WEBVTT - The God Jar: Finding Peace In A Challenging World 0:00:02.400 --> 0:00:06.480 Iami, Yamla. I had a baby daddy relationship. I spent 0:00:06.600 --> 0:00:09.480 time in a relationship with a married man. I had 0:00:09.520 --> 0:00:13.520 to learn the skills and tools required to make my 0:00:13.680 --> 0:00:18.439 relationships healthy, fulfilling and loving. Welcome to the r Spot, 0:00:18.720 --> 0:00:36.839 a production of shondaland Audio in partnership with iHeartRadio. Welcome, 0:00:36.920 --> 0:00:40.879 Welcome to the art Spot, the place we come to 0:00:41.000 --> 0:00:47.239 discuss all things relationship and all relationships. I am Miamla, 0:00:47.400 --> 0:00:53.000 your host, your guide, your facilitator, your support system as 0:00:53.040 --> 0:00:57.400 you take a deeper look into the relationships in your life. 0:00:57.440 --> 0:01:03.000 And boy, do we have a top today. Earlier this week, 0:01:03.560 --> 0:01:08.440 one of my former students wrote me a very interesting email, 0:01:09.360 --> 0:01:13.360 and in that email, he asked me, Mama, ear how 0:01:13.480 --> 0:01:18.440 should I be with pain? How should I be with pain? 0:01:19.160 --> 0:01:22.920 You know, with everything that's going on in the world today, 0:01:23.680 --> 0:01:26.880 a lot of people are in pain. Some because they're 0:01:26.920 --> 0:01:32.240 impacted directly, some because of the way they think about 0:01:32.280 --> 0:01:36.920 what's going on, Some because they feel the energy of 0:01:36.959 --> 0:01:42.760 what's going on, Some because they feel hopeless, some feel helpless. 0:01:43.440 --> 0:01:47.640 But a lot of people are in pain. One of 0:01:47.640 --> 0:01:51.080 the things that I said to my students was, what 0:01:51.160 --> 0:01:56.320 is your relationship with disaster. What is your relationship with disaster? 0:01:56.520 --> 0:02:01.200 Even if it's not your disaster. Do not rush in 0:02:01.560 --> 0:02:05.960 to fix it or to run away from the sadness 0:02:06.040 --> 0:02:12.480 of the moment, trying to escape the moment and bypass 0:02:12.760 --> 0:02:18.200 the gift that the pain is offering you. When you're 0:02:18.320 --> 0:02:26.280 in pain pain, pay attention inward. Now. The first thing 0:02:26.320 --> 0:02:30.600 to do is go in and identify what that pain is. 0:02:30.600 --> 0:02:32.240 Is it a pain of fear? Is it a pain 0:02:32.280 --> 0:02:35.320 of sadness? Is it a pain because of what you're thinking, 0:02:35.400 --> 0:02:39.880 what you're feeling? What is the pain? When pain is present, 0:02:40.000 --> 0:02:44.560 it really is a source of deep knowing. What do 0:02:44.680 --> 0:02:48.840 you know? What do you know? Not what do you think? 0:02:49.160 --> 0:02:53.040 But what do you know about what you're experiencing? You see, 0:02:53.919 --> 0:02:56.760 when we're in pain about what's going on in the world, 0:02:56.800 --> 0:03:01.640 it's because we know that we are connected to each other, 0:03:02.000 --> 0:03:05.840 to everyone, to everything. But are we acting like that? 0:03:06.639 --> 0:03:09.880 Are you acting like you're connected to the person you're 0:03:09.880 --> 0:03:12.360 cussing out on the freeway because they cut you off, 0:03:12.480 --> 0:03:15.239 You're connected to that they cut you off. You don't 0:03:15.240 --> 0:03:17.040 know if they're rushing to pick up a sick child 0:03:17.200 --> 0:03:19.760 or if they're on their way to the doctor. Or 0:03:20.080 --> 0:03:25.320 if they're just mindlessly driving, bless them, don't cuss them. No, 0:03:25.720 --> 0:03:28.840 you're connected to that person and the cuss you send 0:03:28.880 --> 0:03:30.640 out to them today is going to come back to 0:03:30.680 --> 0:03:35.600 you tomorrow. Pain is a source of deep knowing. Pain 0:03:35.840 --> 0:03:41.280 offers us critical information about something within us that may 0:03:41.360 --> 0:03:44.200 needs to be balanced, that may needs to be brought 0:03:44.240 --> 0:03:49.600 into