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Speaker 1: And Martinez in Real Life podcast. What's your middle name? Gerard,

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Speaker 1: Michael Girard, Michael, are we rolling? Yes? I mean Michael

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Speaker 1: Girard Tyson trouble. I never want you to feel like that. Wait,

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Speaker 1: hold on, man, I need my crool. I need everybody

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Speaker 1: in the room to it up. This is like, yeah,

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Speaker 1: for you, we love you. You know people love you, Mike.

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Speaker 1: What's the definition of love? Um, let me think about that. Well,

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Speaker 1: there's many definitions of love. The way I use it

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Speaker 1: for you is that anytime I tell people that I'm

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Speaker 1: gonna do this thing with Michael, I'm coming to Mike's podcast,

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Speaker 1: people are fascinated with you and want to meet you

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Speaker 1: and want to be around you, and um, people get

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Speaker 1: excited when you're around. Yeah, I understand that's pretty interestingly

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Speaker 1: thinking like that. In order for me to have that,

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Speaker 1: I don't even know what, but that, I have to

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Speaker 1: be truly flawed personally, too flawed and because we're all flawed. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: but you are honest about you. You are naked about

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Speaker 1: your flaws. You like you let everybody see them seemingly freely.

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Speaker 1: Like you seem to be very free about your whole story.

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Speaker 1: No matter what I used to think we as people

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Speaker 1: human beings are more transparent and we know of really yeah,

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Speaker 1: even when we don't think we are being Yeah, well,

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Speaker 1: just studying life, not even as a pupil, just what

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Speaker 1: goes on around you. You know what, how there's certain

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Speaker 1: kind of people. You know, they're fake, straight people. There's

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Speaker 1: people that bullish it. There's people that's quiet. You just

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Speaker 1: noticed that certain kind of people and you we just

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Speaker 1: read it from that perspective. You're really good at reading

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Speaker 1: people are well. Of course that's what I did for

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Speaker 1: a living. What do you mean, not fighting exactly? Yeah,

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Speaker 1: if you don't even have to be a fight, he

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Speaker 1: could be a two pound lower lawyer. Nice stuff. Sizing

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Speaker 1: you up, looking at you, watching the way you talk, listening,

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Speaker 1: looking for your weaknesses and flaws. You have to break

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Speaker 1: that down for me. I need to understand look everything,

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Speaker 1: Look at how we enact with his children, his wife,

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Speaker 1: his woman, with his weakness. In that perspective, maybe I'll

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Speaker 1: talk about them in the press conference and they get mad. Uh,

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Speaker 1: what is the definition of love to you? Love to me?

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Speaker 1: And um having the worst person in the world. It's

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Speaker 1: the worst person in the total world. And they that

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Speaker 1: that purpose in the world is to hurt people and

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Speaker 1: I of them regardless. That's love. I just love people

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Speaker 1: through well. And I'm not saying everybody. I means saying

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Speaker 1: that person who I love. There's nothing they can do

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Speaker 1: to be wrong, unconditional of No, I don't know what

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Speaker 1: unconditional of. It's just nothing. In my opposite, there's nothing

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Speaker 1: another husband, another boyfriend, they're not wrong. I love them really. Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Love is so much bigger than me. Who who might

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Speaker 1: have think I can control it? I have never heard

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Speaker 1: it explain that way. You don't. That's my way of love,

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Speaker 1: and they're here. It explain a different way from my wife.

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Speaker 1: How do you implement that in real life? Like how

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Speaker 1: does that affect your real life, like your relationship with

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Speaker 1: your wife or your kids, or like the people you love?

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Speaker 1: So you just love them through whatever, whatever. There's no rules,

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Speaker 1: there's no boundaries, have eight everything whatever? Yeah, whatever, do

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Speaker 1: you have a boundary? Do you have a limit from

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Speaker 1: your love? It's a limit. My love is my loyalty

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Speaker 1: is just from this perspective, and once that perspective is

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Speaker 1: I don't know. I think there's two types of love.

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Speaker 1: I think there's love like that you feel, and then

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Speaker 1: this love as an action like action is like showing love.

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Speaker 1: Loving somebody, loving on somebody is different. So if somebody

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Speaker 1: healthy for me, I may disconnect from that love from everybody.

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Speaker 1: From my perspective of it, love is the most, the slowest,

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Speaker 1: and the most direct form of suicide. Oh my god,

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Speaker 1: do you feel that when you love? Sometimes I'm just

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Speaker 1: I don't know I felt like that. But maybe a

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Speaker 1: version of that you see one day is having years

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Speaker 1: You know, it's the vulnerable you become vone. You know.

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Speaker 1: I don't have to tell you had your heart broken before.

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Speaker 1: Of course it's the worst. Then you feel in a

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Speaker 1: form of death. Love is the form of death, you know.

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Speaker 1: Sometimes check this out. When you're so in love with somebody,

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Speaker 1: of days. Loved the form of dying. You might even

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Speaker 1: those stories. Of course, that's so funny because if I

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Speaker 1: I was like, why didn't nobody tell me how awful

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Speaker 1: You survived it. Not many people survive it. It's so

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Speaker 1: powerful they have to take themselves out. And love gives

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Speaker 1: you a lot of balls to never underestimated. Pussy what boyfriend?

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Speaker 1: You know? What? Right? Don't do that. I won't say

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Speaker 1: you can't prepare anybody, but I do. Like for my kids,

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Speaker 1: I tell my kids, um, one of the most important

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Speaker 1: decisions you make in your life are the people that

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Speaker 1: you choose to love. Your friends, the relationships. Hey, then

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Speaker 1: your kids don't got power over that. They don't, but

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Speaker 1: it's it's good to be at least be mindful of it.

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Speaker 1: You cannot power over that. What do you mean? You

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Speaker 1: can't choose to like hit you and if you don't

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Speaker 1: if you are not mindful, and you are, you subject

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Speaker 1: yourself to love, because sometimes love happens because you put

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Speaker 1: yourself in situations to fall in love with a certain

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Speaker 1: type of person that may not be healthy for you.

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Speaker 1: That's your excuse for not acknowledging love it bigger than you. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I don't know. Now who do we think we are

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Speaker 1: don't know. How did you work out with that? I

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Speaker 1: feel I felt told what do you mean you felt?

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Speaker 1: You did amazing. It's one of the things that I'm

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Speaker 1: most fascinated about you, how you've managed to relate your

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Speaker 1: and I heard people so bad being selfish. All right.

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Speaker 1: You know what's funny that you say that that's the

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Speaker 1: doing to myself. Yeah, but you have regret and hurting

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Speaker 1: my perspective. So many other people are affected by it. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: what's it getting doing it? Like? I find it fascinating

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Speaker 1: that you, because your self say I have I've done

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Speaker 1: this wrong. But you've you've been married how long? Thirteen years?

