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Speaker 1: Scrubbing In with Becca Tilly and Tanya Red and I

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Speaker 1: heart radio podcast. Hello everybody, We're scrubbing in and this

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Speaker 1: is a bonus episode because this is a bonus episode week,

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Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Yeah, that's why we're here

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Speaker 1: on a Thursday. Check check. It is Thursday, and we're

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Speaker 1: excited because we have Colton Underwood on the show Scrubbing In.

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Speaker 1: And we love Colton Underwood. I feel like, you know,

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Speaker 1: I was trying to think back on when my obsession

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Speaker 1: with him began, and I feel like I picked him.

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Speaker 1: He was on Becca Kufer, Yeah, and I feel like

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Speaker 1: I picked him in my final four. So I've always

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Speaker 1: just had a really strong connection with him. And every

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Speaker 1: time we've had him, we've had him on the morning

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Speaker 1: show a ton and we've had him on the podcast,

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Speaker 1: and I just feel like he's he's a good egg.

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Speaker 1: He is a good egg and he's you know, gone

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Speaker 1: through so much and this is gonna He's been on

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Speaker 1: the podcast before, but this is like a new experience

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Speaker 1: having him on the podcast because a lot has happened

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Speaker 1: since we last talked to him. So I'm excited to

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Speaker 1: chat with him and we're going to get right into

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Speaker 1: that interview right now. Alright, you guys, So we have

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Speaker 1: someone who has scrubbed in before, but today it is

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Speaker 1: a very new experience for this person having them on

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Speaker 1: the podcast. It feels like the first time. Please welcome

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Speaker 1: Colton Underwood. Yea, almost like, well, let's just say that you. Um,

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Speaker 1: we had you as a caterpillar and now you're a butterfly. Wow,

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Speaker 1: it only took a few years, but I had my

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Speaker 1: wings now. Oh, I love that you look so happy

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Speaker 1: and it's like, really good you do? I am. I

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Speaker 1: feel great. I'm like the healthiest, happiest I've ever been. Um,

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Speaker 1: and it's like a new lightness for me. But yeah,

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Speaker 1: I'm in a very very good place now. I'm so

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Speaker 1: happy for you. I mean, I feel that was first

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Speaker 1: of all, the most Tanya intro ever because she loves

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Speaker 1: a butterfly. So that really really like you. I feel

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Speaker 1: as though you had a transformation and you just blossomed

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Speaker 1: in this beautiful butterfly. Even though I do feel as

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Speaker 1: though you're always you've always been really happy and I've

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Speaker 1: always really liked you, um, but I feel like you're

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Speaker 1: just you're stepping into your own your truth, your light

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Speaker 1: and it just feels very symbolic. Well, thank you for

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Speaker 1: saying that. Yeah, my my cocoon took some hits along

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Speaker 1: the way. It's a lot of ups and downs and

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Speaker 1: rolling around and then I found myself. So yes, um, yeah,

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Speaker 1: it's it's been a lot, But thank you for saying that.

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Speaker 1: I first, like, I just want to say, I'm so

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Speaker 1: you've done because I you know, I think being able

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Speaker 1: to do what you've done and put yourself out there,

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Speaker 1: especially with the fan base that you grew from the Bachelor,

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Speaker 1: was a huge step. And I think I don't I

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Speaker 1: don't know if people a lot of people don't really

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Speaker 1: understand like that process. And I can't even imagine your

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Speaker 1: process of being the lead and being the Bachelor having

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Speaker 1: really understand the like gravity of that situation and what

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Speaker 1: you did. But I just want to start with saying that,

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Speaker 1: and um, I'm so excited to have you on and

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Speaker 1: talk to you about what's been going on because you've

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Speaker 1: had a lot happening. But I just wanted to start

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Speaker 1: with that and say I'm I'm really just excited for

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Speaker 1: you that you are fully you just seem happy, thank you. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I mean my coming out experience was very so. I

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Speaker 1: to be because of what I my life was supposed

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Speaker 1: these things that sort of told me who I was

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Speaker 1: all time zones. So just I think once in a

429
00:22:30,520 --> 00:22:34,640
Speaker 1: CBS is perfect. Ones in night CBS, that's perfect. Yeah,

430
00:22:34,720 --> 00:22:38,160
Speaker 1: you have a you have a really uh like diverse

431
00:22:38,280 --> 00:22:41,840
Speaker 1: resume of the things that you've done in your career,

432
00:22:41,920 --> 00:22:44,320
Speaker 1: so I know what's not like what's your pine, Like,

433
00:22:44,400 --> 00:22:46,359
Speaker 1: what's your next thing? Like, what's your kind of pine?

