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Speaker 1: We're just two unapologetically black women with an opinion who talks.

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Speaker 1: What's up?

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Speaker 2: Y'all? Thank you for tuning in for a new episode

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Speaker 2: and we talked back a show dedicated to you dreamers

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Speaker 2: and chasers. This is your co host AJ Holiday. What's up,

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Speaker 2: Tam Bam?

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Speaker 1: Do anybody want a motherfucking dog? Do anybody want a dog?

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Speaker 2: I want to pat that dog? Let me pet that doll.

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Speaker 1: Oh my god, Hey y'all, I love y'all. What's up?

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Speaker 1: What's up? As damn?

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Speaker 2: Are you the I R S?

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Speaker 1: I'm sorry, I'm stressed.

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Speaker 2: Goddamn. What's the agent from Matrix? The agent name off

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Speaker 2: the Matrix? That's what's up? Ashley? Like, what y'all?

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Speaker 1: My puppy? I kept the rug, my rug up off

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Speaker 1: my floor for months trying to train her. And once

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Speaker 1: I thought I had her all the way trade, I

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Speaker 1: put my rug down and it's like I never trained her.

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Speaker 2: She like, I ain't never pissed on this before. Let

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Speaker 2: me get on this. Let me see what this be like.

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Speaker 1: Oh my gosh, she shpit on it yesterday and she

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Speaker 1: pissed on it today. And if y'all want a dog

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Speaker 1: for Christmas? DM me.

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Speaker 2: I'm gonna need you to stop getting dogs, and they're

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Speaker 2: giving the ask the way y'all listen. So this weekend

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Speaker 2: I attended my cousin's wedding. My cousin, Arthur, my first cousin,

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Speaker 2: got married, and I have a cousin who Tammy gifted

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Speaker 2: her last dog to dog's name was Findy initially the dog.

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Speaker 2: Now his name is Chewy, and he actually attended the wedding.

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Speaker 2: Nigga was there with a tuxedo on because my cousin

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Speaker 2: don't go nowhere without that fucking dog.

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Speaker 1: Well he found a good homes I'm the dog. I'm

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Speaker 1: the Oprah of dogs. You get a dog, you get

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Speaker 1: a dog, motherfucker. Because I didn't want.

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Speaker 2: The dog for a couple of minutes.

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Speaker 1: I love her. She's cool, but it's the piss and

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Speaker 1: shit that I can't deal with.

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Speaker 2: I don't like puppies, you know, And the same way

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Speaker 2: I don't really like babies like that. I like seven

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Speaker 2: year olds.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, because look they get big, they got some.

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Speaker 2: Sense exactly like this is hard diamonds.

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Speaker 1: I could keep her. She would never use the bathroom

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Speaker 1: in my house. She was so smart. I mean, when

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Speaker 1: she was a puppy, obviously, But when she got big,

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Speaker 1: she learned this right here is dumb.

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Speaker 2: Not this right here, it's a frenchie. This right here,

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Speaker 2: y'all know them dogs are tired anyway. Okay, I don't

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Speaker 2: understand why people even like Frenchies, Like it's not a

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Speaker 2: natural breed of dog.

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Speaker 1: And it's like you really that dog tagage get you? Like,

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Speaker 1: really sat right next to me and pissed on my

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Speaker 1: road while I'm sitting right here? Is wow?

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Speaker 2: You know, sometimes dogs do things they get attention from me,

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Speaker 2: Like she knows if she pees like she's gonna at

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Speaker 2: least get some type of emotion from you. So maybe

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Speaker 2: you need to change how you spawned her pin because

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Speaker 2: she's associating that even whatever type of response it is,

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Speaker 2: she's so she.

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Speaker 1: Wanted ass whoopings all the time.

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Speaker 2: She might have gotten conditioned for ass whippings. I don't know,

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Speaker 2: are you abusive?

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Speaker 1: That's what you call it?

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Speaker 2: Anyway? How was your weekend? Aside from clean up shit

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Speaker 2: and pissh gosh?

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Speaker 1: My weekend was good. I went to see The Whiz

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Speaker 1: over the week, really it was.

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Speaker 2: I watched it on what I think it's on Amazon

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Speaker 2: right now? Oh?

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Speaker 1: Really? The play no the Oh the Original with MJ

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Speaker 1: and Diana Ross. Yeah. I try to get my date

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Speaker 1: to watch the actual original before we went, but he

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Speaker 1: didn't do it.

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Speaker 2: So he never seen it before.

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Speaker 1: How old is he?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, go ahead. So he was born in nineteen

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Speaker 2: ninety six, this bitch.

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Speaker 1: So it was so funny because he's like ghetto but

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Speaker 1: not ghetto, right. So we was at the player and

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Speaker 1: he was like, yeah, this is cool. Yeah, this ship

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Speaker 1: alight right here. He's like, I ain't never did no

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Speaker 1: ship like this before before, Like she we could do

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Speaker 1: all the plays and ship goodness. But it was so

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Speaker 1: much fun that y'all, if the Wiz is coming to

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Speaker 1: your city, you definitely want to go out and see it.

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Speaker 1: Like they were singing their face off. I'm telling you,

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Speaker 1: these people could sing and dance and everything. And Deborah

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Speaker 1: Cox was Glinda the good Witch.

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Speaker 2: Oh nice. So what other stars is in the play?

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Speaker 1: She would be the only one that you would know.

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Speaker 1: So his name is Avery Wilson. He plays a scarecrow. Amazing, amazing?

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Speaker 2: How long is That's what me and Charlotte it's over here.

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Speaker 1: It was only for the weekend here and they're moving on.

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Speaker 1: But it's pre Broadway. So they're headed to New York

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Speaker 1: where I heard Wayne Brady Wayne Brady will be the Wiz.

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Speaker 1: I don't know who that person was, but he was

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Speaker 1: good too. I mean every it was amazing.

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Speaker 2: I want to do plays. I used to do plays.

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Speaker 2: I did dream Girls in Charleston once.

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Speaker 1: Really, how old were you I was?

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Speaker 2: I was stilling. This is my last year of high

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Speaker 2: school and I did plays at Benedict.

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Speaker 1: Really? Yes, I missed that.

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Speaker 2: We did one monk you don't stop no show at Benedict.

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Speaker 1: Really?

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Speaker 2: Oh, you were in the drama, in the drama.

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Speaker 1: That makes sense because you're full of drama. What happened

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Speaker 1: since of the week?

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Speaker 2: What this week? Tamar Braxton and Krishawn Rocks and what's

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Speaker 2: this guy's name?

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Speaker 1: James Wright Chanel? Did y'all see that?

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Speaker 2: Did they have footage out there? Do they have footage

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Speaker 2: out there of her hitting him?

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Speaker 1: I haven't seen any footage of her hitting him, all right,

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Speaker 1: so if y'all have been under the rock. Krishan came

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Speaker 1: out during Tamar's performance on her tour, and Tony actually

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Speaker 1: came out, and at first they showed they had video

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Speaker 1: of Krishan like bent over for a picture in front

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Speaker 1: of Tony and Tamar, and TONI was looking at her like,

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Speaker 1: who is this? Yeah, she clutches pearls. Then the video

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Speaker 1: started coming around of Krishan on stage while Tamar is

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Speaker 1: singing Love and War and she like dancing like it's

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Speaker 1: a club song. It was just the wrong energy. It

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Speaker 1: But then it came out that Krishan attacked, uh, well, assaulted,

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Speaker 1: allegedly James Wright Chanell, who's a background singer for Tamar,

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Speaker 1: and he posted a video of him at the dentist

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Speaker 2: Now the guy James right, that's Patty, Yes, yes, how

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Speaker 2: you hit this big ass man? He like six foot something.

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Speaker 1: That's a big man that she Yeah, girl, where so.

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Speaker 2: Taught me from Love and Hip Hop? Was trying to

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Speaker 2: accuse them of like staging the whole ship to get

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Speaker 2: more attention of visibility on the tour, But Tamar came

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Speaker 2: out she was like her tour being sold out for

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Speaker 2: a whole month and the only reason why they invited

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Speaker 2: Christian Rock is because they were in Baltimore. She's from Baltimore,

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Speaker 2: and they think she needs a hug. You know, I

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Speaker 2: just watched her her sit down with Jason Lee. Have

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Speaker 2: you seen it, Christian Rock. It's like a two hour

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Speaker 2: I actually watched the whole two hours, and I have

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Speaker 2: some empathy for that little girl. The thing is is

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Speaker 2: that you know what they say, what you focus on

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Speaker 2: is what you attract, right, So we know that people

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Speaker 2: who are they have fixations on things. So I just

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Speaker 2: feel like a lot of the people we see in

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Speaker 2: just drawn to them like they they're they able, They

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Speaker 2: times those people are like really really smart people, but

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Speaker 2: they have social skill issues. I feel like that's what

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Speaker 2: we're seeing with a lot of these people who have

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Speaker 2: a lot of notoriety out here.

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Speaker 1: I just feel like, have you ever seen a train

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Speaker 1: wreck and looked away? Everybody? Everybody looks at the train wreck,

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Speaker 1: everybody watches it when it happens, right, And I think

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Speaker 1: this girl is has suffered, you know, she has had

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Speaker 2: And then you add money on top of you add.

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Speaker 1: Money, and she's beautiful too. I forget she's a beautiful girl.

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Speaker 1: So you add all of that and you get Krishan

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Speaker 1: Rock And I think people just enjoy watching the mess unfold.

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Speaker 1: If she was like, came back off solid, if she

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Speaker 1: did a Black China, she probably people will stopped paying attention.

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Speaker 2: But sometimes we people haven't stopped paying attention to Black China.

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Speaker 2: So you can, you know, do that three sixty and

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Speaker 2: people gonna stow fuck with you.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, but you can't.

