1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:09,360 Speaker 1: O, Hi everybody. UM, I feel like I have to 2 00:00:09,600 --> 00:00:14,320 Speaker 1: speak like right now, UM, and I just want to 3 00:00:14,360 --> 00:00:25,640 Speaker 1: say UM like this has been very heavy. I am 4 00:00:25,680 --> 00:00:33,720 Speaker 1: angry and I UM, for probably the first time in 5 00:00:33,760 --> 00:00:38,080 Speaker 1: my life, do not know what to say ironically, UM, 6 00:00:38,200 --> 00:00:41,680 Speaker 1: or what to do to make you feel better. UM. 7 00:00:41,720 --> 00:00:48,239 Speaker 1: This has been extremely difficult UM in me processing my thoughts, 8 00:00:50,280 --> 00:00:58,080 Speaker 1: my feelings, my emotions, and UM my outrage specifically over 9 00:00:58,120 --> 00:01:02,840 Speaker 1: this past week. UM. I am grateful for those with 10 00:01:03,080 --> 00:01:08,479 Speaker 1: platforms who could come forward quickly and articulate their thoughts 11 00:01:08,480 --> 00:01:12,800 Speaker 1: and emotions. UM. You guys know that I share this 12 00:01:12,920 --> 00:01:18,920 Speaker 1: platform with my co host Wheezy UM, and she was 13 00:01:19,040 --> 00:01:25,200 Speaker 1: able to articulate her feelings in a manner quicker than 14 00:01:25,319 --> 00:01:31,960 Speaker 1: I could. We are both completely different individuals and UM 15 00:01:31,959 --> 00:01:35,120 Speaker 1: in the way we process things are different, as you 16 00:01:35,160 --> 00:01:38,119 Speaker 1: guys have been able to see. For those of you 17 00:01:38,920 --> 00:01:43,520 Speaker 1: who have listened to us over these years, UM, it 18 00:01:43,600 --> 00:01:47,040 Speaker 1: kind of saddens me that there have been questions on 19 00:01:47,080 --> 00:01:54,280 Speaker 1: what side I am on. UM. I have simultaneously been 20 00:01:54,360 --> 00:01:57,880 Speaker 1: fighting so many fights, guys. I've been fighting for the 21 00:01:58,000 --> 00:02:02,920 Speaker 1: rights of the lgbt Q women's rights standing along with 22 00:02:03,040 --> 00:02:08,320 Speaker 1: Me Too movement, Sexual ass lot awareness, but most importantly 23 00:02:08,400 --> 00:02:12,440 Speaker 1: fighting for the lives of my people, making sure that 24 00:02:12,480 --> 00:02:18,679 Speaker 1: this is a black ass show for the black community, 25 00:02:19,040 --> 00:02:23,919 Speaker 1: for my people, my cousins, my friends, my aunt's and 26 00:02:24,000 --> 00:02:28,720 Speaker 1: my uncle. I'm stop being able to get through this 27 00:02:29,240 --> 00:02:37,359 Speaker 1: without crying. One moment, I'll be back again. We share 28 00:02:37,600 --> 00:02:41,600 Speaker 1: different thoughts, and I want to say that I am 29 00:02:41,600 --> 00:02:46,440 Speaker 1: not going to make this a POC conversation. This is 30 00:02:46,440 --> 00:02:52,200 Speaker 1: not a people of color conversation. To our Latina, Indian, 31 00:02:52,440 --> 00:02:57,680 Speaker 1: Asian and every person of color that listens to any 32 00:02:57,720 --> 00:03:04,200 Speaker 1: platform or follows me, I'm sorry, but this is our fight. 