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Speaker 1: The Nicky Glazer Podcast. Nicky Grazer Here, It's Nicky. Hello here,

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Speaker 1: I am Snicki Glazer Podcast. Welcome to the show. I'm

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Speaker 1: Nicky Glazer. I'm in St. Louis, Noah is in Arizona.

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Speaker 1: My mom is here today again. What's up, Julie Glazer? Nikki,

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Speaker 1: thanks for having me. You want to look at me

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Speaker 1: when you say that, you're just looking for just looking

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Speaker 1: straight forward when Nicky listen, I can't move you. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: you're a brandon woman. I'm a broken woman. Yeah, and

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Speaker 1: I forgot that you're broken. That you really did look

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Speaker 1: like a broken woman for a second, like you can

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Speaker 1: only face forward? Is that hurt this way? How are

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Speaker 1: you paying wise? Lately? I'm so much better. Oh my god,

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Speaker 1: that's such good night for what I did last week.

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Speaker 1: Oh well, we'll get to that in a second. But

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Speaker 1: let's bring in our second guest on the show today.

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Speaker 1: I've been wanting to get him in for a long time.

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Speaker 1: He is a long time friend of mine, started out

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Speaker 1: on the St. Louis comedy scene, um many years after

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Speaker 1: I was on it. But he's a to me always

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Speaker 1: like you'll always see you as like a young and

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Speaker 1: kind of so sorry. I'll never like fully respect you

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Speaker 1: can tell. No, He's just he's blossomed into quite a

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Speaker 1: great comedian actually, and he was always good. That's why

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Speaker 1: I liked you in the beginning, because I just saw,

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Speaker 1: like I was like, this kid is so fucking funny.

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Speaker 1: He's my mom's favorite comedian. Early when she used to

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Speaker 1: come to open mic nights, she would always just be like,

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Speaker 1: Bobby jay Cox is the funniest and I would feel

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Speaker 1: a little tinge of jealousy. You know that you're taking

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Speaker 1: something from me. Um liked you more than he liked me,

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Speaker 1: So it's like it just goes back. Remember that. It's

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Speaker 1: just like when you see him all the time, like yeah, yeah,

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Speaker 1: well it's Bobby jay Cox. Everyone by every thanks for

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Speaker 1: having um. I literally just listen to the applause. Man,

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Speaker 1: it's so nice time, audience. Jay Cox is your last name?

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Speaker 1: Jacox is my last nime? How many people think your

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Speaker 1: name is Bobby ja so many people And people will

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Speaker 1: be like, that's a cool stage name. I'm like, you

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Speaker 1: thought that's what I picked for my stage name. Do

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Speaker 1: they have big plans for you? They did not. They

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Speaker 1: wanted me to do pretty much anything else, but this,

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Speaker 1: but now, yeah, anytime I get like something like good

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Speaker 1: when I'm like I'm going on the road with Nikki,

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Speaker 1: or like whenever I first started, that was when they

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Speaker 1: were like, okay, that's what always happened. Yeah, it takes

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Speaker 1: a long time for them, like for them to understand.

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Speaker 1: And now my mom just when she wants talk about

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Speaker 1: stand up, she was like, Bobby, I've been watching more

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Speaker 1: stand up and I go, oh, really, She goes, what

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Speaker 1: do you think about Pete David's and tear you like

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Speaker 1: it earlier or not? I'm like, mom, that's like the

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Speaker 1: last thing I think about with stand up. She's like,

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Speaker 1: let's talk about comedy and let's talk about it. Grow out.

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Speaker 1: Oh yeah, I grew it out during COVID and I

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Speaker 1: just can't. I don't want to cut it. And people

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Speaker 1: are not nice about it. People like because I was

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Speaker 1: like I would hand out like a business card. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: and I'll like show them a picture I had before,

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Speaker 1: like at a club, they'll put up my old photo

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Speaker 1: and people will look at that and they'll be like,

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Speaker 1: you look like a model here, and I go thanks.

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Speaker 1: They go no, no, no, not, but there you look

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Speaker 1: like a model, Like, don't take it now I'm not

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Speaker 1: giving you now he would people do that? Yeah, I

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Speaker 1: think I look better with short hair, but I feel

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Speaker 1: better with long hair, Like I like, I like the

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Speaker 1: feeling of it, Like it's just interesting. Usually those two

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Speaker 1: way you feel. We are so are so tied together

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Speaker 1: in our society. But not for this girl. Um, you

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Speaker 1: do have beautiful hair. It's almost like you have the

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Speaker 1: Rachel going on. There's like intentional like layers there. I mean,

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Speaker 1: like his hair is almost like yeah, I mean you know,

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Speaker 1: he's got more hair than I do. Here's the problem.

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Speaker 1: I had my ex cut my hair and so she

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Speaker 1: actually left. She tried to do framing around my face.

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Speaker 1: So when I put up in a ponytail, I look

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Speaker 1: like like just like any woman going on a job,

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Speaker 1: just read something recently that was like, don't take cut

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Speaker 1: going to use those on his tender profile at six spots.

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Speaker 1: I My boyfriend would never do that to me. He's

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Speaker 1: he's almost too conscious conscious of like doing anything like

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Speaker 1: he's almost We've been together often on for nine years

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Speaker 1: and he's still like paying respect to his exes before

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Speaker 1: they have kids and families. You can post about me now.

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Speaker 1: I love Chris. I love seeing how sweetie is. I

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Speaker 1: love seeing him on the podcast with you. He'll just

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Speaker 1: see sitting there and be like, like how he talks

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Speaker 1: to you? You have like the guy. Yes, I mean

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Speaker 1: I feel that way too, but that's really nice. Yes,

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Speaker 1: people notice it, and he's he always makes everyone else

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Speaker 1: Like when I show up and see you guys, he

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Speaker 1: always makes me feel included. Like Chris, he's a very

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Speaker 1: sweet person. There's something in that. The Convi family, they're

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Speaker 1: all the sweethearts. Yeah, they're all really nice. And I

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Speaker 1: everyone feel good. He's not like he's no here too

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Speaker 1: cool for literally anyone. If whatever is, it's just because

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Speaker 1: it's tired or something. What was it like spending Thanksgiving

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Speaker 1: with them with his family? Um, Well, we didn't spend

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Speaker 1: Thanksgiving the meal together, but he did come to um.

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Speaker 1: working on Beauty and the Beast which airs December fifteen.

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Speaker 1: Definitely checked that out on ABC UM and so I

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Speaker 1: haven't seen him at all. But he we spent Thanksgiving

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Speaker 1: rent out a uh, what is it called paddle paddle

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Speaker 1: And it was nice because I go to that every

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Speaker 1: single year. They do it every year before Thanksgiving night before,

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Speaker 1: but I've never gotten bring my family before. It was

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Speaker 1: the story was not really appropriate for the setting, you know,

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Speaker 1: it. It It was so fun. I mean it was you

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Speaker 1: sang a song probably seven different times to sue the baby,

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Speaker 1: so tim my mom has a secret song that she sings,

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Speaker 1: and the baby just is hypnotized that it was insane.

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Speaker 1: my instagrams. I can't watch everywhere on them most of

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Speaker 1: literally you are Pet's true behind Brian glasses to do it.

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Speaker 1: But you you played paddle tennis. You was soothed this

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Speaker 1: My mom ran into a fence. I'm very competitive. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: beautiful when you pad, you're beautiful. It was hey babe.

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Speaker 1: Exactly one time we called that and he said, hey babe.

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Speaker 1: And it's been a long running joke. He's allowed to

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Speaker 1: he does call he won't call me babe? Does he

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Speaker 1: it's a term of phrase that comes out my girlfriends

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Speaker 1: what's the word for when you take over some things?

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Speaker 1: What do they call it? When you wear like dreadlocks

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Speaker 1: as a white person appropriating pig culture? So that's what

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Speaker 1: I've never really gotten answer. I call him babe, but

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Speaker 1: it will not it won't get rong. It's just too

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Speaker 1: embarrassing to be like, hey, will you call me, babe.

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Speaker 1: I think he had heard you said. You've said this

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Speaker 1: already well loud and clear. Chris, if you're listening, would

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Speaker 1: really like a babe. He doesn't listen to this show. No,

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Speaker 1: but I've called Andrew babe a couple times because I'm

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Speaker 1: want to say about that. Oh, I did see someone

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00:20:18,560 --> 00:20:20,879
Speaker 1: at the parade that I knew from high school. Alex

425
00:20:20,920 --> 00:20:23,520
Speaker 1: Schwartz shout out to him. Um, all of a sudden,

426
00:20:23,560 --> 00:20:26,680
Speaker 1: I just heard like NICKI and like, I turned and

427
00:20:26,880 --> 00:20:29,320
Speaker 1: I was he sounded much more masculine than that. But

428
00:20:29,400 --> 00:20:31,600
Speaker 1: I turned and it was Alex, and I was like, Alex.

429
00:20:31,680 --> 00:20:33,400
Speaker 1: It was this guy that I like knew very well

430
00:20:33,480 --> 00:20:36,040
Speaker 1: in high school. We called him Bona for some reason,

431
00:20:36,200 --> 00:20:38,400
Speaker 1: not because he got bonus, but we were just like Bona.

432
00:20:38,600 --> 00:20:40,560
Speaker 1: We just always just call him Bona. I don't know

433
00:20:40,640 --> 00:20:44,000
Speaker 1: why he does. There's no reason he didn't get bonus.

434
00:20:44,119 --> 00:20:46,680
Speaker 1: There was nothing about like. We just called him Bona

435
00:20:47,160 --> 00:20:50,320
Speaker 1: b O n A H. And So I saw him

436
00:20:50,359 --> 00:20:53,240
Speaker 1: and he looked amazing like he looked. I was so

437
00:20:53,320 --> 00:20:55,639
Speaker 1: proud of myself to identify him because he looked exactly mean,

438
00:20:55,680 --> 00:20:58,920
Speaker 1: this is twenty years after. He looked exactly the same.

439
00:20:59,520 --> 00:21:02,360
Speaker 1: And I was like, Hex, are you going on Saturday?

440
00:21:02,359 --> 00:21:04,920
Speaker 1: Because my twenty year reunion was Saturday and this was

441
00:21:05,000 --> 00:21:07,000
Speaker 1: on you know, this is Thanksgiving Day? And I go

442
00:21:07,080 --> 00:21:09,560
Speaker 1: are you going in Saturday And he's like, I don't know.

443
00:21:09,680 --> 00:21:11,080
Speaker 1: He's there with his family, and I was like, you

444
00:21:11,200 --> 00:21:14,120
Speaker 1: gotta go. You look great, you gotta show that off.

445
00:21:14,359 --> 00:21:16,320
Speaker 1: Like I was like trying, because everyone doesn't want to

446
00:21:16,320 --> 00:21:18,920
Speaker 1: go to the twenty year because they don't know look

447
00:21:19,119 --> 00:21:21,800
Speaker 1: like they want to. They aren't in a place in

448
00:21:21,840 --> 00:21:25,040
Speaker 1: life where they should be. Um. But and I'm shocked

449
00:21:25,080 --> 00:21:27,600
Speaker 1: to say he did show up. I bullied him into

450
00:21:27,680 --> 00:21:30,239
Speaker 1: going and he did go, and I'm so glad. And um,

451
00:21:30,280 --> 00:21:31,800
Speaker 1: I think he's not going to go if you didn't

452
00:21:31,840 --> 00:21:33,920
Speaker 1: say he said no, he was not going to go.

453
00:21:38,560 --> 00:21:40,560
Speaker 1: Especially ten year, I think it's dumb. We have Facebook

454
00:21:40,560 --> 00:21:42,959
Speaker 1: and stuff, But twenty year, I'm so excited to hear

455
00:21:43,000 --> 00:21:46,119
Speaker 1: about did you see who? Like, did you see anybody

456
00:21:46,280 --> 00:21:48,480
Speaker 1: that you were like? You are so made to me

457
00:21:48,520 --> 00:21:50,280
Speaker 1: in high school? Like, did you see anybody that you

458
00:21:50,560 --> 00:21:55,920
Speaker 1: like that you mean to high school? Um? You know.

459
00:21:56,080 --> 00:21:58,200
Speaker 1: It was so when Louisa Lang wrote to me and

460
00:21:58,280 --> 00:22:00,680
Speaker 1: was like, because she saw the she's a comedian in

461
00:22:00,760 --> 00:22:04,240
Speaker 1: New York Younger comic really funny, and she saw me

462
00:22:04,440 --> 00:22:06,760
Speaker 1: like post of me standing next to the twenty year

463
00:22:06,880 --> 00:22:09,560
Speaker 1: reunion sign and she was like this is my life

464
00:22:09,600 --> 00:22:11,479
Speaker 1: goal is to go back to my twenty year reunion

465
00:22:11,520 --> 00:22:13,639
Speaker 1: as a famous comedian. She was like, this is the

466
00:22:13,720 --> 00:22:16,040
Speaker 1: greatest thing I've ever seen, and I was like, it was,

467
00:22:16,520 --> 00:22:19,840
Speaker 1: it was pretty great. There's you know, I really appreciate

468
00:22:19,880 --> 00:22:21,840
Speaker 1: where I am in life, and like, I'm proud of

469
00:22:21,960 --> 00:22:24,640
Speaker 1: myself and all my accomplishments. But there is something about

470
00:22:24,720 --> 00:22:26,960
Speaker 1: that night that I wanted it not to be a thing,

471
00:22:27,440 --> 00:22:30,760
Speaker 1: Like I wanted to not feel like she's here, or

472
00:22:30,880 --> 00:22:33,800
Speaker 1: like I didn't I didn't want to talk about myself.

473
00:22:33,880 --> 00:22:35,639
Speaker 1: I didn't want it to be a big deal. I

474
00:22:35,720 --> 00:22:38,320
Speaker 1: just wanted to be normal. I love being on stage,

475
00:22:38,359 --> 00:22:40,160
Speaker 1: but as soon as you're off, like you like talking people,

476
00:22:40,160 --> 00:22:41,879
Speaker 1: but I don't want I would not want everyone to

477
00:22:41,960 --> 00:22:44,200
Speaker 1: swarm around. And I don't know how it's just different.

478
00:22:44,359 --> 00:22:46,800
Speaker 1: I totally feel the same way, and I used to

479
00:22:46,840 --> 00:22:48,760
Speaker 1: always not think that way, because I used to like

480
00:22:49,080 --> 00:22:52,080
Speaker 1: desperately want to be famous and have people go as

481
00:22:52,920 --> 00:22:55,800
Speaker 1: like that was my dream in high school. And then

482
00:22:55,840 --> 00:22:57,080
Speaker 1: when you get it, you can kind of tone it

483
00:22:57,160 --> 00:22:59,119
Speaker 1: down like in the real world, like you know, I

484
00:22:59,160 --> 00:23:01,200
Speaker 1: mean to turn on stage and then afterwards, like I

485
00:23:01,240 --> 00:23:04,359
Speaker 1: don't have to people think that they don't know, because

486
00:23:04,359 --> 00:23:06,000
Speaker 1: I wouldn't know either. But people are always like, do

487
00:23:06,040 --> 00:23:08,560
Speaker 1: you must get recognized everyone, like it must be a

488
00:23:08,640 --> 00:23:12,000
Speaker 1: lot for you because it's unfairly recognizable now, you know,

489
00:23:12,119 --> 00:23:14,080
Speaker 1: Like I've done enough stuff where it it happens. And

490
00:23:14,440 --> 00:23:16,560
Speaker 1: I think people recognize me more than I know that

491
00:23:16,680 --> 00:23:19,280
Speaker 1: they do because they don't always say something. But I

492
00:23:19,880 --> 00:23:22,640
Speaker 1: love that I do not walk around being like, oh

493
00:23:22,680 --> 00:23:24,400
Speaker 1: my god, people know who I am, like I don't.

494
00:23:24,920 --> 00:23:27,080
Speaker 1: Today I walked to start with, I spilled, I went,

495
00:23:27,240 --> 00:23:29,560
Speaker 1: I went to starts to journal this morning. I got

496
00:23:29,640 --> 00:23:32,120
Speaker 1: my Venti latte extra hot. I put it on the table,

497
00:23:32,200 --> 00:23:34,720
Speaker 1: I sat down, my leg bumped it, and the entire

498
00:23:34,880 --> 00:23:38,520
Speaker 1: thing Venti extra hot, the entire latte spilled on my lap.

499
00:23:38,640 --> 00:23:41,119
Speaker 1: These pants too, they're in good shape. Even the flowers

500
00:23:41,160 --> 00:23:45,560
Speaker 1: didn't get um coffee eat um scalded my legs. And

501
00:23:45,640 --> 00:23:48,359
Speaker 1: I'm just like, and all these people are looking at me,

502
00:23:48,440 --> 00:23:49,760
Speaker 1: and there was not one part of me that was

503
00:23:49,840 --> 00:23:52,399
Speaker 1: like they're gonna think Nicky Glazer. Like it was just

504
00:23:52,480 --> 00:23:54,399
Speaker 1: like I was just a dumb girl, you know, Like,

505
00:23:54,760 --> 00:23:57,880
Speaker 1: and I think that I would have thought that at

506
00:23:57,920 --> 00:24:00,840
Speaker 1: this level, I would always be thinking people know who

507
00:24:00,880 --> 00:24:03,320
Speaker 1: I am, but I don't think about that at all. Yeah,

508
00:24:03,520 --> 00:24:09,040
Speaker 1: apologies kept, and she goes, seriously, stop apologizing. It happens

509
00:24:09,080 --> 00:24:11,720
Speaker 1: all the time, and I'm like, I know, but I'm

510
00:24:11,720 --> 00:24:15,480
Speaker 1: apologizing for the people that don't apologize, Like this is

511
00:24:15,640 --> 00:24:18,440
Speaker 1: really annoying and you are already busy enough here. And

512
00:24:18,520 --> 00:24:21,159
Speaker 1: I have so much empathy for Starbucks workers because I

513
00:24:21,320 --> 00:24:24,520
Speaker 1: read on you know, Reddit, like how poorly they're treated

514
00:24:24,600 --> 00:24:28,200
Speaker 1: by customers. At one time, like brag, she goes, I

515
00:24:28,280 --> 00:24:29,840
Speaker 1: was so mean to this late Starbucks and like, why

516
00:24:29,960 --> 00:24:31,560
Speaker 1: is that cool? She's like because she was so rude.

517
00:24:31,600 --> 00:24:33,879
Speaker 1: I go, I bet she wasn't. I bet she was?

