WEBVTT - “I WAS IMPRISONED WITHOUT TRIAL FOR 3 YEARS” 0:00:00.080 --> 0:00:03.760 Hello and welcome. I figured it out, folks, I figured 0:00:03.800 --> 0:00:05.920 it out. I figured out the cure to all that 0:00:05.960 --> 0:00:08.800 ails anyone that has ever been ailed. I figured out 0:00:08.840 --> 0:00:11.320 the answer. You'll never believe it. All you have to 0:00:11.360 --> 0:00:19.720 do is go outside. There's a whole world beyond the door. 0:00:19.760 --> 0:00:21.520 There's a whole world outside of the computer. 0:00:21.560 --> 0:00:21.720 I me. 0:00:21.960 --> 0:00:24.639 I guess if you're watching this, you're watching this on 0:00:24.680 --> 0:00:26.680 the computer right now, or you're listening to it on 0:00:26.760 --> 0:00:30.200 your phone or whatever. But Hi, my name is Lyle. 0:00:30.280 --> 0:00:33.400 I'm a gecko guy. I'm filled with energy. I'm here, 0:00:33.560 --> 0:00:38.680 truly at my favorite place on the planet, Washington Square Park. 0:00:38.720 --> 0:00:40.760 I haven't done one of these in I think a year, 0:00:41.280 --> 0:00:45.920 and I'm filled with joy to be back at this location. 0:00:46.200 --> 0:00:49.400 Just you know, I love this place so much because 0:00:49.560 --> 0:00:54.880 is every kind of person walks by here. Everyone of 0:00:54.960 --> 0:01:00.000 every age, every race, every socioeconomic demographic. They all come 0:01:00.080 --> 0:01:05.200 buying into this melting pot of everything and everyone in 0:01:05.280 --> 0:01:10.039 one place. The energy here is immaculate. There there's Uh, 0:01:10.520 --> 0:01:12.960 this is great. It's good. So I'm I'm feeling happy. 0:01:12.959 --> 0:01:15.840 I'm feeling great, and uh, what I'm gonna do today 0:01:15.880 --> 0:01:19.840 is I'm gonna talk to some of these people. Why, 0:01:19.959 --> 0:01:23.640 And I'm gonna see what's happening with them in their lives. 0:01:23.720 --> 0:01:28.559 We're outside, the weather's good. There's a jazz band nearby. 0:01:28.560 --> 0:01:29.840 I don't know if you can hear it in the 0:01:29.920 --> 0:01:33.160 soundtrack of the thing, but yeah, it's a good place. 0:01:33.200 --> 0:01:36.080 It's got good vibes. Let's talk to some people. This 0:01:36.200 --> 0:01:39.000 is being a gecko at the park. Yeah, come have 0:01:39.040 --> 0:01:41.400 a Yeah, you have a crazy story, come here, sit 0:01:41.440 --> 0:01:43.280 down with you crazy by the way, I just want 0:01:43.319 --> 0:01:45.760 you to know and why. I don't know if I'm 0:01:45.800 --> 0:01:50.000 just gonna say it. Typically if you ever have a 0:01:50.000 --> 0:01:52.280 crazy story. This is just some advice I guess if 0:01:52.280 --> 0:01:54.320 you ever have a create, never tell people you have 0:01:54.400 --> 0:01:58.680 a crazy story, because now I have, I have high expectations. 0:01:59.440 --> 0:02:03.000 You know, what's your name? 0:02:03.280 --> 0:02:04.480 My name is Lyle. What's your name? 0:02:04.520 --> 0:02:04.880 Austin? 0:02:05.040 --> 0:02:07.120 Austin. Nice to mess you, Austin. How's it going, man, 0:02:07.120 --> 0:02:09.200 how's pretty good? What's your crazy story? 0:02:10.040 --> 0:02:11.040 Long story short? 