1 00:00:00,520 --> 00:00:03,920 Speaker 1: So I'm excited. We got Yeah, we have a guest 2 00:00:04,120 --> 00:00:07,320 Speaker 1: um this week in the studio. Um, I guess we'll 3 00:00:07,320 --> 00:00:09,280 Speaker 1: start off how we normally do. Hi, guys, welcome to 4 00:00:09,360 --> 00:00:12,879 Speaker 1: yet another episode of Horrible Decisions. This is your girl 5 00:00:13,320 --> 00:00:16,680 Speaker 1: maybebe And I'm sitting next to Wheezy and we have 6 00:00:16,920 --> 00:00:22,920 Speaker 1: Lisa splits in Hi, who, by the way, has her 7 00:00:22,960 --> 00:00:25,759 Speaker 1: tips her on the table and it's super out on 8 00:00:25,800 --> 00:00:28,480 Speaker 1: this meeting. How big are your boobs? I think I'm 9 00:00:28,520 --> 00:00:31,880 Speaker 1: a thirty eight double F, which is fitting, so which 10 00:00:31,920 --> 00:00:34,240 Speaker 1: is insane because I'm a triple D and I feel 11 00:00:34,280 --> 00:00:38,040 Speaker 1: like my tips are just ginormous. So we're then this 12 00:00:38,080 --> 00:00:39,400 Speaker 1: is a cute as bra. Where the fun did you 13 00:00:39,440 --> 00:00:41,519 Speaker 1: even get this bro from? I got this ship online. 14 00:00:41,520 --> 00:00:43,080 Speaker 1: I don't know some slave got it for me, but 15 00:00:43,120 --> 00:00:47,959 Speaker 1: I gotta slave got it. It's yeah, it's like it's 16 00:00:48,000 --> 00:00:51,000 Speaker 1: pretty stretchy and ship. I just, um, I just get 17 00:00:51,000 --> 00:00:53,120 Speaker 1: really mad though, when like I go because I'm like, 18 00:00:53,120 --> 00:00:55,000 Speaker 1: I'm a thick bitch, And when I go online if 19 00:00:55,040 --> 00:00:59,160 Speaker 1: something is like labeled as a large they don't they 20 00:00:59,200 --> 00:01:03,920 Speaker 1: don't act are I know? It's terrible, Like and even 21 00:01:03,920 --> 00:01:05,920 Speaker 1: when I was so I lived in Singapore for a 22 00:01:05,959 --> 00:01:08,759 Speaker 1: while I was shopping in Asia, Bitch, I was looking 23 00:01:08,800 --> 00:01:10,840 Speaker 1: at one time, which I was looking at these largest 24 00:01:10,840 --> 00:01:14,720 Speaker 1: and actual largest like wash medium as one twenty ys. Bitches, 25 00:01:15,000 --> 00:01:17,360 Speaker 1: this thing because it ain't fitting there. I know you 26 00:01:17,360 --> 00:01:18,920 Speaker 1: can't be seen all the times. The ship didn't even 27 00:01:18,959 --> 00:01:21,720 Speaker 1: fit me. Dog, that's what that's in saying. No, like 28 00:01:21,840 --> 00:01:24,120 Speaker 1: Asia had super tiny stuff and it's so funny, like 29 00:01:24,720 --> 00:01:26,759 Speaker 1: love it. We got another thing, bitch, and study out, bitch, 30 00:01:26,760 --> 00:01:31,160 Speaker 1: because we're gonna talk about some ship. I paid for these. 31 00:01:31,240 --> 00:01:32,959 Speaker 1: I'm just saying I feel like I should be part 32 00:01:32,959 --> 00:01:34,800 Speaker 1: of the club. I'm mad that you paid for what 33 00:01:34,920 --> 00:01:38,360 Speaker 1: is the b A C? No? These are four seat? Yeah, 34 00:01:38,360 --> 00:01:40,760 Speaker 1: you paid for a seat. That's to describe it. He 35 00:01:40,800 --> 00:01:43,120 Speaker 1: says these are enough to fit in a grown man's hands. 36 00:01:44,000 --> 00:01:49,360 Speaker 1: But it's true, But are they so my hands? I'm 37 00:01:49,360 --> 00:01:51,760 Speaker 1: a five ft one bitch, and your tips look like 38 00:01:51,760 --> 00:01:53,640 Speaker 1: they just fit in my hands, which I have good? 39 00:01:53,920 --> 00:01:58,040 Speaker 1: Nice I have good tips alright. Anyway, can we get 40 00:01:58,080 --> 00:02:00,640 Speaker 1: back to our guys. So I want to, um, I guess, 41 00:02:00,720 --> 00:02:03,040 Speaker 1: let our listeners know a little bit about our guess. 42 00:02:03,080 --> 00:02:05,200 Speaker 1: Do you want to tell us kind of about yourself? 43 00:02:05,200 --> 00:02:07,560 Speaker 1: What you do for a living. Why we have you 44 00:02:07,640 --> 00:02:12,600 Speaker 1: on horrible decisions? Um? Well, so I'm a stand up comedian, 45 00:02:12,720 --> 00:02:16,519 Speaker 1: I'm a writer, and I also do dom work. Um online, 46 00:02:17,160 --> 00:02:20,920 Speaker 1: I do it in person sometimes if I like, you know, 47 00:02:21,040 --> 00:02:24,360 Speaker 1: have vetted out you have to because you have the background. 48 00:02:24,360 --> 00:02:26,520 Speaker 1: But you have the background check, motherfucker's because people are 49 00:02:26,560 --> 00:02:29,119 Speaker 1: looking crazy. But yeah, I do domt work, Like, yeah, 50 00:02:29,160 --> 00:02:32,640 Speaker 1: I do like my retail job to like supplement my 51 00:02:32,720 --> 00:02:36,480 Speaker 1: income and ship. But I'm really passionate about dom work 52 00:02:36,520 --> 00:02:40,760 Speaker 1: and I'm passionate about talking about sex and consent in 53 00:02:40,800 --> 00:02:43,560 Speaker 1: a positive way because I just look back at the 54 00:02:43,680 --> 00:02:47,000 Speaker 1: education that I was given on sex growing up and consent. 55 00:02:47,080 --> 00:02:49,320 Speaker 1: I only I learned about consent from my mom. I 56 00:02:49,320 --> 00:02:52,080 Speaker 1: don't learned about that from school. I didn't learn about 57 00:02:52,120 --> 00:02:55,560 Speaker 1: that from anybody really. And I like to talk openly 58 00:02:55,600 --> 00:03:01,880 Speaker 1: about these things because I feel that Black women are 59 00:03:01,960 --> 00:03:04,000 Speaker 1: oppressed in many ways. But one of the ways is 60 00:03:04,040 --> 00:03:07,080 Speaker 1: that like our sexuality is kind of like taken from us, 61 00:03:07,080 --> 00:03:11,120 Speaker 1: Like we're sexualized from birth, from birth, extremely sexualized, and 62 00:03:11,200 --> 00:03:12,639 Speaker 1: like there's all this ship was like, oh, well, you 63 00:03:12,639 --> 00:03:15,959 Speaker 1: shouldn't conduct yourself in this way, or you shouldn't dress 64 00:03:16,040 --> 00:03:18,160 Speaker 1: like this because you're letting down your community and you're 65 00:03:18,200 --> 00:03:20,200 Speaker 1: letting down this is like why is it that my 66 00:03:20,320 --> 00:03:23,040 Speaker 1: body is vulgar? Like why is it that because of 67 00:03:23,080 --> 00:03:26,160 Speaker 1: my race and because I'm bigger and I have big boobs? 68 00:03:26,160 --> 00:03:29,200 Speaker 1: Like why does that make me vulgar? Like? Why does that? 69 00:03:29,320 --> 00:03:31,280 Speaker 1: And it doesn't make any sense. It's not like that's 70 00:03:31,360 --> 00:03:36,360 Speaker 1: you pushing your white supremacist, fat phobic ideals onto me. 71 00:03:36,720 --> 00:03:39,440 Speaker 1: And I'm tired. I ingested that ship for a long time. 72 00:03:40,080 --> 00:03:42,080 Speaker 1: And I hold you by the way, I'm twenty four 73 00:03:42,160 --> 00:03:44,600 Speaker 1: years old, And when do you think you started learning 74 00:03:44,600 --> 00:03:47,040 Speaker 1: that he was okay to be this sexual and be 75 00:03:47,120 --> 00:03:51,360 Speaker 1: this person? Um, I think like when I went when 76 00:03:51,400 --> 00:03:55,160 Speaker 1: I went to college. I think maybe like my junior 77 00:03:55,280 --> 00:03:59,280 Speaker 1: year of college, Like I just started like exploring things 78 00:03:59,360 --> 00:04:02,480 Speaker 1: on my terms, and that's when I felt the most 79 00:04:02,520 --> 00:04:05,680 Speaker 1: comfortable in my own skin. And that's when I felt 80 00:04:05,680 --> 00:04:07,920 Speaker 1: the most That's when my sex life got better. When 81 00:04:07,920 --> 00:04:10,160 Speaker 1: I started saying like no, like I want things this 82 00:04:10,240 --> 00:04:13,040 Speaker 1: way or I like things this way, or you know, 83 00:04:13,160 --> 00:04:16,000 Speaker 1: like I'm I'm a polyamorous person, so like when I'm 84 00:04:16,040 --> 00:04:18,200 Speaker 1: engaging and like also just like the the whole way 85 00:04:18,240 --> 00:04:22,960 Speaker 1: that polyamory is painted in the society. We needed you. 86 00:04:23,640 --> 00:04:25,960 Speaker 1: We were discussing Nolan. Have you watched She's Gotta Have It? 87 00:04:26,040 --> 00:04:28,760 Speaker 1: Not yet? So she called herself polyamorous, and we both right, 88 00:04:28,800 --> 00:04:31,720 Speaker 1: and we kind of we disagreed with how she used 89 00:04:31,720 --> 00:04:34,320 Speaker 1: the title, and I think she judged the show based 90 00:04:34,360 --> 00:04:37,440 Speaker 1: on what she saw as polyamory. And then I broke down, 91 00:04:37,960 --> 00:04:40,520 Speaker 1: um kind of how I thought that she wasn't Polly. 92 00:04:40,600 --> 00:04:43,400 Speaker 1: But the show made sense to me. It resonated with me. Um, 93 00:04:43,440 --> 00:04:44,440 Speaker 1: So it would have been great to have you on, 94 00:04:44,520 --> 00:04:46,360 Speaker 1: But I thought it was a black show talking about 95 00:04:46,360 --> 00:04:48,400 Speaker 1: polyamory because and and by the way, I just want 96 00:04:48,400 --> 00:04:50,560 Speaker 1: to tell you guys, I found Lisa on Instagram on 97 00:04:50,600 --> 00:04:53,560 Speaker 1: my Explore page and watched your Answertrys, like, oh my god, 98 00:04:53,560 --> 00:04:56,600 Speaker 1: this which is dope. And I really wanted to have 99 00:04:56,680 --> 00:05:02,240 Speaker 1: someone that was just pro feminist pol black. But even 100 00:05:02,279 --> 00:05:05,040 Speaker 1: from a feminist perspective, I didn't want someone white because 101 00:05:05,080 --> 00:05:06,680 Speaker 1: I felt like a lot of the things they said 102 00:05:06,880 --> 00:05:10,039 Speaker 1: can't resonate with our listeners. Um, this is a black podcast, 103 00:05:10,120 --> 00:05:12,880 Speaker 1: and I didn't want that Lena Dunham ship. Where God, 104 00:05:13,400 --> 00:05:19,680 Speaker 1: who is Lena Dunham fucking creators. She's least yes, she's 105 00:05:19,760 --> 00:05:21,800 Speaker 1: I call that bitch zip block so you may hear 106 00:05:21,839 --> 00:05:25,600 Speaker 1: brilliant idiots talk about her. Okay, go ahead. I call 107 00:05:25,680 --> 00:05:28,040 Speaker 1: this bitch zip block bag lips because her lips look 108 00:05:28,160 --> 00:05:30,320 Speaker 1: like the opening of a ziplock bag and she needs 109 00:05:30,360 --> 00:05:32,919 Speaker 1: to zip it because she keeps saying ship that's like 110 00:05:33,000 --> 00:05:35,919 Speaker 1: really fucking offensive. Basically, she's like the epitome of She 111 00:05:36,040 --> 00:05:39,200 Speaker 1: was a girl who was director of Girls and she 112 00:05:39,279 --> 00:05:41,240 Speaker 1: created the show. But by the way, I actually really 113 00:05:41,240 --> 00:05:44,000 Speaker 1: loved the show, which makes me so much more angry 114 00:05:44,000 --> 00:05:45,800 Speaker 1: than like fun. I hate that. I want to support 115 00:05:45,800 --> 00:05:49,000 Speaker 1: this bitch so much, but hater. So she was the 116 00:05:49,000 --> 00:05:50,919 Speaker 1: one who made the comment about like Odell Beckham not 117 00:05:51,000 --> 00:05:55,320 Speaker 1: speaking to her because she's maybe he just didn't see me, 118 00:05:55,480 --> 00:06:00,960 Speaker 1: like he's just like I just it's this, Well, this 119 00:06:01,040 --> 00:06:03,719 Speaker 1: is a lot of feminists are just for white girls 120 00:06:03,839 --> 00:06:06,160 Speaker 1: and as Lena, and that's why I was very worried 121 00:06:06,160 --> 00:06:09,479 Speaker 1: about having wanting someone to empower us but really just 122 00:06:09,520 --> 00:06:12,640 Speaker 1: speaking for women that we can't relate to. Well, one 123 00:06:12,680 --> 00:06:15,160 Speaker 1: thing that I, um, I guess want to touch with 124 00:06:15,200 --> 00:06:17,840 Speaker 1: you on because it's something that you mentioned in your 125 00:06:17,880 --> 00:06:22,120 Speaker 1: opening and it makes sense, and I resonate with it completely. Um, 126 00:06:22,200 --> 00:06:27,040 Speaker 1: being a curvy um female and you feeling that our 127 00:06:27,040 --> 00:06:29,840 Speaker 1: bodies are sexualized even at a young age. Um. It's 128 00:06:29,839 --> 00:06:33,960 Speaker 1: funny because I remember even as early as maybe fifth grade, 129 00:06:34,000 --> 00:06:37,200 Speaker 1: for sure, sixth grade in middle school, I would wear 130 00:06:37,800 --> 00:06:41,960 Speaker 1: maybe something that a skinny girl would wear, and I 131 00:06:42,040 --> 00:06:44,880 Speaker 1: remember just the teachers having such a problem with me 132 00:06:44,920 --> 00:06:47,719 Speaker 1: wearing it because of my butt my thighs, and it's 133 00:06:47,800 --> 00:06:51,240 Speaker 1: just like, what's the problem with me wearing this? And 134 00:06:51,279 --> 00:06:54,800 Speaker 1: there's a white girl with shorter shorts than meat short 135 00:06:55,000 --> 00:06:58,240 Speaker 1: crop tops and it wasn't a problem. It was literally 136 00:06:58,240 --> 00:07:04,279 Speaker 1: a problem. Eyes. Yeah, and so um, when at what age, um, 137 00:07:04,520 --> 00:07:07,359 Speaker 1: did you start feeling that your body was being looked 138 00:07:07,400 --> 00:07:10,600 Speaker 1: at as a sexual object because you were maybe more 139 00:07:10,680 --> 00:07:13,800 Speaker 1: developed in like ship I remember I had at fourteen, 140 00:07:13,840 --> 00:07:16,240 Speaker 1: I had a fake I D and men would approach 141 00:07:16,280 --> 00:07:17,680 Speaker 1: me like I was a grown ass woman because my 142 00:07:17,720 --> 00:07:21,640 Speaker 1: body looked well developed. But I'm a thick girl. Um. 143 00:07:21,720 --> 00:07:24,200 Speaker 1: And so at what age did you start feeling that 144 00:07:24,280 --> 00:07:28,960 Speaker 1: you were being sexualized because of your body and your curves? Um? 145 00:07:29,000 --> 00:07:35,560 Speaker 1: Pretty young, like around that's fifth and sixth grade. Yeah, 146 00:07:35,720 --> 00:07:39,200 Speaker 1: that pre team coming into age thing. Um wed before 147 00:07:39,240 --> 00:07:40,840 Speaker 1: we get into that, because I know you really want 148 00:07:40,840 --> 00:07:44,600 Speaker 1: to dig into some BBW conversation with a lot of 149 00:07:44,880 --> 00:07:46,720 Speaker 1: We're on a blog and a lot of girls are 150 00:07:46,760 --> 00:07:49,080 Speaker 1: just super hate super saying a lot of stuff, So 151 00:07:49,120 --> 00:07:50,480 Speaker 1: I want to talk with Have you heard any of 152 00:07:50,480 --> 00:07:52,760 Speaker 1: our shows? No, not yet. So kink of the Week 153 00:07:53,080 --> 00:07:54,920 Speaker 1: is something that we do every week