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Speaker 1: Hello. Hello, is this Sarah?

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Speaker 2: It is?

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Speaker 1: How are you doing, Sarah?

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Speaker 3: I'm doing okay. How are you?

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Speaker 1: I'm feeling okay as well? Well, Sarah? How can I

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Speaker 1: get you this evening? Is? What's going on with you?

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Speaker 3: Well, it's a bit of a bit of a story.

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Speaker 3: But to summarize, about two years into my relationship with

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Speaker 3: my boyfriend, he suck with my mother and then I

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Speaker 3: proceeded to continue the relationship for another five years. So

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Speaker 3: and now we're still living together even though we broke

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Speaker 3: up about ten months ago.

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Speaker 1: Really, so you guys have been together for seven years total?

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Speaker 3: Seven years totally?

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Speaker 1: Yes, okay? And what did you do after you first

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Speaker 1: found out that he had slept with your mom two

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Speaker 3: So immediately I left the house because at the time

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Speaker 3: he was living with me and my parents at my parents' house.

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Speaker 3: So I immediately left and I went and stayed with

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Speaker 3: another family member for about a week. But he ended

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Speaker 3: up coming there and like profusely apologizing, and we basically

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Speaker 3: got back together almost immediately.

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Speaker 1: And what was it that led you to be able

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Speaker 1: to forgive him so fast?

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Speaker 3: So I wouldn't say that I forgave him. It was

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Speaker 3: more so that he made me believe that it didn't happen,

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Speaker 3: and my mom made me believe that it didn't happen,

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Speaker 3: and so I thought that, Okay, maybe it didn't happen,

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Speaker 3: even though I knew that it happened. But I thought,

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Speaker 3: you know what, we can do this. We can pretend

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Speaker 3: that it didn't happen and then everything can be fine.

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Speaker 3: And I thought that that was a good idea. So also,

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Speaker 3: I kind of want to say that I feel that

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Speaker 3: because he was he was nineteen at the time, I

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Speaker 3: feel like it was more so reflecting now, it was

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Speaker 3: more so the blame goes to my mom, right because.

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Speaker 1: Right, let's before we get into you know, blame and whatnot.

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Speaker 1: Why uh so you you were believed you were you?

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Speaker 1: Your plan was to just pretend like it didn't happen, Yes, and.

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Speaker 3: I feel like I successfully did that.

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Speaker 1: What was what did they say to you? What did

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Speaker 1: they say to you to convince you that it didn't happen.

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Speaker 1: Were they just profusely lying to you that it didn't happen,

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Speaker 1: but you had a suspicion that it did.

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Speaker 3: Yes, Well, I didn't just have suspicion, like it happened,

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Speaker 3: and I saw it happen, and so, but they were

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Speaker 3: trying to convince me that it didn't. So, yes, they

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Speaker 3: were basically just lying and say saying, no, you didn't

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Speaker 3: see anything, you didn't hear anything, nothing happened.

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Speaker 1: And how successful were you in pretending like it didn't happen?

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Speaker 3: I feel like I was pretty successful successful, and less

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Speaker 3: him and I had any sort of disagreements or arguments,

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Speaker 3: or sometimes I would just sit and think on it

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Speaker 3: and then I would have to bring it up and

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Speaker 3: be like, come on, do you want to stop lying

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Speaker 3: and say they didn't sleep with my mom even though

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Speaker 3: I know that.

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Speaker 4: You did.

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Speaker 1: And you stayed with him for five years after that?

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Speaker 5: Yes?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, And during those five years, how prevalent was this

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Speaker 1: issue in your mind and in your relationship?

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Speaker 3: I feel that it was pretty prevalent, especially anytime my

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Speaker 3: mom and him were together. I couldn't help but think

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Speaker 3: about it. Whenever they were in the same room, where

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Speaker 3: if we were on vacation and you know, they were together,

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Speaker 3: I kind of couldn't help but think about it then,

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Speaker 3: But it was pretty easy to not think about it

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Speaker 3: whenever they weren't together.

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Speaker 1: And why did you guys break up? You said this

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Speaker 1: I pull that out of nowhere?

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Speaker 3: Like two months ago?

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Speaker 1: Two months ago? Why did you guys break up? Two

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Speaker 3: We broke up just because I didn't want to be

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Speaker 1: Do you regret at all not breaking up with him

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Speaker 1: five years ago when you found out that he slept

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Speaker 3: Yeah, that's a part that I'm having an issue with

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Speaker 3: now is I don't know how I should feel about

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Speaker 3: it at this point. It happened so long ago. I

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Speaker 3: don't know if I should be regretting it or not.

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Speaker 3: I kind of do, but I also kind of don't

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean that's an interesting you know, regrets you

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Speaker 1: great in general is an interesting thing. I mean, this

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Speaker 1: is a, you know, a crazy situation that he's left

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Speaker 1: or whatever and then going, oh, do I regret that time,

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Speaker 1: it's like the debate of whether or not you regret it,

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Speaker 1: it's almost irrelevant, right, because that's that time has passed

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Speaker 1: and now you only have the time in front of

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Speaker 1: you to do whatever it is you're going to do.

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Speaker 3: Right, And that's kind of how I'm trying to look

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Speaker 3: at it. But it's difficult at times whenever I think about,

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Speaker 3: oh my god, that was like seven years you know,

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Speaker 3: I could have done so many other things at that

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Speaker 1: Do you ever have a confrontation with your mom about this?

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Speaker 3: Oh?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, how did that come down?

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Speaker 3: Yeah? So it's basically I've had this converntation with her

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Speaker 3: several times, and it's always the same thing where she

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Speaker 3: tells me I'm crazy and that it's a disgusting idea

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Speaker 3: that she would ever sleep with someone much younger than her,

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Speaker 3: and that I'm crazy. That's basically how it goes.

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Speaker 1: And to this day, five years later, has she still

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Speaker 3: She still denies it.

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Speaker 1: Yes, you said you saw them, did you? I mean,

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Speaker 1: can you tell me about that? Did you like see

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Speaker 1: them in bed with each other? What exactly happened?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, So it wasn't in bed, It was in the kitchen.

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Speaker 3: It was very early in the morning, probably like six

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Speaker 3: thirty seven am. And I had my suspicions, and so

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Speaker 3: what I did was he and I were living upstairs

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Speaker 3: in my parents' house, so I sat up at the

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Speaker 3: very top of the steps to listen for anything because

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Speaker 3: they were both in the kitchen together, and about five

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Speaker 3: minutes into dumping in the kitchen together, I started hearing moaning,

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Speaker 3: lots of moaning, and it continued. So I kind of

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Speaker 3: just sat there and all for a second like holy shit,

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Speaker 3: and I thought to walk in my mom fucking my boyfriend,

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Speaker 3: and so that's what I did. I basically like ran

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Speaker 3: so I walked into the kitchen and they're pulling away

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Speaker 1: Jesus, I can't believe they did that while you were

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Speaker 3: Yeah, well, I normally I would sleep late at that

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Speaker 3: that I was awake, And I wouldn't have been awake

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Speaker 3: if I weren't suspicious of this happening in the first place.

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Speaker 3: And so that's the only reason I think that I

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Speaker 3: called them in the first place. I don't think that

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Speaker 3: maybe they would have. I don't know, but I would

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Speaker 1: What is your relationship like with your mom in general?

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Speaker 3: Pretty distant? I would say we're not particularly close.

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Speaker 1: Has it always been like that, like throughout your your life?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm much closer with my dad. My dad and

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Speaker 3: I are very close. My mom and I am.

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Speaker 4: Not so much.

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Speaker 1: Forgot about the dad angle to this. What the fuck

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Speaker 4: Yeah?

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Speaker 1: His deal with all these what's he think? What tell

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Speaker 4: Mm?

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Speaker 3: So my parents are married, they're not divorced. They have

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Speaker 3: a very strange relationship though where he's it's kind of complicated.

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Speaker 3: They're still married, but they don't really act like they're married,

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Speaker 3: if that makes sense, Like they kind of just seem

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Speaker 3: like they're together because they happened for so long. As

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Speaker 3: far as what he thinks about this, I don't really

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Speaker 3: know all that much because I don't know. I kind

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Speaker 3: of haven't asked him what he.

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Speaker 1: Thinks, right, That's what I was going to say. Have

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Speaker 1: you had a conversation with him directly about this?

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Speaker 3: I did one time, right after it happened. I told

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Speaker 3: him what happened, and he didn't say much of anything

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Speaker 3: other than okay. He didn't tell me that I was crazy, though,

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Speaker 3: which made me feel better. I guess so.

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Speaker 1: Much to say, it sounds like his relationship with your

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Speaker 1: mom is kind of distant too. Yes, yeah, so you're

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Speaker 1: cool with him, you're distant to the mom. Do you

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Speaker 1: have any siblings?

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Speaker 3: I do, Yes, I have one brother.

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Speaker 1: What's your what's your brother's take?

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Speaker 3: So my brother, I don't think he knows about it,

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Speaker 3: but he does not like the ex boyfriend at all.

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Speaker 3: Mm hmm, so he doesn't know though.

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Speaker 1: Were you happy during those five years that you stayed

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Speaker 3: Sometimes other times not so much?