0:02:11.120 --> 0:02:14.440 I Uh, they put me in a cage in twenty nineteen, 0:02:14.600 --> 0:02:16.600 Oh Jesus, Yeah, and they were like, say you did it, 0:02:16.680 --> 0:02:18.760 you can go home. And I was like, I didn't 0:02:18.800 --> 0:02:21.760 do it, So let's go to trial. So they continue 0:02:21.760 --> 0:02:25.840 my case ninety days fifteen times, bro through COVID, so 0:02:26.040 --> 0:02:29.680 like I'm in Virginia Beach, Virginia, maintaining my innocence, waiting 0:02:29.720 --> 0:02:32.120 for waiting for trial, and they continue in ninety days 0:02:32.120 --> 0:02:33.880 fifteen times. I keep thinking I'm gonna go home in 0:02:33.960 --> 0:02:36.160 ninety days. So I come up with like ninety day 0:02:36.160 --> 0:02:39.160 programs to live, like the most optimal life ever. I'm like, yo, 0:02:39.200 --> 0:02:42.440 I'm gonna do push like meditate push ups, right, blah 0:02:42.440 --> 0:02:44.440 blah blah blah blah, do these ninety days and then 0:02:44.440 --> 0:02:47.720 go about my life. But then it continued, continued, continued 0:02:47.760 --> 0:02:50.400 like a like a soul breaking experience, dude. So when 0:02:50.400 --> 0:02:52.400 it was all said and done, I did one than 0:02:52.480 --> 0:02:53.760 three hundred and twenty one days. 0:02:54.520 --> 0:02:55.040 I left. 0:02:55.639 --> 0:02:58.560 I got released from Virginia. I moved up here with 0:02:58.600 --> 0:03:01.240 two hundred bucks and two outfits. I didn't know anyone, 0:03:01.880 --> 0:03:04.080 and uh, dude, I just tried my fucking hartist and 0:03:04.160 --> 0:03:06.160 like it's been a crazy, crazy ride. 0:03:08.040 --> 0:03:08.720 I have a million. 0:03:09.120 --> 0:03:11.600 First of all, I'm sorry, I dad had a crazy story. 0:03:11.639 --> 0:03:16.519 You have a crazy story. The second of all, they okay, 0:03:16.560 --> 0:03:19.080 your sorry. Started with they put me in a cage. 0:03:20.120 --> 0:03:23.520 What is what does that mean? Who is the who 0:03:23.639 --> 0:03:27.480 is they? I guess you would say my ex girlfriend. Okay, 0:03:28.080 --> 0:03:30.440 I got I got engaged to a girl, and uh, 0:03:30.600 --> 0:03:32.959 griming me, I was still hooking up with my ex girlfriend. 0:03:33.000 --> 0:03:34.840 Not cool, but it's not illegal. Dude, don't put me 0:03:34.840 --> 0:03:36.600 in a cage. But I shouldn't have done that. That 0:03:36.720 --> 0:03:37.119 wasn't cool. 0:03:37.200 --> 0:03:38.800 Wait, so you gotta engage with a girl you're still 0:03:38.800 --> 0:03:42.120 looking over with your ex girlfriend? And then what do 0:03:42.160 --> 0:03:45.240 you mean by a cage like jail? 0:03:45.640 --> 0:03:45.839 Oh? 0:03:45.880 --> 0:03:49.040 Okay, wait so your ex girlfriend called the cops on you? 0:03:49.280 --> 0:03:51.640 Yeah, said I beat her up, and okay, then I 0:03:51.720 --> 0:03:53.800 bonded out. She went back down, said I grabbed her 0:03:53.800 --> 0:03:55.480 by the titties, and then I bonded out. And she 0:03:55.560 --> 0:03:59.320 kept making stuff up, mind you, before she pressed any charges. 0:03:59.760 --> 0:04:02.520 She I was calling my probation officer I sold drug 0:04:02.560 --> 0:04:03.320 smarly twenties. 0:04:03.400 --> 0:04:04.160 I really did that. 0:04:04.640 --> 0:04:07.720 But she's called my probation officer anonymously, trying to get 0:04:07.720 --> 0:04:09.520 me in trouble for two weeks, dude, And when that 0:04:09.560 --> 0:04:11.640 didn't work, she's like, all right, he beat me up, 0:04:11.840 --> 0:04:14.800 all right, he choke and like, dude, it was crazy. 0:04:14.920 --> 0:04:18.360 So like nobody knows that at first, so they they 0:04:18.640 --> 0:04:21.159 when all the dust settled, that was like three years later, 0:04:21.200 --> 0:04:23.000 and they were like, oh my god, this kid's innocent 0:04:23.040 --> 0:04:26.080 and he's been sitting here like this whole time because 0:04:26.120 --> 0:04:26.640 of COVID. 