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Speaker 1: Nicky. Hey everyone, NICKI Gleanser podcast. It is Thursday. It's

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Speaker 1: an all f fan tracks episode. We'll get to that

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Speaker 1: in just a list. Oh my god, An Yet does

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Speaker 1: the best impression of fran Lebowitz I've ever heard. And

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Speaker 1: she was talking about going through COVID. She was talking

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Speaker 1: about being in a relationship, and someone was interviewing friendly

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Speaker 1: Witz and said, um, you know you're going through COVID alone.

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Speaker 1: She was like, I can't imagine going through COVID with someone.

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Speaker 1: I am so lucky to be alone. And it was

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Speaker 1: just like and Anya was talking about how she never

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Speaker 1: gets lonely, like she loves being alone, she loves being

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Speaker 1: a relationship with Matt, but that if Matt's ever gone,

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Speaker 1: Anya's never felt loneliness, which is hilarious because I'm here

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Speaker 1: with Carl Out four star and Andrew Colin, of course,

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Speaker 1: but Carl Out forced her is staying with me for

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Speaker 1: a week. Tomorrow she's leaving. I'm leaving as well. We're

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Speaker 1: going back to l A. But um. Three days into this, uh,

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Speaker 1: one day I walked out into the living room and

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Speaker 1: she was here, and she was just looking a little sad,

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Speaker 1: and I was like, hey, girl, what's up? And she

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Speaker 1: was just like, I'm just like really hope sick. And

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Speaker 1: I was just like, what is happened? She was like,

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Speaker 1: I just feel like really like just a miss home you.

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Speaker 1: I'm scared to leave you alone. I know you get

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Speaker 1: on a long time. I went home way too long

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Speaker 1: for Christmas. Look so pretty rad name by the way,

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Speaker 1: why because the yellow background, it's like a green screen

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Speaker 1: for y'all. You guys got to check it out of

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Speaker 1: the you look like a fat head. That's skinny. I took.

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Speaker 1: I took too long for the holidays, in my opinion,

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Speaker 1: and then I basically came straight here. So I just

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Speaker 1: missed my dog. And you were sick with Coco in

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Speaker 1: between those times and so and you had a really

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Speaker 1: like you were sick with your boyfriend. And you said

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Speaker 1: that you really like bonded with Chase like in that time,

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Speaker 1: and then I had to immediately leave him. And I

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Speaker 1: just feel like I haven't been like comedy in a

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Speaker 1: long time, because I was, even though I'm killed. The

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Speaker 1: other night, the Funny we went to the Funny Bone.

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Speaker 1: Um Stewart Huff who you gotta go see. He's so funny.

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Speaker 1: He's a road comic that no one's ever heard of,

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Speaker 1: but like it's it's criminal that there's some people out

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Speaker 1: there that are this funny that you're just like, why

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Speaker 1: has no one heard of him? So Stewart Huff see

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Speaker 1: where he's going if he's coming to a local comedy

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Speaker 1: club because he plays like the comedy club circuit. Gotta

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Speaker 1: go see him so funny, Like my face hurt from laughing.

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Speaker 1: It's crazy how funny there are people. I'm thinking about

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Speaker 1: pitching um a stand up series called Nicky Glazer's Favorite

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Speaker 1: Comics you haven't heard of? That is just like I

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Speaker 1: think that would be a cool thing where it's like

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Speaker 1: these are names that you can order, giving people something

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Speaker 1: where it's like you will know this person before everyone does.

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Speaker 1: And they're not necessarily like young people. But there are

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Speaker 1: people that have like that are fucking something similar that

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Speaker 1: I'm not called that. Yeah, it was called Nicky Glazer

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Speaker 1: favorite Comedian. That is so funny. I'm not I'm not

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Speaker 1: saying I'm not shooting on the idea. I'm saying no,

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Speaker 1: it was good, but you know, it was like it's

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Speaker 1: cool you find like local talent, just like talent that

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Speaker 1: is just that is waiting to be seen. There's so

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Speaker 1: many comics and I'm like, this person should be so

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Speaker 1: much more famous than I. So many people were coming

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Speaker 1: up to him after the show and being like, yeah,

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Speaker 1: I've never heard of you before, but that was great.

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Speaker 1: It's like, that's not really a problem. You know, it's

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Speaker 1: because we leave the show and we go why isn't

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Speaker 1: he famous? Like me, Chris and Carlisle, We're all like,

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Speaker 1: what is the deal here? And you know it's it's

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Speaker 1: more than just like, oh, no one likes white men anymore,

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Speaker 1: or you know, there can be like he had he

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Speaker 1: has a kid that he has to be accountable for,

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Speaker 1: live in l a Or he was in Athens, Georgia.

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Speaker 1: He at one time probably did I think he didn't

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Speaker 1: meet the Atlanta punchline soon? Yeah, he's so funny, but um,

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Speaker 1: you know, there's there's a lot of things and this

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Speaker 1: isn't to say of him, but in certain there's certain

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Speaker 1: people out there that are so fucking talented and I

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Speaker 1: you'll truly never know about because they self sabotage with

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Speaker 1: drinking drugs, just I mean my aunt's boyfriends. Yeah, kids, Well,

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Speaker 1: I mean sure, like marrying someone who is going to

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Speaker 1: have an excuse for why they didn't make it, you know.

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Speaker 1: And some people are truly scared to get the recognition,

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Speaker 1: and what what fame is is love. Like we're all

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Speaker 1: going after this love that we want that we didn't

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Speaker 1: for most comedians, and I would say comedians more so

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Speaker 1: fucking terrifying because you don't think you deserve it, and

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Speaker 1: so you do something to keep it away because it

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Speaker 1: it isn't real love, but it starts to feel like it.

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Speaker 1: Like Eve and I self, when I started getting a

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Speaker 1: weak because I'm like, I want to funk this up.

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Speaker 1: I want to I this is getting too easy for me.

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Speaker 1: People seem to like me too much, and I need

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Speaker 1: to make them realize they shouldn't like you self sabotaged.

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Speaker 1: So I think that's what happens to some people is

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Speaker 1: they do something that will make it so they don't succeed.

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Speaker 1: My ex boyfriend is one of the best, uh like

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Speaker 1: my first boyfriend, one of the best comedy writers I'll

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Speaker 1: ever know, one of the best joke writers ever. Whenever

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Speaker 1: I do roast, it's the only time I talked to him.

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Speaker 1: Now I just write to him, and he now doesn't

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Speaker 1: even I don't think he does comedy anymore. But I'll

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Speaker 1: can you write me jokes? And I use more of

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Speaker 1: his jokes than anyone's jokes that I have ever used.

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Speaker 1: And his name is Jeff wessel Schmidt and he's you

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Speaker 1: can find his clips online. But he, for some reason,

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Speaker 1: his look is a little like, um, I don't know

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Speaker 1: exactly how to explain, like school shooter ish. Yeah. And

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Speaker 1: then on top of that, he is very dark jokes.

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Speaker 1: but there's certain people that you just have never heard of.

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Speaker 1: And I think and I relate to it, and I

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Speaker 1: I've just there's a part of me that doesn't Maybe

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Speaker 1: it's an excuse, but there's a part of me that's

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Speaker 1: holding back a little bit because I don't feel like

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Speaker 1: I think it's a job of a comedian that it

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Speaker 1: totally had success. It's it's a job of yours to

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Speaker 1: That's how I became your super fan is because it's

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Speaker 1: all you amy, humor thing, women who kill uh and

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Speaker 1: and dreams. Oh my god, I have so many good

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Speaker 1: stories about Carlole that I need. I've written them into shows.

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Speaker 1: But the other night I brought her on stage. Shoot,

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Speaker 1: by the way, you killed the other night. Carlos has

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Speaker 1: gotten so good at comedy because she is working at Supernova,

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Speaker 1: which is the show in l A. That you should

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Speaker 1: absolutely to go check out and support that place because comics, Yes,

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Speaker 1: they pay the tell the best is what you said.

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Speaker 1: If you're bestie, please DM me because and if you're

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Speaker 1: me up, I'll put you on my guest list. You

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Speaker 1: get amazing headliness. Ever show, there's a good headliner because

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Speaker 1: they pay comedians really really well. Yeah, several thousands that

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Speaker 1: Carlile will be like, I mean, I've already done it

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Speaker 1: like just say whatever is true in that moment, and like, yeah,

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Speaker 1: it and just like pretend you are. But you're already

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Speaker 1: an excitable person. And so when you go on stage,

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Speaker 1: I was just you just were so loud and like

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Speaker 1: for years and then I pretended to be Amy Schumer

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Speaker 1: that still remains in my act. But um, I was

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Speaker 1: What was I saying about this? Um? Yeah you were?

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Speaker 1: Oh yeah, So I brought her up or she brought me. No,

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Speaker 1: hilarious and gotten so good, my quasi boyfriend's brother, Tim Convey, Uh,

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Speaker 1: could you murder me? And and that was a seriou.

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Speaker 1: The fact I was able to add or that shows

426
00:21:01,040 --> 00:21:02,760
Speaker 1: you that I'm not actually that scared of her. But

427
00:21:02,760 --> 00:21:05,200
Speaker 1: I wanted reassurance and she goes, oh my god, No,

428
00:21:06,040 --> 00:21:08,880
Speaker 1: only only dream about killing people that I've slept with.

429
00:21:09,480 --> 00:21:11,800
Speaker 1: It's always a romantic thing. It's never friendship. And I

430
00:21:11,840 --> 00:21:14,480
Speaker 1: was like, okay, then we're fine. Like I literally was like, okay,

431
00:21:14,480 --> 00:21:18,720
Speaker 1: I'll just never hook up with you. There was a

432
00:21:18,800 --> 00:21:21,640
Speaker 1: time too, whenever we were doing I'm sure Selina's manager

433
00:21:21,800 --> 00:21:23,360
Speaker 1: told her that she was going to kill her too,

434
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Speaker 1: do you know what I mean? Like, I'm pretty sure.

435
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Speaker 1: She was like, no, I bet, I bet it wasn't

436
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Speaker 1: talked about, and then listen, I don't I would not

437
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Speaker 1: be friends with someone who I thought. But there was

438
00:21:35,600 --> 00:21:37,360
Speaker 1: a moment where I was like, there's a little part

439
00:21:37,359 --> 00:21:38,840
Speaker 1: of me that since you've told me this thing, and

440
00:21:38,840 --> 00:21:40,600
Speaker 1: I'm not trying to push rub it in your face,

441
00:21:40,600 --> 00:21:42,240
Speaker 1: like don't tell me these things anymore, but I just

442
00:21:42,280 --> 00:21:44,320
Speaker 1: want to be honest with you. Will you just assure me?