33 00:03:05,680 --> 00:03:09,359 Speaker 1: Our black men and women are dying at the hands 34 00:03:09,360 --> 00:03:15,280 Speaker 1: of these blue uniforms. Furthermore, as far as processing this 35 00:03:17,320 --> 00:03:23,160 Speaker 1: and what's been going on, George Floyd deserves to be here. 36 00:03:24,320 --> 00:03:27,080 Speaker 1: He was a truck driver, he moved to Minnesota for 37 00:03:27,120 --> 00:03:31,360 Speaker 1: a better life, and my heart his ache for Stephen Jackson, 38 00:03:31,400 --> 00:03:35,200 Speaker 1: who I know personally. So to see that man on 39 00:03:35,280 --> 00:03:41,440 Speaker 1: TV in pain seeking justice for losing his brother and 40 00:03:41,520 --> 00:03:44,840 Speaker 1: knowing that it could have been any of our beloved 41 00:03:44,840 --> 00:03:52,280 Speaker 1: friends and family members, but knowing feeling that pain and 42 00:03:52,360 --> 00:04:02,560 Speaker 1: feeling almost directly tied like I feel that I've been 43 00:04:02,600 --> 00:04:07,240 Speaker 1: fighting as a black woman, and over the last few days, 44 00:04:07,680 --> 00:04:16,039 Speaker 1: there has been confusion with being raised by a white 45 00:04:16,040 --> 00:04:22,000 Speaker 1: woman because of all of this race tension has caused 46 00:04:22,000 --> 00:04:27,720 Speaker 1: confusion with what me and my sisters and my cousins 47 00:04:29,360 --> 00:04:35,480 Speaker 1: and my family, and what I tell my mom. She 48 00:04:35,600 --> 00:04:38,680 Speaker 1: wanted to go protests, and my sister was just like, 49 00:04:40,520 --> 00:04:45,600 Speaker 1: and I know my mom is fighting for me and 50 00:04:45,800 --> 00:04:48,520 Speaker 1: every other black person out here. But then I see 51 00:04:48,600 --> 00:04:54,480 Speaker 1: Trump flags and I see Blue Lives Matters flags waving 52 00:04:55,680 --> 00:04:59,200 Speaker 1: in the fucking win by these white people, and so 53 00:04:59,279 --> 00:05:03,200 Speaker 1: then it's just but they're not the same people, But 54 00:05:03,320 --> 00:05:15,880 Speaker 1: aren't they? But are they not? And I don't know. Then, 55 00:05:15,920 --> 00:05:19,880 Speaker 1: as a black woman, I'm filled with also anger at 56 00:05:19,920 --> 00:05:25,360 Speaker 1: the selective outrage of our own people. Right now, people 57 00:05:25,480 --> 00:05:29,200 Speaker 1: ran two point to three miles in solidarity with a 58 00:05:29,279 --> 00:05:33,880 Speaker 1: mod are very diet. We're marching the streets now nationwide 59 00:05:33,880 --> 00:05:38,719 Speaker 1: to protest the murder of George Floyd. Yet we have 60 00:05:38,800 --> 00:05:42,920 Speaker 1: barely shed a tear or seen protests in the name 61 00:05:42,920 --> 00:05:51,040 Speaker 1: of Brianna Taylor, say her name. She didn't think she 62 00:05:51,040 --> 00:05:53,800 Speaker 1: would be at risk in her own home. And on 63 00:05:53,920 --> 00:05:59,200 Speaker 1: March thirteen, guys, this June, on March thirteen, Taylor was 64 00:05:59,279 --> 00:06:03,480 Speaker 1: fatally shot by police in Kentucky and her own home. 65 00:06:06,160 --> 00:06:13,359 Speaker 1: Say her name, Brianna Taylor, Black women, black men, say 66 00:06:13,480 --> 00:06:20,880 Speaker 1: her name. George Floyd's last words were cried for his mom. 67 00:06:20,920 --> 00:06:23,279 Speaker 1: In his final moments, he called out to his mama, 68 00:06:25,080 --> 00:06:34,520 Speaker 1: this fight is for us. One moment. Please. After I'm 69 00:06:34,520 --> 00:06:37,840 Speaker 1: Okay was assassinated, about a hundred and ten cities across 70 00:06:37,839 --> 00:06:41,560 Speaker 1: the country started to riot, causing millions of dollars in damage. 