WEBVTT - Worry About Your Damn Self

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<v Speaker 1>We're just two unapologetically black women with an opinion who talks.

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<v Speaker 1>What's up?

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<v Speaker 2>Y'all? Thank you for tuning in for a new episode

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<v Speaker 2>and we talked back a show dedicated to you dreamers

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<v Speaker 2>and chasers. This is your co host AJ Holiday. What's up,

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<v Speaker 2>Tam Bam?

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<v Speaker 1>Do anybody want a motherfucking dog? Do anybody want a dog?

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<v Speaker 2>I want to pat that dog? Let me pet that doll.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my god, Hey y'all, I love y'all. What's up?

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<v Speaker 1>What's up? As damn?

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<v Speaker 2>Are you the I R S?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry, I'm stressed.

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<v Speaker 2>Goddamn. What's the agent from Matrix? The agent name off

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<v Speaker 2>the Matrix? That's what's up? Ashley? Like, what y'all?

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<v Speaker 1>My puppy? I kept the rug, my rug up off

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<v Speaker 1>my floor for months trying to train her. And once

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<v Speaker 1>I thought I had her all the way trade, I

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<v Speaker 1>put my rug down and it's like I never trained her.

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<v Speaker 2>She like, I ain't never pissed on this before. Let

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<v Speaker 2>me get on this. Let me see what this be like.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my gosh, she shpit on it yesterday and she

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<v Speaker 1>pissed on it today. And if y'all want a dog

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<v Speaker 1>for Christmas? DM me.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna need you to stop getting dogs, and they're

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<v Speaker 2>giving the ask the way y'all listen. So this weekend

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<v Speaker 2>I attended my cousin's wedding. My cousin, Arthur, my first cousin,

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<v Speaker 2>got married, and I have a cousin who Tammy gifted

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<v Speaker 2>her last dog to dog's name was Findy initially the dog.

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<v Speaker 2>Now his name is Chewy, and he actually attended the wedding.

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<v Speaker 2>Nigga was there with a tuxedo on because my cousin

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<v Speaker 2>don't go nowhere without that fucking dog.

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<v Speaker 1>Well he found a good homes I'm the dog. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>the Oprah of dogs. You get a dog, you get

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<v Speaker 1>a dog, motherfucker. Because I didn't want.

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<v Speaker 2>The dog for a couple of minutes.

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<v Speaker 1>I love her. She's cool, but it's the piss and

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<v Speaker 1>shit that I can't deal with.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't like puppies, you know, And the same way

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<v Speaker 2>I don't really like babies like that. I like seven

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<v Speaker 2>year olds.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, because look they get big, they got some.

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<v Speaker 2>Sense exactly like this is hard diamonds.

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<v Speaker 1>I could keep her. She would never use the bathroom

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<v Speaker 1>in my house. She was so smart. I mean, when

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<v Speaker 1>she was a puppy, obviously, But when she got big,

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<v Speaker 1>she learned this right here is dumb.

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<v Speaker 2>Not this right here, it's a frenchie. This right here,

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<v Speaker 2>y'all know them dogs are tired anyway. Okay, I don't

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<v Speaker 2>understand why people even like Frenchies, Like it's not a

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<v Speaker 2>natural breed of dog.

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<v Speaker 1>And it's like you really that dog tagage get you? Like,

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<v Speaker 1>really sat right next to me and pissed on my

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<v Speaker 1>road while I'm sitting right here? Is wow?

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<v Speaker 2>You know, sometimes dogs do things they get attention from me,

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<v Speaker 2>Like she knows if she pees like she's gonna at

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<v Speaker 2>least get some type of emotion from you. So maybe

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<v Speaker 2>you need to change how you spawned her pin because

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<v Speaker 2>she's associating that even whatever type of response it is,

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<v Speaker 2>she's so she.

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<v Speaker 1>Wanted ass whoopings all the time.

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<v Speaker 2>She might have gotten conditioned for ass whippings. I don't know,

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<v Speaker 2>are you abusive?

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<v Speaker 1>That's what you call it?

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<v Speaker 2>Anyway? How was your weekend? Aside from clean up shit

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<v Speaker 2>and pissh gosh?

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<v Speaker 1>My weekend was good. I went to see The Whiz

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<v Speaker 1>over the week, really it was.

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<v Speaker 2>I watched it on what I think it's on Amazon

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<v Speaker 2>right now? Oh?

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<v Speaker 1>Really? The play no the Oh the Original with MJ

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<v Speaker 1>and Diana Ross. Yeah. I try to get my date

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<v Speaker 1>to watch the actual original before we went, but he

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<v Speaker 1>didn't do it.

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<v Speaker 2>So he never seen it before.

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<v Speaker 1>How old is he?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, okay, go ahead. So he was born in nineteen

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<v Speaker 2>ninety six, this bitch.

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<v Speaker 1>So it was so funny because he's like ghetto but

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<v Speaker 1>not ghetto, right. So we was at the player and

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<v Speaker 1>he was like, yeah, this is cool. Yeah, this ship

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<v Speaker 1>alight right here. He's like, I ain't never did no

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<v Speaker 1>ship like this before before, Like she we could do

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<v Speaker 1>all the plays and ship goodness. But it was so

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<v Speaker 1>much fun that y'all, if the Wiz is coming to

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<v Speaker 1>your city, you definitely want to go out and see it.

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<v Speaker 1>Like they were singing their face off. I'm telling you,

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<v Speaker 1>these people could sing and dance and everything. And Deborah

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<v Speaker 1>Cox was Glinda the good Witch.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh nice. So what other stars is in the play?

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<v Speaker 1>She would be the only one that you would know.

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<v Speaker 1>So his name is Avery Wilson. He plays a scarecrow. Amazing, amazing?

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<v Speaker 2>How long is That's what me and Charlotte it's over here.

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<v Speaker 1>It was only for the weekend here and they're moving on.

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<v Speaker 1>But it's pre Broadway. So they're headed to New York

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<v Speaker 1>where I heard Wayne Brady Wayne Brady will be the Wiz.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know who that person was, but he was

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<v Speaker 1>good too. I mean every it was amazing.

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<v Speaker 2>I want to do plays. I used to do plays.

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<v Speaker 2>I did dream Girls in Charleston once.

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<v Speaker 1>Really, how old were you I was?

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<v Speaker 2>I was stilling. This is my last year of high

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<v Speaker 2>school and I did plays at Benedict.

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<v Speaker 1>Really? Yes, I missed that.

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<v Speaker 2>We did one monk you don't stop no show at Benedict.

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<v Speaker 1>Really?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, you were in the drama, in the drama.

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<v Speaker 1>That makes sense because you're full of drama. What happened

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<v Speaker 1>since of the week?

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<v Speaker 2>What this week? Tamar Braxton and Krishawn Rocks and what's

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<v Speaker 2>this guy's name?

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<v Speaker 1>James Wright Chanel? Did y'all see that?

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<v Speaker 2>Did they have footage out there? Do they have footage

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<v Speaker 2>out there of her hitting him?

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<v Speaker 1>I haven't seen any footage of her hitting him, all right,

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<v Speaker 1>so if y'all have been under the rock. Krishan came

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<v Speaker 1>out during Tamar's performance on her tour, and Tony actually

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<v Speaker 1>came out, and at first they showed they had video

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<v Speaker 1>of Krishan like bent over for a picture in front

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<v Speaker 1>of Tony and Tamar, and TONI was looking at her like,

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<v Speaker 1>who is this? Yeah, she clutches pearls. Then the video

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<v Speaker 1>started coming around of Krishan on stage while Tamar is

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<v Speaker 1>singing Love and War and she like dancing like it's

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<v Speaker 1>a club song. It was just the wrong energy. It

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<v Speaker 1>was so cringe. I was like, oh, what is happening here?

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<v Speaker 1>But then it came out that Krishan attacked, uh, well, assaulted,

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<v Speaker 1>allegedly James Wright Chanell, who's a background singer for Tamar,

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<v Speaker 1>and he posted a video of him at the dentist

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<v Speaker 1>getting like some dental work done because apparently she affected

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<v Speaker 1>his mouth in some way by the assault.

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<v Speaker 2>Now the guy James right, that's Patty, Yes, yes, how

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<v Speaker 2>you hit this big ass man? He like six foot something.

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<v Speaker 1>That's a big man that she Yeah, girl, where so.

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<v Speaker 2>Taught me from Love and Hip Hop? Was trying to

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<v Speaker 2>accuse them of like staging the whole ship to get

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<v Speaker 2>more attention of visibility on the tour, But Tamar came

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<v Speaker 2>out she was like her tour being sold out for

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<v Speaker 2>a whole month and the only reason why they invited

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<v Speaker 2>Christian Rock is because they were in Baltimore. She's from Baltimore,

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<v Speaker 2>and they think she needs a hug. You know, I

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<v Speaker 2>just watched her her sit down with Jason Lee. Have

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<v Speaker 2>you seen it, Christian Rock. It's like a two hour

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<v Speaker 2>I actually watched the whole two hours, and I have

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<v Speaker 2>some empathy for that little girl. The thing is is

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<v Speaker 2>that you know what they say, what you focus on

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<v Speaker 2>is what you attract, right, So we know that people

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<v Speaker 2>who are they have fixations on things. So I just

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<v Speaker 2>feel like a lot of the people we see in

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<v Speaker 2>entertainment have focused so much on money. That's why it's

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<v Speaker 2>just drawn to them like they they're they able, They

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<v Speaker 2>are able to hone in on things in a way

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<v Speaker 2>that regular people can. That's why those A lot of

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<v Speaker 2>times those people are like really really smart people, but

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<v Speaker 2>they have social skill issues. I feel like that's what

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<v Speaker 2>we're seeing with a lot of these people who have

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of notoriety out here.

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<v Speaker 1>I just feel like, have you ever seen a train

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<v Speaker 1>wreck and looked away? Everybody? Everybody looks at the train wreck,

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<v Speaker 1>everybody watches it when it happens, right, And I think

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<v Speaker 1>this girl is has suffered, you know, she has had

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of trauma and she needs guidance she really

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<v Speaker 1>needs some guidance.

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<v Speaker 2>And then you add money on top of you add.

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<v Speaker 1>Money, and she's beautiful too. I forget she's a beautiful girl.

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<v Speaker 1>So you add all of that and you get Krishan

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<v Speaker 1>Rock And I think people just enjoy watching the mess unfold.

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<v Speaker 1>If she was like, came back off solid, if she

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<v Speaker 1>did a Black China, she probably people will stopped paying attention.

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<v Speaker 2>But sometimes we people haven't stopped paying attention to Black China.

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<v Speaker 2>So you can, you know, do that three sixty and

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<v Speaker 2>people gonna stow fuck with you.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, but you can't.

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<v Speaker 2>And she even the things, the thing that makes me

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<v Speaker 2>like one minute she's talking with a straight mind and

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<v Speaker 2>the next minute it's like these people have slip personalities,

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<v Speaker 2>that they have personality disorders. Something be going on. And

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<v Speaker 2>you add children on top of this shit.

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<v Speaker 1>Man. But even even with Black China, Black China was

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<v Speaker 1>in all the tabloids for all the miss once she

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<v Speaker 1>started changing her life, only black blogs and stuff like

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<v Speaker 1>that she was on.

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<v Speaker 2>She's been on other other because she's closely connected to

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<v Speaker 2>the Kardashians. White folks want to know what she got

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<v Speaker 2>going on too. I've seen her on other people toes

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<v Speaker 2>for sure, people absolutely, but I don't know. I don't

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<v Speaker 2>know what the hell is out with Christian rock.

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<v Speaker 1>Uh.

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<v Speaker 2>Tamar is known for a lot of little weird antics herself,

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<v Speaker 2>so they may have plotted all lists to bring more attentions.

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<v Speaker 2>So I don't know. I doubt that all of you

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<v Speaker 2>are weird is if you ask me anyway?

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<v Speaker 1>Well, heavy holidays all nixt.

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<v Speaker 2>I can't say this negative name to saved my life?

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<v Speaker 2>Say it you, Dinna?

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<v Speaker 1>Yes?

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<v Speaker 2>Isn't the African Rights America?

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<v Speaker 1>Yes?

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<v Speaker 2>So y'all know the singer the Classic Man. So recently

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<v Speaker 2>Jodnna appeared on I don't know if it's a podcast?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah show yeah, okay, call What's Underneath Masculinity. It's a

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<v Speaker 2>podcast by man Enough. The Outlish published a twenty three

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<v Speaker 2>minute episode on November ninth and highlights Jadenna's career and

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<v Speaker 2>personal life, including patterns he's worked to break. I sent

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<v Speaker 2>him a clip of one of his things because he

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<v Speaker 2>seemed to have been taken accountability for things that men

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<v Speaker 2>just don't have the self awareness to tap into to

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<v Speaker 2>see that they're doing right. But it doesn't excuse it.

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<v Speaker 2>He basically admitted to stealing some women's baby making years

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<v Speaker 2>basically wasting their times. They've built him up over the

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<v Speaker 2>years and he basically depleted them, and that is triggering.

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<v Speaker 1>I just want to read what he said. I robbed

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<v Speaker 1>some women of their baby making years, dragging them along.

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<v Speaker 1>They build me up. Look at me now, and look

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<v Speaker 1>at them now. If you were creative, I folded you

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<v Speaker 1>into my artwork. If you were in my artwork, I

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<v Speaker 1>gave you a job, Jadina said, describing past behavior. I

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<v Speaker 1>mastered your life. I gave you a house, food, everything

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<v Speaker 1>you needed. I protected and provided for you. I did

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<v Speaker 1>what men are supposed to do.

