WEBVTT - #IVEHADENOUGH

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<v Speaker 1>O, Hi everybody. UM, I feel like I have to

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<v Speaker 1>speak like right now, UM, and I just want to

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<v Speaker 1>say UM like this has been very heavy. I am

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<v Speaker 1>angry and I UM, for probably the first time in

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<v Speaker 1>my life, do not know what to say ironically, UM,

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<v Speaker 1>or what to do to make you feel better. UM.

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<v Speaker 1>This has been extremely difficult UM in me processing my thoughts,

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<v Speaker 1>my feelings, my emotions, and UM my outrage specifically over

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<v Speaker 1>this past week. UM. I am grateful for those with

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<v Speaker 1>platforms who could come forward quickly and articulate their thoughts

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<v Speaker 1>and emotions. UM. You guys know that I share this

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<v Speaker 1>platform with my co host Wheezy UM, and she was

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<v Speaker 1>able to articulate her feelings in a manner quicker than

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<v Speaker 1>I could. We are both completely different individuals and UM

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<v Speaker 1>in the way we process things are different, as you

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<v Speaker 1>guys have been able to see. For those of you

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<v Speaker 1>who have listened to us over these years, UM, it

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<v Speaker 1>kind of saddens me that there have been questions on

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<v Speaker 1>what side I am on. UM. I have simultaneously been

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<v Speaker 1>fighting so many fights, guys. I've been fighting for the

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<v Speaker 1>rights of the lgbt Q women's rights standing along with

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<v Speaker 1>Me Too movement, Sexual ass lot awareness, but most importantly

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<v Speaker 1>fighting for the lives of my people, making sure that

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<v Speaker 1>this is a black ass show for the black community,

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<v Speaker 1>for my people, my cousins, my friends, my aunt's and

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<v Speaker 1>my uncle. I'm stop being able to get through this

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<v Speaker 1>without crying. One moment, I'll be back again. We share

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<v Speaker 1>different thoughts, and I want to say that I am

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<v Speaker 1>not going to make this a POC conversation. This is

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<v Speaker 1>not a people of color conversation. To our Latina, Indian,

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<v Speaker 1>Asian and every person of color that listens to any

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<v Speaker 1>platform or follows me, I'm sorry, but this is our fight.

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<v Speaker 1>Our black men and women are dying at the hands

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<v Speaker 1>of these blue uniforms. Furthermore, as far as processing this

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<v Speaker 1>and what's been going on, George Floyd deserves to be here.

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<v Speaker 1>He was a truck driver, he moved to Minnesota for

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<v Speaker 1>a better life, and my heart his ache for Stephen Jackson,

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<v Speaker 1>who I know personally. So to see that man on

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<v Speaker 1>TV in pain seeking justice for losing his brother and

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<v Speaker 1>knowing that it could have been any of our beloved

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<v Speaker 1>friends and family members, but knowing feeling that pain and

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<v Speaker 1>feeling almost directly tied like I feel that I've been

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<v Speaker 1>fighting as a black woman, and over the last few days,

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<v Speaker 1>there has been confusion with being raised by a white

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<v Speaker 1>woman because of all of this race tension has caused

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<v Speaker 1>confusion with what me and my sisters and my cousins

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<v Speaker 1>and my family, and what I tell my mom. She

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<v Speaker 1>wanted to go protests, and my sister was just like,

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<v Speaker 1>and I know my mom is fighting for me and

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<v Speaker 1>every other black person out here. But then I see

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<v Speaker 1>Trump flags and I see Blue Lives Matters flags waving

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<v Speaker 1>in the fucking win by these white people, and so

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<v Speaker 1>then it's just but they're not the same people, But

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<v Speaker 1>aren't they? But are they not? And I don't know. Then,

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<v Speaker 1>as a black woman, I'm filled with also anger at

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<v Speaker 1>the selective outrage of our own people. Right now, people

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<v Speaker 1>ran two point to three miles in solidarity with a

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<v Speaker 1>mod are very diet. We're marching the streets now nationwide

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<v Speaker 1>to protest the murder of George Floyd. Yet we have

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<v Speaker 1>barely shed a tear or seen protests in the name

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<v Speaker 1>of Brianna Taylor, say her name. She didn't think she

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<v Speaker 1>would be at risk in her own home. And on

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<v Speaker 1>March thirteen, guys, this June, on March thirteen, Taylor was

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<v Speaker 1>fatally shot by police in Kentucky and her own home.

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<v Speaker 1>Say her name, Brianna Taylor, Black women, black men, say

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<v Speaker 1>her name. George Floyd's last words were cried for his mom.

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<v Speaker 1>In his final moments, he called out to his mama,

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<v Speaker 1>this fight is for us. One moment. Please. After I'm

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<v Speaker 1>Okay was assassinated, about a hundred and ten cities across

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<v Speaker 1>the country started to riot, causing millions of dollars in damage.

