WEBVTT - Checking In w/ the Power of Presence

0:00:00.120 --> 0:00:02.960
<v Speaker 1>Welcome to Checking In with Michelle Williams, a production of

0:00:03.000 --> 0:00:04.920
<v Speaker 1>iHeartRadio and The Black Effect.

0:00:13.400 --> 0:00:16.799
<v Speaker 2>Coming up on Checking In with Michelle Williams. Listen, I

0:00:16.840 --> 0:00:21.479
<v Speaker 2>tell y'all all about delays and diversions, Whoever brings you

0:00:21.480 --> 0:00:26.000
<v Speaker 2>the most peace gets the most time, and Cowboy Carder

0:00:26.960 --> 0:00:29.480
<v Speaker 2>coming up next on an all new episode of Checking In.

0:00:33.280 --> 0:00:38.839
<v Speaker 2>Hey there, welcome to Checking In with Michelle Williams. Y'all.

0:00:39.600 --> 0:00:44.479
<v Speaker 2>I sometimes dislike saying the title checking in with Michelle Williams, because, like,

0:00:44.520 --> 0:00:47.760
<v Speaker 2>I'm Michelle, why can't I just say checking In? So

0:00:48.840 --> 0:00:53.239
<v Speaker 2>let me start that over, y'all. Welcome to another amazing

0:00:53.360 --> 0:01:01.240
<v Speaker 2>episode of Checking In. We are wow to the second

0:01:01.400 --> 0:01:05.600
<v Speaker 2>month of Checking In. I was blessed to have some

0:01:05.880 --> 0:01:13.040
<v Speaker 2>amazing guests starting off this season, Raquel Hopkins, Deval and

0:01:13.240 --> 0:01:21.680
<v Speaker 2>Kadeen Like who are just absolutely incredible. This week, it's

0:01:21.880 --> 0:01:25.800
<v Speaker 2>just me again. I've got a few things to talk about,

0:01:26.040 --> 0:01:31.640
<v Speaker 2>a few things to share. And discovering that throughout the years,

0:01:31.680 --> 0:01:36.240
<v Speaker 2>you guys really enjoy my solo episodes. You also enjoy

0:01:36.400 --> 0:01:40.440
<v Speaker 2>those that that I have with guests. But it was

0:01:40.480 --> 0:01:45.080
<v Speaker 2>shocking that also the number of people who download the

0:01:45.120 --> 0:01:50.040
<v Speaker 2>solo episodes like, I was thinking that people really want

0:01:50.040 --> 0:01:53.320
<v Speaker 2>to sit for about thirty minutes and listen to what

0:01:53.360 --> 0:01:57.240
<v Speaker 2>I have to say versus dialogue with other guests. I

0:01:57.320 --> 0:02:01.960
<v Speaker 2>thought that that would be incredible to share my platform

0:02:02.000 --> 0:02:07.880
<v Speaker 2>with guests who I admire. But according to the Black Effect,

0:02:08.480 --> 0:02:13.120
<v Speaker 2>y'all like my solo episodes as well. So we're gonna

0:02:13.160 --> 0:02:15.800
<v Speaker 2>get right to it. I hope y'all have had an

0:02:15.880 --> 0:02:22.400
<v Speaker 2>amazing week we have had. We're coming off of the

0:02:22.560 --> 0:02:28.960
<v Speaker 2>fourth of July. I don't know if it was a

0:02:29.040 --> 0:02:35.720
<v Speaker 2>fourth of July for folks. I literally have to read

0:02:35.960 --> 0:02:40.400
<v Speaker 2>this text from my aunt. She is probably in her eighties.

0:02:41.400 --> 0:02:46.560
<v Speaker 2>Matter of fact, she is eighty, and my aunt says

0:02:48.440 --> 0:02:51.440
<v Speaker 2>she said, okay, I'm getting it in real time. My

0:02:51.520 --> 0:02:55.760
<v Speaker 2>aunt texted and said, good afternoon, Happy Independence Day, even

0:02:55.840 --> 0:02:58.440
<v Speaker 2>though your president is keeping it from being happy, have

0:02:58.480 --> 0:03:05.239
<v Speaker 2>a blessed day. I was absolutely losing it because I'll

0:03:05.240 --> 0:03:08.160
<v Speaker 2>never forget there was a time where we were just

0:03:08.880 --> 0:03:12.200
<v Speaker 2>excited about the fourth of July. We were getting our

0:03:14.240 --> 0:03:18.120
<v Speaker 2>are me and you ready? Whose house we going over?

0:03:18.360 --> 0:03:21.480
<v Speaker 2>What time is it gonna start? And all that good stuff.

0:03:22.720 --> 0:03:29.160
<v Speaker 2>But I'm excited because of Juneteenth and what Juneteenth has

0:03:29.280 --> 0:03:35.320
<v Speaker 2>been for us, and I'll never forget Juneteenth. My grandmother,

0:03:35.560 --> 0:03:40.400
<v Speaker 2>years before Juneteenth is what it is today. My grandmother

0:03:40.520 --> 0:03:46.360
<v Speaker 2>taking us to Juneteenth activities and picnics and festivals year

0:03:46.440 --> 0:03:51.760
<v Speaker 2>after year in my hometown of Rockford, Illinois. So shout

0:03:51.800 --> 0:03:59.960
<v Speaker 2>out to Juneteenth and God blessed the fourth of July.