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<v Speaker 2>That lit, I feel like that. I feel like they

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<v Speaker 2>put two different conversations together. And I didn't watch the

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<v Speaker 2>full twenty three minute episode of this podcast to try

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<v Speaker 2>and understand how to talk on them. Yeah, but it's

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<v Speaker 2>the first sentence, I robbed some women of their baby

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<v Speaker 2>making years.

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<v Speaker 1>Dragging them along. I was like, not another. Why?

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<v Speaker 2>So we know that men know exactly what they're doing,

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<v Speaker 2>whether or not they know what they're doing in the moment.

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<v Speaker 2>At some point they have this realization that they've done

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<v Speaker 2>these things. Do they hit some bitches up and say hey,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm sorry. Some of them might do it before they

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<v Speaker 2>get married to the woman that changed them. I've heard

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<v Speaker 2>men say that they've called exes from the past and

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<v Speaker 2>apologize for how they did them right, don't call me nigga.

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<v Speaker 2>Just let well enough be good and don't call.

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<v Speaker 1>Me yeah cause you know a lot. It's so funny

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<v Speaker 1>that you say that, because at homecoming I got some

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<v Speaker 1>apologies for men from my past that went to college

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<v Speaker 1>with me, and I was like, who are you? You know, like,

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<v Speaker 1>it's just like, save it. The apology was needed back then.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't need it now period. This is for you

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<v Speaker 1>to absolve yourself at this point.

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<v Speaker 2>Exactly was that you standing next to me? No, might

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<v Speaker 2>have been Saria. When we was at homecoming. At the party,

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<v Speaker 2>we did this dude who I really, really really liked.

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<v Speaker 2>He stopped talking to me because I made him late

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<v Speaker 2>for a football game up here in Charlotte. We were

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<v Speaker 2>going to go see I think it was the Steelers

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<v Speaker 2>play the Panthers, and I made him miss kickoff and

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<v Speaker 2>I had a hickey. Let me add that part.

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<v Speaker 1>In there, but he was getting fuck I was trying

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<v Speaker 1>to see that.

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<v Speaker 2>I wasn't having sex. Okay, I didn't have sex with somebody,

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<v Speaker 2>but I made out with somebody else, right, but we

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<v Speaker 2>didn't establish an actual relationship, so he like for real

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<v Speaker 2>cold turkey me right, And now a couple of years

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<v Speaker 2>later you checking back for me. Okay, now you married

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<v Speaker 2>with two kids, and now you're on my line telling

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<v Speaker 2>me how you fucked up. That is not flattering to me.

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<v Speaker 2>Get the fuck off my phone before I fucking three

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<v Speaker 2>way your bitching.

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<v Speaker 1>Right, Oh Mary. It's one thing to come back divorced,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's another thing to come back feel married.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I don't like that shit going about your business

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<v Speaker 2>if you know you've ruined my damn life. But I

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<v Speaker 2>feel like we have to take accountability a little bit

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<v Speaker 2>in that too. Like you, men know what they want.

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<v Speaker 2>They know what they want. So if they are not

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<v Speaker 2>showing up for you in a way that you think

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<v Speaker 2>they should be, they don't like you, that's all it is,

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<v Speaker 2>because they well do whatever it takes to keep the

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<v Speaker 2>person that they really want to be with and love them.

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<v Speaker 2>They're gonna do whatever you asking them. So now, if

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<v Speaker 2>I got to keep asking you to do some shit

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<v Speaker 2>you don't want to do it, right, go on, so

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<v Speaker 2>stop waiting for him to leave your ass.

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<v Speaker 1>Leave So speaking being vulnerable and accountable. I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>if you guys saw this, but Gez and nia Long

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<v Speaker 1>sat down for a conversation about their divorce and self love,

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<v Speaker 1>and did you see it?

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<v Speaker 2>I watched the full thing, full context.

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<v Speaker 1>I watch the first time. I put it on fell

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<v Speaker 1>a Sleepin'm gonna lie. But then I ran it back

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<v Speaker 1>at work the next day and it was really thoughtful

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<v Speaker 1>and it was good. You know, I didn't even know

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<v Speaker 1>that Gezi was that type of man. I thought he

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<v Speaker 1>was gonna come on there like she. You know what

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<v Speaker 1>I'm saying, she a crazy story.

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<v Speaker 2>I know that guy. He is a smart man.

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<v Speaker 1>He is. I didn't know how.

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<v Speaker 2>I know he full of shit because he's a smart man.

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<v Speaker 2>I think he's a very calculated man.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I see that based on the conversation that they had,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, And that's how you can't judge a book.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm judging based off of thug motivation one on one.

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<v Speaker 1>You know what I'm saying, Like, he ain't that person.

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<v Speaker 1>He's not that person. And he said he forty six.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't know he was that much older than me.

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<v Speaker 2>Now you don't like him.

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<v Speaker 1>He was never my type. Honestly, he's never my type.

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<v Speaker 1>But he talked about being molested, about having a troubled

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<v Speaker 1>relationship with his mother, about losing his mother. He made

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<v Speaker 1>a reference to having your player your best player, and

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<v Speaker 1>NIA was like, can we use another right besides players,

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<v Speaker 1>Let's not do players. Let's talk about the best horse

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<v Speaker 1>in the race, Nigga. How do you feel about their conversation?

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<v Speaker 2>I liked it. I liked it. It is necessary and

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<v Speaker 2>it's not like you know, when we hear people talking

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<v Speaker 2>now these on podcasts just like us, bitch people be

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<v Speaker 2>people's egos so big to where they think like they're

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<v Speaker 2>the first person to have these conversations or they're the

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<v Speaker 2>first people You're not as a lot of people have

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<v Speaker 2>in these conversations. They may not be big enough for

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<v Speaker 2>everybody to see, but it's the same conversations over and

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<v Speaker 2>over again, and it's those conversations that need to be had.

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<v Speaker 1>Right.

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<v Speaker 2>The only part that I did not appreciate is GZ

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<v Speaker 2>saying how black men need their women when they're at

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<v Speaker 2>their worst. I don't think he may not think about it,

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<v Speaker 2>he may not have been thinking about it in that

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<v Speaker 2>way at the time. But for a lot of black women,

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<v Speaker 2>we feel like men only want us when they're at

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<v Speaker 2>their worst. When you get where you want to go,

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<v Speaker 2>you get your money up, you go outside of the community,

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<v Speaker 2>and that's what he's done. I remember when they him

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<v Speaker 2>and Gucci mane the Diverses, everybody was talking ship like

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<v Speaker 2>because because jizis showed supposed to show like all his

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<v Speaker 2>growth or whatever and his which I believe Gucci man

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<v Speaker 2>He's done in three sixty as far as I'm concerned too,

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<v Speaker 2>and I attribute that to the woman he's with, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>But some of the stuff Gucci was saying was like, well.

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<v Speaker 2>Figure, you send some people to kill me. I'm never

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<v Speaker 2>gonna forget that. Yes, let's get this check together, but

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<v Speaker 2>I'm never gonna forget you tried to take my life,

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<v Speaker 2>Jez that. This is why I want to talk about

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<v Speaker 2>self awareness today, right because it's recognizing your light side

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<v Speaker 2>and your dark side. Nigga, that ships still in you.

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<v Speaker 2>You are capable of still doing that today. And I

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<v Speaker 2>need you to realize that I haven't forgotten and his

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<v Speaker 2>album forgiven, But don't forget.

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<v Speaker 1>Exactly what Gucci did in retaliation or prior to this.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, he killed the person that Jess that that

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<v Speaker 2>Jez sent to kill him. That's what happened, okay, and

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<v Speaker 2>then I rap about your dad homeboy, he.

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<v Speaker 1>Said, put him in a blunt.

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<v Speaker 2>The thing is is that like if I was Gucci man,

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<v Speaker 2>like JIZI was like, oh, I didn't know this was

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<v Speaker 2>a fashion a fashion show, you know, because Gucci had

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<v Speaker 2>on his Gucci I remember what Gucci had on. Nigga

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<v Speaker 2>looked so fine on that damn. I mean, like not

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<v Speaker 2>his face, but the outfit was busting. It was like

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<v Speaker 2>a Gucci trench he had on with the Gucci turn

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<v Speaker 2>next sweat unerneath. It was really really nice. And you know,

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<v Speaker 2>Jizi alluded to the fact that you know, I buy

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<v Speaker 2>real estate. I don't buy clothes, like Keisha Kayor was

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<v Speaker 2>a realtory. You don't think these people own properties.

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<v Speaker 1>They were just going back and forth.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but you know from like I would have hit.

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<v Speaker 2>I would have hit Jeezi with the at Lisa and

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<v Speaker 2>leaving my wealth to another day, a race of people

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<v Speaker 2>transferring that god damn wealth. Because now this is why

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<v Speaker 2>I don't fuck with Jiez.

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<v Speaker 1>Because he because he got with a woman.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, and I don't care who knows it, Like, I

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<v Speaker 2>don't trust you if you're not with a black woman.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm looking at you some type of way.

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<v Speaker 1>Na said that when black women supported her the way

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<v Speaker 1>they did, she was surprised by how she didn't know

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<v Speaker 1>that everybody love her. That's crazy, you know.

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<v Speaker 2>Because I guess you'd just be being you and to her,

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<v Speaker 2>she's a regular person and she's, you know, not just

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<v Speaker 2>like I feel like, how do you play with me along?

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<v Speaker 2>Everybody wants me along? But I guess once you get

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<v Speaker 2>the thing, men always get too familiar with you, Like

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<v Speaker 2>they always forget who the fuck you are. That's why

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<v Speaker 2>occasionally you gotta do shit to remind them.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think that's just a male thing. I just

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<v Speaker 1>think that's a people think. You get the big shiny car,

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<v Speaker 1>and after a year, it's not a big shiny car

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<v Speaker 1>no more. Now it's just your car. You get the

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<v Speaker 1>big old house, and you love the house, like everybody

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<v Speaker 1>look at my beautiful house. After a few years, it's

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<v Speaker 1>like I just want something new. But that's people.

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<v Speaker 2>No, I don't know people who don't practice gratitude, you

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<v Speaker 2>know what I mean?

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<v Speaker 1>Most people.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I guess I was.

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<v Speaker 1>Sitting with someone and like I always pray before my meals,

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<v Speaker 1>and that was like they was like I really need

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<v Speaker 1>to start praying before I eat. I was like, are

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<v Speaker 1>you not grateful for this meal? I mean, I am,

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<v Speaker 1>but I you know, until they all have it, right,

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<v Speaker 1>you gotta be grateful. And I tell them like, being

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<v Speaker 1>grateful for what you already have is how you get more.

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<v Speaker 2>Exactly, That's why I need to go clean my car

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<v Speaker 2>right now, because in my mind I'm driving around in

0:20:19.240 --> 0:20:21.960
<v Speaker 2>the Bentley it is a bit so keep it clean

0:20:22.080 --> 0:20:25.960
<v Speaker 2>like it is. One is you treat that Bentley different

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<v Speaker 2>from Behonda? Right?

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<v Speaker 2>I feel like our stupid internet news this week is

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<v Speaker 2>a great segue into what I want to talk about,

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<v Speaker 2>which I probably mentioned earlier on self awareness, dumb. What

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<v Speaker 2>is self awareness? It is a noun, and it is

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<v Speaker 2>a word itself itself hyphen awareness conscious knowledge of one's

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<v Speaker 2>own character, feelings, motives, and desires. Right, So it's said

0:21:04.000 --> 0:21:06.600
<v Speaker 2>that the more self aware you are, the better your

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<v Speaker 2>relationships are, the better you treat people. You're less likely

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<v Speaker 2>to lie, steep steel and cheat when you have self awareness.

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<v Speaker 2>But I think I read that, but I feel like

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<v Speaker 2>sometimes motherfuckers is self aware and they still do bad

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<v Speaker 2>shit because that's just who they are.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, they're aware that they ain't shit right, okay with it? Right?

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<v Speaker 2>So I don't feel like it really like just makes

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<v Speaker 2>you be a better person. It just makes you deal

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<v Speaker 2>with who you are better.

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<v Speaker 1>Ooh, but listen, it's you know, in this last couple

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<v Speaker 1>of years, I feel like I've been trying to be

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<v Speaker 1>more accountable for who I am, and I and I

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<v Speaker 1>have to strip away all that, you know, all of

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<v Speaker 1>this protective armor and look myself in the mirror. And

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<v Speaker 1>sometimes I ain't happy with who I.

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<v Speaker 2>See, you know, like literally in the mirror.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, like look at my soul and the real truth

0:21:54.720 --> 0:21:57.439
<v Speaker 1>of who I am. And sometimes I ain't happy with

0:21:57.520 --> 0:22:00.040
<v Speaker 1>who I see. But that's okay as long as I

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<v Speaker 1>realize those things and start doing the work. Remember when

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<v Speaker 1>I used to be.

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<v Speaker 2>Like, what is work? What is the work? What is that?

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<v Speaker 1>But now I actually am more understanding of what the

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<v Speaker 1>work is without having someone to put the instruction manu

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<v Speaker 1>in front of me and do those things. And my

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<v Speaker 1>greatest thing that I have to work on and and

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<v Speaker 1>I know and I'm actively working on it is how

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<v Speaker 1>I respond to how I'm being communicated with right and

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<v Speaker 1>my how I communicate.

