00:45:44,320 --> 00:45:46,480
Speaker 1: just an energy, and you can materialize things happening. And

938
00:45:46,480 --> 00:45:48,920
Speaker 1: this is really tapping into like why the secret works,

939
00:45:49,200 --> 00:45:54,360
Speaker 1: why it might be is it I've never seen it?

940
00:45:55,719 --> 00:45:59,160
Speaker 1: Oh yes, yes, do you see the atom? You see

941
00:45:59,160 --> 00:46:02,000
Speaker 1: the energy when you when you focus on it, when

942
00:46:02,040 --> 00:46:05,200
Speaker 1: you look for it, if you feel God. So this

943
00:46:05,280 --> 00:46:06,560
Speaker 1: is the point he makes. And I'm just in the

944
00:46:06,560 --> 00:46:09,400
Speaker 1: first chapter, but when it talks about not I'm in

945
00:46:09,400 --> 00:46:11,920
Speaker 1: the second chapter actually, but he explains quantum physics. He's like,

946
00:46:12,000 --> 00:46:14,879
Speaker 1: let me just give you a cursory explanation to get

947
00:46:14,880 --> 00:46:17,160
Speaker 1: you on board. But what he his point is is

948
00:46:17,200 --> 00:46:21,360
Speaker 1: that they didn't experiment back in the like this random

949
00:46:21,360 --> 00:46:25,840
Speaker 1: experiment where they had people pray for patients that had sepsis.

950
00:46:25,840 --> 00:46:28,600
Speaker 1: In this hospital. They were like hundreds of patients with sepsis,

951
00:46:28,640 --> 00:46:31,720
Speaker 1: which is like a you know, once your your blood starts.

952
00:46:31,760 --> 00:46:33,560
Speaker 1: I don't know what it is, but it's like a

953
00:46:33,560 --> 00:46:36,919
Speaker 1: bacterial thing and you can die from it. And these

954
00:46:36,920 --> 00:46:39,479
Speaker 1: people they had to pray um. There was a group

955
00:46:39,520 --> 00:46:43,400
Speaker 1: of people that they they these emotionally like really positive

956
00:46:43,400 --> 00:46:45,680
Speaker 1: people prayed, and then they had these other people that

957
00:46:45,680 --> 00:46:47,959
Speaker 1: were agnostic of emotion, just didn't really believe in prayer,

958
00:46:48,000 --> 00:46:49,640
Speaker 1: and they had them prayer say the same kind of prayer.

959
00:46:50,080 --> 00:46:52,880
Speaker 1: And the interesting thing about this is that the people

960
00:46:52,920 --> 00:46:56,080
Speaker 1: that got prayed for um got better a lot sooner.

961
00:46:56,560 --> 00:46:58,239
Speaker 1: They both died at the same kind of rate, but

962
00:46:58,280 --> 00:47:01,760
Speaker 1: the ones they recovered sooner, the ones that did recover,

963
00:47:01,880 --> 00:47:03,480
Speaker 1: we're the ones that were prayed for. Did they know

964
00:47:03,600 --> 00:47:07,360
Speaker 1: that pray for? No, Because the interesting part is is

965
00:47:07,400 --> 00:47:11,839
Speaker 1: that these patients were from like hundreds of years ago.

966
00:47:12,280 --> 00:47:14,840
Speaker 1: They chose patients to pray for from the past, and

967
00:47:14,840 --> 00:47:16,319
Speaker 1: these people did not know they were praying for people

968
00:47:16,320 --> 00:47:18,319
Speaker 1: in the past. So it is an example of that

969
00:47:18,640 --> 00:47:21,520
Speaker 1: your energy can not only the energy you give towards something.

970
00:47:21,800 --> 00:47:25,160
Speaker 1: If you have both intention emotional intention, like you want something,

971
00:47:25,160 --> 00:47:27,759
Speaker 1: but you also have the motion behind it, um you

972
00:47:27,800 --> 00:47:31,280
Speaker 1: can change the past and future. You can affect both things.

973
00:47:31,880 --> 00:47:35,120
Speaker 1: It's really like out there and crazy, but it is

974
00:47:35,160 --> 00:47:38,960
Speaker 1: about if you It's about manifestation really and the science

975
00:47:38,960 --> 00:47:41,200
Speaker 1: behind it. Because I've always been like, so too, will

976
00:47:41,239 --> 00:47:47,840
Speaker 1: will this manifestation for people that have already died, and

977
00:47:47,920 --> 00:47:50,960
Speaker 1: it's gonna affect change. It's not gonna change the past,

978
00:47:51,040 --> 00:47:54,600
Speaker 1: but the past will be affected by it somehow because

979
00:47:55,560 --> 00:47:58,080
Speaker 1: because the past and present and future are all one thing,

980
00:47:58,120 --> 00:48:00,239
Speaker 1: they've already all happened in some way because as of

981
00:48:00,280 --> 00:48:04,320
Speaker 1: determinism or so it's it's almost as if those patients

982
00:48:04,960 --> 00:48:07,600
Speaker 1: were affected by the future because the future had already

983
00:48:07,600 --> 00:48:11,000
Speaker 1: actually happened in another dimension. So what it is is

984
00:48:11,040 --> 00:48:13,120
Speaker 1: that your life, the way you want it to be,

985
00:48:13,480 --> 00:48:16,279
Speaker 1: or whatever you see for yourself, there's some dimension where

986
00:48:16,280 --> 00:48:19,439
Speaker 1: that's happening. All you have to do is focus on

987
00:48:19,560 --> 00:48:21,680
Speaker 1: that and you will see it. Much like they see

988
00:48:21,960 --> 00:48:25,040
Speaker 1: uh particles in these atoms once they focus on it.

989
00:48:25,040 --> 00:48:27,480
Speaker 1: It's not there until they focus on it. So if

990
00:48:27,560 --> 00:48:30,399
Speaker 1: you So he talks about his daughter, telling his daughter like,

991
00:48:30,640 --> 00:48:32,520
Speaker 1: what do you want for your life? Like what's what

992
00:48:32,560 --> 00:48:34,600
Speaker 1: are you looking to have? And she's like, oh, this

993
00:48:34,640 --> 00:48:36,239
Speaker 1: summer I want to like you know, I want to

994
00:48:36,239 --> 00:48:38,480
Speaker 1: spend six weeks in Italy. I want to work there.

995
00:48:38,560 --> 00:48:40,360
Speaker 1: I want to make money while I do it. And

996
00:48:40,360 --> 00:48:42,000
Speaker 1: he's like, okay, well you know what you need to do,

997
00:48:42,080 --> 00:48:43,840
Speaker 1: Like she's his daughter and he's been talking about this

998
00:48:43,840 --> 00:48:47,120
Speaker 1: for years and so she I don't know the exact

999
00:48:47,280 --> 00:48:48,640
Speaker 1: He's going to teach you how to do it. But

1000
00:48:49,520 --> 00:48:52,240
Speaker 1: you have to envision your life. You have to like meditate.

1001
00:48:52,280 --> 00:48:54,680
Speaker 1: I'm guessing this is what happens. You meditate on what

1002
00:48:54,719 --> 00:48:57,200
Speaker 1: you want, and you have to not just think about

1003
00:48:57,200 --> 00:48:59,719
Speaker 1: your future self doing it. You have to actually think

1004
00:48:59,760 --> 00:49:01,919
Speaker 1: you've done it. You have to be someone that lived

1005
00:49:01,920 --> 00:49:03,480
Speaker 1: in Italy. You have to and you have to be

1006
00:49:03,560 --> 00:49:05,680
Speaker 1: grateful for something that hasn't even happened yet and be

1007
00:49:05,719 --> 00:49:07,880
Speaker 1: like I'm so glad I get to live in Italy.

