WEBVTT - CHRISSY METZ 0:00:05.640 --> 0:00:11.559 Last year, I had the pleasure the privilege of chatting 0:00:11.760 --> 0:00:15.360 with one of my heroes, somebody that I just absolutely adore, 0:00:15.760 --> 0:00:20.880 Chrissie Mets. Chrissie is the award winning actress who is 0:00:20.960 --> 0:00:25.720 known as Kate Pearson on NBC's This Is Us and 0:00:25.800 --> 0:00:31.280 I Am addicted to it. I love it and Kate Pearson, 0:00:31.520 --> 0:00:34.400 the character Kate Pearson played by Chrissie Mets, is one 0:00:34.400 --> 0:00:38.240 of MY favorite favorite aspects of the show. At that time, 0:00:38.280 --> 0:00:40.640 when I interviewed Christie the first time, she and Devon 0:00:40.760 --> 0:00:44.879 Franklin had recently started in Breakthrough, an incredible movie that 0:00:44.960 --> 0:00:48.440 had just been released. But for some reason, during that 0:00:48.520 --> 0:00:52.159 initial conversation with Chrissie, I neglected to talk to her 0:00:52.280 --> 0:00:56.200 about her singing. She performed the single I'm Standing with 0:00:56.320 --> 0:00:59.440 You that was featured in the movie Breakthrough. She also, 0:01:00.040 --> 0:01:03.840 as her character Kate Pearson, sings and This Is Us 0:01:03.880 --> 0:01:07.720 and I completely neglected to talk about that. Her performance 0:01:07.760 --> 0:01:10.200 and breakthrough with I'm Standing with You led to her 0:01:10.240 --> 0:01:14.480 Country Music Award debut in April of twenty nineteen, alongside 0:01:14.480 --> 0:01:18.039 all sorts of big names. Now, she has signed with 0:01:18.160 --> 0:01:22.600 Universal Music Group Nashville and is quite the Star. Her 0:01:22.640 --> 0:01:26.800 debut single, Talking to God, has led to this conversation 0:01:26.920 --> 0:01:30.160 talking with Delilah and I'm so thrilled to welcome Chrissy 0:01:30.240 --> 0:01:35.160 back to love someone with the Lilah. Hi, Grizzy, how 0:01:35.240 --> 0:01:39.640 are you? Oh my god? I love you? Oh, I 0:01:39.720 --> 0:01:43.000 love you. Have you been well? You know, Corona? But 0:01:43.240 --> 0:01:48.320 other than so, where did you Where did you end 0:01:48.360 --> 0:01:53.680 up sheltering in place? Um? In Nashville? So, yeah, it's 0:01:53.720 --> 0:01:57.680 been since March twelfth, got here, Um, I came to 0:01:57.720 --> 0:02:03.040 finish the album and literally the record stop, literally, And 0:02:03.160 --> 0:02:06.280 so I've just been here ever since. And I mean, 0:02:06.360 --> 0:02:08.040 I love it. It's so beautiful here and I'm not 0:02:08.120 --> 0:02:09.880 very far from my family, which makes me feel a 0:02:09.880 --> 0:02:14.519 little a little more more comfort, you know. Um. But yeah, 0:02:14.520 --> 0:02:16.560 we've been in Nashville, my best friend and I so, 0:02:17.160 --> 0:02:19.840 And did you go there thinking I'm going to finish 0:02:19.960 --> 0:02:21.919 this album, I'm going to go in the studio, I'm 0:02:21.919 --> 0:02:23.359 going to produce it, I'm going to get it done. 0:02:23.400 --> 0:02:26.560 Or did you go there thinking, oh my gosh, coronas 0:02:26.560 --> 0:02:29.200 spreading like wildfire. I'm just gonna go hunker down, like 0:02:29.280 --> 0:02:33.000 where was your head the night of March eleven? Yeah, 0:02:33.040 --> 0:02:36.160 we literally I have one suitcase. I've been rotating four 0:02:36.280 --> 0:02:39.360 dresses for the past couple of months. And it was 0:02:39.400 --> 0:02:41.560 we're going to be here for like a week maybe 0:02:42.120 --> 0:02:44.880 and head back to l A and you know, get 0:02:44.919 --> 0:02:47.320 some stuff done, but and get ready for the tour 0:02:47.440 --> 0:02:50.280 that was going to happen June three. So we did 0:02:50.280 --> 0:02:52.120 not plan. We were not in the headspace. And then 0:02:52.120 --> 0:02:54.720 when we got here, everyone's like, oh, there's going to 0:02:54.760 --> 0:02:57.440 be like a shelter in place, um, and we're like, 0:02:57.800 --> 