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Speaker 2: And she even the things, the thing that makes me

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Speaker 2: that they have personality disorders. Something be going on. And

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Speaker 2: you add children on top of this shit.

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Speaker 1: Man. But even even with Black China, Black China was

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Speaker 1: in all the tabloids for all the miss once she

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Speaker 2: She's been on other other because she's closely connected to

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Speaker 2: the Kardashians. White folks want to know what she got

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Speaker 2: going on too. I've seen her on other people toes

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Speaker 2: for sure, people absolutely, but I don't know. I don't

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Speaker 2: know what the hell is out with Christian rock.

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Speaker 1: Uh.

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Speaker 2: Tamar is known for a lot of little weird antics herself,

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Speaker 2: so they may have plotted all lists to bring more attentions.

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Speaker 2: So I don't know. I doubt that all of you

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Speaker 2: are weird is if you ask me anyway?

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Speaker 1: Well, heavy holidays all nixt.

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Speaker 2: I can't say this negative name to saved my life?

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Speaker 2: Say it you, Dinna?

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Speaker 1: Yes?

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Speaker 2: Isn't the African Rights America?

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Speaker 1: Yes?

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Speaker 2: So y'all know the singer the Classic Man. So recently

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Speaker 2: Jodnna appeared on I don't know if it's a podcast?

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Speaker 2: Yeah show yeah, okay, call What's Underneath Masculinity. It's a

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Speaker 2: podcast by man Enough. The Outlish published a twenty three

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Speaker 2: minute episode on November ninth and highlights Jadenna's career and

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Speaker 2: personal life, including patterns he's worked to break. I sent

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Speaker 2: him a clip of one of his things because he

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Speaker 2: seemed to have been taken accountability for things that men

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Speaker 2: just don't have the self awareness to tap into to

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Speaker 2: see that they're doing right. But it doesn't excuse it.

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Speaker 2: He basically admitted to stealing some women's baby making years

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Speaker 2: basically wasting their times. They've built him up over the

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Speaker 2: years and he basically depleted them, and that is triggering.

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Speaker 1: I just want to read what he said. I robbed

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Speaker 1: some women of their baby making years, dragging them along.

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Speaker 1: They build me up. Look at me now, and look

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Speaker 1: at them now. If you were creative, I folded you

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Speaker 1: into my artwork. If you were in my artwork, I

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Speaker 1: gave you a job, Jadina said, describing past behavior. I

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Speaker 1: mastered your life. I gave you a house, food, everything

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Speaker 1: you needed. I protected and provided for you. I did

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Speaker 1: what men are supposed to do.

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Speaker 1: Right, Oh Mary. It's one thing to come back divorced,

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Speaker 1: Leave So speaking being vulnerable and accountable. I don't know

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Speaker 2: I know that guy. He is a smart man.

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Speaker 2: I know he full of shit because he's a smart man.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I see that based on the conversation that they had,

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Speaker 1: He's not that person. And he said he forty six.

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Speaker 2: Now you don't like him.

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Speaker 1: He was never my type. Honestly, he's never my type.

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Speaker 1: Let's not do players. Let's talk about the best horse

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Speaker 1: in the race, Nigga. How do you feel about their conversation?

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Speaker 2: I liked it. I liked it. It is necessary and

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Speaker 2: it's not like you know, when we hear people talking

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Speaker 2: people's egos so big to where they think like they're

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Speaker 1: Right.

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Speaker 2: The only part that I did not appreciate is GZ

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Speaker 2: and that's what he's done. I remember when they him

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Speaker 1: But some of the stuff Gucci was saying was like, well.

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Speaker 2: Figure, you send some people to kill me. I'm never

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Speaker 2: gonna forget that. Yes, let's get this check together, but

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Speaker 2: I'm never gonna forget you tried to take my life,

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Speaker 2: Jez that. This is why I want to talk about

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Speaker 2: You are capable of still doing that today. And I

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Speaker 2: album forgiven, But don't forget.

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Speaker 1: Exactly what Gucci did in retaliation or prior to this.

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Speaker 2: I mean, he killed the person that Jess that that

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Speaker 2: Jez sent to kill him. That's what happened, okay, and

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Speaker 2: then I rap about your dad homeboy, he.

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Speaker 2: The thing is is that like if I was Gucci man,

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Speaker 2: like JIZI was like, oh, I didn't know this was

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Speaker 2: looked so fine on that damn. I mean, like not

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Speaker 1: They were just going back and forth.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, but you know from like I would have hit.

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Speaker 2: I would have hit Jeezi with the at Lisa and

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Speaker 2: transferring that god damn wealth. Because now this is why

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Speaker 1: Because he because he got with a woman.

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Speaker 2: Yes, and I don't care who knows it, Like, I

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Speaker 2: I'm looking at you some type of way.

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Speaker 1: Na said that when black women supported her the way

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Speaker 2: Because I guess you'd just be being you and to her,

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Speaker 2: like I feel like, how do you play with me along?

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Speaker 1: I don't think that's just a male thing. I just

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Speaker 2: No, I don't know people who don't practice gratitude, you

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I guess I was.

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Speaker 1: Sitting with someone and like I always pray before my meals,

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Speaker 1: but I you know, until they all have it, right,

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Speaker 2: Exactly, That's why I need to go clean my car

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Speaker 2: I feel like our stupid internet news this week is

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Speaker 2: which I probably mentioned earlier on self awareness, dumb. What

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Speaker 2: But I think I read that, but I feel like

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Speaker 1: Yeah, they're aware that they ain't shit right, okay with it? Right?

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Speaker 2: So I don't feel like it really like just makes

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Speaker 1: Yeah, like look at my soul and the real truth

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Speaker 1: But now I actually am more understanding of what the

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Speaker 1: my how I communicate.

437
00:22:30,160 --> 00:22:31,439
Speaker 2: That, that's me.

438
00:22:31,840 --> 00:22:37,280
Speaker 1: So something I'm like working on not being a rattlesnake

439
00:22:37,400 --> 00:22:40,520
Speaker 1: because like, you go low and I'll go to hell sometimes,

440
00:22:40,520 --> 00:22:41,320
Speaker 1: you know, And I.

441
00:22:41,240 --> 00:22:43,520
Speaker 2: Feel like sometimes going to hell is necessary though to

442
00:22:43,560 --> 00:22:44,720
Speaker 2: help other people.

443
00:22:45,160 --> 00:22:48,760
Speaker 1: You know, sometimes you gotta let them figure out their

444
00:22:48,760 --> 00:22:52,400
Speaker 1: own shit by theyself. That's what I'm realizing. Don't worry

445
00:22:52,440 --> 00:22:54,639
Speaker 1: about yourself. This the name that you got for this.

446
00:22:55,160 --> 00:22:57,440
Speaker 2: I have to, like, I don't worry about your damn

447
00:22:57,480 --> 00:22:59,200
Speaker 2: self taking.

448
00:22:59,320 --> 00:23:03,159
Speaker 1: When somebody's being violent nasty to me, I don't. I'm like,

449
00:23:03,359 --> 00:23:06,520
Speaker 1: especially someone I love, I learned not to take it personally.

450
00:23:06,560 --> 00:23:09,040
Speaker 1: I might be mad in that moment. I just walk

451
00:23:09,080 --> 00:23:10,920
Speaker 1: away from it and then go back and say, hey,

452
00:23:10,920 --> 00:23:13,560
Speaker 1: I love you no matter what you said, I love

453
00:23:13,600 --> 00:23:16,960
Speaker 1: you and I'm still here for you, depending on Like,

454
00:23:17,040 --> 00:23:19,719
Speaker 1: it can't be like the worst shit ever, like, but

455
00:23:20,080 --> 00:23:22,439
Speaker 1: if I oftentimes they don't have nothing to do with me.

456
00:23:22,600 --> 00:23:23,680
Speaker 1: That's what I'm realizing.

457
00:23:24,080 --> 00:23:27,080
Speaker 2: A lot of times, things outside of you have nothing

458
00:23:27,080 --> 00:23:30,920
Speaker 2: to do with you. It's said that ninety five percent

459
00:23:30,920 --> 00:23:34,080
Speaker 2: of people think that they are self aware, while the

460
00:23:34,200 --> 00:23:39,399
Speaker 2: real number is close to ten or fifteen percent of

461
00:23:39,480 --> 00:23:42,679
Speaker 2: people who actually are self aware. So that means eighty

462
00:23:42,840 --> 00:23:46,760
Speaker 2: percent of us are lying to ourselves most of the time.

463
00:23:47,400 --> 00:23:48,680
Speaker 2: What do you think about that? Man?

464
00:23:48,800 --> 00:23:50,720
Speaker 1: I agree, shit, I used to be a member of

465
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Speaker 1: the eighty percent, and sometimes I still am. You know,

466
00:23:53,080 --> 00:23:57,640
Speaker 1: like it's a con wavering battle of stripping away all

467
00:23:57,680 --> 00:24:01,680
Speaker 1: your armor of well, how don't you know what to

468
00:24:01,760 --> 00:24:06,600
Speaker 1: call it? Armor of self protection and seeing yourself for

469
00:24:06,680 --> 00:24:08,080
Speaker 1: who you are and working on it.

470
00:24:08,320 --> 00:24:10,760
Speaker 2: So there's two kinds of self awareness, right, So it

471
00:24:10,800 --> 00:24:12,760
Speaker 2: says the two kinds of self awareness, y'all. This has

472
00:24:12,800 --> 00:24:14,880
Speaker 2: coming from study dot com. It says the two kinds

473
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Speaker 2: of self awareness are private self awareness and public self awareness.