0:04:01.280 --> 0:04:04.960
<v Speaker 2>All right, all right, So the week of fourth of

0:04:05.040 --> 0:04:13.080
<v Speaker 2>July was absolutely bonkers days of traveling. Okay, So let

0:04:13.120 --> 0:04:18.240
<v Speaker 2>me tell y'all. I've been in New York since about

0:04:19.160 --> 0:04:26.960
<v Speaker 2>end of August of twenty twenty four, and you know,

0:04:27.760 --> 0:04:31.359
<v Speaker 2>I knew that I was going to be leaving my

0:04:32.120 --> 0:04:37.159
<v Speaker 2>comfort zone. Okay, what is my comfort zone? My house,

0:04:38.400 --> 0:04:45.359
<v Speaker 2>my plants, my own bed, just my little nook that

0:04:45.480 --> 0:04:50.960
<v Speaker 2>I absolutely enjoy. So I was like, well, New York

0:04:51.120 --> 0:04:54.680
<v Speaker 2>to Atlanta ain't that far. You know, I'll just go

0:04:54.760 --> 0:04:57.200
<v Speaker 2>home like once a month to check on everything, to

0:04:57.520 --> 0:05:02.599
<v Speaker 2>make sure everything's okay, and the busyness of my schedule

0:05:04.279 --> 0:05:06.599
<v Speaker 2>it is a blessing. But I hadn't been able to

0:05:06.600 --> 0:05:08.919
<v Speaker 2>get home back to Atlanta as much as I would

0:05:09.000 --> 0:05:13.599
<v Speaker 2>like to. And then there are times where I could

0:05:13.600 --> 0:05:16.760
<v Speaker 2>have got on a plane to fly home, but I

0:05:16.839 --> 0:05:19.560
<v Speaker 2>was so tired from doing eight shows a week that

0:05:19.640 --> 0:05:22.279
<v Speaker 2>it was just best for me to get my weekly

0:05:22.360 --> 0:05:25.960
<v Speaker 2>massage and go to bed, you know what I mean.

0:05:26.480 --> 0:05:31.320
<v Speaker 2>So this week I said, you know what, let me

0:05:31.360 --> 0:05:34.120
<v Speaker 2>go on home. I want to see what's up at

0:05:34.120 --> 0:05:38.720
<v Speaker 2>my house. I get home, check my plants. One of

0:05:38.760 --> 0:05:45.400
<v Speaker 2>my beautiful plants gone dead. Okay, and they are on

0:05:45.680 --> 0:05:49.280
<v Speaker 2>this cool watering system. But when I opened up the

0:05:49.360 --> 0:05:56.080
<v Speaker 2>water reservoir, it was totally empty, and I was like, well,

0:05:56.800 --> 0:06:00.560
<v Speaker 2>you haven't been home in a while to really check

0:06:00.640 --> 0:06:02.960
<v Speaker 2>on it, and how long did you think this water

0:06:03.600 --> 0:06:05.680
<v Speaker 2>was going to be in this reservoir. It's a self

0:06:05.720 --> 0:06:13.960
<v Speaker 2>watering system. Great, great for folks who are I love

0:06:14.080 --> 0:06:20.920
<v Speaker 2>the self watering system because I have overwatered plants, you know,

0:06:21.240 --> 0:06:24.919
<v Speaker 2>but this particular system, it does the perfect amount of

0:06:24.960 --> 0:06:28.440
<v Speaker 2>watering for plants. Now, I could be going somewhere here

0:06:29.000 --> 0:06:37.919
<v Speaker 2>you can underwater or overwater, and so I just I

0:06:37.920 --> 0:06:42.160
<v Speaker 2>hadn't been home, and so one of my favorite plants. Oh,

0:06:42.200 --> 0:06:45.039
<v Speaker 2>it was gorgeous. It was absolutely gorgeous. It's one of

0:06:45.040 --> 0:06:49.279
<v Speaker 2>the plants where it just continues to grow and just

0:06:49.400 --> 0:06:52.839
<v Speaker 2>kind of like it grows over the table. It's like

0:06:52.880 --> 0:06:58.280
<v Speaker 2>a waterfall. It's beautiful. So I was able to put

0:06:58.360 --> 0:07:04.360
<v Speaker 2>water back in the reservoir, take the dead leaves off,

0:07:04.400 --> 0:07:08.520
<v Speaker 2>and hopefully when I get back, I'll see some buds,

0:07:08.920 --> 0:07:16.240
<v Speaker 2>some more budding. Cool. Get home, and I spend my

0:07:16.320 --> 0:07:20.560
<v Speaker 2>amazing time at home. I'm feeling refreshed. I am feeling rejuvenated.