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Speaker 1: What do you think and forgive me if I asked

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Speaker 3: It was my first serious relationship, and I really wanted

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Speaker 3: it to work, and I really wanted it to be

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Speaker 3: something that it wasn't. I really wanted it to be

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Speaker 3: thought that if I put enough effort into it, and

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Speaker 3: if I lasted long enough in the relationships, that eventually

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Speaker 3: it would become that. But it never did.

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Speaker 1: So well, speaking to your thing of whether or not

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Speaker 1: you want to regret it, whether or not you regret

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Speaker 1: regret is you know, you had this experience with this

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Speaker 1: guy over the past five years that turned out to

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Speaker 1: not go exactly how you wanted it to. But did

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Speaker 1: you learn anything that you can use to help you

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Speaker 1: navigate your relationships with other people in the future. Yes,

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Speaker 1: what did you learn?

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Speaker 3: I learned to not continue relationship if the partner sleeps

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Speaker 3: with a parental figure.

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Speaker 1: I think that's a good takeaway from this.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, take away number one for sure. Take Away number few,

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Speaker 3: I think is to have a bit.

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Speaker 5: More selffect.

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Speaker 1: Mm hmm yeah, m I hope you're not being hard.

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Speaker 3: That again, which may ta and nicely to point one.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, well, I hope you're not being too hard on yourself.

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Speaker 1: It sounds like you were pretty young and sort of

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Speaker 1: inexperienced with your relationships when this happened, and it sounds

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Speaker 1: like you've you've learned a great deal since then. So

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Speaker 1: if anything, if you're like in your your retrospective thinking

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Speaker 1: Is there anything you want to say to the people

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Speaker 3: I don't get thank you so much.

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Speaker 1: I appreciate it, of course, have a good night, sir,

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Speaker 1: you too. Hello is this Tyler? This is what's going

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Speaker 4: Uh? You know, just chilling?

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Speaker 1: Tyler from North Carolina. It says here that you have

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Speaker 4: Yeah. Yeah, that started in like sixth grade.

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Speaker 1: Okay, how does one intentionally give themselves a seizure?

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Speaker 1: Do you go on YouTube and search for like flashing

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Speaker 4: Just don't have to do it today. I can just

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Speaker 1: That's pretty Uh, it's pretty five head moves. Yeah, yeah,

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Speaker 1: So was this a sustainable practice for you? Did this ever?

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Speaker 4: It ticks me and the H gives me in the

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Speaker 1: So you couldn't use the yeah, the old seizure trick

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Speaker 4: No, No, however, I would just I would just say

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Speaker 1: Let me ask you this. Can I ask you this, Tyler? Why, yeah,

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Speaker 1: Why did did if you were gonna do all that,

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Speaker 1: why wouldn't you have just faked having a seizure? Why

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Speaker 4: Well, it turned out as being real seizures. And then

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Speaker 1: I feel like, if you're going to use the epilepsy

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I could just I coul sake it. And I

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Speaker 1: Tell me more about how you I think that it.

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Speaker 4: It's not the best and I probably don't have to

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Speaker 1: That's wild man. So you were lying about having seizures,

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Speaker 5: Yeah.

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Speaker 4: So it's it's like, it's not even joking. I think

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Speaker 1: And do you still take that high of a dosage

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Speaker 1: It says you're twenty now, when you were doing this

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Speaker 4: Probably, I mean likely that's what happened.

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Speaker 1: Did you ever tell your doctor like, hey, I was

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Speaker 4: I mean, my parents were in the room during the

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Speaker 1: But Tyler, you're Tyler, You're twenty years old right now.

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Speaker 1: Why don't you go to the doctor and sid, Hey, listen,

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Speaker 1: this is a little fucked up, But I well faked

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Speaker 4: Yeah, so due to due to COVID, I haven't seen

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Speaker 1: So you've just been taking this higher dosage two years

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Speaker 4: I know, I know, doctor. If it's already been addressed

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Speaker 4: that if, if if the medicine were to be decreased

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Speaker 1: Okay, So so you could go to take a lower dose,

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Speaker 4: With that, yes, And and that would affect my job

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Speaker 4: majorly because if I do have a seizure in that time,

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Speaker 1: What was this test?

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Speaker 4: It dud? It was It was a history test.

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Speaker 5: Man.

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Speaker 4: I don't know why I didn't just take the test.

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Speaker 2: It's not worth it.

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Speaker 1: What do you what do you Is your job involved driving?

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Speaker 4: Have you not negatively affecting me? It's not negatively affecting

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Speaker 1: What do you think?

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Speaker 5: Oh?

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Speaker 1: When's the last time you had a seizure?

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Speaker 4: Can that's a good question, like actually had a seizure?

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Speaker 1: When's the last time you bullshitted a seizure?

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Speaker 4: Oh yeah, twenty twenty twenty.

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Speaker 1: Tell her how often are you faking seizure?

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Speaker 4: Too often? Definitely too often?

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Speaker 5: What what?

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Speaker 1: What did you fake the seizure? Four and twenty two?

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Speaker 4: I'm pretty sure I faked it to get out of

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Speaker 1: If you have you ever been pulled over by a

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Speaker 4: However, however, I was pulled over for going over one

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Speaker 1: Listen, Tyler, Here's here's what I say. First of all,

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Speaker 4: Tell a fun story.

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Speaker 1: To go to the doctor and tell him, tell him

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Speaker 1: so you don't want to do, be selective about it.

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Speaker 1: You know, pick really like, you know, a a draft

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Speaker 4: What would you like to hear a funny real feizure story.

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Speaker 1: I kind of would like to hear a funny real

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Speaker 4: All right. So this happened in a walmart, because that's

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Speaker 4: into the back of my head, and I'm quenching my

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00:28:24,040 --> 00:28:25,359
Speaker 4: jaw hard enough that I.

448
00:28:27,520 --> 00:28:29,679
Speaker 5: Like break the my uh the.

449
00:28:30,359 --> 00:28:33,640
Speaker 4: Skin on my cheeks, and I start to bleed from

450
00:28:33,680 --> 00:28:40,440
Speaker 4: my mouth. My sister comes around and sees me, and

451
00:28:40,560 --> 00:28:43,560
Speaker 4: as she comes around, a lady comes around too, because

452
00:28:43,640 --> 00:28:47,360
Speaker 4: she hears me trying to swallow my tongue, and so

453
00:28:47,520 --> 00:28:50,720
Speaker 4: my sister's trying to deal with me, and the lady

454
00:28:50,840 --> 00:28:55,920
Speaker 4: sees me on the ground, muscles quenched, eyes, back of

455
00:28:56,000 --> 00:28:59,880
Speaker 4: my head pale as a ghost, blood coming from my mouth,

456
00:29:01,720 --> 00:29:06,440
Speaker 4: just pulls out a bible and starts praying, trying to

457
00:29:06,800 --> 00:29:09,800
Speaker 4: get this demon out of me. And I know that's

458
00:29:09,840 --> 00:29:12,000
Speaker 4: what she was doing, because when I came out of

459
00:29:12,080 --> 00:29:16,160
Speaker 4: that seizure, I just heard her screaming, just oh Lord,

460
00:29:16,360 --> 00:29:19,000
Speaker 4: just get this demon out of this child. And and

461
00:29:19,160 --> 00:29:21,840
Speaker 4: I'm just like, I don't know what's going on. When

462
00:29:21,880 --> 00:29:26,080
Speaker 4: I want to go home, and I get home, I

463
00:29:26,280 --> 00:29:28,960
Speaker 4: take a nap, and when I wake up, I immediately

464
00:29:29,080 --> 00:29:34,200
Speaker 4: realized this lady was praying for me to be resurrected

465
00:29:34,680 --> 00:29:37,840
Speaker 4: or have some demon come out of me, because she

466
00:29:38,040 --> 00:29:40,800
Speaker 4: saw blood coming out of my mouth and my eyes

467
00:29:40,920 --> 00:29:44,440
Speaker 4: rolled back into my head, and I probably scarred this

468
00:29:44,640 --> 00:29:47,479
Speaker 4: old lady. I felt so bad for her.

469
00:29:48,360 --> 00:29:53,400
Speaker 1: She felt boy, you felt you felt this lady lady

470
00:29:53,520 --> 00:29:53,960
Speaker 1: saw you.

471
00:29:56,440 --> 00:30:00,680
Speaker 4: A bible, she saw me, she pulled out a bible.

472
00:30:02,080 --> 00:30:04,640
Speaker 4: I felt bad for because I'm pretty sure I scarter.

473
00:30:05,000 --> 00:30:11,120
Speaker 1: But you, Tyler, what do you mean you felt bad for? You?

474
00:30:11,280 --> 00:30:14,880
Speaker 1: Having a seizure was not an act of aggression against

475
00:30:15,000 --> 00:30:15,560
Speaker 1: this lady.

476
00:30:18,360 --> 00:30:23,560
Speaker 4: I mean, I it's it's a poor lady. You know

477
00:30:23,840 --> 00:30:28,200
Speaker 4: you're experiencing like watching someone have a seizure, Like I

478
00:30:28,280 --> 00:30:30,400
Speaker 4: haven't even seen someone have a seizure, and I have

479
00:30:30,560 --> 00:30:32,440
Speaker 4: them all the time, you know, And.