1008
00:49:08,280 --> 00:49:10,279
Speaker 1: And if you can get to that place where you

1009
00:49:10,400 --> 00:49:12,960
Speaker 1: actually the thing you want to manifest, you actually believe

1010
00:49:13,040 --> 00:49:16,520
Speaker 1: for yourself, you can put into action all these things.

1011
00:49:16,520 --> 00:49:18,960
Speaker 1: And I think it's one of the reasons that I

1012
00:49:19,000 --> 00:49:23,480
Speaker 1: have been successful in in comedy is because it never

1013
00:49:23,680 --> 00:49:26,600
Speaker 1: was something I didn't I knew it was gonna happen.

1014
00:49:26,800 --> 00:49:29,719
Speaker 1: I had the intention, the emotion behind it was congruent

1015
00:49:29,840 --> 00:49:32,200
Speaker 1: with my what I wanted. Because a lot of people

1016
00:49:32,239 --> 00:49:34,239
Speaker 1: want things and they go but secularly I can never

1017
00:49:34,280 --> 00:49:36,360
Speaker 1: have them, and you won't get them because it's not congruent.

1018
00:49:36,400 --> 00:49:39,479
Speaker 1: Your emotion and your intent needs to be the same.

1019
00:49:39,920 --> 00:49:44,400
Speaker 1: And I feel like I always knew I was going

1020
00:49:44,400 --> 00:49:47,880
Speaker 1: to be successful for some reason in entertainment. I just

1021
00:49:47,960 --> 00:49:50,400
Speaker 1: knew it, and I pictured it. I pictured being on stage.

1022
00:49:50,400 --> 00:49:53,400
Speaker 1: I envisioned it. I am like sang the song Lucky

1023
00:49:53,520 --> 00:49:56,640
Speaker 1: and imagine being Britney Spears and like singing that song

1024
00:49:56,680 --> 00:49:59,160
Speaker 1: and being like, she's so lucky, She's a stark but

1025
00:49:59,239 --> 00:50:03,680
Speaker 1: she cries, and I like it. I think even though

1026
00:50:03,719 --> 00:50:05,719
Speaker 1: I didn't know I was doing it, I was somehow

1027
00:50:05,880 --> 00:50:07,480
Speaker 1: late at night when I was sleeping in bed and

1028
00:50:07,560 --> 00:50:12,480
Speaker 1: imagining my future, I was giving my attention to a

1029
00:50:12,480 --> 00:50:16,279
Speaker 1: a quantum version of myself that wasn't there until I'd

1030
00:50:16,320 --> 00:50:19,200
Speaker 1: given him. There's there's a book that I read where

1031
00:50:19,360 --> 00:50:23,600
Speaker 1: high performing athletes talk about their strategy, like Olympic athletes

1032
00:50:23,640 --> 00:50:26,520
Speaker 1: and stuff, And you're reminding me of one. Um. I

1033
00:50:26,600 --> 00:50:29,160
Speaker 1: think it was a soccer player who was out for

1034
00:50:29,200 --> 00:50:33,520
Speaker 1: an injury or something, and um, he couldn't practice before

1035
00:50:33,880 --> 00:50:36,000
Speaker 1: they're you know, like I don't know what the big

1036
00:50:36,040 --> 00:50:40,840
Speaker 1: matches called, but he was saying that like match okay

1037
00:50:40,840 --> 00:50:44,240
Speaker 1: for the big, big match, the biggest meat of them all.

1038
00:50:44,680 --> 00:50:48,040
Speaker 1: And um, he was saying that he had to visualize

1039
00:50:48,120 --> 00:50:51,080
Speaker 1: down to the smell of the grass, like that's how

1040
00:50:51,800 --> 00:50:54,680
Speaker 1: deep the visualization went. And he would take maybe an

1041
00:50:54,680 --> 00:50:58,080
Speaker 1: hour to three hours every day and he would visualize

1042
00:50:58,080 --> 00:51:02,120
Speaker 1: the game him playing, and he like they have like

1043
00:51:02,160 --> 00:51:04,680
Speaker 1: the best game ever. His his performance was the best

1044
00:51:04,680 --> 00:51:09,120
Speaker 1: game ever. Yeah. I've always wondered why this prayer thing works,

1045
00:51:09,120 --> 00:51:12,319
Speaker 1: why manifestation works, and it's because there is science behind it.

1046
00:51:12,320 --> 00:51:15,680
Speaker 1: It's like this, this book is totally making me believe

1047
00:51:15,840 --> 00:51:17,560
Speaker 1: in a thing that I would have always thought was

1048
00:51:17,640 --> 00:51:21,759
Speaker 1: complete witchcraft. WHOI but I'm like, oh, if particles are

1049
00:51:21,800 --> 00:51:25,080
Speaker 1: only seen under a microscope, once the scientists looks at

1050
00:51:25,120 --> 00:51:28,880
Speaker 1: them and gives them the intention and the the attention

1051
00:51:28,880 --> 00:51:34,759
Speaker 1: and intention, then what there there's millions. There's infinite possibilities

1052
00:51:34,760 --> 00:51:36,400
Speaker 1: for what your life looks like, and they all are

1053
00:51:36,480 --> 00:51:39,160
Speaker 1: somewhere in a different dimension, and the only way that

1054
00:51:39,160 --> 00:51:41,480
Speaker 1: you're going to be able to like see those is

1055
00:51:41,560 --> 00:51:44,480
Speaker 1: to is to actually envision it. And he says that

1056
00:51:44,520 --> 00:51:46,360
Speaker 1: a lot of people are like, you know, they'll manifest

1057
00:51:46,440 --> 00:51:48,480
Speaker 1: wealth by being like I want to be wealthy, I

1058
00:51:48,520 --> 00:51:51,200
Speaker 1: want to invite money into my life. But secretly there's

1059
00:51:51,200 --> 00:51:54,080
Speaker 1: a part of them that goes, I don't. I'm not

1060
00:51:54,120 --> 00:51:56,680
Speaker 1: it's not gonna happen. It's not gonna happen. But if

1061
00:51:57,239 --> 00:52:00,480
Speaker 1: if you and I think that that's something that has

1062
00:52:00,520 --> 00:52:05,480
Speaker 1: held me back to is like wanting um a type

1063
00:52:05,480 --> 00:52:12,480
Speaker 1: of relationship, wanting um, you know, a relationship with myself.

1064
00:52:12,520 --> 00:52:14,640
Speaker 1: Even like projecting like what kind of woman I want

1065
00:52:14,680 --> 00:52:16,480
Speaker 1: to be, It's always like, yeah, I can get my

1066
00:52:16,520 --> 00:52:18,360
Speaker 1: household organized, but I'm still going to be like a

1067
00:52:18,400 --> 00:52:20,920
Speaker 1: stinky lady. And there's this part of me that's like,

1068
00:52:21,000 --> 00:52:23,520
Speaker 1: you don't deserve this. But if I just really work

1069
00:52:23,600 --> 00:52:25,560
Speaker 1: and read the rest of this book honestly to learn

1070
00:52:25,640 --> 00:52:29,319
Speaker 1: how to trick my brain and actually think that I

1071
00:52:29,400 --> 00:52:32,319
Speaker 1: have these things like I'm gonna I started last night,

1072
00:52:32,360 --> 00:52:35,920
Speaker 1: I started imagining myself performing at Madison Square Garden with

1073
00:52:35,960 --> 00:52:39,600
Speaker 1: a guitar, singing, and I'm like picturing the front row,

1074
00:52:39,880 --> 00:52:42,400
Speaker 1: picturing that I can't see hearing the roar, which is

1075
00:52:42,400 --> 00:52:46,759
Speaker 1: a total insane dream. But honestly it's not. It might

1076
00:52:46,800 --> 00:52:48,279
Speaker 1: be a might be a sound check for when I