0:03:01.760 what do you mean? So literally, I and I bought 0:03:01.760 --> 0:03:03.920 a home in February, so there was nothing in the 0:03:03.919 --> 0:03:06.880 house there still really isn't think good as we had 0:03:06.919 --> 0:03:09.800 some beds, but we were like, we need groceries and 0:03:09.840 --> 0:03:12.919 dishes like what. So it was it was kind of 0:03:12.960 --> 0:03:16.959 an adventure to say the least. But um, yes, thank 0:03:16.960 --> 0:03:20.239 goodness for Amazon and and everybody, all these central workers 0:03:20.240 --> 0:03:22.200 who were able to even get the packages to us, 0:03:22.320 --> 0:03:27.120 because I was like, I don't know what we're gonna do, um, 0:03:27.200 --> 0:03:29.280 And you know, we had to wait, of course some 0:03:29.360 --> 0:03:32.560 time for things and I have like a hodgepodge of 0:03:32.919 --> 0:03:37.320 furniture that was just available to arrive. So it's been 0:03:37.480 --> 0:03:41.160 very interesting. So the night that you're packing up to 0:03:41.240 --> 0:03:45.680 go to Nashville to start producing your album. I packed 0:03:45.760 --> 0:03:50.000 up five kids, two outlaws, my ex in laws, uh, 0:03:50.240 --> 0:03:54.040 three dogs, a cat, myself, and my husband and we 0:03:54.120 --> 0:03:56.920 headed to my husband's ranch because before we married, he 0:03:57.280 --> 0:04:00.880 had a beef ranch and our how the house he 0:04:00.960 --> 0:04:05.840 has is eleven hundred square feet. Oh wow with nine people. 0:04:06.920 --> 0:04:16.760 Oh wow, you're camping. Yeah. Yeah. And because my husband's 0:04:16.839 --> 0:04:20.400 very utilitarian, you know, he he If he has a 0:04:20.440 --> 0:04:22.880 piece of furniture, if it works, it works, that's okay, 0:04:22.920 --> 0:04:27.840 you know, and bet on the floor is okay. And 0:04:28.200 --> 0:04:30.440 so there wasn't a lot to work with when we 0:04:30.480 --> 0:04:33.960 got here, and I had a suitcase just like you, 0:04:34.560 --> 0:04:39.200 I was rotating for T shirts. Yeah. Yeah, So it's 0:04:39.240 --> 0:04:43.720 been interesting, but but good. I mean, I I I 0:04:43.760 --> 0:04:47.640 think we've grown a lot as a family. So absolutely, 0:04:47.680 --> 0:04:52.120 I'm sure there's like either like grow out or dissolved 0:04:52.279 --> 0:04:55.719 and from people you know, and relationships have been dissolving, 0:04:55.760 --> 0:04:58.520 which is you know, I think everything happened for a reason, 0:04:58.560 --> 0:05:02.599 and however it sort of comes to you and what 0:05:02.720 --> 0:05:05.880 you can of course learn about yourself or your relationship 0:05:06.040 --> 0:05:10.599 or partnership. Um, it's important for whatever your evolution is 0:05:10.600 --> 0:05:13.200 and so it's really forcing us to see like, oh, 0:05:13.279 --> 0:05:16.240 what's important to us and what, um, what can we 0:05:16.279 --> 0:05:18.640 tolerate and what do we want in our lives? You know. 0:05:19.200 --> 0:05:24.520 So yeah, it's been fascinating. Uh is an understatement. The 0:05:24.600 --> 0:05:28.240 biggest blessing to come out of the Corona shutdown for 0:05:28.360 --> 0:05:34.200 you personally, Christie Matts, I think it reflections time for myself. Um. 0:05:34.320 --> 0:05:37.360 So much of my life has been about everybody else, um, 0:05:37.400 --> 0:05:39.000 because I never wanted to sort of look at the 0:05:39.040 --> 0:05:43.520 stuff that I was pushing down or you know, not 0:05:43.600 --> 0:05:47.120 wanting to think about our work through and I'm was like, oh, 0:05:47.200 --> 0:05:48.760 I know, the only way to do it is to 0:05:48.800 --> 0:05:53.359 go through it. And going through whatever trauma or you know, 0:05:53.440 --> 0:05:57.640 childhood issues that we haven't really contended with. Um. When 0:05:57.640 --> 0:06:01.480 you're forced to be quiet, forced to stay in one 0:06:01.520 --> 0:06:04.520 place and be still, all those things aren't floating up 0:06:04.839 --> 