434
00:22:46,400 --> 00:22:50,240
Speaker 1: The sky vision of what you want long term? Well,

435
00:22:50,359 --> 00:22:54,160
Speaker 1: currently I'm working on a children's animation series, so that's

436
00:22:54,200 --> 00:22:56,240
Speaker 1: been fun. I'm all over the place, But like, I

437
00:22:56,280 --> 00:23:00,000
Speaker 1: think that's I mean, I just turned thirty. I feel

438
00:23:00,040 --> 00:23:02,280
Speaker 1: like this is my time to really explore and see

439
00:23:02,320 --> 00:23:04,000
Speaker 1: what I'm really into. I mean, I've done the in

440
00:23:04,000 --> 00:23:06,639
Speaker 1: front of the camera and I liked it, but there

441
00:23:06,680 --> 00:23:08,760
Speaker 1: was a balance of protecting my own privacy and my

442
00:23:08,760 --> 00:23:10,720
Speaker 1: own mental health. Now that like I'm really putting a

443
00:23:10,800 --> 00:23:13,960
Speaker 1: value on, So I'm not gonna say I'm never gonna

444
00:23:13,960 --> 00:23:16,400
Speaker 1: do reality TV show again, but I'm gonna always make

445
00:23:16,400 --> 00:23:18,280
Speaker 1: sure that I'm prepared and ready for it the next

446
00:23:18,280 --> 00:23:20,560
Speaker 1: time I got back into it. Um. But I'm working

447
00:23:20,600 --> 00:23:24,040
Speaker 1: on a kid's animation show called Pocket Friends that has

448
00:23:24,119 --> 00:23:28,560
Speaker 1: five characters that all resemble a topic that is relevant.

449
00:23:28,600 --> 00:23:32,160
Speaker 1: So we have uh sexual identity with Calvin the chameleon,

450
00:23:32,320 --> 00:23:35,399
Speaker 1: Betty deals with body positivity. Sonja is a duck from

451
00:23:35,440 --> 00:23:38,240
Speaker 1: two different species and she deals with people of color

452
00:23:38,480 --> 00:23:42,479
Speaker 1: and biracial people. Squirt has learning disabilities and he's a turtle.

453
00:23:42,840 --> 00:23:44,600
Speaker 1: And then Ripped the Badger as a bully, and we're

454
00:23:44,600 --> 00:23:46,639
Speaker 1: telling the story through the bullies point of view. Have

455
00:23:46,680 --> 00:23:51,600
Speaker 1: you already done it? We've were about to announce where

456
00:23:51,600 --> 00:23:53,520
Speaker 1: we're who we're partnering with, and who we're working with

457
00:23:53,600 --> 00:23:55,520
Speaker 1: on it, so it hasn't come out yet. And then

458
00:23:55,560 --> 00:23:58,600
Speaker 1: all the characters. It's interesting because this new Web three

459
00:23:58,640 --> 00:24:01,359
Speaker 1: and I hate even saying that as a weird connotation

460
00:24:01,400 --> 00:24:03,840
Speaker 1: with it. No, I'm with you, I'm so with you.

461
00:24:03,920 --> 00:24:07,359
Speaker 1: I am learning, I am learning. So I guess just

462
00:24:07,440 --> 00:24:09,439
Speaker 1: to break it down, like I was the face of

463
00:24:09,480 --> 00:24:12,240
Speaker 1: a couple of different shows now and you know, they

464
00:24:12,359 --> 00:24:14,520
Speaker 1: go on to own my rights and my perpetuity and

465
00:24:14,720 --> 00:24:16,960
Speaker 1: secondary sales and all of this, and I don't see

466
00:24:16,960 --> 00:24:19,760
Speaker 1: any of that. So now this gives me an opportunity

467
00:24:19,760 --> 00:24:21,840
Speaker 1: to create something to own the I P. And then

