WEBVTT - Where the Fuck is my glow? 0:00:01.120 --> 0:00:03.920 The fucking pol police coming straight from the underground. The 0:00:03.960 --> 0:00:06.480 younger nigga got it back because I'm brown and not 0:00:06.600 --> 0:00:09.600 the other colors of police think they have the authority 0:00:09.640 --> 0:00:12.520 to kill the minority. Fuck that shit, because I ain't 0:00:12.520 --> 0:00:15.079 the one for a punk motherfucker with a badgine the 0:00:15.160 --> 0:00:18.239 gun to beat North. It's on this jail. We can 0:00:18.280 --> 0:00:20.400 go to the talk in the middle of a sell 0:00:20.720 --> 0:00:23.280 fucking with me because I'm a teenage up. 0:00:25.640 --> 0:00:29.160 The French advisory. Good mom's bad choices. 0:00:30.160 --> 0:00:33.279 It is a beautiful day outside. 0:00:33.560 --> 0:00:36.360 Finally it's been raining. Yes, it's been raining non stop 0:00:36.400 --> 0:00:37.760 in LA, but we need that rain. 0:00:37.840 --> 0:00:40.120 I actually like the rain, yeah, because it only happens 0:00:40.159 --> 0:00:42.880 like six days out of this three hundred and sixty five. 0:00:42.880 --> 0:00:45.000 But remember when it used to rain like all the 0:00:45.040 --> 0:00:50.920 time in LA in the nineties, nearly two thousands, okay, 0:00:51.040 --> 0:00:51.879 kind of believe it. 0:00:52.720 --> 0:00:55.080 I remember we had a shower storm once in two 0:00:55.080 --> 0:00:55.760 thousand and four. 0:00:57.200 --> 0:01:00.400 I just always feel like it's the weak again when 0:01:00.400 --> 0:01:02.600 it's raining, and then it's not the weekend because I'm 0:01:02.640 --> 0:01:03.680 getting emails and. 0:01:03.600 --> 0:01:07.000 I have to like do things and I have shit 0:01:07.080 --> 0:01:08.000 to do, Like, is. 0:01:08.000 --> 0:01:11.800 The only place on earth that it sprinkles, and then 0:01:11.880 --> 0:01:14.840 you hear people in the gas station like, oh no, 0:01:14.920 --> 0:01:16.360 it's raining, John, I'm not coming in. 0:01:16.280 --> 0:01:17.039 The office today. 0:01:17.760 --> 0:01:22.840 I'm like, you, guys, well, they can't drive either, retarded 0:01:23.680 --> 0:01:26.560 people from LA It's like the people that the transplants. 0:01:26.120 --> 0:01:28.880 Know how to do it. The locals might be the ones. 0:01:28.959 --> 0:01:30.759 Because this is when I moved to Atlanta. 0:01:30.840 --> 0:01:33.280 Honestly, the first time it rained, I thought it was 0:01:33.560 --> 0:01:37.440 going to be a tornado storm and it was just 0:01:37.520 --> 0:01:40.480 regular rain, and I realized that what we get is 0:01:40.720 --> 0:01:41.560 not rain at all. 0:01:41.680 --> 0:01:44.800 It's a light drizzle, it's never really raining. It was 0:01:44.920 --> 0:01:45.760 raining a lot. 0:01:46.120 --> 0:01:48.680 Girl, you haven't been to real rain unless you've lived 0:01:48.680 --> 0:01:49.640 outside of California. 0:01:49.720 --> 0:01:51.560 No, I mean, I guess, but it was a medium. 0:01:53.280 --> 0:01:55.520 It was medium. All I want to do when it's 0:01:55.560 --> 0:01:56.520 raining is just like. 0:01:58.480 --> 0:02:01.880 In my bed, Like I didn't go anywhere all day yesterday, 0:02:01.920 --> 0:02:03.720 and then for like two hours, I was like, I 0:02:03.760 --> 0:02:04.760 think I'm depressed. 0:02:05.040 --> 0:02:06.440 But then I realized maybe it's because. 0:02:06.240 --> 0:02:07.920 It was the weather and I hadn't washed my ass, 0:02:08.600 --> 0:02:11.120 changed my clothes, went outside. 