474
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Speaker 2: Public self awareness is a moment of realization that only

475
00:24:22,560 --> 00:24:27,400
Speaker 2: involves yourself. This could look like realizing you have feelings

476
00:24:27,400 --> 00:24:30,679
Speaker 2: for someone you just return from a date. You just

477
00:24:30,720 --> 00:24:33,000
Speaker 2: return home from a date. So you go on a

478
00:24:33,080 --> 00:24:34,960
Speaker 2: date with somebody and you get home like damn, I

479
00:24:35,040 --> 00:24:35,840
Speaker 2: might like them.

480
00:24:36,320 --> 00:24:37,320
Speaker 1: That's self awareness.

481
00:24:37,880 --> 00:24:40,960
Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, yeah, because you may not have been acting

482
00:24:41,040 --> 00:24:44,479
Speaker 2: like that with them, like while on the date. Public

483
00:24:44,520 --> 00:24:47,879
Speaker 2: self awareness, that's the private. So public self awareness is

484
00:24:47,880 --> 00:24:52,160
Speaker 2: the ability to understand how others perceive you and usually

485
00:24:52,320 --> 00:24:58,080
Speaker 2: follows social norms, ensuring you practice your vali valedictorian speech

486
00:24:58,119 --> 00:25:00,879
Speaker 2: so you don't make a mistake as a form of

487
00:25:01,040 --> 00:25:05,919
Speaker 2: public self awareness, so you're acting for people out in

488
00:25:05,960 --> 00:25:06,440
Speaker 2: the public.

489
00:25:07,840 --> 00:25:10,040
Speaker 1: See, I have trouble with that, am I supposed to?

490
00:25:10,560 --> 00:25:11,080
Speaker 2: I don't.

491
00:25:11,320 --> 00:25:13,320
Speaker 1: I don't either, But then that's why people be like

492
00:25:13,440 --> 00:25:15,520
Speaker 1: either they love me or hate me, you know. Yeah,

493
00:25:15,520 --> 00:25:16,520
Speaker 1: But I don't know how to.

494
00:25:16,480 --> 00:25:18,320
Speaker 2: Do that me either. I don't know how to be

495
00:25:18,720 --> 00:25:21,560
Speaker 2: somebody else. So I might come out real brash to

496
00:25:21,600 --> 00:25:25,280
Speaker 2: some people and other people's other people respect how real

497
00:25:25,359 --> 00:25:28,960
Speaker 2: I am. I don't know how to sugarcoat shit.

498
00:25:30,840 --> 00:25:33,800
Speaker 1: Sometimes I feel like I could do better. Sometimes I

499
00:25:33,840 --> 00:25:36,120
Speaker 1: feel like maybe I should practice a little bit more.

500
00:25:36,160 --> 00:25:39,360
Speaker 1: I remember one time I was doing his clients here

501
00:25:39,400 --> 00:25:41,480
Speaker 1: and she when she comes, she always talk real bad

502
00:25:41,480 --> 00:25:44,400
Speaker 1: about her boyfriend. Right, she just bent to me about

503
00:25:44,440 --> 00:25:46,639
Speaker 1: all the bad things. And then she came in and

504
00:25:46,720 --> 00:25:49,520
Speaker 1: my sister was sitting there, well, she was walking by.

505
00:25:49,560 --> 00:25:51,440
Speaker 1: I said, you still with that no good ass nigga.

506
00:25:51,800 --> 00:25:54,399
Speaker 1: When she came and sat down for appointment, and Tang

507
00:25:54,600 --> 00:25:58,520
Speaker 1: was like, you just be saying anything to people, And

508
00:25:58,560 --> 00:26:02,840
Speaker 1: I was like, was that wrong to say? What's that

509
00:26:02,880 --> 00:26:03,320
Speaker 1: wrong to.

510
00:26:03,280 --> 00:26:08,000
Speaker 2: Say to you? If she has self awareness, she'd know

511
00:26:08,200 --> 00:26:10,320
Speaker 2: that she's with a no good ass nigga and she

512
00:26:10,560 --> 00:26:13,159
Speaker 2: shared the worst thing about her no good ass nigga.

513
00:26:13,200 --> 00:26:17,600
Speaker 2: So what you said was valid? Did she tell you

514
00:26:17,640 --> 00:26:19,760
Speaker 2: at any point anything good about this person?

515
00:26:20,080 --> 00:26:20,560
Speaker 1: Mm hmmm?

516
00:26:21,200 --> 00:26:25,720
Speaker 2: So is she still with the no good ass nigga?

517
00:26:25,840 --> 00:26:27,840
Speaker 2: I feel like we need real people in our lives

518
00:26:27,880 --> 00:26:30,040
Speaker 2: to put the whole marror up to us. Sometimes like that,

519
00:26:30,080 --> 00:26:32,720
Speaker 2: and it may come off to blunt. You have to

520
00:26:32,800 --> 00:26:36,879
Speaker 2: have kuth right. Sometimes I lack tack. Apparently when I

521
00:26:36,920 --> 00:26:37,760
Speaker 2: say certain things.

522
00:26:37,800 --> 00:26:39,720
Speaker 1: I used to think like maybe I'm mildy on the

523
00:26:39,760 --> 00:26:41,600
Speaker 1: spectrum because I don't even be know.

524
00:26:41,640 --> 00:26:42,159
Speaker 2: We a'all are.

525
00:26:42,520 --> 00:26:46,199
Speaker 1: I don't be knowing that what I'm saying is inappropriate,

526
00:26:47,800 --> 00:26:50,520
Speaker 1: and I'd be like, that's wrong. Sometimes I say some

527
00:26:50,640 --> 00:26:52,760
Speaker 1: shit a whole serious and everybody bust out laughing, and

528
00:26:52,800 --> 00:26:54,520
Speaker 1: I'd be like, wait, that was not a joke. I

529
00:26:54,560 --> 00:26:55,320
Speaker 1: was a whole serious.

530
00:27:00,119 --> 00:27:02,960
Speaker 2: I mean, sometimes you gotta be careful what you say.

531
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Speaker 2: And I'm a firm believer that it is okay to

532
00:27:05,880 --> 00:27:08,800
Speaker 2: shut the fuck up sometimes, So sometimes I don't we

533
00:27:08,960 --> 00:27:12,520
Speaker 2: talk back. It's okay to shut though, That's okay. Sometimes

534
00:27:12,600 --> 00:27:15,000
Speaker 2: if I have something negative to say, I'll just not

535
00:27:15,080 --> 00:27:18,080
Speaker 2: say nothing. I will fucking smile and naud your ass

536
00:27:18,119 --> 00:27:22,000
Speaker 2: to death, just to keep my thoughts to myself. Because

537
00:27:22,080 --> 00:27:24,080
Speaker 2: you know, you don't always have to hold a marriat

538
00:27:24,160 --> 00:27:27,119
Speaker 2: to people. But I do want to be surrounded by

539
00:27:27,119 --> 00:27:30,840
Speaker 2: people who help me build self awareness. Sometimes you can't

540
00:27:30,840 --> 00:27:33,360
Speaker 2: see yourself, so you have to depend on people who

541
00:27:33,359 --> 00:27:35,919
Speaker 2: actually fuck with you and who actually love you to

542
00:27:36,040 --> 00:27:37,919
Speaker 2: help you become more self aware.

543
00:27:38,800 --> 00:27:41,159
Speaker 1: And you know, and that's one thing I'm working on

544
00:27:41,200 --> 00:27:43,480
Speaker 1: because anytime somebody put a mirror to my face, I'd

545
00:27:43,520 --> 00:27:46,640
Speaker 1: be like, well, bitch, what about the time when you

546
00:27:46,880 --> 00:27:50,280
Speaker 1: ate the food? Like I just come up with whatever

547
00:27:50,400 --> 00:27:53,800
Speaker 1: I can say versus the counter what they saying, versus

548
00:27:54,040 --> 00:27:58,280
Speaker 1: listening and receiving the information, and even though it's hurting,

549
00:27:58,760 --> 00:28:00,239
Speaker 1: I need to take it for what it is is

550
00:28:00,280 --> 00:28:04,439
Speaker 1: because but here's the issue, because sometimes it's not delivered

551
00:28:04,480 --> 00:28:07,199
Speaker 1: from a place of love. They're only telling you the

552
00:28:07,240 --> 00:28:09,800
Speaker 1: truth about you in that moment to hurt you. And

553
00:28:09,800 --> 00:28:12,480
Speaker 1: that makes the difference when it's delivered from a place

554
00:28:12,520 --> 00:28:15,399
Speaker 1: of I want you to notice because I love you

555
00:28:15,440 --> 00:28:18,040
Speaker 1: and I want you to be better from whatever this is.

556
00:28:18,440 --> 00:28:21,959
Speaker 2: But those conversations often oftentimes only come up in the

557
00:28:21,960 --> 00:28:25,720
Speaker 2: midst of turmoil, you know what I'm saying, like between us,

558
00:28:25,760 --> 00:28:28,600
Speaker 2: Like why would I be saying anything?

559
00:28:28,760 --> 00:28:31,200
Speaker 1: But sometimes you need to say it though, like if

560
00:28:31,200 --> 00:28:34,159
Speaker 1: you ask, Like let's say you ask for advice on

561
00:28:34,240 --> 00:28:37,920
Speaker 1: something and you're going off and you're heated, but you're

562
00:28:38,000 --> 00:28:42,520
Speaker 1: wrong and strong and wrong. Sometimes as friends we don't

563
00:28:42,880 --> 00:28:45,640
Speaker 1: say it, you know, we just let you have it.

564
00:28:46,920 --> 00:28:52,440
Speaker 1: But me, i'd be ready to tell you for that.

565
00:28:53,640 --> 00:28:53,800
Speaker 1: You know.

