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Speaker 1: Obedient and soft by nature. She was a good woman

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Speaker 1: who always made choices.

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Speaker 1: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices.

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Speaker 4: I'm Erica and I'm Mela.

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Speaker 1: How are you.

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Speaker 4: I'm doing pretty good. I'm doing good. I'm feeling good.

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Speaker 4: You know, the sun is shining, so I can't complain.

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Speaker 4: I went hiking this morning, so you know, a little

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Speaker 4: vitamin D is always makes a girl feel good.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I got some D this morning, so I feel

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Speaker 5: Speaking of D, I got some D. Although we've been

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Speaker 5: practicing semen retention in my home, not in my home.

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Speaker 5: In my home, we've been practicing semen retention, which I've

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Speaker 1: My need for completion. Breeding kink, breedingkink. No, I don't know.

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Speaker 4: There's no no no, because you don't he doesn't have

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Speaker 1: No, that's what it's called.

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Speaker 4: It's called a breeding kink. When you like come inside you.

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Speaker 5: No, I just like, I just like come because it

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Speaker 5: feels completion. It feels like I've accomplished the end goal.

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Speaker 5: There's I don't have no breathing kink as of now.

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Speaker 4: It's completing for the men, So how is that going

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Speaker 5: He like, I think it's going great for him, So

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Speaker 4: So even if you are come to completion, you're still like,

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Speaker 4: I lack in it, I know, but you know, I've

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Speaker 4: just been like I've been really I've been really sitting

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Speaker 4: to take out my IUD this week. This week, Oh wow,

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Speaker 4: do like a metal d talks plastics, like just take

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Speaker 5: I don't mean that, I mean about just the taking

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Speaker 4: Well, the only reason I know that because oh boy

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Speaker 4: He told me that he prepared his wife's body for

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Speaker 1: And more polyesters.

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Speaker 4: I don't I'm gonna be wearing linen for for eight months.

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Speaker 4: Can you guys please send us all of the eco

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Speaker 4: But anyway, when you see me in Orlando walking around

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Speaker 4: This is why we're preparing our bodies for the sun.

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Speaker 4: And you know, someone told me that you could like

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Speaker 4: plan for a genius baby babe, what you eat before

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Speaker 5: I mean, it's st a lot of it's it really

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Speaker 4: That's all I have to practice now, Yeah, before it

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Speaker 4: even takes place. So yeah, then you did raking on

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Speaker 5: Got to start sometime when you can start, Because you've

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Speaker 5: been talking about going on a fast and juicing for

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Speaker 4: I don't know, haven't been a fast. I need to

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Speaker 1: Well, you are going on a fast, that would be

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Speaker 4: Detoxing the metals, the heavy metals.

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Speaker 1: First step.

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Speaker 4: I need to DM that man who has the remedies

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Speaker 4: he's probably gonna make me pay him. But they just

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Speaker 4: do some research. How was your d this morning?

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Speaker 5: It was great, top notch good, ten stars, frost to

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Speaker 1: Happy International Women's Month.

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Speaker 4: made up like four thousand new new holidays that don't exist.

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Speaker 5: Well more importantly, Happy seven year anniversary.

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Speaker 4: It's a man of verse seven.

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Speaker 1: What does number seven mean? I feel like that's a

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Speaker 4: Seven is like a lucky number. Maybe this is the year.

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Speaker 4: the brink of the next a huge leap in Good Moms.

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Speaker 1: Seven and numera.

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Speaker 5: Why are they Why do they keep trying to put Roman?

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Speaker 5: No one asked for Roman seven? The number seven is

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Speaker 5: considered to be a mysterious and spiritual number in association

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Speaker 5: the number seven are said to be insightful, introspective, and intellectual.

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Speaker 4: So that's us, that's us into intuitive, intellectual, smart, hell

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Speaker 4: we level up. I can't believe we've been doing this

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Speaker 5: I know I can, actually, because my phone will make

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Speaker 5: me stop remembering with all the reminders of all the

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Speaker 5: years this year, literally half of the reminders that I

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Speaker 5: this year five years ago, like bitch's you, and every

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Speaker 5: single year I'm like, we go together, Like every year

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Speaker 5: it's you were Iri, I'm like, okay, we go together.

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Speaker 1: Tell the world we go together. Oh my god. Oh well,

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Speaker 1: I have some apple cider here. Oh my god. Look

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Speaker 1: we're starting our health journey.

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Speaker 4: Right now, sorry, our house journey because no champagne because

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Speaker 4: I'm detaxing my womb. Congratulations, thank you on doing something

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Speaker 4: consistently for seven years.

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Speaker 1: I can't believe it. I've talked. How many episodes is

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Speaker 4: Like almost fifty we've maybe taken two weeks off what's

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Speaker 4: fifty times.

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Speaker 5: Over three hundred fifty times seven we drank it before

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Speaker 5: because Okay, cheers, Cheers to more years, Cheers to more success,

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Speaker 5: Cheers to prioritizing ourselves, our motherhood, bringing women closer to themselves,

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Speaker 4: There wasn't a lot of thought, is if this is

441
00:20:53,000 --> 00:20:55,320
Speaker 4: going to be super successful, are we going to touch

442
00:20:55,359 --> 00:20:57,320
Speaker 4: the lives of millions of people. It was just like

443
00:20:57,359 --> 00:21:00,840
Speaker 4: something we desperately needed for ourselves, and we just blindly

444
00:21:01,040 --> 00:21:04,040
Speaker 4: started to follow that. And even when it did start

445
00:21:04,080 --> 00:21:06,000
Speaker 4: to develop and realize like, oh my god, this is

446
00:21:06,040 --> 00:21:07,920
Speaker 4: a brand, this is a business, this is this huge

447
00:21:07,920 --> 00:21:11,960
Speaker 4: commitment and there is this huge like potential. I think

448
00:21:12,200 --> 00:21:14,920
Speaker 4: we were already so deeply in it together that those

449
00:21:14,960 --> 00:21:18,720
Speaker 4: negative comments didn't really didn't hold us back.

450
00:21:18,840 --> 00:21:22,800
Speaker 5: Thank God. Yeah no, And I'm so happy that I'm

451
00:21:22,800 --> 00:21:24,760
Speaker 5: so happy that it hasn't. And I'm so happy that

452
00:21:24,800 --> 00:21:31,919
Speaker 5: we've been able to persevere through every phase, through every relationship,

453
00:21:32,440 --> 00:21:35,480
Speaker 5: through every new birthday of our.

454
00:21:35,440 --> 00:21:40,800
Speaker 1: Children, through heartbreak, through just so much.

455
00:21:41,119 --> 00:21:46,879
Speaker 5: You know, and I know that women we have a

456
00:21:46,920 --> 00:21:50,720
Speaker 5: hard time trusting one another. And it's like, as we

457
00:21:50,760 --> 00:21:53,480
Speaker 5: step into this new year, and as we step into

458
00:21:54,240 --> 00:21:59,160
Speaker 5: just the uncertainty of what's happening around us, it's so important,

459
00:21:59,320 --> 00:22:03,520
Speaker 5: it's so important for you to just begin to do

460
00:22:03,600 --> 00:22:07,080
Speaker 5: away with that concept, do away with that mindset. It's

461
00:22:07,119 --> 00:22:10,000
Speaker 5: not going to serve you. You do need women need

462
00:22:10,000 --> 00:22:13,720
Speaker 5: I need a Jamila, I need my girlfriends. Like literally,

463
00:22:13,800 --> 00:22:17,119
Speaker 5: my girlfriends have saved my fucking life over and over

464
00:22:17,200 --> 00:22:20,320
Speaker 5: and over again. It's been women. There's like this, who's

465
00:22:20,359 --> 00:22:22,520
Speaker 5: this a poet? I think her name is like Rupie,

466
00:22:22,880 --> 00:22:30,400
Speaker 5: what's her name? Basically with a D. Basically she had

467
00:22:30,400 --> 00:22:32,400
Speaker 5: this poem where she was like, it's been it's been

468
00:22:32,440 --> 00:22:35,119
Speaker 5: the it's been women who have been there for me.

469
00:22:35,200 --> 00:22:37,880
Speaker 5: That have washed my feet and dried my tears and

470
00:22:38,000 --> 00:22:41,399
Speaker 5: like nourished me and fed me like when when I

471
00:22:41,440 --> 00:22:44,960
Speaker 5: had nothing and no one, And and that's because we

472
00:22:45,080 --> 00:22:46,960
Speaker 5: are that's what we do. That's what we're here for.

473
00:22:47,600 --> 00:22:50,719
Speaker 5: We're nurturers. And not just for men. We're not nurturers

474
00:22:50,760 --> 00:22:53,880
Speaker 5: just for our families and our children, Like we're nurturius

475
00:22:53,960 --> 00:22:57,000
Speaker 5: for each other. And so when we allow ourselves to

476
00:22:57,119 --> 00:23:00,399
Speaker 5: receive from other women, And you know, part of the

477
00:23:00,400 --> 00:23:02,560
Speaker 5: reason why me and Mila I think even began the

478
00:23:02,680 --> 00:23:05,560
Speaker 5: podcast was and we share this a few episodes ago,

479
00:23:05,680 --> 00:23:08,239
Speaker 5: is like you have to be okay being vulnerable in

480
00:23:08,359 --> 00:23:12,359
Speaker 5: order to open yourself up to other women. Like there's

481
00:23:12,359 --> 00:23:14,280
Speaker 5: no way that you're going to deepen into connection with

482
00:23:14,280 --> 00:23:17,320
Speaker 5: with with a new friend or someone that you're interested

483
00:23:17,320 --> 00:23:19,720
Speaker 5: in starting a friendship with by just having surface as

484
00:23:19,920 --> 00:23:21,719
Speaker 5: surface conversations.

485
00:23:21,280 --> 00:23:23,919
Speaker 4: Or by allowing like projecting a lot of judgment, Like

486
00:23:23,960 --> 00:23:26,399
Speaker 4: there has to be a level of vulnerability. And like

487
00:23:26,440 --> 00:23:30,920
Speaker 4: to your point about like women historically saving women, nurturing women,

488
00:23:31,160 --> 00:23:33,640
Speaker 4: like bringing women back to life as like I also

489
00:23:33,640 --> 00:23:36,160
Speaker 4: feel like there's a level of if you can't soften

490
00:23:36,240 --> 00:23:38,560
Speaker 4: with your girlfriends, if you don't have the ability to

491
00:23:38,600 --> 00:23:41,320
Speaker 4: soften in friendship. It is very difficult to have a

492
00:23:41,480 --> 00:23:44,840
Speaker 4: romantic relationship. There are women who pride themselves and not

493
00:23:44,920 --> 00:23:47,960
Speaker 4: being girls girls and only being you know, like able

494
00:23:48,000 --> 00:23:51,720
Speaker 4: to be vulnerable with their men. But like, there's there's

495
00:23:51,760 --> 00:23:54,440
Speaker 4: a certain type of vulnerability that comes with a friendship.

496
00:23:55,040 --> 00:23:57,240
Speaker 4: There's a there's a there's a healing that happens when

497
00:23:57,240 --> 00:23:58,560
Speaker 4: it comes back between women.

498
00:23:59,359 --> 00:24:01,399
Speaker 5: I don't care how how vulnerable you think you've gotten

499
00:24:01,400 --> 00:24:03,959
Speaker 5: with your man. There's no level of vulnerability that you

500
00:24:04,000 --> 00:24:08,080
Speaker 5: can experience with the man that you experience with women,

501
00:24:08,200 --> 00:24:12,400
Speaker 5: because there's we share wombs. There's a level of understanding

502
00:24:12,560 --> 00:24:16,040
Speaker 5: connectedness that no man will ever be able to understand.

503
00:24:16,080 --> 00:24:18,320
Speaker 5: And that goes on the other side for men as well.

504
00:24:18,720 --> 00:24:22,480
Speaker 5: Like you can't like and like to your point, like

505
00:24:22,720 --> 00:24:26,080
Speaker 5: you have to be able to be vulnerable with your

506
00:24:26,119 --> 00:24:30,560
Speaker 5: female friends, even more so than I feel like if

507
00:24:30,600 --> 00:24:32,960
Speaker 5: with your with your whatever your love, if that's a

508
00:24:33,000 --> 00:24:36,040
Speaker 5: masculine energy or whoever it is. But I think that

509
00:24:36,800 --> 00:24:41,880
Speaker 5: there's no way that you can fully open yourself up

510
00:24:41,920 --> 00:24:46,159
Speaker 5: to that relationship until you've really opened yourself up to

511
00:24:46,160 --> 00:24:47,280
Speaker 5: the women in your life in that way.

512
00:24:47,320 --> 00:24:49,080
Speaker 4: Because I think sometimes the women in our life are

513
00:24:49,119 --> 00:24:52,960
Speaker 4: also like a like a like a mirror to yourself.

514
00:24:53,280 --> 00:24:55,439
Speaker 4: And sometimes even women who talk like that, like I

515
00:24:55,440 --> 00:24:58,000
Speaker 4: don't do women, it's like because there's a level of

516
00:24:58,080 --> 00:25:02,240
Speaker 4: vulnerability they haven't been able to to come to within themselves.

517
00:25:02,600 --> 00:25:04,119
Speaker 5: And there's a map, like there's for sure and for

518
00:25:04,160 --> 00:25:05,760
Speaker 5: the women that are listening, who are who? If you

519
00:25:06,119 --> 00:25:07,960
Speaker 5: feel like you fall into that category and you feel

520
00:25:08,000 --> 00:25:10,280
Speaker 5: like you have like your man, your man, your man,

521
00:25:10,520 --> 00:25:12,000
Speaker 5: and I'm sure you he's your man, your man.

522
00:25:11,920 --> 00:25:12,320
Speaker 1: Your man.

523
00:25:13,520 --> 00:25:16,680
Speaker 5: How many times, though, have you felt like you couldn't

524
00:25:16,880 --> 00:25:19,439
Speaker 5: like there was a level of like disconnect in whatever,

525
00:25:19,600 --> 00:25:22,240
Speaker 5: in something that you've shared, because there's only so much

526
00:25:22,280 --> 00:25:25,280
Speaker 5: a man can fully understand around your emotions, and so

527
00:25:25,400 --> 00:25:28,440
Speaker 5: you've had to You've had to shrink yourself. You have

528
00:25:28,520 --> 00:25:30,760
Speaker 5: to compartmentalize parts of yourself. I don't care how close

529
00:25:30,800 --> 00:25:33,320
Speaker 5: you are to your man. There's a level of vulnerability

530
00:25:33,760 --> 00:25:37,440
Speaker 5: that no man will be able to hold space for

531
00:25:38,119 --> 00:25:40,280
Speaker 5: that a woman can hold space for. And I see

532
00:25:40,320 --> 00:25:42,239
Speaker 5: that at our I see that at our retreats. I

533
00:25:42,280 --> 00:25:44,800
Speaker 5: see that in my one on one relationships with my friends.