0:07:20.680 --> 0:07:23.760
<v Speaker 2>I am feeling restored because I was able to sleep

0:07:23.840 --> 0:07:29.360
<v Speaker 2>on my own mattress that I absolutely adore. Miss Tina

0:07:29.480 --> 0:07:33.960
<v Speaker 2>Knowles has always said I probably have said this on

0:07:34.000 --> 0:07:39.280
<v Speaker 2>this podcast at least once. She told us, invest in

0:07:39.560 --> 0:07:45.920
<v Speaker 2>your mattress, especially that's where you're going to be spending

0:07:46.200 --> 0:07:49.240
<v Speaker 2>a lot of hours in the day, So invest in

0:07:49.280 --> 0:07:52.000
<v Speaker 2>your mattress. I'm proud of my mattress. I feel like

0:07:52.040 --> 0:07:56.360
<v Speaker 2>it's amazing. I love my bed. Okay, cool, Anyway, I'm refreshed,

0:07:56.360 --> 0:07:59.640
<v Speaker 2>I'm rejuvenated. I'm able to walk around my own neighborhood,

0:07:59.720 --> 0:08:04.840
<v Speaker 2>gets some sun and just ooh, drive my own vehicle.

0:08:05.800 --> 0:08:11.320
<v Speaker 2>It's the little things that I have been missing. Great.

0:08:12.240 --> 0:08:15.280
<v Speaker 2>I get on a plane to come back here to

0:08:15.480 --> 0:08:23.080
<v Speaker 2>New York, and I flew into Newark, and yes, I

0:08:23.240 --> 0:08:27.520
<v Speaker 2>know about the news of air traffic control and outages,

0:08:28.320 --> 0:08:32.480
<v Speaker 2>but I fly into Newark all the time when I travel,

0:08:33.200 --> 0:08:35.640
<v Speaker 2>and it's been great. Let me tell you why I

0:08:35.720 --> 0:08:40.040
<v Speaker 2>like Newark. It's quiet. The drive from Manhattan into Newark.

0:08:40.080 --> 0:08:42.200
<v Speaker 2>I don't know why I love it better than the

0:08:42.280 --> 0:08:45.600
<v Speaker 2>drive from like where I live here in New York

0:08:45.640 --> 0:08:50.000
<v Speaker 2>to LaGuardia or JFK. I think the drive to La

0:08:50.080 --> 0:08:54.200
<v Speaker 2>Guardian and JFK it just makes me too anxious. The

0:08:54.320 --> 0:09:00.199
<v Speaker 2>drive to Newark, it's just peaceful. The experience to me

0:09:00.200 --> 0:09:05.960
<v Speaker 2>me has been peaceful. We're in the air about to

0:09:06.080 --> 0:09:10.280
<v Speaker 2>land at Newark and the pilot comes on and says, hey,

0:09:10.600 --> 0:09:14.320
<v Speaker 2>we've got to circle a little bit. Those of y'all

0:09:14.320 --> 0:09:19.040
<v Speaker 2>that fly, if you fly frequently, sometimes that happens. Okay,

0:09:19.480 --> 0:09:21.559
<v Speaker 2>you know that when the pilot says we got a circle,

0:09:22.240 --> 0:09:25.480
<v Speaker 2>it ain't ten minutes, sometimes thirty minutes. I don't know.

0:09:25.520 --> 0:09:29.920
<v Speaker 2>So I'm like, okay, cool, We're gonna be fine, y'all.

0:09:31.240 --> 0:09:36.240
<v Speaker 2>He then comes back on the intercom and says, we

0:09:36.360 --> 0:09:40.600
<v Speaker 2>actually have to get some gas, so we're gonna land

0:09:40.640 --> 0:09:48.880
<v Speaker 2>in Norfolk, Virginia. He's like, we're gonna gas up. I'm

0:09:48.920 --> 0:09:51.960
<v Speaker 2>gonna have you back in the air. I'm like, okay, cool.

0:09:52.120 --> 0:09:54.839
<v Speaker 2>Show starts at death becomes Circle show starts at seven.

0:09:56.320 --> 0:09:59.720
<v Speaker 2>Its gonna be great. I can get to the theater

0:09:59.760 --> 0:10:03.000
<v Speaker 2>at six thirty for a seven o'clock show. I don't

0:10:03.080 --> 0:10:04.840
<v Speaker 2>like to do that. I've never done that because I

0:10:04.880 --> 0:10:07.720
<v Speaker 2>need at least an hour from makeup and prep, my

0:10:07.800 --> 0:10:11.120
<v Speaker 2>breathing and my stretching. Some people literally walk in the

0:10:11.120 --> 0:10:14.280
<v Speaker 2>door at six thirty for a seven o'clock show. My

0:10:14.400 --> 0:10:17.439
<v Speaker 2>hand claps to y'all for that. I can't do that.

0:10:18.240 --> 0:10:21.720
<v Speaker 2>I can, but that's not my desire. Okay, I just

0:10:21.800 --> 0:10:26.439
<v Speaker 2>mentioned I just told you guys my routine. Oh my gosh.

