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Speaker 1: Hello, Hey, what's up?

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Speaker 2: Hey? Is this the GAK?

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Speaker 1: This is the GEK? Who is this?

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Speaker 2: This is Spencer? How's it going?

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Speaker 1: It's going all right?

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Speaker 2: Man?

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Speaker 1: What's going on with you? Spencer?

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Speaker 2: Nothing? I'm technically at work right now. I got about

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Speaker 2: nineteen minutes left on my shift.

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Speaker 1: You got nineteen minutes left on your shift?

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Speaker 2: Exactlytes eighteen minutes now, actually just turned to three forty two.

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Speaker 1: What do you think should we run out the clock?

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Speaker 2: I think we should. I think that's a wonderful way

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Speaker 2: to spend my time.

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Speaker 1: All right, let's do it. Let's run out the clock. Waits,

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Speaker 1: what job do you have?

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Speaker 2: So? I mean, I guess my job. It's like the

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Speaker 2: title makes my job sound kind of fake. You know

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Speaker 2: you ever have those kinds of jobs?

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Speaker 1: Sure?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, my title is advancement assistant. I work at a

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Speaker 2: nonprofit and I basically helped them fundraise and organize volunteer

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Speaker 2: events and do some marketing for them.

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Speaker 1: So what are you doing? What are you supposed to

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Speaker 1: be doing for the next eighteen minutes?

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Speaker 2: Working on email campaigns? But technically I am done with that, so,

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Speaker 2: you know, figured i'd call you and see what you're

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Speaker 2: up to.

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Speaker 1: Wait, So why can't you just go home?

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Speaker 2: Oh? I am home. I work from home.

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Speaker 1: Oh okay, all right, so you like your fire, so

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Speaker 1: you don't really have to do anything for the next

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Speaker 1: seventeen minutes. No, No, all right, pretty good. Well especially,

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Speaker 1: let me ask you this, is there anything in particular

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Speaker 1: you called in to want to talk about?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I've been trying to call in for a couple

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Speaker 2: of months now. Uh. Last year I cut off or

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Speaker 2: two years ago, I completely cut off someone who was

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Speaker 2: my best friend. And I knew all my friends supported

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Speaker 2: me in doing that because I'm in a big like

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Speaker 2: friend group with him. But but now I feel like

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Speaker 2: they kind of resent me for it because they still

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Speaker 2: talk to him and like him, and we're on like

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Speaker 2: a big group chat still, but it's just me and him.

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Speaker 2: They don't like each other, you know. Does that make sense?

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Speaker 1: Yeah? Well, I mean what happened? Why don't you guys

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Speaker 1: like each other? Uh?

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Speaker 2: Well, it was me that cut him off first because

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Speaker 2: he was talking a bunch of crap about my girlfriend

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Speaker 2: now fiance, and then yeah, it got to be a

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Speaker 2: little too much, so kind of told him I didn't

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Speaker 2: want to talk to him anymore. And you know, he

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Speaker 2: he tried to apologize to me. I didn't really let

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Speaker 2: him let him do it because it was kind of

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Speaker 2: like a recurring thing. He started doing it. I told

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Speaker 2: him to stop because he started doing it in sort

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Speaker 2: of like a joking manner, but you know, it's not

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Speaker 2: really something you joke about. He was like calling her

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Speaker 2: her ugly and shit, and I'm like, all right, like like,

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Speaker 2: don't do that. That's not respectful, Like you know, you

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Speaker 2: shouldn't be doing that, and and you know, and he

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Speaker 2: and he kept doing that, and if you can't, I

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Speaker 2: don't want to be friends with someone that I have

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Speaker 2: to tell them, like something as simple as like, you know,

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Speaker 2: don't talk shit about my girlfriend.

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Speaker 1: You know, did your did your girlfriend ever know that

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Speaker 1: this guy was talking about her? Uh No?

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Speaker 2: I never told her and she still doesn't know. Uh

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Speaker 2: I like she knows. She's not dumb, because like I

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Speaker 2: and now we're not talking and I'm not telling her why.

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Speaker 2: She can kind of put two and two together and

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Speaker 2: be like, oh, yeah, he definitely said something about me,

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Speaker 2: But I don't really want to because he's talking like

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Speaker 2: about her looks, So I don't want to tell her

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Speaker 2: that and then have her be all like self conscious

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Speaker 2: and stuff like that. So I guess that's my way

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Speaker 1: Oh, I don't know. I don't think you. I don't

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Speaker 1: know if you should tell her. I don't know if

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Speaker 1: like yea, you ever heard that phrase that other people's

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Speaker 1: opinions of you is none of your business.

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Speaker 2: That's true, and this is this is someone that I

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Speaker 1: So you yeah, no, I don't think you need to.

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Speaker 1: I don't think you need to tell her that she

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Speaker 1: he was talking about her. But I think it's it's

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Speaker 1: totally justified to be like, Yo, I don't want to

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Speaker 2: Yeah. They they still like him and they're still you know,

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Speaker 2: gonna I'm not gonna blame him for that, Like they

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Speaker 2: didn't do anything to them. But I feel like now

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Speaker 2: that I don't like him and I don't really hang

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Speaker 2: with him, and they still do, it kind of just

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Speaker 2: puts an in their perspective, probably puts like an unnecessary

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Speaker 1: Let me ask you that, did you ever like so

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Speaker 1: and I'm sorry maybe you said this orady, but when

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Speaker 1: he was talking about your girlfriend, and did you tell him, like, yo,

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Speaker 1: stop doing that and he just he just did did

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Speaker 1: not respond at all. Yeah, he just completely.

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Speaker 2: Fucking I told him. I'm like, I told him, like,

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Speaker 2: nobody thinks that's funny except for you, because nobody was

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Speaker 2: laughing at it. So I was like, nobody thinks that's

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Speaker 2: funny except for you. Stop. He did it like a

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Speaker 2: couple more times after that, and then it was all

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Speaker 2: because of a football game too man like his football,

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Speaker 2: like the team that he was a really big fan

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Speaker 2: of lost the game. And then he like, and I'll

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Speaker 2: admit I was chirping him a little bit, you know,

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Speaker 2: I was trying to I was talking a little bit

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Speaker 2: of shit, but nothing too personal. And then he just

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Speaker 2: that was like my breaking point with him. So like

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Speaker 2: wasn't a fan of it, and that I've told him

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Speaker 2: to stop multiple times. And then after he did it

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Speaker 2: that time, I was like, all right, I don't, like,

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Speaker 2: don't even bother apologizing because I don't because like, you

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Speaker 2: obviously don't mean it because I've I've told you to

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Speaker 2: stop this stuff in the past, and you haven't. So yeah,

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Speaker 2: it's a tough situation.

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Speaker 1: And how many how many people are in the group?

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Speaker 2: I would say, like ten to twelve?

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Speaker 1: Whoa brod? Having twelve friends is crazy?

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Speaker 2: I know, right, it's pretty fun.

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Speaker 3: Technically eleven, Well, listen, twelve, I mean twelve, So that's

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Speaker 3: a big enough group, right that you don't have to

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Speaker 3: First of all, that's a big enough group that it

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Speaker 1: And I mean twelve is big enough that you don't

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Speaker 2: Yeah, exactly, And that's what it's been like. He doesn't.

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Speaker 2: We don't even live in the same state because we

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Speaker 2: all met in college and then we all graduated and

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Speaker 2: I'm living in Indiana. He's off in Illinois, so I

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Speaker 2: haven't seen him in like a good year. So like,

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Speaker 2: whenever we get together as a big group, he's there

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Speaker 2: and like, it's fine, And I told him like I

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Speaker 2: can be friendly with you, I just don't want to

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Speaker 2: be your friend. It's like when we're there, there's like tension.

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Speaker 2: And then whenever I'm hanging out with the people from

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Speaker 2: the group that still live in Indiana and ever, like

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Speaker 2: whenever he comes up, I can tell that there's like

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Speaker 2: that they don't really want to bring him up, even

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Speaker 2: though like I don't care if they bring him up,

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Speaker 2: but like I just feel like they kind of resent

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Speaker 2: me for for you know, holding such a grudge against

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Speaker 1: Well, where's this tension coming from? Like what's so like

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Speaker 1: tension is when like there's something you know supposed to happen,

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Speaker 1: but what's supposed to happen, there's no tension. There's really

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Speaker 1: no attension here because it's like you don't like and

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Speaker 1: it is there any way, shape or form in which

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Speaker 1: is there to be they don't want to be around

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Speaker 1: this guy. I haven't.

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Speaker 2: I never really thought of it that way. I mean,

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Speaker 2: it is kind of just I guess I guess I

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Speaker 2: could just be making most of it up in my

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Speaker 2: in my head. See, this is why I need to

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Speaker 2: because I like, I've talked to him about it before

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Speaker 2: and we've come to like an understanding obviously, But I

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Speaker 2: don't know. I guess I just kind of feel like

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Speaker 2: that might be on more on my end than everybody

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Speaker 1: What's the what is there left to be said? You know?

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Speaker 1: I mean you guys, you said you came to an

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Speaker 2: Yeah, the understanding that the understanding we came to. Yeah, uh,

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Speaker 2: just that that we're not friends, but when we're when

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Speaker 2: we're together with our big group, like we can we

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Speaker 2: can be friends or we can be friendly. I guess

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Speaker 2: the thing that's I'm not gonna lie, the thing that's

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Speaker 2: just say, punch this guy in the face when he

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Speaker 2: first did it, and then none of this would have happened.

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Speaker 2: We could have kind of moved past it.

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Speaker 1: Wait wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, you you you believe

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Speaker 1: that if you punch You believe that if you punched

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Speaker 1: this guy in the face, things would actually be better

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Speaker 1: and you guys could be friends.

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Speaker 2: Now I feel like you know, I wouldn't. I wouldn't. Uh.

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Speaker 2: You know. See, when you put it that way, it

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Speaker 2: really doesn't sound that good.

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Speaker 1: No, it doesn't make any sense at all, unless if

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Speaker 1: that's what you believe, unless if you if you genuinely

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Speaker 1: believe that if this guy, let like, all right, let's

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Speaker 1: say that this guy came to you. I mean, let's

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Speaker 1: say this guy came to you and he was like, listen, man,

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Speaker 1: I'm sorry, and you could punch me in the face

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Speaker 1: if you want. And then you punched them in the face,

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Speaker 1: would you? Could you guys be friends now.

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Speaker 2: Or or no? Maybe? See here's the sorry my water

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Speaker 2: botol just sell. But here's the thing. So this guy

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Speaker 2: actually had beef with another guy in the group that

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Speaker 2: the same year, like two years ago, and he punched

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Speaker 2: this guy. He punched the guy that I have beef

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Speaker 2: with in the face, and then they didn't talk for

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Speaker 2: like a couple of months, and then they were all

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Speaker 2: okay after that. I feel like if I had gotten

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Speaker 2: that aggression out when he first did it one, I

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Speaker 2: don't think he would have done it again afterwards, because

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Speaker 2: I think the problem is that he just kept on

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Speaker 2: doing it, you know, and like even though I would

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Speaker 2: tell him to stop. I feel like if I just

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Speaker 2: showed that aggression right away, like, you know, don't like,

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Speaker 2: don't talk shit about my girlfriend. I'm gonna punch you

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Speaker 2: in the face, then it would have squashed the beef

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Speaker 2: a lot earlier, and it would have gotten as bad

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Speaker 1: Is anyone coming for you? How's it? Where you go ahead?

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Speaker 2: Oh no, no, I'm just gonna ask you how your

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Speaker 2: You've helped me find myself.

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Speaker 1: How's my day going? My day's going? Okay, Yeah, that's it.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, we we really do.

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Speaker 1: How do you want to spend these last two minutes?

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Speaker 2: I kind of want to get to know you on

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Speaker 2: Like you're a social person, you like activities. But what

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Speaker 2: so I'm I'm big into finding that that dark side

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Speaker 1: Oh god, what else? I let's see what can I

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Speaker 1: One minute now, okay, one minute? Uh, I don't know.

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Speaker 1: I get depressed sometimes, but everyone knows that.

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Speaker 1: Nothing exciting nothing, I'm sorry exciting life.

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Speaker 2: No no, no, no good?

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Speaker 1: But uh uh is dexter good? Should I watch it?

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Speaker 2: I think you'd like it a lot. I'm on the

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Speaker 1: What's your name again?

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Speaker 2: Spencer?

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Speaker 1: Spencer?

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Speaker 2: S p E N s E R?

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Speaker 1: What what else was it supposed to? Oh?

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Speaker 1: Really? Okay? I was when I thought of you, is like,

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Speaker 1: I was like, what the fuck else are you supposed

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Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, how about that? Throw a book or a

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Speaker 1: All right, Spencer, let's end this phone call.

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Speaker 2: All right? You have a wonderful Is.

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Speaker 1: There anything else you want to say to the people

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Speaker 2: Acknowledge your tribal chief.

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Speaker 1: Acknowledge your tribal chief? Yes, what does that mean?

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Speaker 2: It's it's a w W reference, the only thing good

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Speaker 2: No, it's it's it's a lot, a lot to explain.

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Speaker 1: Okay, all right, I'll see you later, see you, Gek,

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Speaker 1: I'm not letting this get away from us. Okay, acknowledge

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Speaker 1: The phrase acknowledge your tribal chief. It's a popular catchphrase

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Speaker 1: Okay. I think it's like a cartman respect my authority thing.

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Speaker 4: All from rue.

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Speaker 5: Hello, Hello, Hi there, Hey, what's going on?