518
00:24:34,080 --> 00:24:37,800
Speaker 1: And some people, yeah, it's disgusting. It's is your aunt

519
00:24:38,040 --> 00:24:42,680
Speaker 1: trouble kind of Yeah, she's a Karen for sure. Yeah,

520
00:24:42,760 --> 00:24:46,160
Speaker 1: she is definitely a Karen. Have you seen her lay

521
00:24:46,200 --> 00:24:48,440
Speaker 1: it down? H Yeah, she lays it down in front

522
00:24:48,440 --> 00:24:50,560
Speaker 1: of She yells at every She's like someone yells at everybody.

523
00:24:50,600 --> 00:24:52,119
Speaker 1: And then once I turned thirty, she yelled at me

524
00:24:52,119 --> 00:24:53,560
Speaker 1: once and I pulled her aside and go, hey, just

525
00:24:53,640 --> 00:24:56,040
Speaker 1: so you know, I'm a full fledged adult and I

526
00:24:56,040 --> 00:24:58,199
Speaker 1: would never talk to you or your kids when they

527
00:24:58,200 --> 00:24:59,520
Speaker 1: grow up like that, so don't do that, and she

528
00:24:59,520 --> 00:25:01,719
Speaker 1: goes at it and then one time she like texted

529
00:25:01,760 --> 00:25:03,200
Speaker 1: me something and I was like, I'm just going to

530
00:25:03,280 --> 00:25:07,840
Speaker 1: ignore it. Yeah, she's I have before from like people

531
00:25:07,880 --> 00:25:10,200
Speaker 1: that you, oh, I used to like, you know, just

532
00:25:10,320 --> 00:25:14,080
Speaker 1: like the family stuff where you're like your aunts or

533
00:25:14,160 --> 00:25:17,080
Speaker 1: something take a tone with you about like this, and

534
00:25:17,119 --> 00:25:18,920
Speaker 1: I'm like, I almost to be scared of my aunts.

535
00:25:19,000 --> 00:25:21,440
Speaker 1: Let me just say, I'm like, I revere my aunts.

536
00:25:21,520 --> 00:25:23,280
Speaker 1: I look up to them, I love them. But now

537
00:25:23,359 --> 00:25:25,280
Speaker 1: if I get any kind of two from family, I'm

538
00:25:25,280 --> 00:25:28,359
Speaker 1: just like, you're just a person to me, man, like

539
00:25:28,560 --> 00:25:31,840
Speaker 1: you do, like I don't really subscribe to like but

540
00:25:32,000 --> 00:25:34,399
Speaker 1: their blood. It's like, well I could have been adopted then,

541
00:25:34,440 --> 00:25:37,000
Speaker 1: and then would you still say blood? You know, like

542
00:25:38,000 --> 00:25:42,760
Speaker 1: it's just you. I think I'm not. My parents are

543
00:25:42,840 --> 00:25:46,360
Speaker 1: definitely not on board. And I'm not saying about any

544
00:25:46,440 --> 00:25:48,359
Speaker 1: I love all my family, have no beef with literally

545
00:25:48,359 --> 00:25:50,840
Speaker 1: any of them. I'm very lucky about that. But there

546
00:25:50,880 --> 00:25:53,120
Speaker 1: are times where I'm like, you have to go see

547
00:25:53,160 --> 00:25:55,440
Speaker 1: them that you're there in town. I'm like, no, I don't,

548
00:25:55,480 --> 00:25:58,360
Speaker 1: because they're I literally don't this person. I don't see

549
00:25:58,400 --> 00:26:00,720
Speaker 1: them except once every ten years just because I'm in

550
00:26:00,720 --> 00:26:03,720
Speaker 1: their town. Have to waste my time going to see them,

551
00:26:04,680 --> 00:26:07,720
Speaker 1: isn't it crazy? Well here and here's blood there, blood nicky,

552
00:26:07,720 --> 00:26:09,199
Speaker 1: And this is literally what she did. She came up

553
00:26:09,240 --> 00:26:10,879
Speaker 1: to me one day and this was like, this was

554
00:26:10,920 --> 00:26:12,680
Speaker 1: a while ago, but she was like, Bobby, I saw

555
00:26:12,800 --> 00:26:16,520
Speaker 1: these people and they were at a Pro Choice and

556
00:26:16,640 --> 00:26:18,760
Speaker 1: she was like crying and I was like, oh my god.

557
00:26:18,800 --> 00:26:20,239
Speaker 1: And she was like, I just can't believe what they

558
00:26:20,280 --> 00:26:22,040
Speaker 1: do to bab and I was like, okay, and then

559
00:26:22,119 --> 00:26:24,359
Speaker 1: she literally that's when she went to the starbus. She

560
00:26:24,480 --> 00:26:25,840
Speaker 1: was and then I went in there and yelled, and

561
00:26:25,880 --> 00:26:27,639
Speaker 1: I literally go, that used to be a baby. I

562
00:26:27,760 --> 00:26:29,639
Speaker 1: was like, you can't just like want babies to be

563
00:26:29,800 --> 00:26:32,960
Speaker 1: here and then yell the people that are here. She's

564
00:26:33,000 --> 00:26:35,520
Speaker 1: a future baby, Like it's crazy. She's like that where

565
00:26:35,560 --> 00:26:37,280
Speaker 1: she doesn't see both sides. And I would tell her

566
00:26:37,320 --> 00:26:38,920
Speaker 1: that and she'd be like, I just don't see it

567
00:26:39,040 --> 00:26:40,680
Speaker 1: that way. And You're like, that's crazy, Like to not

568
00:26:40,800 --> 00:26:43,399
Speaker 1: have empathy for people like in the world working for you,

569
00:26:44,040 --> 00:26:48,000
Speaker 1: that's the easiest answer. I just don't see it that way.

570
00:26:48,240 --> 00:26:52,000
Speaker 1: That's the answer. It's like, that's not a good enough answer.

571
00:26:52,520 --> 00:26:56,760
Speaker 1: I just see agree to disagree that kind of thing. Yeah, please,

572
00:26:56,880 --> 00:26:59,840
Speaker 1: let's finish this. And but you know the serial salesman

573
00:27:00,000 --> 00:27:02,800
Speaker 1: how to joke about people who are pro life and

574
00:27:02,880 --> 00:27:06,439
Speaker 1: how they get so upset about like little girls especially.

575
00:27:06,600 --> 00:27:08,400
Speaker 1: You see little kids on the picket line, their parents

576
00:27:08,440 --> 00:27:10,640
Speaker 1: have brought them there, and they're like screaming like, don't

577
00:27:10,720 --> 00:27:13,600
Speaker 1: kill these babies. They literally think babies are being murdered

578
00:27:13,680 --> 00:27:17,560
Speaker 1: in there, like fetuses are just being stabbed in the eyeballs.

579
00:27:18,040 --> 00:27:19,920
Speaker 1: And so of course these little girls are gonna be

580
00:27:20,000 --> 00:27:24,240
Speaker 1: like they're killing babies like it would be fucking traumatized.

581
00:27:25,440 --> 00:27:27,159
Speaker 1: So it's as like your aunt kind of has a

582
00:27:27,280 --> 00:27:31,520
Speaker 1: misconception about what it is. And so because if she's

583
00:27:31,640 --> 00:27:34,159
Speaker 1: able to elicit tears over the lives of these then

584
00:27:34,359 --> 00:27:36,879
Speaker 1: she obviously think something horrible is happening in there. But

585
00:27:36,920 --> 00:27:39,200
Speaker 1: then not crying about yelling at a person in real life.

586
00:27:39,240 --> 00:27:41,119
Speaker 1: Well that's the thing, is like, well, because people are

587
00:27:41,240 --> 00:27:44,360
Speaker 1: so people like your aunt. No offense to your aunt,

588
00:27:44,440 --> 00:27:47,040
Speaker 1: but also offense come at me, bitch, um is that

589
00:27:47,640 --> 00:27:51,360
Speaker 1: you think you you think you're better than the Starbucks employee.

590
00:27:51,440 --> 00:27:54,040
Speaker 1: You think that you made different decisions in life that

591
00:27:54,119 --> 00:27:57,320
Speaker 1: didn't make you well, I can talk down to waite

592
00:27:57,359 --> 00:28:00,639
Speaker 1: stuff because I I'm not I'm not a waiter. Why

593
00:28:00,680 --> 00:28:02,359
Speaker 1: aren't you a waiter? Oh? Because I worked hard in

594
00:28:02,440 --> 00:28:05,320
Speaker 1: life and I didn't. I you know, you think somehow

595
00:28:05,440 --> 00:28:08,560
Speaker 1: you're smarter or better. You didn't choose your brain. You

596
00:28:08,640 --> 00:28:11,240
Speaker 1: didn't choose your parents. You didn't choose the world, the

597
00:28:11,400 --> 00:28:13,360
Speaker 1: city in which you were born. You didn't choose any

598
00:28:13,400 --> 00:28:15,880
Speaker 1: of it. You got lucky, so for you to think

599
00:28:15,920 --> 00:28:18,280
Speaker 1: you're better than anyone. If you were that woman at

600
00:28:18,359 --> 00:28:20,879
Speaker 1: Starbucks and born into her life with her brain and

601
00:28:21,000 --> 00:28:22,879
Speaker 1: her parents, you would be in the same position and

602
00:28:22,920 --> 00:28:25,040
Speaker 1: you'd be getting yelled at by someone like you. So

603
00:28:25,119 --> 00:28:29,919
Speaker 1: I have empathy for even you aun't crazy, can't contain

604
00:28:30,280 --> 00:28:33,119
Speaker 1: your anger, and you I have empathy for you. You

605
00:28:33,400 --> 00:28:36,680
Speaker 1: didn't choose your insane brain that thinks you're better than people.

606
00:28:37,040 --> 00:28:38,840
Speaker 1: And you didn't choose to be a person with a

607
00:28:38,880 --> 00:28:40,640
Speaker 1: brain that is so closed off to the idea that

608
00:28:40,800 --> 00:28:43,840
Speaker 1: you you are the same as everyone, and that you're

609
00:28:43,920 --> 00:28:46,360
Speaker 1: just lucky that you don't have to maybe take a

610
00:28:46,440 --> 00:28:48,440
Speaker 1: job that you wouldn't want to take, or that you're

611
00:28:48,480 --> 00:28:51,240
Speaker 1: not a drug addict or you're not homeless. You're lucky.

612
00:28:51,480 --> 00:28:54,080
Speaker 1: You're not better, you're not smarter, and you might be smarter,

613
00:28:54,240 --> 00:28:56,080
Speaker 1: but you're lucky that you're smarter. You're lucky you were

614
00:28:56,120 --> 00:28:57,800
Speaker 1: born with a brain that has the ability to, but

615
00:28:57,920 --> 00:29:00,800
Speaker 1: maybe not have a learning disability in school, study harder

616
00:29:00,880 --> 00:29:03,400
Speaker 1: and like, but anyone who thinks they're better than homeless

617
00:29:03,440 --> 00:29:05,480
Speaker 1: people or oh if I was in that, I wouldn't

618
00:29:05,480 --> 00:29:08,200
Speaker 1: do that. Yes, you would. You do everything they did

619
00:29:08,280 --> 00:29:09,720
Speaker 1: if you had the same brain as them. You just

620
00:29:09,800 --> 00:29:15,280
Speaker 1: got lucky with yours. Bit right, crazy? Are you watching? Crazy?

621
00:29:17,080 --> 00:29:21,440
Speaker 1: I bet she's still like, I don't, you can't and

622
00:29:22,280 --> 00:29:24,640
Speaker 1: this will so much drama in your family. This will

623
00:29:24,680 --> 00:29:26,960
Speaker 1: get back to crazy. No they no, no, no, it won't.

624
00:29:27,000 --> 00:29:30,880
Speaker 1: They could not support me. No, I'm just kidding. That's

625
00:29:30,880 --> 00:29:32,840
Speaker 1: what you think she'll think when she thinks I'm talking

626
00:29:32,840 --> 00:29:33,880
Speaker 1: about her all have to do it is like, no,

627
00:29:33,960 --> 00:29:35,480
Speaker 1: I was talking about this one. She's like, she's the

628
00:29:35,560 --> 00:29:37,680
Speaker 1: bad one, right, Like, yeah, when you say that, you're

629
00:29:37,680 --> 00:29:40,040
Speaker 1: gonna be like even when I said that, it was

630
00:29:40,080 --> 00:29:44,040
Speaker 1: talking about someone else. Okay, but it's funny. Even when

631
00:29:44,120 --> 00:29:46,040
Speaker 1: you think your family is tapped out and have no

632
00:29:46,240 --> 00:29:48,320
Speaker 1: interest in your life. The times where you think you're

633
00:29:48,320 --> 00:29:50,120
Speaker 1: going to be doing something and no one will hear it,

634
00:29:50,200 --> 00:29:51,760
Speaker 1: and you go, they don't even listen to They don't

635
00:29:51,760 --> 00:29:55,160
Speaker 1: care about anything I do. They'll hear that one that

636
00:29:55,280 --> 00:29:59,520
Speaker 1: will get back to them. So always be aware because

637
00:29:59,560 --> 00:30:01,400
Speaker 1: I always get that in my head of like I

638
00:30:01,480 --> 00:30:04,080
Speaker 1: can say this, I know they don't listen to this. Yes, no,

639
00:30:04,280 --> 00:30:06,360
Speaker 1: I don't even use their name. No one will know

640
00:30:06,440 --> 00:30:08,719
Speaker 1: it's them to tell them. It gets back to them

641
00:30:09,120 --> 00:30:11,160
Speaker 1: because someone use it and then goes, I heard this,

642
00:30:11,280 --> 00:30:13,840
Speaker 1: and then someone tells someone yes maybe and crazy. You

643
00:30:13,920 --> 00:30:16,280
Speaker 1: can go see Bobby open for you on the Good

644
00:30:16,320 --> 00:30:20,160
Speaker 1: Girl tour? Oh yeah, would she ever support your comedy tour?

645
00:30:20,280 --> 00:30:21,920
Speaker 1: She does. She has come out to see me before

646
00:30:22,040 --> 00:30:24,880
Speaker 1: she has she has come out to see me. She's

647
00:30:24,880 --> 00:30:27,360
Speaker 1: not she's a good person. But yeah, you're right, Yeah,

648
00:30:27,360 --> 00:30:28,840
Speaker 1: she's not the worst person. She just like there are

649
00:30:28,880 --> 00:30:30,400
Speaker 1: moments where you see her be like, I'm like, but

650
00:30:30,480 --> 00:30:32,240
Speaker 1: you can't talk off the ledge. But if she told

651
00:30:32,280 --> 00:30:34,360
Speaker 1: me something, I'd be like, you know, I guess I

652
00:30:34,440 --> 00:30:36,720
Speaker 1: could try to understand that or whatever. But you tell

653
00:30:36,760 --> 00:30:38,800
Speaker 1: her something, she's like, no, that's how that's like how

654
00:30:39,040 --> 00:30:41,360
Speaker 1: that the whole side of the family is like, they

655
00:30:41,400 --> 00:30:43,840
Speaker 1: can all watch. I love doing comedy because there's people

656
00:30:43,880 --> 00:30:45,479
Speaker 1: have to shut the funk up. They get kicked out

657
00:30:45,560 --> 00:30:47,400
Speaker 1: and they're like, please don't talk about me on stage,

658
00:30:47,480 --> 00:30:51,240
Speaker 1: and I'm like, well, didn't be different. It's funny people

659
00:30:51,360 --> 00:30:53,320
Speaker 1: like that that don't want to be told what's what.

660
00:30:53,480 --> 00:30:55,240
Speaker 1: They're the ones that like walk out of shows or

661
00:30:56,120 --> 00:30:58,680
Speaker 1: they don't know that's the best place for them because

662
00:30:58,680 --> 00:31:00,760
Speaker 1: they just have to shut their sold out a show

663
00:31:00,880 --> 00:31:03,160
Speaker 1: at Helium and she I told her get ticket, it's

664
00:31:03,160 --> 00:31:04,800
Speaker 1: gonna sell out, and she goes, okay, I'll get him.

665
00:31:05,560 --> 00:31:07,600
Speaker 1: It sold out and she called up and she's like,

666
00:31:07,640 --> 00:31:09,400
Speaker 1: I kept telling him I'm your aunt, and they didn't care.

667
00:31:10,000 --> 00:31:17,800
Speaker 1: They don't care at all. Yeah, I'm just a name

668
00:31:18,200 --> 00:31:23,680
Speaker 1: on their paper. Oh my god. How times have you

669
00:31:23,760 --> 00:31:26,320
Speaker 1: walked into your own show and been like, excuse me, sir,

670
00:31:26,480 --> 00:31:28,400
Speaker 1: you can't just walk and you go my faces on

671
00:31:28,520 --> 00:31:30,960
Speaker 1: the things. It happens all the time. I remember a

672
00:31:31,040 --> 00:31:33,440
Speaker 1: very famous comedian that people know that I don't care for.

673
00:31:33,880 --> 00:31:35,680
Speaker 1: She once walked into a show that had her name

674
00:31:35,760 --> 00:31:37,800
Speaker 1: on the poster. It was like an improv or something,

675
00:31:38,360 --> 00:31:42,160
Speaker 1: and the guy was like excuse me, man, and she goes, um, sorry,

676
00:31:42,520 --> 00:31:44,440
Speaker 1: look at the fucking post and she got so mad

677
00:31:44,520 --> 00:31:47,440
Speaker 1: and she had like had him fired. Anytime anyone does

678
00:31:47,600 --> 00:31:50,240
Speaker 1: recognize me, I walk into theater or sometimes backstage and

679
00:31:50,280 --> 00:31:52,479
Speaker 1: people are like, man, you can't come back, and I'm like, oh,

680
00:31:52,520 --> 00:31:54,560
Speaker 1: I'm on sorry, and this is my face. I know

681
00:31:54,640 --> 00:31:58,520
Speaker 1: I look like faces of method. When for Dave Chappelle

682
00:31:58,640 --> 00:32:01,200
Speaker 1: at the pageant, this was years ago. I was walking

683
00:32:01,280 --> 00:32:03,080
Speaker 1: back and afterwards they were like, if you want, you

684
00:32:03,080 --> 00:32:05,040
Speaker 1: can go say hi to him, and I guess his dude.

685
00:32:05,040 --> 00:32:06,560
Speaker 1: There was a bouncer at the door that I walked in.

686
00:32:06,640 --> 00:32:07,880
Speaker 1: I was like, hey day and he's like, hey, what

687
00:32:07,960 --> 00:32:09,800
Speaker 1: are you doing? I go I was just on stage

688
00:32:09,920 --> 00:32:14,640
Speaker 1: like I was on the show, and that's that's what

689
00:32:14,680 --> 00:32:16,160
Speaker 1: I'm saying. No, no, no, And I could not have

690
00:32:16,280 --> 00:32:19,120
Speaker 1: cared anymore at all. You don't take it personally. Was

691
00:32:19,200 --> 00:32:23,280
Speaker 1: Dave nice to you? Unbelievably nice, nice guy. He was

692
00:32:23,640 --> 00:32:25,200
Speaker 1: very very nice to me. Like I walked in the

693
00:32:25,320 --> 00:32:27,480
Speaker 1: room and he's he remembered me, and he was like

694
00:32:27,560 --> 00:32:29,040
Speaker 1: he came over and he was like, how's it going, man?