443
00:21:44,400 --> 00:21:47,960
Speaker 1: And she goes, no, I'll get laser. The ship did

444
00:21:48,000 --> 00:21:50,800
Speaker 1: give me the assurance I needed for that, because I

445
00:21:50,880 --> 00:21:53,200
Speaker 1: don't think you're a lone if you've also had homicidal

446
00:21:53,240 --> 00:21:56,479
Speaker 1: fantasies out there, because it's okay to talk about suicide

447
00:21:56,480 --> 00:21:59,760
Speaker 1: because it's yourself, it's more palatable for people. But a

448
00:22:00,040 --> 00:22:03,480
Speaker 1: lot of people have homicidal fantasies, including um Ricky Gervais's

449
00:22:03,560 --> 00:22:07,920
Speaker 1: character in Afterlife. Well. I saw jen Jennifer Lawrence interview

450
00:22:07,920 --> 00:22:11,360
Speaker 1: where she was on a light detector and for no reason,

451
00:22:11,440 --> 00:22:14,080
Speaker 1: she just threw out like sometimes when I'm near a subway,

452
00:22:14,119 --> 00:22:16,880
Speaker 1: I think about throwing people on the tracks, and then

453
00:22:17,640 --> 00:22:21,840
Speaker 1: the light detecer said, yeah, yeah, and uh, that's a

454
00:22:21,960 --> 00:22:24,080
Speaker 1: thought that she's like, that's a horrible thought, but there's

455
00:22:24,119 --> 00:22:26,720
Speaker 1: a real thought. But if you're honest about that and

456
00:22:26,840 --> 00:22:31,200
Speaker 1: in a in a you know, constructive way, I think

457
00:22:31,240 --> 00:22:33,959
Speaker 1: that it frees you. Like Carlile has said to me before, like,

458
00:22:34,000 --> 00:22:36,360
Speaker 1: oh my god, I'm really upset that I told all

459
00:22:36,400 --> 00:22:38,560
Speaker 1: this stuff to this one person because they have it

460
00:22:38,640 --> 00:22:40,439
Speaker 1: on me now and like if I ever funk up,

461
00:22:40,480 --> 00:22:42,400
Speaker 1: they can use it against me. And I go the

462
00:22:42,400 --> 00:22:45,360
Speaker 1: things that you have told this person that you think

463
00:22:45,400 --> 00:22:48,040
Speaker 1: could ruin you, I think I know all of those things.

464
00:22:48,440 --> 00:22:51,400
Speaker 1: And to me, if you own them in a way

465
00:22:51,440 --> 00:22:54,040
Speaker 1: that you can on stage or on a podcast, they

466
00:22:54,080 --> 00:22:56,399
Speaker 1: have nothing on you. And nothing that you thought in

467
00:22:56,480 --> 00:22:59,639
Speaker 1: your head is wrong. It's your Your actions might have

468
00:22:59,680 --> 00:23:01,840
Speaker 1: been like wrong, but as long as you can atone

469
00:23:01,880 --> 00:23:03,399
Speaker 1: for them and say I don't want to do those anymore,

470
00:23:03,520 --> 00:23:05,800
Speaker 1: or like spin it into like that was funny. And

471
00:23:05,840 --> 00:23:07,600
Speaker 1: by the way, the things you've done, none of it's

472
00:23:07,640 --> 00:23:11,880
Speaker 1: been like morally deplorable or like something that you would

473
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Speaker 1: be imprisoned for, So like power, you have an excuse.

474
00:23:18,240 --> 00:23:21,320
Speaker 1: You were raised inside just to button up the Dancing

475
00:23:21,320 --> 00:23:23,359
Speaker 1: with the Stars thing though there was a time on

476
00:23:23,520 --> 00:23:27,439
Speaker 1: you up whenever you were about to you couldn't be

477
00:23:27,480 --> 00:23:29,439
Speaker 1: on the show because you were on Dancing with the Stars.

478
00:23:29,480 --> 00:23:31,720
Speaker 1: And I just kept being like, y'all need to vote.

479
00:23:31,960 --> 00:23:34,400
Speaker 1: The number is this, and I kept saying the number

480
00:23:34,560 --> 00:23:36,679
Speaker 1: over and over. In Bingley was the guest, and he

481
00:23:36,760 --> 00:23:38,840
Speaker 1: was like, Carlole, why do I feel like you're gonna

482
00:23:38,920 --> 00:23:47,320
Speaker 1: kill Nikki and like wear her skin? I would get lasers.

483
00:23:48,160 --> 00:23:54,800
Speaker 1: I could get lasers. Give us, give us an Andrew, Carlole, Andrew,

484
00:24:06,119 --> 00:24:07,960
Speaker 1: welcome back to the show. This is a fun one.

485
00:24:08,080 --> 00:24:10,880
Speaker 1: We're doing all fan threats today. Uh no, Uh, I'm

486
00:24:10,920 --> 00:24:13,040
Speaker 1: sure you have a ton for us. Can I start

487
00:24:13,080 --> 00:24:15,480
Speaker 1: with the one that I got? Yes, and then we

488
00:24:15,480 --> 00:24:18,000
Speaker 1: can go to the voice memos. Um. By the way,

489
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Speaker 1: everyone that's been tuning into the Instagram lives, we've had

490
00:24:20,359 --> 00:24:24,200
Speaker 1: so much fun with you. Fucking awesome. I can't even

491
00:24:24,240 --> 00:24:26,320
Speaker 1: stand how cool you guys are. You just keep getting

492
00:24:26,359 --> 00:24:28,639
Speaker 1: better and better. Um, and that's not me, you know,

493
00:24:28,800 --> 00:24:30,919
Speaker 1: kissing your asks. You're just so supportive and sweet and

494
00:24:30,920 --> 00:24:35,720
Speaker 1: I'm so grateful for you. Um. This is from Delaney Hi, bestie.

495
00:24:35,760 --> 00:24:37,199
Speaker 1: This is lame, but I just wanted to reach out

496
00:24:37,240 --> 00:24:38,760
Speaker 1: and say how sorry I am for your loss. It's

497
00:24:38,840 --> 00:24:40,439
Speaker 1: very clear how much Bob sa I get meant to you.

498
00:24:40,720 --> 00:24:43,640
Speaker 1: I just wanted to additionally say, and this is this

499
00:24:43,680 --> 00:24:45,440
Speaker 1: is not me just getting a bunch of accolades for

500
00:24:45,640 --> 00:24:47,680
Speaker 1: how much Bob liked me or whatever. I want everyone

501
00:24:47,720 --> 00:24:50,040
Speaker 1: to listen up, because this is really important and I

502
00:24:50,040 --> 00:24:52,040
Speaker 1: think we can all learn from this. I just wanted

503
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Speaker 1: to say additional. I just wanted to additionally say you

504
00:24:54,560 --> 00:24:56,600
Speaker 1: should never feel bad for grieving a death of an

505
00:24:56,600 --> 00:25:00,040
Speaker 1: acquaintance or even a celebrity you've never met met. A

506
00:25:00,040 --> 00:25:02,440
Speaker 1: few years ago, my dad died at only fifty five,

507
00:25:02,520 --> 00:25:04,880
Speaker 1: and after that I would be filled with rage when

508
00:25:04,880 --> 00:25:07,480
Speaker 1: people were upset when someone they didn't know or barely

509
00:25:07,560 --> 00:25:11,120
Speaker 1: knew died, because um, there was no way it could

510
00:25:11,160 --> 00:25:13,160
Speaker 1: be as bad as losing your dad when you're one.

511
00:25:13,880 --> 00:25:17,360
Speaker 1: Then my favorite musical artist, Mac Miller died and I

512
00:25:17,400 --> 00:25:19,720
Speaker 1: was devastated. I never met him, never even had the

513
00:25:19,720 --> 00:25:21,560
Speaker 1: pleasure of seeing him in concert, but the grief I

514
00:25:21,600 --> 00:25:23,760
Speaker 1: felt over his death was similar to my dad's death.

515
00:25:24,080 --> 00:25:26,240
Speaker 1: It really showed me that grief can hit people in

516
00:25:26,280 --> 00:25:28,919
Speaker 1: different ways. And just because you didn't personally know someone

517
00:25:29,240 --> 00:25:31,240
Speaker 1: doesn't mean you can't be affected by their death in

518
00:25:31,240 --> 00:25:34,600
Speaker 1: a big way. Anyways, I am down, I am now rambling.

519
00:25:34,840 --> 00:25:37,480
Speaker 1: I appreciate you in the podcast. It's really helped me

520
00:25:37,560 --> 00:25:42,720
Speaker 1: every day. To Jackie chan Um, that was awesome to

521
00:25:42,760 --> 00:25:45,840
Speaker 1: read because that was from someone who used to I

522
00:25:45,960 --> 00:25:49,040
Speaker 1: love a change of heart. I love a bestie that

523
00:25:49,080 --> 00:25:51,359
Speaker 1: could share a change of heart where they like thought

524
00:25:51,480 --> 00:25:53,920
Speaker 1: some way and then thought the other way. And um,

525
00:25:53,960 --> 00:25:56,440
Speaker 1: I just loved hearing that. Thank you so much, Delaney. UM.

526
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Speaker 1: I want to share one more real quick that I got.

527
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Speaker 1: No one ever said is like, oh, you're grieving over

528
00:26:01,720 --> 00:26:04,480
Speaker 1: your dad. You're making it about you, Like no one

529
00:26:04,480 --> 00:26:06,400
Speaker 1: ever says that, you know what I mean. It's like

530
00:26:06,560 --> 00:26:08,560
Speaker 1: it's someone that they don't think you're connected. You weren't

531
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Speaker 1: as close to dad as I was. It's like your mom. Yeah,

532
00:26:12,400 --> 00:26:15,000
Speaker 1: I knew him longer I had sex with him. Did

533
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Speaker 1: you wait? What? Oh the truth comes out? Okay, So

534
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Speaker 1: this is from is from Felina and she goes by, oh,

535
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Speaker 1: it's just fee um, Hey, you cured my crippling chronic

536
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Speaker 1: psietic pain with your recommendation. I appreciate that about you.

537
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Speaker 1: I've spent thousands on physical therapy, in version tables, tens units,

538
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Speaker 1: t n S, it's like a et cetera, over the

539
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Speaker 1: past four years, and it turns out I was psychosomatically

540
00:26:42,720 --> 00:26:47,000
Speaker 1: giving myself pureform of syndrome by subconsciously clenching muscles after trauma.