71 00:06:42,880 --> 00:06:45,520 Speaker 1: On the sixth day of the riots, the Civil Rights 72 00:06:45,520 --> 00:06:50,400 Speaker 1: Act of nineteen sixty eight was passed. When Rosa Parks 73 00:06:50,440 --> 00:06:52,880 Speaker 1: refused to give her seat up for a white man, 74 00:06:53,200 --> 00:06:56,960 Speaker 1: black people stopped taking the bus. They came together and 75 00:06:57,040 --> 00:06:59,400 Speaker 1: car pulled and walked for three hundred and a d 76 00:06:59,600 --> 00:07:04,760 Speaker 1: one days. That's over a year. Most of those boast 77 00:07:04,839 --> 00:07:11,440 Speaker 1: companies collapsed and the government had to intervene. Years ago 78 00:07:11,480 --> 00:07:14,200 Speaker 1: this week, four l A policemen were acquitted in the 79 00:07:14,320 --> 00:07:18,720 Speaker 1: Rodney King beating. During those five days, fifty riot deaths 80 00:07:18,760 --> 00:07:22,080 Speaker 1: was resulted, including ten people who were shot and killed 81 00:07:22,080 --> 00:07:25,120 Speaker 1: by lap D and the National Guardsmen. More than two 82 00:07:25,160 --> 00:07:27,880 Speaker 1: thousand people were injured and the only six thousand people 83 00:07:27,880 --> 00:07:29,840 Speaker 1: were arrested. I am not here to tell you not 84 00:07:29,920 --> 00:07:36,640 Speaker 1: to protest. I am not, but please be safe, be safe, 85 00:07:37,720 --> 00:07:41,440 Speaker 1: Pray for your loved ones, Hug them, tell them you 86 00:07:41,520 --> 00:07:49,160 Speaker 1: love them. We are leaving our houses, not knowing if 87 00:07:49,160 --> 00:08:04,360 Speaker 1: we're going to return. Mhm, Riot Lou. Fuck these corporations. 88 00:08:04,360 --> 00:08:10,120 Speaker 1: Fuck them were bad enough. This year has been a 89 00:08:10,120 --> 00:08:16,160 Speaker 1: lot and has completely changed all of our lives forever. 90 00:08:18,120 --> 00:08:22,560 Speaker 1: There's a lot of weight on our shoulders and backs. 91 00:08:25,000 --> 00:08:32,280 Speaker 1: And I'm honestly doing this because I have to with 92 00:08:32,400 --> 00:08:39,280 Speaker 1: this platform. I'm not ready, y'all. I'm fucked up, and 93 00:08:39,400 --> 00:08:42,400 Speaker 1: I do want you all to note that I appreciate 94 00:08:43,520 --> 00:08:48,440 Speaker 1: again everyone who has been able to come out and 95 00:08:48,559 --> 00:08:54,320 Speaker 1: articulate this. But again, this is affected all of us 96 00:08:54,440 --> 00:08:59,520 Speaker 1: very differently. This, this pandemic has affected my mental health 97 00:09:00,360 --> 00:09:03,360 Speaker 1: in ways that I don't know how to fix. The 98 00:09:03,520 --> 00:09:09,120 Speaker 1: constant videos of black men losing their lives is continuously 99 00:09:09,160 --> 00:09:14,320 Speaker 1: being shown, and it's called cause trauma and triggered me 100 00:09:14,360 --> 00:09:20,480 Speaker 1: in ways that I cannot explain. I I shared with you, guys, 101 00:09:21,320 --> 00:09:25,000 Speaker 1: um On Horrible Decisions about a year ago, my experience 102 00:09:25,240 --> 00:09:30,600 Speaker 1: in Europe, and if if you guys go back in 103 00:09:30,640 --> 00:09:40,000 Speaker 1: the episodes, I realized how much trauma. Seeing these videos 104 00:09:40,080 --> 00:09:47,480 Speaker 1: and seeing these men die, this is all very heavy 105 00:09:47,520 --> 00:09:50,840 Speaker 1: for me. And while many of you feel entitled to 106 00:09:50,880 --> 00:09:54,480 Speaker 1: hear my thoughts and for me to be transparent, because 107 00:09:54,480 --> 00:09:57,079 Speaker 1: this is who I've been over the last three and 108 00:09:57,120 --> 00:10:03,080 Speaker 1: a half years and beyond on public platform, I am exhausted. 