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Speaker 1: The Jewel Show on demand. I didn't expect to start

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Speaker 1: talking about what I'm about to talk about with a laugh.

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Speaker 1: It's the Jewel Show, gosh, And why am I laughing?

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Speaker 1: Because our listeners are hilarious, Our listeners are awesome, and

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Speaker 1: sometimes our listeners are coldhearted in me and mean and like,

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Speaker 1: honestly like to me, this stuff is funny. Right When

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Speaker 1: you do this job, people will support you and people

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Speaker 1: will rip on you no matter what you do. I

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Speaker 1: just shared that I want to take a moment to

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Speaker 1: talk about me finding out that my mom passed away.

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Speaker 1: And the first text message that comes in thank you

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Speaker 1: for the laugh. I mean that from the bottom of

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Speaker 1: my heart, because it's weird to go on a show

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Speaker 1: where we mayn't really joke around and go, hey, I

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Speaker 1: want to talk about me finding out that my mom

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Speaker 1: passed away. And I say finding out because she died

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Speaker 1: on December twenty eighth and I didn't find out and

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Speaker 1: Hill days and days and days later. Sorry, but anyway,

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Speaker 1: text message that made me laugh right before we did

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Speaker 1: this said, Jewel nobody wants to hear about your family problems.

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Speaker 1: Play doctor Phil on your own time. What were you

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Speaker 1: thinking sending a message like that, what were you thinking. Wow,

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Speaker 1: I'm not trying to play doctor Phil. I just like

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Speaker 1: to talk about my life. I've always been honest and

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Speaker 1: open on the air and in public about my life,

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Speaker 1: and I have no problem talking about it. So, yeah,

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Speaker 1: you know, I cut off contact with my immediate family

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Speaker 1: years ago because I grew up in a very abusive household,

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Speaker 1: narcissistic father, all that kind of stuff. Unfortunately, that meant

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Speaker 1: I also had to say to my mom, Hey, if

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Speaker 1: you're in that household, I just can't have a relationship

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Speaker 1: because it's hard for me. So my mom was the

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Speaker 1: only person that I was closest with in my immediate family.

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Speaker 1: I never really got to know her and she never

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Speaker 1: really got to know me. But she was the one

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Speaker 1: person that I had as a kid who when he

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Speaker 1: wasn't around, she was a different person. Yeah. I don't

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Speaker 1: have many memories of her without her brushing her tears

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Speaker 1: off as allergies. But the good ones that I do

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Speaker 1: have was whenever she had to take me to the dentist,

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Speaker 1: because then it was just me and her and she

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Speaker 1: would like listen to me and actually take the time

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Speaker 1: to talk to me. I don't have any of those memories,

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Speaker 1: so but I cut off contact with him. So I

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Speaker 1: heard from my cousin who still talks to me. She

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Speaker 1: reached out to me and said, hey, I won't let

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Speaker 1: you know that your mom bats away. It's weird because

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Speaker 1: I knew this moment would come. Last time I talked

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Speaker 1: to my mom was actually in counseling because I had

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Speaker 1: stopped talking to my father and she still wanted a

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Speaker 1: relationship and I had to have the conversation. And the

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Speaker 1: conversation was going to be, hey, if you want to

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Speaker 1: leave this man, absolutely, If not, I just can't. And

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Speaker 1: at the end of it, she made her choice and

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Speaker 1: I had to make a tough choice. And it was

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Speaker 1: so weird to get that news the way that I did.

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Speaker 1: It's just been tough to process. You know. It shook

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Speaker 1: me like it like I never had before. I Mean,

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Speaker 1: I know people out there you've lost a loved one,

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Speaker 1: and you know how it is. Now I know how

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Speaker 1: it is, and I think the way that I wanted

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Speaker 1: to talk about it, and what I wanted to say

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Speaker 1: was that my mom was brilliant. She taught me to

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Speaker 1: be curious always, and she taught me to be passionate

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Speaker 1: about life and learning, and my mom was also an

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Speaker 1: incredibly broken woman who lived her entire life not living

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Speaker 1: up to her potential. A gifted writer like her words

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Speaker 1: were beautiful. She's the reason that I love writing, and

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Speaker 1: she hought me a lot about it, and she had

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Speaker 1: amazing theories and points of view on life that she

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Speaker 1: would not share out loud around most people. And I

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Speaker 1: was like, well, what's the way that I could honor her?

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Speaker 1: Because I didn't really get to have the relationship that

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Speaker 1: I wanted with my mom, and I thought that the

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Speaker 1: way to honor her or would just be to share

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Speaker 1: it with the people that have actually been there for me.

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Speaker 1: You guys listeners who have listened to me forever and

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Speaker 1: just say that, don't waste your potential. I look at

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Speaker 1: wasted potential in life as one of the saddest things ever,

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Speaker 1: especially when it's taken from you by someone else. My

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Speaker 1: mom always wanted to be a published writer. She was

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Speaker 1: a genius. It was never seen by the world at all.

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Speaker 1: So if you're listening to me right now, and you're

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Speaker 1: in any situation where you feel like you're not living

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Speaker 1: to your full potential, and you know you that there's

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Speaker 1: something you want to do but you're not doing it

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Speaker 1: for a reason that you are in control of and

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Speaker 1: thing you can leave. I'm just asking you to honor

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Speaker 1: my mom's memory by not wasting your potential. I know

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Speaker 1: it's scary and I know it's hard, but the only

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Speaker 1: thing you really have in this world is you and

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Speaker 1: live your life the way that you want to and

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Speaker 1: live to your full potential. Otherwise you might have a

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Speaker 1: short published looking son talking about you years later, going, Man,

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Speaker 1: the saddest thing is the world never got to hear

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Speaker 1: my mom's beautiful words and know how beautiful her mind was.

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Speaker 1: I want to say something to you. This is Christian,

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Speaker 1: by the way, and as someone who is new I've

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Speaker 1: moved here and just seeing how so many people love

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Speaker 1: you and celebrate you and your mom's gifts are celebrated

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Speaker 1: through you, through a lot of people, and so whatever

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Speaker 1: you get down, don't ever forget that. Thank you man. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I look at that. I'm like, well, the parts of

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Speaker 1: me that I like I got from my mom. Absolutely, No,

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Speaker 1: those are the parts you want to share with the world. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: thank you. So hug your loved ones today. Parents, talk

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Speaker 1: to you, your kids today, just ask them something about themselves,

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Speaker 1: like That was the biggest thing my mom did for

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Speaker 1: me as a kid. Nobody cared, and she did when

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Speaker 1: she could. So just live to your potential and try

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Speaker 1: to operate from a place of compassion. And I'll find

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Speaker 1: out what my mom's last words were and I'll share

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Speaker 1: those two. Hopefully they're not clean your room again. Oh,

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Speaker 1: I had to make a joke. She would have laughed,

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Speaker 1: I know. Also, she wasn't very strict on charge, so

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Speaker 1: sheoul probably wouldn't say that. The Jebel Show on demand