695
00:32:29,120 --> 00:32:30,680
Speaker 1: Were you doing this hair? Because he was thought maybe

696
00:32:30,720 --> 00:32:32,960
Speaker 1: you were traditioning, he might not have been as nice,

697
00:32:35,760 --> 00:32:40,480
Speaker 1: like he's nice to trans people. Yeah he has. That's

698
00:32:40,480 --> 00:32:41,440
Speaker 1: why I say, I'll be like I was like I

699
00:32:41,560 --> 00:32:43,600
Speaker 1: like Chappelle and they're like, I'm like, I I like

700
00:32:43,720 --> 00:32:45,640
Speaker 1: his stand up, you know what I mean, Like like, yeah,

701
00:32:45,640 --> 00:32:48,200
Speaker 1: there's certain things that I disagree with. That thing disagree

702
00:32:48,240 --> 00:32:50,560
Speaker 1: with people. For store, if you come to my show,

703
00:32:50,640 --> 00:32:52,640
Speaker 1: which is the Good Girl Tours happening now, I'm in

704
00:32:52,760 --> 00:32:55,520
Speaker 1: Memphis this Friday, please, I just put out a video

705
00:32:55,600 --> 00:32:57,960
Speaker 1: on my Instagram about my Memphis show. It's the ticket

706
00:32:58,000 --> 00:33:01,800
Speaker 1: sales are low as hell and so um and I'm

707
00:33:01,840 --> 00:33:04,200
Speaker 1: not afraid to admit that. I'm it's people are like,

708
00:33:04,560 --> 00:33:06,760
Speaker 1: you're gonna admit that, and I'm like, yeah, I don't

709
00:33:06,800 --> 00:33:08,360
Speaker 1: care that I'm not selling well and members. I mean,

710
00:33:08,400 --> 00:33:11,240
Speaker 1: I would like to sell better. I'm selling well literally

711
00:33:11,280 --> 00:33:13,400
Speaker 1: everywhere else. So it's not it's not like an ego thing.

712
00:33:13,480 --> 00:33:15,760
Speaker 1: I can admit, Hey, we need to get more people

713
00:33:15,840 --> 00:33:18,400
Speaker 1: because people don't know people would come out. They just

714
00:33:18,440 --> 00:33:20,280
Speaker 1: don't know out. The marketing hasn't been good enough. So

715
00:33:20,360 --> 00:33:23,760
Speaker 1: I released a song today about Memphis on Instagram, trying

716
00:33:23,800 --> 00:33:25,960
Speaker 1: to get my ticket sales up. So Memphis is the

717
00:33:26,000 --> 00:33:27,440
Speaker 1: one I'm really wanting you to go to. If you

718
00:33:27,680 --> 00:33:29,760
Speaker 1: live around there, if you know anyone there, please come

719
00:33:29,760 --> 00:33:31,480
Speaker 1: out to the show. It's gonna be very special because

720
00:33:31,840 --> 00:33:34,360
Speaker 1: it might be just twenty people and then and a

721
00:33:34,600 --> 00:33:37,680
Speaker 1: very intimate evening. And then also, um, we have next

722
00:33:37,720 --> 00:33:41,840
Speaker 1: week in Bobby jay Cox will be sorry opening for

723
00:33:41,920 --> 00:33:45,880
Speaker 1: me in Waterloo, New York on Thursday. Next Thursday, and

724
00:33:45,960 --> 00:33:48,520
Speaker 1: then on Friday, I will be in Hershey, Pennsylvania, and

725
00:33:48,680 --> 00:33:52,240
Speaker 1: Saturday I will be in Atlantic City and we will

726
00:33:52,240 --> 00:33:54,360
Speaker 1: be doing those three dates together along with Anna Marina

727
00:33:54,480 --> 00:33:56,360
Speaker 1: on the Good Girl tour. So those are all dates

728
00:33:56,400 --> 00:33:58,600
Speaker 1: you can check out now and um and then I'm

729
00:33:58,640 --> 00:34:01,320
Speaker 1: doing New Year's even St. Louis as Massy and that's

730
00:34:01,320 --> 00:34:03,800
Speaker 1: going to be good too. At the city people. Have

731
00:34:03,880 --> 00:34:05,880
Speaker 1: you performed there, No, I've never even been there. I

732
00:34:06,360 --> 00:34:08,800
Speaker 1: did a guest spot opening for Brian Reagan there and

733
00:34:08,880 --> 00:34:10,279
Speaker 1: it was the first time where you were like I

734
00:34:10,360 --> 00:34:12,040
Speaker 1: came out and even like even the pageants big, but

735
00:34:12,120 --> 00:34:14,480
Speaker 1: you come out there and you're like wow, like it's

736
00:34:15,040 --> 00:34:19,719
Speaker 1: it's it's just beautiful. It's just beautiful inside and out.

737
00:34:20,160 --> 00:34:23,839
Speaker 1: It is beautiful. The courthouse for the parade, and I'm

738
00:34:23,920 --> 00:34:27,959
Speaker 1: like Greek courts where Nike's kind of ye, it's huge,

739
00:34:28,800 --> 00:34:32,160
Speaker 1: So it's Someone the other day was like, I looked

740
00:34:32,200 --> 00:34:34,520
Speaker 1: up your tickets. They're expensive, and I was like, I know,

741
00:34:34,719 --> 00:34:37,160
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, Like I'm in bear, I'm not like Taylor

742
00:34:37,200 --> 00:34:39,440
Speaker 1: Swift now, but how many years did you go without

743
00:34:39,600 --> 00:34:41,000
Speaker 1: making that much money? I remember when I when we

744
00:34:41,080 --> 00:34:43,920
Speaker 1: did Kansas City, you would walk from the hotel across

745
00:34:44,040 --> 00:34:46,320
Speaker 1: like two parking lots to the show. You're like with

746
00:34:46,360 --> 00:34:47,480
Speaker 1: all those times, you know what I'm saying, Like you

747
00:34:47,480 --> 00:34:49,719
Speaker 1: would do to walk a couple of parking lots, That's

748
00:34:49,719 --> 00:34:51,160
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. But I'm like, I feel like now

749
00:34:51,320 --> 00:34:53,359
Speaker 1: it's like you you do all that work, so now

750
00:34:53,440 --> 00:34:56,319
Speaker 1: it's like you get to like the reason tickets are

751
00:34:56,400 --> 00:34:58,759
Speaker 1: so much is because fucking ticket Master, you guys and

752
00:34:59,239 --> 00:35:01,400
Speaker 1: all the other everyone that has to be paid, the

753
00:35:01,440 --> 00:35:03,719
Speaker 1: guys working the lights, the guys working the sound. Like,

754
00:35:03,920 --> 00:35:06,720
Speaker 1: Like it's not just me I'm leaving. I'm not walking

755
00:35:06,800 --> 00:35:08,880
Speaker 1: away with as much as you think I am. At

756
00:35:08,920 --> 00:35:10,800
Speaker 1: the end of the day, I have openers, I have

757
00:35:10,920 --> 00:35:13,560
Speaker 1: eight dens, I have managers, Like you really get to

758
00:35:13,640 --> 00:35:15,960
Speaker 1: the nitty gritty of it. And that's why I have

759
00:35:16,040 --> 00:35:18,239
Speaker 1: to work so much, is because it seems like there

760
00:35:18,400 --> 00:35:23,320
Speaker 1: and I'm not complaining my I'm very uh fortunate and

761
00:35:23,560 --> 00:35:27,040
Speaker 1: grateful for the money that I make. But um, you

762
00:35:27,160 --> 00:35:28,880
Speaker 1: spend a lot of money to make it. I mean

763
00:35:28,920 --> 00:35:32,200
Speaker 1: I've told people before, a publicist that you hire, it's

764
00:35:32,239 --> 00:35:34,880
Speaker 1: like six thousand dollars a month now and then people

765
00:35:34,960 --> 00:35:37,960
Speaker 1: to do your social media, um, to run your social

766
00:35:38,000 --> 00:35:40,040
Speaker 1: media and make clips for you and stuff that can

767
00:35:40,120 --> 00:35:43,000
Speaker 1: run you, you know, three or four grand a month easy.

768
00:35:43,160 --> 00:35:47,920
Speaker 1: I'm gonna become a publicists and it's it's it's a

769
00:35:47,960 --> 00:35:50,719
Speaker 1: flat rate too. So if you want a publicist, it's

770
00:35:50,719 --> 00:35:52,400
Speaker 1: going to be like I think it's like used to

771
00:35:52,480 --> 00:35:54,520
Speaker 1: be three back in like two thousand thirteen. I think

772
00:35:54,560 --> 00:35:57,399
Speaker 1: it's six now five or six. And it is. Brad

773
00:35:57,440 --> 00:36:00,560
Speaker 1: Pitt pays five thousand, you pay five thousand. Any at

774
00:36:00,600 --> 00:36:03,000
Speaker 1: any level, it's a flat it's the only it's the

775
00:36:03,080 --> 00:36:05,399
Speaker 1: only thing I know of that is a flat rate

776
00:36:05,800 --> 00:36:10,319
Speaker 1: across the board. Yeah, that's wild. I had no there's

777
00:36:10,440 --> 00:36:13,080
Speaker 1: it's the land. But look at the stiff one. That's

778
00:36:13,120 --> 00:36:15,399
Speaker 1: a huge place. They gotta heat that place and keep

779
00:36:15,440 --> 00:36:18,000
Speaker 1: the lights. They gotta heat it except my shows. Bring

780
00:36:18,120 --> 00:36:20,959
Speaker 1: your park up because ticket sales we're going to chop

781
00:36:21,000 --> 00:36:27,040
Speaker 1: off some dollars and it's gonna be a freezing But yeah,

782
00:36:27,120 --> 00:36:30,239
Speaker 1: so Memphis. But anyway, UM, my twenty year reunion was

783
00:36:30,920 --> 00:36:34,279
Speaker 1: so freaking fun and um and it was just there

784
00:36:34,400 --> 00:36:37,839
Speaker 1: wasn't anyone. I would say that. I was like, oh

785
00:36:37,960 --> 00:36:40,239
Speaker 1: my god, I had no enemies in high school. Really

786
00:36:40,560 --> 00:36:42,800
Speaker 1: it's more like, did you have you didn't have bullies,

787
00:36:42,880 --> 00:36:44,239
Speaker 1: or you don't have anyone who's like mean to you

788
00:36:44,360 --> 00:36:46,280
Speaker 1: or anything like. I mean, it was the fourth grade

789
00:36:46,400 --> 00:36:48,879
Speaker 1: I had and then that kind of like went away

790
00:36:49,080 --> 00:36:52,080
Speaker 1: as soon as I got my own friends, and I

791
00:36:52,200 --> 00:36:55,640
Speaker 1: never had bullies after that. I was very lucky. Um,

792
00:36:56,160 --> 00:36:59,160
Speaker 1: but I did have people that I was super jealous of,

793
00:36:59,320 --> 00:37:01,120
Speaker 1: and like, there was one girl I think that I

794
00:37:01,160 --> 00:37:03,560
Speaker 1: had talked about on my Instagram when I was living

795
00:37:03,760 --> 00:37:06,680
Speaker 1: during COVID at home in St. Louis and I my

796
00:37:06,760 --> 00:37:08,359
Speaker 1: yearbooks in one night, I was just going through them

797
00:37:08,400 --> 00:37:10,000
Speaker 1: on my Instagram stories and there was one girl. I

798
00:37:10,080 --> 00:37:12,000
Speaker 1: was like, I wanted to be her. Everyone wanted to

799
00:37:12,040 --> 00:37:13,640
Speaker 1: be her. She was the most popular girl. She's so

800
00:37:13,760 --> 00:37:16,400
Speaker 1: hot and it got through the grape vine to me,

801
00:37:16,600 --> 00:37:19,600
Speaker 1: like through texting that was like she's fucking pissed. Take

802
00:37:19,640 --> 00:37:21,279
Speaker 1: her off your instagrams or I'm like, I didn't say

803
00:37:21,320 --> 00:37:23,640
Speaker 1: anything back. I just said she was hot and we

804
00:37:23,719 --> 00:37:26,800
Speaker 1: all wanted to be her. And look how she was

805
00:37:26,880 --> 00:37:29,000
Speaker 1: kind of scared if she showed up. No, thank god,

806
00:37:29,040 --> 00:37:30,799
Speaker 1: I thought I saw her and I like freaked out,

807
00:37:31,080 --> 00:37:32,720
Speaker 1: and I was like, why am I scared? I didn't

808
00:37:32,719 --> 00:37:35,960
Speaker 1: do anything wrong. I took it down. She didn't like it,

809
00:37:36,520 --> 00:37:38,440
Speaker 1: so it wasn't like but I felt really scared that

810
00:37:38,520 --> 00:37:39,759
Speaker 1: she was like mad at me, and I felt like,

811
00:37:40,280 --> 00:37:42,200
Speaker 1: I know, I know that I've said so much about

812
00:37:42,280 --> 00:37:45,200
Speaker 1: popular kids over the years in different things, and I

813
00:37:45,360 --> 00:37:47,520
Speaker 1: know the way this works where it's like the one

814
00:37:47,600 --> 00:37:49,400
Speaker 1: thing you've said about someone will get back to them.

815
00:37:49,440 --> 00:37:51,360
Speaker 1: And I've been at this for twenty years, so I

816
00:37:51,480 --> 00:37:54,560
Speaker 1: have said I probably name dropped all of those people

817
00:37:54,680 --> 00:37:56,600
Speaker 1: at times, either saying they were so hot or like

818
00:37:56,719 --> 00:37:59,520
Speaker 1: I hated them, secretly wanted to be them, wanted to

819
00:38:00,080 --> 00:38:02,920
Speaker 1: liked that, you know, whatever it was. Guys like had

820
00:38:02,960 --> 00:38:05,279
Speaker 1: crushes on them. So every single person I knew, I

821
00:38:05,360 --> 00:38:08,279
Speaker 1: just heard some podcast clip where I've said their name

822
00:38:08,480 --> 00:38:11,279
Speaker 1: or their friends name or something. So there was that

823
00:38:11,560 --> 00:38:14,359
Speaker 1: kind of It was funny because like the popular kids

824
00:38:14,440 --> 00:38:17,680
Speaker 1: were still kind of hanging with each other and they

825
00:38:17,680 --> 00:38:22,640
Speaker 1: were still clicks in at Hacienda Mexican restaurant on Manchester Road,

826
00:38:22,840 --> 00:38:27,239
Speaker 1: UM near rock Hill, and it was but it was

827
00:38:27,280 --> 00:38:31,200
Speaker 1: weird because I felt like this is gonna come back

828
00:38:31,200 --> 00:38:32,680
Speaker 1: to bite me. But I guess I don't have another

829
00:38:32,719 --> 00:38:35,439
Speaker 1: reunion for another five years or something. So I will

830
00:38:35,480 --> 00:38:40,200
Speaker 1: say that that there was certain people. Everyone everyone, sorry,

831
00:38:40,320 --> 00:38:44,120
Speaker 1: everyone knew that I am a person that's on TV now.

832
00:38:44,200 --> 00:38:46,799
Speaker 1: I think, so it would be hard in the twenty years,

833
00:38:47,800 --> 00:38:51,399
Speaker 1: eighteen years yeah Massinger, Massinger, Yeah, it are already aired

834
00:38:51,440 --> 00:38:53,440
Speaker 1: to yes, So that was like, well, there was just

835
00:38:53,600 --> 00:38:58,160
Speaker 1: like so I'm sounding already. I'm like picturing people rolling

836
00:38:58,160 --> 00:38:59,680
Speaker 1: their eyes and be saying this, but there's just no

837
00:39:00,000 --> 00:39:03,600
Speaker 1: a you don't know someone from your high school that

838
00:39:03,680 --> 00:39:06,279
Speaker 1: has been negative in the rows, like so many things

839
00:39:06,440 --> 00:39:08,200
Speaker 1: from your saying like you might not have known me

840
00:39:08,200 --> 00:39:09,480
Speaker 1: in high school. And if I showed up and I

841
00:39:09,640 --> 00:39:11,600
Speaker 1: just was like, you know, a normal lady that had

842
00:39:11,640 --> 00:39:14,160
Speaker 1: a normal job, you might go, oh, I don't remember

843
00:39:14,200 --> 00:39:16,560
Speaker 1: you from high school, but you've since jogged you remember,

844
00:39:16,640 --> 00:39:19,160
Speaker 1: and been like, that's Nikkila. She was in my graduating class.

845
00:39:19,200 --> 00:39:21,279
Speaker 1: There's just no way that they don't know that. And

846
00:39:21,360 --> 00:39:23,640
Speaker 1: I will say, and they even knew me in high school.

847
00:39:23,680 --> 00:39:26,040
Speaker 1: I mean these people and they just didn't want to

848
00:39:26,120 --> 00:39:27,680
Speaker 1: look at me. And I kept trying to make you know,

849
00:39:27,760 --> 00:39:29,719
Speaker 1: you make eye contact across room and then you wave

850
00:39:29,800 --> 00:39:31,880
Speaker 1: and then you you cross the room to talk to

851
00:39:31,920 --> 00:39:33,840
Speaker 1: each other. That's kind of how it goes instead of

852
00:39:33,960 --> 00:39:36,200
Speaker 1: just like going up to each other. So I would

853
00:39:36,239 --> 00:39:39,840
Speaker 1: try to make eye contact and I was getting nothing

854
00:39:40,160 --> 00:39:43,120
Speaker 1: from a group of people. And I kept saying to

855
00:39:43,200 --> 00:39:45,120
Speaker 1: my friend Taylor, who went with me, I'm like, it's

856
00:39:45,200 --> 00:39:48,600
Speaker 1: so weird, Like the popular kids are kind of like

857
00:39:48,760 --> 00:39:52,000
Speaker 1: acting like like I keep trying to make eye contact

858
00:39:52,040 --> 00:39:53,719
Speaker 1: with them, and it's like they haven't even looked at

859
00:39:53,760 --> 00:39:56,320
Speaker 1: me once, and it's not like how weird it. But

860
00:39:56,520 --> 00:39:59,160
Speaker 1: then I realized it's because they are trying to be cool.

