1 00:00:00,160 --> 00:00:01,359 Speaker 1: Hello, gorgeous. 2 00:00:01,400 --> 00:00:02,160 Speaker 2: It's Lala Kent. 3 00:00:02,560 --> 00:00:04,600 Speaker 1: Welcome to Untraditionally Lala. 4 00:00:05,440 --> 00:00:08,479 Speaker 3: Hey Vibbs is yours truly, Laala Kent, Welcome to the 5 00:00:08,560 --> 00:00:11,320 Speaker 3: bonus episode of Untraditionally La La. 6 00:00:11,480 --> 00:00:13,480 Speaker 1: Hello, Easton Burningham? How are we doing? 7 00:00:13,640 --> 00:00:16,800 Speaker 2: Hello? I'm great, I'm great. I'm injured. I'm great. 8 00:00:18,120 --> 00:00:20,119 Speaker 1: I'm great. I'm injured. What happened? 9 00:00:20,560 --> 00:00:24,040 Speaker 2: Shoulder, thigh, you name it? I got it. 10 00:00:25,040 --> 00:00:27,760 Speaker 3: I mean, is that just from your gay softball league 11 00:00:27,760 --> 00:00:29,520 Speaker 3: that you play in those injuries? 12 00:00:30,600 --> 00:00:31,800 Speaker 2: Yeah, the road. 13 00:00:31,920 --> 00:00:35,559 Speaker 4: The shoulder is kind of a compound of that golf. 14 00:00:35,680 --> 00:00:38,559 Speaker 4: And I love sleeping on my side so that. 15 00:00:38,840 --> 00:00:40,839 Speaker 3: You can get I knew you could get wrinkles on 16 00:00:40,880 --> 00:00:42,559 Speaker 3: your face from sleeping on your side. 17 00:00:42,720 --> 00:00:45,200 Speaker 2: I don't care about that. I like a good night's sleep. 18 00:00:45,920 --> 00:00:48,520 Speaker 1: I can dislocate my shoulder sleeping on my side. 19 00:00:48,560 --> 00:00:50,280 Speaker 2: Well, like I just am a side sleeper. 20 00:00:50,320 --> 00:00:52,400 Speaker 4: So for like, over the years, like it just keeps 21 00:00:52,440 --> 00:00:57,000 Speaker 4: pulling in, like weakening limbs. From what I was told 22 00:00:57,120 --> 00:01:00,160 Speaker 4: yesterday when they took my. 23 00:01:00,320 --> 00:01:03,440 Speaker 1: Blood, you did PRP in your shoulder. 24 00:01:04,000 --> 00:01:06,640 Speaker 3: So I've only done PRP on my face, which is 25 00:01:07,840 --> 00:01:10,720 Speaker 3: why I'm so concerned about the now shoulder thing. Being 26 00:01:10,760 --> 00:01:15,480 Speaker 3: a side sleeper because I've acted actively stopped or tried 27 00:01:15,480 --> 00:01:19,680 Speaker 3: to stop sleeping on my side to avoid getting wrinkles. 28 00:01:20,040 --> 00:01:22,600 Speaker 3: And I woke up this morning in full panic because 29 00:01:22,640 --> 00:01:25,800 Speaker 3: I had a. 30 00:01:24,680 --> 00:01:29,520 Speaker 1: Crease going in the opposite direction, which. 31 00:01:29,319 --> 00:01:32,080 Speaker 3: Meant that my face was pushed against the pillow for 32 00:01:32,160 --> 00:01:35,000 Speaker 3: an extended period of time causing a wrinkle. That if 33 00:01:35,000 --> 00:01:38,920 Speaker 3: that happens on a regular basis, it will stay that way, 34 00:01:39,319 --> 00:01:40,560 Speaker 3: and I'm not okay with that? 35 00:01:41,000 --> 00:01:42,440 Speaker 1: Can I tell you something wild? 36 00:01:43,319 --> 00:01:46,800 Speaker 3: Nikki Garcia, we had her on Unlikely an Unlikely Affair, 37 00:01:46,840 --> 00:01:48,080 Speaker 3: the podcast I have with Amber. 38 00:01:48,880 --> 00:01:50,040 Speaker 1: We were talking about. 39 00:01:49,800 --> 00:01:52,920 Speaker 3: How younger men they don't understand the aging process and 40 00:01:52,960 --> 00:01:54,800 Speaker 3: the wrinkles and the things that happened to your body. 41 00:01:54,840 --> 00:01:56,440 Speaker 3: And I was like, I can't be with someone who 42 00:01:56,480 --> 00:01:59,920 Speaker 3: doesn't know what crows speed are the crows speed are. 43 00:02:00,120 --> 00:02:02,320 Speaker 3: Yet it started giving me anxiety, which is what this 44 00:02:02,440 --> 00:02:03,360 Speaker 3: bonus is all about. 45 00:02:03,400 --> 00:02:04,040 Speaker 1: Is anxiety. 46 00:02:04,040 --> 00:02:07,120 Speaker 4: By the way, I know that I get that, but 47 00:02:07,200 --> 00:02:10,720 Speaker 4: that's where I'm saying, like I sleeping. If I don't 48 00:02:10,720 --> 00:02:13,799 Speaker 4: sleep well, my day is fulling of anxiety. And now 49 00:02:13,840 --> 00:02:17,080 Speaker 4: I'm putting that together like if I don't have a 50 00:02:17,120 --> 00:02:19,400 Speaker 4: good night sleep, I wake up a little anxious, like 51 00:02:19,480 --> 00:02:21,680 Speaker 4: my breath work through the night when I was sleeping 52 00:02:21,840 --> 00:02:25,720 Speaker 4: wasn't where it was supposed to be. And I wake 53 00:02:25,800 --> 00:02:29,239 Speaker 4: up and I feel like I don't look at like wrinkles. 54 00:02:29,919 --> 00:02:35,520 Speaker 4: I sleep so terribly like arm wise placement of limbs 55 00:02:35,600 --> 00:02:37,799 Speaker 4: that I wake up and instead of wrinkles in that, 56 00:02:37,919 --> 00:02:40,600 Speaker 4: I'm thinking, why does this part of my body hurt? Now? 57 00:02:40,720 --> 00:02:40,919 Speaker 3: Right? 