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Speaker 1: just not I don't think what people would expect. I

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Speaker 1: Why what does it satisfying? I don't know. I like

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Speaker 1: like a seeker of truth. I'm always seeking the truth

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Speaker 1: I don't think one person's blueprint could be my bluepriend

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Speaker 1: it done before you want your relationship? Oh? Yes, Manifested,

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Speaker 1: it's a fucking great question, Mike. I don't know. No,

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Speaker 1: deal with rage all the time. Or if it's not

424
00:25:09,720 --> 00:25:11,840
Speaker 1: you don't rage, you in a relationship with somebody who

425
00:25:11,920 --> 00:25:15,680
Speaker 1: got rage and people die from that. Yeah, we forgot

426
00:25:15,760 --> 00:25:20,800
Speaker 1: to say that that's would make rage rage because people die.

427
00:25:21,640 --> 00:25:23,600
Speaker 1: People suralive it, but most a lot of people die

428
00:25:23,600 --> 00:25:27,639
Speaker 1: from rage. Household do you mean no? Other people's might

429
00:25:27,680 --> 00:25:31,639
Speaker 1: cut you off and say, right, you don't know what

430
00:25:31,720 --> 00:25:35,119
Speaker 1: this day was like, Yeah, that's just what it is.

431
00:25:36,560 --> 00:25:39,080
Speaker 1: Some people get me, motherfucker. They don't know there's people

432
00:25:39,080 --> 00:25:42,800
Speaker 1: out there more angry than they are, and they don't

433
00:25:42,800 --> 00:25:45,080
Speaker 1: want to have an encounter with them. That's just what

434
00:25:45,160 --> 00:25:48,760
Speaker 1: it is. That's the world I live in, Mike. How

435
00:25:48,840 --> 00:25:52,399
Speaker 1: do you manage that rage? Like? What has been the

436
00:25:52,520 --> 00:25:55,320
Speaker 1: best thing? My wife always say when I go out,

437
00:25:55,400 --> 00:25:59,560
Speaker 1: be nice, be nice. It'd be nice. It'd be nice. Yeah,

438
00:25:59,560 --> 00:26:02,320
Speaker 1: but that's unless you being nice. But if you still

439
00:26:02,359 --> 00:26:04,879
Speaker 1: have a rage inside, but then that's my problem to

440
00:26:04,920 --> 00:26:07,600
Speaker 1: deal with it. I have to be disciplined and keep

441
00:26:07,680 --> 00:26:10,280
Speaker 1: it in control. How do you do that because I'm

442
00:26:10,320 --> 00:26:14,600
Speaker 1: sure there's discipline and those areas far as my brain

443
00:26:14,680 --> 00:26:18,399
Speaker 1: and control of my rage and to my manifesting and

444
00:26:18,520 --> 00:26:25,720
Speaker 1: my meditation. Like fourteen man, I got away from that

445
00:26:25,760 --> 00:26:28,240
Speaker 1: stuff after I got really a big fight and got

446
00:26:28,320 --> 00:26:32,120
Speaker 1: became celebrity, and then you know, my mind started thinking differently.

447
00:26:32,160 --> 00:26:36,480
Speaker 1: It's about pleasure m hm. But you went back to it, right,

448
00:26:37,119 --> 00:26:41,320
Speaker 1: like meditation? Absolutely? Yeah, I see. I started getting involved

449
00:26:41,320 --> 00:26:44,919
Speaker 1: with plant medicine and animal medicine, and I think that

450
00:26:45,000 --> 00:26:49,840
Speaker 1: pretty much killed money and my affinity for cocaine or

451
00:26:49,880 --> 00:26:54,280
Speaker 1: liquor anything like that. That's a big thing. I think

452
00:26:54,280 --> 00:26:58,480
Speaker 1: it's very big. What is the core? What is the like?

453
00:26:58,520 --> 00:27:03,400
Speaker 1: What do you blame your rage on? My insecurity? Yeah?

454
00:27:05,119 --> 00:27:08,800
Speaker 1: Childhood ship? Right? Isn't it crazy that we could be grown,

455
00:27:09,359 --> 00:27:12,280
Speaker 1: have had all these experiences, done all this work, do

456
00:27:12,400 --> 00:27:17,280
Speaker 1: all types of health. Yeah, they is when you your

457
00:27:17,280 --> 00:27:22,199
Speaker 1: whole life because without fetching, nobody have to reflect on

458
00:27:22,280 --> 00:27:26,200
Speaker 1: what you truly are. All of us have our mathica vanity,

459
00:27:27,320 --> 00:27:29,479
Speaker 1: and we try to prevent people to know what we

460
00:27:29,520 --> 00:27:34,880
Speaker 1: really are. Hm. We were talking. I was talking about

461
00:27:34,920 --> 00:27:37,840
Speaker 1: Kelly Roland and we were talking about are neither one?

462
00:27:37,960 --> 00:27:41,199
Speaker 1: We just both of us recently. Well, I didn't reconnect

463
00:27:41,240 --> 00:27:42,960
Speaker 1: with my father, but I found that my father was alive.

464
00:27:43,040 --> 00:27:46,560
Speaker 1: She reconnected with her father, neither one of us. Kelly Roland,

465
00:27:46,840 --> 00:27:49,760
Speaker 1: you know Kelly Rowland Destiny Child. Yeah, you know Kelly.

466
00:27:50,000 --> 00:27:51,560
Speaker 1: So we were talking about this and she was and

467
00:27:51,560 --> 00:27:54,520
Speaker 1: we were talking about the results of not having a

468
00:27:54,560 --> 00:27:58,119
Speaker 1: father in your life. Whoa for women and what that

469
00:27:58,280 --> 00:28:01,120
Speaker 1: is for you. I'm sure that a whole other thing.

470
00:28:01,160 --> 00:28:08,120
Speaker 1: To listen my parents, Um, I don't know. It would

471
00:28:08,119 --> 00:28:10,960
Speaker 1: have been interesting with my parents alife when I was

472
00:28:11,600 --> 00:28:15,719
Speaker 1: very successful. You know, my parents were alcohol like, they

473
00:28:15,760 --> 00:28:19,719
Speaker 1: were sex workers. It would have been pretty interesting. You know.

474
00:28:19,840 --> 00:28:21,600
Speaker 1: They were scared of the world like that, they were

475
00:28:21,680 --> 00:28:24,280
Speaker 1: scared to get too close to that. I'm sure they

476
00:28:24,520 --> 00:28:28,639
Speaker 1: had in securities to them. I forgot it from them, Yeah, yeah, probably,

477
00:28:29,440 --> 00:28:33,440
Speaker 1: but there's always like residual stuff. And then I'm like, okay, so, okay,

478
00:28:33,480 --> 00:28:35,879
Speaker 1: maybe I got trust issues because my father wasn't around.

479
00:28:35,920 --> 00:28:38,560
Speaker 1: So relationships with men are challenging and things like that.

480
00:28:38,600 --> 00:28:42,000
Speaker 1: But at some point, as an adult, can't you let

481
00:28:42,040 --> 00:28:43,880
Speaker 1: go of that stuff? Can't you do work and like

482
00:28:44,040 --> 00:28:46,680
Speaker 1: let it go? Or does you think it always stays

483
00:28:47,240 --> 00:28:49,280
Speaker 1: stay with you. Because if you get in a relationship

484
00:28:49,320 --> 00:28:51,120
Speaker 1: and said how is your life? Is the kid, have

485
00:28:51,200 --> 00:28:52,960
Speaker 1: your boyfriend or who you would ever ask you that?