480
00:30:34,120 --> 00:30:35,440
Speaker 1: That is a pretty wild way to think.

481
00:30:35,880 --> 00:30:36,560
Speaker 4: It's crazy.

482
00:30:38,200 --> 00:30:40,960
Speaker 1: You're writhing on the ground having a seizure and you

483
00:30:41,160 --> 00:30:43,680
Speaker 1: feel that's a that's a dangerous amount of empathy to

484
00:30:43,760 --> 00:30:45,719
Speaker 1: have that you're writhing on the ground having a seizure,

485
00:30:46,160 --> 00:30:50,200
Speaker 1: and you feel bad that you put other people through

486
00:30:50,320 --> 00:30:53,760
Speaker 1: the experience of having to watch you have a seizure.

487
00:30:56,200 --> 00:30:58,360
Speaker 1: You know, maybe uh, you know, by the way, by

488
00:30:58,400 --> 00:31:02,600
Speaker 1: the way, before we go, I do want you actually

489
00:31:02,640 --> 00:31:04,719
Speaker 1: did a good thing for that lady. I think because

490
00:31:05,960 --> 00:31:09,000
Speaker 1: the fact that she was carrying around a Bible at

491
00:31:09,040 --> 00:31:13,960
Speaker 1: a Walmart she was dying, she was, and the fact

492
00:31:13,960 --> 00:31:18,200
Speaker 1: that she didn't even like wade a beat. She just

493
00:31:18,280 --> 00:31:20,479
Speaker 1: immediately pulled it out and started praying. She had been

494
00:31:20,560 --> 00:31:24,880
Speaker 1: waiting for that moment her entire life to exercise a

495
00:31:24,960 --> 00:31:27,840
Speaker 1: demon out of a person, and you gave that to her.

496
00:31:27,920 --> 00:31:30,880
Speaker 1: So I would reframe it like that. If you're, you know,

497
00:31:31,440 --> 00:31:33,440
Speaker 1: feeling as though you wronged this lady, you gave her

498
00:31:33,480 --> 00:31:37,240
Speaker 1: an opportunity to live out her her wild fantasies of

499
00:31:37,880 --> 00:31:41,160
Speaker 1: exercising a person by the Xbox games at a Walmart.

500
00:31:42,040 --> 00:31:48,040
Speaker 1: So good on you, Tyler. Stop faking seizures. Go to

501
00:31:48,120 --> 00:31:51,080
Speaker 1: a doctor, and thank you very much for calling and sharing.

502
00:31:51,520 --> 00:31:57,880
Speaker 4: Yep, absolutely take care of him. You do.

503
00:32:00,520 --> 00:32:04,520
Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, how are you good?

504
00:32:04,560 --> 00:32:04,880
Speaker 5: How are you?

505
00:32:06,120 --> 00:32:10,320
Speaker 1: I'm a get go on the computer. How are you doing? John?

506
00:32:10,360 --> 00:32:11,560
Speaker 1: Tell me everything? Tell me nothing?

507
00:32:14,240 --> 00:32:18,360
Speaker 5: All right? Yeah? You know, in high school, I went

508
00:32:18,400 --> 00:32:20,360
Speaker 5: to a high school and it was a big high school,

509
00:32:20,640 --> 00:32:24,320
Speaker 5: thousands of kids. I didn't know anybody. Eventually, I don't know,

510
00:32:24,480 --> 00:32:27,000
Speaker 5: the self help stuff actually works for me at that time,

511
00:32:27,480 --> 00:32:28,000
Speaker 5: and I had.

512
00:32:27,880 --> 00:32:28,400
Speaker 4: A good game.

513
00:32:30,280 --> 00:32:34,560
Speaker 5: But then I see I went to move to Vegas,

514
00:32:34,840 --> 00:32:39,240
Speaker 5: Okay for work. I've been working music festivals, traveling music festivals,

515
00:32:39,680 --> 00:32:41,400
Speaker 5: and that's why I started making good money at the

516
00:32:41,440 --> 00:32:46,760
Speaker 5: same time. But in Vegas, all the women, let's just say,

517
00:32:46,800 --> 00:32:48,920
Speaker 5: have a higher level of standard than what you could

518
00:32:49,440 --> 00:32:55,000
Speaker 5: do very successfully in high school. And yeah, so I

519
00:32:55,040 --> 00:32:59,440
Speaker 5: haven't had luck in a couple of years and that

520
00:32:59,600 --> 00:33:03,160
Speaker 5: kind of has led me to bling lots of money

521
00:33:04,280 --> 00:33:08,120
Speaker 5: with woods surpers and it's not that bad, but yeah,

522
00:33:08,160 --> 00:33:09,680
Speaker 5: I mean the worst part is like I'm just bitter

523
00:33:09,760 --> 00:33:12,480
Speaker 5: with lots of women that I've tried all kinds of things,

524
00:33:12,520 --> 00:33:15,240
Speaker 5: and yeah, I thought maybe talking to a gecko could

525
00:33:15,240 --> 00:33:16,000
Speaker 5: help me figure it out.

526
00:33:17,840 --> 00:33:23,240
Speaker 1: Okay, let's get into this. So you said that you

527
00:33:23,400 --> 00:33:28,240
Speaker 1: were in Los Angeles and you you are, you're a

528
00:33:28,440 --> 00:33:35,240
Speaker 1: self proclaimed ladies man of of that area, and then

529
00:33:35,280 --> 00:33:40,920
Speaker 1: you moved to Vegas and then you you started having

530
00:33:41,120 --> 00:33:45,880
Speaker 1: trouble with your your romantic life.

531
00:33:49,440 --> 00:33:52,160
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean I wasn't like part I wasn't like

532
00:33:52,320 --> 00:33:54,719
Speaker 5: chiller ladies man, but it was it was a lot

533
00:33:54,800 --> 00:33:59,520
Speaker 5: of success, but like, yeah, it was the world's greatest Yeah.

534
00:33:59,520 --> 00:34:03,440
Speaker 1: Okay, Well let me ask you this, what do you

535
00:34:05,000 --> 00:34:08,880
Speaker 1: what's your thing? Are you trying to get into a

536
00:34:08,960 --> 00:34:12,880
Speaker 1: relationship with someone? Are you just trying to have as

537
00:34:13,000 --> 00:34:15,920
Speaker 1: much sex with as much people that you're attracted to

538
00:34:16,080 --> 00:34:21,520
Speaker 1: as possible? What's what's the deal here? What's what's your objective.

539
00:34:23,600 --> 00:34:27,120
Speaker 5: Currently? Relationship with the really?

540
00:34:27,800 --> 00:34:30,680
Speaker 1: Really? Okay, so you're not just trying to have as

541
00:34:30,760 --> 00:34:33,000
Speaker 1: much sex as you can, you're looking for a relationship.

542
00:34:35,239 --> 00:34:37,120
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean two years ago, that's how it was.

543
00:34:37,280 --> 00:34:41,279
Speaker 5: But after not having any sex, it's like, you know what,

544
00:34:41,440 --> 00:34:42,799
Speaker 5: maybe we should change the goal.

545
00:34:43,480 --> 00:34:50,440
Speaker 1: Sure, okay, why do you feel like, uh you already?

546
00:34:50,520 --> 00:34:51,960
Speaker 1: Where are you now. Are you in La? Are you

547
00:34:52,080 --> 00:34:52,640
Speaker 1: in Vegas?

548
00:34:54,680 --> 00:34:55,760
Speaker 5: I'm in La now again.

549
00:34:56,560 --> 00:35:00,800
Speaker 1: Okay, So if your main th thing is that you

550
00:35:00,880 --> 00:35:04,640
Speaker 1: want a relationship, what do you think is compelling you

551
00:35:05,520 --> 00:35:07,800
Speaker 1: to spend all this money on strippers?

552
00:35:11,760 --> 00:35:16,400
Speaker 5: Uh, it's not like it's a majority likes of my money.

553
00:35:16,560 --> 00:35:20,399
Speaker 5: Like I make a decent amount that there's enough left

554
00:35:20,440 --> 00:35:24,160
Speaker 5: over to still have fun. But it's like the reason

555
00:35:24,239 --> 00:35:29,600
Speaker 5: I'm doing it is I don't know, even the fake interest,

556
00:35:32,680 --> 00:35:37,160
Speaker 5: it's it's nice, I guess just having somebody you know,

557
00:35:37,880 --> 00:35:40,040
Speaker 5: even pretend to be interested in you. They're pretty damn

558
00:35:40,080 --> 00:35:46,719
Speaker 5: convincing at it. So yeah, mm hmm.

559
00:35:47,200 --> 00:35:50,680
Speaker 1: So you you like the uh the I guess they

560
00:35:50,760 --> 00:35:54,560
Speaker 1: call it the girlfriend experience right where they pretend to

561
00:35:54,640 --> 00:35:56,440
Speaker 1: be genuinely interested in you.

562
00:35:58,880 --> 00:36:01,960
Speaker 5: It's like a fifty fifty percent of the time it's

563
00:36:02,200 --> 00:36:04,560
Speaker 5: the golf and experience and you have to tix percent

564
00:36:04,600 --> 00:36:06,600
Speaker 5: of the time. I really like to smack that cheeks.

