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Speaker 1: The nickname. Hello here. I am welcome to the show everyone.

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Speaker 1: It's the you know, fourth show of the week, Thursday.

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Speaker 1: We're gonna be back on Monday. Always a little bit

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Speaker 1: sad at the end of the week because I love

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Speaker 1: starting off my day this way and I am starting

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Speaker 1: my day. Let's be honest. It's eleven thirty nine here.

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Speaker 1: And woke up very late today, was up super late

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Speaker 1: last night. UM pulled an all niner. I won't get

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Speaker 1: into it, but a lot of emotion, emotional rollercoaster of

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Speaker 1: an evening that UM, thankfully at the the culmination of

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Speaker 1: it was really good. Um. For a while there, I

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Speaker 1: wasn't going to sleep because I was like, I don't

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Speaker 1: want to wake up in the mood that I'm feeling

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Speaker 1: right now. Do you ever do that where it's like

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Speaker 1: you don't you don't want to go to about angry

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Speaker 1: even at yourself or the world, And you're like, let

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Speaker 1: me try to get to a place where I when

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Speaker 1: I opened my eyes, I'm not revisited by these feelings

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Speaker 1: I'm feeling now. So I woke up feeling a lot

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Speaker 1: better and UM, yeah, you know I say that with

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Speaker 1: quotes around it, because I woke up and you know,

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Speaker 1: my morning routine is always go out to the kitchen,

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Speaker 1: throw in some oatmeal, then walk the dog, go to Starbucks,

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Speaker 1: pick up my mobile, order it and in the elevator,

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Speaker 1: pick it up, let the dog poop, walk back, eat,

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Speaker 1: eat the oatmeal. Make another one asked, noahs, if I

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Speaker 1: can have twenty more minutes, so because I can do

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Speaker 1: my makeup and put on a clean shirt and present

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Speaker 1: myself and then uh and then step in here and

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Speaker 1: do this. But today I went to Starbucks and grabbed

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Speaker 1: my drink and um, and oh my god, I like

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Speaker 1: there's like a tip thing on the counter and I

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Speaker 1: and I go there every day, and you know, I

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Speaker 1: from reading the Starbucks subreddit, I just know those people

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Speaker 1: work really hard and get a lot of gruff is

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Speaker 1: that the word for, you know, from customers who feel

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Speaker 1: entitled because they're paying seven dollars for a drink sometimes

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Speaker 1: and honestly they should be a little bit entitled. That's

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Speaker 1: a lot for coffee, milk and sugar. But um, I

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Speaker 1: I went in my I had cash on me in

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Speaker 1: my little Fannie pack and I was like, oh, I'll

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Speaker 1: to kind of maybe be in my eyeline when I

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Speaker 1: did it. You know I did because I you know,

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Speaker 1: when you throw in a tip, it's it shouldn't be

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Speaker 1: about getting the credit for it. But if we all

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Speaker 1: kind of look inside ourselves, giving an anonymous donation is

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Speaker 1: probably the most selfless thing you can do. And whenever

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Speaker 1: someone doesn't, I'm always like, Wow, someone anonymous donated fifty

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Speaker 1: million dollars to you know, Garrett and Casies, go fund me. No, um,

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Speaker 1: what a noble thing. But uh no, I I I

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Speaker 1: definitely like waited and you never they never see you.

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Speaker 1: You know, they never see you. I threw in a

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Speaker 1: fiber which because I'm a I'm a fucking hero. You

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Speaker 1: guys know that. But um, I I threw in um

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Speaker 1: a like you know, eighty percent of the I tipped

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Speaker 1: my drink is like usually sixty seven or something. I mean,

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Speaker 1: it's ridiculous that I get I spend oh my god,

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Speaker 1: thirteen dollars a day on Starbucks times thirty. I don't

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Speaker 1: want to do the math. Let's not do the math.

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Speaker 1: Don't write me the math. I wish I could men

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Speaker 1: in black blinky thing all of my math lessons, I mean,

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Speaker 1: essentially have I rely on a calculator a lot of times.

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Speaker 1: Although I was impressed yesterday at my calculations for Andrews

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Speaker 1: ten thousand hours. I was listening to that podcast and

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Speaker 1: I go, wow, I don't even I can't even follow

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Speaker 1: what you were doing in that moment. Was I tapped

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Speaker 1: into something that I didn't even know I was capable of.

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Speaker 1: But then I throw in the tip and I leave

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Speaker 1: and uh, come back here, get ready do my thing.

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Speaker 1: And then I start to have a headache, like a

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Speaker 1: I'm like, oh, what is going on? And I go,

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Speaker 1: let me get my coffee and I cannot find it,

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Speaker 1: and I'm, you know, a d D. I set things

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Speaker 1: and um, that was just like it was just I mean,

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Speaker 1: it to that. I also haven't taken UM my a

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Speaker 1: It's Uh, I'm at the end of my prescription. And

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Speaker 1: UM read some things last night from people who have

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Speaker 1: really love to wax poetic about what they think is

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Speaker 1: going on with me UM psychologically and seem to want

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Speaker 1: to diagnose me. And UM said some cruel things about

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Speaker 1: like how I've been and like, well, she mentioned she's

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Speaker 1: all these things that we're really upsetting to read. And

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Speaker 1: you don't usually read comments. And I've unsubscribed from like

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Speaker 1: my sub bread and stuff like that to protect myself.

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Speaker 1: But last night I was, UM, I had to go

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Speaker 1: that you don't want. And then I go, what is

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Speaker 1: just a lot of um, you know the same kind

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Speaker 1: day about Like if you're someone who comments on celebrities

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Speaker 1: and I'm not saying that, I'm just people you don't

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Speaker 1: know personally, um, uh, just don't or if you're really

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Speaker 1: actually concerned about them. Um, there's ways to reach out,

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Speaker 1: Like you can always DM me on my Instagram. That's

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Speaker 1: a way to reach out. Um, you can write a

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Speaker 1: That'd be weird if you just voice memo yourself scribbling

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Speaker 1: would say, even from these pencil scribblings, I and hear

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Speaker 1: that this person thinks I'm doing drugs and you know

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Speaker 1: I've done it before too, Where I go, what is

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Speaker 1: say anytime I go, she hasn't eating disorder. I mean

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Speaker 1: that that's like that was me projecting so much. UM,

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Speaker 1: but I can't see it in my old wife, Folks,

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Speaker 1: I can see it, but um. And I'm not gonna

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Speaker 1: I mean everyone can I just say everyone has one?

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Speaker 1: You know, I think that anyway, But UM, I'm not

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Speaker 1: I'm having a little struggle here on the show today

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Speaker 1: and in in general in life of um, the ways

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Speaker 1: interesting because and I've talked about this before, so many

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Speaker 1: things that I admit on here and things that I

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Speaker 1: cop to and words that I use. You know, remember

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Speaker 1: when I did the whole thing about someone writing about

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Speaker 1: me that I was spiraling, and I go, I gave

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Speaker 1: like saluth that you noticed. Um, you're people are still

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Speaker 1: doing this where I read these things of Nikki's on drugs.

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Speaker 1: What's going on with her? She's changed. I've been a

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Speaker 1: all of that. I think I anything that you may

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Speaker 1: um you said a lot like there's there's a lot,

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Speaker 1: you know. I thought I was avoiding comments that you guys,

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Speaker 1: because you think it's gonna get to me? And that's

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Speaker 1: So I don't know what these people's mission are. I

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Speaker 1: when I like to criticize and really dig into someone

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Speaker 1: that it's generally because I'm struggling inside about something. So

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Speaker 1: a mean thing, um like, do a journal entry about

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Speaker 1: why you want to do it before, Like that's what

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Speaker 1: I do sometimes when um, you know, with my food

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Speaker 1: and now I have like, um little roadblocks in place

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Speaker 1: I was feeling a lot of feelings even before. Um Like, honestly,

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Speaker 1: things you think about yourself, Like uh, people have written

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Speaker 1: think I was like on a like a third bowl

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Speaker 1: Once a raby's infection is established, there's no effective treatment.

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Speaker 1: Though a small number of people have survived rabies, the

428
00:24:25,800 --> 00:24:28,320
Speaker 1: disease usually causes death. For that reason, if you think

429
00:24:28,320 --> 00:24:30,800
Speaker 1: you've gotten exposed to rabies, you must get a series

430
00:24:30,840 --> 00:24:34,760
Speaker 1: of shots to prevent the infection from taking hold. Oh

431
00:24:34,880 --> 00:24:39,040
Speaker 1: so once the infection takes hold, you're gone, but you

432
00:24:39,040 --> 00:24:43,720
Speaker 1: can you have a little bit of a window before. Yeah,

433
00:24:43,720 --> 00:24:45,080
Speaker 1: I know, I thought it was just like you get

434
00:24:45,080 --> 00:24:48,640
Speaker 1: a shot and you're good. Yeah. I literally thought you'd

435
00:24:48,680 --> 00:24:54,560
Speaker 1: just put some freaking yeah I really, yeah, put some

436
00:24:54,600 --> 00:24:56,320
Speaker 1: of that scope that I should put in my mouth

437
00:24:56,400 --> 00:24:58,960
Speaker 1: on it. Now, you should start doing your makeup the

438
00:24:58,960 --> 00:25:01,520
Speaker 1: way you want it for your open casket. That's what

439
00:25:01,560 --> 00:25:04,000
Speaker 1: you should do. You have a small window to get

440
00:25:04,000 --> 00:25:06,920
Speaker 1: your You should call your lawyer and get your you know,

441
00:25:07,480 --> 00:25:11,080
Speaker 1: will taken care of. Um. I'll tell you, for like

442
00:25:11,200 --> 00:25:15,639
Speaker 1: a minute, there, you look pretty cool as a rabid human,

443
00:25:15,720 --> 00:25:22,000
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. I mean, it's gonna be

444
00:25:22,000 --> 00:25:25,080
Speaker 1: pretty cool for about ten minutes. But yeah, I mean

445
00:25:25,119 --> 00:25:27,520
Speaker 1: I wonder if you, like, if you're a rabbit human,

446
00:25:27,560 --> 00:25:29,560
Speaker 1: if you try to bite people, like that's how brabi

447
00:25:29,680 --> 00:25:32,320
Speaker 1: spreads is it makes animals like crazy so that it

448
00:25:32,359 --> 00:25:34,639
Speaker 1: will like spread it, you know what I mean. So

449
00:25:34,720 --> 00:25:36,760
Speaker 1: I wonder if you like go on all fours and

450
00:25:37,000 --> 00:25:40,240
Speaker 1: like biting people and like so weird. Something that doesn't

451
00:25:40,320 --> 00:25:44,800
Speaker 1: kill a dog that only lives of our lives kills us.

452
00:25:44,920 --> 00:25:49,200
Speaker 1: It's just weird. Diseases are weird, man, I think, Oh,

453
00:25:50,359 --> 00:25:54,560
Speaker 1: I think it's the same rule. Um, but listen, what

454
00:25:54,600 --> 00:25:56,800
Speaker 1: doesn't kill you make ship foam at the mouth. And

455
00:25:56,800 --> 00:25:59,960
Speaker 1: then have you ever seen a casket an open casket?

456
00:26:00,200 --> 00:26:05,000
Speaker 1: Oh dude, yes, have you? Oh yeah, it's intense. Yeah,

457
00:26:05,119 --> 00:26:08,240
Speaker 1: it's um, it's so weird. They look so they look

458
00:26:08,320 --> 00:26:11,919
Speaker 1: like Madam Tussod's Oh my god. I just think they

459
00:26:12,200 --> 00:26:14,880
Speaker 1: sit up and open their eyes and be like, gotcha

460
00:26:14,960 --> 00:26:21,040
Speaker 1: mine did mine did? Yeah? He came alive. He goes,

461
00:26:21,160 --> 00:26:24,479
Speaker 1: don't touch your trust fund until you're thirty, and I

462
00:26:24,520 --> 00:26:25,959
Speaker 1: was like, no, I'll spend it, all of it. At

463
00:26:27,000 --> 00:26:35,719
Speaker 1: Grandpa on On. You know bottle service strippers who I

464
00:26:35,760 --> 00:26:40,959
Speaker 1: think it might like me more than they do. Did

465
00:26:41,040 --> 00:26:42,879
Speaker 1: you did you ever get strippered and think like a

466
00:26:42,920 --> 00:26:45,959
Speaker 1: stripper was into you and like more than like she

467
00:26:46,080 --> 00:26:50,520
Speaker 1: usually would be like you, she had a connection with guys.

