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Speaker 1: Once upon a time, there was a good old traditional housewife.
Speaker 1: She cleaned and cared for her children and the man
Speaker 1: of the house, and of course she didn't talk back.
Speaker 2: She was both.
Speaker 1: Obedient and soft by nature. She was a good woman
Speaker 1: who always made choices.
Speaker 3: We're Good Mom's Bad Choices to single moms who said
Speaker 3: fuck the patriarchy, shared all their bad choices and.
Speaker 1: Found out they were so bad after all. We're experts.
Speaker 4: Overshares and your new besties.
Speaker 1: Sit back and enjoy the ride. I can do it.
Speaker 1: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices.
Speaker 4: I'm Erica and I'm Mela.
Speaker 1: Happy Wednesday, book you, Happy hent Day, Beaches. It's a Wednesday.
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Speaker 1: How are you.
Speaker 4: I'm doing pretty good. I'm doing good. I'm feeling good.
Speaker 4: You know, the sun is shining, so I can't complain.
Speaker 4: I went hiking this morning, so you know, a little
Speaker 4: vitamin D is always makes a girl feel good.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I got some D this morning, so I feel
Speaker 1: really good.
Speaker 5: Speaking of D, I got some D. Although we've been
Speaker 5: practicing semen retention in my home, not in my home.
Speaker 5: In my home, we've been practicing semen retention, which I've
Speaker 5: really had to work past.
Speaker 1: My need for completion. Breeding kink, breedingkink. No, I don't know.
Speaker 4: There's no no no, because you don't he doesn't have
Speaker 4: to be breathing.
Speaker 1: No, that's what it's called.
Speaker 4: It's called a breeding kink. When you like come inside you.
Speaker 5: No, I just like, I just like come because it
Speaker 5: feels completion. It feels like I've accomplished the end goal.
Speaker 5: There's I don't have no breathing kink as of now.
Speaker 4: It's completing for the men, So how is that going
Speaker 4: for you?
Speaker 1: Is?
Speaker 5: He like, I think it's going great for him, So
Speaker 5: not for me, it's for him.
Speaker 4: So even if you are come to completion, you're still like,
Speaker 4: like you kind of want.
Speaker 1: To see it.
Speaker 5: I mean, it's today, I did, today, I did today, Today,
Speaker 5: I did. But I was the one that actually said
Speaker 5: I don't think you should come because I knew had
Speaker 5: a really long day and I was like, you probably
Speaker 5: need all this energy.
Speaker 1: Go go be great, And so he didn't, so he.
Speaker 4: Sucked it back in and went about his day. Well
Speaker 4: that's that's a well trained man. Orlando is not as
Speaker 4: keen on wanting to attempt or master the Semen retention.
Speaker 4: Although I think it's it's about to start to be
Speaker 4: uh enforced, because we're gonna need all all the baby
Speaker 4: making batter, So just save.
Speaker 5: It up, not the batter, so make the cake. I
Speaker 5: think he I think he's got the batter.
Speaker 1: He's jamaking.
Speaker 4: I lack in it, I know, but you know, I've
Speaker 4: just been like I've been really I've been really sitting
Speaker 4: on and meditating on not and this year, but apparently
Speaker 4: a year and a half ago, I put a calendar
Speaker 4: invite for March first to start making a baby just
Speaker 4: to take out my IUD this week. This week, Oh wow,
Speaker 4: I had pre arranged for myself to remove my ID
Speaker 4: too soon, too soon pass self, but because the alert
Speaker 4: was there, and it was put there a year and
Speaker 4: a half ago. Now I'm kind of in the mindset like, damn,
Speaker 4: if I am going to have a baby like at
Speaker 4: this cycle in my life in the next twelve to
Speaker 4: eighteen months, then I really need to hone in on
Speaker 4: a bit getting rich, but be like really getting like
Speaker 4: the best of the best for this batter. So you know,
Speaker 4: I'm really going to be like I'm when I probably
Speaker 4: do like a metal d talks plastics, like just take
Speaker 4: all the shit out so that the baby won't come
Speaker 4: in with any of the bullshit that I've polluted my
Speaker 4: body with over the last thirty six years. So if
Speaker 4: I'm going to do it, Ortlanta needs to do it.
Speaker 4: So you need to start retaining that baby.
Speaker 1: M Well, good luck with that.
Speaker 5: I don't mean that, I mean about just the taking
Speaker 5: the metals out of your body and all the things,
Speaker 5: because I feel like it's like damn near fucking impossible
Speaker 5: in America.
Speaker 4: Well, the only reason I know that because oh boy
Speaker 4: that we see with a cute baby in Costa Rica.
Speaker 4: He told me that he prepared his wife's body for
Speaker 4: their baby.
Speaker 1: And I was like, what do you mean, Yeah, it's
Speaker 1: easy in Costa Rica.
Speaker 4: I'm no, they live both, they live in the States.
Speaker 4: And I asked him of what kind of things were
Speaker 4: you doing over there, master sense over here, and he
Speaker 4: said metal de talks. I think he said, like hard
Speaker 4: plastics or something. And I was just like, my plan
Speaker 4: was to DM him and ask for more.
Speaker 1: And more polyesters.
Speaker 4: I don't I'm gonna be wearing linen for for eight months.
Speaker 4: When you see me in just straight for our cottons
Speaker 4: and linens, you know why I'm prepping my uterus. Okay,
Speaker 4: at Orlando too, when you just we just saved the scrotum,
Speaker 4: Can you guys please send us all of the eco
Speaker 4: friendly underwears and oh, denims are okay, if it's one
Speaker 4: hundred percent denim, you can wear denim. Okay, it sounds
Speaker 4: rough on the balls, Okay, well he's gonna wear cotton underwear.
Speaker 4: But anyway, when you see me in Orlando walking around
Speaker 4: like a fucking healing couple in all the whites and linens.
Speaker 4: This is why we're preparing our bodies for the sun.
Speaker 1: I love it. That's important.
Speaker 4: And you know, someone told me that you could like
Speaker 4: plan for a genius baby babe, what you eat before
Speaker 4: you get pregnant. I mean, even though it's in the
Speaker 4: I know, it's like a It takes me a slow loaner,
Speaker 4: a slow learner. So I'm gonna have to start very
Speaker 4: early on practicing discipline.
Speaker 5: I mean, it's st a lot of it's it really
Speaker 5: requires a lot of sacrifice and discipline.
Speaker 1: I know.
Speaker 4: That's all I have to practice now, Yeah, before it
Speaker 4: even takes place. So yeah, then you did raking on
Speaker 4: me in Costa Rica and you said you felt a
Speaker 4: lot of male energy in my womb area. So that
Speaker 4: was very interesting confirming that I need to detox my
Speaker 4: whole body.
Speaker 5: Got to start sometime when you can start, Because you've
Speaker 5: been talking about going on a fast and juicing for
Speaker 5: five years.
Speaker 4: I don't know, haven't been a fast. I need to
Speaker 4: eat salads or something.
Speaker 1: Well, you are going on a fast, that would be
Speaker 1: a fast.
Speaker 4: Detoxing the metals, the heavy metals.
Speaker 1: First step.
Speaker 4: I need to DM that man who has the remedies
Speaker 4: he's probably gonna make me pay him. But they just
Speaker 4: do some research. How was your d this morning?
Speaker 5: It was great, top notch good, ten stars, frost to
Speaker 5: two thumbs up. It's good.
Speaker 1: Happy International Women's Month.
Speaker 4: Oh it is, it's it's no, it's International Women's Month.
Speaker 4: It's International Women's History Month. I don't know if there's
Speaker 4: any international in it. Actually, I think it's just women's history.
Speaker 4: I think it's history Women's History Month. I just looked
Speaker 4: it up. But you know, the last five years we've
Speaker 4: made up like four thousand new new holidays that don't exist.
Speaker 5: Well more importantly, Happy seven year anniversary.
Speaker 4: It's a man of verse seven.
Speaker 1: What does number seven mean? I feel like that's a
Speaker 1: really important number. I think that's true. I think you're right.
Speaker 4: Seven is like a lucky number. Maybe this is the year.
Speaker 4: I mean, I know every year has been a level up,
Speaker 4: but year seven, it really genuinely feels like something big
Speaker 4: is about to happen. I feel like I'm on like
Speaker 4: the brink of the next a huge leap in Good Moms.
Speaker 1: Seven and numera.
Speaker 5: Why are they Why do they keep trying to put Roman?
Speaker 5: No one asked for Roman seven? The number seven is
Speaker 5: considered to be a mysterious and spiritual number in association
Speaker 5: with wisdom, intuition, and creativity. People with strong connection to
Speaker 5: the number seven are said to be insightful, introspective, and intellectual.
Speaker 4: So that's us, that's us into intuitive, intellectual, smart, hell
Speaker 4: smart as hell number seven experts this is the year
Speaker 4: we level up. I can't believe we've been doing this
Speaker 4: for seven motherfucking years.
Speaker 5: I know I can, actually, because my phone will make
Speaker 5: me stop remembering with all the reminders of all the
Speaker 5: years this year, literally half of the reminders that I
Speaker 5: get in my phone every day when it's like on
Speaker 5: this year five years ago, like bitch's you, and every
Speaker 5: single year I'm like, we go together, Like every year
Speaker 5: it's you were Iri, I'm like, okay, we go together.
Speaker 1: Tell the world we go together. Oh my god. Oh well,
Speaker 1: I have some apple cider here. Oh my god. Look
Speaker 1: we're starting our health journey.
Speaker 4: Right now, sorry, our house journey because no champagne because
Speaker 4: I'm detaxing my womb. Congratulations, thank you on doing something
Speaker 4: consistently for seven years.
Speaker 1: I can't believe it. I've talked. How many episodes is
Speaker 1: in every year?
Speaker 4: Like almost fifty we've maybe taken two weeks off what's
Speaker 4: fifty times.
Speaker 5: Over three hundred fifty times seven we drank it before
Speaker 5: because Okay, cheers, Cheers to more years, Cheers to more success,
Speaker 5: Cheers to prioritizing ourselves, our motherhood, bringing women closer to themselves,
Speaker 5: unashaming the women, and healing ourselves throughout this process. Committing
Speaker 5: to sitting in front of this mic and sharing our stories,
Speaker 5: good bad, and doing it with grace.
Speaker 4: It feels really nice to be sitting in our studio.