566
00:28:53,840 --> 00:28:55,960
Speaker 2: I was having a conversation with my homegirl in the

567
00:28:55,960 --> 00:28:58,440
Speaker 2: way up pair and she's dating this guy, and I

568
00:28:58,480 --> 00:29:02,240
Speaker 2: hope I'm not saying anything anyway, So it's just a situation,

569
00:29:02,960 --> 00:29:07,320
Speaker 2: a situation. She's dating a guy who has a situation

570
00:29:07,480 --> 00:29:10,600
Speaker 2: going on, right, she knew about his situation before they

571
00:29:10,600 --> 00:29:13,160
Speaker 2: got together. Now they just madly in love now, right,

572
00:29:13,720 --> 00:29:15,920
Speaker 2: and she can't really and he gives her a lot

573
00:29:15,920 --> 00:29:17,880
Speaker 2: of attention, a lot of time, all that stuff, right,

574
00:29:18,240 --> 00:29:20,480
Speaker 2: But I guess, like the little spurts where he's with

575
00:29:20,520 --> 00:29:22,600
Speaker 2: this other person that he's still trying to figure out

576
00:29:22,640 --> 00:29:24,440
Speaker 2: how he can serebratize with him because he probably really

577
00:29:24,480 --> 00:29:27,000
Speaker 2: wants to be with her, right, but this is an

578
00:29:27,080 --> 00:29:29,560
Speaker 2: existing situation. He got to figure out you can't just

579
00:29:29,640 --> 00:29:32,760
Speaker 2: expect somebody to just change overnight, right. And she was like,

580
00:29:32,800 --> 00:29:35,160
Speaker 2: I ask God for a man, Why would he send

581
00:29:35,200 --> 00:29:38,000
Speaker 2: me an unavailable man? I said, you know what, people

582
00:29:38,040 --> 00:29:40,440
Speaker 2: need to realize that this is all. This also comes

583
00:29:40,480 --> 00:29:43,200
Speaker 2: with self awareness to me, is realizing that God is

584
00:29:43,240 --> 00:29:46,120
Speaker 2: inside you. Right, So it wasn't God that created the

585
00:29:46,160 --> 00:29:49,479
Speaker 2: situation for you. You created it. You are going after these

586
00:29:49,560 --> 00:29:51,600
Speaker 2: unattainable people, so you got to figure out what is

587
00:29:51,640 --> 00:29:55,080
Speaker 2: it about you that is creating these situations for yourself?

588
00:29:55,080 --> 00:29:58,000
Speaker 2: And then also remembering that it's not happening to you,

589
00:29:58,160 --> 00:30:01,920
Speaker 2: is happening for you. So you you probably are supposed

590
00:30:01,960 --> 00:30:03,440
Speaker 2: to be with this person, right, but then you have

591
00:30:03,520 --> 00:30:06,160
Speaker 2: to give him some type of grace to figure out

592
00:30:06,520 --> 00:30:09,880
Speaker 2: this whole other situation that you knew about before you

593
00:30:09,920 --> 00:30:11,880
Speaker 2: got with this nigga or.

594
00:30:16,040 --> 00:30:18,920
Speaker 1: Or what or God didn't have nothing to do with

595
00:30:18,960 --> 00:30:22,120
Speaker 1: any of you. That saying that this might be the.

596
00:30:22,080 --> 00:30:25,320
Speaker 2: Devil's word, but the devil and God is in you.

597
00:30:25,560 --> 00:30:27,760
Speaker 2: That's the thing. You know what I'm saying, You're creating

598
00:30:27,760 --> 00:30:32,600
Speaker 2: all these situations for yourself and else.

599
00:30:32,360 --> 00:30:35,400
Speaker 1: And then when he become yours, and then he find

600
00:30:35,440 --> 00:30:39,200
Speaker 1: another version of you with somebody else, you lose them.

601
00:30:39,200 --> 00:30:39,720
Speaker 1: How you get it?

602
00:30:41,800 --> 00:30:44,840
Speaker 2: So I like to think that I be owning souls

603
00:30:44,920 --> 00:30:46,680
Speaker 2: right here. So once I say you mind, bitch, you

604
00:30:46,760 --> 00:30:49,000
Speaker 2: mine forever, I'll give a fuck about what you got

605
00:30:49,040 --> 00:30:52,360
Speaker 2: going on with anybody else. I own a couple of

606
00:30:52,440 --> 00:30:55,720
Speaker 2: niggas in this lifetime. I know for sure.

607
00:30:55,880 --> 00:30:58,600
Speaker 1: I don't own nobody I do, bitch, I want to

608
00:30:58,640 --> 00:30:59,200
Speaker 1: own nobody.

609
00:30:59,280 --> 00:31:04,840
Speaker 2: Might be a whole, a whole collectors. I might be

610
00:31:04,880 --> 00:31:05,800
Speaker 2: a whole collector.

611
00:31:06,280 --> 00:31:08,480
Speaker 1: All right, let's talk about how to get to more

612
00:31:08,520 --> 00:31:09,440
Speaker 1: self awareness?

613
00:31:09,640 --> 00:31:12,440
Speaker 2: Yeah, so they're saying, like, so to build more self

614
00:31:12,480 --> 00:31:15,640
Speaker 2: awareness one of my things I'm trying to get more

615
00:31:15,680 --> 00:31:20,080
Speaker 2: into this journaling. My hand be hurting.

616
00:31:20,280 --> 00:31:25,720
Speaker 1: I've bought you seventeen journals to write in. Occasionally I

617
00:31:25,800 --> 00:31:26,440
Speaker 1: write in them.

618
00:31:26,880 --> 00:31:30,560
Speaker 2: I gotta find them first, but writing them, for sure,

619
00:31:30,640 --> 00:31:33,160
Speaker 2: one of them might be in that fucking bag right there.

620
00:31:33,520 --> 00:31:36,959
Speaker 2: I definitely Tammy definitely has bought me a gratitude journal,

621
00:31:37,680 --> 00:31:41,959
Speaker 2: and uh uh, you bought me a gratitude journal and

622
00:31:42,000 --> 00:31:47,960
Speaker 2: then a journal for productivity, which go fucking hand in hand,

623
00:31:48,920 --> 00:31:50,840
Speaker 2: because if you ain't doing shit what you're writing about.

624
00:31:52,720 --> 00:31:54,479
Speaker 1: I actually got another book in it for you. I

625
00:31:54,520 --> 00:31:56,160
Speaker 1: was gonna wait to give it to you for Christmas,

626
00:31:56,160 --> 00:31:58,680
Speaker 1: but you should just take it with you. Is it.

627
00:31:58,680 --> 00:32:02,000
Speaker 1: It's actually something to do while you're goddamn it, you

628
00:32:03,080 --> 00:32:05,680
Speaker 1: get high in your journal. It's actually just for when

629
00:32:05,680 --> 00:32:06,160
Speaker 1: you're high.

630
00:32:06,240 --> 00:32:08,120
Speaker 2: I need an app. I need something I could talk

631
00:32:08,160 --> 00:32:10,760
Speaker 2: to and it writes out shit. Your hands don't hurt

632
00:32:10,760 --> 00:32:11,360
Speaker 2: when you write.

633
00:32:11,960 --> 00:32:13,760
Speaker 1: I use my hands all day, remember.

634
00:32:13,560 --> 00:32:16,480
Speaker 2: Yeah, like my hands be hurting when I write too much.

635
00:32:16,840 --> 00:32:18,360
Speaker 2: That's why adrenaline is just.

636
00:32:20,440 --> 00:32:22,000
Speaker 1: So I'll find you an app for this.

637
00:32:23,920 --> 00:32:28,000
Speaker 2: And pay for the subscription. Subscription for a year for me.

638
00:32:28,160 --> 00:32:28,440
Speaker 1: Okay.

639
00:32:29,200 --> 00:32:33,120
Speaker 2: Therapy is another way to find self awareness.

640
00:32:32,920 --> 00:32:36,680
Speaker 1: But only if you like I had a therapist. It

641
00:32:36,800 --> 00:32:39,960
Speaker 1: was a man. He was, you know, not much older

642
00:32:40,000 --> 00:32:42,440
Speaker 1: than me, and he was attractive and single. And I

643
00:32:42,480 --> 00:32:44,520
Speaker 1: was in their line the whole time because.

644
00:32:44,760 --> 00:32:47,360
Speaker 2: I wanted him to like me. Yo.

645
00:32:48,040 --> 00:32:50,479
Speaker 1: I wanted my therapists to like me. So instead of

646
00:32:50,520 --> 00:32:54,760
Speaker 1: just telling him I've been promiscuous, I.

647
00:32:54,760 --> 00:32:57,720
Speaker 2: Was like, my grandmother just died.

648
00:32:59,560 --> 00:33:03,840
Speaker 1: And I'm I'm saying stupid. Yeah. So you gotta, like,

649
00:33:04,680 --> 00:33:06,640
Speaker 1: if you're gonna get a therapist, you definitely gotta go

650
00:33:06,640 --> 00:33:09,120
Speaker 1: in there and be honest. And that takes self awareness

651
00:33:09,120 --> 00:33:11,040
Speaker 1: because you gotta be honest with yourself first.

652
00:33:12,040 --> 00:33:14,880
Speaker 2: I remember, and I hate and this is one of

653
00:33:14,880 --> 00:33:18,400
Speaker 2: the things that I know I have to so so

654
00:33:19,040 --> 00:33:20,600
Speaker 2: trying to be more self aware. They tell you to

655
00:33:20,600 --> 00:33:23,240
Speaker 2: stop stop focusing on the why and focus on what,

656
00:33:23,360 --> 00:33:26,680
Speaker 2: like what can you do different as opposed to saying

657
00:33:26,720 --> 00:33:29,160
Speaker 2: why is this happening because you get stuck at the why.