534
00:25:44,840 --> 00:25:46,639
Speaker 5: I see that with clients. I think I see that

535
00:25:46,680 --> 00:25:50,479
Speaker 5: with everyone, you know, Like, I think that the wound

536
00:25:50,520 --> 00:25:53,800
Speaker 5: that women have with each other is like actually the

537
00:25:53,840 --> 00:25:57,399
Speaker 5: most important wound to wound to heal in order to

538
00:25:57,440 --> 00:25:59,960
Speaker 5: be open to romantic love.

539
00:26:00,280 --> 00:26:03,959
Speaker 4: And also I think a level of like openness in

540
00:26:04,040 --> 00:26:08,560
Speaker 4: order to like birth things Like Eric and I when

541
00:26:08,600 --> 00:26:10,840
Speaker 4: our wounds linked up. I know that sounds crazy, Like

542
00:26:10,960 --> 00:26:13,760
Speaker 4: when our wounds linked up and our entity was created,

543
00:26:14,280 --> 00:26:19,199
Speaker 4: there was a level of like rapid manifestation that we

544
00:26:19,200 --> 00:26:22,000
Speaker 4: were able to unlock that really made me like clear

545
00:26:22,040 --> 00:26:24,960
Speaker 4: of my powers. And I think that was only possible

546
00:26:25,040 --> 00:26:28,960
Speaker 4: in this friendship, like in this female friendship. Of like yes,

547
00:26:29,000 --> 00:26:31,240
Speaker 4: we were both like blind and leaping into this, which

548
00:26:31,240 --> 00:26:33,840
Speaker 4: I think was like a beautiful thing. But there was

549
00:26:33,880 --> 00:26:40,639
Speaker 4: a level of just manifesting without question quickly, and I

550
00:26:40,680 --> 00:26:43,520
Speaker 4: think we both like kind of like honed in on this, like, oh,

551
00:26:44,359 --> 00:26:48,680
Speaker 4: we have the ability to manifest anything that we want,

552
00:26:48,760 --> 00:26:53,160
Speaker 4: and we realized it in you know, community with each other.

553
00:26:53,640 --> 00:26:58,080
Speaker 4: So I just don't underestimate the magic that can be

554
00:26:58,119 --> 00:27:01,240
Speaker 4: created and the things that you can birth with the

555
00:27:01,280 --> 00:27:03,800
Speaker 4: women in your life. Like I recognize that one hundred percent.

556
00:27:03,880 --> 00:27:08,320
Speaker 4: Like I'm collaborative, I work best in like in collaboration,

557
00:27:08,480 --> 00:27:11,919
Speaker 4: in partnership, because like I just know that because of you,

558
00:27:12,280 --> 00:27:13,800
Speaker 4: I would have not you know, like I was really

559
00:27:13,800 --> 00:27:17,359
Speaker 4: struggling before getting into this space and working alone and

560
00:27:17,400 --> 00:27:20,919
Speaker 4: just feeling, yeah, like I couldn't stick with anything, like

561
00:27:21,080 --> 00:27:23,840
Speaker 4: nothing could be like super successful. I just was feeling

562
00:27:23,920 --> 00:27:27,680
Speaker 4: stuck a lot, and this like something about this relationship

563
00:27:27,800 --> 00:27:31,000
Speaker 4: just made me like not question shit. Even whether we

564
00:27:31,040 --> 00:27:32,840
Speaker 4: had like huge ideas, it didn't make any sense.

565
00:27:34,160 --> 00:27:38,400
Speaker 5: I also think, like, as I'm thinking too around this

566
00:27:38,400 --> 00:27:42,439
Speaker 5: this idea of like how women directly affect how you

567
00:27:42,480 --> 00:27:45,119
Speaker 5: show up in so many spaces in your life, not

568
00:27:45,200 --> 00:27:48,919
Speaker 5: just through the romantic one. There's all this talk around,

569
00:27:48,960 --> 00:27:51,880
Speaker 5: like and it's been an ongoing conversation around like women

570
00:27:51,920 --> 00:27:54,520
Speaker 5: that want to be softer, right, like soft life whatever.

571
00:27:54,640 --> 00:27:58,600
Speaker 5: And I think that like women are waiting for men

572
00:27:58,800 --> 00:28:01,800
Speaker 5: to like provide this environment for them to be soft.

573
00:28:02,359 --> 00:28:06,479
Speaker 5: But I actually think that I've become softer in the

574
00:28:06,520 --> 00:28:09,800
Speaker 5: presence of women. I've learned how to soften myself in

575
00:28:09,840 --> 00:28:13,720
Speaker 5: the presence of women, and that actually directly benefits my relationship.

576
00:28:13,920 --> 00:28:17,199
Speaker 5: Of course, yes, a man can help support that, but

577
00:28:17,240 --> 00:28:21,680
Speaker 5: I also think that female friendships actually are so much

578
00:28:21,760 --> 00:28:24,360
Speaker 5: of the medicine that helps women be soft.

579
00:28:24,840 --> 00:28:28,399
Speaker 4: It's definitely medicine and it does. It does soften you

580
00:28:28,480 --> 00:28:31,280
Speaker 4: like doing these retreats, like being able to hold other

581
00:28:31,359 --> 00:28:34,240
Speaker 4: women and comfort them and support them through hard things

582
00:28:34,280 --> 00:28:37,360
Speaker 4: and just understand the pain that they're experiencing, even if

583
00:28:37,359 --> 00:28:40,320
Speaker 4: it's not something I've personally been through. There's a level

584
00:28:40,320 --> 00:28:44,320
Speaker 4: of empathy that I can hold for another woman, you know,

585
00:28:44,400 --> 00:28:47,840
Speaker 4: in certain spaces that like allow me to soften and

586
00:28:47,840 --> 00:28:50,840
Speaker 4: be vulnerable and also allow me, like this retreat space

587
00:28:50,840 --> 00:28:53,720
Speaker 4: has really allowed me to like understand you have no

588
00:28:53,760 --> 00:28:56,200
Speaker 4: idea what people are going through, you know, like you can,

589
00:28:56,440 --> 00:28:58,440
Speaker 4: you know, and every day in life we've wrn into

590
00:28:58,440 --> 00:29:00,400
Speaker 4: people and we're like, oh, she's so loud, Oh this

591
00:29:00,560 --> 00:29:02,200
Speaker 4: is that? Oh that you know what I mean? Like

592
00:29:02,240 --> 00:29:05,440
Speaker 4: making up all types of ideas about women, you know,

593
00:29:05,520 --> 00:29:10,760
Speaker 4: making creating ideas and completely fictitious lives like I did

594
00:29:10,920 --> 00:29:14,680
Speaker 4: about Erica, you know, I thought, you know, and being

595
00:29:14,720 --> 00:29:16,720
Speaker 4: able to be in a container with women where we

596
00:29:16,760 --> 00:29:20,360
Speaker 4: can really be vulnerable gives you the opportunity to be like, oh,

597
00:29:20,400 --> 00:29:23,280
Speaker 4: you're human like me. Everyone is just human. We're all

598
00:29:23,320 --> 00:29:25,960
Speaker 4: dealing in these things, but we're very rarely in spaces

599
00:29:25,960 --> 00:29:28,440
Speaker 4: where we give each other the opportunity to take off

600
00:29:28,440 --> 00:29:34,360
Speaker 4: the mask and be like, oh, I understand you're going

601
00:29:34,360 --> 00:29:35,920
Speaker 4: through something. Oh you did get on my nerves, but

602
00:29:36,000 --> 00:29:37,920
Speaker 4: I understand, Like we're just different.

603
00:29:38,080 --> 00:29:39,320
Speaker 1: I understand you're excited.

604
00:29:39,880 --> 00:29:43,360
Speaker 4: Like there's so many it's so easy to repel someone

605
00:29:43,480 --> 00:29:46,800
Speaker 4: first and make up your mind about someone. You know, Hey,

606
00:29:46,840 --> 00:29:48,560
Speaker 4: it's not my cup of tea, it's not my type

607
00:29:48,600 --> 00:29:52,320
Speaker 4: of bitch. I have never left a retreat and been like,

608
00:29:52,360 --> 00:29:53,280
Speaker 4: that's not my type of bitch.

609
00:29:53,600 --> 00:29:55,520
Speaker 1: Never, never, you know.

610
00:29:55,680 --> 00:29:59,280
Speaker 4: And that's a lot solely because we have six days

611
00:29:59,320 --> 00:30:02,920
Speaker 4: to like really find out who those people are and

612
00:30:02,960 --> 00:30:05,239
Speaker 4: what they're going through and give them grace. And like

613
00:30:05,520 --> 00:30:08,320
Speaker 4: there's always something that I see of myself and someone else.

614
00:30:08,880 --> 00:30:10,600
Speaker 4: And so it's just like it reminds me when I

615
00:30:10,600 --> 00:30:13,200
Speaker 4: come back to like the real world and when my

616
00:30:13,400 --> 00:30:15,840
Speaker 4: first mind is to do shit like that, I'm like, no,

617
00:30:16,120 --> 00:30:18,040
Speaker 4: not doing that, you know, And like even giving that

618
00:30:18,080 --> 00:30:20,440
Speaker 4: to my daughter, right, Like, that's not how we act,

619
00:30:20,480 --> 00:30:22,720
Speaker 4: that's not how we conduct ourselves with other people or

620
00:30:22,720 --> 00:30:25,000
Speaker 4: other women, because we're all going through some shit.

621
00:30:25,800 --> 00:30:26,480
Speaker 1: It's true.

622
00:30:26,880 --> 00:30:29,200
Speaker 4: Unluckily me and Erka were going through some shit seven

623
00:30:29,280 --> 00:30:30,840
Speaker 4: years ago and start this podcast.

624
00:30:30,880 --> 00:30:33,240
Speaker 1: It's true terrible breakup sadness.

625
00:30:36,040 --> 00:30:39,280
Speaker 5: That's why I so look forward to our retreats because

626
00:30:39,280 --> 00:30:41,800
Speaker 5: I feel like in between the retreats, like I start

627
00:30:41,840 --> 00:30:42,560
Speaker 5: to harden.

628
00:30:42,280 --> 00:30:45,760
Speaker 1: A little bit, get a little crunchy. Yeah.

629
00:30:45,800 --> 00:30:48,000
Speaker 5: And we actually have a retreat coming up you guys

630
00:30:48,080 --> 00:30:48,840
Speaker 5: in April.

631
00:30:49,480 --> 00:30:51,120
Speaker 1: It's our first retreat in Jamaica.

632
00:30:51,920 --> 00:30:56,040
Speaker 5: It's our Flower Goddess Retreat aka Ganja Goddess. So this

633
00:30:56,080 --> 00:30:59,880
Speaker 5: is for our smoking mamas or just women. Our retreats

634
00:30:59,880 --> 00:31:01,200
Speaker 5: are not just for women, but it's sort of for

635
00:31:01,240 --> 00:31:02,000
Speaker 5: our smoking women.

636
00:31:02,200 --> 00:31:04,040
Speaker 4: I'll have a retreat for smoking women. You don't have

637
00:31:04,080 --> 00:31:05,920
Speaker 4: to know, yeah, you don't have to smoke, you don't

638
00:31:05,920 --> 00:31:08,080
Speaker 4: have to smoke with This one specifically is going to

639
00:31:08,080 --> 00:31:11,920
Speaker 4: be very four twenty friendly because and it's we're going

640
00:31:12,000 --> 00:31:14,120
Speaker 4: to be in Jamaica on fucking four to twenty.

641
00:31:14,640 --> 00:31:17,120
Speaker 5: So we have a few more spots left. We actually

642
00:31:17,120 --> 00:31:18,840
Speaker 5: were sold out of this retreat, but then a few

643
00:31:18,880 --> 00:31:22,200
Speaker 5: women had to cancel last minute. So if there's anybody

644
00:31:22,280 --> 00:31:25,440
Speaker 5: listening that wants to join us in Jamaica on April

645
00:31:25,520 --> 00:31:29,080
Speaker 5: seventeenth through the twenty second, we have a few spots left.

646
00:31:29,320 --> 00:31:31,720
Speaker 5: We are offering a discount code because we know it's

647
00:31:31,800 --> 00:31:34,640
Speaker 5: last minute, so make sure you click the link and

648
00:31:35,120 --> 00:31:39,120
Speaker 5: check out the Flower Goddess Retreat and use code Ganja.

649
00:31:39,200 --> 00:31:42,239
Speaker 4: Especially the East Coast girlies. Okay, because you're close, you're

650
00:31:42,320 --> 00:31:44,960
Speaker 4: right there. Lights are cheap and you might as well

651
00:31:45,000 --> 00:31:46,640
Speaker 4: come pull up and put your bathing suit on because

652
00:31:46,640 --> 00:31:48,880
Speaker 4: I know it's cold as shit in the East Coast,

653
00:31:49,320 --> 00:31:52,000
Speaker 4: and come smoke one with us and celebrate for twenty

654
00:31:52,120 --> 00:31:53,000
Speaker 4: and like a.

655
00:31:53,000 --> 00:31:57,920
Speaker 3: Beach front villa. We're literally right on the water's.

656
00:31:57,280 --> 00:32:01,120
Speaker 4: Waking up to the ocean, the Caribbean ocean, and waking

657
00:32:01,200 --> 00:32:06,120
Speaker 4: up to breakfast blunts, waking up to yoga and chiefing,

658
00:32:07,840 --> 00:32:10,600
Speaker 4: probably some fine men and some good ass food.

659
00:32:10,880 --> 00:32:14,800
Speaker 5: Most importantly, most importantly jerk chicken, most importantly fine aess men.

660
00:32:16,360 --> 00:32:23,280
Speaker 1: And chicken. She can wait a men? What more can

661
00:32:23,360 --> 00:32:24,880
Speaker 1: a girl asked for? Chicken? Wait a man?

662
00:32:24,880 --> 00:32:28,800
Speaker 4: It's sisterhood. It sounds like happened to me. I'm there.

663
00:32:30,240 --> 00:32:34,240
Speaker 4: I'm really excited about about the Ganjia Goddess Retreat. I

664
00:32:34,320 --> 00:32:38,680
Speaker 4: just started doing my goddess initiation with Goddess Jesse from

665
00:32:38,720 --> 00:32:42,719
Speaker 4: the Sweet Love Sanctuary, so I'm like on this ninety

666
00:32:42,840 --> 00:32:47,800
Speaker 4: day journey with a cohort of women doing the same thing,

667
00:32:47,840 --> 00:32:51,640
Speaker 4: and like we're learning about like the African like African

668
00:32:51,680 --> 00:32:55,080
Speaker 4: spirituality and the African systems of spirituality, and it's it's

669
00:32:55,120 --> 00:32:57,719
Speaker 4: really interesting because there's a lot of things that mirror Tantra.

670
00:32:57,800 --> 00:33:00,760
Speaker 4: And I know Tantra has African roots, but you know,

671
00:33:00,920 --> 00:33:05,000
Speaker 4: last year, if you saw our African Ancestry episode, I

672
00:33:05,040 --> 00:33:07,960
Speaker 4: found out that I was Oruba. So like learning through

673
00:33:08,200 --> 00:33:12,680
Speaker 4: my good sister Jesse and also just through her initiations

674
00:33:12,720 --> 00:33:16,000
Speaker 4: and like all of her mentorship has been really really cool.