565
00:36:08,600 --> 00:36:14,719
Speaker 1: Okay, cool, Well what do you do to make efforts

566
00:36:15,480 --> 00:36:18,440
Speaker 1: to meet people?

567
00:36:23,120 --> 00:36:26,360
Speaker 7: I'm in the munic festival in events industry, so I

568
00:36:26,480 --> 00:36:31,479
Speaker 7: mean I I invite people out, so when I yeah,

569
00:36:32,360 --> 00:36:35,520
Speaker 7: if I always take care of my friends, any acquaintances,

570
00:36:35,640 --> 00:36:39,000
Speaker 7: you know, by dinner, buy drinks, just try to chat

571
00:36:39,080 --> 00:36:41,680
Speaker 7: people up, just nice, normal conversations.

572
00:36:42,120 --> 00:36:45,240
Speaker 5: Try to listen more than I talk. All this stuff,

573
00:36:46,840 --> 00:36:49,280
Speaker 5: but it's you know, we get a lot of friendly attention,

574
00:36:49,480 --> 00:36:53,799
Speaker 5: but that's kind of all it is. There's a bunch

575
00:36:53,800 --> 00:36:54,560
Speaker 5: of acquaintances.

576
00:36:54,600 --> 00:37:01,360
Speaker 1: And yeah, have you ever been in a committed relationship before?

577
00:37:04,239 --> 00:37:08,640
Speaker 5: I've had two good committed relationships that last about two

578
00:37:08,760 --> 00:37:09,600
Speaker 5: two and a half years.

579
00:37:10,280 --> 00:37:11,840
Speaker 1: Okay, how did you meet those people.

580
00:37:15,719 --> 00:37:18,080
Speaker 5: Through school at that time, like from high school and

581
00:37:18,120 --> 00:37:19,560
Speaker 5: people who recently graduated.

582
00:37:23,480 --> 00:37:27,000
Speaker 1: You know, man, I'll tell you this much at least,

583
00:37:27,840 --> 00:37:31,040
Speaker 1: is that I feel like, and this is a conventional

584
00:37:31,120 --> 00:37:34,400
Speaker 1: thing I've heard a lot of people say, especially in

585
00:37:34,600 --> 00:37:41,879
Speaker 1: the dating realm. The more you chase after this thing

586
00:37:42,040 --> 00:37:45,040
Speaker 1: of like I really want a girlfriend and you you know,

587
00:37:45,120 --> 00:37:47,520
Speaker 1: every time you go out on the town or or

588
00:37:48,000 --> 00:37:50,520
Speaker 1: you're in a group of people or whatever you're you're

589
00:37:50,640 --> 00:37:54,000
Speaker 1: fixated on it, the more it tends to just like

590
00:37:54,760 --> 00:37:58,879
Speaker 1: run your fucking life, you know, in like a bad way.

591
00:37:59,719 --> 00:38:01,319
Speaker 1: Do you do you empathize with that at all?

592
00:38:01,480 --> 00:38:01,600
Speaker 5: Is that?

593
00:38:01,840 --> 00:38:02,360
Speaker 1: Do you feel that?

594
00:38:04,760 --> 00:38:08,200
Speaker 5: Honestly? I feel like that's how I was maybe like

595
00:38:08,560 --> 00:38:11,520
Speaker 5: two years ago, but then it kind of flipped to

596
00:38:11,600 --> 00:38:14,600
Speaker 5: the total other side, where like I feel like even

597
00:38:15,160 --> 00:38:18,320
Speaker 5: the regular friendly level of confidence and just chatting stuff

598
00:38:18,400 --> 00:38:21,040
Speaker 5: up is like gone. And that's when like eventually that

599
00:38:21,160 --> 00:38:25,319
Speaker 5: also became I don't know, like bitterness. That's so it's

600
00:38:25,400 --> 00:38:27,719
Speaker 5: like now I don't even want to talk to women

601
00:38:27,880 --> 00:38:29,560
Speaker 5: like just I don't like, I don't even want to

602
00:38:29,600 --> 00:38:29,960
Speaker 5: look at them.

603
00:38:31,000 --> 00:38:32,760
Speaker 1: Well, tell me about this bitterness.

604
00:38:32,800 --> 00:38:33,360
Speaker 4: What does that?

605
00:38:34,600 --> 00:38:36,600
Speaker 1: Well tell me what does this bitterness look like? What

606
00:38:36,680 --> 00:38:37,560
Speaker 1: does it feel like?

607
00:38:37,760 --> 00:38:37,800
Speaker 4: What?

608
00:38:38,400 --> 00:38:39,320
Speaker 1: How do you mean bitter?

609
00:38:41,600 --> 00:38:46,839
Speaker 5: Okay, that's a good question. Okay, So recently I've been

610
00:38:46,920 --> 00:38:50,240
Speaker 5: really blaming my my luck or lack of game however

611
00:38:50,239 --> 00:38:54,399
Speaker 5: you want to say it to like hype, and I'm

612
00:38:54,480 --> 00:38:58,239
Speaker 5: only five seven, and you know, I've tried all kinds

613
00:38:58,239 --> 00:39:01,280
Speaker 5: of things and it worked before. But it just feels

614
00:39:01,360 --> 00:39:04,840
Speaker 5: like my friends that are taller literally have women chasing

615
00:39:04,960 --> 00:39:07,840
Speaker 5: after them. Sure, I have a friend who's women like

616
00:39:08,280 --> 00:39:10,440
Speaker 5: they will try to shove themselves into his uber as

617
00:39:10,480 --> 00:39:12,239
Speaker 5: he's leaving the boar and they have to like push

618
00:39:12,320 --> 00:39:15,520
Speaker 5: him away. I'm not thinking it's only height, but everybody

619
00:39:15,560 --> 00:39:18,480
Speaker 5: at you know that's taller, it always has more success.

620
00:39:18,560 --> 00:39:21,600
Speaker 5: But that's also that's a major point of why like bitter.

621
00:39:22,600 --> 00:39:26,200
Speaker 1: Okay, I have I have thoughts on that, but is

622
00:39:26,239 --> 00:39:27,160
Speaker 1: there is there anything else?

623
00:39:30,280 --> 00:39:30,600
Speaker 4: Mmm?

624
00:39:33,080 --> 00:39:34,480
Speaker 5: I guess that's the biggest point.

625
00:39:36,920 --> 00:39:39,680
Speaker 1: Okay, so you're feeling bitter and upset about your heights.

626
00:39:44,080 --> 00:39:45,400
Speaker 5: That's one way to summarize it.

627
00:39:45,960 --> 00:39:48,640
Speaker 1: Okay, No, I and I and let me tell you something.

628
00:39:48,719 --> 00:39:51,480
Speaker 1: I am five six, I am an inch shorter than

629
00:39:51,560 --> 00:39:54,960
Speaker 1: you and I dude, when I was in college, man,

630
00:39:55,040 --> 00:39:59,239
Speaker 1: I had I was definitely had. Uh some time where

631
00:39:59,239 --> 00:40:01,000
Speaker 1: I was I was fixed on my height as well.

632
00:40:01,360 --> 00:40:03,719
Speaker 1: And now I don't give a shit. And the way

633
00:40:03,840 --> 00:40:09,480
Speaker 1: I feel like I really got there was this realization

634
00:40:09,760 --> 00:40:12,400
Speaker 1: that like, dude, you know and I can. I can

635
00:40:12,480 --> 00:40:14,160
Speaker 1: hear it from you that like, you're comparing yourself to

636
00:40:14,239 --> 00:40:16,600
Speaker 1: your friends, You're comparing yourself to people who are taller

637
00:40:16,680 --> 00:40:19,440
Speaker 1: than you. You're seeing guys who are taller, you know,

638
00:40:20,239 --> 00:40:23,759
Speaker 1: have you know more women interested in them? And uh,

639
00:40:25,200 --> 00:40:27,520
Speaker 1: like you can do that. You know, you can compare

640
00:40:27,560 --> 00:40:29,640
Speaker 1: yourself to people who are taller than you or better

641
00:40:29,680 --> 00:40:32,680
Speaker 1: look at you or any of that stuff, or you

642
00:40:32,800 --> 00:40:38,320
Speaker 1: can just really look at the cards that you have

643
00:40:38,440 --> 00:40:43,520
Speaker 1: been dealt in your life and go, what can I

644
00:40:43,680 --> 00:40:48,560
Speaker 1: make of these? That's what I'm always thinking about because

645
00:40:48,600 --> 00:40:50,400
Speaker 1: some people because sure, yeah, you have friends who are

646
00:40:50,400 --> 00:40:52,600
Speaker 1: taller than you, but there's people out there, you know,

647
00:40:52,640 --> 00:40:54,719
Speaker 1: there's guys out there who are five to two. There's

648
00:40:54,760 --> 00:40:59,400
Speaker 1: guys out there who have, you know, no natural social

649
00:40:59,520 --> 00:41:03,120
Speaker 1: skill or they have, you know, whatever mental blocks that

650
00:41:03,200 --> 00:41:05,600
Speaker 1: are going on that you know, stop them from even

651
00:41:05,680 --> 00:41:09,480
Speaker 1: leaving their house or from talking to people. You know,

652
00:41:09,760 --> 00:41:12,760
Speaker 1: there's always going to be people who were dealt cards

653
00:41:13,200 --> 00:41:14,840
Speaker 1: that were a little bit better than yours. There's all

654
00:41:14,880 --> 00:41:18,279
Speaker 1: these gonna be people who dealt cards that are way

655
00:41:18,360 --> 00:41:21,239
Speaker 1: worse than you that you're better off than. And that's

656
00:41:21,400 --> 00:41:26,279
Speaker 1: just a fucking inevitability, and you you go, you got

657
00:41:26,400 --> 00:41:29,600
Speaker 1: to learn to accept that because it'll make you feel

658
00:41:29,960 --> 00:41:35,560
Speaker 1: a lot better about where you are. You gain absolutely

659
00:41:35,680 --> 00:41:38,520
Speaker 1: nothing from thinking about, oh, how great would it be

660
00:41:39,000 --> 00:41:41,799
Speaker 1: if I were taller, if I were you know, more

661
00:41:41,960 --> 00:41:45,399
Speaker 1: like this or whatever. You just you gain nothing from

662
00:41:46,160 --> 00:41:51,400
Speaker 1: fixating on that. Instead, think about all the things that

663
00:41:51,480 --> 00:41:56,080
Speaker 1: you do have and really lean into being grateful for those.