1077
00:52:48,360 --> 00:52:50,319
Speaker 1: you can't stand up, there no stand up. I've already

1078
00:52:50,360 --> 00:52:52,920
Speaker 1: achieved what I want to, like, I'm good. Your first

1079
00:52:52,960 --> 00:52:58,520
Speaker 1: manifestation really should be manifesting finishing that book. If you do,

1080
00:52:59,400 --> 00:53:02,680
Speaker 1: then you're not hold on there. Okay, So how it's

1081
00:53:02,680 --> 00:53:05,160
Speaker 1: going to feel to turn the last page? Oh god,

1082
00:53:05,320 --> 00:53:08,680
Speaker 1: and see the I, S, T N number and barcode

1083
00:53:08,680 --> 00:53:13,440
Speaker 1: on the back. It is interesting to like, what separates

1084
00:53:13,480 --> 00:53:17,960
Speaker 1: someone from if they have equal ability? Yeah? How does

1085
00:53:18,000 --> 00:53:21,600
Speaker 1: that one person? And h like all these comedians we

1086
00:53:21,640 --> 00:53:25,600
Speaker 1: know that are so funny that just haven't made it

1087
00:53:25,800 --> 00:53:28,040
Speaker 1: and they deserve it as much as so many people

1088
00:53:28,080 --> 00:53:29,839
Speaker 1: that have made it, if not more, because of their

1089
00:53:29,880 --> 00:53:32,759
Speaker 1: skill level. And you go, what is it in part

1090
00:53:33,560 --> 00:53:36,400
Speaker 1: self doubt? Well, it self doubt. It's not believing in themselves.

1091
00:53:36,480 --> 00:53:38,879
Speaker 1: It's marketing. It's it's a lot of things other than

1092
00:53:38,960 --> 00:53:41,440
Speaker 1: just marketing, is believing in yourself and things. For sure,

1093
00:53:41,800 --> 00:53:43,880
Speaker 1: people deserve to see me. It's a lot of things.

1094
00:53:44,360 --> 00:53:46,360
Speaker 1: A lot of it comes down to luck, you know.

1095
00:53:46,400 --> 00:53:48,560
Speaker 1: It's the same thing with with musicians. How many how

1096
00:53:48,560 --> 00:53:51,920
Speaker 1: many musicians do you know that are just unbelievably talented.

1097
00:53:51,920 --> 00:53:54,600
Speaker 1: You can't believe how good they are. They're not even

1098
00:53:54,680 --> 00:53:57,840
Speaker 1: on a record YouTube. I watched people, do you know

1099
00:53:57,840 --> 00:54:00,920
Speaker 1: all google covers of certain songs. I'm like, this girl's voice,

1100
00:54:01,480 --> 00:54:04,000
Speaker 1: how is this not? It's better than Kerry's, better than

1101
00:54:04,080 --> 00:54:08,800
Speaker 1: Lady Gaga? Discouraged because I'm like, if I want to

1102
00:54:08,800 --> 00:54:10,480
Speaker 1: be a singer, what this girl is like not even

1103
00:54:10,520 --> 00:54:12,759
Speaker 1: trying in her bedroom? She's seventeen. White. But then I

1104
00:54:12,800 --> 00:54:16,120
Speaker 1: realized it's because all that we have talked about this before,

1105
00:54:16,280 --> 00:54:20,839
Speaker 1: like people like different sounding voices, like Noah likes roaring men.

1106
00:54:21,600 --> 00:54:23,040
Speaker 1: You know, she like what was the name of the

1107
00:54:23,040 --> 00:54:29,400
Speaker 1: band that you said yesterday? Lemons and maggots, maggots. We

1108
00:54:29,440 --> 00:54:33,360
Speaker 1: were talking about old um like the you know, the

1109
00:54:33,400 --> 00:54:36,919
Speaker 1: way they used to do surgery and stuff in during

1110
00:54:36,960 --> 00:54:39,520
Speaker 1: the you know, turn of the century whatever, back in

1111
00:54:39,560 --> 00:54:42,440
Speaker 1: the day. I think I think we live in a

1112
00:54:42,440 --> 00:54:45,600
Speaker 1: world now. If you are talented because of the Internet

1113
00:54:46,360 --> 00:54:49,160
Speaker 1: as a comedian, this is the best time ever for

1114
00:54:49,200 --> 00:54:54,000
Speaker 1: you to become uh a working comedian where you don't

1115
00:54:54,000 --> 00:54:57,239
Speaker 1: have to worry about getting five minutes on late night,

1116
00:54:57,360 --> 00:54:59,440
Speaker 1: you don't have to worry about getting thirty minutes. It's

1117
00:54:59,480 --> 00:55:03,400
Speaker 1: still those things can matter and it solidifies you. But

1118
00:55:03,440 --> 00:55:07,719
Speaker 1: if you see someone like uh Namash Patel, he's completely

1119
00:55:08,920 --> 00:55:12,160
Speaker 1: an Michael Malone who was at The Funny One this weekend, Chris.

1120
00:55:12,360 --> 00:55:14,319
Speaker 1: Chris is starting a podcast, and he sent me an

1121
00:55:14,320 --> 00:55:16,680
Speaker 1: episode that he and Tim did with do you name

1122
00:55:16,719 --> 00:55:19,040
Speaker 1: for your podcast yet? Mm hmm. I mean, I wanted

1123
00:55:19,040 --> 00:55:21,680
Speaker 1: to call it Breakfast for Dinner, but it's called to

1124
00:55:21,840 --> 00:55:24,680
Speaker 1: be called the Convey Brothers podcast. Breakfast for Dinner is

1125
00:55:24,719 --> 00:55:27,240
Speaker 1: so good though, but yes, it's like a little special,

1126
00:55:27,600 --> 00:55:33,279
Speaker 1: like exciting treat. But you're the episode you said me

1127
00:55:33,320 --> 00:55:35,439
Speaker 1: was so freaking good. It was with Michael Malone, who

1128
00:55:35,480 --> 00:55:37,719
Speaker 1: I really recommend checking out his stand up. He's someone

1129
00:55:37,800 --> 00:55:40,319
Speaker 1: who is also like not waiting for gatekeepers to like

1130
00:55:40,440 --> 00:55:42,000
Speaker 1: let give him a late night set, he said, for

1131
00:55:42,000 --> 00:55:45,279
Speaker 1: the first I've known him for twenty years almost maybe more.

1132
00:55:45,320 --> 00:55:46,960
Speaker 1: I don't even know at this point depending on what

1133
00:55:47,040 --> 00:55:51,640
Speaker 1: my ages today. And he said, um, last year was

1134
00:55:51,640 --> 00:55:53,399
Speaker 1: the first time in twenty years of doing standard they's

1135
00:55:53,400 --> 00:55:55,360
Speaker 1: submitted for a late night set and he's done it

1136
00:55:55,360 --> 00:55:58,160
Speaker 1: all himself. He has two specials out, one on Amazon Prime.

1137
00:55:58,239 --> 00:56:00,560
Speaker 1: One's called UM. The name is she was So Good?

1138
00:56:00,560 --> 00:56:03,919
Speaker 1: Do you remember what it was called life Laugh After Death? Yes,

1139
00:56:04,080 --> 00:56:09,480
Speaker 1: what a great name. Some serious tragedy. This weekend I

1140
00:56:09,480 --> 00:56:12,840
Speaker 1: was brought on stage at UM the Lady Journey podcast

1141
00:56:12,840 --> 00:56:15,080
Speaker 1: which will be up soon with Sarah Tollamash and um,

1142
00:56:15,160 --> 00:56:19,080
Speaker 1: Katie Hanagan? Is that Katie Hanagan? Right? And they brought

1143
00:56:19,080 --> 00:56:20,600
Speaker 1: me up and said, you know, check out our specially

1144
00:56:20,600 --> 00:56:22,399
Speaker 1: good clean field and I gotta laugh in the room

1145
00:56:22,520 --> 00:56:31,160
Speaker 1: that title. Final thought. Let's do um Reddit karaoke mode.