675
00:33:16,040 --> 00:33:19,120
Speaker 4: And like I rarely take time to go within, but

676
00:33:19,200 --> 00:33:21,400
Speaker 4: I realized, like in order to go to the next

677
00:33:21,480 --> 00:33:25,520
Speaker 4: initiation in any cycle of life, there requires like a

678
00:33:25,560 --> 00:33:28,280
Speaker 4: lot of inward reflection. And we're doing like a lot

679
00:33:28,280 --> 00:33:31,120
Speaker 4: of ancestor work. We're really talking about like taking care

680
00:33:31,160 --> 00:33:35,280
Speaker 4: of our altars, healing past trauma, healing church trauma, and

681
00:33:35,320 --> 00:33:36,400
Speaker 4: a lot of people experience that.

682
00:33:36,720 --> 00:33:38,200
Speaker 1: It's very much what we do.

683
00:33:38,120 --> 00:33:43,480
Speaker 4: In our retreats, but with an African spirituality like perspective,

684
00:33:43,680 --> 00:33:46,960
Speaker 4: perspective and like voodoo, and so I'm really excited about

685
00:33:47,000 --> 00:33:49,000
Speaker 4: like sharing in that process. I'm gonna share about it

686
00:33:49,040 --> 00:33:51,800
Speaker 4: in discord. And but you know, I just feel like

687
00:33:51,800 --> 00:33:55,160
Speaker 4: like the spring as a time of like blooming and blossoming,

688
00:33:55,200 --> 00:33:58,080
Speaker 4: and like we hibernate all winter and we rest and

689
00:33:58,120 --> 00:34:02,240
Speaker 4: now there's like another version coming. And this is year nine,

690
00:34:02,400 --> 00:34:05,920
Speaker 4: and I'm my my year of numerology is also nine,

691
00:34:06,240 --> 00:34:07,760
Speaker 4: So I feel like there's another year nine of what

692
00:34:08,239 --> 00:34:10,120
Speaker 4: like when you add up all the numbers of your birthday?

693
00:34:10,200 --> 00:34:12,440
Speaker 4: Oh oh, you're everybody has a number? Do you know

694
00:34:12,480 --> 00:34:12,839
Speaker 4: your number?

695
00:34:13,640 --> 00:34:13,920
Speaker 1: Really?

696
00:34:14,040 --> 00:34:16,520
Speaker 4: How do I figure out? I think I thought you

697
00:34:16,560 --> 00:34:18,960
Speaker 4: were seven? But maybe I made that up?

698
00:34:20,200 --> 00:34:22,200
Speaker 1: You mean like my life path number? Yes, I think

699
00:34:22,200 --> 00:34:24,120
Speaker 1: it's six? Six? Okay, yeah? Six?

700
00:34:24,160 --> 00:34:24,600
Speaker 3: And the nine?

701
00:34:24,719 --> 00:34:27,839
Speaker 1: Yeah baby say so.

702
00:34:27,920 --> 00:34:29,960
Speaker 4: I just I know I don't know something about this spring,

703
00:34:30,000 --> 00:34:33,040
Speaker 4: particularly as we approach the spring equinox. I'm feeling a

704
00:34:33,080 --> 00:34:35,360
Speaker 4: birthing that's taking place. I mean, like not of my

705
00:34:35,440 --> 00:34:38,839
Speaker 4: actual womb right now, but like of me. And I'm

706
00:34:38,840 --> 00:34:41,080
Speaker 4: excited about that. And I feel like this like this

707
00:34:41,320 --> 00:34:44,759
Speaker 4: retree is a it's in Jamaica, black people. I'm really

708
00:34:45,360 --> 00:34:47,640
Speaker 4: really excited. I mean, we like to travel where we

709
00:34:47,680 --> 00:34:51,600
Speaker 4: see ourselves, but I'm just excited. I'm excited about this year.

710
00:34:51,640 --> 00:34:55,799
Speaker 4: I feel like and are you seven year anniversary? We

711
00:34:55,840 --> 00:34:57,360
Speaker 4: have big things coming.

712
00:34:57,160 --> 00:34:58,680
Speaker 1: Big things for sure?

713
00:35:00,160 --> 00:35:01,200
Speaker 4: Do you speaking of things?

714
00:35:01,200 --> 00:35:04,439
Speaker 1: Do you want to roll back with Backwood? I do

715
00:35:04,480 --> 00:35:04,879
Speaker 1: you know what?

716
00:35:05,280 --> 00:35:08,359
Speaker 5: I I brought some weed.

717
00:35:08,440 --> 00:35:11,400
Speaker 1: My dad gave me that weed. Oh, shout out to Miles.

718
00:35:11,520 --> 00:35:12,680
Speaker 1: He actually came by my.

719
00:35:12,680 --> 00:35:16,319
Speaker 5: House and well, we love this is like, this is

720
00:35:16,360 --> 00:35:17,919
Speaker 5: how we used to get it an old day.

721
00:35:19,080 --> 00:35:21,360
Speaker 1: You're aging ends, this is that, this is that pack.

722
00:35:21,680 --> 00:35:22,839
Speaker 1: That's that pack for my dad.

723
00:35:24,200 --> 00:35:25,480
Speaker 4: He was like, I'm just come over and give you

724
00:35:25,520 --> 00:35:28,040
Speaker 4: a hug. And I was like, oh my, okay, that's

725
00:35:28,160 --> 00:35:31,239
Speaker 4: new and it's different, and you know, it's so interesting. Like,

726
00:35:31,440 --> 00:35:33,839
Speaker 4: I find it more difficult to be as soft with

727
00:35:33,840 --> 00:35:38,200
Speaker 4: my family as I am in like our friend spaces

728
00:35:38,320 --> 00:35:40,359
Speaker 4: or at the retreat, and I'm trying to work on that,

729
00:35:40,520 --> 00:35:45,120
Speaker 4: like delivering the same amount of softness in my closest

730
00:35:45,239 --> 00:35:48,359
Speaker 4: personal relationships as well. Do you find that like with

731
00:35:48,840 --> 00:35:50,920
Speaker 4: like your parents.

732
00:35:51,880 --> 00:35:53,959
Speaker 5: I feel like I've gotten very soft with my mom

733
00:35:54,360 --> 00:35:57,840
Speaker 5: over the last year. I almost feel like I'm like

734
00:35:57,960 --> 00:36:02,640
Speaker 5: mothering her in ways that's been healing for you. I

735
00:36:02,640 --> 00:36:04,960
Speaker 5: think it's been healing for both of us. She's softened

736
00:36:05,200 --> 00:36:10,040
Speaker 5: a lot, which has been really nice. I feel like

737
00:36:10,080 --> 00:36:12,680
Speaker 5: I was I've been waiting for this because my mom

738
00:36:12,680 --> 00:36:16,400
Speaker 5: also like she's she's someone who has had to be

739
00:36:16,520 --> 00:36:20,200
Speaker 5: in the masculine forever. It feels like, I mean, I know,

740
00:36:20,280 --> 00:36:22,560
Speaker 5: since I was born, like having to take control of

741
00:36:23,200 --> 00:36:28,600
Speaker 5: you know, everything, everything, and then working in a male

742
00:36:28,640 --> 00:36:32,359
Speaker 5: dominated industry and having to prove herself and and then

743
00:36:32,640 --> 00:36:35,480
Speaker 5: you know, leaving that industry makeup. My mom was a

744
00:36:35,520 --> 00:36:39,160
Speaker 5: professional makeup artist my whole life, and then moving into

745
00:36:39,200 --> 00:36:44,040
Speaker 5: being a business owner and you know that again too.

746
00:36:44,640 --> 00:36:49,560
Speaker 5: So I think that I've also seen my mom spending

747
00:36:49,560 --> 00:36:52,759
Speaker 5: a lot more time outside, which is very rare I've met.

748
00:36:52,760 --> 00:36:55,360
Speaker 5: My mom has never been like outside a girl. No,

749
00:36:56,239 --> 00:36:58,640
Speaker 5: She's been working literally like every day in my life.

750
00:36:58,719 --> 00:37:01,960
Speaker 5: And so with the shifts that's been happening in her life,

751
00:37:02,360 --> 00:37:03,600
Speaker 5: I saw her at uh.

752
00:37:04,480 --> 00:37:05,480
Speaker 1: Where was she at last night?

753
00:37:05,800 --> 00:37:09,600
Speaker 5: Verse I was taking selfies in the mirror with her friend.

754
00:37:09,320 --> 00:37:13,680
Speaker 1: I'm in the bathroom. I was like, okay, mom side,

755
00:37:14,000 --> 00:37:16,120
Speaker 1: and she's been hanging out with a lot of girlfriends,

756
00:37:16,200 --> 00:37:18,880
Speaker 1: and like I said, like I see the softening happening

757
00:37:18,920 --> 00:37:21,799
Speaker 1: with her is like she's finally allowing herself time to

758
00:37:21,800 --> 00:37:23,719
Speaker 1: do it because as women too, we make excuses. I

759
00:37:23,719 --> 00:37:24,759
Speaker 1: don't have time. I don't have time for that. I

760
00:37:24,760 --> 00:37:27,360
Speaker 1: don't have time for joy, I don't have time for pleasure.

761
00:37:27,640 --> 00:37:29,640
Speaker 4: Enjoying the pleasures always last on the life.

762
00:37:29,640 --> 00:37:31,440
Speaker 3: It's gonna be it's gonna I've been, I've done it before.

763
00:37:31,520 --> 00:37:33,839
Speaker 3: It's gonna be whack, like you know, just making up

764
00:37:34,640 --> 00:37:36,040
Speaker 3: before you got there far.

765
00:37:37,480 --> 00:37:39,520
Speaker 4: You know, I'm happy you said that, like pause on

766
00:37:39,560 --> 00:37:42,480
Speaker 4: your story. I want to just say, for a for

767
00:37:42,560 --> 00:37:46,640
Speaker 4: women that make excuses about having female friends, but mostly

768
00:37:46,640 --> 00:37:49,799
Speaker 4: for women who make excuses about having fun and just

769
00:37:49,840 --> 00:37:52,640
Speaker 4: being free and letting go and just going to play

770
00:37:52,680 --> 00:37:55,880
Speaker 4: like I'll say that aside from the fact that me

771
00:37:55,920 --> 00:37:57,640
Speaker 4: and Eric I would literally have to have shit to

772
00:37:57,640 --> 00:38:00,720
Speaker 4: talk about every week for fucking six years. In years

773
00:38:01,080 --> 00:38:05,520
Speaker 4: we were so clear about fuck it, let's have fun

774
00:38:05,960 --> 00:38:08,000
Speaker 4: like a we wanted to have I think we're both

775
00:38:08,000 --> 00:38:10,680
Speaker 4: experiential bitches and we'd like to have a story. But

776
00:38:10,719 --> 00:38:12,640
Speaker 4: then when you add the cherry on top that we

777
00:38:12,680 --> 00:38:14,960
Speaker 4: actually have a we actually do have to have a story.

778
00:38:16,080 --> 00:38:18,440
Speaker 1: We have to we have got this case study. It's

779
00:38:18,440 --> 00:38:19,080
Speaker 1: a case study.

780
00:38:19,360 --> 00:38:21,880
Speaker 4: Every time the man of bad choices we've made and

781
00:38:21,960 --> 00:38:23,240
Speaker 4: decided it was a case study.

782
00:38:23,719 --> 00:38:24,279
Speaker 1: Do you know him?

783
00:38:24,320 --> 00:38:24,360
Speaker 6: No?

784
00:38:24,400 --> 00:38:29,759
Speaker 4: Okay, I's just getting his car. Let's just get in.

785
00:38:29,719 --> 00:38:31,239
Speaker 1: Wait is this what you did last time? Okay, we

786
00:38:31,239 --> 00:38:32,520
Speaker 1: have the true Did you break it up?

787
00:38:32,840 --> 00:38:32,920
Speaker 4: Like?

788
00:38:33,040 --> 00:38:35,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, our true wraps? Should I put it in here?

789
00:38:35,239 --> 00:38:37,000
Speaker 4: No, just break it up. It's gonna crunch right down.

790
00:38:37,040 --> 00:38:37,680
Speaker 1: Baby.

791
00:38:37,719 --> 00:38:39,200
Speaker 4: This is so you don't have to give like get

792
00:38:39,239 --> 00:38:41,880
Speaker 4: too much of a heady high. You just crunched down.

793
00:38:42,200 --> 00:38:44,040
Speaker 1: How much should I use? Like half? Yeah, that's a

794
00:38:44,040 --> 00:38:47,480
Speaker 1: good half. Half a little half. Yeah, let me just

795
00:38:47,480 --> 00:38:49,240
Speaker 1: just crunch it in there some AMR.

796
00:38:51,080 --> 00:38:53,719
Speaker 4: Oh my god, I remember we needed ASMR ASMR with

797
00:38:53,840 --> 00:39:01,480
Speaker 4: backwards true Baby. I don't know why this is the

798
00:39:01,520 --> 00:39:09,200
Speaker 4: a SMR. Remember those two episodes we did of ASMR.

799
00:39:09,239 --> 00:39:10,279
Speaker 1: I really never loved it.

800
00:39:10,320 --> 00:39:13,600
Speaker 5: We bring back Look, okay, first of all, to be like,

801
00:39:13,600 --> 00:39:15,520
Speaker 5: gave me so much shape for wanting to do ASMR.

802
00:39:15,520 --> 00:39:17,879
Speaker 5: It's like, what are you talking to, stupid fucking SMR.

803
00:39:17,880 --> 00:39:19,560
Speaker 5: I'm like, they're just gonna be a hit. Just watch

804
00:39:20,080 --> 00:39:20,880
Speaker 5: and we put it out and.

805
00:39:20,840 --> 00:39:22,759
Speaker 1: People are like more, we need more, we need more,

806
00:39:23,239 --> 00:39:25,680
Speaker 1: good mom's ASMR. We need a whole fucking channel. Didn't

807
00:39:25,680 --> 00:39:26,520
Speaker 1: we do too? We did?

808
00:39:26,600 --> 00:39:28,920
Speaker 5: We did Harold Bell's, and we did Cereal and then

809
00:39:28,960 --> 00:39:30,040
Speaker 5: we did the chicken wings.

810
00:39:30,080 --> 00:39:32,280
Speaker 1: Wait, no, that was Harolin. We did tacos, those nasty

811
00:39:32,520 --> 00:39:33,520
Speaker 1: taco those.

812
00:39:33,360 --> 00:39:35,480
Speaker 4: Were actually if you haven't checked out our ASMR series

813
00:39:35,520 --> 00:39:37,560
Speaker 4: on YouTube, what the fuck are you doing? It's actually

814
00:39:37,600 --> 00:39:41,040
Speaker 4: the funniest shit we ever put out. It's actually I

815
00:39:41,040 --> 00:39:43,640
Speaker 4: didn't know it was gonna be so fun and so funny,

816
00:39:43,800 --> 00:39:46,239
Speaker 4: but it actually I was really inspired by our kids.

817
00:39:46,280 --> 00:39:47,799
Speaker 4: It was our kids kept telling us to do it

818
00:39:47,800 --> 00:39:51,560
Speaker 4: because I don't really get the type of ASMR, but wow, wow,

819
00:39:51,600 --> 00:39:55,480
Speaker 4: it was really fun. And now we're doing a SMR

820
00:39:55,680 --> 00:39:56,320
Speaker 4: blunt rolling.