468
00:26:50,640 --> 00:26:52,879
Speaker 1: That happens all the time. Every time I went to

469
00:26:52,920 --> 00:26:57,280
Speaker 1: a strip club, every time I think the battler wanted

470
00:26:57,320 --> 00:27:00,400
Speaker 1: to marry me. Well, I do think that that does

471
00:27:00,480 --> 00:27:03,720
Speaker 1: happen sometimes, Like strippers aren't like these cold like just

472
00:27:05,119 --> 00:27:08,119
Speaker 1: money grubbing, Like there's no connection that they have with

473
00:27:08,160 --> 00:27:11,000
Speaker 1: their clientele, like waitresses fall in love with their like

474
00:27:11,240 --> 00:27:13,800
Speaker 1: you know, people dining at restaurants. Sometimes there's got to

475
00:27:13,800 --> 00:27:16,600
Speaker 1: be people that do actually get through and actually have

476
00:27:17,600 --> 00:27:21,960
Speaker 1: You know, I went on the day of the stripper

477
00:27:22,080 --> 00:27:24,240
Speaker 1: when I got arrested for speeding on a jet ski

478
00:27:24,720 --> 00:27:27,280
Speaker 1: and you met her at strip club? Yeah, I met

479
00:27:27,280 --> 00:27:29,280
Speaker 1: her a strip club. I got her number, I took

480
00:27:29,280 --> 00:27:33,320
Speaker 1: her out the next week. I was dropping her right

481
00:27:33,800 --> 00:27:38,520
Speaker 1: know English none never How did you ask her out? Then?

482
00:27:39,160 --> 00:27:46,280
Speaker 1: I said, uh, your vas to vas uh and snir.

483
00:27:46,520 --> 00:27:48,479
Speaker 1: Maybe I don't know, I know I probably asked her

484
00:27:48,720 --> 00:27:51,320
Speaker 1: I go dinner and she goes. She knew like very

485
00:27:51,359 --> 00:27:57,000
Speaker 1: little English. Yes. Yes. So we met in the middle

486
00:27:57,280 --> 00:28:00,720
Speaker 1: of her knowing five words and me knowing ten. We

487
00:28:00,720 --> 00:28:04,200
Speaker 1: were both biting things most of the night. Um, because

488
00:28:04,240 --> 00:28:09,120
Speaker 1: of rabies. So glad you survived. I'm glad you, sall.

489
00:28:09,800 --> 00:28:12,600
Speaker 1: I took her out to dinner and we had a

490
00:28:12,760 --> 00:28:16,720
Speaker 1: nice you know, nodding to each other. Um, we were

491
00:28:16,720 --> 00:28:21,600
Speaker 1: both enjoying ourselves and I was dropping I was dropping

492
00:28:21,600 --> 00:28:23,720
Speaker 1: her off, and just a guy standing in front of

493
00:28:23,720 --> 00:28:28,600
Speaker 1: a stripper asking her to get a English Spanish to

494
00:28:28,600 --> 00:28:35,960
Speaker 1: English dictionary asked you to suck my dick leader mama, mama,

495
00:28:36,000 --> 00:28:38,880
Speaker 1: La binga means stuck my dick and spanah. Really yeah,

496
00:28:41,280 --> 00:28:46,040
Speaker 1: why do you know that? It's I was anyhow, so

497
00:28:46,280 --> 00:28:51,200
Speaker 1: I in the room. No, no, no, no, no, she's

498
00:28:51,240 --> 00:28:56,080
Speaker 1: in the back, she's in a cage. Um, wait, what

499
00:28:56,160 --> 00:28:57,880
Speaker 1: as I saying? Oh? So, when I was dropping off,

500
00:28:57,920 --> 00:29:00,320
Speaker 1: she kept going, you so nice, You're so nice. Nice,

501
00:29:00,360 --> 00:29:04,240
Speaker 1: That's all she could say, You're so nice. And uh.

502
00:29:04,400 --> 00:29:06,360
Speaker 1: The cop rolled up because we were in a shitty

503
00:29:06,360 --> 00:29:08,920
Speaker 1: party area, and he freaking flashes lights and he go

504
00:29:09,040 --> 00:29:12,520
Speaker 1: step out of the car and she looks at me like,

505
00:29:12,560 --> 00:29:15,600
Speaker 1: I'm not nice, and I freaking tell the cop. The

506
00:29:15,600 --> 00:29:17,280
Speaker 1: cop goes, you have a warn out for your rest

507
00:29:17,360 --> 00:29:19,480
Speaker 1: for speeding on a jet ski in the Manatees zone

508
00:29:20,040 --> 00:29:24,040
Speaker 1: and I and he goes, you have a warrant. You

509
00:29:24,040 --> 00:29:25,880
Speaker 1: gotta go to jail. I'm so glad she didn't know

510
00:29:25,960 --> 00:29:30,200
Speaker 1: English at that point. That's a combination of words that

511
00:29:30,200 --> 00:29:38,200
Speaker 1: you wouldn't find an English textbook. Arrested for speeding. He

512
00:29:38,320 --> 00:29:46,320
Speaker 1: has a brother named James. He likes the skateboard. Okay,

513
00:29:46,320 --> 00:29:50,120
Speaker 1: So so she goes, you're so nice, And did she

514
00:29:50,240 --> 00:29:52,040
Speaker 1: tell the cop that? And did he go? You know

515
00:29:52,080 --> 00:29:55,479
Speaker 1: what he is, ma'am? Except so the CoP's name was

516
00:29:55,520 --> 00:29:59,040
Speaker 1: like Fernando or something, so I guess I racially profiled

517
00:29:59,080 --> 00:30:01,360
Speaker 1: him and thought he spoke Spanish, which I was right.

518
00:30:01,920 --> 00:30:06,200
Speaker 1: But whatever he told her, she threw the car keys

519
00:30:06,440 --> 00:30:09,600
Speaker 1: and ran away because I think she's afraid of getting

520
00:30:09,800 --> 00:30:15,880
Speaker 1: deported because she's from Columbia, um I. And it's either

521
00:30:15,960 --> 00:30:19,800
Speaker 1: that or she really liked Manatees and and was upset

522
00:30:19,840 --> 00:30:21,800
Speaker 1: about my being. That would have been me. I would

523
00:30:21,800 --> 00:30:25,480
Speaker 1: have been like, you sped in a man as zone.

524
00:30:25,560 --> 00:30:29,000
Speaker 1: You know that you're shop? Is there a blade on

525
00:30:29,040 --> 00:30:32,920
Speaker 1: a jet ski? Though? I guess you could. There's no propeller,

526
00:30:33,160 --> 00:30:34,800
Speaker 1: but they're so slow that they might not get out

527
00:30:34,800 --> 00:30:36,600
Speaker 1: of the way soon enough. And you're like the bottom

528
00:30:36,640 --> 00:30:39,280
Speaker 1: of your boat could just hit them, which you can

529
00:30:39,280 --> 00:30:41,600
Speaker 1: get a pretty cool jump off of there for sure.

530
00:30:42,320 --> 00:30:45,480
Speaker 1: Um yeah, And so I go to jail. The guy

531
00:30:45,480 --> 00:30:47,520
Speaker 1: took me to jail, and I'm talking to the company

532
00:30:47,600 --> 00:30:50,360
Speaker 1: and he's apologizing to me. I swear to God, He's like,

533
00:30:50,720 --> 00:30:52,360
Speaker 1: I'm sorry you got to go to jail for this.

534
00:30:52,360 --> 00:30:55,800
Speaker 1: This is it was. He knew you were going to

535
00:30:55,880 --> 00:31:01,520
Speaker 1: get your pinka. Yeah, my pinka aguad and uh and

536
00:31:02,920 --> 00:31:13,400
Speaker 1: by her punta. Uh so. Um so I end up

537
00:31:13,600 --> 00:31:15,720
Speaker 1: I end up going to jail. And I'm in jail

538
00:31:15,720 --> 00:31:19,920
Speaker 1: with two fucking like badass dudes and they're talking about

539
00:31:19,920 --> 00:31:21,240
Speaker 1: why they're in there, and I told him I was

540
00:31:21,240 --> 00:31:24,640
Speaker 1: in there for speed on jet ski and I literally

541
00:31:24,640 --> 00:31:26,920
Speaker 1: thought they were gonna like beat this shift out of me.

542
00:31:27,680 --> 00:31:29,120
Speaker 1: And then the guy just asked me if it was

543
00:31:29,160 --> 00:31:34,400
Speaker 1: a Yamaha or Kalasaki and I was like it was

544
00:31:34,400 --> 00:31:37,240
Speaker 1: a yama and he's like he's like, yeah, that's a

545
00:31:37,240 --> 00:31:39,520
Speaker 1: good ski. That's a good ski. And I knew, I

546
00:31:39,760 --> 00:31:43,840
Speaker 1: like we bonded over not you know, Kalasaki would have

547
00:31:43,840 --> 00:31:47,920
Speaker 1: maybe been too exotic or too foreign for him. And

548
00:31:47,920 --> 00:31:49,520
Speaker 1: then I got out of jail and I went back

549
00:31:49,560 --> 00:31:52,760
Speaker 1: to the strip club to apologize and for her to

550
00:31:52,880 --> 00:32:03,040
Speaker 1: take me back enough thing to do. She wanted nothing

551
00:32:03,080 --> 00:32:06,360
Speaker 1: to do with me. It was like, did she do

552
00:32:06,480 --> 00:32:09,480
Speaker 1: a pull a Sephora in act like you did it

553
00:32:09,840 --> 00:32:13,200
Speaker 1: that you were invisible or kind of because she was

554
00:32:13,280 --> 00:32:18,240
Speaker 1: dancing and I went up there with dollars, she would talk,

555
00:32:19,080 --> 00:32:21,600
Speaker 1: did you say you donated to green Peace? And like

556
00:32:21,760 --> 00:32:24,320
Speaker 1: in her honor? I mean maybe she really was an

557
00:32:24,320 --> 00:32:27,600
Speaker 1: animal rights activist, but I'm guessing yeah, she just didn't.

558
00:32:27,760 --> 00:32:29,600
Speaker 1: She didn't understand what you were being pulled over for.

559
00:32:29,840 --> 00:32:32,600
Speaker 1: And I mean she obviously like was with you because

560
00:32:32,800 --> 00:32:35,520
Speaker 1: you're so nice, and then obviously if the cops arresting you,

561
00:32:35,520 --> 00:32:38,719
Speaker 1: you're not so nice. And I'm not saying that as

562
00:32:38,720 --> 00:32:41,000
Speaker 1: like a I'm not trying to do an impression of

563
00:32:41,040 --> 00:32:44,400
Speaker 1: someone who is an immigrant. I'm just saying that's, you

564
00:32:44,400 --> 00:32:47,200
Speaker 1: know how people that don't speak language as their first

565
00:32:47,280 --> 00:32:52,000
Speaker 1: language talk sometimes. That wasn't me being racist. I hope

566
00:32:52,040 --> 00:32:56,640
Speaker 1: that you don't interpret it that way. Cancel me all right,

567
00:32:56,680 --> 00:33:04,680
Speaker 1: let's get to the news. Yeah. First, oh man, I

568
00:33:04,680 --> 00:33:08,480
Speaker 1: hope you're having all the swells. Thank yeah. I was

569
00:33:08,520 --> 00:33:13,840
Speaker 1: gonna say, thank god it's Wednesday. I hope you having

570
00:33:13,880 --> 00:33:15,720
Speaker 1: all this well, was having a great time out there,

571
00:33:16,320 --> 00:33:20,880
Speaker 1: and uh yeah, that's pretty much it. First story. Um,

572
00:33:20,920 --> 00:33:24,080
Speaker 1: a TikTok doctor warned not to pee in the shower

573
00:33:24,720 --> 00:33:27,480
Speaker 1: because you're creating an association in the brain between the

574
00:33:27,480 --> 00:33:30,080
Speaker 1: sound of running water and having to pee, and it

575
00:33:30,120 --> 00:33:35,400
Speaker 1: could possibly cause leak issues. M M. You know, Um,

576
00:33:35,440 --> 00:33:38,760
Speaker 1: this guy ain't wrong. Um, I don't think it's maybe

577
00:33:38,760 --> 00:33:44,560
Speaker 1: the feeling of being bathed in warm water makes me

578
00:33:44,680 --> 00:33:46,720
Speaker 1: now have to pee. And sometimes I would get into

579
00:33:46,720 --> 00:33:49,680
Speaker 1: a shower with a guy and I would like, it's

580
00:33:49,720 --> 00:33:50,960
Speaker 1: one of the first things I want to do is

581
00:33:51,000 --> 00:33:52,880
Speaker 1: pee in the shower. It's like the first thing I

582
00:33:52,920 --> 00:33:54,800
Speaker 1: did if I have to pee, like, I'd be in

583
00:33:54,840 --> 00:33:57,280
Speaker 1: the shower probably every time. You know, the way that

584
00:33:57,360 --> 00:33:59,800
Speaker 1: you brush your teeth every time you're in the shower,

585
00:34:00,280 --> 00:34:03,720
Speaker 1: not every time, Well that concerns me because before you

586
00:34:03,760 --> 00:34:06,160
Speaker 1: told us it's the only time you brush it. No,

587
00:34:06,320 --> 00:34:08,839
Speaker 1: I'm really hoping that every time you brush your teeth

588
00:34:08,840 --> 00:34:11,160
Speaker 1: in the power at least no, I, dude, have you

589
00:34:11,200 --> 00:34:14,000
Speaker 1: ever used my shower? Did I brush with your piss?