Speaker 1: Yeah sign. We've started in our in my dining room.
Speaker 5: For those who are just listening and just joining good
Speaker 5: mom's bad choices, We've come a long way, and I
Speaker 5: want to encourage you to just start from the very
Speaker 5: fucking beginning. Our first episode Sex, Apps and Kids was
Speaker 5: sitting in my dining room in my old house.
Speaker 4: I mean, I would say about two hundred of this
Speaker 4: of the three hundred plus episodes we have.
Speaker 1: We're sitting in her living.
Speaker 4: Room, in our dining room, and we like dreamed of
Speaker 4: having a neon sign have you seen really dreamed?
Speaker 1: We actually had one, but it was like remember like
Speaker 1: it wasn't no, it did turn on, it.
Speaker 4: Wasn't a neon bitch. It was just like those those letters,
Speaker 4: those plastic leve It had lights.
Speaker 1: That's more bid had lights.
Speaker 5: Don't downplay our lights. I don't downplay our sign. But
Speaker 5: eventually it just burnt out and we never ordered another one.
Speaker 4: It worked for what it worked for. It's in a
Speaker 4: lot of photographs. Damn, man, If someone would have told
Speaker 4: me seven years ago when we started that journey, you know,
Speaker 4: seven years from now, you're going to be sitting in
Speaker 4: your own studio in Hollywood Hills with your Neon sign,
Speaker 4: with your best with your book behind you, completing sitting
Speaker 4: on fourteen fucking retreats, and a whole lot of other shit,
Speaker 4: I would have been like, no, I mean I would
Speaker 4: have and like, I know, but it really feels good
Speaker 4: to be to to bask in it, to be with
Speaker 4: a major network, to have done two tours, to yeah,
Speaker 4: like do it all with my bestie.
Speaker 5: We worked our ass off. Women are the shit we like,
Speaker 5: and we did it all while being moms, while being
Speaker 5: single fucking moms.
Speaker 4: We did this shit going through a lot of changes,
Speaker 4: a lot of transitions.
Speaker 5: I just remember, like sitting I had this vivid memory
Speaker 5: of us at Niche's house, and us with our laptops
Speaker 5: while everyone was hanging out and we were like trying
Speaker 5: to like edit an episode or get it up, and
Speaker 5: like everyone was like, what the fuck are you guys doing?
Speaker 5: Like why are you Like Eric and Jamila are always working,
Speaker 5: Like we brought our computers everywhere, like at the party,
Speaker 5: damn near at the club, like trying to like get
Speaker 5: the episode up, edit the things, because we were so
Speaker 5: fucking passionate about what we're about what we were doing.
Speaker 4: I remember that, but I think it was we're outside.
Speaker 4: It was you know what we were We were trying
Speaker 4: to complete our book proposal, and we could not We
Speaker 4: couldn't get the introdue. We could not figure out what
Speaker 4: the intro, like the first line would be. And now
Speaker 4: it's something really good. I'm gonna read it.
Speaker 1: There you go.
Speaker 5: And if you guys haven't checked out our book, it's
Speaker 5: called A Good Mom's Guide to Making Bad Choices.
Speaker 1: You can get it on Amazon.
Speaker 5: Or not or wherever you get or maybe not actually,
Speaker 5: or just google it and buy it at a store
Speaker 5: that you feel comfortable with.
Speaker 4: Get it's everywhere, but you can get Barnes and Noble.
Speaker 4: But this is the line that we wrote in our
Speaker 4: friend's backyard during a party. And I remember this very
Speaker 4: very vividly. We're probably writing this and getting an episode
Speaker 4: out because we always have everything we do we have
Speaker 4: to do simultaneously while always getting an episode out. But
Speaker 4: this was it, and I remember thinking, oh my.
Speaker 1: Gosh, this is it, This is it. This is the line.
Speaker 4: Two moms walk into a bar, one desperately seeking mommy friends,
Speaker 4: the other on the brink of a breakup, both with
Speaker 4: tequila in hand. Drops Mike, you we found love by Rihanna.
Speaker 4: That's how we How Jamila and Erica met seven years
Speaker 4: ago as new moms. Did they misstype this? It's about
Speaker 4: two years ago?
Speaker 1: Is this? God?
Speaker 5: So it was because we started as podcast seven years
Speaker 5: We started our podcast seven years What we met?
Speaker 1: Oh before that? Oh wow?
Speaker 4: Okay, that's how we Jamila and Erica met seven years
Speaker 4: ago as new moms finding our way. We jumped into
Speaker 4: motherhood from different places, but with the same goal, get married,
Speaker 4: break generational curses, and live half happily ever after. Of course,
Speaker 4: this being real life and all things didn't quite turn
Speaker 4: out that way. Warning, this is not your typical mommy
Speaker 4: how to guide in the pages that follow your help
Speaker 4: you will hear both of our voices and the stories
Speaker 4: that led us to being good moms who embrace their
Speaker 4: bad choices. These choices and our friendship have been monumental
Speaker 4: to our growth and healing as women and evolution as
Speaker 4: modern day mothers. Through sharing on our podcast radically honest
Speaker 4: stories about topics arranging from birth and sex to abuse
Speaker 4: and starting over, we have unlocked the cheat code to
Speaker 4: combating shame, guilt, and the toxic motherhood complex. But now
Speaker 4: allow us to tell you how it all begun. Oh,
Speaker 4: that was what we wrote. I don't know if it
Speaker 4: was the whole thing with that first paragraph, two moms
Speaker 4: walking to a bar.
Speaker 1: And we thought we went crazy with that one. We
Speaker 1: were like, oh and we did.
Speaker 4: We really killed it with that, because that was the
Speaker 4: truth for those of you who are just joining us.
Speaker 4: Erica and I met early on in our motherhood. I
Speaker 4: think Lunda was like six months five months. Iri was
Speaker 4: like three, And I mean Erica cornered me in a bar.
Speaker 4: I was there with my baby daddy. I'll never forget.
Speaker 1: And I had seen her on the internet and.
Speaker 4: She was like, you have a baby, right, It won't
Speaker 4: even know if it was super friendly it was just like,
Speaker 4: you have a baby, right.
Speaker 1: To the point.
Speaker 4: I do have a baby. She's like okay, well me too.
Speaker 4: Did you want to get the girls together? We should
Speaker 4: get them together? And I was like okay. And it
Speaker 4: was just like is this high school? I haven't made
Speaker 4: a new friend in fucking years and I didn't know
Speaker 4: it was coming. And I was just like i'd seen
Speaker 4: her on the internet. She was getting engaged. She looked
Speaker 4: like she was doing that so perfectly and so right.
Speaker 4: She had a fat ring. I was broke as hell.
Speaker 4: I was miserable, and she was trying to be my friend.
Speaker 4: And I was like, hell, yeah, I'm coming over on Monday, bitch.
Speaker 4: And my baby daddy tried to prevent me from going.
Speaker 4: He tried to talk shit. He would try to act
Speaker 4: like he knew you, like, oh yeah, I remember her,
Speaker 4: Like my baby daddy used to do this thing where
Speaker 4: he made every woman a whore, a whore, like maybe
Speaker 4: he fucked her. Like he always try to confuse me
Speaker 4: a little bit.
Speaker 1: Even on TV. He'd be like, oh I know her,
Speaker 1: and like be vague.
Speaker 4: Yeah, it'd be so vague, like Holly Berry. It'd be
Speaker 4: like Megan Good, like what and he'd be like, oh, yeah,
Speaker 4: you know she used to get around okay, shut oh
Speaker 4: my goodness. But even that hangout with our kids, they
Speaker 4: could barely lift their heads because they were infants. And
Speaker 4: that's pretending like it was a play date, even though
Speaker 4: it was clearly a playdate for us.
Speaker 1: Yeah it was. It was.
Speaker 5: People always ask us like, why why did you start
Speaker 5: your podcast or how did you start it?
Speaker 1: And I was like, bitch of god, I don't even
Speaker 1: know why.
Speaker 5: I have no idea because podcasting seven years ago is
Speaker 5: not podcasting now.
Speaker 1: There was literally no one.
Speaker 5: There were no cool podcasts honestly, like maybe The Read
Speaker 5: and Morbal Decisions and that's about it. It was very white,
Speaker 5: very nerdy, very murder mystery.
Speaker 1: I know.
Speaker 4: That's why even when you asked me to do it,
Speaker 4: I was like, I don't know.
Speaker 1: You don't even know what a podcast was, because most
Speaker 1: people didn't know what. I was, just like a radio whatever.
Speaker 4: I was just so happy to do something with anyone
Speaker 4: that was outside of what I was doing.
Speaker 1: I was just like, yeah, I'm feeling bored. I feel
Speaker 1: like I need a outlet.
Speaker 4: Well, thank you for saying yes, thank you for inviting
Speaker 4: me on this journey. And thank you to God into
Speaker 4: our entity j America for just taking the motherfucking wheel
Speaker 4: and really saving us on a lot of different like
Speaker 4: saving us just continuously like showing us ourselves. This journey
Speaker 4: has really been the most like propelled into my intuition,
Speaker 4: into magic, into like understanding that my purpose, and to
Speaker 4: just trusting the process every fucking step of the way.
Speaker 4: Like just really this has been like a cheat sheet
Speaker 4: to when you follow yourself and you follow your gut
Speaker 4: like God follows.
Speaker 1: I mean I think that for me too.
Speaker 5: And also just like the sisterhood, like how important sisterhood
Speaker 5: is and how it's continued it's continued to unfold in
Speaker 5: my life, how women have continued to show up for
Speaker 5: me once I chose and said, okay, yes I'm going
Speaker 5: to trust women. And I didn't have I don't I
Speaker 5: didn't like have a lot of deep distrust for women.
Speaker 5: But I, like I've talked about this on previous episodes,
Speaker 5: there was always like a lot of competition in my
Speaker 5: mind regarding women, just because of how I grew up, and.
Speaker 1: This partnership really showed me that.
Speaker 5: It's not a competition, it's really about seeing eye to eye.
Speaker 5: And then saying okay, like let's do this together. Collaboration, collaboration,
Speaker 5: and like this is something too that's recently come up
Speaker 5: for me too, as I'm like contemplating on like what
Speaker 5: what do I want to do for me? Like what
Speaker 5: is what's next for Erica, you know, And I've like
Speaker 5: thought a lot about like how afraid I am to
Speaker 5: do things alone and how in the past I have.