664
00:41:56,320 --> 00:41:59,080
Speaker 1: And if they're not directly into your face, you have

665
00:41:59,160 --> 00:42:02,520
Speaker 1: to take a second to look at yourself and find

666
00:42:02,640 --> 00:42:06,560
Speaker 1: them you know you were talking about earlier. You're good at,

667
00:42:07,560 --> 00:42:10,360
Speaker 1: you know, taking care of your friends. You're good at conversation.

668
00:42:10,480 --> 00:42:13,239
Speaker 1: You're good at these things that I'm sure other guys

669
00:42:13,320 --> 00:42:16,440
Speaker 1: struggle with. I'm sure you have a lot of things

670
00:42:16,960 --> 00:42:19,920
Speaker 1: to yourself that maybe some people have better. Maybe some

671
00:42:19,920 --> 00:42:21,880
Speaker 1: people are better at talking to other people than you are,

672
00:42:21,960 --> 00:42:23,480
Speaker 1: but some people are worse. And so you got to

673
00:42:23,560 --> 00:42:27,080
Speaker 1: really take your inventory and be grateful for whatever your

674
00:42:27,120 --> 00:42:31,439
Speaker 1: strengths are and lean into those strengths and not beat

675
00:42:31,520 --> 00:42:38,600
Speaker 1: the shit out of yourself for your perceived weaknesses. It's

676
00:42:38,640 --> 00:42:41,160
Speaker 1: a really important thing to do in this in this

677
00:42:42,480 --> 00:42:46,640
Speaker 1: arena of life. Tell me what you think about that first.

678
00:42:50,160 --> 00:42:52,520
Speaker 5: I mean, yeah, it really, I mean it makes sense,

679
00:42:53,040 --> 00:42:56,160
Speaker 5: and it's just like, you know, I feel like I

680
00:42:56,280 --> 00:42:59,480
Speaker 5: made that realization and did work on my strengths a

681
00:42:59,480 --> 00:43:02,120
Speaker 5: couple of years to go. And it's like a sad

682
00:43:02,200 --> 00:43:05,280
Speaker 5: thing to just you know, feel like that and that left.

683
00:43:05,480 --> 00:43:08,200
Speaker 5: But I have to realize, you know, that didn't leave,

684
00:43:08,280 --> 00:43:12,040
Speaker 5: and start running with the strengths again and ignoring the

685
00:43:12,160 --> 00:43:14,279
Speaker 5: things and not I don't know, putting excuses to what.

686
00:43:14,360 --> 00:43:17,880
Speaker 5: I guess. It's yeah, it's harder to take in than

687
00:43:17,960 --> 00:43:20,200
Speaker 5: it bounced. But I mean it makes sense.

688
00:43:20,960 --> 00:43:24,480
Speaker 1: You go, you really got to deprogram yourself from the

689
00:43:24,680 --> 00:43:29,959
Speaker 1: gut instinct to compare yourself to other people. It's really

690
00:43:30,080 --> 00:43:33,919
Speaker 1: important because if you don't do that, you just you'll

691
00:43:34,000 --> 00:43:38,319
Speaker 1: just never be comfortable. And if you're not comfortable, then

692
00:43:38,480 --> 00:43:41,480
Speaker 1: when you're in these social situations, you just you just

693
00:43:41,520 --> 00:43:44,360
Speaker 1: gotta feel all this pain because you're not comfortable with yourself.

694
00:43:44,600 --> 00:43:46,759
Speaker 1: And you know what another thing is is this is

695
00:43:46,800 --> 00:43:49,000
Speaker 1: a net because even dude, even if you do go

696
00:43:49,160 --> 00:43:53,040
Speaker 1: out on one night and you meet a girl who

697
00:43:53,239 --> 00:43:57,560
Speaker 1: likes you and you know, whatever things work out, well,

698
00:43:58,280 --> 00:44:01,279
Speaker 1: it's you're it's still and if that happens, it's you

699
00:44:01,520 --> 00:44:06,440
Speaker 1: still are not have you still don't have a sustainable

700
00:44:07,320 --> 00:44:09,960
Speaker 1: solution to your problem, you know what I mean? Because now,

701
00:44:10,480 --> 00:44:13,360
Speaker 1: if a girl does like you and that gives you

702
00:44:13,440 --> 00:44:16,880
Speaker 1: a lot of confidence, the confidence that you have is

703
00:44:17,239 --> 00:44:21,839
Speaker 1: linked then to an external thing. And so if that girl,

704
00:44:22,200 --> 00:44:24,160
Speaker 1: you know, for whatever reason, decides when that she doesn't

705
00:44:24,239 --> 00:44:27,480
Speaker 1: like you, then then then you're fucked because you had

706
00:44:27,560 --> 00:44:32,040
Speaker 1: your confidence not from this internal place that you really

707
00:44:33,320 --> 00:44:38,960
Speaker 1: brought out, but in you know, someone else's external validation.

708
00:44:39,719 --> 00:44:41,480
Speaker 1: So you have to do this work no matter what.

709
00:44:42,520 --> 00:44:43,920
Speaker 1: If you want to get to a good place.

710
00:44:44,360 --> 00:44:48,359
Speaker 5: Yeah, you got to build that solid foundation otherwise, if

711
00:44:48,360 --> 00:44:49,839
Speaker 5: it doesn't break now, break later.

712
00:44:50,160 --> 00:44:53,840
Speaker 1: Yeah of course you'll just just you'll just be happier.

713
00:44:58,400 --> 00:45:08,520
Speaker 5: Yeah yeah, yeah, LA just feel that's such a vain place.

714
00:45:08,640 --> 00:45:10,800
Speaker 5: But I guess there's always other excuses to make. But

715
00:45:10,800 --> 00:45:12,320
Speaker 5: the end of the day, just got to stop with

716
00:45:12,400 --> 00:45:15,960
Speaker 5: the comparisons, bring the validation inside, and just move on.

717
00:45:16,960 --> 00:45:20,800
Speaker 1: Tell me anything else about this this bitterness? Does it

718
00:45:20,920 --> 00:45:24,719
Speaker 1: come from anything besides just height?

719
00:45:34,560 --> 00:45:36,920
Speaker 5: Like I don't know how to pinpoint it, but you know,

720
00:45:37,360 --> 00:45:40,520
Speaker 5: like like seeing the comparisons with the friends that or

721
00:45:40,600 --> 00:45:45,560
Speaker 5: even my brother, Like I have had women offer to

722
00:45:45,719 --> 00:45:51,759
Speaker 5: paint my brother to have sex with him. Okay, yeah,

723
00:45:52,719 --> 00:45:55,120
Speaker 5: and like he's he's you know, he's my own brothers,

724
00:45:55,200 --> 00:45:58,279
Speaker 5: so we can't be that different. But he's like six

725
00:45:58,520 --> 00:46:01,200
Speaker 5: three or whatever. It looks a little bit like more

726
00:46:01,239 --> 00:46:03,239
Speaker 5: blondie and blue eyes and shit like that. So I

727
00:46:03,280 --> 00:46:06,640
Speaker 5: don't feel better against him. But it's like, damn, dude,

728
00:46:06,680 --> 00:46:08,719
Speaker 5: I know how to talk. He was very shy. He'll

729
00:46:08,800 --> 00:46:11,520
Speaker 5: just like fuck up the conversation, won't even be able

730
00:46:11,560 --> 00:46:15,920
Speaker 5: to start it. And so I don't know, It's just

731
00:46:16,480 --> 00:46:18,440
Speaker 5: I guess just feels like I'm just keep fishing for

732
00:46:18,600 --> 00:46:22,040
Speaker 5: reasons to be bitter and be like, you know, why

733
00:46:22,120 --> 00:46:24,719
Speaker 5: don't we have a small percentage of dudes get all

734
00:46:24,800 --> 00:46:27,719
Speaker 5: this and then everybody else, you know, feels like shorter

735
00:46:27,840 --> 00:46:31,520
Speaker 5: in the stick. And then I've been trying to avoid Reddit.