0:06:06.960 to the surface. And I'm like, wow, there's a lot 0:06:07.000 --> 0:06:09.960 that I have not been able to deal with, our 0:06:10.000 --> 0:06:12.520 shoes not to deal with, and now is the time 0:06:12.560 --> 0:06:14.599 to do so. So that to me has been a 0:06:14.640 --> 0:06:18.040 really big blessing because I feel like I'm evolving in 0:06:18.360 --> 0:06:22.120 many ways that I think I really needed to. So 0:06:22.120 --> 0:06:24.440 so did you journal, did you write? Did you do 0:06:24.520 --> 0:06:29.440 twelve steps? Like? Yeah, all the things any which way reading, journaling, 0:06:30.000 --> 0:06:33.320 my therapist, UM, you know, all all the ways that 0:06:34.279 --> 0:06:37.160 UM I was able to sort of how many boxes 0:06:37.279 --> 0:06:39.400 of Kleenex or was that one of those things that 0:06:39.440 --> 0:06:42.039 you didn't have access to at the time, Like did 0:06:42.040 --> 0:06:44.960 you use a towel to dry your tears? What? What 0:06:45.040 --> 0:06:47.120 did that look like? The one thing, you know, the 0:06:47.160 --> 0:06:49.640 one thing we did have was Kleenex because they didn't 0:06:49.640 --> 0:06:52.440 have toilet people at Costcow, so we definitely had clean 0:06:52.640 --> 0:06:55.160 x UM. And yeah, you know, I've been doing a 0:06:55.160 --> 0:06:58.360 lot of UM water shedding, I guess we should we 0:06:58.400 --> 0:07:01.680 could call it and crying and just feeling so many 0:07:01.720 --> 0:07:06.640 different feelings UM. And I think there's such a shift 0:07:06.680 --> 0:07:10.480 happening in our world and our perceptions and the way 0:07:10.520 --> 0:07:14.400 that we look at things and it all, you know, 0:07:14.440 --> 0:07:16.800 everything is being affected. So yeah, no, I've been doing 0:07:16.800 --> 0:07:21.160 some crime for sure. When I was younger and was 0:07:21.240 --> 0:07:24.120 forced into that position where I had to look at stuff, 0:07:24.840 --> 0:07:27.400 I had a wonderful counselor, a Christian man. He was 0:07:27.440 --> 0:07:30.320 a pastor that had retired and become a counselor, and 0:07:30.360 --> 0:07:33.960 he said, Delilah, I want you to sit with the pain, 0:07:34.440 --> 0:07:37.840 and I want you to embrace the pain in this 0:07:38.160 --> 0:07:41.800 very you know, quiet mellow voice. And I like at 0:07:41.840 --> 0:07:45.440 him and I said, I'm paying you sixty an hour 0:07:45.680 --> 0:07:50.200 you embrace this pain, right, which at the time was 0:07:50.240 --> 0:07:53.360 all the money in the world to me. Yeah, it 0:07:53.440 --> 0:07:55.440 was like, wait, I'm paying you to make this pain 0:07:55.480 --> 0:07:58.360 go away. Okay, That's what I was young, you know, 0:07:58.400 --> 0:08:00.240 and I thought, I'm going to go to therapy. I'm 0:08:00.240 --> 0:08:01.840 gonna talk for a few minutes, and then I'm going 0:08:01.880 --> 0:08:05.200 to be all better. M h. I know. I don't 0:08:05.280 --> 0:08:09.240 want to feel these feelings. Yeah, that's the whole point 0:08:09.240 --> 0:08:11.360 of where we do all the things that we do, right, Like, 0:08:11.960 --> 0:08:17.400 we have these uh I don't want not everybody has addictions, 0:08:17.440 --> 0:08:20.440 but things to fill the void, whether we're shopping or 0:08:21.120 --> 0:08:25.160 social media or drugs, alcohol, food, whatever you name it, 0:08:25.200 --> 0:08:28.280 whatever is accessible to us because we don't want to 0:08:28.280 --> 0:08:30.560 feel the hard feelings. We don't want to sit with 0:08:30.600 --> 0:08:33.400 the feelings because it's uncomfortable and if we've never felt 0:08:33.400 --> 0:08:35.720 them before, you're like, wait, what is this? What in 0:08:35.800 --> 0:08:39.200 the hell is this? Um, then it's hard it's hard, 0:08:39.240 --> 0:08:44.000 but it's important, it's necessary. And UM, I gotta say, 0:08:44.080 --> 0:08:47.560 last year when I interviewed you because you had done Breakthrough, 0:08:47.640 --> 0:08:50.440 how did we not talk about your beautiful singing voice? 