468
00:24:21,840 --> 00:24:24,160
Speaker 1: also the community that's involved with me gets to sit

469
00:24:24,240 --> 00:24:27,600
Speaker 1: in on the production meetings, the character development calls, and

470
00:24:27,640 --> 00:24:30,080
Speaker 1: actually be involved with the process. So we have an

471
00:24:30,119 --> 00:24:33,320
Speaker 1: interesting point in our in our society right now with

472
00:24:33,400 --> 00:24:36,040
Speaker 1: entertainment specifically and the web three that we can really

473
00:24:36,359 --> 00:24:39,239
Speaker 1: help come together and tell authentic stories. So it's not

474
00:24:39,280 --> 00:24:42,600
Speaker 1: the same people in Hollywood telling the same story. Everything

475
00:24:43,240 --> 00:24:47,560
Speaker 1: funda movie. But yeah, that's I mean, yeah, you're you're

476
00:24:47,600 --> 00:24:50,520
Speaker 1: really doing it all. And I love that you're like,

477
00:24:51,640 --> 00:24:54,520
Speaker 1: I'm I'm just whenever I have an idea of doing it,

478
00:24:54,600 --> 00:24:57,679
Speaker 1: like you're just going if your body positivity girl, if

479
00:24:57,680 --> 00:25:01,040
Speaker 1: you need a girl for it, holler. I've always wanted

480
00:25:01,040 --> 00:25:05,480
Speaker 1: to be an animated character, so that thank you so much.

481
00:25:05,560 --> 00:25:08,399
Speaker 1: Thank you. I've always wanted to be like an animated character,

482
00:25:08,520 --> 00:25:10,000
Speaker 1: but but I don't want to just do it. I

483
00:25:10,040 --> 00:25:12,880
Speaker 1: wanted to be something that really represents, like what I

484
00:25:12,920 --> 00:25:16,800
Speaker 1: stand for. I love That's one of my prerecordsits for

485
00:25:16,840 --> 00:25:19,399
Speaker 1: all of the voices, so I will definitely put your

486
00:25:19,480 --> 00:25:21,879
Speaker 1: name in there to the people who are casting the character.

487
00:25:22,720 --> 00:25:25,760
Speaker 1: I'm I'm going to be voicing Calvin. So I love

488
00:25:25,800 --> 00:25:28,040
Speaker 1: that as you should build out a little or we

489
00:25:28,080 --> 00:25:30,439
Speaker 1: can build out our world. Yeah. Wait, I have a

490
00:25:30,520 --> 00:25:33,080
Speaker 1: question for you, just because I don't um, I know

491
00:25:33,160 --> 00:25:35,040
Speaker 1: that you used to play professional football, and I don't

492
00:25:35,080 --> 00:25:36,960
Speaker 1: know anybody in football, so I just want your take

493
00:25:37,000 --> 00:25:38,800
Speaker 1: on it, because the Tom Brady of it all just

494
00:25:38,840 --> 00:25:42,840
Speaker 1: really confuses me. So he says he retired, and that

495
00:25:42,880 --> 00:25:45,320
Speaker 1: means like, you're retired, like you're not coming back to football,

496
00:25:45,520 --> 00:25:49,119
Speaker 1: And then he just said he's coming back being in

497
00:25:49,160 --> 00:25:52,160
Speaker 1: the professional football world, what would make him like, why

498
00:25:52,200 --> 00:25:57,840
Speaker 1: would he do that? I mean shocked when he announced

499
00:25:57,920 --> 00:26:00,119
Speaker 1: his retirement. Yeah, to your point, the gas price has

500
00:26:00,160 --> 00:26:02,600
Speaker 1: got a little high and he has to go back

501
00:26:02,640 --> 00:26:05,720
Speaker 1: to work. Um, I was shocked that he retired in

502
00:26:05,720 --> 00:26:08,159
Speaker 1: the first place, just because he didn't even get to

503
00:26:08,160 --> 00:26:10,120
Speaker 1: announce it himself and got leaked. It got out there.