0:04:26.920 --> 0:04:28.839 Wait you were so you were in there for ninety days. 0:04:29.240 --> 0:04:31.080 No, No, I was in there for one three hundred 0:04:31.080 --> 0:04:31.880 and twenty one days. 0:04:31.880 --> 0:04:33.520 Oh fuck you. Oh you were in there for three years? 0:04:33.600 --> 0:04:35.760 Yeah, bro, more than three years. Oh fuck yeah. And 0:04:35.800 --> 0:04:39.000 they were telling me because of COVID. Uh yeah yeah, 0:04:39.040 --> 0:04:42.320 because they were like, my court day was in ninety days, right, So, 0:04:42.400 --> 0:04:44.200 like I said, I came up with ninety day programs 0:04:44.200 --> 0:04:46.520 to live the most optimal life. Ninety days would go 0:04:46.560 --> 0:04:48.320 around and they'd be like, yo, we got to continue 0:04:48.320 --> 0:04:51.640 it another ninety days. They did that fifteen times, brother, 0:04:51.800 --> 0:04:53.400 fifteen times. So they in my head, I'm like, I 0:04:53.480 --> 0:04:55.839 go home in ninety days. I go home in ninety days. 0:04:56.080 --> 0:04:58.000 Three years later, I was still waiting. 0:04:58.640 --> 0:05:01.480 So isn't there like a I mean, okay, so isn't 0:05:01.480 --> 0:05:04.240 there supposed to be like a trial and they like 0:05:04.560 --> 0:05:06.240 they wait, so they wait. So there wasn't even like 0:05:06.279 --> 0:05:07.880 a trial where you were like found guilty of a 0:05:07.960 --> 0:05:08.920 thing and then putting. 0:05:08.680 --> 0:05:09.599 A waiting for trial. 0:05:09.640 --> 0:05:12.920 You were held you were in holding waiting for trial 0:05:13.000 --> 0:05:14.520 for three yes. 0:05:14.880 --> 0:05:15.599 In Virginia Beach. 0:05:15.720 --> 0:05:19.080 That's yeah, that's that's like super illegal, right. 0:05:19.160 --> 0:05:19.360 Yeah. 0:05:19.400 --> 0:05:21.719 But they say because it was an act of God 0:05:21.839 --> 0:05:25.159 because of COVID, that it changed like the what's supposed 0:05:25.160 --> 0:05:27.200 to be constitutional rights, which is my right to a 0:05:27.240 --> 0:05:29.520 speedy trial, but that. 0:05:29.120 --> 0:05:30.400 That didn't count whatsoever. 0:05:30.480 --> 0:05:30.680 Bro. 0:05:30.839 --> 0:05:33.040 And then my dude, my public defender, who was my 0:05:33.120 --> 0:05:36.200 lawyer at Amanda T. Bowt year two, she became a 0:05:36.240 --> 0:05:38.680 prosecutor for the district. I was in the lady who 0:05:38.720 --> 0:05:42.640 was representing me prosecutor. I was like, you can't. 0:05:42.360 --> 0:05:42.960 Make this up. 0:05:43.080 --> 0:05:43.960 That's crazy. 0:05:44.040 --> 0:05:44.280 Yeah. 0:05:44.320 --> 0:05:46.960 So like it literally was like whatever can go wrong 0:05:47.120 --> 0:05:50.520 went wrong in this situation. And it was like such 0:05:50.560 --> 0:05:53.240 an eye opening experience. So like basically I trained myself. 0:05:53.240 --> 0:05:55.640 Bron Nelson Mandela has this really cool quote. They're like, 0:05:55.640 --> 0:05:57.800 how did you survive those seven years? He goes, I 0:05:57.800 --> 0:06:01.080 didn't survive. I prepared, So I just locked in for 0:06:01.080 --> 0:06:03.359 for four years. I came here and I just worked 0:06:03.360 --> 0:06:05.920 as hard as I fucking possibly could for as long 0:06:05.960 --> 0:06:06.800 as I possibly could. 0:06:06.839 --> 0:06:08.800 Like I didn't drink. Yeah, I used to party, bro, 0:06:08.839 --> 0:06:10.160 I used to have fun. I used to hustle, I 0:06:10.240 --> 0:06:11.520 used to sell blow like whatever. 0:06:12.000 --> 0:06:14.279 But now it's like I just tried my best to 0:06:14.320 --> 0:06:17.359 be that corny, hardworking dude that you always think that 0:06:17.400 --> 0:06:18.240 you might be able to be. 0:06:18.360 --> 0:06:19.040 I became. 