0:02:11.240 --> 0:02:14.520 I was like, I'm I'm stressed. I'm depressed. And then 0:02:14.520 --> 0:02:15.720 I'm like, maybe you should wash your. 0:02:15.680 --> 0:02:20.720 Ass maybe that that that always makes me feel better washing. No, 0:02:23.120 --> 0:02:28.960 what was I gonna say? I I had an idea 0:02:29.000 --> 0:02:30.680 of what I was gonna say, and then I forgot, 0:02:31.200 --> 0:02:39.400 probably because I smoked already. I'm having like Eela. That's 0:02:39.400 --> 0:02:41.440 why I'm not gonna smoke. 0:02:43.919 --> 0:02:46.720 This is why I went to Dare. It's peer pressure. 0:02:47.000 --> 0:02:49.600 Oh God, don't say those words, stare, Please don't listen. 0:02:50.720 --> 0:02:51.799 Still they're still around. 0:02:51.960 --> 0:02:52.280 They are. 0:02:52.320 --> 0:02:55.560 I really want one of those T shirts, even though 0:02:55.600 --> 0:02:59.600 I feel like I'm kind of a hypochis that's the point, right, oh, 0:02:59.639 --> 0:03:03.079 to wear No, I don't think that's the point for you. 0:03:03.200 --> 0:03:04.120 I mean for me. No. 0:03:04.160 --> 0:03:05.760 I just like their shirts and I thought they were 0:03:05.800 --> 0:03:07.760 like retired, but they're making it come back. 0:03:09.240 --> 0:03:10.040 I know what I wanted to say. 0:03:10.120 --> 0:03:11.600 I want to just say that if you tuned into 0:03:11.639 --> 0:03:15.120 our episode last week, I have since added links on 0:03:15.160 --> 0:03:17.960 our website. If you go in our to our Instagram, 0:03:18.160 --> 0:03:21.000 our websites. There it's good Mom's Bad Choices dot com. 0:03:21.320 --> 0:03:24.560 I added a section with resources from our last talk. 0:03:24.720 --> 0:03:27.040 Our last episode. If you didn't tune in, you should, 0:03:27.480 --> 0:03:30.200 but if if you did, then you know it was 0:03:30.240 --> 0:03:35.160 about basically talking about body parts anatomy sex with your toddlers, 0:03:35.280 --> 0:03:38.200 your kids, and that it's an ongoing conversation and it's 0:03:38.200 --> 0:03:42.040 so important for kids to identify their body parts by 0:03:42.640 --> 0:03:45.680 their real names. But I'm not gonna get too much 0:03:45.680 --> 0:03:47.760 into that because we already did a whole episode on it. 0:03:47.840 --> 0:03:50.680 But just check out that resources link. It's going to 0:03:50.720 --> 0:03:53.360 be up all the time, and whenever we do episodes 0:03:53.360 --> 0:03:54.880 with like really good info. 0:03:55.000 --> 0:03:56.960 We're going to keep all of the resources up there 0:03:57.040 --> 0:03:59.240 so you guys can check in and you know, do 0:03:59.280 --> 0:04:02.560 some research, have additional resources to the things we discussed 0:04:02.640 --> 0:04:03.600 exactly smart. 0:04:03.760 --> 0:04:07.000 Yeah, and also I'll mean have bad resources there too, 0:04:07.160 --> 0:04:09.080 Like it's just my favorite strip club. 0:04:08.960 --> 0:04:14.960 Oh Sam's. I mean it's it's like the best you're 0:04:14.960 --> 0:04:15.640 gonna get in La. 0:04:15.880 --> 0:04:18.080 Yeah, but have you actually have you done Crazy Girl 0:04:18.120 --> 0:04:18.960 anytime recently? 0:04:19.080 --> 0:04:21.640 Now I went there years ago and they weren't even naked. 0:04:21.720 --> 0:04:25.160 Really, they've they've they've stepped up their game majorly. It's 0:04:25.160 --> 0:04:26.320 a little Sam's up in there. 0:04:26.360 --> 0:04:27.960 It's a little shut up and it's closer. 0:04:28.120 --> 0:04:31.240 Yeah, and it's you know, if you live in La, 0:04:31.360 --> 0:04:33.200 ain't nobody want to drive no more than a ten 0:04:33.240 --> 0:04:36.440 mile radius anywhere? If no one goes to the airport. 0:04:36.480 --> 0:04:38.239 No one goes downtown if they live in the valley. 