58 00:02:41,400 --> 00:02:44,400 Speaker 1: That's called the aide's like the lower back. 59 00:02:44,440 --> 00:02:46,320 Speaker 4: When I wake up, I'm like, well, that's a little tight, 60 00:02:46,360 --> 00:02:48,959 Speaker 4: I mean a little bar No. 61 00:02:48,960 --> 00:02:49,280 Speaker 2: It is. 62 00:02:49,360 --> 00:02:51,720 Speaker 1: It's a real thing. And it starts kicking in your thirties. 63 00:02:51,760 --> 00:02:57,200 Speaker 4: Give anxiety because now how does one sleep. 64 00:02:57,160 --> 00:02:57,760 Speaker 1: On your back? 65 00:02:57,800 --> 00:03:03,639 Speaker 3: And it's speaking of anxiety, so obviously I feel like anxiety. 66 00:03:04,280 --> 00:03:06,600 Speaker 3: I don't know if it's just because people are starting 67 00:03:06,639 --> 00:03:09,320 Speaker 3: to talk about it more because everyone has a platform 68 00:03:09,440 --> 00:03:13,119 Speaker 3: to talk about it, or if everyone has always struggled 69 00:03:13,160 --> 00:03:20,040 Speaker 3: with anxiety for me. For me, I think that everyone's 70 00:03:20,120 --> 00:03:24,640 Speaker 3: anxiety has kicked in because we have so much access 71 00:03:24,680 --> 00:03:27,880 Speaker 3: to everything all the time, whether it's what's going on 72 00:03:27,960 --> 00:03:30,520 Speaker 3: in the world, what's going on next door. 73 00:03:31,120 --> 00:03:35,440 Speaker 1: Then you add in the like the vanity portion of it, 74 00:03:35,520 --> 00:03:35,800 Speaker 1: and you. 75 00:03:35,760 --> 00:03:38,440 Speaker 3: See all of these people like I saw yesterday, Kylie 76 00:03:38,520 --> 00:03:41,800 Speaker 3: Jenner actually crushed it in that movie with Charlie x 77 00:03:41,960 --> 00:03:45,160 Speaker 3: c X and Kylie plays herself, but actually that is 78 00:03:45,240 --> 00:03:45,920 Speaker 3: kind of hard to do. 79 00:03:46,920 --> 00:03:49,080 Speaker 1: When they're like, play yourself, but here's a script. 80 00:03:48,760 --> 00:03:51,840 Speaker 3: To follow, you're like, wait a minute, hold on, Kylie 81 00:03:51,920 --> 00:03:52,960 Speaker 3: Jenner pretty much ate. 82 00:03:53,760 --> 00:03:55,560 Speaker 1: All I could focus on, though, was the fact that 83 00:03:55,600 --> 00:03:57,240 Speaker 1: she too has had two kids. 84 00:03:58,240 --> 00:04:01,000 Speaker 3: Her boobs look normal, granted she had a boot job, 85 00:04:01,120 --> 00:04:04,760 Speaker 3: Her jawline is impeccable, her whole face, her hair, all 86 00:04:04,800 --> 00:04:06,560 Speaker 3: of it. Now, it's not lost on me that she 87 00:04:06,600 --> 00:04:08,880 Speaker 3: has access to everything on the plan. 88 00:04:09,160 --> 00:04:12,160 Speaker 2: You don't say, but go look at her in twenty twelve. 89 00:04:12,560 --> 00:04:15,360 Speaker 1: You sit, We're not shading anybody. 90 00:04:15,480 --> 00:04:16,440 Speaker 2: No, do what you want. 91 00:04:16,680 --> 00:04:20,120 Speaker 4: Then, all I'm saying is you can't compare her looks 92 00:04:20,160 --> 00:04:23,000 Speaker 4: to what anyone looks like because her looks are artificial. 93 00:04:23,440 --> 00:04:26,279 Speaker 3: So yeah, but okay, well that brings me to my 94 00:04:26,320 --> 00:04:29,800 Speaker 3: point of anxiety. You start looking and you're like, oh 95 00:04:29,880 --> 00:04:33,880 Speaker 3: my god, Like I already called doctor Diamond and said, 96 00:04:33,880 --> 00:04:36,159 Speaker 3: like we got to fix this jaw, Like I'm coming 97 00:04:36,200 --> 00:04:41,440 Speaker 3: in April eighteenth, No, April fifteenth, Like you got to carve. 98 00:04:41,360 --> 00:04:43,560 Speaker 1: Me out, buddy. 99 00:04:43,600 --> 00:04:45,160 Speaker 2: We have different anxieties. 100 00:04:45,320 --> 00:04:46,039 Speaker 1: We certainly do. 101 00:04:46,200 --> 00:04:50,520 Speaker 3: So Anyway, Alex's earl came out saying that there's like 102 00:04:50,760 --> 00:04:54,480 Speaker 3: a stigma around anxiety medication. And she goes on to 103 00:04:54,520 --> 00:04:57,200 Speaker 3: say that she has been medicated since the age of fourteen. 104 00:04:57,440 --> 00:05:00,960 Speaker 2: She's off of it, right, So. 105 00:05:00,800 --> 00:05:03,560 Speaker 3: This is a quote she did an article, an interview 106 00:05:03,600 --> 00:05:06,920 Speaker 3: with people. It can feel really scary, and there feels 107 00:05:07,480 --> 00:05:10,240 Speaker 3: and there feels like there's like a stigma around it 108 00:05:10,360 --> 00:05:12,680 Speaker 3: at times. But honestly, a lot of my friends, a 109 00:05:12,680 --> 00:05:16,000 Speaker 3: lot of people I know, are also on medication for 110 00:05:16,000 --> 00:05:17,960 Speaker 3: anxiety depression OCD, whatever it is. 111 00:05:19,200 --> 00:05:21,560 Speaker 1: I don't know if she's still medicated. 