alignment, something that we need to be accountable for, 0:03:50.240 --> 0:03:54.720 but also something that we are responsible for. Pay attention 0:03:55.200 --> 0:04:01.200 inward now. Sometimes pain is teelling us that we need 0:04:01.240 --> 0:04:05.320 to do something different. There are so many people upset 0:04:05.400 --> 0:04:08.520 about the political landscape who are saying that they're not 0:04:08.600 --> 0:04:14.360 going to vote. Really, you're upset about what's going on 0:04:14.480 --> 0:04:17.840 and you're not going to participate in it. And I 0:04:17.880 --> 0:04:21.640 heard I think his name was Big Mike. He said 0:04:21.680 --> 0:04:26.280 something very interesting. He said, don't vote personality, vote policy, 0:04:27.640 --> 0:04:31.560 and vote the policies that serve you the best. So 0:04:31.600 --> 0:04:36.760 when you're looking out on the political landscape, don't look 0:04:36.800 --> 0:04:41.320 at personality, don't look at age, don't look at race. 0:04:42.160 --> 0:04:44.920 What is this person saying and how is what they're 0:04:44.960 --> 0:04:48.440 saying gonna serve me? And the minute they start talking 0:04:48.440 --> 0:04:52.520 about againstness, then you need to look inside and say, okay, 0:04:52.520 --> 0:04:55.440 who and what am I against? And why is this 0:04:55.560 --> 0:05:04.440 againstness lining up with me? Pay attention inward. Now, yes, 0:05:04.520 --> 0:05:08.960 there is a lot going on in the world, But 0:05:09.080 --> 0:05:11.560 I lean into a course in miracles, and I say, 0:05:11.600 --> 0:05:14.960 I don't know what anything is for. I don't know 0:05:15.000 --> 0:05:19.200 what anything is for, and I give meaning to everything 0:05:19.240 --> 0:05:24.560 that I see. So if what I see is causing 0:05:24.560 --> 0:05:28.680 me disturbance, distress, upset, frustration, concern, all the words my 0:05:28.760 --> 0:05:33.400 guests used today, if what I see is giving me 0:05:34.160 --> 0:05:37.600 causing me to have those experiences, then let me look 0:05:37.640 --> 0:05:40.359 at the meaning that I'm given this stuff, let me 0:05:40.400 --> 0:05:43.320 look at the judgments I have about it, and then 0:05:43.400 --> 0:05:48.279 forgive myself so that I can be accountable for my 0:05:48.440 --> 0:05:52.520 own thoughts and feelings and become responsible for how I 0:05:52.560 --> 0:05:56.920 respond to them. I think our relationship with the world 0:05:57.760 --> 0:06:02.000 gives us a powerful, powerful starting point for building a 0:06:02.040 --> 0:06:07.680 better and deeper relationship with what we think, why we 0:06:07.760 --> 0:06:10.760 think it, how we think it, what we feel, and 0:06:10.760 --> 0:06:14.640 how we process those feelings. And if you're really having 0:06:14.680 --> 0:06:17.360 a hard time, make a god job, turn it over, 0:06:18.000 --> 0:06:21.200 give it to something higher and greater than you. Get 0:06:21.240 --> 0:06:23.599 a map of the world, get a globe I have 0:06:23.640 --> 0:06:26.960 a globe, and sometimes in my prayer I'll just rub 0:06:27.040 --> 0:06:30.279 my hands all over that globe and let those prayers 0:06:30.320 --> 0:06:33.240 fall where they need to fall. It's not my business 0:06:33.279 --> 0:06:36.120 where they go, but I'm sending it out to the world. 0:06:36.200 --> 0:06:39.479 Get a map of the United States, put your finger 0:06:39.920 --> 0:06:43.880 on a particular state or county or area and pray 0:06:43.960 --> 0:06:48.440 light there, Send love there, send compassion there. May Ohio 0:06:48.600 --> 0:06:53.600 no peace, May everyone in Ohio have what they need. 0:06:54.960 --> 0:06:58.680 And don't listen to the news or social media that 0:06:58.760 --> 0:07:02.520 says this happened, that happen. And just know that your prayers, 0:07:02.640 --> 0:07:06.719 your good thoughts, are like a pebble in the ocean 0:07:06.800 --> 0:07:10.200 of humanity, and it will ripple out and it will 0:07:10.240 --> 0:07:13.800 have an impact. I think I have another caller. Let's 0:07:13.840 --> 0:07:18.240 see where they are in their relationship. Do what you 0:07:18.320 --> 0:07:25.320 can where you are, without expectation of reward or recognition. 