658
00:33:29,760 --> 00:33:32,440
Speaker 2: So I've been trying not to fucking even think about

659
00:33:32,440 --> 00:33:36,200
Speaker 2: my last relationship for real, but I just thought about

660
00:33:36,240 --> 00:33:38,880
Speaker 2: it because we were stuck about therapy. And I remember

661
00:33:39,080 --> 00:33:41,240
Speaker 2: like going to therapy with this nigga, and I'm like,

662
00:33:41,640 --> 00:33:44,160
Speaker 2: this is why I feel like you need to go

663
00:33:44,200 --> 00:33:48,760
Speaker 2: to separate therapy. Couple's therapy is cool, but oftentimes people

664
00:33:48,800 --> 00:33:54,240
Speaker 2: need individual therapy. Because I remember telling me that he

665
00:33:54,760 --> 00:33:59,120
Speaker 2: was lying to his therapist. I can't fuck with you.

666
00:33:59,160 --> 00:34:01,160
Speaker 2: If you be lying to you a therapists, you literally

667
00:34:01,280 --> 00:34:04,040
Speaker 2: are not trying to help the person that's supposed to

668
00:34:04,040 --> 00:34:06,920
Speaker 2: be helping you help you because you're lying to them.

669
00:34:07,080 --> 00:34:09,640
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's why I had to change my therapies. I

670
00:34:09,640 --> 00:34:10,719
Speaker 1: had to change because.

671
00:34:10,520 --> 00:34:11,719
Speaker 2: It was like, that's a mental ill.

672
00:34:11,880 --> 00:34:15,640
Speaker 1: You can't help me because you're too fine. You're too

673
00:34:15,640 --> 00:34:16,520
Speaker 1: fine to help me, sir.

674
00:34:16,840 --> 00:34:19,960
Speaker 2: Not you realize you're you need an ugly therapist.

675
00:34:20,080 --> 00:34:25,640
Speaker 1: I need a black woman with a mustage. That's my therapist.

676
00:34:25,640 --> 00:34:27,239
Speaker 1: Got to be an old black lady. It can't be

677
00:34:27,280 --> 00:34:30,080
Speaker 1: no young black man or no young black woman.

678
00:34:30,560 --> 00:34:33,120
Speaker 2: Because get you what you're telling me, Because no, it

679
00:34:33,160 --> 00:34:33,800
Speaker 2: wouldn't even be that.

680
00:34:33,960 --> 00:34:35,800
Speaker 1: It would be like, I don't want her to judge me.

681
00:34:36,200 --> 00:34:38,120
Speaker 1: She's like my peer, and I don't want her to

682
00:34:38,200 --> 00:34:41,120
Speaker 1: judge me and him. I kind of want to throw

683
00:34:41,200 --> 00:34:43,080
Speaker 1: him some pussy so I can't tell him the truth

684
00:34:43,120 --> 00:34:46,279
Speaker 1: about me. I need someone like a grandma who got

685
00:34:46,280 --> 00:34:53,240
Speaker 1: all this wisdom from life experience, and and that's it.

686
00:34:53,440 --> 00:34:57,600
Speaker 2: Shame. That's a damn shame, man, Not you throwing pussy

687
00:34:57,640 --> 00:34:58,680
Speaker 2: at the damn therapist.

688
00:34:59,080 --> 00:35:01,400
Speaker 1: Like I didn't throw it at him, but he was

689
00:35:01,440 --> 00:35:04,200
Speaker 1: somebody that I potentially would want to throw something at.

690
00:35:04,239 --> 00:35:06,279
Speaker 1: You know I didn't, I didn't, you know, go there.

691
00:35:06,520 --> 00:35:08,400
Speaker 2: I think older black lady is good, like a fifty

692
00:35:08,400 --> 00:35:11,680
Speaker 2: something yea too old because then you right out of

693
00:35:11,719 --> 00:35:15,120
Speaker 2: touch yes, you don't know really what's going on out.

694
00:35:15,000 --> 00:35:17,759
Speaker 1: You like my Ghanda colleges. I like my gand to

695
00:35:17,800 --> 00:35:19,879
Speaker 1: colleges to be an older black woman. I don't want

696
00:35:19,960 --> 00:35:23,680
Speaker 1: no young young man staring at my vagina unless he

697
00:35:23,719 --> 00:35:24,320
Speaker 1: about the eat it.

698
00:35:25,560 --> 00:35:31,680
Speaker 2: Okay, here are some tips to cultivate self self awareness. Okay, uh,

699
00:35:31,960 --> 00:35:35,560
Speaker 2: be curious about who you are. To be self aware,

700
00:35:35,880 --> 00:35:41,440
Speaker 2: a person needs to be curious about themselves. Our minds

701
00:35:41,440 --> 00:35:45,120
Speaker 2: and bodies are territories for which we yet need road maps.

702
00:35:45,160 --> 00:35:47,600
Speaker 2: Every person has some roads they do not wish to

703
00:35:47,640 --> 00:35:51,560
Speaker 2: take in some roads they feel are worth exploring. How

704
00:35:51,600 --> 00:35:54,600
Speaker 2: far you're how far you'll go in your journey of

705
00:35:54,680 --> 00:35:58,360
Speaker 2: understanding yourself depends on what you're ready to explore and experience.

706
00:35:58,680 --> 00:36:01,640
Speaker 2: I can tell y'all figuring out who the fuck you

707
00:36:01,680 --> 00:36:04,760
Speaker 2: are that people don't do it because it's fucking scary

708
00:36:05,000 --> 00:36:07,560
Speaker 2: and it hurts. Like things that people have told you

709
00:36:07,560 --> 00:36:10,759
Speaker 2: about yourself that you may not have deemed true at

710
00:36:10,760 --> 00:36:12,680
Speaker 2: some point, Maybe you might have. You might be driving

711
00:36:12,680 --> 00:36:14,840
Speaker 2: down the street one day and be like, damn, that

712
00:36:14,960 --> 00:36:22,160
Speaker 2: motherfucker might be right. That might be right. You know.

713
00:36:22,200 --> 00:36:25,160
Speaker 2: A friend asked me what I learned from my last relationship.

714
00:36:25,360 --> 00:36:27,000
Speaker 2: She asked me this maybe about a month ago. And

715
00:36:27,040 --> 00:36:32,800
Speaker 2: I'm still trying to find the lesson in that relationship,

716
00:36:32,800 --> 00:36:35,759
Speaker 2: because they say everything is a lesson. I don't know

717
00:36:35,800 --> 00:36:37,640
Speaker 2: what the lesson, and I'm trying to find a lesson

718
00:36:37,640 --> 00:36:40,280
Speaker 2: without blaming him, you know, Like what is a lesson

719
00:36:40,320 --> 00:36:43,680
Speaker 2: about myself where I could have done better? You know

720
00:36:43,719 --> 00:36:45,560
Speaker 2: what I'm saying. I know the things I could have

721
00:36:45,640 --> 00:36:48,160
Speaker 2: done better in a relationship, But you also got to

722
00:36:48,160 --> 00:36:51,279
Speaker 2: be in a relationship with somebody who's gonna cultivate you

723
00:36:51,360 --> 00:36:54,319
Speaker 2: being better, you know what I'm saying, Like, you can't

724
00:36:54,360 --> 00:36:57,200
Speaker 2: be in a relationship or any even a friendship with

725
00:36:57,280 --> 00:37:01,400
Speaker 2: somebody who just doesn't bring up the best things. You know,

726
00:37:01,719 --> 00:37:04,040
Speaker 2: not to say that that person is bad. Y'all just

727
00:37:04,080 --> 00:37:06,040
Speaker 2: may not bring out the best in each other, right,

728
00:37:06,239 --> 00:37:09,000
Speaker 2: And that's okay. And that's really the last thing I

729
00:37:09,040 --> 00:37:11,160
Speaker 2: said to that, Like we just, you know, we just

730
00:37:11,200 --> 00:37:14,959
Speaker 2: didn't bring out the best in each other. Not saying

731
00:37:15,000 --> 00:37:18,160
Speaker 2: that you're bad, not saying I'm good, Right, we just

732
00:37:18,280 --> 00:37:22,080
Speaker 2: weren't con each other. It says you gotta let your

733
00:37:22,080 --> 00:37:25,440
Speaker 2: walls down, not your koochie walls, but you know, the

734
00:37:26,080 --> 00:37:27,680
Speaker 2: walls around your heart, that.

735
00:37:29,239 --> 00:37:30,680
Speaker 1: Armor that I was talking about.

736
00:37:30,719 --> 00:37:32,960
Speaker 2: Yeah, you got to soften yourself a little bit. So

737
00:37:33,000 --> 00:37:36,560
Speaker 2: it says when we see something we don't immediately liken ourselves.

738
00:37:36,600 --> 00:37:39,400
Speaker 2: Our first reaction could be to defend ourselves from it,

739
00:37:39,760 --> 00:37:43,040
Speaker 2: which is partly why self awareness is so challenging. Try

740
00:37:43,080 --> 00:37:46,360
Speaker 2: to let go of judgment and the instinctual urge to

741
00:37:46,440 --> 00:37:50,759
Speaker 2: protect yourself. It says you become self aware through a

742
00:37:50,800 --> 00:37:55,040
Speaker 2: willingness to let go of defensiveness and yep, and an

743
00:37:55,080 --> 00:37:57,760
Speaker 2: openness to seeing yourself in a way that is different

744
00:37:57,800 --> 00:38:01,840
Speaker 2: from what you have always assumed. Often this means you

745
00:38:01,920 --> 00:38:04,160
Speaker 2: have to be willing to see yourself in a less

746
00:38:04,520 --> 00:38:05,840
Speaker 2: than positive lights.

747
00:38:06,040 --> 00:38:07,960
Speaker 1: Yeah that's what That's what I was just saying that

748
00:38:08,000 --> 00:38:11,000
Speaker 1: I went through like I had to be like I'm

749
00:38:11,000 --> 00:38:13,160
Speaker 1: the ship, but maybe not the shit that I think

750
00:38:13,200 --> 00:38:15,560
Speaker 1: that I am, And I have the shadow self.

