1 00:00:12,119 --> 00:00:15,360 Speaker 1: Hi, guys, Welcome to another episode of Diamonds and Rough 2 00:00:15,560 --> 00:00:20,880 Speaker 1: with Myself Teddy Mellencamp and and I am Erica Jane. Oh, 3 00:00:21,280 --> 00:00:22,480 Speaker 1: Erica Jane. 4 00:00:22,079 --> 00:00:23,160 Speaker 2: Holding on by a thread. 5 00:00:23,280 --> 00:00:25,160 Speaker 1: I was like, hold on, what's the grabbing of this? 6 00:00:25,360 --> 00:00:26,160 Speaker 1: You know what? 7 00:00:27,400 --> 00:00:27,880 Speaker 2: Okay? 8 00:00:28,160 --> 00:00:31,000 Speaker 3: First off, let me be fully transparent. When I think 9 00:00:31,000 --> 00:00:33,320 Speaker 3: about why I'm frustrated. I look at you, and I'm like, Erica, 10 00:00:33,360 --> 00:00:36,199 Speaker 3: you can't be frustrated about anything. But I was just 11 00:00:36,200 --> 00:00:39,120 Speaker 3: feeling a little frustrated this week. I worked a lot 12 00:00:39,600 --> 00:00:42,920 Speaker 3: this last month, and I was just anyway and just 13 00:00:42,960 --> 00:00:43,560 Speaker 3: being a brat. 14 00:00:43,800 --> 00:00:46,479 Speaker 1: But I think we're You're just because I'm going through 15 00:00:46,479 --> 00:00:48,240 Speaker 1: a lot doesn't mean that you can't be a brat. 16 00:00:48,440 --> 00:00:51,560 Speaker 1: It's not one is a codependent of the other. 17 00:00:52,000 --> 00:00:53,599 Speaker 2: No, I'm not so sure about that. 18 00:00:53,680 --> 00:00:57,000 Speaker 3: I think that you have to for me anyway, look 19 00:00:57,040 --> 00:00:59,400 Speaker 3: at my I have to look at my own behavior 20 00:00:59,400 --> 00:01:01,680 Speaker 3: and be like, yeah, I'm justified and feeling how I am, 21 00:01:01,720 --> 00:01:04,520 Speaker 3: But but you. 22 00:01:04,480 --> 00:01:07,280 Speaker 1: Can also go like I also realized that some of 23 00:01:07,280 --> 00:01:10,399 Speaker 1: the things that I get upset and frustrated about that 24 00:01:10,560 --> 00:01:13,080 Speaker 1: hurt me the most aren't even the big things that 25 00:01:13,480 --> 00:01:15,840 Speaker 1: I really am actually frustrated. 26 00:01:15,840 --> 00:01:18,319 Speaker 3: I actually kind of understand that, though it's oftentimes the 27 00:01:18,360 --> 00:01:20,040 Speaker 3: little things that take you to places where you're like, 28 00:01:20,040 --> 00:01:21,440 Speaker 3: why am I even reacting this way? 29 00:01:21,440 --> 00:01:23,000 Speaker 1: Why am I so fucking why am I? 30 00:01:23,240 --> 00:01:24,760 Speaker 2: Because it's not really about that. 31 00:01:25,160 --> 00:01:27,200 Speaker 1: I mean, I was racing around and doing a bunch 32 00:01:27,240 --> 00:01:30,720 Speaker 1: of stuff this weekend. But when I got into the car, 33 00:01:30,920 --> 00:01:33,120 Speaker 1: and granted somebody else was driving me, so it's not 34 00:01:33,160 --> 00:01:35,160 Speaker 1: even like I have a reason for it. But normally 35 00:01:35,160 --> 00:01:37,039 Speaker 1: it takes an hour to get to Orange County to 36 00:01:37,160 --> 00:01:41,120 Speaker 1: LA I was trying to get to you know, Kyle's 37 00:01:41,120 --> 00:01:44,560 Speaker 1: house for the party. Yeah, and it's a two hours 38 00:01:45,000 --> 00:01:47,760 Speaker 1: and I would have had one would have thought someone 39 00:01:47,800 --> 00:01:48,720 Speaker 1: punched me in the throat. 40 00:01:48,800 --> 00:01:51,360 Speaker 3: But can I tell you, I'm not going through what 41 00:01:51,400 --> 00:01:52,919 Speaker 3: you're going through. And I would have had a nervous 42 00:01:52,960 --> 00:01:55,680 Speaker 3: breakdown on that, Like I just I can't. There's certain 43 00:01:55,720 --> 00:01:58,520 Speaker 3: things that take me to a place two hours. First 44 00:01:58,520 --> 00:02:01,000 Speaker 3: of all, from Orange County to Los Ange. This is ridiculous. 45 00:02:01,120 --> 00:02:02,640 Speaker 2: Yeah, and Orange County. 46 00:02:02,440 --> 00:02:05,360 Speaker 3: Is great, it's beautiful, but why does it take us 47 00:02:05,400 --> 00:02:06,080 Speaker 3: two hours? 48 00:02:06,320 --> 00:02:08,800 Speaker 1: And there was so many accidents and then I'm like, Teddy, 49 00:02:08,800 --> 00:02:10,680 Speaker 1: you should actually feel bad for the people that got 50 00:02:10,720 --> 00:02:14,160 Speaker 1: these that's true. However, however, I'm fucking annoyed because I 51 00:02:14,200 --> 00:02:16,120 Speaker 1: plan this day out perfectly right. 52 00:02:16,200 --> 00:02:17,320 Speaker 2: And it's that also. 53 00:02:17,400 --> 00:02:20,440 Speaker 3: That's also why I think that I rake myself over 54 00:02:20,480 --> 00:02:22,040 Speaker 3: the goals. It's just like, Erica, what the fuck do 55 00:02:22,040 --> 00:02:23,760 Speaker 3: you have to be upset? Yes, you have problems. We 56 00:02:23,800 --> 00:02:27,040 Speaker 3: all have problems. Everybody in life has problems, but you know, 57 00:02:27,160 --> 00:02:31,000 Speaker 3: compared to others, your problems are manageable and you're fine 58 00:02:31,040 --> 00:02:32,240 Speaker 3: and they're yours. 59 00:02:32,200 --> 00:02:32,919 Speaker 2: So get over it. 60 00:02:33,120 --> 00:02:35,880 Speaker 3: Yeah, that's how I feel, and I'm certainly not sometimes 61 00:02:35,919 --> 00:02:37,440 Speaker 3: describing that for everybody. 62 00:02:37,680 --> 00:02:38,520 Speaker 2: Yeah, you're allowed to. 63 00:02:38,440 --> 00:02:40,600 Speaker 1: Have a go you know what, This is fucking shit, 64 00:02:40,760 --> 00:02:42,320 Speaker 1: and I'm pissed and I'm annoyed. 65 00:02:42,560 --> 00:02:45,240 Speaker 3: Well also too, I've gotten to where I removed myself 66 00:02:45,280 --> 00:02:48,000 Speaker 3: from situations before I go and make everybody else pay 67 00:02:48,040 --> 00:02:49,640 Speaker 3: for whatever is going on in my life. 68 00:02:49,880 --> 00:02:51,280 Speaker 1: That's not why I didn't see the other night. 69 00:02:51,400 --> 00:02:54,720 Speaker 3: Yes, that's why I was totally tired and depleted, and 70 00:02:54,880 --> 00:02:56,480 Speaker 3: I reached out and I said. 71 00:02:58,160 --> 00:03:02,240 Speaker 2: No, yeah, not no, but like no, because I don't 72 00:03:02,280 --> 00:03:04,320 Speaker 2: want to be and. 73 00:03:04,280 --> 00:03:06,600 Speaker 1: I think that's important, I think, but you. 74 00:03:06,560 --> 00:03:08,600 Speaker 3: Know where this comes from. I was gonna say, you 75 00:03:08,639 --> 00:03:12,600 Speaker 3: know where this comes from. This is very and ladies, 76 00:03:13,800 --> 00:03:18,200 Speaker 3: this is very perry post, this is very postmenopausal. This 77 00:03:18,240 --> 00:03:20,880 Speaker 3: is menopausal behavior for me because I normally would have 78 00:03:20,960 --> 00:03:23,480 Speaker 3: thugged it out and I've been a pain in the 79 00:03:23,520 --> 00:03:25,800 Speaker 3: ass and now I'm just like, I know I can't 80 00:03:25,800 --> 00:03:26,079 Speaker 3: do it. 81 00:03:26,639 --> 00:03:27,520 Speaker 2: I know I can't do it. 82 00:03:27,560 --> 00:03:31,440 Speaker 3: I can't and everybody's gonna pay for me not being 83 00:03:31,480 --> 00:03:33,720 Speaker 3: in the mood and that's not right for everybody. 84 00:03:33,840 --> 00:03:36,800 Speaker 1: Well, to make you laugh, I caught Lisa Renna trying 85 00:03:36,800 --> 00:03:37,440 Speaker 1: to sneak out. 86 00:03:37,880 --> 00:03:38,720 Speaker 2: See here you go. 87 00:03:39,040 --> 00:03:41,920 Speaker 3: I go, I'm sitting there, say that's what I'm talking about, 88 00:03:42,360 --> 00:03:44,440 Speaker 3: and I doing the old Irish exit. 89 00:03:44,520 --> 00:03:46,600 Speaker 1: Yeah, she tried to do the Irish goodbye and don't 90 00:03:47,000 --> 00:03:48,920 Speaker 1: I couldn't let her be, but I didn't. 91 00:03:49,600 --> 00:03:51,240 Speaker 2: You're not letting anybody get away with them. 92 00:03:51,480 --> 00:03:55,400 Speaker 1: Was like, hey, Renna, is that you sneaking out? I 93 00:03:55,400 --> 00:03:57,360 Speaker 1: think you got to put at least fifteen more minutes 94 00:03:57,360 --> 00:03:58,120 Speaker 1: then have a seat. 95 00:03:58,240 --> 00:04:01,640 Speaker 2: Oh god, And she was like, I've been the look 96 00:04:01,680 --> 00:04:03,200 Speaker 2: on her face, I know. 97 00:04:03,400 --> 00:04:03,760 Speaker 3: You know. 98 00:04:04,240 --> 00:04:07,600 Speaker 1: And then her other friend that she drove with, she goes, 99 00:04:07,920 --> 00:04:09,160 Speaker 1: were you not going to tell me? 100 00:04:10,440 --> 00:04:10,760 Speaker 3: Oh my? 101 00:04:10,920 --> 00:04:12,400 Speaker 1: She was like, I was going to text you since 102 00:04:12,400 --> 00:04:15,000 Speaker 1: I got in the car. But we all do that shit, yes, 103 00:04:15,040 --> 00:04:16,880 Speaker 1: and granted I did it one hour later. 104 00:04:17,240 --> 00:04:20,640 Speaker 3: Well, it's also a family event. Yeah, and you're also 105 00:04:20,839 --> 00:04:23,800 Speaker 3: you know, and I couldn't even show up to the 106 00:04:23,839 --> 00:04:26,120 Speaker 3: family event because I was being a loser. 