0:07:26.400 --> 0:07:30.200 Don't toot your own horn, don't pray on the corner 0:07:30.200 --> 0:07:33.720 for other people to hear you and see you. Pray 0:07:33.800 --> 0:07:39.400 silently and send the light out. Greetings and welcome to 0:07:39.600 --> 0:07:44.480 the art Spot. We're talking today about our relationship with 0:07:44.640 --> 0:07:48.680 the world, our relationship in the world, and how it 0:07:48.840 --> 0:07:54.120 impacts our relationship with ourselves. So, as the beloved Wendy 0:07:54.160 --> 0:08:00.000 Williams would say, how you doing in the world. 0:08:00.480 --> 0:08:03.720 I'm coping and and trying to stay hopeful and doing 0:08:03.800 --> 0:08:04.239 my best. 0:08:04.520 --> 0:08:07.320 Okay, tell more coping. What does that mean? 0:08:07.840 --> 0:08:11.920 I think in life to thrive, you have to be hopeful. 0:08:12.280 --> 0:08:15.040 You have to be you know, in a place where 0:08:15.080 --> 0:08:18.520 you feel like will kind of prevail. In the past 0:08:18.520 --> 0:08:22.800 couple of years have just been very challenging from everything 0:08:23.720 --> 0:08:32.560 with presidential elections and COVID and just seeing social injustice 0:08:32.720 --> 0:08:35.719 be so rampant. I think it's taking its toll on 0:08:35.880 --> 0:08:38.280 my nervouses. I know it's taking its toll on my 0:08:38.360 --> 0:08:42.920 nervous system. And you know, I'm a person who does 0:08:43.040 --> 0:08:47.480 the work, you know. I meditate, I pray, I encourage 0:08:47.520 --> 0:08:52.880 other people. I try to believe and be optimistic. But 0:08:52.960 --> 0:08:55.680 it's been challenging. I just think with the current state 0:08:55.720 --> 0:08:58.080 of affairs and seeing things play out the way they've 0:08:58.080 --> 0:09:01.800 played out, it's taken in such a toll on my 0:09:01.880 --> 0:09:07.360 nervous system. I am an African American woman, so it's 0:09:07.400 --> 0:09:11.040 been very challenging, I must say, and not just from 0:09:11.440 --> 0:09:14.440 on all planes, so not just you know, with where 0:09:14.559 --> 0:09:19.520 we are with the inflation and things costing more and 0:09:19.559 --> 0:09:22.520 making things more challenging on the home front to just 0:09:22.640 --> 0:09:24.920 kind of, you know, be in a place I'm making 0:09:25.080 --> 0:09:27.920 ends meet or feeling like you did good for yourself, 0:09:27.960 --> 0:09:30.480 and then seeing that it's not worth what it once 0:09:30.720 --> 0:09:33.720 was worth, and then dealing with the fact of safety, 0:09:33.840 --> 0:09:36.959 and dealing with the fact of you know, corporate greed 0:09:37.160 --> 0:09:40.920 and all of these things. It has really taken its toll. 0:09:41.320 --> 0:09:44.600 And even when I'm telling myself that hey, right now, 0:09:44.679 --> 0:09:48.160 in and now in the present, you're good, your needs 0:09:48.160 --> 0:09:50.959 are met, you have what you need, my nervous system 0:09:51.520 --> 0:09:54.360 is still rilling from the effects of all of the trauma. 0:09:54.880 --> 0:09:59.559 Wow, that's interesting. Where are you with inflation? Because I 0:10:00.000 --> 0:10:03.000 I really didn't know there was no inflation. I really didn't. 0:10:03.360 --> 0:10:05.840 I go to the store with my list, and I 0:10:05.920 --> 0:10:08.640 try very hard to stay till on my list. If 0:10:08.640 --> 0:10:10.960 I get off my list, I've never had to put 0:10:11.000 --> 0:10:13.720 anything back, so I'm good. I didn't know there was 0:10:13.720 --> 0:10:15.360 inflation until they told me. 0:10:16.000 --> 0:10:19.440 Yes. It's very especially for the quote unquote yet, but 0:10:19.520 --> 0:10:23.439 it used to be the middle class. It's very challenging 0:10:24.559 --> 0:10:25.520 our middle class. 