590
00:34:15,040 --> 00:34:18,840
Speaker 1: I pee in the shower every single time, and um,

591
00:34:18,880 --> 00:34:21,640
Speaker 1: and now it's actually good because my water will run

592
00:34:21,960 --> 00:34:24,200
Speaker 1: like the spray tan will usually come off, so the

593
00:34:24,200 --> 00:34:26,480
Speaker 1: water already looks like it has pissing it. So if

594
00:34:26,520 --> 00:34:29,279
Speaker 1: I happened to be in there with a guy, I

595
00:34:29,280 --> 00:34:31,319
Speaker 1: can just say that the water is my spray tan

596
00:34:31,440 --> 00:34:33,480
Speaker 1: and not my piss. But it is my piss. But

597
00:34:33,520 --> 00:34:35,520
Speaker 1: there's been times where like I had to stop my

598
00:34:35,560 --> 00:34:37,800
Speaker 1: pizza stream when I was like intimately in the shower

599
00:34:37,840 --> 00:34:41,680
Speaker 1: with a person because you know, even recently, I was

600
00:34:41,719 --> 00:34:45,400
Speaker 1: showering off after sex and or like you know, hook

601
00:34:45,600 --> 00:34:49,279
Speaker 1: hook up or something, and uh, and I he was

602
00:34:49,320 --> 00:34:51,719
Speaker 1: like in the bathroom and I was like, God, I

603
00:34:51,719 --> 00:34:52,960
Speaker 1: need him to leave so I can pee in the

604
00:34:52,960 --> 00:34:55,319
Speaker 1: shower because he might pull back the curtain and like look,

605
00:34:55,360 --> 00:34:57,040
Speaker 1: and then I'm peing, Like no one wants to see

606
00:34:57,080 --> 00:35:04,759
Speaker 1: a girl, huh, pull back the curtain, but you would

607
00:35:04,800 --> 00:35:08,040
Speaker 1: have seen that too, pull back all the curtains, the

608
00:35:09,920 --> 00:35:12,640
Speaker 1: shower curtain, and then there's a glass door actually on

609
00:35:12,680 --> 00:35:16,120
Speaker 1: my pussy. I don't have a curtain now, really you

610
00:35:16,200 --> 00:35:19,959
Speaker 1: the guy. I think I've got a double plastic down

611
00:35:20,000 --> 00:35:25,279
Speaker 1: there beyond the map of the m T A subway.

612
00:35:25,600 --> 00:35:27,080
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, I used to have a map of the

613
00:35:27,120 --> 00:35:30,719
Speaker 1: world in my old It was for my like geography lesson,

614
00:35:30,719 --> 00:35:33,000
Speaker 1: because I don't know anything about geography. Andrew the wait

615
00:35:33,040 --> 00:35:37,480
Speaker 1: aes I get so, um is it like, I love

616
00:35:37,800 --> 00:35:39,960
Speaker 1: you know what do you p in the shower by

617
00:35:40,000 --> 00:35:43,160
Speaker 1: the way all the time? Um? I think it's different

618
00:35:43,200 --> 00:35:44,759
Speaker 1: for women. And I don't mean to take this from you.

619
00:35:44,760 --> 00:35:47,040
Speaker 1: I'm glad that you do too, Andrew, But like women

620
00:35:47,160 --> 00:35:50,600
Speaker 1: never get a chance to pee standing up, and there's

621
00:35:50,640 --> 00:35:54,840
Speaker 1: something about it, like you, it's it's really interesting because

622
00:35:54,840 --> 00:35:57,480
Speaker 1: if you have enough of a stream going and it's

623
00:35:57,760 --> 00:36:00,600
Speaker 1: urgent enough, you can you can in a way that

624
00:36:00,600 --> 00:36:02,319
Speaker 1: it's not going to dribble down your legs like it

625
00:36:02,400 --> 00:36:04,960
Speaker 1: usually does when you pee, like on a camping trip

626
00:36:05,040 --> 00:36:06,799
Speaker 1: or something. You know what I'm saying. No, Like there's

627
00:36:06,800 --> 00:36:09,239
Speaker 1: sometimes I go I could just be standing up, and

628
00:36:09,239 --> 00:36:12,920
Speaker 1: like probably I would maybe I would maybe miss the

629
00:36:12,960 --> 00:36:15,040
Speaker 1: bowl most of the time. But like there's sometimes I'm like,

630
00:36:15,080 --> 00:36:17,080
Speaker 1: oh my god, it would feel free to do this.

631
00:36:17,160 --> 00:36:19,320
Speaker 1: I used to have a joke that Um, I was

632
00:36:19,360 --> 00:36:22,600
Speaker 1: at a concert or I was at like a music festival,

633
00:36:22,640 --> 00:36:24,319
Speaker 1: and I was so jealous of guys that just got

634
00:36:24,360 --> 00:36:25,799
Speaker 1: to like I had to wait in line for the

635
00:36:25,800 --> 00:36:28,120
Speaker 1: porta potty when I had to go to the bathroom,

636
00:36:28,120 --> 00:36:31,000
Speaker 1: and guys could just like walk off into like the

637
00:36:31,040 --> 00:36:33,320
Speaker 1: wooded area and just go and it's so much easier.

638
00:36:33,360 --> 00:36:36,040
Speaker 1: And it's like I had to like wait in line

639
00:36:36,080 --> 00:36:38,719
Speaker 1: and totch this dirty door. And so one time I

640
00:36:38,800 --> 00:36:40,840
Speaker 1: was just like, I'm gonna just go standing up, and

641
00:36:40,840 --> 00:36:43,120
Speaker 1: it was awful because I got poop all down my leg,

642
00:36:45,080 --> 00:36:47,080
Speaker 1: you know little switch rooney at the end there. Um,

643
00:36:47,280 --> 00:36:51,920
Speaker 1: so wait just get uh yeah, Like what would it

644
00:36:51,920 --> 00:36:55,200
Speaker 1: be disturbing if you caught Brenna peeing standing up? Like

645
00:36:55,200 --> 00:36:57,840
Speaker 1: would that that would be I think some guys n

646
00:36:58,800 --> 00:37:00,960
Speaker 1: I think would turn me on. I did pee in

647
00:37:00,960 --> 00:37:05,719
Speaker 1: the shower with an X before, and I got caught

648
00:37:05,760 --> 00:37:11,040
Speaker 1: because it smelled. Oh right, that's the problem. If it's

649
00:37:11,040 --> 00:37:13,520
Speaker 1: a non smelling piss, I don't think anyone cares. But

650
00:37:13,560 --> 00:37:18,799
Speaker 1: if and then if you eat vitamins, it really glows, Yeah,

651
00:37:18,960 --> 00:37:21,200
Speaker 1: that could get you in trouble. Be twelve will really

652
00:37:21,200 --> 00:37:26,439
Speaker 1: funk up your piss and maybe give it away. You're like, um, yeah,

653
00:37:26,480 --> 00:37:30,600
Speaker 1: I'm actually jaundice and it's I'm doing this new spray jaundice. Well,

654
00:37:30,680 --> 00:37:32,920
Speaker 1: the problem is piss in the bathtub and then it

655
00:37:32,960 --> 00:37:37,960
Speaker 1: turns purple. Ever tell you about the time I was

656
00:37:38,000 --> 00:37:42,439
Speaker 1: at the View. I think I've told the story before. Yeah, yeah,

657
00:37:42,719 --> 00:37:44,360
Speaker 1: it's on the View. I got to be on the

658
00:37:44,440 --> 00:37:47,680
Speaker 1: View for the first of my life. You didn't know

659
00:37:47,680 --> 00:37:49,400
Speaker 1: what I know what I think maybe this was before

660
00:37:49,440 --> 00:37:52,399
Speaker 1: you as well. Um I got to be on the View,

661
00:37:53,480 --> 00:37:57,879
Speaker 1: and um, I was a really ledge head on the View.

662
00:37:57,920 --> 00:37:59,560
Speaker 1: I wanted a good one, you know what I'm saying.

663
00:37:59,680 --> 00:38:03,839
Speaker 1: So it's and on the edge of the table, cool

664
00:38:03,920 --> 00:38:08,200
Speaker 1: joke down? So I was what did you just say?

665
00:38:08,719 --> 00:38:14,080
Speaker 1: Look down? So well, Barbara wats did just say take

666
00:38:14,080 --> 00:38:17,160
Speaker 1: a little time to enjoy the view? Like that used

667
00:38:17,160 --> 00:38:19,399
Speaker 1: to be the thing that would go into it. But um,

668
00:38:19,440 --> 00:38:22,680
Speaker 1: and I was doing a Sheryo Terry impression of Barbara impression.

669
00:38:22,760 --> 00:38:25,840
Speaker 1: But um, I got invited into the View, which they

670
00:38:25,880 --> 00:38:27,719
Speaker 1: would always bring in like guest comedians. A lot of

671
00:38:27,719 --> 00:38:30,160
Speaker 1: my friends had done it, and I was like so excited.

672
00:38:30,800 --> 00:38:33,160
Speaker 1: On my episode it was Rosie O'donnald that's when she

673
00:38:33,200 --> 00:38:38,560
Speaker 1: was on Still, Um, it was god, she's an no

674
00:38:38,719 --> 00:38:41,520
Speaker 1: hassleback wasn't there. Um and Whoopee would have been there,

675
00:38:41,520 --> 00:38:45,120
Speaker 1: but she was just like not in that day. Um.

676
00:38:45,160 --> 00:38:47,320
Speaker 1: I think not even joy Behard was there. It was

677
00:38:47,440 --> 00:38:51,800
Speaker 1: Nicole um something. Nicole she's a she's a news anchor.

678
00:38:51,960 --> 00:38:55,479
Speaker 1: She's she was on the View regularly. Nicole Wilson or something.

679
00:38:55,520 --> 00:38:59,400
Speaker 1: She's um she's like kind of like moderate news anchor.

680
00:38:59,480 --> 00:39:02,200
Speaker 1: She does like both sides. She's really smart, really cool,

681
00:39:02,360 --> 00:39:05,360
Speaker 1: love her. And then um, one other person who I

682
00:39:05,400 --> 00:39:08,400
Speaker 1: forget And then no, I just look up Nicki Glazer

683
00:39:08,440 --> 00:39:10,200
Speaker 1: the View and see who was on the table with

684
00:39:10,239 --> 00:39:13,560
Speaker 1: me that day. And then UM, oh my god, I

685
00:39:13,600 --> 00:39:15,480
Speaker 1: can't believe I'm gonna tell the story because I don't

686
00:39:15,480 --> 00:39:19,359
Speaker 1: want to drum up any like controversy. But Michelle Williams

687
00:39:19,480 --> 00:39:25,319
Speaker 1: from Destiny's Child was also there. Um. And before the

688
00:39:25,360 --> 00:39:28,480
Speaker 1: show we were all you go, you go, and you

689
00:39:28,520 --> 00:39:29,680
Speaker 1: get air and makeup, and then you go in a

690
00:39:29,760 --> 00:39:31,200
Speaker 1: room with all the girls from the View and all

691
00:39:31,239 --> 00:39:33,480
Speaker 1: the producers and you sit and you like people are

692
00:39:33,520 --> 00:39:36,319
Speaker 1: eating breakfast and like you talk about the topics of

693
00:39:36,320 --> 00:39:38,600
Speaker 1: the hot topics of the day and like, what the

694
00:39:38,640 --> 00:39:40,760
Speaker 1: what the rundown of the show. It's really fun actually,

695
00:39:40,800 --> 00:39:43,480
Speaker 1: like everyone's just kind of like joking around, and you know,

696
00:39:43,680 --> 00:39:48,719
Speaker 1: Rosie o'donald is someone that I like loved worshiped growing up.

697
00:39:48,760 --> 00:39:51,120
Speaker 1: Like the Rosio Donald show was so fun. It's like

698
00:39:51,680 --> 00:39:54,319
Speaker 1: I just loved, loved that show. Was the first time

699
00:39:54,320 --> 00:39:56,239
Speaker 1: I was like in love with like an adult kind

700
00:39:56,280 --> 00:39:57,880
Speaker 1: of show, or at least at that time, it was

701
00:39:57,920 --> 00:39:59,759
Speaker 1: like something Mom's watched and I was like a kid

702
00:39:59,800 --> 00:40:01,320
Speaker 1: that just like couldn't get enough on that show. And

703
00:40:01,360 --> 00:40:03,200
Speaker 1: the coush balls that she would throw out in the

704
00:40:03,239 --> 00:40:06,080
Speaker 1: crush she had on Tom Cruise that was really kind

705
00:40:06,080 --> 00:40:09,080
Speaker 1: of not real. We come to find out this before

706
00:40:09,080 --> 00:40:13,760
Speaker 1: she came out. Um. So I'm backstage and Rosie o'donald

707
00:40:13,800 --> 00:40:16,439
Speaker 1: is like we're hitting it off, and she's showing me

708
00:40:16,960 --> 00:40:19,399
Speaker 1: and Michelle Williams is just kind of cold to me,

709
00:40:19,560 --> 00:40:21,839
Speaker 1: and that's like she doesn't need to be nice to me.