where we pretty 154 00:07:55,000 --> 00:07:56,960 Speaker 1: much pick a fetish and it's usually a really hard 155 00:07:56,960 --> 00:07:58,720 Speaker 1: word to say, and then we describe it. My favorite 156 00:07:58,720 --> 00:08:01,600 Speaker 1: was aqua filia, where you it sexually aroused from being 157 00:08:01,600 --> 00:08:03,080 Speaker 1: in water, and I have this fantasy I want to 158 00:08:03,080 --> 00:08:05,920 Speaker 1: be drowned. It's weird, but the one I wanted to 159 00:08:05,920 --> 00:08:07,640 Speaker 1: bring up is very basic. But there's a lot of 160 00:08:07,640 --> 00:08:09,520 Speaker 1: different versions and I know you probably know about them. 161 00:08:09,600 --> 00:08:14,080 Speaker 1: So erotic humiliation is definitely a kink um And basically 162 00:08:14,120 --> 00:08:19,200 Speaker 1: it's consensual psychological humiliation to produce erotic excitement. Um as 163 00:08:19,280 --> 00:08:21,920 Speaker 1: much as I when I think of humiliation, it's like 164 00:08:22,440 --> 00:08:24,760 Speaker 1: using your mouth is an ashtra, this crazy ship and 165 00:08:24,840 --> 00:08:26,760 Speaker 1: I like to be leashed up and spit on and 166 00:08:26,800 --> 00:08:30,560 Speaker 1: stuff like that, and that's it too, um. But that 167 00:08:30,560 --> 00:08:33,560 Speaker 1: that and that's from the subside of it, And I 168 00:08:33,600 --> 00:08:38,960 Speaker 1: think where I think me and obviously right, you have 169 00:08:39,080 --> 00:08:41,160 Speaker 1: to be a sub to, you know, be the one 170 00:08:41,200 --> 00:08:44,040 Speaker 1: who's humiliated, obviously. But I heard this, I read I 171 00:08:44,120 --> 00:08:45,880 Speaker 1: was reading this term on Wikipedia that I liked. This says, 172 00:08:45,920 --> 00:08:48,480 Speaker 1: the most common name for the individual being humiliated is 173 00:08:48,520 --> 00:08:51,320 Speaker 1: the bottom, and the person who humiliates is the top. 174 00:08:51,720 --> 00:08:53,720 Speaker 1: I always think of this as gay. Have you ever 175 00:08:53,760 --> 00:08:57,920 Speaker 1: heard that? Um? Yeah, sometimes I've heard that before, but 176 00:08:58,000 --> 00:09:00,719 Speaker 1: you normally are used to the term slave. Up. Yeah, 177 00:09:00,760 --> 00:09:04,520 Speaker 1: I'm like slave or like I call if my slaves 178 00:09:04,520 --> 00:09:07,480 Speaker 1: are white, I call them my raw pasta bitch boys, 179 00:09:08,200 --> 00:09:14,400 Speaker 1: raw pasta bitch boys, raw pasta bitch boys. And it's funny, Um, 180 00:09:15,240 --> 00:09:18,360 Speaker 1: me and Wheezy were just talking another nickname. Um, I 181 00:09:18,520 --> 00:09:21,200 Speaker 1: most recently got into a little Finn Doom and he 182 00:09:21,320 --> 00:09:24,360 Speaker 1: liked to be called cunt and pay pig. So pay 183 00:09:24,440 --> 00:09:30,480 Speaker 1: pig is a pig, cash pig, cash pig. Yes, what's 184 00:09:30,480 --> 00:09:32,120 Speaker 1: the other one? What are some other nicknames? You know? 185 00:09:32,200 --> 00:09:37,280 Speaker 1: Like wallet boy? Yeah, things like things like that, And 186 00:09:37,280 --> 00:09:39,680 Speaker 1: those are usually like the hashtags that you would use. 187 00:09:42,000 --> 00:09:44,280 Speaker 1: You were using the hashtags and find for people because 188 00:09:44,360 --> 00:09:47,600 Speaker 1: more men men. So, um, it's funny because we have 189 00:09:47,640 --> 00:09:50,600 Speaker 1: so many women asking us how do I find guys 190 00:09:50,600 --> 00:09:52,880 Speaker 1: who like feet fetishes and all this. It's so funny 191 00:09:52,960 --> 00:09:56,160 Speaker 1: because Twitter, like if you look up the hashtags. So 192 00:09:56,480 --> 00:09:59,560 Speaker 1: my friend introduced me to this finn dom and it 193 00:09:59,640 --> 00:10:03,000 Speaker 1: was super weird. He wanted to be super humiliated. Well, 194 00:10:03,160 --> 00:10:07,160 Speaker 1: we we were looking up what finndoms do for to 195 00:10:07,240 --> 00:10:09,440 Speaker 1: pay pigs. He was a pay pig um and we 196 00:10:09,520 --> 00:10:12,280 Speaker 1: literally looked up the hashtag and you see these women. 197 00:10:12,640 --> 00:10:16,120 Speaker 1: Literally I'm in a sweet thanks to my slave, and 198 00:10:16,160 --> 00:10:21,280 Speaker 1: you fucking bitch. Look what I think. It was the 199 00:10:21,280 --> 00:10:23,080 Speaker 1: one where you said a guy borrowed money from his 200 00:10:23,120 --> 00:10:25,280 Speaker 1: mom and yeah he didn't please tell us about that. 201 00:10:25,520 --> 00:10:28,800 Speaker 1: He did. Okay, so he's this guy um. So the 202 00:10:28,840 --> 00:10:32,240 Speaker 1: great thing about Twitter is that, like I get messages 203 00:10:32,280 --> 00:10:35,160 Speaker 1: from people all over the world, and this guy was 204 00:10:35,320 --> 00:10:38,160 Speaker 1: um from the UK. That's where mine was too. I 205 00:10:38,200 --> 00:10:44,320 Speaker 1: think that's what American women are more assertive, is that 206 00:10:44,440 --> 00:10:46,360 Speaker 1: I don't want to say that no, no, they're just 207 00:10:46,440 --> 00:10:49,800 Speaker 1: they're just like I guess they're just like really that 208 00:10:49,880 --> 00:10:52,880 Speaker 1: over there or something. But he found me and he 209 00:10:52,960 --> 00:10:56,480 Speaker 1: had like paid for sessions before. And so when I 210 00:10:56,520 --> 00:10:59,440 Speaker 1: do them online, like I saw, I give them tasks 211 00:11:00,120 --> 00:11:02,840 Speaker 1: things to do, like I made one guy like a toilet. 212 00:11:03,440 --> 00:11:05,920 Speaker 1: They are like, But the thing is is that you 213 00:11:05,920 --> 00:11:09,320 Speaker 1: have people think because people think they have to take 214 00:11:09,360 --> 00:11:11,280 Speaker 1: pictures of themselves doing it and then send it, send 215 00:11:11,320 --> 00:11:13,360 Speaker 1: it to me and stuff. But the thing is that 216 00:11:13,400 --> 00:11:15,720 Speaker 1: there's a lot of work that goes into it beforehand, 217 00:11:15,760 --> 00:11:17,480 Speaker 1: because before we get started, I'm like, Okay, I need 218 00:11:17,520 --> 00:11:19,440 Speaker 1: to know what you're what are your triggers, what are 219 00:11:19,440 --> 00:11:21,000 Speaker 1: your hard limits, like, what are things that you like 220 00:11:21,080 --> 00:11:23,880 Speaker 1: absolutely won't do. And it's funny because hard limits we've discussed. 221 00:11:23,880 --> 00:11:26,199 Speaker 1: We had a dom on his name is King Noir's 222 00:11:26,240 --> 00:11:28,480 Speaker 1: porn star as well, and he discussed his hard limits 223 00:11:28,480 --> 00:11:31,079 Speaker 1: from in terms of like sex. I love that it's 224 00:11:31,320 --> 00:11:34,840 Speaker 1: so professional from your end that you're like, I know 225 00:11:34,880 --> 00:11:36,320 Speaker 1: this is how you want me to treat you like ship, 226 00:11:36,520 --> 00:11:38,520 Speaker 1: but how far can I go? Well, yeah, because you 227 00:11:38,559 --> 00:11:40,319 Speaker 1: don't want to like because that those are the found 228 00:11:40,360 --> 00:11:42,800 Speaker 1: the foundation. It's not b D s M. If it's 229 00:11:42,840 --> 00:11:47,280 Speaker 1: not like consentful communication, that's the foundation of any kind 230 00:11:47,520 --> 00:11:51,040 Speaker 1: of dom sub relationship. Did you have that with your 231 00:11:51,080 --> 00:11:56,080 Speaker 1: guy in the UK? Many? Um? So yeah, it's actually um, 232 00:11:56,200 --> 00:12:00,280 Speaker 1: he would say. In terms exiting slave mode, because what 233 00:12:00,440 --> 00:12:02,280 Speaker 1: he would do was during slave mode, he wanted to 234 00:12:02,320 --> 00:12:05,080 Speaker 1: be called cunt and all these terrible things, and he 235 00:12:05,280 --> 00:12:07,240 Speaker 1: wanted us to tell him like how much we're going 236 00:12:07,280 --> 00:12:10,160 Speaker 1: to take from him, And then he would be like, okay, 237 00:12:10,240 --> 00:12:13,400 Speaker 1: let's exit this, because he knew that we were beginnings beginners. 238 00:12:13,559 --> 00:12:15,280 Speaker 1: So what he would do is, I want you to 239 00:12:15,320 --> 00:12:17,640 Speaker 1: do this. I want you to be meaner to me. 240 00:12:17,679 --> 00:12:19,600 Speaker 1: You're not mean enough. I want you to do this. 241 00:12:19,720 --> 00:12:23,680 Speaker 1: And so he would exit slave mode and get into 242 00:12:23,679 --> 00:12:25,760 Speaker 1: slave mode. And when he exited slave mode, it would 243 00:12:25,760 --> 00:12:28,040 Speaker 1: be his normal stuff because he was like fucking hello, 244 00:12:28,160 --> 00:12:32,760 Speaker 1: rich um and super professional, super educated. But he would 245 00:12:32,760 --> 00:12:35,600 Speaker 1: exit slave mode to say, hey, okay, I'm back to 246 00:12:35,720 --> 00:12:37,880 Speaker 1: being a regular person. You do you ever have that? 247 00:12:37,920 --> 00:12:40,080 Speaker 1: Because your sessions are your sessions? So how does that 248 00:12:40,120 --> 00:12:43,760 Speaker 1: work for you? Well, we have Well I developed like 249 00:12:43,840 --> 00:12:46,880 Speaker 1: safe words like yellow means like I want you to 250 00:12:46,960 --> 00:12:51,840 Speaker 1: keep doing what you're doing, but like and red means 251 00:12:51,880 --> 00:12:55,559 Speaker 1: I need you to stop, like right now. This is 252 00:12:55,640 --> 00:12:59,120 Speaker 1: them using these codes work for you. Yes, I had 253 00:12:59,160 --> 00:13:00,920 Speaker 1: and at one time, I'm like I was doing like 254 00:13:00,960 --> 00:13:04,560 Speaker 1: a real time session with somebody and they had to 255 00:13:04,559 --> 00:13:06,880 Speaker 1: say red because he wanted me to like choke him 256 00:13:07,440 --> 00:13:09,400 Speaker 1: and bust his balls and stuff. And I told him, 257 00:13:09,400 --> 00:13:11,360 Speaker 1: I was like, you need to tell me like when 258 00:13:11,840 --> 00:13:14,400 Speaker 1: to draw back and when to stop fully if you 259 00:13:14,440 --> 00:13:16,880 Speaker 1: need that to happen, because at the end of the day, 260 00:13:16,920 --> 00:13:19,600 Speaker 1: like you need to leave here safe. And that's the 261 00:13:19,679 --> 00:13:22,000 Speaker 1: thing that's like people think that, oh I'm I'm I'm 262 00:13:22,040 --> 00:13:23,679 Speaker 1: braddy and I'm a bit so I can be a 263 00:13:23,760 --> 00:13:25,760 Speaker 1: dumb It's like, no, that's not what it's about at all. 264 00:13:25,800 --> 00:13:30,480 Speaker 1: Like you like you have yeah, you have that power 265 00:13:30,600 --> 00:13:33,360 Speaker 1: because the sub is giving you that power and you 266 00:13:33,360 --> 00:13:35,600 Speaker 1: can't abuse it, so you have to like ask questions 267 00:13:35,640 --> 00:13:36,920 Speaker 1: and stuff. And so like he told me, he was 268 00:13:36,960 --> 00:13:38,600 Speaker 1: like Red, like I need you to stop. And I 269 00:13:38,640 --> 00:13:41,880 Speaker 1: was like, okay, what was going on that you? Um? 270 00:13:41,920 --> 00:13:45,440 Speaker 1: He wanted me to crush his balls and with my 271 00:13:45,520 --> 00:13:49,000 Speaker 1: hands and to choke him at the same time. So 272 00:13:49,040 --> 00:13:50,920 Speaker 1: I was doing that, and so since he couldn't talk 273 00:13:50,960 --> 00:13:52,440 Speaker 1: because I was choking him, I was like, okay, you 274 00:13:52,480 --> 00:13:54,840 Speaker 1: have both hands free. You tap my arm like this 275 00:13:55,000 --> 00:13:57,960 Speaker 1: three times like in wrestling or some ship. And he did. 276 00:13:58,000 --> 00:14:00,679 Speaker 1: He was like red red, and so and I stopped. 277 00:14:00,840 --> 00:14:03,120 Speaker 1: I let him collect himself for like another two minutes 278 00:14:03,160 --> 00:14:05,120 Speaker 1: and then we would go back doing some other things 279 00:14:05,120 --> 00:14:07,240 Speaker 1: because he was just let me ask you, because I've 280 00:14:08,160 --> 00:14:11,040 Speaker 1: all the way and I love to be dominated. And 281 00:14:11,400 --> 00:14:12,880 Speaker 1: when I've used to say for it, but I think 282 00:14:12,880 --> 00:14:14,199 Speaker 1: only once or twice and it was just because something 283 00:14:14,240 --> 00:14:18,320 Speaker 1: was too painful. Immediately after they were so intense with 284 00:14:18,679 --> 00:14:21,560 Speaker 1: kissing touching. Asked me if I'm okay super attentive, do 285 00:14:21,640 --> 00:14:23,360 Speaker 1: you get that way? Do you feel like they need 286 00:14:23,400 --> 00:14:27,400 Speaker 1: a lot of affection right after um or maybe that's 287 00:14:27,400 --> 00:14:32,000 Speaker 1: the female thing. It's dependent on who it is. It's 288 00:14:32,040 --> 00:14:35,760 Speaker 1: dependent on who it is. This person was really into 289 00:14:36,080 --> 00:14:39,280 Speaker 1: like humiliation and ship like that, so he would not 290 00:14:39,400 --> 00:14:42,760 Speaker 1: have wanted me to like griddle him or whatever, but 291 00:14:42,840 --> 00:14:45,400 Speaker 1: like he did like he he would need space. So 292 00:14:45,440 --> 00:14:47,800 Speaker 1: I'd be like, okay, like I give you like one 293 00:14:47,880 --> 00:14:49,960 Speaker 1: minute to collect yourself and he'd be like, oh, thank you, 294 00:14:50,000 --> 00:14:51,840 Speaker 1: got it. And then he'd collect himself and I'd be like, okay, 295 00:14:51,880 --> 00:14:53,640 Speaker 1: do you want to start? Don't give that name? Do 296 00:14:53,680 --> 00:14:55,080 Speaker 1: you tell him to call you? Got it? They have 297 00:14:55,120 --> 00:14:56,760 Speaker 1: to call me that. So I wanted to ask you 298 00:14:56,800 --> 00:14:58,960 Speaker 1: this because we had um Leath the Lips on the 299 00:14:58,960 --> 00:15:02,520 Speaker 1: show and we talked about different things with her, and 300 00:15:02,560 --> 00:15:05,880 Speaker 1: how guys of this nature don't even necessarily want intercourse. Yeah, 301 00:15:06,040 --> 00:15:09,720 Speaker 1: it's it's normally arousal through being humiliated or through being 302 00:15:09,800 --> 00:15:12,600 Speaker 1: heard or being you know, just these different ways. So 303 00:15:12,680 --> 00:15:17,000 Speaker 1: I want to know when they approach you, is it 304 00:15:17,560 --> 00:15:21,480 Speaker 1: always um like you know, for these reasons, or is 305 00:15:21,520 --> 00:15:26,160 Speaker 1: sex involved sometimes or like I'm just curious if sex 306 00:15:26,200 --> 00:15:28,640 Speaker 1: has ever involved or is just never involved with these guys. 307 00:15:28,760 --> 00:15:34,400 Speaker 1: I never ever would have sexual intercourse with petration. No, 308 00:15:34,560 --> 00:15:38,240 Speaker 1: I would, I would, I would, Yeah, I would do that. 309 00:15:38,720 --> 00:15:40,480 Speaker 1: I would do that, Like that's fine, but like this, 310 00:15:40,600 --> 00:15:42,440 Speaker 1: it would have to be with somebody who would a 311 00:15:42,680 --> 00:15:45,440 Speaker 1: like pay me extra for it because that's extra work, 312 00:15:45,880 --> 00:15:48,360 Speaker 1: and be someone that I would that would feel comfortable, 313 00:15:48,440 --> 00:15:49,880 Speaker 1: like not only with me, but that I would feel 314 00:15:49,920 --> 00:15:52,200 Speaker 1: comfortable with them, that we would be able to communicate 315 00:15:52,680 --> 00:15:55,000 Speaker 1: really well, you feel like pegging is more work than 316 00:15:55,120 --> 00:15:58,240 Speaker 1: ball busting, Well yeah, because like like I don't know 317 00:15:58,240 --> 00:16:00,640 Speaker 1: if that's where she's more comfortable. And I'm always used 318 00:16:00,640 --> 00:16:03,360 Speaker 1: to my hand, like I always do stuff with my anyway, 319 00:16:03,560 --> 00:16:06,960 Speaker 1: for me, I think I could pick someone I could definitely. 