821
00:39:56,480 --> 00:39:59,279
Speaker 5: Okay, so now this is the blunt is actually going

822
00:39:59,280 --> 00:40:01,040
Speaker 5: inside of the joint.

823
00:40:01,160 --> 00:40:02,960
Speaker 4: So this is so we take the true rap, let

824
00:40:03,000 --> 00:40:05,120
Speaker 4: me use it like it's grava, and we put it

825
00:40:05,160 --> 00:40:08,480
Speaker 4: inside of the paper. So it just opens you up

826
00:40:08,560 --> 00:40:10,640
Speaker 4: just a little bit for lightheadedness, not too much.

827
00:40:10,880 --> 00:40:13,560
Speaker 1: It makes it like a little heftier smoke. Yeah, it's

828
00:40:13,560 --> 00:40:16,400
Speaker 1: more significantly more weighted weighted smoke.

829
00:40:18,640 --> 00:40:20,439
Speaker 4: Okay, sorry, i'd ben interrupt you about your mom.

830
00:40:20,600 --> 00:40:22,200
Speaker 5: No, no, I was just saying that, like I've just

831
00:40:22,239 --> 00:40:24,799
Speaker 5: watched her soften lately, and I think part of that

832
00:40:25,080 --> 00:40:28,120
Speaker 5: is life kicking her ass a little bit. And then

833
00:40:28,160 --> 00:40:33,319
Speaker 5: also and then her I think her also connecting more

834
00:40:33,440 --> 00:40:37,520
Speaker 5: with her friends, like making time, knowing that she needs

835
00:40:37,600 --> 00:40:42,400
Speaker 5: to go outside, knowing that she needs women, not just

836
00:40:42,480 --> 00:40:49,359
Speaker 5: her husband, women to like help her, to like confide in.

837
00:40:50,080 --> 00:40:52,799
Speaker 5: Like there's only so much you can talk to with

838
00:40:52,880 --> 00:40:55,160
Speaker 5: a man about your feelings, your emotions and what you're

839
00:40:55,200 --> 00:40:57,799
Speaker 5: going through, you know, and so talking to other women,

840
00:40:57,920 --> 00:40:59,600
Speaker 5: especially women that have gone through something, that are going

841
00:40:59,600 --> 00:41:02,080
Speaker 5: through something similar to what she's been going through, Like

842
00:41:02,480 --> 00:41:07,400
Speaker 5: there's like a level of I guess, vulnerability, of humbleness,

843
00:41:08,320 --> 00:41:11,560
Speaker 5: all those things that I think women provide a space for.

844
00:41:11,719 --> 00:41:14,040
Speaker 5: And so it's been really nice to see her do that.

845
00:41:14,160 --> 00:41:18,200
Speaker 5: And so to answer your question, I do I am

846
00:41:18,280 --> 00:41:21,720
Speaker 5: soft with my mom. Our relationship has come a long way.

847
00:41:22,000 --> 00:41:23,719
Speaker 5: Even if you go back and listen to like our

848
00:41:23,800 --> 00:41:26,239
Speaker 5: episode we did with her like three four years ago

849
00:41:26,360 --> 00:41:29,680
Speaker 5: or so, like our relationship then is so different than

850
00:41:29,719 --> 00:41:34,200
Speaker 5: it was now, you know, like even then, like she

851
00:41:34,360 --> 00:41:36,400
Speaker 5: was definitely in her masculine and even in the episode,

852
00:41:36,760 --> 00:41:40,359
Speaker 5: you know, my mom's a boss bitch, you know, and like,

853
00:41:40,920 --> 00:41:42,040
Speaker 5: but shit, she's tired.

854
00:41:43,000 --> 00:41:45,359
Speaker 1: I mean, you can you can only wear the wear

855
00:41:45,440 --> 00:41:49,399
Speaker 1: the badge so long, it's like sometimes you can put

856
00:41:49,400 --> 00:41:50,799
Speaker 1: that shit down. It's exhausting.

857
00:41:50,840 --> 00:41:53,840
Speaker 4: It's exhausting, and even even as to our parents, you know,

858
00:41:53,880 --> 00:41:57,600
Speaker 4: it's exhausting. It's exhausting holding up holding it like the

859
00:41:57,600 --> 00:41:59,960
Speaker 4: weight of whatever you think that you've made them out

860
00:42:00,040 --> 00:42:02,560
Speaker 4: in your mind, and like, yeah, and time is of

861
00:42:02,600 --> 00:42:05,399
Speaker 4: the essence, you know, like we're not promised every day,

862
00:42:05,760 --> 00:42:08,839
Speaker 4: We're not promised forever. This is a temporary human experience,

863
00:42:08,920 --> 00:42:13,160
Speaker 4: and just remembering to soften with yourself a but also

864
00:42:13,280 --> 00:42:15,839
Speaker 4: like and your girlfriends, but soften with the people that

865
00:42:15,880 --> 00:42:20,040
Speaker 4: matter most, with your kids, with your parents, because just

866
00:42:20,080 --> 00:42:22,279
Speaker 4: like the same speech we just gave about not knowing

867
00:42:22,320 --> 00:42:24,840
Speaker 4: what other women are going through, is like you sometimes

868
00:42:24,840 --> 00:42:27,040
Speaker 4: don't even know what your parents are going through and

869
00:42:27,120 --> 00:42:30,160
Speaker 4: like and how they're being affected, because you know, I

870
00:42:30,200 --> 00:42:32,279
Speaker 4: was feeling myself wanting to judge my dad a little

871
00:42:32,280 --> 00:42:34,840
Speaker 4: bit last week, and then he called and like just

872
00:42:34,960 --> 00:42:37,240
Speaker 4: randomly came over, brought that weight and asked for a hug,

873
00:42:37,239 --> 00:42:40,040
Speaker 4: and I just had to be like, let me stand down,

874
00:42:40,640 --> 00:42:43,360
Speaker 4: let me not be judgmental, let me not make up

875
00:42:43,360 --> 00:42:45,200
Speaker 4: a narrative in my mind, and just stick with it

876
00:42:45,239 --> 00:42:47,279
Speaker 4: and let me just let him come over and give

877
00:42:47,320 --> 00:42:50,720
Speaker 4: me a hug. The hug it was nice. I probably

878
00:42:50,760 --> 00:42:53,400
Speaker 4: could have been longer, you know, when I've functioned very

879
00:42:53,520 --> 00:42:56,680
Speaker 4: much in the very like we're loving but not super touchy.

880
00:42:57,160 --> 00:43:00,719
Speaker 4: So it's kind of like, now you come, everyone give

881
00:43:00,760 --> 00:43:01,520
Speaker 4: me a super long hungg.

882
00:43:01,520 --> 00:43:02,080
Speaker 1: It's interesting.

883
00:43:02,320 --> 00:43:06,200
Speaker 4: But you know, my dad's pretty loving. But just a

884
00:43:06,239 --> 00:43:11,320
Speaker 4: reminder to everyone listening that hug your parents, hug your friends.

885
00:43:12,120 --> 00:43:14,560
Speaker 4: Sometimes the peoples we know the most and the closest

886
00:43:14,560 --> 00:43:20,759
Speaker 4: to us, it's the hardest to give that deep stranger love.

887
00:43:22,200 --> 00:43:22,960
Speaker 1: True.

888
00:43:24,000 --> 00:43:26,840
Speaker 4: I just looked over at you with that chain on

889
00:43:26,960 --> 00:43:28,720
Speaker 4: and that hat. It's like, run DMC.

890
00:43:31,960 --> 00:43:33,719
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm throwing it back. I gotta throw it back,

891
00:43:33,840 --> 00:43:35,560
Speaker 1: like I gotta throw back merch on. We don't even

892
00:43:35,640 --> 00:43:37,640
Speaker 1: sell this one anymore. We have to run this back.

893
00:43:38,280 --> 00:43:40,719
Speaker 5: Actually, this and this should've had since like that's cute.

894
00:43:40,719 --> 00:43:41,600
Speaker 5: I was like twenty two.

895
00:43:41,880 --> 00:43:43,880
Speaker 1: It kind of looks like ours, But I know, I

896
00:43:43,920 --> 00:43:45,160
Speaker 1: was like I did. I was like, was this what

897
00:43:45,400 --> 00:43:47,200
Speaker 1: we were inspired by? That's my mind.

898
00:43:47,320 --> 00:43:49,440
Speaker 5: This is by this old brand called dope. It was

899
00:43:49,440 --> 00:43:51,120
Speaker 5: like really popular once upon a time.

900
00:43:51,680 --> 00:43:53,319
Speaker 1: I was like, everybody might still even have it. But

901
00:43:53,360 --> 00:43:55,400
Speaker 1: it was like they had a store on Fairfax. I

902
00:43:55,480 --> 00:43:56,080
Speaker 1: like that netted.

903
00:43:56,200 --> 00:43:57,960
Speaker 4: There was a whole moment look at us kind of

904
00:43:58,320 --> 00:44:00,719
Speaker 4: kind of matching again with knit and where.

905
00:44:01,719 --> 00:44:04,399
Speaker 1: Are you ready for this? The final smoking of this

906
00:44:05,800 --> 00:44:20,680
Speaker 1: backwood insert of Shinen Blunt enjoyed backward sprinkle. Oh, speaking

907
00:44:20,680 --> 00:44:22,640
Speaker 1: of which, you guys, we have a new segment called

908
00:44:22,719 --> 00:44:27,000
Speaker 1: high Thoughts. That's where we get high and we say thoughts. Meila,

909
00:44:27,120 --> 00:44:28,719
Speaker 1: you said that you had a high thought you would

910
00:44:28,719 --> 00:44:31,319
Speaker 1: like to share this week. What is your high thought

911
00:44:31,320 --> 00:44:35,000
Speaker 1: of the week? My dear, Okay, let me hit that.

912
00:44:35,520 --> 00:44:37,120
Speaker 4: Hold on, let me hit that so I can really

913
00:44:37,160 --> 00:44:44,840
Speaker 4: get into my high thoughts I thought I had this week. Honestly,

914
00:44:44,840 --> 00:44:47,359
Speaker 4: I've been having this thought for some months now, I

915
00:44:47,400 --> 00:44:55,360
Speaker 4: just didn't have It's for our ASMR community.

916
00:44:55,719 --> 00:44:57,239
Speaker 1: Well let's do it. Let's do it for the old

917
00:44:57,360 --> 00:45:01,000
Speaker 1: the old days. This was a let's not do that.

918
00:45:01,960 --> 00:45:03,239
Speaker 1: I was gonna do that, but I'm not going to

919
00:45:03,320 --> 00:45:06,480
Speaker 1: do that. Just do it. It's not short enough. That's

920
00:45:06,680 --> 00:45:09,000
Speaker 1: kind of long. No. Wait, when you do like that? Yeah,

921
00:45:09,440 --> 00:45:13,800
Speaker 1: I'm afraid. Wait but do you put it in your mouth? Right? Yeah?

922
00:45:14,400 --> 00:45:18,560
Speaker 5: You could do it real stoner moms.

923
00:45:18,600 --> 00:45:23,799
Speaker 1: Here, it's called a shotgun. We're real stoner moms.

924
00:45:23,280 --> 00:45:24,000
Speaker 3: That was bad.

925
00:45:24,600 --> 00:45:25,920
Speaker 4: That wasn't as bad as I thought it was going

926
00:45:25,960 --> 00:45:26,160
Speaker 4: to be.

927
00:45:26,360 --> 00:45:28,920
Speaker 1: I thought it might burn my tongue, but we succeeded.

928
00:45:30,080 --> 00:45:32,040
Speaker 4: Okay, So my high thought of the week was that

929
00:45:33,880 --> 00:45:35,719
Speaker 4: I know this has happened to everyone listening because it's

930
00:45:35,719 --> 00:45:38,640
Speaker 4: happened to me four million times. Have you ever been

931
00:45:38,640 --> 00:45:41,400
Speaker 4: talking about something and then suddenly, of course it pops

932
00:45:41,480 --> 00:45:42,120
Speaker 4: up on your phone?

933
00:45:42,760 --> 00:45:44,680
Speaker 1: Every time that happened the other day, you're baring more.

934
00:45:45,040 --> 00:45:47,879
Speaker 4: But lately it's been happening like in real life. So

935
00:45:47,960 --> 00:45:50,560
Speaker 4: I mean, I know telepathically, if I'm missing someone or

936
00:45:50,880 --> 00:45:52,160
Speaker 4: so what I haven't talked to a long time, I

937
00:45:52,239 --> 00:45:55,760
Speaker 4: can just think of them subconsciously and pat by and passing,

938
00:45:55,800 --> 00:45:57,839
Speaker 4: and I know that I'm putting out the signal into

939
00:45:57,840 --> 00:45:58,880
Speaker 4: the world and they're going to give me a call.

940
00:45:58,880 --> 00:46:02,240
Speaker 4: I'm gonna run into them. But recently I've come upon

941
00:46:02,320 --> 00:46:05,520
Speaker 4: a high thought that might very well be true. Scientists,

942
00:46:05,600 --> 00:46:07,000
Speaker 4: give me a call. Tell me what you think.

943
00:46:10,719 --> 00:46:11,160
Speaker 1: I feel like.

944
00:46:11,200 --> 00:46:14,440
Speaker 4: Because our bodies are essentially computers, and we're wired, and

945
00:46:14,480 --> 00:46:19,440
Speaker 4: there's electricity, and energy is actually an energetic component that

946
00:46:19,600 --> 00:46:22,600
Speaker 4: like frequency is real, just like my voice right now

947
00:46:22,719 --> 00:46:27,240
Speaker 4: is emulating through millions of speakers and millions of cars

948
00:46:27,239 --> 00:46:30,080
Speaker 4: and homes, and you're receiving my words in my tone

949
00:46:30,120 --> 00:46:33,759
Speaker 4: and my essence. I feel like those actual frequencies are

950
00:46:33,800 --> 00:46:37,200
Speaker 4: electrical and because when we have those thoughts and they're

951
00:46:37,239 --> 00:46:41,720
Speaker 4: powerful and you're honed into your your power, it actually

952
00:46:41,760 --> 00:46:46,040
Speaker 4: does equate to being frequencies for the phone to then

953
00:46:46,520 --> 00:46:52,759
Speaker 4: transtrans like compute and produce whatever it is. So at

954
00:46:52,760 --> 00:46:54,760
Speaker 4: first I thought it was because I was talking about

955
00:46:54,760 --> 00:46:57,759
Speaker 4: it there I was in a certain area definitely, though

956
00:46:58,040 --> 00:46:59,880
Speaker 4: there's of course when we talk about it, they're dea

957
00:47:00,120 --> 00:47:01,680
Speaker 4: listen to our conversations. I don't know if you've seen

958
00:47:01,680 --> 00:47:06,680
Speaker 4: that Black Mirror on Netflix recently, but sometimes I'm just

959
00:47:06,960 --> 00:47:09,919
Speaker 4: thinking about shit and it comes up on my phone.