107 00:04:26,600 --> 00:04:29,400 Speaker 1: You weren't being a loser. You just sometimes the power 108 00:04:29,480 --> 00:04:31,480 Speaker 1: of no is more important than the power Well, I 109 00:04:31,520 --> 00:04:34,520 Speaker 1: think the power of me knowing. 110 00:04:34,920 --> 00:04:37,279 Speaker 3: Yeah, I know where I'm at in my limit, and 111 00:04:37,600 --> 00:04:40,520 Speaker 3: I was ready to rage on anything that was not 112 00:04:41,279 --> 00:04:42,560 Speaker 3: It's just it's not healthy. 113 00:04:43,360 --> 00:04:46,919 Speaker 1: And your version of raging would that be ignoring somebody. 114 00:04:46,640 --> 00:04:50,760 Speaker 3: Or being snappy snappy? It's being snappy. It's being snappy 115 00:04:50,839 --> 00:04:54,159 Speaker 3: and irritable and just kind of bitchy. And that's not 116 00:04:55,080 --> 00:04:58,279 Speaker 3: the person that I want to be with my friends. 117 00:04:58,520 --> 00:05:01,160 Speaker 3: And that she just wasn't showing up. 118 00:05:01,480 --> 00:05:03,520 Speaker 1: Yeah, you were like, come on, you hear no. 119 00:05:03,480 --> 00:05:05,880 Speaker 2: Yeah, she's not showing up. I you know. 120 00:05:07,040 --> 00:05:09,000 Speaker 3: I mean, I broke down in tears, and it was 121 00:05:09,080 --> 00:05:10,400 Speaker 3: just like the whole thing stupid. 122 00:05:10,520 --> 00:05:15,320 Speaker 1: But when you cry, do you call anybody? Well? 123 00:05:15,400 --> 00:05:17,080 Speaker 3: I used to call my mother and then you know, 124 00:05:17,080 --> 00:05:18,480 Speaker 3: we had a falling out and I didn't speak to 125 00:05:18,520 --> 00:05:22,680 Speaker 3: her for a year over it, so no, Yeah, I mean, well, 126 00:05:22,680 --> 00:05:25,040 Speaker 3: I'm not going to call my son ever, because number one, 127 00:05:25,080 --> 00:05:26,719 Speaker 3: he's my child, and number two, he doesn't need that, 128 00:05:27,320 --> 00:05:29,800 Speaker 3: so that's not happening. I don't lean on him like that. 129 00:05:31,360 --> 00:05:34,960 Speaker 3: But no, because I don't. I don't need to put 130 00:05:34,960 --> 00:05:37,320 Speaker 3: that on my mother. She's going through her own thing. 131 00:05:38,200 --> 00:05:39,720 Speaker 3: I'm not going to put it on my friends. 132 00:05:39,880 --> 00:05:44,480 Speaker 2: I just I just really, you know what I really do. 133 00:05:44,920 --> 00:05:46,440 Speaker 3: I sit down and I try to meditate, and I 134 00:05:46,440 --> 00:05:49,120 Speaker 3: try to connect with the higher power and I just 135 00:05:49,200 --> 00:05:51,280 Speaker 3: kind of take it up with that, take it up 136 00:05:51,279 --> 00:05:54,880 Speaker 3: with the creator, take it up with God, because I 137 00:05:54,920 --> 00:05:55,599 Speaker 3: don't need. 138 00:05:55,440 --> 00:05:58,240 Speaker 2: To or my therapist. 139 00:05:58,279 --> 00:06:01,120 Speaker 3: But she's you know, that's a that's an appointment, and 140 00:06:01,120 --> 00:06:04,479 Speaker 3: that's if I was going through something like devastating. 141 00:06:03,880 --> 00:06:05,120 Speaker 2: Then I would text my therapist. 142 00:06:05,279 --> 00:06:07,000 Speaker 3: But she doesn't need me to text her because I'm 143 00:06:07,080 --> 00:06:10,360 Speaker 3: having a small shitty day to get over at Erica. 144 00:06:10,680 --> 00:06:12,479 Speaker 2: You know, come on, it's not that n. 145 00:06:12,520 --> 00:06:14,920 Speaker 1: Plus, like I did just learn this, which I didn't 146 00:06:14,960 --> 00:06:17,719 Speaker 1: even know. In regards to therapy, I thought, you, like, 147 00:06:17,760 --> 00:06:19,440 Speaker 1: go to therapy for the rest of your life. 148 00:06:19,560 --> 00:06:20,880 Speaker 2: I do, but I need that. 149 00:06:21,040 --> 00:06:25,360 Speaker 1: Yeah, but somebody told me that therapy is something that 150 00:06:25,640 --> 00:06:28,080 Speaker 1: when you're talking to your therapist and you're just shooting 151 00:06:28,080 --> 00:06:28,640 Speaker 1: the shit. 152 00:06:29,360 --> 00:06:30,040 Speaker 2: That's not therapy. 153 00:06:30,200 --> 00:06:33,200 Speaker 1: That's not therapy anymore. So you need to if you're 154 00:06:33,200 --> 00:06:34,760 Speaker 1: not actually talking to them. 155 00:06:34,839 --> 00:06:36,039 Speaker 2: Well, you know, I come in with a list of 156 00:06:36,080 --> 00:06:36,919 Speaker 2: questions every. 157 00:06:36,760 --> 00:06:37,800 Speaker 1: Time you do. 158 00:06:38,560 --> 00:06:41,560 Speaker 3: That's smart, not not well, let me let me clarify. 159 00:06:41,640 --> 00:06:46,280 Speaker 3: Not every time, but I definitely will write out things 160 00:06:46,320 --> 00:06:47,760 Speaker 3: and be like, I need to talk, I want to talk. 161 00:06:47,760 --> 00:06:50,240 Speaker 3: I have four things i'd like to hit today, and 162 00:06:50,760 --> 00:06:52,600 Speaker 3: she'll go, okay, let's start, and then she'll be like, 163 00:06:52,600 --> 00:06:54,160 Speaker 3: all right, we need to pick these other two up 164 00:06:54,640 --> 00:06:56,080 Speaker 3: later because there's a lot of work here. 165 00:06:56,320 --> 00:06:56,520 Speaker 2: Yeah. 166 00:06:56,880 --> 00:07:00,360 Speaker 3: I make list because I I am at the place 167 00:07:00,360 --> 00:07:02,520 Speaker 3: in my life like this can't be it. I'm just 168 00:07:02,880 --> 00:07:06,599 Speaker 3: very I don't know whether you know. I'm talking about 169 00:07:06,600 --> 00:07:09,440 Speaker 3: it with my son. I said, you know, like, I'm 170 00:07:09,880 --> 00:07:11,480 Speaker 3: I'm at this weird place in my life because you're 171 00:07:11,640 --> 00:07:14,720 Speaker 3: you're searching for something, and I am. I'm searching for 172 00:07:14,760 --> 00:07:16,720 Speaker 3: what is this all about? This can't be it? 173 00:07:17,880 --> 00:07:20,280 Speaker 1: And but some days I can. I can feel that 174 00:07:20,320 --> 00:07:23,440 Speaker 1: way too. But some days I feel like, Wow, what 175 00:07:23,560 --> 00:07:26,920 Speaker 1: an amazing life this is right now? Same And then 176 00:07:26,960 --> 00:07:28,800 Speaker 1: some days I'm like, am I depressed? 177 00:07:29,120 --> 00:07:30,800 Speaker 2: Yes, the answer is yes, you are. 178 00:07:31,120 --> 00:07:33,480 Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm like and if it's and if someone in 179 00:07:33,520 --> 00:07:37,520 Speaker 3: your shoes was not depressed, that that would be insane 180 00:07:37,680 --> 00:07:38,720 Speaker 3: and not truthful. 181 00:07:39,320 --> 00:07:42,880 Speaker 2: You have a lot on your plate. Yeah, I have 182 00:07:42,920 --> 00:07:43,640 Speaker 2: a lot of insight. 183 00:07:43,760 --> 00:07:46,000 Speaker 1: Then you start to go through schedules, and then you 184 00:07:46,040 --> 00:07:49,280 Speaker 1: start to be business and then it's like, holy shit, do. 185 00:07:49,280 --> 00:07:51,800 Speaker 3: You have a hard time flipping between being creative and 186 00:07:51,800 --> 00:07:52,960 Speaker 3: then being business minded? 187 00:07:53,040 --> 00:07:53,120 Speaker 2: Like? 188 00:07:53,480 --> 00:07:56,480 Speaker 3: I know that, Like, sometimes it's hard for me to 189 00:07:56,480 --> 00:07:59,160 Speaker 3: do administrative things and look at the business of what 190 00:07:59,200 --> 00:08:01,679 Speaker 3: I'm doing versus being in a creative state. 191 00:08:01,800 --> 00:08:04,480 Speaker 1: Do you find that, Yeah, well, I started realizing that 192 00:08:04,600 --> 00:08:07,280 Speaker 1: if I if it's not something i'm good at, I 193 00:08:07,360 --> 00:08:10,720 Speaker 1: do much better when I hire someone else sure to 194 00:08:10,960 --> 00:08:13,640 Speaker 1: those things. But then I pick a day where I 195 00:08:13,720 --> 00:08:15,480 Speaker 1: kind of go through it. Let's say it's like the 196 00:08:15,520 --> 00:08:18,400 Speaker 1: financial of course, Like I'll pick a day and I 197 00:08:18,440 --> 00:08:20,080 Speaker 1: don't want it to be the same day that I'm 198 00:08:20,120 --> 00:08:20,800 Speaker 1: doing the pot. 199 00:08:20,920 --> 00:08:23,120 Speaker 3: Right, I pick one day a week where nothing I 200 00:08:23,200 --> 00:08:25,640 Speaker 3: focus on is nothing but what has to get done 201 00:08:26,000 --> 00:08:29,480 Speaker 3: financially around the house. Things like that that have nothing 202 00:08:29,520 --> 00:08:31,120 Speaker 3: to do with being in a creative space. 203 00:08:31,240 --> 00:08:33,679 Speaker 1: Running a millionaires. Yes, all those types of things like 204 00:08:33,760 --> 00:08:36,160 Speaker 1: I wouldn't do that today. Like today, No, you need 205 00:08:36,200 --> 00:08:36,439 Speaker 1: to be. 206 00:08:36,400 --> 00:08:38,199 Speaker 3: Focused here, and you need to be lively, and you 207 00:08:38,240 --> 00:08:41,320 Speaker 3: need to be engaged here, and I don't if. 208 00:08:41,240 --> 00:08:42,640 Speaker 1: I thought about, Oh well, I got to get to 209 00:08:42,640 --> 00:08:44,520 Speaker 1: the DMV after this, because by the way, do you 210 00:08:44,520 --> 00:08:45,920 Speaker 1: have the updated. 