Speaker 1: Started things and not finished them on my own.
Speaker 5: And actually I was talking to Ashley about this the
Speaker 5: other day and miss rights way, and I was telling
Speaker 5: her how like I've been like really hard on myself
Speaker 5: because I'm like I got to figure something out on
Speaker 5: my own. And she was like, well, maybe the power
Speaker 5: of collaboration is your superpower, and then I was like, yeah,
Speaker 5: actually I think it is. And I actually like, don't
Speaker 5: have to do things on my own. And actually I
Speaker 5: think it's I've proven to myself that actually I am
Speaker 5: more powerful in collaboration. And I think it's women, like
Speaker 5: a lot of times we do think that we have
Speaker 5: to do things on our own in order to be
Speaker 5: more valuable, in order to to prove something to feel
Speaker 5: like oh I can sustain this, and like no one
Speaker 5: can take it away from me because of that distrust, and.
Speaker 4: I didn't realize it was like could be rooted in distrust.
Speaker 1: Yeah, And I think a lot of times too.
Speaker 5: It's like, even coming into this partnership with you, there
Speaker 5: was a lot of people that were like, oh, you're
Speaker 5: going to start a business with a friend. That's tricky,
Speaker 5: And historically I've seen it be tricky. I've even seen
Speaker 5: it with my mom and her former business partner. And
Speaker 5: I was like shit, but I didn't listen and I
Speaker 5: just I just.
Speaker 1: My need for friendship superseded any of it. I think,
Speaker 1: especially because I didn't know I was starting a business.
Speaker 4: I think that was the saving grace. It's like we
Speaker 4: weren't very clear that we were starting a business. We
Speaker 4: were just doing a hobby together. We're just doing something together.
Speaker 4: There wasn't a lot of thought, is if this is
Speaker 4: going to be super successful, are we going to touch
Speaker 4: the lives of millions of people. It was just like
Speaker 4: something we desperately needed for ourselves, and we just blindly
Speaker 4: started to follow that. And even when it did start
Speaker 4: to develop and realize like, oh my god, this is
Speaker 4: a brand, this is a business, this is this huge
Speaker 4: commitment and there is this huge like potential. I think
Speaker 4: we were already so deeply in it together that those
Speaker 4: negative comments didn't really didn't hold us back.
Speaker 5: Thank God. Yeah no, And I'm so happy that I'm
Speaker 5: so happy that it hasn't. And I'm so happy that
Speaker 5: we've been able to persevere through every phase, through every relationship,
Speaker 5: through every new birthday of our.
Speaker 1: Children, through heartbreak, through just so much.
Speaker 5: You know, and I know that women we have a
Speaker 5: hard time trusting one another. And it's like, as we
Speaker 5: step into this new year, and as we step into
Speaker 5: just the uncertainty of what's happening around us, it's so important,
Speaker 5: it's so important for you to just begin to do
Speaker 5: away with that concept, do away with that mindset. It's
Speaker 5: not going to serve you. You do need women need
Speaker 5: I need a Jamila, I need my girlfriends. Like literally,
Speaker 5: my girlfriends have saved my fucking life over and over
Speaker 5: and over again. It's been women. There's like this, who's
Speaker 5: this a poet? I think her name is like Rupie,
Speaker 5: what's her name? Basically with a D. Basically she had
Speaker 5: this poem where she was like, it's been it's been
Speaker 5: the it's been women who have been there for me.
Speaker 5: That have washed my feet and dried my tears and
Speaker 5: like nourished me and fed me like when when I
Speaker 5: had nothing and no one, And and that's because we
Speaker 5: are that's what we do. That's what we're here for.
Speaker 5: We're nurturers. And not just for men. We're not nurturers
Speaker 5: just for our families and our children, Like we're nurturius
Speaker 5: for each other. And so when we allow ourselves to
Speaker 5: receive from other women, And you know, part of the
Speaker 5: reason why me and Mila I think even began the
Speaker 5: podcast was and we share this a few episodes ago,
Speaker 5: is like you have to be okay being vulnerable in
Speaker 5: order to open yourself up to other women. Like there's
Speaker 5: no way that you're going to deepen into connection with
Speaker 5: with with a new friend or someone that you're interested
Speaker 5: in starting a friendship with by just having surface as
Speaker 5: surface conversations.
Speaker 4: Or by allowing like projecting a lot of judgment, Like
Speaker 4: there has to be a level of vulnerability. And like
Speaker 4: to your point about like women historically saving women, nurturing women,
Speaker 4: like bringing women back to life as like I also
Speaker 4: feel like there's a level of if you can't soften
Speaker 4: with your girlfriends, if you don't have the ability to
Speaker 4: soften in friendship. It is very difficult to have a
Speaker 4: romantic relationship. There are women who pride themselves and not
Speaker 4: being girls girls and only being you know, like able
Speaker 4: to be vulnerable with their men. But like, there's there's
Speaker 4: a certain type of vulnerability that comes with a friendship.
Speaker 4: There's a there's a there's a healing that happens when
Speaker 4: it comes back between women.
Speaker 5: I don't care how how vulnerable you think you've gotten
Speaker 5: with your man. There's no level of vulnerability that you
Speaker 5: can experience with the man that you experience with women,
Speaker 5: because there's we share wombs. There's a level of understanding
Speaker 5: connectedness that no man will ever be able to understand.
Speaker 5: And that goes on the other side for men as well.
Speaker 5: Like you can't like and like to your point, like
Speaker 5: you have to be able to be vulnerable with your
Speaker 5: female friends, even more so than I feel like if
Speaker 5: with your with your whatever your love, if that's a
Speaker 5: masculine energy or whoever it is. But I think that
Speaker 5: there's no way that you can fully open yourself up
Speaker 5: to that relationship until you've really opened yourself up to
Speaker 5: the women in your life in that way.
Speaker 4: Because I think sometimes the women in our life are
Speaker 4: also like a like a like a mirror to yourself.
Speaker 4: And sometimes even women who talk like that, like I
Speaker 4: don't do women, it's like because there's a level of
Speaker 4: vulnerability they haven't been able to to come to within themselves.
Speaker 5: And there's a map, like there's for sure and for
Speaker 5: the women that are listening, who are who? If you
Speaker 5: feel like you fall into that category and you feel
Speaker 5: like you have like your man, your man, your man,
Speaker 5: and I'm sure you he's your man, your man.
Speaker 1: Your man.
Speaker 5: How many times, though, have you felt like you couldn't
Speaker 5: like there was a level of like disconnect in whatever,
Speaker 5: in something that you've shared, because there's only so much
Speaker 5: a man can fully understand around your emotions, and so
Speaker 5: you've had to You've had to shrink yourself. You have
Speaker 5: to compartmentalize parts of yourself. I don't care how close
Speaker 5: you are to your man. There's a level of vulnerability
Speaker 5: that no man will be able to hold space for
Speaker 5: that a woman can hold space for. And I see
Speaker 5: that at our I see that at our retreats. I
Speaker 5: see that in my one on one relationships with my friends.
Speaker 5: I see that with clients. I think I see that
Speaker 5: with everyone, you know, Like, I think that the wound
Speaker 5: that women have with each other is like actually the
Speaker 5: most important wound to wound to heal in order to
Speaker 5: be open to romantic love.
Speaker 4: And also I think a level of like openness in
Speaker 4: order to like birth things Like Eric and I when
Speaker 4: our wounds linked up. I know that sounds crazy, Like
Speaker 4: when our wounds linked up and our entity was created,
Speaker 4: there was a level of like rapid manifestation that we
Speaker 4: were able to unlock that really made me like clear
Speaker 4: of my powers. And I think that was only possible
Speaker 4: in this friendship, like in this female friendship. Of like yes,
Speaker 4: we were both like blind and leaping into this, which
Speaker 4: I think was like a beautiful thing. But there was
Speaker 4: a level of just manifesting without question quickly, and I
Speaker 4: think we both like kind of like honed in on this, like, oh,
Speaker 4: we have the ability to manifest anything that we want,
Speaker 4: and we realized it in you know, community with each other.
Speaker 4: So I just don't underestimate the magic that can be
Speaker 4: created and the things that you can birth with the
Speaker 4: women in your life. Like I recognize that one hundred percent.
Speaker 4: Like I'm collaborative, I work best in like in collaboration,
Speaker 4: in partnership, because like I just know that because of you,
Speaker 4: I would have not you know, like I was really
Speaker 4: struggling before getting into this space and working alone and
Speaker 4: just feeling, yeah, like I couldn't stick with anything, like
Speaker 4: nothing could be like super successful. I just was feeling
Speaker 4: stuck a lot, and this like something about this relationship
Speaker 4: just made me like not question shit. Even whether we
Speaker 4: had like huge ideas, it didn't make any sense.
Speaker 5: I also think, like, as I'm thinking too around this
Speaker 5: this idea of like how women directly affect how you
Speaker 5: show up in so many spaces in your life, not
Speaker 5: just through the romantic one. There's all this talk around,
Speaker 5: like and it's been an ongoing conversation around like women
Speaker 5: that want to be softer, right, like soft life whatever.
Speaker 5: And I think that like women are waiting for men
Speaker 5: to like provide this environment for them to be soft.
Speaker 5: But I actually think that I've become softer in the
Speaker 5: presence of women. I've learned how to soften myself in
Speaker 5: the presence of women, and that actually directly benefits my relationship.
Speaker 5: Of course, yes, a man can help support that, but
Speaker 5: I also think that female friendships actually are so much
Speaker 5: of the medicine that helps women be soft.
Speaker 4: It's definitely medicine and it does. It does soften you
Speaker 4: like doing these retreats, like being able to hold other
Speaker 4: women and comfort them and support them through hard things
Speaker 4: and just understand the pain that they're experiencing, even if
Speaker 4: it's not something I've personally been through. There's a level
Speaker 4: of empathy that I can hold for another woman, you know,
Speaker 4: in certain spaces that like allow me to soften and
Speaker 4: be vulnerable and also allow me, like this retreat space
Speaker 4: has really allowed me to like understand you have no
Speaker 4: idea what people are going through, you know, like you can,
Speaker 4: you know, and every day in life we've wrn into
Speaker 4: people and we're like, oh, she's so loud, Oh this
Speaker 4: is that? Oh that you know what I mean? Like
Speaker 4: making up all types of ideas about women, you know,
Speaker 4: making creating ideas and completely fictitious lives like I did
Speaker 4: about Erica, you know, I thought, you know, and being
Speaker 4: able to be in a container with women where we
Speaker 4: can really be vulnerable gives you the opportunity to be like, oh,
Speaker 4: you're human like me. Everyone is just human. We're all
Speaker 4: dealing in these things, but we're very rarely in spaces
Speaker 4: where we give each other the opportunity to take off
Speaker 4: the mask and be like, oh, I understand you're going
Speaker 4: through something. Oh you did get on my nerves, but
Speaker 4: I understand, Like we're just different.