861
00:40:00,000 --> 00:40:02,279
Speaker 1: They're trying to act like they don't care, which I

862
00:40:02,360 --> 00:40:04,439
Speaker 1: probably would have done too, Like I want to either

863
00:40:04,520 --> 00:40:06,640
Speaker 1: they want to make me feel comfortable, like I don't

864
00:40:06,680 --> 00:40:08,239
Speaker 1: need to make a big deal of it, or she

865
00:40:08,320 --> 00:40:09,920
Speaker 1: already thinks she's such a big deal, So I'm not

866
00:40:09,960 --> 00:40:11,920
Speaker 1: going to give her anything because she thinks she's such

867
00:40:11,920 --> 00:40:13,839
Speaker 1: a fucking hot shit even though I didn't at all.

868
00:40:13,920 --> 00:40:15,880
Speaker 1: But they don't know that, and maybe I do, and

869
00:40:15,960 --> 00:40:19,120
Speaker 1: maybe I'm just subconsciously I do think I'm hot. I

870
00:40:19,160 --> 00:40:21,320
Speaker 1: don't know, but I just could tell that. Like, but

871
00:40:21,480 --> 00:40:23,800
Speaker 1: I I knew what it was like to see anyone

872
00:40:23,880 --> 00:40:25,640
Speaker 1: else and they'd be like hey and like make I

873
00:40:25,719 --> 00:40:27,480
Speaker 1: could like it was happening all over the place. But

874
00:40:27,560 --> 00:40:31,399
Speaker 1: there was a certain popular crew. I only didn't talk

875
00:40:31,480 --> 00:40:33,920
Speaker 1: to two people there the whole night and didn't talk

876
00:40:33,960 --> 00:40:36,319
Speaker 1: to them at all or even like wave across the room.

877
00:40:37,080 --> 00:40:39,600
Speaker 1: Really that I that I know knew me and knew me.

878
00:40:39,640 --> 00:40:40,839
Speaker 1: There were some people I didn't talk to you because

879
00:40:40,840 --> 00:40:43,319
Speaker 1: I just didn't know them at all. Um, there are

880
00:40:43,360 --> 00:40:45,960
Speaker 1: only two people, and I swear to god they like

881
00:40:47,280 --> 00:40:49,480
Speaker 1: the person. The guy would be like walking towards me,

882
00:40:49,640 --> 00:40:51,800
Speaker 1: like like towards a group that I was with, and

883
00:40:51,880 --> 00:40:54,480
Speaker 1: then see me and then just like turn around on

884
00:40:54,560 --> 00:40:57,160
Speaker 1: a dime. And I was like, this person has not

885
00:40:57,320 --> 00:40:59,720
Speaker 1: changed in seventh grade. He still has the same energy

886
00:41:00,120 --> 00:41:03,600
Speaker 1: as he did in seventh When I like he hasn't.

887
00:41:04,200 --> 00:41:06,239
Speaker 1: It hadn't changed at all. And then there were other

888
00:41:06,280 --> 00:41:09,240
Speaker 1: people that were like so nice and so cool. There's

889
00:41:09,560 --> 00:41:11,799
Speaker 1: you know a couple of people that are so hot.

890
00:41:13,160 --> 00:41:15,560
Speaker 1: It's so funny because you still get like nervous around

891
00:41:15,560 --> 00:41:21,800
Speaker 1: the same guys. Like it never leaves you. High school

892
00:41:21,800 --> 00:41:23,960
Speaker 1: is always kind of you leave you. That's what I've

893
00:41:23,960 --> 00:41:25,279
Speaker 1: said growing up. I'm always like, I thought when you

894
00:41:25,280 --> 00:41:26,840
Speaker 1: were done with high school was done, but it always

895
00:41:26,920 --> 00:41:29,800
Speaker 1: kind of keeps coming back, whether it's clicks or everything.

896
00:41:29,960 --> 00:41:31,680
Speaker 1: High school. Like if we were going through my yearbook

897
00:41:31,680 --> 00:41:34,200
Speaker 1: the other day and my buddy was like, do you remember,

898
00:41:34,200 --> 00:41:36,360
Speaker 1: I was like, how could you forget? Like, yeah, we

899
00:41:36,480 --> 00:41:39,760
Speaker 1: all still remember the cute people or all that stuff.

900
00:41:40,360 --> 00:41:42,640
Speaker 1: I still remember too, and some of them are looking

901
00:41:42,840 --> 00:41:46,919
Speaker 1: real good. Still go with you. I wish he would

902
00:41:46,920 --> 00:41:48,400
Speaker 1: have gone with me. It would have been nice to

903
00:41:48,440 --> 00:41:51,759
Speaker 1: have that handsome gent on my arm um. Yeah, I

904
00:41:51,800 --> 00:41:53,320
Speaker 1: would have loved for him to be there. But Taylor

905
00:41:53,400 --> 00:41:54,960
Speaker 1: was my date and she was she was in the

906
00:41:55,000 --> 00:41:56,480
Speaker 1: grade above me, so it was kind of fun to

907
00:41:56,560 --> 00:41:58,279
Speaker 1: have her there. I'm glad someone went with me. I

908
00:41:58,320 --> 00:42:00,880
Speaker 1: would have gone alone, but Taylor came through and came

909
00:42:00,920 --> 00:42:03,000
Speaker 1: home from her trip early to go with me, and

910
00:42:04,160 --> 00:42:06,360
Speaker 1: ye know, these people that don't come up to you,

911
00:42:06,520 --> 00:42:12,040
Speaker 1: maybe they feel insecure of the Yeah, it's not that's

912
00:42:12,080 --> 00:42:15,200
Speaker 1: who I care. Too cool, I think give them the

913
00:42:15,239 --> 00:42:17,160
Speaker 1: benefit because you don't put off that vibe. I've never

914
00:42:17,239 --> 00:42:18,759
Speaker 1: seen you in a room put off that vibe where

915
00:42:18,760 --> 00:42:22,040
Speaker 1: you're like, I'm too cool ever since. Truly. Yeah, well

916
00:42:22,120 --> 00:42:25,280
Speaker 1: that's very nice of you. But I think that sometimes

917
00:42:25,400 --> 00:42:28,120
Speaker 1: I can even think, even me saying this, I'm I

918
00:42:28,320 --> 00:42:30,000
Speaker 1: think those people thought they were too cool when my

919
00:42:30,040 --> 00:42:32,239
Speaker 1: mom's like, maybe they were insecure. I hadn't even considered that,

920
00:42:32,400 --> 00:42:34,160
Speaker 1: and they might think the same about me. She thinks

921
00:42:34,200 --> 00:42:36,880
Speaker 1: she's really cool even though I'm insecure, or like I

922
00:42:37,000 --> 00:42:38,279
Speaker 1: was in the corner in a booth and they were

923
00:42:38,280 --> 00:42:40,480
Speaker 1: probably like, she's over there just being like come to me,

924
00:42:40,600 --> 00:42:42,360
Speaker 1: but I'm really like, I just want to pound this

925
00:42:42,400 --> 00:42:45,680
Speaker 1: impossible into my head. I think you're having empathy, But

926
00:42:45,760 --> 00:42:47,799
Speaker 1: I do think sometimes there are people that don't change,

927
00:42:47,840 --> 00:42:49,759
Speaker 1: and sometimes if you remember them from high school and

928
00:42:49,800 --> 00:42:52,600
Speaker 1: if they're putting off that same vibe, sometimes maybe they're

929
00:42:52,680 --> 00:42:54,840
Speaker 1: just trying to be too cool. But I think also

930
00:42:55,000 --> 00:42:59,279
Speaker 1: maybe they are kid. Yeah they were you know, there

931
00:42:59,360 --> 00:43:01,800
Speaker 1: was kidness going on a little bit from just a

932
00:43:01,960 --> 00:43:05,480
Speaker 1: couple of people that were like kid but then there

933
00:43:05,560 --> 00:43:09,000
Speaker 1: were Um it was nice. I was so I was

934
00:43:09,120 --> 00:43:11,680
Speaker 1: really mad that so many people didn't come. That shut up.

935
00:43:11,760 --> 00:43:13,440
Speaker 1: So it was a good turnout, but it wasn't a

936
00:43:13,520 --> 00:43:21,640
Speaker 1: great turnout, and it was graduating everyone. And I'm not

937
00:43:21,760 --> 00:43:29,239
Speaker 1: joking you. Everyone has three kids. Everyone three children. I'm

938
00:43:29,280 --> 00:43:32,320
Speaker 1: not joking you. You either have no children, which was

939
00:43:32,400 --> 00:43:36,880
Speaker 1: maybe me. Like there was one other person, pH Balance,

940
00:43:36,920 --> 00:43:38,520
Speaker 1: shout out to you. His name is Paul Holleran, but

941
00:43:38,600 --> 00:43:41,040
Speaker 1: we called him pH Balance back in high school. pH

942
00:43:41,120 --> 00:43:43,800
Speaker 1: Balance and his wife they have no kids. Um, I

943
00:43:43,960 --> 00:43:48,799
Speaker 1: have no kids. Um. I think Rob Eiselhardt has no kids.

944
00:43:48,920 --> 00:43:53,600
Speaker 1: But everyone else not one kid, not two kids, three kids.

945
00:43:54,320 --> 00:43:57,440
Speaker 1: And it's like and they all said the same thing,

946
00:43:59,440 --> 00:44:04,000
Speaker 1: all of them a third child. I have so much sympathy.

947
00:44:04,080 --> 00:44:05,759
Speaker 1: I was like, I think you should board planes before

948
00:44:05,840 --> 00:44:12,640
Speaker 1: veterans like you got and they do. They do, yeah, exactly,

949
00:44:13,280 --> 00:44:16,160
Speaker 1: like but no people think people have two and they're like,

950
00:44:16,280 --> 00:44:19,360
Speaker 1: oh my god, I want another one of these don't have.

951
00:44:19,880 --> 00:44:24,200
Speaker 1: Then their life changes because the third child adds a

952
00:44:24,280 --> 00:44:27,280
Speaker 1: new dimension. It's like you can't because you can't focus

953
00:44:27,360 --> 00:44:29,000
Speaker 1: on the other two that are beating each other up.

954
00:44:29,000 --> 00:44:32,200
Speaker 1: Because and you got to buy a bigger car because

955
00:44:32,719 --> 00:44:34,880
Speaker 1: yeah you need more, but you can't go to restaurants

956
00:44:34,920 --> 00:44:37,920
Speaker 1: and then your car getting stolen. I have to wait

957
00:44:39,680 --> 00:44:42,400
Speaker 1: talking about this now, it's crazy. Well, I saw this

958
00:44:42,480 --> 00:44:45,680
Speaker 1: weekend on Thanksgiving, we spent speaking of like family, I

959
00:44:45,719 --> 00:44:48,759
Speaker 1: spent it with my sister brother in law and their

960
00:44:48,800 --> 00:44:51,000
Speaker 1: three kids and then my parents. Right after the parade,

961
00:44:51,040 --> 00:44:53,040
Speaker 1: which ended at eleven, I went over to my parents

962
00:44:53,120 --> 00:44:55,000
Speaker 1: house at noon and then all the kids were over

963
00:44:55,040 --> 00:44:58,040
Speaker 1: there and we were there from noon until ten o'clock

964
00:44:58,280 --> 00:45:02,800
Speaker 1: at night, so ten o hours. Did not well that

965
00:45:03,000 --> 00:45:06,319
Speaker 1: I left at ten I guess they did. They did

966
00:45:06,360 --> 00:45:09,480
Speaker 1: not take naps. So this is ten hours of three kids.

967
00:45:10,040 --> 00:45:13,320
Speaker 1: You know, a bait for us one poppies three. Arlow

968
00:45:13,440 --> 00:45:17,719
Speaker 1: is four or five? Four? He's five? Five okay, um

969
00:45:17,880 --> 00:45:19,880
Speaker 1: news to me, and uh he's been five for a

970
00:45:19,920 --> 00:45:25,920
Speaker 1: while since April. But it was chaos. It was and

971
00:45:26,000 --> 00:45:29,320
Speaker 1: there there my mom, Dad, me, Lauren, and Matt and

972
00:45:29,360 --> 00:45:31,120
Speaker 1: there are five people to take care of these three kids.

973
00:45:31,160 --> 00:45:34,520
Speaker 1: And it was still like so overwhelming it never ends.

974
00:45:34,640 --> 00:45:42,360
Speaker 1: My mom gave arlow a gun. It was an so

975
00:45:42,480 --> 00:45:45,360
Speaker 1: it came with a dinosaur. It's a gun. You should

976
00:45:45,360 --> 00:45:48,160
Speaker 1: It's like a big orange gun. But it looks like

977
00:45:48,239 --> 00:45:50,480
Speaker 1: it's a little pistol. It looks like a little pistol,

978
00:45:50,520 --> 00:45:52,719
Speaker 1: but it's it's it's substantial. It's the size of a

979
00:45:52,800 --> 00:45:56,240
Speaker 1: pistol and it goes like it has a sound effect.

980
00:45:56,360 --> 00:46:00,440
Speaker 1: Big mistake. He was shooting me like in the table constantly,

981
00:46:00,480 --> 00:46:02,120
Speaker 1: like putting out to my temple and just being like

982
00:46:02,239 --> 00:46:06,759
Speaker 1: you're dead. It was so he is gone, the gun

983
00:46:06,880 --> 00:46:11,520
Speaker 1: is gone. We did a buyback program, you know. Um

984
00:46:11,800 --> 00:46:14,839
Speaker 1: it was. It was a little bit like we kept

985
00:46:14,880 --> 00:46:17,080
Speaker 1: we kept telling him like, I'm never that side of

986
00:46:17,200 --> 00:46:19,560
Speaker 1: him with the gun. So I was like, why did

987
00:46:19,640 --> 00:46:22,120
Speaker 1: I When you're a little boy with a gun, you can't.

988
00:46:22,200 --> 00:46:26,000
Speaker 1: It's like when you shoot each other over it. Yeah,

989
00:46:26,200 --> 00:46:30,600
Speaker 1: he wants to stay. Blood stabbing, all these things are

990
00:46:30,640 --> 00:46:33,040
Speaker 1: coming out. Oh my god, he draws pictures. We were

991
00:46:33,080 --> 00:46:35,440
Speaker 1: drawing together and all he draws his knives and then

992
00:46:35,560 --> 00:46:38,320
Speaker 1: people with exes for eyes. He's five and he's and

993
00:46:38,400 --> 00:46:40,920
Speaker 1: he's blood. There's a lot of blood, a lot of blood,

994
00:46:41,080 --> 00:46:44,839
Speaker 1: a lot of reds. Yeah. I never did that that's

995
00:46:44,960 --> 00:46:47,960
Speaker 1: like some movie that's not some old Damien omen that's crazy.

996
00:46:47,960 --> 00:46:50,759
Speaker 1: It's not like a really like dark child. Like he's

997
00:46:50,800 --> 00:46:53,160
Speaker 1: not like a kid that he's like always lighthearted about it.

998
00:46:53,200 --> 00:46:55,680
Speaker 1: He's like and then there's blood, and then they all

999
00:46:55,920 --> 00:47:00,440
Speaker 1: diet and then they're debt like he's like about it's

1000
00:47:00,440 --> 00:47:03,080
Speaker 1: not like he doesn't understand what it all means. I

1001
00:47:03,120 --> 00:47:05,160
Speaker 1: don't know where it can come. He doesn't. But at

1002
00:47:05,200 --> 00:47:06,800
Speaker 1: the end of the night, so we get to Thanksgiving

1003
00:47:06,840 --> 00:47:08,680
Speaker 1: dinner and by the way, he like, my mom sets

1004
00:47:08,719 --> 00:47:10,239
Speaker 1: the table and like puts out the food and he's like,

1005
00:47:10,560 --> 00:47:13,239
Speaker 1: this is all disgusting to me, Like, what do you say?

1006
00:47:13,480 --> 00:47:15,399
Speaker 1: My mom goes, I just heard my mom goes, well

1007
00:47:15,480 --> 00:47:19,520
Speaker 1: that hurts my feelings are Oh my god. It's so

1008
00:47:19,760 --> 00:47:24,120
Speaker 1: cute when kids are like that, when they're like dark. Yeah,

1009
00:47:24,280 --> 00:47:26,560
Speaker 1: I'm like, that's fine. I don't give that little girl

1010
00:47:26,560 --> 00:47:28,560
Speaker 1: that was like because I'm evil. No, oh, that one too.

1011
00:47:28,640 --> 00:47:30,680
Speaker 1: But there's this little girl she's like and she's sitting there.

1012
00:47:30,719 --> 00:47:32,440
Speaker 1: She goes, what did you say? She goes kill me?

1013
00:47:33,080 --> 00:47:35,160
Speaker 1: She goes, what she just kill me? Like that movie

1014
00:47:35,160 --> 00:47:36,919
Speaker 1: And you're like what. But it's just like funny because

1015
00:47:36,920 --> 00:47:39,120
Speaker 1: they they're like practicing talk and they don't even know

1016
00:47:39,239 --> 00:47:42,279
Speaker 1: what they're saying. They're like they're just coloring. They're doing

1017
00:47:42,320 --> 00:47:44,560
Speaker 1: all that. We laugh and then they keep doing it

1018
00:47:45,400 --> 00:47:47,920
Speaker 1: and I can't stop black. He's drawn and I keep

1019
00:47:47,960 --> 00:47:49,719
Speaker 1: going intete a Christmas tree and he's like, no, it's

1020
00:47:49,760 --> 00:47:52,080
Speaker 1: a knife. He keeps drawing these things that the knives

1021
00:47:52,080 --> 00:47:53,759
Speaker 1: get bigger so they look like Christmas trees and they

1022
00:47:53,800 --> 00:47:55,600
Speaker 1: have to handle at the bottom. And I was like,

1023
00:47:55,840 --> 00:47:58,640
Speaker 1: that's got to be interesting. Was like, no, there's blood

1024
00:47:58,680 --> 00:48:02,400
Speaker 1: at the top of it. But he um. So then

1025
00:48:02,440 --> 00:48:06,360
Speaker 1: we're going around the table playing like as we're eating Thanksgiving,

1026
00:48:06,640 --> 00:48:09,040
Speaker 1: like not before we ate, but after as we're like eating,

1027
00:48:09,080 --> 00:48:10,840
Speaker 1: like what are you thankful for? We all go around

1028
00:48:11,120 --> 00:48:12,759
Speaker 1: and they gets to Arlow and he said, and I

1029
00:48:12,920 --> 00:48:15,680
Speaker 1: wrote it down in my phone. He said, I'm thankful

1030
00:48:15,800 --> 00:48:20,080
Speaker 1: for dead persons in jail. And then he goes and Mommy,

1031
00:48:22,239 --> 00:48:25,800
Speaker 1: but he's thankful for dead persons in jail, which doesn't

1032
00:48:25,840 --> 00:48:32,200
Speaker 1: make any sense, but he and that's saying yeah and

1033
00:48:32,320 --> 00:48:39,120
Speaker 1: soon to be what's her name? Just um, yeah, So Thanksgiving.