710
00:40:21,880 --> 00:40:23,560
Speaker 1: She's maybe doing her own thing I do. I'm not

711
00:40:23,560 --> 00:40:25,200
Speaker 1: even trying to get her to like me or whatever,

712
00:40:25,280 --> 00:40:28,760
Speaker 1: and like it's whatever, and um and I'm a Destiny

713
00:40:28,840 --> 00:40:31,759
Speaker 1: Child fan, Like I was like, oh my god, Michelle Williams,

714
00:40:31,800 --> 00:40:34,400
Speaker 1: even though in the song Survivor she has one of

715
00:40:34,400 --> 00:40:38,120
Speaker 1: the weirdest solos ever that really takes you out of

716
00:40:38,120 --> 00:40:41,080
Speaker 1: the song. But I'm only saying that because of what

717
00:40:41,120 --> 00:40:45,120
Speaker 1: happened between her and I. So I'm backstage, Rosie Donald's

718
00:40:45,120 --> 00:40:47,880
Speaker 1: showing me these like She's like, oh, I gave the

719
00:40:47,920 --> 00:40:50,120
Speaker 1: kids a bath last night, her kids, and she's showing

720
00:40:50,120 --> 00:40:52,600
Speaker 1: me that these dies that you can throw in the

721
00:40:52,640 --> 00:40:55,799
Speaker 1: bath that like turn the bathwater purple or blue and

722
00:40:55,840 --> 00:40:59,000
Speaker 1: like make bathtime fun. She's like, isn't that fun? And

723
00:40:59,040 --> 00:41:00,520
Speaker 1: I go, oh my gosh. We had that when I

724
00:41:00,560 --> 00:41:03,080
Speaker 1: was a kid, except like mine was just like like

725
00:41:03,239 --> 00:41:06,080
Speaker 1: yellow every time, and it was just honestly, I just

726
00:41:06,080 --> 00:41:08,160
Speaker 1: pete in the bath. I was just making a joke, right,

727
00:41:09,719 --> 00:41:13,959
Speaker 1: which is funny, I guess, Like, and then I wasn't

728
00:41:14,000 --> 00:41:16,200
Speaker 1: like trying out material for the show. There was no intent,

729
00:41:16,360 --> 00:41:19,360
Speaker 1: just except to make people like laugh in the room.

730
00:41:19,440 --> 00:41:26,000
Speaker 1: And Michelle Williams looks up and goes it and then

731
00:41:26,040 --> 00:41:28,080
Speaker 1: shakes her head and looks back down at her stuff

732
00:41:28,440 --> 00:41:32,560
Speaker 1: makes it so weird, like it takes me literally, I guess,

733
00:41:33,080 --> 00:41:35,680
Speaker 1: And I was like, oh, I'm just joking. Doesn't look

734
00:41:35,760 --> 00:41:41,439
Speaker 1: up and go, oh, you know, just disgusted face, looks

735
00:41:41,440 --> 00:41:43,760
Speaker 1: back down to her notes and like I'm dead to her,

736
00:41:43,920 --> 00:41:47,319
Speaker 1: like she I'm enemy number one to her after this,

737
00:41:48,000 --> 00:41:50,080
Speaker 1: And I'm just like, oh, that was uncomfortable. And I'm

738
00:41:50,120 --> 00:41:52,480
Speaker 1: like a guest on the show. She's been there a ton, like,

739
00:41:53,680 --> 00:41:55,680
Speaker 1: you know, it was just unfriendly. And I was just like,

740
00:41:55,760 --> 00:41:58,359
Speaker 1: I don't maybe maybe that really triggered her in a way.

741
00:41:58,400 --> 00:42:00,799
Speaker 1: I don't know, so and we go out and this

742
00:42:00,880 --> 00:42:02,600
Speaker 1: is the show that was after. It was the day

743
00:42:02,640 --> 00:42:06,760
Speaker 1: after the Grammys some probably two thousand fourteen Grammys, And

744
00:42:08,200 --> 00:42:12,680
Speaker 1: at the Grammys, Prince came out unexpectedly to a surprise thing,

745
00:42:12,680 --> 00:42:14,279
Speaker 1: and we were talking about, oh my god, Prince came

746
00:42:14,280 --> 00:42:16,840
Speaker 1: out and surprised everyone. And I was like, you know,

747
00:42:16,880 --> 00:42:19,319
Speaker 1: what's really cool about that the way the celebrities in

748
00:42:19,360 --> 00:42:22,440
Speaker 1: the audience reacted to Prince coming out. They looked like,

749
00:42:22,760 --> 00:42:25,319
Speaker 1: you know, they were genuinely saw these like celebrities that

750
00:42:25,320 --> 00:42:27,560
Speaker 1: are usually so jaded and like I'm so cool. They

751
00:42:27,560 --> 00:42:30,360
Speaker 1: were freaking out. It was really cool to see. You know,

752
00:42:31,840 --> 00:42:34,279
Speaker 1: I don't know who I referenced who was like, like,

753
00:42:34,360 --> 00:42:38,799
Speaker 1: it was cool to see Lady Gaga look like a

754
00:42:38,880 --> 00:42:41,840
Speaker 1: Backstreet Boy fan, like from like like you know, a

755
00:42:41,920 --> 00:42:44,520
Speaker 1: Beatles beatles Mania. It was cool to see. I think

756
00:42:44,520 --> 00:42:48,879
Speaker 1: I compared um a celebrity to a Backstreet Boys fan

757
00:42:48,920 --> 00:42:51,000
Speaker 1: from one of these girls that are crying in the

758
00:42:51,000 --> 00:42:53,600
Speaker 1: front row, like being like a J. Well, no one

759
00:42:53,640 --> 00:42:57,319
Speaker 1: cried about a J, but um they cried for other reasons. Yeah.

760
00:42:57,360 --> 00:42:59,560
Speaker 1: So all I said was it was cool to see

761
00:42:59,560 --> 00:43:02,160
Speaker 1: celebrity is looking like Backstreet like freaking out and looking

762
00:43:02,200 --> 00:43:05,839
Speaker 1: like Backstreet Boy fans. And Michelle Williams go, well, what

763
00:43:05,880 --> 00:43:09,840
Speaker 1: would you have done? And I was like, oh, I know,

764
00:43:09,920 --> 00:43:11,319
Speaker 1: I'm saying it was it was cool. And she was

765
00:43:11,360 --> 00:43:13,400
Speaker 1: like if you were one of them, what would how

766
00:43:13,440 --> 00:43:16,279
Speaker 1: would you have reacted? Are you like like almost mad at?

767
00:43:17,200 --> 00:43:21,719
Speaker 1: It was so wild it it made me. It was

768
00:43:21,760 --> 00:43:23,640
Speaker 1: like and I and I and I was like trying

769
00:43:23,640 --> 00:43:25,799
Speaker 1: to I wasn't like combative with her. I was just like,

770
00:43:25,920 --> 00:43:28,640
Speaker 1: oh no, I was just joke like. I was just saying, like, no,

771
00:43:28,680 --> 00:43:33,120
Speaker 1: I go, I would have done the same thing. No,

772
00:43:33,239 --> 00:43:35,480
Speaker 1: she she it wasn't even sarcas. I'm what I was saying.

773
00:43:35,520 --> 00:43:37,719
Speaker 1: I was being sincere, like it was cool to see

774
00:43:37,760 --> 00:43:40,880
Speaker 1: them actually have a real human reaction and not be

775
00:43:40,960 --> 00:43:43,120
Speaker 1: too cool for school. And she goes, well, what would

776
00:43:43,160 --> 00:43:45,319
Speaker 1: you have done? How would you have reacted? And I

777
00:43:45,360 --> 00:43:46,560
Speaker 1: was like, oh my god, I would have done the

778
00:43:46,560 --> 00:43:48,520
Speaker 1: same thing, which is actually not true because I'm not

779
00:43:48,560 --> 00:43:51,680
Speaker 1: a Prince fan and I don't really care um, and

780
00:43:52,600 --> 00:43:54,160
Speaker 1: but I was just you know, like, if someone came

781
00:43:54,160 --> 00:43:56,000
Speaker 1: out impressive, of course I would act that way. I'm

782
00:43:56,040 --> 00:43:59,560
Speaker 1: like a huge fan of celebrities. And it was so

783
00:43:59,680 --> 00:44:02,400
Speaker 1: crazy Zy like made me just like shut down. I

784
00:44:02,440 --> 00:44:06,319
Speaker 1: was just like okay, and then um. And then later

785
00:44:06,360 --> 00:44:09,600
Speaker 1: on in the show, I said another thing that made

786
00:44:09,640 --> 00:44:14,040
Speaker 1: everyone feel that. No one laughed except Rosey o'donald laughed

787
00:44:14,160 --> 00:44:17,680
Speaker 1: so hard next to me, and she goes, I'm sorry,

788
00:44:17,719 --> 00:44:20,319
Speaker 1: that was fucking funny, and she said fucking She goes,

789
00:44:20,360 --> 00:44:23,560
Speaker 1: oh my god, Oh my god, I have she covered

790
00:44:23,560 --> 00:44:28,040
Speaker 1: about food. I have never once cussed on TV in

791
00:44:28,080 --> 00:44:31,040
Speaker 1: my life. I have. I can't believe I just did that.

792
00:44:31,400 --> 00:44:33,319
Speaker 1: And it was because she came to my defense about

793
00:44:33,320 --> 00:44:36,200
Speaker 1: a joke that no everyone else goes, oh, and it

794
00:44:36,280 --> 00:44:39,600
Speaker 1: wasn't you remember, I don't even remember. It was just

795
00:44:40,080 --> 00:44:42,120
Speaker 1: you know, one of my styles of jokes. That wasn't

796
00:44:42,160 --> 00:44:45,720
Speaker 1: it was maybe like the p joke, like nothing like terrible,

797
00:44:45,760 --> 00:44:48,799
Speaker 1: but maybe a little bizarre. But you know, I was

798
00:44:48,920 --> 00:44:51,480
Speaker 1: very after that Michelle shutdown. I was very I was

799
00:44:51,520 --> 00:44:54,360
Speaker 1: towing the line there. But um, after that, I have

800
00:44:54,480 --> 00:44:58,600
Speaker 1: thought Michelle Williams is not cool. Um I don't. I

801
00:44:59,440 --> 00:45:01,759
Speaker 1: thought she was mean. I don't know what she was

802
00:45:01,760 --> 00:45:03,440
Speaker 1: going through that day, and I want to do the

803
00:45:03,480 --> 00:45:06,799
Speaker 1: same thing that what's his name, uh Jacko Willing said

804
00:45:06,800 --> 00:45:09,520
Speaker 1: the other day and said, like, I don't. I can't

805
00:45:09,520 --> 00:45:12,000
Speaker 1: assume her life to react that way to me, her

806
00:45:12,040 --> 00:45:14,520
Speaker 1: life must have been harder than mine that day and

807
00:45:14,560 --> 00:45:17,000
Speaker 1: probably prior to mine. And like, I don't know what

808
00:45:17,040 --> 00:45:20,960
Speaker 1: it's like to be the least talented member of a band.

809
00:45:22,080 --> 00:45:25,040
Speaker 1: In fairness, she the fourth one got kicked out, so

810
00:45:25,160 --> 00:45:30,160
Speaker 1: she makes true okay, the second least talented and to

811
00:45:30,840 --> 00:45:33,279
Speaker 1: you know, ruin and have a really weird moment in

812
00:45:33,280 --> 00:45:37,960
Speaker 1: the songs Survivor where she goes from from happiness. If

813
00:45:38,000 --> 00:45:43,160
Speaker 1: I surround myself with positive things, Oh Gained Prosperity, it's

814
00:45:43,200 --> 00:45:48,399
Speaker 1: the weirdest. It's the worst thing I've ever like. I've

815
00:45:48,440 --> 00:45:50,920
Speaker 1: always thought that was a really bad part of that song.

816
00:45:51,880 --> 00:45:58,400
Speaker 1: He gain prosperity. Can you have please given that to Beyonce?

817
00:45:58,719 --> 00:46:01,080
Speaker 1: It really Luigi to sup up? And that's a really

818
00:46:01,120 --> 00:46:03,520
Speaker 1: good impression, by the way, it sounds like that should

819
00:46:03,520 --> 00:46:11,600
Speaker 1: be at like the Declaration of Independence, like fad wait

820
00:46:11,640 --> 00:46:35,040
Speaker 1: one more time? That ain't it? You know what, I'm

821
00:46:35,120 --> 00:46:36,759
Speaker 1: not as good as a singer as her. I never

822
00:46:36,840 --> 00:46:40,799
Speaker 1: will be. I would probably murder Luigi to even have

823
00:46:40,880 --> 00:46:44,480
Speaker 1: a tenth of her singing talent. But that that wasn't

824
00:46:44,520 --> 00:46:46,800
Speaker 1: that wasn't it. Let's get the next that the line.

825
00:46:46,920 --> 00:46:50,040
Speaker 1: Did the line annoy you before the interview or did

826
00:46:50,080 --> 00:46:53,160
Speaker 1: it annoy you more after? Like it always annoyed me,

827
00:46:53,239 --> 00:46:57,480
Speaker 1: but now talk about it, I appreciate that. I appreciate that.