0:06:19.400 --> 0:06:20.440 That's where you are now. 0:06:20.960 --> 0:06:22.479 Yeah, yeah, it's wild. 0:06:22.800 --> 0:06:24.720 So what's your Yeah, what's your story now? Like, what 0:06:24.760 --> 0:06:25.200 are you up to? 0:06:25.760 --> 0:06:28.039 So now, if you can blank this out, that would 0:06:28.080 --> 0:06:31.080 be great. My company I had this event. There's these 0:06:31.080 --> 0:06:32.680 benches behind us, a bunch of kids. 0:06:32.760 --> 0:06:33.159 Uh. 0:06:33.279 --> 0:06:35.400 They designed a bunch of park benches to address like 0:06:35.400 --> 0:06:36.279 real world problems. 0:06:36.279 --> 0:06:37.400 It's actually super empowering. 0:06:37.440 --> 0:06:39.960 They're like, yeah, wait wait your company designed these benches. Yeah, 0:06:40.200 --> 0:06:40.880 that's your company. 0:06:40.880 --> 0:06:43.760 Oh the kids did student Institute of the Public Schools 0:06:44.400 --> 0:06:47.039 I work with. I work for a nonprofit and like 0:06:47.600 --> 0:06:48.440 we find. 0:06:48.240 --> 0:06:50.680 Wait do we need to blurt? Is this private information? 0:06:51.000 --> 0:06:53.279 Uh no, it's not private. We'll just keep it. I 0:06:53.320 --> 0:06:55.040 work for a good entity that helps people. 0:06:55.200 --> 0:06:58.360 Okay, cool, it's I love it. Okay, we help kids 0:06:58.360 --> 0:07:01.839 and stuff. But yeah, my history though, is kind of suss. 0:07:01.880 --> 0:07:03.640 So I didn't want to endanger that or anything. 0:07:03.680 --> 0:07:05.760 Do people do people know about your history. 0:07:06.040 --> 0:07:08.919 H yeah, the ones that matter now, like other people, 0:07:08.960 --> 0:07:11.240 they kind of hear about it and then like I hope, 0:07:11.760 --> 0:07:13.560 I hope they ask, but people don't really like. 0:07:13.520 --> 0:07:15.760 Are you okay with being on the internet with this? 0:07:15.800 --> 0:07:19.720 Oh yeah for sure? Okay, all right, yeah, but yeah, 0:07:19.720 --> 0:07:21.280 it's just been wild, bro. And then I came here. 0:07:21.280 --> 0:07:23.800 I worked for this gym called Conbody shout out to 0:07:23.920 --> 0:07:26.520 coos Marte con Bud Conbody in the Lower East Side. 0:07:26.680 --> 0:07:28.119 It's like a prison style gym. 0:07:28.480 --> 0:07:28.680 Wow. 0:07:29.240 --> 0:07:30.920 Yeah, it was like the first job that I had. 0:07:30.960 --> 0:07:32.960 And then like it's just all been a dream, bro. 0:07:33.040 --> 0:07:35.000 The first client I signed it, this gym I ended 0:07:35.080 --> 0:07:36.160 up befriending, and then. 0:07:36.040 --> 0:07:38.040 Like he this is the job that I have. Now 0:07:38.040 --> 0:07:40.360 it's like all these little threads that I pulled. 0:07:40.040 --> 0:07:42.120 These strings that I pulled, Yeah, yeah, and it's. 0:07:41.960 --> 0:07:47.000 Just unraveled into this experience. So it's been it's been wild. 0:07:47.520 --> 0:07:49.520 I have a thing too, like if you if you 0:07:49.520 --> 0:07:50.800 ever want to come through and like. 0:07:51.360 --> 0:07:53.120 Refresh, what's your thing? What's your thing? 0:07:53.240 --> 0:07:54.880 I have a terrorist in my house and I have 0:07:54.960 --> 0:07:57.160 a sauna out there on an ice bath and a 0:07:57.160 --> 0:07:57.880 massage table. 0:07:57.920 --> 0:07:59.920 So you give a sauna a terrace and ice bath 0:08:00.040 --> 0:08:00.600 in your house? 0:08:00.720 --> 0:08:03.680 Yeah yeah, and uh, where do you what. 0:08:03.160 --> 0:08:05.400 I mean, not your address, but how do you how 0:08:05.400 --> 0:08:08.400 do you have a sauna in your house? It's terrorists 0:08:08.480 --> 0:08:11.160 Like oh okay, okay, you're in a building that has 0:08:11.240 --> 0:08:11.760 all that stuff. 