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Speaker 2: Gek?

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Speaker 1: Not much. Man, are you? Are you the guy who

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Speaker 1: texted me I recently had a supernatural encounter with God?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, dude, that's me.

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Speaker 1: Uh Rue is your name? That's the name of the

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Speaker 1: from Winnie the Pooh. But funk all that shit. You

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Speaker 2: Dude?

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Speaker 5: Yeah? So this year has been fucking absolutely kind of

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Speaker 1: Yeah, totally. You know what's funny is, I've actually been

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Speaker 1: there's always somebody who's trying to talk to people about

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Speaker 1: God and I It's like I'm always like I'll go

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Speaker 5: What do you do you like ask do you ask

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Speaker 1: and I'm like, I'm like, I got some time to kill.

439
00:21:52,960 --> 00:21:57,800
Speaker 1: I would rather I would rather talk to this preacher

440
00:21:58,280 --> 00:22:01,159
Speaker 1: for fifteen minutes than look at my phone for fifteen minutes.

441
00:22:01,560 --> 00:22:02,960
Speaker 1: That's the main reason I'm doing it.

442
00:22:04,240 --> 00:22:04,800
Speaker 2: That's awesome.

443
00:22:05,720 --> 00:22:06,639
Speaker 1: I learned some stuff.

444
00:22:08,040 --> 00:22:12,200
Speaker 5: I feel like a lot of people who represent faith

445
00:22:12,320 --> 00:22:15,760
Speaker 5: and represent God have kind of tainted his name, and

446
00:22:15,800 --> 00:22:20,840
Speaker 5: I've been a victim of that myself. If it weren't

447
00:22:20,880 --> 00:22:24,720
Speaker 5: for the encounters that I've had with him this year,

448
00:22:26,280 --> 00:22:27,760
Speaker 5: I would have been in the same boat. You know.

449
00:22:27,800 --> 00:22:32,240
Speaker 5: I've totally rejected God as a whole and the idea

450
00:22:32,280 --> 00:22:37,760
Speaker 5: of him just because of the hypocrisy around the faith

451
00:22:38,000 --> 00:22:41,600
Speaker 5: and the hypocrisy that people have brought to it. So like,

452
00:22:41,680 --> 00:22:44,760
Speaker 5: I totally get why people are super dodgy around it

453
00:22:45,320 --> 00:22:49,560
Speaker 5: because I've been there myself. But yeah, it's cool that

454
00:22:49,640 --> 00:22:53,840
Speaker 5: you are open to the idea of whatever it is.

455
00:22:54,800 --> 00:22:57,200
Speaker 1: Well sort of, well, okay, so I'll say, and I

456
00:22:57,320 --> 00:22:59,679
Speaker 1: want to t I talk too much about myself, but

457
00:22:59,720 --> 00:23:02,440
Speaker 1: I I want to get to your encounters. But well,

458
00:23:02,480 --> 00:23:06,480
Speaker 1: I talked to one dude I think I want to say.

459
00:23:06,480 --> 00:23:09,760
Speaker 1: It was like a they're getting funky. Used to be

460
00:23:09,840 --> 00:23:13,199
Speaker 1: like there's there's Jewish, Christian and Muslim, and now it's like, no,

461
00:23:13,359 --> 00:23:15,800
Speaker 1: he can be you know, there's a lot of funky

462
00:23:15,920 --> 00:23:18,320
Speaker 1: mixed religions. And I was talking to some guy I

463
00:23:18,320 --> 00:23:21,320
Speaker 1: think he was. He was Jewish. He was Jewish, and

464
00:23:21,359 --> 00:23:25,680
Speaker 1: we're talking about God. I don't know, I can't he's

465
00:23:25,760 --> 00:23:27,600
Speaker 1: kind of I don't know what exactly what he was,

466
00:23:27,640 --> 00:23:30,040
Speaker 1: but he wasn't fully Jewish. I don't know what he was.

467
00:23:30,119 --> 00:23:35,159
Speaker 1: But he liked God and he was like talking about

468
00:23:35,520 --> 00:23:37,679
Speaker 1: I I'm not there's a few things I'm not sold on.

469
00:23:37,720 --> 00:23:40,040
Speaker 1: I'm not sold on heaven and Hell. I'm not sold

470
00:23:40,080 --> 00:23:44,880
Speaker 1: on heaven in Hell because I feel like, so we're

471
00:23:44,920 --> 00:23:49,560
Speaker 1: all in God's image theoretically right, and so if we're

472
00:23:49,560 --> 00:23:52,600
Speaker 1: all in God's image, I almost I've I've lately have

473
00:23:52,720 --> 00:23:54,880
Speaker 1: taken on a bit of a deterministic point of view

474
00:23:54,920 --> 00:23:58,080
Speaker 1: of the world. And so like, you know, any any

475
00:23:58,160 --> 00:24:02,919
Speaker 1: evil that exists on the planet is almost like of God,

476
00:24:03,320 --> 00:24:05,160
Speaker 1: you know, if we're all made of God. So it's

477
00:24:05,160 --> 00:24:08,760
Speaker 1: like those two the idea that we're all created by God,

478
00:24:08,960 --> 00:24:16,240
Speaker 1: but that we also uh can make these sort of

479
00:24:16,600 --> 00:24:20,639
Speaker 1: decisions as mortals, that landis in heaven or hell. It doesn't.

480
00:24:20,720 --> 00:24:22,760
Speaker 1: It feels a little weird to me. I mean also,

481
00:24:22,800 --> 00:24:25,360
Speaker 1: it's like a way of completely of like absolving yourself

482
00:24:25,400 --> 00:24:28,560
Speaker 1: of any I do think humans probably maybe have choice

483
00:24:28,760 --> 00:24:33,080
Speaker 1: in things, but a lot of that deterministic. But anyway, anyway,

484
00:24:33,119 --> 00:24:35,359
Speaker 1: I don't know I'm getting I'm too much on myself.

485
00:24:35,440 --> 00:24:36,760
Speaker 1: What what was your encounter with God?

486
00:24:37,040 --> 00:24:39,440
Speaker 5: This is this is this is the way the conversation

487
00:24:39,640 --> 00:24:42,240
Speaker 5: is flowing. Let's let's keep it going, Okay.

488
00:24:42,040 --> 00:24:43,280
Speaker 2: So I can style, I can.

489
00:24:44,560 --> 00:24:49,200
Speaker 5: I can only speak on my own experiences. Like I said,

490
00:24:49,240 --> 00:24:51,480
Speaker 5: I'm new in the faith, so I'm a horrible person

491
00:24:51,560 --> 00:24:53,919
Speaker 5: to give facts. I can only speak on on my

492
00:24:54,040 --> 00:25:01,600
Speaker 5: own accord. But as far as I understand it, you

493
00:25:01,640 --> 00:25:06,200
Speaker 5: say that you you're not sold on the whole heaven

494
00:25:06,200 --> 00:25:12,000
Speaker 5: and hell thing. So my idea of it is everything

495
00:25:12,040 --> 00:25:14,800
Speaker 5: that's wrong with the world is the absence of God. Right,

496
00:25:15,640 --> 00:25:19,240
Speaker 5: God in in itself is love, God in in itself

497
00:25:19,680 --> 00:25:24,240
Speaker 5: is wholeness. Okay, so hell itself and everything bad in

498
00:25:24,280 --> 00:25:28,159
Speaker 5: the world is the absence of God. In my own head, Okay,

499
00:25:28,200 --> 00:25:32,159
Speaker 5: there's a lot of there's a lot of scripture that

500
00:25:32,600 --> 00:25:35,520
Speaker 5: I can quote that can back it. I actually don't

501
00:25:35,560 --> 00:25:37,560
Speaker 5: have my notepad with me. I have a lot of

502
00:25:37,560 --> 00:25:39,040
Speaker 5: that in there.

503
00:25:39,560 --> 00:25:41,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, I get it, I get it. I get it.

504
00:25:41,320 --> 00:25:44,040
Speaker 1: I always I get it as like an allegory, Like

505
00:25:44,080 --> 00:25:45,760
Speaker 1: you don't even like to believe in what you're saying.

506
00:25:45,800 --> 00:25:47,640
Speaker 1: I don't even think you have to believe in anything

507
00:25:47,720 --> 00:25:52,919
Speaker 1: beyond uh, the empirical.

508
00:25:54,480 --> 00:25:56,679
Speaker 2: To find empirical, because I have no idea what the fuck.

509
00:25:56,600 --> 00:25:59,800
Speaker 1: I mean, Like, I'm I don't know the whole thing

510
00:25:59,800 --> 00:26:03,040
Speaker 1: of Like, you don't have to believe in anything supernatural,

511
00:26:03,800 --> 00:26:06,440
Speaker 1: I think to believe in what you're saying, because everything

512
00:26:06,480 --> 00:26:09,880
Speaker 1: you're saying is just allegorical, Like God is just God

513
00:26:09,960 --> 00:26:12,240
Speaker 1: is just being nice at that point, you know.

514
00:26:13,440 --> 00:26:22,360
Speaker 5: Right, Okay, I see what you're saying. But yeah, God, okay, Yeah,

515
00:26:22,400 --> 00:26:24,800
Speaker 5: So I guess I'll just kind of open up about

516
00:26:24,800 --> 00:26:27,720
Speaker 5: my experience. So in the beginning of the year when

517
00:26:28,400 --> 00:26:32,440
Speaker 5: I actually have had a few encounters with God himself

518
00:26:33,200 --> 00:26:36,679
Speaker 5: this year or just like the presence of what is holy.

519
00:26:37,840 --> 00:26:41,439
Speaker 5: So in the beginning of the year, I at the

520
00:26:41,560 --> 00:26:44,080
Speaker 5: end of last year, I went through a horrible breakup.

521
00:26:44,240 --> 00:26:48,760
Speaker 5: I went through kind of just like a really horrible

522
00:26:48,840 --> 00:26:54,080
Speaker 5: time in life, and I felt that God called me

523
00:26:54,359 --> 00:26:58,240
Speaker 5: to him through kind of just like the people around me,

524
00:26:59,560 --> 00:27:01,639
Speaker 5: kind of opened up my eyes as to who He

525
00:27:01,800 --> 00:27:06,760
Speaker 5: is through his creation, you know, like I look around

526
00:27:07,880 --> 00:27:11,840
Speaker 5: everything that is and ever was, and everything is so

527
00:27:12,000 --> 00:27:15,760
Speaker 5: perfectly fine tuned that I say to myself, how can

528
00:27:15,800 --> 00:27:16,720
Speaker 5: there not be a God?

529
00:27:16,800 --> 00:27:17,000
Speaker 2: You know?

530
00:27:17,760 --> 00:27:21,560
Speaker 5: And I feel like God opened up himself through that

531
00:27:21,680 --> 00:27:24,800
Speaker 5: kind of opened up my eyes that fact.

532
00:27:25,280 --> 00:27:31,720
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, I'm sorry to interrupt you, but I'm such

533
00:27:31,760 --> 00:27:36,120
Speaker 1: an asshole. But is everything so perfectly fine tuned?

534
00:27:37,840 --> 00:27:41,560
Speaker 5: Well as far as like the chaos and everything in

535
00:27:41,600 --> 00:27:46,320
Speaker 5: the world, but like at yourself, get your brain, your heart,

536
00:27:46,640 --> 00:27:50,600
Speaker 5: everything nature, the bees flying around me right and there's

537
00:27:50,600 --> 00:27:52,720
Speaker 5: literally a bee flying in my face right now. Sorry,

538
00:27:54,400 --> 00:27:57,080
Speaker 5: you know, just stuff like that, Like you go to

539
00:27:57,200 --> 00:28:02,879
Speaker 5: like a waterfall and everything is running in fine tune

540
00:28:03,160 --> 00:28:05,879
Speaker 5: and all of that. I understand what you're saying. Like

541
00:28:06,520 --> 00:28:12,560
Speaker 5: the the bad things in the world, you know, is

542
00:28:12,600 --> 00:28:14,440
Speaker 5: that kind of what you're getting asked to? You don't

543
00:28:14,440 --> 00:28:16,679
Speaker 5: think that things are are finely tuned?

544
00:28:17,840 --> 00:28:20,159
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean I don't think things are perfect, and

545
00:28:20,160 --> 00:28:25,040
Speaker 1: they've never been, but I I I'll things are good.

546
00:28:25,320 --> 00:28:27,720
Speaker 1: I think they're but they're like, for as bad as

547
00:28:27,720 --> 00:28:32,439
Speaker 1: they are, they're pretty Like I'm surprised that the world

548
00:28:32,520 --> 00:28:39,760
Speaker 1: functions as well as it does currently, even though there's like, uh,

549
00:28:39,800 --> 00:28:43,080
Speaker 1: you know, war and uh famine all as bad stuff.

550
00:28:43,120 --> 00:28:45,440
Speaker 1: It's like the fact that you know, I mean, it's

551
00:28:45,440 --> 00:28:47,000
Speaker 1: not gonna be a hundred set perfect, but the fact

552
00:28:47,000 --> 00:28:50,680
Speaker 1: that it functions as well as it does currently.

553
00:28:50,600 --> 00:28:51,680
Speaker 2: It's pretty pretty crazy.

554
00:28:51,760 --> 00:28:53,920
Speaker 1: It's pretty crazy. I agree with that. I'll buy that.

555
00:28:54,000 --> 00:28:54,560
Speaker 1: I'll buy that.