320 00:16:07,200 --> 00:16:09,840 Speaker 1: That's exactly why I really appreciate with people say Oh 321 00:16:09,880 --> 00:16:11,160 Speaker 1: I'm a bit so I could do this blah blah 322 00:16:11,160 --> 00:16:12,600 Speaker 1: blah blah blah, Like I don't think I have the 323 00:16:12,640 --> 00:16:15,400 Speaker 1: mental capacity to do that to somebody. No, it's without thinking, 324 00:16:15,400 --> 00:16:19,040 Speaker 1: oh this is too much and so um before we started. 325 00:16:19,080 --> 00:16:22,160 Speaker 1: It's funny because we were talking, um kind of about 326 00:16:22,720 --> 00:16:26,080 Speaker 1: you charging someone ten dollars a minute um for so 327 00:16:26,120 --> 00:16:27,880 Speaker 1: I kind of because I know our listeners want to 328 00:16:27,920 --> 00:16:31,240 Speaker 1: know how much does someone pay to get their balls busted? 329 00:16:31,280 --> 00:16:34,200 Speaker 1: How much? How much? In this realm? What are the 330 00:16:34,320 --> 00:16:38,320 Speaker 1: normal fees or costs of these certain tasks that you're doing. 331 00:16:38,320 --> 00:16:40,600 Speaker 1: Because it's not sex. We know that sex can go 332 00:16:40,680 --> 00:16:44,320 Speaker 1: for two thousand and ten thousand. There's so many different 333 00:16:44,960 --> 00:16:48,160 Speaker 1: pay pay grades for sex. But for this it's so different. 334 00:16:48,480 --> 00:16:53,400 Speaker 1: So what what are the different costs? Well, tender, Yes, 335 00:16:53,480 --> 00:16:55,160 Speaker 1: someone asked to be kicked in the balls with the 336 00:16:55,160 --> 00:16:59,640 Speaker 1: heels for Yeah, that that I can I can see 337 00:16:59,840 --> 00:17:02,120 Speaker 1: a lot of people ask for things like that because 338 00:17:02,120 --> 00:17:04,280 Speaker 1: it's a combination of like the foot fetish and then 339 00:17:04,320 --> 00:17:07,119 Speaker 1: the ball busted. Okay, I can yeah, I can see that. 340 00:17:07,200 --> 00:17:09,400 Speaker 1: Well for that session, that real time session, that guy 341 00:17:09,480 --> 00:17:12,720 Speaker 1: paid two and fifty dollars for the hour for me, 342 00:17:13,400 --> 00:17:15,760 Speaker 1: which is like fine, you know, but like now, like 343 00:17:15,840 --> 00:17:20,879 Speaker 1: my rates, like my I don't have like complete set 344 00:17:21,040 --> 00:17:26,719 Speaker 1: rates because workers, and it's that's the same thing because 345 00:17:26,720 --> 00:17:29,240 Speaker 1: there's like because there are just certain people that, like, 346 00:17:29,400 --> 00:17:32,320 Speaker 1: you know, like there are certain subs that I've had 347 00:17:32,359 --> 00:17:34,720 Speaker 1: where I'm just like, yo, like you are so fucking 348 00:17:34,760 --> 00:17:38,320 Speaker 1: like annoying and I can't I'm gonna charge you extra 349 00:17:38,359 --> 00:17:41,359 Speaker 1: because like being around you makes me fucking angry. Let 350 00:17:41,400 --> 00:17:48,159 Speaker 1: me ask you, do you get Are you aroused me? Um? 351 00:17:48,240 --> 00:17:52,080 Speaker 1: You know sometimes depending on like I'm all, well, no, 352 00:17:52,240 --> 00:17:54,920 Speaker 1: that's I'm always aroused because money is involved and money 353 00:17:54,960 --> 00:17:58,439 Speaker 1: always money. Money. Yeah, money does make me come and 354 00:17:58,520 --> 00:18:00,840 Speaker 1: money gets me to where I need to be. But 355 00:18:00,920 --> 00:18:04,680 Speaker 1: in terms of like me, like I just feel like, 356 00:18:04,680 --> 00:18:07,359 Speaker 1: like I don't know, it's more of like a an 357 00:18:07,359 --> 00:18:10,639 Speaker 1: appreciation for me getting treated the way I deserve to 358 00:18:10,680 --> 00:18:12,480 Speaker 1: be treated, because it's like, yeah, you are like a 359 00:18:12,520 --> 00:18:15,520 Speaker 1: slime ball. You should be licking my feet, you right on, 360 00:18:15,840 --> 00:18:17,760 Speaker 1: you know, crawl you should be my asstraight like you 361 00:18:17,760 --> 00:18:20,280 Speaker 1: should be. So I'm just like weirdest ship you've heard 362 00:18:20,280 --> 00:18:21,600 Speaker 1: because I have seen let me tell you the things 363 00:18:21,600 --> 00:18:22,879 Speaker 1: I've seen. They're weird and tell me if this is 364 00:18:22,920 --> 00:18:26,440 Speaker 1: like base level being the ashtray with the mouth open, 365 00:18:27,560 --> 00:18:30,960 Speaker 1: dirty panties. Oh yeah, yeah, I made some money selling 366 00:18:32,119 --> 00:18:36,160 Speaker 1: Wait yeah, well I like yeah, because the base rate 367 00:18:36,200 --> 00:18:38,040 Speaker 1: for that is like at least like at least a 368 00:18:38,119 --> 00:18:44,159 Speaker 1: hundred dollars I had, Like, well good, I don't know, 369 00:18:44,240 --> 00:18:46,240 Speaker 1: because I have I have underwear now that like I've 370 00:18:46,240 --> 00:18:48,119 Speaker 1: had for a while and now I used to just 371 00:18:48,160 --> 00:18:49,880 Speaker 1: throw them out, but now I'm just like I take 372 00:18:49,880 --> 00:18:51,679 Speaker 1: a picture, I put it on Twitter, and people like, 373 00:18:51,680 --> 00:18:55,159 Speaker 1: well bid what Yeah, people will be and these are 374 00:18:55,200 --> 00:18:59,040 Speaker 1: Warner washed hot No, you don't wash them? Wait, I 375 00:18:59,119 --> 00:19:03,439 Speaker 1: have to ask, and this is disgusting period question. They 376 00:19:03,480 --> 00:19:05,600 Speaker 1: need to be like stained, like how dirty do they want? 377 00:19:05,640 --> 00:19:09,320 Speaker 1: Not like they like it. They just need to smell 378 00:19:09,400 --> 00:19:11,760 Speaker 1: like me, okay, So they don't have to be like 379 00:19:12,359 --> 00:19:14,159 Speaker 1: worn all day long. They just have to a descent 380 00:19:14,440 --> 00:19:16,439 Speaker 1: yeah and like and so, and usually like what I 381 00:19:16,480 --> 00:19:19,720 Speaker 1: do is I'll like, I'll like post a picture of 382 00:19:19,760 --> 00:19:21,560 Speaker 1: the underwear and then I'll be like I'm about to 383 00:19:21,600 --> 00:19:25,199 Speaker 1: head to the gym, so there and like I can 384 00:19:25,280 --> 00:19:27,359 Speaker 1: still smell it, Like I love to smell your panties, yeah, 385 00:19:27,720 --> 00:19:31,920 Speaker 1: because because your scent is not dirt, like I love women, 386 00:19:34,040 --> 00:19:37,159 Speaker 1: but it's not necessarily. I always assume panties gotta be 387 00:19:37,200 --> 00:19:39,760 Speaker 1: like stank, No, I mean they just they definitely they 388 00:19:39,800 --> 00:19:41,879 Speaker 1: definitely have to have like yours sent on them, and 389 00:19:41,880 --> 00:19:44,159 Speaker 1: it has to be clear that like you've worn them before, 390 00:19:44,280 --> 00:19:47,440 Speaker 1: like that you didn't like like they're yours. Like that's 391 00:19:47,480 --> 00:19:49,879 Speaker 1: the main thing. Like they want something so pure of 392 00:19:50,200 --> 00:19:52,199 Speaker 1: p Yeah, a picture of me and the panties like 393 00:19:52,400 --> 00:19:54,480 Speaker 1: or and then I'll do videos of me like because 394 00:19:54,480 --> 00:19:56,560 Speaker 1: I usually before I like send them off to somebody 395 00:19:56,560 --> 00:19:58,480 Speaker 1: I like work out in them, and then I put 396 00:19:58,560 --> 00:20:02,200 Speaker 1: them in a ziplock bag. Wrap it up, nie, Yeah, 397 00:20:02,320 --> 00:20:07,680 Speaker 1: exactly up, exactly. Okay, So you have dirty panties for 398 00:20:07,720 --> 00:20:10,600 Speaker 1: about a hundred dollars. Ball busting is a different price. 399 00:20:10,920 --> 00:20:16,160 Speaker 1: What other things? Yeah, I guess what's some other stuff? Um? 400 00:20:16,160 --> 00:20:20,679 Speaker 1: Has anyone who wanted to eat your ship? Yes? And 401 00:20:20,760 --> 00:20:23,160 Speaker 1: that's my I can't deal with ship. That's my hard limit. 402 00:20:23,400 --> 00:20:28,359 Speaker 1: I think that everyone's hard everybody, not everybody. Lips was 403 00:20:28,400 --> 00:20:30,720 Speaker 1: saying that she I don't think she ever said eating. 404 00:20:30,960 --> 00:20:33,440 Speaker 1: Maybe she did know she said that on his chest 405 00:20:33,600 --> 00:20:37,840 Speaker 1: and she literally stood on the toilet like I guess 406 00:20:37,880 --> 00:20:40,080 Speaker 1: the toilet seat that you can actually put on top 407 00:20:40,080 --> 00:20:42,160 Speaker 1: of the toilet. But so what and what she said 408 00:20:42,640 --> 00:20:45,640 Speaker 1: happened was that you would lay the toilet bowl over 409 00:20:45,680 --> 00:20:47,560 Speaker 1: his stomach or over his chest, wherever he wanted to 410 00:20:47,560 --> 00:20:49,399 Speaker 1: be shipped on, and you sit on the toilet like 411 00:20:49,400 --> 00:20:54,639 Speaker 1: a regular toilet, and you pretty much shipped on him. Um. 412 00:20:54,680 --> 00:20:56,720 Speaker 1: And so you've had people want to do that, and 413 00:20:56,720 --> 00:20:58,680 Speaker 1: that's where you're like, no, bro, that I just can't 414 00:20:59,000 --> 00:21:01,040 Speaker 1: and like And this is and says nothing against people 415 00:21:01,080 --> 00:21:04,320 Speaker 1: who like can and do do that because everybody, everybody 416 00:21:04,320 --> 00:21:06,720 Speaker 1: does their thing. As long as it's consentful, that's all 417 00:21:06,720 --> 00:21:10,919 Speaker 1: that matters. I personally, like cannot deal with ship because 418 00:21:10,960 --> 00:21:14,280 Speaker 1: of like trauma that I've endured. Like I've had people, 419 00:21:14,400 --> 00:21:17,000 Speaker 1: I've had homeless people on the subway try to extort 420 00:21:17,040 --> 00:21:21,119 Speaker 1: money from me. Yeah, when I was eighteen. This is 421 00:21:21,119 --> 00:21:22,439 Speaker 1: the reason why I don't deal with it. When I 422 00:21:22,440 --> 00:21:24,920 Speaker 1: was eighteen years old, I was coming home. I was 423 00:21:25,000 --> 00:21:28,000 Speaker 1: coming home from work late at night, and this homeless 424 00:21:28,080 --> 00:21:30,600 Speaker 1: lady ran up the stairs in front of me and 425 00:21:30,960 --> 00:21:34,560 Speaker 1: chat in a Gristiti shopping bag and proceeded to ask 426 00:21:34,640 --> 00:21:36,920 Speaker 1: me for money. And I actually did not have any money, 427 00:21:36,920 --> 00:21:38,359 Speaker 1: and I was like, yo, I'm so sorry, Like you 428 00:21:38,400 --> 00:21:40,679 Speaker 1: went through all that work to ask me for something 429 00:21:41,080 --> 00:21:42,960 Speaker 1: and I didn't have it, and she chased me two 430 00:21:42,960 --> 00:21:45,960 Speaker 1: blocks like trying to hit me. It was one of 431 00:21:46,000 --> 00:21:47,600 Speaker 1: the most trauma. I didn't take the subway for three 432 00:21:47,640 --> 00:21:49,720 Speaker 1: days after that. I was really traumatized, and that's why 433 00:21:49,800 --> 00:21:53,480 Speaker 1: I came. Yeah, when you see like an adult like 434 00:21:53,640 --> 00:21:55,840 Speaker 1: ship in a Gristiti shopping bag, like you just can't 435 00:21:55,840 --> 00:21:57,439 Speaker 1: deal with sh it anymore after that, so I just 436 00:21:58,119 --> 00:22:01,000 Speaker 1: it's funny. It's funny that you stay because we both said, 437 00:22:01,000 --> 00:22:02,800 Speaker 1: oh my god, we would never shoot on anyone. And 438 00:22:02,840 --> 00:22:06,399 Speaker 1: if you guys listened to episode, we literally had a 439 00:22:06,400 --> 00:22:10,040 Speaker 1: discussion like how much it was. What didn't need for 440 00:22:10,080 --> 00:22:14,760 Speaker 1: you to shoot on somebody? A couple of stacks, So 441 00:22:14,760 --> 00:22:17,119 Speaker 1: so what's give your number because we gave our numbers 442 00:22:17,119 --> 00:22:20,560 Speaker 1: on episodes we said on us that didn't happen. No, no, no, no, 443 00:22:21,160 --> 00:22:24,440 Speaker 1: we did how much would take and then we and 444 00:22:24,440 --> 00:22:28,240 Speaker 1: then we had a discussion like we started, would be 445 00:22:28,280 --> 00:22:30,680 Speaker 1: a solid ship a diarrhea was no. I think we 446 00:22:30,720 --> 00:22:32,520 Speaker 1: said ten tho it was the lowest of it. I 447 00:22:32,560 --> 00:22:35,359 Speaker 1: think it was twenty. No, I think we got. We 448 00:22:35,400 --> 00:22:39,000 Speaker 1: got because it's called hard cash. It was a hard ship. Bro. 449 00:22:39,160 --> 00:22:40,639 Speaker 1: You give me ten g's and I can pay my 450 00:22:40,680 --> 00:22:45,000 Speaker 1: rent for five months pocket? How how much is there 451 00:22:45,040 --> 00:22:49,440 Speaker 1: a number that you would take on someone on somebody 452 00:22:49,960 --> 00:22:52,919 Speaker 1: like five k? And how is there a number at 453 00:22:52,960 --> 00:22:55,600 Speaker 1: all that it would take for someone to shoot on you? Stacks? 