0:08:11.840 --> 0:08:14.360 Yeah yeah, yeah, okay, Well I just had it's my terrorists, like, 0:08:14.360 --> 0:08:15.560 not the buildings, it's just mine. 0:08:15.600 --> 0:08:18.000 Oh I got super lucky. I got super lucky. So 0:08:18.120 --> 0:08:18.560 I had this. 0:08:18.560 --> 0:08:21.400 Experience where you come through and like sauna, I teach 0:08:21.440 --> 0:08:22.320 people how to suffer. 0:08:23.000 --> 0:08:25.880 You teach people how to suffer. Yeah, how does what 0:08:25.920 --> 0:08:26.600 do you mean by that? 0:08:26.840 --> 0:08:28.680 Like have you ever heard the quote like how you 0:08:28.720 --> 0:08:30.120 do anything? It's how you do everything? 0:08:30.280 --> 0:08:31.559 Yeah. 0:08:31.760 --> 0:08:34.439 I think like we low key have become like epicureans, 0:08:34.440 --> 0:08:35.960 like we all want to get our dick sucked and 0:08:35.960 --> 0:08:38.480 our clips licked, and we just seek pleasure, pleasure, pleasure, 0:08:38.679 --> 0:08:41.640 Like we we seek to live a life that is like, uh, 0:08:41.640 --> 0:08:43.760 it does not have any discomfort in and whatsoever. 0:08:43.920 --> 0:08:44.600 Yeah, totally. 0:08:44.679 --> 0:08:46.319 And I think like we didn't really know what we 0:08:46.320 --> 0:08:48.280 were doing as we were building that type. 0:08:48.040 --> 0:08:50.520 Of like I mean, society wants to have a life 0:08:50.520 --> 0:08:52.760 without any Yeah, yeah, I feel I feel not I 0:08:52.760 --> 0:08:54.080 feel that Yeah, it's impossible. 0:08:54.360 --> 0:08:55.679 It is unfortunately impossible. 0:08:55.720 --> 0:08:57.599 So I find it's like very empowering if you just 0:08:57.720 --> 0:08:59.160 voluntarily learn. 0:08:59.080 --> 0:09:01.360 To get good. It's suffer like suffer with grace is 0:09:01.360 --> 0:09:02.120 what I like to say. 0:09:02.200 --> 0:09:05.120 So the sauna is like I just try and rewire 0:09:05.160 --> 0:09:07.559 how people experience discomfort. So like we'll be in the 0:09:07.600 --> 0:09:10.120 sauna and we'll be talking. Then we'll meditate, what do yoga, 0:09:10.120 --> 0:09:12.400 will ice bath and we'll just talk and just try 0:09:12.400 --> 0:09:15.600 and like reword this experience. I guess, like I don't 0:09:15.600 --> 0:09:18.120 want to lie to anyone or like like gaslight anyone, 0:09:18.120 --> 0:09:23.400 but just create opportunities to reinterpret this experience. Because like 0:09:23.400 --> 0:09:25.600 all of these symptoms good bad in between, they're all 0:09:25.640 --> 0:09:26.680 symptoms of existence. 0:09:26.679 --> 0:09:27.679 They should be celebrated. 0:09:27.720 --> 0:09:30.679 Like so yeah, sadness or pain, Like I know it's 0:09:30.720 --> 0:09:33.200 easy to say, but these are symptoms that you are 0:09:33.240 --> 0:09:34.600 alive and you are in this bitch. 0:09:34.720 --> 0:09:36.800 So but you ever, you know it's funny though, is 0:09:36.880 --> 0:09:40.160 like you ever? This is my thing? 0:09:40.559 --> 0:09:44.280 Is I feel like I constantly obviously you never really 0:09:44.360 --> 0:09:46.080 know what's going on with people and what I but 0:09:46.200 --> 0:09:49.680 you ever meet someone and you're like, I feel like 0:09:50.559 --> 0:09:53.280 the way you're living your life feels like it's so light, 0:09:54.080 --> 0:09:57.000 you know, and I'm like, oh, I wanna I want that. 0:09:57.120 --> 0:10:00.440 I want life to feel like it's light, like like yeah, 0:10:00.480 --> 0:10:02.400 like levity. I want life to feel