541
00:26:47,280 --> 00:26:49,480
Speaker 1: Quite odd that my body did that. Anyway, You rock,

542
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Speaker 1: Thank you, UM love love that message. So UM again.

543
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Speaker 1: Check out the book Healing Back Pain if you want

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549
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Speaker 1: be experiencing. No, what do you have as too much sarcasm,

550
00:27:21,680 --> 00:27:28,240
Speaker 1: too much psychattic pain, too much of this? Okay. First

551
00:27:28,280 --> 00:27:34,240
Speaker 1: message comes from Rihanna, whoa first ever. Rihanna, I've heard.

552
00:27:34,840 --> 00:27:37,639
Speaker 1: Hey Nicky Andrew. I'm so excited to be calling in

553
00:27:37,760 --> 00:27:40,040
Speaker 1: right now. Um, Nikki, you asked me to share my

554
00:27:40,080 --> 00:27:45,320
Speaker 1: experience with body positivity and shrooms and lsd UM. I

555
00:27:45,400 --> 00:27:48,800
Speaker 1: just remember on my first trip, this epiphany of looking

556
00:27:48,800 --> 00:27:51,520
Speaker 1: down at my legs and thinking they don't look like much,

557
00:27:51,560 --> 00:27:54,359
Speaker 1: but they do so much. UM. So I've had this

558
00:27:54,440 --> 00:27:59,000
Speaker 1: major mindset shift from esthetics to function. UM that's really

559
00:27:59,000 --> 00:28:02,680
Speaker 1: sustained throughout the years over all my trips. UM. I

560
00:28:02,720 --> 00:28:05,920
Speaker 1: don't do it anymore, but it's an amazing epiphany that

561
00:28:05,960 --> 00:28:07,960
Speaker 1: I had that's just steered into my brain. It just

562
00:28:07,960 --> 00:28:11,760
Speaker 1: seems so silly to be worrying about um cellulate and

563
00:28:12,600 --> 00:28:15,880
Speaker 1: dimples when my legs can still get me up mountains. UM.

564
00:28:16,680 --> 00:28:19,399
Speaker 1: I'm wondering if anyone else has had that experience of

565
00:28:19,440 --> 00:28:22,399
Speaker 1: body acceptance with those substances, if that's maybe one of

566
00:28:22,400 --> 00:28:26,520
Speaker 1: those shared experiences people have with those UM. Real quick, Nikki,

567
00:28:26,560 --> 00:28:28,439
Speaker 1: I just wanted to say I've been listening to you

568
00:28:28,440 --> 00:28:31,199
Speaker 1: since you up days. UM. I got to see you

569
00:28:31,240 --> 00:28:34,360
Speaker 1: in Denver for your taping and I just felt like

570
00:28:34,560 --> 00:28:37,600
Speaker 1: the biggest proud little sister UM in the crowd that night.

571
00:28:37,640 --> 00:28:39,200
Speaker 1: I had no idea that was for your special It

572
00:28:39,280 --> 00:28:41,960
Speaker 1: was just awesome. UM. Thank you three for what you

573
00:28:42,000 --> 00:28:44,760
Speaker 1: do for a bunch of strangers every day. You're all awesome.

574
00:28:44,880 --> 00:28:49,200
Speaker 1: Sport squirt. Oh my god, we got the Queen of

575
00:28:49,240 --> 00:28:53,760
Speaker 1: coordination right here. Um, Brihanna, thank you so much. She

576
00:28:54,000 --> 00:28:57,320
Speaker 1: was I believe she was on that was from last night, right, Yeah,

577
00:28:58,040 --> 00:28:59,800
Speaker 1: so she was on my Instagram live and we were

578
00:28:59,800 --> 00:29:02,520
Speaker 1: really lea having a discussion on there about body positivity

579
00:29:02,600 --> 00:29:05,520
Speaker 1: and like fat acceptance and there were a lot of

580
00:29:05,680 --> 00:29:08,200
Speaker 1: fat besties in there talking about their experience as a

581
00:29:08,200 --> 00:29:11,320
Speaker 1: fat person and it was really awesome. We were just

582
00:29:12,000 --> 00:29:14,480
Speaker 1: it was it was like a jam sesh about our

583
00:29:14,520 --> 00:29:17,360
Speaker 1: bodies and like how we feel an addiction. Carl I

584
00:29:17,360 --> 00:29:21,880
Speaker 1: was talking about being eighty three today. By the time

585
00:29:21,920 --> 00:29:25,520
Speaker 1: they hear this, it'll be eighty four four days sober well,

586
00:29:25,800 --> 00:29:30,160
Speaker 1: god willing tonight. Who knows after we've admitted that your

587
00:29:30,200 --> 00:29:32,800
Speaker 1: homicidal doesn't. Who knows what's going to happen after this?

588
00:29:33,320 --> 00:29:38,280
Speaker 1: But um from pot and from pot and alcohol, and yeah,

589
00:29:38,440 --> 00:29:41,760
Speaker 1: congrats and um. It was just great. And I think

590
00:29:41,800 --> 00:29:43,719
Speaker 1: Rihanna had shared in the chat that she had a

591
00:29:43,720 --> 00:29:47,480
Speaker 1: moment with mushrooms or LSD that where she had body acceptance,

592
00:29:47,480 --> 00:29:49,760
Speaker 1: and I was like, please call into the podcast and

593
00:29:49,760 --> 00:29:53,040
Speaker 1: share that. That's I really do think that sometimes even

594
00:29:53,080 --> 00:29:56,200
Speaker 1: when I see people who when I look at obese

595
00:29:56,200 --> 00:29:59,560
Speaker 1: people that are really struggling to walk. I just marvel

596
00:30:00,000 --> 00:30:03,360
Speaker 1: at how they are able to carry all of that around.

597
00:30:03,680 --> 00:30:06,560
Speaker 1: You've carried you've had a backpack on before, that's really heavy,

598
00:30:06,600 --> 00:30:08,840
Speaker 1: and like how much different it is to walk around

599
00:30:08,880 --> 00:30:13,600
Speaker 1: with that than not that their bodies are so strong

600
00:30:13,720 --> 00:30:16,480
Speaker 1: to be carrying that around and to be carrying it

601
00:30:16,520 --> 00:30:19,520
Speaker 1: around knowing that people are judging them, Like fat people

602
00:30:19,600 --> 00:30:25,520
Speaker 1: really are so strong, both physically and emotionally. And I

603
00:30:26,160 --> 00:30:28,920
Speaker 1: heard so much yesterday that made me so happy from

604
00:30:29,000 --> 00:30:32,440
Speaker 1: people who you know, struggle being fat and struggle with

605
00:30:32,480 --> 00:30:36,200
Speaker 1: how people interpret it, but who still love themselves. And

606
00:30:36,680 --> 00:30:41,160
Speaker 1: I definitely like, whenever I get into a negative place

607
00:30:41,200 --> 00:30:45,479
Speaker 1: about body part or feeling like it's fat or pale

608
00:30:45,560 --> 00:30:49,520
Speaker 1: or flat, whatever the fuck, um yeah, remember that remembering

609
00:30:49,560 --> 00:30:54,960
Speaker 1: that it's functioning and is such a gift. And that's

610
00:30:54,960 --> 00:30:59,120
Speaker 1: such a good epiphany to have. And um yeah, I

611
00:30:59,160 --> 00:31:01,160
Speaker 1: just wanna I want to talk more about that stuff

612
00:31:01,280 --> 00:31:03,480
Speaker 1: in our Instagram lives. It was just such a great

613
00:31:03,960 --> 00:31:08,800
Speaker 1: like it was almost like a twelve step like like

614
00:31:09,960 --> 00:31:13,040
Speaker 1: a lot of people take things for granted until it's removed,

615
00:31:13,240 --> 00:31:17,040
Speaker 1: you know, Like let's say you're mad about your legs,

616
00:31:17,040 --> 00:31:19,040
Speaker 1: being a little chubby and then next day you get

617
00:31:19,040 --> 00:31:20,600
Speaker 1: in a car wreck and you can't use your legs

618
00:31:20,640 --> 00:31:22,840
Speaker 1: and you're like why Like that's when you would have

619
00:31:22,840 --> 00:31:26,760
Speaker 1: the realization like have it now, you know? Before you know,

620
00:31:26,800 --> 00:31:29,160
Speaker 1: I think about my like my mom with her stuff,

621
00:31:29,280 --> 00:31:32,000
Speaker 1: and like she has like oxygen her nose and she

622
00:31:32,000 --> 00:31:35,240
Speaker 1: couldn't be any Like she walks around with an oxygen tank,

623
00:31:35,320 --> 00:31:38,200
Speaker 1: like she has a stroller for it, and like I

624
00:31:38,240 --> 00:31:42,959
Speaker 1: think about like like, oh, that's she's weak physically, but

625
00:31:43,120 --> 00:31:46,120
Speaker 1: god is it like gives me a new appreciation for

626
00:31:46,160 --> 00:31:48,720
Speaker 1: her to like go out in public like that, knowing

627
00:31:48,800 --> 00:31:51,160
Speaker 1: people who are like you know, see or even if

628
00:31:51,200 --> 00:31:53,719
Speaker 1: they're not talking, like it's kind of like the thing

629
00:31:53,760 --> 00:31:55,960
Speaker 1: that you're saying. I really think we need to start

630
00:31:56,040 --> 00:32:00,440
Speaker 1: seeing people that, you know, especially fat people. Like it

631
00:32:00,520 --> 00:32:02,600
Speaker 1: changed my mindset one day when I was just like

632
00:32:02,960 --> 00:32:05,360
Speaker 1: I saw a really obese person struggling to walk, like

633
00:32:05,400 --> 00:32:09,920
Speaker 1: you know, just very slow, the purposeful steps, like every

634
00:32:09,920 --> 00:32:12,960
Speaker 1: step was like effort. And I was like, and you

635
00:32:13,000 --> 00:32:15,240
Speaker 1: can say all you want, like they chose to get

636
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Speaker 1: that way. No one chooses to get that way. No

637
00:32:17,560 --> 00:32:19,560
Speaker 1: one wants to be that way, So shut up with

638
00:32:19,640 --> 00:32:22,720
Speaker 1: your you stop eating or whatever it is, shut the

639
00:32:22,840 --> 00:32:27,120
Speaker 1: funk if you could, if you if it isn't and

640
00:32:27,120 --> 00:32:29,680
Speaker 1: and really no, I know, and food is a real

641
00:32:29,720 --> 00:32:33,560
Speaker 1: addiction and anyone who says otherwise is so stupid and

642
00:32:33,600 --> 00:32:36,520
Speaker 1: you should feel sorry for them for being so dumb. Um.