1034
00:48:39,160 --> 00:48:41,719
Speaker 1: But I did write Chris on Thanksgiving and I said,

1035
00:48:42,560 --> 00:48:46,479
Speaker 1: I know that I don't want kids. I just I don't.

1036
00:48:46,840 --> 00:48:48,640
Speaker 1: We haven't had to have us. There's not a single

1037
00:48:48,680 --> 00:48:51,200
Speaker 1: conversation that's been able to take place that's going anywhere

1038
00:48:51,239 --> 00:48:54,840
Speaker 1: past I'm the doctory stage. Yeah, I'm not playing to that.

1039
00:48:54,960 --> 00:48:57,560
Speaker 1: I literally like, I love I would wish my brother.

1040
00:48:57,600 --> 00:48:59,640
Speaker 1: I'm like, you have I'll be an uncle like that

1041
00:48:59,680 --> 00:49:01,279
Speaker 1: will be tight, Like don't you love being an aunt?

1042
00:49:01,440 --> 00:49:06,120
Speaker 1: Like I feel like that's yeah, But you know what

1043
00:49:06,160 --> 00:49:08,600
Speaker 1: I'm saying, I don't. I just it's so stressful. But

1044
00:49:08,719 --> 00:49:12,080
Speaker 1: it's stressful if you're not, I'm gonna turn into aunt crazy.

1045
00:49:12,400 --> 00:49:17,439
Speaker 1: I Nikki comes over and oh my god, I go, Mom,

1046
00:49:17,560 --> 00:49:19,439
Speaker 1: why would you want this for me? Because my mom's

1047
00:49:19,440 --> 00:49:21,160
Speaker 1: always like, just freeze your eggs? And I go, why

1048
00:49:21,200 --> 00:49:22,960
Speaker 1: would you want this for me? Why would you want

1049
00:49:22,960 --> 00:49:26,480
Speaker 1: me to even put this on? Like? Because I know

1050
00:49:26,640 --> 00:49:28,200
Speaker 1: that they bring a lot of joy. I mean, they

1051
00:49:28,280 --> 00:49:30,280
Speaker 1: bring so much joy to my life and to my sisters,

1052
00:49:30,320 --> 00:49:31,759
Speaker 1: and it's all going to pay off when they become

1053
00:49:31,840 --> 00:49:33,880
Speaker 1: like tiny adults and they start like being able to

1054
00:49:33,920 --> 00:49:36,600
Speaker 1: take care of themselves. It all pays off. But I

1055
00:49:36,719 --> 00:49:38,600
Speaker 1: do not want to give away ten years of my life.

1056
00:49:39,480 --> 00:49:42,480
Speaker 1: And I know that and talking to well ten years

1057
00:49:42,520 --> 00:49:44,799
Speaker 1: of like when it's really seen. I know, but you're

1058
00:49:44,840 --> 00:49:48,759
Speaker 1: not because you throw college in there. Honestly, in the

1059
00:49:48,800 --> 00:49:50,480
Speaker 1: world we live in now, it's like thirty three, Like

1060
00:49:50,560 --> 00:49:52,960
Speaker 1: I feel like, you know everyone, Do you think that

1061
00:49:53,000 --> 00:49:54,800
Speaker 1: I should have kids? Do you think based on what

1062
00:49:54,960 --> 00:49:57,880
Speaker 1: I think that maybe if you froze your eggs, I

1063
00:49:57,960 --> 00:50:01,440
Speaker 1: mean maybe you would consider it later? Or you Why

1064
00:50:01,520 --> 00:50:03,239
Speaker 1: would I want that later? Why do you think? Do

1065
00:50:03,280 --> 00:50:04,520
Speaker 1: you think if you get to a place where I'm

1066
00:50:04,520 --> 00:50:07,200
Speaker 1: gonna want it, well, you may marry someone who wants

1067
00:50:07,440 --> 00:50:12,560
Speaker 1: children desperately. Nikki, You're not gonna like this. But what

1068
00:50:12,760 --> 00:50:15,239
Speaker 1: about like last week or the week before, you were

1069
00:50:15,280 --> 00:50:17,000
Speaker 1: talking about what a great time you had in Santa

1070
00:50:17,040 --> 00:50:20,279
Speaker 1: Barbara with your mom and going to the hotel having

1071
00:50:20,320 --> 00:50:23,440
Speaker 1: your parents there from the mass singer, all those experiences

1072
00:50:23,520 --> 00:50:26,360
Speaker 1: that you have with your parents more than like adult age.

1073
00:50:26,880 --> 00:50:29,839
Speaker 1: What about that? Forget about like the you know, yeah,

1074
00:50:29,880 --> 00:50:32,359
Speaker 1: if I could have an adult child, I would. I don't.

1075
00:50:32,800 --> 00:50:35,000
Speaker 1: I'm not kidding you. If I could skip the childhood

1076
00:50:35,000 --> 00:50:36,719
Speaker 1: and we could start at ten, which I know you could,

1077
00:50:36,800 --> 00:50:39,120
Speaker 1: but like, it's not the same adopting a ten year old.

1078
00:50:39,120 --> 00:50:40,600
Speaker 1: You're not going to get the same bond that you

1079
00:50:40,719 --> 00:50:43,799
Speaker 1: have if you have them from so I'm sacrificing all

1080
00:50:43,840 --> 00:50:46,399
Speaker 1: those things that are good later on because I don't

1081
00:50:46,400 --> 00:50:48,440
Speaker 1: want to give up the first ten years, Like if

1082
00:50:48,440 --> 00:50:50,600
Speaker 1: I could get a ten I think that's the age

1083
00:50:50,680 --> 00:50:52,799
Speaker 1: that I start to like really think kids are cool.

1084
00:50:52,960 --> 00:50:54,759
Speaker 1: It's like ten and all my friends who have kids,

1085
00:50:54,800 --> 00:51:00,680
Speaker 1: they're like, it's so good. Ll it like the I

1086
00:51:00,800 --> 00:51:05,320
Speaker 1: can't even are you kidding here right now? It's insane.

1087
00:51:05,880 --> 00:51:08,399
Speaker 1: That's insane, you know what I mean. So I get

1088
00:51:08,480 --> 00:51:10,320
Speaker 1: that there's both sides. I bet it is beautiful, but

1089
00:51:11,239 --> 00:51:13,920
Speaker 1: everyone was just at the reunion to avoid being with

1090
00:51:14,000 --> 00:51:15,719
Speaker 1: their kids. Most of them were like I didn't want

1091
00:51:15,719 --> 00:51:17,239
Speaker 1: to come, but it was excused to get out of

1092
00:51:17,280 --> 00:51:22,560
Speaker 1: the house. You are Laura never complains, never ever complain

1093
00:51:22,680 --> 00:51:28,399
Speaker 1: it matter, never complain. They're very chill, but they just don't.

1094
00:51:28,960 --> 00:51:32,319
Speaker 1: I would complain all the time because I always say

1095
00:51:32,320 --> 00:51:33,640
Speaker 1: to her, like, I know, this is what you signed

1096
00:51:33,680 --> 00:51:35,000
Speaker 1: up because she kind of goes, this is you know,

1097
00:51:35,040 --> 00:51:36,640
Speaker 1: I'm not going to complain about what I signed up for.

1098
00:51:36,760 --> 00:51:38,440
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna be one of those moms. But you're

1099
00:51:38,440 --> 00:51:40,600
Speaker 1: allowed to like, it's not exactly what you signed up for.

1100
00:51:40,680 --> 00:51:42,479
Speaker 1: You didn't know it was going to be this hard,

1101
00:51:44,640 --> 00:51:48,040
Speaker 1: But I I just think you probably feel like you

1102
00:51:48,120 --> 00:51:50,840
Speaker 1: wouldn't have that patience in you. I just know. I

1103
00:51:50,960 --> 00:51:53,279
Speaker 1: just really like my life. I like being able to

1104
00:51:53,360 --> 00:51:55,200
Speaker 1: do what I want to do. And maybe it's selfish,

1105
00:51:55,239 --> 00:51:59,200
Speaker 1: but I really I'm not. I'm already feel very stunted

1106
00:51:59,239 --> 00:52:02,279
Speaker 1: in terms of like the learn you know, learning that

1107
00:52:02,280 --> 00:52:04,040
Speaker 1: I like to play guitar, and like I like to sing,

1108
00:52:04,120 --> 00:52:06,000
Speaker 1: and that I like, you know, I have so much

1109
00:52:06,000 --> 00:52:08,399
Speaker 1: more I want to accomplish in life, and kids take

1110
00:52:08,719 --> 00:52:11,520
Speaker 1: you out for many years where you can't get stuff done,

1111
00:52:11,560 --> 00:52:13,080
Speaker 1: and I know that there are people that can't. I

1112
00:52:13,200 --> 00:52:16,279
Speaker 1: know I wouldn't. I don't have enough bandwidth to get

1113
00:52:16,320 --> 00:52:20,080
Speaker 1: it all done and feeling guilty. And I like napping.

1114
00:52:20,320 --> 00:52:24,480
Speaker 1: I like, you know, I like watching VP all day.

1115
00:52:24,520 --> 00:52:26,880
Speaker 1: I like I like doing nothing. I like I like

1116
00:52:27,000 --> 00:52:29,520
Speaker 1: doing nothing, and I just it's selfish because I do

1117
00:52:29,719 --> 00:52:32,439
Speaker 1: know I am gonna miss out when you guys are gone.

1118
00:52:32,560 --> 00:52:34,719
Speaker 1: If when my parents are gone, that's when you go.

1119
00:52:34,840 --> 00:52:36,960
Speaker 1: I wish I had something else, but I'm gonna get birds.

1120
00:52:37,160 --> 00:52:39,000
Speaker 1: And I think that I really and I know that sounds,

1121
00:52:39,560 --> 00:52:42,720
Speaker 1: but birds, you can't. We're going to be replaced by birds.

1122
00:52:42,800 --> 00:52:49,360
Speaker 1: Well birds, yeah, but I like parrots and stuff like

1123
00:52:49,760 --> 00:52:52,680
Speaker 1: bird parrots, and I really want them, and I just

1124
00:52:52,760 --> 00:52:54,719
Speaker 1: feel like I'm wasting my life not having them, like

1125
00:52:54,760 --> 00:52:57,759
Speaker 1: I'm going to at some point go every day that

1126
00:52:57,880 --> 00:52:59,560
Speaker 1: you had no bird in your life was a waste

1127
00:52:59,600 --> 00:53:01,640
Speaker 1: of your life because it's like the happiest that it

1128
00:53:01,680 --> 00:53:03,759
Speaker 1: can make me. And so I feel like with I

1129
00:53:03,840 --> 00:53:06,279
Speaker 1: can't do kids and birds are a huge responsibility also

1130
00:53:06,360 --> 00:53:08,319
Speaker 1: something that takes a lot of time and a lot

1131
00:53:08,400 --> 00:53:17,239
Speaker 1: of like effort years long. M Yeah, but you can

1132
00:53:17,400 --> 00:53:19,919
Speaker 1: leave and you can go for my Santa Barbara trip

1133
00:53:20,000 --> 00:53:22,200
Speaker 1: with my birds. Someday I'll get the same thing out

1134
00:53:22,239 --> 00:53:24,320
Speaker 1: of that and they'll come. I'll watch them on the

1135
00:53:24,400 --> 00:53:30,000
Speaker 1: mask square would have in Santa Barbara. There you go.

1136
00:53:30,239 --> 00:53:32,280
Speaker 1: Would you go on stage with like it on your shoulder,

1137
00:53:32,440 --> 00:53:34,839
Speaker 1: like like you distracting? But I think people could get

1138
00:53:34,880 --> 00:53:38,920
Speaker 1: over it. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I think I think I

1139
00:53:38,920 --> 00:53:40,919
Speaker 1: would have it because I brought Marian on stage before

1140
00:53:41,000 --> 00:53:42,839
Speaker 1: my dogs, and people at first are like, you gotta

1141
00:53:42,880 --> 00:53:44,480
Speaker 1: make jokes about it, but then they just get relaxed

1142
00:53:44,480 --> 00:53:46,720
Speaker 1: because the dogs just like and it's just something because

1143
00:53:46,920 --> 00:53:49,279
Speaker 1: when you're on stage talking for so long, you want

1144
00:53:49,320 --> 00:53:51,480
Speaker 1: to give people something to look at because they get

1145
00:53:51,520 --> 00:53:53,319
Speaker 1: kind of bored. There's not a lot to look at.

1146
00:53:53,360 --> 00:53:55,880
Speaker 1: It's just someone, knowlogizing on stage. You want. So I

1147
00:53:56,000 --> 00:53:58,120
Speaker 1: like to wear like outfits where people can kind of

1148
00:53:58,200 --> 00:54:00,759
Speaker 1: like dissect the outfit because I know that they're going

1149
00:54:00,800 --> 00:54:03,120
Speaker 1: to tune me out at some point, you know. So

1150
00:54:03,360 --> 00:54:04,960
Speaker 1: a bird on my shoulder, Hell yeah, I bring word

1151
00:54:05,040 --> 00:54:06,759
Speaker 1: on stage. We'll take a quick break and get right

1152
00:54:06,800 --> 00:54:11,560
Speaker 1: back to the show. Right, we're back. Yeah. So the

1153
00:54:11,640 --> 00:54:15,520
Speaker 1: reunion was great, and um, what else happened? And I

1154
00:54:15,640 --> 00:54:17,919
Speaker 1: decided I don't want kids because everyone has three kids

1155
00:54:17,960 --> 00:54:20,719
Speaker 1: and everyone seemed to be burdened by that. And they

1156
00:54:20,760 --> 00:54:23,040
Speaker 1: all said that, like the third kid was a mistake.

1157
00:54:25,040 --> 00:54:27,040
Speaker 1: It's like a mistake and like we shouldn't have done

1158
00:54:27,080 --> 00:54:29,200
Speaker 1: the same mistake of like it didn't mean we didn't

1159
00:54:29,239 --> 00:54:30,880
Speaker 1: mean for this to happen. And I go, have you

1160
00:54:30,960 --> 00:54:36,360
Speaker 1: never heard of Marshman? But I guess sorry, aunt, crazy

1161
00:54:36,480 --> 00:54:40,759
Speaker 1: people can't Yeah, that thing that you can do, but

1162
00:54:40,960 --> 00:54:42,960
Speaker 1: people just go people do that all the time. They go,

1163
00:54:43,680 --> 00:54:45,320
Speaker 1: they we didn't want her, but they were it was

1164
00:54:45,360 --> 00:54:48,600
Speaker 1: a mistake, and I go, are we living that? It's

1165
00:54:48,640 --> 00:54:54,279
Speaker 1: pretty interesting and I'm going to just have to I

1166
00:54:54,320 --> 00:54:57,200
Speaker 1: guess I have to keep this one. I sometimes just

1167
00:54:57,280 --> 00:55:01,239
Speaker 1: go like, do you not know? Both don't think like that,

1168
00:55:01,560 --> 00:55:03,960
Speaker 1: but they don't know. I mean, I like, this is

1169
00:55:04,120 --> 00:55:05,960
Speaker 1: look at my other two beauties. I have a lot

1170
00:55:05,960 --> 00:55:08,680
Speaker 1: of friends who are approach choice and are still like,

1171
00:55:08,760 --> 00:55:12,319
Speaker 1: I would never ever do that. And I gotta say,

1172
00:55:14,120 --> 00:55:15,960
Speaker 1: I don't think it would be a big issue for

1173
00:55:16,040 --> 00:55:17,719
Speaker 1: me to do. It's not something I want to do.

1174
00:55:17,760 --> 00:55:20,800
Speaker 1: I've never had to do it, thank god, um, but

1175
00:55:21,160 --> 00:55:23,600
Speaker 1: I don't think it would be something for me that

1176
00:55:23,680 --> 00:55:25,400
Speaker 1: I would And I don't know because I think a

1177
00:55:25,480 --> 00:55:27,600
Speaker 1: lot of people maybe do have that done and then

1178
00:55:27,640 --> 00:55:30,399
Speaker 1: they go, that was way more of a big deal

1179
00:55:30,480 --> 00:55:33,160
Speaker 1: to me than I thought it was. And I'm someone

1180
00:55:33,200 --> 00:55:35,799
Speaker 1: who like, I mean, I get sad when I pull

1181
00:55:35,840 --> 00:55:37,480
Speaker 1: a booker out of my nose because I'm like, this

1182
00:55:37,640 --> 00:55:39,000
Speaker 1: was a part of me, or like I lose a

1183
00:55:39,000 --> 00:55:40,920
Speaker 1: piece of hair and I'm like this was on my

1184
00:55:41,080 --> 00:55:43,000
Speaker 1: head for like I don't know, I just like it's

1185
00:55:43,000 --> 00:55:44,360
Speaker 1: a part of it now that I want to keep it.

1186
00:55:44,440 --> 00:55:47,040
Speaker 1: But like I get sad, like a scab like the

1187
00:55:47,080 --> 00:55:48,440
Speaker 1: other day I shaved it, like I have this like

1188
00:55:48,560 --> 00:55:50,920
Speaker 1: scalpel that I cut down my house is on my

1189
00:55:50,960 --> 00:55:53,200
Speaker 1: feet with and even that that, I was like looking

1190
00:55:53,200 --> 00:55:54,520
Speaker 1: at this couse and I was like, oh my god,

1191
00:55:54,600 --> 00:55:57,040
Speaker 1: this has been through so much with me, Like this

1192
00:55:57,239 --> 00:55:59,000
Speaker 1: is this was on my foot when I sang the

1193
00:55:59,080 --> 00:56:00,960
Speaker 1: national anthem. This was my foot when I did the messing,

1194
00:56:01,040 --> 00:56:02,799
Speaker 1: or this was on my foot, like this was building up.

1195
00:56:02,880 --> 00:56:06,360
Speaker 1: This is like been through a lot. And I got sad.

1196
00:56:06,880 --> 00:56:10,160
Speaker 1: We should hang those on the whimsical what was that

1197
00:56:10,560 --> 00:56:14,080
Speaker 1: we should hang them on the wall behind you. I'm

1198
00:56:14,080 --> 00:56:16,680
Speaker 1: not gonna tell you what I do. Fingernails are like

1199
00:56:18,760 --> 00:56:20,640
Speaker 1: I kind of just like get those out of there.