112 00:05:21,800 --> 00:05:22,760 Speaker 2: Can I say one thing? 113 00:05:23,960 --> 00:05:28,840 Speaker 4: Yeah, after like even my relapse going on seven months, 114 00:05:28,920 --> 00:05:31,200 Speaker 4: right or we're like six and a half going on 115 00:05:31,279 --> 00:05:37,960 Speaker 4: seven I was on anti anxiety and anti depression, and 116 00:05:38,040 --> 00:05:41,520 Speaker 4: I want to say it was escatalopram, and I'll double 117 00:05:41,600 --> 00:05:48,200 Speaker 4: check when I went in for my peptides, and that doctor, 118 00:05:48,360 --> 00:05:49,320 Speaker 4: the old gentleman. 119 00:05:49,080 --> 00:05:51,400 Speaker 3: Here, now I allowed to say that you were on 120 00:05:51,440 --> 00:05:53,080 Speaker 3: your fourth relapse. 121 00:05:53,279 --> 00:05:56,000 Speaker 4: Yes, no, I couldn't stop relapsing and I was on 122 00:05:56,040 --> 00:05:58,840 Speaker 4: these pills and I there was just like there was 123 00:05:58,880 --> 00:05:59,960 Speaker 4: no light at the end of the tunnel. 124 00:06:00,040 --> 00:06:01,760 Speaker 2: So I went and got these peptides. There was a. 125 00:06:01,720 --> 00:06:07,279 Speaker 4: Gentleman who was forty years sober or forty five, Yeah, 126 00:06:07,279 --> 00:06:08,800 Speaker 4: and he came in and he put a short hand 127 00:06:08,800 --> 00:06:10,400 Speaker 4: on my shoulder and he goes, you're going to continue 128 00:06:10,440 --> 00:06:12,800 Speaker 4: to relapse if you continue to take these meds. 129 00:06:13,120 --> 00:06:13,360 Speaker 3: Wow. 130 00:06:13,480 --> 00:06:15,159 Speaker 2: And I'll never forget that. 131 00:06:15,160 --> 00:06:18,240 Speaker 4: That sticks with me every day and being off my 132 00:06:18,360 --> 00:06:23,800 Speaker 4: medicine has honestly relieved me of more anxiety. Wow. And 133 00:06:23,839 --> 00:06:26,880 Speaker 4: I don't not for everybody. I'm speaking on me, and 134 00:06:27,360 --> 00:06:29,800 Speaker 4: it's a personal thing. But like even if you you know, 135 00:06:29,880 --> 00:06:33,000 Speaker 4: if you still have anxiety while taking meds, maybe you know, 136 00:06:33,160 --> 00:06:35,400 Speaker 4: like I I'm not going to say like I took 137 00:06:35,640 --> 00:06:39,600 Speaker 4: I stopped doing my meds and like everything was roses. No. 138 00:06:39,800 --> 00:06:42,159 Speaker 4: I had to work, I breath work, I had to 139 00:06:42,279 --> 00:06:44,640 Speaker 4: compartmentalize different things that I was thinking about. 140 00:06:44,760 --> 00:06:47,400 Speaker 2: It took a lot of work. But I where I 141 00:06:47,440 --> 00:06:48,119 Speaker 2: am right now. 142 00:06:48,360 --> 00:06:52,440 Speaker 4: I thank God that I am not on any anxiety medication. 143 00:06:53,520 --> 00:06:56,600 Speaker 1: Well, and again that's your personal experience. 144 00:06:56,640 --> 00:06:58,440 Speaker 2: For me, it's. 145 00:06:58,279 --> 00:07:01,800 Speaker 3: Your personal experience, and everybody is different and it's not 146 00:07:02,160 --> 00:07:03,200 Speaker 3: one size fits all. 147 00:07:03,360 --> 00:07:07,360 Speaker 4: I think everybody's like chemical imbalance is different in everybody's life. 148 00:07:07,360 --> 00:07:09,920 Speaker 3: I'm a single person, Like everything has to be a 149 00:07:10,040 --> 00:07:13,760 Speaker 3: tailored any prescription you go on, even your doctor. 150 00:07:14,000 --> 00:07:15,800 Speaker 1: You guys have to be on the same page. And 151 00:07:16,320 --> 00:07:16,840 Speaker 1: even a. 152 00:07:16,760 --> 00:07:20,280 Speaker 3: Doctor, no one knows you like you know you. If 153 00:07:20,320 --> 00:07:24,280 Speaker 3: something is feeling off, you have to We've spoken about this. 154 00:07:24,400 --> 00:07:28,680 Speaker 3: Advocate for your health in every capacity, including mental, which 155 00:07:28,720 --> 00:07:33,720 Speaker 3: I believe is the most important. Yes, And I was 156 00:07:33,760 --> 00:07:39,440 Speaker 3: on anti anxiety medication and antidepression medication and I was 157 00:07:39,600 --> 00:07:40,400 Speaker 3: drinking on. 158 00:07:40,360 --> 00:07:44,520 Speaker 1: It like I couldn't because how stupid am I. I'm like, 159 00:07:44,560 --> 00:07:45,960 Speaker 1: I'm just why I got really depressed. 160 00:07:45,960 --> 00:07:49,640 Speaker 3: It's like it's called the Daily Sunday Series because you've 161 00:07:49,760 --> 00:07:51,360 Speaker 3: been sipping on as apressant. 