0:10:25.960 --> 0:10:29.400 Don't don't get a twisted baby, I am middle class. 0:10:31.840 --> 0:10:34.920 I've been a relatory for twenty years. Housing prices at 0:10:34.960 --> 0:10:38.080 an all time high. We basically had four hundred years 0:10:38.120 --> 0:10:42.800 of inflation in four years. You know in my area 0:10:42.920 --> 0:10:45.000 where you used to could buy a beautiful home for 0:10:45.080 --> 0:10:48.640 a bedroom, too, too bath home for your family that 0:10:48.800 --> 0:10:52.040 used to run one sixty eight two hundred thousand. Those 0:10:52.080 --> 0:10:56.200 are now six hundred thousand. But the salaries have gone up. 0:10:56.400 --> 0:10:59.160 Even rent rates are now. You know where you used 0:10:59.200 --> 0:11:02.120 to corn a three room apartment for twelve hundred dollars, 0:11:02.120 --> 0:11:05.240 That apartment is now twenty eight hundred dollars in four 0:11:05.320 --> 0:11:05.960 years time. 0:11:06.360 --> 0:11:08.360 When I was little, my mom would send me to 0:11:08.400 --> 0:11:11.200 the store with a dollar. With a dollar, I could 0:11:11.240 --> 0:11:14.200 get bread, milk, and fifty cent worth of bologne, and 0:11:14.320 --> 0:11:17.080 sometimes have three or four cents left over to buy 0:11:17.120 --> 0:11:20.239 some bazooka bubblegum. Things have really changed, having. 0:11:20.000 --> 0:11:21.360 It it really changed. 0:11:21.440 --> 0:11:24.040 Do you remember when you could get can you you 0:11:24.080 --> 0:11:26.840 could get three pounds of chicken wings for five Oh no, 0:11:26.960 --> 0:11:29.320 it's five pounds of chicken wings for three dollars? Do 0:11:29.360 --> 0:11:30.440 you remember that? 0:11:30.440 --> 0:11:31.880 That might have been before my time? 0:11:33.840 --> 0:11:39.080 On what you try to say, I'm old. Prices are rising, 0:11:39.440 --> 0:11:41.600 But I bet you what, do you have an iPhone 0:11:41.679 --> 0:11:42.520 or an Android? 0:11:43.520 --> 0:11:46.360 I have a very very old iPhone. I'm not one 0:11:46.440 --> 0:11:47.959 of those people that try to keep it. As a 0:11:47.960 --> 0:11:49.760 matter of fact, I'm still in the single digits with 0:11:49.840 --> 0:11:52.480 my iPhone, So I'm not one of those people that 0:11:52.559 --> 0:11:54.000 try to keep up with transit. 0:11:55.240 --> 0:11:58.040 No, maybe not to keep up with it, but I'm 0:11:58.080 --> 0:12:01.040 going to. I just want to offer people are screaming 0:12:01.080 --> 0:12:04.320 about the price of eggs that they're looking at on 0:12:04.360 --> 0:12:08.760 their thousand dollars iPhone. Yes, things have increased, but we 0:12:08.920 --> 0:12:14.080 have different means of transportation, the supply chain where we're 0:12:14.080 --> 0:12:18.120 getting it from, manufacturing costs, all of those things have changed. 0:12:18.800 --> 0:12:23.560 They've changed, They've changed with the times, and that's just 0:12:23.679 --> 0:12:24.720 what happens. 0:12:24.840 --> 0:12:27.520 They should have changed to go down, though, Ayana. I 0:12:27.520 --> 0:12:30.480 mean with all of the technology and all of the improvements, 0:12:31.000 --> 0:12:33.320 you know, you can now you don't have to have 0:12:33.640 --> 0:12:37.040 as much movement in it because they have things like 0:12:37.080 --> 0:12:40.200 three D printing and such. There's no reason for inflation 0:12:40.280 --> 0:12:43.000 to be at this all time high. That and it's 0:12:43.360 --> 0:12:47.319 really taking its toll on people's mental it's really taking 0:12:47.360 --> 0:12:51.160 its toll on people's physical and you know, and it's 0:12:51.200 --> 0:12:53.880 a lot to process, and so you really don't know. 0:12:54.360 --> 0:12:56.200 People want to be aware, and they want to be 0:12:56.240 --> 0:12:57.640 in and now, and they want to be a part 0:12:57.679 --> 0:13:01.120 of the process, but they're also have to protect their 0:13:01.280 --> 0:13:05.319 own peace and their own you know, mental and physical 