Speaker 1: O, Hi everybody. UM, I feel like I have to
Speaker 1: speak like right now, UM, and I just want to
Speaker 1: say UM like this has been very heavy. I am
Speaker 1: angry and I UM, for probably the first time in
Speaker 1: my life, do not know what to say ironically, UM,
Speaker 1: or what to do to make you feel better. UM.
Speaker 1: This has been extremely difficult UM in me processing my thoughts,
Speaker 1: my feelings, my emotions, and UM my outrage specifically over
Speaker 1: this past week. UM. I am grateful for those with
Speaker 1: platforms who could come forward quickly and articulate their thoughts
Speaker 1: and emotions. UM. You guys know that I share this
Speaker 1: platform with my co host Wheezy UM, and she was
Speaker 1: able to articulate her feelings in a manner quicker than
Speaker 1: I could. We are both completely different individuals and UM
Speaker 1: in the way we process things are different, as you
Speaker 1: guys have been able to see. For those of you
Speaker 1: who have listened to us over these years, UM, it
Speaker 1: kind of saddens me that there have been questions on
Speaker 1: what side I am on. UM. I have simultaneously been
Speaker 1: fighting so many fights, guys. I've been fighting for the
Speaker 1: rights of the lgbt Q women's rights standing along with
Speaker 1: Me Too movement, Sexual ass lot awareness, but most importantly
Speaker 1: fighting for the lives of my people, making sure that
Speaker 1: this is a black ass show for the black community,
Speaker 1: for my people, my cousins, my friends, my aunt's and
Speaker 1: my uncle. I'm stop being able to get through this
Speaker 1: without crying. One moment, I'll be back again. We share
Speaker 1: different thoughts, and I want to say that I am
Speaker 1: not going to make this a POC conversation. This is
Speaker 1: not a people of color conversation. To our Latina, Indian,
Speaker 1: Asian and every person of color that listens to any
Speaker 1: platform or follows me, I'm sorry, but this is our fight.
Speaker 1: Our black men and women are dying at the hands
Speaker 1: of these blue uniforms. Furthermore, as far as processing this
Speaker 1: and what's been going on, George Floyd deserves to be here.
Speaker 1: He was a truck driver, he moved to Minnesota for
Speaker 1: a better life, and my heart his ache for Stephen Jackson,
Speaker 1: who I know personally. So to see that man on
Speaker 1: TV in pain seeking justice for losing his brother and
Speaker 1: knowing that it could have been any of our beloved
Speaker 1: friends and family members, but knowing feeling that pain and
Speaker 1: feeling almost directly tied like I feel that I've been
Speaker 1: fighting as a black woman, and over the last few days,
Speaker 1: there has been confusion with being raised by a white
Speaker 1: woman because of all of this race tension has caused
Speaker 1: confusion with what me and my sisters and my cousins
Speaker 1: and my family, and what I tell my mom. She
Speaker 1: wanted to go protests, and my sister was just like,
Speaker 1: and I know my mom is fighting for me and
Speaker 1: every other black person out here. But then I see
Speaker 1: Trump flags and I see Blue Lives Matters flags waving
Speaker 1: in the fucking win by these white people, and so
Speaker 1: then it's just but they're not the same people, But
Speaker 1: aren't they? But are they not? And I don't know. Then,
Speaker 1: as a black woman, I'm filled with also anger at
Speaker 1: the selective outrage of our own people. Right now, people
Speaker 1: ran two point to three miles in solidarity with a
Speaker 1: mod are very diet. We're marching the streets now nationwide
Speaker 1: to protest the murder of George Floyd. Yet we have
Speaker 1: barely shed a tear or seen protests in the name
Speaker 1: of Brianna Taylor, say her name. She didn't think she
Speaker 1: would be at risk in her own home. And on
Speaker 1: March thirteen, guys, this June, on March thirteen, Taylor was
Speaker 1: fatally shot by police in Kentucky and her own home.
Speaker 1: Say her name, Brianna Taylor, Black women, black men, say
Speaker 1: her name. George Floyd's last words were cried for his mom.
Speaker 1: In his final moments, he called out to his mama,
Speaker 1: this fight is for us. One moment. Please. After I'm
Speaker 1: Okay was assassinated, about a hundred and ten cities across
Speaker 1: the country started to riot, causing millions of dollars in damage.