0:08:51.240 --> 0:08:53.959 How did how did we miss that part of the conversation. 0:08:55.440 --> 0:08:57.120 I don't know. I think, you know, there's just so 0:08:57.200 --> 0:08:59.880 much to talk about with with break thing in particular, 0:09:00.000 --> 0:09:03.600 so maybe that's something we just you know, we're focused on. 0:09:03.679 --> 0:09:06.880 But yeah, you know, for me, music has been my 0:09:06.920 --> 0:09:09.040 first love. It's been what I wanted to do and 0:09:09.160 --> 0:09:11.640 so healing for me. When I used to go to 0:09:11.720 --> 0:09:15.040 church on my own, I went there because I loved 0:09:15.080 --> 0:09:17.880 the music and I could connect through the music. And 0:09:17.920 --> 0:09:21.520 that's something that I think everybody understands that they're music lovers. 0:09:21.840 --> 0:09:25.160 It's a universal language. And you know, now working on 0:09:25.160 --> 0:09:28.880 an album and having a single out and all of it, 0:09:29.000 --> 0:09:32.240 my little girl dreams are you know, really coming true. 0:09:32.400 --> 0:09:37.679 So yeah, it's it's so surreal, it's so wonderful. So 0:09:38.200 --> 0:09:41.439 when you're on um this is us that your character 0:09:41.640 --> 0:09:45.280 Keith Pearson sings is a singer, is a performer, but 0:09:45.480 --> 0:09:49.280 never really seems like the character development over the last 0:09:49.320 --> 0:09:52.840 four years. She never really gets to to do that 0:09:52.960 --> 0:09:57.240 breakthrough thing where she has a single right, which I 0:09:57.480 --> 0:09:59.480 would kind of like to talk to the writers about that, 0:09:59.520 --> 0:10:03.480 because I she should, but you know, there is two 0:10:03.520 --> 0:10:06.480 more seasons for sure in real life you get to 0:10:06.559 --> 0:10:10.280 do that. How cool is that? I know? It's such 0:10:10.320 --> 0:10:13.840 a gift and it's not lost on me that you know, 0:10:13.960 --> 0:10:17.000 just having the ability to use your voice is a 0:10:17.080 --> 0:10:20.280 huge deal, and then to have people want to listen 0:10:20.320 --> 0:10:23.400 to it is another huge deal. And to just share 0:10:23.480 --> 0:10:26.680 things that means something to me and things that I've 0:10:26.760 --> 0:10:30.320 been going through, our gone through, and to to put 0:10:30.320 --> 0:10:34.080 those experiences to a beautiful melody and to create music, 0:10:34.160 --> 0:10:38.080 it's unreal. And then all the musicians who are involved 0:10:38.080 --> 0:10:40.839 in the producers and everybody that makes you know, the 0:10:40.840 --> 0:10:45.640 whole machine work. It's such a gift and I can't 0:10:45.640 --> 0:10:48.400 even express how grateful I am for it because it's 0:10:48.440 --> 0:10:50.720 such a I don't want to say luxury because it's 0:10:50.720 --> 0:10:55.240 a necessity, but it's it's feels very luxurious. So so 0:10:55.280 --> 0:10:57.040 when you were a kid, you said, this is your 0:10:57.080 --> 0:10:59.120 little girl grown up dream. When you were a kid, 0:10:59.480 --> 0:11:04.400 um school choir, church choir, where did you find your 0:11:04.640 --> 0:11:08.479 voice to perform? Yes, I used to make little video, um, 0:11:08.640 --> 0:11:11.000 little tape from my boom box in my room. I 0:11:11.080 --> 0:11:13.880 was just like making up melodies and singing, but I 0:11:13.920 --> 0:11:16.520 was too afraid to share that with anybody. But music 0:11:16.600 --> 0:11:19.360 was always, you know, always singing. And then in middle 0:11:19.360 --> 0:11:24.680 school and my mom couldn't afford an instrument for a band, um, 0:11:24.760 --> 0:11:26.680 but all the cool kids were a band. I was 0:11:26.720 --> 0:11:30.960 like a great and so choir obviously free and I 0:11:30.960 --> 0:11:32.920 could you know, go and do that. And so I 0:11:33.000 --> 0:11:35.760 really was like, oh, this is where I was supposed 0:11:35.800 --> 0:11:37.880 to be all along, and then to learn how to 0:11:37.960 --> 0:11:42.160 sort of blend with many people's voices but also still 0:11:42.200 --> 0:11:44.720 have your own, and it just sort of opened up 0:11:44.760 --> 0:11:46.920 something for me. And then it wasn't until high school, 0:11:47.520 --> 0:11:49.680 my senior year, where I actually had enough courage to 0:11:49.760 --> 0:11:53.719 join for auditions for the chamber choir, which was a 0:11:53.800 --> 0:11:56.120 competitive choir, and we did state and all those things, 0:11:56.160 --> 0:11:59.040 and my acquire teacher, Ms. Roll Ill, I'll never forget, 0:11:59.240 --> 0:12:02.560 she's so in the mental She like really encouraged me 0:12:02.640 --> 0:12:04.360 to do a solo that year, and I was like, 0:12:04.400 --> 0:12:07.200 oh my gosh, oh my god, this is this makes 0:12:07.200 --> 0:12:11.280 me so happy, and then she nominated me to do 0:12:11.880 --> 0:12:14.520 um to have a scholarship for a chorl camp at 0:12:14.559 --> 0:12:19.080 the University of Florida, and that was like, oh yeah, okay, 0:12:19.520 --> 0:12:22.840 no question. So that was sort of, you know, a 0:12:22.840 --> 0:12:25.480 bit of a journey. But I just had to keep 0:12:25.520 --> 0:12:27.599 sort of having these experiences to know that that's what 0:12:27.679 --> 0:12:31.760 I wanted to do. So yeah, a long time. But 0:12:31.800 --> 0:12:34.360 then when I met my manager, she was like, let's 0:12:34.400 --> 0:12:36.280 put music to the side and let's focus on acting. 0:12:36.280 --> 0:12:39.800 And I was like, wait, what, So hence the reason why, 0:12:40.520 --> 0:12:43.840 you know, I put the long way around. Yeah, but 0:12:43.920 --> 0:12:46.280 that acting thing didn't turn out so bad for you, 0:12:46.200 --> 0:12:48.800 you know, Oh my gosh, it's what I wanted to do. 0:12:48.920 --> 0:12:51.480 Like I've always wanted to tell stories, whether they were 0:12:51.520 --> 0:12:54.680 to music or you know, on TV and film. So 0:12:55.559 --> 0:12:57.800 it's exactly what was supposed to happen, because I don't 0:12:57.840 --> 0:13:00.520 think I would be as vulnerable in my music if 0:13:00.559 --> 0:13:03.280 I didn't have the vulnerability of the character and of 0:13:03.360 --> 0:13:06.440 the show. You know, I have lots of kids, and 0:13:06.520 --> 0:13:10.000 so I've I've gone through phases of parenting because my 0:13:10.080 --> 0:13:12.880 oldest is now forty one and my youngest is four, 0:13:13.640 --> 0:13:17.400 and for about ten fifteen years in my parenting career, 0:13:18.000 --> 0:13:22.840 I had kids that loved music, that loved music, so 0:13:22.920 --> 0:13:25.600 I got to be the choir mom and go on 0:13:25.640 --> 0:13:29.120 the field trips and take them to their state competitions, 0:13:29.360 --> 0:13:32.720 and uh, you know, they were all about I had 0:13:32.760 --> 0:13:35.319 four that were all about drama and music. And it 0:13:35.400 --> 0:13:41.000 was such a joy because I can't sing a damn note, 0:13:41.840 --> 0:13:45.839 but I love music. It courses through my veins, it 0:13:45.840 --> 0:13:49.040 it plays in my head, it speaks to me in 0:13:49.080 --> 0:13:51.120 the middle of the night. I wake up and write lyrics, 0:13:51.160 --> 0:13:53.880 but I can't sing. Okay, I can sing a note. 0:13:53.920 --> 0:13:57.440 I have a three note range. That's it. So so 0:13:57.520 --> 0:14:00.000 long as the tune is in my three note range. 