504
00:26:10,160 --> 00:26:13,080
Speaker 1: So I just, you know, knowing how not knowing Tom

505
00:26:13,119 --> 00:26:15,320
Speaker 1: at all, but like I have a very good understanding

506
00:26:15,320 --> 00:26:17,960
Speaker 1: of probably how his brain works. I thought that competitiveness

507
00:26:17,960 --> 00:26:20,760
Speaker 1: in him, and I'm sure he's been retired for two

508
00:26:20,760 --> 00:26:24,440
Speaker 1: months and he's seeing everybody out else out there compete

509
00:26:24,480 --> 00:26:26,960
Speaker 1: and get ready, and that that competition aspect of his

510
00:26:27,000 --> 00:26:29,160
Speaker 1: life kicked in, so he probably wanted to return. So

511
00:26:29,960 --> 00:26:32,159
Speaker 1: I don't know. I mean, it's hard for people like

512
00:26:32,200 --> 00:26:34,520
Speaker 1: that to sit on the sidelines and watch, especially when

513
00:26:34,520 --> 00:26:36,720
Speaker 1: you've been as successful as you have been with him.

514
00:26:36,760 --> 00:26:39,600
Speaker 1: So nothing at this point would shock me. And anything

515
00:26:39,640 --> 00:26:44,600
Speaker 1: that he wants to do in his life make feelings

516
00:26:44,640 --> 00:26:48,320
Speaker 1: about this, huh me? She does not care. No, I

517
00:26:48,320 --> 00:26:50,880
Speaker 1: don't care. But my boyfriend's really into football, and so

518
00:26:51,040 --> 00:26:53,280
Speaker 1: I like to hear other people say stuff and then

519
00:26:53,280 --> 00:26:55,159
Speaker 1: bring it to him, like I know what I'm talking about.

520
00:26:55,200 --> 00:27:02,760
Speaker 1: You know what I mean? Some inside But oh gosh, um,

521
00:27:02,880 --> 00:27:08,720
Speaker 1: what's his position again? He's quarterback? Quarterback? Yeah, And I mean,

522
00:27:08,760 --> 00:27:11,760
Speaker 1: you can retire, but whoever was your last contract still

523
00:27:11,760 --> 00:27:14,800
Speaker 1: holds your So he's going to be returning to Tampa Bay.

524
00:27:14,840 --> 00:27:16,399
Speaker 1: So it's not like you can retire and then just

525
00:27:16,400 --> 00:27:18,960
Speaker 1: switch teams when you unretired, So it's whoever holds your

526
00:27:19,040 --> 00:27:21,320
Speaker 1: holds your last contract. You still have to go back

527
00:27:21,320 --> 00:27:25,119
Speaker 1: as long as there was good dinner, dinner time to

528
00:27:25,240 --> 00:27:27,000
Speaker 1: be like, yeah, it's obviously he went back to Tampa

529
00:27:27,040 --> 00:27:30,200
Speaker 1: because the last contract holds your card, so you can't

530
00:27:30,200 --> 00:27:33,480
Speaker 1: just like to go back there you go. He's gonna

531
00:27:33,480 --> 00:27:36,640
Speaker 1: be like, yeah, he's gonna be like, you're right, but

532
00:27:37,040 --> 00:27:40,280
Speaker 1: where did you learn that love? And then follow it

533
00:27:40,320 --> 00:27:41,800
Speaker 1: follow it up and be like, so, what's your take

534
00:27:41,800 --> 00:27:45,520
Speaker 1: on Antonio Brown? Just ask him that conversation on that

535
00:27:45,600 --> 00:27:52,960
Speaker 1: on my notes page. Antonio Brown. Yes, wait, while she's

536
00:27:53,000 --> 00:27:55,679
Speaker 1: writing that down, are you are you in the wedding

537
00:27:55,680 --> 00:27:59,320
Speaker 1: planning process or are you, um like just enjoying the

538
00:27:59,359 --> 00:28:04,440
Speaker 1: engagement of it all. Well, we've we decided that we

539
00:28:04,440 --> 00:28:06,200
Speaker 1: would just want to enjoy it right now. And then

540
00:28:06,240 --> 00:28:10,439
Speaker 1: like we started looking and I'm realizing, one how backed

541
00:28:10,520 --> 00:28:14,080
Speaker 1: up all of these venues are because of um So

542
00:28:14,280 --> 00:28:16,919
Speaker 1: we we've always wanted to be super nontraditional in our