486
00:28:53,520 --> 00:28:56,720
Speaker 1: Of course then you have to explain that because when

487
00:28:56,720 --> 00:28:58,720
Speaker 1: he said how was your life to get boom weight?

488
00:28:58,760 --> 00:29:03,560
Speaker 1: There you go triggered. You might lie and then one

489
00:29:03,640 --> 00:29:05,800
Speaker 1: day you really come with it. You may start telling

490
00:29:07,200 --> 00:29:09,960
Speaker 1: speaking on the issue. It never goes away. If you

491
00:29:10,000 --> 00:29:12,720
Speaker 1: don't think your childhood ever goes away. If you went away,

492
00:29:12,720 --> 00:29:15,320
Speaker 1: I would not be here talking to you. M hmm.

493
00:29:16,160 --> 00:29:19,160
Speaker 1: I mean, Um, your mind want you to get so

494
00:29:19,240 --> 00:29:22,440
Speaker 1: far away from it, and you think success is leaving

495
00:29:22,440 --> 00:29:25,800
Speaker 1: you away, leaving you further away, But success is joining

496
00:29:25,880 --> 00:29:30,000
Speaker 1: your closer. What has been your greatest success? Like, what

497
00:29:30,040 --> 00:29:34,160
Speaker 1: are you most proud of in your life? Really? Yeah,

498
00:29:34,520 --> 00:29:36,800
Speaker 1: what about that you as a dad? Or just who

499
00:29:36,800 --> 00:29:42,000
Speaker 1: they are? I think it's just there, Um, it's just

500
00:29:42,120 --> 00:29:45,040
Speaker 1: who they are. It's just who they are. I don't know,

501
00:29:46,160 --> 00:29:50,400
Speaker 1: maybe having maybe me myself being in their life, being

502
00:29:50,440 --> 00:29:55,160
Speaker 1: a present in their life, and maybe that I've never

503
00:29:55,240 --> 00:29:57,840
Speaker 1: done that before, and that's it's pretty interesting having a

504
00:29:57,840 --> 00:30:00,680
Speaker 1: relationship with your kids. Um, for a long time, I

505
00:30:00,760 --> 00:30:04,520
Speaker 1: never had a relationship with them. Oh yeah, I'm just

506
00:30:04,560 --> 00:30:07,640
Speaker 1: happy that my older older story has got married. And

507
00:30:07,680 --> 00:30:09,880
Speaker 1: I'm just happy I'm a part of the life that's

508
00:30:09,920 --> 00:30:12,640
Speaker 1: going to happen now, my next generation, my kids on

509
00:30:12,720 --> 00:30:14,920
Speaker 1: my time machine, they're going to the future. For me,

510
00:30:16,080 --> 00:30:19,959
Speaker 1: I love that this is like the elevator of life, right,

511
00:30:20,040 --> 00:30:23,240
Speaker 1: Like you become the father, then you become the grandfather

512
00:30:24,120 --> 00:30:27,440
Speaker 1: your kids more than father and grandfather, and then you

513
00:30:27,440 --> 00:30:31,320
Speaker 1: get closer to them. Yeah, and further from my grandkids. Right.

514
00:30:31,760 --> 00:30:33,640
Speaker 1: And as you get older, you get closer to your

515
00:30:33,680 --> 00:30:36,280
Speaker 1: parents than you are to your kids as you die.

516
00:30:37,200 --> 00:30:39,280
Speaker 1: Do you ever think about reconnecting with your parents or

517
00:30:39,280 --> 00:30:41,880
Speaker 1: your mom? Would what that would be? Like? What have

518
00:30:41,920 --> 00:30:45,440
Speaker 1: I'm married her? What do you mean? You know? kikiS

519
00:30:45,480 --> 00:30:50,280
Speaker 1: like my mother? Really? Yeah, how it's doing my mother?

520
00:30:50,360 --> 00:30:52,760
Speaker 1: I get the same, you know, the mean kind, be

521
00:30:52,880 --> 00:30:56,800
Speaker 1: nice to everybody, talk to people here that She's like,

522
00:30:57,000 --> 00:30:59,880
Speaker 1: um now, she's like van damn, what's the young lady mean?

523
00:31:00,520 --> 00:31:07,680
Speaker 1: Come on, she's from Brownsville. Who's that baby is from Brownsville? Yeah?

524
00:31:09,240 --> 00:31:14,320
Speaker 1: She badasses? And I had no idea she's badass, man,

525
00:31:14,520 --> 00:31:21,000
Speaker 1: I had no idea she was from Brownsville. Yeah, but

526
00:31:21,120 --> 00:31:25,400
Speaker 1: that's I think I think my wife is um oh

527
00:31:25,440 --> 00:31:29,720
Speaker 1: my god, I think my wife wont that position. She

528
00:31:29,800 --> 00:31:32,520
Speaker 1: went to talk to everybody, help them with their feelings.

529
00:31:32,880 --> 00:31:35,800
Speaker 1: Talk to them. Oh god, they don't have money. That's now,

530
00:31:35,920 --> 00:31:40,920
Speaker 1: get the funk this stop. Okay, you love it. I

531
00:31:41,040 --> 00:31:44,080
Speaker 1: know you can't help everybody, but everybody can help somebody.

532
00:31:44,320 --> 00:31:47,400
Speaker 1: Look at like that. You help a lot of people

533
00:31:47,440 --> 00:31:50,760
Speaker 1: to Mike, do you feel like that? That's my purpose

534
00:31:50,800 --> 00:31:54,120
Speaker 1: in life to help people and listen when if I

535
00:31:54,160 --> 00:32:00,760
Speaker 1: was twelve, I was thirteen when in spotfit detention for

536
00:32:00,840 --> 00:32:02,880
Speaker 1: boys and they came and visit us, and once I

537
00:32:02,920 --> 00:32:10,320
Speaker 1: saw him assel, I want to be like him. Wowhamma

538
00:32:10,360 --> 00:32:16,000
Speaker 1: Ali walks, Yeah, never know about boxing, didn't care about boxing. Boom.

539
00:32:16,040 --> 00:32:17,720
Speaker 1: I want to be like what was it? The people

540
00:32:17,720 --> 00:32:20,400
Speaker 1: are crazy, that's what it was. I want to be

541
00:32:20,440 --> 00:32:23,560
Speaker 1: like that first time. That's I want to be like him.

542
00:32:23,600 --> 00:32:26,800
Speaker 1: The first time. I remember saying that what was the thing?

543
00:32:26,920 --> 00:32:28,360
Speaker 1: Was it? A thing he did? Was just the way

544
00:32:28,360 --> 00:32:32,520
Speaker 1: people respond? I want this? Yeah, but now you got it,

545
00:32:32,560 --> 00:32:36,040
Speaker 1: you said sometimes. So that's what I wanted. I wanted

546
00:32:36,080 --> 00:32:39,520
Speaker 1: to be like Mohammeddi when people came in, people crying,

547
00:32:40,760 --> 00:32:45,000
Speaker 1: the grown men crying. I can't imagine you at thirteen

548
00:32:45,880 --> 00:32:49,440
Speaker 1: Robin everybody with Robbins and then I got invol with boxing.