736
00:46:31,840 --> 00:46:34,040
Speaker 5: But at the same time, you also hear like so

737
00:46:34,160 --> 00:46:38,080
Speaker 5: many stories about cheating, cheating or like bad divorces, and

738
00:46:38,200 --> 00:46:40,320
Speaker 5: that's like, Okay, do I even want to try to

739
00:46:40,400 --> 00:46:42,600
Speaker 5: work on my strong points and get back into this

740
00:46:42,680 --> 00:46:45,719
Speaker 5: relationship game? Because let's say, even if I do, is

741
00:46:45,719 --> 00:46:48,120
Speaker 5: it gonna burnt his ship? Like you know, the negative

742
00:46:48,160 --> 00:46:48,959
Speaker 5: stories that you can see.

743
00:46:49,640 --> 00:46:55,080
Speaker 1: Sure, do I teally understand all that. I totally understand,

744
00:46:55,280 --> 00:47:02,120
Speaker 1: you know, being jealous of other peace people, feeling pessimistic

745
00:47:02,360 --> 00:47:09,760
Speaker 1: about whatever, you know, your your perceived state of of whatever,

746
00:47:09,840 --> 00:47:16,200
Speaker 1: whatever your perceptions of other people are. But try if

747
00:47:16,239 --> 00:47:19,480
Speaker 1: you can and really understand that this is the only

748
00:47:19,560 --> 00:47:22,000
Speaker 1: way to do it. And dear God, take this from me.

749
00:47:22,120 --> 00:47:25,040
Speaker 1: I'm five six and I'm fat, and I feel pretty

750
00:47:25,600 --> 00:47:28,560
Speaker 1: decently about myself in this whole thing.

751
00:47:30,160 --> 00:47:30,759
Speaker 4: You got it?

752
00:47:30,880 --> 00:47:33,960
Speaker 1: The really the only work is to just look at

753
00:47:34,000 --> 00:47:37,440
Speaker 1: yourself and try to find things to be grateful for

754
00:47:38,360 --> 00:47:42,520
Speaker 1: in your life and what strengths you do have, and

755
00:47:43,000 --> 00:47:49,960
Speaker 1: just stop deprogram yourself from comparing yourself to other people

756
00:47:50,680 --> 00:47:55,640
Speaker 1: and just find the innate things to like about yourself

757
00:47:56,160 --> 00:48:01,960
Speaker 1: on your own and life will get much better from there.

758
00:48:03,239 --> 00:48:05,160
Speaker 1: And it's a way, and like I've said this, sorry,

759
00:48:05,239 --> 00:48:06,799
Speaker 1: but I'm going to say it again because it's an

760
00:48:06,800 --> 00:48:10,920
Speaker 1: important thing. With all this, that's the only way to

761
00:48:11,080 --> 00:48:13,360
Speaker 1: really do it because any other thing, like if you,

762
00:48:14,080 --> 00:48:15,520
Speaker 1: like I said, if you go out and you meet

763
00:48:15,600 --> 00:48:18,000
Speaker 1: someone and you're like, oh, you know that you get

764
00:48:18,040 --> 00:48:21,080
Speaker 1: this validation from another person, that's not sustainable. You have

765
00:48:21,200 --> 00:48:23,560
Speaker 1: to do this work no matter what. If you want

766
00:48:23,600 --> 00:48:25,960
Speaker 1: to just feel better and not be so better.

767
00:48:34,680 --> 00:48:41,000
Speaker 5: Like trying to. I don't know. It's like telling yourself

768
00:48:41,200 --> 00:48:45,279
Speaker 5: that you should be valued and being grateful. You do

769
00:48:45,480 --> 00:48:51,400
Speaker 5: that just because like or how do you? I don't know.

770
00:48:51,640 --> 00:48:54,400
Speaker 5: It's like a weird thing, like why should I value

771
00:48:54,520 --> 00:48:58,480
Speaker 5: myself or the skills that I have? You know, the

772
00:48:58,760 --> 00:49:03,680
Speaker 5: pessimistic part there, So I don't know. It's definitely overthinking.

773
00:49:03,320 --> 00:49:07,720
Speaker 1: Why should you because you're because you're committed to doing

774
00:49:07,880 --> 00:49:12,000
Speaker 1: what you can with what you have, you know, and

775
00:49:12,160 --> 00:49:15,040
Speaker 1: and I know, like this pessimism optimism thing, it's ultimately

776
00:49:15,080 --> 00:49:20,000
Speaker 1: a choice and if you want to, you know you

777
00:49:20,080 --> 00:49:22,000
Speaker 1: can if you listen, man, if you want to, you

778
00:49:22,080 --> 00:49:24,960
Speaker 1: can steal in the bitterness, and you can steal in pessimism,

779
00:49:25,520 --> 00:49:30,520
Speaker 1: and you can marinate in the feelings of jealousy towards

780
00:49:30,560 --> 00:49:34,000
Speaker 1: your brother and towards other people. But you don't have to.

781
00:49:34,880 --> 00:49:38,759
Speaker 1: There's a much better solution. And I am extending my

782
00:49:39,000 --> 00:49:43,800
Speaker 1: hand out to you right now to choose to be

783
00:49:43,920 --> 00:49:47,120
Speaker 1: optimistic if you desire.

784
00:49:50,360 --> 00:49:53,360
Speaker 5: You know, honestly, that kind of makes sense, like not

785
00:49:53,440 --> 00:49:55,399
Speaker 5: thinking about it too much, just taking it as a choice,

786
00:49:55,440 --> 00:49:58,839
Speaker 5: and you can just be optimistic pessimistic and why run

787
00:49:58,920 --> 00:49:59,640
Speaker 5: with the bad one?

788
00:50:01,160 --> 00:50:01,359
Speaker 4: Yeah?

789
00:50:04,560 --> 00:50:07,560
Speaker 1: How do you How do you feel about what we

790
00:50:07,760 --> 00:50:09,920
Speaker 1: have discussed ultimately before we go?

791
00:50:13,200 --> 00:50:16,680
Speaker 5: Honestly, it really helps good. Yeah, I mean, I think

792
00:50:16,719 --> 00:50:18,640
Speaker 5: there are a lot of good lessons in there. And

793
00:50:18,760 --> 00:50:20,920
Speaker 5: then at the end, like not overthinking it and just

794
00:50:21,600 --> 00:50:23,680
Speaker 5: some of the important mental health decisions are just like

795
00:50:23,719 --> 00:50:28,200
Speaker 5: an arbitrary choice and you could just take the good one. Mm.

796
00:50:29,440 --> 00:50:33,279
Speaker 1: Just please just recognize when you're comparing yourself to other

797
00:50:33,360 --> 00:50:35,520
Speaker 1: people and I do that too. You. I think I

798
00:50:35,560 --> 00:50:37,360
Speaker 1: think everybody does. I think everybody compares to those of

799
00:50:37,360 --> 00:50:39,680
Speaker 1: other people. And you just need to train yourself to

800
00:50:39,920 --> 00:50:44,960
Speaker 1: really take in that it's not productive to do and

801
00:50:45,120 --> 00:50:52,760
Speaker 1: that it's it's uh, it's it's like almost almost blasphemous

802
00:50:53,400 --> 00:50:57,440
Speaker 1: toward the toward whatever gifts you have been given in

803
00:50:57,560 --> 00:51:00,560
Speaker 1: this world, whatever you do have. You know these things

804
00:51:00,600 --> 00:51:02,319
Speaker 1: you were telling me about about how you are good

805
00:51:02,360 --> 00:51:04,600
Speaker 1: at going on, you're good at talking to people, you know,

806
00:51:05,320 --> 00:51:08,920
Speaker 1: whatever it is you do have, it's neglectful of that,

807
00:51:10,000 --> 00:51:12,440
Speaker 1: and and that's that's not good. You should be embracing

808
00:51:12,520 --> 00:51:15,000
Speaker 1: the things that you do have instead of going out

809
00:51:15,040 --> 00:51:16,880
Speaker 1: and comparing yourself to other people and looking at the

810
00:51:16,960 --> 00:51:20,799
Speaker 1: things that you don't. I used to be fixed, dude.

811
00:51:20,840 --> 00:51:22,520
Speaker 1: I used to be fixated on my height and my

812
00:51:22,560 --> 00:51:25,000
Speaker 1: weight way more than I am now. And all the

813
00:51:25,160 --> 00:51:27,759
Speaker 1: shit that I'm telling you is how I got over that.

814
00:51:32,520 --> 00:51:35,520
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean, it makes sense and it genuinely helps.

815
00:51:35,520 --> 00:51:38,839
Speaker 5: And I'm just gonna gotta remember this and I don't

816
00:51:39,040 --> 00:51:43,080
Speaker 5: change and just be better because you can't, like, yeah,

817
00:51:43,200 --> 00:51:43,920
Speaker 5: accept what it is.

818
00:51:44,360 --> 00:51:46,360
Speaker 1: Go with the strength, beautiful.

819
00:51:47,680 --> 00:51:49,160
Speaker 4: Thank you, John.