543
00:28:16,920 --> 00:28:19,960
Speaker 1: approach to our wedding, Like I don't we just he

544
00:28:20,040 --> 00:28:21,600
Speaker 1: has so many friends. I have so many friends that

545
00:28:21,680 --> 00:28:24,800
Speaker 1: are bridal party and our grooms wherever you want to

546
00:28:24,800 --> 00:28:26,719
Speaker 1: call our parties are gonna be huge. So we just

547
00:28:27,040 --> 00:28:29,560
Speaker 1: we have a different vision for our our wedding that

548
00:28:29,680 --> 00:28:32,199
Speaker 1: is going to be more of like a celebration and

549
00:28:32,280 --> 00:28:36,680
Speaker 1: a process and is like a ceremony, and it's more

550
00:28:36,800 --> 00:28:39,240
Speaker 1: right now. I'll tell you it's more right now. Building

551
00:28:39,280 --> 00:28:41,280
Speaker 1: the guest list, that is a little tricky because we

552
00:28:41,400 --> 00:28:44,320
Speaker 1: both have the rules of no ring, no bring because

553
00:28:44,360 --> 00:28:50,240
Speaker 1: we just don't want to introduce, have to introduce. Well, yeah,

554
00:28:50,280 --> 00:28:52,120
Speaker 1: to a certain point, like if we haven't met you

555
00:28:52,200 --> 00:28:53,920
Speaker 1: or hung out with you, or have like a relationship

556
00:28:53,920 --> 00:28:56,960
Speaker 1: with you outside of you just being a significant other

557
00:28:57,040 --> 00:28:59,960
Speaker 1: two a friend of ours, We're going to be savage

558
00:29:00,320 --> 00:29:03,520
Speaker 1: sort of say, like we'll see you at the celebration.

559
00:29:05,360 --> 00:29:09,240
Speaker 1: I mean, is it on your wedding you can only

560
00:29:09,960 --> 00:29:11,800
Speaker 1: x amount of minutes with people, and we just want

561
00:29:11,800 --> 00:29:15,040
Speaker 1: to enjoy our cloks, friends and our family. Yeah, I

562
00:29:15,080 --> 00:29:18,080
Speaker 1: get that. I totally respect that. I think I think

563
00:29:18,120 --> 00:29:20,720
Speaker 1: people get so stressed out with who they're inviting that

564
00:29:20,760 --> 00:29:24,680
Speaker 1: they they can't even enjoy themselves because they're planning of

565
00:29:25,320 --> 00:29:29,479
Speaker 1: all of that stuff. Bring no brain. That's so funny.

566
00:29:29,520 --> 00:29:33,360
Speaker 1: I've never heard that. Yeah, I said it earlier, and

567
00:29:33,360 --> 00:29:36,479
Speaker 1: like I think people dot com misquoted it as like

568
00:29:36,640 --> 00:29:39,200
Speaker 1: no rain, no brain. I was like, what are you

569
00:29:39,200 --> 00:29:41,960
Speaker 1: guys like they misquoted me and something that I said

570
00:29:41,960 --> 00:29:43,560
Speaker 1: when I was like no ring, no brain, because I

571
00:29:43,680 --> 00:29:45,880
Speaker 1: like that was like a term that I thought was

572
00:29:46,160 --> 00:29:48,520
Speaker 1: more common but obviously no, I never heard it. But

573
00:29:48,560 --> 00:29:52,280
Speaker 1: it's very funny. Well now you can adopt it for

574
00:29:52,440 --> 00:29:56,959
Speaker 1: whatever your your guys. And I love the fact that, um, wait, Tony,

575
00:29:57,000 --> 00:29:58,440
Speaker 1: you don't do you still have a code name for

576
00:29:58,480 --> 00:30:01,320
Speaker 1: your guy? I thought it's yeah, no, well he yeah.