0:04:38.360 --> 0:04:40.520 This is Sam's is deep, I mean on deep, It's 0:04:40.560 --> 0:04:43.599 just in the downtown. I'm like new to Sam's because 0:04:44.560 --> 0:04:47.200 my ex used to go there all the time, and 0:04:47.240 --> 0:04:48.520 I would like, I didn't really and it was a 0:04:48.520 --> 0:04:52.320 strip club, Sam's Club the store. Now I know it 0:04:52.400 --> 0:04:54.839 was a strip club, but like I was just like, okay, cool, 0:04:54.920 --> 0:04:56.520 but he was going all the time. And then I 0:04:56.560 --> 0:05:00.240 went like recently, maybe like three months ago on my 0:05:00.279 --> 0:05:02.480 own with a girlfriends, and I was like, that's why 0:05:02.560 --> 0:05:03.280 this nigga. 0:05:03.040 --> 0:05:07.479 Was here, Okay, I see. I was like low key angry, 0:05:07.560 --> 0:05:09.200 but then I was like, hey, that's kind of fun. 0:05:09.600 --> 0:05:10.080 And you know what. 0:05:10.160 --> 0:05:12.160 Also, this is me because I'm a fat ass. I'm 0:05:12.160 --> 0:05:13.960 a foodie, y'all the skinny bitches. 0:05:14.000 --> 0:05:17.039 The foodie her and her daughter and my kid. Yes, 0:05:17.240 --> 0:05:19.040 oh my god. And I can't be mad. She's be 0:05:19.040 --> 0:05:20.280 like every five minutes, I'm like, oh my god, I 0:05:20.320 --> 0:05:21.040 did it to my child. 0:05:21.120 --> 0:05:23.120 Every time when it comes over you guys, She's like, 0:05:23.200 --> 0:05:26.560 I want strawberries, I want her harries, I want a food. 0:05:26.720 --> 0:05:28.760 It makes me feel like people think I don't feed 0:05:28.800 --> 0:05:31.440 my kid. No, you know, she just loves her. She 0:05:31.480 --> 0:05:34.240 loves her some food she does. I really doesn't want 0:05:34.240 --> 0:05:35.960 to eat anything French fries. 0:05:36.120 --> 0:05:38.560 Sam's has good food, and usually, like ship clubs in 0:05:38.560 --> 0:05:39.599 Atlanta have good food. 0:05:39.600 --> 0:05:43.520 And that wasn't like ninety like sixty percent of my motivation. 0:05:43.839 --> 0:05:46.320 So the fact that they have good food really makes 0:05:46.320 --> 0:05:49.080 me feel at home because I'm like naked bitches and 0:05:49.160 --> 0:05:50.880 good food, you know, like wings and. 0:05:50.839 --> 0:05:53.920 Titties, Wings and titty We should open a strip club, 0:05:53.960 --> 0:05:54.640 wings and titties. 0:05:54.640 --> 0:05:57.120 That's a good one. It's a good one, and it 0:05:57.160 --> 0:05:59.280 can be close. We're gonna make some merch that say 0:05:59.320 --> 0:06:02.680 wings and tit checking out on our website. 0:06:02.440 --> 0:06:06.279 What wings and titt wangs? Titties and wangs? Cause what's 0:06:06.279 --> 0:06:11.920 wrong with them? Anyway? Anything new this week happened to you? 0:06:12.320 --> 0:06:14.640 And they've been like feeling out of it. 0:06:14.800 --> 0:06:17.680 So no, I just been like I got back into 0:06:17.760 --> 0:06:21.120 work and then I uh, I've been hanging. 0:06:20.960 --> 0:06:26.000 Out with Iri and I had an audition, no commercial. 0:06:26.480 --> 0:06:29.080 Oh you did have that? Go it was good? It 0:06:29.160 --> 0:06:33.640 was good. Yes, Irin, you have to go out there. Okay, 0:06:33.720 --> 0:06:35.000 so you guys go play in there. 0:06:35.360 --> 0:06:41.800 Oh, go go by, go outside, Okay, come through come here, 0:06:41.920 --> 0:06:42.880 come through here. 0:06:45.800 --> 0:06:50.880 Our podcast lives al't but anyway, iother gets to hurt me. 0:06:52.440 --> 0:06:55.480 Hi, let's go go go go. 0:07:00.000 --> 0:07:00.040 It. 0:07:00.040 --> 0:07:03.440 Okay, cause i'd be ending stuff too, Come on you 0:07:03.560 --> 0:07:05.880 edit it. I edited our last episode just like from 0:07:05.960 --> 0:07:07.760 stuff when I came in and it cause it was 0:07:07.800 --> 0:07:12.560 like overkill. Yeah, I