751
00:38:16,000 --> 00:38:18,040
Speaker 2: It's dealing with your shadow self, is dealing with your

752
00:38:18,080 --> 00:38:20,920
Speaker 2: subconscious mind, which really runs you, the shit that you

753
00:38:20,960 --> 00:38:23,560
Speaker 2: think about in your sleep, the things that you know.

754
00:38:23,800 --> 00:38:26,080
Speaker 2: It said that we have like seventy thousand thoughts today.

755
00:38:26,120 --> 00:38:28,759
Speaker 2: I probably got two hundred thousand thoughts today. Bitch, I

756
00:38:28,760 --> 00:38:32,279
Speaker 2: can't focus on shit because my brain be running, but

757
00:38:32,840 --> 00:38:35,719
Speaker 2: it's trying to deal with your shadow self. So you

758
00:38:35,760 --> 00:38:38,279
Speaker 2: can walk around like, oh, I'm just grand grand Grand,

759
00:38:38,320 --> 00:38:40,920
Speaker 2: You're not dealing with the worst part of you. I

760
00:38:41,000 --> 00:38:44,239
Speaker 2: know I can be fucking devilish when I want to,

761
00:38:44,360 --> 00:38:48,080
Speaker 2: and I embrace that. I can fucking reak havoc or

762
00:38:48,080 --> 00:38:50,239
Speaker 2: the motherfucker if I need to. I can do that,

763
00:38:50,600 --> 00:38:53,400
Speaker 2: and that's an aspect of me that I accept. You

764
00:38:53,400 --> 00:38:54,359
Speaker 2: know what I'm saying, Are you.

765
00:38:54,280 --> 00:38:57,400
Speaker 1: Going to do anything to like? No, you want to

766
00:38:57,440 --> 00:38:58,399
Speaker 1: wreck heav it on people?

767
00:38:58,520 --> 00:39:01,120
Speaker 2: No, I don't want to, but I feel like sometimes

768
00:39:01,120 --> 00:39:04,759
Speaker 2: it might be necessary to protect yourself. Sometimes it might

769
00:39:04,800 --> 00:39:07,880
Speaker 2: be necessary. I'm not gonna pretend like I'm just this

770
00:39:08,640 --> 00:39:12,600
Speaker 2: great person, because you know I'm good. But I am

771
00:39:12,680 --> 00:39:15,840
Speaker 2: not nice, and I know that about myself. You know

772
00:39:15,880 --> 00:39:17,920
Speaker 2: what I'm saying. I'm always going to do the best

773
00:39:18,480 --> 00:39:22,239
Speaker 2: by whoever I'm dealing with it in any situation. But

774
00:39:22,360 --> 00:39:23,360
Speaker 2: I'm not a pushover.

775
00:39:24,320 --> 00:39:26,400
Speaker 1: Yeah, but do you feel like nice makes you be

776
00:39:26,480 --> 00:39:28,000
Speaker 1: a nice person? Makes you a pushover?

777
00:39:29,840 --> 00:39:33,880
Speaker 2: I don't want to be perceived as somebody that you

778
00:39:33,880 --> 00:39:36,640
Speaker 2: could play with. No, I don't, not in this world.

779
00:39:36,680 --> 00:39:40,000
Speaker 1: So you think not in this fucking world and a

780
00:39:40,120 --> 00:39:43,600
Speaker 1: nice person. If you're perceived as nice, you perceive as

781
00:39:43,640 --> 00:39:44,359
Speaker 1: to be played with.

782
00:39:45,719 --> 00:39:52,440
Speaker 2: Yeah. I feel like people who lack self awareness sometimes

783
00:39:52,480 --> 00:39:55,120
Speaker 2: will do things to people that they may not recognize

784
00:39:55,160 --> 00:39:57,680
Speaker 2: as being fucked up. I want to be able to

785
00:39:57,719 --> 00:40:00,719
Speaker 2: tell you, yeah, that's fucked up. Yeah, I'm not going

786
00:40:00,800 --> 00:40:02,719
Speaker 2: to act like it doesn't bother me.

787
00:40:02,920 --> 00:40:05,080
Speaker 1: Well, I know some really nice people that will put

788
00:40:05,120 --> 00:40:06,560
Speaker 1: your head between the washing and druma.

789
00:40:06,680 --> 00:40:09,799
Speaker 2: Yeah, so you can't really be good and not be nice, right,

790
00:40:09,920 --> 00:40:11,640
Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying. But I don't want to

791
00:40:11,680 --> 00:40:13,840
Speaker 2: be perceived as just this nice person. I want to

792
00:40:13,880 --> 00:40:17,440
Speaker 2: be perceived as a good person. Yeah, don't play with me.

793
00:40:19,640 --> 00:40:27,959
Speaker 2: Don't fucking play with me. Keeping your journal. We talked

794
00:40:27,960 --> 00:40:32,080
Speaker 2: about that and note what triggers positive feelings. One thing

795
00:40:32,200 --> 00:40:35,560
Speaker 2: people like my mama said, trauma is the buzzword. You know,

796
00:40:35,680 --> 00:40:38,080
Speaker 2: she sent me this long text message one day and

797
00:40:38,400 --> 00:40:41,120
Speaker 2: saying this new word, trauma is such a buzzword. Now

798
00:40:41,200 --> 00:40:45,200
Speaker 2: it's not a buzzword. It's our generation recognizing that, hey,

799
00:40:45,320 --> 00:40:47,879
Speaker 2: y'all did y'all best, but maybe sometimes it just wasn't

800
00:40:47,880 --> 00:40:50,360
Speaker 2: good enough. And we're trying to recognize it, so we

801
00:40:50,400 --> 00:40:52,560
Speaker 2: could do better by our offspring.

802
00:40:52,360 --> 00:40:54,120
Speaker 1: Right, and then, and it will continue to grow and

803
00:40:54,160 --> 00:40:56,600
Speaker 1: grow and grow. You know, That's just how it works.

804
00:40:57,600 --> 00:41:01,920
Speaker 2: Trauma explains your triggers. It doesn't justify him, right. So

805
00:41:02,120 --> 00:41:03,920
Speaker 2: just because you have this trauma, and I think, and

806
00:41:03,960 --> 00:41:06,080
Speaker 2: I say this a lot men, right, they want to

807
00:41:06,120 --> 00:41:07,960
Speaker 2: be able to get a woman that they could be

808
00:41:08,520 --> 00:41:11,600
Speaker 2: vulnerable with and unpack all their traumas on That is

809
00:41:11,600 --> 00:41:14,279
Speaker 2: not what your woman is for, you know, the two

810
00:41:14,320 --> 00:41:16,040
Speaker 2: of you. Yes, y'all should should be able to help

811
00:41:16,080 --> 00:41:18,799
Speaker 2: each other in whatever situations, whatever mental language you're going through,

812
00:41:18,880 --> 00:41:20,480
Speaker 2: y'all should be able to help. But you got to

813
00:41:20,520 --> 00:41:22,680
Speaker 2: go to therapy, you know what I'm saying, because the

814
00:41:22,680 --> 00:41:25,760
Speaker 2: therapist is maybe a little bit more equipped to handle

815
00:41:25,800 --> 00:41:28,480
Speaker 2: the things that you're going through. You can't unpack all

816
00:41:28,520 --> 00:41:30,520
Speaker 2: your childhood trauma on me and think I'm going to

817
00:41:30,640 --> 00:41:34,600
Speaker 2: use it to justify your behavior towards me. Oh he

818
00:41:34,680 --> 00:41:37,560
Speaker 2: does this because of that. Oh I still love him. Noah,

819
00:41:37,600 --> 00:41:39,120
Speaker 2: you got to work on those things.

820
00:41:39,360 --> 00:41:41,400
Speaker 1: Yeah. I mean, I want my man to feel like

821
00:41:41,480 --> 00:41:45,000
Speaker 1: he can share whatever with me, you know, But I

822
00:41:45,080 --> 00:41:47,200
Speaker 1: also don't know what to do with all of that

823
00:41:47,440 --> 00:41:50,279
Speaker 1: I'm trying to figure out my own way exactly, So

824
00:41:50,360 --> 00:41:52,399
Speaker 1: I agree with you, like you know, we all need

825
00:41:52,440 --> 00:41:55,160
Speaker 1: therapy for our individual traumas. But I do want you

826
00:41:55,200 --> 00:41:57,319
Speaker 1: to give me grace. If you know this is why

827
00:41:57,360 --> 00:41:59,279
Speaker 1: I'm fucked up in this way, but you see me

828
00:41:59,320 --> 00:42:01,640
Speaker 1: actively work on it. Please give me some grace.

829
00:42:01,520 --> 00:42:04,680
Speaker 2: Right because you're gonna it's work in progress, right, and

830
00:42:05,040 --> 00:42:07,480
Speaker 2: it could be a lifelong commitment. I don't think anybody

831
00:42:07,520 --> 00:42:10,759
Speaker 2: could ever be one hundred percent self aware and have

832
00:42:10,800 --> 00:42:17,600
Speaker 2: one hundred percent percent emotional intelligence, right, But every day

833
00:42:17,640 --> 00:42:19,480
Speaker 2: you gotta be working on it. So now, if you

834
00:42:19,520 --> 00:42:24,240
Speaker 2: fall off the bandwagon, you know, fifteen percent of the time,

835
00:42:24,360 --> 00:42:27,280
Speaker 2: I got grace for you. But if on a daily basis,

836
00:42:27,320 --> 00:42:30,160
Speaker 2: like you just being this ugly person and I'm supposed

837
00:42:30,200 --> 00:42:32,279
Speaker 2: to use the fact that you were abused as a

838
00:42:32,360 --> 00:42:35,440
Speaker 2: child to justify how you treating me who didn't abuse you,

839
00:42:35,960 --> 00:42:38,400
Speaker 2: I can't fuck with you. You gotta get on out my life.