162 00:07:51,600 --> 00:07:53,600 Speaker 4: And that's where I think where I would take my 163 00:07:53,680 --> 00:07:55,800 Speaker 4: med and I was like, I'm still depressed, so I 164 00:07:55,840 --> 00:07:57,640 Speaker 4: would go down the liquor thing and it was like 165 00:07:57,680 --> 00:07:59,680 Speaker 4: I was hoping that pill would be the cure of all. 166 00:08:00,080 --> 00:08:01,320 Speaker 2: I still had to do work. 167 00:08:01,440 --> 00:08:03,160 Speaker 4: Even if maybe if I took the pills and I 168 00:08:03,160 --> 00:08:05,400 Speaker 4: did the work that I still did, maybe the pills 169 00:08:05,400 --> 00:08:06,400 Speaker 4: would benefit me. 170 00:08:06,440 --> 00:08:08,400 Speaker 2: But right now, I like where I'm at okay. 171 00:08:08,120 --> 00:08:09,840 Speaker 1: So then there shouldn't be anything that changes. 172 00:08:09,880 --> 00:08:10,680 Speaker 2: There's the thing. 173 00:08:11,080 --> 00:08:13,640 Speaker 3: I tend to go to holistic route before I tap 174 00:08:13,680 --> 00:08:17,560 Speaker 3: in medication. But I'm also I'm not somewhare though that 175 00:08:17,600 --> 00:08:20,920 Speaker 3: it's against it. I'm like, there are points in time 176 00:08:21,000 --> 00:08:22,760 Speaker 3: where it's like I'm going to need to tap in 177 00:08:23,080 --> 00:08:27,600 Speaker 3: science and someone put me on something. I am not 178 00:08:27,640 --> 00:08:30,960 Speaker 3: on anything right now, just like my regular supplements. But 179 00:08:31,080 --> 00:08:37,400 Speaker 3: I will say when I started filming again, I had 180 00:08:37,559 --> 00:08:40,800 Speaker 3: so much anxiety it was debilitating for me to leave 181 00:08:40,920 --> 00:08:41,400 Speaker 3: the house. 182 00:08:43,559 --> 00:08:47,600 Speaker 4: Yeah that I was there, I'm there, I'm all. I 183 00:08:47,600 --> 00:08:49,520 Speaker 4: think everybody's there. And the one thing that I always 184 00:08:49,600 --> 00:08:53,559 Speaker 4: have to get there, I can get anxiety, Like overthinking 185 00:08:53,720 --> 00:08:55,040 Speaker 4: is what gives me anxiety. 186 00:08:55,240 --> 00:08:57,760 Speaker 1: Tell me this, when you when you make a plan, 187 00:08:58,400 --> 00:09:00,440 Speaker 1: do you start playing it in your mind, like what 188 00:09:00,480 --> 00:09:02,679 Speaker 1: are we going to talk about her? And then order? 189 00:09:02,800 --> 00:09:05,480 Speaker 1: And then what if? What if what I ate doesn't. 190 00:09:05,200 --> 00:09:06,720 Speaker 2: Agree with me? Well, then that's. 191 00:09:08,160 --> 00:09:10,520 Speaker 4: Whatever I eat. You gotta make sure because I'm a 192 00:09:10,520 --> 00:09:14,360 Speaker 4: homeplate shitter. So if i'm out about I'm eating salads. 193 00:09:14,720 --> 00:09:18,160 Speaker 4: But when I make plans, Yes, that is what I 194 00:09:18,280 --> 00:09:20,679 Speaker 4: used to do and I'm doing it now. But I'm 195 00:09:20,679 --> 00:09:24,199 Speaker 4: trying to work on it and not think I made plans. 196 00:09:25,360 --> 00:09:27,920 Speaker 4: What are these plans going to consist of? What conversation? 197 00:09:28,160 --> 00:09:30,440 Speaker 4: What if this doesn't go right? Oh my gosh, what 198 00:09:30,520 --> 00:09:33,200 Speaker 4: if so and so says this? And something is brought 199 00:09:33,280 --> 00:09:35,480 Speaker 4: up that I don't want to talk about. Oh my gosh, 200 00:09:35,520 --> 00:09:38,000 Speaker 4: what if so and so comes and brings more conversation? 201 00:09:38,400 --> 00:09:41,600 Speaker 4: And then I go, wow, I want to cancel. Now 202 00:09:41,679 --> 00:09:45,080 Speaker 4: I make the plan, and I go perfect, what am 203 00:09:45,120 --> 00:09:46,240 Speaker 4: I doing right now? 204 00:09:46,840 --> 00:09:47,120 Speaker 3: Oh? 205 00:09:47,200 --> 00:09:48,600 Speaker 2: Keep your head where you're keeping my hair? 206 00:09:48,679 --> 00:09:50,960 Speaker 4: And then even when it's getting closer and I'm like, oh, 207 00:09:51,040 --> 00:09:53,880 Speaker 4: I have to start getting ready. What am I going 208 00:09:53,960 --> 00:09:58,880 Speaker 4: to wear? Let's brush my tea? Should I do whitening strips? 209 00:09:59,080 --> 00:10:02,720 Speaker 4: Just let's think in the now, and before you know it, 210 00:10:02,840 --> 00:10:06,080 Speaker 4: you're blowing my you you can go out, And then 211 00:10:06,200 --> 00:10:07,480 Speaker 4: that's what I've tried to do. 212 00:10:07,520 --> 00:10:09,280 Speaker 2: And I'm not thinking of any conversation. 213 00:10:09,440 --> 00:10:11,559 Speaker 4: I'm not even thinking, like, I can't even think about 214 00:10:11,559 --> 00:10:13,080 Speaker 4: how I'm going to say hello to you, because that 215 00:10:13,160 --> 00:10:15,520 Speaker 4: anxiety right there will send me home. 216 00:10:15,920 --> 00:10:18,520 Speaker 2: Yeah, So I just think, okay, right now I'm going 217 00:10:18,559 --> 00:10:21,480 Speaker 2: to get out of my car. Do I have everything? Yes? 218 00:10:21,600 --> 00:10:24,880 Speaker 4: Okay, let's walk and enjoy this scene I'm not thinking 219 00:10:24,880 --> 00:10:26,920 Speaker 4: about who I'm seeing, where we're going. 