643
00:32:36,640 --> 00:32:38,360
Speaker 1: But when I see a five person I don't feel

644
00:32:38,360 --> 00:32:39,960
Speaker 1: so you know, there's a part of me that's like, oh,

645
00:32:40,000 --> 00:32:42,840
Speaker 1: that's an addict, because I've been there and and a

646
00:32:42,840 --> 00:32:45,760
Speaker 1: lot of times they're not. But if you're morbidly obese,

647
00:32:45,760 --> 00:32:47,160
Speaker 1: and I know that they don't even like that word,

648
00:32:47,200 --> 00:32:49,160
Speaker 1: but if you're in obese in a way that you

649
00:32:49,320 --> 00:32:51,120
Speaker 1: might be confined to a wheelchair and not be able

650
00:32:51,160 --> 00:32:53,880
Speaker 1: to walk, really well, um, you didn't choose to be

651
00:32:53,960 --> 00:32:56,239
Speaker 1: that way. You are addicted to a substance that is

652
00:32:56,360 --> 00:33:00,760
Speaker 1: not regulated, that is completely you know every one, it's

653
00:33:00,760 --> 00:33:03,880
Speaker 1: advertised to you constantly. It's not illegal, and you have

654
00:33:04,040 --> 00:33:07,120
Speaker 1: to do it. Everybody has to eat. Yeah, that's the

655
00:33:07,120 --> 00:33:09,320
Speaker 1: difficult thing. And if you relate to anything I'm saying,

656
00:33:09,360 --> 00:33:11,840
Speaker 1: I always extend this. Please write to me and my

657
00:33:11,920 --> 00:33:15,560
Speaker 1: d m s and capitalize. Don't don't share your whole story,

658
00:33:15,600 --> 00:33:21,600
Speaker 1: but say you know, um, just right, uh uh attention

659
00:33:21,680 --> 00:33:24,400
Speaker 1: Nikki and all caps right, and that'll get my attention.

660
00:33:24,400 --> 00:33:27,320
Speaker 1: But I and I'll gear you towards something that might help.

661
00:33:27,360 --> 00:33:29,840
Speaker 1: But I really think that everyone out there needs to

662
00:33:29,840 --> 00:33:33,440
Speaker 1: start seeing people that are walking around, lumbering around with

663
00:33:33,480 --> 00:33:36,120
Speaker 1: a lot of added weight. A The ability to go

664
00:33:36,160 --> 00:33:38,240
Speaker 1: out knowing that kids and people are going to snicker

665
00:33:38,240 --> 00:33:42,000
Speaker 1: and laugh at you is is hard. And they're carrying,

666
00:33:42,080 --> 00:33:44,440
Speaker 1: they're doing They're so strong to be caring all of that,

667
00:33:44,680 --> 00:33:46,560
Speaker 1: and they don't. And we shouldn't be like, yeah, you

668
00:33:46,600 --> 00:33:48,920
Speaker 1: should do the Iron Man, but it's you got to

669
00:33:48,920 --> 00:33:50,840
Speaker 1: give him some credit for carrying all that weight. It

670
00:33:50,960 --> 00:33:52,680
Speaker 1: is a fucking lot. And they have just the same

671
00:33:52,680 --> 00:33:55,200
Speaker 1: amount of muscles an airplane. You know when they will

672
00:33:55,600 --> 00:33:58,280
Speaker 1: you know, anytime I see like an overweight person sitting

673
00:33:58,280 --> 00:34:01,600
Speaker 1: on there and airplane, they're tight, they're tight seats and

674
00:34:01,640 --> 00:34:05,160
Speaker 1: it's like they fucking know that they're the one dealing

675
00:34:05,200 --> 00:34:07,560
Speaker 1: with it. Like I hate when people are like I

676
00:34:08,560 --> 00:34:12,359
Speaker 1: ever witness someone get like because I don't know if

677
00:34:12,360 --> 00:34:14,680
Speaker 1: besties would do this, but if you ever witness someone

678
00:34:15,120 --> 00:34:17,760
Speaker 1: being a bit about someone being fat on an airplane

679
00:34:17,760 --> 00:34:20,759
Speaker 1: and having to sit next to them, you kick that

680
00:34:20,800 --> 00:34:25,719
Speaker 1: person's chair all through the flight. And granted the fat

681
00:34:25,719 --> 00:34:27,799
Speaker 1: person probably will be in a part of that chair too,

682
00:34:29,200 --> 00:34:33,000
Speaker 1: but let's be honest, but that person um is so

683
00:34:33,080 --> 00:34:36,200
Speaker 1: disgusting to me. That's how they'll know you support them.

684
00:34:36,239 --> 00:34:40,040
Speaker 1: They'll feel of you kicking the seat well, that you're

685
00:34:40,080 --> 00:34:42,640
Speaker 1: just despicable. If you ever make anyone feel bad about

686
00:34:42,640 --> 00:34:45,680
Speaker 1: their physical presence. It doesn't make me like think like

687
00:34:45,760 --> 00:34:48,359
Speaker 1: why I have small hands? Like why do I have

688
00:34:48,840 --> 00:34:51,239
Speaker 1: I'm not why what's good about that? You know what

689
00:34:51,320 --> 00:34:53,440
Speaker 1: I mean? Like where my alien thumbs? Like maybe if

690
00:34:53,440 --> 00:34:57,120
Speaker 1: I'm hitchhiking, someone will stop because they're alien like or

691
00:34:57,239 --> 00:35:01,400
Speaker 1: my thick eyebrows funny thing out of my eyes. Your

692
00:35:01,440 --> 00:35:03,759
Speaker 1: thumbs are funny, and it's made you feel less than

693
00:35:03,920 --> 00:35:06,120
Speaker 1: in the in the past, which is made you feel

694
00:35:06,200 --> 00:35:09,040
Speaker 1: be funny and cooler. Yeah, it's just fun Yeah, no,

695
00:35:09,120 --> 00:35:11,080
Speaker 1: I know, it's just interesting to look at you, not

696
00:35:11,239 --> 00:35:14,920
Speaker 1: just with a functionality, but like why what is it

697
00:35:14,960 --> 00:35:17,440
Speaker 1: given you? You know, because we're all in the bodies

698
00:35:17,520 --> 00:35:20,799
Speaker 1: that we have, because those are the bodies that we

699
00:35:20,800 --> 00:35:23,080
Speaker 1: were meant to have. And you know why that's true

700
00:35:23,440 --> 00:35:25,480
Speaker 1: because you have that body. Well, wait a second, carl out,

701
00:35:25,520 --> 00:35:28,200
Speaker 1: then how do I get you to stop saying? We're

702
00:35:28,200 --> 00:35:30,040
Speaker 1: watching Paras Hilton show last night, and I'm like, God,

703
00:35:30,080 --> 00:35:33,400
Speaker 1: you look like Paris so much like Carlos, so so gorgeous,

704
00:35:33,440 --> 00:35:36,239
Speaker 1: and recently has been just like popping. I think it's

705
00:35:36,280 --> 00:35:38,600
Speaker 1: just like not smoking weed and just you just like

706
00:35:38,960 --> 00:35:41,520
Speaker 1: look stunning to me. And I'm never gonna have a

707
00:35:41,520 --> 00:35:43,359
Speaker 1: sexual relationship with you because you might murder me. But

708
00:35:43,960 --> 00:35:46,239
Speaker 1: what I'm trying to say is that what about you

709
00:35:46,320 --> 00:35:49,719
Speaker 1: when you say yeah? Except my dark circles under my

710
00:35:49,880 --> 00:35:53,120
Speaker 1: pass She looked the same, except that I do think

711
00:35:53,160 --> 00:35:56,399
Speaker 1: that's the weed fading out of me. I think that's

712
00:35:56,400 --> 00:35:59,359
Speaker 1: still my disdain for being a pothead for so long.

713
00:35:59,520 --> 00:36:03,840
Speaker 1: So maybe I'll learn to work. Yeah, the cough is gone.

714
00:36:04,200 --> 00:36:09,840
Speaker 1: I had COVID and I didn't cough was like sounding

715
00:36:09,880 --> 00:36:12,440
Speaker 1: like a seal being beaten. Yes, we need to get

716
00:36:12,440 --> 00:36:19,560
Speaker 1: to the bonk off. Let's get to our first or

717
00:36:19,600 --> 00:36:22,880
Speaker 1: a second. Um. Yeah, okay. So on the topic of

718
00:36:22,960 --> 00:36:28,600
Speaker 1: your I g Live here's an anonymous message. Hi guys,

719
00:36:28,800 --> 00:36:32,160
Speaker 1: I'm gonna keep this anonymous. UM. I love when you

720
00:36:32,200 --> 00:36:35,480
Speaker 1: guys go live on your Instagram. I try to catch

721
00:36:35,520 --> 00:36:39,680
Speaker 1: it as often as possible. Um. And a few days ago,

722
00:36:39,960 --> 00:36:42,279
Speaker 1: Nikki was playing guitar and I had my air pot in.

723
00:36:42,800 --> 00:36:44,520
Speaker 1: I was watching on my iPad and I kind of

724
00:36:44,520 --> 00:36:47,000
Speaker 1: had it away from me, but I was scrolling through

725
00:36:47,040 --> 00:36:49,800
Speaker 1: whatever on my phone and my husband came up behind

726
00:36:49,840 --> 00:36:54,200
Speaker 1: me and I got a little hen zy. One thing

727
00:36:54,280 --> 00:36:56,719
Speaker 1: led to another. I still had one air put in,

728
00:36:57,480 --> 00:37:01,840
Speaker 1: and my husband has no idea that we did things

729
00:37:01,840 --> 00:37:03,800
Speaker 1: while I had an air put in. I did eventually

730
00:37:03,800 --> 00:37:06,759
Speaker 1: take it out, but oh my god, I just thought

731
00:37:06,760 --> 00:37:08,680
Speaker 1: it was so funny. I had to tell you guys,

732
00:37:09,160 --> 00:37:13,680
Speaker 1: and UM, yeah, that's awesome. Why am I telling you?

733
00:37:13,719 --> 00:37:17,359
Speaker 1: I don't know. That's it. I love you guys. I'll

734
00:37:17,400 --> 00:37:24,839
Speaker 1: talk to you later. Jack and Jill. That's a good one. Anonymous,

735
00:37:24,880 --> 00:37:27,320
Speaker 1: thank you so much. I love that someone had sex

736
00:37:27,360 --> 00:37:32,520
Speaker 1: to me struggling to play Dave Matthews sex music. So cute.