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<v Speaker 2>That, that's me.

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<v Speaker 1>So something I'm like working on not being a rattlesnake

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<v Speaker 1>because like, you go low and I'll go to hell sometimes,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, And I.

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<v Speaker 2>Feel like sometimes going to hell is necessary though to

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<v Speaker 2>help other people.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, sometimes you gotta let them figure out their

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<v Speaker 1>own shit by theyself. That's what I'm realizing. Don't worry

0:22:52.440 --> 0:22:54.639
<v Speaker 1>about yourself. This the name that you got for this.

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<v Speaker 2>I have to, like, I don't worry about your damn

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<v Speaker 2>self taking.

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<v Speaker 1>When somebody's being violent nasty to me, I don't. I'm like,

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<v Speaker 1>especially someone I love, I learned not to take it personally.

0:23:06.560 --> 0:23:09.040
<v Speaker 1>I might be mad in that moment. I just walk

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<v Speaker 1>away from it and then go back and say, hey,

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<v Speaker 1>I love you no matter what you said, I love

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<v Speaker 1>you and I'm still here for you, depending on Like,

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<v Speaker 1>it can't be like the worst shit ever, like, but

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<v Speaker 1>if I oftentimes they don't have nothing to do with me.

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<v Speaker 1>That's what I'm realizing.

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<v Speaker 2>A lot of times, things outside of you have nothing

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<v Speaker 2>to do with you. It's said that ninety five percent

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<v Speaker 2>of people think that they are self aware, while the

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<v Speaker 2>real number is close to ten or fifteen percent of

0:23:39.480 --> 0:23:42.679
<v Speaker 2>people who actually are self aware. So that means eighty

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<v Speaker 2>percent of us are lying to ourselves most of the time.

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<v Speaker 2>What do you think about that? Man?

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<v Speaker 1>I agree, shit, I used to be a member of

0:23:50.720 --> 0:23:52.919
<v Speaker 1>the eighty percent, and sometimes I still am. You know,

0:23:53.080 --> 0:23:57.640
<v Speaker 1>like it's a con wavering battle of stripping away all

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<v Speaker 1>your armor of well, how don't you know what to

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<v Speaker 1>call it? Armor of self protection and seeing yourself for

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<v Speaker 1>who you are and working on it.

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<v Speaker 2>So there's two kinds of self awareness, right, So it

0:24:10.800 --> 0:24:12.760
<v Speaker 2>says the two kinds of self awareness, y'all. This has

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<v Speaker 2>coming from study dot com. It says the two kinds

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<v Speaker 2>of self awareness are private self awareness and public self awareness.

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<v Speaker 2>Public self awareness is a moment of realization that only

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<v Speaker 2>involves yourself. This could look like realizing you have feelings

0:24:27.400 --> 0:24:30.679
<v Speaker 2>for someone you just return from a date. You just

0:24:30.720 --> 0:24:33.000
<v Speaker 2>return home from a date. So you go on a

0:24:33.080 --> 0:24:34.960
<v Speaker 2>date with somebody and you get home like damn, I

0:24:35.040 --> 0:24:35.840
<v Speaker 2>might like them.

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<v Speaker 1>That's self awareness.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, okay, yeah, because you may not have been acting

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<v Speaker 2>like that with them, like while on the date. Public

0:24:44.520 --> 0:24:47.879
<v Speaker 2>self awareness, that's the private. So public self awareness is

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<v Speaker 2>the ability to understand how others perceive you and usually

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<v Speaker 2>follows social norms, ensuring you practice your vali valedictorian speech

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<v Speaker 2>so you don't make a mistake as a form of

0:25:01.040 --> 0:25:05.919
<v Speaker 2>public self awareness, so you're acting for people out in

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<v Speaker 2>the public.

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<v Speaker 1>See, I have trouble with that, am I supposed to?

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<v Speaker 2>I don't.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't either, But then that's why people be like

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<v Speaker 1>either they love me or hate me, you know. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>But I don't know how to.

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<v Speaker 2>Do that me either. I don't know how to be

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<v Speaker 2>somebody else. So I might come out real brash to

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<v Speaker 2>some people and other people's other people respect how real

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<v Speaker 2>I am. I don't know how to sugarcoat shit.

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<v Speaker 1>Sometimes I feel like I could do better. Sometimes I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like maybe I should practice a little bit more.

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<v Speaker 1>I remember one time I was doing his clients here

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<v Speaker 1>and she when she comes, she always talk real bad

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<v Speaker 1>about her boyfriend. Right, she just bent to me about

0:25:44.440 --> 0:25:46.639
<v Speaker 1>all the bad things. And then she came in and

0:25:46.720 --> 0:25:49.520
<v Speaker 1>my sister was sitting there, well, she was walking by.

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<v Speaker 1>I said, you still with that no good ass nigga.

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<v Speaker 1>When she came and sat down for appointment, and Tang

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<v Speaker 1>was like, you just be saying anything to people, And

0:25:58.560 --> 0:26:02.840
<v Speaker 1>I was like, was that wrong to say? What's that

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<v Speaker 1>wrong to.

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<v Speaker 2>Say to you? If she has self awareness, she'd know

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<v Speaker 2>that she's with a no good ass nigga and she

0:26:10.560 --> 0:26:13.159
<v Speaker 2>shared the worst thing about her no good ass nigga.

0:26:13.200 --> 0:26:17.600
<v Speaker 2>So what you said was valid? Did she tell you

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<v Speaker 2>at any point anything good about this person?

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmmm?

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<v Speaker 2>So is she still with the no good ass nigga?

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<v Speaker 2>I feel like we need real people in our lives

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<v Speaker 2>to put the whole marror up to us. Sometimes like that,

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<v Speaker 2>and it may come off to blunt. You have to

0:26:32.800 --> 0:26:36.879
<v Speaker 2>have kuth right. Sometimes I lack tack. Apparently when I

0:26:36.920 --> 0:26:37.760
<v Speaker 2>say certain things.

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<v Speaker 1>I used to think like maybe I'm mildy on the

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<v Speaker 1>spectrum because I don't even be know.

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<v Speaker 2>We a'all are.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't be knowing that what I'm saying is inappropriate,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'd be like, that's wrong. Sometimes I say some

0:26:50.640 --> 0:26:52.760
<v Speaker 1>shit a whole serious and everybody bust out laughing, and

0:26:52.800 --> 0:26:54.520
<v Speaker 1>I'd be like, wait, that was not a joke. I

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<v Speaker 1>was a whole serious.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, sometimes you gotta be careful what you say.

0:27:02.960 --> 0:27:05.840
<v Speaker 2>And I'm a firm believer that it is okay to

0:27:05.880 --> 0:27:08.800
<v Speaker 2>shut the fuck up sometimes, So sometimes I don't we

0:27:08.960 --> 0:27:12.520
<v Speaker 2>talk back. It's okay to shut though, That's okay. Sometimes

0:27:12.600 --> 0:27:15.000
<v Speaker 2>if I have something negative to say, I'll just not

0:27:15.080 --> 0:27:18.080
<v Speaker 2>say nothing. I will fucking smile and naud your ass

0:27:18.119 --> 0:27:22.000
<v Speaker 2>to death, just to keep my thoughts to myself. Because

0:27:22.080 --> 0:27:24.080
<v Speaker 2>you know, you don't always have to hold a marriat

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<v Speaker 2>to people. But I do want to be surrounded by

0:27:27.119 --> 0:27:30.840
<v Speaker 2>people who help me build self awareness. Sometimes you can't

0:27:30.840 --> 0:27:33.360
<v Speaker 2>see yourself, so you have to depend on people who

0:27:33.359 --> 0:27:35.919
<v Speaker 2>actually fuck with you and who actually love you to

0:27:36.040 --> 0:27:37.919
<v Speaker 2>help you become more self aware.

0:27:38.800 --> 0:27:41.159
<v Speaker 1>And you know, and that's one thing I'm working on

0:27:41.200 --> 0:27:43.480
<v Speaker 1>because anytime somebody put a mirror to my face, I'd

0:27:43.520 --> 0:27:46.640
<v Speaker 1>be like, well, bitch, what about the time when you

0:27:46.880 --> 0:27:50.280
<v Speaker 1>ate the food? Like I just come up with whatever

0:27:50.400 --> 0:27:53.800
<v Speaker 1>I can say versus the counter what they saying, versus

0:27:54.040 --> 0:27:58.280
<v Speaker 1>listening and receiving the information, and even though it's hurting,

0:27:58.760 --> 0:28:00.239
<v Speaker 1>I need to take it for what it is is

0:28:00.280 --> 0:28:04.439
<v Speaker 1>because but here's the issue, because sometimes it's not delivered

0:28:04.480 --> 0:28:07.199
<v Speaker 1>from a place of love. They're only telling you the

0:28:07.240 --> 0:28:09.800
<v Speaker 1>truth about you in that moment to hurt you. And

0:28:09.800 --> 0:28:12.480
<v Speaker 1>that makes the difference when it's delivered from a place

0:28:12.520 --> 0:28:15.399
<v Speaker 1>of I want you to notice because I love you

0:28:15.440 --> 0:28:18.040
<v Speaker 1>and I want you to be better from whatever this is.

0:28:18.440 --> 0:28:21.959
<v Speaker 2>But those conversations often oftentimes only come up in the

0:28:21.960 --> 0:28:25.720
<v Speaker 2>midst of turmoil, you know what I'm saying, like between us,

0:28:25.760 --> 0:28:28.600
<v Speaker 2>Like why would I be saying anything?

0:28:28.760 --> 0:28:31.200
<v Speaker 1>But sometimes you need to say it though, like if

0:28:31.200 --> 0:28:34.159
<v Speaker 1>you ask, Like let's say you ask for advice on

0:28:34.240 --> 0:28:37.920
<v Speaker 1>something and you're going off and you're heated, but you're

0:28:38.000 --> 0:28:42.520
<v Speaker 1>wrong and strong and wrong. Sometimes as friends we don't

0:28:42.880 --> 0:28:45.640
<v Speaker 1>say it, you know, we just let you have it.

0:28:46.920 --> 0:28:52.440
<v Speaker 1>But me, i'd be ready to tell you for that.

0:28:53.640 --> 0:28:53.800
<v Speaker 1>You know.

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<v Speaker 2>I was having a conversation with my homegirl in the

0:28:55.960 --> 0:28:58.440
<v Speaker 2>way up pair and she's dating this guy, and I

0:28:58.480 --> 0:29:02.240
<v Speaker 2>hope I'm not saying anything anyway, So it's just a situation,

0:29:02.960 --> 0:29:07.320
<v Speaker 2>a situation. She's dating a guy who has a situation

0:29:07.480 --> 0:29:10.600
<v Speaker 2>going on, right, she knew about his situation before they

0:29:10.600 --> 0:29:13.160
<v Speaker 2>got together. Now they just madly in love now, right,

0:29:13.720 --> 0:29:15.920
<v Speaker 2>and she can't really and he gives her a lot

0:29:15.920 --> 0:29:17.880
<v Speaker 2>of attention, a lot of time, all that stuff, right,

0:29:18.240 --> 0:29:20.480
<v Speaker 2>But I guess, like the little spurts where he's with

0:29:20.520 --> 0:29:22.600
<v Speaker 2>this other person that he's still trying to figure out

0:29:22.640 --> 0:29:24.440
<v Speaker 2>how he can serebratize with him because he probably really

0:29:24.480 --> 0:29:27.000
<v Speaker 2>wants to be with her, right, but this is an

0:29:27.080 --> 0:29:29.560
<v Speaker 2>existing situation. He got to figure out you can't just

0:29:29.640 --> 0:29:32.760
<v Speaker 2>expect somebody to just change overnight, right. And she was like,

0:29:32.800 --> 0:29:35.160
<v Speaker 2>I ask God for a man, Why would he send

0:29:35.200 --> 0:29:38.000
<v Speaker 2>me an unavailable man? I said, you know what, people

0:29:38.040 --> 0:29:40.440
<v Speaker 2>need to realize that this is all. This also comes

0:29:40.480 --> 0:29:43.200
<v Speaker 2>with self awareness to me, is realizing that God is

0:29:43.240 --> 0:29:46.120
<v Speaker 2>inside you. Right, So it wasn't God that created the

0:29:46.160 --> 0:29:49.479
<v Speaker 2>situation for you. You created it. You are going after these

0:29:49.560 --> 0:29:51.600
<v Speaker 2>unattainable people, so you got to figure out what is

0:29:51.640 --> 0:29:55.080
<v Speaker 2>it about you that is creating these situations for yourself?

0:29:55.080 --> 0:29:58.000
<v Speaker 2>And then also remembering that it's not happening to you,

0:29:58.160 --> 0:30:01.920
<v Speaker 2>is happening for you. So you you probably are supposed

0:30:01.960 --> 0:30:03.440
<v Speaker 2>to be with this person, right, but then you have

0:30:03.520 --> 0:30:06.160
<v Speaker 2>to give him some type of grace to figure out

0:30:06.520 --> 0:30:09.880
<v Speaker 2>this whole other situation that you knew about before you

0:30:09.920 --> 0:30:11.880
<v Speaker 2>got with this nigga or.