0:14:00.120 --> 0:14:02.640 And by the way, Happy Birthday to you exceeds my 0:14:02.720 --> 0:14:07.240 three note range. Um, you know, but I love it 0:14:07.440 --> 0:14:11.760 so much. And so I miss what was her name, 0:14:11.960 --> 0:14:16.560 your miss Rollo, your acquired teacher. I know the thrills 0:14:16.559 --> 0:14:20.880 she must have felt encouraging you to do the solo 0:14:21.160 --> 0:14:24.160 and to see like I can feel her feelings, to 0:14:24.240 --> 0:14:27.800 see that talent blossom because I got to do it 0:14:27.840 --> 0:14:31.080 with Shayla and Zach and Christie and and my kids, 0:14:31.080 --> 0:14:35.240 and it's there is nothing in my life as joyful 0:14:35.320 --> 0:14:40.040 as seeing my kids discover their talent and then spread 0:14:40.080 --> 0:14:42.800 their wings and fly. So I bet your mom and 0:14:42.880 --> 0:14:46.280 miss Rollo we're just cheering you on and so thrilled 0:14:46.320 --> 0:14:48.560 to see that happen. And now if there's still a 0:14:48.600 --> 0:14:50.240 part of your life that must be such a thrill 0:14:50.320 --> 0:14:54.040 for them. Well, yeah, I can understand because I know 0:14:54.080 --> 0:14:57.000 how and I, you know, encourage and champion and cheer 0:14:57.080 --> 0:14:59.920 lead people that I love and I want, you know, 0:15:00.200 --> 0:15:03.720 to see them happy and exceed. I do know that feeling, 0:15:04.120 --> 0:15:05.760 you know, not as a mother, but as as a 0:15:05.840 --> 0:15:08.640 friend and as a sister. And I get it. I 0:15:08.720 --> 0:15:11.440 do get it. So talk to me about talking to God. 0:15:11.480 --> 0:15:14.800 How did this come about? Well, interestingly enough, I didn't 0:15:14.800 --> 0:15:17.240 co write this song. It was on an Ashley McBride 0:15:17.320 --> 0:15:20.640 writer's retreat that it was written, and I, you know, 0:15:20.720 --> 0:15:23.480 friendly was Ashley and with the other writers. And my 0:15:23.520 --> 0:15:26.360 manager was like, oh, you know Nicolette, who was a 0:15:26.440 --> 0:15:29.240 dear friend and we've written a lot together that will 0:15:29.240 --> 0:15:32.120 be on my EP and my album. But she's like, oh, 0:15:32.160 --> 0:15:34.640 you know, Nicolete wrote a song the song today, You're 0:15:34.640 --> 0:15:36.240 probably gonna like it. And he just was sending it 0:15:36.280 --> 0:15:39.320 to me because I love to hear everything and I 0:15:39.400 --> 0:15:42.600 was like, wait a minute, like, who's cutting this and 0:15:42.640 --> 0:15:44.240 he's like, I don't. I don't know. I don't know 0:15:44.280 --> 0:15:45.600 if actually it or not. And I'm like, well, if 0:15:45.640 --> 0:15:48.200 she's not, I feel like I want to tell this story, 0:15:48.240 --> 0:15:50.600 Like I know what it's like to, you know, have 0:15:51.200 --> 0:15:53.880 remorse about doing something or not doing something, or saying 0:15:53.920 --> 0:15:57.040 something or not saying something, and thinking about somebody, even 0:15:57.080 --> 0:15:59.320 if they're not in your life anymore, or if they've 0:15:59.360 --> 0:16:02.800 passed all or if I'm you know, I was married 0:16:02.840 --> 0:16:07.160 for many years and obviously I've I've grown tremendously from 0:16:07.360 --> 0:16:10.480 that relationship and relationship since, but you know, I know 0:16:10.520 --> 0:16:11.880 what it's like to think of I think we all 0:16:11.880 --> 0:16:14.040 do to think about someone who may not be in 0:16:14.040 --> 0:16:16.600 our lives, but like we can still think about them, 0:16:16.640 --> 0:16:19.480 and that we can learn how to forgive ourselves and 0:16:19.880 --> 0:16:22.680 how we just moved gracefully through the world. And so 0:16:22.880 --> 0:16:24.120 it just for the song that I was like, I 0:16:24.160 --> 0:16:26.200 want to I want to tell the story. Can I 0:16:26.240 --> 0:16:30.640 sing it? So that's how it came about move gracefully 0:16:30.760 --> 0:16:33.840 through this world. When I think about some of the 0:16:33.880 --> 0:16:38.520 people in my past, I'm not I'm not really moving gracefully. 0:16:39.240 --> 0:16:44.680 I agree I'm trying. I'm trying, but I'm trying. I'm trying. 