960
00:47:09,960 --> 00:47:11,600
Speaker 4: And it started to happen so often to me that

961
00:47:11,640 --> 00:47:13,719
Speaker 4: I was like, are you fucking kidding me?

962
00:47:13,760 --> 00:47:14,000
Speaker 1: God?

963
00:47:14,040 --> 00:47:17,760
Speaker 5: Do you think that this is also just like humans

964
00:47:17,760 --> 00:47:22,240
Speaker 5: and our evolution of attunement to our environment? Like because

965
00:47:22,320 --> 00:47:24,920
Speaker 5: because obviously, you know, the technology in its form right

966
00:47:24,960 --> 00:47:27,799
Speaker 5: now didn't exist and you know, even one hundred years ago,

967
00:47:28,000 --> 00:47:32,000
Speaker 5: but because we're constantly evolving. Our energy and frequencies are

968
00:47:32,000 --> 00:47:33,840
Speaker 5: just attuning to everything around us.

969
00:47:34,040 --> 00:47:34,759
Speaker 1: I think that's true.

970
00:47:34,800 --> 00:47:37,480
Speaker 4: But I also think that whoever created the phones and

971
00:47:37,520 --> 00:47:40,960
Speaker 4: the technology and the powers that be have known that

972
00:47:41,080 --> 00:47:44,600
Speaker 4: this is possible, and that's why they've accustomed us to

973
00:47:44,719 --> 00:47:47,640
Speaker 4: be so deeply, deeply addicted to our phones, to the

974
00:47:47,640 --> 00:47:50,319
Speaker 4: point where if it's not in hand, you're literally like

975
00:47:50,480 --> 00:47:53,439
Speaker 4: a little bit frantic. And I think that because we've

976
00:47:53,480 --> 00:47:56,120
Speaker 4: made it, we've made it. They've learned this technology and

977
00:47:56,120 --> 00:47:58,600
Speaker 4: they've made it so clear, and now they can get

978
00:47:58,600 --> 00:48:01,560
Speaker 4: our information easily. A because we're talking to everything, including

979
00:48:01,600 --> 00:48:04,120
Speaker 4: Alexa in our house into all our conversations because we're

980
00:48:04,160 --> 00:48:06,640
Speaker 4: fucking idiots and we give them front keys to our house.

981
00:48:07,080 --> 00:48:10,760
Speaker 4: But mostly also I think it's reading our fucking brain waves.

982
00:48:11,560 --> 00:48:14,080
Speaker 1: Wake up. Is that good or bad? It's bad.

983
00:48:14,120 --> 00:48:17,880
Speaker 4: But also we're more powerful than you know, so we

984
00:48:18,440 --> 00:48:20,120
Speaker 4: switch our thoughts. We got to switch the matrix. We

985
00:48:20,160 --> 00:48:22,799
Speaker 4: gotta just not let the AI. And I also think

986
00:48:23,560 --> 00:48:25,959
Speaker 4: I also think that's why meditation is really important, because

987
00:48:25,960 --> 00:48:27,960
Speaker 4: then you have to hone into your clarity and your intention.

988
00:48:28,160 --> 00:48:34,400
Speaker 4: But I also think that AI is like us in

989
00:48:34,440 --> 00:48:38,799
Speaker 4: the future. I think AI is like like, just like

990
00:48:38,840 --> 00:48:42,680
Speaker 4: AI replicates human nature. I feel like if we keep

991
00:48:43,360 --> 00:48:45,239
Speaker 4: like leveling up, we're just going to turn into like

992
00:48:45,360 --> 00:48:49,880
Speaker 4: robotic people. Absolutely, So it's like like AI is our

993
00:48:49,880 --> 00:48:51,200
Speaker 4: future human selves.

994
00:48:51,440 --> 00:48:53,680
Speaker 1: Anyway, that's my high thoughts for the day, Ladies and gentlemen.

995
00:48:53,719 --> 00:48:54,320
Speaker 1: I'm a scientist.

996
00:48:54,960 --> 00:49:00,520
Speaker 4: Okay, doctor Jimilla Matt, I'm already here.

997
00:49:00,560 --> 00:49:02,160
Speaker 1: First, you're heard here first. I'm a scientist.

998
00:49:02,600 --> 00:49:03,520
Speaker 4: Energy is real.

999
00:49:03,800 --> 00:49:06,000
Speaker 1: Our computers are communicating with our brains.

1000
00:49:06,000 --> 00:49:08,000
Speaker 5: Be careful what you think to put a calendar, just

1001
00:49:08,040 --> 00:49:10,359
Speaker 5: like you put a calendar reminder for taking your aud out.

1002
00:49:10,440 --> 00:49:13,600
Speaker 5: Let's put one in the future of twenty thousand, two

1003
00:49:13,640 --> 00:49:14,720
Speaker 5: thousand and forty.

1004
00:49:15,080 --> 00:49:16,240
Speaker 1: We'll revisit this notion.

1005
00:49:16,680 --> 00:49:20,319
Speaker 4: And that's only fifteen years I know. And yeah, it

1006
00:49:20,400 --> 00:49:23,440
Speaker 4: is moving quick. We'll be typing with our brains. Okay, Actually,

1007
00:49:23,480 --> 00:49:25,360
Speaker 4: let's do a test. Let's see if you could talk telepathically.

1008
00:49:25,480 --> 00:49:29,279
Speaker 4: Right now, I'm going to think about something. I'm going

1009
00:49:29,320 --> 00:49:32,480
Speaker 4: to think about a memory that we have. Okay, I'm

1010
00:49:32,480 --> 00:49:35,080
Speaker 4: going to think about a memory that we have. Okay,

1011
00:49:35,080 --> 00:49:38,040
Speaker 4: it's very specific, but I'm thinking about it.

1012
00:49:41,320 --> 00:49:47,120
Speaker 1: Yeah, shut up, Swear to God. Swear to God. Wait. Wait,

1013
00:49:47,160 --> 00:49:48,919
Speaker 1: Is it us in the car when we're talking. No,

1014
00:49:49,040 --> 00:49:55,880
Speaker 1: it's funny. Is our drug melt done? It's during the

1015
00:49:55,920 --> 00:49:56,680
Speaker 1: drug melts down.

1016
00:49:56,760 --> 00:49:59,960
Speaker 4: It's specific. It's more specific than it's during the drug meltown.

1017
00:50:00,120 --> 00:50:01,840
Speaker 4: But something specific happens.

1018
00:50:02,800 --> 00:50:14,720
Speaker 1: The swishing of the pants, the swishing of the pants. God,

1019
00:50:15,960 --> 00:50:19,640
Speaker 1: it is the swishing of the pants. Oh my god.

1020
00:50:20,320 --> 00:50:24,640
Speaker 1: The hairs on my arm really happy too. Oh? I

1021
00:50:24,680 --> 00:50:32,080
Speaker 1: love you, I love you. That is yo.

1022
00:50:33,000 --> 00:50:33,239
Speaker 3: Man.

1023
00:50:34,719 --> 00:50:37,319
Speaker 1: I just want to say one thing. Hey, listen to

1024
00:50:37,360 --> 00:50:40,160
Speaker 1: that episode. It's one of two. That's the thing.

1025
00:50:40,239 --> 00:50:43,560
Speaker 4: We've gone to Coachella with each other multiple times, three times.

1026
00:50:43,600 --> 00:50:47,560
Speaker 1: I think this is a specific trip. Is a second time,

1027
00:50:47,640 --> 00:50:48,560
Speaker 1: and this is the second time.

1028
00:50:48,600 --> 00:50:51,480
Speaker 4: But there's a specific moment where we take too many

1029
00:50:51,560 --> 00:50:54,239
Speaker 4: drugs at one time. But we don't realize we've been

1030
00:50:54,280 --> 00:50:56,160
Speaker 4: trying to get to Coachella all day.

1031
00:50:56,480 --> 00:50:57,719
Speaker 1: We went crazy when we got there.

1032
00:50:57,840 --> 00:51:00,399
Speaker 4: We didn't realize it's the last show of then we've

1033
00:51:00,440 --> 00:51:01,600
Speaker 4: been trying to get there so long.

1034
00:51:01,640 --> 00:51:03,120
Speaker 1: We did so many drugs. We walked in.

1035
00:51:05,160 --> 00:51:07,839
Speaker 4: We watched this epic show the drugs hit and then

1036
00:51:07,960 --> 00:51:10,000
Speaker 4: everybody starts leaving, leaving.

1037
00:51:10,520 --> 00:51:11,879
Speaker 1: And this and one mine.

1038
00:51:12,000 --> 00:51:16,720
Speaker 4: There's one guy he actually pastor fucking weed, pastor fucking weed, paster,

1039
00:51:16,840 --> 00:51:17,600
Speaker 4: fucking weed.

1040
00:51:17,680 --> 00:51:20,280
Speaker 1: This nigga says he's gonna take us to a Jeff

1041
00:51:20,520 --> 00:51:23,000
Speaker 1: like a Jeff Campbell, Like no, no, no, Jeffrey Campbell. No,

1042
00:51:23,560 --> 00:51:26,239
Speaker 1: it was like a shoe whenever you matter, some white guy.

1043
00:51:26,320 --> 00:51:28,000
Speaker 1: He's going to take us to this guy's party.

1044
00:51:28,840 --> 00:51:32,280
Speaker 4: And he starts going so fast, and he's wearing these pants.

1045
00:51:32,560 --> 00:51:34,799
Speaker 1: He was wearing these fucking swishing pants, you know, those

1046
00:51:34,840 --> 00:51:35,480
Speaker 1: workout works.

1047
00:51:35,480 --> 00:51:41,400
Speaker 4: And me and Erica are trolling balls rolling, We're like

1048
00:51:41,440 --> 00:51:46,560
Speaker 4: following him, and he says, and then suddenly we can't

1049
00:51:46,560 --> 00:51:46,960
Speaker 4: find him.

1050
00:51:47,000 --> 00:51:49,680
Speaker 5: I think we fell out laughing for like five minutes,

1051
00:51:49,719 --> 00:51:50,640
Speaker 5: and then we looked up and.

1052
00:51:50,560 --> 00:51:51,640
Speaker 1: He was gone. No.

1053
00:51:51,800 --> 00:51:53,880
Speaker 4: I think we fell out after we realized he left us.

1054
00:51:53,920 --> 00:51:54,680
Speaker 1: Oh my god.

1055
00:51:54,960 --> 00:51:57,480
Speaker 4: The fact that we spent three different years at Coachella,

1056
00:51:57,640 --> 00:52:00,839
Speaker 4: We've had three hundred different experience those three.

1057
00:52:01,000 --> 00:52:01,239
Speaker 1: Wow.

1058
00:52:01,280 --> 00:52:03,800
Speaker 4: And I just telepathically told you about this man's swishing

1059
00:52:03,840 --> 00:52:07,799
Speaker 4: pants and you got it.

1060
00:52:06,280 --> 00:52:12,080
Speaker 5: Okay, So maybe that's at least that's just human electricity,

1061
00:52:12,080 --> 00:52:15,600
Speaker 5: which I'm happy that that is prevalent and still even exists, bitch,

1062
00:52:15,640 --> 00:52:17,600
Speaker 5: because they've done everything to try to separate us.

1063
00:52:17,640 --> 00:52:18,840
Speaker 4: You know each other, but you know, when you're a

1064
00:52:18,880 --> 00:52:20,400
Speaker 4: kid and you like to make tests to see if

1065
00:52:20,400 --> 00:52:21,719
Speaker 4: you're actually as witchy as you think.

1066
00:52:22,080 --> 00:52:22,920
Speaker 1: Do it as an adult.

1067
00:52:23,040 --> 00:52:24,239
Speaker 5: I mean, we do it what we did with our

1068
00:52:24,280 --> 00:52:27,040
Speaker 5: kids in cost Rica. I mean I think, I mean,

1069
00:52:27,040 --> 00:52:30,480
Speaker 5: it's not surprising. It's surprising that we believe it's surprising, right.

1070
00:52:31,280 --> 00:52:33,799
Speaker 5: I feel that converbal of communication is like the first

1071
00:52:33,840 --> 00:52:34,680
Speaker 5: form of communication.

1072
00:52:34,880 --> 00:52:38,840
Speaker 4: It's the most the most primal, the most primal and opponent.

1073
00:52:39,360 --> 00:52:41,160
Speaker 4: That's why I the languages are not the same no

1074
00:52:41,160 --> 00:52:42,880
Speaker 4: matter where you are in the world. You know, if

1075
00:52:42,920 --> 00:52:45,440
Speaker 4: someone's scared, you know, if someone's hurt, you know someone's celebrated.

1076
00:52:45,480 --> 00:52:49,600
Speaker 5: It requires so much trust and presence, you know, like

1077
00:52:50,440 --> 00:52:54,400
Speaker 5: to be like let's oh yeah, let's just see that's crazy.

1078
00:52:55,560 --> 00:52:58,439
Speaker 4: Wow, when you're right when you said in Costa Rica

1079
00:52:58,440 --> 00:52:59,640
Speaker 4: that you did that raking on me and that you

1080
00:52:59,719 --> 00:53:05,239
Speaker 4: could tune into my my energy so easily. It's like

1081
00:53:05,640 --> 00:53:08,319
Speaker 4: we spend so much time together. We sleep in the

1082
00:53:08,520 --> 00:53:11,360
Speaker 4: we've slept the same beds, so for so hundreds of times,

1083
00:53:12,640 --> 00:53:16,640
Speaker 4: hundreds hundreds this time we've had separate beds in Costa Rica,

1084
00:53:16,680 --> 00:53:18,040
Speaker 4: with separate rooms and it was like.

1085
00:53:18,280 --> 00:53:21,600
Speaker 1: God, that's weird. What are you doing? What are you doing?

1086
00:53:22,400 --> 00:53:27,000
Speaker 4: But we're grown women, you know. But yeah, like being

1087
00:53:27,120 --> 00:53:30,319
Speaker 4: in each other's energy. Sometimes, even when I know you

1088
00:53:30,400 --> 00:53:32,520
Speaker 4: know my energy, it's almost like when you know somebody

1089
00:53:32,520 --> 00:53:35,080
Speaker 4: else's energy. So it's just kind of like you're out there,

1090
00:53:35,080 --> 00:53:35,760
Speaker 4: you're exposed.

1091
00:53:37,560 --> 00:53:39,640
Speaker 5: Yeah, I do because my energy is potent, so it's

1092
00:53:39,640 --> 00:53:40,560
Speaker 5: always I'm always out there.

1093
00:53:40,560 --> 00:53:42,800
Speaker 1: I'm always exposed. Yeah, it's very clear.

1094
00:53:44,920 --> 00:53:47,640
Speaker 4: Anyway, those are my high thoughts.

1095
00:53:47,680 --> 00:53:49,640
Speaker 1: Powerful, Thank you, thank you.

1096
00:53:49,680 --> 00:53:52,560
Speaker 4: If anyone has a thing for information about our electrical brains.

1097
00:53:52,280 --> 00:53:54,480
Speaker 1: Give me a call. Yeah. If anyone has any high

1098
00:53:54,520 --> 00:53:56,560
Speaker 1: thoughts to share, please please send them.

1099
00:53:56,640 --> 00:53:58,280
Speaker 4: They don't have to be that philosophical either.