1146
00:56:31,840 --> 00:56:36,759
Speaker 1: This is your reddit, all right? So this is where

1147
00:56:36,760 --> 00:56:40,279
Speaker 1: I go through my reddit. Um. So this is from

1148
00:56:40,360 --> 00:56:42,360
Speaker 1: asked credit and it says what's a dark secret you

1149
00:56:42,440 --> 00:56:44,360
Speaker 1: want to get off your chest? And it has in

1150
00:56:44,719 --> 00:56:47,800
Speaker 1: brackets serious so serious replies only because sometimes people and

1151
00:56:47,880 --> 00:56:50,680
Speaker 1: read it always try to be funny. Um. Someone said

1152
00:56:50,920 --> 00:56:52,759
Speaker 1: when I was seven, I was home alone. I called

1153
00:56:52,840 --> 00:56:54,720
Speaker 1: nine one one due to a house fire. That consumed

1154
00:56:54,719 --> 00:56:57,040
Speaker 1: half the house and they found me outside my mother,

1155
00:56:57,440 --> 00:56:59,120
Speaker 1: who was at work. I was a latch key kid.

1156
00:56:59,480 --> 00:57:01,600
Speaker 1: Was told by fire department that it was an electrical fire.

1157
00:57:01,680 --> 00:57:04,160
Speaker 1: In truth, I had a lighter and was fascinated by fire.

1158
00:57:04,239 --> 00:57:05,800
Speaker 1: It was burning the little tassels at the end of

1159
00:57:05,840 --> 00:57:07,560
Speaker 1: the blanket on my bed, putting them out before it

1160
00:57:07,600 --> 00:57:09,560
Speaker 1: caught the whole blanket on fire until I wasn't able

1161
00:57:09,600 --> 00:57:13,080
Speaker 1: to and the whole bed caught fire. Um, I'm forty now.

1162
00:57:13,160 --> 00:57:14,759
Speaker 1: My mother still doesn't know the truth, and I still

1163
00:57:14,760 --> 00:57:16,880
Speaker 1: remember it all vividly, complete with the heat on my

1164
00:57:16,920 --> 00:57:18,720
Speaker 1: face as I tried in vain to put out the bed.

1165
00:57:19,040 --> 00:57:25,320
Speaker 1: WHOA did you so it's kind of your fire phase.

1166
00:57:25,800 --> 00:57:27,600
Speaker 1: Did you ever go through the phase where you take

1167
00:57:27,640 --> 00:57:30,920
Speaker 1: a lighter and you like just hold down the black

1168
00:57:31,000 --> 00:57:33,280
Speaker 1: button and all the gas comes out and then you

1169
00:57:33,360 --> 00:57:35,920
Speaker 1: light it like on your closer skin, remember we were

1170
00:57:35,960 --> 00:57:38,440
Speaker 1: doing Yes, don't do that, kid, Or you could put

1171
00:57:38,440 --> 00:57:39,960
Speaker 1: it in your hand, all the gas and then you

1172
00:57:40,080 --> 00:57:42,320
Speaker 1: light it and then you open your hand. Or did

1173
00:57:42,360 --> 00:57:44,800
Speaker 1: you ever have the girls that would hold the lighter

1174
00:57:44,840 --> 00:57:47,880
Speaker 1: and they hold it they tilted so the whole metal

1175
00:57:47,960 --> 00:57:50,400
Speaker 1: part got really hot and then they'd sinched their skin.

1176
00:57:50,440 --> 00:57:53,120
Speaker 1: It looked like a smiley face, like the tooth parts

1177
00:57:53,160 --> 00:57:55,720
Speaker 1: that you click you slide your fingers down. Those were

1178
00:57:55,720 --> 00:57:58,200
Speaker 1: the two eyes. They were like slits and then the

1179
00:57:58,320 --> 00:58:00,960
Speaker 1: little part where the flame comes out like a smiling face.

1180
00:58:01,240 --> 00:58:02,680
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, did you ever do that thing where it's

1181
00:58:02,680 --> 00:58:05,320
Speaker 1: like somebody's birthday and you put all these candles in

1182
00:58:05,360 --> 00:58:10,040
Speaker 1: a cake and then you just lit. Yeah, dude, that's weird. Yeah, well,

1183
00:58:10,040 --> 00:58:14,720
Speaker 1: no one ever celebrated his birthday. Oh that's what I

1184
00:58:14,720 --> 00:58:21,160
Speaker 1: would show me that later. Um. Once, someone said, I snort.

1185
00:58:21,320 --> 00:58:23,720
Speaker 1: I used to smoke matches. That was a dumb thing,

1186
00:58:24,040 --> 00:58:26,240
Speaker 1: like I would like to match and then it would

1187
00:58:26,760 --> 00:58:32,959
Speaker 1: that that ignite it. No, I would do it alone,

1188
00:58:33,000 --> 00:58:37,040
Speaker 1: wise on the shipter with my pants on the tennis

1189
00:58:37,040 --> 00:58:42,720
Speaker 1: ball container, hoping those take good with that's gotta be toxic. Um.

1190
00:58:42,760 --> 00:58:45,160
Speaker 1: This person said, I worked on SpongeBob square Pants The

1191
00:58:45,240 --> 00:58:47,520
Speaker 1: Yellow Avenger and know for a fact that the game

1192
00:58:47,560 --> 00:58:51,360
Speaker 1: cannot be completed on the DS version. Not my fault,

1193
00:58:51,400 --> 00:58:52,640
Speaker 1: but I hate that it shipped like that, and I

1194
00:58:52,640 --> 00:58:57,800
Speaker 1: feel sorry for anyone who seriously tries I like. Um.

1195
00:58:57,840 --> 00:59:00,760
Speaker 1: Someone said, I asked credit, what is the best non sexual,

1196
00:59:00,880 --> 00:59:04,240
Speaker 1: non drug related physical sensation you've ever experienced. And this

1197
00:59:04,280 --> 00:59:06,400
Speaker 1: is a question I'd like us all to try to answer,

1198
00:59:06,880 --> 00:59:11,840
Speaker 1: non drug, non sexual related physical sensation you've ever experienced.

1199
00:59:12,200 --> 00:59:13,800
Speaker 1: Someone said, when you're a kid and you play in

1200
00:59:13,840 --> 00:59:15,280
Speaker 1: the pool or in the ocean all day, and you

1201
00:59:15,360 --> 00:59:18,440
Speaker 1: come home and get a shower, uh, and go to

1202
00:59:18,440 --> 00:59:20,280
Speaker 1: your room and the air conditioning has been running. You've

1203
00:59:20,280 --> 00:59:22,280
Speaker 1: been playing all day in our exhausted your skin is tight,

1204
00:59:22,520 --> 00:59:24,040
Speaker 1: kind of tight for being in the sun and water.