0:16:44.880 --> 0:16:47.640 So the first time I heard the song, somebody had 0:16:47.680 --> 0:16:50.720 mentioned you had released a song. This was before you know. 0:16:52.320 --> 0:16:54.560 I called my sister and I'm like, oh my gosh, 0:16:54.920 --> 0:16:56.880 you've got to hear this. You've got to get ahold 0:16:56.920 --> 0:16:59.480 of Christie. You've got I got to talk to her 0:16:59.480 --> 0:17:03.280 about this because somebody had sent it to me, a friend, 0:17:03.680 --> 0:17:08.600 knowing how much I miss my son, and they said, 0:17:08.960 --> 0:17:11.520 I think God wants you to hear this song today. 0:17:12.080 --> 0:17:15.840 Oh my God, and Chrissie. I was bawling in the 0:17:15.960 --> 0:17:20.320 car because I talked to God every day to tell 0:17:20.400 --> 0:17:23.000 my kids I have two boys in heaven now three 0:17:23.000 --> 0:17:25.959 because we just lost my steps on. But I was 0:17:26.160 --> 0:17:29.760 a wreck. I mean I was sobbing the ugly tears 0:17:29.840 --> 0:17:31.919 the first time I listened to it, And then the 0:17:31.960 --> 0:17:35.720 next time I listened to it, I thought about past relationships. 0:17:36.200 --> 0:17:39.760 You know, I've been divorced more than once, and the 0:17:39.840 --> 0:17:43.040 forgiveness and the grace that has come with time, and 0:17:43.960 --> 0:17:47.080 forgiving myself for some pretty bad choices I made. And 0:17:47.520 --> 0:17:49.760 I don't know, I just kept every time I listened 0:17:49.800 --> 0:17:52.000 to it, it would bring up a new layer of 0:17:52.080 --> 0:17:55.719 God's grace and love and mercy and healing. And so 0:17:55.800 --> 0:18:00.040 I called my podcast producer and I said, I you 0:18:00.160 --> 0:18:02.439 to talk to Christy about this song because it is 0:18:03.400 --> 0:18:07.600 so beautiful and so moving, and I know that if 0:18:07.680 --> 0:18:10.679 other people could just like wrap their ears around it 0:18:10.760 --> 0:18:13.399 and wrap their heart around it, God can use it 0:18:13.480 --> 0:18:17.720 for good. Thank you so much, so so beautiful, and 0:18:18.080 --> 0:18:20.200 I mean that's why I get it, you know, that's 0:18:20.200 --> 0:18:22.359 why I love music so much. And I you know, 0:18:22.400 --> 0:18:25.159 I love a good song because it is so healing 0:18:25.359 --> 0:18:27.800 and you feel like, wow, I'm so a little less 0:18:27.800 --> 0:18:31.160 alone because somebody else is going through it and it's 0:18:31.200 --> 0:18:33.240 so beautiful. Thank you for sharing that with me. And 0:18:33.320 --> 0:18:35.120 that's what I felt when I when I heard the song, 0:18:35.160 --> 0:18:36.920 and I was like, I just this is about it. 0:18:36.960 --> 0:18:39.720 It's got to be heard. So yeah, I think it's 0:18:39.720 --> 0:18:42.359 a special song for many reasons and for many people. 0:18:42.480 --> 0:18:45.280 So I'm just grateful to be able to sing it. 0:18:45.760 --> 0:18:48.240 So with everything the world is going through right now, 0:18:48.320 --> 0:18:52.680 not just communities, not just families, but the world. Yes, 0:18:53.119 --> 0:18:57.960 I think that we need this song now more than 0:18:58.000 --> 0:19:00.080 ever because I think if we didn't have God to 0:19:00.160 --> 0:19:04.359 talk to, how would we get through this. I don't know. 0:19:04.680 --> 0:19:09.119 I honestly don't know. I really don't know. And you know, 0:19:09.280 --> 0:19:13.080 so grateful that we we do have that conscious contact 0:19:13.440 --> 0:19:17.119 with God because it is it's been difficult, you know, 0:19:17.200 --> 0:19:20.760 and and we don't even understand other people's plates and 0:19:21.200 --> 0:19:25.040 how people have been hoping and dealing with their own 0:19:25.080 --> 0:19:28.560 lives for so long. So yeah, there's a lot going 0:19:28.560 --> 0:19:30.720 on run and I I feel like it's a positive 0:19:30.760 --> 0:19:35.080 shift in the right direction of just knowing that we 0:19:35.160 --> 0:19:37.199 are all more like than we are different, and that 0:19:37.280 --> 0:19:39.840 we're all equal, and that we an't want the same thing, 0:19:39.840 --> 0:19:42.400 which is to be loved. So I know you can't 0:19:42.400 --> 0:19:45.199 answer this because we don't know the time one on anything. 