820
00:51:49,200 --> 00:51:50,239
Speaker 1: Is there anything you want to say to the people

821
00:51:50,239 --> 00:51:50,960
Speaker 1: the computer before we go.

822
00:51:55,440 --> 00:51:57,319
Speaker 5: I hope if you guys are going through similar things,

823
00:51:57,400 --> 00:52:00,759
Speaker 5: you can also take this advice and you know, run

824
00:52:00,840 --> 00:52:03,080
Speaker 5: with the better parts of yourself, because why not.

825
00:52:03,760 --> 00:52:04,040
Speaker 7: That's it.

826
00:52:04,680 --> 00:52:08,120
Speaker 1: Thank you, Yeah, bye again John Forever, See you later.

827
00:52:09,880 --> 00:52:11,040
Speaker 7: Hello, Hello.

828
00:52:12,680 --> 00:52:14,720
Speaker 1: Brandon twenty six from Texas.

829
00:52:18,160 --> 00:52:18,800
Speaker 2: What's going on?

830
00:52:19,120 --> 00:52:24,320
Speaker 1: GEK not a whole lot. I need new answers to

831
00:52:24,400 --> 00:52:29,640
Speaker 1: that question because I get asked it a lot, and

832
00:52:29,760 --> 00:52:32,080
Speaker 1: I understand why. It's a pretty common thing to ask

833
00:52:32,120 --> 00:52:34,600
Speaker 1: a person. Somebody says, hey, how are you? You say

834
00:52:34,640 --> 00:52:37,879
Speaker 1: I'm good, how are you? And then I say I'm good?

835
00:52:38,120 --> 00:52:40,120
Speaker 1: But I need different responses. I feel like I always

836
00:52:40,120 --> 00:52:42,160
Speaker 1: say the same thing. I say, I'm a guy, go

837
00:52:42,280 --> 00:52:45,480
Speaker 1: on the computer, I'm doing good. And even this, what

838
00:52:45,560 --> 00:52:48,759
Speaker 1: I'm saying right now that I need new responses is

839
00:52:49,320 --> 00:52:52,080
Speaker 1: one of my old responses. This, as I'm talking about

840
00:52:52,120 --> 00:52:59,360
Speaker 1: it is an old response that I've used many times.

841
00:52:59,640 --> 00:53:02,200
Speaker 1: And then next time I'm talking about this, it's gonna

842
00:53:02,200 --> 00:53:04,440
Speaker 1: get you. It's gonna get meta. So I'm gonna be

843
00:53:04,480 --> 00:53:06,960
Speaker 1: talking about how every time someone asks me how I am,

844
00:53:07,000 --> 00:53:09,360
Speaker 1: I say I need new responses, and then me saying

845
00:53:09,400 --> 00:53:11,839
Speaker 1: I need new responses and then me saying that I'm

846
00:53:11,920 --> 00:53:17,040
Speaker 1: saying that I need new responses. It has become old anyway.

847
00:53:17,080 --> 00:53:19,320
Speaker 1: I don't know if that gave you an indicator of

848
00:53:19,360 --> 00:53:21,600
Speaker 1: how I'm doing. But enough about me. How are you, Brandon?

849
00:53:21,800 --> 00:53:23,120
Speaker 1: Tell me everything? Tell me nothing.

850
00:53:25,800 --> 00:53:29,600
Speaker 2: Well, I'm going pretty great now that I got on

851
00:53:29,800 --> 00:53:31,600
Speaker 2: the lines. I was kind of on the hold for

852
00:53:31,680 --> 00:53:35,480
Speaker 2: a little bit, making me nervous. But now that you answered,

853
00:53:35,560 --> 00:53:39,239
Speaker 2: I'm like a little bit nervous, but pretty.

854
00:53:38,920 --> 00:53:47,719
Speaker 1: Good, Brandon. It says here that a velociraptor came out

855
00:53:47,800 --> 00:53:52,520
Speaker 1: of a portal and into your room when you were

856
00:53:52,560 --> 00:53:53,080
Speaker 1: a child.

857
00:53:56,960 --> 00:53:57,480
Speaker 5: Yeah, so.

858
00:53:59,840 --> 00:54:00,560
Speaker 4: I I kind of.

859
00:54:02,640 --> 00:54:06,000
Speaker 2: Took my girlfriend's story on that this actually happened to

860
00:54:06,160 --> 00:54:09,160
Speaker 2: my girlfriend, And when she told me, I was.

861
00:54:09,320 --> 00:54:13,200
Speaker 1: Like, whoa what wait wait wait, okay, so that just

862
00:54:13,320 --> 00:54:15,320
Speaker 1: didn't even happen to you. This happened to your girlfriend.

863
00:54:17,080 --> 00:54:18,600
Speaker 2: Yeah, this happened to my girlfriend.

864
00:54:19,080 --> 00:54:20,759
Speaker 1: Well, Brandon, she is she with you?

865
00:54:23,440 --> 00:54:25,600
Speaker 2: No, she's not with me. She's at home right now

866
00:54:25,640 --> 00:54:26,000
Speaker 2: watching this.

867
00:54:26,160 --> 00:54:26,440
Speaker 8: Call her.

868
00:54:26,800 --> 00:54:28,360
Speaker 1: Yeah, call her on the phone. I don't want to

869
00:54:28,360 --> 00:54:29,359
Speaker 1: talk to you, I want to talk to her.

870
00:54:32,880 --> 00:54:37,040
Speaker 2: Well, I have a pretty good idea of what happened

871
00:54:37,040 --> 00:54:38,719
Speaker 2: to the story if you still want to talk to.

872
00:54:38,800 --> 00:54:44,320
Speaker 1: Me, I I guess. But it's not the story itself.

873
00:54:44,440 --> 00:54:48,480
Speaker 1: It's it's the the emotions behind it. It's it's I

874
00:54:48,800 --> 00:54:51,920
Speaker 1: don't you know, really want to interview you about somebody

875
00:54:51,920 --> 00:54:59,440
Speaker 1: else's story. H give her a call because call her now,

876
00:55:00,800 --> 00:55:03,839
Speaker 1: eder in Coller right now, Yeah, call her right now, Edran,

877
00:55:04,520 --> 00:55:11,080
Speaker 1: all right, we'll do all right. We are on hold

878
00:55:12,600 --> 00:55:20,719
Speaker 1: while Brandon, who is a dirty, dirty liar, calls his

879
00:55:20,880 --> 00:55:27,719
Speaker 1: girlfriend so that we can ask her why she continues

880
00:55:27,800 --> 00:55:32,600
Speaker 1: to stay with a person who calls into online Gecko

881
00:55:32,719 --> 00:55:41,400
Speaker 1: shows and lies about stories that are not his own. No,

882
00:55:41,520 --> 00:55:45,080
Speaker 1: I'm giving Brandon too much shit because it's fun to

883
00:55:45,320 --> 00:55:47,960
Speaker 1: be It's fun to be upset. Brandon, Are you there?

884
00:55:49,960 --> 00:55:50,200
Speaker 5: Yes?

885
00:55:50,360 --> 00:55:51,760
Speaker 2: And my girlfriend's on the line.

886
00:55:52,600 --> 00:55:58,879
Speaker 1: Hello, Hillo, Hi there, what is your name?

887
00:56:00,800 --> 00:56:03,320
Speaker 4: I'm Sarah, Sarah.

888
00:56:05,200 --> 00:56:10,080
Speaker 1: I heard from your boyfriend that when you were younger,

889
00:56:10,200 --> 00:56:12,920
Speaker 1: if alas a raptor came out of a portal and

890
00:56:13,040 --> 00:56:13,759
Speaker 1: into your room.

891
00:56:15,920 --> 00:56:19,240
Speaker 8: It did, and I remember it like it was yesterday.

892
00:56:19,680 --> 00:56:21,040
Speaker 1: Okay, Well, I want to talk to you about it,

893
00:56:21,120 --> 00:56:22,960
Speaker 1: but before we do, Before we do, I just want

894
00:56:23,000 --> 00:56:27,960
Speaker 1: you to know that your boyfriend lied to me and

895
00:56:28,120 --> 00:56:31,000
Speaker 1: told me that it was his story, and I want

896
00:56:31,000 --> 00:56:33,160
Speaker 1: to know how you feel about that before we hear

897
00:56:33,239 --> 00:56:35,600
Speaker 1: the story. I wonder how you feel about him lying.

898
00:56:37,680 --> 00:56:40,560
Speaker 8: I'm not too mad about it, like he knew I

899
00:56:40,640 --> 00:56:45,400
Speaker 8: don't really know streaming times, so these little sneaky snakes sometimes,

900
00:56:45,520 --> 00:56:47,080
Speaker 8: but he had good intentions.

901
00:56:47,560 --> 00:56:49,200
Speaker 1: Well that was the wrong answer. I want you to

902
00:56:49,280 --> 00:56:51,600
Speaker 1: be very, very mad at him. I want you to

903
00:56:51,680 --> 00:56:54,360
Speaker 1: be act. We had to act cordial towards him for

904
00:56:54,440 --> 00:56:56,680
Speaker 1: the rest of this call, but when we're done with this,

905
00:56:56,760 --> 00:56:57,680
Speaker 1: you need to yell at him.