454 00:22:55,760 --> 00:22:57,359 Speaker 1: But I think that's what we started and then we 455 00:22:57,400 --> 00:22:59,439 Speaker 1: kind of went down. But yeah, okay, that's about right, 456 00:22:59,440 --> 00:23:01,760 Speaker 1: that's about right. Not say that golden showers that are 457 00:23:01,760 --> 00:23:03,640 Speaker 1: you comfortable with that? I know it's very common. Oh yeah, 458 00:23:03,640 --> 00:23:08,800 Speaker 1: that's a comment. I don't even think that's a kink anymore. Yeah, 459 00:23:08,840 --> 00:23:11,919 Speaker 1: I haven't done that like yet. I definitely had people 460 00:23:12,600 --> 00:23:15,280 Speaker 1: ask for that and want to do that, but then 461 00:23:15,320 --> 00:23:17,240 Speaker 1: it like it ends up not working out because like 462 00:23:17,280 --> 00:23:20,239 Speaker 1: they end up being like time wasters, or they end 463 00:23:20,320 --> 00:23:22,040 Speaker 1: up because there are a lot because there because there 464 00:23:22,040 --> 00:23:25,520 Speaker 1: are a lot of you have to really know what 465 00:23:25,600 --> 00:23:28,520 Speaker 1: you're comfortable with when you're doing this business. And it's 466 00:23:28,560 --> 00:23:31,480 Speaker 1: one of the reasons why I love doing dom work 467 00:23:31,520 --> 00:23:34,720 Speaker 1: because dom work allows me to not only be assertive 468 00:23:34,880 --> 00:23:37,480 Speaker 1: with what I want, what I care about, and how 469 00:23:37,520 --> 00:23:40,000 Speaker 1: I want to be treated, but I demand respect at 470 00:23:40,000 --> 00:23:43,720 Speaker 1: all times, and I just don't. Like I've had a 471 00:23:43,840 --> 00:23:46,440 Speaker 1: lot of guys like offer me extra money or want 472 00:23:46,440 --> 00:23:49,000 Speaker 1: to do this, but then they'll say something or they'll 473 00:23:49,040 --> 00:23:51,000 Speaker 1: want me to do something, and I'm just like, no, 474 00:23:51,119 --> 00:23:53,199 Speaker 1: I'm not comfortable with that. Like a lot of like 475 00:23:53,800 --> 00:23:57,280 Speaker 1: race play we talked about that is to ask you, 476 00:23:57,280 --> 00:23:59,920 Speaker 1: are these guys usually yeah, well some some of the 477 00:24:00,040 --> 00:24:01,600 Speaker 1: A lot of them are usually white. And then I 478 00:24:01,640 --> 00:24:04,399 Speaker 1: also they normally married or are they normally? A lot 479 00:24:04,400 --> 00:24:07,000 Speaker 1: of them are married, A lot of them have girlfriends, 480 00:24:07,040 --> 00:24:08,720 Speaker 1: a lot of them. And the thing that bothers me 481 00:24:09,080 --> 00:24:12,119 Speaker 1: is that I had one guy who spent like a 482 00:24:12,280 --> 00:24:15,560 Speaker 1: lot of money on Amazon to send to me and 483 00:24:15,600 --> 00:24:17,440 Speaker 1: then all of a sudden all my ship like got 484 00:24:17,480 --> 00:24:20,320 Speaker 1: canceled and he disappeared. And I'm like, one certain is 485 00:24:20,320 --> 00:24:23,440 Speaker 1: because his girlfriend. I mean yeah, like when k goes 486 00:24:23,480 --> 00:24:26,160 Speaker 1: missing from your bank account, Like, yes, you're gonna you're 487 00:24:26,160 --> 00:24:28,080 Speaker 1: gonna ask questions. That's what our male escort said on 488 00:24:28,080 --> 00:24:31,600 Speaker 1: that Bonus episode, like the wife found out now, um, 489 00:24:31,640 --> 00:24:34,120 Speaker 1: the race play, I completely agree with you. We've both 490 00:24:34,119 --> 00:24:36,840 Speaker 1: had conversations about it. It gets weird because you know, 491 00:24:36,920 --> 00:24:38,800 Speaker 1: if I've a white guy and like I always feel 492 00:24:38,840 --> 00:24:40,480 Speaker 1: like there's this black girl thing that's gonna come up 493 00:24:40,560 --> 00:24:44,600 Speaker 1: or when you But you also said you call him 494 00:24:44,640 --> 00:24:46,760 Speaker 1: raw pasta. You are you talking in terms of race 495 00:24:46,800 --> 00:24:48,920 Speaker 1: play on your like you can do they want you 496 00:24:48,960 --> 00:24:51,080 Speaker 1: to demean them? Well, yeah, because at the end of 497 00:24:51,080 --> 00:24:53,640 Speaker 1: the day, like I I look at it as I'm 498 00:24:53,680 --> 00:24:58,000 Speaker 1: providing a service. I am reprogramming white men to understand 499 00:24:58,080 --> 00:25:00,440 Speaker 1: that black woman is God and you're going to worship 500 00:25:00,520 --> 00:25:02,040 Speaker 1: me and you're gonna be there because you're just like 501 00:25:02,040 --> 00:25:04,399 Speaker 1: a raw pasta bitch, Like you're not like who fucking 502 00:25:04,440 --> 00:25:07,040 Speaker 1: cares about you? Like you have the whole world bending 503 00:25:07,080 --> 00:25:09,800 Speaker 1: over backwards for you and ship. No, you're not gonna 504 00:25:09,800 --> 00:25:13,680 Speaker 1: do that with me. But I cannot deal with white 505 00:25:13,680 --> 00:25:17,480 Speaker 1: guys when they're like, oh I want you, I want 506 00:25:17,480 --> 00:25:19,600 Speaker 1: you to say, like I've gotten requests to be like, 507 00:25:19,640 --> 00:25:22,960 Speaker 1: oh kind of black. Yeah, they want that ship like 508 00:25:23,000 --> 00:25:25,000 Speaker 1: And that's happened to me in real life before, not 509 00:25:25,080 --> 00:25:27,520 Speaker 1: when I was doing dombship, when I was just going 510 00:25:27,560 --> 00:25:29,119 Speaker 1: on a date with a what I went on a 511 00:25:29,200 --> 00:25:31,280 Speaker 1: date with this one white dude and it was everything 512 00:25:31,359 --> 00:25:34,560 Speaker 1: was really fine until we started having sex and then 513 00:25:34,600 --> 00:25:36,879 Speaker 1: he was like Oh you're my little black bitch, don't you. 514 00:25:39,800 --> 00:25:43,440 Speaker 1: Don't you like this white? Well it's got him back, though, 515 00:25:43,640 --> 00:25:47,400 Speaker 1: it's so crazy. I got him back? What did you say? 516 00:25:47,840 --> 00:25:49,840 Speaker 1: How did you get him back? So I just started 517 00:25:49,840 --> 00:25:51,840 Speaker 1: feeling really sick in my stomach and then he like 518 00:25:51,920 --> 00:25:54,000 Speaker 1: said something else that was like he wanted me to 519 00:25:54,080 --> 00:25:56,080 Speaker 1: call him something and it was like some kind of 520 00:25:56,080 --> 00:26:00,680 Speaker 1: like weird yeah, yeah, yeah, it was something along those lines. 521 00:26:00,720 --> 00:26:02,639 Speaker 1: And I was like, no, I'm not gonna say that, 522 00:26:02,800 --> 00:26:05,879 Speaker 1: like no, and I just felt this like just sick 523 00:26:06,000 --> 00:26:07,640 Speaker 1: in my stomach. And when he was done, I got 524 00:26:07,680 --> 00:26:08,800 Speaker 1: up and I was like, I need to go to 525 00:26:08,840 --> 00:26:11,320 Speaker 1: the bathroom. And I'm walking to the bathroom and I'm 526 00:26:11,359 --> 00:26:13,600 Speaker 1: just like no, like what am I doing? Like this 527 00:26:13,680 --> 00:26:15,479 Speaker 1: fucking piece of ship just did this ship to me 528 00:26:15,520 --> 00:26:17,640 Speaker 1: and just made me feel like less of a human being. 529 00:26:17,680 --> 00:26:19,320 Speaker 1: And I'm never gonna forget about this, so let me 530 00:26:19,359 --> 00:26:21,359 Speaker 1: make sure that he never forgets about me. So I 531 00:26:21,440 --> 00:26:23,480 Speaker 1: went back to his room and I was like, oh, like, 532 00:26:23,560 --> 00:26:27,240 Speaker 1: do you want some head? And he was like yeah, yeah. 533 00:26:27,320 --> 00:26:29,120 Speaker 1: I brought him to the living room and I sat 534 00:26:29,200 --> 00:26:31,720 Speaker 1: him down and I like pretended like I was about 535 00:26:31,720 --> 00:26:33,159 Speaker 1: to suck his dick, and then I got up and 536 00:26:33,160 --> 00:26:35,639 Speaker 1: project how vomited on his face and his dick and 537 00:26:35,720 --> 00:26:38,800 Speaker 1: his stomach, like he just made yourself up. I was 538 00:26:38,840 --> 00:26:40,760 Speaker 1: going to the bathroom to throw up after he said 539 00:26:40,800 --> 00:26:42,440 Speaker 1: that ship to me because it was just like vile. 540 00:26:42,560 --> 00:26:44,919 Speaker 1: I couldn't deal with this so I can. And he 541 00:26:45,040 --> 00:26:47,919 Speaker 1: let out this scream that was like so satisfied. He 542 00:26:47,960 --> 00:26:50,159 Speaker 1: was like, what what did you do that? I was like, 543 00:26:50,200 --> 00:26:53,320 Speaker 1: that's how you made women fail, you fucking asshole. Like 544 00:26:54,119 --> 00:26:55,880 Speaker 1: and then my kid, I was like, you can say 545 00:26:55,880 --> 00:26:58,119 Speaker 1: whatever the funk you want about me, but anytime somebody 546 00:26:58,160 --> 00:27:02,399 Speaker 1: asked to suck your dick, you won't remember me. To 547 00:27:02,520 --> 00:27:07,399 Speaker 1: have you dated white guy? Since not for free? This 548 00:27:07,680 --> 00:27:12,320 Speaker 1: bitch said, not for no? I mean I like, well, 549 00:27:12,400 --> 00:27:14,000 Speaker 1: I was homeless for a while, like when I was 550 00:27:14,000 --> 00:27:15,919 Speaker 1: in college and I would come back to New York 551 00:27:15,920 --> 00:27:17,440 Speaker 1: because I ran away from mom when I was seventeen, 552 00:27:17,440 --> 00:27:18,960 Speaker 1: So I was homeless for a while, and like I 553 00:27:19,000 --> 00:27:23,639 Speaker 1: would go on dates for food. A lot of females 554 00:27:23,720 --> 00:27:26,560 Speaker 1: have done that. Should I go lie to you? I mean, 555 00:27:26,600 --> 00:27:29,280 Speaker 1: I'm not saying I fun for like like you know, 556 00:27:29,280 --> 00:27:33,520 Speaker 1: because I can't do it myself. But it's funny because 557 00:27:33,720 --> 00:27:35,880 Speaker 1: we are where we are now in our lives. It's 558 00:27:35,880 --> 00:27:37,520 Speaker 1: so funny because we look back in laugh at things. 559 00:27:37,560 --> 00:27:40,000 Speaker 1: But there's definitely been times where a bit I want 560 00:27:40,000 --> 00:27:42,000 Speaker 1: to go grocery shopping because I don't want to spend 561 00:27:42,000 --> 00:27:44,359 Speaker 1: that money on food. So damn sure somebody who I 562 00:27:44,400 --> 00:27:48,320 Speaker 1: did not like, I allowed to take me out. Another 563 00:27:48,440 --> 00:27:50,760 Speaker 1: question I have is like what is the typical Like 564 00:27:50,800 --> 00:27:53,640 Speaker 1: what do you see the trend in their age, their job. 565 00:27:53,680 --> 00:27:55,440 Speaker 1: Are they normally in dominating more because a lot of 566 00:27:55,480 --> 00:28:00,320 Speaker 1: people say sub are dominant in their personal lives. Yeah. Yeah, 567 00:28:00,400 --> 00:28:02,720 Speaker 1: I've had like a lot of my subs have been 568 00:28:02,760 --> 00:28:08,919 Speaker 1: like businessmen or like managers at certain places, and like 569 00:28:08,960 --> 00:28:11,560 Speaker 1: they're in control of every other aspect of their life. 570 00:28:11,560 --> 00:28:13,760 Speaker 1: So they want a moment where like that control can 571 00:28:13,760 --> 00:28:15,760 Speaker 1: be taken away and it's kind of like a relief, 572 00:28:16,200 --> 00:28:18,399 Speaker 1: so they like come to me. And a lot of 573 00:28:18,440 --> 00:28:20,000 Speaker 1: them have been white, and I've also been happy to 574 00:28:20,000 --> 00:28:24,679 Speaker 1: see that, Like I've got a couple of black and 575 00:28:24,720 --> 00:28:27,040 Speaker 1: a lot of the black guys who do hit me 576 00:28:27,160 --> 00:28:33,000 Speaker 1: up and stuff like let me stopped up, but they 577 00:28:33,040 --> 00:28:35,160 Speaker 1: do it. It's funny that she's even saying that black 578 00:28:35,160 --> 00:28:37,560 Speaker 1: guys are now hitting her up for this because I 579 00:28:37,640 --> 00:28:40,880 Speaker 1: only deal with black guys, and I deal I'm a 580 00:28:41,000 --> 00:28:43,600 Speaker 1: dom like you, and so I've done the strap on 581 00:28:43,760 --> 00:28:46,600 Speaker 1: was black man, I've like fingered their ass or I 582 00:28:46,680 --> 00:28:49,320 Speaker 1: make them and these niggs be like six eleven. So 583 00:28:49,400 --> 00:28:52,720 Speaker 1: it's just like it's ever every sense of the way 584 00:28:52,720 --> 00:28:55,160 Speaker 1: of turning a man into a sub And they could 585 00:28:55,160 --> 00:28:57,600 Speaker 1: feel powerful in their height, they could be they're powerful 586 00:28:57,600 --> 00:28:59,880 Speaker 1: that they jumbs. You know, have you found that, like 587 00:29:00,200 --> 00:29:01,600 Speaker 1: some of the men you do it with, you're attracted 588 00:29:01,640 --> 00:29:05,720 Speaker 1: to or does this make you question? Yeah, are they good? 589 00:29:05,760 --> 00:29:10,600 Speaker 1: Are they good looking? Uh? Not for the most part. No, No, 590 00:29:10,840 --> 00:29:15,480 Speaker 1: maybe like one time, one time, but like I I yeah, 591 00:29:16,040 --> 00:29:21,280 Speaker 1: not really. So how do you psychologically aside from the money, 592 00:29:21,320 --> 00:29:23,560 Speaker 1: because I feel like a lot of women think they 593 00:29:23,560 --> 00:29:26,920 Speaker 1: can do this, um, but yet, when you're with someone 594 00:29:26,920 --> 00:29:29,240 Speaker 1: who you're just not attracted to, whether it's age, whether 595 00:29:29,280 --> 00:29:33,040 Speaker 1: it's a small dick, how do you psychologically prepare yourself 596 00:29:33,480 --> 00:29:36,720 Speaker 1: to be around and know that you're pleasing someone who 597 00:29:36,760 --> 00:29:40,080 Speaker 1: you have no type of sexual arousement from. I make 598 00:29:40,160 --> 00:29:43,160 Speaker 1: a price for myself that makes me comfortable enough to 599 00:29:43,200 --> 00:29:45,920 Speaker 1: do that. Okay, I make I make I'm I'm like, 600 00:29:45,960 --> 00:29:47,520 Speaker 1: if I'm going to be dealing with this person in 601 00:29:47,520 --> 00:29:49,280 Speaker 1: this kind of way, i am making a price for 602 00:29:49,320 --> 00:29:51,920 Speaker 1: myself where it's just like, even if it's a bad 603 00:29:52,000 --> 00:29:54,920 Speaker 1: session or he's annoying or whatever, I walk away. I'm like, Okay, 604 00:29:54,960 --> 00:29:57,080 Speaker 1: but I got this paper. And that's a great thing 605 00:29:57,120 --> 00:29:59,600 Speaker 1: about sex workers that we've all had on is a 606 00:29:59,600 --> 00:30:03,800 Speaker 1: lot of and feel liberated by the money. And they're like, 607 00:30:04,040 --> 00:30:05,560 Speaker 1: it's not like I'm doing this because I have no 608 00:30:05,600 --> 00:30:07,720 Speaker 1: other choice. Like I'm enjoying what I do because you 609 00:30:07,880 --> 00:30:10,840 Speaker 1: know I'm getting this. Um, I wanted to ask this question. 