Speaker 1: I understand you're excited.
Speaker 4: Like there's so many it's so easy to repel someone
Speaker 4: first and make up your mind about someone. You know, Hey,
Speaker 4: it's not my cup of tea, it's not my type
Speaker 4: of bitch. I have never left a retreat and been like,
Speaker 4: that's not my type of bitch.
Speaker 1: Never, never, you know.
Speaker 4: And that's a lot solely because we have six days
Speaker 4: to like really find out who those people are and
Speaker 4: what they're going through and give them grace. And like
Speaker 4: there's always something that I see of myself and someone else.
Speaker 4: And so it's just like it reminds me when I
Speaker 4: come back to like the real world and when my
Speaker 4: first mind is to do shit like that, I'm like, no,
Speaker 4: not doing that, you know, And like even giving that
Speaker 4: to my daughter, right, Like, that's not how we act,
Speaker 4: that's not how we conduct ourselves with other people or
Speaker 4: other women, because we're all going through some shit.
Speaker 1: It's true.
Speaker 4: Unluckily me and Erka were going through some shit seven
Speaker 4: years ago and start this podcast.
Speaker 1: It's true terrible breakup sadness.
Speaker 5: That's why I so look forward to our retreats because
Speaker 5: I feel like in between the retreats, like I start
Speaker 5: to harden.
Speaker 1: A little bit, get a little crunchy. Yeah.
Speaker 5: And we actually have a retreat coming up you guys
Speaker 5: in April.
Speaker 1: It's our first retreat in Jamaica.
Speaker 5: It's our Flower Goddess Retreat aka Ganja Goddess. So this
Speaker 5: is for our smoking mamas or just women. Our retreats
Speaker 5: are not just for women, but it's sort of for
Speaker 5: our smoking women.
Speaker 4: I'll have a retreat for smoking women. You don't have
Speaker 4: to know, yeah, you don't have to smoke, you don't
Speaker 4: have to smoke with This one specifically is going to
Speaker 4: be very four twenty friendly because and it's we're going
Speaker 4: to be in Jamaica on fucking four to twenty.
Speaker 5: So we have a few more spots left. We actually
Speaker 5: were sold out of this retreat, but then a few
Speaker 5: women had to cancel last minute. So if there's anybody
Speaker 5: listening that wants to join us in Jamaica on April
Speaker 5: seventeenth through the twenty second, we have a few spots left.
Speaker 5: We are offering a discount code because we know it's
Speaker 5: last minute, so make sure you click the link and
Speaker 5: check out the Flower Goddess Retreat and use code Ganja.
Speaker 4: Especially the East Coast girlies. Okay, because you're close, you're
Speaker 4: right there. Lights are cheap and you might as well
Speaker 4: come pull up and put your bathing suit on because
Speaker 4: I know it's cold as shit in the East Coast,
Speaker 4: and come smoke one with us and celebrate for twenty
Speaker 4: and like a.
Speaker 3: Beach front villa. We're literally right on the water's.
Speaker 4: Waking up to the ocean, the Caribbean ocean, and waking
Speaker 4: up to breakfast blunts, waking up to yoga and chiefing,
Speaker 4: probably some fine men and some good ass food.
Speaker 5: Most importantly, most importantly jerk chicken, most importantly fine aess men.
Speaker 1: And chicken. She can wait a men? What more can
Speaker 1: a girl asked for? Chicken? Wait a man?
Speaker 4: It's sisterhood. It sounds like happened to me. I'm there.
Speaker 4: I'm really excited about about the Ganjia Goddess Retreat. I
Speaker 4: just started doing my goddess initiation with Goddess Jesse from
Speaker 4: the Sweet Love Sanctuary, so I'm like on this ninety
Speaker 4: day journey with a cohort of women doing the same thing,
Speaker 4: and like we're learning about like the African like African
Speaker 4: spirituality and the African systems of spirituality, and it's it's
Speaker 4: really interesting because there's a lot of things that mirror Tantra.
Speaker 4: And I know Tantra has African roots, but you know,
Speaker 4: last year, if you saw our African Ancestry episode, I
Speaker 4: found out that I was Oruba. So like learning through
Speaker 4: my good sister Jesse and also just through her initiations
Speaker 4: and like all of her mentorship has been really really cool.
Speaker 4: And like I rarely take time to go within, but
Speaker 4: I realized, like in order to go to the next
Speaker 4: initiation in any cycle of life, there requires like a
Speaker 4: lot of inward reflection. And we're doing like a lot
Speaker 4: of ancestor work. We're really talking about like taking care
Speaker 4: of our altars, healing past trauma, healing church trauma, and
Speaker 4: a lot of people experience that.
Speaker 1: It's very much what we do.
Speaker 4: In our retreats, but with an African spirituality like perspective,
Speaker 4: perspective and like voodoo, and so I'm really excited about
Speaker 4: like sharing in that process. I'm gonna share about it
Speaker 4: in discord. And but you know, I just feel like
Speaker 4: like the spring as a time of like blooming and blossoming,
Speaker 4: and like we hibernate all winter and we rest and
Speaker 4: now there's like another version coming. And this is year nine,
Speaker 4: and I'm my my year of numerology is also nine,
Speaker 4: So I feel like there's another year nine of what
Speaker 4: like when you add up all the numbers of your birthday?
Speaker 4: Oh oh, you're everybody has a number? Do you know
Speaker 4: your number?
Speaker 1: Really?
Speaker 4: How do I figure out? I think I thought you
Speaker 4: were seven? But maybe I made that up?
Speaker 1: You mean like my life path number? Yes, I think
Speaker 1: it's six? Six? Okay, yeah? Six?
Speaker 3: And the nine?
Speaker 1: Yeah baby say so.
Speaker 4: I just I know I don't know something about this spring,
Speaker 4: particularly as we approach the spring equinox. I'm feeling a
Speaker 4: birthing that's taking place. I mean, like not of my
Speaker 4: actual womb right now, but like of me. And I'm
Speaker 4: excited about that. And I feel like this like this
Speaker 4: retree is a it's in Jamaica, black people. I'm really
Speaker 4: really excited. I mean, we like to travel where we
Speaker 4: see ourselves, but I'm just excited. I'm excited about this year.
Speaker 4: I feel like and are you seven year anniversary? We
Speaker 4: have big things coming.
Speaker 1: Big things for sure?
Speaker 4: Do you speaking of things?
Speaker 1: Do you want to roll back with Backwood? I do
Speaker 1: you know what?
Speaker 5: I I brought some weed.
Speaker 1: My dad gave me that weed. Oh, shout out to Miles.
Speaker 1: He actually came by my.
Speaker 5: House and well, we love this is like, this is
Speaker 5: how we used to get it an old day.
Speaker 1: You're aging ends, this is that, this is that pack.
Speaker 1: That's that pack for my dad.
Speaker 4: He was like, I'm just come over and give you
Speaker 4: a hug. And I was like, oh my, okay, that's
Speaker 4: new and it's different, and you know, it's so interesting. Like,
Speaker 4: I find it more difficult to be as soft with
Speaker 4: my family as I am in like our friend spaces
Speaker 4: or at the retreat, and I'm trying to work on that,
Speaker 4: like delivering the same amount of softness in my closest
Speaker 4: personal relationships as well. Do you find that like with
Speaker 4: like your parents.
Speaker 5: I feel like I've gotten very soft with my mom
Speaker 5: over the last year. I almost feel like I'm like
Speaker 5: mothering her in ways that's been healing for you. I
Speaker 5: think it's been healing for both of us. She's softened
Speaker 5: a lot, which has been really nice. I feel like
Speaker 5: I was I've been waiting for this because my mom
Speaker 5: also like she's she's someone who has had to be
Speaker 5: in the masculine forever. It feels like, I mean, I know,
Speaker 5: since I was born, like having to take control of
Speaker 5: you know, everything, everything, and then working in a male
Speaker 5: dominated industry and having to prove herself and and then
Speaker 5: you know, leaving that industry makeup. My mom was a
Speaker 5: professional makeup artist my whole life, and then moving into
Speaker 5: being a business owner and you know that again too.
Speaker 5: So I think that I've also seen my mom spending
Speaker 5: a lot more time outside, which is very rare I've met.
Speaker 5: My mom has never been like outside a girl. No,
Speaker 5: She's been working literally like every day in my life.
Speaker 5: And so with the shifts that's been happening in her life,
Speaker 5: I saw her at uh.
Speaker 1: Where was she at last night?
Speaker 5: Verse I was taking selfies in the mirror with her friend.
Speaker 1: I'm in the bathroom. I was like, okay, mom side,
Speaker 1: and she's been hanging out with a lot of girlfriends,
Speaker 1: and like I said, like I see the softening happening
Speaker 1: with her is like she's finally allowing herself time to
Speaker 1: do it because as women too, we make excuses. I
Speaker 1: don't have time. I don't have time for that. I
Speaker 1: don't have time for joy, I don't have time for pleasure.
Speaker 4: Enjoying the pleasures always last on the life.
Speaker 3: It's gonna be it's gonna I've been, I've done it before.
Speaker 3: It's gonna be whack, like you know, just making up
Speaker 3: before you got there far.
Speaker 4: You know, I'm happy you said that, like pause on
Speaker 4: your story. I want to just say, for a for
Speaker 4: women that make excuses about having female friends, but mostly
Speaker 4: for women who make excuses about having fun and just
Speaker 4: being free and letting go and just going to play
Speaker 4: like I'll say that aside from the fact that me
Speaker 4: and Eric I would literally have to have shit to
Speaker 4: talk about every week for fucking six years. In years
Speaker 4: we were so clear about fuck it, let's have fun
Speaker 4: like a we wanted to have I think we're both
Speaker 4: experiential bitches and we'd like to have a story. But
Speaker 4: then when you add the cherry on top that we
Speaker 4: actually have a we actually do have to have a story.