1100
00:53:58,560 --> 00:54:01,879
Speaker 1: Just dm us do your high thoughts when you're high.

1101
00:54:02,480 --> 00:54:03,920
Speaker 4: I'm gonna pick a tarot card.

1102
00:54:04,000 --> 00:54:09,439
Speaker 1: Pick one.

1103
00:54:15,960 --> 00:54:17,399
Speaker 4: Oh wait, didn't you tell me you had a bad

1104
00:54:17,480 --> 00:54:18,200
Speaker 4: choice this week?

1105
00:54:18,440 --> 00:54:19,000
Speaker 1: Bad mom?

1106
00:54:19,120 --> 00:54:22,800
Speaker 6: Not a bad mom, but a bad mom.

1107
00:54:22,920 --> 00:54:27,720
Speaker 5: So good.

1108
00:54:27,280 --> 00:54:28,040
Speaker 1: I'm living.

1109
00:54:30,800 --> 00:54:34,000
Speaker 5: Oh god, I did have a bad choice this week.

1110
00:54:34,120 --> 00:54:37,399
Speaker 5: I'm gonna share now I'm high, but yeah, I probably should.

1111
00:54:37,520 --> 00:54:39,000
Speaker 5: I need to get it off my chest because it

1112
00:54:39,080 --> 00:54:42,600
Speaker 5: was absolutely astonishing the bad choice that I made. I was,

1113
00:54:43,760 --> 00:54:47,160
Speaker 5: you know, I realized that I really have to work

1114
00:54:47,200 --> 00:54:54,360
Speaker 5: on my distrust for white people and like and rapid anger,

1115
00:54:55,120 --> 00:54:56,640
Speaker 5: you know, like I have.

1116
00:54:57,360 --> 00:54:59,919
Speaker 1: I have a lot of beautiful.

1117
00:54:59,480 --> 00:55:03,239
Speaker 5: White friends that I know and love, but there's an

1118
00:55:03,239 --> 00:55:06,160
Speaker 5: otherness that I put white people in, and I like,

1119
00:55:06,200 --> 00:55:08,759
Speaker 5: I don't they do that with us as well? And

1120
00:55:08,800 --> 00:55:10,719
Speaker 5: I don't want that either. That's like, you know, that's

1121
00:55:10,719 --> 00:55:18,640
Speaker 5: what racism is, but I think that I think that anyway. Basically,

1122
00:55:18,680 --> 00:55:21,400
Speaker 5: I was having a moment and I went to yoga.

1123
00:55:21,640 --> 00:55:23,000
Speaker 4: It was six thirty, so you knew you were having

1124
00:55:23,040 --> 00:55:24,000
Speaker 4: a moment before you got to you.

1125
00:55:24,080 --> 00:55:26,560
Speaker 5: So I'm gonna tell you. I was like, I need

1126
00:55:26,600 --> 00:55:28,920
Speaker 5: to go to yoga. I've been doing two days. I've

1127
00:55:28,920 --> 00:55:31,920
Speaker 5: been doing like these crazy workouts and so I was like,

1128
00:55:31,960 --> 00:55:32,839
Speaker 5: I need to stretch my body.

1129
00:55:32,840 --> 00:55:33,520
Speaker 1: I'm gonna wake up.

1130
00:55:33,520 --> 00:55:35,480
Speaker 5: I'm gonna leave Iri at the house because I'm gonna

1131
00:55:35,480 --> 00:55:37,200
Speaker 5: be gone for an hour and I've been like testing

1132
00:55:37,200 --> 00:55:41,080
Speaker 5: out what that feels like. And you know, but I

1133
00:55:41,080 --> 00:55:42,480
Speaker 5: have my phone with me, like I always try to

1134
00:55:42,520 --> 00:55:44,080
Speaker 5: keep it nearby just in case she calls me.

1135
00:55:44,520 --> 00:55:45,960
Speaker 1: So I went to yoga, and.

1136
00:55:48,360 --> 00:55:50,480
Speaker 5: Right before I went in, I was looking on Instagram

1137
00:55:50,600 --> 00:55:53,400
Speaker 5: and I had seen like that they had just banned

1138
00:55:54,000 --> 00:55:57,600
Speaker 5: well read Black Girl's book the Department of Defense, because

1139
00:55:57,640 --> 00:55:59,719
Speaker 5: they're banning black books.

1140
00:55:59,600 --> 00:56:02,960
Speaker 4: Oh, from the school or just in general in general.

1141
00:56:03,760 --> 00:56:08,440
Speaker 5: No, yeah, and so I just was like, you know,

1142
00:56:08,719 --> 00:56:11,719
Speaker 5: this is also that this speaks to the power of frequency,

1143
00:56:11,800 --> 00:56:15,600
Speaker 5: because that disturbed me. I was just like, Okay, this

1144
00:56:15,719 --> 00:56:17,520
Speaker 5: is scary, and like, am I gonna just look at

1145
00:56:17,560 --> 00:56:20,040
Speaker 5: this and then walk away and forget about it? And

1146
00:56:20,080 --> 00:56:22,319
Speaker 5: this is what happens, Like we just keep seeing things.

1147
00:56:22,320 --> 00:56:24,880
Speaker 5: We're so desensitized that we see things and then we

1148
00:56:24,960 --> 00:56:26,799
Speaker 5: just walk away from it and then happens, and it

1149
00:56:26,840 --> 00:56:29,280
Speaker 5: happens and happens anyway. So then I was like, okay,

1150
00:56:29,480 --> 00:56:31,280
Speaker 5: this is this is why you need to got to yoga,

1151
00:56:31,480 --> 00:56:31,920
Speaker 5: So just.

1152
00:56:32,000 --> 00:56:32,440
Speaker 1: Go in there.

1153
00:56:32,520 --> 00:56:34,560
Speaker 5: And so I got in there, I brought my phone,

1154
00:56:34,680 --> 00:56:36,520
Speaker 5: I put it over that. I put the towel over

1155
00:56:36,960 --> 00:56:39,359
Speaker 5: the phone just because I knew that I wasn't about

1156
00:56:39,360 --> 00:56:40,920
Speaker 5: to have my phone in there. And I was like,

1157
00:56:41,040 --> 00:56:43,680
Speaker 5: I'm a mom, so fuck you, Like I gotta make

1158
00:56:43,680 --> 00:56:45,319
Speaker 5: sure my kids. Okay, I'm not going to I'm not

1159
00:56:45,360 --> 00:56:46,400
Speaker 5: gonna like talk on the phone.

1160
00:56:46,440 --> 00:56:49,279
Speaker 1: I just need to make sure that i'm you know.

1161
00:56:49,680 --> 00:56:52,480
Speaker 5: So Anyway, I'm doing yoga and t heated, so it's

1162
00:56:52,480 --> 00:56:56,839
Speaker 5: also hot. It's challenging. It's like vulnerable, vulnerable positions like

1163
00:56:56,840 --> 00:57:00,439
Speaker 5: you're tired and sore diired.

1164
00:57:01,520 --> 00:57:03,840
Speaker 4: It's sixcited in the morning, you showed me, I am.

1165
00:57:03,680 --> 00:57:08,239
Speaker 5: I've been just dressed out, okay, And so anyway, like

1166
00:57:08,239 --> 00:57:11,560
Speaker 5: thirty minutes in, I like take the towel off and

1167
00:57:11,600 --> 00:57:13,400
Speaker 5: I go look at my phone and I see that

1168
00:57:14,080 --> 00:57:15,799
Speaker 5: I think she didn't actually text me with she camm

1169
00:57:15,800 --> 00:57:17,720
Speaker 5: and he was saying something very sweet, and I literally

1170
00:57:17,760 --> 00:57:19,560
Speaker 5: just tapped it and then I said okay, and I'll

1171
00:57:19,600 --> 00:57:21,200
Speaker 5: like I was looked over, and then I was like

1172
00:57:21,240 --> 00:57:23,040
Speaker 5: in the middle of a downward dog and I was

1173
00:57:23,080 --> 00:57:25,720
Speaker 5: about to like turn into this pose.

1174
00:57:25,800 --> 00:57:27,600
Speaker 1: I think it's called like wild thing or some shit,

1175
00:57:28,160 --> 00:57:28,520
Speaker 1: and she.

1176
00:57:28,640 --> 00:57:31,840
Speaker 5: Literally came into my face. I was like, there's no

1177
00:57:31,920 --> 00:57:34,000
Speaker 5: phones here, ma'am. And I was like, whoa was it

1178
00:57:34,000 --> 00:57:36,000
Speaker 5: the teacher? Yes, it was the teacher, but it was

1179
00:57:36,040 --> 00:57:39,840
Speaker 5: so aggressive and her big, old, aggressive ass white face

1180
00:57:40,240 --> 00:57:41,480
Speaker 5: angered the fuck out of me.

1181
00:57:41,600 --> 00:57:43,480
Speaker 1: I was just like, was she big or she was

1182
00:57:43,880 --> 00:57:47,160
Speaker 1: no witch? She was just white telling me what to do.

1183
00:57:47,840 --> 00:57:50,360
Speaker 3: And I was angered because I was already like you

1184
00:57:50,360 --> 00:57:51,960
Speaker 3: were sensitive to the world, and.

1185
00:57:51,920 --> 00:57:54,880
Speaker 1: I just was like, I was, you know, I'm not

1186
00:57:54,920 --> 00:57:58,960
Speaker 1: saying this is a bad choice, this is a bad anyway.

1187
00:57:59,200 --> 00:58:03,120
Speaker 5: I was like, whoa okay, bitch, Like okay. I was like,

1188
00:58:03,320 --> 00:58:04,720
Speaker 5: I was so caught off guard. I was like, am

1189
00:58:04,760 --> 00:58:08,760
Speaker 5: I gonna second? I was like, let me just continue,

1190
00:58:08,880 --> 00:58:11,960
Speaker 5: Let me just continue. Your tripping is fine, bitch. No,

1191
00:58:12,280 --> 00:58:13,760
Speaker 5: I was like I felt the energy and.

1192
00:58:13,680 --> 00:58:15,680
Speaker 1: Me so did you. What are we gonna do?

1193
00:58:15,720 --> 00:58:17,480
Speaker 4: But at that point, move your phone, like, go take

1194
00:58:17,480 --> 00:58:19,480
Speaker 4: it outside, put it the towel back over.

1195
00:58:19,760 --> 00:58:21,760
Speaker 1: I put the towel back over it, and I continued on.

1196
00:58:21,920 --> 00:58:23,360
Speaker 4: And I was like, so she said something to you,

1197
00:58:23,400 --> 00:58:24,480
Speaker 4: and you ignore her, you keep going.

1198
00:58:25,120 --> 00:58:26,000
Speaker 1: No, I didn't ignore her.

1199
00:58:26,000 --> 00:58:28,240
Speaker 5: I had already put the towel back over my phone.

1200
00:58:28,320 --> 00:58:30,240
Speaker 5: She had walked away. She just like abruptly came to

1201
00:58:30,280 --> 00:58:32,360
Speaker 5: tell me this shit and then like moved on. So

1202
00:58:32,400 --> 00:58:34,400
Speaker 5: I was like, okay, So then I kept going, but

1203
00:58:34,440 --> 00:58:35,920
Speaker 5: then my spirit just wouldn't let me.

1204
00:58:36,040 --> 00:58:37,920
Speaker 1: Bitch. I was just like, am I really about to

1205
00:58:37,920 --> 00:58:39,400
Speaker 1: stay in this fucking class right now?

1206
00:58:39,720 --> 00:58:42,200
Speaker 5: I was like, this bitch got in my fucking face,

1207
00:58:42,240 --> 00:58:43,720
Speaker 5: are fucking kidding me?

1208
00:58:43,840 --> 00:58:46,880
Speaker 1: Bitch? In a vulnerable PiZZ Do you have no coup?

1209
00:58:47,000 --> 00:58:48,880
Speaker 1: It was do you not even know? It's six thirty?

1210
00:58:48,920 --> 00:58:52,400
Speaker 5: It's hot as you're in my face testing and.

1211
00:58:52,360 --> 00:58:53,000
Speaker 1: You're telling me.

1212
00:58:53,520 --> 00:58:57,040
Speaker 5: So anyway, there's a lot and I couldn't. I couldn't

1213
00:58:57,040 --> 00:59:00,240
Speaker 5: complete it, and so I rolled up my mat and

1214
00:59:00,560 --> 00:59:03,120
Speaker 5: I walked out and she was like, is everything okay?

1215
00:59:03,120 --> 00:59:05,000
Speaker 5: And I was like, no, it's not. So then I

1216
00:59:05,080 --> 00:59:06,720
Speaker 5: left and then I went to the bathroom and I

1217
00:59:06,800 --> 00:59:09,200
Speaker 5: was like, why am I so angry?

1218
00:59:09,360 --> 00:59:12,400
Speaker 1: How many minutes in did you leave? After she did that?

1219
00:59:12,640 --> 00:59:12,680
Speaker 5: Like?

1220
00:59:12,680 --> 00:59:13,800
Speaker 1: How long had at what point?

1221
00:59:13,880 --> 00:59:16,280
Speaker 5: Was I was thirty minutes into the class? Like I'm

1222
00:59:16,320 --> 00:59:18,880
Speaker 5: in it, okay, that's why this was so like abrupt,

1223
00:59:18,920 --> 00:59:21,920
Speaker 5: And I was like, really in it, you know. So anyway,

1224
00:59:21,960 --> 00:59:25,120
Speaker 5: I go to the bathroom and there's like the reception

1225
00:59:25,480 --> 00:59:28,520
Speaker 5: is in there and she's like twenty one was also

1226
00:59:28,760 --> 00:59:31,440
Speaker 5: like white, like just like minding her fucking twenty one

1227
00:59:31,480 --> 00:59:35,080
Speaker 5: year old business bait okay, just being adorable.

1228
00:59:35,280 --> 00:59:35,680
Speaker 1: And I was.

1229
00:59:36,840 --> 00:59:38,840
Speaker 5: I come out of the bathroom, She's like, oh you okay,

1230
00:59:39,000 --> 00:59:41,240
Speaker 5: can I get you anything? And I was like, cause,

1231
00:59:41,320 --> 00:59:44,760
Speaker 5: like it's only one class, right, so if I'm leaving

1232
00:59:44,800 --> 00:59:49,360
Speaker 5: it like they're like, I'm like, actually, no, I'm not okay,

1233
00:59:49,680 --> 00:59:52,880
Speaker 5: and I just start crying. I just start fucking crying.

1234
00:59:53,120 --> 00:59:55,120
Speaker 5: But I was like putting on, Like I knew that

1235
00:59:55,160 --> 00:59:56,840
Speaker 5: I was putting on. I was like, I want you

1236
00:59:56,960 --> 01:00:01,800
Speaker 5: to feel like shit, And I was like.

1237
01:00:03,400 --> 01:00:04,600
Speaker 1: This is the bad choice.