1205
00:59:24,160 --> 00:59:25,840
Speaker 1: Your eyes are tired from squinting. And you get in

1206
00:59:25,840 --> 00:59:27,560
Speaker 1: your nice cool bed and curl up and take a

1207
00:59:27,600 --> 00:59:30,880
Speaker 1: post pool slash beach nap. That's good. That reminded me

1208
00:59:30,920 --> 00:59:33,080
Speaker 1: of have you ever got gone to a it's been

1209
00:59:33,120 --> 00:59:34,600
Speaker 1: playing in the ocean all day, or gone to an

1210
00:59:34,600 --> 00:59:36,440
Speaker 1: amusement park, and then you come home that night, you

1211
00:59:36,480 --> 00:59:40,040
Speaker 1: go to bed and you can feel like like the

1212
00:59:40,120 --> 00:59:43,160
Speaker 1: sensation of being in the waves. Sometimes if I think

1213
00:59:43,160 --> 00:59:46,960
Speaker 1: about our relationship and that night, it feels exactly like

1214
00:59:47,120 --> 00:59:50,919
Speaker 1: being on a roller coaster all day long. Um. Someone said,

1215
00:59:51,000 --> 00:59:52,400
Speaker 1: laughing at a really good joke is one of the

1216
00:59:52,440 --> 00:59:54,240
Speaker 1: best feelings in the world. And I gotta say, like,

1217
00:59:54,800 --> 00:59:57,080
Speaker 1: we went to the comedy club on Friday night to

1218
00:59:57,080 --> 01:00:01,080
Speaker 1: see Dan Mints. I quoted some of his jokes yesterday's episode.

1219
01:00:01,120 --> 01:00:04,400
Speaker 1: But what was one of your favorites do you remember? Yeah,

1220
01:00:04,440 --> 01:00:06,760
Speaker 1: I mean the cub Scout Well, the Satan one was

1221
01:00:06,760 --> 01:00:08,920
Speaker 1: probably one of my will you say it? Yeah it was.

1222
01:00:09,600 --> 01:00:12,560
Speaker 1: He said, you know, he's he's doing one liner, so

1223
01:00:12,600 --> 01:00:15,240
Speaker 1: he's just going, you know, bam bam bam right through

1224
01:00:15,280 --> 01:00:18,240
Speaker 1: him and he goes, I'm probably gonna go to hell

1225
01:00:18,320 --> 01:00:21,480
Speaker 1: for this next one. He goes, I pledge my undying

1226
01:00:21,520 --> 01:00:26,640
Speaker 1: loyalty to Satan and then will you help me with

1227
01:00:26,640 --> 01:00:29,160
Speaker 1: the cub Scout one? Yeah, a pack of day Habit

1228
01:00:29,720 --> 01:00:35,720
Speaker 1: is really disgusting, especially if you're pedophile cup Scout leader. Yeah, yeah,

1229
01:00:35,840 --> 01:00:39,360
Speaker 1: is that it? And something like that? Um yeah, I

1230
01:00:39,440 --> 01:00:42,960
Speaker 1: just it was so nice to laugh so hard. And

1231
01:00:43,000 --> 01:00:46,080
Speaker 1: I had been really depressed that day and almost thought

1232
01:00:46,120 --> 01:00:48,800
Speaker 1: about bailing on the whole night because I was like,

1233
01:00:48,800 --> 01:00:51,200
Speaker 1: I just don't feel like even being forced to laugh

1234
01:00:51,240 --> 01:00:53,360
Speaker 1: because it's not going to work. And man, it helped.

1235
01:00:53,600 --> 01:00:55,240
Speaker 1: It was so good. What do you guys think of

1236
01:00:55,320 --> 01:00:57,480
Speaker 1: a physical sensation that feels good that isn't sex or

1237
01:00:58,640 --> 01:01:01,520
Speaker 1: I gotta not to brag, but you know, spend some

1238
01:01:01,600 --> 01:01:05,160
Speaker 1: time in Paris and I got my hair was very

1239
01:01:05,200 --> 01:01:08,320
Speaker 1: long and curly and disgusting, and the person that cut

1240
01:01:08,360 --> 01:01:11,880
Speaker 1: my hair, I'd never have gotten a head massage from

1241
01:01:12,280 --> 01:01:15,919
Speaker 1: hairstylist before, and I didn't even know they do that,

1242
01:01:16,200 --> 01:01:18,360
Speaker 1: And this girl did it for forty minutes, and it

1243
01:01:18,480 --> 01:01:20,560
Speaker 1: was like, do you ever Brinish give you one? You

1244
01:01:20,560 --> 01:01:23,360
Speaker 1: should ask for forty minutes? Yeah, I should probably do

1245
01:01:23,400 --> 01:01:25,880
Speaker 1: it for well, there is a place in St. Louis

1246
01:01:25,920 --> 01:01:30,840
Speaker 1: that does do it called Lady Jane that sounds like

1247
01:01:30,920 --> 01:01:34,600
Speaker 1: you might get other head They don't, they don't cut

1248
01:01:34,600 --> 01:01:37,120
Speaker 1: your hair, but no, but a head missage that had

1249
01:01:37,160 --> 01:01:40,880
Speaker 1: massage I still think about today because you know, I

1250
01:01:40,920 --> 01:01:43,320
Speaker 1: never got one before and it was just it was

1251
01:01:43,360 --> 01:01:46,120
Speaker 1: so much longer than it should have been. Yeah, did

1252
01:01:46,120 --> 01:01:48,680
Speaker 1: you like almost feel afterwards like I feel after a

1253
01:01:48,720 --> 01:01:52,080
Speaker 1: massage sometimes where I'm like, are you gonna call me? Like?

1254
01:01:52,160 --> 01:01:54,360
Speaker 1: Did you feel like almost an attachment? That was like

1255
01:01:54,560 --> 01:01:56,960
Speaker 1: sad that I knew that that would never happen again

1256
01:01:56,960 --> 01:01:59,680
Speaker 1: in America. In America, yeah, that I would have to

1257
01:01:59,720 --> 01:02:03,120
Speaker 1: move to France and learned French. Do you have my

1258
01:02:03,160 --> 01:02:06,000
Speaker 1: wife is the only one I've been with. Oh, yeah,

1259
01:02:06,080 --> 01:02:10,760
Speaker 1: I said that yesterday. Did did you do the My

1260
01:02:10,840 --> 01:02:15,760
Speaker 1: wife died? My wife died snorkeling when we were in

1261
01:02:15,760 --> 01:02:20,000
Speaker 1: the Bahamas. She died doing what she loved, ruining my vacations.

1262
01:02:22,400 --> 01:02:24,640
Speaker 1: That was perfect. I forgot that one. Yeah, I mean

1263
01:02:24,800 --> 01:02:28,280
Speaker 1: one of For me, it's rides like I do legitimately

1264
01:02:28,280 --> 01:02:30,760
Speaker 1: love roller coasters and like, you know this is going

1265
01:02:30,800 --> 01:02:35,560
Speaker 1: to sound like I do, like, oh, going going fast

1266
01:02:36,200 --> 01:02:38,800
Speaker 1: down a hill on a bike is one of the

1267
01:02:38,840 --> 01:02:43,080
Speaker 1: greatest feelings that I currently get to have. And then skydiving.

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Speaker 1: I know that that one's like probably pretty obvious, but

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Speaker 1: also like that feeling of being like a little bit

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Speaker 1: weightless while you're riding. Scuba diving, Yeah, scuba diving was

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Speaker 1: an insane feeling. It was. It wasn't as physically like

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Speaker 1: I don't put it up there with like sex and

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Speaker 1: um what was the other one that drugs in terms

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Speaker 1: of like but or like something you fork, but it

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Speaker 1: was there was just a stillness about it that it

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Speaker 1: was me. It was my first glimpse into what like meditation,

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Speaker 1: meditation could be for me. The other one is that

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Speaker 1: feeling you get when you're during Christmas, when you're cutting

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Speaker 1: wrapping paper and all of a sudden, the scissors, Yeah,

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Speaker 1: just smooth. That was so good mine is probably that

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01:03:27,640 --> 01:03:29,640
Speaker 1: is a nice thing when you cut once and then

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Speaker 1: you slash. My grandma like doing tickies on my back

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Speaker 1: of like gentle, like laying across her stomach in my twenties. No, um,

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Speaker 1: my grandpa rubbing my back was just gentle with her fingers.