like like sometimes 0:10:02.440 --> 0:10:05.319 life feels like heavy, emotions feel heavy all the time, 0:10:05.480 --> 0:10:07.240 you know. I mean, don't you ever don't you ever 0:10:07.280 --> 0:10:09.880 feel like you meet somebody, you see something where're like, oh, 0:10:09.920 --> 0:10:12.400 I'd like to live in that that levity that this 0:10:12.480 --> 0:10:14.000 person seems like they live in. 0:10:14.280 --> 0:10:18.440 Yes, you know, totally totally, man, Yeah, I can dig 0:10:18.440 --> 0:10:21.080 that for sure. It's just you never know what people 0:10:21.080 --> 0:10:21.960 got going on, you. 0:10:21.840 --> 0:10:25.000 Know, you never really know all these stories. 0:10:24.440 --> 0:10:26.640 And then like all these fronts and like it's just 0:10:26.720 --> 0:10:29.440 like you never really do you can we ever know 0:10:29.520 --> 0:10:31.160 what it's like to be a bat in a cave? 0:10:31.520 --> 0:10:34.040 Like you ever really know? Like you know, like I 0:10:34.120 --> 0:10:37.280 try and be positive and polite and shit, but I'm miserable. 0:10:37.800 --> 0:10:39.680 I'm just kidding. I'm not miserable, But are you? 0:10:39.760 --> 0:10:41.240 I do you feel now? I mean, you've been through 0:10:41.440 --> 0:10:42.680 some crazy stuff. 0:10:43.320 --> 0:10:45.760 Still fucking angry about it, Like I'm so mad because 0:10:45.960 --> 0:10:48.040 I'm just supposed to forget about it, like just call 0:10:48.080 --> 0:10:49.000 it a wash, you know what. 0:10:49.000 --> 0:10:50.680 I mean, like, that's what they that's what they. 0:10:50.520 --> 0:10:52.640 Expect me to. Did you ever get a trial or 0:10:52.679 --> 0:10:53.520 does that what happened? 0:10:53.760 --> 0:10:55.560 So a year three, they were like, yo, if you 0:10:55.600 --> 0:10:57.600 want a trial, you're gonna have to wait one more year. 0:10:57.720 --> 0:10:59.720 And I was like, I can't they just held you 0:10:59.760 --> 0:11:01.920 with a trial, brother, Yes. 0:11:01.640 --> 0:11:04.040 And they continue to continue. So year three, this guy 0:11:04.120 --> 0:11:05.560 was like, yo, if you want a jury trial, it's 0:11:05.600 --> 0:11:06.560 gonna take one more year. 0:11:06.600 --> 0:11:08.440 I was like, bro, I just want to go home. 0:11:08.480 --> 0:11:10.520 So I took a plea for a misdemeanor, like the 0:11:10.559 --> 0:11:14.480 lowest misdemeanor you could have, no time, no, no, nothing right. 0:11:14.520 --> 0:11:16.000 And I was like, dude, the only way I'll say 0:11:16.040 --> 0:11:18.840 I did this if it's no time, no, it's a misdemeanor, 0:11:18.880 --> 0:11:20.560 then there's no weird shit, you know what I mean. 0:11:20.679 --> 0:11:22.240 That's the only way I'll say that I did this. 0:11:22.720 --> 0:11:24.920 And then sure enough I did it. I went home 0:11:25.080 --> 0:11:27.559 and now I'm just like, bro, I'm angry about it, 0:11:27.600 --> 0:11:30.440 like I'm the only way that I can feel better 0:11:30.440 --> 0:11:33.120 about it is to become successful. Like the only way 0:11:33.120 --> 0:11:35.080 that I can I've realized the only way that I 0:11:35.080 --> 0:11:37.560 can put this behind me is if all that that 0:11:37.679 --> 0:11:41.280 happening was part of the reason that I became successful. Like, 0:11:41.320 --> 0:11:44.600 so I'm actively determining if I have regret or not 0:11:44.720 --> 0:11:46.920 through my day to day actions, which is really fucking 0:11:46.960 --> 0:11:48.160 weird to be honest. 0:11:47.920 --> 0:11:49.600 Like it's an everyday fight or whatever. 