737
00:37:32,840 --> 00:37:37,040
Speaker 1: Oh thanks for that. That's so awesome. Um, Anonymous, and

738
00:37:37,080 --> 00:37:39,799
Speaker 1: I love like. Please feel free to leave us a

739
00:37:39,840 --> 00:37:43,240
Speaker 1: message anytime like that about anything. And it's so adorable.

740
00:37:43,239 --> 00:37:45,760
Speaker 1: And if she was laughing, it was your husband's penis.

741
00:37:45,760 --> 00:37:49,000
Speaker 1: It was not nicky, was not being funny. It was

742
00:37:49,080 --> 00:37:54,960
Speaker 1: definitely I'm so serious it's uncomfortable. Um, all right, now

743
00:37:55,040 --> 00:38:00,480
Speaker 1: on what's the next one? Okay, next one comes from Kristen. Hey, Nikki, Noah,

744
00:38:00,480 --> 00:38:04,319
Speaker 1: and Andrew. This is your bestie Kristen from Chicago. And

745
00:38:04,400 --> 00:38:08,200
Speaker 1: I wanted to call myself on a cook. I was

746
00:38:08,640 --> 00:38:13,040
Speaker 1: flying back home and before my flight, I downloaded the

747
00:38:13,120 --> 00:38:15,880
Speaker 1: latest season of The Stand Ups to watch on my

748
00:38:15,960 --> 00:38:19,200
Speaker 1: iPad and Nikki, I know that you're on season one.

749
00:38:19,239 --> 00:38:23,920
Speaker 1: You were great, and um, I was thinking back to

750
00:38:25,200 --> 00:38:30,240
Speaker 1: one episode where Nikki, you were describing a girl reading

751
00:38:30,280 --> 00:38:33,520
Speaker 1: her book on the train and just like laughing to

752
00:38:33,560 --> 00:38:37,600
Speaker 1: herself at you know, something she just read. And I

753
00:38:37,640 --> 00:38:40,319
Speaker 1: was kind of doing that too on the plane when

754
00:38:40,360 --> 00:38:44,279
Speaker 1: I was watching you Stand Ups. I would just have

755
00:38:44,400 --> 00:38:48,720
Speaker 1: a little giggle here and there, and I was feeling

756
00:38:48,840 --> 00:38:52,160
Speaker 1: annoyed for the people around me who just had to

757
00:38:52,200 --> 00:38:55,480
Speaker 1: hear me giggle. And I know that's annoying, but you

758
00:38:55,520 --> 00:38:58,239
Speaker 1: know it's what I wanted to watch on the flight. Yea,

759
00:38:58,840 --> 00:39:01,640
Speaker 1: And yeah, I just wanted to share that with y'all.

760
00:39:02,400 --> 00:39:07,200
Speaker 1: Jack Skellington, Jack Skellington, Um, wait, what was her name

761
00:39:07,239 --> 00:39:10,680
Speaker 1: is Kristen? Kristen? I delight when people are laughing on

762
00:39:10,719 --> 00:39:14,040
Speaker 1: a plane. I don't think it's I think it's only

763
00:39:15,400 --> 00:39:17,759
Speaker 1: you're reading a book and you want people to like

764
00:39:17,920 --> 00:39:20,000
Speaker 1: know that you're getting like, oh my god, I'm enjoying

765
00:39:20,000 --> 00:39:23,200
Speaker 1: this book so much. It's making me laugh. Jane Austen

766
00:39:23,680 --> 00:39:27,280
Speaker 1: her why wit oh she was ahead of a time.

767
00:39:27,719 --> 00:39:30,239
Speaker 1: That bothers me. But if it's like you're watching stand up,

768
00:39:30,360 --> 00:39:33,000
Speaker 1: I love when people on a plane are laughing to themselves,

769
00:39:33,040 --> 00:39:35,120
Speaker 1: like and they're trying not to. They're like trying like

770
00:39:35,200 --> 00:39:37,920
Speaker 1: they're trying to keep it cool. I think it's adorable

771
00:39:37,920 --> 00:39:39,680
Speaker 1: and it's it makes me laugh. If if you ever

772
00:39:39,680 --> 00:39:42,120
Speaker 1: seen those videos where people start laughing and then everyone

773
00:39:42,160 --> 00:39:45,560
Speaker 1: on the train is laughing because laughter is contagious for

774
00:39:45,600 --> 00:39:48,560
Speaker 1: no reason, Um, so keep doing that. I love it.

775
00:39:48,560 --> 00:39:50,920
Speaker 1: It is like it depending on what show you're watching too.

776
00:39:51,040 --> 00:39:54,719
Speaker 1: You're watching like I don't know, what's like a comedy

777
00:39:54,840 --> 00:39:58,239
Speaker 1: that's like Kenny high Brow, Like if you're watching like

778
00:39:58,320 --> 00:40:00,400
Speaker 1: I don't know, I can't really think of one right now,

779
00:40:00,520 --> 00:40:02,840
Speaker 1: that just shows you, like how much I don't know

780
00:40:02,880 --> 00:40:06,880
Speaker 1: if you're laughing at like, um you know, uh, Wes Anderson,

781
00:40:07,600 --> 00:40:10,560
Speaker 1: yeah yeah, and you're like showing everyone holding it up.

782
00:40:11,239 --> 00:40:14,279
Speaker 1: Have you seen this one from his Odd collection from

783
00:40:14,560 --> 00:40:17,840
Speaker 1: if you're watching it anything from anything from the Criterion

784
00:40:17,960 --> 00:40:22,120
Speaker 1: Collection DVD, like you're watching like a TRUFA or a

785
00:40:23,560 --> 00:40:26,279
Speaker 1: But if you're watching the start, you know the stand

786
00:40:26,360 --> 00:40:29,320
Speaker 1: ups whatever, which is yeah, and I want to know

787
00:40:29,360 --> 00:40:31,200
Speaker 1: who you were laughing on, who you liked most on there,

788
00:40:31,200 --> 00:40:33,640
Speaker 1: and you don't need to include I feel bad about

789
00:40:33,680 --> 00:40:36,000
Speaker 1: the latest. I watched some of it. The crowd was

790
00:40:36,120 --> 00:40:39,080
Speaker 1: like ship it was, it was they need the energy

791
00:40:39,120 --> 00:40:41,719
Speaker 1: in the room was like you can always pump it up. Yeah,

792
00:40:41,760 --> 00:40:44,520
Speaker 1: I know, especial at the Denver one. The first taping

793
00:40:44,560 --> 00:40:48,200
Speaker 1: was like low end and then um the second the

794
00:40:48,280 --> 00:40:53,880
Speaker 1: second energy is my uh initials, Oh, my managers calling me.

795
00:40:53,920 --> 00:40:58,239
Speaker 1: That's either bad no, no no, no, because he's not gonna

796
00:40:58,280 --> 00:40:59,759
Speaker 1: tell he's not going to tell me anything. He's not

797
00:40:59,800 --> 00:41:05,759
Speaker 1: the no, he's not no, he's not. No. It's either

798
00:41:05,800 --> 00:41:08,279
Speaker 1: bad news or good news. Um, you are the lead

799
00:41:08,360 --> 00:41:15,919
Speaker 1: in the new Benefflex that would be hilarious. Um. But anyway, Yeah,

800
00:41:15,920 --> 00:41:18,960
Speaker 1: the second crowd was great energy and you watch you

801
00:41:19,040 --> 00:41:23,120
Speaker 1: watch it and my special end there's just a desperate

802
00:41:23,560 --> 00:41:26,200
Speaker 1: you you need more laughter and it'll sound like I'm

803
00:41:26,280 --> 00:41:28,440
Speaker 1: it'll sound so much better, even though my part will

804
00:41:28,480 --> 00:41:31,600
Speaker 1: be the same. Laughter really does convintion. And that book

805
00:41:31,640 --> 00:41:34,960
Speaker 1: I was reading about psychology of influence, like canned laughter

806
00:41:35,280 --> 00:41:40,040
Speaker 1: is everything in TV shows everything, and it's really necessary. Uh,

807
00:41:40,080 --> 00:41:43,560
Speaker 1: and has shows are not big bang theory would not

808
00:41:43,600 --> 00:41:46,719
Speaker 1: exist if it were a shot like the Office. Probably

809
00:41:46,920 --> 00:41:49,640
Speaker 1: it needs a laugh track and it teaches people where

810
00:41:49,680 --> 00:41:51,360
Speaker 1: to laugh and we all fall for it. No one's

811
00:41:51,440 --> 00:41:54,359
Speaker 1: no one can out trick it. It's subconscious. Let's get

812
00:41:54,400 --> 00:41:55,719
Speaker 1: to the next one so I can get this call

813
00:41:55,760 --> 00:42:00,480
Speaker 1: from my manager. My life is about to change. Okay,

814
00:42:00,480 --> 00:42:03,320
Speaker 1: we'll do this one and then we'll go to break great. Okay,

815
00:42:03,320 --> 00:42:08,879
Speaker 1: So here's one in a tsunami. Al right. This next

816
00:42:08,880 --> 00:42:14,520
Speaker 1: one comes from j J. Hey, nicky fan J here

817
00:42:14,600 --> 00:42:17,719
Speaker 1: and I'm listening to the episode with Annya Marina, which

818
00:42:17,800 --> 00:42:21,440
Speaker 1: I love. It reminds me back in the up serious days.

819
00:42:21,719 --> 00:42:25,560
Speaker 1: I literally released a new car, started listening to your

820
00:42:26,040 --> 00:42:29,359
Speaker 1: radio show, and when the least the serious three month

821
00:42:29,360 --> 00:42:31,360
Speaker 1: trial was up, I got it just to keep listening.