Speaker 1: On the sixth day of the riots, the Civil Rights
Speaker 1: Act of nineteen sixty eight was passed. When Rosa Parks
Speaker 1: refused to give her seat up for a white man,
Speaker 1: black people stopped taking the bus. They came together and
Speaker 1: car pulled and walked for three hundred and a d
Speaker 1: one days. That's over a year. Most of those boast
Speaker 1: companies collapsed and the government had to intervene. Years ago
Speaker 1: this week, four l A policemen were acquitted in the
Speaker 1: Rodney King beating. During those five days, fifty riot deaths
Speaker 1: was resulted, including ten people who were shot and killed
Speaker 1: by lap D and the National Guardsmen. More than two
Speaker 1: thousand people were injured and the only six thousand people
Speaker 1: were arrested. I am not here to tell you not
Speaker 1: to protest. I am not, but please be safe, be safe,
Speaker 1: Pray for your loved ones, Hug them, tell them you
Speaker 1: love them. We are leaving our houses, not knowing if
Speaker 1: we're going to return. Mhm, Riot Lou. Fuck these corporations.
Speaker 1: Fuck them were bad enough. This year has been a
Speaker 1: lot and has completely changed all of our lives forever.
Speaker 1: There's a lot of weight on our shoulders and backs.
Speaker 1: And I'm honestly doing this because I have to with
Speaker 1: this platform. I'm not ready, y'all. I'm fucked up, and
Speaker 1: I do want you all to note that I appreciate
Speaker 1: again everyone who has been able to come out and
Speaker 1: articulate this. But again, this is affected all of us
Speaker 1: very differently. This, this pandemic has affected my mental health
Speaker 1: in ways that I don't know how to fix. The
Speaker 1: constant videos of black men losing their lives is continuously
Speaker 1: being shown, and it's called cause trauma and triggered me
Speaker 1: in ways that I cannot explain. I I shared with you, guys,
Speaker 1: um On Horrible Decisions about a year ago, my experience
Speaker 1: in Europe, and if if you guys go back in
Speaker 1: the episodes, I realized how much trauma. Seeing these videos
Speaker 1: and seeing these men die, this is all very heavy
Speaker 1: for me. And while many of you feel entitled to
Speaker 1: hear my thoughts and for me to be transparent, because
Speaker 1: this is who I've been over the last three and
Speaker 1: a half years and beyond on public platform, I am exhausted.
Speaker 1: I'm hurting, and I'm full of pain. For everyone that
Speaker 1: I call my friend, cousin, brother, father, listener, member of
Speaker 1: the hive, soulmate, niece, nephew, and everyone else who's fighting
Speaker 1: this fight. I've had enough, and we're all human and
Speaker 1: process things differently, and I'm on here to ask for
Speaker 1: you guys to respect that. I don't even know how
Speaker 1: to make this lighthearted, but y'all know I'm not the
Speaker 1: emo one of the bunch, but this is how I've
Speaker 1: been having these conversations. MM. So when you guys want
Speaker 1: me to get out here and speak, please no. This
Speaker 1: is how I am processing things right now. And while
Speaker 1: I did not want to give this speech just yet
Speaker 1: because I have not been ready, I know that you
Speaker 1: guys and many people wanted to know where I stood,
Speaker 1: and this is where I stand. I was speaking to
Speaker 1: a friend shortly before recording this and She said that
Speaker 1: she is struggling with the fact that she feels that
Speaker 1: she hasn't taught her daughter enough of our history, which
Speaker 1: is why I wanted to shed some light on some
Speaker 1: of the history. This is not new, guys, this is
Speaker 1: not new. And as a podcaster, as someone who's been
Speaker 1: on social media, as someone who has lived life as
Speaker 1: a black woman, this is not new. H m hm.
Speaker 1: And just know that this fight is not over. But
Speaker 1: if you can, if you want to know what to do,
Speaker 1: teach the people around you. Read, learn, and share what
Speaker 1: you are able to gather about this fight, because it's
Speaker 1: not over and they have tried to keep our history
Speaker 1: from us. They have and now we're making it and
Speaker 1: we're living it. So if you don't know what to do, learn, read,
Speaker 1: and teach. I will be putting links in the description
Speaker 1: of this for you to make a difference and sign
Speaker 1: petitions and donate. But I please respect that I'm a
Speaker 1: human and although I have this platform, I am processing this.
Speaker 1: I'm trying. We're all trying. Thank you.