Speaker 1: We have to we have got this case study. It's
Speaker 1: a case study.
Speaker 4: Every time the man of bad choices we've made and
Speaker 4: decided it was a case study.
Speaker 1: Do you know him?
Speaker 6: No?
Speaker 4: Okay, I's just getting his car. Let's just get in.
Speaker 1: Wait is this what you did last time? Okay, we
Speaker 1: have the true Did you break it up?
Speaker 4: Like?
Speaker 1: Yeah, our true wraps? Should I put it in here?
Speaker 4: No, just break it up. It's gonna crunch right down.
Speaker 1: Baby.
Speaker 4: This is so you don't have to give like get
Speaker 4: too much of a heady high. You just crunched down.
Speaker 1: How much should I use? Like half? Yeah, that's a
Speaker 1: good half. Half a little half. Yeah, let me just
Speaker 1: just crunch it in there some AMR.
Speaker 4: Oh my god, I remember we needed ASMR ASMR with
Speaker 4: backwards true Baby. I don't know why this is the
Speaker 4: a SMR. Remember those two episodes we did of ASMR.
Speaker 1: I really never loved it.
Speaker 5: We bring back Look, okay, first of all, to be like,
Speaker 5: gave me so much shape for wanting to do ASMR.
Speaker 5: It's like, what are you talking to, stupid fucking SMR.
Speaker 5: I'm like, they're just gonna be a hit. Just watch
Speaker 5: and we put it out and.
Speaker 1: People are like more, we need more, we need more,
Speaker 1: good mom's ASMR. We need a whole fucking channel. Didn't
Speaker 1: we do too? We did?
Speaker 5: We did Harold Bell's, and we did Cereal and then
Speaker 5: we did the chicken wings.
Speaker 1: Wait, no, that was Harolin. We did tacos, those nasty
Speaker 1: taco those.
Speaker 4: Were actually if you haven't checked out our ASMR series
Speaker 4: on YouTube, what the fuck are you doing? It's actually
Speaker 4: the funniest shit we ever put out. It's actually I
Speaker 4: didn't know it was gonna be so fun and so funny,
Speaker 4: but it actually I was really inspired by our kids.
Speaker 4: It was our kids kept telling us to do it
Speaker 4: because I don't really get the type of ASMR, but wow, wow,
Speaker 4: it was really fun. And now we're doing a SMR
Speaker 4: blunt rolling.
Speaker 5: Okay, so now this is the blunt is actually going
Speaker 5: inside of the joint.
Speaker 4: So this is so we take the true rap, let
Speaker 4: me use it like it's grava, and we put it
Speaker 4: inside of the paper. So it just opens you up
Speaker 4: just a little bit for lightheadedness, not too much.
Speaker 1: It makes it like a little heftier smoke. Yeah, it's
Speaker 1: more significantly more weighted weighted smoke.
Speaker 4: Okay, sorry, i'd ben interrupt you about your mom.
Speaker 5: No, no, I was just saying that, like I've just
Speaker 5: watched her soften lately, and I think part of that
Speaker 5: is life kicking her ass a little bit. And then
Speaker 5: also and then her I think her also connecting more
Speaker 5: with her friends, like making time, knowing that she needs
Speaker 5: to go outside, knowing that she needs women, not just
Speaker 5: her husband, women to like help her, to like confide in.
Speaker 5: Like there's only so much you can talk to with
Speaker 5: a man about your feelings, your emotions and what you're
Speaker 5: going through, you know, and so talking to other women,
Speaker 5: especially women that have gone through something, that are going
Speaker 5: through something similar to what she's been going through, Like
Speaker 5: there's like a level of I guess, vulnerability, of humbleness,
Speaker 5: all those things that I think women provide a space for.
Speaker 5: And so it's been really nice to see her do that.
Speaker 5: And so to answer your question, I do I am
Speaker 5: soft with my mom. Our relationship has come a long way.
Speaker 5: Even if you go back and listen to like our
Speaker 5: episode we did with her like three four years ago
Speaker 5: or so, like our relationship then is so different than
Speaker 5: it was now, you know, like even then, like she
Speaker 5: was definitely in her masculine and even in the episode,
Speaker 5: you know, my mom's a boss bitch, you know, and like,
Speaker 5: but shit, she's tired.
Speaker 1: I mean, you can you can only wear the wear
Speaker 1: the badge so long, it's like sometimes you can put
Speaker 1: that shit down. It's exhausting.
Speaker 4: It's exhausting, and even even as to our parents, you know,
Speaker 4: it's exhausting. It's exhausting holding up holding it like the
Speaker 4: weight of whatever you think that you've made them out
Speaker 4: in your mind, and like, yeah, and time is of
Speaker 4: the essence, you know, like we're not promised every day,
Speaker 4: We're not promised forever. This is a temporary human experience,
Speaker 4: and just remembering to soften with yourself a but also
Speaker 4: like and your girlfriends, but soften with the people that
Speaker 4: matter most, with your kids, with your parents, because just
Speaker 4: like the same speech we just gave about not knowing
Speaker 4: what other women are going through, is like you sometimes
Speaker 4: don't even know what your parents are going through and
Speaker 4: like and how they're being affected, because you know, I
Speaker 4: was feeling myself wanting to judge my dad a little
Speaker 4: bit last week, and then he called and like just
Speaker 4: randomly came over, brought that weight and asked for a hug,
Speaker 4: and I just had to be like, let me stand down,
Speaker 4: let me not be judgmental, let me not make up
Speaker 4: a narrative in my mind, and just stick with it
Speaker 4: and let me just let him come over and give
Speaker 4: me a hug. The hug it was nice. I probably
Speaker 4: could have been longer, you know, when I've functioned very
Speaker 4: much in the very like we're loving but not super touchy.
Speaker 4: So it's kind of like, now you come, everyone give
Speaker 4: me a super long hungg.
Speaker 1: It's interesting.
Speaker 4: But you know, my dad's pretty loving. But just a
Speaker 4: reminder to everyone listening that hug your parents, hug your friends.
Speaker 4: Sometimes the peoples we know the most and the closest
Speaker 4: to us, it's the hardest to give that deep stranger love.
Speaker 1: True.
Speaker 4: I just looked over at you with that chain on
Speaker 4: and that hat. It's like, run DMC.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm throwing it back. I gotta throw it back,
Speaker 1: like I gotta throw back merch on. We don't even
Speaker 1: sell this one anymore. We have to run this back.
Speaker 5: Actually, this and this should've had since like that's cute.
Speaker 5: I was like twenty two.
Speaker 1: It kind of looks like ours, But I know, I
Speaker 1: was like I did. I was like, was this what
Speaker 1: we were inspired by? That's my mind.
Speaker 5: This is by this old brand called dope. It was
Speaker 5: like really popular once upon a time.
Speaker 1: I was like, everybody might still even have it. But
Speaker 1: it was like they had a store on Fairfax. I
Speaker 1: like that netted.
Speaker 4: There was a whole moment look at us kind of
Speaker 4: kind of matching again with knit and where.
Speaker 1: Are you ready for this? The final smoking of this
Speaker 1: backwood insert of Shinen Blunt enjoyed backward sprinkle. Oh, speaking
Speaker 1: of which, you guys, we have a new segment called
Speaker 1: high Thoughts. That's where we get high and we say thoughts. Meila,
Speaker 1: you said that you had a high thought you would
Speaker 1: like to share this week. What is your high thought
Speaker 1: of the week? My dear, Okay, let me hit that.
Speaker 4: Hold on, let me hit that so I can really
Speaker 4: get into my high thoughts I thought I had this week. Honestly,
Speaker 4: I've been having this thought for some months now, I
Speaker 4: just didn't have It's for our ASMR community.
Speaker 1: Well let's do it. Let's do it for the old
Speaker 1: the old days. This was a let's not do that.
Speaker 1: I was gonna do that, but I'm not going to
Speaker 1: do that. Just do it. It's not short enough. That's
Speaker 1: kind of long. No. Wait, when you do like that? Yeah,
Speaker 1: I'm afraid. Wait but do you put it in your mouth? Right? Yeah?
Speaker 5: You could do it real stoner moms.
Speaker 1: Here, it's called a shotgun. We're real stoner moms.
Speaker 3: That was bad.
Speaker 4: That wasn't as bad as I thought it was going
Speaker 4: to be.
Speaker 1: I thought it might burn my tongue, but we succeeded.
Speaker 4: Okay, So my high thought of the week was that
Speaker 4: I know this has happened to everyone listening because it's
Speaker 4: happened to me four million times. Have you ever been
Speaker 4: talking about something and then suddenly, of course it pops
Speaker 4: up on your phone?
Speaker 1: Every time that happened the other day, you're baring more.
Speaker 4: But lately it's been happening like in real life. So
Speaker 4: I mean, I know telepathically, if I'm missing someone or
Speaker 4: so what I haven't talked to a long time, I
Speaker 4: can just think of them subconsciously and pat by and passing,
Speaker 4: and I know that I'm putting out the signal into
Speaker 4: the world and they're going to give me a call.
Speaker 4: I'm gonna run into them. But recently I've come upon
Speaker 4: a high thought that might very well be true. Scientists,
Speaker 4: give me a call. Tell me what you think.
Speaker 1: I feel like.
Speaker 4: Because our bodies are essentially computers, and we're wired, and
Speaker 4: there's electricity, and energy is actually an energetic component that
Speaker 4: like frequency is real, just like my voice right now
Speaker 4: is emulating through millions of speakers and millions of cars
Speaker 4: and homes, and you're receiving my words in my tone
Speaker 4: and my essence. I feel like those actual frequencies are
Speaker 4: electrical and because when we have those thoughts and they're
Speaker 4: powerful and you're honed into your your power, it actually
Speaker 4: does equate to being frequencies for the phone to then
Speaker 4: transtrans like compute and produce whatever it is. So at
Speaker 4: first I thought it was because I was talking about
Speaker 4: it there I was in a certain area definitely, though
Speaker 4: there's of course when we talk about it, they're dea
Speaker 4: listen to our conversations. I don't know if you've seen
Speaker 4: that Black Mirror on Netflix recently, but sometimes I'm just
Speaker 4: thinking about shit and it comes up on my phone.