556
00:28:55,920 --> 00:28:58,760
Speaker 5: Yeah, I think the idea of consciousness in it itself

557
00:28:59,200 --> 00:29:03,760
Speaker 5: is fucking crazy. Like I remember being a kid and

558
00:29:03,800 --> 00:29:06,920
Speaker 5: gaining consciousness. I don't remember when it was, but I

559
00:29:07,000 --> 00:29:12,200
Speaker 5: remember gaining consciousness and being like what is this, you know,

560
00:29:12,840 --> 00:29:16,000
Speaker 5: and looking at myself and being like like, I'm a

561
00:29:16,040 --> 00:29:23,360
Speaker 5: person and I'm experiencing I'm experiencing this experience and everything

562
00:29:23,440 --> 00:29:25,040
Speaker 5: just kind of works, you know.

563
00:29:29,080 --> 00:29:32,200
Speaker 1: Okay, So you were going through some time. So let's

564
00:29:32,200 --> 00:29:35,680
Speaker 1: get a little less philosophical, a little bit more personal.

565
00:29:35,800 --> 00:29:39,800
Speaker 1: So you were going through some stuff and then you

566
00:29:39,840 --> 00:29:42,880
Speaker 1: know what happened. How did you kind of you seem

567
00:29:43,000 --> 00:29:46,200
Speaker 1: you strike me as a peaceful and optimistic gentleman. How

568
00:29:46,200 --> 00:29:47,760
Speaker 1: did you arrive there?

569
00:29:49,000 --> 00:29:49,840
Speaker 2: Yeah? Man, thank you.

570
00:29:52,600 --> 00:29:55,920
Speaker 5: I still struggle with the peaceful and optimistic part of life.

571
00:29:56,080 --> 00:30:03,120
Speaker 5: If I'm being totally honest with you, Okay, I will

572
00:30:03,320 --> 00:30:09,080
Speaker 5: open up about a specific thing that I've been kind

573
00:30:09,120 --> 00:30:14,480
Speaker 5: of going through. So I've been real big into the

574
00:30:14,560 --> 00:30:17,560
Speaker 5: reeve scene. Okay, I've been real big into the reeve

575
00:30:17,680 --> 00:30:21,400
Speaker 5: scene the last like three years of my life, which

576
00:30:21,760 --> 00:30:25,880
Speaker 5: I feel like God right now in the current point

577
00:30:25,960 --> 00:30:30,000
Speaker 5: of where I'm at, is telling me to step back

578
00:30:30,000 --> 00:30:30,360
Speaker 5: from that.

579
00:30:30,840 --> 00:30:31,160
Speaker 2: Okay.

580
00:30:31,520 --> 00:30:34,200
Speaker 5: I'm not really sure how this correlates to what we're

581
00:30:34,240 --> 00:30:37,800
Speaker 5: speaking of if I'm being totally honest, but I just

582
00:30:37,840 --> 00:30:40,040
Speaker 5: feel like I just feel like I should say it. Okay.

583
00:30:40,680 --> 00:30:45,360
Speaker 5: So I've been in this circle for the longest time. Okay,

584
00:30:47,440 --> 00:30:50,520
Speaker 5: over the last like month or so two months of

585
00:30:50,520 --> 00:30:55,800
Speaker 5: my life, I have just felt a really uneasy and

586
00:30:55,920 --> 00:31:01,520
Speaker 5: just like dark presence in those areas. Okay, as far

587
00:31:01,600 --> 00:31:06,800
Speaker 5: as drugs go, you know, I've been in a struggling

588
00:31:06,880 --> 00:31:11,120
Speaker 5: addict since I've been like sixteen years old, pretty much

589
00:31:11,160 --> 00:31:16,320
Speaker 5: have tried everything in the book. Just people around me

590
00:31:16,440 --> 00:31:22,800
Speaker 5: have pulled me down to some dark places regarding the

591
00:31:22,920 --> 00:31:28,240
Speaker 5: rave scene and all of that. But yeah, I recently

592
00:31:28,400 --> 00:31:32,080
Speaker 5: the encounter that I've I'm speaking of kind of had

593
00:31:32,120 --> 00:31:35,920
Speaker 5: a lot to do with that and about my struggles

594
00:31:35,920 --> 00:31:40,880
Speaker 5: with addiction. I was sitting in my well, hold on.

595
00:31:41,640 --> 00:31:47,080
Speaker 5: I had a weekend where I went out, Okay, okay,

596
00:31:47,200 --> 00:31:50,040
Speaker 5: hold on, hold on, hold on, gek, I'm getting ahead

597
00:31:50,040 --> 00:31:50,480
Speaker 5: of myself.

598
00:31:50,600 --> 00:31:51,440
Speaker 2: Let me backpedal.

599
00:31:52,640 --> 00:31:55,920
Speaker 5: So I came to God in the beginning of the year, okay,

600
00:31:57,000 --> 00:31:59,040
Speaker 5: and I cut off a lot of that stuff for

601
00:31:59,080 --> 00:32:04,120
Speaker 5: a long time, and then I went back to it.

602
00:32:04,240 --> 00:32:07,760
Speaker 5: I fell back into old habits. I fell back into

603
00:32:07,800 --> 00:32:10,160
Speaker 5: a lot of drugs, and I fell back into a

604
00:32:10,200 --> 00:32:13,040
Speaker 5: lot of that kind of stuff and felt myself kind

605
00:32:13,040 --> 00:32:14,280
Speaker 5: of floating away from God.

606
00:32:15,720 --> 00:32:17,600
Speaker 2: Now I had a.

607
00:32:17,600 --> 00:32:21,200
Speaker 5: Mentor for the longest time, and he reached out to

608
00:32:21,240 --> 00:32:23,880
Speaker 5: me and kind of asked me how things were going,

609
00:32:25,960 --> 00:32:28,640
Speaker 5: and I opened up to him. I was like, yeah, man,

610
00:32:29,080 --> 00:32:32,320
Speaker 5: I fell this is where I'm at. And so he

611
00:32:32,600 --> 00:32:36,400
Speaker 5: set a date a few weeks ago, like a few

612
00:32:36,400 --> 00:32:39,560
Speaker 5: mondays ago, and he was like, I'm coming to get you.

613
00:32:39,840 --> 00:32:44,000
Speaker 5: We're gonna talk things out, and I must see where

614
00:32:44,040 --> 00:32:51,760
Speaker 5: you're at. So I told myself, come Monday, this is it. Okay,

615
00:32:51,920 --> 00:32:58,280
Speaker 5: Come Monday, I'm going in and I'm looking back to God. Okay. Now,

616
00:32:58,800 --> 00:33:03,600
Speaker 5: the weekend before that Monday geck was the craziest weekend

617
00:33:03,760 --> 00:33:08,000
Speaker 5: I've ever had in my life. I went out and

618
00:33:08,680 --> 00:33:13,120
Speaker 5: almost it almost felt like I had to get it

619
00:33:13,160 --> 00:33:14,360
Speaker 5: all out of my system.

620
00:33:14,440 --> 00:33:14,680
Speaker 2: You know.

621
00:33:15,480 --> 00:33:21,760
Speaker 5: I went crazy. I did everything. And there's a story

622
00:33:21,920 --> 00:33:28,240
Speaker 5: in the Bible where the devil takes Jesus Christ around

623
00:33:29,480 --> 00:33:34,080
Speaker 5: and about and he tests him. He tells him make

624
00:33:34,240 --> 00:33:38,520
Speaker 5: these rocks into bread. If you are Jesus Christ himself,

625
00:33:39,960 --> 00:33:43,680
Speaker 5: throw yourself off of this sledge, and the angels of

626
00:33:43,760 --> 00:33:47,400
Speaker 5: God will catch you for it says, a foot will

627
00:33:47,440 --> 00:33:49,360
Speaker 5: not strike a rock.

628
00:33:49,920 --> 00:33:50,360
Speaker 2: Okay.

629
00:33:53,440 --> 00:33:57,040
Speaker 5: The devil tempted Jesus Christ with all of these things

630
00:33:57,120 --> 00:34:00,360
Speaker 5: in that moment, and I felt like I was in

631
00:34:00,440 --> 00:34:06,440
Speaker 5: the exact same situation that weekend. It was the craziest thing.

632
00:34:08,440 --> 00:34:13,520
Speaker 1: The devil tempted Jesus to jump off a fucking cliff. Yeah,

633
00:34:13,600 --> 00:34:15,560
Speaker 1: that's more of a day or than a temptation.

634
00:34:17,600 --> 00:34:22,080
Speaker 2: That's more it was like, yeah, yeah, the way I

635
00:34:22,200 --> 00:34:23,640
Speaker 2: ordered it kind of sounds like that.

636
00:34:23,800 --> 00:34:26,319
Speaker 1: Man, but uh so the devil, the devil.

637
00:34:26,760 --> 00:34:29,280
Speaker 5: It was more like it was more like prove yourself.

638
00:34:29,600 --> 00:34:32,520
Speaker 1: Yeah the devil shit tested him.

639
00:34:32,719 --> 00:34:39,480
Speaker 5: Yeah yeah, it was more like prove yourself. Okay, anyway, Yeah,

640
00:34:39,520 --> 00:34:44,440
Speaker 5: so I went through something very similar to that the

641
00:34:44,480 --> 00:34:48,719
Speaker 5: weekend before that Monday, Man, I told myself, I was like,

642
00:34:48,880 --> 00:34:53,240
Speaker 5: come Monday, this is it. I'm walking back in ghek.

643
00:34:54,200 --> 00:34:58,360
Speaker 5: Let me tell you about this weekend. Okay, I've never

644
00:34:58,960 --> 00:35:03,480
Speaker 5: in my life had so many women thrown at me.

645
00:35:04,480 --> 00:35:08,840
Speaker 5: I've never in my life had so much put in

646
00:35:08,880 --> 00:35:11,920
Speaker 5: front of my face. I had so many drugs offered

647
00:35:11,920 --> 00:35:15,719
Speaker 5: to me, I had so many friends offered to me.

648
00:35:16,520 --> 00:35:20,239
Speaker 5: Like typically a regular like night of me going out

649
00:35:20,280 --> 00:35:24,920
Speaker 5: and like raving and going crazy, I go to a rave, uh,

650
00:35:26,239 --> 00:35:30,160
Speaker 5: get fucked up and go home. But this specific night, man,

651
00:35:30,320 --> 00:35:35,440
Speaker 5: I got like connected to a lot of people, and

652
00:35:35,520 --> 00:35:38,080
Speaker 5: I've got I got connected to a lot of like

653
00:35:39,360 --> 00:35:43,000
Speaker 5: people in the scene in my area in Charlotte, and

654
00:35:43,080 --> 00:35:48,360
Speaker 5: it almost felt like the devil was kind of like

655
00:35:48,480 --> 00:35:50,759
Speaker 5: showing me what he had to offer you. Know if

656
00:35:50,800 --> 00:35:53,320
Speaker 5: I like went this way.

657
00:35:53,880 --> 00:35:57,160
Speaker 1: Okay, and so all right, so let me like, I'm

658
00:35:57,160 --> 00:36:00,640
Speaker 1: gonna like your story so far is okay. So you

659
00:36:00,719 --> 00:36:03,520
Speaker 1: were not doing well, you had a mentor sponsor, let's

660
00:36:03,560 --> 00:36:08,280
Speaker 1: say almost, and uh, your sponsored was like okay on Mondays.

661
00:36:08,360 --> 00:36:11,520
Speaker 1: You call your sponsor Friday Monday, He's like, all right,

662
00:36:11,520 --> 00:36:13,600
Speaker 1: we're gonna come down, we're gonna talk. And then you're like,

663
00:36:13,640 --> 00:36:16,279
Speaker 1: all right, before I, you know, start getting my shit

664
00:36:16,320 --> 00:36:19,920
Speaker 1: together with this guy, I'm gonna go out for the weekend.

665
00:36:20,400 --> 00:36:22,839
Speaker 1: And you go out and the devil starts tempting you

666
00:36:22,920 --> 00:36:30,160
Speaker 1: with with with drugs and women, and yeah, okay, and

667
00:36:30,200 --> 00:36:33,840
Speaker 1: then what happened? What happens? What happens? Come Monday.

668
00:36:35,480 --> 00:36:41,719
Speaker 5: So Monday had an even pain geck comes Sunday, Okay, Sunday.

669
00:36:43,440 --> 00:36:46,360
Speaker 5: I was coming down off of a lot of shit, okay,

670
00:36:47,520 --> 00:36:52,040
Speaker 5: and I was going a little crazy, man. I was

671
00:36:52,920 --> 00:36:57,480
Speaker 5: low key spiraling. And there was a like, I want

672
00:36:57,480 --> 00:37:02,240
Speaker 5: to say, like a four hour period Sunday night after

673
00:37:02,280 --> 00:37:06,400
Speaker 5: just being depressed all day because I went crazy the

674
00:37:06,400 --> 00:37:13,200
Speaker 5: weekend before where I felt genuinely felt like I was

675
00:37:13,280 --> 00:37:18,040
Speaker 5: going fully manic, and it was honestly really scary Gek.

676
00:37:18,800 --> 00:37:24,040
Speaker 5: So I'm gonna just give this pretense for absolutely no reason.

677
00:37:26,000 --> 00:37:30,520
Speaker 5: I meal prep my breakfast in the morning, okay, Okay.

678
00:37:31,160 --> 00:37:35,000
Speaker 5: So I was out of groceries at like ten PM.

679
00:37:35,120 --> 00:37:36,919
Speaker 5: I was like, oh shit, I need to go get

680
00:37:36,960 --> 00:37:39,320
Speaker 5: groceries to meal prep breakfast in the morning.