822
00:42:32,000 --> 00:42:38,919
Speaker 1: Um and I wanted to talk about andrews Um several discussions,

823
00:42:39,200 --> 00:42:41,560
Speaker 1: and I think I understand what he's saying. I think

824
00:42:41,600 --> 00:42:45,840
Speaker 1: he means that when you say a small amount of

825
00:42:45,960 --> 00:42:49,120
Speaker 1: something in a smaller unit, it's a large amount. So

826
00:42:49,160 --> 00:42:53,560
Speaker 1: if you say like several hours, that's a lot of minutes,

827
00:42:54,480 --> 00:42:58,920
Speaker 1: but nobody uses it that way, Like several hours is

828
00:42:58,960 --> 00:43:01,759
Speaker 1: interchangeable with a lot of minutes, but nobody would say

829
00:43:01,760 --> 00:43:05,080
Speaker 1: a lot of minutes. They would just say several hours

830
00:43:05,760 --> 00:43:08,359
Speaker 1: of Andrew, I think the next time somebody texts you

831
00:43:08,480 --> 00:43:10,920
Speaker 1: and says how far away are you and you're like

832
00:43:10,960 --> 00:43:13,879
Speaker 1: five minutes away, just text back and say, oh, I'm

833
00:43:13,920 --> 00:43:18,520
Speaker 1: a lot of seconds away. Yes, is that what you mean?

834
00:43:19,719 --> 00:43:21,920
Speaker 1: That's definitely on par with what I was trying to.

835
00:43:22,560 --> 00:43:26,040
Speaker 1: If you're saying he was in space for several minutes,

836
00:43:26,880 --> 00:43:28,759
Speaker 1: that still doesn't help the space thing that we got

837
00:43:28,760 --> 00:43:32,359
Speaker 1: it started. I went there kind of the other day

838
00:43:32,400 --> 00:43:34,960
Speaker 1: of like what he was saying, and that makes more sense.

839
00:43:35,040 --> 00:43:38,919
Speaker 1: But originally I did think several just meant a lot,

840
00:43:39,040 --> 00:43:41,080
Speaker 1: like no matter what it was and no matter what

841
00:43:41,120 --> 00:43:44,399
Speaker 1: you're But then I was very wrong of top. But

842
00:43:44,440 --> 00:43:46,520
Speaker 1: then he has a good point. I love I love

843
00:43:46,560 --> 00:43:50,319
Speaker 1: the way several thousand miles away that's a lot of

844
00:43:50,360 --> 00:43:55,160
Speaker 1: miles because it's right. But the several is what it's

845
00:43:55,200 --> 00:43:58,200
Speaker 1: like a couple of thousand miles away is a lot too,

846
00:43:58,200 --> 00:44:01,799
Speaker 1: but it's still two thousand miles. Yes, so in my mind,

847
00:44:02,960 --> 00:44:06,600
Speaker 1: several didn't in that case, it was several thousand miles away,

848
00:44:06,800 --> 00:44:09,200
Speaker 1: and it could be four or five because that's still

849
00:44:09,200 --> 00:44:13,160
Speaker 1: a time, right, But it's but what are you doing?

850
00:44:13,640 --> 00:44:17,040
Speaker 1: I'm trying to flatten out my eyebags, and it looked

851
00:44:17,080 --> 00:44:22,400
Speaker 1: like I was doing something recive. The thing is several

852
00:44:23,800 --> 00:44:26,719
Speaker 1: we've we could talk all day about this, but you're right, like,

853
00:44:27,520 --> 00:44:31,200
Speaker 1: but that's hilarious to go. You know, one of something

854
00:44:31,440 --> 00:44:34,720
Speaker 1: is small unless you say one million, then of course

855
00:44:34,760 --> 00:44:38,480
Speaker 1: it's big. But the argument is not if one is

856
00:44:38,520 --> 00:44:41,080
Speaker 1: a big amount or not. One is a small amount

857
00:44:41,200 --> 00:44:44,400
Speaker 1: because it's one. But if you're talking about one and

858
00:44:44,440 --> 00:44:46,840
Speaker 1: then a amount of something, of course it's going to

859
00:44:46,960 --> 00:44:49,399
Speaker 1: be a lot in some Okay, let's take a break

860
00:44:49,440 --> 00:44:51,680
Speaker 1: and we'll not get back to this when we come back.

861
00:44:55,640 --> 00:44:58,760
Speaker 1: All right, we're back. Let's get two more fan tracks.

862
00:44:59,680 --> 00:45:02,480
Speaker 1: Did you think I'd be able to do that Palma basketball? No,

863
00:45:02,680 --> 00:45:04,359
Speaker 1: I would not think you were able to do that. See,

864
00:45:04,400 --> 00:45:06,080
Speaker 1: that's what your little hands are good for, because they

865
00:45:06,080 --> 00:45:10,640
Speaker 1: get right in the crease. That's the trick. Okay, here's

866
00:45:10,680 --> 00:45:16,040
Speaker 1: a story from Cali. Call from California, Hi Nikki to

867
00:45:16,160 --> 00:45:21,399
Speaker 1: girl CALLI from Mississippi. Southern knee, hall um. You were

868
00:45:21,400 --> 00:45:24,080
Speaker 1: talking about in this latest episode the birds, the shoe bird,

869
00:45:24,200 --> 00:45:27,520
Speaker 1: the shoe box bird. Yeah, this triggered it, like literally

870
00:45:27,520 --> 00:45:30,680
Speaker 1: a suppressed memory in my brain about vultures. And if

871
00:45:30,719 --> 00:45:34,520
Speaker 1: you have not heard of vultures, please God look it up. Horrifying. Uh.

872
00:45:34,719 --> 00:45:37,080
Speaker 1: Was a sophomore in college. I went to Kroger and

873
00:45:37,120 --> 00:45:39,000
Speaker 1: got a road to three Chicken to try the new

874
00:45:39,520 --> 00:45:43,399
Speaker 1: little recipe. I was trying to be domestic birds pull

875
00:45:43,440 --> 00:45:45,040
Speaker 1: all the chicken off the bone. Then I didn't know

876
00:45:45,040 --> 00:45:48,479
Speaker 1: what to do with the bone. Besides, you know, risk

877
00:45:48,640 --> 00:45:53,520
Speaker 1: missing garbage day. So I threw the chicken bone off,

878
00:45:53,800 --> 00:45:56,640
Speaker 1: like this entire ass chicken bone off of my balcony.

879
00:45:56,680 --> 00:45:59,000
Speaker 1: I lived in an apartment that faced the woods. Threw

880
00:45:59,000 --> 00:46:01,719
Speaker 1: it off there, and I'd be next day on the

881
00:46:01,840 --> 00:46:05,880
Speaker 1: phone and noticed that like tan demonic ask looking vultures,

882
00:46:06,440 --> 00:46:10,160
Speaker 1: vulture birds were like gnawing at this bone. It literally

883
00:46:10,239 --> 00:46:12,400
Speaker 1: triggered a panic attack. I went to hide in my

884
00:46:12,440 --> 00:46:15,040
Speaker 1: closet and was like crying like a five year old,

885
00:46:15,320 --> 00:46:19,239
Speaker 1: and ever since then, I've had a horror like a

886
00:46:20,000 --> 00:46:25,840
Speaker 1: and autonomic response to birds. Please look up a vulture.

887
00:46:26,280 --> 00:46:32,080
Speaker 1: It is definitely scarier than whatever you did Mrsippi talked about.

888
00:46:32,120 --> 00:46:34,960
Speaker 1: But god, I related so much to that, and I

889
00:46:35,040 --> 00:46:38,359
Speaker 1: love you. Was just traumatizing and she's so cute. Maybe

890
00:46:38,400 --> 00:46:40,880
Speaker 1: I didn't talk about in therapy. I'm just so grateful

891
00:46:40,920 --> 00:46:43,920
Speaker 1: for your freaking podcast, and I love you and Andrew

892
00:46:44,640 --> 00:46:48,160
Speaker 1: and everyone so much, so much. Oh my god, that

893
00:46:48,280 --> 00:46:49,880
Speaker 1: is so funny. I love a story that involves a

894
00:46:49,920 --> 00:46:57,120
Speaker 1: balcony the woods as chicken and some vultures in a closet.

895
00:46:58,239 --> 00:47:02,440
Speaker 1: That birth story, well, you're throwing off a balcony and

896
00:47:02,480 --> 00:47:05,239
Speaker 1: eating by vultures. It's so funny that she thinks we

897
00:47:05,280 --> 00:47:07,760
Speaker 1: don't know what vultures are. Is anyone struggling to conjure

898
00:47:07,800 --> 00:47:10,560
Speaker 1: a vulture in their in their mind? Like growing big

899
00:47:10,600 --> 00:47:14,239
Speaker 1: in the South. I think you don't like. I think,

900
00:47:14,280 --> 00:47:17,000
Speaker 1: how many vultures have you seen in your life? Because

901
00:47:17,000 --> 00:47:19,200
Speaker 1: I've seen a lot. I could draw one right now.

902
00:47:19,400 --> 00:47:23,239
Speaker 1: It has scary and it arches over. It has like

903
00:47:23,239 --> 00:47:27,480
Speaker 1: a white tuft around it's like the base of its draftneck,

904
00:47:27,719 --> 00:47:29,680
Speaker 1: and it has like a brown body. And yeah, they

905
00:47:29,719 --> 00:47:33,400
Speaker 1: prey on like corpses, that's the thing. They'll fly around

906
00:47:33,600 --> 00:47:37,040
Speaker 1: something that might die. So then that's why they're scary.

907
00:47:37,160 --> 00:47:41,200
Speaker 1: That's why it's scary because then you're like my dying. Yeah,

908
00:47:41,360 --> 00:47:43,799
Speaker 1: so then it makes you think of death and morbidity. Well,

909
00:47:43,800 --> 00:47:46,719
Speaker 1: we've got another person on the show who is as

910
00:47:46,880 --> 00:47:50,839
Speaker 1: a a via phobia. Um, I don't know a bird

911
00:47:50,840 --> 00:47:55,799
Speaker 1: a phobia, and that's Noah. Noah hates birds to I know,

912
00:47:56,040 --> 00:47:59,279
Speaker 1: it's so ironic. I hate a specific bird, just like

913
00:47:59,440 --> 00:48:03,520
Speaker 1: Callie do as pigeons and like New York City pigeons. Well,

914
00:48:03,560 --> 00:48:05,799
Speaker 1: I guess like city pigeons because they have pigeons here

915
00:48:05,800 --> 00:48:10,040
Speaker 1: in Tucson and they're like way less gross like those

916
00:48:11,160 --> 00:48:14,920
Speaker 1: vulturesque a pigeon, it's like, what is it about the pigeon?

917
00:48:14,920 --> 00:48:17,360
Speaker 1: Though you're scared it's gonna it's like flying rats in

918
00:48:17,440 --> 00:48:21,000
Speaker 1: New York right. Well, it comes to me it stems

919
00:48:21,080 --> 00:48:24,239
Speaker 1: from a dream that I had where a pigeon was

920
00:48:24,280 --> 00:48:27,280
Speaker 1: attacking me on King's Highway and then I was walking

921
00:48:27,320 --> 00:48:30,920
Speaker 1: to Junior High School. I was walking under the carvel awning,

922
00:48:31,040 --> 00:48:32,920
Speaker 1: and a pigeon came down and I had to swat

923
00:48:32,920 --> 00:48:35,200
Speaker 1: it away, and after that I was terrified of them.