610 00:30:10,960 --> 00:30:14,239 Speaker 1: I know how it's going to come across. But you 611 00:30:14,320 --> 00:30:20,280 Speaker 1: are not the fucking average Instagram looking hooker like that 612 00:30:20,280 --> 00:30:25,160 Speaker 1: we think is this They use that word because Instagram 613 00:30:26,000 --> 00:30:31,160 Speaker 1: I I cannot have the same look. I hate acting 614 00:30:31,240 --> 00:30:33,720 Speaker 1: like they fucking you know, Oh I'm doing this. I 615 00:30:33,760 --> 00:30:36,360 Speaker 1: hate smitching blah blah blah. But like, I'm a sex 616 00:30:36,400 --> 00:30:37,960 Speaker 1: worker and I'm not proud of it. And that's why 617 00:30:38,000 --> 00:30:40,080 Speaker 1: I use that fucking word because I can't stand it. 618 00:30:40,080 --> 00:30:43,760 Speaker 1: It's like they're not, not all of them. But for 619 00:30:43,800 --> 00:30:45,440 Speaker 1: the most part, there are a lot of girls on 620 00:30:45,480 --> 00:30:48,280 Speaker 1: Instagram that have this fucking same look, this brown hair, 621 00:30:48,400 --> 00:30:52,040 Speaker 1: this lips, tips, same outfit, same fashion, noble look, and 622 00:30:52,120 --> 00:30:54,520 Speaker 1: everybody thinks it's this thing. And then they're just so 623 00:30:54,640 --> 00:30:58,000 Speaker 1: popular for being this instant model and they have you 624 00:30:58,080 --> 00:31:00,400 Speaker 1: have this thing about them, and you know our minds, 625 00:31:00,880 --> 00:31:03,760 Speaker 1: and you don't look like these girls. You have your 626 00:31:03,760 --> 00:31:07,240 Speaker 1: own look. You look different, your curvy, everything about you 627 00:31:07,400 --> 00:31:10,520 Speaker 1: is different. Do you think that's why men are chasing 628 00:31:10,520 --> 00:31:12,360 Speaker 1: it after this with you? Do you think that's why 629 00:31:12,360 --> 00:31:16,680 Speaker 1: you're successful? I think I'm successful not only because I 630 00:31:17,320 --> 00:31:19,000 Speaker 1: it's not just that I look different, is that I 631 00:31:19,280 --> 00:31:22,520 Speaker 1: own the way that I look. I'm very like it's 632 00:31:22,560 --> 00:31:26,880 Speaker 1: taken in. It's taken me a long time to get 633 00:31:26,920 --> 00:31:30,240 Speaker 1: to this place. But I think what draws people to 634 00:31:30,560 --> 00:31:34,760 Speaker 1: me is that I'm I'm actually very confident, like I'm 635 00:31:34,880 --> 00:31:37,360 Speaker 1: very because they are hot, but it's like we it's 636 00:31:37,400 --> 00:31:41,080 Speaker 1: this European standard of beauty, this Instagram standards sound funny 637 00:31:41,120 --> 00:31:43,200 Speaker 1: and and and I don't want to take away from 638 00:31:43,400 --> 00:31:48,280 Speaker 1: this question, um because of course I feel like I 639 00:31:48,320 --> 00:31:51,880 Speaker 1: get a lot of um negative feedback for this, and 640 00:31:52,160 --> 00:31:54,240 Speaker 1: I feel like it's such a stupid way to think 641 00:31:54,680 --> 00:31:57,360 Speaker 1: because I've had girls come to me, um, and we'd 642 00:31:57,360 --> 00:32:00,160 Speaker 1: be dealing with the same guys. But because they look 643 00:32:00,160 --> 00:32:01,920 Speaker 1: a certain way and they think I look a certain way, 644 00:32:01,920 --> 00:32:04,680 Speaker 1: they feel like I shouldn't. And I want even the 645 00:32:04,760 --> 00:32:07,600 Speaker 1: women that are listening to know you don't have to 646 00:32:07,640 --> 00:32:12,280 Speaker 1: fit that I g Mody model stereotypes to to appeal 647 00:32:12,320 --> 00:32:15,560 Speaker 1: to any guys. And so what what men that are 648 00:32:15,600 --> 00:32:18,480 Speaker 1: going to hurt for maybe like her size, maybe would 649 00:32:18,480 --> 00:32:21,640 Speaker 1: never even want to It's something that's not like we 650 00:32:21,720 --> 00:32:25,240 Speaker 1: just assume that this is the standard of beauty and 651 00:32:25,480 --> 00:32:28,320 Speaker 1: it's not because you're hot and you're sexy and you're 652 00:32:28,360 --> 00:32:34,200 Speaker 1: pretty confident thing. And it's also realizing that like there's 653 00:32:34,240 --> 00:32:37,520 Speaker 1: no in my mind, what helped me get to where 654 00:32:37,560 --> 00:32:40,480 Speaker 1: I am today is realizing that like there is no 655 00:32:41,560 --> 00:32:43,880 Speaker 1: like yes, they're like there is the European standard, but 656 00:32:43,920 --> 00:32:46,600 Speaker 1: in my mind, there's beauty has no size, Beauty has 657 00:32:46,640 --> 00:32:49,400 Speaker 1: no standard. Beauty had like but there are different that's 658 00:32:49,400 --> 00:32:51,880 Speaker 1: to us. But there is this there is a thing 659 00:32:52,000 --> 00:32:53,760 Speaker 1: that people think is a look they have to attain 660 00:32:54,840 --> 00:32:56,800 Speaker 1: exactly and it's and but why is it like that? 661 00:32:56,880 --> 00:32:59,960 Speaker 1: It's like it all goes back to fucking white supremacy 662 00:33:00,040 --> 00:33:03,360 Speaker 1: and capitalism. If you make that the standard of beauty, 663 00:33:03,400 --> 00:33:06,320 Speaker 1: you're gonna have a whole bunch of people paying for surgeries, 664 00:33:06,440 --> 00:33:09,280 Speaker 1: paying for certain like makeup, kids paying for certain wigs, 665 00:33:09,400 --> 00:33:11,520 Speaker 1: paying for certain clothes to dress like this person, to 666 00:33:11,600 --> 00:33:13,920 Speaker 1: be like this person. Like it's all like a kind 667 00:33:13,920 --> 00:33:19,040 Speaker 1: of plot to make more revenue off of people's insecurities, 668 00:33:19,680 --> 00:33:22,160 Speaker 1: and it's just it's crazy, and it's just like when 669 00:33:22,160 --> 00:33:24,640 Speaker 1: you read a magazine sometimes, like I think maybe because 670 00:33:24,640 --> 00:33:26,240 Speaker 1: I was stoned when I did it, but I was 671 00:33:26,280 --> 00:33:28,320 Speaker 1: going through a Cosmo because I've been getting an issue 672 00:33:28,360 --> 00:33:30,680 Speaker 1: for free, and I'm like, this ship is driving. I 673 00:33:31,120 --> 00:33:32,720 Speaker 1: literally was like, I need to get a face mask. 674 00:33:32,760 --> 00:33:35,920 Speaker 1: My face isn't tight enough. Ship, and I'm very comfortable 675 00:33:35,960 --> 00:33:38,440 Speaker 1: and how I looked and I started feeling ugly. It 676 00:33:38,480 --> 00:33:41,240 Speaker 1: was the weirdest thing, just flipping through and I'm like, 677 00:33:41,440 --> 00:33:45,600 Speaker 1: holy fucking ship. I can't imagine someone in my state 678 00:33:45,600 --> 00:33:48,200 Speaker 1: of mind who's comfortable with themselves is doing this. Imagine 679 00:33:48,240 --> 00:33:50,680 Speaker 1: someone with it. And I used to be that person. 680 00:33:50,800 --> 00:33:53,880 Speaker 1: I used to really know in my own skin. I 681 00:33:53,960 --> 00:33:55,800 Speaker 1: used to really not like like I used to go 682 00:33:55,920 --> 00:33:59,560 Speaker 1: on crazy diets and shipped to like lose weight because 683 00:33:59,560 --> 00:34:02,480 Speaker 1: I was mean not happy with my body and ship, 684 00:34:02,640 --> 00:34:05,120 Speaker 1: and I actually became I used to work out to 685 00:34:05,240 --> 00:34:07,800 Speaker 1: lose weight, and it would never like work. It would 686 00:34:07,800 --> 00:34:09,719 Speaker 1: just make me hate myself more. And it only really 687 00:34:09,760 --> 00:34:11,279 Speaker 1: started to work for me when I was like, I'm 688 00:34:11,280 --> 00:34:14,400 Speaker 1: working out because it makes me feel good and it 689 00:34:14,440 --> 00:34:16,440 Speaker 1: helps my I mainly work out because like, I have 690 00:34:16,520 --> 00:34:19,480 Speaker 1: really bad depression anxiety and PTSD, and when I work out, 691 00:34:19,520 --> 00:34:23,280 Speaker 1: it helps me kind of secure everything and get everything 692 00:34:23,320 --> 00:34:27,560 Speaker 1: together and ship. And when I started doing things for me, 693 00:34:28,640 --> 00:34:31,760 Speaker 1: I started feeling better about myself. And then I realized 694 00:34:31,800 --> 00:34:35,400 Speaker 1: I was like, yo, like people, people, you can fucking 695 00:34:35,480 --> 00:34:37,919 Speaker 1: lay down for somebody and and have them walk over 696 00:34:37,920 --> 00:34:39,560 Speaker 1: you and they're gonna be like, oh, you're not flat enough. 697 00:34:39,600 --> 00:34:42,319 Speaker 1: Like why you like it? Don't like that? Inner confidence 698 00:34:42,520 --> 00:34:47,000 Speaker 1: is super good? And I'm curious, um, because you're definitely 699 00:34:47,040 --> 00:34:48,640 Speaker 1: on the on the curve of your side. You have 700 00:34:48,960 --> 00:34:52,439 Speaker 1: j or H whatever, double left that's not my check, 701 00:34:53,120 --> 00:34:55,839 Speaker 1: double left tips. And it's just like, do the men 702 00:34:56,200 --> 00:35:01,160 Speaker 1: that you deal with do they glorify you for your size? 703 00:35:01,320 --> 00:35:04,359 Speaker 1: And they do a lot. And I think that that's 704 00:35:04,360 --> 00:35:06,600 Speaker 1: super dope, and I think that it's something Even when 705 00:35:06,600 --> 00:35:09,280 Speaker 1: Taho was on the show, not realizing like that guy's 706 00:35:09,320 --> 00:35:13,120 Speaker 1: actually love big one. It was more it was when 707 00:35:13,160 --> 00:35:15,120 Speaker 1: the usher thing happened, it was like everybody was like, 708 00:35:15,160 --> 00:35:19,279 Speaker 1: Oh yeah, and that's just like because she's so because 709 00:35:19,320 --> 00:35:22,000 Speaker 1: BBWs are sucking popping, like that's just what it is. 710 00:35:22,040 --> 00:35:23,840 Speaker 1: And the thing is is that like all that shaming 711 00:35:23,840 --> 00:35:26,239 Speaker 1: and it's just like it's coming from When I hear 712 00:35:26,719 --> 00:35:29,920 Speaker 1: a man or anybody like shame me from my size, 713 00:35:29,960 --> 00:35:32,680 Speaker 1: I'm just like, yo, that you're just projecting, projecting some 714 00:35:32,760 --> 00:35:37,839 Speaker 1: ship that you haven't deal with me. I I mean, look, 715 00:35:38,280 --> 00:35:40,920 Speaker 1: I think that the men that deal with us deal 716 00:35:40,960 --> 00:35:42,480 Speaker 1: with us because are just like me. I kind of 717 00:35:42,680 --> 00:35:45,680 Speaker 1: funk with the same type of looking niggas the same. 718 00:35:46,400 --> 00:35:48,160 Speaker 1: If you like the girls, you're gonna like the girls. 719 00:35:48,400 --> 00:35:52,160 Speaker 1: I've never heard a man that I honestly talked about 720 00:35:52,160 --> 00:35:54,600 Speaker 1: big women in that way. That's why I really do 721 00:35:54,719 --> 00:35:57,400 Speaker 1: think it's projecting something else. It's because you feel like 722 00:35:57,480 --> 00:35:59,440 Speaker 1: you have to be with a girl that's smaller. I've 723 00:35:59,480 --> 00:36:01,279 Speaker 1: never heard any do you say something like that the 724 00:36:01,320 --> 00:36:04,759 Speaker 1: way that niggas be dogging thick bitches. Even dudes that 725 00:36:04,880 --> 00:36:07,000 Speaker 1: funk with me at my size, I've never heard them 726 00:36:07,040 --> 00:36:09,640 Speaker 1: talking that way, and I think it's like when you're 727 00:36:09,680 --> 00:36:12,200 Speaker 1: so in your mind about what you think you need 728 00:36:12,239 --> 00:36:13,920 Speaker 1: to be with, which is hence why I wanted to 729 00:36:13,960 --> 00:36:16,200 Speaker 1: bring up these this to me, it's almost at the 730 00:36:16,200 --> 00:36:19,160 Speaker 1: point where they're average looking Instagram girls. They might be 731 00:36:19,200 --> 00:36:21,080 Speaker 1: cute or pretty or whatever. They don't even look like 732 00:36:21,120 --> 00:36:24,359 Speaker 1: themselves probably offer these pictures, but we all think that 733 00:36:24,400 --> 00:36:26,600 Speaker 1: we've kind of got to look like this or have 734 00:36:26,719 --> 00:36:29,279 Speaker 1: to dress like this. And that's why I really appreciate 735 00:36:29,320 --> 00:36:31,799 Speaker 1: what you do, because it's not only only owning your 736 00:36:31,800 --> 00:36:34,880 Speaker 1: work but your look. No, And it's also just like 737 00:36:34,920 --> 00:36:36,680 Speaker 1: at the end of the day, like when someone comes 738 00:36:36,680 --> 00:36:38,680 Speaker 1: at me from my size, in my head, I'm just 739 00:36:38,719 --> 00:36:41,200 Speaker 1: like at the like, you're projecting your ship onto me, 740 00:36:41,239 --> 00:36:42,920 Speaker 1: because we all know that you go back to your 741 00:36:42,920 --> 00:36:45,440 Speaker 1: mom's basement and you beat your meats to fashion novaccurs, 742 00:36:45,760 --> 00:36:49,839 Speaker 1: so you need to such that's what they'd be doing, 743 00:36:49,840 --> 00:36:52,680 Speaker 1: and it's ridiculous. And then like thin people will try 744 00:36:52,760 --> 00:36:54,880 Speaker 1: to like jump on the bag bandwagon, try to come 745 00:36:54,920 --> 00:36:56,799 Speaker 1: at me like, oh, well you want to look like me, 746 00:36:56,880 --> 00:36:59,919 Speaker 1: and I was like, no, like I like you, Yeah, 747 00:37:00,200 --> 00:37:02,480 Speaker 1: it's just like no, Like when people lay down with me. 748 00:37:02,560 --> 00:37:04,839 Speaker 1: It's all people. I assume that when bigger girls were 749 00:37:04,880 --> 00:37:06,800 Speaker 1: tighter clothes that they want to be smaller, and that 750 00:37:06,840 --> 00:37:09,839 Speaker 1: I find very funny. Now I think, bitch, how am 751 00:37:09,840 --> 00:37:15,320 Speaker 1: i I'm big? I'm over curb comments like oh Instagram 752 00:37:15,320 --> 00:37:17,160 Speaker 1: got them thinking they gotta put this on. No, bitch, 753 00:37:17,239 --> 00:37:19,719 Speaker 1: we want to put that because it's hot. I think 754 00:37:19,760 --> 00:37:22,440 Speaker 1: that people need to understand it's just like when I 755 00:37:22,600 --> 00:37:24,839 Speaker 1: dressed the way that I dress, It's not for you, 756 00:37:24,920 --> 00:37:26,920 Speaker 1: It's for me to look good. It's so when I 757 00:37:26,960 --> 00:37:29,040 Speaker 1: see my reflection, I'm like, oh, who's that fine as bitch? 758 00:37:29,080 --> 00:37:31,839 Speaker 1: Oh it's me, Like it has nothing to do with you. 759 00:37:31,920 --> 00:37:34,240 Speaker 1: And that's the thing that gets me piste off about. 