220 00:10:27,160 --> 00:10:29,920 Speaker 2: I'm just enjoying what is going on around me at 221 00:10:29,920 --> 00:10:30,520 Speaker 2: that time. 222 00:10:31,000 --> 00:10:34,640 Speaker 3: Yeah, because once you get there, does your anxiety. 223 00:10:34,160 --> 00:10:37,520 Speaker 4: Kind of that's dissipated because now it's like I've looked 224 00:10:37,520 --> 00:10:38,160 Speaker 4: at things. 225 00:10:37,920 --> 00:10:38,880 Speaker 2: And I'll be like, did you guys? 226 00:10:38,880 --> 00:10:40,760 Speaker 4: See Like it's almost like just being in the now 227 00:10:40,800 --> 00:10:43,440 Speaker 4: has brought me so much peace, well peace, and not 228 00:10:43,480 --> 00:10:46,480 Speaker 4: only that, but like little conversations that you're worried about having. 229 00:10:46,520 --> 00:10:48,360 Speaker 2: Now I'm like, did you see the billboard of Da 230 00:10:48,440 --> 00:10:50,280 Speaker 2: Da Da Da? I had no idea that was coming out, 231 00:10:50,320 --> 00:10:52,880 Speaker 2: and now it started a whole thing. And now just. 232 00:10:52,960 --> 00:10:57,080 Speaker 3: Being in this it gives me so much anxiety, see literally, 233 00:10:57,320 --> 00:10:59,480 Speaker 3: And I think that's another reason why I keep a 234 00:10:59,600 --> 00:11:03,240 Speaker 3: very group of friends, because I know who I feel 235 00:11:03,280 --> 00:11:03,959 Speaker 3: comfortable with. 236 00:11:04,080 --> 00:11:06,880 Speaker 1: It feels effortless. I don't worry. I look forward to 237 00:11:06,960 --> 00:11:08,480 Speaker 1: it any time. 238 00:11:08,679 --> 00:11:10,880 Speaker 3: Like even if I have a group that I'm going 239 00:11:10,880 --> 00:11:12,840 Speaker 3: with and they're like, oh I invited so, and so I'm. 240 00:11:12,679 --> 00:11:14,679 Speaker 2: Like, oh no, how was I going to throw it off? 241 00:11:14,960 --> 00:11:17,920 Speaker 1: That may throw off the dynamic and it and then 242 00:11:17,960 --> 00:11:18,280 Speaker 1: I have. 243 00:11:18,240 --> 00:11:19,520 Speaker 3: To ask them how they've been and they're going to 244 00:11:19,559 --> 00:11:20,600 Speaker 3: tell me a bunch of shit that I. 245 00:11:20,520 --> 00:11:24,760 Speaker 2: Don't care about. The ball talk. Ball talk? Is the anxiety? 246 00:11:26,480 --> 00:11:27,360 Speaker 1: Is this normal? 247 00:11:27,720 --> 00:11:27,920 Speaker 3: Yes? 248 00:11:27,960 --> 00:11:29,520 Speaker 2: I think this is what comes with age. 249 00:11:30,720 --> 00:11:33,040 Speaker 1: Yes, I feel like it should be calmed down with age. 250 00:11:33,200 --> 00:11:35,040 Speaker 4: No, because I feel like no, no, no, no, no, 251 00:11:35,080 --> 00:11:37,400 Speaker 4: I look at it, and because I have anxiety. 252 00:11:37,400 --> 00:11:39,240 Speaker 2: I feel like with age you get more of it. 253 00:11:39,440 --> 00:11:41,480 Speaker 4: You feel like you should be in a certain spots 254 00:11:41,600 --> 00:11:44,199 Speaker 4: you're looking at other people's life, comparing yourself. 255 00:11:44,360 --> 00:11:45,520 Speaker 2: Why am I not ahead? 256 00:11:45,640 --> 00:11:48,160 Speaker 4: Or things like that when you're young in twenty or 257 00:11:48,200 --> 00:11:51,480 Speaker 4: twenty one going out comparison is the. 258 00:11:51,960 --> 00:11:53,920 Speaker 1: Is the raw? Is the thief of joy? 259 00:11:54,160 --> 00:11:56,840 Speaker 2: Yeah, it's so true. Yeah, but like that, I feel 260 00:11:56,880 --> 00:12:00,120 Speaker 2: like a lot of people do that, you know, so, 261 00:12:00,160 --> 00:12:00,640 Speaker 2: I think. 262 00:12:00,480 --> 00:12:03,079 Speaker 1: When they see things, you start aspiring. 263 00:12:02,640 --> 00:12:05,000 Speaker 4: Like they Let me just put it this way for you. 264 00:12:05,000 --> 00:12:07,720 Speaker 4: You have kids, Yes, you see a whole bunch of 265 00:12:07,760 --> 00:12:10,800 Speaker 4: other kids you don't, But how many other of those 266 00:12:10,840 --> 00:12:14,000 Speaker 4: people are comparing those not the kids, but the lifestyles 267 00:12:14,000 --> 00:12:16,280 Speaker 4: of kids around a lot? 268 00:12:16,640 --> 00:12:16,959 Speaker 2: I know it. 269 00:12:17,160 --> 00:12:18,920 Speaker 4: You may not see it, but like there's a lot 270 00:12:18,960 --> 00:12:21,679 Speaker 4: of people who are seeing, like what other kids are 271 00:12:21,720 --> 00:12:25,079 Speaker 4: getting from their parents that maybe I can't afford now 272 00:12:25,120 --> 00:12:27,320 Speaker 4: that starts to give me anxiety. Where have I gone wrong? 273 00:12:27,360 --> 00:12:29,560 Speaker 4: What have I done? How can I get better? 274 00:12:29,679 --> 00:12:32,720 Speaker 3: They haven't hit that point yet in minutes because Ocean's 275 00:12:32,760 --> 00:12:35,480 Speaker 3: still so young. She's going to be starting like real 276 00:12:35,520 --> 00:12:39,400 Speaker 3: big kids school soon. Yeah, I'm still unsure where she's 277 00:12:39,440 --> 00:12:42,240 Speaker 3: going to go at this point in time. 278 00:12:43,559 --> 00:12:45,719 Speaker 1: You have to remember we're going the private school. 