681
00:37:40,600 --> 00:37:41,120
Speaker 2: I go.

682
00:37:42,480 --> 00:37:47,719
Speaker 5: And get groceries, get back to my house with said groceries.

683
00:37:48,520 --> 00:37:52,319
Speaker 5: I'm sitting in my driveway. I shut my truck off.

684
00:37:52,320 --> 00:37:58,920
Speaker 5: I'm sitting in my driveway and I do not feel well, Gek.

685
00:37:59,280 --> 00:38:05,719
Speaker 5: I feel horrible, I feel sick, I feel heavy. My

686
00:38:05,920 --> 00:38:11,840
Speaker 5: soul feels heavy. Okay. And there was a solid hour

687
00:38:12,400 --> 00:38:18,120
Speaker 5: where I felt these presences. Okay, I don't want to

688
00:38:18,280 --> 00:38:22,560
Speaker 5: I want to call them demons, geg, but I don't

689
00:38:22,560 --> 00:38:27,480
Speaker 5: want to give him a name. But they felt heavy, dude.

690
00:38:28,160 --> 00:38:33,200
Speaker 5: They felt so heavy, so dark. And I'm sitting in

691
00:38:33,239 --> 00:38:40,799
Speaker 5: my truck and it felt genuinely felt like God himself,

692
00:38:41,239 --> 00:38:47,880
Speaker 5: Jesus Christ himself was looking down on me and looking

693
00:38:47,920 --> 00:38:53,920
Speaker 5: at all of this unfold. Okay. I have never in

694
00:38:54,160 --> 00:38:59,480
Speaker 5: my whole life felt a presence like that. And I

695
00:38:59,520 --> 00:39:03,040
Speaker 5: could you know what the crazy thing, Gek is is

696
00:39:03,080 --> 00:39:10,120
Speaker 5: that I could differentiate. Okay, I could differentiate set presences.

697
00:39:11,040 --> 00:39:16,680
Speaker 5: Like I said, I felt these presences, these dark beings

698
00:39:16,880 --> 00:39:24,640
Speaker 5: around me, okay, and I knew that they themselves were

699
00:39:24,840 --> 00:39:31,080
Speaker 5: dark and evil, But I could also differentiate the presence

700
00:39:31,480 --> 00:39:37,040
Speaker 5: and the holiness of God in that moment, and I

701
00:39:37,080 --> 00:39:40,759
Speaker 5: felt God looking at me and watching all of this

702
00:39:41,040 --> 00:39:46,520
Speaker 5: unfold and watching me go crazy. Okay, These said dark

703
00:39:46,640 --> 00:39:54,319
Speaker 5: presences genuinely were making me go crazy gek And I

704
00:39:54,360 --> 00:39:58,600
Speaker 5: don't know how else to explain it other than they

705
00:39:58,640 --> 00:40:01,920
Speaker 5: were telling me I was going and crazy. There was

706
00:40:01,960 --> 00:40:06,600
Speaker 5: a voice in my head screaming at me to call

707
00:40:06,800 --> 00:40:11,880
Speaker 5: nine one one, screaming at me to screaming at me,

708
00:40:12,000 --> 00:40:19,759
Speaker 5: telling me that I'm going into psychosis, full blown psychosis.

709
00:40:19,800 --> 00:40:26,360
Speaker 5: And I can't help but feel like something left me

710
00:40:26,440 --> 00:40:26,919
Speaker 5: that night.

711
00:40:27,719 --> 00:40:30,400
Speaker 1: Did you call nine one one?

712
00:40:30,719 --> 00:40:30,919
Speaker 2: No?

713
00:40:31,520 --> 00:40:38,680
Speaker 5: I did not. I can't help but feel like something

714
00:40:38,880 --> 00:40:42,720
Speaker 5: genuinely left me that night. I don't know if God

715
00:40:42,960 --> 00:40:45,799
Speaker 5: called it out of me, if God called it out

716
00:40:45,840 --> 00:40:50,160
Speaker 5: of my soul, but it feels like God told me

717
00:40:50,200 --> 00:40:53,759
Speaker 5: to lock in for real, as corny and weird as

718
00:40:53,800 --> 00:40:56,799
Speaker 5: that sounds, and so God.

719
00:40:57,920 --> 00:41:00,000
Speaker 1: And so what happened, and so what happens on myny

720
00:41:00,239 --> 00:41:02,920
Speaker 1: when you went to go see your person.

721
00:41:04,200 --> 00:41:04,439
Speaker 2: Yeah.

722
00:41:04,480 --> 00:41:09,440
Speaker 5: Man, so I was kind of creeping up on that.

723
00:41:09,600 --> 00:41:14,520
Speaker 5: But like I said, it felt like I was going crazy.

724
00:41:14,960 --> 00:41:18,480
Speaker 5: When I talked to my mentor, he was like, yeah, man,

725
00:41:19,560 --> 00:41:25,600
Speaker 5: I have one seen this. He told me that he

726
00:41:25,760 --> 00:41:29,400
Speaker 5: wasn't expecting me to come out of my house. He

727
00:41:29,960 --> 00:41:34,720
Speaker 5: had this exact same situation happened with like some woman

728
00:41:34,920 --> 00:41:39,920
Speaker 5: that he was like pulling trying to help out of

729
00:41:39,960 --> 00:41:43,680
Speaker 5: the pits of addiction. And it was the same kind

730
00:41:43,719 --> 00:41:49,359
Speaker 5: of thing where he reached out and he said, I'm

731
00:41:49,360 --> 00:41:52,160
Speaker 5: coming to get you and we're going to talk it out.

732
00:41:52,880 --> 00:41:57,400
Speaker 5: The day that he came and got her, her peers

733
00:41:57,680 --> 00:42:03,640
Speaker 5: said that she tried to overdose the the night before.

734
00:42:04,160 --> 00:42:04,400
Speaker 1: You know.

735
00:42:04,960 --> 00:42:09,560
Speaker 5: And I can't help but think that I crossed paths

736
00:42:10,320 --> 00:42:14,480
Speaker 5: with the same kind of entities. I don't want to

737
00:42:14,560 --> 00:42:18,960
Speaker 5: call them that were trying to convince me that I

738
00:42:19,160 --> 00:42:24,280
Speaker 5: was going crazy. And because think about it, Gig, had

739
00:42:24,320 --> 00:42:30,640
Speaker 5: I called nine one one, had I gave in, okay,

740
00:42:30,640 --> 00:42:32,720
Speaker 5: I wouldn't have went with my mentor.

741
00:42:33,080 --> 00:42:37,000
Speaker 1: You know, And you're never hold on, You're not You're

742
00:42:37,000 --> 00:42:41,399
Speaker 1: not gonna, You're not gonna. I I think, if if

743
00:42:41,440 --> 00:42:43,839
Speaker 1: you have a voice, I'm gonna go ahead and say,

744
00:42:43,880 --> 00:42:46,000
Speaker 1: if you have a voice in your head screaming at

745
00:42:46,000 --> 00:42:48,839
Speaker 1: you to call nine one one, shourobably do it?

746
00:42:51,920 --> 00:42:56,640
Speaker 5: Yeah, that's the thing, man, that's the thing. But this

747
00:42:56,719 --> 00:43:01,080
Speaker 5: ship is real, and I will everybody.

748
00:43:03,960 --> 00:43:05,719
Speaker 1: I'm gonna I'll let you, I'll let you, I'll let

749
00:43:05,760 --> 00:43:06,879
Speaker 1: you finish before we go.

750
00:43:07,320 --> 00:43:10,240
Speaker 5: Okay, Okay, okay, okay, I want to I do, and

751
00:43:10,480 --> 00:43:14,760
Speaker 5: I am very interested in your input. But I will

752
00:43:14,840 --> 00:43:21,359
Speaker 5: say to everybody listening, okay, and I would really appreciate

753
00:43:21,920 --> 00:43:27,360
Speaker 5: if everybody went at this with an open heart and

754
00:43:27,560 --> 00:43:34,080
Speaker 5: open mind, because this ship is scarily.

755
00:43:33,600 --> 00:43:36,600
Speaker 2: Real, y'all. Okay, but God loves you.

756
00:43:37,080 --> 00:43:41,399
Speaker 5: Okay, God loves you, and he wants the absolute best

757
00:43:41,400 --> 00:43:46,440
Speaker 5: for you. And I'm coming from the most genuine place

758
00:43:47,360 --> 00:43:49,000
Speaker 5: in Ruth's heart.

759
00:43:49,239 --> 00:43:53,680
Speaker 1: Okay, well, Rue, listen, listen. Uh here, here's here's the thing.

760
00:43:53,719 --> 00:43:55,719
Speaker 1: And I'm gonna just I'm sorry because I've let you

761
00:43:56,800 --> 00:43:57,880
Speaker 1: run off alone.

762
00:43:57,960 --> 00:43:59,320
Speaker 5: Man, I've been I've been rambling.

763
00:43:59,440 --> 00:43:59,960
Speaker 2: There's a lot.

764
00:44:00,120 --> 00:44:04,160
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm sure, I'm sure, and I'm gonna what do

765
00:44:04,200 --> 00:44:09,680
Speaker 1: I think? Well, it's hard because I'm deeply agnostic at

766
00:44:09,680 --> 00:44:11,520
Speaker 1: this point. I don't know what is up and what

767
00:44:11,680 --> 00:44:15,839
Speaker 1: is down or whatnot? But do I think, I mean,

768
00:44:18,520 --> 00:44:21,319
Speaker 1: I actually know what I think is probably that if

769
00:44:21,360 --> 00:44:22,960
Speaker 1: you really want to know what I think, I think

770
00:44:23,000 --> 00:44:28,440
Speaker 1: you had uh some kind of psychological issue caused by

771
00:44:28,440 --> 00:44:34,840
Speaker 1: doing too many drugs. That's that's That's probably what I believe.

772
00:44:34,880 --> 00:44:37,080
Speaker 1: But I I just hope you're okay. I hope you're

773
00:44:37,120 --> 00:44:40,879
Speaker 1: like doing fine, and I hope that you're not doing

774
00:44:40,880 --> 00:44:44,480
Speaker 1: too many Just as long as you're safe, you know,

775
00:44:45,120 --> 00:44:47,040
Speaker 1: as long as you're not doing too many drugs, you're

776
00:44:47,040 --> 00:44:52,120
Speaker 1: not fucking killing yourself over things. You know, that's good.

777
00:44:52,920 --> 00:44:56,440
Speaker 1: But I I I appreciate you you calling and sharing

778
00:44:56,480 --> 00:44:56,920
Speaker 1: your story.

779
00:44:57,000 --> 00:44:57,239
Speaker 2: Rue.

780
00:44:58,640 --> 00:45:00,200
Speaker 1: Is there anything else do you want to say to

781
00:45:00,200 --> 00:45:01,719
Speaker 1: the people of the computer before we go?

782
00:45:05,920 --> 00:45:08,800
Speaker 5: Yeah, I'm gonna repeat myself.

783
00:45:09,200 --> 00:45:09,640
Speaker 1: Okay.

784
00:45:10,200 --> 00:45:14,400
Speaker 5: God loves you, Okay, God loves everybody in the world,

785
00:45:14,520 --> 00:45:16,520
Speaker 5: and he wants the best for you if he wants

786
00:45:16,560 --> 00:45:21,360
Speaker 5: to see you succeed whatever it is that you're going through. Sobriety,

787
00:45:21,960 --> 00:45:25,840
Speaker 5: that's what it is for me, Okay. But I know

788
00:45:27,680 --> 00:45:37,200
Speaker 5: I receive calmness, I receive tranquility in my soul knowing

789
00:45:38,040 --> 00:45:42,160
Speaker 5: that there is a God out there who wants the

790
00:45:42,160 --> 00:45:44,319
Speaker 5: best for me and that's it.

791
00:45:45,480 --> 00:45:47,520
Speaker 1: Uh, well, thank you for calling, Ru. I'll see you

792
00:45:47,520 --> 00:45:48,320
Speaker 1: around the universe.

793
00:45:49,480 --> 00:45:52,080
Speaker 5: Yeah, Man, love you get I listened to you all

794
00:45:52,120 --> 00:45:54,400
Speaker 5: the time. Thanks, and I hope I get to speak

795
00:45:54,440 --> 00:45:55,000
Speaker 5: to you again.

796
00:45:55,239 --> 00:45:57,120
Speaker 1: Goodbye, have a good night, Rue.

797
00:45:58,320 --> 00:45:59,400
Speaker 2: Bye.

798
00:46:01,680 --> 00:46:03,279
Speaker 1: I maybe rushed them off the foot, but I don't

799
00:46:03,280 --> 00:46:05,720
Speaker 1: think I did it. We talked, We got a good

800
00:46:06,040 --> 00:46:10,040
Speaker 1: That was a good twenty eight minutes of talk. Well,

801
00:46:10,080 --> 00:46:12,239
Speaker 1: I think I don't know. I'm a little irritable right now.

802
00:46:12,239 --> 00:46:14,080
Speaker 1: I don't know why. I think I just am feeling

803
00:46:14,160 --> 00:46:20,600
Speaker 1: I'm coffeed up. But I mean that, you know, I

804
00:46:22,080 --> 00:46:23,960
Speaker 1: I don't. I don't know, man, I mean I know

805
00:46:24,040 --> 00:46:28,239
Speaker 1: a little bit right. I like thinking about God. I

806
00:46:28,320 --> 00:46:31,120
Speaker 1: like thinking about mainly I think about God as an

807
00:46:31,160 --> 00:46:37,080
Speaker 1: allegory more so than of like a genuine spiritual demon.