0:13:05.400 --> 0:13:07.960 well being, and so it's hard to know when you 0:13:08.000 --> 0:13:10.760 should be clocked in and when and when you have 0:13:10.880 --> 0:13:13.000 to clock out, and when you have to clock out, 0:13:13.000 --> 0:13:15.199 how long can you be clocked out because you still 0:13:15.240 --> 0:13:17.520 have to be a part of this machine, and the 0:13:17.600 --> 0:13:19.840 bills still have to get paid, and you still have 0:13:19.960 --> 0:13:22.760 to show up for work, and the cycle still has 0:13:22.760 --> 0:13:26.520 to continue on. So being in the world right now 0:13:26.760 --> 0:13:31.200 is an odd place to be. And you know, with 0:13:31.400 --> 0:13:34.000 all of the decades that I've seen, I've just never 0:13:34.040 --> 0:13:36.960 seen a time where it was just taking such a 0:13:37.040 --> 0:13:42.080 toll on people's mental and physical well being. You know, 0:13:42.280 --> 0:13:46.000 when a couple of years back in the nineties, in 0:13:46.080 --> 0:13:49.080 the early two thousands, you didn't hear a lot of 0:13:49.120 --> 0:13:52.360 the terminology that you hear now around you know, people 0:13:52.640 --> 0:13:56.880 really being mentally broken, you know, about their emotional well 0:13:56.920 --> 0:13:58.600 being and all of this. And not to say that 0:13:59.120 --> 0:14:02.120 they didn't have their own struggles then, but this is 0:14:02.200 --> 0:14:06.439 just it's been a lot to mentally process covid alone. 0:14:06.480 --> 0:14:10.880 Covid alone did a number on people, you know, the isolation, 0:14:11.400 --> 0:14:13.880 the uncertainty, the not knowing if you're ever going to 0:14:13.920 --> 0:14:15.959 be in the presence of people that you love again, 0:14:16.520 --> 0:14:20.600 the loved one's lost. Covid alone did a whole mental 0:14:20.680 --> 0:14:23.720 number on people. And then coming out of that and 0:14:24.040 --> 0:14:27.800 things just jumping right back in into warp speed because 0:14:27.800 --> 0:14:30.880 of those two years that were lost, the supply chain 0:14:30.920 --> 0:14:33.040 that's messed up, and now, like I said, with the 0:14:33.080 --> 0:14:37.400 inflation toppled, with the social injustice you know, I mean, 0:14:37.600 --> 0:14:40.000 no one ever thought in your lifetime that you would 0:14:40.040 --> 0:14:42.960 see what happened on Capitol to Hell, you know, and 0:14:43.680 --> 0:14:46.960 things of that nature in our country, Like no one thought, hey, 0:14:47.040 --> 0:14:50.320 you know, our own democracy would see an attack on 0:14:50.960 --> 0:14:54.560 this land. And so it's a lot to process emotionally, 0:14:55.440 --> 0:14:59.520 and that emotional trauma will take its toll on your 0:14:59.560 --> 0:15:02.440 nervous system. And your nervous. 0:15:02.120 --> 0:15:05.920 System is nervous system, not mine, not my nervous system. 0:15:06.280 --> 0:15:10.080 My question for you when your nervous system where you're 0:15:10.120 --> 0:15:13.240 a fight a flight, it is saying danger, danger, danger, 0:15:14.160 --> 0:15:16.480 you know, and you're trying to talk yourself off that 0:15:16.600 --> 0:15:19.960 ledge and saying, hey, it's not that bad. It doesn't 0:15:20.000 --> 0:15:24.640 have to be in that space. Because of this state 0:15:24.800 --> 0:15:27.360 of all these things and how people are processing these things, 0:15:27.400 --> 0:15:30.040 whether people are paying attention to it, we're paying too 0:15:30.160 --> 0:15:32.800 much attention to it. And another thing I want to 0:15:32.840 --> 0:15:36.160 hold in on that, I think why a lot of 0:15:36.200 --> 0:15:39.480 people are struggling so much is because they're so tuned 0:15:39.520 --> 0:15:43.160 into social media. And social media can be very polarizing 0:15:43.720 --> 0:15:47.720 with painting the very one sided picture of you know, 0:15:47.760 --> 0:15:51.160 the state of affairs. But most people aren't really so 0:15:51.320 --> 0:15:56.400 reliant on television or