549
00:32:49,720 --> 00:32:54,280
Speaker 1: My whole life was crying. Yeah, you see, blue boy,

550
00:32:54,360 --> 00:32:59,080
Speaker 1: we grew up. I grew up with him and institutions unbelievable.

551
00:33:00,000 --> 00:33:03,600
Speaker 1: So you were together thirteen years old for robbing people.

552
00:33:03,600 --> 00:33:07,200
Speaker 1: But that's what you gotta Yeah, that's what I am.

553
00:33:09,880 --> 00:33:13,000
Speaker 1: Snatch your pocket to change. They am wrong, But you know,

554
00:33:14,320 --> 00:33:16,160
Speaker 1: never trip you out that people like hold you up

555
00:33:16,160 --> 00:33:19,280
Speaker 1: at such a high, Like there's people like all over

556
00:33:19,320 --> 00:33:21,320
Speaker 1: the world that just like love you, And in your

557
00:33:21,320 --> 00:33:24,400
Speaker 1: mind you're like, they don't they don't know that thirteen

558
00:33:24,480 --> 00:33:26,920
Speaker 1: year old. Kay, how would they even treat that thirteen

559
00:33:26,960 --> 00:33:30,880
Speaker 1: year old? Kill them? But yes, um, I'm conscious. I'm

560
00:33:30,960 --> 00:33:34,479
Speaker 1: very conscious of people my situation and that's how you know,

561
00:33:34,720 --> 00:33:36,360
Speaker 1: you have to be open with yourself. You are what

562
00:33:36,440 --> 00:33:38,640
Speaker 1: you are. Its just the funk it is. You know

563
00:33:39,360 --> 00:33:42,040
Speaker 1: what about cancel culture? Does that ever scare you that?

564
00:33:42,200 --> 00:33:43,560
Speaker 1: I don't know, because I feel like we live in

565
00:33:43,600 --> 00:33:46,960
Speaker 1: a world where like it doesn't it's not conducive to

566
00:33:47,000 --> 00:33:49,000
Speaker 1: people being so free. That's one of the most things

567
00:33:49,000 --> 00:33:51,600
Speaker 1: I'm most fascinated by you about is you managed to, like,

568
00:33:52,320 --> 00:33:54,560
Speaker 1: even with like you say, your demons, your rage or

569
00:33:54,600 --> 00:34:01,480
Speaker 1: whatever you have, you still seemingly like all free, live free,

570
00:34:02,080 --> 00:34:07,880
Speaker 1: without like fear of I don't know, canceling or offending

571
00:34:08,200 --> 00:34:18,040
Speaker 1: or cancelm fuck you. I feel like like if they

572
00:34:18,120 --> 00:34:20,520
Speaker 1: cancel you, you would almost enjoy it because you would

573
00:34:20,520 --> 00:34:29,080
Speaker 1: want to fight everybody? How scared? How happy are you?

574
00:34:29,160 --> 00:34:31,239
Speaker 1: We asked this, I guess a lot. How happy are

575
00:34:31,280 --> 00:34:36,520
Speaker 1: you on to scale a one to ten today? Today? Years? Yeah?

576
00:34:36,680 --> 00:34:41,520
Speaker 1: I love that this moment. Yeah happy right now at

577
00:34:41,560 --> 00:34:46,440
Speaker 1: this moment. Yeah, that makes me even happier on an

578
00:34:46,440 --> 00:34:48,800
Speaker 1: average day. How happy are you? I don't know, it

579
00:34:48,920 --> 00:34:53,720
Speaker 1: might be how what do you think? Damon normal day?

580
00:34:54,280 --> 00:34:58,080
Speaker 1: That's still great? Yeah. But the ship I said, for

581
00:34:58,200 --> 00:35:01,239
Speaker 1: that three, it's kind of hur that three is the

582
00:35:01,440 --> 00:35:05,120
Speaker 1: motherfucker man. What triggers the three? What is the thing

583
00:35:05,160 --> 00:35:08,280
Speaker 1: that would take you down to a three family losing

584
00:35:08,320 --> 00:35:11,520
Speaker 1: my wife? It's fucking crazy. That's like deep stuff, that's

585
00:35:11,560 --> 00:35:14,759
Speaker 1: like heavy stuff. Take it down the three similar three ship,

586
00:35:15,480 --> 00:35:17,400
Speaker 1: that's that three ship to get to make it go

587
00:35:17,480 --> 00:35:21,320
Speaker 1: to tender blows up. That's the dynamite that three of

588
00:35:21,400 --> 00:35:24,319
Speaker 1: the dynamite everything else is beautiful with that fucking three.

589
00:35:24,360 --> 00:35:26,319
Speaker 1: But it takes a lot. You wouldn't be triggered by

590
00:35:26,360 --> 00:35:31,759
Speaker 1: like a road rage. Could that take you to a three? No?

591
00:35:33,280 --> 00:35:36,880
Speaker 1: But after we get home we discussed that. Yeah, ain't

592
00:35:36,880 --> 00:35:39,440
Speaker 1: doing nothing one. We got the wheel, we get home,

593
00:35:39,440 --> 00:35:43,200
Speaker 1: we discussed that. Yeah, what is that discussion? As the

594
00:35:43,360 --> 00:35:48,439
Speaker 1: baby you ran over the curb three times? I met

595
00:35:48,560 --> 00:35:50,480
Speaker 1: other people that help piss you off on the road.

596
00:35:50,560 --> 00:35:53,000
Speaker 1: Somebody cuts you off, somebody flips you a finger or

597
00:35:53,000 --> 00:35:55,120
Speaker 1: something like that. That won't take you down right, no way.

598
00:35:55,520 --> 00:35:57,799
Speaker 1: I like to laugh like that, just make you laugh.

599
00:35:58,080 --> 00:36:03,440
Speaker 1: That's really amazing. A ten is fucking great. I'm just

600
00:36:03,600 --> 00:36:05,680
Speaker 1: very grateful that I could reach that. Yeah, what is

601
00:36:05,680 --> 00:36:08,719
Speaker 1: the key to that? Is a gratefulness. Yeah. I don't

602
00:36:08,760 --> 00:36:11,040
Speaker 1: want to lose my family, and let's just it's just

603
00:36:11,120 --> 00:36:12,879
Speaker 1: a lot of things that you go through your mind.