808
00:46:37,120 --> 00:46:38,319
Speaker 1: I mean, I think a lot of that stuff is

809
00:46:40,160 --> 00:46:45,960
Speaker 1: hallucinations and whatnot. But again, I don't know. I appreciate

810
00:46:46,040 --> 00:46:52,040
Speaker 1: Rue for sharing, and I wish him good luck. Hello,

811
00:46:52,160 --> 00:46:54,200
Speaker 1: gig Hey, what's up?

812
00:46:54,239 --> 00:46:54,359
Speaker 5: Man?

813
00:46:54,400 --> 00:46:54,960
Speaker 1: What's your name?

814
00:46:55,640 --> 00:46:55,960
Speaker 2: Hello?

815
00:46:56,120 --> 00:46:57,000
Speaker 4: My name is Bruno.

816
00:46:57,760 --> 00:47:01,640
Speaker 1: Bruno. Yeah, Yes, what's up? What's up?

817
00:47:03,280 --> 00:47:03,680
Speaker 4: What's up?

818
00:47:03,800 --> 00:47:04,280
Speaker 2: Is it going?

819
00:47:04,400 --> 00:47:08,279
Speaker 4: I'm I'm actually working at the moment I'm at the

820
00:47:08,360 --> 00:47:10,560
Speaker 4: hotel and I'm calling from the from the phone of

821
00:47:10,640 --> 00:47:11,120
Speaker 4: the hotel.

822
00:47:11,560 --> 00:47:12,520
Speaker 2: It's just kind of crazy.

823
00:47:13,239 --> 00:47:15,480
Speaker 4: We're not gonna because I spend way too much money

824
00:47:15,480 --> 00:47:16,399
Speaker 4: if I do it from my phone.

825
00:47:16,480 --> 00:47:18,880
Speaker 1: Yet, we're not going to get you in trouble, are we?

826
00:47:20,520 --> 00:47:22,440
Speaker 4: No, not at all, not at all, Not at all.

827
00:47:22,360 --> 00:47:22,799
Speaker 2: Not at all.

828
00:47:23,800 --> 00:47:25,959
Speaker 1: Yeah. I mean the way from what I understand about

829
00:47:25,960 --> 00:47:29,560
Speaker 1: European customer service is that it's like, uh, if you

830
00:47:29,600 --> 00:47:31,800
Speaker 1: could go to check in at a hotel in Europe

831
00:47:32,760 --> 00:47:34,600
Speaker 1: and then if the guy at the front desk is like,

832
00:47:35,040 --> 00:47:37,160
Speaker 1: I cannot stuck right now, I'm talking to the gickle,

833
00:47:37,760 --> 00:47:41,000
Speaker 1: then uh, they just have to eat. They have to

834
00:47:41,040 --> 00:47:42,399
Speaker 1: eat ship. Yeah, they have to eat ship.

835
00:47:42,440 --> 00:47:43,160
Speaker 2: They care y.

836
00:47:43,800 --> 00:47:46,600
Speaker 1: Yes, Yes, that was a very I'm not good at

837
00:47:46,840 --> 00:47:48,640
Speaker 1: I'm not good at accent, so that was kind of

838
00:47:48,680 --> 00:47:52,120
Speaker 1: like a Russian I feel Russian.

839
00:47:52,320 --> 00:47:55,040
Speaker 4: Really. That's funny because a lot of people I'm Portuguese,

840
00:47:55,120 --> 00:47:59,000
Speaker 4: by the way, I'm from Portugal, a lot of people

841
00:47:59,040 --> 00:48:02,800
Speaker 4: say that people that don't understand Portuguese, it sounds like

842
00:48:02,920 --> 00:48:08,360
Speaker 4: drunk Russian, which is a common comment that I have

843
00:48:09,960 --> 00:48:13,120
Speaker 4: from guests here, including Yeah, I would say the name

844
00:48:13,120 --> 00:48:15,160
Speaker 4: of the hotel because that is probably going to get

845
00:48:15,239 --> 00:48:18,480
Speaker 4: him get in trouble. But I'm going to try to

846
00:48:18,520 --> 00:48:19,840
Speaker 4: disclose that.

847
00:48:19,840 --> 00:48:20,640
Speaker 2: That's the best I can.

848
00:48:21,239 --> 00:48:23,600
Speaker 1: What kind of hotel is this? Is this a popular

849
00:48:23,880 --> 00:48:26,319
Speaker 1: hotel or is it? Is it dead enough that you

850
00:48:26,360 --> 00:48:27,439
Speaker 1: can take this phone call.

851
00:48:29,120 --> 00:48:31,040
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's bad enough that I can take this phone

852
00:48:31,040 --> 00:48:33,520
Speaker 4: call because it's a long stay hotel. It's like a

853
00:48:33,600 --> 00:48:37,840
Speaker 4: department hotel. A lot of people come in here to

854
00:48:37,920 --> 00:48:42,960
Speaker 4: do just like temporary work, like a lot of people

855
00:48:43,000 --> 00:48:45,279
Speaker 4: that work in the servers and data servers come here,

856
00:48:45,320 --> 00:48:48,799
Speaker 4: often to just the state instead of renting a house

857
00:48:48,840 --> 00:48:53,400
Speaker 4: because in Amsterdam it's pretty rough to get a rental apartment.

858
00:48:53,719 --> 00:48:57,759
Speaker 4: I'm from Portugal, but I'm actually living in Amsterdam, so

859
00:48:58,480 --> 00:48:59,600
Speaker 4: a little bit more context.

860
00:48:59,640 --> 00:49:02,960
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, cool, I love Amsterdam Man. Amsterdam is one

861
00:49:03,000 --> 00:49:04,719
Speaker 1: of my favorite cities in the world.

862
00:49:05,920 --> 00:49:08,239
Speaker 4: Yeah, you were here doing the talk in Vondelpark, and

863
00:49:08,280 --> 00:49:11,680
Speaker 4: I was I didn't know, and then I went there

864
00:49:11,760 --> 00:49:13,520
Speaker 4: super fast to see if I could catch you still,

865
00:49:13,680 --> 00:49:17,600
Speaker 4: but nobody was there, so.

866
00:49:18,800 --> 00:49:20,239
Speaker 1: So Bruno, I was.

867
00:49:22,239 --> 00:49:26,720
Speaker 4: Yes, I'm actually I'm a little star struck. I'm sorry

868
00:49:27,480 --> 00:49:30,719
Speaker 4: because I called a bunch of times and every time

869
00:49:30,800 --> 00:49:33,120
Speaker 4: the voice memo came up, I thought it was actually you,

870
00:49:35,640 --> 00:49:37,320
Speaker 4: so I got fooled like three times.

871
00:49:38,400 --> 00:49:40,560
Speaker 1: This is me, brother, this is me. Well let me

872
00:49:40,600 --> 00:49:42,640
Speaker 1: ask you this Bruno is and it's okay. If not,

873
00:49:42,719 --> 00:49:45,320
Speaker 1: we can just shoot the ship. But is there anything

874
00:49:45,360 --> 00:49:47,440
Speaker 1: in particular that you called in to want to talk about.

875
00:49:49,480 --> 00:49:51,640
Speaker 4: I just wanted to personally thank you for all the

876
00:49:51,800 --> 00:49:54,440
Speaker 4: all the company that you've been keeping me in here.

877
00:49:55,080 --> 00:49:59,480
Speaker 4: Because I moved from Portugal to the Netherlands by myself.

878
00:50:00,120 --> 00:50:02,480
Speaker 4: You have to wait like a year to actually find

879
00:50:02,480 --> 00:50:05,239
Speaker 4: the house and be here with my girlfriend. But that

880
00:50:05,360 --> 00:50:09,160
Speaker 4: year was very lonely, and I found your podcast and

881
00:50:09,520 --> 00:50:11,880
Speaker 4: I heard like the two most recent ones, and then

882
00:50:11,920 --> 00:50:14,880
Speaker 4: I went all the way back to the bottom, and

883
00:50:14,920 --> 00:50:17,280
Speaker 4: it was like it was kind of like watching a series,

884
00:50:17,320 --> 00:50:19,400
Speaker 4: you know, listening to a series, like every day. I

885
00:50:19,440 --> 00:50:23,279
Speaker 4: listened tolad ly too, so much that I kept I

886
00:50:23,360 --> 00:50:27,320
Speaker 4: kept up until now. So now every week I'm waiting

887
00:50:27,320 --> 00:50:30,160
Speaker 4: for you to drop an episode, and every time I

888
00:50:30,200 --> 00:50:32,640
Speaker 4: get the opportunity to call, every time I see the story,

889
00:50:32,680 --> 00:50:35,320
Speaker 4: it is too late, You're already not on the stream,

890
00:50:35,400 --> 00:50:39,000
Speaker 4: or the line is not open anymore. So yeah, this

891
00:50:39,160 --> 00:50:40,920
Speaker 4: was my chance. I took it and you picked up

892
00:50:41,040 --> 00:50:42,160
Speaker 4: and I'm very happy about it.

893
00:50:42,239 --> 00:50:42,680
Speaker 2: Yeah.

894
00:50:42,880 --> 00:50:46,120
Speaker 1: Fuck yeah, that's awesome. That's I'm I'm super happy to

895
00:50:46,120 --> 00:50:54,400
Speaker 1: hear that you've listened to a whole motherfucking catalog. Yes, well,

896
00:50:54,440 --> 00:50:57,359
Speaker 1: let me ask you. I have questions. It's okay, it's okay.

897
00:50:57,360 --> 00:51:00,280
Speaker 1: I have questions about your life, Bruno. So you moved here?

898
00:51:00,520 --> 00:51:01,600
Speaker 1: Please do? Please do?

899
00:51:01,800 --> 00:51:04,439
Speaker 4: I waited so long to be in this position. Aly, shit,

900
00:51:05,000 --> 00:51:05,360
Speaker 4: let me know.

901
00:51:05,480 --> 00:51:06,480
Speaker 2: Yeah, So you.

902
00:51:08,200 --> 00:51:14,040
Speaker 1: Moved to Amsterdam alone? You said yes? And does your

903
00:51:14,080 --> 00:51:15,560
Speaker 1: girl and you mentioned you have a girlfriend? Does your

904
00:51:15,560 --> 00:51:17,160
Speaker 1: girlfriend live with you in Amsterdam? Now?

905
00:51:18,719 --> 00:51:19,359
Speaker 4: Yes? Right now?

906
00:51:19,440 --> 00:51:19,760
Speaker 2: Yes?

907
00:51:20,400 --> 00:51:24,720
Speaker 1: Okay? And how long were you living in Amsterdam alone

908
00:51:24,719 --> 00:51:25,359
Speaker 1: before she came?

909
00:51:27,320 --> 00:51:30,120
Speaker 4: I came here in the summer of twenty twenty two,

910
00:51:30,640 --> 00:51:36,840
Speaker 4: and she came around and I think late May, beginning

911
00:51:36,880 --> 00:51:41,560
Speaker 4: of June of twenty twenty three. And what was it

912
00:51:41,600 --> 00:51:43,319
Speaker 4: like for it was not a full year, but it.

913
00:51:43,280 --> 00:51:45,920
Speaker 1: Was almost yet What was it like for you when

914
00:51:45,960 --> 00:51:47,120
Speaker 1: you were just here by yourself?

915
00:51:49,719 --> 00:51:51,800
Speaker 4: It was a little lonely. Dutch people are a little

916
00:51:51,840 --> 00:51:55,960
Speaker 4: cold and straightforward, so it was kind of hard to

917
00:51:55,960 --> 00:52:01,640
Speaker 4: make friends at the beginning, because that's straightforwardness and direct

918
00:52:01,719 --> 00:52:03,560
Speaker 4: directness if that makes any sense.

919
00:52:04,000 --> 00:52:08,920
Speaker 1: Oh, I'm back to the Dutch directness. Yeah, that's like

920
00:52:08,960 --> 00:52:09,600
Speaker 1: their whole thing.

921
00:52:10,840 --> 00:52:12,839
Speaker 4: Yeah, because I got it. I got it wrong because

922
00:52:12,840 --> 00:52:14,799
Speaker 4: I thought they were just being rude randomly to me.

923
00:52:14,880 --> 00:52:17,920
Speaker 4: I was like, dude, I can't I can't deal with this.

924
00:52:19,600 --> 00:52:22,560
Speaker 4: But time passed and I realized that that's just their

925
00:52:22,600 --> 00:52:27,719
Speaker 4: personality trait and it's just how they are. So yeah,

926
00:52:27,840 --> 00:52:29,839
Speaker 4: that's it. That was the I think that was the

927
00:52:29,880 --> 00:52:33,560
Speaker 4: most difficult thing that I had to adapt. And the

928
00:52:33,600 --> 00:52:37,960
Speaker 4: food culture is very bad also, they don't have decent

929
00:52:38,040 --> 00:52:42,319
Speaker 4: gastronomy here. I lost a lot of weights. I used

930
00:52:42,320 --> 00:52:45,200
Speaker 4: to weigh well I don't know the pounds stuff, but

931
00:52:45,360 --> 00:52:47,680
Speaker 4: I used to I used to weigh one hundred and

932
00:52:47,719 --> 00:52:51,600
Speaker 4: five kilos and now I'm down to eighty two. And

933
00:52:51,640 --> 00:52:55,200
Speaker 4: I didn't do any gym or what not. So just

934
00:52:55,239 --> 00:52:58,279
Speaker 4: from the adaptation to the to the food culture in here.