was like, just it was easy. 0:07:13.880 --> 0:07:18.520 I've been getting back into work and just I wanna 0:07:18.560 --> 0:07:20.960 start working out again. I've been falling off, not feeling 0:07:21.000 --> 0:07:24.120 so great. Working out is like part of my mental 0:07:24.160 --> 0:07:25.800 sanity in life. 0:07:25.840 --> 0:07:28.160 Period. You feel like working out n ki ki like 0:07:28.480 --> 0:07:31.080 n keeps you sane. Yes, that's probably what I need 0:07:31.120 --> 0:07:32.240 to do, but it's hard for me. 0:07:32.480 --> 0:07:34.760 I get really into it and then I get really inconsistent, 0:07:34.800 --> 0:07:36.760 and then I start I just noticed a shift in 0:07:36.800 --> 0:08:03.320 my attitude. Yes, baby, okay, okay. 0:08:04.240 --> 0:08:04.600 All right. 0:08:06.240 --> 0:08:09.680 I went on a date that was cool. This is 0:08:10.000 --> 0:08:12.080 oh a new date? No, no, the date we were 0:08:12.120 --> 0:08:14.480 a little the same date, okay, same guide, same date. 0:08:14.760 --> 0:08:24.960 Yeah, and chatted with you, texted, we texted a lot, texted, 0:08:26.080 --> 0:08:29.360 built Insta stories. 0:08:29.080 --> 0:08:32.720 To like whatever I'm like am I slow? Clearly social 0:08:32.720 --> 0:08:34.960 media is a whole other thing. I feel so much pressure. 0:08:34.960 --> 0:08:37.480 I'm like, let me ask the hair cut. This one's okay. No, 0:08:37.480 --> 0:08:39.360 I don't feel pressure. I don't. I barely know what 0:08:39.400 --> 0:08:39.719 I'm doing. 0:08:39.760 --> 0:08:41.800 I only know because of beauty Blender and like looking 0:08:41.800 --> 0:08:44.320 at their stuff all day and watching other people make 0:08:44.360 --> 0:08:46.160 things better than me, and then I'm like, oh, that's 0:08:46.200 --> 0:08:46.880 how you do that. 0:08:47.080 --> 0:08:49.520 I thought I could stayed up post for like forty 0:08:49.520 --> 0:08:51.960 five minutes, and then I get Hi, I distracted, and 0:08:51.960 --> 0:08:52.800 I'm like it's ugly. 0:08:53.480 --> 0:08:58.280 Yeah, it's too much. Oh So, speaking of new news 0:08:59.440 --> 0:09:04.240 recently in Kelly of North's Sacramento, did you hear about 0:09:05.160 --> 0:09:08.240 Stephen Clark. Stephen Clark is Stephan or Stephen Stefan. 0:09:08.520 --> 0:09:11.160 I think when when white people use pH, it's Stephen, 0:09:11.440 --> 0:09:14.439 when Black people use pH, it's Stefan or Stephan. 0:09:14.559 --> 0:09:16.520 Because I've heard in a few different ways and no confusing. 0:09:17.120 --> 0:09:19.040 I don't want to be out here saying his name 0:09:19.720 --> 0:09:23.160 incorrectly because it's really important and he's an important person. 0:09:23.480 --> 0:09:24.400 Rest his soul. 0:09:24.840 --> 0:09:30.240 Unfortunately he had to lose his life absolutely, get murdered. 0:09:30.320 --> 0:09:31.440 Let's just say get murdered. 0:09:31.440 --> 0:09:34.559 He got murdered by the police in his own backyard 0:09:35.400 --> 0:09:37.040 for being on a cell phone. 0:09:37.240 --> 0:09:39.920 I mean this seems like I've heard this before. 0:09:40.559 --> 0:09:42.360 I just can't believe when we just watched that video 0:09:42.480 --> 0:09:46.760 right now, like that they shot twenty shots between two people, 0:09:46.960 --> 0:09:50.320 like this is Iraq, Like this is the war. There's 0:09:50.360 --> 0:09:52.600 only one person. It does not take twenty gun shots 0:09:52.600 --> 0:09:55.719 to put one person down. Like what kind of it's 0:09:55.720 --> 0:09:56.280 like a video? 0:09:56.440 --> 0:09:56.600 Gay? 0:09:56.679 --> 0:09:58.960 Yeah. I mean, first of all, to be in the 0:09:59.000 --> 0:10:01.520 line of duty, you're on gonna you're fighting crime. 