0:11:49.800 --> 0:11:51.560 And then you can't like run around and tell these 0:11:51.559 --> 0:11:54.000 people your problems because they'll bank your fucking nuts. So 0:11:54.480 --> 0:11:55.720 you just kind of have to deal with it on 0:11:55.760 --> 0:11:58.280 your own and just just try your best, like. 0:11:58.320 --> 0:12:00.240 You know, because it's probably a lot even come. 0:12:00.280 --> 0:12:01.400 Up to you and be like, yo, I just was 0:12:01.400 --> 0:12:03.000 in a cage you and push ups and fighting for 0:12:03.080 --> 0:12:06.079 chicken for four years. Like it's like people don't really 0:12:06.160 --> 0:12:08.280 know how to handle me sometimes. But thank you for 0:12:08.320 --> 0:12:08.920 your time, by. 0:12:08.800 --> 0:12:09.960 The way, Oh, thank you for your time. 0:12:10.360 --> 0:12:15.040 So what, So what does being a successful mean to 0:12:15.080 --> 0:12:16.160 you in this context? 0:12:16.280 --> 0:12:21.840 It's a good question, brother, to summarize, To break it down, 0:12:21.880 --> 0:12:23.560 I would just say that I gave more than I 0:12:23.600 --> 0:12:26.400 took in this lifetime, that I helped more than I 0:12:26.559 --> 0:12:27.040 was helped. 0:12:28.000 --> 0:12:29.240 That's your definition of success. 0:12:29.280 --> 0:12:32.000 That's that's my definition of success as of now, and 0:12:32.040 --> 0:12:34.160 that's that's probably gonna change, you know what I mean, 0:12:34.240 --> 0:12:37.600 Like I'm still learning things about myself and about the world. 0:12:38.559 --> 0:12:41.480 But yeah, just to be free, like to be able 0:12:41.520 --> 0:12:43.920 to take care of the people that I care about, 0:12:44.520 --> 0:12:47.320 to be able to help, to have the capacity to 0:12:47.320 --> 0:12:49.360 help anyone that I bump into, Like that would be 0:12:49.440 --> 0:12:53.000 my idea of success. Because we're we're gonna have regrets, 0:12:53.080 --> 0:12:55.720 is what I'm learning, Like all these wealthy people and 0:12:55.760 --> 0:12:59.360 mentors that I have, like everyone has regrets. I'm realizing 0:12:59.400 --> 0:13:00.920 we just have to pick the ones we're okay with. 0:13:01.000 --> 0:13:01.360 I think. 0:13:01.520 --> 0:13:04.320 I think that's like the pencil didn't rule, It's what 0:13:04.320 --> 0:13:10.199 I'm gathering. So yeah, just just to be my optimal Austin. 0:13:10.559 --> 0:13:16.440 You know, do you feel like you are on the 0:13:16.679 --> 0:13:20.240 path to that or do you feel like you're on 0:13:20.320 --> 0:13:26.080 an upward trajectory towards becoming that version of yourself? 0:13:27.520 --> 0:13:32.160 Yes, But at the same time, like you never fucking know, dude, 0:13:32.200 --> 0:13:33.400 You just don't ever know. 0:13:33.600 --> 0:13:36.199 So, like, as certain as I can say I've exhausted 0:13:36.200 --> 0:13:39.560 every possibility to be sure in what I'm doing, yeah, 0:13:39.640 --> 0:13:41.560 yes I have. But at the same time, it's just 0:13:41.640 --> 0:13:44.200 kind of like who fucking knows, dude. I feel like 0:13:44.200 --> 0:13:47.080 it's a constant process of assessing, Like am I full 0:13:47.080 --> 0:13:48.800 of shit, am I being honest with myself? 0:13:49.080 --> 0:13:50.760 What did I mean by that? What did they mean 0:13:50.800 --> 0:13:51.160 by that? 0:13:51.320 --> 0:13:51.400 Like? 0:13:51.520 --> 0:13:54.840 And it's just like an everyday like tug a war 0:13:54.960 --> 0:13:56.560 kind and then not tug of war, but just like 0:13:56.600 --> 0:13:58.560 it doesn't stop. I don't think. I think this is 0:13:58.640 --> 0:14:02.640 just you just this till we die. So I don't 0:14:02.679 --> 0:14:03.520 know for sure. 0:14:03.360 --> 0:14:09.000 But huh no, I know, I know we do. We 0:14:09.000 --> 0:14:11.040 do kind of just do this until we die. That's 0:14:11.080 --> 0:14:13.360 so it's so stressful. But you know what's funny is 0:14:13.440 --> 0:14:15.720 it's it stresses me out that it's like, oh, we 0:14:15.800 --> 0:14:16.520 just do this and we die. 0:14:16.720 --> 0:14:18.839 But again, I see people. 