604
00:36:13,680 --> 00:36:17,040
Speaker 1: People out there, they will be happy to get it

605
00:36:17,080 --> 00:36:23,080
Speaker 1: to an eight. Eventually they will stop existing. It's one

606
00:36:23,120 --> 00:36:27,600
Speaker 1: of the other m hmm. There's other people out there

607
00:36:27,600 --> 00:36:29,640
Speaker 1: more angry than you are. They lost their mother too,

608
00:36:29,960 --> 00:36:32,279
Speaker 1: they lost their kids, and you get mad because you're

609
00:36:32,360 --> 00:36:35,960
Speaker 1: this girl you just broke up with you be careful

610
00:36:36,280 --> 00:36:40,359
Speaker 1: the degree, the fucking bad days. It's my bad days here,

611
00:36:40,719 --> 00:36:43,359
Speaker 1: but his bad thing might be here. Somebody always has

612
00:36:43,360 --> 00:36:46,279
Speaker 1: it word, somebody always has it works, and he's just

613
00:36:46,400 --> 00:36:49,239
Speaker 1: waiting for him, a little motherfucker like this to get

614
00:36:49,320 --> 00:36:51,719
Speaker 1: him raised. I think he had some problems. I'm just

615
00:36:51,760 --> 00:36:56,960
Speaker 1: showing problems. That's the world out there that I live in. Yeah.

616
00:36:57,360 --> 00:36:58,960
Speaker 1: One of your My favorite things I heard you say

617
00:36:59,040 --> 00:37:01,920
Speaker 1: is that everybody that you fight is not your enemy

618
00:37:02,080 --> 00:37:05,600
Speaker 1: that quote, yea. And everybody that helps you it's not

619
00:37:05,719 --> 00:37:10,799
Speaker 1: your friend. Yeah, that's so real and so powerful. How

620
00:37:10,840 --> 00:37:13,080
Speaker 1: do you know when somebody is your friend and comes

621
00:37:13,080 --> 00:37:19,560
Speaker 1: with time, sacrifice, um, enduring pain together, suffering together. You know,

622
00:37:19,600 --> 00:37:21,400
Speaker 1: it's just a lot of things. Do you have a

623
00:37:21,400 --> 00:37:23,880
Speaker 1: lot of friends or a small knit Okay, they have

624
00:37:23,920 --> 00:37:27,640
Speaker 1: a little small core friends. Yeah, but you love people though,

625
00:37:28,200 --> 00:37:31,719
Speaker 1: like you like certain people. Yeah. I think I'm very

626
00:37:31,760 --> 00:37:36,040
Speaker 1: easy to get along with. Pa. But everybody that helps you,

627
00:37:36,080 --> 00:37:39,200
Speaker 1: it's not your friend, no way. A lot of times

628
00:37:39,200 --> 00:37:45,360
Speaker 1: they want things or maybe down the line, maybe five

629
00:37:45,440 --> 00:37:47,920
Speaker 1: years from now, ten years from now, and things are

630
00:37:47,960 --> 00:37:51,680
Speaker 1: better and things happen different. That's just how it is.

631
00:37:52,640 --> 00:37:54,279
Speaker 1: The Other part of that is that everybody that you

632
00:37:54,360 --> 00:37:58,640
Speaker 1: fight is not your enemy. That's really powerful because absolutely

633
00:37:58,840 --> 00:38:02,960
Speaker 1: beautiful people out here. We um we have a difference

634
00:38:02,960 --> 00:38:07,000
Speaker 1: of opinions and our former fighting in verbal and we

635
00:38:07,120 --> 00:38:10,440
Speaker 1: never have a chance to really articulate ourselves the way

636
00:38:10,480 --> 00:38:14,080
Speaker 1: we want among the two of us, and so that

637
00:38:14,120 --> 00:38:17,920
Speaker 1: starts conflict now more than ever. Absolutely, you have all

638
00:38:17,920 --> 00:38:20,440
Speaker 1: the computers and stuff, and sometimes you can say a

639
00:38:20,520 --> 00:38:23,000
Speaker 1: bunch of stuff to somebody that's in America and you're

640
00:38:23,080 --> 00:38:30,400
Speaker 1: in Germany or somewhere, and then conflicts. Yeah, you like fighting,

641
00:38:30,440 --> 00:38:33,080
Speaker 1: You're going down this road. And now everybody get just

642
00:38:33,120 --> 00:38:36,560
Speaker 1: wants popular arab for this stuff, it would be popular.

643
00:38:39,040 --> 00:38:42,560
Speaker 1: It's um, it's terrible, I know. But it's a narcotic.

644
00:38:42,600 --> 00:38:45,680
Speaker 1: It's a drug. Oh I think, so okay, this is

645
00:38:45,719 --> 00:38:48,719
Speaker 1: a drug. This stuff that's camera stuff. Yeah, I know.

646
00:38:48,800 --> 00:38:51,080
Speaker 1: I try not. I try to have a healthy relationship

647
00:38:51,160 --> 00:38:56,279
Speaker 1: with it as healthy as I can. Wow, how do

648
00:38:56,320 --> 00:38:59,040
Speaker 1: you have a healthy relationship? What makes it unhealthy? What

649
00:38:59,120 --> 00:39:02,560
Speaker 1: makes it unhealthy? It is when I do it because

650
00:39:03,040 --> 00:39:06,520
Speaker 1: I want to I want to be I want like so,

651
00:39:06,600 --> 00:39:08,879
Speaker 1: or I want fame, or I want you know, make

652
00:39:08,960 --> 00:39:12,239
Speaker 1: you deserve. I'm not saying I don't want to make money.

653
00:39:12,320 --> 00:39:13,520
Speaker 1: I want to do all those things. I want to

654
00:39:13,560 --> 00:39:16,640
Speaker 1: be successful. I'm a driven person. But like me sitting

655
00:39:16,680 --> 00:39:18,680
Speaker 1: with you, if I'm just sitting with you, like okay,

656
00:39:18,719 --> 00:39:21,160
Speaker 1: how can I get people to like or click or

657
00:39:21,200 --> 00:39:23,279
Speaker 1: view this, then my conversation with you is going to

658
00:39:23,360 --> 00:39:25,239
Speaker 1: be different as if I sit here and I go

659
00:39:25,719 --> 00:39:27,839
Speaker 1: what can I learn from Mike today? What can I

660
00:39:27,880 --> 00:39:31,520
Speaker 1: talk to Mike that might actually be offering to somebody

661
00:39:31,520 --> 00:39:33,960
Speaker 1: that's watching it. So if I come to the table

662
00:39:34,040 --> 00:39:37,160
Speaker 1: like that, not that I'm I'm sucking human. So sometimes

663
00:39:37,200 --> 00:39:40,560
Speaker 1: I get caught up in being competitive or get caught

664
00:39:40,640 --> 00:39:43,399
Speaker 1: up in trying to chase maybe a success I had

665
00:39:43,440 --> 00:39:46,880
Speaker 1: at another point or another interview. But like I have

666
00:39:46,960 --> 00:39:50,200
Speaker 1: to I always check myself. If I feel like i'm

667
00:39:50,239 --> 00:39:54,200
Speaker 1: my intentions or my I have to check myself. You

668
00:39:54,239 --> 00:39:56,840
Speaker 1: have to do self inventory and be like why didn't

669
00:39:56,840 --> 00:39:58,839
Speaker 1: why didn't that feel good? That didn't feel good because

670
00:39:58,880 --> 00:40:01,319
Speaker 1: you went in there trying to blah blah blah. If

671
00:40:01,320 --> 00:40:03,960
Speaker 1: you would have went in there and just listened and

672
00:40:04,360 --> 00:40:07,360
Speaker 1: tried to find something to offer, then it would have

673
00:40:07,360 --> 00:40:10,120
Speaker 1: been better. Does that make sense for me? For me,

674
00:40:10,200 --> 00:40:13,239
Speaker 1: that's the same thing, but then the next one will

675
00:40:13,280 --> 00:40:16,120
Speaker 1: be better. Sometimes you have to make mistakes to reach

676
00:40:16,160 --> 00:40:18,880
Speaker 1: your goals in life. Anytime you want to be the

677
00:40:18,920 --> 00:40:21,400
Speaker 1: best of anything, I'm talking about anything a bug collector

678
00:40:21,440 --> 00:40:26,120
Speaker 1: and collector um garbage can collect. The time, you won't

679
00:40:26,120 --> 00:40:28,160
Speaker 1: be the best in the world. It's gonna be disappointment.