0:30:16.040 --> 0:30:18.920
<v Speaker 1>Or what or God didn't have nothing to do with

0:30:18.960 --> 0:30:22.120
<v Speaker 1>any of you. That saying that this might be the.

0:30:22.080 --> 0:30:25.320
<v Speaker 2>Devil's word, but the devil and God is in you.

0:30:25.560 --> 0:30:27.760
<v Speaker 2>That's the thing. You know what I'm saying, You're creating

0:30:27.760 --> 0:30:32.600
<v Speaker 2>all these situations for yourself and else.

0:30:32.360 --> 0:30:35.400
<v Speaker 1>And then when he become yours, and then he find

0:30:35.440 --> 0:30:39.200
<v Speaker 1>another version of you with somebody else, you lose them.

0:30:39.200 --> 0:30:39.720
<v Speaker 1>How you get it?

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<v Speaker 2>So I like to think that I be owning souls

0:30:44.920 --> 0:30:46.680
<v Speaker 2>right here. So once I say you mind, bitch, you

0:30:46.760 --> 0:30:49.000
<v Speaker 2>mine forever, I'll give a fuck about what you got

0:30:49.040 --> 0:30:52.360
<v Speaker 2>going on with anybody else. I own a couple of

0:30:52.440 --> 0:30:55.720
<v Speaker 2>niggas in this lifetime. I know for sure.

0:30:55.880 --> 0:30:58.600
<v Speaker 1>I don't own nobody I do, bitch, I want to

0:30:58.640 --> 0:30:59.200
<v Speaker 1>own nobody.

0:30:59.280 --> 0:31:04.840
<v Speaker 2>Might be a whole, a whole collectors. I might be

0:31:04.880 --> 0:31:05.800
<v Speaker 2>a whole collector.

0:31:06.280 --> 0:31:08.480
<v Speaker 1>All right, let's talk about how to get to more

0:31:08.520 --> 0:31:09.440
<v Speaker 1>self awareness?

0:31:09.640 --> 0:31:12.440
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, so they're saying, like, so to build more self

0:31:12.480 --> 0:31:15.640
<v Speaker 2>awareness one of my things I'm trying to get more

0:31:15.680 --> 0:31:20.080
<v Speaker 2>into this journaling. My hand be hurting.

0:31:20.280 --> 0:31:25.720
<v Speaker 1>I've bought you seventeen journals to write in. Occasionally I

0:31:25.800 --> 0:31:26.440
<v Speaker 1>write in them.

0:31:26.880 --> 0:31:30.560
<v Speaker 2>I gotta find them first, but writing them, for sure,

0:31:30.640 --> 0:31:33.160
<v Speaker 2>one of them might be in that fucking bag right there.

0:31:33.520 --> 0:31:36.959
<v Speaker 2>I definitely Tammy definitely has bought me a gratitude journal,

0:31:37.680 --> 0:31:41.959
<v Speaker 2>and uh uh, you bought me a gratitude journal and

0:31:42.000 --> 0:31:47.960
<v Speaker 2>then a journal for productivity, which go fucking hand in hand,

0:31:48.920 --> 0:31:50.840
<v Speaker 2>because if you ain't doing shit what you're writing about.

0:31:52.720 --> 0:31:54.479
<v Speaker 1>I actually got another book in it for you. I

0:31:54.520 --> 0:31:56.160
<v Speaker 1>was gonna wait to give it to you for Christmas,

0:31:56.160 --> 0:31:58.680
<v Speaker 1>but you should just take it with you. Is it.

0:31:58.680 --> 0:32:02.000
<v Speaker 1>It's actually something to do while you're goddamn it, you

0:32:03.080 --> 0:32:05.680
<v Speaker 1>get high in your journal. It's actually just for when

0:32:05.680 --> 0:32:06.160
<v Speaker 1>you're high.

0:32:06.240 --> 0:32:08.120
<v Speaker 2>I need an app. I need something I could talk

0:32:08.160 --> 0:32:10.760
<v Speaker 2>to and it writes out shit. Your hands don't hurt

0:32:10.760 --> 0:32:11.360
<v Speaker 2>when you write.

0:32:11.960 --> 0:32:13.760
<v Speaker 1>I use my hands all day, remember.

0:32:13.560 --> 0:32:16.480
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, like my hands be hurting when I write too much.

0:32:16.840 --> 0:32:18.360
<v Speaker 2>That's why adrenaline is just.

0:32:20.440 --> 0:32:22.000
<v Speaker 1>So I'll find you an app for this.

0:32:23.920 --> 0:32:28.000
<v Speaker 2>And pay for the subscription. Subscription for a year for me.

0:32:28.160 --> 0:32:28.440
<v Speaker 1>Okay.

0:32:29.200 --> 0:32:33.120
<v Speaker 2>Therapy is another way to find self awareness.

0:32:32.920 --> 0:32:36.680
<v Speaker 1>But only if you like I had a therapist. It

0:32:36.800 --> 0:32:39.960
<v Speaker 1>was a man. He was, you know, not much older

0:32:40.000 --> 0:32:42.440
<v Speaker 1>than me, and he was attractive and single. And I

0:32:42.480 --> 0:32:44.520
<v Speaker 1>was in their line the whole time because.

0:32:44.760 --> 0:32:47.360
<v Speaker 2>I wanted him to like me. Yo.

0:32:48.040 --> 0:32:50.479
<v Speaker 1>I wanted my therapists to like me. So instead of

0:32:50.520 --> 0:32:54.760
<v Speaker 1>just telling him I've been promiscuous, I.

0:32:54.760 --> 0:32:57.720
<v Speaker 2>Was like, my grandmother just died.

0:32:59.560 --> 0:33:03.840
<v Speaker 1>And I'm I'm saying stupid. Yeah. So you gotta, like,

0:33:04.680 --> 0:33:06.640
<v Speaker 1>if you're gonna get a therapist, you definitely gotta go

0:33:06.640 --> 0:33:09.120
<v Speaker 1>in there and be honest. And that takes self awareness

0:33:09.120 --> 0:33:11.040
<v Speaker 1>because you gotta be honest with yourself first.

0:33:12.040 --> 0:33:14.880
<v Speaker 2>I remember, and I hate and this is one of

0:33:14.880 --> 0:33:18.400
<v Speaker 2>the things that I know I have to so so

0:33:19.040 --> 0:33:20.600
<v Speaker 2>trying to be more self aware. They tell you to

0:33:20.600 --> 0:33:23.240
<v Speaker 2>stop stop focusing on the why and focus on what,

0:33:23.360 --> 0:33:26.680
<v Speaker 2>like what can you do different as opposed to saying

0:33:26.720 --> 0:33:29.160
<v Speaker 2>why is this happening because you get stuck at the why.

0:33:29.760 --> 0:33:32.440
<v Speaker 2>So I've been trying not to fucking even think about

0:33:32.440 --> 0:33:36.200
<v Speaker 2>my last relationship for real, but I just thought about

0:33:36.240 --> 0:33:38.880
<v Speaker 2>it because we were stuck about therapy. And I remember

0:33:39.080 --> 0:33:41.240
<v Speaker 2>like going to therapy with this nigga, and I'm like,

0:33:41.640 --> 0:33:44.160
<v Speaker 2>this is why I feel like you need to go

0:33:44.200 --> 0:33:48.760
<v Speaker 2>to separate therapy. Couple's therapy is cool, but oftentimes people

0:33:48.800 --> 0:33:54.240
<v Speaker 2>need individual therapy. Because I remember telling me that he

0:33:54.760 --> 0:33:59.120
<v Speaker 2>was lying to his therapist. I can't fuck with you.

0:33:59.160 --> 0:34:01.160
<v Speaker 2>If you be lying to you a therapists, you literally

0:34:01.280 --> 0:34:04.040
<v Speaker 2>are not trying to help the person that's supposed to

0:34:04.040 --> 0:34:06.920
<v Speaker 2>be helping you help you because you're lying to them.

0:34:07.080 --> 0:34:09.640
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, that's why I had to change my therapies. I

0:34:09.640 --> 0:34:10.719
<v Speaker 1>had to change because.

0:34:10.520 --> 0:34:11.719
<v Speaker 2>It was like, that's a mental ill.

0:34:11.880 --> 0:34:15.640
<v Speaker 1>You can't help me because you're too fine. You're too

0:34:15.640 --> 0:34:16.520
<v Speaker 1>fine to help me, sir.

0:34:16.840 --> 0:34:19.960
<v Speaker 2>Not you realize you're you need an ugly therapist.

0:34:20.080 --> 0:34:25.640
<v Speaker 1>I need a black woman with a mustage. That's my therapist.

0:34:25.640 --> 0:34:27.239
<v Speaker 1>Got to be an old black lady. It can't be

0:34:27.280 --> 0:34:30.080
<v Speaker 1>no young black man or no young black woman.

0:34:30.560 --> 0:34:33.120
<v Speaker 2>Because get you what you're telling me, Because no, it

0:34:33.160 --> 0:34:33.800
<v Speaker 2>wouldn't even be that.

0:34:33.960 --> 0:34:35.800
<v Speaker 1>It would be like, I don't want her to judge me.

0:34:36.200 --> 0:34:38.120
<v Speaker 1>She's like my peer, and I don't want her to

0:34:38.200 --> 0:34:41.120
<v Speaker 1>judge me and him. I kind of want to throw

0:34:41.200 --> 0:34:43.080
<v Speaker 1>him some pussy so I can't tell him the truth

0:34:43.120 --> 0:34:46.279
<v Speaker 1>about me. I need someone like a grandma who got

0:34:46.280 --> 0:34:53.240
<v Speaker 1>all this wisdom from life experience, and and that's it.

0:34:53.440 --> 0:34:57.600
<v Speaker 2>Shame. That's a damn shame, man, Not you throwing pussy

0:34:57.640 --> 0:34:58.680
<v Speaker 2>at the damn therapist.

0:34:59.080 --> 0:35:01.400
<v Speaker 1>Like I didn't throw it at him, but he was

0:35:01.440 --> 0:35:04.200
<v Speaker 1>somebody that I potentially would want to throw something at.

0:35:04.239 --> 0:35:06.279
<v Speaker 1>You know I didn't, I didn't, you know, go there.

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<v Speaker 2>I think older black lady is good, like a fifty

0:35:08.400 --> 0:35:11.680
<v Speaker 2>something yea too old because then you right out of

0:35:11.719 --> 0:35:15.120
<v Speaker 2>touch yes, you don't know really what's going on out.

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<v Speaker 1>You like my Ghanda colleges. I like my gand to

0:35:17.800 --> 0:35:19.879
<v Speaker 1>colleges to be an older black woman. I don't want

0:35:19.960 --> 0:35:23.680
<v Speaker 1>no young young man staring at my vagina unless he

0:35:23.719 --> 0:35:24.320
<v Speaker 1>about the eat it.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, here are some tips to cultivate self self awareness. Okay, uh,

0:35:31.960 --> 0:35:35.560
<v Speaker 2>be curious about who you are. To be self aware,

0:35:35.880 --> 0:35:41.440
<v Speaker 2>a person needs to be curious about themselves. Our minds

0:35:41.440 --> 0:35:45.120
<v Speaker 2>and bodies are territories for which we yet need road maps.

0:35:45.160 --> 0:35:47.600
<v Speaker 2>Every person has some roads they do not wish to

0:35:47.640 --> 0:35:51.560
<v Speaker 2>take in some roads they feel are worth exploring. How

0:35:51.600 --> 0:35:54.600
<v Speaker 2>far you're how far you'll go in your journey of

0:35:54.680 --> 0:35:58.360
<v Speaker 2>understanding yourself depends on what you're ready to explore and experience.

0:35:58.680 --> 0:36:01.640
<v Speaker 2>I can tell y'all figuring out who the fuck you

0:36:01.680 --> 0:36:04.760
<v Speaker 2>are that people don't do it because it's fucking scary

0:36:05.000 --> 0:36:07.560
<v Speaker 2>and it hurts. Like things that people have told you

0:36:07.560 --> 0:36:10.759
<v Speaker 2>about yourself that you may not have deemed true at

0:36:10.760 --> 0:36:12.680
<v Speaker 2>some point, Maybe you might have. You might be driving

0:36:12.680 --> 0:36:14.840
<v Speaker 2>down the street one day and be like, damn, that

0:36:14.960 --> 0:36:22.160
<v Speaker 2>motherfucker might be right. That might be right. You know.

0:36:22.200 --> 0:36:25.160
<v Speaker 2>A friend asked me what I learned from my last relationship.