1200
00:56:20,680 --> 00:56:23,960
Speaker 1: But there is a part of me that I yeah, there,

1201
00:56:24,320 --> 00:56:26,600
Speaker 1: it's a little there's just like I worked my body

1202
00:56:26,680 --> 00:56:29,080
Speaker 1: worked to make that and now I'm just tossing it away.

1203
00:56:29,480 --> 00:56:32,080
Speaker 1: So there is something of that. But for whatever reason,

1204
00:56:32,160 --> 00:56:34,520
Speaker 1: I'm not when you blow your nose, oh no, I'm

1205
00:56:34,560 --> 00:56:37,040
Speaker 1: not sad about that. And I was joking about the booking.

1206
00:56:37,120 --> 00:56:40,640
Speaker 1: I don't about books. Teeth. I missed my teeth. I

1207
00:56:40,760 --> 00:56:42,600
Speaker 1: really wish the doctor wouldn't take an eight out of

1208
00:56:42,640 --> 00:56:45,040
Speaker 1: my fucking face. Because now when I smile a wide,

1209
00:56:45,080 --> 00:56:46,719
Speaker 1: I have big gaps here. I'm thinking about getting my

1210
00:56:46,760 --> 00:56:50,919
Speaker 1: smile widened. He took what teeth? It was a fad

1211
00:56:51,000 --> 00:56:53,160
Speaker 1: back in St. Louis in the nineties where they took

1212
00:56:53,160 --> 00:56:55,840
Speaker 1: out too many teeth. And there's this other guy that

1213
00:56:55,960 --> 00:56:59,920
Speaker 1: has it to Louis House. He's a very famous influencer.

1214
00:57:00,440 --> 00:57:02,759
Speaker 1: Lewis Houses, also from St. Louis, and he had the

1215
00:57:02,800 --> 00:57:07,160
Speaker 1: same thing. He just recently had to get veneers. I

1216
00:57:07,239 --> 00:57:09,719
Speaker 1: only go farther back than mine. I have less teeth

1217
00:57:09,719 --> 00:57:11,960
Speaker 1: and Andrew. And Andrew has no teeth do you have?

1218
00:57:12,880 --> 00:57:15,080
Speaker 1: I think I have like one teeth or something like.

1219
00:57:15,120 --> 00:57:19,880
Speaker 1: It's like a really low number. But but I've just

1220
00:57:19,920 --> 00:57:22,880
Speaker 1: made up a number. But they're usually even my teeth

1221
00:57:22,960 --> 00:57:26,640
Speaker 1: be able to drink in their number. Um. So yeah,

1222
00:57:26,720 --> 00:57:29,000
Speaker 1: but anyway, Um, when do we get to talk about

1223
00:57:29,040 --> 00:57:34,160
Speaker 1: the Mouse Singer? Yeah, let's talk about it, the Mass Singer.

1224
00:57:34,280 --> 00:57:37,080
Speaker 1: I was on that show. Everyone. I watched it last night.

1225
00:57:37,120 --> 00:57:41,960
Speaker 1: I watched all the episodes. I watched all. I loved

1226
00:57:42,440 --> 00:57:44,840
Speaker 1: the you talking about Bob Saget and break. That was

1227
00:57:45,160 --> 00:57:48,960
Speaker 1: so sincere and so sweet. That was really beautiful. I

1228
00:57:49,040 --> 00:57:52,240
Speaker 1: thought it was really nice, but there was that what

1229
00:57:52,440 --> 00:57:54,680
Speaker 1: was that? No one but a total giveaway, like if

1230
00:57:54,720 --> 00:57:58,280
Speaker 1: anyone had their doubts, And I mean it was just

1231
00:57:58,400 --> 00:58:00,880
Speaker 1: like they kept doing things that I'm like, and then

1232
00:58:00,880 --> 00:58:02,640
Speaker 1: they wouldn't let me sing a Taylor Swift song because

1233
00:58:02,640 --> 00:58:04,360
Speaker 1: they're like, that'll be too I don't even know why

1234
00:58:04,360 --> 00:58:05,880
Speaker 1: they didn't let me do a Taylor Swift song. I

1235
00:58:06,000 --> 00:58:10,080
Speaker 1: fought for it everyone like, so you couldn't. I felt

1236
00:58:10,120 --> 00:58:13,600
Speaker 1: like I betrayed myself not singing like they've done them

1237
00:58:13,640 --> 00:58:15,240
Speaker 1: before on the show. And I tried to get them

1238
00:58:15,280 --> 00:58:17,960
Speaker 1: to do Babe By like other songs that she's written

1239
00:58:18,000 --> 00:58:19,600
Speaker 1: for other artists, so it wouldn't have to be we

1240
00:58:19,640 --> 00:58:22,080
Speaker 1: don't have to pay her publisher or whatever whatever it was,

1241
00:58:22,480 --> 00:58:23,960
Speaker 1: and they still wouldn't let me do those songs like

1242
00:58:24,040 --> 00:58:25,480
Speaker 1: better Man. I tried to get to do that song.

1243
00:58:25,560 --> 00:58:27,360
Speaker 1: I tried to do Babe, I tried to do um

1244
00:58:28,040 --> 00:58:31,600
Speaker 1: just any anything. I was like, I will do that

1245
00:58:31,800 --> 00:58:37,040
Speaker 1: Midnight Rain song that's like she wanted, like it's not

1246
00:58:37,120 --> 00:58:39,440
Speaker 1: either her voice, like I would have done anything. It

1247
00:58:39,560 --> 00:58:41,520
Speaker 1: was before Midnights came out, so I taped it in

1248
00:58:41,680 --> 00:58:46,600
Speaker 1: July August, so it was before my soul surgery. Um.

1249
00:58:46,720 --> 00:58:49,240
Speaker 1: It was the reason I got my surgery. So you

1250
00:58:49,320 --> 00:58:51,320
Speaker 1: know I talked about getting my vocal cords surgery and

1251
00:58:51,400 --> 00:58:54,240
Speaker 1: how the person who talked me into doing it was

1252
00:58:54,360 --> 00:58:57,800
Speaker 1: my vocal teacher, and I knew that. You guys assumed

1253
00:58:57,840 --> 00:58:59,760
Speaker 1: that was probably the one that I've been going to before,

1254
00:58:59,840 --> 00:59:01,280
Speaker 1: but you didn't know it was a new one that

1255
00:59:01,360 --> 00:59:04,320
Speaker 1: I met on the show. UM, So I lied by omission,

1256
00:59:04,360 --> 00:59:06,360
Speaker 1: but it didn't quite lie because it was my vocal

1257
00:59:06,400 --> 00:59:08,040
Speaker 1: teacher who said I should get it, and it was

1258
00:59:08,400 --> 00:59:10,720
Speaker 1: that's how it happened. But on the Best Singer, I

1259
00:59:10,840 --> 00:59:13,800
Speaker 1: discovered that I had hemorrhaging on my chords, and so

1260
00:59:13,920 --> 00:59:17,760
Speaker 1: I sang with broken chords. UM, but it still did

1261
00:59:17,800 --> 00:59:19,400
Speaker 1: pretty good. But I had to take every song down

1262
00:59:19,480 --> 00:59:22,600
Speaker 1: like eighteen octaves, but it still worked. And then um,

1263
00:59:22,840 --> 00:59:25,800
Speaker 1: and then the show ended. But it was some questions

1264
00:59:25,840 --> 00:59:28,200
Speaker 1: that came through. Where did I get to keep the costume? No,

1265
00:59:29,320 --> 00:59:31,360
Speaker 1: I don't know why, but they didn't let me keep

1266
00:59:31,400 --> 00:59:33,280
Speaker 1: any part of it. I did keep the bra from it.

1267
00:59:33,720 --> 00:59:36,400
Speaker 1: My boots. My boobs were also massed on the shows.

1268
00:59:38,920 --> 00:59:40,800
Speaker 1: They were I literally the I should show you the bra,

1269
00:59:41,040 --> 00:59:42,880
Speaker 1: it isn't I felt the other day it's an inch

1270
00:59:43,040 --> 00:59:49,160
Speaker 1: thick of batting and because it's yeah, yeah, I wear

1271
00:59:49,200 --> 00:59:53,120
Speaker 1: it around Arlowe case he gets stabby um and then

1272
00:59:53,360 --> 00:59:57,520
Speaker 1: um how heavy was But it was so heavy? It

1273
00:59:57,600 --> 01:00:01,120
Speaker 1: was the heavy. The the guy who was like operating

1274
01:00:01,360 --> 01:00:03,680
Speaker 1: because there was like lights inside the mask and they

1275
01:00:03,720 --> 01:00:06,640
Speaker 1: had to like rig it every single time I put

1276
01:00:06,680 --> 01:00:08,840
Speaker 1: it on. The guy that made it and was like

1277
01:00:08,880 --> 01:00:11,400
Speaker 1: an engineer on the costumes said that my mask was

1278
01:00:11,440 --> 01:00:13,120
Speaker 1: the heaviest mass that he had dealt with. So I

1279
01:00:13,120 --> 01:00:14,400
Speaker 1: don't know how long he had been in the show,

1280
01:00:14,440 --> 01:00:16,120
Speaker 1: but he was like, this is by far the heaviest mask.

1281
01:00:16,240 --> 01:00:19,160
Speaker 1: It was so heavy it was probably I'm guessing twelve

1282
01:00:19,240 --> 01:00:22,720
Speaker 1: pounds off pounds on like that. And then the actual snowflake,

1283
01:00:22,760 --> 01:00:25,560
Speaker 1: which was a backpack that I wore. It had like

1284
01:00:25,720 --> 01:00:27,400
Speaker 1: these little prongs coming off it and then it would

1285
01:00:27,440 --> 01:00:30,400
Speaker 1: latch on like a backpack over my shoulders. That was

1286
01:00:30,480 --> 01:00:33,440
Speaker 1: at least thirty five pounds at least, and the wingspan

1287
01:00:33,520 --> 01:00:35,560
Speaker 1: of that was beyond my own wingspan, so it was

1288
01:00:35,640 --> 01:00:38,800
Speaker 1: like I was constantly bumping into things. And also inside

1289
01:00:38,840 --> 01:00:42,000
Speaker 1: my mask, I couldn't see anything. It was all it

1290
01:00:42,120 --> 01:00:44,480
Speaker 1: was really hard to see. I kind of just had

1291
01:00:44,520 --> 01:00:47,760
Speaker 1: to go buy lights, like bright lights and like you

1292
01:00:47,840 --> 01:00:51,000
Speaker 1: couldn't see through the eye. Not really no, because sometimes

1293
01:00:51,000 --> 01:00:52,400
Speaker 1: they would have the lyrics up on the thing, and

1294
01:00:52,440 --> 01:00:54,560
Speaker 1: I go, there's that's worthless to There's no way I

1295
01:00:54,600 --> 01:00:57,280
Speaker 1: could ever say, God, you didn't even have backup lyrics

1296
01:00:57,440 --> 01:00:59,480
Speaker 1: up there. No, And that's why I messed up some

1297
01:00:59,520 --> 01:01:01,160
Speaker 1: of the lyrics. So you can definitely hear I messed

1298
01:01:01,200 --> 01:01:03,320
Speaker 1: up some of the lyrics. But but the best part

1299
01:01:03,360 --> 01:01:06,120
Speaker 1: about the mask is that first of all, no one

1300
01:01:06,160 --> 01:01:07,640
Speaker 1: knows it's you, and so you don't have to have

1301
01:01:07,760 --> 01:01:10,240
Speaker 1: this like, oh my god, I feel so stupid singing,

1302
01:01:10,320 --> 01:01:13,040
Speaker 1: like people are gonna judge me. That's all gone. They're

1303
01:01:13,080 --> 01:01:16,480
Speaker 1: so it's so fun to be in, like you can

1304
01:01:16,560 --> 01:01:19,320
Speaker 1: be anyone you want to be. If it was so

1305
01:01:19,480 --> 01:01:22,000
Speaker 1: cool to just be singing and not feel like how

1306
01:01:22,080 --> 01:01:25,760
Speaker 1: your look or anything, I didn't have makeup on TV,

1307
01:01:25,840 --> 01:01:27,760
Speaker 1: I would like, you know, when I was unmasked, they

1308
01:01:27,800 --> 01:01:32,200
Speaker 1: knew that when you get unmasked behind the scenes, uh

1309
01:01:32,720 --> 01:01:36,040
Speaker 1: information here, you get unmasked, they know you're eliminated, and

1310
01:01:36,080 --> 01:01:37,840
Speaker 1: then they take you back. They whisk. It makes it

1311
01:01:37,920 --> 01:01:39,760
Speaker 1: look like it doesn't It just is all in one swoop,

1312
01:01:39,840 --> 01:01:42,240
Speaker 1: or it's like take it off, so they shout take

1313
01:01:42,320 --> 01:01:44,960
Speaker 1: it off, take it and then you act like you're

1314
01:01:44,960 --> 01:01:47,040
Speaker 1: struggling with it, and then they usher you backstage and

1315
01:01:47,040 --> 01:01:48,320
Speaker 1: then you get hair and makeup, and then they put

1316
01:01:48,360 --> 01:01:50,040
Speaker 1: you back out there and they go take it off.

1317
01:01:50,120 --> 01:01:51,640
Speaker 1: And then you take it off and you have full

1318
01:01:51,680 --> 01:01:53,960
Speaker 1: hair and makeup. Before that, you were like a sweaty mess.

1319
01:01:54,000 --> 01:01:56,280
Speaker 1: And I'm in the little skull cap to protect my

1320
01:01:56,360 --> 01:01:59,440
Speaker 1: hair from all the stuff inside, and um, and I

1321
01:01:59,480 --> 01:02:01,320
Speaker 1: have a big into my forehead from part of the

1322
01:02:01,440 --> 01:02:04,480
Speaker 1: thing like it was. It was a big But the

1323
01:02:04,640 --> 01:02:07,720
Speaker 1: coolest part about the costume was that inside you're like

1324
01:02:08,960 --> 01:02:13,040
Speaker 1: it's almost like, um, it felt like I'm in a

1325
01:02:13,760 --> 01:02:16,480
Speaker 1: cryogenic chamber or something, or it felt like I it

1326
01:02:16,560 --> 01:02:18,760
Speaker 1: felt like when you meditate and you're like looking for

1327
01:02:18,920 --> 01:02:22,000
Speaker 1: the yourself, like who is there a person inside you

1328
01:02:22,120 --> 01:02:25,520
Speaker 1: that's operating things? Are you just like consciousness or whatever?

1329
01:02:25,560 --> 01:02:27,400
Speaker 1: I don't know it got me any, but it felt

1330
01:02:27,480 --> 01:02:31,280
Speaker 1: like I was something inside. It felt like the thing

1331
01:02:31,400 --> 01:02:36,680
Speaker 1: that is the illusion that where you're just like you

1332
01:02:36,800 --> 01:02:39,240
Speaker 1: just get to focus on century deprivation. Yeah, I was

1333
01:02:39,320 --> 01:02:41,480
Speaker 1: alone in there, so I could sing as if I

1334
01:02:41,680 --> 01:02:44,320
Speaker 1: was alone and when you don't have but usually we

1335
01:02:44,440 --> 01:02:46,560
Speaker 1: have that all the time. You can always kind of

1336
01:02:46,680 --> 01:02:49,040
Speaker 1: pretend to be that where it's like you're alone in

1337
01:02:49,160 --> 01:02:51,280
Speaker 1: you and we all we all have that illusion that

1338
01:02:51,360 --> 01:02:53,560
Speaker 1: we're inside ourselves like controlling things, when really there's no

1339
01:02:53,640 --> 01:02:55,320
Speaker 1: free will and you can't control anything and it's kind

1340
01:02:55,320 --> 01:02:57,200
Speaker 1: of all just happening and you don't. It's hard to

1341
01:02:57,720 --> 01:03:00,160
Speaker 1: figure that out, but it's true. But we all have

1342
01:03:00,240 --> 01:03:02,640
Speaker 1: that illusion of where like operating our hands and our

1343
01:03:02,720 --> 01:03:05,480
Speaker 1: thoughts and our things, but you actually have no But

1344
01:03:05,560 --> 01:03:07,160
Speaker 1: this is the first time I felt like I really

1345
01:03:07,400 --> 01:03:09,280
Speaker 1: was and I could be alone in there and just

1346
01:03:09,360 --> 01:03:10,840
Speaker 1: like I was kind of like singing in the shower

1347
01:03:10,960 --> 01:03:12,920
Speaker 1: or I was underneath my covers or something like you

1348
01:03:13,000 --> 01:03:14,480
Speaker 1: were alone with yourself, so I could kind of talk

1349
01:03:14,520 --> 01:03:18,040
Speaker 1: to myself and be like like I was. It felt

1350
01:03:18,160 --> 01:03:20,080
Speaker 1: very lonely in there, but in like a good way.

1351
01:03:21,080 --> 01:03:24,920
Speaker 1: Her Yes, yes, And you sang with a real microphone,

1352
01:03:24,960 --> 01:03:26,439
Speaker 1: like you put it up to your mouth. You weren't

1353
01:03:26,480 --> 01:03:29,600
Speaker 1: like miked inside it, um, which I was surprised by.

1354
01:03:29,840 --> 01:03:32,560
Speaker 1: But don't they have a cover on your mouth? Yeah?

1355
01:03:32,560 --> 01:03:34,680
Speaker 1: It was around my chin. Oh, that's as far as

1356
01:03:34,720 --> 01:03:37,600
Speaker 1: it goes, ye would mind kept slipping off because I

1357
01:03:37,600 --> 01:03:40,200
Speaker 1: would open my mouth too wide and then they would

1358
01:03:40,240 --> 01:03:42,200
Speaker 1: be like cover it up because they couldn't. They didn't

1359
01:03:42,200 --> 01:03:43,920
Speaker 1: want to tell your skin tone, like they don't want

1360
01:03:43,920 --> 01:03:46,600
Speaker 1: to see anything. So when you're backstage at the show.

1361
01:03:46,680 --> 01:03:49,800
Speaker 1: My parents came to the show and if the pictures,

1362
01:03:49,880 --> 01:03:52,000
Speaker 1: we're all wearing these hoodies that say don't talk to me,

1363
01:03:52,120 --> 01:03:54,160
Speaker 1: which is one that they put you in. So when

1364
01:03:54,200 --> 01:03:56,080
Speaker 1: I first got to the mess singer, I should pull

1365
01:03:56,200 --> 01:03:58,800
Speaker 1: up on the lot and in the my you know,

1366
01:03:59,480 --> 01:04:02,800
Speaker 1: black are and this guy opens cracks open the door

1367
01:04:02,840 --> 01:04:05,160
Speaker 1: and it's like, hey, Snowstorm, and they called me Snowstorm.