935
00:52:58,360 --> 00:53:02,560
Speaker 1: Yeah, Well what do you think about the feb What

936
00:53:02,680 --> 00:53:05,160
Speaker 1: is it? Pebot febo? Do you know what I'm talking about?

937
00:53:07,160 --> 00:53:09,960
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's my go to. Yeah, if I have to

938
00:53:09,960 --> 00:53:10,960
Speaker 4: eat Dutch food, I go to.

939
00:53:12,600 --> 00:53:14,799
Speaker 1: Yeah that's the For those who don't know, that's the

940
00:53:14,960 --> 00:53:19,879
Speaker 1: like fast food fried shit that they got over there,

941
00:53:19,920 --> 00:53:21,000
Speaker 1: the fried croquettes.

942
00:53:22,280 --> 00:53:24,600
Speaker 4: Yeah, and it's like self service. You pass the cars

943
00:53:24,600 --> 00:53:26,520
Speaker 4: on the machine and the little door opens and you

944
00:53:26,560 --> 00:53:28,880
Speaker 4: just pick up your food. There's no people involved.

945
00:53:30,760 --> 00:53:35,200
Speaker 1: So how is life for you now?

946
00:53:40,400 --> 00:53:43,399
Speaker 4: Lately? It's been weird because I feel like I'm kind

947
00:53:43,400 --> 00:53:46,040
Speaker 4: of stuck in this routine because I work at the hotel,

948
00:53:46,080 --> 00:53:51,080
Speaker 4: as I mentioned, and I live in the same streets

949
00:53:51,080 --> 00:53:55,480
Speaker 4: as the hotel, so sometimes it's I feel like I

950
00:53:55,520 --> 00:53:57,879
Speaker 4: don't leave my streets because the supermarket is also here,

951
00:53:59,680 --> 00:54:03,360
Speaker 4: and a bunch of stuff at home also, So I

952
00:54:03,400 --> 00:54:05,360
Speaker 4: don't know, it's weird. I've been feeling stuck in this

953
00:54:05,440 --> 00:54:07,399
Speaker 4: routine and I've been trying to find something to kind

954
00:54:07,400 --> 00:54:10,360
Speaker 4: of break out of it. I contacted a personal trainer

955
00:54:10,680 --> 00:54:12,799
Speaker 4: to try to make me a workout program so I

956
00:54:12,800 --> 00:54:16,359
Speaker 4: can start working out or something. I started playing far

957
00:54:16,440 --> 00:54:19,000
Speaker 4: Cry five, which I never did, and I'm doing it now,

958
00:54:20,360 --> 00:54:22,319
Speaker 4: So I don't know. I'm just trying to change my

959
00:54:22,400 --> 00:54:24,880
Speaker 4: routine around a little bit because I feel like I

960
00:54:24,920 --> 00:54:30,040
Speaker 4: never leave the street. But overall life is going great. Yeah.

961
00:54:30,080 --> 00:54:31,960
Speaker 4: Me and my girlfriend and are saving up for a house.

962
00:54:33,560 --> 00:54:35,440
Speaker 4: We don't know where yet. Maybe we're going to buy

963
00:54:35,440 --> 00:54:39,080
Speaker 4: in Portugal. I don't know, because here the prices are

964
00:54:39,120 --> 00:54:44,400
Speaker 4: insane also to purchase houses. Yeah, man, just day by

965
00:54:44,480 --> 00:54:45,040
Speaker 4: day going.

966
00:54:46,360 --> 00:54:48,680
Speaker 1: So why did you move to Amsterdam? Why didn't you

967
00:54:48,800 --> 00:54:51,279
Speaker 1: just find a job in Portugal? Is there something better

968
00:54:51,320 --> 00:54:53,880
Speaker 1: about Amsterdam?

969
00:54:54,880 --> 00:54:59,200
Speaker 4: Yes, mainly the wages. The wages are way bigger. The

970
00:54:59,239 --> 00:55:03,000
Speaker 4: minimum wages in Portugal is at I'm not mistaken, is

971
00:55:03,040 --> 00:55:07,360
Speaker 4: eight hundred and fifty something like that, and the minimum

972
00:55:07,400 --> 00:55:11,920
Speaker 4: well at one point eight k. So it's a thousand

973
00:55:12,040 --> 00:55:16,320
Speaker 4: a thousand euros different. So it's it's a big difference.

974
00:55:16,960 --> 00:55:21,120
Speaker 4: I'm twenty eight. I moved here when I was twenty wait,

975
00:55:21,760 --> 00:55:27,680
Speaker 4: twenty five? Yeah, sorry, that was embarrassing. Uh move here

976
00:55:27,680 --> 00:55:31,160
Speaker 4: at twenty five? I mean yeah, just saving up money.

977
00:55:31,200 --> 00:55:33,160
Speaker 4: I'm gonna try to get a house either here or

978
00:55:33,239 --> 00:55:38,480
Speaker 4: in Portugal, and yeah maybe a kid in the meantime,

979
00:55:38,520 --> 00:55:39,680
Speaker 4: who knows.

980
00:55:40,120 --> 00:55:43,719
Speaker 1: That could be cool, That could be cool. What do

981
00:55:43,760 --> 00:55:46,120
Speaker 1: you speak any Dutch? Do you learn any Dutch?

982
00:55:46,640 --> 00:55:49,920
Speaker 4: I've been trying, but it's super complicated, super super complicated.

983
00:55:50,480 --> 00:55:55,920
Speaker 4: I know I'll speak Portuguese, Spanish and English. Like Portuguese

984
00:55:55,920 --> 00:55:58,400
Speaker 4: is my native language, so I speak it perfectly, but

985
00:55:58,800 --> 00:56:03,440
Speaker 4: the other two I speak it almost natively. But Dutch.

986
00:56:03,640 --> 00:56:06,799
Speaker 4: I've been trying to practice, but it's hard. It's very hard.

987
00:56:07,520 --> 00:56:13,399
Speaker 4: I know the how's it called, the conversations at the moment,

988
00:56:13,520 --> 00:56:17,640
Speaker 4: like saying thank you and you're welcome and goodbye and

989
00:56:17,680 --> 00:56:21,000
Speaker 4: those that type of stuff. I know, But these people

990
00:56:21,480 --> 00:56:25,320
Speaker 4: try to get in conversations with me. I'm like, sorry, sorry, No,

991
00:56:27,360 --> 00:56:31,440
Speaker 4: it's very complicated, especially for people that have like Latino

992
00:56:31,560 --> 00:56:37,279
Speaker 4: languages has their base. It's very very different. And yeah,

993
00:56:37,360 --> 00:56:40,839
Speaker 4: I already know three languages, so it's kind of hard

994
00:56:42,880 --> 00:56:46,920
Speaker 4: and classes are very expensive.

995
00:56:47,000 --> 00:56:49,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, what's the deal with your girlfriend? Where is she

996
00:56:49,880 --> 00:56:52,280
Speaker 1: also Portuguese? And what's she doing?

997
00:56:54,480 --> 00:56:58,120
Speaker 4: She is Italian. We met in Lisbon. I was living

998
00:56:58,120 --> 00:57:01,960
Speaker 4: in Luson for a year before the pandemic, before no,

999
00:57:02,200 --> 00:57:07,799
Speaker 4: while the pandemic was happening, and pretty much she was

1000
00:57:07,840 --> 00:57:10,440
Speaker 4: doing at asthmo's program in there, which is like an

1001
00:57:10,480 --> 00:57:17,360
Speaker 4: abroad student program here in Europe. Yeah, we met in there.

1002
00:57:18,160 --> 00:57:20,320
Speaker 4: Then she had to go back to Italy. I had

1003
00:57:20,320 --> 00:57:22,880
Speaker 4: to go back to my hometown and we were split

1004
00:57:22,920 --> 00:57:26,280
Speaker 4: it for like two years. I was constantly going to Italy,

1005
00:57:26,400 --> 00:57:30,320
Speaker 4: she was constantly coming to Portugal, and with the COVID

1006
00:57:30,720 --> 00:57:32,880
Speaker 4: stuff that happened at time, it was super hard. I

1007
00:57:32,880 --> 00:57:35,640
Speaker 4: had to test pretty much every week to be sure

1008
00:57:35,640 --> 00:57:40,400
Speaker 4: that fly, you know. But yeah, she actually got me

1009
00:57:40,440 --> 00:57:44,280
Speaker 4: this job at this hotel because I had a pretty

1010
00:57:44,320 --> 00:57:48,880
Speaker 4: shitty job in a warehouse in here, and she wanted

1011
00:57:48,920 --> 00:57:50,680
Speaker 4: to leave for a five star hotel because this is

1012
00:57:50,680 --> 00:57:54,280
Speaker 4: a three star hotel. So she left and she gave

1013
00:57:54,320 --> 00:57:56,120
Speaker 4: me her job. Yeah, and now I'm chilling.

1014
00:57:57,320 --> 00:57:59,440
Speaker 1: Oh, she left her job and then gave it to you.

1015
00:58:01,120 --> 00:58:01,640
Speaker 4: Pretty much.

1016
00:58:01,720 --> 00:58:03,160
Speaker 1: Yeah, can you just do that?

1017
00:58:05,640 --> 00:58:08,720
Speaker 4: No, But I knew because I came here to visit her,

1018
00:58:08,960 --> 00:58:11,440
Speaker 4: like as you can tell, I've been speaking to you

1019
00:58:11,480 --> 00:58:14,520
Speaker 4: for some minutes now, and nobody came here to ask

1020
00:58:14,560 --> 00:58:15,000
Speaker 4: me anything.

1021
00:58:16,320 --> 00:58:19,320
Speaker 1: That's a very good point. That's a very good point.

1022
00:58:19,360 --> 00:58:22,560
Speaker 1: I am very surprised that nobody I asked you to

1023
00:58:22,600 --> 00:58:24,000
Speaker 1: do your job in the.

1024
00:58:23,960 --> 00:58:29,320
Speaker 4: Past because I also lived close by, as I mentioned before,

1025
00:58:29,760 --> 00:58:31,800
Speaker 4: So every time she was working and I was home,

1026
00:58:31,880 --> 00:58:34,400
Speaker 4: I would just come here to chill with her. And

1027
00:58:34,480 --> 00:58:37,160
Speaker 4: eventually I got to know the manager. So when I

1028
00:58:37,200 --> 00:58:40,960
Speaker 4: got in a sensitive position when it came to my job,

1029
00:58:41,200 --> 00:58:45,920
Speaker 4: I told a guy like, hey, Sanna's leaving could I

1030
00:58:45,920 --> 00:58:50,040
Speaker 4: possibly take over her place? And they gave me, like

1031
00:58:50,280 --> 00:58:53,680
Speaker 4: they give me a mini interview, get like some background

1032
00:58:53,720 --> 00:58:57,760
Speaker 4: checks and stuff, and yeah, now I'm here being a

1033
00:58:57,800 --> 00:59:00,760
Speaker 4: host in a hotel. I never studied like a hospitality

1034
00:59:00,840 --> 00:59:02,240
Speaker 4: or anything. They just said, oh you.

1035
00:59:02,280 --> 00:59:09,240
Speaker 1: Cool, you can come, and I'm here, okay, And I've been.

1036
00:59:09,160 --> 00:59:10,880
Speaker 4: Enjoying the It was very nice. I mean, I meet

1037
00:59:10,920 --> 00:59:12,920
Speaker 4: a lot of people from the US, which I find

1038
00:59:12,960 --> 00:59:18,640
Speaker 4: interesting because a lot of my base, uh knowledge, if

1039
00:59:18,680 --> 00:59:20,920
Speaker 4: you could call it that, Like a lot of stuff

1040
00:59:20,920 --> 00:59:23,960
Speaker 4: that I consume comes from the US. So I know

1041
00:59:24,040 --> 00:59:27,520
Speaker 4: a lot of stuff, a lot of like I don't know.

1042
00:59:27,560 --> 00:59:30,240
Speaker 4: Ask me a question, a general question of American culture,

1043
00:59:30,400 --> 00:59:31,520
Speaker 4: like pop culture or something.

1044
00:59:31,840 --> 00:59:33,960
Speaker 1: Ask you a general question. I don't even know that

1045
00:59:34,040 --> 00:59:38,160
Speaker 1: much about American pop culture, to be honest with you. Uh, well,

1046
00:59:38,640 --> 00:59:42,200
Speaker 1: what do you what a what do you think about Americans?

1047
00:59:42,200 --> 00:59:45,440
Speaker 1: Like what's the perception of Americans over there? Because I

1048
00:59:45,440 --> 00:59:47,280
Speaker 1: have to gander it's not it. I don't know if

1049
00:59:47,280 --> 00:59:50,760
Speaker 1: it's amazing right now? Is it?

1050
00:59:50,760 --> 00:59:57,600
Speaker 4: It depends when Okay, think everything and I'm going to say,

1051
00:59:57,600 --> 01:00:02,200
Speaker 4: with a pinch of salt, Okay, when Americans come with

1052
01:00:02,280 --> 01:00:06,960
Speaker 4: a family to vacation. They're by far the most annoying ones. Definitely.

1053
01:00:07,960 --> 01:00:10,560
Speaker 4: They keep trying to get compensations, like, hey, the air

1054
01:00:10,600 --> 01:00:13,120
Speaker 4: conditioning was two degrees more than I wanted to. I

1055
01:00:13,160 --> 01:00:17,400
Speaker 4: want fifty percent of the total price. Yeah, like a refund.