0:19:45.240 --> 0:19:47.640 But do you think by the end of the year 0:19:47.680 --> 0:19:50.680 we can get the full the full album? How many 0:19:50.760 --> 0:19:53.479 songs have you done? Yeah, I would like to have 0:19:53.520 --> 0:19:56.160 the full album done by the end of the year. Um, 0:19:56.320 --> 0:19:58.879 we have five songs right now that we finished prior 0:19:58.960 --> 0:20:01.680 to Quarantine that we're going to release on an EP 0:20:02.640 --> 0:20:06.560 by I believe September. And then the second song that's 0:20:06.600 --> 0:20:09.600 coming out I did so write and it's called Actress 0:20:09.640 --> 0:20:13.200 and it's a it's a sad breakup song, and I'm 0:20:13.240 --> 0:20:15.679 really excited about that one too, and that should be 0:20:15.680 --> 0:20:20.400 coming out with UM probably the next months. Wow, So 0:20:20.480 --> 0:20:23.200 you've been busy and are you doing all the Zoom 0:20:23.240 --> 0:20:26.879 meetings and publicity from your whole year? Oh? Yes, I 0:20:26.880 --> 0:20:29.159 mean I'm so spoiled because I just walked into the 0:20:29.160 --> 0:20:31.240 living room and I'm like, oh, here, here, I am 0:20:31.280 --> 0:20:33.760 on a radio tour and I'm not traveling around the country. 0:20:33.800 --> 0:20:36.360 But yeah, I mean, do you have like a curling 0:20:36.400 --> 0:20:39.520 iron plugged into the wall there, and so when you're 0:20:39.640 --> 0:20:44.560 off camera you're putting that's what I do? Yeah, you 0:20:44.680 --> 0:20:47.040 haven't touch it up myself. Yeah, I mean it's I mean, 0:20:47.080 --> 0:20:49.280 I love makeup and here, and you know I used 0:20:49.280 --> 0:20:52.040 to it myself. I wasn't amazing at it, but I'm like, well, 0:20:52.400 --> 0:20:55.600 I gets a home these skills and figure it out 0:20:55.640 --> 0:20:57.680 and you know, do the best I can. But it's 0:20:57.720 --> 0:21:00.080 so funny the progression. So like initially people were like 0:21:00.640 --> 0:21:03.359 in the pajamas, don't care what their hair and whatever, 0:21:03.560 --> 0:21:06.160 and then now like slowly people are like, oh gosh, 0:21:06.160 --> 0:21:08.159 I want to feel some sort of sense of normal ty, 0:21:08.320 --> 0:21:10.000 So I'm gonna put on some clothes. I wouldna do 0:21:10.080 --> 0:21:12.160 my hair, I would do my makeup, you know. So 0:21:12.240 --> 0:21:14.359 it's been it's been really cool to see that sort 0:21:14.359 --> 0:21:17.880 of unfold. In my house, it went the opposite direction 0:21:17.920 --> 0:21:21.679 because my girls were all doing online school. So I 0:21:21.720 --> 0:21:24.679 have three girls that are all doing online school, and 0:21:24.720 --> 0:21:27.280 the first week or two weeks, maybe even three weeks, 0:21:27.320 --> 0:21:29.760 they would get up and they would you know, fix 0:21:29.840 --> 0:21:33.320 their hair and and look cute for their classmates. And 0:21:33.359 --> 0:21:35.280 then you know, by the end of the school year, 0:21:35.280 --> 0:21:39.399 which just finished, they're laying in bed like pajamas on. 0:21:39.760 --> 0:21:42.600 They haven't even brushed their teeth in you know, the 0:21:42.680 --> 0:21:45.840 whole day. And I'm like, okay, yeah, I'll do this 0:21:46.000 --> 0:21:49.760 last sign. But I'm like, wow, how did we go 0:21:49.840 --> 0:21:51.800 from wanting to look cute for the boys in your 0:21:51.800 --> 0:21:54.760 school to this? And they're like, Mom, it doesn't matter 0:21:55.040 --> 0:22:01.200 at this point, don care at this point. True, It's true, 0:22:01.359 --> 0:22:03.600 You're like, yeah, what makes me feel good? What do 0:22:03.640 --> 0:22:04.959 I want to do? What do I not want to do? 0:22:05.920 --> 0:22:10.159 So any chance that are we having discussions about the 0:22:10.200 --> 0:22:13.199 next season of This Is Us? Yeah, I mean we 0:22:13.280 --> 0:22:16.720 have a Zoom call scheduled this week, so we're going 0:22:16.760 --> 0:22:19.080