0:14:19.240 --> 0:14:22.280 I see like older p I see people like I'm like, 0:14:22.320 --> 0:14:24.120 are bore we just talked to or like fot folks 0:14:24.120 --> 0:14:25.480 in the sixties seventies, and it's like. 0:14:25.800 --> 0:14:29.200 They're still doing it. And I'm like, all right, if 0:14:29.240 --> 0:14:32.320 they can do it for I'm like I can do it. 0:14:32.520 --> 0:14:34.240 You keep going and it happens in the blink of 0:14:34.280 --> 0:14:35.920 an eye. Like I could say, like I just did 0:14:35.960 --> 0:14:36.800 four years. 0:14:36.520 --> 0:14:37.280 And like to stay that. 0:14:37.360 --> 0:14:39.000 To anyone who has done time, it's like, oh my god, 0:14:39.000 --> 0:14:40.440 that's an insurmountable amount of time. 0:14:40.520 --> 0:14:42.160 I felt like, didn't feel like a long time ago. 0:14:42.160 --> 0:14:42.400 Bink. 0:14:43.040 --> 0:14:44.880 Really it felt like when you're going through it it 0:14:44.920 --> 0:14:45.560 takes forever. 0:14:45.840 --> 0:14:49.800 But now that I look back on my life, blink 0:14:49.840 --> 0:14:50.720 of an eye, Like. 0:14:51.400 --> 0:14:55.320 Have you I just watched this play? Uh Fear of thirteen? 0:14:56.120 --> 0:14:57.840 Have you heard of it? You should listen? You should 0:14:57.840 --> 0:14:59.640 actually listen to this. This is fuck. 0:14:59.760 --> 0:15:02.120 I literally forget the name of the guy, but it's 0:15:02.160 --> 0:15:05.440 based off a dude who was like falsely imprisoned for 0:15:05.640 --> 0:15:07.240 murder for like thirteen years. 0:15:07.280 --> 0:15:08.680 Oh my god, yeah yeah. 0:15:08.520 --> 0:15:09.600 Look at it. Yeah Bro. 0:15:09.760 --> 0:15:12.120 That's another thing is I've realized, like, if this has 0:15:12.160 --> 0:15:15.280 happened to me, it has to have happened to other people, dude. 0:15:15.480 --> 0:15:19.040 And the feeling that you have is like, bro, it's 0:15:19.040 --> 0:15:22.120 so fucking alienating, like you you can't talk to anyone 0:15:22.160 --> 0:15:24.600 about it. And it scares me because if there's masses 0:15:24.640 --> 0:15:26.880 of people who have been wronged like I've been wrong, Bro, 0:15:27.080 --> 0:15:29.840 I don't think everyone's gonna have the same reserve to 0:15:30.000 --> 0:15:32.480 like try and be the best version of themselves or 0:15:32.520 --> 0:15:36.520 help society bro like it. I I'm scared if there's 0:15:36.560 --> 0:15:38.200 people out there who have been wrong like I've been 0:15:38.240 --> 0:15:40.520 wrong and they don't they don't have that same mentality, dude, 0:15:40.520 --> 0:15:43.240 because it's dude, it's like so alienating, like you feel 0:15:43.360 --> 0:15:45.640 you're just mad at the world. You're like, bro, they 0:15:45.720 --> 0:15:47.520 got me and nobody gives a fuck. 0:15:47.400 --> 0:15:50.200 And like it's do you've had Do you have a 0:15:50.240 --> 0:15:54.320 support system nowadays? Do you feel like you have a 0:15:54.440 --> 0:15:57.040 good supports good like your friend's family. 0:16:00.240 --> 0:16:06.280 Yeah, no, not really, but like there's I have people, 0:16:06.400 --> 0:16:08.360 I have people who are there. But just like like 0:16:08.400 --> 0:16:09.920