279 00:12:45,480 --> 00:12:48,040 Speaker 4: Route, and then there's going to be kids, see and 280 00:12:48,080 --> 00:12:49,840 Speaker 4: I'm only thinking for me, not my kid, But like, 281 00:12:49,880 --> 00:12:52,520 Speaker 4: it will start to give me anxiety if she's falling 282 00:12:52,520 --> 00:12:54,440 Speaker 4: back in school or if she's ahead in school. You 283 00:12:54,480 --> 00:12:57,640 Speaker 4: start there's just anxiety that just keeps coming as an 284 00:12:57,640 --> 00:12:58,400 Speaker 4: adult type hit. 285 00:12:58,520 --> 00:13:02,160 Speaker 3: But I have to say this, what she experiences at school, 286 00:13:02,760 --> 00:13:06,160 Speaker 3: she's going to experience at the other house anyway. Like 287 00:13:06,280 --> 00:13:11,280 Speaker 3: Ocean has already been in really amazing cars, She's already 288 00:13:11,280 --> 00:13:15,440 Speaker 3: been on private jets, and I have to she doesn't talk. 289 00:13:15,280 --> 00:13:17,120 Speaker 1: About it, no, like those things. 290 00:13:17,120 --> 00:13:19,920 Speaker 2: But there's parents that you'll never be able to do that. 291 00:13:20,360 --> 00:13:22,640 Speaker 4: Yeah, but there's parents that will never be able to 292 00:13:22,679 --> 00:13:24,600 Speaker 4: do that for their kid or anything else. 293 00:13:25,440 --> 00:13:29,160 Speaker 3: It is one percent of the population on the planet 294 00:13:29,320 --> 00:13:34,280 Speaker 3: that maybe less I know, but no, it will actually 295 00:13:34,360 --> 00:13:39,160 Speaker 3: experience life in that way. The stressors, yes, of kids, 296 00:13:39,320 --> 00:13:43,079 Speaker 3: especially in a place like Los Angeles. People are giving 297 00:13:43,120 --> 00:13:46,839 Speaker 3: their sixteen year olds Aston Martin's as their first car. 298 00:13:47,360 --> 00:13:52,240 Speaker 3: And for me, I have experienced all of that that. 299 00:13:52,400 --> 00:13:54,200 Speaker 3: I think if Ocean came to me, I'd be like, 300 00:13:54,800 --> 00:13:57,880 Speaker 3: get the fuck over it. You're not having that car. 301 00:13:58,760 --> 00:14:02,360 Speaker 3: There's your Hyundai, which I love, by the way, I 302 00:14:02,400 --> 00:14:06,200 Speaker 3: mean Hunda very say, very like, that's. 303 00:14:05,960 --> 00:14:09,439 Speaker 2: What I would be getting. Car love Corolla. Get out 304 00:14:09,440 --> 00:14:10,400 Speaker 2: of here. That's where I'm at. 305 00:14:10,640 --> 00:14:13,120 Speaker 1: Do you know how hard I rock with my GMC Denali. 306 00:14:14,080 --> 00:14:16,760 Speaker 2: That's a very nice vehicle. Oh, very nice. 307 00:14:16,840 --> 00:14:17,640 Speaker 1: No, it's very nice. 308 00:14:17,800 --> 00:14:21,480 Speaker 4: It's very nice, very nice, very nice. 309 00:14:22,400 --> 00:14:27,480 Speaker 2: Not a Chevy. It's a GMC Yukon Denali, not just 310 00:14:27,520 --> 00:14:27,960 Speaker 2: a Yukon. 311 00:14:28,040 --> 00:14:30,120 Speaker 4: Maybe I don't know cars, very you do not know cars, 312 00:14:30,160 --> 00:14:32,640 Speaker 4: because yours is the top tier of that brand. I 313 00:14:32,640 --> 00:14:36,760 Speaker 4: thought the Escalade was well that, yes, but then you're 314 00:14:37,160 --> 00:14:40,320 Speaker 4: two different cars. I mean you could have got yours 315 00:14:40,360 --> 00:14:44,480 Speaker 4: with like a bigger engine that's like a sport exactly why, 316 00:14:44,560 --> 00:14:50,400 Speaker 4: And then I don't know escalades dark invader lightsabers on 317 00:14:50,440 --> 00:14:51,840 Speaker 4: the back of the Escalator. 318 00:14:51,880 --> 00:14:54,280 Speaker 2: Yeah, those big long lights, like what are we doing 319 00:14:54,320 --> 00:14:55,200 Speaker 2: and feel. 320 00:14:55,000 --> 00:14:59,160 Speaker 1: The need to spend more money on a car where I'm. 321 00:14:59,040 --> 00:15:02,200 Speaker 2: Like, I have you more anxiety throw to pit. 322 00:15:02,160 --> 00:15:04,600 Speaker 3: Bulls in here to children, I mean most of the time, 323 00:15:05,640 --> 00:15:08,520 Speaker 3: which also gives me massive anxiety when I because I 324 00:15:08,640 --> 00:15:12,120 Speaker 3: keep like my area very clean, right, And then Lisa 325 00:15:12,120 --> 00:15:14,720 Speaker 3: gets in all her shit in the center console and 326 00:15:14,760 --> 00:15:19,280 Speaker 3: I then I look in the back and the kid's 327 00:15:19,560 --> 00:15:24,360 Speaker 3: Ocean is eating whatever she's eating, spilling crumbs everywhere. 328 00:15:24,400 --> 00:15:26,480 Speaker 1: Sosa is unscrewed the lid to her bottle because she 329 00:15:26,480 --> 00:15:31,080 Speaker 1: can do that now, and is whipping the milk everywhere. 