211 00:08:45,960 --> 00:08:48,319 Speaker 2: No I don't, but I'm using my passport. Oh, my 212 00:08:48,400 --> 00:08:51,400 Speaker 2: global entry. Why I've already been through. I've already been 213 00:08:51,400 --> 00:08:52,400 Speaker 2: through TSA with the. 214 00:08:52,520 --> 00:08:55,240 Speaker 1: Well, guys, this is a little PSA. If you haven't 215 00:08:55,240 --> 00:08:57,480 Speaker 1: gotten the new idea with like the special little thing 216 00:08:57,520 --> 00:08:59,880 Speaker 1: on top you have to bring your passport to travel. 217 00:09:00,040 --> 00:09:00,640 Speaker 2: You didn't know that. 218 00:09:01,400 --> 00:09:03,520 Speaker 1: No, I was in the hospital Erica. 219 00:09:03,640 --> 00:09:05,800 Speaker 3: I didn't know I needed that going on for like 220 00:09:05,880 --> 00:09:08,719 Speaker 3: ten years though, But this is just fresh. 221 00:09:08,840 --> 00:09:10,320 Speaker 2: Yes, the limit is. 222 00:09:10,360 --> 00:09:12,480 Speaker 3: But what I want to know is, and maybe somebody 223 00:09:12,800 --> 00:09:16,160 Speaker 3: what was wrong with the other IDs? They weren't real? Like, yeah, 224 00:09:16,200 --> 00:09:19,160 Speaker 3: what a fuck? You have my fingerprint already, so what 225 00:09:19,280 --> 00:09:20,000 Speaker 3: is what is this. 226 00:09:20,040 --> 00:09:21,839 Speaker 1: Next time I have to take a test? 227 00:09:22,000 --> 00:09:25,320 Speaker 3: I have a global entry, I have TSA pre I 228 00:09:25,360 --> 00:09:28,559 Speaker 3: have prints on file for multiple reasons. No, I've never 229 00:09:28,559 --> 00:09:31,600 Speaker 3: been arrested, so that's not it, but other reasons, and 230 00:09:31,679 --> 00:09:35,719 Speaker 3: so you know, you know, listen, the United States of 231 00:09:35,760 --> 00:09:37,960 Speaker 3: America knows who the fuck Erica Girardi is. I can 232 00:09:38,000 --> 00:09:40,640 Speaker 3: tell you that right now. You know when I'm coming 233 00:09:40,640 --> 00:09:41,400 Speaker 3: through there, you're. 234 00:09:41,280 --> 00:09:43,160 Speaker 1: Not sneaking round. Can I ask you another question? 235 00:09:43,200 --> 00:09:45,440 Speaker 2: Because I'm in a great mood. 236 00:09:45,600 --> 00:09:49,080 Speaker 1: Let's well, that's I really am confused on one of 237 00:09:49,120 --> 00:09:52,960 Speaker 1: Tamra's answers to our last questions. So we were recapping 238 00:09:53,000 --> 00:09:54,080 Speaker 1: Secret Lives of Mormon. 239 00:09:54,120 --> 00:09:54,240 Speaker 3: Why. 240 00:09:54,400 --> 00:09:55,640 Speaker 2: Oh, I was like, what do you mean? 241 00:09:56,600 --> 00:09:59,720 Speaker 1: No, no, no, we were watching Secret Lives of Mormon 242 00:09:59,760 --> 00:10:01,520 Speaker 1: Why And I said, have you ever done any of 243 00:10:01,559 --> 00:10:03,600 Speaker 1: the following things? And one of the following things that 244 00:10:03,679 --> 00:10:06,960 Speaker 1: I have done in my life is, okay, have you 245 00:10:07,320 --> 00:10:12,440 Speaker 1: ever had sex with your partner or a person a 246 00:10:12,480 --> 00:10:17,200 Speaker 1: partner with another couple having sex in the same room. 247 00:10:18,760 --> 00:10:21,560 Speaker 2: I mean, I would have to go way back to 248 00:10:21,800 --> 00:10:22,520 Speaker 2: high school. 249 00:10:22,720 --> 00:10:26,200 Speaker 1: I know, it's like nineteen and I think it happened. 250 00:10:26,200 --> 00:10:27,880 Speaker 1: And I said it and everybody was like. 251 00:10:28,280 --> 00:10:30,960 Speaker 3: What, Yeah, I would have to go way back to 252 00:10:31,040 --> 00:10:33,400 Speaker 3: maybe high school. I think a girlfriend of mine met 253 00:10:33,440 --> 00:10:37,360 Speaker 3: these two German soccer players and they were staying in 254 00:10:37,360 --> 00:10:40,120 Speaker 3: a hotel and maybe we had sex with them like 255 00:10:40,280 --> 00:10:41,320 Speaker 3: in uh. 256 00:10:42,480 --> 00:10:46,600 Speaker 2: Like the same room but separate beds. That's like that. 257 00:10:46,679 --> 00:10:48,560 Speaker 2: But I'm I mean that would have to go way back. 258 00:10:48,720 --> 00:10:50,800 Speaker 3: But I was in high school, and yes I was 259 00:10:51,000 --> 00:10:54,120 Speaker 3: very mature then I still am. 260 00:10:55,400 --> 00:10:57,959 Speaker 1: Okay, well I at least feel slightly better. Mine might 261 00:10:58,000 --> 00:10:59,960 Speaker 1: have been two beds and may have been the same bed, 262 00:11:00,120 --> 00:11:02,320 Speaker 1: may have been one of us throw a blanket on 263 00:11:02,360 --> 00:11:02,760 Speaker 1: the floor. 264 00:11:02,840 --> 00:11:05,080 Speaker 2: Yes I like that, but yeah, but I think I 265 00:11:05,120 --> 00:11:07,640 Speaker 2: was they try to shame you for doing that. 266 00:11:07,720 --> 00:11:09,880 Speaker 1: I mean, they didn't try to shame me, but everybody 267 00:11:09,880 --> 00:11:12,000 Speaker 1: else was like no, never in the same room. And 268 00:11:12,040 --> 00:11:14,200 Speaker 1: I'm like, I wasn't even paying attention to what. 269 00:11:14,240 --> 00:11:18,560 Speaker 3: The other I to have another place, right, we were 270 00:11:18,559 --> 00:11:19,200 Speaker 3: trying to get it in. 271 00:11:19,720 --> 00:11:22,760 Speaker 2: Here's the other thing. Look I I and also where 272 00:11:22,800 --> 00:11:23,160 Speaker 2: I'm at in. 273 00:11:23,200 --> 00:11:26,600 Speaker 3: My life, like I don't really care. You know what 274 00:11:26,640 --> 00:11:31,880 Speaker 3: people do with their own consenting adult relationships. Knock yourselves out. 275 00:11:32,080 --> 00:11:37,120 Speaker 3: I have no judgment. Hooray for you to consenting adults 276 00:11:37,240 --> 00:11:39,280 Speaker 3: or more consenting adults. 277 00:11:40,040 --> 00:11:42,200 Speaker 1: But if you only got a one bedroom sometimes you 278 00:11:42,200 --> 00:11:43,360 Speaker 1: got to figure it out. 279 00:11:43,520 --> 00:11:46,760 Speaker 3: It's it's you know, live and let live, and as 280 00:11:46,800 --> 00:11:49,640 Speaker 3: long as everybody is healthy and happy and in control, 281 00:11:49,679 --> 00:11:53,400 Speaker 3: and nobody's being you know, forced to do something coerced. 282 00:11:54,160 --> 00:11:55,040 Speaker 1: And it is what it is. 283 00:11:55,080 --> 00:12:08,560 Speaker 2: It is what it is. All right, you're ready for 284 00:12:08,600 --> 00:12:09,840 Speaker 2: your Q and I yeah, I am. 285 00:12:10,000 --> 00:12:12,680 Speaker 3: Okay, listen, it says this is for all for Teddy, 286 00:12:12,720 --> 00:12:15,200 Speaker 3: this is her Q. And I I see you're getting tattoos. 287 00:12:15,520 --> 00:12:17,800 Speaker 3: What's one major thing that you want to start the 288 00:12:17,840 --> 00:12:20,599 Speaker 3: next chapter of your life after beating these tumors. 289 00:12:21,200 --> 00:12:23,559 Speaker 1: I would say, yes, I've gotten tattoos. I've gotten a 290 00:12:23,600 --> 00:12:25,480 Speaker 1: bunch of tattoos, which people would say. 291 00:12:25,400 --> 00:12:26,600 Speaker 2: I saw one on your spine. 292 00:12:27,000 --> 00:12:29,440 Speaker 1: I have one on my spine, so my dad. So 293 00:12:29,960 --> 00:12:33,000 Speaker 1: this is why there has been so many tattoos. So 294 00:12:33,000 --> 00:12:33,920 Speaker 1: I have this little knife. 295 00:12:33,920 --> 00:12:36,680 Speaker 2: I was that was there, you were there for that witness. 296 00:12:36,760 --> 00:12:39,120 Speaker 1: So I got this little knife. And it's because if 297 00:12:39,160 --> 00:12:42,360 Speaker 1: everybody can remember the song I think I like this 298 00:12:42,480 --> 00:12:45,559 Speaker 1: little life. It became a joke in my family. It's 299 00:12:45,679 --> 00:12:48,240 Speaker 1: I think I like this little knife and. 300 00:12:48,200 --> 00:12:50,080 Speaker 2: So and you almost had me get one. 301 00:12:50,559 --> 00:12:54,079 Speaker 1: I've almost almost convinced Erica. But it's like you get 302 00:12:54,080 --> 00:12:57,760 Speaker 1: annoyed and then you're like this, and everyone that knows 303 00:12:57,800 --> 00:13:00,880 Speaker 1: who knows that means like I want a knife. I 304 00:13:00,880 --> 00:13:03,800 Speaker 1: want a knife. But each time that one of my 305 00:13:03,880 --> 00:13:07,840 Speaker 1: family members has come into town to get knife, including myself, 306 00:13:07,920 --> 00:13:11,320 Speaker 1: I have gotten another tattoo. So I have my kids initials. 307 00:13:11,400 --> 00:13:14,320 Speaker 1: I have this match that I joke with Kyle and 308 00:13:14,400 --> 00:13:17,520 Speaker 1: Jen because we got a friendship one that it looks 309 00:13:17,600 --> 00:13:19,720 Speaker 1: like a a Q tip. 310 00:13:19,840 --> 00:13:21,480 Speaker 2: It does a little bit, it looks like a cut. 311 00:13:21,640 --> 00:13:22,280 Speaker 2: That's a cute tip. 312 00:13:23,160 --> 00:13:25,600 Speaker 1: But then I my dad came into town to get 313 00:13:25,600 --> 00:13:27,680 Speaker 1: his little knife, which by the way, looks like a sword. 