0:36:25.360 --> 0:36:27.000
<v Speaker 2>She asked me this maybe about a month ago. And

0:36:27.040 --> 0:36:32.800
<v Speaker 2>I'm still trying to find the lesson in that relationship,

0:36:32.800 --> 0:36:35.759
<v Speaker 2>because they say everything is a lesson. I don't know

0:36:35.800 --> 0:36:37.640
<v Speaker 2>what the lesson, and I'm trying to find a lesson

0:36:37.640 --> 0:36:40.280
<v Speaker 2>without blaming him, you know, Like what is a lesson

0:36:40.320 --> 0:36:43.680
<v Speaker 2>about myself where I could have done better? You know

0:36:43.719 --> 0:36:45.560
<v Speaker 2>what I'm saying. I know the things I could have

0:36:45.640 --> 0:36:48.160
<v Speaker 2>done better in a relationship, But you also got to

0:36:48.160 --> 0:36:51.279
<v Speaker 2>be in a relationship with somebody who's gonna cultivate you

0:36:51.360 --> 0:36:54.319
<v Speaker 2>being better, you know what I'm saying, Like, you can't

0:36:54.360 --> 0:36:57.200
<v Speaker 2>be in a relationship or any even a friendship with

0:36:57.280 --> 0:37:01.400
<v Speaker 2>somebody who just doesn't bring up the best things. You know,

0:37:01.719 --> 0:37:04.040
<v Speaker 2>not to say that that person is bad. Y'all just

0:37:04.080 --> 0:37:06.040
<v Speaker 2>may not bring out the best in each other, right,

0:37:06.239 --> 0:37:09.000
<v Speaker 2>And that's okay. And that's really the last thing I

0:37:09.040 --> 0:37:11.160
<v Speaker 2>said to that, Like we just, you know, we just

0:37:11.200 --> 0:37:14.959
<v Speaker 2>didn't bring out the best in each other. Not saying

0:37:15.000 --> 0:37:18.160
<v Speaker 2>that you're bad, not saying I'm good, Right, we just

0:37:18.280 --> 0:37:22.080
<v Speaker 2>weren't con each other. It says you gotta let your

0:37:22.080 --> 0:37:25.440
<v Speaker 2>walls down, not your koochie walls, but you know, the

0:37:26.080 --> 0:37:27.680
<v Speaker 2>walls around your heart, that.

0:37:29.239 --> 0:37:30.680
<v Speaker 1>Armor that I was talking about.

0:37:30.719 --> 0:37:32.960
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, you got to soften yourself a little bit. So

0:37:33.000 --> 0:37:36.560
<v Speaker 2>it says when we see something we don't immediately liken ourselves.

0:37:36.600 --> 0:37:39.400
<v Speaker 2>Our first reaction could be to defend ourselves from it,

0:37:39.760 --> 0:37:43.040
<v Speaker 2>which is partly why self awareness is so challenging. Try

0:37:43.080 --> 0:37:46.360
<v Speaker 2>to let go of judgment and the instinctual urge to

0:37:46.440 --> 0:37:50.759
<v Speaker 2>protect yourself. It says you become self aware through a

0:37:50.800 --> 0:37:55.040
<v Speaker 2>willingness to let go of defensiveness and yep, and an

0:37:55.080 --> 0:37:57.760
<v Speaker 2>openness to seeing yourself in a way that is different

0:37:57.800 --> 0:38:01.840
<v Speaker 2>from what you have always assumed. Often this means you

0:38:01.920 --> 0:38:04.160
<v Speaker 2>have to be willing to see yourself in a less

0:38:04.520 --> 0:38:05.840
<v Speaker 2>than positive lights.

0:38:06.040 --> 0:38:07.960
<v Speaker 1>Yeah that's what That's what I was just saying that

0:38:08.000 --> 0:38:11.000
<v Speaker 1>I went through like I had to be like I'm

0:38:11.000 --> 0:38:13.160
<v Speaker 1>the ship, but maybe not the shit that I think

0:38:13.200 --> 0:38:15.560
<v Speaker 1>that I am, And I have the shadow self.

0:38:16.000 --> 0:38:18.040
<v Speaker 2>It's dealing with your shadow self, is dealing with your

0:38:18.080 --> 0:38:20.920
<v Speaker 2>subconscious mind, which really runs you, the shit that you

0:38:20.960 --> 0:38:23.560
<v Speaker 2>think about in your sleep, the things that you know.

0:38:23.800 --> 0:38:26.080
<v Speaker 2>It said that we have like seventy thousand thoughts today.

0:38:26.120 --> 0:38:28.759
<v Speaker 2>I probably got two hundred thousand thoughts today. Bitch, I

0:38:28.760 --> 0:38:32.279
<v Speaker 2>can't focus on shit because my brain be running, but

0:38:32.840 --> 0:38:35.719
<v Speaker 2>it's trying to deal with your shadow self. So you

0:38:35.760 --> 0:38:38.279
<v Speaker 2>can walk around like, oh, I'm just grand grand Grand,

0:38:38.320 --> 0:38:40.920
<v Speaker 2>You're not dealing with the worst part of you. I

0:38:41.000 --> 0:38:44.239
<v Speaker 2>know I can be fucking devilish when I want to,

0:38:44.360 --> 0:38:48.080
<v Speaker 2>and I embrace that. I can fucking reak havoc or

0:38:48.080 --> 0:38:50.239
<v Speaker 2>the motherfucker if I need to. I can do that,

0:38:50.600 --> 0:38:53.400
<v Speaker 2>and that's an aspect of me that I accept. You

0:38:53.400 --> 0:38:54.359
<v Speaker 2>know what I'm saying, Are you.

0:38:54.280 --> 0:38:57.400
<v Speaker 1>Going to do anything to like? No, you want to

0:38:57.440 --> 0:38:58.399
<v Speaker 1>wreck heav it on people?

0:38:58.520 --> 0:39:01.120
<v Speaker 2>No, I don't want to, but I feel like sometimes

0:39:01.120 --> 0:39:04.759
<v Speaker 2>it might be necessary to protect yourself. Sometimes it might

0:39:04.800 --> 0:39:07.880
<v Speaker 2>be necessary. I'm not gonna pretend like I'm just this

0:39:08.640 --> 0:39:12.600
<v Speaker 2>great person, because you know I'm good. But I am

0:39:12.680 --> 0:39:15.840
<v Speaker 2>not nice, and I know that about myself. You know

0:39:15.880 --> 0:39:17.920
<v Speaker 2>what I'm saying. I'm always going to do the best

0:39:18.480 --> 0:39:22.239
<v Speaker 2>by whoever I'm dealing with it in any situation. But

0:39:22.360 --> 0:39:23.360
<v Speaker 2>I'm not a pushover.

0:39:24.320 --> 0:39:26.400
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, but do you feel like nice makes you be

0:39:26.480 --> 0:39:28.000
<v Speaker 1>a nice person? Makes you a pushover?

0:39:29.840 --> 0:39:33.880
<v Speaker 2>I don't want to be perceived as somebody that you

0:39:33.880 --> 0:39:36.640
<v Speaker 2>could play with. No, I don't, not in this world.

0:39:36.680 --> 0:39:40.000
<v Speaker 1>So you think not in this fucking world and a

0:39:40.120 --> 0:39:43.600
<v Speaker 1>nice person. If you're perceived as nice, you perceive as

0:39:43.640 --> 0:39:44.359
<v Speaker 1>to be played with.

0:39:45.719 --> 0:39:52.440
<v Speaker 2>Yeah. I feel like people who lack self awareness sometimes

0:39:52.480 --> 0:39:55.120
<v Speaker 2>will do things to people that they may not recognize

0:39:55.160 --> 0:39:57.680
<v Speaker 2>as being fucked up. I want to be able to

0:39:57.719 --> 0:40:00.719
<v Speaker 2>tell you, yeah, that's fucked up. Yeah, I'm not going

0:40:00.800 --> 0:40:02.719
<v Speaker 2>to act like it doesn't bother me.

0:40:02.920 --> 0:40:05.080
<v Speaker 1>Well, I know some really nice people that will put

0:40:05.120 --> 0:40:06.560
<v Speaker 1>your head between the washing and druma.

0:40:06.680 --> 0:40:09.799
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, so you can't really be good and not be nice, right,

0:40:09.920 --> 0:40:11.640
<v Speaker 2>you know what I'm saying. But I don't want to

0:40:11.680 --> 0:40:13.840
<v Speaker 2>be perceived as just this nice person. I want to

0:40:13.880 --> 0:40:17.440
<v Speaker 2>be perceived as a good person. Yeah, don't play with me.

0:40:19.640 --> 0:40:27.959
<v Speaker 2>Don't fucking play with me. Keeping your journal. We talked

0:40:27.960 --> 0:40:32.080
<v Speaker 2>about that and note what triggers positive feelings. One thing

0:40:32.200 --> 0:40:35.560
<v Speaker 2>people like my mama said, trauma is the buzzword. You know,

0:40:35.680 --> 0:40:38.080
<v Speaker 2>she sent me this long text message one day and

0:40:38.400 --> 0:40:41.120
<v Speaker 2>saying this new word, trauma is such a buzzword. Now

0:40:41.200 --> 0:40:45.200
<v Speaker 2>it's not a buzzword. It's our generation recognizing that, hey,

0:40:45.320 --> 0:40:47.879
<v Speaker 2>y'all did y'all best, but maybe sometimes it just wasn't

0:40:47.880 --> 0:40:50.360
<v Speaker 2>good enough. And we're trying to recognize it, so we

0:40:50.400 --> 0:40:52.560
<v Speaker 2>could do better by our offspring.

0:40:52.360 --> 0:40:54.120
<v Speaker 1>Right, and then, and it will continue to grow and

0:40:54.160 --> 0:40:56.600
<v Speaker 1>grow and grow. You know, That's just how it works.

0:40:57.600 --> 0:41:01.920
<v Speaker 2>Trauma explains your triggers. It doesn't justify him, right. So

0:41:02.120 --> 0:41:03.920
<v Speaker 2>just because you have this trauma, and I think, and

0:41:03.960 --> 0:41:06.080
<v Speaker 2>I say this a lot men, right, they want to

0:41:06.120 --> 0:41:07.960
<v Speaker 2>be able to get a woman that they could be

0:41:08.520 --> 0:41:11.600
<v Speaker 2>vulnerable with and unpack all their traumas on That is

0:41:11.600 --> 0:41:14.279
<v Speaker 2>not what your woman is for, you know, the two

0:41:14.320 --> 0:41:16.040
<v Speaker 2>of you. Yes, y'all should should be able to help

0:41:16.080 --> 0:41:18.799
<v Speaker 2>each other in whatever situations, whatever mental language you're going through,

0:41:18.880 --> 0:41:20.480
<v Speaker 2>y'all should be able to help. But you got to

0:41:20.520 --> 0:41:22.680
<v Speaker 2>go to therapy, you know what I'm saying, because the

0:41:22.680 --> 0:41:25.760
<v Speaker 2>therapist is maybe a little bit more equipped to handle

0:41:25.800 --> 0:41:28.480
<v Speaker 2>the things that you're going through. You can't unpack all

0:41:28.520 --> 0:41:30.520
<v Speaker 2>your childhood trauma on me and think I'm going to

0:41:30.640 --> 0:41:34.600
<v Speaker 2>use it to justify your behavior towards me. Oh he

0:41:34.680 --> 0:41:37.560
<v Speaker 2>does this because of that. Oh I still love him. Noah,

0:41:37.600 --> 0:41:39.120
<v Speaker 2>you got to work on those things.

0:41:39.360 --> 0:41:41.400
<v Speaker 1>Yeah. I mean, I want my man to feel like

0:41:41.480 --> 0:41:45.000
<v Speaker 1>he can share whatever with me, you know, But I

0:41:45.080 --> 0:41:47.200
<v Speaker 1>also don't know what to do with all of that

0:41:47.440 --> 0:41:50.279
<v Speaker 1>I'm trying to figure out my own way exactly, So

0:41:50.360 --> 0:41:52.399
<v Speaker 1>I agree with you, like you know, we all need

0:41:52.440 --> 0:41:55.160
<v Speaker 1>therapy for our individual traumas. But I do want you

0:41:55.200 --> 0:41:57.319
<v Speaker 1>to give me grace. If you know this is why

0:41:57.360 --> 0:41:59.279
<v Speaker 1>I'm fucked up in this way, but you see me

0:41:59.320 --> 0:42:01.640
<v Speaker 1>actively work on it. Please give me some grace.

0:42:01.520 --> 0:42:04.680
<v Speaker 2>Right because you're gonna it's work in progress, right, and

0:42:05.040 --> 0:42:07.480
<v Speaker 2>it could be a lifelong commitment. I don't think anybody

0:42:07.520 --> 0:42:10.759
<v Speaker 2>could ever be one hundred percent self aware and have

0:42:10.800 --> 0:42:17.600
<v Speaker 2>one hundred percent percent emotional intelligence, right, But every day

0:42:17.640 --> 0:42:19.480
<v Speaker 2>you gotta be working on it. So now, if you

0:42:19.520 --> 0:42:24.240
<v Speaker 2>fall off the bandwagon, you know, fifteen percent of the time,

0:42:24.360 --> 0:42:27.280
<v Speaker 2>I got grace for you. But if on a daily basis,

0:42:27.320 --> 0:42:30.160
<v Speaker 2>like you just being this ugly person and I'm supposed

0:42:30.200 --> 0:42:32.279
<v Speaker 2>to use the fact that you were abused as a

0:42:32.360 --> 0:42:35.440
<v Speaker 2>child to justify how you treating me who didn't abuse you,

0:42:35.960 --> 0:42:38.400
<v Speaker 2>I can't fuck with you. You gotta get on out my life.

0:42:39.080 --> 0:42:42.160
<v Speaker 2>I agree, you know, and the more self aware you become,

0:42:42.320 --> 0:42:44.200
<v Speaker 2>the less shit you deal with from other people.

0:42:44.520 --> 0:42:46.479
<v Speaker 1>But I just think we're all gonna become so self

0:42:46.520 --> 0:42:48.760
<v Speaker 1>aware that nobody gonna have nobody.

0:42:49.120 --> 0:42:51.680
<v Speaker 2>No, because it goes in also to how you treat people.