1368
01:04:05,200 --> 01:04:07,280
Speaker 1: There was no Nikki. No one ever calls you Nikki

1369
01:04:07,320 --> 01:04:09,800
Speaker 1: within the show except from the first meeting. They go him, Nikki,

1370
01:04:10,240 --> 01:04:14,880
Speaker 1: we're picking out your character and then you're that. They

1371
01:04:15,040 --> 01:04:17,280
Speaker 1: presented it to me and I was like, I love it.

1372
01:04:17,880 --> 01:04:19,880
Speaker 1: Like it was like if you don't like it, it's fine.

1373
01:04:19,880 --> 01:04:21,200
Speaker 1: I was like, I thought they were gonna pick like,

1374
01:04:21,360 --> 01:04:23,680
Speaker 1: you know, the shaved beaver or something. I thought they

1375
01:04:23,680 --> 01:04:25,760
Speaker 1: were going to do some kind of like gross. Stokes's

1376
01:04:25,760 --> 01:04:29,440
Speaker 1: gonna be something like gross, you know, the best it

1377
01:04:29,560 --> 01:04:31,800
Speaker 1: was like, I got to be a princess, Yeah, a

1378
01:04:31,880 --> 01:04:34,360
Speaker 1: snow princess, And so I was. I did though from

1379
01:04:34,400 --> 01:04:37,000
Speaker 1: the very get go, it was like it had a

1380
01:04:37,120 --> 01:04:39,640
Speaker 1: skirt with it. It had this big heavy blouse thing

1381
01:04:39,720 --> 01:04:41,800
Speaker 1: and had this long, like flowy skirt, and I was like,

1382
01:04:42,280 --> 01:04:45,480
Speaker 1: let's do total spandex and just the head and then

1383
01:04:45,520 --> 01:04:47,480
Speaker 1: the snow, like we don't need. Let's like make it

1384
01:04:47,520 --> 01:04:50,560
Speaker 1: pretty sexy, like, let's make her like because I because

1385
01:04:50,560 --> 01:04:51,880
Speaker 1: I got to lean into that, because I got to

1386
01:04:51,880 --> 01:04:53,000
Speaker 1: do what every want. And then I was like, let's

1387
01:04:53,000 --> 01:04:54,520
Speaker 1: pick out a huge braw that makes it look like

1388
01:04:54,520 --> 01:04:57,840
Speaker 1: I have Dolly bo yeah, because I don't want anyone

1389
01:04:57,880 --> 01:05:00,240
Speaker 1: to be able to like, Yeah, so I gained twenty

1390
01:05:00,280 --> 01:05:02,080
Speaker 1: pounds really throw people off. No, I didn't do that,

1391
01:05:02,120 --> 01:05:04,000
Speaker 1: but I didn't actually do that. But I wasn't to

1392
01:05:04,040 --> 01:05:06,080
Speaker 1: throw people off. It just was naturally happened that way.

1393
01:05:06,440 --> 01:05:10,880
Speaker 1: But um and um. So when we get to the studio,

1394
01:05:10,960 --> 01:05:12,440
Speaker 1: this guy greets you and he throws you in a

1395
01:05:12,480 --> 01:05:14,640
Speaker 1: duffel bag and he's like, so put on all these things,

1396
01:05:15,160 --> 01:05:17,680
Speaker 1: and you're I'm in the car about it's a hundred

1397
01:05:17,720 --> 01:05:20,560
Speaker 1: degrees outside and I have to put on sweatpants and

1398
01:05:20,640 --> 01:05:23,080
Speaker 1: then socks, and then put on my shoes and make

1399
01:05:23,120 --> 01:05:26,160
Speaker 1: sure all my skins covered up. This long sweatshirt that says,

1400
01:05:26,160 --> 01:05:28,160
Speaker 1: don't talk to me, zip it up, put the hood

1401
01:05:28,200 --> 01:05:30,000
Speaker 1: over my head, pull my hair back, put on this

1402
01:05:30,080 --> 01:05:35,720
Speaker 1: gigantic visor that covers my entire face. Yeah, daft punk style,

1403
01:05:36,400 --> 01:05:38,040
Speaker 1: and then you walk out. And then you walk around

1404
01:05:38,040 --> 01:05:39,800
Speaker 1: the lot and there's only two people. There's like three

1405
01:05:39,840 --> 01:05:41,640
Speaker 1: people in the show who know it's you, and the

1406
01:05:41,760 --> 01:05:43,680
Speaker 1: rest of the people. You know, there's hundreds of people

1407
01:05:43,720 --> 01:05:45,120
Speaker 1: working on the show, and you're just walking by and

1408
01:05:45,120 --> 01:05:47,320
Speaker 1: everyone's just like and it says, don't talk to me,

1409
01:05:47,360 --> 01:05:49,320
Speaker 1: because no one can talk. You can't. You can't. They

1410
01:05:49,360 --> 01:05:50,960
Speaker 1: don't want to know your voice. They don't want anyone

1411
01:05:51,160 --> 01:05:54,280
Speaker 1: because it's so top secret. So there's only about besides executives.

1412
01:05:54,320 --> 01:05:56,480
Speaker 1: There's only three people that you really work with, and

1413
01:05:56,520 --> 01:05:58,320
Speaker 1: you just get shuttled from one place to the next,

1414
01:05:58,360 --> 01:06:00,200
Speaker 1: and you have to get dressed. So I would for

1415
01:06:00,280 --> 01:06:01,920
Speaker 1: my voice, listen, I could take it off and relaxed,

1416
01:06:01,920 --> 01:06:02,880
Speaker 1: and then I'd have to put it back on so

1417
01:06:02,920 --> 01:06:04,240
Speaker 1: I could go to the bathroom. Then I have to

1418
01:06:04,280 --> 01:06:07,200
Speaker 1: take it off. So it really is an isolating show

1419
01:06:07,240 --> 01:06:09,440
Speaker 1: where you don't get to tell anyone you're doing it.

1420
01:06:10,120 --> 01:06:11,960
Speaker 1: I mean I told Noah and Andrew because it was

1421
01:06:12,040 --> 01:06:13,960
Speaker 1: just you know, conflicting with schedules, and I knew that

1422
01:06:14,040 --> 01:06:16,640
Speaker 1: they would keep it a secret. And then I told

1423
01:06:16,680 --> 01:06:21,080
Speaker 1: my parents and my boyfriend. But beyond that, like no

1424
01:06:21,240 --> 01:06:24,240
Speaker 1: one like the metaverse. It's like literally like you get

1425
01:06:24,280 --> 01:06:25,440
Speaker 1: to be in a world where people are like, I

1426
01:06:25,440 --> 01:06:29,400
Speaker 1: don't know, that's wild. It's the biggest show I've ever

1427
01:06:29,480 --> 01:06:33,240
Speaker 1: been on, arguably the biggest platform that I've ever been on,

1428
01:06:33,480 --> 01:06:35,080
Speaker 1: and I don't get to I didn't get to talk

1429
01:06:35,080 --> 01:06:38,040
Speaker 1: about it until my face came out. It's kind of nice. Well,

1430
01:06:38,120 --> 01:06:41,120
Speaker 1: usually we brag about everything before. My parents were just like,

1431
01:06:41,400 --> 01:06:43,280
Speaker 1: we can't tell anyone. I'm like, you can tell people

1432
01:06:43,320 --> 01:06:45,000
Speaker 1: that it's a show you like to watch and that

1433
01:06:45,120 --> 01:06:48,120
Speaker 1: this season is particularly it was. There was the hardest,

1434
01:06:48,240 --> 01:06:50,640
Speaker 1: and then I was getting grief, like you didn't tell

1435
01:06:50,680 --> 01:06:53,200
Speaker 1: me Nikki was on the I'm like, we signed n

1436
01:06:53,240 --> 01:06:56,440
Speaker 1: d ant say anything. What happened, What happens if you did,

1437
01:06:56,480 --> 01:06:59,760
Speaker 1: if you be so, if they found out, if they

1438
01:07:00,040 --> 01:07:04,680
Speaker 1: I suppose, I think it's such extremes to keep it quiet.

1439
01:07:04,880 --> 01:07:08,600
Speaker 1: And a secret. We even got dressed in the black. Yeah.

1440
01:07:08,640 --> 01:07:10,400
Speaker 1: My parents even got don't talk to me hoodies and

1441
01:07:10,440 --> 01:07:12,400
Speaker 1: my dad was like, they got to keep it. My

1442
01:07:12,520 --> 01:07:14,520
Speaker 1: day goes, I don't want this makes me anti social.

1443
01:07:14,560 --> 01:07:17,520
Speaker 1: I'm like, I'll keep it. I want to wear them

1444
01:07:17,560 --> 01:07:20,400
Speaker 1: on on planes. It is a kind of aggressive, but

1445
01:07:20,480 --> 01:07:22,919
Speaker 1: it's um. But you couldn't. I couldn't wear that after

1446
01:07:23,000 --> 01:07:24,240
Speaker 1: the show. I wanted to wear it after the show

1447
01:07:24,240 --> 01:07:26,000
Speaker 1: because I was still I was I had to get

1448
01:07:26,160 --> 01:07:28,040
Speaker 1: vocal court surgery, and I was like, this is perfect,

1449
01:07:28,280 --> 01:07:30,400
Speaker 1: but they were like, no, that's associated with some people

1450
01:07:30,440 --> 01:07:32,800
Speaker 1: know that's the show. So um. But a lot of

1451
01:07:32,840 --> 01:07:35,080
Speaker 1: besties wrote to me being like, I know your snowstorm.

1452
01:07:35,280 --> 01:07:39,200
Speaker 1: You're great, congratulations. Um. But I could not. I couldn't

1453
01:07:39,280 --> 01:07:41,000
Speaker 1: right back to it. I couldn't confirm it. I couldn't

1454
01:07:41,040 --> 01:07:42,640
Speaker 1: deny it. I couldn't do any I would just go

1455
01:07:43,360 --> 01:07:44,800
Speaker 1: to a couple of people. I'd go, oh, I'd have

1456
01:07:44,840 --> 01:07:47,440
Speaker 1: to check it out. I'll see because that wasn't a lie.

1457
01:07:47,440 --> 01:07:49,040
Speaker 1: I did have to check it all right. I'd say

1458
01:07:49,040 --> 01:07:50,480
Speaker 1: I haven't seen it yet because I hadn't seen it.

1459
01:07:50,640 --> 01:07:55,680
Speaker 1: Doesn't feel that people knew people knew there was one person.

1460
01:07:55,720 --> 01:08:00,680
Speaker 1: I believe it was Karen Sanchez. Karen knew she's the bestie.

1461
01:08:00,960 --> 01:08:03,680
Speaker 1: They lived in Des Moines. She knew from the joke

1462
01:08:03,800 --> 01:08:06,400
Speaker 1: that they played on the preview where I was like,

1463
01:08:06,400 --> 01:08:07,760
Speaker 1: I don't want to stand too close to you, Nick,

1464
01:08:07,760 --> 01:08:11,320
Speaker 1: because I don't want to get Pregno, it was you

1465
01:08:11,440 --> 01:08:15,880
Speaker 1: from that message like, oh my god, Nikki is on

1466
01:08:15,960 --> 01:08:20,160
Speaker 1: the mass singer and they cited that joke as the proof. Yes,

1467
01:08:20,320 --> 01:08:22,040
Speaker 1: that's so. That means so much to me that, like,

1468
01:08:25,200 --> 01:08:26,640
Speaker 1: you know, it was nice. Though I was watching the

1469
01:08:26,720 --> 01:08:31,240
Speaker 1: show and this happens to me often. I totally dumped

1470
01:08:31,320 --> 01:08:32,800
Speaker 1: everything I did on that show out of my brain

1471
01:08:32,840 --> 01:08:34,360
Speaker 1: as soon as it happened. Like I didn't remember any

1472
01:08:34,360 --> 01:08:36,360
Speaker 1: of the jokes I made. I don't remember anything I said,

1473
01:08:36,560 --> 01:08:38,240
Speaker 1: like I remember the songs I sang, but any of

1474
01:08:38,280 --> 01:08:40,640
Speaker 1: the interactions, Like none of it was planned, Like I

1475
01:08:40,720 --> 01:08:42,559
Speaker 1: didn't plan on saying that to Nick. I didn't plan,

1476
01:08:42,680 --> 01:08:44,920
Speaker 1: Like it was just you know, I was just rolling

1477
01:08:45,000 --> 01:08:47,519
Speaker 1: with it. But then when I was watching it back,

1478
01:08:48,280 --> 01:08:51,920
Speaker 1: every single time there would be I would go, oh

1479
01:08:51,960 --> 01:08:53,200
Speaker 1: my god, I wish I would have made this joke,

1480
01:08:53,240 --> 01:08:54,640
Speaker 1: And then I would make it and I was like, Oh,

1481
01:08:54,720 --> 01:08:57,439
Speaker 1: it's so funny, Like I am the same person I

1482
01:08:57,560 --> 01:09:02,080
Speaker 1: am there, like any joke, like they're just yeah every

1483
01:09:02,120 --> 01:09:04,240
Speaker 1: single time when you know, Jenny goes, oh one of

1484
01:09:04,280 --> 01:09:05,760
Speaker 1: the clues as a doormat and I was like, oh,

1485
01:09:05,800 --> 01:09:07,919
Speaker 1: that's because because I get treated like that in relationship

1486
01:09:08,040 --> 01:09:10,160
Speaker 1: a lot or whatever. I thought of that, and I go, oh,

1487
01:09:10,160 --> 01:09:11,360
Speaker 1: you should have said that, and then I said it.

1488
01:09:11,439 --> 01:09:12,840
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, I forgot I even said that.

1489
01:09:13,960 --> 01:09:15,840
Speaker 1: So it's nice that I stood up to my own

1490
01:09:16,560 --> 01:09:20,679
Speaker 1: you know, potential. Do you think I thought it was funny?

1491
01:09:21,040 --> 01:09:23,800
Speaker 1: Final thought? Do I think Nick Cannon thought it was

1492
01:09:23,840 --> 01:09:25,880
Speaker 1: funny that I kept making fun of all of his babies.

1493
01:09:26,600 --> 01:09:28,920
Speaker 1: I don't think that he like didn't think it was funny.

1494
01:09:29,040 --> 01:09:33,720
Speaker 1: I think he was just like he comedian jokes. Um, yes,

1495
01:09:33,800 --> 01:09:36,280
Speaker 1: he is a yeah comedian with like quotes right it,

1496
01:09:36,320 --> 01:09:38,639
Speaker 1: but yeah he does like he does comedy like wilding

1497
01:09:38,680 --> 01:09:42,200
Speaker 1: and out he started out. I mean he's he's he's great.

1498
01:09:42,280 --> 01:09:46,600
Speaker 1: I mean he's a talented guy. Um. I don't necessarily

1499
01:09:46,640 --> 01:09:49,160
Speaker 1: agree with like making as many kids as possible with

1500
01:09:49,360 --> 01:09:51,040
Speaker 1: as many different mothers, and I know people are like,

1501
01:09:51,080 --> 01:09:52,320
Speaker 1: he's gonna be a good dad. But it's like he

1502
01:09:52,360 --> 01:09:55,439
Speaker 1: can't be in all of those places. And you can

1503
01:09:55,479 --> 01:09:58,960
Speaker 1: give the money, but he's not going to be giving himself.

1504
01:10:00,000 --> 01:10:01,920
Speaker 1: Does he have I think it's fifteen at this point.

1505
01:10:02,080 --> 01:10:08,000
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I heard joking when because he loves

1506
01:10:08,040 --> 01:10:13,439
Speaker 1: to make love to a woman naturally, Yeah, because everyone

1507
01:10:13,720 --> 01:10:18,000
Speaker 1: everyone feels that way about it. Feel better, just wear

1508
01:10:18,040 --> 01:10:20,560
Speaker 1: a condom. Well no, now, now it's become like a

1509
01:10:20,680 --> 01:10:22,760
Speaker 1: numbers thing. I made that joke when he had only

1510
01:10:22,800 --> 01:10:25,600
Speaker 1: eleven kids and since then fifteen. I'm not kidding you.

1511
01:10:25,640 --> 01:10:27,760
Speaker 1: It was eleven or twelve when that happened, when the

1512
01:10:27,800 --> 01:10:30,400
Speaker 1: show happened, and he said four since the summer, yeah,

1513
01:10:30,479 --> 01:10:34,000
Speaker 1: before on the weapon you know. Now there's a fifteenth

1514
01:10:34,040 --> 01:10:36,280
Speaker 1: on the way I think is the last number. Yeah,

1515
01:10:36,640 --> 01:10:42,040
Speaker 1: he's that guy is a canon. That's crazy. That's crazy, Bobby.

1516
01:10:42,080 --> 01:10:44,680
Speaker 1: Where can people find your special? Your comedy special? You

1517
01:10:44,800 --> 01:10:47,519
Speaker 1: find it. It's free on YouTube under Helium Studios. It's

1518
01:10:47,520 --> 01:10:49,519
Speaker 1: called Fast Food Fireworks. Please check it out. Why is

1519
01:10:49,520 --> 01:10:51,040
Speaker 1: it called fast food Fireworks because of one of the

1520
01:10:51,160 --> 01:10:53,880
Speaker 1: jokes in there. I talk about Fast food Fireworks is

1521
01:10:53,960 --> 01:10:56,400
Speaker 1: like whenever you are done eating your food in bed,

1522
01:10:56,479 --> 01:10:58,200
Speaker 1: which is my favorite place to eat and all the

1523
01:10:58,320 --> 01:11:00,360
Speaker 1: crumbs and trash and catch up packets or on your

1524
01:11:00,680 --> 01:11:02,920
Speaker 1: fling them into the ceiling fan and they go around.

1525
01:11:03,320 --> 01:11:07,160
Speaker 1: It's just fun. And I like the literation. And because

1526
01:11:07,160 --> 01:11:09,960
Speaker 1: I do a joke about like being called like uh

1527
01:11:10,400 --> 01:11:12,200
Speaker 1: like a lady firefight or whatever, and this guy's like,

1528
01:11:12,240 --> 01:11:13,800
Speaker 1: just call it lady firefighter, and I was like, I

1529
01:11:13,960 --> 01:11:17,040
Speaker 1: don't think that that sounds good. And picking a title

1530
01:11:17,120 --> 01:11:20,120
Speaker 1: for something I don't even have firefight, yeah, And I

1531
01:11:20,560 --> 01:11:21,880
Speaker 1: did that, and I was like, but then I started

1532
01:11:21,880 --> 01:11:23,840
Speaker 1: thinking of titles and like even when I think of jokes, like,

1533
01:11:23,920 --> 01:11:26,400
Speaker 1: it doesn't have like an official title. So ill a sudden,

1534
01:11:26,439 --> 01:11:27,800
Speaker 1: like what do you want your special to be? Called? Them? Like?