577
00:30:01,360 --> 00:30:04,800
Speaker 1: I used to call him red Star, just to um

578
00:30:04,880 --> 00:30:10,160
Speaker 1: for like, what's the word, uh, consistently. Yeah, it's continuity. Yes,

579
00:30:10,240 --> 00:30:12,640
Speaker 1: I call his name's Robbie, and I share him and

580
00:30:12,920 --> 00:30:14,720
Speaker 1: it's not not I don't hide him or anything, but

581
00:30:14,760 --> 00:30:17,080
Speaker 1: for consistency, I call him red Star because it's just

582
00:30:17,600 --> 00:30:20,680
Speaker 1: that's what I started with. So well, I love you

583
00:30:20,680 --> 00:30:23,560
Speaker 1: guys as approaching that because like as somebody who sort

584
00:30:23,560 --> 00:30:25,440
Speaker 1: of had to learn boundaries and like figure out what

585
00:30:25,560 --> 00:30:27,640
Speaker 1: was healthy and write for me and my relationship. Like

586
00:30:27,680 --> 00:30:31,880
Speaker 1: the fact that you guys um are consistent and doing that,

587
00:30:32,040 --> 00:30:34,720
Speaker 1: and I think it's it's cool and it's also like relatable.

588
00:30:34,760 --> 00:30:37,120
Speaker 1: Some people get overwhelmed and anxious and they just don't

589
00:30:37,160 --> 00:30:42,000
Speaker 1: need other people in their relationships. So yeah, I think

590
00:30:42,080 --> 00:30:47,640
Speaker 1: it's I it's hard, but I do I find so much. Um,

591
00:30:47,680 --> 00:30:51,200
Speaker 1: I'm so protective in my relationship. And also like I

592
00:30:51,240 --> 00:30:56,120
Speaker 1: think within time it'll eventually all be public. But I

593
00:30:56,160 --> 00:30:59,840
Speaker 1: don't think I'll ever overshare my relationship ever. Again. I

594
00:31:00,000 --> 00:31:01,360
Speaker 1: think I did that with my last one, and I

595
00:31:01,440 --> 00:31:04,240
Speaker 1: just don't. I can share it, but I get to

596
00:31:04,320 --> 00:31:06,120
Speaker 1: choose like how much of it I share. And I

597
00:31:06,120 --> 00:31:07,680
Speaker 1: feel like you've done a really good job with that too,

598
00:31:07,680 --> 00:31:10,320
Speaker 1: Like I don't feel like I feel like you posted

599
00:31:10,480 --> 00:31:12,760
Speaker 1: your open about it, but there's not this like on

600
00:31:12,880 --> 00:31:18,360
Speaker 1: slaught of like content. No, I've learned. I mean obviously

601
00:31:18,400 --> 00:31:20,560
Speaker 1: going through that in the past, you just open yourself

602
00:31:20,640 --> 00:31:23,200
Speaker 1: up to criticism and people that want to dive in.

603
00:31:23,280 --> 00:31:25,640
Speaker 1: I mean even like on Watch What Happens Live, Andy

604
00:31:25,720 --> 00:31:27,440
Speaker 1: asked me if I was signing a prenup and that's

605
00:31:27,480 --> 00:31:29,479
Speaker 1: like it went everywhere, and I was just like, what,

606
00:31:29,840 --> 00:31:32,080
Speaker 1: Like I forgot that anything that has to do with

607
00:31:32,120 --> 00:31:35,120
Speaker 1: my relationship people hold on to and have an opinion about.

608
00:31:35,160 --> 00:31:38,280
Speaker 1: And I'm like, shoot, I gotta keep reminding myself just

609
00:31:38,360 --> 00:31:43,160
Speaker 1: to like have an answer to protect protect the relationship. Yeah,

610
00:31:43,240 --> 00:31:44,480
Speaker 1: but I think at the end of the day too,

611
00:31:44,560 --> 00:31:46,440
Speaker 1: which is kind of like everyone's gonna have an opinion

612
00:31:46,480 --> 00:31:50,440
Speaker 1: about everything. So for me, it's like I can't hold

613
00:31:50,440 --> 00:31:54,680
Speaker 1: it in because I love love so much. So it's like, yeah,

614
00:31:54,720 --> 00:31:56,960
Speaker 1: I have to share because I just I can't not.

615
00:31:57,960 --> 00:32:00,200
Speaker 1: But there's like an aspect of So he has two

616
00:32:00,320 --> 00:32:02,760
Speaker 1: kids and he keeps those super super private, so like

617
00:32:02,800 --> 00:32:04,880
Speaker 1: that's really the that's where my line is. That's kind

618
00:32:04,880 --> 00:32:06,160
Speaker 1: of where my boundary is, you know what I mean.