828
00:46:57,520 --> 00:46:59,040
Speaker 1: And you know what, it didn't annoy me. It used

829
00:46:59,080 --> 00:47:01,839
Speaker 1: to actually make me because I go, maybe I could

830
00:47:01,840 --> 00:47:04,200
Speaker 1: be in Destiny's Child. If if that made it in,

831
00:47:04,800 --> 00:47:09,160
Speaker 1: maybe I could do it. And then again, I don't

832
00:47:09,200 --> 00:47:11,560
Speaker 1: mean to say like Michelle Williams might be a lovely

833
00:47:11,600 --> 00:47:13,399
Speaker 1: person just of having a rough day and I'm being

834
00:47:13,440 --> 00:47:16,160
Speaker 1: petty now about it, but um, and that song is

835
00:47:16,200 --> 00:47:18,560
Speaker 1: a number one Billboard hit and maybe it is because

836
00:47:18,640 --> 00:47:21,080
Speaker 1: of that and not despite it. But I would think

837
00:47:21,120 --> 00:47:25,920
Speaker 1: it was the loader man. That's a roller coaster of

838
00:47:25,920 --> 00:47:32,920
Speaker 1: a sentence. Okay. A woman sues Starbucks on that roller coaster,

839
00:47:33,120 --> 00:47:35,360
Speaker 1: I've just got fabio and hit with a pigeon in

840
00:47:35,360 --> 00:47:37,880
Speaker 1: the head too, So in the end I look like

841
00:47:37,960 --> 00:47:41,440
Speaker 1: the one with pigeon blood on my face. But for

842
00:47:41,480 --> 00:47:44,200
Speaker 1: a while you were having a great time up there. Yeah,

843
00:47:44,239 --> 00:47:46,480
Speaker 1: the picture of me have right before that, I was like,

844
00:47:47,560 --> 00:47:52,040
Speaker 1: really fun. A woman sues Starbucks after getting first and

845
00:47:52,120 --> 00:47:56,520
Speaker 1: second degree burns when she spot spilled coffee on herself

846
00:47:56,520 --> 00:47:58,839
Speaker 1: as she was returning to wrong order, so she got

847
00:47:58,840 --> 00:48:02,040
Speaker 1: the wrong order, tried to give it back. It's billed

848
00:48:02,040 --> 00:48:04,719
Speaker 1: all over lap. That might have been my order because

849
00:48:04,719 --> 00:48:09,080
Speaker 1: I always order extra hot. That is true. If you

850
00:48:09,160 --> 00:48:11,279
Speaker 1: get extra hot and it burned to you, that's on

851
00:48:11,320 --> 00:48:17,320
Speaker 1: you literally a lot. Yeah. I mean we all remember

852
00:48:17,360 --> 00:48:20,960
Speaker 1: the lady from McDonald's. She she got a couple of millions.

853
00:48:20,960 --> 00:48:24,479
Speaker 1: This lady's going. Do you know the true story behind

854
00:48:24,520 --> 00:48:27,160
Speaker 1: the McDonald's one? Yeah, I remember you told me it.

855
00:48:27,520 --> 00:48:29,840
Speaker 1: I mean, you can recount it better than me guessing.

856
00:48:30,200 --> 00:48:33,680
Speaker 1: But um yeah, it was like this whole phenomenon in

857
00:48:33,719 --> 00:48:36,919
Speaker 1: the nineties of like, oh, this woman sue McDonald's because

858
00:48:36,960 --> 00:48:42,120
Speaker 1: you got burned by your hot coffee way way and um,

859
00:48:42,200 --> 00:48:44,960
Speaker 1: what they didn't tell you in a documentary later like

860
00:48:45,080 --> 00:48:46,920
Speaker 1: brought to light was this was like a really this

861
00:48:47,000 --> 00:48:49,839
Speaker 1: is an elderly woman who had to have multiple skin

862
00:48:49,920 --> 00:48:53,120
Speaker 1: graphs and whose skin was melting off of her body

863
00:48:53,200 --> 00:48:56,000
Speaker 1: because of not second degree burns, but I think like

864
00:48:56,920 --> 00:49:00,120
Speaker 1: the worst degree burn and um, the coffee was that

865
00:49:00,320 --> 00:49:03,040
Speaker 1: lid that wasn't securing the coffee was so hot that

866
00:49:03,120 --> 00:49:07,360
Speaker 1: it was like nearly boiling. So she was adent in

867
00:49:07,360 --> 00:49:11,000
Speaker 1: the right and everything every monologue joke in Late Night

868
00:49:11,200 --> 00:49:14,920
Speaker 1: like it created this whole thing of like she was

869
00:49:14,960 --> 00:49:20,160
Speaker 1: the poster child of just the m the flippant lee,

870
00:49:20,400 --> 00:49:25,520
Speaker 1: litigious uh person that like slips intentionally and then like

871
00:49:25,600 --> 00:49:28,600
Speaker 1: asked for a million dollars. She became like, oh, you

872
00:49:28,680 --> 00:49:30,640
Speaker 1: got burned and then you've got a million dollars, Like

873
00:49:31,160 --> 00:49:34,520
Speaker 1: fucking it's your fault and it wasn't. This poor woman

874
00:49:34,800 --> 00:49:38,720
Speaker 1: had disabled because of it. The boy that cried wolf

875
00:49:38,760 --> 00:49:41,239
Speaker 1: actually got his leg bit off by the wolf, and

876
00:49:41,280 --> 00:49:45,440
Speaker 1: no one was like, but this woman didn't do it. Yes, yeah,

877
00:49:45,480 --> 00:49:47,799
Speaker 1: I mean I'm the boil cried wolf is the one

878
00:49:47,880 --> 00:49:50,080
Speaker 1: he kept crying wolf, and then there was no wolf.

879
00:49:50,080 --> 00:49:52,520
Speaker 1: And then when he did cry wolf, she didn't cry.

880
00:49:52,800 --> 00:49:55,399
Speaker 1: Um burnt my skins falling off a bunch of times

881
00:49:55,440 --> 00:49:59,359
Speaker 1: and then but yes, you're right, she's still she's still

882
00:50:00,120 --> 00:50:03,080
Speaker 1: like we should still feel sad for her. I mean

883
00:50:03,160 --> 00:50:09,080
Speaker 1: more than the wolf. Boy. Um yeah this, uh you

884
00:50:09,120 --> 00:50:12,920
Speaker 1: know that's like kept pouring coffee on herself. She's like

885
00:50:12,960 --> 00:50:17,080
Speaker 1: not not hot enough, not hot like if yeah, well

886
00:50:17,120 --> 00:50:20,840
Speaker 1: I want to I do think that, um, I would,

887
00:50:20,920 --> 00:50:23,880
Speaker 1: now that I know that about that McDonald's story, I'm

888
00:50:23,920 --> 00:50:27,160
Speaker 1: a little bit more apprehensive about judging this woman and

889
00:50:27,160 --> 00:50:31,440
Speaker 1: and thinking that she's just being kind of um overreactive.

890
00:50:31,960 --> 00:50:35,440
Speaker 1: But boy, it's a part of the story that doesn't

891
00:50:35,480 --> 00:50:37,920
Speaker 1: really look good in her favor, as her taking the

892
00:50:37,920 --> 00:50:39,759
Speaker 1: wrong drink, just being one of those people that just

893
00:50:39,800 --> 00:50:43,080
Speaker 1: like this is mine and then being like I didn't

894
00:50:43,120 --> 00:50:49,319
Speaker 1: like you just think, oh, so they came her the

895
00:50:49,320 --> 00:50:52,520
Speaker 1: wrong order. Oh man, that I mean being spilling hot

896
00:50:52,520 --> 00:50:55,320
Speaker 1: coffee on your lap and like getting burned first and

897
00:50:55,480 --> 00:50:57,400
Speaker 1: second or grade burn. I mean that that sucks and

898
00:50:57,440 --> 00:51:01,040
Speaker 1: I'm really sorry for her, but she'll gain as verty.

899
00:51:02,239 --> 00:51:05,120
Speaker 1: My buddy, Glenn, I think you've met Glenn. We were

900
00:51:05,120 --> 00:51:11,760
Speaker 1: getting we got hot saki shots and the waiter drop

901
00:51:11,840 --> 00:51:17,880
Speaker 1: the sake all over Glenn's back. We were but it

902
00:51:18,000 --> 00:51:21,640
Speaker 1: was just like and you know when people go sake bomb,

903
00:51:22,400 --> 00:51:25,759
Speaker 1: you know Glenna. But it was because it was burn.

904
00:51:27,080 --> 00:51:30,000
Speaker 1: You guys are the cruelest friends, just laughing at each

905
00:51:30,040 --> 00:51:33,319
Speaker 1: other's misfortune. Funk. We were mad. Yeah, that was like

906
00:51:33,440 --> 00:51:38,640
Speaker 1: sixty saki. It was copensive. Oh god, alright. Next story,

907
00:51:38,719 --> 00:51:41,520
Speaker 1: Tim Cook of Apple, who wakes up at four am daily,

908
00:51:42,000 --> 00:51:45,720
Speaker 1: explains why early risers are more productive. They could control

909
00:51:45,760 --> 00:51:48,280
Speaker 1: the morning better than the evening and through the day.

910
00:51:48,680 --> 00:51:51,440
Speaker 1: Things happened through the day that blow. He has four kids,

911
00:51:51,480 --> 00:51:54,160
Speaker 1: by the way, so it's like his whole thing is

912
00:51:54,160 --> 00:51:57,040
Speaker 1: like you could have the whole morning to yourself. Yeah,

913
00:51:57,080 --> 00:51:59,840
Speaker 1: because the kids wake up at a probably six seven,

914
00:52:00,000 --> 00:52:02,520
Speaker 1: and so you get two hours without them, Like yeah,

915
00:52:02,560 --> 00:52:05,360
Speaker 1: that makes sense. Yeah, I just think you know, you

916
00:52:05,360 --> 00:52:07,560
Speaker 1: could wake up later if you don't ruin your life

917
00:52:07,560 --> 00:52:10,160
Speaker 1: with kids and a wife. I know, we were talking

918
00:52:10,160 --> 00:52:13,680
Speaker 1: about the other night of like how much we get

919
00:52:13,719 --> 00:52:15,759
Speaker 1: to do because we don't have kids like you were

920
00:52:15,760 --> 00:52:18,399
Speaker 1: talking about. Oh, we were watching White Lotus and what's

921
00:52:18,400 --> 00:52:21,160
Speaker 1: his name? In the show. This isn't a spoiler, but

922
00:52:21,200 --> 00:52:23,880
Speaker 1: he's like worried about having ball cancer and you were like, God,

923
00:52:24,400 --> 00:52:27,400
Speaker 1: imagine like being worried that you might have a terminal

924
00:52:27,440 --> 00:52:29,400
Speaker 1: illness while also having to like be a dad and

925
00:52:29,440 --> 00:52:31,919
Speaker 1: like be upbeat for your kids. And I'm like, that's

926
00:52:32,000 --> 00:52:34,600
Speaker 1: parenthood is like dealing with your adult ship that you

927
00:52:34,680 --> 00:52:37,920
Speaker 1: can't put on your kids and having to be present

928
00:52:38,000 --> 00:52:41,279
Speaker 1: with them while also dealing with bills and and And

929
00:52:41,320 --> 00:52:43,439
Speaker 1: that's why I don't. I don't really want to sign

930
00:52:43,520 --> 00:52:46,480
Speaker 1: up for it, because I like, I need mommy needs

931
00:52:46,520 --> 00:52:51,840
Speaker 1: to cry and be depressed sometimes and like nap. And

932
00:52:52,280 --> 00:52:53,920
Speaker 1: I mean the other day when a subreddit there was

933
00:52:53,960 --> 00:52:56,319
Speaker 1: like why don't It was like an ask women, It

934
00:52:56,360 --> 00:52:59,520
Speaker 1: was like why don't you want kids? And I just wrote,

935
00:52:59,520 --> 00:53:03,640
Speaker 1: I value you. I value sleep too much and like

936
00:53:03,880 --> 00:53:07,000
Speaker 1: you and I know that you only sacrifice sleep for

937
00:53:07,080 --> 00:53:11,040
Speaker 1: like the first you know, four years or whatever, like

938
00:53:11,120 --> 00:53:13,839
Speaker 1: the most Like that's the worst time. I guess when

939
00:53:13,840 --> 00:53:15,799
Speaker 1: you're raising kids where you don't get a lot of sleep.

940
00:53:15,840 --> 00:53:19,120
Speaker 1: But I would venture to guess those you know four

941
00:53:19,200 --> 00:53:21,439
Speaker 1: years might aid you like a president and really like

942
00:53:22,800 --> 00:53:25,759
Speaker 1: ruined me. Yeah, I want to I want to have

943
00:53:25,800 --> 00:53:30,520
Speaker 1: a good I feel like if we had kids, not

944
00:53:30,640 --> 00:53:32,360
Speaker 1: me and you, but you know, if we had kids,

945
00:53:32,719 --> 00:53:36,000
Speaker 1: you know, when they were like eight or nine, we'd

946
00:53:36,040 --> 00:53:37,839
Speaker 1: be like, all right, it's time to take care of us,

947
00:53:38,239 --> 00:53:40,799
Speaker 1: you know, Like I would be like, it's your turn

948
00:53:40,880 --> 00:53:43,480
Speaker 1: to it's your turn. It's like a lot of kids

949
00:53:43,520 --> 00:53:46,080
Speaker 1: do do that. Read the book Running on Empty and

950
00:53:46,120 --> 00:53:48,040
Speaker 1: you will see if you relate to any of this

951
00:53:48,239 --> 00:53:50,480
Speaker 1: of a parent who you go, wow, No, they didn't

952
00:53:50,520 --> 00:53:53,239
Speaker 1: hide that stuff from me. Maybe the book Running on

953
00:53:53,360 --> 00:53:56,160
Speaker 1: Empty will help you understand. Every day my dad told

954
00:53:56,200 --> 00:54:00,600
Speaker 1: me he had ball cancer, I'm like, yeah, I mean

955
00:54:00,640 --> 00:54:03,000
Speaker 1: the parents and white Lotus are a whole other issue.