314 00:13:28,880 --> 00:13:31,559 Speaker 3: I would expect nothing less. But remember he also covered 315 00:13:31,640 --> 00:13:33,120 Speaker 3: up your mom's face with Jesus. 316 00:13:33,120 --> 00:13:36,160 Speaker 1: That is a true statement. He goes, what should we 317 00:13:36,200 --> 00:13:38,199 Speaker 1: do with this? He asked the tattoo guy because it 318 00:13:38,240 --> 00:13:41,760 Speaker 1: was the same guy. Oh, Wes, yeah, Wes. You guys, 319 00:13:41,800 --> 00:13:42,600 Speaker 1: here's the best going. 320 00:13:42,679 --> 00:13:43,480 Speaker 2: He's really sweet. 321 00:13:43,760 --> 00:13:46,040 Speaker 1: He's really sweet and really talented and like a true 322 00:13:46,080 --> 00:13:46,800 Speaker 1: true artist. 323 00:13:47,040 --> 00:13:47,680 Speaker 2: He's a nice guy. 324 00:13:48,280 --> 00:13:50,000 Speaker 1: Of course, my dad and West really hit it off. 325 00:13:50,040 --> 00:13:52,480 Speaker 1: But that's when they came up with this sword that 326 00:13:52,520 --> 00:13:54,200 Speaker 1: I was like, I'm sorry, I don't know how this 327 00:13:54,280 --> 00:13:56,440 Speaker 1: is knife. And then my brother on the other hand, 328 00:13:56,440 --> 00:13:59,680 Speaker 1: got a knife like a switchblade like this big on 329 00:13:59,720 --> 00:14:03,840 Speaker 1: his okay, and that's when I got. My dad goes, 330 00:14:04,000 --> 00:14:06,840 Speaker 1: I will only get the knife if you get a 331 00:14:07,400 --> 00:14:09,920 Speaker 1: tattoo with my lyrics somewhere on your body. 332 00:14:11,559 --> 00:14:14,880 Speaker 2: Is that what that is? Because I just glanced which lyrics. 333 00:14:14,840 --> 00:14:17,760 Speaker 1: So it says life is short, even on its longest days. 334 00:14:20,520 --> 00:14:23,560 Speaker 1: And it goes down my back. And the thing about 335 00:14:23,600 --> 00:14:26,240 Speaker 1: my toutoo is pretty much all of them can be covered. 336 00:14:26,960 --> 00:14:27,120 Speaker 2: Yeah. 337 00:14:27,200 --> 00:14:29,240 Speaker 1: Yeah, I like. I like the fact that, like I have. 338 00:14:29,280 --> 00:14:31,320 Speaker 2: My watch on, you can't see well they're yes. 339 00:14:31,840 --> 00:14:34,120 Speaker 1: The one on my back I think is actually probably 340 00:14:34,200 --> 00:14:36,800 Speaker 1: my new favorite is beautiful. And I have so many 341 00:14:36,840 --> 00:14:41,040 Speaker 1: scars all over my back that it kind of just 342 00:14:41,120 --> 00:14:42,800 Speaker 1: broke it up a little bit. I like it, and 343 00:14:42,840 --> 00:14:44,960 Speaker 1: I can't see it, but I would imagine it's cute. 344 00:14:45,000 --> 00:14:47,880 Speaker 3: Listen, scars tell stories, okay, and you've got a lot 345 00:14:47,880 --> 00:14:48,680 Speaker 3: of stories to tell. 346 00:14:49,080 --> 00:14:51,440 Speaker 1: Edwin made me laugh because I go, I mean, I 347 00:14:51,440 --> 00:14:53,440 Speaker 1: can't even He goes, you got another tattoo, and I go, 348 00:14:53,480 --> 00:14:55,240 Speaker 1: I can't even see it, and he goes, well, someone 349 00:14:55,280 --> 00:14:56,600 Speaker 1: will be able to see it. 350 00:14:56,760 --> 00:15:00,160 Speaker 3: What are you gonna What are you gonna start? You 351 00:15:00,240 --> 00:15:02,240 Speaker 3: think you'd like to start the next chapter of your 352 00:15:02,240 --> 00:15:03,440 Speaker 3: life after these tumors. 353 00:15:03,600 --> 00:15:05,560 Speaker 1: I want to learn how to do something new, like 354 00:15:05,600 --> 00:15:08,160 Speaker 1: what like I want to learn how to like dance, 355 00:15:08,640 --> 00:15:10,960 Speaker 1: oh fun, or I want to learn how to become 356 00:15:10,960 --> 00:15:12,160 Speaker 1: a better singer. 357 00:15:12,520 --> 00:15:16,640 Speaker 3: Which, by the way, yes, it's in your blood. 358 00:15:16,720 --> 00:15:20,480 Speaker 1: Like I want to take the time and like get lessons. Yeah, 359 00:15:20,520 --> 00:15:23,240 Speaker 1: And like I love riding horses. I have goals doing that, 360 00:15:23,280 --> 00:15:25,760 Speaker 1: but like it's kind of now slates thing that I 361 00:15:25,840 --> 00:15:27,000 Speaker 1: just kind of tag along with. 362 00:15:27,120 --> 00:15:29,480 Speaker 2: Yeah, but you need something new to like reinvigorate. Yeah. 363 00:15:29,840 --> 00:15:32,280 Speaker 1: And I want to like find like the apal like 364 00:15:32,360 --> 00:15:34,360 Speaker 1: not just like my sex appeal, but I want to 365 00:15:34,400 --> 00:15:37,360 Speaker 1: find like your voice more natural in my movement. And 366 00:15:37,400 --> 00:15:40,480 Speaker 1: it's not for not for anything for the public. But 367 00:15:40,600 --> 00:15:43,400 Speaker 1: like I recorded a demo when I was like seventeen 368 00:15:43,480 --> 00:15:44,960 Speaker 1: years old, and I listened to it and I was like, 369 00:15:45,040 --> 00:15:47,400 Speaker 1: holy crap, that is terrible. 370 00:15:47,800 --> 00:15:50,160 Speaker 2: That's no really, were you being hard on yourself? 371 00:15:50,240 --> 00:15:54,520 Speaker 1: Or I mean it shows that I had potentially right. 372 00:15:54,400 --> 00:15:56,640 Speaker 3: So listen, raw talent is just that, it's like you 373 00:15:56,680 --> 00:15:59,080 Speaker 3: got to polish it that if you got raw talent, 374 00:15:59,240 --> 00:15:59,760 Speaker 3: it just takes. 375 00:16:00,560 --> 00:16:02,480 Speaker 1: And I may not want it for anything other than 376 00:16:02,520 --> 00:16:03,800 Speaker 1: I love to write music. 377 00:16:03,880 --> 00:16:06,640 Speaker 3: Hold on, you should be living your life for yourself. Yeah, 378 00:16:06,760 --> 00:16:08,480 Speaker 3: and you don't have to explain why you're doing anything 379 00:16:08,480 --> 00:16:09,160 Speaker 3: for anybody. 380 00:16:09,480 --> 00:16:11,600 Speaker 1: But I love to write music. I have like twenty 381 00:16:11,680 --> 00:16:12,800 Speaker 1: songs that I've written. 382 00:16:13,080 --> 00:16:15,760 Speaker 3: I love to hear this and oh my god, Seddie, 383 00:16:15,800 --> 00:16:19,160 Speaker 3: I want so I but I don't know how to write. 384 00:16:19,440 --> 00:16:21,800 Speaker 1: I know how to write the lyrics, but I don't 385 00:16:21,800 --> 00:16:22,800 Speaker 1: know how to do. 386 00:16:23,800 --> 00:16:26,520 Speaker 2: Music the music. So is this where John comes in? 387 00:16:26,640 --> 00:16:28,480 Speaker 1: Well, that's where he was like, well, we can do 388 00:16:28,520 --> 00:16:28,920 Speaker 1: it together. 389 00:16:29,160 --> 00:16:30,120 Speaker 2: Actually it's kind of cool. 390 00:16:30,280 --> 00:16:33,960 Speaker 1: Yeah, So just different things that I can do with FaceTime. 391 00:16:34,480 --> 00:16:37,040 Speaker 1: I mean, it's it's easy ways to do and plus, like, 392 00:16:37,440 --> 00:16:40,280 Speaker 1: I'm at a place now where I just want to 393 00:16:40,280 --> 00:16:42,400 Speaker 1: see my family and my friends as much as I 394 00:16:42,480 --> 00:16:45,920 Speaker 1: can because I appreciate them so much more than I 395 00:16:45,960 --> 00:16:46,560 Speaker 1: did before. 396 00:16:46,880 --> 00:16:49,680 Speaker 2: Of course, I appreciate everything. Do you have a keyboard? 397 00:16:49,920 --> 00:16:50,240 Speaker 1: I don't. 398 00:16:50,360 --> 00:16:52,400 Speaker 2: I'm gonna get you one free birthday, Okay. 399 00:16:52,160 --> 00:16:55,680 Speaker 1: It's coming. Our birthdays are coming now, I know our birthday. 400 00:16:55,680 --> 00:16:57,400 Speaker 3: I'm not going to get you like some fancy keyboards, 401 00:16:57,400 --> 00:16:59,280 Speaker 3: So John, don't go out by me on a keyboard. 402 00:16:59,320 --> 00:17:01,160 Speaker 2: But we need to get you a keyboard for your birthday, 403 00:17:01,440 --> 00:17:02,840 Speaker 2: just so I can. Yeah, so you. 404 00:17:02,760 --> 00:17:06,080 Speaker 3: Can just pick out little melodies whatever. You can just 405 00:17:06,080 --> 00:17:07,600 Speaker 3: start playing little things. 406 00:17:07,880 --> 00:17:09,440 Speaker 1: I just want to do something new and I don't 407 00:17:09,440 --> 00:17:10,879 Speaker 1: want to get stagnant. 408 00:17:11,400 --> 00:17:15,840 Speaker 3: No, right exactly. And there's something about look that creativity. 409 00:17:15,920 --> 00:17:19,280 Speaker 3: You can unlock all of these things, and you should 410 00:17:19,280 --> 00:17:19,680 Speaker 3: really do that. 411 00:17:19,880 --> 00:17:21,280 Speaker 2: Yeah, I'll get you a keyboard for a birth And. 412 00:17:21,320 --> 00:17:23,000 Speaker 1: Let's be honest. I'm not going to go to school 413 00:17:23,000 --> 00:17:25,159 Speaker 1: and get any kind of license or I don't want 414 00:17:25,200 --> 00:17:26,520 Speaker 1: to learn any of that. I don't care. 415 00:17:26,640 --> 00:17:28,840 Speaker 3: It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter if I'm going to 416 00:17:28,880 --> 00:17:31,480 Speaker 3: pick something singer dance perfect. I love it singing and dancing. 