newscasting as much as they are 0:15:56.440 --> 0:16:00.320 about getting that delivered to them via social media. And 0:16:00.920 --> 0:16:03.840 we do know that those algorithms and everything are programmed 0:16:03.840 --> 0:16:08.920 to overstimulate and so in that even though you know, 0:16:09.120 --> 0:16:14.560 like you can say, hey, in my personal space, within myself, 0:16:14.960 --> 0:16:18.600 everything is okay, calm down, but d're in your fight 0:16:18.640 --> 0:16:21.480 a flight of saying no, it's not okay, it's not okay. 0:16:21.880 --> 0:16:23.840 How do you deal with that battle? 0:16:24.400 --> 0:16:26.160 How do I deal with it? Or how should you 0:16:26.200 --> 0:16:28.640 deal with it? Because I don't have that battle. 0:16:29.160 --> 0:16:32.240 How should I do then? Or people who do have 0:16:32.280 --> 0:16:35.520 that battle? How should they deal with it. People's emotional 0:16:35.560 --> 0:16:39.360 and mental states and will being all functioned on a 0:16:39.400 --> 0:16:42.720 different accord. So people process trauma differently. 0:16:42.960 --> 0:16:48.239 We're all traumatized. We are all traumatized. We're all traumatized. 0:16:48.320 --> 0:16:50.320 You got your trauma, I got my trauma. We are 0:16:50.400 --> 0:16:54.840 all traumatized. I am a trauma specialist. Trust me in 0:16:54.960 --> 0:16:59.440 both experiencing it and working through it. First of all, 0:16:59.440 --> 0:17:02.680 thank you for sharing, because I think that you have 0:17:03.480 --> 0:17:09.040 demonstrated a very common problem, a very common issue that 0:17:09.119 --> 0:17:13.760 many people care front. We'll talk about that when we 0:17:13.800 --> 0:17:22.120 come back. Welcome back to the R spot. Let's pick 0:17:22.200 --> 0:17:27.399 up where we left. Are you speak externally? You speak 0:17:27.400 --> 0:17:33.600 about how do you? And most people and people and 0:17:33.640 --> 0:17:37.679 that has nothing to do with you, You nosy, You 0:17:37.800 --> 0:17:45.840 all up in other people's business. How about you? How 0:17:45.880 --> 0:17:49.320 do you experience it? Because I heard you say you pray, 0:17:49.760 --> 0:17:52.960 you meditate, and what do you get out of that? 0:17:54.240 --> 0:17:56.720 Because see when I go in and I pray and 0:17:56.800 --> 0:17:59.560 I meditate, you know what I hear, I got you. 0:18:00.280 --> 0:18:04.360 That's what I hear. I got you. And so when 0:18:04.359 --> 0:18:08.679 somebody comes to me like you do, saying and what 0:18:08.720 --> 0:18:11.119 do you tell most people? I say, no, that God's 0:18:11.160 --> 0:18:15.480 got you, and it don't matter what's going on, You're 0:18:15.480 --> 0:18:18.640 gonna have what you need and what you can do 0:18:19.480 --> 0:18:23.680 to support others. If that's a concern to you, pray 0:18:23.760 --> 0:18:28.800 for constantly, send prayers out, send light out. You be 0:18:28.840 --> 0:18:32.040 as joyful and peaceful as you can. You call in 0:18:32.160 --> 0:18:35.720 what you need, you know for yourself, so that you 0:18:35.920 --> 0:18:40.680 can be a demonstration to others of what's possible. We're 0:18:40.720 --> 0:18:43.359 looking at the world and all of the wahala and 0:18:43.440 --> 0:18:47.600 the against us and the upset and upheaval, and we're saying, 0:18:47.720 --> 0:18:52.600 we're judging it. We're saying it should not be, but 0:18:52.680 --> 0:18:58.200 it is. So what do you think, in the highest 0:18:58.280 --> 0:19:04.560 realm could possibly be the reason, could be the purpose 0:19:05.200 --> 0:19:08.320 of everything that's going on in the world. What could 0:19:08.320 --> 0:19:10.760 it possibly be? Have you ever thought about that? 0:19:11.400 --> 0:19:15.199 I have I tried to, you know, identify and be 0:19:15.320 --> 0:19:19.240 okay with circumstances and and things that are out of 0:19:19.280 --> 0:19:22.280 my control. I have no control over those things, so 0:19:22.840 --> 0:19:26.919 they're out of my hands generally, and that and on 0:19:26.960 --> 0:19:31.359 a very personal level, you know, when I am praying, 0:19:31.840 --> 0:19:35.080 I'm only me. I only know my space, I only 0:19:35.119 --> 0:19:39.760 know my emotions and my feelings regarding you. Know that circumstance. 