760 00:37:34,320 --> 00:37:35,879 Speaker 1: Dudes will be like, oh, well, if you don't want 761 00:37:35,920 --> 00:37:38,359 Speaker 1: me to come in what you're wearing, Like, why are 762 00:37:38,400 --> 00:37:40,759 Speaker 1: you wearing that outside? It's like who the fun No 763 00:37:40,880 --> 00:37:43,719 Speaker 1: woman gets up in the morning and thinks, oh my god, 764 00:37:43,800 --> 00:37:46,160 Speaker 1: the crispy dude on the corner who's been wearing the 765 00:37:46,200 --> 00:37:49,520 Speaker 1: same Supreme T shirt, the same Tommy boxers and ship 766 00:37:49,560 --> 00:37:51,759 Speaker 1: who eats pussy from the back with holes in his 767 00:37:51,840 --> 00:37:53,759 Speaker 1: boxers and socks and ship, Yeah, hes gonna be on 768 00:37:53,800 --> 00:37:55,960 Speaker 1: the corner, So let me wear this. Like no, like 769 00:37:56,040 --> 00:37:59,279 Speaker 1: y'all can't even tell the difference between I can't know, 770 00:38:00,040 --> 00:38:02,280 Speaker 1: can deal that. I want to ask you a question 771 00:38:02,320 --> 00:38:05,440 Speaker 1: while we're on size um, and it's gonna lead me 772 00:38:05,520 --> 00:38:08,399 Speaker 1: to something that actually Wheezy brought to my attention. So 773 00:38:08,840 --> 00:38:13,080 Speaker 1: have do you feel like your size has affected your 774 00:38:13,120 --> 00:38:16,239 Speaker 1: sexuality in anyway? And I say this before I lead 775 00:38:16,280 --> 00:38:20,080 Speaker 1: into something else, Um, Yeah, in what way? Yeah? Well, 776 00:38:20,120 --> 00:38:24,680 Speaker 1: because like I it definitely like affected it a lot 777 00:38:24,719 --> 00:38:27,120 Speaker 1: more in the past, because I felt like a lot 778 00:38:27,160 --> 00:38:30,000 Speaker 1: in the past, like I couldn't wear certain things or 779 00:38:30,040 --> 00:38:32,680 Speaker 1: I couldn't do certain things because of my size. Like 780 00:38:32,719 --> 00:38:35,680 Speaker 1: I used to be really afraid of sitting on someone's 781 00:38:35,680 --> 00:38:37,279 Speaker 1: face because they'd be like I'd be like, oh, what 782 00:38:37,320 --> 00:38:39,239 Speaker 1: if I hurt them? What if I do this? And 783 00:38:39,280 --> 00:38:41,279 Speaker 1: it's just like no, Like funny, I'm gonna ride your 784 00:38:41,320 --> 00:38:42,960 Speaker 1: fucking face Like that's what I'm gonna do, and you're 785 00:38:42,960 --> 00:38:45,080 Speaker 1: gonna enjoy it. There are ways to do it. And 786 00:38:45,080 --> 00:38:46,719 Speaker 1: it's just like I realized I was like all these 787 00:38:46,760 --> 00:38:49,959 Speaker 1: things that I believe that I couldn't do. I thought 788 00:38:49,960 --> 00:38:53,000 Speaker 1: I couldn't love myself. I thought I couldn't ride someone's face. 789 00:38:53,080 --> 00:38:55,960 Speaker 1: I thought I couldn't wear this, this type of lingerie 790 00:38:56,120 --> 00:38:58,000 Speaker 1: or this type of thing because of the way that 791 00:38:58,040 --> 00:39:00,880 Speaker 1: I look like it's all bullshit. I love that that 792 00:39:00,960 --> 00:39:03,880 Speaker 1: was your answer because I actually brought this up because 793 00:39:04,080 --> 00:39:08,560 Speaker 1: g McGuire from lip Service Um Angelie's lip Service actually 794 00:39:08,600 --> 00:39:13,759 Speaker 1: said that big women are freakier because they have to be. Now, 795 00:39:13,840 --> 00:39:18,000 Speaker 1: I didn't hear this myself, but we're on like our podcast. 796 00:39:18,080 --> 00:39:19,879 Speaker 1: People will talk about it on this like blog thread 797 00:39:19,920 --> 00:39:23,600 Speaker 1: Lipstick Alley, and someone brought Mandy up because we have 798 00:39:23,640 --> 00:39:25,640 Speaker 1: a podcast talking about being freaking. They're like, well, Gig 799 00:39:25,840 --> 00:39:28,399 Speaker 1: did say, you know, big girls have to be freak 800 00:39:28,680 --> 00:39:31,960 Speaker 1: to be freak here, And it's funny that you said 801 00:39:32,160 --> 00:39:35,040 Speaker 1: the complete opposite. You felt like at times you couldn't 802 00:39:35,040 --> 00:39:36,880 Speaker 1: write a nigga's faith. You couldn't do this because of 803 00:39:36,920 --> 00:39:40,400 Speaker 1: your side, And I think, and I'm I wish I 804 00:39:40,400 --> 00:39:42,319 Speaker 1: could write, but they'd be anonymous. But I would like 805 00:39:42,400 --> 00:39:45,120 Speaker 1: to know what episode and how she referenced that, because 806 00:39:45,480 --> 00:39:48,439 Speaker 1: I think that it comes to even bigger girls dig 807 00:39:48,520 --> 00:39:50,799 Speaker 1: better now and it's just like the bigger girl, Like 808 00:39:50,840 --> 00:39:53,360 Speaker 1: I think people underestimate the sex that bigger girls have 809 00:39:53,400 --> 00:39:56,080 Speaker 1: so I think that's why they like to say yeah, 810 00:39:56,120 --> 00:40:01,080 Speaker 1: but it's like because they can't because like no, And 811 00:40:01,160 --> 00:40:04,000 Speaker 1: that's the thing that I think the connotation may come from. 812 00:40:04,160 --> 00:40:07,360 Speaker 1: People assume that because you're thicker, you're going to be 813 00:40:07,400 --> 00:40:09,120 Speaker 1: more insecure, so you feel like you've got you have 814 00:40:09,280 --> 00:40:11,439 Speaker 1: to do more, which is right, which is what I think. 815 00:40:11,600 --> 00:40:13,520 Speaker 1: How it was right. There's men I've been with them 816 00:40:14,040 --> 00:40:16,799 Speaker 1: made me feel less than because I didn't have enough 817 00:40:16,800 --> 00:40:18,680 Speaker 1: curves and I felt like I had to do more 818 00:40:18,680 --> 00:40:22,040 Speaker 1: because I wasn't that bitch. And like, it's just funny 819 00:40:22,080 --> 00:40:25,520 Speaker 1: how we just assume these women are super insecure. And 820 00:40:25,880 --> 00:40:29,640 Speaker 1: I just really appreciate how both of you can love 821 00:40:29,680 --> 00:40:32,880 Speaker 1: your body make other women love their bodies. And we 822 00:40:32,920 --> 00:40:35,359 Speaker 1: all are sitting here here in about these men worshiping you, 823 00:40:35,800 --> 00:40:42,080 Speaker 1: calling you goddess NonStop. Nig It's so crazy because actually 824 00:40:42,120 --> 00:40:45,319 Speaker 1: working on um, well, I have anything something coming up. 825 00:40:45,360 --> 00:40:47,279 Speaker 1: And so I was talking to a guy who I've 826 00:40:47,280 --> 00:40:49,560 Speaker 1: been dealing with for ten years and he felt the 827 00:40:49,600 --> 00:40:52,680 Speaker 1: need to tell me, like, I love every inch of 828 00:40:52,719 --> 00:40:55,319 Speaker 1: your body. If I was your man, I would just 829 00:40:55,360 --> 00:40:58,200 Speaker 1: feed you to watch you eat, and another service that 830 00:40:58,239 --> 00:41:01,319 Speaker 1: I provide. So this is what I want to say 831 00:41:01,320 --> 00:41:04,600 Speaker 1: that I wanted to talk about this, what exactly is that? 832 00:41:04,640 --> 00:41:07,320 Speaker 1: And I know it's a kink, So explain what guys 833 00:41:07,600 --> 00:41:10,880 Speaker 1: want you to do. Sometimes, well, sometimes got like because 834 00:41:11,000 --> 00:41:15,000 Speaker 1: I also like will sometimes like film myself like cooking, 835 00:41:15,440 --> 00:41:16,960 Speaker 1: and so then one time I just like put a 836 00:41:17,080 --> 00:41:19,120 Speaker 1: video of like what I made, and like, I like, 837 00:41:19,239 --> 00:41:20,560 Speaker 1: I I know how to cook, like I know how 838 00:41:20,560 --> 00:41:22,719 Speaker 1: to I know how to throw it on thee And 839 00:41:22,760 --> 00:41:24,400 Speaker 1: this dude was like, yeah, I know how to season 840 00:41:24,440 --> 00:41:26,680 Speaker 1: my food lunch it. So this dude hit me up 841 00:41:26,680 --> 00:41:29,000 Speaker 1: on Twitter, was like, oh, like can I just watch 842 00:41:29,040 --> 00:41:32,440 Speaker 1: you eat it? And I was like yeah, I was like, 843 00:41:32,480 --> 00:41:34,040 Speaker 1: you know, he was like I was like you need 844 00:41:34,080 --> 00:41:35,520 Speaker 1: to pay for the meal though, like this is how 845 00:41:35,600 --> 00:41:37,359 Speaker 1: much the groceries call us and blah blah blah. Saw 846 00:41:37,360 --> 00:41:40,120 Speaker 1: he sent me fifty dollars just like it was a 847 00:41:40,120 --> 00:41:44,040 Speaker 1: two minute video of like me eat and enjoy. Also 848 00:41:44,080 --> 00:41:46,600 Speaker 1: the thing like what did you have to do? I 849 00:41:46,680 --> 00:41:50,080 Speaker 1: really enjoy food and like I work at a restaurant 850 00:41:50,080 --> 00:41:51,960 Speaker 1: and my co workers even tell me like you should 851 00:41:52,200 --> 00:41:54,960 Speaker 1: make videos of yourself eating good food and sell it 852 00:41:55,000 --> 00:42:00,080 Speaker 1: because I get really like into it, like you vote know, 853 00:42:00,080 --> 00:42:01,919 Speaker 1: why you'd be eating. Yeah, if it's a good meal. 854 00:42:02,000 --> 00:42:04,200 Speaker 1: Like today, I was eating some chicken at a place 855 00:42:04,200 --> 00:42:05,839 Speaker 1: called bone On If you all never been there, it's 856 00:42:05,920 --> 00:42:08,120 Speaker 1: midtown fried chicken, and all of a sudden they started 857 00:42:08,120 --> 00:42:10,000 Speaker 1: playing contie and I was saying, they eat the chicken 858 00:42:10,360 --> 00:42:12,440 Speaker 1: vibe and bit and I'm like, god, damn, I love 859 00:42:12,520 --> 00:42:15,400 Speaker 1: to eat. Yeah, all the vacations I take, They're like, 860 00:42:15,680 --> 00:42:20,400 Speaker 1: what did you do in Japan? Yeah? One question I 861 00:42:20,480 --> 00:42:22,440 Speaker 1: do have that I want to get to um. A 862 00:42:22,480 --> 00:42:25,560 Speaker 1: lot of girls are writing us talking about how do 863 00:42:25,600 --> 00:42:27,560 Speaker 1: I do this? How do I make money? Like what 864 00:42:27,640 --> 00:42:29,920 Speaker 1: avenues can I use? And we've talked about seeking arrangement 865 00:42:29,960 --> 00:42:36,160 Speaker 1: as No, No, that's splendid daddy central. I hate. What's 866 00:42:36,160 --> 00:42:40,800 Speaker 1: a splendid daddy? Us friends before? Yeah, but splendid of 867 00:42:40,920 --> 00:42:43,239 Speaker 1: fake sugar. That splendid daddy is someone who tries to 868 00:42:43,280 --> 00:42:44,960 Speaker 1: friend like they're a sugar daddy, but they ain't got 869 00:42:44,960 --> 00:42:47,879 Speaker 1: no fucking company and they really want um. And then 870 00:42:47,880 --> 00:42:50,560 Speaker 1: they trying to shame you. So wait, what about and 871 00:42:50,800 --> 00:42:53,120 Speaker 1: you're and you found your bullshit pay pig on there too. 872 00:42:53,719 --> 00:42:56,000 Speaker 1: My friend found the pay pig on. Where what are 873 00:42:56,040 --> 00:43:00,160 Speaker 1: websites beside Twitter that you have or you use. I 874 00:43:00,239 --> 00:43:04,120 Speaker 1: use Twitter mainly. Uh. Fet Life is also really great. 875 00:43:04,440 --> 00:43:06,640 Speaker 1: What is it fat life? Can you spell it? F 876 00:43:06,880 --> 00:43:09,799 Speaker 1: E t L I f E. But those are guys 877 00:43:09,880 --> 00:43:13,160 Speaker 1: specifically looking for certain fetishions. Fet Life is just like 878 00:43:13,200 --> 00:43:16,640 Speaker 1: a whole fetish network. Like it's any kind the fetish, 879 00:43:17,040 --> 00:43:19,960 Speaker 1: just like any kind of kink or sex. Like it's 880 00:43:20,000 --> 00:43:22,279 Speaker 1: like Facebook, but for kink. We should check that out. 881 00:43:22,360 --> 00:43:24,160 Speaker 1: And it's really cool and it's like straight and like 882 00:43:24,200 --> 00:43:26,360 Speaker 1: at least they're like the slaves that have messaged me 883 00:43:26,480 --> 00:43:28,200 Speaker 1: are like straight to the point they're like I want 884 00:43:28,239 --> 00:43:32,319 Speaker 1: that food, food things or whatever. It's slaves. Have you 885 00:43:32,360 --> 00:43:35,359 Speaker 1: ever um done it with a woman? Had a woman 886 00:43:35,400 --> 00:43:38,799 Speaker 1: want to do this? Okay, so here's my thing. I 887 00:43:38,840 --> 00:43:41,359 Speaker 1: have had some women hit me up to do this, 888 00:43:41,800 --> 00:43:44,120 Speaker 1: but they've been white And I don't dumb white women. 889 00:43:44,480 --> 00:43:48,640 Speaker 1: Why I don't really because I value my life and 890 00:43:48,800 --> 00:43:51,319 Speaker 1: I don't want you're more scared of white women, white man, Yes, 891 00:43:51,480 --> 00:43:56,280 Speaker 1: because white women have there's a history with white women 892 00:43:57,120 --> 00:44:01,200 Speaker 1: suddenly playing victim to try to get what they want 893 00:44:01,280 --> 00:44:03,880 Speaker 1: out of you, and I can't. Like that's just like 894 00:44:03,960 --> 00:44:06,759 Speaker 1: and since I'm doing sex work and dom work. I 895 00:44:06,800 --> 00:44:09,640 Speaker 1: can't be doming a girl, some white girl and then 896 00:44:09,680 --> 00:44:11,240 Speaker 1: have her be like, oh, I don't like the price 897 00:44:11,280 --> 00:44:13,520 Speaker 1: of this, and then her being like, oh, she abused me. 898 00:44:13,840 --> 00:44:17,040 Speaker 1: She did this to me. She's that's like I. I 899 00:44:17,560 --> 00:44:21,760 Speaker 1: had an incident um earlier this year on my birthday. 900 00:44:21,800 --> 00:44:25,000 Speaker 1: I was dating this guy and it was his last 901 00:44:25,080 --> 00:44:26,600 Speaker 1: day in New York City, his birthday, and it was 902 00:44:26,640 --> 00:44:29,360 Speaker 1: on my birthday, and we went back to his house. 903 00:44:29,400 --> 00:44:32,040 Speaker 1: He was renting a room from this white woman and 904 00:44:32,160 --> 00:44:33,879 Speaker 1: she was very drunk and he tried to get her 905 00:44:33,880 --> 00:44:36,960 Speaker 1: deposit back and she essentially robbed him, like she wasn't 906 00:44:37,000 --> 00:44:38,719 Speaker 1: gonna give him give it back to him. And I 907 00:44:38,760 --> 00:44:40,319 Speaker 1: told her. I was like, hey, like, we're not trying 908 00:44:40,360 --> 00:44:42,920 Speaker 1: to hurt you or anything like, just give him the 909 00:44:43,040 --> 00:44:46,640 Speaker 1: deposit back. And long story short, like she grabbed her 910 00:44:46,719 --> 00:44:48,759 Speaker 1: laptop and tried to hit me in the face with it. 911 00:44:49,120 --> 00:44:52,000 Speaker 1: She attacked me with two dunebell weights and I was 912 00:44:52,040 --> 00:44:54,279 Speaker 1: able to block her and stuff, and I kept telling 913 00:44:54,320 --> 00:44:56,520 Speaker 1: him he's also black. He's darker than I am, he's 914 00:44:56,520 --> 00:45:00,279 Speaker 1: taller than I am, and I I just saw what 915 00:45:00,320 --> 00:45:01,600 Speaker 1: was going on, and I was like, she's going to 916 00:45:01,680 --> 00:45:03,239 Speaker 1: turn around and say that you tried to do some 917 00:45:03,280 --> 00:45:05,560 Speaker 1: ship to her, we need to leave. And then so 918 00:45:05,640 --> 00:45:07,640 Speaker 1: he got the owner of the building, who was another 919 00:45:07,640 --> 00:45:10,399 Speaker 1: white woman, and she came in and let me tell 920 00:45:10,400 --> 00:45:14,640 Speaker 1: you this white lady. She comes in fake shaking her 921 00:45:14,680 --> 00:45:20,320 Speaker 1: hands and cried, oh, thank god you're here. They tried 922 00:45:20,360 --> 00:45:23,200 Speaker 1: to they like pushed me into my bedroom and they 923 00:45:23,200 --> 00:45:25,120 Speaker 1: tried to do this to me, and I was like, whoa, 924 00:45:25,360 --> 00:45:27,520 Speaker 1: that never happened, and and I pulled out my phone. 