0:10:01.600 --> 0:10:03.760 Let's be real, that's what you're supposed to be doing. 0:10:04.280 --> 0:10:05.640 But at some point. 0:10:05.360 --> 0:10:07.199 When you signed up for that ship, when you went 0:10:07.240 --> 0:10:10.520 through the camp or training whatever training that obviously it's 0:10:11.000 --> 0:10:17.600 minimal go around that happens. I mean, honestly, these people 0:10:17.640 --> 0:10:20.959 are cowards. You can literally hear him shaking and his 0:10:21.360 --> 0:10:25.200 breathing in the officer. Yeah, after they've shot this man 0:10:25.320 --> 0:10:28.880 twenty times. The most the hardest part is that they 0:10:28.960 --> 0:10:31.199 let him sit there for five or six minutes asking. 0:10:31.000 --> 0:10:33.800 Him to get up. Do you have a gun? You 0:10:33.840 --> 0:10:34.480 have a gun? 0:10:34.640 --> 0:10:36.880 You just shot someone twenty times? Do you really think 0:10:36.880 --> 0:10:38.480 they're gonna then they can respond? 0:10:38.520 --> 0:10:41.440 You think they're alive? Do you think they survived? You 0:10:41.480 --> 0:10:43.040 are a fucking idiot, is what you are. 0:10:43.080 --> 0:10:45.440 And you should have no business having any job except 0:10:45.480 --> 0:10:48.520 the one at Walmart because you're dumb as fuck. And 0:10:49.000 --> 0:10:53.000 I really hope even though unfortunately we all know, these 0:10:53.000 --> 0:10:56.800 motherfuckers are gonna get paid leave for six months or 0:10:56.800 --> 0:10:59.800 however long it takes a paid vacation for them the 0:11:00.000 --> 0:11:03.280 investigate when I could be I'll be the investigator murder. 0:11:03.920 --> 0:11:05.480 They need to go to jail. They're not going to 0:11:05.480 --> 0:11:07.440 go to jail. They they're not. 0:11:07.559 --> 0:11:09.920 Especially they've already started talking about that this was a 0:11:10.040 --> 0:11:13.120 justified kill because after watching the footage, even though that 0:11:13.320 --> 0:11:14.719 like it could have because of. 0:11:14.679 --> 0:11:20.000 What anything, how are they discussing it. It's a justified kills. 0:11:20.160 --> 0:11:22.360 That's the report that I had seen when it first happened, 0:11:22.400 --> 0:11:23.760 and I don't know if it's I'm pretty sure it's 0:11:23.760 --> 0:11:26.360 probably changed its First. 0:11:26.200 --> 0:11:29.240 Of all, the call was for a black male who 0:11:29.320 --> 0:11:30.560 was breaking into cars. 0:11:30.720 --> 0:11:32.319 Okay, not a mass murderer, not. 0:11:32.320 --> 0:11:35.080 A rapist on the loose, not someone with a machine 0:11:35.120 --> 0:11:39.080 gun in the neighborhood. It's an alert red somebody breaking 0:11:39.080 --> 0:11:39.720 into cars. 0:11:39.800 --> 0:11:41.319 Now, if you're going to find something. 0:11:41.160 --> 0:11:43.240 Breaking into cars and you just see a black man, 0:11:43.720 --> 0:11:46.079 you have not identified this person, haven't asked for any 0:11:46.120 --> 0:11:51.320 type of ID and you pull your weapon. First of all, 0:11:51.400 --> 0:11:53.240 you don't need a gun to break into a car. 0:11:53.440 --> 0:11:55.280 And they said they thought it was a crowbar. What 0:11:55.320 --> 0:11:56.000 did they think he was. 0:11:56.000 --> 0:11:56.600 Going to do? 0:11:56.720 --> 0:12:01.240 Willkanda swing it at them? Like they shot him twenty times? 0:12:01.240 --> 0:12:03.160 And then proceeded to ask him, we need to know 0:12:03.200 --> 0:12:05.520 if you have a gun on you. They must show 0:12:05.559 --> 0:12:06.760 me your hands, Show. 0:12:06.600 --> 0:12:07.160 Me your hands. 0:12:07.200 --> 0:12:09.640 They must really think we're from we're superhuman. They must 0:12:09.640 --> 0:12:10.920 think black people are superhuman. 