924
00:48:35,239 --> 00:48:37,279
Speaker 1: And it was a dream. At first, it was a

925
00:48:37,360 --> 00:48:41,120
Speaker 1: dream and then it became reality. Okay, okay, that makes

926
00:48:41,160 --> 00:48:45,120
Speaker 1: no sense. I get it. I get it. You touched it,

927
00:48:45,200 --> 00:48:48,360
Speaker 1: you felt it like a different You don't hate birds

928
00:48:48,880 --> 00:48:51,480
Speaker 1: in general, but I think some people do. I have

929
00:48:51,560 --> 00:48:53,839
Speaker 1: bird feeders all over in the yard because I love them.

930
00:48:54,040 --> 00:48:57,239
Speaker 1: Oh good, I'm not afraid of birds. And I've been

931
00:48:57,239 --> 00:49:00,160
Speaker 1: flogged by a chicken before. What does that mean? It

932
00:49:00,160 --> 00:49:01,880
Speaker 1: means whenever they get on top of your head and

933
00:49:01,920 --> 00:49:10,040
Speaker 1: they flap their wings. Because my my aunt and uncle

934
00:49:10,080 --> 00:49:12,160
Speaker 1: had a bunch of chickens out in the yard one

935
00:49:12,200 --> 00:49:13,960
Speaker 1: time and I was like, I want to take one home,

936
00:49:14,440 --> 00:49:16,880
Speaker 1: and my uncle Mike said, he goes, if you can

937
00:49:16,960 --> 00:49:19,480
Speaker 1: catch one, you can take it home. And I got

938
00:49:19,480 --> 00:49:23,239
Speaker 1: out there and I started running around and I did

939
00:49:23,280 --> 00:49:25,440
Speaker 1: catch one, and we did take it home. Is it

940
00:49:25,480 --> 00:49:29,359
Speaker 1: called floggin? It's called floggin when you're trying to catch one.

941
00:49:29,600 --> 00:49:32,640
Speaker 1: His buddy, his buddy, yeah, came and flogged me. But

942
00:49:32,680 --> 00:49:35,399
Speaker 1: I didn't care. I kept trying to kill it home.

943
00:49:35,719 --> 00:49:37,879
Speaker 1: I didn't kill it. We brought it home. We put

944
00:49:37,880 --> 00:49:39,560
Speaker 1: it in the cage in the backyard. We named it

945
00:49:39,600 --> 00:49:47,319
Speaker 1: rebel Um, not after the Confederacy, after the comedian through

946
00:49:47,320 --> 00:49:49,759
Speaker 1: the hole most football team before I get canceled um.

947
00:49:49,880 --> 00:49:51,520
Speaker 1: And then we kept it in the cage for a while,

948
00:49:51,560 --> 00:49:53,480
Speaker 1: but it was like an open cage and the neighbor's

949
00:49:53,560 --> 00:49:58,000
Speaker 1: dog ate Luigi killed chicken once to my sister had

950
00:49:58,040 --> 00:50:00,760
Speaker 1: a coupe and he killed chicken. Did a you Luigi?

951
00:50:01,000 --> 00:50:06,239
Speaker 1: Dumb dumb um. All right, let's let's get a couple more. No,

952
00:50:07,600 --> 00:50:14,440
Speaker 1: the dog ate him. Okay, here's one from Constance's amazing story.

953
00:50:15,480 --> 00:50:18,279
Speaker 1: Hey guys, UM, I just wanted to say that I

954
00:50:18,320 --> 00:50:22,200
Speaker 1: finally got to finish the episode on Monday, UM called

955
00:50:22,239 --> 00:50:25,360
Speaker 1: too Much Rain. I was super excited about that episode

956
00:50:25,440 --> 00:50:29,760
Speaker 1: because it was me. I was the somebody who asked

957
00:50:29,760 --> 00:50:32,279
Speaker 1: you live the other night to say Jack Skellington, and

958
00:50:32,320 --> 00:50:37,160
Speaker 1: it was so hopeful that you would well. I UM

959
00:50:37,360 --> 00:50:40,040
Speaker 1: listen to the episode and I wanted to connect also

960
00:50:40,239 --> 00:50:45,239
Speaker 1: because I have tenetists. I woke up a couple of

961
00:50:45,280 --> 00:50:48,839
Speaker 1: years ago without any hearing in my left ear, and

962
00:50:48,920 --> 00:50:53,000
Speaker 1: now I constantly hear a constant screechy sound and I

963
00:50:53,080 --> 00:50:57,360
Speaker 1: have to listen to what I like brown or pink noise.

964
00:50:57,520 --> 00:51:03,440
Speaker 1: It really helps. Well. Anyway, as I was um driving

965
00:51:03,520 --> 00:51:07,319
Speaker 1: and I heard you say Jack Skellington, I had to

966
00:51:07,360 --> 00:51:11,760
Speaker 1: look so cooked because I started fist pumping as I drove,

967
00:51:12,239 --> 00:51:17,440
Speaker 1: just pumping. Seriously, I had no idea where that came from. Anyway,

968
00:51:17,719 --> 00:51:20,799
Speaker 1: I just wouldn't end by saying I love all three

969
00:51:20,880 --> 00:51:23,200
Speaker 1: of you. And despite the fact that I used to

970
00:51:23,320 --> 00:51:27,560
Speaker 1: hate when I heard grown women call their friends besties,

971
00:51:27,960 --> 00:51:33,080
Speaker 1: I am now beyond proud to say that I am one. Anyway,

972
00:51:33,280 --> 00:51:37,400
Speaker 1: Thanks for all the swells. Thanks girl. Oh my god, Constance,

973
00:51:37,480 --> 00:51:40,239
Speaker 1: that's so funny. I used to hate busties too. That's

974
00:51:41,360 --> 00:51:43,359
Speaker 1: that I know, but I don't think anyone. I don't

975
00:51:43,360 --> 00:51:45,600
Speaker 1: know if we ever really discussed that on the pod,

976
00:51:46,000 --> 00:51:49,400
Speaker 1: but we chose besties because it's everywhere, and then it

977
00:51:49,480 --> 00:51:53,719
Speaker 1: was ironic to talk about We talk like we're like

978
00:51:53,760 --> 00:51:55,879
Speaker 1: to our best friends. And it might have started as

979
00:51:55,920 --> 00:52:00,360
Speaker 1: best friends and then went to best It was always busted. Yeah, no,

980
00:52:00,560 --> 00:52:03,480
Speaker 1: do you remember the origin. Yeah, we we were. We

981
00:52:03,520 --> 00:52:06,439
Speaker 1: wanted to um, you know, like have like an audience name,

982
00:52:06,640 --> 00:52:09,080
Speaker 1: and we did come up with best friends and then

983
00:52:09,239 --> 00:52:11,480
Speaker 1: you change it to besties and I think it's just

984
00:52:11,560 --> 00:52:16,960
Speaker 1: like a tribute to swift E's best friends. That's right, okay,

985
00:52:17,320 --> 00:52:20,840
Speaker 1: And I like it because, to be honest, I like

986
00:52:20,920 --> 00:52:24,200
Speaker 1: best friends more than besties because besties does have like

987
00:52:24,239 --> 00:52:27,880
Speaker 1: that like weird like yeah, but but it is so

988
00:52:27,920 --> 00:52:31,440
Speaker 1: funny because everyone's like the glazier heads, the the you know,

989
00:52:31,640 --> 00:52:35,520
Speaker 1: the turkey faces. It's always so specific and it is

990
00:52:35,560 --> 00:52:39,279
Speaker 1: fun because it's your own things the most. Yeah, people

991
00:52:39,320 --> 00:52:40,960
Speaker 1: at Meat and Greats when they're like, I'm a bestie

992
00:52:41,000 --> 00:52:43,359
Speaker 1: and I'm like Angel, she's a bestie. Like people who

993
00:52:43,360 --> 00:52:45,080
Speaker 1: don't know what we're talking about must be like, what

994
00:52:45,160 --> 00:52:48,680
Speaker 1: the fun Everyone's best now? Like everyone's the best That's

995
00:52:48,680 --> 00:52:52,040
Speaker 1: why it's funny. But we're our own kind of And

996
00:52:52,040 --> 00:52:54,759
Speaker 1: to say name a bestie is different than saying I'm

997
00:52:54,800 --> 00:52:58,799
Speaker 1: your bestie or you know a makes it different. I

998
00:52:58,840 --> 00:53:03,719
Speaker 1: think enough does it's still very Did you also just

999
00:53:03,800 --> 00:53:06,719
Speaker 1: hear that someone else said Jack Skellington when they signed off?

1000
00:53:06,840 --> 00:53:09,520
Speaker 1: I thought that was I literally thought of you because

1001
00:53:09,520 --> 00:53:10,719
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, I thought that was the girl

1002
00:53:10,719 --> 00:53:12,920
Speaker 1: who told me to say Jack Skellington, But it was

1003
00:53:13,000 --> 00:53:15,280
Speaker 1: actually a year. That is so ironic. Oh my god.

1004
00:53:15,640 --> 00:53:20,720
Speaker 1: I hope you fist found in your car? Doubly Elmano yourself? Yeah,

1005
00:53:21,400 --> 00:53:25,680
Speaker 1: call back to getting fisted Elmano. Remember we changed it

1006
00:53:26,040 --> 00:53:28,080
Speaker 1: fifth Sounds Tuesdays Show. What was that? Do we call it?

1007
00:53:28,200 --> 00:53:31,239
Speaker 1: Change it to almano? Yeah? I don't remember that yesterday. Well,

1008
00:53:31,239 --> 00:53:33,040
Speaker 1: I remember the fisting conversation, but I don't remember the

1009
00:53:33,040 --> 00:53:35,440
Speaker 1: Almano part because we wanted to not sound so harsh.

1010
00:53:35,520 --> 00:53:38,120
Speaker 1: Oh I didn't. What does almano mean? It's hand and

1011
00:53:38,200 --> 00:53:44,360
Speaker 1: span o, got it? Oh, Ermano, that's brother rest development

1012
00:53:45,000 --> 00:53:51,000
Speaker 1: sounds kind of cute. Fifty I'm a fifty. Yeah, let's

1013
00:53:51,040 --> 00:53:54,440
Speaker 1: think about it. I think it sounds too sexual the

1014
00:53:54,440 --> 00:53:57,080
Speaker 1: word fist. No, not as like as our fans. I'm

1015
00:53:57,080 --> 00:54:01,040
Speaker 1: just saying, oh I got a fifty fifty. That's a cute. Okay, yeah,

1016
00:54:01,040 --> 00:54:05,279
Speaker 1: I like that. Okay, let's change that final thought. All right.