925 00:45:27,560 --> 00:45:28,920 Speaker 1: I was like, okay, well, if we tried to do 926 00:45:28,960 --> 00:45:30,360 Speaker 1: that to you, why do I have footage on my 927 00:45:30,400 --> 00:45:33,320 Speaker 1: phone of you attacking me? And all of a sudden, 928 00:45:33,360 --> 00:45:36,160 Speaker 1: she was like and I was like what Michelle, Like 929 00:45:36,160 --> 00:45:39,239 Speaker 1: what the fun? Like what what do you want? Yeah? 930 00:45:39,280 --> 00:45:40,400 Speaker 1: And I was just and that's when I was like, 931 00:45:40,440 --> 00:45:42,120 Speaker 1: we need to get out of here. And he was 932 00:45:42,120 --> 00:45:44,160 Speaker 1: like one of it. Okay. So I guess what I 933 00:45:44,160 --> 00:45:47,040 Speaker 1: am now I'm understanding is even while paying for a service, 934 00:45:47,200 --> 00:45:49,200 Speaker 1: you do have to protect yourself. I do you do? 935 00:45:49,360 --> 00:45:50,880 Speaker 1: And especially and a lot of the white women that 936 00:45:50,920 --> 00:45:52,360 Speaker 1: have asked me to don them, they want me to 937 00:45:52,400 --> 00:45:54,759 Speaker 1: do blackmail shipped to them, and I'm like, Okay, I 938 00:45:54,840 --> 00:45:58,839 Speaker 1: don't really do that. So blackmail is basically like they 939 00:45:58,960 --> 00:46:02,560 Speaker 1: give you their their information and then they want you 940 00:46:02,600 --> 00:46:07,000 Speaker 1: to threaten sending like they're sending their wife pictures or 941 00:46:07,160 --> 00:46:09,759 Speaker 1: sending this to their house or doing this or blah 942 00:46:09,760 --> 00:46:11,920 Speaker 1: blah blah, and like I don't really do that. Like 943 00:46:11,960 --> 00:46:14,680 Speaker 1: if I do blackmail, what I'll do is like first 944 00:46:14,719 --> 00:46:18,279 Speaker 1: of all, the person has to write down like I 945 00:46:18,480 --> 00:46:21,680 Speaker 1: give Madam Namio permission to do blah blah blah, and 946 00:46:21,680 --> 00:46:24,279 Speaker 1: they take a picture of themselves holding the sign that 947 00:46:24,320 --> 00:46:26,000 Speaker 1: way they try to say that I did any ship 948 00:46:26,200 --> 00:46:27,799 Speaker 1: like that, Like I can be like, no, they did this. 949 00:46:28,840 --> 00:46:30,360 Speaker 1: I mean I feel like I could totally get the 950 00:46:30,440 --> 00:46:33,040 Speaker 1: can't give makes sense, but like I have never really 951 00:46:33,080 --> 00:46:35,800 Speaker 1: heard about yeah no, And you have to be really careful. 952 00:46:35,800 --> 00:46:37,319 Speaker 1: You have to get you have to make sure you 953 00:46:37,360 --> 00:46:39,279 Speaker 1: get that consent in writing, because there have been people 954 00:46:39,280 --> 00:46:42,720 Speaker 1: who have, like you know, gotten arrested and ship for 955 00:46:42,719 --> 00:46:44,799 Speaker 1: for this ship because it's there, it's your word against theirs. 956 00:46:44,840 --> 00:46:47,960 Speaker 1: And it's like, unfortunately, we live in a very sexist, 957 00:46:48,040 --> 00:46:51,080 Speaker 1: hor phobic society, so it's like you're gonna always blame 958 00:46:51,120 --> 00:46:53,319 Speaker 1: the sex worker. And it's like I don't do and 959 00:46:53,360 --> 00:46:54,840 Speaker 1: so like and and also like a lot of the 960 00:46:54,880 --> 00:46:57,040 Speaker 1: white women who have asked me to dom them want 961 00:46:57,040 --> 00:46:59,239 Speaker 1: me to do like BBC fetish and ship, and I 962 00:46:59,280 --> 00:47:05,040 Speaker 1: don't do that. I even hate. I hate it's so 963 00:47:05,200 --> 00:47:07,800 Speaker 1: it's so funny. But UM. So something that we normally 964 00:47:07,800 --> 00:47:10,360 Speaker 1: do on the show is we have hopemail UM, and 965 00:47:10,440 --> 00:47:13,120 Speaker 1: I think that this is actually a great letter, UM 966 00:47:13,160 --> 00:47:15,320 Speaker 1: that you could help with this as we've talked about 967 00:47:15,680 --> 00:47:18,360 Speaker 1: um size and confidence in all of that in the bedroom. 968 00:47:18,600 --> 00:47:21,720 Speaker 1: So this is actually a letter from a male listener. UM. 969 00:47:21,760 --> 00:47:24,280 Speaker 1: He said, Hey, I am dating someone that has gotten 970 00:47:24,280 --> 00:47:28,359 Speaker 1: bigger in size and lazier in mind over time, and 971 00:47:28,400 --> 00:47:30,680 Speaker 1: I know she is very insecure about her weight. I 972 00:47:30,719 --> 00:47:32,680 Speaker 1: am still very attractive to her, and I try to 973 00:47:32,680 --> 00:47:34,879 Speaker 1: continuously let her know how much she turns me on. 974 00:47:35,360 --> 00:47:38,279 Speaker 1: The problem is her weight is becoming a hindrance to 975 00:47:38,320 --> 00:47:42,840 Speaker 1: our sex life and her overall confidence health sex is 976 00:47:42,960 --> 00:47:45,319 Speaker 1: very one sided. With me doing all the work and 977 00:47:45,440 --> 00:47:48,759 Speaker 1: very routine, she has basically become a sacred virgin all 978 00:47:48,800 --> 00:47:51,240 Speaker 1: over again, and with me having to teach her everything 979 00:47:51,280 --> 00:47:55,319 Speaker 1: from scratch. I communicate regularly and try to help, but 980 00:47:55,480 --> 00:47:57,640 Speaker 1: things don't seem to budge. It's even gotten to the 981 00:47:57,640 --> 00:48:00,560 Speaker 1: point that she's not into anything spy see and has 982 00:48:00,560 --> 00:48:03,760 Speaker 1: become very vanilla. Do you have any tips on ways 983 00:48:03,800 --> 00:48:06,279 Speaker 1: I can encourage her or any tips for her to 984 00:48:06,320 --> 00:48:08,960 Speaker 1: get back into making things exciting. I love her and 985 00:48:09,000 --> 00:48:12,160 Speaker 1: would like for our sex life. Um, I love her 986 00:48:12,239 --> 00:48:14,560 Speaker 1: and would like to love our sex life too. Thanks, 987 00:48:14,760 --> 00:48:18,560 Speaker 1: thank you for the great podcast she listens to. I 988 00:48:18,560 --> 00:48:20,840 Speaker 1: don't think this has to do with the things he's playing. 989 00:48:20,920 --> 00:48:22,160 Speaker 1: I don't think I have to do with her weight 990 00:48:24,080 --> 00:48:26,799 Speaker 1: like that, but the insecurity thing, she's gained weight, and 991 00:48:26,880 --> 00:48:30,600 Speaker 1: I definitely totally agree, like there's definitely been a weight 992 00:48:30,640 --> 00:48:33,080 Speaker 1: gain for me and bitch. I didn't even gonna lie. 993 00:48:33,280 --> 00:48:36,120 Speaker 1: I just wrote dick for the first time and probably 994 00:48:36,160 --> 00:48:39,239 Speaker 1: like two three years, Like, why I don't be riding Dick. 995 00:48:39,800 --> 00:48:42,080 Speaker 1: I'll be turning around and do missionary like I'll roll 996 00:48:42,120 --> 00:48:44,680 Speaker 1: on the side, but I don't be riding dick for 997 00:48:44,719 --> 00:48:58,160 Speaker 1: real because even like first off, that should be sex. No, 998 00:48:58,320 --> 00:49:00,799 Speaker 1: it's so um. I actually he just wrote dick for 999 00:49:00,800 --> 00:49:02,640 Speaker 1: the first time in a long time, and it was 1000 00:49:02,760 --> 00:49:04,840 Speaker 1: just me seeing like, bitch, can I still do this? 1001 00:49:04,880 --> 00:49:06,920 Speaker 1: And I got in my little froggy position and everything 1002 00:49:06,960 --> 00:49:09,920 Speaker 1: like boutful on the day, but I haven't done that, 1003 00:49:09,960 --> 00:49:12,760 Speaker 1: and it's because of my size, Like I'm not able 1004 00:49:12,800 --> 00:49:14,879 Speaker 1: to move as much as I was able to move 1005 00:49:14,880 --> 00:49:19,120 Speaker 1: in the back. So I see how Um yeah, no, 1006 00:49:19,239 --> 00:49:20,800 Speaker 1: And so that's why I thought it would be great 1007 00:49:20,880 --> 00:49:23,200 Speaker 1: to have you in the building. As we're talking about 1008 00:49:23,520 --> 00:49:25,959 Speaker 1: size and confidence and how you said you were scared 1009 00:49:26,000 --> 00:49:28,319 Speaker 1: to even sit on his face because of your weight. Um. 1010 00:49:28,360 --> 00:49:31,200 Speaker 1: So what advice would you give to him to maybe 1011 00:49:31,200 --> 00:49:34,600 Speaker 1: help him with her? Um? Yeah, so that baby, I 1012 00:49:34,600 --> 00:49:37,120 Speaker 1: I kind of went through that. Um in college. I 1013 00:49:37,239 --> 00:49:40,879 Speaker 1: gained Like I went through something traumatic my freshman year 1014 00:49:40,920 --> 00:49:43,800 Speaker 1: of college. I was sexually assaulted, and like I repressed 1015 00:49:43,840 --> 00:49:46,279 Speaker 1: all of it, and but it was acting out in 1016 00:49:46,280 --> 00:49:48,560 Speaker 1: different even though I didn't remember it. All these other 1017 00:49:48,560 --> 00:49:50,960 Speaker 1: things kept happening, and I gained like sixty I couldn't 1018 00:49:50,960 --> 00:49:53,640 Speaker 1: stop eating like always because I just felt empty inside. 1019 00:49:53,920 --> 00:49:55,839 Speaker 1: So I just kept eating and I gained all this weight. 1020 00:49:55,880 --> 00:49:58,480 Speaker 1: And like I was um with my partner at the time, 1021 00:49:58,640 --> 00:50:01,399 Speaker 1: and like I wouldn't want them to like look at 1022 00:50:01,400 --> 00:50:03,080 Speaker 1: me when I got out of the shower, Like I 1023 00:50:03,080 --> 00:50:06,240 Speaker 1: would get really self conscious about like changing in front 1024 00:50:06,239 --> 00:50:08,920 Speaker 1: of them and ship and one thing that like kind 1025 00:50:08,960 --> 00:50:11,000 Speaker 1: of helped was like like it maybe it would be 1026 00:50:11,120 --> 00:50:13,880 Speaker 1: nice if this person took their girl out for like 1027 00:50:14,320 --> 00:50:17,040 Speaker 1: all cute like kind of like shoppings, like by like 1028 00:50:17,200 --> 00:50:19,279 Speaker 1: let her try on some clothes that show her like 1029 00:50:19,360 --> 00:50:20,960 Speaker 1: you know what, Like, yeah, you gain weight, but that 1030 00:50:21,000 --> 00:50:23,200 Speaker 1: doesn't make it a bad thing. That just means that 1031 00:50:23,239 --> 00:50:25,399 Speaker 1: you got more curves for me to hug on, more 1032 00:50:25,400 --> 00:50:29,879 Speaker 1: spaces for me to lick up and ship and sometimes weight. No, 1033 00:50:31,239 --> 00:50:34,040 Speaker 1: he said he's comfortable with her. Yeah, it hasn't affected 1034 00:50:34,160 --> 00:50:37,200 Speaker 1: how he looks at her, affected how she looks at herself. 1035 00:50:37,239 --> 00:50:39,440 Speaker 1: So maybe like help her, like you can help out 1036 00:50:39,440 --> 00:50:41,880 Speaker 1: by being like yo, like I know this cool. Like 1037 00:50:41,920 --> 00:50:43,520 Speaker 1: there are a lot of there are like a couple 1038 00:50:44,160 --> 00:50:48,560 Speaker 1: of um fetish weear like companies that stuff that can 1039 00:50:48,600 --> 00:50:51,879 Speaker 1: cater to people who are larger, like get get like 1040 00:50:52,160 --> 00:50:55,319 Speaker 1: get get her some really nice like laundering, and I 1041 00:50:55,360 --> 00:51:00,279 Speaker 1: think there's one like body Love I'll get I'll through 1042 00:51:00,320 --> 00:51:02,080 Speaker 1: my phone and find it and we'll post it on 1043 00:51:02,120 --> 00:51:06,080 Speaker 1: our on our Instagram. And like also just like I 1044 00:51:06,080 --> 00:51:09,200 Speaker 1: don't know, like doing that, like doing something like really 1045 00:51:09,280 --> 00:51:12,520 Speaker 1: romantic for her, like putting like rose petals and shipped 1046 00:51:12,560 --> 00:51:15,640 Speaker 1: on the bed, like because making the extra effort to 1047 00:51:15,680 --> 00:51:18,600 Speaker 1: show like you're like your who I want, and you 1048 00:51:18,600 --> 00:51:20,319 Speaker 1: don't have to like you don't have to like say it, 1049 00:51:20,320 --> 00:51:22,719 Speaker 1: but you can do it through like actions and sometimes 1050 00:51:22,760 --> 00:51:25,799 Speaker 1: really like a new look like a new like set 1051 00:51:25,800 --> 00:51:32,359 Speaker 1: of lauingderie, a new wig, so like something like waves 1052 00:51:32,400 --> 00:51:38,400 Speaker 1: are very very therapeutic, like you don't get done be 1053 00:51:38,480 --> 00:51:42,120 Speaker 1: curving niggers when I got yeah, and a new look, well, 1054 00:51:42,160 --> 00:51:45,160 Speaker 1: like a new look allows for her to see a 1055 00:51:45,200 --> 00:51:47,839 Speaker 1: different side of herself that's still herself, but allows her 1056 00:51:47,840 --> 00:51:50,760 Speaker 1: be like, oh yeah, like I am, like I am beautiful, 1057 00:51:50,760 --> 00:51:52,600 Speaker 1: like you know, it allows her to and I think 1058 00:51:52,640 --> 00:51:56,440 Speaker 1: also just communicating it to her um of course in 1059 00:51:56,480 --> 00:51:58,640 Speaker 1: the gesture of gifts are showing her that you still 1060 00:51:58,640 --> 00:52:02,520 Speaker 1: think she's beautiful, but also just literally telling her like, Babe, 1061 00:52:02,600 --> 00:52:05,000 Speaker 1: I like everything about you and it's something that UM 1062 00:52:05,080 --> 00:52:07,040 Speaker 1: one of my guys that like, I don't want you 1063 00:52:07,080 --> 00:52:09,160 Speaker 1: to lose it. I love every inch of your body 1064 00:52:09,440 --> 00:52:12,480 Speaker 1: and just reassuring that this weight is what I love. Like, 1065 00:52:12,520 --> 00:52:15,920 Speaker 1: I know you may not feel comfortable confident in yourself, 1066 00:52:15,920 --> 00:52:19,640 Speaker 1: and I think that it's something that has growed my confidence, 1067 00:52:19,920 --> 00:52:23,359 Speaker 1: um over the years with my size is just the 1068 00:52:23,360 --> 00:52:25,680 Speaker 1: men that do deal with me deal with me because 1069 00:52:25,680 --> 00:52:28,160 Speaker 1: of my size. Um, they deal with me because they 1070 00:52:28,200 --> 00:52:31,680 Speaker 1: like my fucking triple de breasts, or they like my thighs. 