1056
01:00:17,480 --> 01:00:21,160
Speaker 4: You know, that's very common in American guests, but the

1057
01:00:21,200 --> 01:00:26,840
Speaker 4: majority are very very like when young people, younger people come,

1058
01:00:26,960 --> 01:00:30,080
Speaker 4: they're very I don't like to say open, I don't

1059
01:00:30,200 --> 01:00:32,920
Speaker 4: that's not the right word. But easy, too easy to

1060
01:00:32,960 --> 01:00:35,960
Speaker 4: talk to, like they're always up for a conversation, for

1061
01:00:36,000 --> 01:00:39,600
Speaker 4: a coffee, like they ask recommendations. They do like small talk.

1062
01:00:41,000 --> 01:00:44,320
Speaker 4: But when a family comes around, it's no, it's a

1063
01:00:45,160 --> 01:00:48,520
Speaker 4: bit of a nightemare. So it's fifty fifty to be honest,

1064
01:00:48,600 --> 01:00:52,680
Speaker 4: final answer, fifty fifty. I like Americans when there was

1065
01:00:52,760 --> 01:00:53,600
Speaker 4: a family not.

1066
01:00:53,600 --> 01:00:56,320
Speaker 1: Really okay, so there so we got a lot of

1067
01:00:56,400 --> 01:00:59,720
Speaker 1: care and energy coming in. When you see somebody with

1068
01:00:59,760 --> 01:01:00,720
Speaker 1: a fan family.

1069
01:01:00,560 --> 01:01:03,880
Speaker 4: A little yeah, because it always comes from the mom,

1070
01:01:03,920 --> 01:01:09,880
Speaker 4: you know, m h And yeah that's my that's my

1071
01:01:09,960 --> 01:01:11,479
Speaker 4: review on an American guests.

1072
01:01:11,880 --> 01:01:13,760
Speaker 1: What's your relationship like with your family?

1073
01:01:16,360 --> 01:01:20,760
Speaker 4: Oh, I have an amazing relationship with my family. Yeah,

1074
01:01:20,280 --> 01:01:23,080
Speaker 4: I speak to them like at least two times a

1075
01:01:23,120 --> 01:01:25,520
Speaker 4: day to my When I say my family, I say

1076
01:01:25,560 --> 01:01:29,480
Speaker 4: my parents and my sister. All the other family members

1077
01:01:29,520 --> 01:01:32,080
Speaker 4: are a little out of the picture because of some

1078
01:01:32,160 --> 01:01:37,240
Speaker 4: family problems. But yeah, the relationship with my family is

1079
01:01:37,320 --> 01:01:39,400
Speaker 4: top notch. I don't think a lot of people can

1080
01:01:39,440 --> 01:01:40,000
Speaker 4: say that.

1081
01:01:41,560 --> 01:01:45,439
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's becoming a little bit more rarer of a thing.

1082
01:01:46,720 --> 01:01:49,280
Speaker 1: And do they still live in Portugal or are they

1083
01:01:49,280 --> 01:01:49,880
Speaker 1: somewhere else?

1084
01:01:52,280 --> 01:01:55,120
Speaker 4: Yes, sir, they still live in Portugal. Yeah. My sister

1085
01:01:55,200 --> 01:01:58,160
Speaker 4: is also thinking of getting out of the country more

1086
01:01:58,200 --> 01:02:01,400
Speaker 4: as a as an experience sort of thing. You know,

1087
01:02:01,920 --> 01:02:05,080
Speaker 4: she's twenty three and she's been living with my parents forever,

1088
01:02:05,280 --> 01:02:07,360
Speaker 4: so she wants kind of to get out there and

1089
01:02:09,360 --> 01:02:11,520
Speaker 4: experience some real life stuff, if you know what I mean.

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01:02:11,880 --> 01:02:13,400
Speaker 1: Have you ever been to the States?

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01:02:15,800 --> 01:02:18,560
Speaker 4: No, but I would love to. I'm planning a trip

1092
01:02:18,600 --> 01:02:22,320
Speaker 4: to New York because I met a guest here. His

1093
01:02:22,440 --> 01:02:26,680
Speaker 4: name is His name is Jason. Shout out Jason if

1094
01:02:26,720 --> 01:02:28,040
Speaker 4: he's listening. I don't know if he's a fan of

1095
01:02:28,080 --> 01:02:33,360
Speaker 4: the therapy Gecko, but yeah, yeah, I've been speaking to

1096
01:02:33,440 --> 01:02:40,560
Speaker 4: him a lot, and I'm I think I'm visiting Washington, Yes, so.

1097
01:02:39,560 --> 01:02:43,640
Speaker 1: Wow, Oh, so you met a guest he invited you

1098
01:02:43,720 --> 01:02:45,440
Speaker 1: to like come stay with him and ship.

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01:02:46,920 --> 01:02:48,920
Speaker 4: Yes, because he was living here in the Netherlands some

1100
01:02:49,000 --> 01:02:51,640
Speaker 4: years ago and he came to He came for a trip,

1101
01:02:52,440 --> 01:02:55,240
Speaker 4: just like a nostalgia trip because he's retired already and stuff.

1102
01:02:57,000 --> 01:02:59,040
Speaker 4: But it was super nice and every time he saw

1103
01:02:59,120 --> 01:03:03,200
Speaker 4: me around, he just here in the front desk talking

1104
01:03:03,200 --> 01:03:05,520
Speaker 4: to me. And I really quick clicked to the guy

1105
01:03:05,520 --> 01:03:07,160
Speaker 4: because he really reminded me of my dad when he

1106
01:03:07,240 --> 01:03:12,080
Speaker 4: was more young, and we were just talking. Every day

1107
01:03:12,120 --> 01:03:13,680
Speaker 4: he would pass, he will say hi to me, he

1108
01:03:13,720 --> 01:03:16,240
Speaker 4: will stay here, and I will just spend almost the

1109
01:03:16,280 --> 01:03:19,720
Speaker 4: whole shift with a guy just talking to him. And

1110
01:03:19,760 --> 01:03:23,120
Speaker 4: I also told him this, like everything that I'm a

1111
01:03:23,160 --> 01:03:26,240
Speaker 4: fan of, pretty much the ninety percent of the times

1112
01:03:26,240 --> 01:03:29,920
Speaker 4: comes from the US, and I'm really amazed by everything

1113
01:03:30,040 --> 01:03:32,560
Speaker 4: by like I don't know, the little things like the

1114
01:03:33,320 --> 01:03:38,400
Speaker 4: yellow taxis, the fucking school buses, like just aesthetic in general,

1115
01:03:38,480 --> 01:03:40,200
Speaker 4: you know. And I kept telling him that, and he

1116
01:03:40,280 --> 01:03:41,800
Speaker 4: was like, you have to come to my house. You

1117
01:03:41,840 --> 01:03:43,960
Speaker 4: have to come to my house, bring your girlfriend and

1118
01:03:44,000 --> 01:03:47,280
Speaker 4: your parents if you want to. And I'm like that

1119
01:03:47,800 --> 01:03:49,480
Speaker 4: I never went to the US, so I guess first

1120
01:03:49,480 --> 01:03:50,640
Speaker 4: stop is going to be Washington.

1121
01:03:50,720 --> 01:03:52,720
Speaker 1: Yeah, super cool DC.

1122
01:03:53,880 --> 01:03:57,440
Speaker 4: And it's different, right, Washington State and Washington DC.

1123
01:03:57,720 --> 01:04:01,080
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, yeah, Washington DC is over on the East coast.

1124
01:04:01,120 --> 01:04:02,640
Speaker 1: Washington State is on the west coast.

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01:04:05,840 --> 01:04:08,320
Speaker 4: Oh it's DC then yeah, yeah I can't. I can't. Yeah,

1126
01:04:08,360 --> 01:04:09,960
Speaker 4: I have to keep an eye out to that yet.

1127
01:04:10,560 --> 01:04:12,040
Speaker 1: But yeah, I mean you could cover a lot of

1128
01:04:12,040 --> 01:04:14,720
Speaker 1: good ground. You got Washington, d C. There's New York City,

1129
01:04:14,760 --> 01:04:17,320
Speaker 1: there's Philadelphia. You can have a nice trip in just

1130
01:04:17,320 --> 01:04:18,240
Speaker 1: those three cities.

1131
01:04:20,000 --> 01:04:21,760
Speaker 4: Yes, yes, that's kind of what I wanted to do,

1132
01:04:21,840 --> 01:04:24,760
Speaker 4: to kind of do like the East Coast from top

1133
01:04:24,840 --> 01:04:27,760
Speaker 4: to bottom, not really from top to bottom, but that

1134
01:04:27,800 --> 01:04:31,080
Speaker 4: as many places as I can. Yeah, I'm thinking when

1135
01:04:31,120 --> 01:04:36,800
Speaker 4: next summer. Fun fact, I never left Europe. Really, I

1136
01:04:36,840 --> 01:04:37,960
Speaker 4: don't even have a passports?

1137
01:04:38,160 --> 01:04:40,800
Speaker 1: Yeah really wait but do you need? Uh?

1138
01:04:41,360 --> 01:04:41,480
Speaker 2: WHI?

1139
01:04:41,560 --> 01:04:43,680
Speaker 1: So what kind of you don't have, like a Portuguese passport?

1140
01:04:43,840 --> 01:04:44,520
Speaker 1: You have an EU?

1141
01:04:45,000 --> 01:04:45,080
Speaker 2: Like?

1142
01:04:45,120 --> 01:04:47,640
Speaker 1: How do you? How do you like you don't need

1143
01:04:47,640 --> 01:04:52,920
Speaker 1: a passport to travel between the European countries, do you?

1144
01:04:52,960 --> 01:04:56,120
Speaker 4: No, we don't. We just need to have our ID

1145
01:04:56,320 --> 01:04:57,000
Speaker 4: from our country.

1146
01:04:57,080 --> 01:04:57,480
Speaker 2: Yeah.

1147
01:04:57,760 --> 01:05:01,160
Speaker 4: We call it citizen cards because it's like all in one.

1148
01:05:01,360 --> 01:05:05,080
Speaker 4: It's your ide, it's your social security stuff. In some cases,

1149
01:05:05,080 --> 01:05:09,680
Speaker 4: there's also the driver's license in there mmmmm and a

1150
01:05:09,760 --> 01:05:11,120
Speaker 4: UNI document. Pretty much.

1151
01:05:11,680 --> 01:05:14,040
Speaker 1: Where where would you want to go if you could

1152
01:05:14,080 --> 01:05:16,080
Speaker 1: go anywhere? Is it the US or is there somewhere

1153
01:05:16,120 --> 01:05:17,360
Speaker 1: somewhere higher on your list?

1154
01:05:19,520 --> 01:05:22,280
Speaker 4: There's definitely stuff higher on my list. So I would

1155
01:05:22,360 --> 01:05:27,960
Speaker 4: love to go to Brazil, though. Brazil is kind of

1156
01:05:28,000 --> 01:05:32,280
Speaker 4: like my I mean destination, Yeah, to go visit, like

1157
01:05:32,360 --> 01:05:35,360
Speaker 4: the but like not the hill the gene do not

1158
01:05:37,320 --> 01:05:40,080
Speaker 4: like Bayia, not the main cities. I want to go

1159
01:05:40,160 --> 01:05:42,440
Speaker 4: to the heart of Brazil, to the jungle.

1160
01:05:42,600 --> 01:05:42,800
Speaker 2: You know.

1161
01:05:43,800 --> 01:05:47,160
Speaker 1: Interesting, Yeah, you want to go to the jungle.

1162
01:05:50,160 --> 01:05:53,320
Speaker 4: That's well again take that with a pinch of salt.

1163
01:05:53,480 --> 01:05:55,360
Speaker 4: Not really the jungle, but I would like to explore

1164
01:05:55,480 --> 01:05:58,560
Speaker 4: like the nature in there. You know, it's very different

1165
01:05:58,600 --> 01:06:01,320
Speaker 4: from what we have in Portugal and in the Netherlands.

1166
01:06:02,040 --> 01:06:04,080
Speaker 4: And I'm a nature guy. I like to be in

1167
01:06:04,080 --> 01:06:11,600
Speaker 4: the middle of the tree. So yeah, not.

1168
01:06:11,560 --> 01:06:13,320
Speaker 1: A lot of not a lot of good hike. Not

1169
01:06:13,400 --> 01:06:17,680
Speaker 1: a lot of good hiking in DC and New York City.

1170
01:06:19,880 --> 01:06:21,360
Speaker 4: I don't No, it's just for the fact that I

1171
01:06:21,400 --> 01:06:24,840
Speaker 4: never went. I want to see the stuff that I see,

1172
01:06:25,120 --> 01:06:27,400
Speaker 4: you know, through my phone, through my screens on in

1173
01:06:27,440 --> 01:06:27,880
Speaker 4: front of me.

1174
01:06:28,280 --> 01:06:30,840
Speaker 1: Kind of what's the number one thing that you have

1175
01:06:30,960 --> 01:06:33,280
Speaker 1: seen on your phone that you would want to see

1176
01:06:33,280 --> 01:06:33,800
Speaker 1: in person.

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01:06:36,960 --> 01:06:42,720
Speaker 4: That's a rough question. Uh oh, that's tough. I don't know.

1178
01:06:44,520 --> 01:06:47,760
Speaker 4: I don't know. Damn, you just put me on the spot.

1179
01:06:47,800 --> 01:06:48,200
Speaker 2: I don't know.

1180
01:06:49,280 --> 01:06:51,200
Speaker 1: That's okay, I don't know.

1181
01:06:51,280 --> 01:06:52,760
Speaker 4: I guess just arriving and take it in.

