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Speaker 1: Mental health checking for today. Today's my first bluish day

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Speaker 1: in the last four or five days. I had my

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Speaker 1: back cleaned out on Thursday, and I actually told Rosie, listen,

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Speaker 1: when I get put in these situations, and now I

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Speaker 1: could recognize it, where I'm laid up and I can't

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Speaker 1: do anything physical, I start to go down these rabbit

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Speaker 1: holes and the gray starts to take over. But now

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Speaker 1: I'm able to say it going into it, and I

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Speaker 1: was not the most pleasant human being to be around

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Speaker 1: these last couple of days because of that, because I'm

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Speaker 1: laid up and I'm in pain. But at least going

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Speaker 1: in she knew what to expect, and she showed me

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Speaker 1: compassion and got me to show compassion for myself a

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Speaker 1: little bit more. Today I'm finally out of it. Took

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Speaker 1: me a few days, but yeah, when I'm in pain

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Speaker 1: and I am not a pleasant human being to be around,

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Speaker 1: and the gray really kind of takes over. But now

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Speaker 1: that you know I was able to lean into Rosie,

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Speaker 1: who's my teammate, it probably cut down on how long

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Speaker 1: I would be stuck in the gray. She really did

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Speaker 1: a great job. So again it kind of goes back

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Speaker 1: to leaning into your teammates. You could kind of hear

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Speaker 1: it my voice a little bit more. I'm still I'm

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Speaker 1: trying to get myself back, and I'm going to go

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Speaker 1: to the gym today. Not the wisest thing I've ever done,

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Speaker 1: I get it, still gonna go because for me just

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Speaker 1: being active anyway. The JIM for me is a place

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Speaker 1: that helps me between the ears. But this was a

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Speaker 1: big change for me where I can go into it.

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Speaker 1: To Rosie, I'm really going to be struggling these next

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Speaker 1: few days. I'm probably gonna lash out. She just showed

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Speaker 1: me a lot of compassion. That's what you do with

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Speaker 1: your teammates. So you know, I started this hand. I've

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Speaker 1: been in the great the last four days, but I

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Speaker 1: guess it wasn't as gray as it normally would have

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Speaker 1: been because I was able to lean into my teammate

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Speaker 1: and Rosie. Let's all keep walking on this walk together.