Speaker 4: And it started to happen so often to me that
Speaker 4: I was like, are you fucking kidding me?
Speaker 1: God?
Speaker 5: Do you think that this is also just like humans
Speaker 5: and our evolution of attunement to our environment? Like because
Speaker 5: because obviously, you know, the technology in its form right
Speaker 5: now didn't exist and you know, even one hundred years ago,
Speaker 5: but because we're constantly evolving. Our energy and frequencies are
Speaker 5: just attuning to everything around us.
Speaker 1: I think that's true.
Speaker 4: But I also think that whoever created the phones and
Speaker 4: the technology and the powers that be have known that
Speaker 4: this is possible, and that's why they've accustomed us to
Speaker 4: be so deeply, deeply addicted to our phones, to the
Speaker 4: point where if it's not in hand, you're literally like
Speaker 4: a little bit frantic. And I think that because we've
Speaker 4: made it, we've made it. They've learned this technology and
Speaker 4: they've made it so clear, and now they can get
Speaker 4: our information easily. A because we're talking to everything, including
Speaker 4: Alexa in our house into all our conversations because we're
Speaker 4: fucking idiots and we give them front keys to our house.
Speaker 4: But mostly also I think it's reading our fucking brain waves.
Speaker 1: Wake up. Is that good or bad? It's bad.
Speaker 4: But also we're more powerful than you know, so we
Speaker 4: switch our thoughts. We got to switch the matrix. We
Speaker 4: gotta just not let the AI. And I also think
Speaker 4: I also think that's why meditation is really important, because
Speaker 4: then you have to hone into your clarity and your intention.
Speaker 4: But I also think that AI is like us in
Speaker 4: the future. I think AI is like like, just like
Speaker 4: AI replicates human nature. I feel like if we keep
Speaker 4: like leveling up, we're just going to turn into like
Speaker 4: robotic people. Absolutely, So it's like like AI is our
Speaker 4: future human selves.
Speaker 1: Anyway, that's my high thoughts for the day, Ladies and gentlemen.
Speaker 1: I'm a scientist.
Speaker 4: Okay, doctor Jimilla Matt, I'm already here.
Speaker 1: First, you're heard here first. I'm a scientist.
Speaker 4: Energy is real.
Speaker 1: Our computers are communicating with our brains.
Speaker 5: Be careful what you think to put a calendar, just
Speaker 5: like you put a calendar reminder for taking your aud out.
Speaker 5: Let's put one in the future of twenty thousand, two
Speaker 5: thousand and forty.
Speaker 1: We'll revisit this notion.
Speaker 4: And that's only fifteen years I know. And yeah, it
Speaker 4: is moving quick. We'll be typing with our brains. Okay, Actually,
Speaker 4: let's do a test. Let's see if you could talk telepathically.
Speaker 4: Right now, I'm going to think about something. I'm going
Speaker 4: to think about a memory that we have. Okay, I'm
Speaker 4: going to think about a memory that we have. Okay,
Speaker 4: it's very specific, but I'm thinking about it.
Speaker 1: Yeah, shut up, Swear to God. Swear to God. Wait. Wait,
Speaker 1: Is it us in the car when we're talking. No,
Speaker 1: it's funny. Is our drug melt done? It's during the
Speaker 1: drug melts down.
Speaker 4: It's specific. It's more specific than it's during the drug meltown.
Speaker 4: But something specific happens.
Speaker 1: The swishing of the pants, the swishing of the pants. God,
Speaker 1: it is the swishing of the pants. Oh my god.
Speaker 1: The hairs on my arm really happy too. Oh? I
Speaker 1: love you, I love you. That is yo.
Speaker 3: Man.
Speaker 1: I just want to say one thing. Hey, listen to
Speaker 1: that episode. It's one of two. That's the thing.
Speaker 4: We've gone to Coachella with each other multiple times, three times.
Speaker 1: I think this is a specific trip. Is a second time,
Speaker 1: and this is the second time.
Speaker 4: But there's a specific moment where we take too many
Speaker 4: drugs at one time. But we don't realize we've been
Speaker 4: trying to get to Coachella all day.
Speaker 1: We went crazy when we got there.
Speaker 4: We didn't realize it's the last show of then we've
Speaker 4: been trying to get there so long.
Speaker 1: We did so many drugs. We walked in.
Speaker 4: We watched this epic show the drugs hit and then
Speaker 4: everybody starts leaving, leaving.
Speaker 1: And this and one mine.
Speaker 4: There's one guy he actually pastor fucking weed, pastor fucking weed, paster,
Speaker 4: fucking weed.
Speaker 1: This nigga says he's gonna take us to a Jeff
Speaker 1: like a Jeff Campbell, Like no, no, no, Jeffrey Campbell. No,
Speaker 1: it was like a shoe whenever you matter, some white guy.
Speaker 1: He's going to take us to this guy's party.
Speaker 4: And he starts going so fast, and he's wearing these pants.
Speaker 1: He was wearing these fucking swishing pants, you know, those
Speaker 1: workout works.
Speaker 4: And me and Erica are trolling balls rolling, We're like
Speaker 4: following him, and he says, and then suddenly we can't
Speaker 4: find him.
Speaker 5: I think we fell out laughing for like five minutes,
Speaker 5: and then we looked up and.
Speaker 1: He was gone. No.
Speaker 4: I think we fell out after we realized he left us.
Speaker 1: Oh my god.
Speaker 4: The fact that we spent three different years at Coachella,
Speaker 4: We've had three hundred different experience those three.
Speaker 1: Wow.
Speaker 4: And I just telepathically told you about this man's swishing
Speaker 4: pants and you got it.
Speaker 5: Okay, So maybe that's at least that's just human electricity,
Speaker 5: which I'm happy that that is prevalent and still even exists, bitch,
Speaker 5: because they've done everything to try to separate us.
Speaker 4: You know each other, but you know, when you're a
Speaker 4: kid and you like to make tests to see if
Speaker 4: you're actually as witchy as you think.
Speaker 1: Do it as an adult.
Speaker 5: I mean, we do it what we did with our
Speaker 5: kids in cost Rica. I mean I think, I mean,
Speaker 5: it's not surprising. It's surprising that we believe it's surprising, right.
Speaker 5: I feel that converbal of communication is like the first
Speaker 5: form of communication.
Speaker 4: It's the most the most primal, the most primal and opponent.
Speaker 4: That's why I the languages are not the same no
Speaker 4: matter where you are in the world. You know, if
Speaker 4: someone's scared, you know, if someone's hurt, you know someone's celebrated.
Speaker 5: It requires so much trust and presence, you know, like
Speaker 5: to be like let's oh yeah, let's just see that's crazy.
Speaker 4: Wow, when you're right when you said in Costa Rica
Speaker 4: that you did that raking on me and that you
Speaker 4: could tune into my my energy so easily. It's like
Speaker 4: we spend so much time together. We sleep in the
Speaker 4: we've slept the same beds, so for so hundreds of times,
Speaker 4: hundreds hundreds this time we've had separate beds in Costa Rica,
Speaker 4: with separate rooms and it was like.
Speaker 1: God, that's weird. What are you doing? What are you doing?
Speaker 4: But we're grown women, you know. But yeah, like being
Speaker 4: in each other's energy. Sometimes, even when I know you
Speaker 4: know my energy, it's almost like when you know somebody
Speaker 4: else's energy. So it's just kind of like you're out there,
Speaker 4: you're exposed.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I do because my energy is potent, so it's
Speaker 5: always I'm always out there.
Speaker 1: I'm always exposed. Yeah, it's very clear.
Speaker 4: Anyway, those are my high thoughts.
Speaker 1: Powerful, Thank you, thank you.
Speaker 4: If anyone has a thing for information about our electrical brains.
Speaker 1: Give me a call. Yeah. If anyone has any high
Speaker 1: thoughts to share, please please send them.
Speaker 4: They don't have to be that philosophical either.
Speaker 1: Just dm us do your high thoughts when you're high.
Speaker 4: I'm gonna pick a tarot card.
Speaker 1: Pick one.
Speaker 4: Oh wait, didn't you tell me you had a bad
Speaker 4: choice this week?
Speaker 1: Bad mom?
Speaker 6: Not a bad mom, but a bad mom.
Speaker 5: So good.
Speaker 1: I'm living.
Speaker 5: Oh god, I did have a bad choice this week.
Speaker 5: I'm gonna share now I'm high, but yeah, I probably should.
Speaker 5: I need to get it off my chest because it
Speaker 5: was absolutely astonishing the bad choice that I made. I was,
Speaker 5: you know, I realized that I really have to work
Speaker 5: on my distrust for white people and like and rapid anger,
Speaker 5: you know, like I have.
Speaker 1: I have a lot of beautiful.
Speaker 5: White friends that I know and love, but there's an
Speaker 5: otherness that I put white people in, and I like,
Speaker 5: I don't they do that with us as well? And
Speaker 5: I don't want that either. That's like, you know, that's
Speaker 5: what racism is, but I think that I think that anyway. Basically,
Speaker 5: I was having a moment and I went to yoga.
Speaker 4: It was six thirty, so you knew you were having
Speaker 4: a moment before you got to you.
Speaker 5: So I'm gonna tell you. I was like, I need
Speaker 5: to go to yoga. I've been doing two days. I've
Speaker 5: been doing like these crazy workouts and so I was like,
Speaker 5: I need to stretch my body.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna wake up.
Speaker 5: I'm gonna leave Iri at the house because I'm gonna
Speaker 5: be gone for an hour and I've been like testing
Speaker 5: out what that feels like. And you know, but I
Speaker 5: have my phone with me, like I always try to
Speaker 5: keep it nearby just in case she calls me.
Speaker 1: So I went to yoga, and.
Speaker 5: Right before I went in, I was looking on Instagram
Speaker 5: and I had seen like that they had just banned
Speaker 5: well read Black Girl's book the Department of Defense, because
Speaker 5: they're banning black books.
Speaker 4: Oh, from the school or just in general in general.
Speaker 5: No, yeah, and so I just was like, you know,
Speaker 5: this is also that this speaks to the power of frequency,
Speaker 5: because that disturbed me. I was just like, Okay, this
Speaker 5: is scary, and like, am I gonna just look at
Speaker 5: this and then walk away and forget about it? And
Speaker 5: this is what happens, Like we just keep seeing things.