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Speaker 1: And then she would draw animals and I would have

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01:03:44,960 --> 01:03:46,840
Speaker 1: to guess what they are and that is like. That

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Speaker 1: to me was like it's been a good artist. How

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Speaker 1: can you tell between a dog and account Well, you

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Speaker 1: can do like it has a long neck. And then

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Speaker 1: I was doing it to your nephews the other day

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Speaker 1: and they loved it. I was like so excited to

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Speaker 1: play this game and they were like dum and it's

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Speaker 1: so cute. I was like having a trouble coming up

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Speaker 1: with animals that kids would know. My mom did this

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Speaker 1: thing I loved where she would take your chin and

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Speaker 1: pull a hair off like that, do it relax with

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Speaker 1: your teeth. Oh that's fine, that is good. You don't

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Speaker 1: really realize how much tension you have in your face,

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Speaker 1: and like right here, if you just go like this,

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Speaker 1: for a three psychego oh, I've been holding on something

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Speaker 1: from twenty years ago right here? Yes, like it's kind

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Speaker 1: of wild. He's like, I don't know, No, what's something

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Speaker 1: you fork for you? Well, you guys are giving such

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Speaker 1: like thoughtful sweet answers. And the thing that I could

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Speaker 1: think of is, it's so stupid. It's when you choke

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Speaker 1: some fool out on the mats. No, but I don't

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Speaker 1: know if anyone's ever done ear candling. Oh yeah, okay,

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01:04:53,600 --> 01:04:55,840
Speaker 1: so you do ear candling and it takes the wax

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Speaker 1: out of your ears. Some people don't believe it does,

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Speaker 1: but for me it does. Then you take a Q tip,

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Speaker 1: you take some of the cotton off, I know you

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01:05:03,720 --> 01:05:07,280
Speaker 1: don't like cotton separation, and then you stick the Q

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Speaker 1: tip inside so far in that you're like touching the

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Speaker 1: bone and coming it very gently, and it feels amazing.

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Speaker 1: It's you for like the song lyrics to us your

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Speaker 1: favorite Yeah wait you honestly no, that's so. And I'm

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Speaker 1: supposed to put it a Q tipin with the cotton.

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Speaker 1: You take it off, pull of it off. You just

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Speaker 1: make it a little thinner so it goes all the

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Speaker 1: way and oh my god, bunch of gunk on there. Um,

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01:05:37,400 --> 01:05:40,080
Speaker 1: it's not really gunk, but it's just like it touches

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Speaker 1: this very sensitive part of the ear and it's almost orgasmic.

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Speaker 1: I I know what you're talking about. And there's there's

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Speaker 1: certain feelings that having my feet rubbed in a certain

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Speaker 1: way a s MR also for me was a huge

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Speaker 1: like orgasmic feeling. Um. This was a funny UM I

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Speaker 1: guess tweet from Suspiciously Specific, which is one of my favorites,

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Speaker 1: and it says asparagus grows like it's trying to prank

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Speaker 1: some idiot into thinking this is how asparagus grows. It

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Speaker 1: looks like just stalks sticking out of the ground. Just

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Speaker 1: poked them in the ground, like you know, you're putting

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Speaker 1: down a tent. Yes. Um, and then wait, I'm sorry

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Speaker 1: you lost my place. So asparagus isn't like on a

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Speaker 1: tree or anything. That's yeah, I mean what was that?

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Speaker 1: Does asparagus make your pe smell very easily? No it doesn't.

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Speaker 1: But it's a different gene. This was something I think

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Speaker 1: I did on read at one time. It's a different gene.

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Speaker 1: It's a um to be able to smell asparagus. P

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Speaker 1: And then to also have your p affected by asparagus.

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Speaker 1: So some people can smell their own asparagus P. Some

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01:06:48,360 --> 01:06:50,560
Speaker 1: people have asparagus pe smell and can't smell it, and

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01:06:50,640 --> 01:06:53,880
Speaker 1: some people have neither. And I don't know which I am,

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01:06:53,960 --> 01:06:56,920
Speaker 1: because you wouldn't know if you're no one's ever smelling

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Speaker 1: my asparagus P except me, and if I don't, I

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01:06:58,880 --> 01:07:01,360
Speaker 1: definitely don't have the gene. H you could smell it,

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01:07:02,200 --> 01:07:03,440
Speaker 1: or maybe I do and I just don't have it.

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Speaker 1: You don't know. Did you find any fun tweets or anything?

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01:07:06,160 --> 01:07:07,960
Speaker 1: I found one that I liked this. I found this

1349
01:07:07,960 --> 01:07:13,480
Speaker 1: onement earlier today from Isabel Steckle says whenever I whenever

1350
01:07:13,520 --> 01:07:16,080
Speaker 1: I switched sleep positions, I'm like, this one's going to

1351
01:07:16,160 --> 01:07:21,240
Speaker 1: be huge for me. It's so true. I was having

1352
01:07:21,280 --> 01:07:24,080
Speaker 1: restless leg last night and I was like, fight it.

1353
01:07:24,480 --> 01:07:26,640
Speaker 1: See what happens when you fight it and you just

1354
01:07:26,680 --> 01:07:29,600
Speaker 1: go You're not going to die, there's nothing like and

1355
01:07:29,680 --> 01:07:32,480
Speaker 1: just try to detach. I was almost getting meditative about it,

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01:07:32,480 --> 01:07:34,680
Speaker 1: where I'm like, you don't have a body, just late like,

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Speaker 1: observe the pain that's going on in your leg instead

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01:07:37,560 --> 01:07:39,080
Speaker 1: of trying to make it go away. Just like be

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01:07:39,200 --> 01:07:41,400
Speaker 1: curious about it, like a panic attack, and it actually

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01:07:41,400 --> 01:07:43,760
Speaker 1: made them go away because it was it was keeping

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01:07:43,760 --> 01:07:45,959
Speaker 1: me up. I couldn't stop. Every so often it would

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01:07:45,960 --> 01:07:49,760
Speaker 1: just be this tingling that was like change positions. Just

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01:07:50,600 --> 01:07:53,760
Speaker 1: I get foot pain. And what helps me is connecting.

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01:07:54,680 --> 01:07:56,440
Speaker 1: You know, when you sleep, your feet are kind of

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01:07:56,480 --> 01:07:58,920
Speaker 1: like they're not touching the bet. Your bottom of your

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01:07:58,960 --> 01:08:01,360
Speaker 1: feet are never touching the bet. It. But if you

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01:08:01,400 --> 01:08:03,920
Speaker 1: can connect your feet to the bed, you can feel

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Speaker 1: more I don't know, they'red and more grounded. But I

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01:08:07,600 --> 01:08:09,360
Speaker 1: sleep on my stomach, so that's going to be hard.

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Speaker 1: You sleep when you're back, No, I sleep sometimes if

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Speaker 1: I want to ground my feet, I'll go it. So

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Speaker 1: I'm sleeping like this and then I'll just go like that.

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Speaker 1: Have you heard of ground not your kids, where you

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01:08:20,840 --> 01:08:23,160
Speaker 1: lay on the earth and like become one with like

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Speaker 1: the soil and you try to get you take your shoes,

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01:08:25,439 --> 01:08:29,080
Speaker 1: your your socks off and feel the grass and your toe. Yeah,

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01:08:29,200 --> 01:08:31,320
Speaker 1: and it's supposed to help you. There's something to do

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01:08:31,400 --> 01:08:33,800
Speaker 1: it when you garden and your shirts off. Yeah, I

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01:08:33,840 --> 01:08:35,880
Speaker 1: said on a tree the other day, like it's it's

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01:08:36,000 --> 01:08:38,559
Speaker 1: rates in this Boston park and it was so like

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01:08:39,720 --> 01:08:41,960
Speaker 1: peaceful to like sit on this tree and be like

1382
01:08:42,479 --> 01:08:44,479
Speaker 1: connected to it. Yeah, I get that. It was like

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01:08:44,520 --> 01:08:46,200
Speaker 1: a little chair on this tree and I just sat

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01:08:46,240 --> 01:08:48,439
Speaker 1: in it and it was just like I am. I

1385
01:08:48,439 --> 01:08:51,040
Speaker 1: felt like Pocahontas. But there are tons of studies that

1386
01:08:51,040 --> 01:08:53,120
Speaker 1: are like being out in nature right now, Like a

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01:08:53,200 --> 01:08:55,640
Speaker 1: park in Boston isn't necessarily nature, but I felt like it.