330 00:15:32,320 --> 00:15:34,320 Speaker 1: I go into full panic. 331 00:15:45,920 --> 00:15:50,560 Speaker 3: Actually, I think motherhood has allowed me, as much as possible, 332 00:15:52,760 --> 00:15:55,600 Speaker 3: with just what's in my nature to kind of let 333 00:15:55,680 --> 00:15:59,440 Speaker 3: go and find the gray because by nature, I'm more 334 00:15:59,520 --> 00:16:03,840 Speaker 3: like my dad. Where I'm I just am very particular 335 00:16:03,880 --> 00:16:07,040 Speaker 3: about things. I start feeling like there's an elephant on 336 00:16:07,080 --> 00:16:10,040 Speaker 3: my chest when Ocean, listen how simple this is, and 337 00:16:10,080 --> 00:16:11,840 Speaker 3: I have to actively you guys, you guys are gonna 338 00:16:11,840 --> 00:16:15,520 Speaker 3: think I'm horrible. I have to actively tell myself to 339 00:16:15,680 --> 00:16:18,400 Speaker 3: like not worry about it. This is how silly it gets. 340 00:16:18,880 --> 00:16:23,400 Speaker 3: If she decides to bring a stuffy and a book 341 00:16:23,480 --> 00:16:26,200 Speaker 3: into my room because I go but it doesn't belong 342 00:16:26,320 --> 00:16:27,920 Speaker 3: there in my head. I don't tell her that. I 343 00:16:27,960 --> 00:16:28,640 Speaker 3: just let it happen. 344 00:16:28,680 --> 00:16:31,280 Speaker 1: And I'm like, you can take it back downstairs. But 345 00:16:31,320 --> 00:16:32,520 Speaker 1: I'm like, but it doesn't belong. 346 00:16:32,760 --> 00:16:34,600 Speaker 2: Oh, you need to work the K Pop. 347 00:16:34,440 --> 00:16:40,560 Speaker 3: Demon Hunter book and the ginormous technicolored stuffy doesn't go 348 00:16:40,600 --> 00:16:41,200 Speaker 3: in my bedroom. 349 00:16:41,240 --> 00:16:43,520 Speaker 2: Yeah, but think how excited she gets, would you? I know? 350 00:16:43,640 --> 00:16:45,800 Speaker 1: But that's what I'm saying is there are some things 351 00:16:45,840 --> 00:16:46,440 Speaker 1: that are just. 352 00:16:46,800 --> 00:16:47,920 Speaker 2: In Is that OCD? 353 00:16:48,720 --> 00:16:51,320 Speaker 4: It might be that's OCD, because like for me, I 354 00:16:51,360 --> 00:16:54,360 Speaker 4: can I was last night. I slept with a thing 355 00:16:54,400 --> 00:16:57,000 Speaker 4: on my leg just to wrap it middle of the night, 356 00:16:57,080 --> 00:16:59,120 Speaker 4: woke up, took it off and just through it. Don't 357 00:16:59,120 --> 00:17:01,280 Speaker 4: know where it went. I picked that up this morning, 358 00:17:01,560 --> 00:17:04,760 Speaker 4: but like, could you do that? I would fold it 359 00:17:04,760 --> 00:17:05,960 Speaker 4: and put it back into the cabin. 360 00:17:06,119 --> 00:17:07,600 Speaker 2: I just throw it on the ground and we'll figure it out. 361 00:17:07,640 --> 00:17:09,040 Speaker 3: Because I don't want to wake up to it. I 362 00:17:09,080 --> 00:17:10,920 Speaker 3: need to wake up in the morning. I have such 363 00:17:10,960 --> 00:17:15,439 Speaker 3: a strict routine. I don't want anything that does not belong, 364 00:17:15,600 --> 00:17:18,359 Speaker 3: even the cord that comes out of my nightstand that 365 00:17:18,440 --> 00:17:23,200 Speaker 3: I plug. You need to exposure I'm exposed. 366 00:17:23,720 --> 00:17:25,679 Speaker 2: No, you need more exposure therapy. 367 00:17:25,800 --> 00:17:29,080 Speaker 4: You need to wake up with your why to bring 368 00:17:29,119 --> 00:17:32,280 Speaker 4: you down from one hundred when little things are off, 369 00:17:32,680 --> 00:17:34,520 Speaker 4: to not send you down a spiral. 370 00:17:34,640 --> 00:17:36,600 Speaker 3: Okay, but tell me this. Do you think it's because 371 00:17:36,640 --> 00:17:39,320 Speaker 3: I have such little control? Which sounds weird because I 372 00:17:39,320 --> 00:17:41,440 Speaker 3: actually do have a lot of control in my life, 373 00:17:41,600 --> 00:17:44,520 Speaker 3: but there are certain things that we cannot control. So 374 00:17:44,600 --> 00:17:48,399 Speaker 3: do you think that it manifests itself into me controlling 375 00:17:48,440 --> 00:17:51,240 Speaker 3: the one thing that I can control, which is my bedroom. 376 00:17:51,520 --> 00:17:53,320 Speaker 4: Here's the one thing that I'm taking from this. You 377 00:17:53,359 --> 00:17:57,520 Speaker 4: can control a lot of things. You can't control any outcomes. 378 00:17:58,240 --> 00:18:01,120 Speaker 4: You can control the outcome of this. Yes, the outcome 379 00:18:01,160 --> 00:18:04,399 Speaker 4: is so clean. That is your outcome with everything that 380 00:18:04,440 --> 00:18:06,560 Speaker 4: you do in life. Yes, you can do it and 381 00:18:06,600 --> 00:18:10,440 Speaker 4: you have control. But what is the outcome with where 382 00:18:10,440 --> 00:18:10,920 Speaker 4: you're going? 