956
00:54:03,040 --> 00:54:05,440
Speaker 1: I mean, that show is in of itself. Let's take

957
00:54:05,480 --> 00:54:08,400
Speaker 1: a quick break and come back with our weekly sports moment.

958
00:54:15,840 --> 00:54:18,680
Speaker 1: All right, we're back. It's time for the weekly sports Moment.

959
00:54:19,560 --> 00:54:26,319
Speaker 1: Gears Andrew's Weekly sports Moment. I love that so much.

960
00:54:26,520 --> 00:54:31,879
Speaker 1: To girlfriend of US paralympian born without legs who's been

961
00:54:31,920 --> 00:54:35,920
Speaker 1: accused of using him for TikTok fame, admits he didn't

962
00:54:35,920 --> 00:54:38,560
Speaker 1: think she was genuine when she took an interest because

963
00:54:38,600 --> 00:54:43,920
Speaker 1: people aren't nice to him. They're still dating, but a

964
00:54:43,960 --> 00:54:46,520
Speaker 1: few years ago she reached out to him. He's won

965
00:54:46,640 --> 00:54:50,520
Speaker 1: like two gold medals, but he has no legs, and

966
00:54:50,600 --> 00:54:53,799
Speaker 1: they just assumed that she's, you know, taking advantage of

967
00:54:53,880 --> 00:54:57,120
Speaker 1: him because he's legless. If he but if he won

968
00:54:57,160 --> 00:54:59,759
Speaker 1: gold medals with legs, would people assume that she was

969
00:54:59,800 --> 00:55:02,200
Speaker 1: like into him only for his gold medals, you know,

970
00:55:02,320 --> 00:55:07,600
Speaker 1: like maybe she's into him for his titaniums too. Yeah,

971
00:55:07,640 --> 00:55:10,040
Speaker 1: I mean, like, you know, there's been times I've seen

972
00:55:10,080 --> 00:55:12,640
Speaker 1: guys with no legs or like one of those blade legs,

973
00:55:12,680 --> 00:55:15,080
Speaker 1: and I'm like, that's so hot that they were like

974
00:55:15,440 --> 00:55:18,960
Speaker 1: they are so confident and able to overcome that thing

975
00:55:19,120 --> 00:55:21,000
Speaker 1: that like I don't mind a guy like guys with

976
00:55:21,040 --> 00:55:24,319
Speaker 1: disabilities like sometimes are hot because it speaks to their

977
00:55:24,400 --> 00:55:26,920
Speaker 1: character that they've been through something hard. And I'm kind

978
00:55:26,920 --> 00:55:29,920
Speaker 1: of like I want that, not for clout, but like

979
00:55:30,000 --> 00:55:32,520
Speaker 1: I would be I would like to have that. I

980
00:55:32,560 --> 00:55:34,759
Speaker 1: would like to push that wheelchair around because I'd be

981
00:55:34,800 --> 00:55:39,120
Speaker 1: like proud of my like disabled boyfriend who's like cool

982
00:55:39,160 --> 00:55:41,520
Speaker 1: and I don't know, been through tough ship. So is

983
00:55:41,560 --> 00:55:45,319
Speaker 1: that bad to be attracted someone because of their thing? No,

984
00:55:45,719 --> 00:55:49,000
Speaker 1: it's a it's a it's it's like being attractive to

985
00:55:49,080 --> 00:55:52,600
Speaker 1: someone with big ears or whatever we just put it.

986
00:55:53,560 --> 00:55:56,279
Speaker 1: I'm just kidding. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I wouldn't be

987
00:55:56,280 --> 00:56:01,440
Speaker 1: cut dead unless they had three gold medals for hearing. Um,

988
00:56:01,560 --> 00:56:06,480
Speaker 1: I no, I think it's I think you could probably

989
00:56:06,560 --> 00:56:10,319
Speaker 1: screw anything. Olympics would be so funny where they have

990
00:56:10,400 --> 00:56:13,480
Speaker 1: people in a stadium, like like a track and field stadium,

991
00:56:13,520 --> 00:56:16,760
Speaker 1: but it's like people stand far away and just whisper things,

992
00:56:16,800 --> 00:56:19,040
Speaker 1: and if you can hear what they heard, they take

993
00:56:19,080 --> 00:56:21,360
Speaker 1: another step back until they can't hear, and then you

994
00:56:21,480 --> 00:56:24,439
Speaker 1: figure out who has the best hearing. That would be dope, dude.

995
00:56:24,440 --> 00:56:27,680
Speaker 1: I'd watch that or the visuals like you do at

996
00:56:27,680 --> 00:56:30,120
Speaker 1: the at the d m V. Yeah, like you would

997
00:56:30,160 --> 00:56:32,160
Speaker 1: be so good. When we were golfing the other night,

998
00:56:32,200 --> 00:56:35,399
Speaker 1: you could see balls go that I didn't. I couldn't see.

999
00:56:35,440 --> 00:56:36,840
Speaker 1: And maybe you have more of an eye for it

1000
00:56:36,880 --> 00:56:38,680
Speaker 1: because you're used to like hitting balls, so you know

1001
00:56:38,719 --> 00:56:40,680
Speaker 1: how to like follow it and look. But you have

1002
00:56:40,800 --> 00:56:47,360
Speaker 1: eagle eyes. Yes, I have very eagle They're black and

1003
00:56:47,520 --> 00:56:51,560
Speaker 1: small and darty, and how dare you they're hazel. It's

1004
00:56:51,600 --> 00:56:54,719
Speaker 1: the one good thing about me. My hazel eyes are

1005
00:56:54,760 --> 00:56:58,720
Speaker 1: my no legs. His no legs behind these hazel eyes.

1006
00:56:59,160 --> 00:57:04,040
Speaker 1: Here me is once again. Okay, so yeah, this is

1007
00:57:04,120 --> 00:57:06,200
Speaker 1: I guess I care. I don't care, I mean I

1008
00:57:06,239 --> 00:57:08,600
Speaker 1: do care. I just feel like, you know, I'm I'm

1009
00:57:08,680 --> 00:57:11,839
Speaker 1: kind of uh. I bet I bet this girl. I

1010
00:57:11,880 --> 00:57:14,120
Speaker 1: bet it's just I think that this is laced in

1011
00:57:14,239 --> 00:57:17,280
Speaker 1: misogyny of like, this girl must be using this guy

1012
00:57:17,400 --> 00:57:21,640
Speaker 1: because she actually posts about his affliction and talks about

1013
00:57:21,640 --> 00:57:23,640
Speaker 1: it and so, and I bet if it were the

1014
00:57:23,640 --> 00:57:25,840
Speaker 1: other way around, people would be like, he's such a

1015
00:57:25,840 --> 00:57:29,360
Speaker 1: good boyfriend and like because it's her, and people are

1016
00:57:29,400 --> 00:57:31,760
Speaker 1: jealous because they want to suck this Like legless Joe,

1017
00:57:32,240 --> 00:57:34,840
Speaker 1: do you think there's um? I mean, if you have

1018
00:57:34,920 --> 00:57:39,000
Speaker 1: no legs, your dick looks like it hangs low compared

1019
00:57:39,040 --> 00:57:42,840
Speaker 1: to having legs. You know. Oh that's interesting, Like you

1020
00:57:43,120 --> 00:57:45,960
Speaker 1: invested so much in a penis pump in college and

1021
00:57:46,080 --> 00:57:50,960
Speaker 1: you maybe tried those extends pills off. Yeah. Yeah, we

1022
00:57:51,000 --> 00:57:53,560
Speaker 1: could have just gotten you, um, like you could have

1023
00:57:53,600 --> 00:57:56,040
Speaker 1: just gone swimming in a manacy zone and waited for

1024
00:57:56,080 --> 00:58:02,120
Speaker 1: someone to come by in the speedboat. He's so nice. Okay,

1025
00:58:02,280 --> 00:58:07,240
Speaker 1: let's get to our weekly segment. Um fan trax. I'm

1026
00:58:07,280 --> 00:58:14,360
Speaker 1: just picturing a manatee driving that boot. That's fun fan trax.

1027
00:58:19,240 --> 00:58:23,200
Speaker 1: Thank you av all Away uh for that sound bite.

1028
00:58:23,280 --> 00:58:28,560
Speaker 1: Let's get to our fan mail. Alright, UM, do you

1029
00:58:28,640 --> 00:58:33,280
Speaker 1: want a written message? You're a voicemail first, Let's do

1030
00:58:33,440 --> 00:58:37,160
Speaker 1: voice Okay, So this one comes from Justine. I know Jukie.

1031
00:58:37,320 --> 00:58:40,720
Speaker 1: It's Justine in Michigan. I've been listening to you since

1032
00:58:40,840 --> 00:58:44,160
Speaker 1: day one. I love you guys so much. Just finished

1033
00:58:44,720 --> 00:58:48,600
Speaker 1: your podcast where you talk about all your superstitions. We

1034
00:58:48,640 --> 00:58:52,560
Speaker 1: are the same person. Um. I will throw something into

1035
00:58:52,560 --> 00:58:54,960
Speaker 1: a basket, and right before I throw it, I'll say, like,

1036
00:58:55,000 --> 00:58:57,320
Speaker 1: if you miss this, you're never gonna get married or something.

1037
00:58:57,400 --> 00:59:01,120
Speaker 1: Every insane and I can't not give myself some sort

1038
00:59:01,160 --> 00:59:05,240
Speaker 1: of psycho ultimatum when I do that. I don't know why. Um,

1039
00:59:05,320 --> 00:59:07,920
Speaker 1: I'll even do if I see a penny that's heads up,

1040
00:59:08,360 --> 00:59:10,360
Speaker 1: I have to pick it up or else I won't

1041
00:59:10,400 --> 00:59:12,680
Speaker 1: have good luck. But then I feel bad if people

1042
00:59:12,680 --> 00:59:14,240
Speaker 1: see me picking up a penny and they think like

1043
00:59:14,280 --> 00:59:16,120
Speaker 1: I need money, and like I want to make sure

1044
00:59:16,120 --> 00:59:18,200
Speaker 1: other people that actually need the penny get the penny,

1045
00:59:18,360 --> 00:59:20,080
Speaker 1: So I feel guilty and then I get into an

1046
00:59:20,080 --> 00:59:23,919
Speaker 1: overthink cycle. But my biggest thing is at my parents house.

1047
00:59:24,560 --> 00:59:27,000
Speaker 1: The steps that go to the basement, I have to

1048
00:59:27,040 --> 00:59:29,480
Speaker 1: count them every single time I go up or down them.

1049
00:59:29,520 --> 00:59:31,680
Speaker 1: There are fourteen steps, and I can count them one

1050
00:59:31,720 --> 00:59:34,360
Speaker 1: by one or I can count them by twos. I

1051
00:59:34,400 --> 00:59:37,560
Speaker 1: have never not counted them when I am terrified of

1052
00:59:37,600 --> 00:59:39,960
Speaker 1: what I would even think if I didn't count them

1053
00:59:40,000 --> 00:59:43,800
Speaker 1: one day. So anyways, we are the same. I love

1054
00:59:43,840 --> 00:59:47,880
Speaker 1: you so much. Also, thank you for the protein bar recommendations.

1055
00:59:48,000 --> 00:59:50,280
Speaker 1: Got them twenty four hours later and they are bomb

1056
00:59:50,480 --> 00:59:54,919
Speaker 1: so good. Love you guys. Oh, thank you Justine. And

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00:59:55,280 --> 00:59:58,360
Speaker 1: that's interesting the counting the stairs, because you're always gonna

1058
00:59:58,400 --> 01:00:03,200
Speaker 1: get the number that it is, you know, Like I

1059
01:00:03,240 --> 01:00:05,479
Speaker 1: wonder what that was developed, Like I wonder the first

1060
01:00:05,520 --> 01:00:07,440
Speaker 1: time she did that, being like I wonder how many stairs?