0:10:26.640 --> 0:10:32.959
<v Speaker 2>We land in Norfolk and it goes from thirty minutes

0:10:33.840 --> 0:10:37.320
<v Speaker 2>to an hour. Now, mind you, they have gassed up

0:10:37.360 --> 0:10:42.400
<v Speaker 2>the plane. It's gone from like one hour to hour

0:10:42.440 --> 0:10:45.880
<v Speaker 2>and a half, two hours, three hours, four hours, five hours,

0:10:45.960 --> 0:10:52.400
<v Speaker 2>six hours by the time but about four o'clock rolls around,

0:10:52.600 --> 0:10:58.000
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, I'm not gonna make it to the lunfont

0:10:58.040 --> 0:11:05.600
<v Speaker 2>Tan theater. Y'all. I do this routine. I have done

0:11:05.640 --> 0:11:12.480
<v Speaker 2>this routine quite often. I've never missed a show because

0:11:12.559 --> 0:11:17.920
<v Speaker 2>of a flight to diversion. I have never really missed

0:11:18.120 --> 0:11:21.640
<v Speaker 2>a work event period because of I've never missed a

0:11:21.679 --> 0:11:26.800
<v Speaker 2>flight for work anybody that books me for the past

0:11:26.840 --> 0:11:31.200
<v Speaker 2>twenty five years knows that you book me, I'm going

0:11:31.280 --> 0:11:34.760
<v Speaker 2>to show up. If I don't show up, it's because

0:11:34.800 --> 0:11:37.599
<v Speaker 2>I one. I think one time I was literally in

0:11:37.760 --> 0:11:44.280
<v Speaker 2>the hospital, like sick with something right, or I'm just sick.

0:11:44.320 --> 0:11:46.560
<v Speaker 2>And if I say I'm sick, I'm really really sick.

0:11:48.280 --> 0:11:51.080
<v Speaker 2>So I've never missed work. I've never you know, I

0:11:51.240 --> 0:11:54.000
<v Speaker 2>just I don't play that. That's just this. I guess

0:11:54.080 --> 0:11:56.719
<v Speaker 2>it's still the school of Matthew Knowles. I don't know,

0:11:57.160 --> 0:12:02.160
<v Speaker 2>but that's just I tried not to. I try not

0:12:02.200 --> 0:12:05.800
<v Speaker 2>to do that. So, yeah, we missed the show. I

0:12:05.880 --> 0:12:11.960
<v Speaker 2>missed the show. I'm gutted, I am disappointed. I'm like,

0:12:12.080 --> 0:12:17.160
<v Speaker 2>oh my god, but I'm so thankful for an understanding

0:12:19.480 --> 0:12:25.560
<v Speaker 2>management team of death becomes her totally understood. So it's

0:12:25.920 --> 0:12:29.160
<v Speaker 2>that that was that was a lesson learned, you know.

0:12:30.760 --> 0:12:33.600
<v Speaker 2>So I don't know if I'll be home anytime soon

0:12:33.840 --> 0:12:36.560
<v Speaker 2>because I don't want that to happen, or maybe try

0:12:36.640 --> 0:12:39.400
<v Speaker 2>flying into logorder or JFK. I don't know. But new

0:12:39.440 --> 0:12:42.240
<v Speaker 2>work has never been an issue for me. Again, I

0:12:42.280 --> 0:12:46.000
<v Speaker 2>have seen the news where it's been about outages and

0:12:47.080 --> 0:12:52.120
<v Speaker 2>air traffic control issues, but all right, So I finally

0:12:52.240 --> 0:13:02.680
<v Speaker 2>experienced it. That same week, I was all soul needing

0:13:02.720 --> 0:13:07.120
<v Speaker 2>to attend a close friend of mine her mother passed,

0:13:07.960 --> 0:13:14.200
<v Speaker 2>and I wanted to be at the funeral. I was

0:13:14.240 --> 0:13:21.960
<v Speaker 2>torn because you know, I'm under contract in this show

0:13:21.960 --> 0:13:25.920
<v Speaker 2>many times. I've been under contract for the past again,

0:13:26.000 --> 0:13:31.240
<v Speaker 2>twenty five years of my life, and I was torn

0:13:31.320 --> 0:13:39.520
<v Speaker 2>between how many moments am I going to miss by

0:13:39.559 --> 0:13:43.120
<v Speaker 2>being able to be present for someone in my life.

0:13:43.440 --> 0:13:49.600
<v Speaker 2>I've missed enough birthdays, I missed enough funerals, I've missed

0:13:49.720 --> 0:13:55.560
<v Speaker 2>enough graduations, y'all. I even missed my brother's first sermon

0:13:55.679 --> 0:14:00.959
<v Speaker 2>he preached. Now he understood because that year we filmed

0:14:01.000 --> 0:14:04.840
<v Speaker 2>the Boot Delicious video. He was totally understandable. But me

0:14:05.440 --> 0:14:08.920
<v Speaker 2>as his sister, as his baby sister, whom I adore

0:14:09.120 --> 0:14:11.800
<v Speaker 2>my brother, I was like, I cannot believe I'm missing

0:14:11.800 --> 0:14:15.720
<v Speaker 2>my brother preach his first sermon while I'm on set

0:14:17.240 --> 0:14:22.640
<v Speaker 2>shaking my thighs. It's a great video. I love those

0:14:22.720 --> 0:14:25.560
<v Speaker 2>Christian Dior shades. Those are I wish I could find those.

0:14:25.640 --> 0:14:30.000
<v Speaker 2>Those are vintage. So yeah, that's what was going on

0:14:30.280 --> 0:14:33.120
<v Speaker 2>while filming Boot Delicious. My brother preached his first sermon.

0:14:33.280 --> 0:14:36.000
<v Speaker 2>But you guys, everything worked out. Everything worked out, as

0:14:36.040 --> 0:14:39.240
<v Speaker 2>you can see all as well. But at this point

0:14:39.320 --> 0:14:41.640
<v Speaker 2>in my career and in my life, I'm like, man,

0:14:41.800 --> 0:14:46.200
<v Speaker 2>how many more moments of being present will I miss?