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<v Speaker 1>On the sixth day of the riots, the Civil Rights

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<v Speaker 1>Act of nineteen sixty eight was passed. When Rosa Parks

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<v Speaker 1>refused to give her seat up for a white man,

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<v Speaker 1>black people stopped taking the bus. They came together and

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<v Speaker 1>car pulled and walked for three hundred and a d

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<v Speaker 1>one days. That's over a year. Most of those boast

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<v Speaker 1>companies collapsed and the government had to intervene. Years ago

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<v Speaker 1>this week, four l A policemen were acquitted in the

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<v Speaker 1>Rodney King beating. During those five days, fifty riot deaths

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<v Speaker 1>was resulted, including ten people who were shot and killed

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<v Speaker 1>by lap D and the National Guardsmen. More than two

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<v Speaker 1>thousand people were injured and the only six thousand people

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<v Speaker 1>were arrested. I am not here to tell you not

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<v Speaker 1>to protest. I am not, but please be safe, be safe,

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<v Speaker 1>Pray for your loved ones, Hug them, tell them you

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<v Speaker 1>love them. We are leaving our houses, not knowing if

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<v Speaker 1>we're going to return. Mhm, Riot Lou. Fuck these corporations.

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<v Speaker 1>Fuck them were bad enough. This year has been a

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<v Speaker 1>lot and has completely changed all of our lives forever.

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<v Speaker 1>There's a lot of weight on our shoulders and backs.

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<v Speaker 1>And I'm honestly doing this because I have to with

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<v Speaker 1>this platform. I'm not ready, y'all. I'm fucked up, and

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<v Speaker 1>I do want you all to note that I appreciate

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<v Speaker 1>again everyone who has been able to come out and

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<v Speaker 1>articulate this. But again, this is affected all of us

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<v Speaker 1>very differently. This, this pandemic has affected my mental health

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<v Speaker 1>in ways that I don't know how to fix. The

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<v Speaker 1>constant videos of black men losing their lives is continuously

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<v Speaker 1>being shown, and it's called cause trauma and triggered me

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<v Speaker 1>in ways that I cannot explain. I I shared with you, guys,

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<v Speaker 1>um On Horrible Decisions about a year ago, my experience

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<v Speaker 1>in Europe, and if if you guys go back in

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<v Speaker 1>the episodes, I realized how much trauma. Seeing these videos

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<v Speaker 1>and seeing these men die, this is all very heavy

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<v Speaker 1>for me. And while many of you feel entitled to

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<v Speaker 1>hear my thoughts and for me to be transparent, because

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<v Speaker 1>this is who I've been over the last three and

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<v Speaker 1>a half years and beyond on public platform, I am exhausted.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm hurting, and I'm full of pain. For everyone that

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<v Speaker 1>I call my friend, cousin, brother, father, listener, member of

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<v Speaker 1>the hive, soulmate, niece, nephew, and everyone else who's fighting

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<v Speaker 1>this fight. I've had enough, and we're all human and

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<v Speaker 1>process things differently, and I'm on here to ask for

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<v Speaker 1>you guys to respect that. I don't even know how

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<v Speaker 1>to make this lighthearted, but y'all know I'm not the

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<v Speaker 1>emo one of the bunch, but this is how I've

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<v Speaker 1>been having these conversations. MM. So when you guys want

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<v Speaker 1>me to get out here and speak, please no. This

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<v Speaker 1>is how I am processing things right now. And while

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<v Speaker 1>I did not want to give this speech just yet

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<v Speaker 1>because I have not been ready, I know that you

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<v Speaker 1>guys and many people wanted to know where I stood,

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<v Speaker 1>and this is where I stand. I was speaking to

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<v Speaker 1>a friend shortly before recording this and She said that

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<v Speaker 1>she is struggling with the fact that she feels that

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<v Speaker 1>she hasn't taught her daughter enough of our history, which

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<v Speaker 1>is why I wanted to shed some light on some

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<v Speaker 1>of the history. This is not new, guys, this is

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<v Speaker 1>not new. And as a podcaster, as someone who's been

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<v Speaker 1>on social media, as someone who has lived life as

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<v Speaker 1>a black woman, this is not new. H m hm.

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<v Speaker 1>And just know that this fight is not over. But

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<v Speaker 1>if you can, if you want to know what to do,

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<v Speaker 1>teach the people around you. Read, learn, and share what

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<v Speaker 1>you are able to gather about this fight, because it's

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<v Speaker 1>not over and they have tried to keep our history

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<v Speaker 1>from us. They have and now we're making it and

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<v Speaker 1>we're living it. So if you don't know what to do, learn, read,

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<v Speaker 1>and teach. I will be putting links in the description

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<v Speaker 1>of this for you to make a difference and sign

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<v Speaker 1>petitions and donate. But I please respect that I'm a

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<v Speaker 1>human and although I have this platform, I am processing this.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm trying. We're all trying. Thank you.