0:12:10.960 --> 0:12:14.079 I mean, we are superhuman are but ain't nobody human 0:12:15.040 --> 0:12:17.680 survive twenty gunshots? 0:12:18.440 --> 0:12:23.160 Show me your hands? I like, I just I want 0:12:23.160 --> 0:12:24.480 to know how these people sleep at night. 0:12:24.720 --> 0:12:26.240 I want to know how do you go to work 0:12:26.280 --> 0:12:29.880 every day and you're this scared of black people. 0:12:31.200 --> 0:12:34.160 Or people period? Like this should not be listen. I 0:12:34.160 --> 0:12:36.160 don't like blood. I don't like death. 0:12:36.280 --> 0:12:38.400 I don't like losing people. I can't be a nurse. 0:12:38.720 --> 0:12:41.360 I know that because I know myself. If you're a pussy, 0:12:41.640 --> 0:12:42.880 you need not be a cop. 0:12:43.840 --> 0:12:46.480 You need not be a cop. It's like one plus 0:12:46.520 --> 0:12:48.840 one equals too. And I hope, like I literally hope 0:12:48.880 --> 0:12:51.560 that he has he. I hope that I should hunt 0:12:51.640 --> 0:12:53.679 that motherfucker for the rest of their lives. I really do. 0:12:53.840 --> 0:12:56.920 I really do, because that's somebody's child. That's somebody that 0:12:56.960 --> 0:12:59.400 he lived with, his grandparents. His grandparents and his child 0:12:59.440 --> 0:13:00.320 were in the house. 0:13:00.640 --> 0:13:02.400 They didn't even know it was him that they shot 0:13:02.400 --> 0:13:05.319 in their backyard. They didn't even. 0:13:05.160 --> 0:13:09.319 Know that their grandchild is back there getting murdered by cops, 0:13:09.600 --> 0:13:11.000 people who are supposed to protect you. 0:13:12.240 --> 0:13:14.480 I mean, if I saw a cop running towards me 0:13:14.880 --> 0:13:18.400 as a black man, I'm running too. I'm running because 0:13:18.440 --> 0:13:20.880 I don't know why y'all are running, and I'm running 0:13:20.920 --> 0:13:22.560 because y'all are chasing me and I haven't done shit. 0:13:22.640 --> 0:13:24.680 And I'm scared of cops at this point because you 0:13:24.720 --> 0:13:27.720 guys have worked in our trust so many times. 0:13:27.720 --> 0:13:30.040 And don't get me wrong, I know some things are accidents. 0:13:30.559 --> 0:13:33.040 Do I think that these cops like set out to 0:13:33.160 --> 0:13:35.920 murder someone woke up this morning and were like, we're 0:13:35.920 --> 0:13:39.600 gonna go murder some like niggers today. Like, I don't 0:13:39.640 --> 0:13:41.600 know that for sure. I can't make that. That's a 0:13:41.640 --> 0:13:45.440 really grandose assumption, But I just feel like it's the 0:13:45.520 --> 0:13:49.480 lack of training. These people do not have any training, 0:13:50.400 --> 0:13:53.760 which makes you do pussy shit. You act like you're 0:13:53.760 --> 0:13:56.080 in a fucking video game because and suddenly your life 0:13:56.120 --> 0:13:57.400 is more important than the other person's. 0:13:57.440 --> 0:14:00.800 There is training, but the training is probably biased. It's terrible. 0:14:00.880 --> 0:14:06.840 Yeah, and there's just there's just a bad likes. And 0:14:06.880 --> 0:14:08.480 then on the at the root of like what the 0:14:08.480 --> 0:14:11.160 police force is, I know it comes stems from goodness, 0:14:11.160 --> 0:14:14.000 but they're rotting way. 0:14:14.160 --> 0:14:16.880 But that's where you're wrong, and that's where people are misconceived, 0:14:17.559 --> 0:14:20.920 the misconception of the police forces that they I mean, 0:14:21.440 --> 0:14:23.760 we all have, you know, think that they're there for good. 0:14:23.800 --> 0:14:26.560 But you know that the police the police force started 0:14:27.120 --> 0:14:31.640 as like slave catchers. That's literally where the police force 0:14:32.000 --> 0:14:34.840 the root of it is. So like even the badges 0:14:34.880 --> 0:14:37.120 are similar, like that came from that. So when it 0:14:37.240 --> 0:14:39.160 stems from that, even like we're in the United States, 0:14:39.200 --> 0:14:42.520 it's not gonna twisted. Even black people have like embreded 0:14:42.680 --> 0:14:47.240 stereotypical racist feelings because that's what we're fed constantly. 