0:14:47.440 --> 0:14:53.200
<v Speaker 2>And that's the sacrifice of the business of show. That's

0:14:53.240 --> 0:14:56.840
<v Speaker 2>the sacrifice of I chose this life. So I'm not

0:14:57.040 --> 0:15:02.560
<v Speaker 2>asking for pity, sympathy anything, but I guess I'm understanding

0:15:02.680 --> 0:15:10.600
<v Speaker 2>of I guess where my mindset was. And I did

0:15:10.720 --> 0:15:15.560
<v Speaker 2>get permission, of course, again from management of death becomes

0:15:15.560 --> 0:15:21.000
<v Speaker 2>her to attend this funeral. I adore what I do.

0:15:21.160 --> 0:15:24.600
<v Speaker 2>I adore the show, and I'm so glad that I

0:15:24.640 --> 0:15:28.640
<v Speaker 2>was allowed to go to my friend's mother's funeral and

0:15:28.680 --> 0:15:34.680
<v Speaker 2>it meant the world to her. And the person that

0:15:35.680 --> 0:15:40.480
<v Speaker 2>did the eulogy looked over at the role that I

0:15:40.600 --> 0:15:44.360
<v Speaker 2>was sitting on, and there were some other friends and

0:15:44.400 --> 0:15:48.120
<v Speaker 2>stuff of the family sitting on that role, and he

0:15:48.200 --> 0:15:52.680
<v Speaker 2>said these words. He mentioned the words ministry of presence.

0:15:54.280 --> 0:15:58.960
<v Speaker 2>Sometimes your presence is comforting to someone. You might not

0:15:59.120 --> 0:16:03.640
<v Speaker 2>even have the right way words. You probably can't even

0:16:03.760 --> 0:16:07.800
<v Speaker 2>get to them in that moment at the funeral or

0:16:07.880 --> 0:16:11.240
<v Speaker 2>even a party, or their first sermon. Or a graduation.

0:16:11.360 --> 0:16:16.920
<v Speaker 2>But as long as they can look over and see you,

0:16:16.920 --> 0:16:20.440
<v Speaker 2>you never know what that does for a person. When

0:16:20.800 --> 0:16:27.240
<v Speaker 2>Beyonce and Kelly came to my opening night, Doctor Amira

0:16:27.640 --> 0:16:36.600
<v Speaker 2>and Brittany Tims Tina, I felt so anchored by their presence.

0:16:37.120 --> 0:16:40.280
<v Speaker 2>I was like, I don't care what happens tonight, I

0:16:40.320 --> 0:16:45.240
<v Speaker 2>am going to be okay the ministry of Presents And

0:16:45.640 --> 0:16:49.400
<v Speaker 2>there are times where people have even looked at me

0:16:49.600 --> 0:16:54.360
<v Speaker 2>like you're Michelle Williams, why are you here? What are

0:16:54.400 --> 0:16:58.240
<v Speaker 2>you doing here? And I'm not saying anyone said that

0:16:58.320 --> 0:17:00.960
<v Speaker 2>last week, but there are times I have shown up

0:17:01.280 --> 0:17:07.199
<v Speaker 2>two different things for people in my life, and I

0:17:07.280 --> 0:17:13.000
<v Speaker 2>don't let what I do or who I am in quotes.

0:17:14.400 --> 0:17:18.280
<v Speaker 2>I don't want that to ever get in the way

0:17:18.440 --> 0:17:23.440
<v Speaker 2>of showing up and being there for people that I love,

0:17:24.119 --> 0:17:26.720
<v Speaker 2>at least not at this time in my career now.

0:17:26.800 --> 0:17:34.480
<v Speaker 2>Sometimes it's just not possible. It's just not possible. But

0:17:34.680 --> 0:17:38.320
<v Speaker 2>I'm thankful that this time it was possible for me

0:17:38.400 --> 0:17:43.600
<v Speaker 2>to show up and be present so perfectly. You can

0:17:43.640 --> 0:17:49.800
<v Speaker 2>take inventory of your life about maybe people you can

0:17:49.960 --> 0:17:54.920
<v Speaker 2>show up for a little more, or take inventory of

0:17:55.040 --> 0:17:58.240
<v Speaker 2>people where you're like man they can show up for

0:17:58.320 --> 0:18:03.240
<v Speaker 2>me more, or if they don't, you probably might even

0:18:03.320 --> 0:18:09.680
<v Speaker 2>have to assess how much you show up for them.