109 00:10:03,920 --> 00:10:08,199 Speaker 1: I'm hurting, and I'm full of pain. For everyone that 110 00:10:08,240 --> 00:10:14,360 Speaker 1: I call my friend, cousin, brother, father, listener, member of 111 00:10:14,400 --> 00:10:19,080 Speaker 1: the hive, soulmate, niece, nephew, and everyone else who's fighting 112 00:10:19,120 --> 00:10:22,520 Speaker 1: this fight. I've had enough, and we're all human and 113 00:10:22,600 --> 00:10:26,920 Speaker 1: process things differently, and I'm on here to ask for 114 00:10:26,960 --> 00:10:31,679 Speaker 1: you guys to respect that. I don't even know how 115 00:10:31,720 --> 00:10:35,840 Speaker 1: to make this lighthearted, but y'all know I'm not the 116 00:10:35,920 --> 00:10:44,120 Speaker 1: emo one of the bunch, but this is how I've 117 00:10:44,120 --> 00:10:52,800 Speaker 1: been having these conversations. MM. So when you guys want 118 00:10:52,840 --> 00:10:59,640 Speaker 1: me to get out here and speak, please no. This 119 00:10:59,760 --> 00:11:05,040 Speaker 1: is how I am processing things right now. And while 120 00:11:05,080 --> 00:11:09,800 Speaker 1: I did not want to give this speech just yet 121 00:11:09,960 --> 00:11:12,719 Speaker 1: because I have not been ready, I know that you 122 00:11:12,760 --> 00:11:16,440 Speaker 1: guys and many people wanted to know where I stood, 123 00:11:17,160 --> 00:11:20,920 Speaker 1: and this is where I stand. I was speaking to 124 00:11:21,000 --> 00:11:28,679 Speaker 1: a friend shortly before recording this and She said that 125 00:11:28,720 --> 00:11:31,920 Speaker 1: she is struggling with the fact that she feels that 126 00:11:32,640 --> 00:11:37,280 Speaker 1: she hasn't taught her daughter enough of our history, which 127 00:11:37,400 --> 00:11:39,760 Speaker 1: is why I wanted to shed some light on some 128 00:11:39,960 --> 00:11:44,400 Speaker 1: of the history. This is not new, guys, this is 129 00:11:44,400 --> 00:11:50,679 Speaker 1: not new. And as a podcaster, as someone who's been 130 00:11:50,679 --> 00:11:55,640 Speaker 1: on social media, as someone who has lived life as 131 00:11:56,080 --> 00:12:01,080 Speaker 1: a black woman, this is not new. H m hm. 132 00:12:01,880 --> 00:12:05,320 Speaker 1: And just know that this fight is not over. But 133 00:12:05,440 --> 00:12:07,520 Speaker 1: if you can, if you want to know what to do, 134 00:12:08,440 --> 00:12:15,320 Speaker 1: teach the people around you. Read, learn, and share what 135 00:12:15,600 --> 00:12:19,640 Speaker 1: you are able to gather about this fight, because it's 136 00:12:19,679 --> 00:12:23,840 Speaker 1: not over and they have tried to keep our history 137 00:12:23,960 --> 00:12:31,280 Speaker 1: from us. They have and now we're making it and 138 00:12:31,280 --> 00:12:36,920 Speaker 1: we're living it. So if you don't know what to do, learn, read, 139 00:12:37,000 --> 00:12:46,040 Speaker 1: and teach. I will be putting links in the description 140 00:12:46,760 --> 00:12:51,000 Speaker 1: of this for you to make a difference and sign 141 00:12:51,080 --> 00:13:02,920 Speaker 1: petitions and donate. But I please respect that I'm a 142 00:13:03,000 --> 00:13:09,280 Speaker 1: human and although I have this platform, I am processing this. 143 00:13:12,160 --> 00:13:17,680 Speaker 1: I'm trying. We're all trying. Thank you.