1238
01:00:05,160 --> 01:00:07,400
Speaker 5: I was like, I have a family member, and I

1239
01:00:07,440 --> 01:00:12,400
Speaker 5: see you, and I am her only lifeline and I

1240
01:00:12,440 --> 01:00:16,040
Speaker 5: just needed one fucking hour to come here. It's six

1241
01:00:16,040 --> 01:00:18,800
Speaker 5: point thirty in the fucking morning. And all I did

1242
01:00:18,880 --> 01:00:22,560
Speaker 5: was tap my phone, like she needs to be careful.

1243
01:00:22,560 --> 01:00:24,840
Speaker 5: I'm triggered. I'm triggered. I literally said I'm triggered.

1244
01:00:25,160 --> 01:00:28,840
Speaker 1: I'm not kidding, not you caring it.

1245
01:00:28,920 --> 01:00:31,680
Speaker 5: I literally carrying the fuck out of her, babe, I'm

1246
01:00:32,680 --> 01:00:34,880
Speaker 5: wait so much so that I was like, damn, bitch.

1247
01:00:34,720 --> 01:00:37,680
Speaker 1: Like you got it. You're killing this right now. But

1248
01:00:39,000 --> 01:00:40,280
Speaker 1: so then I couldn't get out of it. Then I

1249
01:00:40,280 --> 01:00:43,600
Speaker 1: like really felt like it was real. That's what it

1250
01:00:43,600 --> 01:00:48,400
Speaker 1: feels like to be pathologically yes. I was like, to

1251
01:00:48,400 --> 01:00:50,960
Speaker 1: be real, you have to feel like it's oh yeah, no, no,

1252
01:00:51,000 --> 01:00:53,680
Speaker 1: it was real. It was real. I was like shaking,

1253
01:01:00,120 --> 01:01:01,680
Speaker 1: what the sock is wrong with you?

1254
01:01:01,840 --> 01:01:06,640
Speaker 5: A lot of things apparently bitch. Anyway, Yeah, so you

1255
01:01:06,720 --> 01:01:12,120
Speaker 5: start shaking a lifetime. I'm like, I don't know if

1256
01:01:12,120 --> 01:01:13,680
Speaker 5: there's I'm like, I'm here all the time. I never

1257
01:01:13,720 --> 01:01:15,360
Speaker 5: bring my phone in. I don't even know if there's

1258
01:01:15,360 --> 01:01:17,080
Speaker 5: signs that say you're not supposed to your phone in,

1259
01:01:17,240 --> 01:01:20,040
Speaker 5: but I'm in there's an emergency happening. And it's just

1260
01:01:20,240 --> 01:01:22,920
Speaker 5: like I realized that, like I'm not supposed to, but

1261
01:01:23,080 --> 01:01:26,200
Speaker 5: just I feel like she could have not gotten straight

1262
01:01:26,240 --> 01:01:28,200
Speaker 5: in my face the way she did and it triggered me.

1263
01:01:29,200 --> 01:01:31,440
Speaker 5: So anyway, she's like, I'm so sorry, and I was

1264
01:01:31,480 --> 01:01:33,520
Speaker 5: like yeah, and then I just started crying more.

1265
01:01:33,600 --> 01:01:35,400
Speaker 1: And then I was like I'm just gonna go. And

1266
01:01:35,440 --> 01:01:37,200
Speaker 1: then we walked out and she goes, there's the sign

1267
01:01:39,240 --> 01:01:41,760
Speaker 1: and it was literally like it was kind of high.

1268
01:01:41,800 --> 01:01:42,600
Speaker 1: It was kind of high.

1269
01:01:42,680 --> 01:01:44,040
Speaker 5: It was like up on top of the door, like

1270
01:01:44,080 --> 01:01:45,480
Speaker 5: you really had to look up to see it. And

1271
01:01:45,520 --> 01:01:51,960
Speaker 5: she's like, it is kind of high, and I was like, yeah, yeah,

1272
01:01:52,760 --> 01:01:53,840
Speaker 5: a sign for giants.

1273
01:01:53,920 --> 01:01:59,120
Speaker 1: Okay. Yeah.

1274
01:02:00,280 --> 01:02:04,200
Speaker 5: So then so when I left, Okay, so I left obviously,

1275
01:02:04,240 --> 01:02:05,400
Speaker 5: and I got in the car and.

1276
01:02:05,360 --> 01:02:08,320
Speaker 1: I was like did I just do that? And I

1277
01:02:08,360 --> 01:02:09,440
Speaker 1: was like damn.

1278
01:02:10,080 --> 01:02:12,040
Speaker 5: And then I felt like shit most of the day

1279
01:02:12,400 --> 01:02:14,520
Speaker 5: and I was like damn. I was like that, my

1280
01:02:14,680 --> 01:02:19,120
Speaker 5: spirit is not built for this. I'm sensitive. I was

1281
01:02:19,240 --> 01:02:21,520
Speaker 5: like damn, like why did you do that? And then

1282
01:02:21,560 --> 01:02:23,600
Speaker 5: I was like, why did you do that? Was there

1283
01:02:23,680 --> 01:02:27,040
Speaker 5: something is there? Like it felt like it wasn't mine?

1284
01:02:28,080 --> 01:02:31,880
Speaker 5: It really did ancestry felt like it wasn't mine, or

1285
01:02:32,040 --> 01:02:34,720
Speaker 5: like no, it felt like I wanted them to like

1286
01:02:34,960 --> 01:02:39,440
Speaker 5: really feel bad. It wasn't about like my white ancestor.

1287
01:02:39,360 --> 01:02:42,120
Speaker 5: It was actually my black ancestor. That was like, you

1288
01:02:42,120 --> 01:02:43,560
Speaker 5: are stupid bitch, and I'm gonna do what you do

1289
01:02:43,640 --> 01:02:45,000
Speaker 5: to me, and I want she felt.

1290
01:02:45,000 --> 01:02:45,919
Speaker 1: But then I was like, they don't.

1291
01:02:46,840 --> 01:02:48,640
Speaker 5: She probably told her and the girl was like, wow,

1292
01:02:48,720 --> 01:02:50,800
Speaker 5: she probably felt justified in whatever the fuck she did.

1293
01:02:50,880 --> 01:02:55,040
Speaker 5: But anyway, either way, it was a bad choice.

1294
01:02:55,080 --> 01:02:59,240
Speaker 1: Okay, I know better than that, but something in me

1295
01:02:59,280 --> 01:03:03,560
Speaker 1: needed to get it at and I did. And you know,

1296
01:03:03,680 --> 01:03:05,800
Speaker 1: I'm gonna explore that more if you wanted.

1297
01:03:05,920 --> 01:03:10,080
Speaker 5: Karen, just Karen the of the story black people can

1298
01:03:10,120 --> 01:03:14,240
Speaker 5: care into Okay, black people can get reverse Karen.

1299
01:03:14,880 --> 01:03:15,320
Speaker 1: I was.

1300
01:03:15,440 --> 01:03:17,680
Speaker 3: I felt that, I felt I almost got reparations a

1301
01:03:17,720 --> 01:03:18,120
Speaker 3: little bit.

1302
01:03:26,040 --> 01:03:28,880
Speaker 1: Why would you say black people can care in. It's

1303
01:03:29,000 --> 01:03:30,120
Speaker 1: the reverse Karen.

1304
01:03:29,880 --> 01:03:33,360
Speaker 4: The reverse, not the reverse Karen reverse reverse.

1305
01:03:33,960 --> 01:03:40,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, anyway, that was if you're don't judge me. Okay,

1306
01:03:40,440 --> 01:03:43,560
Speaker 1: I'm not perfect anything, you know, I'm with it. You

1307
01:03:43,600 --> 01:03:46,120
Speaker 1: know we only have a couple. Everyone actual in nuts sometimes.

1308
01:03:47,000 --> 01:03:49,880
Speaker 4: Just so you know we're recording this, it's still February.

1309
01:03:50,400 --> 01:03:51,080
Speaker 4: Get your Karen on.

1310
01:03:51,720 --> 01:03:55,280
Speaker 1: Everybody gets your Karen on? What get your Karen?

1311
01:03:55,400 --> 01:03:57,480
Speaker 5: So you're living in the past right now, So go ahead, babe,

1312
01:03:58,560 --> 01:04:00,000
Speaker 5: it's technically still February.

1313
01:04:01,000 --> 01:04:01,920
Speaker 1: Oh my god.

1314
01:04:03,200 --> 01:04:07,440
Speaker 4: Reparations and whatever way possible, even if the yoga instructor

1315
01:04:07,520 --> 01:04:08,280
Speaker 4: might lose your job.

1316
01:04:09,960 --> 01:04:12,160
Speaker 1: So you're never going back to that. No, I'm going back.

1317
01:04:12,840 --> 01:04:14,880
Speaker 1: Did you get a free course or anything? No? Nothing,

1318
01:04:15,320 --> 01:04:17,320
Speaker 1: but I was because I should you. Now I need

1319
01:04:17,320 --> 01:04:18,640
Speaker 1: to email the corporate.

1320
01:04:18,440 --> 01:04:20,480
Speaker 5: It's because class past. They probably don't know my name

1321
01:04:21,080 --> 01:04:23,959
Speaker 5: to go in there and identify myself. Oh, they're gonna

1322
01:04:23,960 --> 01:04:24,880
Speaker 5: find this episode and.

1323
01:04:26,680 --> 01:04:27,160
Speaker 1: Sue me.

1324
01:04:29,360 --> 01:04:31,000
Speaker 4: No, try to get try and get what I try

1325
01:04:31,040 --> 01:04:34,360
Speaker 4: to get everything you can. We're gonna move on.

1326
01:04:34,280 --> 01:04:41,200
Speaker 1: To to Taro. Now ridiculousness.

1327
01:04:51,160 --> 01:04:56,120
Speaker 4: The temperance is who it pulled, its balanced moderation, patience purpose.

1328
01:05:00,000 --> 01:05:01,960
Speaker 1: I remember your purpose, But you don't go to jail.

1329
01:05:02,000 --> 01:05:02,720
Speaker 1: You got shit to do.

1330
01:05:02,800 --> 01:05:05,960
Speaker 4: How you're not going to jail for cure inning kidding,

1331
01:05:06,760 --> 01:05:12,720
Speaker 4: Mareen Calabassas, Woodland House. Yeah, I feel like, yeah, I'm

1332
01:05:12,720 --> 01:05:14,439
Speaker 4: gonna act a little snotting. I'm gonna be a little

1333
01:05:14,440 --> 01:05:16,280
Speaker 4: bit of a bitch. I'm not going to be too

1334
01:05:16,280 --> 01:05:19,760
Speaker 4: crazy because it's like, God, there's so much responsibility of

1335
01:05:19,800 --> 01:05:22,120
Speaker 4: being a black woman, because then there's like, oh my god,

1336
01:05:22,160 --> 01:05:23,880
Speaker 4: if I'm a black woman who does X, Y and Z,

1337
01:05:24,040 --> 01:05:26,440
Speaker 4: then I'm doing too much and I'm playing into the stereotype.

1338
01:05:26,600 --> 01:05:29,640
Speaker 4: But these whoors do too much consistently. Oh my god,

1339
01:05:29,680 --> 01:05:32,360
Speaker 4: I told Erica. But since we're on white people doing

1340
01:05:32,360 --> 01:05:36,320
Speaker 4: crazy shit. This week, there was in the supermarket and

1341
01:05:36,360 --> 01:05:46,320
Speaker 4: this old white lady groped my braids like this, look

1342
01:05:46,320 --> 01:05:48,520
Speaker 4: over there that way you're looking at the lettuce.

1343
01:05:54,360 --> 01:05:56,040
Speaker 1: Is this your hair? Is this all your hair?

1344
01:05:56,760 --> 01:06:01,919
Speaker 4: I said, yes, I was wearing a hat. She's like, oh,

1345
01:06:02,200 --> 01:06:03,280
Speaker 4: thirty years of hair.

1346
01:06:03,320 --> 01:06:05,760
Speaker 1: I said, thirty six years of hair. All of it's

1347
01:06:05,840 --> 01:06:06,160
Speaker 1: your hair.

1348
01:06:06,240 --> 01:06:07,240
Speaker 4: Then she decided to.

1349
01:06:08,720 --> 01:06:11,440
Speaker 1: Pull it. I said, hey, no pulling, she said, I'm

1350
01:06:11,440 --> 01:06:12,680
Speaker 1: just talking to her like a little baby.

1351
01:06:12,720 --> 01:06:14,120
Speaker 4: I was because she kind of When I looked at her,

1352
01:06:14,120 --> 01:06:16,680
Speaker 4: actually I saw a little baby, and I was like,

1353
01:06:16,680 --> 01:06:18,920
Speaker 4: I could this could go very wrong. I'm like, she doesn't.

1354
01:06:19,360 --> 01:06:22,320
Speaker 4: It was also a day where lots of things were

1355
01:06:22,320 --> 01:06:25,520
Speaker 4: happening in the world and we're in an interesting climate,

1356
01:06:25,520 --> 01:06:26,479
Speaker 4: and I was kind of thing.

1357
01:06:26,480 --> 01:06:27,120
Speaker 1: Actually.

1358
01:06:28,320 --> 01:06:31,520
Speaker 4: Right, yeah, that was Actually I was feeling a little enraged,

1359
01:06:31,600 --> 01:06:33,320
Speaker 4: and that's why I went to the black flea market

1360
01:06:33,440 --> 01:06:35,480
Speaker 4: because I was on maybe around black people. But then

1361
01:06:35,480 --> 01:06:37,120
Speaker 4: I saw like two white people there and they were

1362
01:06:37,120 --> 01:06:39,040
Speaker 4: wearing like a kitten heel and like polos and a

1363
01:06:39,080 --> 01:06:39,880
Speaker 4: white like.

1364
01:06:40,200 --> 01:06:41,440
Speaker 1: It wasn't the whitest people.

1365
01:06:41,520 --> 01:06:44,560
Speaker 4: It was like Lower Manhattan, New York, kitten heel wearing

1366
01:06:44,720 --> 01:06:45,200
Speaker 4: white people.

1367
01:06:45,200 --> 01:06:46,560
Speaker 1: Why did you wear that?

1368
01:06:46,760 --> 01:06:51,560
Speaker 4: Like, at least be cool when you whit.

1369
01:06:51,640 --> 01:06:53,440
Speaker 1: I know, I wasn't whites.

1370
01:06:53,440 --> 01:06:56,000
Speaker 4: I don't want to be organic, no GMO, no baby hairs,

1371
01:06:56,040 --> 01:06:58,160
Speaker 4: super white, no BBYL, no nothing.

1372
01:06:58,280 --> 01:07:00,960
Speaker 1: I know, I really tell you waves.

1373
01:07:01,600 --> 01:07:07,680
Speaker 4: I appreciate a regular white staying in her lane, regular nails,

1374
01:07:08,680 --> 01:07:15,080
Speaker 4: no baby hairs, Alabama barkers. So yes, I agree, but

1375
01:07:15,440 --> 01:07:18,120
Speaker 4: I mean I understand. But in that moment, I was

1376
01:07:18,400 --> 01:07:20,640
Speaker 4: something told me, this is an old lady, and maybe

1377
01:07:20,640 --> 01:07:22,760
Speaker 4: She's like, has dementia and I could see her son.

1378
01:07:22,800 --> 01:07:24,960
Speaker 1: She's like, my name is Gabby, so I gab a lot.