1017
00:54:05,520 --> 00:54:08,000
Speaker 1: So here's someone from Ben and he'll probably love that

1018
00:54:08,000 --> 00:54:12,840
Speaker 1: we're playing this. What's up, no Jukie. My name is Ben.

1019
00:54:13,360 --> 00:54:17,000
Speaker 1: I'm from Arkansas and I love the podcast so much.

1020
00:54:17,040 --> 00:54:21,680
Speaker 1: I show people constantly, UM and listen all the time. UM,

1021
00:54:21,719 --> 00:54:25,640
Speaker 1: but you guys actually inspired me to create a podcast

1022
00:54:25,640 --> 00:54:29,680
Speaker 1: of my own. And UM, I sing for like a

1023
00:54:29,800 --> 00:54:33,160
Speaker 1: rock slash metal band or whatever. Um. And so I

1024
00:54:33,200 --> 00:54:37,480
Speaker 1: started a podcast with one of my bandmates, and um,

1025
00:54:37,600 --> 00:54:40,239
Speaker 1: we just recorded our first episode and we also just

1026
00:54:40,360 --> 00:54:42,759
Speaker 1: got our intro back. I knew we had to have

1027
00:54:42,800 --> 00:54:45,920
Speaker 1: a sick intro because when I listened to like the

1028
00:54:46,040 --> 00:54:52,160
Speaker 1: Nicki Glazer podcast, I so in love with the and

1029
00:54:52,200 --> 00:54:54,480
Speaker 1: I was like, we gotta have something that like catches

1030
00:54:54,480 --> 00:54:57,560
Speaker 1: people at the beginning that's super sick and catchy. Um.

1031
00:54:57,640 --> 00:54:59,000
Speaker 1: And so I just wanted to play this for you

1032
00:54:59,040 --> 00:55:03,840
Speaker 1: guys real quick and just express my appreciation for the

1033
00:55:03,880 --> 00:55:08,040
Speaker 1: podcast and um everything that you guys have helped me with.

1034
00:55:08,520 --> 00:55:24,799
Speaker 1: Welcome to the first ever episode of Bandmates. We've been

1035
00:55:24,800 --> 00:55:29,000
Speaker 1: wanting that guy got up there. Man, that was incredible.

1036
00:55:33,040 --> 00:55:39,440
Speaker 1: I mean that's like, it's very it's great, like a

1037
00:55:39,560 --> 00:55:42,360
Speaker 1: two words. Just hey, why don't you guys give Ben

1038
00:55:42,440 --> 00:55:46,160
Speaker 1: and Bandmates a subscribe to the support of new podcasts

1039
00:55:46,200 --> 00:55:47,960
Speaker 1: And if you don't like, you can always unsubscribe, but

1040
00:55:47,960 --> 00:55:50,839
Speaker 1: why not just try to check them out? Nice? Ben,

1041
00:55:50,960 --> 00:55:52,680
Speaker 1: Thank you so much. I was so sweet. I'm so

1042
00:55:52,719 --> 00:55:55,920
Speaker 1: glad you're doing a podcast. It's cool. Um. Last night

1043
00:55:55,960 --> 00:55:58,200
Speaker 1: I went live on Instagram after we did our body

1044
00:55:58,239 --> 00:56:01,000
Speaker 1: Positive one, and I was playing guitar little bit to practice,

1045
00:56:01,080 --> 00:56:03,840
Speaker 1: and Um Tanner Wally my friend who has been on

1046
00:56:03,880 --> 00:56:05,880
Speaker 1: you up and is a big fan of the show

1047
00:56:05,960 --> 00:56:08,040
Speaker 1: and and you. He even wrote me earlier on the

1048
00:56:08,120 --> 00:56:10,319
Speaker 1: day when you were on our Instagram live. He wrote me,

1049
00:56:10,560 --> 00:56:13,120
Speaker 1: texted me and was like, does Andrew need more besties

1050
00:56:13,160 --> 00:56:15,359
Speaker 1: because I'm I'm obsessed with him. And I was like, oh,

1051
00:56:15,360 --> 00:56:17,040
Speaker 1: you'd love to be friends with you. Tanner is awesome.

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Speaker 1: But Tanner said to me, oh, I'm about to go

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00:56:19,800 --> 00:56:22,360
Speaker 1: live on my Instagram. You inspired me and he is

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00:56:22,440 --> 00:56:26,200
Speaker 1: a great musician, singer, songwriter. And I was like, and

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00:56:26,239 --> 00:56:28,120
Speaker 1: it was funny because I was about to go live

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00:56:28,200 --> 00:56:30,480
Speaker 1: with guitar, but I was worried that Tanner would be watching.

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Speaker 1: And I'm so nervous to perform in front of people

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00:56:32,600 --> 00:56:36,439
Speaker 1: that are better than me at guitar, especially guitar, singing whatever, um,

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00:56:36,480 --> 00:56:40,080
Speaker 1: and he is at both. But I said, Um, funny,

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00:56:40,120 --> 00:56:41,920
Speaker 1: I'm about to go live too, And I was thinking

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00:56:41,960 --> 00:56:43,600
Speaker 1: how much I didn't I was almost going to block

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00:56:43,680 --> 00:56:46,080
Speaker 1: you because I didn't want you watching me. So why

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00:56:46,080 --> 00:56:47,600
Speaker 1: don't you go live and we save it so I

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00:56:47,600 --> 00:56:48,840
Speaker 1: can watch it later And we'll go live at the

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00:56:48,880 --> 00:56:50,160
Speaker 1: same time, and that way you can't watch mine. And

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Speaker 1: he's like, no, I'll wait to do it. I'll watch her.

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00:56:51,719 --> 00:56:54,399
Speaker 1: And I'm like, no, you didn't hear me, don't watch mine,

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00:56:54,440 --> 00:56:56,279
Speaker 1: and he's like, but I love it, You're so good,

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00:56:56,280 --> 00:56:59,040
Speaker 1: and I'm like, no, it's and then he ended up

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00:56:59,080 --> 00:57:01,160
Speaker 1: going on mine. But it's cool because he's gonna start

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00:57:01,200 --> 00:57:03,600
Speaker 1: doing lives because he was inspired by me doing it.

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Speaker 1: I think anyone that has a musical talent or any talent,

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Speaker 1: my dad. I'm always like, Dad, you love performing. You

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00:57:09,280 --> 00:57:11,400
Speaker 1: can't do shows all the time. You're mostly performing at

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Speaker 1: nursing homes. Go live on Instagram and get a little

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Speaker 1: bit of a following. Well as you have to practice anyway,

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00:57:16,240 --> 00:57:19,520
Speaker 1: so you might as well practice it to practice, go

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00:57:19,680 --> 00:57:21,680
Speaker 1: over there maybe once a week and go live with

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00:57:21,760 --> 00:57:24,400
Speaker 1: him on yours and then he'll feel like it's an actual,

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Speaker 1: real crown. Well, the thing is, no, I did that.

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Speaker 1: We went last night and he played, but um it

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00:57:29,360 --> 00:57:31,920
Speaker 1: was such bad WiFi that it didn't work out. But um,

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00:57:31,920 --> 00:57:35,400
Speaker 1: we're gonna do it. I'm gonna there's a singer that's

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Speaker 1: I don't know how I like, probably just stalking Instagram somehow,

1085
00:57:39,440 --> 00:57:41,760
Speaker 1: but like figured out he's a big fan of yours

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00:57:42,680 --> 00:57:45,000
Speaker 1: because maybe he tagged the pot or something. I can't

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00:57:45,120 --> 00:57:52,320
Speaker 1: he was on American Idol. Uh yeah, no Casey something.

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00:57:53,320 --> 00:57:56,080
Speaker 1: It's a guy and I was obsessed with him on

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00:57:56,080 --> 00:57:58,840
Speaker 1: the show. It was like back Casey, like I think

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Speaker 1: it's Casey ce a s e Y Casey Um American Idol.

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Speaker 1: Let's look, um Bishop, No that's a girl. Um, maybe

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Speaker 1: it's not Casey. Then I don't know. There's a guy

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00:58:13,480 --> 00:58:17,000
Speaker 1: named Constantine who is a who is American Idol big

1094
00:58:17,280 --> 00:58:21,440
Speaker 1: and who's a big fan, big fan. I'll look it up.

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00:58:21,640 --> 00:58:23,280
Speaker 1: I'll figure it out and I'll bring him up on

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00:58:23,320 --> 00:58:26,920
Speaker 1: the It's so fun to find out when people. It's

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00:58:26,960 --> 00:58:29,800
Speaker 1: just wild because I was like obsessed with this dude

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00:58:29,960 --> 00:58:32,080
Speaker 1: like on the show, because he was very quirky. He

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00:58:32,120 --> 00:58:35,640
Speaker 1: didn't really belong He was like more like jazz like,

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00:58:35,640 --> 00:58:37,840
Speaker 1: like he just didn't belong on that ship. Like he

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00:58:37,920 --> 00:58:40,920
Speaker 1: seemed like an old soul kind of singer like anyways,

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Speaker 1: but yeah, so shout out to that guy that maybe

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Speaker 1: if anyone knows who we're talking about, d M Andrew

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Speaker 1: and let us know guys, Carlile Forrester. Thank you so

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Speaker 1: much for being here all week. Thank you, thank you

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Speaker 1: for having me follow her. You guys, if you want

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Speaker 1: to go to Supernova and Los Angeles, Carlisle is your

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00:58:55,760 --> 00:58:58,680
Speaker 1: ticket in and hook it up for you. Um and

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Speaker 1: you can just d m her on Deagram Carlole Forrester,

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Speaker 1: c A r l I s l E Forrester with

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Speaker 1: two rs um and you follow on TikTok as well

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Speaker 1: and also on YouTube. She has a podcast called Here

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Speaker 1: for the Hang and she'll be starting that up again soon,

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Speaker 1: so give her subscribes support our friends, because uh yeah,

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Speaker 1: she's great, and um, you're great. We love you. It

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Speaker 1: was awesome to have you here all week. And so

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Speaker 1: don't we don't kill anyone out there. Carlisle and murdered, okay,