0:14:47.080 --> 0:14:48.720 These white like these cops. 0:14:49.680 --> 0:14:51.360 That ship is not that big of a deal because 0:14:51.360 --> 0:14:54.200 there's no consequences and there have been no consequences. Fuck 0:14:54.240 --> 0:14:57.560 a body cam, it does not matter. First of all, 0:14:57.560 --> 0:14:59.720 on that settage we didn't see him run. We just 0:14:59.760 --> 0:15:01.880 talked in the backyard. There was no footage of him running. 0:15:01.880 --> 0:15:02.720 I didn't see him run. 0:15:03.120 --> 0:15:05.240 And where's the app where's the rest of the footage? 0:15:05.240 --> 0:15:07.760 You only put it on so you own They switched 0:15:07.760 --> 0:15:09.960 on their camera footage when when. 0:15:09.760 --> 0:15:11.320 They started break before they started shooting. 0:15:11.360 --> 0:15:14.640 And then the fact that part is even if he 0:15:14.720 --> 0:15:16.960 had not run or had run, it may. 0:15:16.760 --> 0:15:19.800 Not have changed their It may not have changed anything 0:15:19.880 --> 0:15:22.640 because we've seen other videos where people aren't running, they 0:15:22.680 --> 0:15:26.800 aren't doing anything, plain daylight, Eric Gardner, and they strangled 0:15:26.840 --> 0:15:28.720 him together ten people and nobody. 0:15:29.280 --> 0:15:35.479 Yes, okay, I'm coming. 0:15:38.200 --> 0:15:39.760 This interested. 0:15:52.400 --> 0:15:56.640 Sorry for that short break. Kids are very needy. We're 0:15:56.680 --> 0:15:59.200 back but but yeah, anyway. 0:15:58.840 --> 0:16:03.440 I don't wanna We have an episode plans today, guys. 0:16:03.480 --> 0:16:05.240 But we had to mention this because it is just 0:16:05.360 --> 0:16:07.360 so outrageous. 0:16:06.720 --> 0:16:10.280 Outrageous and sad, sad, and it's just sad that it's 0:16:10.640 --> 0:16:13.960 like I'm getting used to it. 0:16:13.960 --> 0:16:17.720 It's normal. It's not surprising that this is happening because. 0:16:17.680 --> 0:16:20.520 I'm getting numbt getting numbed to it, Loki, Like, not 0:16:20.640 --> 0:16:22.280 that I don't care about this at all, I do. 0:16:22.320 --> 0:16:24.120 When I just saw that video, Like something inside me 0:16:24.240 --> 0:16:28.360 just makes me so fucking angry. I'm angry, like it's 0:16:28.400 --> 0:16:31.200 just becoming. It's not getting better because no one's paying 0:16:31.240 --> 0:16:34.200 the price. There's no comb's going to be an example. 0:16:34.280 --> 0:16:36.120 We just have to be the examples all the time. 0:16:36.240 --> 0:16:37.800 It's just it's crazy. 0:16:38.040 --> 0:16:41.800 And this person is someone's child, Like, this is someone's child. 0:16:41.920 --> 0:16:46.640 And people don't look at other people from different socioeconomic 0:16:47.160 --> 0:16:50.480 places and like different skin cut but they suddenly like 0:16:50.520 --> 0:16:53.640 their children are not human to them or something. 0:16:54.200 --> 0:16:57.200 Yeah, like they're not looking at they're they're what are 0:16:57.200 --> 0:16:58.040 you saying, separating? 0:16:58.600 --> 0:17:02.160 I just mean like they just don't look at people like, oh, 0:17:02.160 --> 0:17:03.640 you're a child, You're someone's child. 