1061
01:00:07,480 --> 01:00:12,600
Speaker 1: And then it was like if you don't do that tomorrow, Yeah, yeah,

1062
01:00:12,600 --> 01:00:15,200
Speaker 1: why those stairs too? Like I think about that, like

1063
01:00:15,240 --> 01:00:18,000
Speaker 1: why is it? I'm sure there's a psychologist I can

1064
01:00:18,000 --> 01:00:19,760
Speaker 1: answer to this, but like, is you're scared going up

1065
01:00:19,800 --> 01:00:21,479
Speaker 1: the stairs? Because whenever I would runt up the stairs

1066
01:00:21,480 --> 01:00:25,080
Speaker 1: in the basement, I'd be like, who's like and maybe

1067
01:00:25,080 --> 01:00:26,480
Speaker 1: like that has something to do with it, Like it's

1068
01:00:26,480 --> 01:00:29,240
Speaker 1: gonna get you if you don't count them. Um. I

1069
01:00:29,280 --> 01:00:32,400
Speaker 1: love these. I love people writing with their superstitions. That

1070
01:00:32,400 --> 01:00:34,600
Speaker 1: that pennything reminded me of a Schumer joke that I

1071
01:00:34,640 --> 01:00:36,200
Speaker 1: used to love. And she was like, you know, I

1072
01:00:36,240 --> 01:00:41,120
Speaker 1: was teased by anti Semitics in um in school that

1073
01:00:41,120 --> 01:00:43,520
Speaker 1: would be like for being Jewish, they would like throw

1074
01:00:43,640 --> 01:00:47,840
Speaker 1: pennies at me. And I was just like, this is awesome.

1075
01:00:47,960 --> 01:00:50,080
Speaker 1: Oh my god. She's just like like picking up up

1076
01:00:50,080 --> 01:00:54,080
Speaker 1: being like yes, just her. The turnaround on that joke,

1077
01:00:54,120 --> 01:00:55,800
Speaker 1: I think she did it on her first half hour

1078
01:00:55,960 --> 01:00:59,040
Speaker 1: is just that's brilliant comedic timing of like she kind

1079
01:00:59,040 --> 01:01:02,440
Speaker 1: of looks like said, She's like, this is all like that.

1080
01:01:03,360 --> 01:01:06,760
Speaker 1: So I always loved that joke so much making a quarter.

1081
01:01:07,800 --> 01:01:11,560
Speaker 1: Do you any superstitions, Andrew, I threw pennies at all

1082
01:01:11,600 --> 01:01:15,280
Speaker 1: my Jewish friends? Uh no, I um, I'm trying to

1083
01:01:15,360 --> 01:01:19,960
Speaker 1: think if I have any superstitions. Nothing that I remember.

1084
01:01:20,000 --> 01:01:22,920
Speaker 1: I used to listen to like the same song before

1085
01:01:23,000 --> 01:01:26,920
Speaker 1: football games and it wasn't even a pumped up song.

1086
01:01:29,920 --> 01:01:35,320
Speaker 1: I dreamed a dream of time Gonden Bar He'll throw

1087
01:01:35,400 --> 01:01:39,800
Speaker 1: me a pass in the end zone. Uh yeah, that

1088
01:01:39,840 --> 01:01:42,919
Speaker 1: makes sense. It was The River by Garth Brooks, which

1089
01:01:43,000 --> 01:01:45,640
Speaker 1: is like I think about love, like you know your

1090
01:01:45,720 --> 01:01:48,800
Speaker 1: dream is just a river, have a change in as

1091
01:01:48,840 --> 01:01:51,800
Speaker 1: it flows, and a dream is just a vessel and

1092
01:01:51,920 --> 01:01:55,640
Speaker 1: his body and must go. I don't know that song,

1093
01:01:55,720 --> 01:01:59,640
Speaker 1: but um now I don't want to know. You shouldn't

1094
01:02:02,360 --> 01:02:05,920
Speaker 1: listen that that we we've That reminded me of one

1095
01:02:05,920 --> 01:02:13,440
Speaker 1: of my favorite bridges of a hit Bros. Barny. All right,

1096
01:02:13,520 --> 01:02:17,960
Speaker 1: let's get to the written fran tax All right, this

1097
01:02:18,120 --> 01:02:24,760
Speaker 1: is a life hack on behalf of at Aaron Ragels Oven.

1098
01:02:24,840 --> 01:02:26,800
Speaker 1: Keep the life hack. When I put a pizza in

1099
01:02:26,800 --> 01:02:29,000
Speaker 1: the oven, I saved the box and flatten it out

1100
01:02:29,160 --> 01:02:31,320
Speaker 1: to use that to get the pizza off the rack.

1101
01:02:31,840 --> 01:02:34,280
Speaker 1: You know it is going to be the exact right

1102
01:02:34,320 --> 01:02:36,560
Speaker 1: size and you don't have to worry about any dishes.

1103
01:02:37,600 --> 01:02:42,920
Speaker 1: Ah Um, I got to ask Aaron does the pizza

1104
01:02:42,960 --> 01:02:45,200
Speaker 1: box burn? I said the standard the other night because

1105
01:02:45,240 --> 01:02:47,080
Speaker 1: I think I saw. I don't think you listened to

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01:02:47,120 --> 01:02:50,120
Speaker 1: it right though he didn't cook it with the box

1107
01:02:50,160 --> 01:02:52,440
Speaker 1: in there. He uses the box to just take the

1108
01:02:52,480 --> 01:02:56,320
Speaker 1: pizza out. But how do you but you would have

1109
01:02:56,440 --> 01:02:59,960
Speaker 1: even you had a plate too, you know what I mean? Yeah, hell,

1110
01:03:00,120 --> 01:03:05,000
Speaker 1: flo you had, I wouldn't have saved your problem. It

1111
01:03:05,120 --> 01:03:08,400
Speaker 1: could have because I would have got the whole circumference

1112
01:03:08,440 --> 01:03:12,320
Speaker 1: of the pizza at the same time, as opposed to

1113
01:03:13,440 --> 01:03:15,320
Speaker 1: you want to mean to cook the pizza with the

1114
01:03:15,400 --> 01:03:17,080
Speaker 1: box in there, and I was afraid I was going

1115
01:03:17,120 --> 01:03:19,200
Speaker 1: to burn the house on fire. Someone actually sent that

1116
01:03:19,200 --> 01:03:21,640
Speaker 1: suggestion to and I don't, I don't think it. I

1117
01:03:21,720 --> 01:03:24,440
Speaker 1: still I still maintained that the box would not be

1118
01:03:24,520 --> 01:03:28,800
Speaker 1: burnt and that it would be okay. Um, all right,

1119
01:03:29,280 --> 01:03:32,919
Speaker 1: do we have anything else before we get to final thought? Yes,

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01:03:33,440 --> 01:03:38,880
Speaker 1: let's get to marry a voicemail from Mary. I think

1121
01:03:38,920 --> 01:03:41,920
Speaker 1: it's very fitting him, Nicki, Andrew and no uh Um.

1122
01:03:42,120 --> 01:03:46,600
Speaker 1: I just wanted to send this message to mainly to Nikki,

1123
01:03:46,760 --> 01:03:49,920
Speaker 1: but I've been listening, you know, for the whole podcast.

1124
01:03:49,960 --> 01:03:53,760
Speaker 1: I've listened to every episode. Thank you. I just wanted

1125
01:03:53,800 --> 01:03:57,400
Speaker 1: to say, you know, I know, Nikki you've been having

1126
01:03:57,400 --> 01:04:00,160
Speaker 1: a little bit of a hard time right now, and

1127
01:04:00,560 --> 01:04:03,640
Speaker 1: I just wanted to say how proud I am of

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01:04:03,760 --> 01:04:08,560
Speaker 1: you for just allowing yourself to have a bad time.

1129
01:04:08,720 --> 01:04:13,000
Speaker 1: And more particularly, I just remember, you know, more towards

1130
01:04:13,000 --> 01:04:15,880
Speaker 1: the beginning, when you guys were first starting the podcast,

1131
01:04:15,960 --> 01:04:18,720
Speaker 1: that you said like you had a really hard time

1132
01:04:18,760 --> 01:04:21,160
Speaker 1: being able to cry and being able to you know,

1133
01:04:21,240 --> 01:04:24,840
Speaker 1: be outwardly expressive with emotions like that, and that you

1134
01:04:24,880 --> 01:04:27,640
Speaker 1: would need to call a friend to to give yourself

1135
01:04:27,680 --> 01:04:29,640
Speaker 1: provision to cry. And like, here you are on the

1136
01:04:29,680 --> 01:04:32,960
Speaker 1: pod just like crying whenever. And I, you know, I know,

1137
01:04:33,040 --> 01:04:35,040
Speaker 1: maybe you don't mean it. I don't know if you're

1138
01:04:35,080 --> 01:04:38,160
Speaker 1: necessarily feel amazing about it, but I just I think

1139
01:04:38,200 --> 01:04:40,520
Speaker 1: it's awesome and I think it's just shows like a

1140
01:04:40,520 --> 01:04:43,840
Speaker 1: lot of growth. And UM, I love you guys, and

1141
01:04:43,880 --> 01:04:46,520
Speaker 1: I'm really just like proud of you and I look

1142
01:04:46,600 --> 01:04:49,720
Speaker 1: up to you all a lot. Um And yeah, thanks,

1143
01:04:50,680 --> 01:04:55,440
Speaker 1: Oh my god, what was her name? Mary? Mary? Mary?

1144
01:04:55,440 --> 01:04:58,760
Speaker 1: Thank you so much for that. Like, and how funny

1145
01:04:58,840 --> 01:05:06,760
Speaker 1: that I cried today on the show? Uh old cry baby, Nicky. Um. Honestly,

1146
01:05:06,880 --> 01:05:11,360
Speaker 1: like Mary and um, Justine and Aaron, you're all like

1147
01:05:11,560 --> 01:05:14,880
Speaker 1: the reason that, Um, I was able to wake up

1148
01:05:14,920 --> 01:05:17,520
Speaker 1: this morning and not be as sad as I was

1149
01:05:18,040 --> 01:05:19,600
Speaker 1: kind of right before I went to bed last night,

1150
01:05:19,600 --> 01:05:23,200
Speaker 1: because I was just focusing on people that you know,

1151
01:05:23,240 --> 01:05:25,480
Speaker 1: I don't even know personally who are proud of me

1152
01:05:25,600 --> 01:05:30,400
Speaker 1: like that feels so good, and like I feel part

1153
01:05:30,440 --> 01:05:32,720
Speaker 1: of me feels like undeserving, like oh my god, I

1154
01:05:32,720 --> 01:05:35,200
Speaker 1: can't believe they even have to waste their thoughts on me,

1155
01:05:35,360 --> 01:05:38,160
Speaker 1: or like be worried about me in any way, or

1156
01:05:38,200 --> 01:05:40,680
Speaker 1: like like there's a part of me that feels like

1157
01:05:40,680 --> 01:05:42,960
Speaker 1: guilty that I've ever even had to make you feel like,

1158
01:05:44,320 --> 01:05:46,760
Speaker 1: you know, give you a a need to be proud

1159
01:05:46,800 --> 01:05:50,200
Speaker 1: of me. But um, honestly, it's like just so touching

1160
01:05:50,400 --> 01:05:54,080
Speaker 1: and like I feel that way about people I don't

1161
01:05:54,080 --> 01:05:57,760
Speaker 1: know that I feel really close to whose art uh

1162
01:05:57,840 --> 01:06:02,040
Speaker 1: you know is with me daily, so I really relate

1163
01:06:02,080 --> 01:06:05,840
Speaker 1: to that feeling. And I'm so freaking grateful for all

1164
01:06:05,880 --> 01:06:08,280
Speaker 1: of you. And it's like it's just a nice way

1165
01:06:08,320 --> 01:06:13,360
Speaker 1: to kind of and the show hearing that because uh,

1166
01:06:13,400 --> 01:06:15,920
Speaker 1: you know, last night was like really really rough, and

1167
01:06:15,960 --> 01:06:21,360
Speaker 1: I just I'm not trying to like garner sympathy, but um,

1168
01:06:21,480 --> 01:06:26,040
Speaker 1: you know, I was talking to someone yesterday about like

1169
01:06:26,400 --> 01:06:29,600
Speaker 1: describing myself as famous and like how that doesn't sound

1170
01:06:29,680 --> 01:06:32,080
Speaker 1: really good sometimes when I go like, well I'm famous,

1171
01:06:32,120 --> 01:06:37,040
Speaker 1: so like I and and I and I and I

1172
01:06:37,080 --> 01:06:39,640
Speaker 1: wanted to make that person understand like I'm not saying

1173
01:06:39,680 --> 01:06:42,640
Speaker 1: that you know, sometimes I do say that of like listen,

1174
01:06:42,680 --> 01:06:44,280
Speaker 1: I'm famous, I can get us, I can get us

1175
01:06:44,280 --> 01:06:45,720
Speaker 1: those things, like you don't need to pay for that.

1176
01:06:45,800 --> 01:06:48,360
Speaker 1: Like maybe I can toss the fact that I'm famous

1177
01:06:48,360 --> 01:06:50,120
Speaker 1: and maybe they'll care and they'll give us this thing.