680
00:40:29,040 --> 00:40:31,920
Speaker 1: And by the way you handle those disappointments would tell

681
00:40:31,960 --> 00:40:35,680
Speaker 1: if you're going to be a success and not. You know,

682
00:40:35,800 --> 00:40:37,839
Speaker 1: so crazy people think that you reach a certain level

683
00:40:37,880 --> 00:40:41,719
Speaker 1: of success and then that's it's just success. They don't

684
00:40:41,719 --> 00:40:46,160
Speaker 1: realize there's still disappointments. Always for your friends, disappointing you

685
00:40:46,200 --> 00:40:49,160
Speaker 1: in certain situation. Anything you disappoint yourself. Sometimes have a

686
00:40:49,239 --> 00:40:53,879
Speaker 1: lot of pain. People have a lot of pain. It's

687
00:40:53,920 --> 00:40:59,000
Speaker 1: just that we have them. From myself speaking, we have

688
00:40:59,120 --> 00:41:01,960
Speaker 1: to accept every thing in life who we are. A

689
00:41:01,960 --> 00:41:04,400
Speaker 1: lot of us doesn't don't accept who we are, always

690
00:41:04,440 --> 00:41:08,760
Speaker 1: scared to show the world who we are. It's just um.

691
00:41:08,760 --> 00:41:13,520
Speaker 1: People are very complex, and that's okay, I've been very complex,

692
00:41:13,640 --> 00:41:16,600
Speaker 1: But that's what people are. That's what we do. We

693
00:41:16,719 --> 00:41:19,799
Speaker 1: love each other, we heard each other, we die for

694
00:41:19,840 --> 00:41:22,839
Speaker 1: one another. It's just we live for one another. It's

695
00:41:22,880 --> 00:41:25,960
Speaker 1: just this is what human beings do. There's nothing you

696
00:41:25,960 --> 00:41:32,240
Speaker 1: could say that human that human beings haven't done. How's

697
00:41:32,280 --> 00:41:36,200
Speaker 1: your relationship with all this cameras, phone, social media, press,

698
00:41:36,960 --> 00:41:40,600
Speaker 1: public persona, Like, how do you manage your relationship with

699
00:41:40,640 --> 00:41:44,840
Speaker 1: all that outside noise? Even now you're doing podcasts? And

700
00:41:44,920 --> 00:41:48,879
Speaker 1: here in this room, it's my room, and wherever I'm

701
00:41:48,920 --> 00:41:55,680
Speaker 1: doing this stuff, unequip believe I'm God, I'm guard him

702
00:41:55,840 --> 00:41:58,120
Speaker 1: and here right here, I'm going like you go right here.

703
00:41:58,920 --> 00:42:02,960
Speaker 1: Whatever you say, the world's gonna see it and most

704
00:42:03,000 --> 00:42:08,680
Speaker 1: likely accepted. That's where you're following comes from congregation. Congregation

705
00:42:09,000 --> 00:42:11,360
Speaker 1: and next thing you though, they're inviting their friends to

706
00:42:11,400 --> 00:42:14,080
Speaker 1: come to church, then write different anything you know, you

707
00:42:14,120 --> 00:42:17,480
Speaker 1: get too million friends on church. It's just um. This

708
00:42:17,560 --> 00:42:22,399
Speaker 1: is just um a platform for you to be who

709
00:42:22,400 --> 00:42:26,359
Speaker 1: you want to be and play the role a divinity.

710
00:42:27,920 --> 00:42:29,640
Speaker 1: It's just the role. But we can still play it.

711
00:42:30,640 --> 00:42:34,359
Speaker 1: But did you do it to get the congregation? Now? Hey, listen,

712
00:42:34,360 --> 00:42:37,200
Speaker 1: I never wanted to do the podcast. I told it

713
00:42:37,239 --> 00:42:41,680
Speaker 1: a couple of times and we had millions of views,

714
00:42:41,680 --> 00:42:44,360
Speaker 1: and that is sick car And I was just doing

715
00:42:44,360 --> 00:42:46,600
Speaker 1: this stuff and people start writing he's the genius, he's

716
00:42:46,600 --> 00:42:50,319
Speaker 1: a Google, he's this and that, and I don't know.

717
00:42:50,760 --> 00:42:55,160
Speaker 1: I got that just showing up doing you. I think

718
00:42:55,200 --> 00:42:57,160
Speaker 1: you have a pretty healthy relationship. You have to be

719
00:42:57,200 --> 00:42:59,239
Speaker 1: able to have a healthy relationship. But I don't know.

720
00:42:59,320 --> 00:43:01,480
Speaker 1: My kids don't seem to think. So what do you mean?

721
00:43:01,520 --> 00:43:03,879
Speaker 1: What do you think? Kids telling me that I'm one

722
00:43:03,920 --> 00:43:08,400
Speaker 1: of my god complex? I'm think I'm this and Madonna

723
00:43:08,440 --> 00:43:12,400
Speaker 1: and Magic Johnson, Michael john is so much flight in you?

724
00:43:12,560 --> 00:43:17,160
Speaker 1: And wait? Is that the bar in your house? Is it? Like?

725
00:43:18,360 --> 00:43:20,759
Speaker 1: Are you compared to all these other goats? Is that

726
00:43:20,840 --> 00:43:22,960
Speaker 1: what happened was just that I was talking about my

727
00:43:22,960 --> 00:43:26,080
Speaker 1: other than under it my thing. Um, I might seem

728
00:43:26,400 --> 00:43:29,480
Speaker 1: magic Jonathan when I don't know a fur coat of something.

729
00:43:29,680 --> 00:43:31,480
Speaker 1: Why are you not wearing the fur coat? Then? Why

730
00:43:31,560 --> 00:43:35,440
Speaker 1: you don't have a oh Man ship? She said? I

731
00:43:35,520 --> 00:43:37,839
Speaker 1: tell me Madonna is not bigger than you. D come

732
00:43:37,880 --> 00:43:41,160
Speaker 1: on like Oprah Wimpy is so much bigger than you. Dad.

733
00:43:41,239 --> 00:43:44,719
Speaker 1: Why do you thank you sobody? And you love it?