840
00:42:39,080 --> 00:42:42,160
Speaker 2: I agree, you know, and the more self aware you become,

841
00:42:42,320 --> 00:42:44,200
Speaker 2: the less shit you deal with from other people.

842
00:42:44,520 --> 00:42:46,479
Speaker 1: But I just think we're all gonna become so self

843
00:42:46,520 --> 00:42:48,760
Speaker 1: aware that nobody gonna have nobody.

844
00:42:49,120 --> 00:42:51,680
Speaker 2: No, because it goes in also to how you treat people.

845
00:42:51,719 --> 00:42:54,920
Speaker 2: So if you love yourself right and you're self aware,

846
00:42:55,000 --> 00:42:57,560
Speaker 2: like this thing bothers me, and this person is unwilling

847
00:42:57,600 --> 00:42:59,520
Speaker 2: to change this thing that bothers me, you might have

848
00:42:59,560 --> 00:43:02,520
Speaker 2: to step away. It's not about changing people anymore, it's

849
00:43:02,520 --> 00:43:05,239
Speaker 2: about changing yourself. So just like I guess we had

850
00:43:05,280 --> 00:43:08,239
Speaker 2: on last week, FIR this girl as young as hell,

851
00:43:08,360 --> 00:43:10,759
Speaker 2: twenty four years old, and she realized that she can't

852
00:43:10,800 --> 00:43:12,840
Speaker 2: change your parents, right, so let me change how I

853
00:43:12,880 --> 00:43:14,680
Speaker 2: deal with them so we can still remain family.

854
00:43:15,000 --> 00:43:15,160
Speaker 1: Right.

855
00:43:15,440 --> 00:43:19,719
Speaker 2: That is a lot of self awareness to have at

856
00:43:19,760 --> 00:43:22,879
Speaker 2: that young age, because it took me a very long time,

857
00:43:22,920 --> 00:43:24,480
Speaker 2: and I said that last week, it took me a

858
00:43:24,520 --> 00:43:26,799
Speaker 2: long time to realize, Listen, your parents so who they are.

859
00:43:27,840 --> 00:43:29,719
Speaker 2: Some people are who they are. Either you're gonna deal

860
00:43:29,760 --> 00:43:32,359
Speaker 2: with them or you aren't. And all the relationship is

861
00:43:32,360 --> 00:43:34,200
Speaker 2: is how much you can deal with from somebody else,

862
00:43:34,239 --> 00:43:37,960
Speaker 2: because everybody comes with their shit, everybody comes with their bullshit.

863
00:43:38,320 --> 00:43:40,440
Speaker 2: But it's just how much of somebody else that you

864
00:43:40,480 --> 00:43:42,839
Speaker 2: can take. And when you can't take it no more,

865
00:43:42,880 --> 00:43:45,120
Speaker 2: the relationship is over. And that could be your mom

866
00:43:45,120 --> 00:43:48,640
Speaker 2: and your daddy whoever it is you know what I'm saying?

867
00:43:49,760 --> 00:43:53,719
Speaker 2: So yeah? Keeping that journal. As you are journaling, pay

868
00:43:53,760 --> 00:43:56,280
Speaker 2: attention to your day. Ask yourself, how do you feel

869
00:43:56,800 --> 00:43:59,759
Speaker 2: if there any If there are any negative feelings associated

870
00:43:59,760 --> 00:44:03,279
Speaker 2: with day, think about what triggers may have caused them

871
00:44:03,280 --> 00:44:06,600
Speaker 2: to bubble up. For any positive feelings, think about what

872
00:44:06,800 --> 00:44:13,600
Speaker 2: may have triggered you to feel happy. While journaling, substitute

873
00:44:13,719 --> 00:44:19,200
Speaker 2: some screen time with people. Ooh, bitch, we recorded right now.

874
00:44:19,200 --> 00:44:20,280
Speaker 2: Why are you on your phone?

875
00:44:20,680 --> 00:44:23,520
Speaker 1: Girl? I'm sending emails. I'm sorry, I'm listening though.

876
00:44:27,120 --> 00:44:30,840
Speaker 2: You see it says the average amount of time we

877
00:44:30,960 --> 00:44:34,640
Speaker 2: spend alone gazing at our screens now surpass our time

878
00:44:34,960 --> 00:44:39,040
Speaker 2: in face to face contact. Science tells us that we

879
00:44:39,120 --> 00:44:42,240
Speaker 2: need reflections to develop our sense of self in reflection

880
00:44:42,400 --> 00:44:45,480
Speaker 2: to others. As we spend more time alone and on

881
00:44:45,600 --> 00:44:50,680
Speaker 2: our devices, we miss the essential human mirroring. The symptoms

882
00:44:50,719 --> 00:44:54,680
Speaker 2: of lack of mirroring are becoming more apparent in our society.

883
00:44:55,080 --> 00:45:01,760
Speaker 2: Increases in anxiety, lack of empathy, and intense self objectification

884
00:45:03,160 --> 00:45:06,920
Speaker 2: as in a self selfie craze. Right, there's a there's

885
00:45:06,920 --> 00:45:10,879
Speaker 2: a call, if not an angry cry for greater self

886
00:45:10,920 --> 00:45:12,040
Speaker 2: awareness and reflection.

887
00:45:12,800 --> 00:45:17,479
Speaker 1: I agree, especially when you look at these young people

888
00:45:17,560 --> 00:45:19,400
Speaker 1: who have grown up in the era.

889
00:45:19,239 --> 00:45:21,840
Speaker 2: Of social media. They don't give a fuck about nobody.

890
00:45:21,920 --> 00:45:26,640
Speaker 1: Oh my gosh, and the social are so bad it's

891
00:45:26,760 --> 00:45:30,120
Speaker 1: really scary, Like where are those Yeah to me? Yeah,

892
00:45:30,200 --> 00:45:36,279
Speaker 1: definitely weird as fuck. Hello, listen one thing. Let me

893
00:45:36,320 --> 00:45:39,080
Speaker 1: tell you something I hate And this might be my

894
00:45:39,239 --> 00:45:43,240
Speaker 1: auntie starting to show. Don't text me something without greeting

895
00:45:43,280 --> 00:45:46,840
Speaker 1: me first. Don't text me and be like, you know,

896
00:45:46,960 --> 00:45:48,440
Speaker 1: I what's the name of that?

897
00:45:49,040 --> 00:45:51,000
Speaker 2: Said that to me? But I realized that's what you

898
00:45:51,160 --> 00:45:55,120
Speaker 2: like because you always say, hey, hey, girl, is something

899
00:45:55,360 --> 00:45:56,160
Speaker 2: via tax first?

900
00:45:56,320 --> 00:46:00,480
Speaker 1: Yes? Always, because look, greet me. Don't ask me eight

901
00:46:00,680 --> 00:46:02,960
Speaker 1: what's the name of? No, not even nothing, just what's

902
00:46:02,960 --> 00:46:05,640
Speaker 1: the name of that restaurant you posted on your social media?

903
00:46:06,000 --> 00:46:10,280
Speaker 1: I'd be like, hello, how you doing, you old bitch?

904
00:46:10,600 --> 00:46:12,879
Speaker 2: Because who the fuck is old people do?

905
00:46:12,920 --> 00:46:16,640
Speaker 1: What the fuck are you talking to you? If you

906
00:46:16,719 --> 00:46:19,320
Speaker 1: walked up to me, you wouldn't just ask me a question,

907
00:46:19,800 --> 00:46:20,280
Speaker 1: you would.

908
00:46:20,120 --> 00:46:22,359
Speaker 2: Say hello, hey, how are you? Yeah?

909
00:46:22,440 --> 00:46:23,799
Speaker 1: The fuck I don't know?

910
00:46:24,640 --> 00:46:25,320
Speaker 2: Did I?

911
00:46:25,360 --> 00:46:27,200
Speaker 1: Like my grandma used to say, did I sleep with

912
00:46:27,239 --> 00:46:27,960
Speaker 1: you last night?

913
00:46:28,040 --> 00:46:29,839
Speaker 2: Right? Because you come in and you ain't greet them

914
00:46:29,920 --> 00:46:36,319
Speaker 2: right period. Yeah, the internet is crazy. Now. I got

915
00:46:36,360 --> 00:46:39,200
Speaker 2: my Instagram set on a two hour timer. Now what

916
00:46:39,239 --> 00:46:40,840
Speaker 2: I should be doing in those two hours is like

917
00:46:40,880 --> 00:46:43,520
Speaker 2: posting content to our social media page. But I don't

918
00:46:43,520 --> 00:46:46,040
Speaker 2: do it. I fucking scroll for hours and then I

919
00:46:46,080 --> 00:46:48,320
Speaker 2: asked the phone for fifteen more minutes to fucking scroll

920
00:46:48,400 --> 00:46:50,839
Speaker 2: some more. It is a problem. I have my hit

921
00:46:51,080 --> 00:46:53,920
Speaker 2: my shit set on a two hour limit, and every

922
00:46:54,040 --> 00:46:57,640
Speaker 2: day I hit the ship the discard the timer.

923
00:46:58,040 --> 00:46:59,640
Speaker 1: I don't even I didn't even know you could do that.

924
00:47:00,280 --> 00:47:03,360
Speaker 1: I'll I would put on a show and start to

925
00:47:03,360 --> 00:47:08,520
Speaker 1: show episode over seventeen times because I'm scrolling. It's bad.

926
00:47:09,160 --> 00:47:11,879
Speaker 2: So you know, the social media apps they do give

927
00:47:11,960 --> 00:47:15,680
Speaker 2: everybody like a dose of dopamine. So that's what we're getting,

928
00:47:15,880 --> 00:47:20,360
Speaker 2: instant dopamine with Instagram. Especially when you post a picture

929
00:47:20,480 --> 00:47:23,319
Speaker 2: and people liking it, you're going back to see the

930
00:47:23,360 --> 00:47:28,640
Speaker 2: notifications who commented. It's fucking weird. And you lack self awareness.