1178
01:06:50,200 --> 01:06:52,640
Speaker 1: Like I understand, like how dumb that is, and like

1179
01:06:52,680 --> 01:06:54,960
Speaker 1: sometimes you get to use it and get things for

1180
01:06:55,040 --> 01:06:57,480
Speaker 1: yourself and your friends because people care about celebrity and

1181
01:06:57,480 --> 01:07:00,200
Speaker 1: that has some kind of currency in society, whether it's

1182
01:07:00,400 --> 01:07:05,680
Speaker 1: justified or not. Final thought, I I bring up the

1183
01:07:05,720 --> 01:07:08,800
Speaker 1: fact that I'm sometimes I feel like famous or like

1184
01:07:08,880 --> 01:07:10,960
Speaker 1: whatever that means. I know there's people that are so

1185
01:07:11,040 --> 01:07:13,280
Speaker 1: much more famous than me. Please do not get it

1186
01:07:13,400 --> 01:07:16,080
Speaker 1: misconstrued and use this against me. Of Nikki saying she's

1187
01:07:16,120 --> 01:07:20,080
Speaker 1: famous and as a narcissist, yes, I have narcissistic tendencies

1188
01:07:20,120 --> 01:07:23,720
Speaker 1: like we all do. Please please, please don't misunderstand me,

1189
01:07:23,760 --> 01:07:25,560
Speaker 1: and saying when I tell you that I've had said

1190
01:07:25,600 --> 01:07:29,000
Speaker 1: that before the words I'm famous. I'm only saying that

1191
01:07:29,040 --> 01:07:32,040
Speaker 1: to you because I'm struggling with it a lot, because

1192
01:07:32,400 --> 01:07:34,240
Speaker 1: what it was like to be in the public eye

1193
01:07:34,240 --> 01:07:38,720
Speaker 1: in the nineties or before Twitter, before Reddit, before message boards,

1194
01:07:38,720 --> 01:07:42,240
Speaker 1: before strangers being able to comment on everything, Like the

1195
01:07:42,320 --> 01:07:44,600
Speaker 1: hate you got was in the National Enquirer and like

1196
01:07:44,680 --> 01:07:47,560
Speaker 1: that was painful, and you know it was it was

1197
01:07:47,640 --> 01:07:50,680
Speaker 1: your mom saying, listen, I talked to some girls at

1198
01:07:50,680 --> 01:07:53,040
Speaker 1: the salon and they were going off about you because

1199
01:07:53,040 --> 01:07:55,240
Speaker 1: they saw you in People magazine. It was like, that's

1200
01:07:55,320 --> 01:07:58,480
Speaker 1: the that's the feedback you got of people not liking you.

1201
01:07:58,560 --> 01:08:00,520
Speaker 1: It was you watching the Tonight Show hearing a joke

1202
01:08:00,560 --> 01:08:02,600
Speaker 1: about you, which you know, I'm not even at that

1203
01:08:02,680 --> 01:08:05,600
Speaker 1: level of fame where I'm you know, a household name

1204
01:08:05,680 --> 01:08:08,120
Speaker 1: enough that Jay Leno in the nineties would have referenced me,

1205
01:08:08,200 --> 01:08:11,720
Speaker 1: so I would have I would have. You know, social

1206
01:08:11,720 --> 01:08:15,800
Speaker 1: media has given me the opportunity to become as well

1207
01:08:15,840 --> 01:08:19,320
Speaker 1: known in quotes as you would say that I am.

1208
01:08:19,360 --> 01:08:23,519
Speaker 1: So I'm grateful for it. But I set out to

1209
01:08:23,640 --> 01:08:26,840
Speaker 1: become quote unquote famous and wanted that attention as a

1210
01:08:26,880 --> 01:08:28,599
Speaker 1: kid because I always want to be popular. I always

1211
01:08:28,800 --> 01:08:30,800
Speaker 1: felt unseen. I wanted people to love me because I

1212
01:08:30,840 --> 01:08:32,920
Speaker 1: didn't feel loved enough. All of those things led me

1213
01:08:32,920 --> 01:08:37,200
Speaker 1: to this. But like I did not sign up to

1214
01:08:37,479 --> 01:08:44,040
Speaker 1: have people right page or fifteen hundred letter or word.

1215
01:08:45,120 --> 01:08:49,240
Speaker 1: Uh diagnoses of my mental state and um diet tribes

1216
01:08:49,280 --> 01:08:53,080
Speaker 1: about why I'm a bad person and a sociopath and

1217
01:08:53,200 --> 01:08:56,519
Speaker 1: how someone needs to intervene and how Nikki, if you're

1218
01:08:56,560 --> 01:08:59,760
Speaker 1: reading this, I'm really sorry, but it's just true. And

1219
01:09:00,000 --> 01:09:01,439
Speaker 1: know when in your circle is going to tell you

1220
01:09:01,439 --> 01:09:04,240
Speaker 1: because you surround yourself with yes people, and but it's

1221
01:09:04,320 --> 01:09:07,960
Speaker 1: the I. I didn't sign up for that, And you

1222
01:09:08,000 --> 01:09:10,000
Speaker 1: can say, yes, you did. You know what you were

1223
01:09:10,000 --> 01:09:12,919
Speaker 1: getting into. You chose this life when my Space was around.

1224
01:09:13,280 --> 01:09:17,040
Speaker 1: You've You've engaged with people on Instagram, you started a

1225
01:09:17,080 --> 01:09:20,720
Speaker 1: podcast in which you asked for people to like you,

1226
01:09:20,800 --> 01:09:22,680
Speaker 1: and when you that's what you sign up for, we

1227
01:09:22,760 --> 01:09:24,840
Speaker 1: get to ridicule you. But I would venture to say

1228
01:09:24,920 --> 01:09:30,439
Speaker 1: that I haven't murdered anyone yet. I haven't, Like I'm

1229
01:09:30,479 --> 01:09:34,360
Speaker 1: not I'm really promise you, I'm not trying to hurt anyone,

1230
01:09:34,520 --> 01:09:37,679
Speaker 1: and I'm only trying to. Like my motive in being

1231
01:09:37,880 --> 01:09:40,439
Speaker 1: a celebrity now is just to bring happiness and to

1232
01:09:40,560 --> 01:09:43,240
Speaker 1: promote and to make myself feel good and to make

1233
01:09:43,240 --> 01:09:46,639
Speaker 1: others feel good and and and making myself feel good,

1234
01:09:46,680 --> 01:09:50,760
Speaker 1: not from like hurting anyone. And sometimes I do get that,

1235
01:09:50,800 --> 01:09:53,519
Speaker 1: like Surge of like feeling good because I make fun

1236
01:09:53,520 --> 01:09:56,960
Speaker 1: of Michelle William's voice or whatever, like, and that's an

1237
01:09:57,040 --> 01:10:00,559
Speaker 1: ugly part of myself and my ego is hurt when

1238
01:10:00,600 --> 01:10:02,160
Speaker 1: she made fun of me backstage of the view and

1239
01:10:02,479 --> 01:10:06,519
Speaker 1: on camera, and so yeah, I'm lashing out bad character defect.

1240
01:10:06,600 --> 01:10:09,200
Speaker 1: There you go. You got me use it against me someday.

1241
01:10:10,120 --> 01:10:13,479
Speaker 1: Uh you know whatever your name is on Reddit that

1242
01:10:13,520 --> 01:10:16,680
Speaker 1: I don't remember, but I didn't sign up for this,

1243
01:10:17,280 --> 01:10:22,320
Speaker 1: and I'm really struggling with becoming more well known because

1244
01:10:22,360 --> 01:10:27,200
Speaker 1: I don't like it. It's seemingly overnight my subreddit went

1245
01:10:27,280 --> 01:10:30,519
Speaker 1: from people just posting pictures of my legs and saying

1246
01:10:30,520 --> 01:10:33,880
Speaker 1: like legs for days and like my smiling being like

1247
01:10:33,960 --> 01:10:39,800
Speaker 1: I love when she's happy two two hundreds of comments

1248
01:10:39,840 --> 01:10:43,599
Speaker 1: about why I'm a bad person and why I don't

1249
01:10:43,680 --> 01:10:47,120
Speaker 1: deserve anything I got, and how I'm delusional and like,

1250
01:10:47,520 --> 01:10:50,879
Speaker 1: just like the cruelest things I've ever thought about myself

1251
01:10:51,760 --> 01:10:54,880
Speaker 1: have been written at length, and I'm you know, I

1252
01:10:54,920 --> 01:10:57,080
Speaker 1: don't want to send anyone to go read it because

1253
01:10:57,120 --> 01:11:00,439
Speaker 1: I really don't even like you'll get those in your

1254
01:11:00,439 --> 01:11:04,120
Speaker 1: head and start maybe judging me based on those people's observations.

1255
01:11:04,120 --> 01:11:06,960
Speaker 1: So I'm really, like, I really beg of you not

1256
01:11:07,040 --> 01:11:08,920
Speaker 1: to go read them if you love me, because it's

1257
01:11:08,960 --> 01:11:11,479
Speaker 1: just and Andrew. This is to you too, even though

1258
01:11:11,520 --> 01:11:26,679
Speaker 1: you've may be probably seen them. Dude, that was the best.

1259
01:11:27,640 --> 01:11:32,519
Speaker 1: That was the fucking best, Like that's why we love you.

1260
01:11:32,720 --> 01:11:37,160
Speaker 1: I mean, that was fucking great. But I just I

1261
01:11:38,320 --> 01:11:40,880
Speaker 1: don't know that I want this to be honest with you, guys,

1262
01:11:41,080 --> 01:11:44,280
Speaker 1: I'm really having a hard time. Like last night was

1263
01:11:44,600 --> 01:11:46,920
Speaker 1: one of the worst nights of my life. I heard

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Speaker 1: you awake. I mean, we could talk about it all fair,

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Speaker 1: but I heard. I mean, it was what happened. It

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Speaker 1: wasn't like it wasn't just like you know, oh she

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01:11:56,640 --> 01:12:01,240
Speaker 1: thinks she's cool or she doesn't looks tired or like,

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Speaker 1: you know, some of the comments that I like actively

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Speaker 1: unsubscribed from that thing to just not see about my looks,

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Speaker 1: like those were always my biggest fears, And it turns

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Speaker 1: out my biggest fears aren't people commenting on my looks.

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Speaker 1: It's like them thinking that I am a sociopath and

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Speaker 1: a narcissist and abusive and uh you know, a drug

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Speaker 1: addict and uh overly medicated under medical whatever. It is

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Speaker 1: like that's my biggest fear. So, like, I just I

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Speaker 1: hope that if anyone's listening that has written those things,

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Speaker 1: like I'm not asking for your your empathy, because I'm

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01:12:38,600 --> 01:12:40,760
Speaker 1: you know, like I've gotten so many things from being

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Speaker 1: in the public life, in the line light in terms

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Speaker 1: of like I'm gonna make this quick, I've got there.

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Speaker 1: I get so much from being quote unquote like a

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Speaker 1: little bit famous. But this other side is enough to

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01:12:53,600 --> 01:12:56,040
Speaker 1: make me want to just like step away and like

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Speaker 1: maybe just invest in like real estate now with my money,

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Speaker 1: Like I if I got I gotta come up with

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Speaker 1: a plan to avoid it because and I thought, I did,

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Speaker 1: you know, And it was the it's so it was

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Speaker 1: the worst nine of my of my life reading those things,

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Speaker 1: And I like wish I could like eternal. If I

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Speaker 1: could go eternal sunshine, I would do anything like the

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01:13:16,720 --> 01:13:20,280
Speaker 1: way I felt last night. I was just like I had,

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01:13:20,320 --> 01:13:23,880
Speaker 1: you know, if it felt like that eight year old

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Speaker 1: staring at the blinking BCR all over again of like

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Speaker 1: oh no, I'm gonna have to, Like I just I

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Speaker 1: can't live with with being the person that these people

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Speaker 1: think that I am and not just a couple of

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Speaker 1: people hundreds of people and uh, and then there was

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Speaker 1: another subreddit that's a little thing that said we need

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Speaker 1: to protect Nikki at all costs, and I was talking

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Speaker 1: about those thoughts and I really appreciated that subreddit and

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Speaker 1: and I don't I don't need everyone to be a

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Speaker 1: vigilante for my like protection. I'm not asking for that.

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Speaker 1: I'm just and this is just to everyone in your life,

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01:13:59,600 --> 01:14:01,760
Speaker 1: like let's all just be a little bit kinder to

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01:14:01,760 --> 01:14:03,840
Speaker 1: each other. And in me too, like it made me

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01:14:03,880 --> 01:14:05,639
Speaker 1: look at myself, like I just don't want to put

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Speaker 1: anything like this out there that would ever make someone

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Speaker 1: feel even a fraction of the way I feel. And

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Speaker 1: so like in that, like I am really like moving forward,

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Speaker 1: I like, especially with you, Andrew, like only want to

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Speaker 1: make you feel good and like be positive in your

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Speaker 1: life and like give you reason to love yourself as

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Speaker 1: much as I truly love you. And like I I'm

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Speaker 1: really like sorry for ever making you feel the way

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Speaker 1: like I felt last night, because I really like I

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Speaker 1: got a taste in my own medicine and like odeed

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Speaker 1: on it last night. So I just want to apologize

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Speaker 1: to you and again apologize the fans for book ending

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Speaker 1: the show with tears and it's so awkward and I

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Speaker 1: don't like this at all, but um, thank you for listening.

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Speaker 1: Have a great weekend and a great Tuesday night, and

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Speaker 1: and Andrew, disable your accounts. I really like it. Did

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Speaker 1: not feel good last night, and um, don't be out there,

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Speaker 1: and uh, yeah, I have a great weekend. And uh

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Speaker 1: did Jack Jack many h