734
00:43:45,800 --> 00:43:48,920
Speaker 1: I loved that for you. What do you still want

735
00:43:48,920 --> 00:43:51,160
Speaker 1: to do? I'm the sky the limits. Start working with

736
00:43:51,280 --> 00:43:56,439
Speaker 1: my kids, the shows, the projects with my kids. I'm

737
00:43:56,480 --> 00:43:58,640
Speaker 1: not the kind of I don't want the world, you

738
00:43:58,680 --> 00:44:00,760
Speaker 1: know what I mean, it's just the the world comes

739
00:44:00,800 --> 00:44:04,040
Speaker 1: to me, but I don't want it. I mean, you've

740
00:44:04,080 --> 00:44:06,279
Speaker 1: done a lot. You don't have to do anything else.

741
00:44:06,320 --> 00:44:07,520
Speaker 1: You don't even have to do with the things you're

742
00:44:07,560 --> 00:44:09,000
Speaker 1: doing now, if you want to want to do more,

743
00:44:09,040 --> 00:44:10,879
Speaker 1: I guess what I'm I gonna do? Do nothing? Since

744
00:44:10,920 --> 00:44:14,160
Speaker 1: I did so much and die from doing nothing. I

745
00:44:14,200 --> 00:44:17,600
Speaker 1: guess want um. I want to prosper, I want things

746
00:44:17,719 --> 00:44:20,680
Speaker 1: for me, um in my name, to help people. I

747
00:44:20,760 --> 00:44:24,960
Speaker 1: just that's what's happening, to give back. You know. I

748
00:44:25,040 --> 00:44:27,719
Speaker 1: don't want me personal number, my kids, and I don't

749
00:44:27,719 --> 00:44:31,880
Speaker 1: want to die. Rich Man, you don't know way you

750
00:44:31,920 --> 00:44:34,200
Speaker 1: want to spend it all, give it away. I don't

751
00:44:34,200 --> 00:44:40,320
Speaker 1: want to have no one when I'm dead. Well, hopefully

752
00:44:40,320 --> 00:44:42,439
Speaker 1: we have you here for a very long time. Hey,

753
00:44:42,520 --> 00:44:44,879
Speaker 1: if I live for twenty years is not long enough.

754
00:44:45,800 --> 00:44:47,520
Speaker 1: You had a good life now, right, I mean you're

755
00:44:47,520 --> 00:44:51,200
Speaker 1: at a ten. I'm happy. That's amazing. You know. Let's

756
00:44:51,239 --> 00:44:54,080
Speaker 1: think about imagine somebody's on death row forever and yes,

757
00:44:54,280 --> 00:44:56,560
Speaker 1: um die that we still see them. And I like

758
00:44:56,920 --> 00:44:58,600
Speaker 1: all these people that we ran. Of course, I just

759
00:44:58,719 --> 00:45:00,080
Speaker 1: looked at it in the car. Where did the as

760
00:45:00,160 --> 00:45:04,840
Speaker 1: people go do they do? We see them again sometimes

761
00:45:04,840 --> 00:45:09,800
Speaker 1: and they get tricky, get tricky. No, life is wild. No,

762
00:45:09,920 --> 00:45:12,840
Speaker 1: every time something happens in life. I figured out I

763
00:45:12,840 --> 00:45:17,279
Speaker 1: gave a homeless person some money, two d bucks. But

764
00:45:17,360 --> 00:45:20,200
Speaker 1: he see my feeling like this. He didn't say thank you.

765
00:45:20,280 --> 00:45:25,240
Speaker 1: That he said God, that was recently. Yeah, he's pointing

766
00:45:25,400 --> 00:45:28,759
Speaker 1: up there, and we kept lefting. He kept pointing up there,

767
00:45:28,760 --> 00:45:31,359
Speaker 1: and we left his point loft it up. Sometimes when

768
00:45:31,360 --> 00:45:33,080
Speaker 1: I see, especially in New York, like I'll see a

769
00:45:33,080 --> 00:45:35,520
Speaker 1: homeless person, I'll see somebody asking for money. I always

770
00:45:35,560 --> 00:45:40,439
Speaker 1: wonder if it's like an angel or the profits or Yeah,

771
00:45:40,600 --> 00:45:44,000
Speaker 1: I always wonder everybody walks past the fact that as

772
00:45:44,040 --> 00:45:46,319
Speaker 1: human beings, we could walk down the street in New York,

773
00:45:46,600 --> 00:45:48,920
Speaker 1: see a homeless personally in the street and just keep walking.

774
00:45:49,680 --> 00:45:52,839
Speaker 1: I do feel like you when we show up upstairs

775
00:45:52,960 --> 00:45:57,120
Speaker 1: right and it's our time, we might be questioned about that. No, No,

776
00:45:58,800 --> 00:46:02,440
Speaker 1: your consciousness, you're anxiousness is God. If we didn't have

777
00:46:02,480 --> 00:46:05,600
Speaker 1: no laws, no laws, and you know it right wrong,

778
00:46:06,120 --> 00:46:10,840
Speaker 1: you know you did have fucked up. A conscious is God. Yeah,

779
00:46:11,160 --> 00:46:13,759
Speaker 1: unless you really even if you're fad, you know, hurting

780
00:46:13,760 --> 00:46:16,239
Speaker 1: that person that right, making that person that look like

781
00:46:16,280 --> 00:46:19,759
Speaker 1: you anymore. It's not right. You know, we all know

782
00:46:19,800 --> 00:46:22,640
Speaker 1: a conscious tell us what's right and wrong. You listen

783
00:46:22,719 --> 00:46:26,040
Speaker 1: to us. Yeah, it tells you. You have to listen

784
00:46:26,080 --> 00:46:30,000
Speaker 1: to it. You have to. You're fascinating, Mike. I could

785
00:46:30,000 --> 00:46:34,839
Speaker 1: talk to you all day long. I'm so even just

786
00:46:34,880 --> 00:46:37,319
Speaker 1: as a fan of somebody who's knowing you and gotten

787
00:46:37,360 --> 00:46:39,919
Speaker 1: to know you over the years, like just like so

788
00:46:40,440 --> 00:46:44,759
Speaker 1: fascinated and proud of how you just maintained. Like you know,

789
00:46:44,960 --> 00:46:46,640
Speaker 1: people look at your life and oh, he spent a

790
00:46:46,680 --> 00:46:48,279
Speaker 1: lot of ship, But when you really think about the

791
00:46:48,360 --> 00:46:51,000
Speaker 1: life and like you said, their teams doing this, and

792
00:46:51,239 --> 00:46:54,360
Speaker 1: you know that's raging it and losing all my money,

793
00:46:54,680 --> 00:46:56,520
Speaker 1: then getting kicked out of the box for biting this

794
00:46:56,600 --> 00:47:01,280
Speaker 1: Niger ear and then doing some mother ship um rage,

795
00:47:01,400 --> 00:47:05,360
Speaker 1: road rage on the jail for that, a motorcycle crash.