Speaker 5: We're so desensitized that we see things and then we
Speaker 5: just walk away from it and then happens, and it
Speaker 5: happens and happens anyway. So then I was like, okay,
Speaker 5: this is this is why you need to got to yoga,
Speaker 5: So just.
Speaker 1: Go in there.
Speaker 5: And so I got in there, I brought my phone,
Speaker 5: I put it over that. I put the towel over
Speaker 5: the phone just because I knew that I wasn't about
Speaker 5: to have my phone in there. And I was like,
Speaker 5: I'm a mom, so fuck you, Like I gotta make
Speaker 5: sure my kids. Okay, I'm not going to I'm not
Speaker 5: gonna like talk on the phone.
Speaker 1: I just need to make sure that i'm you know.
Speaker 5: So Anyway, I'm doing yoga and t heated, so it's
Speaker 5: also hot. It's challenging. It's like vulnerable, vulnerable positions like
Speaker 5: you're tired and sore diired.
Speaker 4: It's sixcited in the morning, you showed me, I am.
Speaker 5: I've been just dressed out, okay, And so anyway, like
Speaker 5: thirty minutes in, I like take the towel off and
Speaker 5: I go look at my phone and I see that
Speaker 5: I think she didn't actually text me with she camm
Speaker 5: and he was saying something very sweet, and I literally
Speaker 5: just tapped it and then I said okay, and I'll
Speaker 5: like I was looked over, and then I was like
Speaker 5: in the middle of a downward dog and I was
Speaker 5: about to like turn into this pose.
Speaker 1: I think it's called like wild thing or some shit,
Speaker 1: and she.
Speaker 5: Literally came into my face. I was like, there's no
Speaker 5: phones here, ma'am. And I was like, whoa was it
Speaker 5: the teacher? Yes, it was the teacher, but it was
Speaker 5: so aggressive and her big, old, aggressive ass white face
Speaker 5: angered the fuck out of me.
Speaker 1: I was just like, was she big or she was
Speaker 1: no witch? She was just white telling me what to do.
Speaker 3: And I was angered because I was already like you
Speaker 3: were sensitive to the world, and.
Speaker 1: I just was like, I was, you know, I'm not
Speaker 1: saying this is a bad choice, this is a bad anyway.
Speaker 5: I was like, whoa okay, bitch, Like okay. I was like,
Speaker 5: I was so caught off guard. I was like, am
Speaker 5: I gonna second? I was like, let me just continue,
Speaker 5: Let me just continue. Your tripping is fine, bitch. No,
Speaker 5: I was like I felt the energy and.
Speaker 1: Me so did you. What are we gonna do?
Speaker 4: But at that point, move your phone, like, go take
Speaker 4: it outside, put it the towel back over.
Speaker 1: I put the towel back over it, and I continued on.
Speaker 4: And I was like, so she said something to you,
Speaker 4: and you ignore her, you keep going.
Speaker 1: No, I didn't ignore her.
Speaker 5: I had already put the towel back over my phone.
Speaker 5: She had walked away. She just like abruptly came to
Speaker 5: tell me this shit and then like moved on. So
Speaker 5: I was like, okay, So then I kept going, but
Speaker 5: then my spirit just wouldn't let me.
Speaker 1: Bitch. I was just like, am I really about to
Speaker 1: stay in this fucking class right now?
Speaker 5: I was like, this bitch got in my fucking face,
Speaker 5: are fucking kidding me?
Speaker 1: Bitch? In a vulnerable PiZZ Do you have no coup?
Speaker 1: It was do you not even know? It's six thirty?
Speaker 5: It's hot as you're in my face testing and.
Speaker 1: You're telling me.
Speaker 5: So anyway, there's a lot and I couldn't. I couldn't
Speaker 5: complete it, and so I rolled up my mat and
Speaker 5: I walked out and she was like, is everything okay?
Speaker 5: And I was like, no, it's not. So then I
Speaker 5: left and then I went to the bathroom and I
Speaker 5: was like, why am I so angry?
Speaker 1: How many minutes in did you leave? After she did that?
Speaker 5: Like?
Speaker 1: How long had at what point?
Speaker 5: Was I was thirty minutes into the class? Like I'm
Speaker 5: in it, okay, that's why this was so like abrupt,
Speaker 5: And I was like, really in it, you know. So anyway,
Speaker 5: I go to the bathroom and there's like the reception
Speaker 5: is in there and she's like twenty one was also
Speaker 5: like white, like just like minding her fucking twenty one
Speaker 5: year old business bait okay, just being adorable.
Speaker 1: And I was.
Speaker 5: I come out of the bathroom, She's like, oh you okay,
Speaker 5: can I get you anything? And I was like, cause,
Speaker 5: like it's only one class, right, so if I'm leaving
Speaker 5: it like they're like, I'm like, actually, no, I'm not okay,
Speaker 5: and I just start crying. I just start fucking crying.
Speaker 5: But I was like putting on, Like I knew that
Speaker 5: I was putting on. I was like, I want you
Speaker 5: to feel like shit, And I was like.
Speaker 1: This is the bad choice.
Speaker 5: I was like, I have a family member, and I
Speaker 5: see you, and I am her only lifeline and I
Speaker 5: just needed one fucking hour to come here. It's six
Speaker 5: point thirty in the fucking morning. And all I did
Speaker 5: was tap my phone, like she needs to be careful.
Speaker 5: I'm triggered. I'm triggered. I literally said I'm triggered.
Speaker 1: I'm not kidding, not you caring it.
Speaker 5: I literally carrying the fuck out of her, babe, I'm
Speaker 5: wait so much so that I was like, damn, bitch.
Speaker 1: Like you got it. You're killing this right now. But
Speaker 1: so then I couldn't get out of it. Then I
Speaker 1: like really felt like it was real. That's what it
Speaker 1: feels like to be pathologically yes. I was like, to
Speaker 1: be real, you have to feel like it's oh yeah, no, no,
Speaker 1: it was real. It was real. I was like shaking,
Speaker 1: what the sock is wrong with you?
Speaker 5: A lot of things apparently bitch. Anyway, Yeah, so you
Speaker 5: start shaking a lifetime. I'm like, I don't know if
Speaker 5: there's I'm like, I'm here all the time. I never
Speaker 5: bring my phone in. I don't even know if there's
Speaker 5: signs that say you're not supposed to your phone in,
Speaker 5: but I'm in there's an emergency happening. And it's just
Speaker 5: like I realized that, like I'm not supposed to, but
Speaker 5: just I feel like she could have not gotten straight
Speaker 5: in my face the way she did and it triggered me.
Speaker 5: So anyway, she's like, I'm so sorry, and I was
Speaker 5: like yeah, and then I just started crying more.
Speaker 1: And then I was like I'm just gonna go. And
Speaker 1: then we walked out and she goes, there's the sign
Speaker 1: and it was literally like it was kind of high.
Speaker 1: It was kind of high.
Speaker 5: It was like up on top of the door, like
Speaker 5: you really had to look up to see it. And
Speaker 5: she's like, it is kind of high, and I was like, yeah, yeah,
Speaker 5: a sign for giants.
Speaker 1: Okay. Yeah.
Speaker 5: So then so when I left, Okay, so I left obviously,
Speaker 5: and I got in the car and.
Speaker 1: I was like did I just do that? And I
Speaker 1: was like damn.
Speaker 5: And then I felt like shit most of the day
Speaker 5: and I was like damn. I was like that, my
Speaker 5: spirit is not built for this. I'm sensitive. I was
Speaker 5: like damn, like why did you do that? And then
Speaker 5: I was like, why did you do that? Was there
Speaker 5: something is there? Like it felt like it wasn't mine?
Speaker 5: It really did ancestry felt like it wasn't mine, or
Speaker 5: like no, it felt like I wanted them to like
Speaker 5: really feel bad. It wasn't about like my white ancestor.
Speaker 5: It was actually my black ancestor. That was like, you
Speaker 5: are stupid bitch, and I'm gonna do what you do
Speaker 5: to me, and I want she felt.
Speaker 1: But then I was like, they don't.
Speaker 5: She probably told her and the girl was like, wow,
Speaker 5: she probably felt justified in whatever the fuck she did.
Speaker 5: But anyway, either way, it was a bad choice.
Speaker 1: Okay, I know better than that, but something in me
Speaker 1: needed to get it at and I did. And you know,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna explore that more if you wanted.
Speaker 5: Karen, just Karen the of the story black people can
Speaker 5: care into Okay, black people can get reverse Karen.
Speaker 1: I was.
Speaker 3: I felt that, I felt I almost got reparations a
Speaker 3: little bit.
Speaker 1: Why would you say black people can care in. It's
Speaker 1: the reverse Karen.
Speaker 4: The reverse, not the reverse Karen reverse reverse.
Speaker 1: Yeah, anyway, that was if you're don't judge me. Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm not perfect anything, you know, I'm with it. You
Speaker 1: know we only have a couple. Everyone actual in nuts sometimes.
Speaker 4: Just so you know we're recording this, it's still February.
Speaker 4: Get your Karen on.
Speaker 1: Everybody gets your Karen on? What get your Karen?
Speaker 5: So you're living in the past right now, So go ahead, babe,
Speaker 5: it's technically still February.
Speaker 1: Oh my god.
Speaker 4: Reparations and whatever way possible, even if the yoga instructor
Speaker 4: might lose your job.
Speaker 1: So you're never going back to that. No, I'm going back.
Speaker 1: Did you get a free course or anything? No? Nothing,
Speaker 1: but I was because I should you. Now I need
Speaker 1: to email the corporate.
Speaker 5: It's because class past. They probably don't know my name
Speaker 5: to go in there and identify myself. Oh, they're gonna
Speaker 5: find this episode and.
Speaker 1: Sue me.
Speaker 4: No, try to get try and get what I try
Speaker 4: to get everything you can. We're gonna move on.
Speaker 1: To to Taro. Now ridiculousness.
Speaker 4: The temperance is who it pulled, its balanced moderation, patience purpose.
Speaker 1: I remember your purpose, But you don't go to jail.
Speaker 1: You got shit to do.
Speaker 4: How you're not going to jail for cure inning kidding,
Speaker 4: Mareen Calabassas, Woodland House. Yeah, I feel like, yeah, I'm
Speaker 4: gonna act a little snotting. I'm gonna be a little
Speaker 4: bit of a bitch. I'm not going to be too
Speaker 4: crazy because it's like, God, there's so much responsibility of
Speaker 4: being a black woman, because then there's like, oh my god,
Speaker 4: if I'm a black woman who does X, Y and Z,
Speaker 4: then I'm doing too much and I'm playing into the stereotype.