1535
01:11:27,880 --> 01:11:32,040
Speaker 1: I don't you know what I mean? Like, so there's

1536
01:11:32,080 --> 01:11:34,080
Speaker 1: so many little things that when you start comedy, you're like,

1537
01:11:34,360 --> 01:11:36,000
Speaker 1: I just want to be funny, and then all the

1538
01:11:36,080 --> 01:11:38,479
Speaker 1: other things you're like, I don't know, it's not it's

1539
01:11:38,479 --> 01:11:41,760
Speaker 1: just like it's so hard, it's so hard to pick.

1540
01:11:42,560 --> 01:11:44,760
Speaker 1: I'm famous just talking about I just want to name

1541
01:11:44,800 --> 01:11:47,160
Speaker 1: my next special, like whatever I would name like a child,

1542
01:11:47,600 --> 01:11:51,240
Speaker 1: you know, like like whatever I would have named my baby,

1543
01:11:51,560 --> 01:11:54,559
Speaker 1: because I do I you know, everyone has three kids.

1544
01:11:54,600 --> 01:11:57,320
Speaker 1: But I have three specials, you know, hour long specials,

1545
01:11:57,360 --> 01:11:58,479
Speaker 1: And I was like, oh, that's kind of like the

1546
01:11:58,560 --> 01:12:01,280
Speaker 1: same thing. It's about as much work goes into making them,

1547
01:12:01,400 --> 01:12:03,960
Speaker 1: about nine months of just kind of walking around like

1548
01:12:05,920 --> 01:12:11,320
Speaker 1: I'm like being in pain, yeah, being concomfortable and starting. Yeah,

1549
01:12:11,400 --> 01:12:15,320
Speaker 1: clothes aren't fitting. Yeah you have to buy shopping. Yeah

1550
01:12:15,680 --> 01:12:21,240
Speaker 1: that's that's it. You get fucked um. But so you

1551
01:12:21,360 --> 01:12:24,320
Speaker 1: have a special out um you also yeah, you and

1552
01:12:24,439 --> 01:12:28,200
Speaker 1: I played guitar during the pandemic once we we both

1553
01:12:28,240 --> 01:12:30,880
Speaker 1: are just like picking up trying to be like you.

1554
01:12:31,080 --> 01:12:33,439
Speaker 1: So you sing and you can do open mics, right, Yeah,

1555
01:12:33,479 --> 01:12:35,880
Speaker 1: I've done a couple open mic music open mics. Yeah yeah,

1556
01:12:35,880 --> 01:12:37,519
Speaker 1: and it makes me so like the last time I

1557
01:12:37,640 --> 01:12:39,200
Speaker 1: did it on my leg it was like my first

1558
01:12:39,240 --> 01:12:41,280
Speaker 1: time doing stand up, Like my leg was shaking and

1559
01:12:41,360 --> 01:12:43,320
Speaker 1: I have I've been that nervous and forever. It was

1560
01:12:43,400 --> 01:12:45,479
Speaker 1: so I like it, though, Like I hate when people

1561
01:12:45,520 --> 01:12:47,320
Speaker 1: are like I just want to do stand up and

1562
01:12:47,360 --> 01:12:48,519
Speaker 1: I'm like, then do it and they like it makes

1563
01:12:48,520 --> 01:12:50,720
Speaker 1: me to I'm like, just show yourself that you can

1564
01:12:50,760 --> 01:12:52,519
Speaker 1: do it, like that's you do so much. I can't.

1565
01:12:52,520 --> 01:12:55,840
Speaker 1: I don't even have when people say they're they're nervous. Yeah,

1566
01:12:55,880 --> 01:12:57,479
Speaker 1: when they say that they're nervous, Look, I just can't

1567
01:12:57,520 --> 01:12:59,200
Speaker 1: do it. I'm like, we'll just try, just go up

1568
01:12:59,240 --> 01:13:00,960
Speaker 1: and try, and like I just couldn't get over my nerves,

1569
01:13:01,000 --> 01:13:02,840
Speaker 1: and I go, you could if you just have to

1570
01:13:02,920 --> 01:13:06,599
Speaker 1: do it. But some people are like, just set the date. Yeah,

1571
01:13:06,720 --> 01:13:08,800
Speaker 1: and then you can always bail and you'll feel bad

1572
01:13:08,920 --> 01:13:11,120
Speaker 1: or whatever, but at least setting the date. That's always

1573
01:13:11,160 --> 01:13:13,479
Speaker 1: been my secret to overcoming everything. I used to have

1574
01:13:13,920 --> 01:13:16,479
Speaker 1: terrible stage right, but I just signed up for a

1575
01:13:16,560 --> 01:13:19,000
Speaker 1: play that I could not get out of. I didn't

1576
01:13:19,000 --> 01:13:20,479
Speaker 1: even know you could get out of things back in

1577
01:13:20,520 --> 01:13:22,640
Speaker 1: seventh grade when I signed up for you know, you

1578
01:13:22,680 --> 01:13:25,120
Speaker 1: could bail on everything in life. So it felt like

1579
01:13:25,680 --> 01:13:27,479
Speaker 1: I just have to do this. And so it's like

1580
01:13:28,280 --> 01:13:32,519
Speaker 1: and you really, nerves have never killed anyone, and I'm

1581
01:13:32,520 --> 01:13:37,240
Speaker 1: not going to die. It could, Yeah, your heart, it's

1582
01:13:37,280 --> 01:13:40,240
Speaker 1: not going to like that, not from doing You're not up.

1583
01:13:40,280 --> 01:13:41,600
Speaker 1: Why are you having sex? Why do you go for

1584
01:13:41,680 --> 01:13:44,840
Speaker 1: a run? Like it's the same amount of I almost

1585
01:13:45,000 --> 01:13:47,200
Speaker 1: had a heart attack when I did it. When when

1586
01:13:47,240 --> 01:13:49,120
Speaker 1: you did stand up, yeah, my mom did stand up.

1587
01:13:49,280 --> 01:13:53,240
Speaker 1: I'm so mad. I didn't get to see that. I

1588
01:13:53,400 --> 01:13:58,080
Speaker 1: was really nervous, but I don't even remember like doing it.

1589
01:13:58,479 --> 01:14:03,639
Speaker 1: It's that kind of makes out. Yeah, but I got

1590
01:14:03,680 --> 01:14:05,639
Speaker 1: through it. Now. I just wanted to do something out

1591
01:14:05,680 --> 01:14:07,880
Speaker 1: of my comfort zone. Yes, and I think it really

1592
01:14:07,920 --> 01:14:11,200
Speaker 1: did help you a lot overcome so much stuff. Now

1593
01:14:11,280 --> 01:14:12,880
Speaker 1: you do this question. Used to be like, so nervous

1594
01:14:12,880 --> 01:14:15,679
Speaker 1: about doing the podcast or being on team. Not nervous anymore,

1595
01:14:15,760 --> 01:14:20,120
Speaker 1: not nervous at all. I probably should be nervous. I mean, yeah,

1596
01:14:20,160 --> 01:14:22,040
Speaker 1: I wanted you to get some of those nerves back

1597
01:14:22,960 --> 01:14:26,200
Speaker 1: a bit. No. I love that you're not nervous anymore.

1598
01:14:26,240 --> 01:14:29,080
Speaker 1: I just it's nerves are you know. You can't help them,

1599
01:14:29,160 --> 01:14:32,920
Speaker 1: but they do go away. People have nerves about stuff

1600
01:14:32,920 --> 01:14:35,960
Speaker 1: out there, Like you know, I always think about sex.

1601
01:14:36,000 --> 01:14:37,960
Speaker 1: I'm always like, I was so nervous to have sex.

1602
01:14:38,040 --> 01:14:40,080
Speaker 1: So was everyone wasn't everyone nervous? And then you have

1603
01:14:40,200 --> 01:14:42,320
Speaker 1: it and then you're like, I mean, my mom doesn't.

1604
01:14:42,360 --> 01:14:45,479
Speaker 1: You probably never got used to it, but carefully that much.

1605
01:14:45,560 --> 01:14:47,439
Speaker 1: But you eventually are just like, oh, this is the

1606
01:14:47,479 --> 01:14:49,640
Speaker 1: easiest thing to do in the world. Like anything is

1607
01:14:49,680 --> 01:14:52,439
Speaker 1: going to be difficult at first, but it's always rewarding.

1608
01:14:52,479 --> 01:14:55,639
Speaker 1: Though too. Yes, I do. I write my own songs.

1609
01:14:55,720 --> 01:14:57,840
Speaker 1: I went through a breakup. And it's weird how much

1610
01:14:57,920 --> 01:14:59,479
Speaker 1: like pours out of you because people are like, do

1611
01:14:59,479 --> 01:15:01,640
Speaker 1: you write funny songs? And I'm like, none of them

1612
01:15:01,680 --> 01:15:04,160
Speaker 1: like no, Like all of them are like depressing or sad.

1613
01:15:04,400 --> 01:15:06,000
Speaker 1: But it's fun. It's like another side of me, Like

1614
01:15:06,040 --> 01:15:08,960
Speaker 1: I get to be funny on stage and then writing music,

1615
01:15:09,080 --> 01:15:12,400
Speaker 1: and we should. I would love to sit down and

1616
01:15:12,760 --> 01:15:14,560
Speaker 1: look at you can look at my juvenile songs and

1617
01:15:14,640 --> 01:15:16,400
Speaker 1: be like these are terrible, and but at least it

1618
01:15:16,400 --> 01:15:18,599
Speaker 1: will get it'll give us both confidence to like try

1619
01:15:18,680 --> 01:15:21,040
Speaker 1: it more. Because here's what I'm bad about. I can't

1620
01:15:21,120 --> 01:15:23,160
Speaker 1: sing and play guitar like I try, like I'm gonna

1621
01:15:23,400 --> 01:15:26,200
Speaker 1: that's hard. It's so just like doing it at the

1622
01:15:26,240 --> 01:15:28,080
Speaker 1: same time, doing at the same time. It's so hard.

1623
01:15:28,120 --> 01:15:29,600
Speaker 1: But well, I also even when I just sing, I

1624
01:15:29,680 --> 01:15:31,280
Speaker 1: can't do it well, so doing it at the same time,

1625
01:15:31,320 --> 01:15:33,320
Speaker 1: Like when we played together, you're like, go ahead and try,

1626
01:15:33,360 --> 01:15:34,560
Speaker 1: and I was like, all right, Nikki said it, and

1627
01:15:34,560 --> 01:15:36,120
Speaker 1: I'll do it. And after I did, I remember even

1628
01:15:36,120 --> 01:15:39,519
Speaker 1: like going home and I was like she probably really

1629
01:15:39,600 --> 01:15:42,360
Speaker 1: hated that. Like it makes I get so I know,

1630
01:15:42,479 --> 01:15:44,040
Speaker 1: but that's what I'm saying, Like in my in your mind,

1631
01:15:44,160 --> 01:15:47,679
Speaker 1: you blow it up. Singing to me is the scariest

1632
01:15:47,680 --> 01:15:50,920
Speaker 1: thing in the world. I don't know why. Well, yeah,

1633
01:15:50,960 --> 01:15:54,760
Speaker 1: it's embarrassing. You're like howling from your head like you're

1634
01:15:54,800 --> 01:15:57,600
Speaker 1: like crying. I mean, like because it's like is it

1635
01:15:57,680 --> 01:15:59,519
Speaker 1: because you don't think you're a good singer or because

1636
01:15:59,520 --> 01:16:03,320
Speaker 1: it's just too emotionally vulnerable. No, I'll be emotionally vulnerable.

1637
01:16:03,400 --> 01:16:05,280
Speaker 1: That's not a problem. But it's hard for me to

1638
01:16:05,479 --> 01:16:08,120
Speaker 1: like try to sing and then like try to hit

1639
01:16:08,160 --> 01:16:09,920
Speaker 1: the notes and then it's like you miss them, and

1640
01:16:10,000 --> 01:16:13,040
Speaker 1: then just voice teacher, you can learn how to sing.

1641
01:16:13,160 --> 01:16:14,880
Speaker 1: I should. I mean I went to a guitar teacher.

1642
01:16:14,920 --> 01:16:17,280
Speaker 1: I should go to This is the thing. People think

1643
01:16:17,360 --> 01:16:18,720
Speaker 1: that and I used to think this way too. You

1644
01:16:18,800 --> 01:16:21,120
Speaker 1: think your voice is just your voice and that either

1645
01:16:21,200 --> 01:16:23,760
Speaker 1: got it or you don't. Why does everything else we

1646
01:16:23,840 --> 01:16:25,680
Speaker 1: take lessons for it, but your voice. People are like,

1647
01:16:25,720 --> 01:16:27,880
Speaker 1: you're either a singer or you're not. You can you

1648
01:16:27,960 --> 01:16:30,240
Speaker 1: can learn how to use it. I've improved so much

1649
01:16:30,360 --> 01:16:33,599
Speaker 1: just from simple instruction, learning how to breathe differently, learning

1650
01:16:33,640 --> 01:16:36,360
Speaker 1: how to just position my body and I still have

1651
01:16:36,520 --> 01:16:38,160
Speaker 1: so much more to learn. Like I still listen to

1652
01:16:38,200 --> 01:16:41,040
Speaker 1: my voice and I'm like God because you hear good

1653
01:16:41,120 --> 01:16:43,920
Speaker 1: singers and I know they're doing something different with their

1654
01:16:44,000 --> 01:16:46,880
Speaker 1: mouth and with their breathing and with their diaphragm. I

1655
01:16:47,000 --> 01:16:49,519
Speaker 1: have all the same components in my body. I have

1656
01:16:49,640 --> 01:16:53,000
Speaker 1: healthy chords. Now there's nothing holding me back except I'm

1657
01:16:53,040 --> 01:16:55,519
Speaker 1: not using my instrument the same way. We all have

1658
01:16:55,600 --> 01:16:57,439
Speaker 1: the same instrument. And then yeah, there's some people that

1659
01:16:57,520 --> 01:16:59,680
Speaker 1: are like truly tone deaf. But if you are not

1660
01:16:59,760 --> 01:17:02,080
Speaker 1: tone death, you have an instrument you can learn how

1661
01:17:02,120 --> 01:17:04,160
Speaker 1: to use better, and I'll practice. I do want to

1662
01:17:04,160 --> 01:17:05,960
Speaker 1: practice more because I I mean, I play guitar. I've

1663
01:17:06,000 --> 01:17:09,719
Speaker 1: gotten way during the pandemic. I got monumentally better at guitar,

1664
01:17:09,840 --> 01:17:13,599
Speaker 1: and that's fun. To express yourself with something beyond yourself

1665
01:17:13,760 --> 01:17:16,400
Speaker 1: is so fun for me. Is the only way I

1666
01:17:16,479 --> 01:17:18,720
Speaker 1: get good at anything. And like, I don't like to

1667
01:17:18,760 --> 01:17:22,080
Speaker 1: practice alone. I need to like show it immediately to someone,

1668
01:17:22,240 --> 01:17:24,439
Speaker 1: and so practicing on my Instagram live. Shout out to

1669
01:17:24,479 --> 01:17:27,439
Speaker 1: everyone who watches those um and thes. Do that kill

1670
01:17:27,520 --> 01:17:31,120
Speaker 1: your that clean version you did? I love that version

1671
01:17:31,200 --> 01:17:33,240
Speaker 1: of you. I literally went and listen to Taylor Swiss version,

1672
01:17:33,240 --> 01:17:35,200
Speaker 1: I was like, I like this, but I like your

1673
01:17:35,240 --> 01:17:38,040
Speaker 1: acoustic versions. So that was the first time I had

1674
01:17:38,040 --> 01:17:40,679
Speaker 1: played it too, So that's really nice. I love going.

1675
01:17:40,840 --> 01:17:43,200
Speaker 1: It's my favorite thing to do besides the podcast is

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Speaker 1: going on Instagram live and playing guitar poorly and singing

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Speaker 1: a little bit better than that. Um. And it's just

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Speaker 1: like it's made me get so good because some people

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Speaker 1: sometimes tune in and they're like, WHOA, she's gotten a

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Speaker 1: lot better, And like, all I've done is this. But

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Speaker 1: when you are expected to perform and when there's people

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Speaker 1: watching the same when I go to Starbucks to write,

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Speaker 1: there's people around me, and I feel like I have

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Speaker 1: to look like a writer. I'm writing in my apartment,

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna get distracted. I need to perform. It makes me,

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Speaker 1: you know, even sex I pull up the curtains. I'm like,

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Speaker 1: maybe someone will be watching this. He's someone Maybe someone

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Speaker 1: will tune in from across I sure got it would

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Speaker 1: probably make me a better better in anyway, if I

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Speaker 1: thought maybe there was someone like that had a hidden

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Speaker 1: camera something. If I just was scared that maybe there

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Speaker 1: was a hidden camera, I might perform better. If you've

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Speaker 1: ever watched a video yourself and sex. No, I have,

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Speaker 1: and it's immediately you're like, oh, it's like that episode

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Speaker 1: of You're kind of like huh. Like for a second,

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Speaker 1: you're like, this will be cool, and then later you're like,

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Speaker 1: you and the person are like, let's burn our phones.

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Speaker 1: Like let's say one time I did said that there

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Speaker 1: was someone that took some footage and they showed it

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Speaker 1: to me and I did not want to see it.

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Speaker 1: I would have been like, no, I don't want to

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Speaker 1: see this, but he showed it to me, like, hey,

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Speaker 1: look at this, and I thought it was someone else

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Speaker 1: and I was like, holy sh it, that's really hot.

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Speaker 1: Who is that? And it was me? And I was like,

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Speaker 1: I work in it. I was like I was because

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Speaker 1: I would never I know, that's not going to be

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Speaker 1: something I want to see, you know. But I can't

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Speaker 1: even watch my stand up, so this is not nothing

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Speaker 1: new to me. Anything I'm good at I don't want

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Speaker 1: to watch sex is no different. Okay, Mom's here gotta go.

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Speaker 1: Thank you guys so much for listening to the podcast.

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Speaker 1: Bobby jay Cox, thank you for being on. You can

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Speaker 1: watch him open for me on the road. Dates coming

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Speaker 1: up next weekend in Waterloo, Hershey, Pennsylvania, and Atlantic City.

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Speaker 1: I got Memphis this Friday. Tell your friends that live

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Speaker 1: in Memphis would mean so much to me. As always

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Speaker 1: meet and greets are free, um if you go alone

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Speaker 1: to the show, and they're always for purchase at the

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Speaker 1: Merch Booth two or with a VI I P ticket. UM.

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Speaker 1: Thank you guys so much for listening. We will see

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Speaker 1: you next week. Dopeka and Bick