0:18:10.320 --> 0:18:14.840
<v Speaker 2>So us this older woman. One day, she told me

0:18:14.880 --> 0:18:20.439
<v Speaker 2>that I was ministry in motion and literally just me

0:18:20.640 --> 0:18:23.719
<v Speaker 2>being able to show up and be present is just

0:18:23.760 --> 0:18:28.120
<v Speaker 2>something that I treasure, something that if I can show up,

0:18:28.440 --> 0:18:34.320
<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna show up, all right. So that was Thursday

0:18:35.320 --> 0:18:40.760
<v Speaker 2>of last week. Friday, we are off because it's fourth

0:18:40.800 --> 0:18:43.120
<v Speaker 2>of July. Death becomes her did not have a show,

0:18:44.680 --> 0:18:48.439
<v Speaker 2>So where did I go? So I went from the

0:18:48.480 --> 0:18:51.560
<v Speaker 2>city where I was in for this funeral, flew to Washington,

0:18:51.680 --> 0:19:00.280
<v Speaker 2>DC to see cow Boy Carter. The tour insane. Absolutely,

0:19:02.880 --> 0:19:08.920
<v Speaker 2>I just just have no but I do have words. Beautiful,

0:19:09.240 --> 0:19:17.119
<v Speaker 2>the visuals, y'all. She's she gives vocals every tour she's done.

0:19:17.760 --> 0:19:25.280
<v Speaker 2>But I feel like this tour beyoncey uh. There are

0:19:25.320 --> 0:19:28.880
<v Speaker 2>many times I had a Baptist fit. If you want

0:19:28.880 --> 0:19:30.720
<v Speaker 2>to know what a Baptist fit is is where you

0:19:30.800 --> 0:19:34.480
<v Speaker 2>just get to your arms, just get to flailing uncontrollably.

0:19:35.359 --> 0:19:40.639
<v Speaker 2>You yell, you scream, You're just just in awe. Listen, y'all.

0:19:41.600 --> 0:19:47.879
<v Speaker 2>I love because I feel like she's so gifted vocally

0:19:48.520 --> 0:19:54.960
<v Speaker 2>too that sometimes I personally, I just oh, I just

0:19:55.000 --> 0:19:56.760
<v Speaker 2>want to hear what she's gonna do. I just want

0:19:56.800 --> 0:20:00.359
<v Speaker 2>to know what vocal choice she's gonna use, where is

0:20:00.359 --> 0:20:03.800
<v Speaker 2>she gonna place this run, what is she gonna do

0:20:03.840 --> 0:20:08.560
<v Speaker 2>with the texture of her voice? Here? Baby? It gave

0:20:08.640 --> 0:20:15.240
<v Speaker 2>me everything I needed. You hear me. It was a joy.

0:20:15.359 --> 0:20:23.320
<v Speaker 2>It was a joy. It was a joy. She really really, really,

0:20:23.359 --> 0:20:27.879
<v Speaker 2>really really really this did I say? The sound? Like

0:20:28.119 --> 0:20:32.600
<v Speaker 2>who designed the sound for this tour? It was beautiful,

0:20:33.119 --> 0:20:39.600
<v Speaker 2>The visuals, the wardrobe, my god, and then vibing to

0:20:39.640 --> 0:20:44.520
<v Speaker 2>Miss Tina in the suite absolutely agredible. Oh of course

0:20:44.640 --> 0:20:52.080
<v Speaker 2>blue okay, you can't forget blue, roomy, absolutely adorable. Okay,

0:20:52.240 --> 0:21:00.040
<v Speaker 2>everybody banned dancers, Honey Balenciaga and just all right. So

0:21:00.080 --> 0:21:04.359
<v Speaker 2>that was my week, all right. Then I came back

0:21:04.560 --> 0:21:07.240
<v Speaker 2>to New York to do to show Saturday and two

0:21:07.280 --> 0:21:19.440
<v Speaker 2>show Sunday, a full, productive, amazing week. Dallas on yesterday,

0:21:20.200 --> 0:21:23.720
<v Speaker 2>which is supposed to be my day off, but Dallas,

0:21:24.720 --> 0:21:31.080
<v Speaker 2>and then today sharing with y'all my journey this past week,

0:21:32.359 --> 0:21:36.480
<v Speaker 2>the journey of showing up for the people you love.

0:21:38.240 --> 0:21:41.320
<v Speaker 2>The Cowboy Carter tour that was my first time being

0:21:41.359 --> 0:21:44.359
<v Speaker 2>able to go to the tour because I'm in a

0:21:44.359 --> 0:21:49.800
<v Speaker 2>Broadway musical and it's been difficult. But I'm glad that

0:21:49.880 --> 0:21:56.399
<v Speaker 2>there was a show on the fourth of July. There

0:21:56.440 --> 0:21:58.600
<v Speaker 2>was a show last night. Actually, like I said, that

0:21:58.800 --> 0:22:02.320
<v Speaker 2>was on the day off, but I had to go

0:22:02.359 --> 0:22:05.800
<v Speaker 2>to Dallas. I can't wait for y'all to see what

0:22:06.000 --> 0:22:11.000
<v Speaker 2>that was about. But y'all, it was also amazing to

0:22:11.160 --> 0:22:17.360
<v Speaker 2>be around people who bring me peace. And I saw

0:22:17.400 --> 0:22:19.560
<v Speaker 2>a friend of mine post something the other day. I

0:22:19.560 --> 0:22:24.679
<v Speaker 2>could be paraphrasing, but they it said something whoever brings

0:22:24.760 --> 0:22:30.120
<v Speaker 2>the most peace gets the most time, and that hit

0:22:30.200 --> 0:22:35.560
<v Speaker 2>me so deep. There are people that I love. There

0:22:35.600 --> 0:22:41.440
<v Speaker 2>are relationships that I don't talk about a lot publicly

0:22:41.520 --> 0:22:44.960
<v Speaker 2>because I just hold those relationships near and dear to me.