Speaker 4: But these whoors do too much consistently. Oh my god,
Speaker 4: I told Erica. But since we're on white people doing
Speaker 4: crazy shit. This week, there was in the supermarket and
Speaker 4: this old white lady groped my braids like this, look
Speaker 4: over there that way you're looking at the lettuce.
Speaker 1: Is this your hair? Is this all your hair?
Speaker 4: I said, yes, I was wearing a hat. She's like, oh,
Speaker 4: thirty years of hair.
Speaker 1: I said, thirty six years of hair. All of it's
Speaker 1: your hair.
Speaker 4: Then she decided to.
Speaker 1: Pull it. I said, hey, no pulling, she said, I'm
Speaker 1: just talking to her like a little baby.
Speaker 4: I was because she kind of When I looked at her,
Speaker 4: actually I saw a little baby, and I was like,
Speaker 4: I could this could go very wrong. I'm like, she doesn't.
Speaker 4: It was also a day where lots of things were
Speaker 4: happening in the world and we're in an interesting climate,
Speaker 4: and I was kind of thing.
Speaker 1: Actually.
Speaker 4: Right, yeah, that was Actually I was feeling a little enraged,
Speaker 4: and that's why I went to the black flea market
Speaker 4: because I was on maybe around black people. But then
Speaker 4: I saw like two white people there and they were
Speaker 4: wearing like a kitten heel and like polos and a
Speaker 4: white like.
Speaker 1: It wasn't the whitest people.
Speaker 4: It was like Lower Manhattan, New York, kitten heel wearing
Speaker 4: white people.
Speaker 1: Why did you wear that?
Speaker 4: Like, at least be cool when you whit.
Speaker 1: I know, I wasn't whites.
Speaker 4: I don't want to be organic, no GMO, no baby hairs,
Speaker 4: super white, no BBYL, no nothing.
Speaker 1: I know, I really tell you waves.
Speaker 4: I appreciate a regular white staying in her lane, regular nails,
Speaker 4: no baby hairs, Alabama barkers. So yes, I agree, but
Speaker 4: I mean I understand. But in that moment, I was
Speaker 4: something told me, this is an old lady, and maybe
Speaker 4: She's like, has dementia and I could see her son.
Speaker 1: She's like, my name is Gabby, so I gab a lot.
Speaker 1: I'm just joking with you.
Speaker 4: I'm like, okay, Gabby, I wonder.
Speaker 5: How many times Gabby's been popped she got she got
Speaker 5: a good one that day.
Speaker 1: I could have popped her. No, no, then I wouldn't.
Speaker 1: I'm saying you wouldn't you want to do that.
Speaker 5: You're on the shade room now, men, you know.
Speaker 1: And at the end of it, I was fine.
Speaker 4: I took a moment and I said that could have
Speaker 4: been so that I could have taken that completely wrong
Speaker 4: and I would have had to walk around with that
Speaker 4: with that energy. I literally saw it happening in slow
Speaker 4: motion in Orlando. Was like Gabby was thinking it was
Speaker 4: the nineteen fifties child, but I was. When she left
Speaker 4: out the market, I was like, bye, Gabby, and I
Speaker 4: was like, yeah, thankfully with me, not some other Buck girls.
Speaker 1: Are not going to wave the Gabby goodbye on her.
Speaker 4: Way out the sun looked embarrassed.
Speaker 1: Anyway, That's hard.
Speaker 4: The temperss. Sorry, we just needed one one episode to
Speaker 4: get it out. Temperance is the card for bringing balance, patience,
Speaker 4: and moderation into your life. You're being invited to stabilize
Speaker 4: your energy and to allow the life force to flow
Speaker 4: through you without force or resistance. It's time to recover
Speaker 4: your flow and get your life back into order and
Speaker 4: into balance. This card calls you to remain calm even
Speaker 4: when you feel stressful or frantic. Maintain an even temperament,
Speaker 4: and manage your emotions. You have learned to keep composed
Speaker 4: and stressful situations.
Speaker 1: This is for you.
Speaker 4: Little things don't get to you thanks to your seemingly
Speaker 4: abundant source of patience.
Speaker 1: You respect what the fuck?
Speaker 4: Your respect for balance and tranquility is what will help
Speaker 4: you achieve and experience fulfillment in your life. Temperance asks
Speaker 4: you take the middle path, not to when you reverse.
Speaker 4: Don't go republicans, and accommodate all perspectives. Now is not
Speaker 4: the time to be highly opinionated or controversial. Stand down bit,
Speaker 4: keep a cute give me here, give me here, be
Speaker 4: the peace marker. Marker, be the piece of.
Speaker 1: Glow and actually says peace marker.
Speaker 4: It says to be the peacekeeper and take a balance
Speaker 4: and moderate approach, avoiding any extremes, Include others and bring
Speaker 4: together diverse groups of people to create harmony and cooperation.
Speaker 4: It's telling you to bring diverse groups of people to
Speaker 4: create harmony and cooperation. By working together, you will collectively
Speaker 4: leverage the right mix of talents, experiences, abilities, and skills.
Speaker 5: Thank you, Yes, I know that. That's why I was
Speaker 5: so shaken afterwards. I was fucked up after bitch, it
Speaker 5: did me more harm.
Speaker 1: I was harmed. Okay, I harmed myself. It's good that
Speaker 1: you went the I left option just to see how
Speaker 1: it felt. You know, sometimes you go crazy sometimes that's
Speaker 1: what I kind of felt like.
Speaker 4: I was like, let's see what happens when they do it.
Speaker 1: It's like over here crazy. I didn't like it. I
Speaker 1: was like afterwards, I was like, I aged you a little.
Speaker 4: I felt shame. I was like, that's why my women
Speaker 4: are not aging. Well, they're caring all over. It's aging them.
Speaker 4: Oh my god, did you see that woman Karen in
Speaker 4: the valet? Do we talk about this already?
Speaker 3: Oh god, god, baby, oh bitch, I just call those
Speaker 3: those tears, those fucking tears.
Speaker 4: I told Jason to her lashes.
Speaker 1: They think it's a joke. That's what I'm saying. Everything
Speaker 1: is a joke.
Speaker 5: She should have she should have been And that's okay.
Speaker 5: And that's okay.
Speaker 1: That has to do. I can't let.
Speaker 5: Other people's experiences fucking you have.
Speaker 1: You have to be like Buddha. I know, and sometimes
Speaker 1: I'm not. I'm still working bit I know.
Speaker 3: I'm just just saying I'm still working on it.
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. Get on my MS home,
Speaker 1: my mama, Mom. I didn't go with la. I'm doing
Speaker 1: all of my bitch running off.
Speaker 4: You gotta be like Buddha, be like But that's it.
Speaker 4: That's this week's this week's affirmations.
Speaker 1: Be like Buddha. B be like Buddha Beach. Be like Buddha,
Speaker 1: bee like Buddha. Kama Beach.
Speaker 4: Maybe this is like our affirmation music, like what's up
Speaker 4: beach today? It's time to be like Buddha Beach.
Speaker 3: Wake up, put your hands on your heart, take a
Speaker 3: deep breath, and say, I love God. Don't you worry
Speaker 3: about a thing, straight up, don't worry about a motherfucking thing.
Speaker 3: Caring for beach, West Coast Beach. It's West Coast all
Speaker 3: day till wed I e. But every day we're gonna
Speaker 3: be in pleasure.
Speaker 1: I shay, I shay to the real homies and to
Speaker 1: the real dogs. Have a good day, but not those
Speaker 1: fake niggas. You heard, Peace Blood, that's our new ship. Okay,
Speaker 1: that's the first one. That's the first one.
Speaker 5: Morning Affirmation with the West Coast, West Coast Morning Affirmations.
Speaker 1: Morning Blood.
Speaker 3: Oh you would create my bad morning crep Christmas.
Speaker 5: Oh my lord, Okay, you know I go go pick
Speaker 5: up my kid.
Speaker 1: I'm hellal Okay, we love you. That's it.
Speaker 5: Happy anniversary, Happy anniversary, Beach, sweetity. It's been beautiful, psychic,
Speaker 5: happy women's history months, happy women's all the time, fucking year,
Speaker 5: forever and ever.
Speaker 1: Congratulations your beach and you created all this shit, make.
Speaker 4: History every day by doing what people told you not
Speaker 4: to do, by taking up space, by writing your story,
Speaker 4: by telling the motherfucking truth even when people tell you
Speaker 4: it doesn't matter. Trust us. Whatever the fuck you're going through,
Speaker 4: big or small, stupid, funny, exciting, sexual, any iteration of
Speaker 4: yourself matters, and if it is your gift to tell
Speaker 4: about it and whatever art you leave with the world,
Speaker 4: So remember that all month.
Speaker 1: We love you.
Speaker 4: Thank you for joining us. Subscribe review bitch, because you
Speaker 4: just listened to this whole motherfucking thing. And you could
Speaker 4: just that's a small favorite.
Speaker 1: Please that, please, thank you, that's so much. We love you.
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Speaker 6: Yeah, I'm linen so good. Can't you tell? I went
Speaker 6: through a drought.
Speaker 1: That's until I found out, Well may my have been known?
Speaker 6: Art that used to be broken tail now got the
Speaker 6: blues in to like Beyonce just now throat shot or
Speaker 6: pop in his cow.
Speaker 1: We're in our voices.
Speaker 6: Patriarchy kept it in the box, so it'sploids. Women put
Speaker 6: the pee and powers, so what's pointing to? They want
Speaker 6: me to be good, so I make bad choices. Bad mom,
Speaker 6: not a bad mom, but a bad mom.
Speaker 1: Gitter's in put cannabis in their bath.
Speaker 6: Bomb walked in bosses cap and I blew his cat
Speaker 6: ball tipe dog.
Speaker 1: Now I'm immune to the cat call.
Speaker 6: Her being no waisted straight to it like a dollar sign.
Speaker 6: Mother rent the number and so it it's like a
Speaker 6: water sign where you're rent the winter essential will when
Speaker 6: the summertime.
Speaker 1: I do what all they know? When I need to
Speaker 1: run it by