0:42:51.719 --> 0:42:54.920
<v Speaker 2>So if you love yourself right and you're self aware,

0:42:55.000 --> 0:42:57.560
<v Speaker 2>like this thing bothers me, and this person is unwilling

0:42:57.600 --> 0:42:59.520
<v Speaker 2>to change this thing that bothers me, you might have

0:42:59.560 --> 0:43:02.520
<v Speaker 2>to step away. It's not about changing people anymore, it's

0:43:02.520 --> 0:43:05.239
<v Speaker 2>about changing yourself. So just like I guess we had

0:43:05.280 --> 0:43:08.239
<v Speaker 2>on last week, FIR this girl as young as hell,

0:43:08.360 --> 0:43:10.759
<v Speaker 2>twenty four years old, and she realized that she can't

0:43:10.800 --> 0:43:12.840
<v Speaker 2>change your parents, right, so let me change how I

0:43:12.880 --> 0:43:14.680
<v Speaker 2>deal with them so we can still remain family.

0:43:15.000 --> 0:43:15.160
<v Speaker 1>Right.

0:43:15.440 --> 0:43:19.719
<v Speaker 2>That is a lot of self awareness to have at

0:43:19.760 --> 0:43:22.879
<v Speaker 2>that young age, because it took me a very long time,

0:43:22.920 --> 0:43:24.480
<v Speaker 2>and I said that last week, it took me a

0:43:24.520 --> 0:43:26.799
<v Speaker 2>long time to realize, Listen, your parents so who they are.

0:43:27.840 --> 0:43:29.719
<v Speaker 2>Some people are who they are. Either you're gonna deal

0:43:29.760 --> 0:43:32.359
<v Speaker 2>with them or you aren't. And all the relationship is

0:43:32.360 --> 0:43:34.200
<v Speaker 2>is how much you can deal with from somebody else,

0:43:34.239 --> 0:43:37.960
<v Speaker 2>because everybody comes with their shit, everybody comes with their bullshit.

0:43:38.320 --> 0:43:40.440
<v Speaker 2>But it's just how much of somebody else that you

0:43:40.480 --> 0:43:42.839
<v Speaker 2>can take. And when you can't take it no more,

0:43:42.880 --> 0:43:45.120
<v Speaker 2>the relationship is over. And that could be your mom

0:43:45.120 --> 0:43:48.640
<v Speaker 2>and your daddy whoever it is you know what I'm saying?

0:43:49.760 --> 0:43:53.719
<v Speaker 2>So yeah? Keeping that journal. As you are journaling, pay

0:43:53.760 --> 0:43:56.280
<v Speaker 2>attention to your day. Ask yourself, how do you feel

0:43:56.800 --> 0:43:59.759
<v Speaker 2>if there any If there are any negative feelings associated

0:43:59.760 --> 0:44:03.279
<v Speaker 2>with day, think about what triggers may have caused them

0:44:03.280 --> 0:44:06.600
<v Speaker 2>to bubble up. For any positive feelings, think about what

0:44:06.800 --> 0:44:13.600
<v Speaker 2>may have triggered you to feel happy. While journaling, substitute

0:44:13.719 --> 0:44:19.200
<v Speaker 2>some screen time with people. Ooh, bitch, we recorded right now.

0:44:19.200 --> 0:44:20.280
<v Speaker 2>Why are you on your phone?

0:44:20.680 --> 0:44:23.520
<v Speaker 1>Girl? I'm sending emails. I'm sorry, I'm listening though.

0:44:27.120 --> 0:44:30.840
<v Speaker 2>You see it says the average amount of time we

0:44:30.960 --> 0:44:34.640
<v Speaker 2>spend alone gazing at our screens now surpass our time

0:44:34.960 --> 0:44:39.040
<v Speaker 2>in face to face contact. Science tells us that we

0:44:39.120 --> 0:44:42.240
<v Speaker 2>need reflections to develop our sense of self in reflection

0:44:42.400 --> 0:44:45.480
<v Speaker 2>to others. As we spend more time alone and on

0:44:45.600 --> 0:44:50.680
<v Speaker 2>our devices, we miss the essential human mirroring. The symptoms

0:44:50.719 --> 0:44:54.680
<v Speaker 2>of lack of mirroring are becoming more apparent in our society.

0:44:55.080 --> 0:45:01.760
<v Speaker 2>Increases in anxiety, lack of empathy, and intense self objectification

0:45:03.160 --> 0:45:06.920
<v Speaker 2>as in a self selfie craze. Right, there's a there's

0:45:06.920 --> 0:45:10.879
<v Speaker 2>a call, if not an angry cry for greater self

0:45:10.920 --> 0:45:12.040
<v Speaker 2>awareness and reflection.

0:45:12.800 --> 0:45:17.479
<v Speaker 1>I agree, especially when you look at these young people

0:45:17.560 --> 0:45:19.400
<v Speaker 1>who have grown up in the era.

0:45:19.239 --> 0:45:21.840
<v Speaker 2>Of social media. They don't give a fuck about nobody.

0:45:21.920 --> 0:45:26.640
<v Speaker 1>Oh my gosh, and the social are so bad it's

0:45:26.760 --> 0:45:30.120
<v Speaker 1>really scary, Like where are those Yeah to me? Yeah,

0:45:30.200 --> 0:45:36.279
<v Speaker 1>definitely weird as fuck. Hello, listen one thing. Let me

0:45:36.320 --> 0:45:39.080
<v Speaker 1>tell you something I hate And this might be my

0:45:39.239 --> 0:45:43.240
<v Speaker 1>auntie starting to show. Don't text me something without greeting

0:45:43.280 --> 0:45:46.840
<v Speaker 1>me first. Don't text me and be like, you know,

0:45:46.960 --> 0:45:48.440
<v Speaker 1>I what's the name of that?

0:45:49.040 --> 0:45:51.000
<v Speaker 2>Said that to me? But I realized that's what you

0:45:51.160 --> 0:45:55.120
<v Speaker 2>like because you always say, hey, hey, girl, is something

0:45:55.360 --> 0:45:56.160
<v Speaker 2>via tax first?

0:45:56.320 --> 0:46:00.480
<v Speaker 1>Yes? Always, because look, greet me. Don't ask me eight

0:46:00.680 --> 0:46:02.960
<v Speaker 1>what's the name of? No, not even nothing, just what's

0:46:02.960 --> 0:46:05.640
<v Speaker 1>the name of that restaurant you posted on your social media?

0:46:06.000 --> 0:46:10.280
<v Speaker 1>I'd be like, hello, how you doing, you old bitch?

0:46:10.600 --> 0:46:12.879
<v Speaker 2>Because who the fuck is old people do?

0:46:12.920 --> 0:46:16.640
<v Speaker 1>What the fuck are you talking to you? If you

0:46:16.719 --> 0:46:19.320
<v Speaker 1>walked up to me, you wouldn't just ask me a question,

0:46:19.800 --> 0:46:20.280
<v Speaker 1>you would.

0:46:20.120 --> 0:46:22.359
<v Speaker 2>Say hello, hey, how are you? Yeah?

0:46:22.440 --> 0:46:23.799
<v Speaker 1>The fuck I don't know?

0:46:24.640 --> 0:46:25.320
<v Speaker 2>Did I?

0:46:25.360 --> 0:46:27.200
<v Speaker 1>Like my grandma used to say, did I sleep with

0:46:27.239 --> 0:46:27.960
<v Speaker 1>you last night?

0:46:28.040 --> 0:46:29.839
<v Speaker 2>Right? Because you come in and you ain't greet them

0:46:29.920 --> 0:46:36.319
<v Speaker 2>right period. Yeah, the internet is crazy. Now. I got

0:46:36.360 --> 0:46:39.200
<v Speaker 2>my Instagram set on a two hour timer. Now what

0:46:39.239 --> 0:46:40.840
<v Speaker 2>I should be doing in those two hours is like

0:46:40.880 --> 0:46:43.520
<v Speaker 2>posting content to our social media page. But I don't

0:46:43.520 --> 0:46:46.040
<v Speaker 2>do it. I fucking scroll for hours and then I

0:46:46.080 --> 0:46:48.320
<v Speaker 2>asked the phone for fifteen more minutes to fucking scroll

0:46:48.400 --> 0:46:50.839
<v Speaker 2>some more. It is a problem. I have my hit

0:46:51.080 --> 0:46:53.920
<v Speaker 2>my shit set on a two hour limit, and every

0:46:54.040 --> 0:46:57.640
<v Speaker 2>day I hit the ship the discard the timer.

0:46:58.040 --> 0:46:59.640
<v Speaker 1>I don't even I didn't even know you could do that.

0:47:00.280 --> 0:47:03.360
<v Speaker 1>I'll I would put on a show and start to

0:47:03.360 --> 0:47:08.520
<v Speaker 1>show episode over seventeen times because I'm scrolling. It's bad.

0:47:09.160 --> 0:47:11.879
<v Speaker 2>So you know, the social media apps they do give

0:47:11.960 --> 0:47:15.680
<v Speaker 2>everybody like a dose of dopamine. So that's what we're getting,

0:47:15.880 --> 0:47:20.360
<v Speaker 2>instant dopamine with Instagram. Especially when you post a picture

0:47:20.480 --> 0:47:23.319
<v Speaker 2>and people liking it, you're going back to see the

0:47:23.360 --> 0:47:28.640
<v Speaker 2>notifications who commented. It's fucking weird. And you lack self awareness.

0:47:28.760 --> 0:47:30.560
<v Speaker 1>On Facebook, when I like post a picture and I

0:47:30.560 --> 0:47:32.359
<v Speaker 1>see people love it and then I see a like

0:47:32.440 --> 0:47:34.080
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, bitch.

0:47:35.160 --> 0:47:37.080
<v Speaker 2>The love was right next, are you blind?

0:47:37.600 --> 0:47:38.680
<v Speaker 1>The love was right next right.

0:47:38.760 --> 0:47:41.680
<v Speaker 2>So they made a consciousness, a conscious decision to only

0:47:41.800 --> 0:47:51.200
<v Speaker 2>like shit shady. That is shady, bitch, and I see you. Yeah,

0:47:51.239 --> 0:47:53.759
<v Speaker 2>social media is definitely gonna be the fucking death of us. Man.

0:47:53.880 --> 0:47:58.160
<v Speaker 2>It is causing people to get way, way, way further

0:47:58.200 --> 0:48:03.239
<v Speaker 2>away from the fucking truth, from the facts. You know

0:48:03.280 --> 0:48:05.560
<v Speaker 2>what I'm saying, it's just telling us a bunch of lies.

0:48:06.800 --> 0:48:09.919
<v Speaker 2>I mean, I'm so fine in person, like I could

0:48:10.000 --> 0:48:12.600
<v Speaker 2>be super fine on the internet though, if I want

0:48:12.600 --> 0:48:13.200
<v Speaker 2>to be right.

0:48:14.600 --> 0:48:18.600
<v Speaker 1>I was just saying to my friend, like I used

0:48:18.640 --> 0:48:21.920
<v Speaker 1>to love my regular face before filtering. No, man, now

0:48:21.960 --> 0:48:24.440
<v Speaker 1>i'd be like, ooh, what filter I'm gonna use instead

0:48:24.480 --> 0:48:26.880
<v Speaker 1>of just my own face? The shit is crazy.

0:48:27.120 --> 0:48:28.840
<v Speaker 2>And that's why I don't post a lot of pictures

0:48:28.880 --> 0:48:32.600
<v Speaker 2>because I feel like I have a pretty good bit

0:48:32.640 --> 0:48:35.600
<v Speaker 2>of self awareness, right, and I pride myself on being

0:48:35.640 --> 0:48:38.440
<v Speaker 2>a real nigga, And if I'm posting images that don't

0:48:38.480 --> 0:48:40.680
<v Speaker 2>look like me, I don't feel like I'm being a

0:48:40.680 --> 0:48:43.319
<v Speaker 2>real nigga. Like people literally be like, oh, that is

0:48:43.360 --> 0:48:46.000
<v Speaker 2>not your face, And it's hard for me to post

0:48:46.040 --> 0:48:49.040
<v Speaker 2>my regular face when everybody posting a filtered face and

0:48:49.160 --> 0:48:52.080
<v Speaker 2>everybody looks way more beautiful than me, Like if they're

0:48:52.080 --> 0:48:54.719
<v Speaker 2>filtered up because they fucking filtered up. And I don't

0:48:54.760 --> 0:48:57.160
<v Speaker 2>feel comfortable posting a thousand pictures with a filter on,

0:48:57.200 --> 0:49:01.040
<v Speaker 2>because bitch, that ain't you. That's not you me, that

0:49:01.200 --> 0:49:05.080
<v Speaker 2>is not I can't hear you, that is me. You

0:49:05.120 --> 0:49:07.480
<v Speaker 2>know how people out here with zero self will awareness

0:49:07.560 --> 0:49:10.080
<v Speaker 2>going and getting their face done to max the filter.

0:49:10.680 --> 0:49:11.840
<v Speaker 2>That is fucking weird.

0:49:11.640 --> 0:49:14.360
<v Speaker 1>Because I but here's the thing, I don't I feel

0:49:14.360 --> 0:49:15.440
<v Speaker 1>like I'm beautiful in person.

0:49:16.360 --> 0:49:19.840
<v Speaker 2>I feel like I look way better in person translate better.