417 00:17:32,200 --> 00:17:34,800 Speaker 3: Question number two. I recently suffered a health crisis myself 418 00:17:34,840 --> 00:17:38,320 Speaker 3: and find myself slipping into all a depression. What do 419 00:17:38,359 --> 00:17:40,920 Speaker 3: you do to protect your mental health? But I got 420 00:17:40,920 --> 00:17:43,199 Speaker 3: to tell you something, yours, I've never seen anything like you. 421 00:17:44,640 --> 00:17:49,760 Speaker 1: I just even hearing that, I could start crying. But 422 00:17:49,880 --> 00:17:53,359 Speaker 1: I think the main reason was somebody told me. And 423 00:17:53,440 --> 00:17:55,960 Speaker 1: I saw somebody actually at Kyle's the other night who 424 00:17:56,000 --> 00:17:59,320 Speaker 1: told me that his wife had the same thing as me, 425 00:17:59,560 --> 00:18:03,719 Speaker 1: and she is about six months post and he's like 426 00:18:04,080 --> 00:18:06,520 Speaker 1: he didn't even realize it that I had it. I mean, 427 00:18:06,520 --> 00:18:08,920 Speaker 1: he realized something was going on. He's like, but she's 428 00:18:09,040 --> 00:18:13,240 Speaker 1: you know, fallen into it a pretty dark place, and 429 00:18:13,880 --> 00:18:15,920 Speaker 1: but you know, they said she'll probably come out of 430 00:18:16,000 --> 00:18:18,120 Speaker 1: it in about six months. I'm like, so how long 431 00:18:18,119 --> 00:18:20,280 Speaker 1: has she been in it? And he's like six months? 432 00:18:21,000 --> 00:18:25,040 Speaker 1: And I think where I I don't know, I guess 433 00:18:25,160 --> 00:18:28,320 Speaker 1: lucked out, or whether whether or not I knew it 434 00:18:28,400 --> 00:18:31,920 Speaker 1: or not. Because my tumors came and they were such 435 00:18:31,920 --> 00:18:35,000 Speaker 1: a surprise to me, I never let myself slow down 436 00:18:35,000 --> 00:18:38,680 Speaker 1: because I didn't really understand the magnitude of it. It's 437 00:18:38,680 --> 00:18:41,360 Speaker 1: not like where you know, years and years in advance, like, oh, 438 00:18:41,440 --> 00:18:43,840 Speaker 1: I've got these tumors forming, if they get to this size, 439 00:18:43,880 --> 00:18:46,720 Speaker 1: I'm gonna have to do this over your earth. No, 440 00:18:46,800 --> 00:18:48,720 Speaker 1: it was just like bam, okay, this is why you 441 00:18:48,760 --> 00:18:51,440 Speaker 1: have the headaches. Okay, now you're gonna have massive surgery. Okay, 442 00:18:51,440 --> 00:18:53,359 Speaker 1: now you're gonna be in the hospital for sixteen days. 443 00:18:53,760 --> 00:18:56,359 Speaker 1: And I came out and I would say the first 444 00:18:56,440 --> 00:19:01,200 Speaker 1: five days, I was so brutally depressed. Oh I can't rude. 445 00:19:01,600 --> 00:19:03,280 Speaker 1: I mean I could cry just thinking about it. I 446 00:19:03,320 --> 00:19:05,040 Speaker 1: didn't want to see anyone. I didn't want to see 447 00:19:05,040 --> 00:19:07,159 Speaker 1: my friends. I didn't want to see my kids. I 448 00:19:07,160 --> 00:19:10,080 Speaker 1: didn't want to see Edwin. I was broken. 449 00:19:10,400 --> 00:19:10,960 Speaker 2: I'm sure. 450 00:19:11,720 --> 00:19:15,480 Speaker 1: And then I just said to my dad and to 451 00:19:15,560 --> 00:19:17,360 Speaker 1: my friends, I said, I need to get out of here, 452 00:19:19,080 --> 00:19:20,960 Speaker 1: like and I don't want you guys Microman like I 453 00:19:21,040 --> 00:19:21,919 Speaker 1: want to go to lunch. 454 00:19:22,240 --> 00:19:23,480 Speaker 2: Yep, I want to live. 455 00:19:23,920 --> 00:19:26,400 Speaker 1: And I want I said, can somebody go, like get 456 00:19:26,440 --> 00:19:31,560 Speaker 1: me some decent clothes because nothing fits. So I think, 457 00:19:32,119 --> 00:19:34,920 Speaker 1: no matter how I'm feeling, yes, listen to your body. 458 00:19:35,080 --> 00:19:38,280 Speaker 1: But if you're feeling sad or you're feeling depressed, find 459 00:19:38,720 --> 00:19:42,760 Speaker 1: something that you can go do that makes you feel alive. 460 00:19:43,480 --> 00:19:45,600 Speaker 1: Because my doctor even said to me, he goes, I 461 00:19:45,640 --> 00:19:47,800 Speaker 1: feel like the reason you're doing as well as you're 462 00:19:47,800 --> 00:19:54,200 Speaker 1: doing is because you have fought for every single thing. 463 00:19:54,320 --> 00:19:57,199 Speaker 1: And he's like, and your body knows it wants to 464 00:19:57,240 --> 00:20:00,440 Speaker 1: be live. Yep, you're telling it every single day. And 465 00:20:00,560 --> 00:20:02,720 Speaker 1: he said, I want to be very clear about something. 466 00:20:02,920 --> 00:20:06,320 Speaker 1: There's nothing that you could do right now that could 467 00:20:06,359 --> 00:20:08,159 Speaker 1: get you to the point where it would make you 468 00:20:08,200 --> 00:20:08,760 Speaker 1: worse off. 469 00:20:09,520 --> 00:20:09,960 Speaker 2: Wow. 470 00:20:10,480 --> 00:20:12,800 Speaker 1: So I go, so could I go skydiving tomorrow? And 471 00:20:12,800 --> 00:20:14,359 Speaker 1: he's like, I mean not that I want to. 472 00:20:14,600 --> 00:20:16,600 Speaker 2: He's like yeah, yeah. 473 00:20:16,440 --> 00:20:19,280 Speaker 1: He's like you hurting yourself or you injuring yourself isn't 474 00:20:19,280 --> 00:20:21,399 Speaker 1: going to be any different than anybody else in the world. 475 00:20:21,800 --> 00:20:22,119 Speaker 2: Wow. 476 00:20:22,840 --> 00:20:25,480 Speaker 1: So if that's something a dream of yours, go do it. 477 00:20:25,560 --> 00:20:29,119 Speaker 1: Go do it. Wow, anything that's going to generate happiness 478 00:20:29,119 --> 00:20:31,760 Speaker 1: for you and keep away from stress. And I found 479 00:20:31,760 --> 00:20:33,399 Speaker 1: that there was a couple of people in my life. 480 00:20:33,480 --> 00:20:34,240 Speaker 2: Did you cut them out? 481 00:20:34,520 --> 00:20:37,400 Speaker 1: That just added to my stress and were always negative 482 00:20:37,480 --> 00:20:41,840 Speaker 1: nancies about everything, And I just was like, listen, if 483 00:20:41,840 --> 00:20:43,680 Speaker 1: this is what you want to talk about, I don't 484 00:20:43,720 --> 00:20:44,400 Speaker 1: want to talk to you. 485 00:20:45,080 --> 00:20:45,840 Speaker 2: That's wonderful. 486 00:20:45,960 --> 00:20:50,679 Speaker 1: I'm healing. Well, you've got a Yeah, I'm healing, and 487 00:20:50,800 --> 00:20:52,919 Speaker 1: I don't want to hear it. I don't care what 488 00:20:53,000 --> 00:20:56,000 Speaker 1: so and so said on the internet. I don't care 489 00:20:56,920 --> 00:20:59,639 Speaker 1: what you read and so and so's book. That's not 490 00:20:59,680 --> 00:21:03,600 Speaker 1: a Whatever I'm doing is working for me, and I 491 00:21:03,640 --> 00:21:04,760 Speaker 1: don't need your two cents. 492 00:21:04,840 --> 00:21:05,800 Speaker 2: Yes, exactly. 493 00:21:06,440 --> 00:21:08,359 Speaker 1: And that has helped me because I think a lot 494 00:21:08,400 --> 00:21:11,840 Speaker 1: and especially you know, if she's struggling or he's struggling 495 00:21:12,359 --> 00:21:15,879 Speaker 1: is dependent on what somebody else is thinking she should 496 00:21:15,880 --> 00:21:17,240 Speaker 1: be doing or he should be doing. 497 00:21:17,320 --> 00:21:20,119 Speaker 3: You also have a great environment. You're also like people 498 00:21:20,160 --> 00:21:22,159 Speaker 3: don't know this about you, But you're one of the 499 00:21:22,160 --> 00:21:24,640 Speaker 3: most mentally tough people. 500 00:21:25,040 --> 00:21:25,520 Speaker 2: That I know. 501 00:21:26,359 --> 00:21:31,560 Speaker 3: And Teddy's never complained. Teddy nine months pregnant in pumps 502 00:21:31,560 --> 00:21:35,320 Speaker 3: in a skirt like you know on some Crazy Housewives think, 503 00:21:35,640 --> 00:21:38,199 Speaker 3: never complained. Else she did was eat thumbs. And I 504 00:21:38,240 --> 00:21:41,840 Speaker 3: say that because you're just not that girl. And I 505 00:21:41,840 --> 00:21:45,320 Speaker 3: think that you have this tremendous will And it really 506 00:21:45,320 --> 00:21:49,520 Speaker 3: comes down to look, there's I can't even imagine what 507 00:21:49,600 --> 00:21:50,840 Speaker 3: you go through, really, but I. 508 00:21:50,760 --> 00:21:56,639 Speaker 1: Think anybody can generate. I'm not any stronger than anybody else. 509 00:21:56,840 --> 00:22:00,959 Speaker 1: I just think I've generated myself through out my life 510 00:22:02,600 --> 00:22:05,399 Speaker 1: to not be pitied. Yep, it's a big thing for you, 511 00:22:05,560 --> 00:22:09,320 Speaker 1: and it's a huge thing. Like there is nothing I 512 00:22:09,359 --> 00:22:12,000 Speaker 1: despise more than I feel like when somebody's pitying me, 513 00:22:12,560 --> 00:22:15,560 Speaker 1: or when somebody's weaning me, Oh, how are we doing? 