1182
01:06:53,000 --> 01:06:53,840
Speaker 2: I guess. I don't know.

1183
01:06:54,640 --> 01:06:56,360
Speaker 1: I feel like a lot of for I mean, for me,

1184
01:06:56,440 --> 01:07:00,680
Speaker 1: A lot of China's stuff comes up on my Instagram,

1185
01:07:00,800 --> 01:07:04,320
Speaker 1: a lot, like a lot of like weird, crazy architecture

1186
01:07:05,040 --> 01:07:08,640
Speaker 1: comes up where it's like here's a whole fuck yeah,

1187
01:07:08,680 --> 01:07:11,480
Speaker 1: like stuff where it's like here's a whole like like

1188
01:07:11,640 --> 01:07:15,280
Speaker 1: a garden and a whole like big giant park that's

1189
01:07:15,320 --> 01:07:18,720
Speaker 1: like on the roof of this crazy building. And usually

1190
01:07:18,760 --> 01:07:19,360
Speaker 1: that stuff is.

1191
01:07:19,320 --> 01:07:20,840
Speaker 4: Either in oh what you mean?

1192
01:07:20,920 --> 01:07:22,920
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, Usually a lot of stuff when I'm like, well,

1193
01:07:22,920 --> 01:07:25,880
Speaker 1: where the fuck is this crazy thing? It's in China.

1194
01:07:26,720 --> 01:07:28,320
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's like layers. Do you think you're on the

1195
01:07:28,360 --> 01:07:29,760
Speaker 4: ground floor and then you go to the edge of

1196
01:07:29,800 --> 01:07:32,280
Speaker 4: the building and you're actually in like the thirty fifth

1197
01:07:32,400 --> 01:07:33,200
Speaker 4: floor or something.

1198
01:07:33,600 --> 01:07:34,520
Speaker 1: Mm hmmm hm.

1199
01:07:36,080 --> 01:07:37,640
Speaker 4: Do I've seen some beats about that.

1200
01:07:37,800 --> 01:07:39,560
Speaker 2: Yeah. Uh.

1201
01:07:39,640 --> 01:07:42,040
Speaker 1: Do you get a lot of time off in uh

1202
01:07:42,160 --> 01:07:45,520
Speaker 1: in Amsterdam at this hotel or are you working a lot?

1203
01:07:46,840 --> 01:07:49,800
Speaker 4: I have the average. I have two days two days

1204
01:07:49,800 --> 01:07:54,040
Speaker 4: off a week. Sometimes they are not together, which sucks

1205
01:07:54,560 --> 01:07:59,360
Speaker 4: because it doesn't doesn't really seem like a weekend. That's fine.

1206
01:07:59,400 --> 01:08:01,560
Speaker 4: As long as I have my two three days during

1207
01:08:01,560 --> 01:08:03,080
Speaker 4: the week, that's that's okay.

1208
01:08:03,840 --> 01:08:04,439
Speaker 1: What are you doing?

1209
01:08:04,520 --> 01:08:08,000
Speaker 4: And again, I've been speaking to you for twenty two minutes, right,

1210
01:08:08,120 --> 01:08:10,840
Speaker 4: and I just gave a person a package and that's

1211
01:08:11,240 --> 01:08:11,640
Speaker 4: that's all.

1212
01:08:11,720 --> 01:08:14,960
Speaker 1: Yeah, So what are you normally like? Okay, so on

1213
01:08:15,040 --> 01:08:18,080
Speaker 1: your days off and when you're just kind of fucking

1214
01:08:18,080 --> 01:08:20,439
Speaker 1: around and nobody's bothering you, what do you normally do?

1215
01:08:23,400 --> 01:08:25,760
Speaker 4: What can you? Can you repeat the question please, it's

1216
01:08:25,760 --> 01:08:27,000
Speaker 4: to kind of cut off a little bit.

1217
01:08:27,160 --> 01:08:29,240
Speaker 1: Oh, on your days off? What do you do?

1218
01:08:33,320 --> 01:08:35,000
Speaker 4: A bunch of stuff? Like I told you that, I'm

1219
01:08:35,000 --> 01:08:38,639
Speaker 4: trying to change my ways a little bit. I started

1220
01:08:38,760 --> 01:08:41,599
Speaker 4: working out, even though I'm waiting for my personal trainers

1221
01:08:41,600 --> 01:08:46,360
Speaker 4: to send me the correct training plan, but I started

1222
01:08:46,360 --> 01:08:51,920
Speaker 4: doing some workout stuff. There's some outdoor, like those outdoor

1223
01:08:52,080 --> 01:08:55,080
Speaker 4: exercise places that are in random park sometimes, you know.

1224
01:08:56,720 --> 01:08:59,160
Speaker 4: I started working out in those because gyms are a

1225
01:08:59,200 --> 01:09:04,680
Speaker 4: bit expensive in here. I started playing Xbox. I bought

1226
01:09:04,720 --> 01:09:07,920
Speaker 4: an Xbox for like one hundred eros, like a series

1227
01:09:08,120 --> 01:09:12,840
Speaker 4: X I believe, Yeah, like the last generation Xbox with

1228
01:09:12,880 --> 01:09:16,280
Speaker 4: the slim version with mega cheap. So I just bought it.

1229
01:09:16,840 --> 01:09:19,000
Speaker 1: And yeah, what you've been playing on the Xbox.

1230
01:09:21,680 --> 01:09:23,960
Speaker 4: I've been playing Fair Cry five because it was on

1231
01:09:24,080 --> 01:09:26,880
Speaker 4: discounts and I already played the six and it was amazing.

1232
01:09:26,920 --> 01:09:29,400
Speaker 4: I really liked it. I never played the five, so

1233
01:09:29,479 --> 01:09:31,639
Speaker 4: I just downloaded it. It was on the Game Pass

1234
01:09:31,680 --> 01:09:34,439
Speaker 4: for free, so I just did it and I've been

1235
01:09:34,479 --> 01:09:38,439
Speaker 4: playing it yet. I also do some I've been I

1236
01:09:38,479 --> 01:09:40,640
Speaker 4: haven't been doing a lot of that now, but I

1237
01:09:40,680 --> 01:09:44,920
Speaker 4: do a lot of photography and video editing. My computer

1238
01:09:45,040 --> 01:09:48,800
Speaker 4: is messed up and I need to save up either

1239
01:09:48,880 --> 01:09:50,599
Speaker 4: to fix it or to buy a new one.

1240
01:09:52,960 --> 01:09:56,120
Speaker 1: Well, I'm glad to hear that your job is very

1241
01:09:56,640 --> 01:09:58,559
Speaker 1: I mean, it sounds easy. It sounds if I think

1242
01:09:58,600 --> 01:10:00,599
Speaker 1: if you were able to talk to me twenty four

1243
01:10:00,640 --> 01:10:03,080
Speaker 1: minutes and nobody's bothered you, your job sounds like it's

1244
01:10:03,880 --> 01:10:05,439
Speaker 1: pretty chill, So I'm happy to hear that.

1245
01:10:08,160 --> 01:10:10,120
Speaker 4: Yes, I'm also glad that I found this. The other

1246
01:10:10,200 --> 01:10:12,240
Speaker 4: job that I had was hectic. It was like in

1247
01:10:12,280 --> 01:10:15,800
Speaker 4: the warehouse, it was cold, it was like I was

1248
01:10:15,920 --> 01:10:19,360
Speaker 4: twelve hours of a day. Sometimes it was a little

1249
01:10:19,360 --> 01:10:22,120
Speaker 4: messed up. This one is way way chiller.

1250
01:10:22,240 --> 01:10:23,200
Speaker 2: Yeah.

1251
01:10:23,280 --> 01:10:25,040
Speaker 4: I just need to get my computer fixed so I

1252
01:10:25,080 --> 01:10:28,759
Speaker 4: can work on some stuff while i'm here, because otherwise

1253
01:10:28,800 --> 01:10:32,560
Speaker 4: I get very very bored sometimes.

1254
01:10:33,000 --> 01:10:34,439
Speaker 1: What kind of videos are you editing?

1255
01:10:37,320 --> 01:10:37,439
Speaker 2: Just?

1256
01:10:38,360 --> 01:10:41,280
Speaker 4: Nothing is in specific. For example, I have a video

1257
01:10:41,320 --> 01:10:44,599
Speaker 4: that I liked that somebody did and I downloaded it

1258
01:10:44,800 --> 01:10:48,160
Speaker 4: and I tried to train my editing skills on that

1259
01:10:48,280 --> 01:10:50,400
Speaker 4: video and do something that I like with it. You know,

1260
01:10:51,040 --> 01:10:53,040
Speaker 4: it's nothing. It's just for fun, honestly.

1261
01:10:55,840 --> 01:10:59,559
Speaker 1: Well, well listen, Bruno, what it's like the You ever

1262
01:10:59,560 --> 01:11:00,639
Speaker 1: seen the movie Bruno?

1263
01:11:03,320 --> 01:11:03,920
Speaker 2: Yes? I did.

1264
01:11:05,120 --> 01:11:08,160
Speaker 4: When I was in in like the fifth grade. I

1265
01:11:08,280 --> 01:11:11,400
Speaker 4: was when that movie came out. I was pointed at

1266
01:11:11,439 --> 01:11:14,680
Speaker 4: a lot, you know.

1267
01:11:14,120 --> 01:11:14,599
Speaker 2: What I mean.

1268
01:11:15,080 --> 01:11:20,880
Speaker 1: Yeah, movie probably ruined your life. Well, Bruno, it's been nice.

1269
01:11:21,920 --> 01:11:24,559
Speaker 1: It's been nice talking to you. Man. Is is there

1270
01:11:24,600 --> 01:11:27,000
Speaker 1: anything else that? Is there anything else that you want

1271
01:11:27,040 --> 01:11:29,559
Speaker 1: out of this conversation? That I can provide for you

1272
01:11:29,600 --> 01:11:30,240
Speaker 1: before we go.

1273
01:11:33,600 --> 01:11:36,840
Speaker 4: No, what what you could provide that I wanted you

1274
01:11:36,840 --> 01:11:39,439
Speaker 4: already did. I just wanted to give you a huge

1275
01:11:39,439 --> 01:11:41,120
Speaker 4: shout out for the company you kept me in that

1276
01:11:41,200 --> 01:11:44,680
Speaker 4: first year. Thank you here in the Netherlands. And uh,

1277
01:11:45,200 --> 01:11:48,240
Speaker 4: You're an amazing person. I hear you constantly through my

1278
01:11:48,280 --> 01:11:51,800
Speaker 4: headphones and I've been looking forward for this moment for

1279
01:11:51,840 --> 01:11:54,599
Speaker 4: a long ass time. So I'm glad I finally got

1280
01:11:54,600 --> 01:11:56,600
Speaker 4: to talk to you. And if you ever come to

1281
01:11:56,600 --> 01:11:59,280
Speaker 4: answer them again, I will definitely go to your show.

1282
01:11:59,360 --> 01:12:01,479
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, man, that's good to know. If I ever

1283
01:12:01,520 --> 01:12:02,280
Speaker 1: do come back.

1284
01:12:04,240 --> 01:12:06,320
Speaker 4: Yes, yes, because last time you were here, I wasn't

1285
01:12:06,320 --> 01:12:08,200
Speaker 4: able to buy the tickets. I was again, I was

1286
01:12:08,200 --> 01:12:11,640
Speaker 4: working that shitty job. I had no time, so I

1287
01:12:11,640 --> 01:12:15,639
Speaker 4: couldn't go. Yeah, but if you come again, front Row,

1288
01:12:15,760 --> 01:12:16,880
Speaker 4: I'm there, trust.

1289
01:12:16,600 --> 01:12:19,400
Speaker 1: Beautiful, beautiful. Okay, Well, hopefully I'll see you that.

1290
01:12:21,680 --> 01:12:24,240
Speaker 4: Yes, Yes, I hope, I hope. I hope too.

1291
01:12:24,320 --> 01:12:29,240
Speaker 1: So sorry, I'll cut you around the universe, Bruno. Good luck,

1292
01:12:29,640 --> 01:12:32,840
Speaker 1: good luck with the rest. I hope nobody continues to

1293
01:12:32,840 --> 01:12:34,839
Speaker 1: come into the hotel so you don't have to do anything.

1294
01:12:36,400 --> 01:12:38,439
Speaker 4: Well until now, there's just some people having dinner and

1295
01:12:38,479 --> 01:12:43,360
Speaker 4: that's it. Yeah, thank Bruno, take care but bye, but

1296
01:12:43,479 --> 01:12:44,519
Speaker 4: buye people of the computer.

1297
01:12:46,960 --> 01:12:50,439
Speaker 1: That was Bruno. What a nice guy. What a nice

1298
01:12:50,520 --> 01:12:58,439
Speaker 1: guy hanging out in Amsterdam at a hotel. The Europeans, man,

1299
01:12:58,439 --> 01:13:01,080
Speaker 1: they got, they got a much better work culture than us.

1300
01:13:01,160 --> 01:13:06,560
Speaker 1: I got the Japanese and the Americans have shit work cultures,

1301
01:13:06,760 --> 01:13:09,639
Speaker 1: and then you got you got Europeans who just though

1302
01:13:09,720 --> 01:13:14,880
Speaker 1: don't have to do anything, it's pretty cool, goes on the.

1303
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Speaker 4: Line taking your phone calls every night, never goes do

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Speaker 4: what his ride.

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Speaker 1: He's teaching you cloud in

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Speaker 4: Them of your life, but he's not really an expert.