0:49:20.600 --> 0:49:23.320
<v Speaker 1>But I think is my or my spirit, my smile,

0:49:23.440 --> 0:49:27.160
<v Speaker 1>my energy, that everything, all the beauty that you can't

0:49:27.200 --> 0:49:29.640
<v Speaker 1>see in this picture, you know, So I feel like,

0:49:30.239 --> 0:49:30.840
<v Speaker 1>I don't know.

0:49:30.800 --> 0:49:33.919
<v Speaker 2>Do you feel like iPhone being intentionally making you look ugly?

0:49:33.920 --> 0:49:36.360
<v Speaker 2>Because I saw, to god, I look real good on

0:49:36.440 --> 0:49:37.320
<v Speaker 2>android phones.

0:49:38.080 --> 0:49:39.960
<v Speaker 1>I don't know. I don't ever touch an android.

0:49:41.640 --> 0:49:44.839
<v Speaker 2>Look. I feel like Apple intentionally making people like ugly

0:49:44.880 --> 0:49:46.040
<v Speaker 2>so they use filters.

0:49:47.080 --> 0:49:50.600
<v Speaker 1>My iPhone got a fat mirror on the eye, like

0:49:50.640 --> 0:49:52.839
<v Speaker 1>they doing something in them settings. I don't think.

0:49:52.880 --> 0:49:55.440
<v Speaker 2>So I really feel that way because like I look

0:49:55.480 --> 0:49:57.600
<v Speaker 2>in the mirror and I know, I know perception is

0:49:57.600 --> 0:50:00.359
<v Speaker 2>a thing, right, so I perceive myself the look one

0:50:00.360 --> 0:50:01.800
<v Speaker 2>way when I look in the mirror, Bitch, when I

0:50:01.840 --> 0:50:03.920
<v Speaker 2>look on an iPhone picture, I'm like, that is not

0:50:04.000 --> 0:50:08.120
<v Speaker 2>my face? Like, who are y'all playing with? Is it

0:50:08.280 --> 0:50:12.800
<v Speaker 2>just me? Am I tripping? But anyway, Number six says,

0:50:13.000 --> 0:50:16.560
<v Speaker 2>ask others how they see you. Gotta be ready for

0:50:16.640 --> 0:50:21.719
<v Speaker 2>the responses. Not only should we build out our face

0:50:21.800 --> 0:50:24.920
<v Speaker 2>to face social actions, but also use a portion of

0:50:24.960 --> 0:50:28.200
<v Speaker 2>this time to learn about how our loved ones perceive us.

0:50:28.920 --> 0:50:31.879
<v Speaker 2>Talk to your closest loved ones and be courageous enough

0:50:31.880 --> 0:50:34.799
<v Speaker 2>to ask them how they perceive you in various situations.

0:50:35.640 --> 0:50:38.799
<v Speaker 2>Getting perspective on how you behave, or come off in

0:50:38.840 --> 0:50:43.640
<v Speaker 2>certain situations can help us bring into our awareness something

0:50:43.640 --> 0:50:47.560
<v Speaker 2>that was previously invisible to us. Therapy is great for

0:50:47.640 --> 0:50:52.200
<v Speaker 2>this too, so talking to people and asking them, hey,

0:50:52.320 --> 0:50:54.200
<v Speaker 2>you know and this well you know I saw a

0:50:54.239 --> 0:50:56.800
<v Speaker 2>post the other data said. Once I call my best

0:50:56.800 --> 0:51:02.520
<v Speaker 2>friend and she tells me I'm right, it's over for you.

0:51:02.520 --> 0:51:05.080
<v Speaker 2>Your best friend cannot always tell you you're right. No,

0:51:05.760 --> 0:51:07.440
<v Speaker 2>she gotta be objective at somebody.

0:51:07.480 --> 0:51:09.520
<v Speaker 1>Sometimes she gotta tell you she you're wrong, like bit

0:51:09.600 --> 0:51:12.000
<v Speaker 1>you fucked up, or you gotta find like maybe your

0:51:12.000 --> 0:51:13.799
<v Speaker 1>best friend is just always in your corner. You gotta

0:51:13.800 --> 0:51:16.560
<v Speaker 1>find that person that you know is gonna tell you

0:51:16.640 --> 0:51:17.680
<v Speaker 1>either way, you know.

0:51:17.880 --> 0:51:22.160
<v Speaker 2>Like, I don't think that's how I was supposed to go. Yeah,

0:51:22.239 --> 0:51:25.480
<v Speaker 2>but you gotta be also ready for what people tell you.

0:51:25.560 --> 0:51:26.359
<v Speaker 2>I would like to.

0:51:27.360 --> 0:51:29.320
<v Speaker 1>I try to offer one of my very good friends

0:51:29.400 --> 0:51:33.160
<v Speaker 1>some truth about herself and I, you know, and about

0:51:33.160 --> 0:51:35.160
<v Speaker 1>me at the same time. You know, like, this is

0:51:35.239 --> 0:51:37.920
<v Speaker 1>something we're similar on, this is something we both can

0:51:37.960 --> 0:51:41.480
<v Speaker 1>work on. And she was like, that's not true. And

0:51:41.520 --> 0:51:44.040
<v Speaker 1>I was like, well, ask our other friends in our group.

0:51:44.080 --> 0:51:45.759
<v Speaker 1>But when you ask them, I need you to be

0:51:46.520 --> 0:51:50.040
<v Speaker 1>ready to hear it, you know, and be open minded

0:51:50.080 --> 0:51:52.640
<v Speaker 1>with it. Baby, that shit, when I all the way left,

0:51:53.520 --> 0:51:55.040
<v Speaker 1>ain't nobody talking right now?

0:51:56.280 --> 0:51:57.479
<v Speaker 2>You gotta started some shit.

0:51:57.719 --> 0:51:59.640
<v Speaker 1>I did, but I wasn't. That wasn't the goal. It

0:51:59.680 --> 0:52:02.239
<v Speaker 1>wasn't It didn't come from a place of argument or

0:52:02.320 --> 0:52:05.680
<v Speaker 1>angry or it was just trying to encourage some self

0:52:05.680 --> 0:52:07.000
<v Speaker 1>awareness for both of us.

0:52:07.080 --> 0:52:09.520
<v Speaker 2>And she might she might go to the she may

0:52:09.760 --> 0:52:12.800
<v Speaker 2>she might do this in private, the private self awareness assessment.

0:52:13.400 --> 0:52:15.440
<v Speaker 2>She might do it in private, but she may not

0:52:16.680 --> 0:52:19.720
<v Speaker 2>have the depth to actually tell you were right. Yeah,

0:52:19.880 --> 0:52:21.839
<v Speaker 2>you know what I'm saying, Like, oh, well, I thought

0:52:21.840 --> 0:52:26.200
<v Speaker 2>about this, like some people, some people just gotta leave alone. Man, Yeah,

0:52:26.760 --> 0:52:27.720
<v Speaker 2>honestly some.

0:52:27.600 --> 0:52:31.120
<v Speaker 1>People at right, some people.

0:52:30.840 --> 0:52:33.920
<v Speaker 2>Are just impossible people. So even if you tried to

0:52:33.960 --> 0:52:37.040
<v Speaker 2>put yourself in a mix, because everybody can work on things, right,

0:52:37.080 --> 0:52:39.120
<v Speaker 2>So me not trying to single you out by yourself.

0:52:39.160 --> 0:52:41.399
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, you know, we both can work on this.

0:52:41.520 --> 0:52:43.360
<v Speaker 1>And I recognize it in you because I see it

0:52:43.400 --> 0:52:45.440
<v Speaker 1>in myself, right, That's how I presented it, you know.

0:52:46.160 --> 0:52:50.280
<v Speaker 2>But some people may never have any I mean, they're

0:52:50.280 --> 0:52:53.200
<v Speaker 2>gonna always forever be a part of that eighty percent.

0:52:53.640 --> 0:52:55.520
<v Speaker 2>They don't have any self awareness and they don't care

0:52:55.600 --> 0:52:59.040
<v Speaker 2>to because it's their world and bit you are going

0:52:59.080 --> 0:53:01.040
<v Speaker 2>to exist in it or not. I can't deal with

0:53:01.080 --> 0:53:01.600
<v Speaker 2>people like that.

0:53:02.719 --> 0:53:06.080
<v Speaker 1>Well, like you said earlier, like sometimes you have to

0:53:06.120 --> 0:53:09.239
<v Speaker 1>see who people are and adjust so you can deal

0:53:09.239 --> 0:53:11.319
<v Speaker 1>with them. Like so now I just know that I

0:53:11.360 --> 0:53:13.080
<v Speaker 1>have to adjust how I move with you.

0:53:13.680 --> 0:53:18.320
<v Speaker 2>That's it, short spoon or long spoon number seven says

0:53:18.560 --> 0:53:23.120
<v Speaker 2>angry at someone take the third person perspective. Ultimately, the

0:53:23.120 --> 0:53:26.080
<v Speaker 2>benefits of self awareness are to serve not only you

0:53:26.120 --> 0:53:32.160
<v Speaker 2>in emotional management, but also to serve your relationships. If

0:53:32.200 --> 0:53:35.640
<v Speaker 2>you catch yourself raising your voice, you may feel justified

0:53:35.719 --> 0:53:39.279
<v Speaker 2>due to being upset. However, for the person with you,

0:53:39.520 --> 0:53:43.440
<v Speaker 2>the second person, the experience will be quite different. Trying

0:53:43.480 --> 0:53:47.360
<v Speaker 2>to imagine yourself in the person's place will improve self awareness,

0:53:47.480 --> 0:53:52.200
<v Speaker 2>reduce defensiveness, and quite possibly improve your relationship with that

0:53:52.239 --> 0:53:56.879
<v Speaker 2>person as well. Third person is particularly effective for people

0:53:56.960 --> 0:54:01.000
<v Speaker 2>who are overly self critical or who trains to be

0:54:01.080 --> 0:54:05.120
<v Speaker 2>self destructive. What would you advise if you were a

0:54:05.160 --> 0:54:08.520
<v Speaker 2>caring friend watching your behavior? That would be taking a

0:54:08.560 --> 0:54:14.120
<v Speaker 2>third person perspective. So I'm gonna be honest. So, and

0:54:14.200 --> 0:54:16.680
<v Speaker 2>I still don't feel like I'm wrong. Y'all know the

0:54:17.040 --> 0:54:19.680
<v Speaker 2>public argument that we posted, because it was a conscious

0:54:19.719 --> 0:54:22.960
<v Speaker 2>decision we made to post this argument, and I did

0:54:23.000 --> 0:54:26.719
<v Speaker 2>take a lot of feedback into consideration. And again, I

0:54:26.760 --> 0:54:29.839
<v Speaker 2>still don't think I'm wrong because there are some things

0:54:29.840 --> 0:54:32.080
<v Speaker 2>that the public can't see that may have transpired that

0:54:32.200 --> 0:54:34.640
<v Speaker 2>led to that particular moment. That's what I didn't take

0:54:34.640 --> 0:54:38.600
<v Speaker 2>into consideration, that people would be looking at this one moment.

0:54:38.840 --> 0:54:42.120
<v Speaker 2>You don't see the build up to this one moment, right,

0:54:42.719 --> 0:54:48.200
<v Speaker 2>So whatever, But that I rewatched it, and I decided

0:54:48.239 --> 0:54:50.120
<v Speaker 2>that That's when I decide I'm not arguing with people

0:54:50.120 --> 0:54:52.919
<v Speaker 2>no more because it doesn't make sense. It doesn't make

0:54:52.960 --> 0:54:57.560
<v Speaker 2>sense to argue with anybody anymore. So I don't feel

0:54:57.640 --> 0:55:00.600
<v Speaker 2>good when I argue. I literally my blood pressure going up.

0:55:00.920 --> 0:55:03.160
<v Speaker 2>I have anxiety. All type of shit be happening. I

0:55:03.160 --> 0:55:06.480
<v Speaker 2>got a fart, fucking palm sweat, and you know what

0:55:06.480 --> 0:55:08.600
<v Speaker 2>I'm saying, I don't want to do it anymore. So

0:55:08.760 --> 0:55:11.960
<v Speaker 2>what can I do different differently? How could I present

0:55:12.120 --> 0:55:16.239
<v Speaker 2>differently going forward to avoid conflicts? You You're not gonna

0:55:16.239 --> 0:55:19.040
<v Speaker 2>be able to avoid every conflict, but some things can

0:55:19.080 --> 0:55:24.080
<v Speaker 2>be resolved without yelling and getting that fucking mad. And

0:55:24.800 --> 0:55:26.400
<v Speaker 2>you know, part of it is just me shutting the

0:55:26.400 --> 0:55:29.160
<v Speaker 2>fuck up sometimes just you know what I'm saying to you.

0:55:29.239 --> 0:55:31.279
<v Speaker 2>If you like it, I love it. Type shit.

0:55:31.480 --> 0:55:35.040
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I also don't feel wrong, and you know, and

0:55:35.080 --> 0:55:38.440
<v Speaker 1>I just feel like we have to agree to disagree

0:55:38.480 --> 0:55:42.279
<v Speaker 1>sometimes just for the sake of just moving forward. You know,

0:55:42.400 --> 0:55:45.720
<v Speaker 1>sometimes we're not gonna we have different perspectives on things

0:55:45.920 --> 0:55:48.319
<v Speaker 1>and we're just going to see it differently, you know.