514 00:22:15,680 --> 00:22:16,800 Speaker 1: What are we going to do? 515 00:22:17,160 --> 00:22:18,800 Speaker 2: No, yeah, you're not that. 516 00:22:18,960 --> 00:22:20,920 Speaker 1: This is my life and this is what I want 517 00:22:20,960 --> 00:22:23,320 Speaker 1: and this is what I'm going to do, and hopefully 518 00:22:23,359 --> 00:22:26,199 Speaker 1: it's going to work. And if it doesn't, everybody in 519 00:22:26,240 --> 00:22:28,720 Speaker 1: my life will see that I fought my very hardest 520 00:22:28,760 --> 00:22:30,080 Speaker 1: to show them how much I love them. 521 00:22:30,160 --> 00:22:31,040 Speaker 2: Yeah. 522 00:22:31,080 --> 00:22:32,840 Speaker 3: Well, there's no doubt that you love your family and 523 00:22:32,880 --> 00:22:37,080 Speaker 3: your friends. Yeah, there's no doubt that I think just 524 00:22:37,160 --> 00:22:39,679 Speaker 3: shows up like there's no stopping that. 525 00:22:40,320 --> 00:22:43,000 Speaker 1: But also taking away the guilt. Like yesterday, let me 526 00:22:43,000 --> 00:22:46,040 Speaker 1: tell you something, I slept for a jillion hours and 527 00:22:46,119 --> 00:22:48,520 Speaker 1: watched one million episodes of Friends with Neighbors. 528 00:22:48,640 --> 00:22:50,399 Speaker 2: Let me ask you a question, what should you have 529 00:22:50,440 --> 00:22:52,160 Speaker 2: been doing that you would have felt guilty about. 530 00:22:51,920 --> 00:22:52,280 Speaker 3: What WO was? 531 00:22:52,480 --> 00:22:54,520 Speaker 1: I would have felt guilty because I only hung with 532 00:22:54,560 --> 00:22:57,080 Speaker 1: my kids till eleven am. But then I called Edwin 533 00:22:57,520 --> 00:22:59,960 Speaker 1: and I said, hey, I'm hitting that wall that happened 534 00:23:00,040 --> 00:23:03,040 Speaker 1: around day four or five. I am tired therapy. I'm tired. 535 00:23:03,520 --> 00:23:05,240 Speaker 1: And he's like, you want me to come get the kids? 536 00:23:05,760 --> 00:23:06,160 Speaker 2: Yeah? 537 00:23:06,200 --> 00:23:08,399 Speaker 1: And I was like I would love that. And he 538 00:23:08,480 --> 00:23:11,000 Speaker 1: took them to church, into Burger place and lunch and 539 00:23:11,040 --> 00:23:13,520 Speaker 1: blah blah blah, and then Cruise went to a birthday 540 00:23:13,560 --> 00:23:16,000 Speaker 1: party and then they got dropped off at home at five, 541 00:23:16,080 --> 00:23:18,040 Speaker 1: and we had dinner and went to bed like it 542 00:23:18,080 --> 00:23:18,800 Speaker 1: was a perfect day. 543 00:23:19,240 --> 00:23:21,960 Speaker 2: But I had to ask for help, Right, you don't 544 00:23:22,000 --> 00:23:22,479 Speaker 2: like doing that. 545 00:23:22,560 --> 00:23:24,880 Speaker 1: I don't like doing that, but it felt really good. 546 00:23:25,119 --> 00:23:27,520 Speaker 1: But I got to say and then but then it 547 00:23:27,520 --> 00:23:30,120 Speaker 1: didn't feel bad anymore. And then I got to say, too, 548 00:23:30,720 --> 00:23:32,680 Speaker 1: thank you so much for doing that yesterday. I really 549 00:23:32,680 --> 00:23:35,760 Speaker 1: needed it, yes, And instead of guilting me, he responded by, 550 00:23:36,080 --> 00:23:39,120 Speaker 1: of course, we had a great time perfect. So it's 551 00:23:39,160 --> 00:23:41,320 Speaker 1: just like learning that you can ask for help. It's 552 00:23:41,359 --> 00:23:42,200 Speaker 1: not the end of the world. 553 00:23:42,320 --> 00:23:43,560 Speaker 2: It's not. It's really not. 554 00:23:43,720 --> 00:23:48,720 Speaker 3: And you, I think also too, you are very hard 555 00:23:48,760 --> 00:23:53,760 Speaker 3: on yourself, and maybe in some way this has brought 556 00:23:53,800 --> 00:23:56,800 Speaker 3: some softness, you know, brought some softness. 557 00:23:56,359 --> 00:23:57,120 Speaker 1: I can hug now. 558 00:23:57,359 --> 00:23:59,840 Speaker 2: I know life's a little bit sweeter. 559 00:24:00,640 --> 00:24:02,600 Speaker 1: I can hug me. It's so crazy. 560 00:24:03,880 --> 00:24:18,120 Speaker 3: Yeah, you've built a brand around accountability, But what's one 561 00:24:18,200 --> 00:24:22,120 Speaker 3: area of your life you consistently let yourself off the hook? 562 00:24:22,520 --> 00:24:25,320 Speaker 1: I left myself off the hook about everything, guys. And 563 00:24:25,400 --> 00:24:29,639 Speaker 1: also I dread that I set accountability. I am a 564 00:24:29,680 --> 00:24:32,680 Speaker 1: health and wellness coach that helps you change your life 565 00:24:32,720 --> 00:24:35,679 Speaker 1: and gets your body moving and helps you make some 566 00:24:35,840 --> 00:24:36,879 Speaker 1: healthier choices. 567 00:24:37,240 --> 00:24:39,240 Speaker 2: You did call yourself an accountable, but I. 568 00:24:39,200 --> 00:24:42,960 Speaker 1: Did pick the wrong freakin' word. I can hold somebody 569 00:24:43,000 --> 00:24:46,440 Speaker 1: accountable to what their goals are. I'm not accountable holding 570 00:24:46,480 --> 00:24:49,080 Speaker 1: people accountable to everything in the entire world. That's what 571 00:24:49,160 --> 00:24:51,640 Speaker 1: people got confused by. You're going to tell me your 572 00:24:51,680 --> 00:24:53,800 Speaker 1: goals and I'm going to hold you accountable. 573 00:24:53,320 --> 00:24:54,639 Speaker 3: To yea, if I come to you with a fitness 574 00:24:54,640 --> 00:24:56,399 Speaker 3: goal or a nutrition goal and I said, hey, I 575 00:24:56,440 --> 00:24:56,760 Speaker 3: want to. 576 00:24:56,680 --> 00:24:58,679 Speaker 2: Do X, Y and Z, and you go, okay, I 577 00:24:58,720 --> 00:25:02,160 Speaker 2: want to run a marathon? Great, Great, what's the date? Yeah? 578 00:25:02,200 --> 00:25:05,159 Speaker 1: Great, okay, this is our plan. But it's not for 579 00:25:05,320 --> 00:25:07,760 Speaker 1: every day to day life. Clearly, I make a ton 580 00:25:07,800 --> 00:25:08,639 Speaker 1: of bad decisions. 581 00:25:08,680 --> 00:25:11,200 Speaker 2: Well, it's not bad decisions. You're human being. We make 582 00:25:11,400 --> 00:25:15,320 Speaker 2: human decisions. We all make. We all fuck up, and 583 00:25:15,800 --> 00:25:16,560 Speaker 2: that's a matter. 584 00:25:16,400 --> 00:25:18,240 Speaker 1: Of It's not about living life of perfection. 585 00:25:18,880 --> 00:25:21,080 Speaker 3: You made a boring joke on the pot again recently. 586 00:25:21,480 --> 00:25:25,280 Speaker 3: Did being called that on RHBH make you change anything 587 00:25:25,320 --> 00:25:26,080 Speaker 3: about yourself? 588 00:25:26,480 --> 00:25:27,920 Speaker 2: You're not boring. I'll tell you that. 589 00:25:28,119 --> 00:25:32,520 Speaker 1: I don't think that I'm boring. I truly think that 590 00:25:32,800 --> 00:25:39,280 Speaker 1: I know she's not boring. My issue was I think 591 00:25:39,320 --> 00:25:40,840 Speaker 1: I lost my job season two. 592 00:25:41,280 --> 00:25:41,760 Speaker 2: I do too. 593 00:25:42,040 --> 00:25:44,600 Speaker 1: I think I lost my job season two, and they 594 00:25:44,680 --> 00:25:47,840 Speaker 1: kept me around for season three and I became a 595 00:25:47,880 --> 00:25:50,639 Speaker 1: nothing burger and then that was the end. And you 596 00:25:50,680 --> 00:25:52,800 Speaker 1: can do the math on what happened on season two 597 00:25:53,400 --> 00:25:54,320 Speaker 1: and figure that out. 598 00:25:54,440 --> 00:25:55,160 Speaker 2: I have a smile. 599 00:25:56,480 --> 00:25:57,159 Speaker 1: Do you agree? 600 00:25:58,280 --> 00:26:01,879 Speaker 2: I already told you how I felt, so I agree. Yes. 601 00:26:02,600 --> 00:26:04,800 Speaker 3: If you had the chance to host a morning talk show, 602 00:26:04,920 --> 00:26:07,600 Speaker 3: what would be your who would be your very first guest, 603 00:26:08,320 --> 00:26:10,760 Speaker 3: very first say you should do something like that? Oh? 604 00:26:10,800 --> 00:26:13,040 Speaker 1: I love. I mean that's why I love to go 605 00:26:13,080 --> 00:26:18,280 Speaker 1: on all those different those like Extra and all those shows. 606 00:26:18,359 --> 00:26:21,359 Speaker 1: I love doing it. I love talking pop culture. I 607 00:26:21,400 --> 00:26:25,159 Speaker 1: can't even help myself, like from needing to know everything 608 00:26:25,200 --> 00:26:28,040 Speaker 1: about the Justin Baldoni case to what's going on with Diddy? 609 00:26:28,440 --> 00:26:35,040 Speaker 1: To is you know Justin Bieber okay? Like all of it? Like, 610 00:26:35,240 --> 00:26:39,560 Speaker 1: I cannot help myself. I cannot get enough. My very 611 00:26:39,680 --> 00:26:43,000 Speaker 1: first guest, who would it be? It would be who's 612 00:26:43,040 --> 00:26:44,359 Speaker 1: ever trending in that moment? 613 00:26:44,400 --> 00:26:46,680 Speaker 2: And I would want to skuis the limit? Come on? 614 00:26:47,040 --> 00:26:48,040 Speaker 1: Sky's the limit? 