1071 00:52:31,719 --> 00:52:34,879 Speaker 1: They love and have my thighs. And so the men 1072 00:52:34,960 --> 00:52:38,160 Speaker 1: that I deal with reassure me this, I love what 1073 00:52:38,239 --> 00:52:40,120 Speaker 1: you're gonna lose. When I sit here and talk about 1074 00:52:40,120 --> 00:52:42,440 Speaker 1: going on a diet, they'd be like, what's which. The 1075 00:52:42,480 --> 00:52:44,320 Speaker 1: things that people love about is are the things that 1076 00:52:44,360 --> 00:52:46,760 Speaker 1: we can sometimes be insecure about. Really random and stupid 1077 00:52:47,280 --> 00:52:50,359 Speaker 1: but and not really related. But one of the things 1078 00:52:50,360 --> 00:52:52,600 Speaker 1: that maybe the most insecure about myself in relationships is 1079 00:52:52,680 --> 00:52:55,640 Speaker 1: I know that I'm super extroverted, and normally I'm not 1080 00:52:55,680 --> 00:52:58,640 Speaker 1: attracted to those people, and I'm super loud, and I 1081 00:52:58,640 --> 00:53:00,440 Speaker 1: know I start talking to people everywhere and I feel like, 1082 00:53:00,440 --> 00:53:02,160 Speaker 1: oh my god, they're gonna think I'm crazy. They can 1083 00:53:02,160 --> 00:53:04,240 Speaker 1: never think about settling down me because I'm too chatty 1084 00:53:04,239 --> 00:53:06,279 Speaker 1: and I'm to this and I have this podcast now 1085 00:53:06,360 --> 00:53:09,040 Speaker 1: and blah blah blah, and every man I'm with is like, 1086 00:53:09,120 --> 00:53:12,360 Speaker 1: I love that you're this person, and I am completely 1087 00:53:12,480 --> 00:53:15,239 Speaker 1: worried about doing I become this almost when I first 1088 00:53:15,239 --> 00:53:17,400 Speaker 1: meet someone. Now, when I'm too comfortable, just like I 1089 00:53:17,400 --> 00:53:19,600 Speaker 1: get in the shell and it's nothing like me to 1090 00:53:19,640 --> 00:53:21,600 Speaker 1: the point when nigga start finding my answer and they're like, 1091 00:53:21,600 --> 00:53:24,120 Speaker 1: bit you loud as hell. It's so weird that the 1092 00:53:24,160 --> 00:53:28,040 Speaker 1: things that people want you four we get ashamed of. 1093 00:53:28,120 --> 00:53:30,359 Speaker 1: But look at the things that like, the things that 1094 00:53:30,400 --> 00:53:32,680 Speaker 1: like we would feel ashamed about, like you being ashamed 1095 00:53:32,680 --> 00:53:36,320 Speaker 1: of being like loud and expressive, or us being ashamed 1096 00:53:36,360 --> 00:53:38,279 Speaker 1: about our size. It like it all goes down to, 1097 00:53:38,400 --> 00:53:42,759 Speaker 1: like this shame all this shame ship is all a 1098 00:53:42,800 --> 00:53:48,360 Speaker 1: product of white supremacy and capitalism because it's basically training 1099 00:53:48,360 --> 00:53:50,520 Speaker 1: you to believe like you should not take up more 1100 00:53:50,600 --> 00:53:52,560 Speaker 1: room than anybody else, Like you need to be this 1101 00:53:52,680 --> 00:53:56,680 Speaker 1: small thing that is submissive, that does what it's told 1102 00:53:56,680 --> 00:53:59,239 Speaker 1: to do. You should not take up more room like 1103 00:53:59,320 --> 00:54:01,919 Speaker 1: I like, and like I've gotten shipped from guys who 1104 00:54:02,320 --> 00:54:05,520 Speaker 1: are like, um oh, like you shouldn't wear platforms because 1105 00:54:05,520 --> 00:54:09,400 Speaker 1: you're tall or you're big. I'm five nine and I 1106 00:54:10,560 --> 00:54:12,480 Speaker 1: and I like to wear platforms because I like to 1107 00:54:12,480 --> 00:54:14,239 Speaker 1: be I like to be super fucking tall. I like 1108 00:54:14,320 --> 00:54:16,360 Speaker 1: to be intimidatingly tall. Let me tell you, since I 1109 00:54:16,440 --> 00:54:18,239 Speaker 1: moved to New York. I'm never in my life, I 1110 00:54:18,280 --> 00:54:21,080 Speaker 1: always found tallam and attractive, but I've never felt inferior 1111 00:54:21,120 --> 00:54:24,000 Speaker 1: to Tallam until New York, because I realized how dope 1112 00:54:24,000 --> 00:54:28,360 Speaker 1: it is. You stand out in a sea of everyone everywhere, 1113 00:54:28,360 --> 00:54:30,680 Speaker 1: and it's just like damn, and it makes me feel 1114 00:54:30,760 --> 00:54:33,399 Speaker 1: fucking like I can't tell you how high my heels 1115 00:54:33,400 --> 00:54:34,560 Speaker 1: got sauce I moved to New York. I'm like, no, 1116 00:54:34,880 --> 00:54:36,680 Speaker 1: I have to have this presence now I get it. 1117 00:54:37,080 --> 00:54:40,200 Speaker 1: Which I'm gonna be honest. My ideal height for myself, 1118 00:54:40,440 --> 00:54:42,359 Speaker 1: even though I would take a lot of men out 1119 00:54:42,400 --> 00:54:46,520 Speaker 1: of the equation if by eight and and my thing 1120 00:54:46,640 --> 00:54:51,040 Speaker 1: is like I'm sexy height, I'm I have no problem 1121 00:54:51,160 --> 00:54:55,080 Speaker 1: with dealing with someone who is shorter than me. It's 1122 00:54:55,160 --> 00:54:57,719 Speaker 1: just like I tend to stay away. But also, because 1123 00:54:57,719 --> 00:54:59,279 Speaker 1: you're dumb, I think they have a lot to do 1124 00:54:59,280 --> 00:55:01,400 Speaker 1: with it. You think that also. I think also like 1125 00:55:01,440 --> 00:55:04,600 Speaker 1: my issues with like gout in your personal life, though, 1126 00:55:04,640 --> 00:55:06,480 Speaker 1: are you a dumb I think we didn't even ask that. 1127 00:55:06,760 --> 00:55:10,360 Speaker 1: In my pars, I actually like being submissive. Come on, 1128 00:55:11,080 --> 00:55:13,400 Speaker 1: I actually do because I have to degree I have 1129 00:55:13,560 --> 00:55:17,000 Speaker 1: control over every aspect of my life, so it's nice 1130 00:55:17,040 --> 00:55:21,400 Speaker 1: to kind of have that really enjoy Um, we had 1131 00:55:21,400 --> 00:55:23,319 Speaker 1: an episode you wouldn't enjoy the episode. He was a dick, 1132 00:55:23,400 --> 00:55:25,839 Speaker 1: But this maybe my answer. We had a guy from 1133 00:55:25,840 --> 00:55:27,759 Speaker 1: Loving Hip Hop named Marcus black On and a lot 1134 00:55:27,800 --> 00:55:31,400 Speaker 1: of people wrote in and we're like writing episode because 1135 00:55:31,760 --> 00:55:33,160 Speaker 1: I talked about how I like to get spit on 1136 00:55:33,200 --> 00:55:34,640 Speaker 1: and ship and he was like, hold on any fucking 1137 00:55:34,640 --> 00:55:37,040 Speaker 1: what white man, blah blah blah blah blah. Oh you 1138 00:55:37,160 --> 00:55:39,400 Speaker 1: just like I'm totally turned off. He was coming at 1139 00:55:39,440 --> 00:55:41,359 Speaker 1: me the whole episode like trying to try is he 1140 00:55:41,400 --> 00:55:43,719 Speaker 1: being mad about what you like to do? So I said, 1141 00:55:43,800 --> 00:55:46,120 Speaker 1: I think a lot of things that you don't realize. 1142 00:55:46,320 --> 00:55:49,080 Speaker 1: I ask for this ship and nobody's doing it to 1143 00:55:49,160 --> 00:55:51,200 Speaker 1: me that I don't ask you. Yeah, I've never had 1144 00:55:51,239 --> 00:55:52,840 Speaker 1: some spit on me before I tell him doing that 1145 00:55:52,880 --> 00:55:54,840 Speaker 1: said ship if you me and you've been flirting with 1146 00:55:54,840 --> 00:55:56,280 Speaker 1: each other, if you sucked me and not, you wouldn't 1147 00:55:56,320 --> 00:55:59,360 Speaker 1: be doing this ship right right? Total trust to be 1148 00:55:59,440 --> 00:56:02,560 Speaker 1: a sub yeah it is, and total control and that's 1149 00:56:02,560 --> 00:56:04,359 Speaker 1: what you're like. There are certain fits like and there 1150 00:56:04,400 --> 00:56:07,320 Speaker 1: are certain things that I still have yet to try, 1151 00:56:07,400 --> 00:56:09,960 Speaker 1: Like I I've always wanted to like try being like 1152 00:56:10,320 --> 00:56:12,200 Speaker 1: restrained or tied up, But I have yet to do 1153 00:56:12,239 --> 00:56:14,440 Speaker 1: that because that is something that I need to really 1154 00:56:14,480 --> 00:56:17,040 Speaker 1: trust the other person to do. There's a lot of 1155 00:56:17,040 --> 00:56:19,040 Speaker 1: trust that goes into it. And at the end of 1156 00:56:19,040 --> 00:56:23,239 Speaker 1: the day, like that whole like kink shaming bullshit, it's 1157 00:56:23,280 --> 00:56:27,880 Speaker 1: just like what what you don't feel comfortable with doesn't 1158 00:56:27,920 --> 00:56:30,160 Speaker 1: necessarily mean that other people have to feel the same 1159 00:56:30,239 --> 00:56:32,440 Speaker 1: fucking way. At the end of the day, it's really 1160 00:56:32,480 --> 00:56:36,560 Speaker 1: only your fucking business. If what's going on is not consensual, 1161 00:56:36,640 --> 00:56:38,200 Speaker 1: that's when you step in and you're like, Okay, we 1162 00:56:38,239 --> 00:56:40,319 Speaker 1: need to talk about this or we need to do this. 1163 00:56:40,440 --> 00:56:43,359 Speaker 1: But if someone is talking about what they like and 1164 00:56:43,400 --> 00:56:46,160 Speaker 1: it's not hurting anybody, it's not race play, it's not 1165 00:56:46,239 --> 00:56:48,759 Speaker 1: incesse play, it's not none of that toxic bullshit that 1166 00:56:48,800 --> 00:56:50,799 Speaker 1: people will try to label as a fetish, but it's 1167 00:56:50,880 --> 00:56:53,560 Speaker 1: just abuse. Like that's what it is. Then what the 1168 00:56:53,560 --> 00:56:56,000 Speaker 1: fund is the problem? Like, that's not that's not that's 1169 00:56:56,080 --> 00:57:00,680 Speaker 1: that why are you so high in test in? Race 1170 00:57:00,719 --> 00:57:04,000 Speaker 1: play is not okay, it's not okay, it's it's we 1171 00:57:04,080 --> 00:57:06,239 Speaker 1: might actually have to just bring you back on because 1172 00:57:06,280 --> 00:57:12,839 Speaker 1: we didn't even really know what I really hope that 1173 00:57:12,920 --> 00:57:16,200 Speaker 1: some keep some of our listeners come fucking pay you, 1174 00:57:16,280 --> 00:57:18,200 Speaker 1: like you deserve to be paid. And if they do, 1175 00:57:18,240 --> 00:57:21,000 Speaker 1: I would love you to say what happened when someone 1176 00:57:21,040 --> 00:57:23,520 Speaker 1: pound you and how did it go? Like horrible decisions? 1177 00:57:23,560 --> 00:57:27,680 Speaker 1: And for our listeners, like can you tell them your Twitter? 1178 00:57:27,840 --> 00:57:31,080 Speaker 1: And like how to find you? And well, yeah, so 1179 00:57:31,160 --> 00:57:35,000 Speaker 1: my Instagram is Lisa spliffs in and you're definitely going 1180 00:57:35,040 --> 00:57:36,960 Speaker 1: to post her pictures. You guys can click on her 1181 00:57:37,040 --> 00:57:39,640 Speaker 1: and follow her and yeah, you can find me there. 1182 00:57:39,720 --> 00:57:42,360 Speaker 1: And then those who have, you know, sent the tribute 1183 00:57:42,360 --> 00:57:45,640 Speaker 1: and earned their right to see my Twitter, we'll get that. Oh, 1184 00:57:45,680 --> 00:57:48,960 Speaker 1: they have to pay to be certain. Certain certain people 1185 00:57:48,960 --> 00:57:51,320 Speaker 1: do certain because sometimes people will hit me up through 1186 00:57:51,320 --> 00:57:53,400 Speaker 1: Instagram They're like, oh boy, so do you have connect 1187 00:57:53,440 --> 00:57:55,560 Speaker 1: Pal and a Snapchat that people have to pay for 1188 00:57:55,600 --> 00:57:58,680 Speaker 1: as well. I don't have a Snapchat, but um I'm 1189 00:57:58,760 --> 00:58:03,360 Speaker 1: working on making like I have like a clip store 1190 00:58:03,360 --> 00:58:05,840 Speaker 1: where like people can buy like clips of me like 1191 00:58:05,960 --> 00:58:08,880 Speaker 1: lotioning up my boobs or whatever, because people have paid 1192 00:58:08,920 --> 00:58:10,800 Speaker 1: a lot of money for that. Because I started making 1193 00:58:10,800 --> 00:58:12,680 Speaker 1: custom clips for certain people and I was just like, 1194 00:58:12,680 --> 00:58:15,040 Speaker 1: who arever? Who are Like, Oh, I'm not like into 1195 00:58:15,080 --> 00:58:17,480 Speaker 1: like the whole humiliation thing, but like I really like 1196 00:58:17,560 --> 00:58:19,520 Speaker 1: your boobs, Like, can I just see like a video 1197 00:58:19,520 --> 00:58:23,040 Speaker 1: of you like your grand Yeah, I'm just like I 1198 00:58:23,120 --> 00:58:24,800 Speaker 1: almost want to just like if you don't mind, I 1199 00:58:24,880 --> 00:58:29,520 Speaker 1: gotta get the knitting you have mind you guys, this 1200 00:58:29,720 --> 00:58:32,920 Speaker 1: entire episode, she's been sitting across from me, nitty, I 1201 00:58:32,960 --> 00:58:35,960 Speaker 1: just haven't like she's literally you talk about like oh 1202 00:58:36,040 --> 00:58:40,880 Speaker 1: my slave and ashtray. Here we are like low key grandma, 1203 00:58:41,360 --> 00:58:49,040 Speaker 1: like out black clipstick, a spect like like super just 1204 00:58:49,320 --> 00:58:52,560 Speaker 1: like super dope outfit, just super dope like. And again, 1205 00:58:52,600 --> 00:58:54,000 Speaker 1: even when she came in, I was like, are you 1206 00:58:54,480 --> 00:58:58,240 Speaker 1: are you really gonna knit during this episode? All the 1207 00:58:58,280 --> 00:59:00,720 Speaker 1: time when I'm riding your dad's face, when I'm sitting 1208 00:59:00,720 --> 00:59:04,000 Speaker 1: here in the podcast, I'm doing it. I'm knitted all 1209 00:59:04,000 --> 00:59:06,680 Speaker 1: the time in your dad's face. You know I've made score. Yeah, 1210 00:59:06,680 --> 00:59:08,280 Speaker 1: And that's what I tell whenever people try to hate 1211 00:59:08,280 --> 00:59:09,520 Speaker 1: on me. I'm just like, you can hate me all 1212 00:59:09,560 --> 00:59:10,920 Speaker 1: you want, girl, because at the end of the day, 1213 00:59:10,960 --> 00:59:13,160 Speaker 1: your dad's sending me your tuition money because are the 1214 00:59:13,200 --> 00:59:18,560 Speaker 1: way that I love that nine ladies. Well, guys, I 1215 00:59:18,600 --> 00:59:21,080 Speaker 1: appreciate you guys for listening to you another episode. You 1216 00:59:21,120 --> 00:59:25,240 Speaker 1: guys can catch us on Instagram at Horrible Underscore Decisions, 1217 00:59:25,480 --> 00:59:28,240 Speaker 1: and you could catch me on Twitter at Instagram at 1218 00:59:28,280 --> 00:59:30,560 Speaker 1: full Court Pumps. And where can they catch you? Weasy 1219 00:59:30,640 --> 00:59:33,920 Speaker 1: just on Instagram, um, and that's at weezy w t F. 1220 00:59:34,280 --> 00:59:37,080 Speaker 1: Thank you guys so much. This has been yet another 1221 00:59:37,160 --> 00:59:40,200 Speaker 1: episode of Horrible Decisions. Bye bye