1379
01:07:25,040 --> 01:07:26,120
Speaker 1: I'm just joking with you.

1380
01:07:26,160 --> 01:07:29,040
Speaker 4: I'm like, okay, Gabby, I wonder.

1381
01:07:28,800 --> 01:07:32,520
Speaker 5: How many times Gabby's been popped she got she got

1382
01:07:32,560 --> 01:07:33,320
Speaker 5: a good one that day.

1383
01:07:33,400 --> 01:07:35,720
Speaker 1: I could have popped her. No, no, then I wouldn't.

1384
01:07:35,720 --> 01:07:37,160
Speaker 1: I'm saying you wouldn't you want to do that.

1385
01:07:37,160 --> 01:07:43,400
Speaker 5: You're on the shade room now, men, you know.

1386
01:07:43,520 --> 01:07:44,800
Speaker 1: And at the end of it, I was fine.

1387
01:07:44,800 --> 01:07:46,080
Speaker 4: I took a moment and I said that could have

1388
01:07:46,080 --> 01:07:48,360
Speaker 4: been so that I could have taken that completely wrong

1389
01:07:48,400 --> 01:07:50,000
Speaker 4: and I would have had to walk around with that

1390
01:07:50,320 --> 01:07:52,960
Speaker 4: with that energy. I literally saw it happening in slow

1391
01:07:53,080 --> 01:07:55,520
Speaker 4: motion in Orlando. Was like Gabby was thinking it was

1392
01:07:55,520 --> 01:07:58,200
Speaker 4: the nineteen fifties child, but I was. When she left

1393
01:07:58,200 --> 01:08:00,280
Speaker 4: out the market, I was like, bye, Gabby, and I

1394
01:08:00,320 --> 01:08:03,240
Speaker 4: was like, yeah, thankfully with me, not some other Buck girls.

1395
01:08:04,200 --> 01:08:06,280
Speaker 1: Are not going to wave the Gabby goodbye on her.

1396
01:08:06,120 --> 01:08:08,880
Speaker 4: Way out the sun looked embarrassed.

1397
01:08:09,400 --> 01:08:10,360
Speaker 1: Anyway, That's hard.

1398
01:08:10,680 --> 01:08:14,160
Speaker 4: The temperss. Sorry, we just needed one one episode to

1399
01:08:14,200 --> 01:08:18,400
Speaker 4: get it out. Temperance is the card for bringing balance, patience,

1400
01:08:18,400 --> 01:08:22,280
Speaker 4: and moderation into your life. You're being invited to stabilize

1401
01:08:22,280 --> 01:08:24,479
Speaker 4: your energy and to allow the life force to flow

1402
01:08:24,560 --> 01:08:27,759
Speaker 4: through you without force or resistance. It's time to recover

1403
01:08:27,840 --> 01:08:31,439
Speaker 4: your flow and get your life back into order and

1404
01:08:31,479 --> 01:08:34,439
Speaker 4: into balance. This card calls you to remain calm even

1405
01:08:34,439 --> 01:08:38,440
Speaker 4: when you feel stressful or frantic. Maintain an even temperament,

1406
01:08:38,479 --> 01:08:41,480
Speaker 4: and manage your emotions. You have learned to keep composed

1407
01:08:41,520 --> 01:08:43,120
Speaker 4: and stressful situations.

1408
01:08:43,200 --> 01:08:43,840
Speaker 1: This is for you.

1409
01:08:44,240 --> 01:08:47,080
Speaker 4: Little things don't get to you thanks to your seemingly

1410
01:08:47,120 --> 01:08:48,640
Speaker 4: abundant source of patience.

1411
01:08:49,240 --> 01:08:52,320
Speaker 1: You respect what the fuck?

1412
01:08:52,479 --> 01:08:55,559
Speaker 4: Your respect for balance and tranquility is what will help

1413
01:08:55,600 --> 01:08:59,160
Speaker 4: you achieve and experience fulfillment in your life. Temperance asks

1414
01:08:59,200 --> 01:09:02,080
Speaker 4: you take the middle path, not to when you reverse.

1415
01:09:04,479 --> 01:09:09,640
Speaker 4: Don't go republicans, and accommodate all perspectives. Now is not

1416
01:09:09,760 --> 01:09:13,559
Speaker 4: the time to be highly opinionated or controversial. Stand down bit,

1417
01:09:13,680 --> 01:09:18,320
Speaker 4: keep a cute give me here, give me here, be

1418
01:09:18,479 --> 01:09:20,880
Speaker 4: the peace marker. Marker, be the piece of.

1419
01:09:22,479 --> 01:09:27,560
Speaker 1: Glow and actually says peace marker.

1420
01:09:27,680 --> 01:09:30,000
Speaker 4: It says to be the peacekeeper and take a balance

1421
01:09:30,080 --> 01:09:34,639
Speaker 4: and moderate approach, avoiding any extremes, Include others and bring

1422
01:09:34,680 --> 01:09:37,400
Speaker 4: together diverse groups of people to create harmony and cooperation.

1423
01:09:37,640 --> 01:09:39,680
Speaker 4: It's telling you to bring diverse groups of people to

1424
01:09:39,720 --> 01:09:43,320
Speaker 4: create harmony and cooperation. By working together, you will collectively

1425
01:09:43,439 --> 01:09:47,880
Speaker 4: leverage the right mix of talents, experiences, abilities, and skills.

1426
01:09:48,840 --> 01:09:52,200
Speaker 5: Thank you, Yes, I know that. That's why I was

1427
01:09:52,240 --> 01:09:54,960
Speaker 5: so shaken afterwards. I was fucked up after bitch, it

1428
01:09:55,000 --> 01:09:55,760
Speaker 5: did me more harm.

1429
01:09:56,360 --> 01:09:59,400
Speaker 1: I was harmed. Okay, I harmed myself. It's good that

1430
01:09:59,439 --> 01:10:01,800
Speaker 1: you went the I left option just to see how

1431
01:10:01,840 --> 01:10:04,760
Speaker 1: it felt. You know, sometimes you go crazy sometimes that's

1432
01:10:04,760 --> 01:10:05,519
Speaker 1: what I kind of felt like.

1433
01:10:05,560 --> 01:10:11,040
Speaker 4: I was like, let's see what happens when they do it.

1434
01:10:10,760 --> 01:10:14,080
Speaker 1: It's like over here crazy. I didn't like it. I

1435
01:10:14,160 --> 01:10:18,240
Speaker 1: was like afterwards, I was like, I aged you a little.

1436
01:10:18,280 --> 01:10:20,320
Speaker 4: I felt shame. I was like, that's why my women

1437
01:10:20,320 --> 01:10:22,840
Speaker 4: are not aging. Well, they're caring all over. It's aging them.

1438
01:10:23,520 --> 01:10:26,680
Speaker 4: Oh my god, did you see that woman Karen in

1439
01:10:26,720 --> 01:10:28,120
Speaker 4: the valet? Do we talk about this already?

1440
01:10:28,280 --> 01:10:32,400
Speaker 3: Oh god, god, baby, oh bitch, I just call those

1441
01:10:32,760 --> 01:10:35,639
Speaker 3: those tears, those fucking tears.

1442
01:10:36,000 --> 01:10:37,320
Speaker 4: I told Jason to her lashes.

1443
01:10:37,600 --> 01:10:40,360
Speaker 1: They think it's a joke. That's what I'm saying. Everything

1444
01:10:40,479 --> 01:10:40,920
Speaker 1: is a joke.

1445
01:10:41,000 --> 01:10:44,040
Speaker 5: She should have she should have been And that's okay.

1446
01:10:44,120 --> 01:10:45,599
Speaker 5: And that's okay.

1447
01:10:45,320 --> 01:10:47,599
Speaker 1: That has to do. I can't let.

1448
01:10:47,520 --> 01:10:51,400
Speaker 5: Other people's experiences fucking you have.

1449
01:10:51,760 --> 01:10:54,000
Speaker 1: You have to be like Buddha. I know, and sometimes

1450
01:10:54,000 --> 01:10:55,640
Speaker 1: I'm not. I'm still working bit I know.

1451
01:10:55,640 --> 01:11:00,080
Speaker 3: I'm just just saying I'm still working on it.

1452
01:11:00,760 --> 01:11:02,599
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. Get on my MS home,

1453
01:11:06,040 --> 01:11:09,599
Speaker 1: my mama, Mom. I didn't go with la. I'm doing

1454
01:11:09,640 --> 01:11:11,200
Speaker 1: all of my bitch running off.

1455
01:11:11,280 --> 01:11:14,160
Speaker 4: You gotta be like Buddha, be like But that's it.

1456
01:11:14,280 --> 01:11:17,040
Speaker 4: That's this week's this week's affirmations.

1457
01:11:17,360 --> 01:11:21,360
Speaker 1: Be like Buddha. B be like Buddha Beach. Be like Buddha,

1458
01:11:21,520 --> 01:11:23,040
Speaker 1: bee like Buddha. Kama Beach.

1459
01:11:24,320 --> 01:11:26,920
Speaker 4: Maybe this is like our affirmation music, like what's up

1460
01:11:27,000 --> 01:11:30,040
Speaker 4: beach today? It's time to be like Buddha Beach.

1461
01:11:31,000 --> 01:11:33,720
Speaker 3: Wake up, put your hands on your heart, take a

1462
01:11:33,760 --> 01:11:35,840
Speaker 3: deep breath, and say, I love God. Don't you worry

1463
01:11:35,840 --> 01:11:39,920
Speaker 3: about a thing, straight up, don't worry about a motherfucking thing.

1464
01:11:40,560 --> 01:11:44,320
Speaker 3: Caring for beach, West Coast Beach. It's West Coast all

1465
01:11:44,400 --> 01:11:46,240
Speaker 3: day till wed I e. But every day we're gonna

1466
01:11:46,240 --> 01:11:46,839
Speaker 3: be in pleasure.

1467
01:11:47,680 --> 01:11:51,280
Speaker 1: I shay, I shay to the real homies and to

1468
01:11:51,360 --> 01:11:53,880
Speaker 1: the real dogs. Have a good day, but not those

1469
01:11:53,880 --> 01:12:00,320
Speaker 1: fake niggas. You heard, Peace Blood, that's our new ship. Okay,

1470
01:12:00,320 --> 01:12:01,479
Speaker 1: that's the first one. That's the first one.

1471
01:12:01,880 --> 01:12:06,600
Speaker 5: Morning Affirmation with the West Coast, West Coast Morning Affirmations.

1472
01:12:06,880 --> 01:12:07,559
Speaker 1: Morning Blood.

1473
01:12:07,920 --> 01:12:12,200
Speaker 3: Oh you would create my bad morning crep Christmas.

1474
01:12:16,720 --> 01:12:20,720
Speaker 5: Oh my lord, Okay, you know I go go pick

1475
01:12:20,760 --> 01:12:21,160
Speaker 5: up my kid.

1476
01:12:21,160 --> 01:12:25,880
Speaker 1: I'm hellal Okay, we love you. That's it.

1477
01:12:26,120 --> 01:12:31,040
Speaker 5: Happy anniversary, Happy anniversary, Beach, sweetity. It's been beautiful, psychic,

1478
01:12:31,800 --> 01:12:35,880
Speaker 5: happy women's history months, happy women's all the time, fucking year,

1479
01:12:35,960 --> 01:12:36,519
Speaker 5: forever and ever.

1480
01:12:36,560 --> 01:12:40,000
Speaker 1: Congratulations your beach and you created all this shit, make.

1481
01:12:40,040 --> 01:12:43,360
Speaker 4: History every day by doing what people told you not

1482
01:12:43,439 --> 01:12:46,879
Speaker 4: to do, by taking up space, by writing your story,

1483
01:12:47,080 --> 01:12:50,040
Speaker 4: by telling the motherfucking truth even when people tell you

1484
01:12:50,040 --> 01:12:53,439
Speaker 4: it doesn't matter. Trust us. Whatever the fuck you're going through,

1485
01:12:53,680 --> 01:12:58,160
Speaker 4: big or small, stupid, funny, exciting, sexual, any iteration of

1486
01:12:58,160 --> 01:13:00,599
Speaker 4: yourself matters, and if it is your gift to tell

1487
01:13:00,640 --> 01:13:03,200
Speaker 4: about it and whatever art you leave with the world,

1488
01:13:03,360 --> 01:13:04,960
Speaker 4: So remember that all month.

1489
01:13:05,280 --> 01:13:05,720
Speaker 1: We love you.

1490
01:13:05,880 --> 01:13:10,040
Speaker 4: Thank you for joining us. Subscribe review bitch, because you

1491
01:13:10,160 --> 01:13:12,200
Speaker 4: just listened to this whole motherfucking thing. And you could

1492
01:13:12,200 --> 01:13:13,120
Speaker 4: just that's a small favorite.

1493
01:13:13,120 --> 01:13:16,479
Speaker 1: Please that, please, thank you, that's so much. We love you.

1494
01:13:16,720 --> 01:13:17,080
Speaker 1: See next.

1495
01:13:18,840 --> 01:13:22,040
Speaker 6: Yeah, I'm linen so good. Can't you tell? I went

1496
01:13:22,080 --> 01:13:22,719
Speaker 6: through a drought.

1497
01:13:22,760 --> 01:13:25,000
Speaker 1: That's until I found out, Well may my have been known?

1498
01:13:25,120 --> 01:13:27,280
Speaker 6: Art that used to be broken tail now got the

1499
01:13:27,320 --> 01:13:30,280
Speaker 6: blues in to like Beyonce just now throat shot or

1500
01:13:30,360 --> 01:13:31,120
Speaker 6: pop in his cow.

1501
01:13:31,120 --> 01:13:32,040
Speaker 1: We're in our voices.

1502
01:13:32,160 --> 01:13:35,360
Speaker 6: Patriarchy kept it in the box, so it'sploids. Women put

1503
01:13:35,360 --> 01:13:37,599
Speaker 6: the pee and powers, so what's pointing to? They want

1504
01:13:37,640 --> 01:13:40,599
Speaker 6: me to be good, so I make bad choices. Bad mom,

1505
01:13:40,720 --> 01:13:42,519
Speaker 6: not a bad mom, but a bad mom.

1506
01:13:42,640 --> 01:13:45,200
Speaker 1: Gitter's in put cannabis in their bath.

1507
01:13:44,960 --> 01:13:47,479
Speaker 6: Bomb walked in bosses cap and I blew his cat

1508
01:13:47,560 --> 01:13:48,439
Speaker 6: ball tipe dog.

1509
01:13:48,560 --> 01:13:50,320
Speaker 1: Now I'm immune to the cat call.

1510
01:13:50,479 --> 01:13:53,000
Speaker 6: Her being no waisted straight to it like a dollar sign.

1511
01:13:53,080 --> 01:13:54,960
Speaker 6: Mother rent the number and so it it's like a

1512
01:13:55,040 --> 01:13:57,439
Speaker 6: water sign where you're rent the winter essential will when

1513
01:13:57,479 --> 01:13:58,240
Speaker 6: the summertime.

1514
01:13:58,400 --> 01:14:00,160
Speaker 1: I do what all they know? When I need to

1515
01:14:00,240 --> 01:14:01,120
Speaker 1: run it by