383 00:18:11,160 --> 00:18:14,040 Speaker 1: You don't know, but the house would. 384 00:18:14,520 --> 00:18:15,280 Speaker 2: So there you go. 385 00:18:15,400 --> 00:18:18,679 Speaker 4: You're you You like it because you know that you 386 00:18:18,880 --> 00:18:21,320 Speaker 4: have control over that at all times. 387 00:18:21,520 --> 00:18:22,639 Speaker 2: Yeah, there it is. 388 00:18:23,040 --> 00:18:26,119 Speaker 4: Maybe I'm no doctor, but maybe we're getting down to something. 389 00:18:26,440 --> 00:18:30,320 Speaker 3: Also, I know who the culprit is of the messy 390 00:18:30,359 --> 00:18:32,760 Speaker 3: house all the time. It ain't the kids, my mom 391 00:18:32,840 --> 00:18:36,560 Speaker 3: is in Palm Springs right now. Days for three days. 392 00:18:36,720 --> 00:18:42,040 Speaker 3: The house is immaculate. I mean, and there's two kids. 393 00:18:42,040 --> 00:18:45,280 Speaker 3: They're they're still here running around. It's business as usual. 394 00:18:46,280 --> 00:18:47,840 Speaker 1: My mother is the cause. 395 00:18:47,880 --> 00:18:50,680 Speaker 2: Of all of the came. Oh yeah, because I go now. 396 00:18:50,600 --> 00:18:53,960 Speaker 1: Even the playroom, you guys were up there. It looks great. 397 00:18:54,119 --> 00:18:56,360 Speaker 2: Well here, yeah, because we pick up things here and there. 398 00:18:56,400 --> 00:18:58,520 Speaker 4: But Mom will get things out to play with them 399 00:18:58,560 --> 00:19:01,600 Speaker 4: and then say it was them. 400 00:19:01,680 --> 00:19:02,440 Speaker 2: She's a little ship. 401 00:19:02,880 --> 00:19:06,320 Speaker 1: And this is also what happens with my mom. She 402 00:19:06,480 --> 00:19:08,280 Speaker 1: will be like a tornado. 403 00:19:08,560 --> 00:19:10,399 Speaker 3: And my whole thing is, why don't you clean up 404 00:19:10,440 --> 00:19:12,560 Speaker 3: as you go that way at the end of the night. 405 00:19:12,680 --> 00:19:17,000 Speaker 3: You're not spending an hour cleaning up the day's mess, 406 00:19:17,119 --> 00:19:19,840 Speaker 3: like when you make no one makes a MESSI er 407 00:19:20,680 --> 00:19:24,000 Speaker 3: peanut butter and jelly toast, like something as simple as 408 00:19:24,040 --> 00:19:26,440 Speaker 3: that looks like someone has been. 409 00:19:26,480 --> 00:19:31,240 Speaker 2: Whipping up out fucking four star michel and meal. 410 00:19:31,440 --> 00:19:33,520 Speaker 1: I look at it and I'm like, how did this happen? 411 00:19:34,040 --> 00:19:36,399 Speaker 2: And she's got her one little cracker walking around. 412 00:19:36,359 --> 00:19:40,280 Speaker 4: One cracker and without the plane, cracker just spilling everywhere. 413 00:19:40,400 --> 00:19:45,560 Speaker 4: We have dogs. Let's just let's not do that. But okay, 414 00:19:47,240 --> 00:19:47,879 Speaker 4: just all. 415 00:19:47,800 --> 00:19:51,879 Speaker 3: Of these little things that are that cause me anxiety. 416 00:19:52,480 --> 00:19:55,720 Speaker 2: It's from the oh, is that what we've called. 417 00:19:57,680 --> 00:20:00,520 Speaker 1: Me to be medicated? We just I mean the Jesus 418 00:20:00,720 --> 00:20:05,639 Speaker 1: por shit together. Well, I want to be very very clear. 419 00:20:07,760 --> 00:20:12,040 Speaker 3: In case you guys along the way thought Eastern Night 420 00:20:12,119 --> 00:20:17,159 Speaker 3: were doctors, we are not. If you are medicated, we 421 00:20:17,359 --> 00:20:22,800 Speaker 3: coast that do work. We talked about what works for us. 422 00:20:23,240 --> 00:20:26,440 Speaker 3: It can always change. I'm glad that alex Earl because 423 00:20:26,440 --> 00:20:29,879 Speaker 3: she has such a tremendous platform and from the outside 424 00:20:29,920 --> 00:20:32,640 Speaker 3: you look at her life and go, she's beautiful, She's perfect. 425 00:20:32,680 --> 00:20:38,320 Speaker 3: What could she possibly be stressed about? Depressed about tripping on? 426 00:20:39,160 --> 00:20:42,040 Speaker 3: It's people like her that we need to continue the 427 00:20:42,080 --> 00:20:45,520 Speaker 3: conversation so that people who are struggling mentally know that 428 00:20:45,560 --> 00:20:49,000 Speaker 3: they are not alone. And even people they watch and 429 00:20:49,080 --> 00:20:52,680 Speaker 3: think their lives are amazing are still battling the same 430 00:20:52,760 --> 00:20:56,000 Speaker 3: shit as everybody else. So with that, I wish you 431 00:20:56,040 --> 00:20:58,440 Speaker 3: the best day of your whole life. Go out there 432 00:20:58,480 --> 00:21:00,520 Speaker 3: and slay the day. Thank you for listening to another 433 00:21:00,560 --> 00:21:03,800 Speaker 3: episode bonus episode of Untraditionally La La. I'm gonna catch 434 00:21:03,800 --> 00:21:06,800 Speaker 3: you Wednesday for a regular old episode and again next week. 435 00:21:07,000 --> 00:21:09,280 Speaker 1: Bye.