0:19:39.800 --> 0:19:42.600 But when I do pray, I do hear that God's 0:19:42.640 --> 0:19:46.160 got me and it has carried me. And not only that, 0:19:46.640 --> 0:19:50.359 you know, just from personal experiences of me, not fully 0:19:50.600 --> 0:19:54.720 understanding you know, everything that's moving or on around me, 0:19:55.000 --> 0:19:58.359 but you know, seeing when when when all the parts 0:19:58.359 --> 0:20:01.080 and the pieces come together, and see that final outcome, 0:20:01.160 --> 0:20:04.240 seeing that, okay, all was good, this is why things 0:20:04.240 --> 0:20:06.720 were moving around, or this is why things have happened, 0:20:07.119 --> 0:20:11.040 or the calm after the storm, you know, when the 0:20:11.080 --> 0:20:14.359 winds are blowing and you know, and it's storm and 0:20:14.400 --> 0:20:18.520 it's scary and it's uncertain, but that that first sunshine 0:20:18.560 --> 0:20:22.239 that breaks, everything is clean, everything is beautiful, you know, 0:20:22.320 --> 0:20:25.480 So it comes full circle. So I do understand the 0:20:25.560 --> 0:20:26.520 balance of that. 0:20:26.880 --> 0:20:30.159 Have you asked in your prayer and meditation what is 0:20:30.200 --> 0:20:34.199 the purpose of going everything that's going on? Have you 0:20:34.240 --> 0:20:38.560 asked that question in your prayer in your meditation? Do 0:20:38.640 --> 0:20:40.720 you think that Do you think that God is with 0:20:40.800 --> 0:20:41.920 the people in Ukraine? 0:20:42.560 --> 0:20:46.639 I think I think God is with all things. You know, 0:20:46.720 --> 0:20:50.159 in my belief system, I believe that God is in 0:20:50.240 --> 0:20:53.520 the midst of all things. You know, God is all. 0:20:53.840 --> 0:20:56.320 If God is in the midst of Ukraine. Do you 0:20:56.320 --> 0:21:01.000 think God was on the capitol on January sixth, because. 0:21:00.880 --> 0:21:03.400 I think there were some things that needed to be exposed. 0:21:03.720 --> 0:21:07.960 Uhhah. And do you think God is in Israel, Gaza, 0:21:08.160 --> 0:21:11.359 Palestine with the Palestinian people right now? 0:21:11.760 --> 0:21:13.119 Yeah, it's in all places. 0:21:13.400 --> 0:21:17.040 I remember I was in New York when the Twin 0:21:17.119 --> 0:21:20.520 Towers fell, when they were attacked and they fell, and 0:21:20.560 --> 0:21:25.399 I remember just weeping, weeping, weeping, weeping when I saw 0:21:25.440 --> 0:21:29.879 that second plane hit. And immediately after I finished weeping, 0:21:29.920 --> 0:21:33.159 I started praying for those who were in the tower, 0:21:33.280 --> 0:21:38.000 those who were who were affected by it, the family members, 0:21:38.359 --> 0:21:41.720 because that's what I could do, That's what I could do. 0:21:42.600 --> 0:21:46.080 And I don't need to know the result of it. 0:21:46.200 --> 0:21:48.439 I don't need to know, but I know my prayer 0:21:48.600 --> 0:21:51.760 was like a pebble in the pond and it rippled 0:21:51.800 --> 0:21:57.080 out and it had an impact to those closest to me, 0:21:58.200 --> 0:22:01.080 to those in the next rain and the next ring 0:22:01.200 --> 0:22:05.080 and the next ring and the next ring. Okay, so 0:22:05.160 --> 0:22:08.400 then what's going on in your nervous system if you're 0:22:08.440 --> 0:22:12.840 looking at these things and you say you know that God, source, Creator, 0:22:13.280 --> 0:22:16.560 higher mind, infinite intelligence, whatever you want to call it 0:22:16.600 --> 0:22:19.959 is in all of this, why is a nervous system 0:22:20.080 --> 0:22:22.560 destroy upset or imbalance. 