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01:08:55,840 --> 01:09:00,360
Speaker 1: Being in nature is like huge for our mental health,

1389
01:09:00,640 --> 01:09:02,600
Speaker 1: I know, and it's it's I was talking to a

1390
01:09:02,640 --> 01:09:05,080
Speaker 1: depressed person last night who is probably listening to the

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01:09:05,080 --> 01:09:08,639
Speaker 1: podcast shout out to tell um he also runs depressed,

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Speaker 1: and we I was suffering really a lot in the

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01:09:10,960 --> 01:09:13,880
Speaker 1: past like five days with it, and he was he

1394
01:09:13,960 --> 01:09:15,760
Speaker 1: was too, and I was like, dude, the thing that

1395
01:09:15,840 --> 01:09:18,920
Speaker 1: has helped me so much is like just going and

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Speaker 1: first of all, getting my dog here from my parents,

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01:09:22,000 --> 01:09:24,160
Speaker 1: because it forces me to go outside and walk him,

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01:09:24,360 --> 01:09:26,240
Speaker 1: like a walk around the fucking block. And I know

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01:09:26,280 --> 01:09:28,120
Speaker 1: that depressed people are like, I can't even do that.

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01:09:28,160 --> 01:09:31,360
Speaker 1: I know you can't, But if you can just go

1401
01:09:31,439 --> 01:09:34,400
Speaker 1: outside for like thirty seconds and get some fucking sun,

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01:09:35,040 --> 01:09:39,000
Speaker 1: it's so it's something, man, it does something. I gotta

1403
01:09:39,040 --> 01:09:40,600
Speaker 1: be in nature more and you gotta force me to

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01:09:40,640 --> 01:09:45,800
Speaker 1: do it, babe, because no problem. Glaze ch is a

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01:09:45,800 --> 01:09:47,559
Speaker 1: whole list of things to do when we're quiet. Oh

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01:09:47,600 --> 01:09:50,640
Speaker 1: it's a jam. You can literally walk a half a

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01:09:50,680 --> 01:09:55,280
Speaker 1: mile and you could be complete, silence complete. I was

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01:09:56,120 --> 01:09:58,840
Speaker 1: in the middle of this field on Saturday at five

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01:09:58,840 --> 01:10:02,000
Speaker 1: o'clock and I'm not thing you around me. I did

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01:10:02,000 --> 01:10:04,640
Speaker 1: a panorama shop because it was like we could have

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01:10:04,680 --> 01:10:07,639
Speaker 1: filmed an end of the world seen there, because there

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01:10:07,720 --> 01:10:12,280
Speaker 1: was no one at five o'clock on a Saturday in August.

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01:10:12,800 --> 01:10:15,639
Speaker 1: It was like and I it was probably a quarter

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01:10:15,680 --> 01:10:17,640
Speaker 1: mile I could see around me and there wasn't a

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01:10:17,680 --> 01:10:20,800
Speaker 1: single soul, and it was I talked to God out

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01:10:20,840 --> 01:10:22,960
Speaker 1: there like I was talking to birds. I was like

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01:10:23,000 --> 01:10:24,960
Speaker 1: I could scream in a way that I couldn't even

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01:10:25,000 --> 01:10:27,920
Speaker 1: scream in my apartment. Um, and then I got scared

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01:10:27,920 --> 01:10:29,400
Speaker 1: about getting raped because I was like, no one, what

1420
01:10:29,479 --> 01:10:31,920
Speaker 1: do you're making So that I ran home. But people

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01:10:31,920 --> 01:10:34,680
Speaker 1: probably live because that's not a lot of your best

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01:10:34,720 --> 01:10:37,000
Speaker 1: seas live in St. Louis necessarily, But people probably live

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01:10:37,000 --> 01:10:40,400
Speaker 1: in places that they've never explored. Their biggest park in

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01:10:40,400 --> 01:10:43,840
Speaker 1: their city, like you know St. Louis park is amazing,

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01:10:43,880 --> 01:10:45,920
Speaker 1: but I'm sure there's parks nearer people that they should

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01:10:45,920 --> 01:10:48,360
Speaker 1: just go check out. There's there's like national parks close

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01:10:48,400 --> 01:10:51,519
Speaker 1: to people, and like even more local parks. Just walking

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Speaker 1: through those paths. They're all over the country, listening to

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01:10:55,160 --> 01:10:57,639
Speaker 1: the like taking your headphones out, listening to the grass

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01:10:57,760 --> 01:11:00,360
Speaker 1: like on your shoe, or like the grab ole like

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01:11:00,400 --> 01:11:04,240
Speaker 1: ship like that. Just getting mindful and just getting close

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01:11:04,280 --> 01:11:07,840
Speaker 1: with God, whatever your version of it is. Quantum physics. Man, guys,

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01:11:07,840 --> 01:11:11,040
Speaker 1: thank you guys so much for listening to the podcast. Um, Chris,

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01:11:11,439 --> 01:11:14,439
Speaker 1: You're an amazing guest. I love I love having you here.

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01:11:14,479 --> 01:11:16,400
Speaker 1: I would invite you back tomorrow. But can I say

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Speaker 1: one thing to the best He's Yeah, I'm always nervous

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01:11:19,160 --> 01:11:20,640
Speaker 1: coming on the show just because you guys are so

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01:11:20,680 --> 01:11:23,360
Speaker 1: good and such, you know, like awesome professionals. But the

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01:11:23,400 --> 01:11:26,720
Speaker 1: Besties have been so nice to me and have really yeah,

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01:11:26,840 --> 01:11:29,679
Speaker 1: people have said some God, I thank you too, people

1441
01:11:29,720 --> 01:11:32,280
Speaker 1: for being supportive. It's really a cool group to be

1442
01:11:32,320 --> 01:11:34,200
Speaker 1: a part. I always get positive feedback when you're on

1443
01:11:34,240 --> 01:11:36,160
Speaker 1: the show. And if you want more of Chris and

1444
01:11:36,320 --> 01:11:39,080
Speaker 1: more of just me too, because I'm often on the show,

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01:11:39,080 --> 01:11:41,840
Speaker 1: You've got to check out The Courtney Show. UM podcast.

1446
01:11:41,880 --> 01:11:45,200
Speaker 1: It's every day they upload it. Chris writes the descriptions

1447
01:11:45,200 --> 01:11:47,479
Speaker 1: for the show, and that alone is enough to like,

1448
01:11:47,960 --> 01:11:50,760
Speaker 1: look at the show on the podcast app. The descriptions

1449
01:11:50,760 --> 01:11:52,519
Speaker 1: are so funny. The name of the shows are funny.