0:22:45.480 --> 0:22:49.800
<v Speaker 2>And there's sometimes I'll name some names, you know, because

0:22:49.800 --> 0:22:53.240
<v Speaker 2>of experience, I name some names just now. But sometimes

0:22:53.280 --> 0:22:56.200
<v Speaker 2>I don't go into the totality of those relationships because

0:22:56.200 --> 0:22:58.000
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, man, that's the only thing that I get

0:22:58.000 --> 0:23:06.880
<v Speaker 2>to protect kind of. But I've got some amazing, amazing folks,

0:23:07.680 --> 0:23:13.280
<v Speaker 2>and I always in some episodes, I've always said what

0:23:13.320 --> 0:23:16.600
<v Speaker 2>my prayer is for y'all, is that you also have

0:23:16.720 --> 0:23:21.399
<v Speaker 2>safe people, people that you can trust, people that you

0:23:22.600 --> 0:23:28.840
<v Speaker 2>can confide in, people that you can laugh with, like uncontrollably.

0:23:28.960 --> 0:23:31.960
<v Speaker 2>I have also been seeing these amazing videos and reels

0:23:32.480 --> 0:23:36.600
<v Speaker 2>about people who are during near smacking each other upside

0:23:36.600 --> 0:23:39.760
<v Speaker 2>the head because they're laughing so hard and their arms

0:23:39.800 --> 0:23:42.200
<v Speaker 2>are just going everywhere and they're just a key key

0:23:42.320 --> 0:23:47.280
<v Speaker 2>and just laughing uncontrollably. Those are the relationships that I

0:23:47.320 --> 0:23:52.760
<v Speaker 2>want to keep. The relationships that fortify me. What do

0:23:52.840 --> 0:23:57.919
<v Speaker 2>I mean by fortify? Relationships that strengthen me, Relationships that

0:23:58.160 --> 0:24:05.399
<v Speaker 2>are challenged in a way, Relationships that are inspiring. You

0:24:05.400 --> 0:24:07.800
<v Speaker 2>should never be jealous of anyone in your circle. They

0:24:07.800 --> 0:24:13.680
<v Speaker 2>should always be inspiring you. You should never be competing

0:24:13.960 --> 0:24:20.919
<v Speaker 2>or comparing yourself to anybody that's in your circle. Maybe

0:24:20.960 --> 0:24:23.480
<v Speaker 2>there are some people in my life that make me

0:24:23.560 --> 0:24:26.640
<v Speaker 2>tighten up, people that make me say, oh, oh oh,

0:24:26.760 --> 0:24:28.639
<v Speaker 2>I can do this a little better, I can tweak

0:24:28.720 --> 0:24:33.800
<v Speaker 2>this here. And I have a confession to make. I

0:24:33.840 --> 0:24:39.280
<v Speaker 2>think sometimes when I see Be on tour, it does

0:24:39.560 --> 0:24:46.920
<v Speaker 2>make me feel like, man, she kept going in music

0:24:47.680 --> 0:24:52.439
<v Speaker 2>and didn't let any naysayer stop her, And I'm like,

0:24:52.640 --> 0:25:01.840
<v Speaker 2>why did I let things stop me musically, and I'm like,

0:25:01.920 --> 0:25:06.119
<v Speaker 2>I really got to sit with that. I'm gonna go

0:25:06.160 --> 0:25:11.400
<v Speaker 2>to therapy about it. So yes, I have teased new

0:25:11.480 --> 0:25:15.479
<v Speaker 2>music and I know that I can do it. I

0:25:15.520 --> 0:25:19.120
<v Speaker 2>do know that I can do it. So we'll see

0:25:19.240 --> 0:25:22.240
<v Speaker 2>that happened to me on the Renaissance tour and Cowboy

0:25:22.320 --> 0:25:26.800
<v Speaker 2>Carter's like, she would not be doing what she's doing

0:25:27.320 --> 0:25:32.680
<v Speaker 2>had she stopped and listened to what the critics had

0:25:32.680 --> 0:25:37.119
<v Speaker 2>to say or the naysayers or the haters. She there's

0:25:37.119 --> 0:25:40.399
<v Speaker 2>no way she'd be in stadiums right now had she

0:25:42.200 --> 0:25:46.520
<v Speaker 2>buckled and you know, listened to what people had to say.

0:25:46.880 --> 0:25:50.479
<v Speaker 2>All right, So that's my confession. We'll talk about that later.

0:25:51.520 --> 0:25:55.159
<v Speaker 2>But yeah, back to being around people who bring me peace,

0:25:55.280 --> 0:25:57.119
<v Speaker 2>and those were the people that I was able to

0:25:57.400 --> 0:26:02.320
<v Speaker 2>be around this past week, and guess what, I'll do

0:26:02.400 --> 0:26:08.800
<v Speaker 2>it again. Also this week, I am taking some time

0:26:08.960 --> 0:26:12.960
<v Speaker 2>away from the show, not due to illness or a funeral,

0:26:13.680 --> 0:26:17.119
<v Speaker 2>but I've got some personal days that I hadn't taken,

0:26:18.320 --> 0:26:21.080
<v Speaker 2>and they're like, Michelle, you got to take your personal days.