0:22:23.840 --> 0:22:26.480 I think that trauma can start self in your body. 0:22:26.800 --> 0:22:29.080 I think you know, a lot of times we pay 0:22:29.080 --> 0:22:32.720 a lot of attention to our spirit selves. We pay 0:22:32.760 --> 0:22:35.359 a lot of attention to our mental, but we don't 0:22:35.359 --> 0:22:39.679 really pay as much attention to the physical. And I 0:22:39.720 --> 0:22:43.399 think the trauma does store itself in your body. And 0:22:43.880 --> 0:22:46.960 I think we have to focus on the tryheart figures 0:22:47.080 --> 0:22:51.960 that in contents are being and where I have done 0:22:52.000 --> 0:22:56.119 well with two, maybe lacked in the third or you know, 0:22:56.520 --> 0:23:00.119 physically big going to work out those type of things 0:23:00.160 --> 0:23:04.679 you know on it, but the component of you know, 0:23:04.840 --> 0:23:08.560 fully engaging and understanding that I have to take the 0:23:08.600 --> 0:23:11.560 time to work on relaxing and healing my nervous system 0:23:11.640 --> 0:23:12.040 as well. 0:23:14.359 --> 0:23:17.720 I think it's in your sense I hear I don't 0:23:17.760 --> 0:23:20.560 even think I hear it in your speaking, because I 0:23:20.600 --> 0:23:27.040 started counting, I'm up to nine times you've said I think, 0:23:27.720 --> 0:23:32.679 I think, I think, I think, and thought is energy 0:23:33.000 --> 0:23:36.640 and energy can never be destroyed. It can be transformed, 0:23:37.359 --> 0:23:41.760 but it can't be destroyed. So for you, for all 0:23:42.480 --> 0:23:50.920 folk who are experiencing the impact of what we could 0:23:50.960 --> 0:23:55.720 call trauma or whatever we want to call it. It's 0:23:55.840 --> 0:24:01.919 lodged in our thoughts. See, because if I know that 0:24:02.080 --> 0:24:05.720 God is in the midst of us, if I know 0:24:06.560 --> 0:24:10.320 all things are working out for the good, if I 0:24:10.560 --> 0:24:16.000 know God's source, Creator is sovereign and present and in everything. 0:24:16.520 --> 0:24:23.960 While I may not understand what I'm seeing healing experiencing, 0:24:24.760 --> 0:24:30.000 I know that something greater and grander is going on. 0:24:31.280 --> 0:24:34.800 And I'm going to stick with what I know as 0:24:34.800 --> 0:24:39.480 opposed to what I think, because the judgment could be 0:24:39.720 --> 0:24:43.040 I don't know this to be true, that this is wrong, 0:24:43.560 --> 0:24:47.280 this isn't right, This shouldn't be going on. You said it. 0:24:47.800 --> 0:24:50.600 Things shouldn't be as high as they are now, but 0:24:50.680 --> 0:24:53.560 they are. So I have to know God is in that. 0:24:54.240 --> 0:24:56.320 God is in these high prices. God is in the 0:24:56.440 --> 0:25:01.560 rising hole housing prices. God is in corporate greed. Now, 0:25:01.880 --> 0:25:06.560 what the purpose of it is I may not recognize, 0:25:06.720 --> 0:25:11.080 but I know God has a plan. I know that, 0:25:11.680 --> 0:25:14.000 so I don't have to think about it. Do I 0:25:14.119 --> 0:25:19.280 like what I see? I wouldn't prefer it. It's very unpreferred, 0:25:20.880 --> 0:25:24.200 But I'm not going to condemn it either, because there's 0:25:24.280 --> 0:25:28.720 something greater than me going on and all I can 0:25:28.760 --> 0:25:35.240 ask for. God, give me understanding, give me discernments, give 0:25:35.320 --> 0:25:39.240 me discernment, Tell me what it is I must do, 0:25:39.840 --> 0:25:42.960 how I can do, how I can be of greater service, 0:25:43.680 --> 0:25:46.560 And let me take the emphasis off. Because your central 0:25:46.640 --> 0:25:50.960 nervous system is governed by your will. Your will is 0:25:51.080 --> 0:25:55.800 lodged in your solar plexus, in the center of your being. 0:25:56.480 --> 0:26:02.560 So when our will is either the suppressed depressed, when 0:26:02.640 --> 0:26:05.879 our will is not being mad, then we have to 0:26:06.000 --> 0:26:10.080 unite our will with divine will. Does that make sense 0:26:10.119 --> 0:26:14.840 to you, just ma'am? Okay, So how can you get 0:26:15.440 --> 0:26:20.720