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01:11:52,640 --> 01:11:54,920
Speaker 1: He'll name it like the one where we had a

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01:11:54,920 --> 01:11:57,479
Speaker 1: pretty good time in the last half, and it'll be like, listen,

1452
01:11:57,680 --> 01:11:59,920
Speaker 1: not everything's gonna go the way, like if you don't

1453
01:12:00,000 --> 01:12:01,439
Speaker 1: need to listen to the first part of the podcast,

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01:12:01,479 --> 01:12:04,000
Speaker 1: but we really had fun on the second, Like so

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01:12:04,000 --> 01:12:07,000
Speaker 1: many people listening to the first part. The first part

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01:12:07,040 --> 01:12:08,759
Speaker 1: of your show is my favorite because they talk about

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01:12:08,800 --> 01:12:11,040
Speaker 1: like their weekends. It's kind of like our show. I mean,

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01:12:11,080 --> 01:12:13,519
Speaker 1: I modeled this after a morning radio show because I

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01:12:13,520 --> 01:12:16,639
Speaker 1: wanted it to be daily. And his show is so

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01:12:16,720 --> 01:12:18,439
Speaker 1: fun And if you like our show, I just know

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01:12:18,520 --> 01:12:20,280
Speaker 1: you'll like his. And it's called The Courtney Show. And

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01:12:20,280 --> 01:12:22,439
Speaker 1: you can get it um wherever Apple podcasts are. And

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01:12:22,439 --> 01:12:24,439
Speaker 1: if you're up early in the morning and you've already

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01:12:24,439 --> 01:12:26,439
Speaker 1: listened to our postcasts from the night before and you

1465
01:12:26,439 --> 01:12:28,879
Speaker 1: have no podcasts to listen to UM, if you download

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01:12:28,880 --> 01:12:31,840
Speaker 1: the arch app UM, you can listen to his show

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01:12:31,880 --> 01:12:35,639
Speaker 1: live from six to ten Central Time, anywhere you are.

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Speaker 1: And so I'm whenever I'm on the road, I'm always

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01:12:37,520 --> 01:12:39,519
Speaker 1: so glad. When I'm like also on East Coast because

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01:12:39,520 --> 01:12:41,120
Speaker 1: i wake up at like nine, I'm like, yes, they

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01:12:41,120 --> 01:12:42,920
Speaker 1: have three more hours of the show left. It does

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01:12:42,960 --> 01:12:45,640
Speaker 1: help us feel close because you'll listen in text and

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01:12:45,680 --> 01:12:48,080
Speaker 1: it just it feels like an American tale. You can

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01:12:48,120 --> 01:12:50,200
Speaker 1: text into his show. He reads the text on air.

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Speaker 1: It's like a live experience. It's so much fun. I

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Speaker 1: wouldn't recommend it just because he's my boyfriend. It honestly,

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Speaker 1: it's one of the reasons whenever we've broken up that

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Speaker 1: I've honestly been like very sad. It's because it would

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Speaker 1: be like it would be hard to listen to if

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Speaker 1: we work together, and it's so it brings me so

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Speaker 1: much joy. So check out The Courty Show download the

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Speaker 1: arch app if you want to listen live um, but

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Speaker 1: you can also get it as a podcast. Go see

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Speaker 1: Andrew April Tuesday, auguste Tuesday, Zany's Nashville. Please go support him.

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Speaker 1: He is headlining. It is his first big headlining gig

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Speaker 1: in you know, a major market, and we want people

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Speaker 1: to come out and support him and make him feel

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Speaker 1: really good about It's gonna be so much fun. You're

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Speaker 1: going to kill it because I know you have. I

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Speaker 1: can't wait to see it, and I'm sure you're going

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Speaker 1: to clip the funk out of it, right Yeah, Okay,

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Speaker 1: I'm definite that, um. And then you can come see

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Speaker 1: me in Vegas. If you're looking for a last minute

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Speaker 1: trip at the end of the summer to tack on,

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Speaker 1: why don't you go out to Vegas September two. I

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Speaker 1: am there at UM the Theater at Virgin Hotels, So

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Speaker 1: go stay at the Virgin Hotels. You like this luck

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Speaker 1: on me? Yeah? Yeah? What is this click? You talk

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Speaker 1: about skydiving? Yeah? Maybe and that, but yeah, come up

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Speaker 1: to Vegas. You're gonna see Anya. You're gonna see Benedict

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Speaker 1: uh Pol Easy from f Boy Island who made it

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Speaker 1: to the finals. As you saw. He's gonna be hilarious.

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Speaker 1: And then you'll see me. And it really is my

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Speaker 1: last performance with this voice. And God only knows what's

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Speaker 1: gonna happen in the surgery. This could be my last

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Speaker 1: performance forever. You don't know, Um, but it will be

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Speaker 1: my last performance before a very groundbreaking event in my life.

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Speaker 1: And I think that if I were a fan of

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Speaker 1: an artist, I would want to see this performance if

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Speaker 1: it was in their career. Of like, how, um, my

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Speaker 1: life is going to be very like before the surgery

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Speaker 1: and after the surgery. Um. I almost I hate to

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Speaker 1: compare myself to the trans people, but I feel like

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Speaker 1: it almost is that big for me because um. And

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Speaker 1: also my doctor says that the girls that get the

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Speaker 1: surgery always go, I sound like a girl now, and

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Speaker 1: they start dressing femininely after they have the surgery, even

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Speaker 1: though they don't even want to be like they didn't

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Speaker 1: even wanted to wear dresses. They're just like, I'm so

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Speaker 1: feminine now. Like my voice always dictated that I'm kind

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Speaker 1: like I'm a boy's girl, and I'm like, I'm masculine energy. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I get ready for shorter skirts. I mean I'm already

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Speaker 1: very feminine on stage. But I think it's um if

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Speaker 1: you can make it out to Vegas and if you

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Speaker 1: have any friends that are going to be in Vegas

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Speaker 1: or lived there, I would love for these ticket sales

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Speaker 1: to go better than they're going right now. Um. I

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Speaker 1: think last night checked H was at thirty seven percent.

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Speaker 1: That was a couple of weeks ago. I got to

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Speaker 1: see NICKI do comedy this weekend, which is rare right

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Speaker 1: now for me, and I loved it so much. People

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Speaker 1: need to go check out so much new stuff, so

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Speaker 1: much funny. Stuffed me so much. I mean I even

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Speaker 1: wrote on the way because we went to Damon's and

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Speaker 1: then we went right to the Funny Bone, the other

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Speaker 1: Funny Bone in Westport. Your brother, Yeah, your brother, um

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Speaker 1: vocal rust and also disinterested. Um. But your brother was

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Speaker 1: the opening act of the feature act for Michael Malone,

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Speaker 1: who I talked about earlier, and I did a guest

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Speaker 1: set after Tim. Tim brought me up and man, I

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Speaker 1: had so much fun on stage in a way that

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Speaker 1: I haven't before. So come see me in Vegas. Is

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Speaker 1: going to be such a meaningful show to me. Of course,

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Speaker 1: there will be meet and greets afterwards, and as always,

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Speaker 1: if you can't afford a meet and greet, you can

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Speaker 1: buy them at the merch booth. But if you cannot

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Speaker 1: afford them, you know your girl's gonna hook you up.

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Speaker 1: You just write to me and say just like all

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Speaker 1: caps important and then write your name and uh rt Vegas,

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Speaker 1: and I'll know to put you down because there's only

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Speaker 1: one show, and UM, yeah, just but don't write important

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Speaker 1: and then write a new one. Send it all in

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Speaker 1: one block, because I'll only see the last block you sent,

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Speaker 1: and if you just send me your name, I might

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Speaker 1: think you're I might not see it. And if I

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Speaker 1: don't get to it, send it again and I will

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Speaker 1: give you a free meet and greet for your ticket purchase. So, UM,

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Speaker 1: I will send that to people who listen to the

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Speaker 1: whole podcast. I made it this far. Thank you for listening.

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Speaker 1: Thank you, Chris Convey, thank you Andrew Colin. Noah will

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Speaker 1: be here tomorrow Wednesday on the show, UM don't bek

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Speaker 1: and check Nicholas