0:26:21.920 --> 0:26:28.720
<v Speaker 2>And again, just I'm thankful for a strong work ethic. Again,

0:26:28.800 --> 0:26:31.919
<v Speaker 2>if I'm not sick or some type of emergency. I

0:26:32.080 --> 0:26:35.520
<v Speaker 2>want to be there. But this week I am excited

0:26:35.560 --> 0:26:40.399
<v Speaker 2>to report that I get to take a few days away.

0:26:41.800 --> 0:26:47.679
<v Speaker 2>It's my birthday month, and I'm excited about that. I

0:26:47.760 --> 0:26:52.800
<v Speaker 2>get some more time later on in the summer, and

0:26:54.200 --> 0:26:58.080
<v Speaker 2>we'll see what happens. I know a lot of y'all

0:26:58.119 --> 0:27:00.840
<v Speaker 2>have been asking me how long my run and Death

0:27:00.840 --> 0:27:05.520
<v Speaker 2>becomes Her the musical is, and just know that I'll

0:27:05.560 --> 0:27:09.960
<v Speaker 2>be there a while longer. I'll say that the reason

0:27:10.000 --> 0:27:13.240
<v Speaker 2>why I'm not saying anything is because producers haven't said anything,

0:27:13.440 --> 0:27:17.320
<v Speaker 2>and I'm not making no announcements that they haven't made. Okay,

0:27:17.440 --> 0:27:23.679
<v Speaker 2>So when the time comes, you all will know my

0:27:23.880 --> 0:27:28.800
<v Speaker 2>departure date. Okay. But for those of y'all wondering, lurking,

0:27:29.960 --> 0:27:34.160
<v Speaker 2>and asking, just know you've got time to come back

0:27:34.200 --> 0:27:37.000
<v Speaker 2>and see your girl, or you have time to come

0:27:37.080 --> 0:27:41.159
<v Speaker 2>see me. If you haven't been here, all right, you

0:27:41.200 --> 0:27:47.080
<v Speaker 2>can go to Broadwaydirect dot com. They have amazing specials sometimes.

0:27:47.160 --> 0:27:52.080
<v Speaker 2>If you go to Death becomes Her our official Instagram page,

0:27:52.280 --> 0:27:56.640
<v Speaker 2>you can find cool specials or discounts or what's going

0:27:56.680 --> 0:28:00.560
<v Speaker 2>on for this time. It's been an amazing run. It's

0:28:00.600 --> 0:28:04.760
<v Speaker 2>been an amazing time. I cannot wait to tell you

0:28:06.280 --> 0:28:09.440
<v Speaker 2>the plans for later. We'll see, but it's been a

0:28:09.520 --> 0:28:12.240
<v Speaker 2>joy of being in death becomes to the musical. It's

0:28:12.280 --> 0:28:15.280
<v Speaker 2>like I don't want to leave. I don't want to leave.

0:28:15.720 --> 0:28:20.880
<v Speaker 2>So we'll see what happens. But thank y'all for allowing

0:28:20.880 --> 0:28:23.360
<v Speaker 2>me to share my time of travel and what I've

0:28:23.440 --> 0:28:28.280
<v Speaker 2>just been thinking. I'm forty five years old and I

0:28:28.359 --> 0:28:31.439
<v Speaker 2>am just I just I want to be there for people.

0:28:31.600 --> 0:28:37.280
<v Speaker 2>I don't want to continue doing things that keep me

0:28:37.520 --> 0:28:42.320
<v Speaker 2>from being present from my friends and family and the

0:28:42.360 --> 0:28:45.520
<v Speaker 2>people that mean the most to me. All right, So

0:28:45.560 --> 0:28:48.400
<v Speaker 2>I hope this makes you think I and you know,

0:28:48.480 --> 0:28:51.120
<v Speaker 2>take inventory of the people in your life. And again,

0:28:51.680 --> 0:28:57.400
<v Speaker 2>whoever brings the most peace gets the most time. Thank

0:28:57.480 --> 0:29:05.240
<v Speaker 2>y'all so much for listening to my travel chronicles this

0:29:05.320 --> 0:29:08.600
<v Speaker 2>week and just kind of what I've been thinking about.

0:29:10.400 --> 0:29:15.600
<v Speaker 2>We will see you again next week, all right, Thank

0:29:15.640 --> 0:29:20.040
<v Speaker 2>you again. I cannot I can't continue to do this

0:29:20.120 --> 0:29:24.160
<v Speaker 2>without y'all's love and support. Black Effect would not continue

0:29:24.840 --> 0:29:28.520
<v Speaker 2>to bring me back because y'all are just really really

0:29:28.560 --> 0:29:32.880
<v Speaker 2>supporting me, and I really really really appreciate it. All Right,

0:29:33.400 --> 0:29:34.400
<v Speaker 2>we'll talk again. Soon.

0:30:53.480 --> 0:30:56.160
<v Speaker 1>Checking In with Michelle Williams is a production of iHeart

0:30:56.280 --> 0:31:00.000
<v Speaker 1>Radio and The Black Effect. For more podcasts from iHeart Radio,

0:31:00.560 --> 0:31:04.680
<v Speaker 1>visit the iHeartRadio app, Apple podcast, or wherever you listen

0:31:04.720 --> 0:31:05.840
<v Speaker 1>to your favorite shows.