0:17:04.320 --> 0:17:07.359 That's my biggest That's what I'm most baffled by because 0:17:07.359 --> 0:17:10.359 a lot of the times these cops are parents, and like, literally, 0:17:10.440 --> 0:17:13.320 I don't know what your experience was, but like obviously 0:17:13.320 --> 0:17:15.200 I knew this, but when I gave birth to, when 0:17:15.200 --> 0:17:18.040 I gave birth to like this innocent, small little being, 0:17:18.520 --> 0:17:20.639 and then you just see how innocent they are and 0:17:20.680 --> 0:17:21.920 how they don't know anything. 0:17:22.000 --> 0:17:24.240 And I mean literally, we're just born. 0:17:24.320 --> 0:17:27.440 We were not choosing any of our socio you know, 0:17:27.680 --> 0:17:30.000 economic statuses and it's just like you would think that 0:17:30.000 --> 0:17:31.439 that could soften anyone's heart. 0:17:31.320 --> 0:17:33.000 Like that when people. 0:17:32.720 --> 0:17:36.080 Who have kids who are mothers or fathers and they're racist, 0:17:36.200 --> 0:17:39.919 it really baffles me because you've experienced the beauty of 0:17:40.080 --> 0:17:43.959 childbirth and like the pureness and that you've you've chosen 0:17:44.000 --> 0:17:48.199 to have hate. Oh my god, this is this is 0:17:48.200 --> 0:17:50.800 not on topic, but have you seen there's a snapchat 0:17:50.880 --> 0:17:53.200 in some racist ass places in Middle America? 0:17:53.560 --> 0:17:55.480 Two white nurses are. 0:17:58.000 --> 0:18:02.560 Maternity nurses in the maternity ward and they were snapchatting 0:18:02.600 --> 0:18:05.680 like this little black baby and saying like, look, I'm 0:18:05.680 --> 0:18:08.600 a rapper, like making racist comments with the baby on 0:18:08.640 --> 0:18:09.359 the snapchat. 0:18:09.680 --> 0:18:14.040 What a newborn. And apparently they have one friend that 0:18:14.080 --> 0:18:17.080 cares because someone reported them and they got fired as 0:18:17.119 --> 0:18:17.520 they should. 0:18:17.640 --> 0:18:22.280 But calling the baby like inappropriate names. Can you imagine? 0:18:22.680 --> 0:18:26.760 That's another thing like which brings us to our topic today. 0:18:27.119 --> 0:18:33.360 Today we're gonna be discussing pregnancy postpartum and how real 0:18:33.440 --> 0:18:36.600 that motherfucking transition is. Yeah, the shock factor. 0:18:36.359 --> 0:18:40.960 Shock factor. It's not what Instagram is showing. No, it's 0:18:40.960 --> 0:18:44.280 not even what my Instagram is showing. Nobody told me 0:18:44.359 --> 0:18:46.400 about this part of it. There's a lot of shit 0:18:46.440 --> 0:18:50.120 people don't tell me about, but this, for sure, it's like, oh, 0:18:50.160 --> 0:18:51.160 it's gonna be hard. 0:18:51.680 --> 0:18:58.439 That is the lightest, most diet sugarcoated form of saying bitch, 0:18:58.640 --> 0:19:08.439 are you sure about this? Because yeah, yeah, seriously. This 0:19:08.600 --> 0:19:11.440 is a big thing for me because immediately I was like, 0:19:11.480 --> 0:19:12.960 what the fuck have I done? 0:19:14.000 --> 0:19:16.440 When you got pregnant? I mean, when I got pregnant. 0:19:17.280 --> 0:19:20.000 After I had the baby, when I got home two 0:19:20.000 --> 0:19:20.840 weeks after that. 0:19:22.200 --> 0:19:24.240 Well, no, when I got pregnant, I was so scared. 0:19:24.359 --> 0:19:27.840 I was terrified. Did you cry? I didn't cry. 0:19:28.000 --> 0:19:31.120 I just felt fear Like I was like, yeah, like 0:19:31.440 --> 0:19:33.080 I'm going to pass time right now. And I was like, 0:19:33.160 --> 0:19:35.280 oh my god, Like I don't even like kids. 0:19:35.800 --> 0:19:39.840 You don't I do? Now? I love kids other than 0:19:39.920 --> 0:19:41.920