796
00:47:06,320 --> 00:47:10,400
Speaker 1: Drugs with my wife. I listen, it wasn't for my

797
00:47:10,480 --> 00:47:12,680
Speaker 1: wife that that helped me on the drug tip. I

798
00:47:13,480 --> 00:47:16,360
Speaker 1: was really fucked up on that looking at cocaine. I

799
00:47:16,440 --> 00:47:18,880
Speaker 1: was really fucked up. And it came across from New

800
00:47:18,960 --> 00:47:21,839
Speaker 1: the Mike tyson that at the partying and I'm fire,

801
00:47:21,920 --> 00:47:24,560
Speaker 1: having a good time. And so I come home and

802
00:47:24,600 --> 00:47:27,080
Speaker 1: my wife opened door and see me, and she said, well,

803
00:47:27,120 --> 00:47:29,160
Speaker 1: the fun are you? Why didn't you figure it that

804
00:47:29,320 --> 00:47:34,200
Speaker 1: over the radio? And I didn't really, I haven't really up.

805
00:47:34,560 --> 00:47:37,560
Speaker 1: When did that happen a few years ago? Ten years ago?

806
00:47:37,640 --> 00:47:44,360
Speaker 1: Her baby? Fuck? Thank god it wasn't. No, I'm not

807
00:47:44,520 --> 00:47:48,760
Speaker 1: ready to go yet. Um planted me here, not ready

808
00:47:48,800 --> 00:47:50,959
Speaker 1: to accept me again. Do you ever talk to people

809
00:47:50,960 --> 00:47:53,319
Speaker 1: who are addicted to drugs and give them any type

810
00:47:53,360 --> 00:47:58,680
Speaker 1: of I don't know. Yeah, yeah, I don't tell how

811
00:47:58,719 --> 00:48:01,759
Speaker 1: to beat it because I used always say, why you

812
00:48:01,800 --> 00:48:05,120
Speaker 1: gotta start something that you have to stop? You know

813
00:48:05,200 --> 00:48:06,840
Speaker 1: you started? You gotta stop this if you want to

814
00:48:06,840 --> 00:48:09,800
Speaker 1: live a function to life. That's one of my learning

815
00:48:09,840 --> 00:48:11,680
Speaker 1: moments when someone told me that why are you gonna

816
00:48:11,719 --> 00:48:13,600
Speaker 1: do something you gotta stop? Do you want to do

817
00:48:13,640 --> 00:48:15,839
Speaker 1: something that you never have to stop and live good

818
00:48:15,880 --> 00:48:20,440
Speaker 1: from it? Yeah? You're right, absolutely right, yeah, because that

819
00:48:20,480 --> 00:48:22,480
Speaker 1: doesn't end well if you never stop. It just didn't

820
00:48:22,480 --> 00:48:24,600
Speaker 1: make sense when you said, why are your starting? Did

821
00:48:24,600 --> 00:48:29,480
Speaker 1: you have to stop? If it is? The light came more. Yeah,

822
00:48:29,520 --> 00:48:33,600
Speaker 1: you're right, yeah, yeah, you're right. We the last thing

823
00:48:34,080 --> 00:48:36,279
Speaker 1: we've been talking about. Another thing I've been talking about

824
00:48:36,320 --> 00:48:39,520
Speaker 1: on this pod. It's like superpowers and the things that

825
00:48:39,560 --> 00:48:41,960
Speaker 1: make us. And by the way, you are a unicorn.

826
00:48:42,080 --> 00:48:44,080
Speaker 1: There's no there's nobody else like I can't meet you

827
00:48:44,080 --> 00:48:46,480
Speaker 1: and be like, yeah, you remind me of my It's

828
00:48:46,520 --> 00:48:49,960
Speaker 1: like nobody else you are Mike Tyson, the only Mike Tyson.

829
00:48:50,040 --> 00:48:52,680
Speaker 1: You're like a unicorn. But I think if we really

830
00:48:52,719 --> 00:48:55,920
Speaker 1: look at people, that everybody has these like unique qualities

831
00:48:56,760 --> 00:48:59,759
Speaker 1: that that you are given to kind of perform in

832
00:48:59,760 --> 00:49:02,440
Speaker 1: the world or whatever your purpose or whatever is. Do

833
00:49:02,480 --> 00:49:04,239
Speaker 1: you know what yours are? Like? Have you ever thought

834
00:49:04,239 --> 00:49:07,719
Speaker 1: about that? Like, what the things are that are your superpowers?

835
00:49:07,880 --> 00:49:11,480
Speaker 1: Make people happy? Yeah, that's why I think it is.

836
00:49:12,719 --> 00:49:14,720
Speaker 1: You know, I can't stop by cops and the stuff

837
00:49:14,719 --> 00:49:21,520
Speaker 1: for my really yeah, my power if I had a

838
00:49:21,520 --> 00:49:25,320
Speaker 1: superpower make people smile? Yeah, when did you realize that?

839
00:49:25,440 --> 00:49:27,439
Speaker 1: When did you? Like when the when was the moment

840
00:49:27,480 --> 00:49:29,200
Speaker 1: that you like, people tell me said, well, you make

841
00:49:29,239 --> 00:49:31,040
Speaker 1: so many people happy, and so there's people tell me

842
00:49:31,320 --> 00:49:32,879
Speaker 1: you make so many people, have to make so many

843
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Speaker 1: people happy, and you don't try, right, No, I mean

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Speaker 1: it's it's try to be as humble as possible. Sometimes

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Speaker 1: I get piste off to them and they know I'm

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Speaker 1: a human being and the mic get piste off. Mike

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Speaker 1: is good. People don't say this about Mike. Don't get

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Speaker 1: Mike ananty. People know they know that, you know. So

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Speaker 1: I have a lot of good encounters with people. Is

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Speaker 1: there a superpower that you ever admire and somebody else

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Speaker 1: that you wish or that you wish you could have u? Yeah,

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Speaker 1: someone that doesn't react so many they can spit on nothing.

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Speaker 1: You have to control themselves. Do you know anybody like that?

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Speaker 1: They're out there like monks. You know there's people out there.

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Speaker 1: They may have been monks before. They may read about

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Speaker 1: Buddha or something and they didn't want to receive that life.

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Speaker 1: May read Nietzchee book. They you know people people read

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Speaker 1: people what they read, you know who they associate with.

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Speaker 1: That's how you to find the person. What do you

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Speaker 1: pray for? Let my kids are healthy, my family is healthy.

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Speaker 1: That's the ultimate thing, right, Yeah? I love that. See

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Speaker 1: some grandkids and stuff. Do you have grandkids? I love

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Speaker 1: to see him. Yeah, I love to see So you're

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Speaker 1: gonna be the greatest. I think so full time. I

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Speaker 1: think so too. That it's like boxing a thing in

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Speaker 1: your family, Like, are you allowed to teach the kids that, yeah,

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Speaker 1: that's that's not I took the punches that they gonna

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Speaker 1: have to. Oh. I love that well. I hope that

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Speaker 1: you have many days out of ten of happiness. This

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Speaker 1: is one of them. Thank you, baby, Thank you so

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Speaker 1: much for today. M