906
00:57:00,239 --> 00:57:01,960
Speaker 8: But I won't pack it much tomorrow.

907
00:57:01,760 --> 00:57:02,080
Speaker 4: Just for you.

908
00:57:02,800 --> 00:57:06,240
Speaker 1: Okay, how did this what happened with this philosopher Raptor?

909
00:57:08,880 --> 00:57:09,120
Speaker 4: Yeah?

910
00:57:09,320 --> 00:57:13,800
Speaker 8: So I was probably five and I was just sitting

911
00:57:13,840 --> 00:57:17,320
Speaker 8: in bed. It was like midday. I was fully awake,

912
00:57:18,560 --> 00:57:23,080
Speaker 8: and all of a sudden, this circle portal like opens

913
00:57:23,920 --> 00:57:24,520
Speaker 8: right next to.

914
00:57:24,600 --> 00:57:25,160
Speaker 4: My bed.

915
00:57:26,480 --> 00:57:29,760
Speaker 6: And I see a dinosaur head avelotso wrapped your head

916
00:57:30,560 --> 00:57:34,360
Speaker 6: look in my bedroom like it was surprised, like, oh,

917
00:57:34,440 --> 00:57:38,400
Speaker 6: I'm not supposed to be here right now, and I

918
00:57:38,640 --> 00:57:39,520
Speaker 6: just stare at it.

919
00:57:41,160 --> 00:57:45,000
Speaker 8: Really scared because you know, you hear well, people might

920
00:57:45,040 --> 00:57:48,080
Speaker 8: break into your house. That's scary. Nobody worries you about

921
00:57:48,120 --> 00:57:51,200
Speaker 8: what happens when a dinosaur shows up in your house. Nope,

922
00:57:54,360 --> 00:57:57,360
Speaker 8: And it just kind of looked at me and then

923
00:57:57,960 --> 00:58:01,960
Speaker 8: went right back in and said, I kind of have

924
00:58:02,160 --> 00:58:04,720
Speaker 8: like the screech that I can do that my mom

925
00:58:04,920 --> 00:58:07,760
Speaker 8: is really scared of, and I haven't heard anybody else.

926
00:58:07,640 --> 00:58:08,200
Speaker 5: Be able to do it.

927
00:58:09,360 --> 00:58:10,520
Speaker 1: Wait, so this is.

928
00:58:12,080 --> 00:58:12,120
Speaker 5: So.

929
00:58:12,280 --> 00:58:16,920
Speaker 1: This velociraptor not only visited upon you, but it dropped

930
00:58:17,000 --> 00:58:21,760
Speaker 1: a gift of its screech into your lungs it did.

931
00:58:21,840 --> 00:58:22,680
Speaker 2: Would you like to hear it?

932
00:58:23,480 --> 00:58:23,680
Speaker 4: Yeah?

933
00:58:23,720 --> 00:58:32,600
Speaker 1: Of course, you know. I don't know what a velociraptor

934
00:58:32,680 --> 00:58:36,680
Speaker 1: screech sounds like, but that sounds like sounds like it?

935
00:58:36,840 --> 00:58:37,040
Speaker 1: Is that.

936
00:58:39,480 --> 00:58:39,640
Speaker 8: Right?

937
00:58:40,560 --> 00:58:40,880
Speaker 1: Brandon?

938
00:58:40,920 --> 00:58:42,680
Speaker 8: You do what You're the only person I've ever told

939
00:58:42,720 --> 00:58:43,920
Speaker 8: about this, So I'm happy.

940
00:58:44,600 --> 00:58:46,000
Speaker 5: Oh my god, I need to do it.

941
00:58:47,760 --> 00:58:48,560
Speaker 1: I like hers better.

942
00:58:50,760 --> 00:58:51,040
Speaker 4: Thank you?

943
00:58:54,880 --> 00:58:57,240
Speaker 1: Interesting you've only told Brandon about Why have you only

944
00:58:57,280 --> 00:59:00,880
Speaker 1: told Brandon about this? Is this something that you're ashamed of? Capacity?

945
00:59:03,240 --> 00:59:05,680
Speaker 8: Well, my sisters knows I can do the streets, but

946
00:59:05,800 --> 00:59:08,600
Speaker 8: she doesn't really know where it came from. And of course,

947
00:59:08,680 --> 00:59:10,440
Speaker 8: like I ran into my mom's room to tell her

948
00:59:10,480 --> 00:59:13,160
Speaker 8: what happened, and she's just saying, oh, well, children have

949
00:59:13,360 --> 00:59:17,080
Speaker 8: active vaccinations. You were just dreaming, But I was not.

950
00:59:17,360 --> 00:59:21,040
Speaker 8: I was fully awake. But when I told her in

951
00:59:21,120 --> 00:59:24,600
Speaker 8: in this he said, well, maybe it was an alien

952
00:59:25,120 --> 00:59:31,240
Speaker 8: visiting you. And that had me thinking, because I'm very

953
00:59:31,320 --> 00:59:33,880
Speaker 8: open minded as a person, like it very well could

954
00:59:33,960 --> 00:59:38,280
Speaker 8: have been an extraterrestrial being just messing up where they

955
00:59:38,280 --> 00:59:42,160
Speaker 8: were supposed to go and just being like okay, sorry

956
00:59:42,280 --> 00:59:42,720
Speaker 8: and leaving.

957
00:59:44,480 --> 00:59:46,400
Speaker 1: Do you believe that that's really what it could have

958
00:59:46,480 --> 00:59:48,080
Speaker 1: been in it and it wasn't just some kind of

959
00:59:49,240 --> 00:59:50,160
Speaker 1: nightmare that you had.

960
00:59:52,480 --> 00:59:56,040
Speaker 8: Honestly, Yeah, Because I could barely even sleep most of

961
00:59:56,120 --> 00:59:59,800
Speaker 8: my life, and when I do sleep at least laid

962
00:59:59,840 --> 01:00:04,640
Speaker 8: out very deep sleeper, I would have remembered that. And

963
01:00:04,720 --> 01:00:06,400
Speaker 8: it was the middle of the day. I was playing

964
01:00:06,440 --> 01:00:07,800
Speaker 8: around and I say, could break to lay.

965
01:00:07,720 --> 01:00:12,680
Speaker 1: Down, sir. This was in the middle of the day. Yes, Oh,

966
01:00:12,760 --> 01:00:15,720
Speaker 1: that makes it like probably that weirdly makes it more

967
01:00:15,960 --> 01:00:18,560
Speaker 1: scary to me than if it was in the middle.

968
01:00:18,560 --> 01:00:23,960
Speaker 1: That's one of those rare things. Uh, To this day,

969
01:00:24,280 --> 01:00:29,320
Speaker 1: have you have you had any experiences with dinosaurs coming

970
01:00:29,360 --> 01:00:30,440
Speaker 1: into your house? Since?

971
01:00:32,560 --> 01:00:33,080
Speaker 7: Not at all?

972
01:00:33,160 --> 01:00:35,440
Speaker 8: And it kind of makes me fad. I kind of wish,

973
01:00:36,040 --> 01:00:38,560
Speaker 8: and I'll see it as an adult, just to know

974
01:00:39,080 --> 01:00:42,480
Speaker 8: for sure, and hopefully like Brandon or someone will be

975
01:00:42,560 --> 01:00:43,040
Speaker 8: there with me.

976
01:00:43,360 --> 01:00:44,520
Speaker 6: So I have proofs.

977
01:00:45,960 --> 01:00:48,760
Speaker 1: You should do some d MT. I've never done it,

978
01:00:48,880 --> 01:00:51,440
Speaker 1: nor do I know anything about it, not even enough

979
01:00:51,520 --> 01:00:53,360
Speaker 1: to tell you that you should do it, but it

980
01:00:53,480 --> 01:00:57,320
Speaker 1: sounds like you might see dinosaurs if you do, I.

981
01:00:57,320 --> 01:00:57,840
Speaker 8: Would love that.

982
01:01:00,080 --> 01:01:06,160
Speaker 1: Well, what is your name again, I'm Sarah. Sarah. So

983
01:01:06,200 --> 01:01:07,520
Speaker 1: there's anything else you want to say to the people

984
01:01:07,520 --> 01:01:08,360
Speaker 1: of the computer before you go.

985
01:01:11,160 --> 01:01:12,520
Speaker 8: I hope you guys have a great night.

986
01:01:14,120 --> 01:01:17,200
Speaker 1: Believe in dinosaurs, Brandon's anything you want to say, maybe

987
01:01:17,240 --> 01:01:18,800
Speaker 1: in the form of an apology.

988
01:01:22,560 --> 01:01:26,280
Speaker 2: People of the Computer, I am not sorry for lying.

989
01:01:26,600 --> 01:01:28,840
Speaker 2: I got on the GET and that was the best

990
01:01:28,920 --> 01:01:31,560
Speaker 2: experience in my life, so I am not ashamed of it.

991
01:01:34,240 --> 01:01:37,720
Speaker 1: I'll talk to you guys soon. Rebecon goes on the

992
01:01:37,840 --> 01:01:41,760
Speaker 1: line thinking your own calls every night, every beacon goes

993
01:01:41,800 --> 01:01:46,360
Speaker 1: to I'm just teaching you aloud. Your lives not friendly.