619
00:32:06,200 --> 00:32:08,240
Speaker 1: So it's like I'll share anything about us, but I

620
00:32:08,760 --> 00:32:10,960
Speaker 1: keep his kids out of it, just to respect him

621
00:32:11,000 --> 00:32:14,200
Speaker 1: and them and their privacy. But yeah, I don't know.

622
00:32:14,240 --> 00:32:16,640
Speaker 1: I just think everybody has an opinion, and people people

623
00:32:16,720 --> 00:32:19,360
Speaker 1: DM me stuff all the time. I was like, bye bye,

624
00:32:19,360 --> 00:32:23,920
Speaker 1: bye irol irol irol I don't care, or you respond

625
00:32:24,000 --> 00:32:25,800
Speaker 1: and they're like they send something mean and then I'll

626
00:32:25,840 --> 00:32:27,800
Speaker 1: respond and they're, oh, my gosh, I can't believe you responded.

627
00:32:27,840 --> 00:32:34,200
Speaker 1: I'm like to We have that conversation early on too,

628
00:32:34,240 --> 00:32:36,320
Speaker 1: and he's, you know, he's still working, and he's like,

629
00:32:36,600 --> 00:32:38,720
Speaker 1: I'm gonna work on being more comfortable with being in

630
00:32:38,720 --> 00:32:40,520
Speaker 1: the public, but for right now, like these are sort

631
00:32:40,520 --> 00:32:45,400
Speaker 1: of where I want to stay. He's more private, very

632
00:32:45,480 --> 00:32:50,760
Speaker 1: private Instagram should follow him. He does, Um, he does

633
00:32:50,800 --> 00:32:52,920
Speaker 1: have Instagram, but I don't think we want to announce

634
00:32:52,920 --> 00:32:56,440
Speaker 1: it on here for his sake, Okay, but but yeah,

635
00:32:56,480 --> 00:32:59,880
Speaker 1: I mean he he just wasn't really used to this.

636
00:32:59,880 --> 00:33:02,320
Speaker 1: He's been in the industry, but not really in the industry,

637
00:33:02,360 --> 00:33:04,240
Speaker 1: is in the back background of it with the social

638
00:33:04,280 --> 00:33:07,480
Speaker 1: impact work and the political side of things. Um, but

639
00:33:07,760 --> 00:33:10,160
Speaker 1: he just you know, once again, just like the communication,

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Speaker 1: he's like, I understand you're a public figure, and I

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Speaker 1: share what is on your heart and I happen to

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Speaker 1: be like part of that now. So he's, you know,

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Speaker 1: it's it's very much like I'll try to get more

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Speaker 1: comfortable with this, and he's he's just incredible. So oh,

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Speaker 1: I'm so happy before you Colton. It's just it's, you

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Speaker 1: know what, it's slow and steady, because that's how my

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Speaker 1: just like very like not an entertainment industry at all.

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Speaker 1: So he thought it was like, he was like, this

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Speaker 1: is so weird, and now he could care less. I

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Speaker 1: can film, I can post whatever I want. About him.

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Speaker 1: He just does not care. So it's like it was

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Speaker 1: a journey. We had our first we had our first

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Speaker 1: airport person come up, and I'm so happy for the

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Speaker 1: two of you. Jordan, you're this and he's like, I

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Speaker 1: didn't even say my name, how they know my name?

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Speaker 1: And I was just like, because if you look over there,

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Speaker 1: we're in people like you know, like it's like this

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Speaker 1: is part of it. I love him. I love him.

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Speaker 1: I feel like he sounds like a perfect balance for

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Speaker 1: your life. Yeah, I love that for you. Well, thank

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Speaker 1: you for coming on scrubbing in and we are so

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Speaker 1: happy that you're happy, and um wish the best for

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Speaker 1: you and everything. I'm sure the next time we talk

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Speaker 1: to you, you'll have like seven other shows up and

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Speaker 1: go and sure and everybody, sure you check out Beyond

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Speaker 1: the Edge. It's on Wednesday's CBS. Check your local listings

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Speaker 1: for time. Thank you guys for having me on, and

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Speaker 1: we love you too. Cold I feel the same way.

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Speaker 1: By bye bye