615 00:26:48,280 --> 00:26:51,240 Speaker 2: I'm gonna dream without like boundaries. 616 00:26:51,720 --> 00:26:54,240 Speaker 1: If I could do anything, I would want to, like 617 00:26:54,920 --> 00:26:57,200 Speaker 1: do a day in the life of Jennifer Lopez. 618 00:26:57,359 --> 00:26:58,520 Speaker 2: Really why Jennifer? 619 00:26:58,800 --> 00:27:03,800 Speaker 1: Because she seems to I mean other than relationships. Yeah, 620 00:27:03,880 --> 00:27:06,840 Speaker 1: she seems to be able to do everything I want. 621 00:27:07,119 --> 00:27:09,800 Speaker 2: I found an incredible career, she has an incredible career. 622 00:27:09,880 --> 00:27:13,119 Speaker 1: I know that she's very disciplined, Yes, I know that, 623 00:27:13,840 --> 00:27:15,480 Speaker 1: but I want to see if there's a fun side. 624 00:27:15,480 --> 00:27:16,919 Speaker 1: I want to see all of that. Like I'd like 625 00:27:16,960 --> 00:27:19,800 Speaker 1: to shadow her for a week and see who she 626 00:27:19,840 --> 00:27:22,480 Speaker 1: really is and then give an expose, right, and see who. 627 00:27:22,359 --> 00:27:25,280 Speaker 3: She really is besides being Jennihilippez. Yes, yes, I understand 628 00:27:25,280 --> 00:27:25,679 Speaker 3: what you're. 629 00:27:25,520 --> 00:27:27,480 Speaker 1: Saying, because that I think I could learn from. 630 00:27:29,160 --> 00:27:31,200 Speaker 2: You mean, watching someone like that work like that. 631 00:27:31,200 --> 00:27:33,840 Speaker 1: Work like that, I can go, oh, Okay, this is 632 00:27:33,880 --> 00:27:35,680 Speaker 1: what I don't want. This is what I do want. 633 00:27:35,880 --> 00:27:39,800 Speaker 1: Oh I could do this or no, I absolutely I 634 00:27:39,880 --> 00:27:42,000 Speaker 1: wouldn't want to live my life working this hard, this 635 00:27:42,200 --> 00:27:43,240 Speaker 1: much all the time. 636 00:27:43,720 --> 00:27:46,399 Speaker 2: She's a very hard worker, very hard work, very hard worker. 637 00:27:46,440 --> 00:27:47,760 Speaker 1: But I mean there's so many people. 638 00:27:47,920 --> 00:27:50,400 Speaker 3: There's so many people in this business that work hard though. Yeah, 639 00:27:50,400 --> 00:27:52,399 Speaker 3: there's so many people that work hard in this business 640 00:27:52,400 --> 00:27:53,399 Speaker 3: that you don't know about. 641 00:27:53,600 --> 00:27:57,760 Speaker 1: But I think we don't see a ton of her working. No, see, 642 00:27:57,800 --> 00:28:00,000 Speaker 1: we don't see a ton of behind the scenes with her. 643 00:28:01,280 --> 00:28:05,760 Speaker 1: Who else? Give me some other people that like Chelsea 644 00:28:05,800 --> 00:28:06,720 Speaker 1: Hamler would be fun. 645 00:28:07,600 --> 00:28:10,080 Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm trying to think of your the answer to 646 00:28:10,119 --> 00:28:15,960 Speaker 3: your first question, people Okay, so hear me out. You 647 00:28:16,000 --> 00:28:20,199 Speaker 3: know reality TV, right, what we do is different than 648 00:28:20,240 --> 00:28:22,639 Speaker 3: what Jennifer Lopos does. Right, she's like a movie stars 649 00:28:22,680 --> 00:28:26,000 Speaker 3: as a pop artist signed to major labels and shit 650 00:28:26,119 --> 00:28:30,760 Speaker 3: like that. That's a different type of celebrity than if 651 00:28:30,760 --> 00:28:32,680 Speaker 3: you even want to say, like what we have a celebrity. 652 00:28:32,720 --> 00:28:37,760 Speaker 3: It's a different like leab in the sense that the 653 00:28:37,800 --> 00:28:42,440 Speaker 3: game that we play in reality television is very different 654 00:28:42,480 --> 00:28:44,880 Speaker 3: than the game that they play over there. When I 655 00:28:44,920 --> 00:28:47,719 Speaker 3: say they, I mean you could call them, you know, 656 00:28:47,840 --> 00:28:51,960 Speaker 3: like movie stars and shit like, yeah, a listers. It's 657 00:28:52,000 --> 00:28:54,400 Speaker 3: a different type of celebrity. It's a different type of fame. 658 00:28:54,560 --> 00:28:59,000 Speaker 3: It's it's harnessed in different way. We in the game 659 00:28:59,040 --> 00:29:01,720 Speaker 3: that we do are expected the rules. The rules are 660 00:29:01,720 --> 00:29:04,600 Speaker 3: a little different and the expectations are a little different 661 00:29:04,600 --> 00:29:06,760 Speaker 3: of us than it is of them. Like they get 662 00:29:06,760 --> 00:29:09,479 Speaker 3: to not cherry pick, but they have a little bit 663 00:29:09,480 --> 00:29:10,920 Speaker 3: more cover as to what. 664 00:29:12,600 --> 00:29:15,680 Speaker 1: An example of just that I know firsthand is my 665 00:29:15,800 --> 00:29:17,960 Speaker 1: dad and I went to an event the other night 666 00:29:18,920 --> 00:29:22,600 Speaker 1: and I one million percent did the red carpet and 667 00:29:22,640 --> 00:29:23,680 Speaker 1: he arrived after. 668 00:29:23,520 --> 00:29:26,960 Speaker 3: It was done, right, and it was just a different Yeah, 669 00:29:27,040 --> 00:29:28,719 Speaker 3: like it's it's a different vibe. 670 00:29:28,800 --> 00:29:31,120 Speaker 1: I got a plus one if I did the red carpet, right, 671 00:29:32,080 --> 00:29:33,880 Speaker 1: and I was like, well, I don't want to go alone. 672 00:29:33,600 --> 00:29:37,960 Speaker 3: Right, so myself right, But someone like let's just gets 673 00:29:37,960 --> 00:29:39,800 Speaker 3: to come whenever he wants to come, or let's sake, 674 00:29:39,880 --> 00:29:43,680 Speaker 3: let's take Jennifer Lopez, like she gets to do the 675 00:29:43,720 --> 00:29:46,360 Speaker 3: carpets for the movies that are hers and the ones that. 676 00:29:46,240 --> 00:29:50,080 Speaker 2: She possibly wants to go to. Yeah, you know, if 677 00:29:50,320 --> 00:29:53,280 Speaker 2: she wants to. It's a different life. It's a different level. 678 00:29:53,560 --> 00:29:54,520 Speaker 2: It's a different level. 679 00:29:54,600 --> 00:29:57,960 Speaker 1: But if we're talking Bravo people, if there's anybody that 680 00:29:58,000 --> 00:29:59,200 Speaker 1: I could interview. 681 00:29:59,400 --> 00:30:00,000 Speaker 2: We didn't know where. 682 00:30:00,120 --> 00:30:02,880 Speaker 3: Not talking about Bravo people, We're talking about anybody. Okay, 683 00:30:02,920 --> 00:30:05,120 Speaker 3: all right, Brough you gotta think outside of Bravo. 684 00:30:05,280 --> 00:30:07,720 Speaker 1: Well that's what That's why I think my answer I 685 00:30:07,840 --> 00:30:09,040 Speaker 1: stick for a little bit. 686 00:30:09,160 --> 00:30:09,680 Speaker 2: I like that, I do. 687 00:30:10,040 --> 00:30:12,400 Speaker 1: I mean, or who's somebody hot right now? 688 00:30:12,720 --> 00:30:14,520 Speaker 2: I don't know, you know, all the hot dudes. I 689 00:30:14,560 --> 00:30:15,440 Speaker 2: don't know anybody. 690 00:30:15,720 --> 00:30:17,640 Speaker 1: I don't know anyway. 691 00:30:17,720 --> 00:30:19,520 Speaker 3: It's not that I don't know, it's that I need 692 00:30:19,560 --> 00:30:22,760 Speaker 3: to fucking pay attention. I am so wrapped up in 693 00:30:22,800 --> 00:30:26,640 Speaker 3: my own universe that I must look outward instead of 694 00:30:26,680 --> 00:30:30,800 Speaker 3: like looking wherever I'm looking, which is like whow okay. 695 00:30:31,280 --> 00:30:34,760 Speaker 3: Next question questions, if you could trade lives with one 696 00:30:34,800 --> 00:30:37,640 Speaker 3: housewife for twenty four hours, who would it be? And 697 00:30:37,680 --> 00:30:39,400 Speaker 3: what's the first thing you do in her shoes? 698 00:30:40,600 --> 00:30:45,880 Speaker 1: One housewife for twenty four hours. I'm not going to 699 00:30:45,920 --> 00:30:48,680 Speaker 1: pick anyone from Beverly Hills because I think that's stale 700 00:30:48,840 --> 00:30:50,120 Speaker 1: and we already know, we've. 701 00:30:49,840 --> 00:30:51,400 Speaker 2: Already been around those women who cares. 702 00:30:51,880 --> 00:30:55,600 Speaker 1: But if I could change lives with anybody I feel like, 703 00:30:57,080 --> 00:31:00,120 Speaker 1: who lives like? You know, who would be? She's not 704 00:31:00,160 --> 00:31:04,320 Speaker 1: even a housewife anymore. But Caroline Stansbury. 705 00:31:05,000 --> 00:31:07,040 Speaker 2: She looks like she has a good ass time to buy. 706 00:31:07,320 --> 00:31:09,360 Speaker 2: She looks and that. 707 00:31:09,600 --> 00:31:12,800 Speaker 3: And her husband, Sergio, he waits on her hand and 708 00:31:12,840 --> 00:31:13,520 Speaker 3: foot and I saw it. 709 00:31:13,760 --> 00:31:17,160 Speaker 1: And every single day they're on a trip somewhere else 710 00:31:17,240 --> 00:31:22,080 Speaker 1: going she's getting glammed, like she's got her outfits picked. 