0:55:48.920 --> 0:55:51.360
<v Speaker 1>And despite what anybody on the outside looking in for

0:55:51.400 --> 0:55:53.920
<v Speaker 1>this one particular moment says, you know, we have our

0:55:53.960 --> 0:56:00.480
<v Speaker 1>individual feelings and just respect you know, each other's. That's

0:56:01.000 --> 0:56:03.160
<v Speaker 1>that's where I'm at. I try to respect yours and

0:56:03.239 --> 0:56:05.239
<v Speaker 1>you try to respect mine. We can always work together,

0:56:05.320 --> 0:56:09.200
<v Speaker 1>and I don't ever want to get better respecting, right,

0:56:09.239 --> 0:56:11.520
<v Speaker 1>And I think I think since then we've gotten better.

0:56:12.280 --> 0:56:16.640
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, because I mean also because I feel like we

0:56:16.760 --> 0:56:19.080
<v Speaker 2>probably you have to look at the bigger picture and

0:56:19.080 --> 0:56:22.640
<v Speaker 2>the bigger goal of all things. That that is how

0:56:22.719 --> 0:56:25.960
<v Speaker 2>you make things better, you know, especially in a business relationship.

0:56:26.320 --> 0:56:28.759
<v Speaker 2>We just watched one of the biggest podcasts.

0:56:28.200 --> 0:56:32.080
<v Speaker 1>Fall out about that and I was like, Lord, don't

0:56:32.160 --> 0:56:32.920
<v Speaker 1>let that happen.

0:56:33.920 --> 0:56:37.200
<v Speaker 2>And I under from the outside looking in, I can

0:56:37.239 --> 0:56:41.800
<v Speaker 2>see how that happens. I can see how that happens

0:56:42.440 --> 0:56:47.520
<v Speaker 2>without knowing exactly what transpired. It's hard being in relationships.

0:56:48.160 --> 0:56:50.840
<v Speaker 2>A lot of people being in a relationship with themselves.

0:56:50.840 --> 0:56:53.200
<v Speaker 2>That's what this episode is about. Like a lot of

0:56:53.200 --> 0:56:55.839
<v Speaker 2>people don't have a relationship with themselves. So how are

0:56:55.880 --> 0:56:57.560
<v Speaker 2>you expecting somebody else to deal with you?

0:56:57.400 --> 0:56:59.719
<v Speaker 1>And you can health your relationship with themselves.

0:57:00.600 --> 0:57:02.799
<v Speaker 2>You can't even deal with you, And now you're going

0:57:02.800 --> 0:57:05.800
<v Speaker 2>out in the world and thinking other people supposed to

0:57:05.840 --> 0:57:09.319
<v Speaker 2>be able to deal with you. Absolutely not so worry

0:57:09.360 --> 0:57:14.399
<v Speaker 2>about your fucking self. Deal with you. Okay, we got

0:57:14.400 --> 0:57:16.560
<v Speaker 2>two more on the list and we're gonna close out,

0:57:16.600 --> 0:57:20.520
<v Speaker 2>But so keep checking in with yourself and a list

0:57:20.560 --> 0:57:24.000
<v Speaker 2>of your feelings. Clinically, the most effective method for the

0:57:24.040 --> 0:57:26.920
<v Speaker 2>development of self awareness is a pause and brief checking

0:57:27.000 --> 0:57:30.360
<v Speaker 2>with oneself. How am I feeling right now? What do

0:57:30.440 --> 0:57:34.080
<v Speaker 2>I think might be driving that feeling? This may seem

0:57:34.080 --> 0:57:38.000
<v Speaker 2>absurdly simple, and in practice it may be quite difficult.

0:57:38.680 --> 0:57:41.040
<v Speaker 2>Many need to carry a list of possible emotions with

0:57:41.080 --> 0:57:44.160
<v Speaker 2>them as they begin to exercise. You're just carrying around

0:57:44.600 --> 0:57:47.360
<v Speaker 2>a list of shit. Or let me check my list

0:57:47.360 --> 0:57:49.240
<v Speaker 2>because let me see how the fuck I feel right now?

0:57:49.680 --> 0:57:53.120
<v Speaker 1>Wait, carry a list of positive emotions you feel about yourself,

0:57:54.440 --> 0:57:57.400
<v Speaker 1>like I like my hair today, like that?

0:57:57.600 --> 0:58:04.160
<v Speaker 2>Or negative like just write them and write their emotions down. Mmm,

0:58:04.280 --> 0:58:07.480
<v Speaker 2>I don't know. You know, what's a hard question to answer?

0:58:07.640 --> 0:58:10.800
<v Speaker 2>Like sometimes you don't put some When somebody asks you,

0:58:10.840 --> 0:58:13.880
<v Speaker 2>are you happy? Is that easy for you to answer?

0:58:14.920 --> 0:58:15.160
<v Speaker 1>Oh?

0:58:16.200 --> 0:58:21.960
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, just yes, technically, just generally, like I found.

0:58:21.800 --> 0:58:25.080
<v Speaker 1>That once I started practicing gratitude, I'm more, you know,

0:58:25.200 --> 0:58:27.160
<v Speaker 1>I can find a lot of reasons more reasons to

0:58:27.200 --> 0:58:30.240
<v Speaker 1>be happy than sad, you know. So typically the answer

0:58:30.320 --> 0:58:33.160
<v Speaker 1>is yes, Now do I get sad, absolutely, you know,

0:58:33.240 --> 0:58:35.800
<v Speaker 1>But overall I just like it. I'm happy.

0:58:36.360 --> 0:58:39.120
<v Speaker 2>I think a lot of people will be surprised that

0:58:39.440 --> 0:58:43.280
<v Speaker 2>just gratitude will resolve a lot of it.

0:58:43.440 --> 0:58:44.600
<v Speaker 1>Really, it really does.

0:58:44.760 --> 0:58:46.920
<v Speaker 2>There's a person real close to me, there's a person

0:58:46.960 --> 0:58:50.360
<v Speaker 2>real close to me in my life right and I

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<v Speaker 2>I just feel like she doesn't practice gratitude. And this

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<v Speaker 2>is why you upset. You can't see the goodness and

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<v Speaker 2>anything in your life. Nothing you do. I don't see

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<v Speaker 2>nothing positive. You don't have anything to smile about and

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<v Speaker 2>be happy about. Meanwhile, I see a million trillion things

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<v Speaker 2>that I don't that i'd be having to deal with

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<v Speaker 2>that you don't got to deal with. And you find

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<v Speaker 2>a reason to be fucking mad every morning when you

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<v Speaker 2>wake up. You gotta find gratitude.

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<v Speaker 1>Just when I wake up in the morning, I'd be

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<v Speaker 1>waking up.

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<v Speaker 2>Like, did I say thank you? I say thank you?

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<v Speaker 2>Hit the lottery again?

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<v Speaker 1>God damn it.

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<v Speaker 2>That's how I feel, not about waking up, because I mean,

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<v Speaker 2>rather I wake up or not. I'm not overly concerned

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<v Speaker 2>about living a dying at this point in my life, I've.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just every day to wake up again because you know,

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<v Speaker 1>yet another day. And I think another thing that helped

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<v Speaker 1>me to practice a new level of gratitude for myself

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<v Speaker 1>is I have a mess, you know, and each day

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<v Speaker 1>I wake up with my eyes, my vision able to swallow,

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<v Speaker 1>my pear working. It's like, yes, I'm winning out here.

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<v Speaker 1>So it's just hard for me to really really feel

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<v Speaker 1>like sad.

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<v Speaker 2>My niece is twenty five and she has lupis, and God,

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<v Speaker 2>I wish. I don't want to. I don't want to

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<v Speaker 2>take the disease on, but I know I'd be able

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<v Speaker 2>to manage it better than her. I feel sorry for her,

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<v Speaker 2>but that helps me sure I'm healthy. You know what

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<v Speaker 2>I'm saying. She's in pain at twenty five years old.

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<v Speaker 2>Every day. You know what I'm saying, she's taking all

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<v Speaker 2>of this medicine. I don't have to deal with that.

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<v Speaker 2>So even just having be grateful for having good health,

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<v Speaker 2>absolutely because you don't want to be alive and sick.

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<v Speaker 2>It's not fun.

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<v Speaker 1>Or just look at the Congo, the people in Palestine,

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<v Speaker 1>the people of Israel, all these reasons why you should

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<v Speaker 1>be grateful for whatever misfortune you're experiencing right now.

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<v Speaker 2>He's eight dollar eggs.

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<v Speaker 1>Be grateful that you got access to eight dollar eggs.

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<v Speaker 2>You know so, Man, I'm about to start stealing eggs.

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<v Speaker 2>I ain't a lie.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, bring me a breaking them, Bring.

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<v Speaker 2>Me a dozen. I want to start stealing eggs. This

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<v Speaker 2>shit is ridiculous, Like, why are the eggs eight ninety nine?

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<v Speaker 1>Bring me a dozen?

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<v Speaker 2>Baby? You need it all right? So the last one

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<v Speaker 2>is keep learning. The journey never ends. While this article

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<v Speaker 2>helpfully hopefully help help with pointers, there is a strove

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<v Speaker 2>of excuse me, there is a trove of wonderful material

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<v Speaker 2>out there that can be of guidance in your ever

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<v Speaker 2>evolving journey towards self awareness. Read and learn about the

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<v Speaker 2>psychology and practices of self awareness. Get excited about it.

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<v Speaker 2>Get excited about getting the knowledge that will help you

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<v Speaker 2>learn about yourself. Y'all. This is from actual. This is

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<v Speaker 2>from nbcnews dot com. This particular article that I read

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<v Speaker 2>all the different ways to cultivate more self awareness, because

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<v Speaker 2>that's why people needle. Motherfuckers just walk around here not

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<v Speaker 2>in control of their own vessel. They're being operated by demons,

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<v Speaker 2>and you out here hurting people because you're hurt.

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<v Speaker 1>Right, That's really what it is.

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<v Speaker 2>That's all it is. But I don't know. Man. We

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<v Speaker 2>live in this some times, but it is definitely a

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<v Speaker 2>time to be alive. The shit that we are witnessing

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<v Speaker 2>in this world today is unprecedented. We will be in

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<v Speaker 2>history books where you want to be at. Do you

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<v Speaker 2>know who you are?

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<v Speaker 1>Yes? I'm Tamla Nicole Bowing, the daughter of Brian Hart

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<v Speaker 1>and Sarah Hart. And I'm a loving console and I

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<v Speaker 1>love y'all girl.

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<v Speaker 2>A lot people about to put your social Security number

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<v Speaker 2>in somewhere.

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<v Speaker 1>I ain't give them myself. Listen.

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<v Speaker 2>They can't do nothing with my ship right now.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not able to help you.

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<v Speaker 2>God damn, please do something with my Daren credits. I

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<v Speaker 2>can blame you student loans and taxes and all type

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<v Speaker 2>of shit on y'all. Ass I didn't do that. I

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<v Speaker 2>didn't do none of this is credit cards.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm appalled.

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<v Speaker 2>It's prove it wasn't me. I don't know, man, this

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<v Speaker 2>is a shot. That's who I am, Okay. I am

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<v Speaker 2>here to gain knowledge and share with people to help.

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<v Speaker 2>That's my purpose on this realm.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know, to help. I think mine is to

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<v Speaker 1>spread joy, love and goodness all the days of my life.

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<v Speaker 2>I guess that's what I want to do. Yeah, I

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<v Speaker 2>want to spread awareness. I want people to be aware

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<v Speaker 2>of what the fuck is going on around them and

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<v Speaker 2>in them. People be walking around here just aimlessly like

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<v Speaker 2>she's sweet, and it's not. Y'all. We are slowly becoming

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<v Speaker 2>a third world country. I don't know if y'all see

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<v Speaker 2>it or not, but it is happening. What we're gonna

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<v Speaker 2>do barbecue mildew. Anyway, y'all, listen to your best practices.

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<v Speaker 2>Breathe in, breathe out. Do you journaling, Talk to a

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<v Speaker 2>good friend, somebody who's gonna help you. Hold that mirror up.

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<v Speaker 2>Go take all the week wig off and take your

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<v Speaker 2>lashes off and all the ship and go stand in

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<v Speaker 2>the mirror and actually look at yourself.

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<v Speaker 1>Go stand in the sun without the week.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh shit, bitch, you asking for too much. You have Listen.

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<v Speaker 2>I just to say how my scalp need some fucking son.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna do it one day. You go ride bike

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<v Speaker 2>or two pigtails down the side.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, y'all, if you enjoyed this episode, betch that's

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<v Speaker 1>my part anyway, y'all.

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<v Speaker 2>Send us some dumb bitch stories. Y'all act like y'all

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<v Speaker 2>ain't got nothing going on in life, like y'all so

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<v Speaker 2>self aware.

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<v Speaker 1>And we know y'all be listening cause y'all be commenting

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<v Speaker 1>in the reviews telling us what y'all don't like. Let's

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<v Speaker 1>share your share your stories with us. Man.

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<v Speaker 2>Anyway, y'all listen. If you enjoyed this episode, tune in,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, become more self aware and tune in every

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<v Speaker 2>two point zero on Instagrams. I did uh take the

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<v Speaker 2>I Am a J Holiday. Maybe y'all'll go over to

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<v Speaker 2>that one one day.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh you got that one?

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<v Speaker 2>I might change up, switch it up on these motherfuckers anyway,

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<v Speaker 2>what you got going on?

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<v Speaker 1>Zam y'all? Once again, I remind y'all that you are

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<v Speaker 2>And never hold your peace mobile