711 00:31:22,160 --> 00:31:24,280 Speaker 2: They are living. That's what I want. 712 00:31:24,320 --> 00:31:25,960 Speaker 1: And you know what, it doesn't have to be twenty 713 00:31:26,000 --> 00:31:27,040 Speaker 1: four hours. I do a week. 714 00:31:28,120 --> 00:31:29,240 Speaker 2: Oh you want a week of that? 715 00:31:29,680 --> 00:31:30,880 Speaker 1: I don't need a week of him. 716 00:31:31,240 --> 00:31:33,200 Speaker 3: I know, I know I'm not talking about him. I 717 00:31:33,240 --> 00:31:36,760 Speaker 3: just don't like the production, like the whole production. Yeah, 718 00:31:37,400 --> 00:31:38,360 Speaker 3: and I mean that respectful. 719 00:31:38,400 --> 00:31:40,400 Speaker 1: I'm kind of curious who is who would yours be? 720 00:31:40,960 --> 00:31:43,280 Speaker 3: She's actually a good one. And you know what, I 721 00:31:43,320 --> 00:31:45,760 Speaker 3: it's kind of the same thing. It looks real good. 722 00:31:46,520 --> 00:31:48,800 Speaker 2: I mean, I'm not going with anybody with kids. 723 00:31:49,600 --> 00:31:51,480 Speaker 1: I mean she has kids with their older right. 724 00:31:52,080 --> 00:31:54,400 Speaker 3: I don't need smaller children that I need to fight 725 00:31:54,440 --> 00:31:56,760 Speaker 3: with or schedule or get to a soccer game. 726 00:31:58,200 --> 00:32:00,800 Speaker 2: No, that's not my vibes. Your online looks like it's 727 00:32:00,840 --> 00:32:01,320 Speaker 2: pretty good. 728 00:32:01,880 --> 00:32:05,520 Speaker 1: Yeah, she's a pretty good option for us. Anyways, let's 729 00:32:05,560 --> 00:32:06,360 Speaker 1: go to do be okay. 730 00:32:06,360 --> 00:32:06,560 Speaker 2: Wait. 731 00:32:06,640 --> 00:32:10,360 Speaker 3: Yeah, By the way, I was with Shep we did 732 00:32:10,400 --> 00:32:11,720 Speaker 3: upfronts and we were talking about you. 733 00:32:11,840 --> 00:32:13,760 Speaker 2: I was like, Teddy and I want to come to Charleston, 734 00:32:14,200 --> 00:32:16,200 Speaker 2: We really do, and he goes, you guys should come. 735 00:32:17,160 --> 00:32:20,480 Speaker 1: What's stopping us? We got to get our act together 736 00:32:20,520 --> 00:32:20,800 Speaker 1: and go And. 737 00:32:21,080 --> 00:32:23,360 Speaker 3: I would love to you let me know, but but 738 00:32:23,400 --> 00:32:25,120 Speaker 3: you know what, he's he and I spoke about you 739 00:32:25,240 --> 00:32:26,920 Speaker 3: just like you know, we were just walking and talking. 740 00:32:27,880 --> 00:32:29,040 Speaker 2: He's really sweet. 741 00:32:29,280 --> 00:32:30,080 Speaker 1: He's a sweet guy. 742 00:32:30,080 --> 00:32:30,800 Speaker 2: He's a sweet guy. 743 00:32:31,080 --> 00:32:34,600 Speaker 3: He I think just I know that his dad was 744 00:32:34,600 --> 00:32:37,360 Speaker 3: a lawyer's grandfather was a federal judge, Like they run 745 00:32:37,520 --> 00:32:38,640 Speaker 3: deep in that law. 746 00:32:38,560 --> 00:32:40,880 Speaker 1: Business down there, like his parents. 747 00:32:40,960 --> 00:32:42,880 Speaker 2: No, I figured it out, Yeah. 748 00:32:42,840 --> 00:32:43,600 Speaker 1: I figured out. 749 00:32:44,000 --> 00:32:45,520 Speaker 3: Yeah, No, And I got it from the horse's mouth. 750 00:32:45,560 --> 00:32:48,440 Speaker 3: So I was like, okay, cool, what is your favorite 751 00:32:48,480 --> 00:32:49,240 Speaker 3: childhood memory? 752 00:32:50,080 --> 00:32:57,720 Speaker 1: My favorite childhood memory? Shit, well, I have two memories 753 00:32:57,800 --> 00:33:02,480 Speaker 1: that like really stick out, but they're bad. My gosh, 754 00:33:02,520 --> 00:33:04,080 Speaker 1: why are my memories bad? 755 00:33:04,440 --> 00:33:06,960 Speaker 2: Well, sometimes because the human brain etches those in there. 756 00:33:07,400 --> 00:33:10,280 Speaker 1: So like one of my childhood memories that like really 757 00:33:10,440 --> 00:33:12,040 Speaker 1: stands out, we're gonna switch. 758 00:33:11,840 --> 00:33:13,920 Speaker 2: It from favorite to stands out. 759 00:33:13,960 --> 00:33:17,440 Speaker 1: From favorite to stands out is my dad's first house. 760 00:33:17,480 --> 00:33:22,720 Speaker 1: So when my dad first his first like big hit 761 00:33:22,800 --> 00:33:23,840 Speaker 1: was in nineteen eighty one. 762 00:33:23,880 --> 00:33:26,280 Speaker 3: That's the year I was borne and Diane. Yeah, so, 763 00:33:26,520 --> 00:33:28,040 Speaker 3: by the way, it was good. I love those songs. 764 00:33:28,120 --> 00:33:30,959 Speaker 1: It's a good jam. But so we switched from like 765 00:33:31,040 --> 00:33:32,800 Speaker 1: being in a little tiny house to being in this 766 00:33:32,840 --> 00:33:34,480 Speaker 1: house and I had a circular driveway. 767 00:33:34,520 --> 00:33:35,760 Speaker 2: What city are we in? 768 00:33:35,760 --> 00:33:38,640 Speaker 1: Indiana? Okay, So we're in the house with the big 769 00:33:38,680 --> 00:33:42,440 Speaker 1: circular driveway, and anytime that my sister and I would 770 00:33:42,440 --> 00:33:46,640 Speaker 1: get in a fight, we'd have to run it. God, 771 00:33:46,720 --> 00:33:49,880 Speaker 1: John's rough run the circular driveway. 772 00:33:51,240 --> 00:33:53,440 Speaker 2: That's kind of cute though, but so like I have. 773 00:33:53,400 --> 00:33:55,520 Speaker 1: These memories of like looking at my sister and as 774 00:33:55,560 --> 00:33:59,080 Speaker 1: being like far more and like bringing out ways that 775 00:33:59,120 --> 00:34:02,560 Speaker 1: we could cross over through the grass, so like I 776 00:34:02,600 --> 00:34:06,560 Speaker 1: remember that. My other favorite memory was actually the first 777 00:34:06,560 --> 00:34:07,520 Speaker 1: time I got on a horse. 778 00:34:07,880 --> 00:34:08,440 Speaker 2: How were you? 779 00:34:08,680 --> 00:34:11,960 Speaker 1: I was four years old? Did you ask my neighbor 780 00:34:12,600 --> 00:34:15,560 Speaker 1: like where my dad had a like a studio and 781 00:34:15,600 --> 00:34:18,680 Speaker 1: my neighbor her mom trained Shetland ponies. 782 00:34:19,040 --> 00:34:19,960 Speaker 2: Cute, it was a pony. 783 00:34:20,120 --> 00:34:23,239 Speaker 1: It was a pony, And I went over and I 784 00:34:23,280 --> 00:34:26,719 Speaker 1: said can I can I ride? And they said, yeah, 785 00:34:26,760 --> 00:34:29,239 Speaker 1: we have a new Shetland named TJ. And then he 786 00:34:29,320 --> 00:34:31,040 Speaker 1: became mine and he was my first pony. 787 00:34:31,360 --> 00:34:33,839 Speaker 2: Was he sweet? Because she's going I was gonna say, 788 00:34:33,840 --> 00:34:34,400 Speaker 2: Shellin's are me? 789 00:34:34,600 --> 00:34:36,440 Speaker 1: We have a video of my mom like giving him 790 00:34:36,440 --> 00:34:38,279 Speaker 1: tap to have him go forward, and he kicked her 791 00:34:38,320 --> 00:34:43,520 Speaker 1: right in the knee. Knee No, but we have an 792 00:34:43,520 --> 00:34:48,640 Speaker 1: on video. She's like come on, like she's trying to 793 00:34:48,880 --> 00:34:50,640 Speaker 1: and you remember those old school videos that you. 794 00:34:50,560 --> 00:34:56,040 Speaker 2: Can tell I got out, yeah, PJ? Yeah, how long 795 00:34:56,040 --> 00:34:56,840 Speaker 2: did you ride? TJ? 796 00:34:57,680 --> 00:35:00,839 Speaker 1: I mean I think my second one was fan Seek. 797 00:35:01,160 --> 00:35:04,200 Speaker 1: Her name was fancy and she was an actual small pony. 798 00:35:04,280 --> 00:35:06,200 Speaker 1: So I went from the Shetland to once I started 799 00:35:06,200 --> 00:35:08,600 Speaker 1: being able to like post really ride and stuff, then 800 00:35:08,640 --> 00:35:11,040 Speaker 1: I switched to fancy. Oh my god, I feel like 801 00:35:11,080 --> 00:35:13,719 Speaker 1: I could remember all of my ponies and horses in order. 802 00:35:13,760 --> 00:35:15,759 Speaker 3: That's do you know how many, just offhand, how many 803 00:35:15,800 --> 00:35:17,880 Speaker 3: you've had. 804 00:35:16,960 --> 00:35:20,520 Speaker 1: In total that I've owned? Probably twenty? 805 00:35:20,680 --> 00:35:22,640 Speaker 2: And how many did you ride for clients? 806 00:35:23,000 --> 00:35:26,160 Speaker 1: Oh my gosh, hundreds, hundreds, hundreds, Like I have no idea, 807 00:35:26,600 --> 00:35:29,640 Speaker 1: but I the ones that are special to me. I'll 808 00:35:29,640 --> 00:35:32,480 Speaker 1: never forget sure, of course. Like there's this horse what 809 00:35:32,680 --> 00:35:36,480 Speaker 1: goes around that I wrote of my trainers, Don Stewart, 810 00:35:36,520 --> 00:35:40,080 Speaker 1: and I remember that horse every single day. I love 811 00:35:40,120 --> 00:35:41,560 Speaker 1: it and we called them with GiMA. 812 00:35:41,680 --> 00:35:43,239 Speaker 2: How old were you when you turn pro? 813 00:35:43,920 --> 00:35:48,719 Speaker 1: I was seventeen seventeen. Yeah, so there were so many 814 00:35:48,880 --> 00:35:52,160 Speaker 1: met so many, so many, but gosh, I feel like 815 00:35:52,200 --> 00:35:54,200 Speaker 1: I went down memory lane. But thanks guys for tuning 816 00:35:54,200 --> 00:35:57,360 Speaker 1: in for another episode of Diamonds in the Rough. Next week, 817 00:35:57,719 --> 00:36:00,480 Speaker 1: I'll be taking Erica's questions don't wing. 818 00:36:01,040 --> 00:36:07,800 Speaker 2: Thank you guys. Mhm