931
00:47:28,760 --> 00:47:30,560
Speaker 1: On Facebook, when I like post a picture and I

932
00:47:30,560 --> 00:47:32,359
Speaker 1: see people love it and then I see a like

933
00:47:32,440 --> 00:47:34,080
Speaker 1: I'm like, bitch.

934
00:47:35,160 --> 00:47:37,080
Speaker 2: The love was right next, are you blind?

935
00:47:37,600 --> 00:47:38,680
Speaker 1: The love was right next right.

936
00:47:38,760 --> 00:47:41,680
Speaker 2: So they made a consciousness, a conscious decision to only

937
00:47:41,800 --> 00:47:51,200
Speaker 2: like shit shady. That is shady, bitch, and I see you. Yeah,

938
00:47:51,239 --> 00:47:53,759
Speaker 2: social media is definitely gonna be the fucking death of us. Man.

939
00:47:53,880 --> 00:47:58,160
Speaker 2: It is causing people to get way, way, way further

940
00:47:58,200 --> 00:48:03,239
Speaker 2: away from the fucking truth, from the facts. You know

941
00:48:03,280 --> 00:48:05,560
Speaker 2: what I'm saying, it's just telling us a bunch of lies.

942
00:48:06,800 --> 00:48:09,919
Speaker 2: I mean, I'm so fine in person, like I could

943
00:48:10,000 --> 00:48:12,600
Speaker 2: be super fine on the internet though, if I want

944
00:48:12,600 --> 00:48:13,200
Speaker 2: to be right.

945
00:48:14,600 --> 00:48:18,600
Speaker 1: I was just saying to my friend, like I used

946
00:48:18,640 --> 00:48:21,920
Speaker 1: to love my regular face before filtering. No, man, now

947
00:48:21,960 --> 00:48:24,440
Speaker 1: i'd be like, ooh, what filter I'm gonna use instead

948
00:48:24,480 --> 00:48:26,880
Speaker 1: of just my own face? The shit is crazy.

949
00:48:27,120 --> 00:48:28,840
Speaker 2: And that's why I don't post a lot of pictures

950
00:48:28,880 --> 00:48:32,600
Speaker 2: because I feel like I have a pretty good bit

951
00:48:32,640 --> 00:48:35,600
Speaker 2: of self awareness, right, and I pride myself on being

952
00:48:35,640 --> 00:48:38,440
Speaker 2: a real nigga, And if I'm posting images that don't

953
00:48:38,480 --> 00:48:40,680
Speaker 2: look like me, I don't feel like I'm being a

954
00:48:40,680 --> 00:48:43,319
Speaker 2: real nigga. Like people literally be like, oh, that is

955
00:48:43,360 --> 00:48:46,000
Speaker 2: not your face, And it's hard for me to post

956
00:48:46,040 --> 00:48:49,040
Speaker 2: my regular face when everybody posting a filtered face and

957
00:48:49,160 --> 00:48:52,080
Speaker 2: everybody looks way more beautiful than me, Like if they're

958
00:48:52,080 --> 00:48:54,719
Speaker 2: filtered up because they fucking filtered up. And I don't

959
00:48:54,760 --> 00:48:57,160
Speaker 2: feel comfortable posting a thousand pictures with a filter on,

960
00:48:57,200 --> 00:49:01,040
Speaker 2: because bitch, that ain't you. That's not you me, that

961
00:49:01,200 --> 00:49:05,080
Speaker 2: is not I can't hear you, that is me. You

962
00:49:05,120 --> 00:49:07,480
Speaker 2: know how people out here with zero self will awareness

963
00:49:07,560 --> 00:49:10,080
Speaker 2: going and getting their face done to max the filter.

964
00:49:10,680 --> 00:49:11,840
Speaker 2: That is fucking weird.

965
00:49:11,640 --> 00:49:14,360
Speaker 1: Because I but here's the thing, I don't I feel

966
00:49:14,360 --> 00:49:15,440
Speaker 1: like I'm beautiful in person.

967
00:49:16,360 --> 00:49:19,840
Speaker 2: I feel like I look way better in person translate better.

968
00:49:20,600 --> 00:49:23,320
Speaker 1: But I think is my or my spirit, my smile,

969
00:49:23,440 --> 00:49:27,160
Speaker 1: my energy, that everything, all the beauty that you can't

970
00:49:27,200 --> 00:49:29,640
Speaker 1: see in this picture, you know, So I feel like,

971
00:49:30,239 --> 00:49:30,840
Speaker 1: I don't know.

972
00:49:30,800 --> 00:49:33,919
Speaker 2: Do you feel like iPhone being intentionally making you look ugly?

973
00:49:33,920 --> 00:49:36,360
Speaker 2: Because I saw, to god, I look real good on

974
00:49:36,440 --> 00:49:37,320
Speaker 2: android phones.

975
00:49:38,080 --> 00:49:39,960
Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't ever touch an android.

976
00:49:41,640 --> 00:49:44,839
Speaker 2: Look. I feel like Apple intentionally making people like ugly

977
00:49:44,880 --> 00:49:46,040
Speaker 2: so they use filters.

978
00:49:47,080 --> 00:49:50,600
Speaker 1: My iPhone got a fat mirror on the eye, like

979
00:49:50,640 --> 00:49:52,839
Speaker 1: they doing something in them settings. I don't think.

980
00:49:52,880 --> 00:49:55,440
Speaker 2: So I really feel that way because like I look

981
00:49:55,480 --> 00:49:57,600
Speaker 2: in the mirror and I know, I know perception is

982
00:49:57,600 --> 00:50:00,359
Speaker 2: a thing, right, so I perceive myself the look one

983
00:50:00,360 --> 00:50:01,800
Speaker 2: way when I look in the mirror, Bitch, when I

984
00:50:01,840 --> 00:50:03,920
Speaker 2: look on an iPhone picture, I'm like, that is not

985
00:50:04,000 --> 00:50:08,120
Speaker 2: my face? Like, who are y'all playing with? Is it

986
00:50:08,280 --> 00:50:12,800
Speaker 2: just me? Am I tripping? But anyway, Number six says,

987
00:50:13,000 --> 00:50:16,560
Speaker 2: ask others how they see you. Gotta be ready for

988
00:50:16,640 --> 00:50:21,719
Speaker 2: the responses. Not only should we build out our face

989
00:50:21,800 --> 00:50:24,920
Speaker 2: to face social actions, but also use a portion of

990
00:50:24,960 --> 00:50:28,200
Speaker 2: this time to learn about how our loved ones perceive us.

991
00:50:28,920 --> 00:50:31,879
Speaker 2: Talk to your closest loved ones and be courageous enough

992
00:50:31,880 --> 00:50:34,799
Speaker 2: to ask them how they perceive you in various situations.

993
00:50:35,640 --> 00:50:38,799
Speaker 2: Getting perspective on how you behave, or come off in

994
00:50:38,840 --> 00:50:43,640
Speaker 2: certain situations can help us bring into our awareness something

995
00:50:43,640 --> 00:50:47,560
Speaker 2: that was previously invisible to us. Therapy is great for

996
00:50:47,640 --> 00:50:52,200
Speaker 2: this too, so talking to people and asking them, hey,

997
00:50:52,320 --> 00:50:54,200
Speaker 2: you know and this well you know I saw a

998
00:50:54,239 --> 00:50:56,800
Speaker 2: post the other data said. Once I call my best

999
00:50:56,800 --> 00:51:02,520
Speaker 2: friend and she tells me I'm right, it's over for you.

1000
00:51:02,520 --> 00:51:05,080
Speaker 2: Your best friend cannot always tell you you're right. No,

1001
00:51:05,760 --> 00:51:07,440
Speaker 2: she gotta be objective at somebody.

1002
00:51:07,480 --> 00:51:09,520
Speaker 1: Sometimes she gotta tell you she you're wrong, like bit

1003
00:51:09,600 --> 00:51:12,000
Speaker 1: you fucked up, or you gotta find like maybe your

1004
00:51:12,000 --> 00:51:13,799
Speaker 1: best friend is just always in your corner. You gotta

1005
00:51:13,800 --> 00:51:16,560
Speaker 1: find that person that you know is gonna tell you

1006
00:51:16,640 --> 00:51:17,680
Speaker 1: either way, you know.

1007
00:51:17,880 --> 00:51:22,160
Speaker 2: Like, I don't think that's how I was supposed to go. Yeah,

1008
00:51:22,239 --> 00:51:25,480
Speaker 2: but you gotta be also ready for what people tell you.

1009
00:51:25,560 --> 00:51:26,359
Speaker 2: I would like to.

1010
00:51:27,360 --> 00:51:29,320
Speaker 1: I try to offer one of my very good friends

1011
00:51:29,400 --> 00:51:33,160
Speaker 1: some truth about herself and I, you know, and about

1012
00:51:33,160 --> 00:51:35,160
Speaker 1: me at the same time. You know, like, this is

1013
00:51:35,239 --> 00:51:37,920
Speaker 1: something we're similar on, this is something we both can

1014
00:51:37,960 --> 00:51:41,480
Speaker 1: work on. And she was like, that's not true. And

1015
00:51:41,520 --> 00:51:44,040
Speaker 1: I was like, well, ask our other friends in our group.

1016
00:51:44,080 --> 00:51:45,759
Speaker 1: But when you ask them, I need you to be

1017
00:51:46,520 --> 00:51:50,040
Speaker 1: ready to hear it, you know, and be open minded

1018
00:51:50,080 --> 00:51:52,640
Speaker 1: with it. Baby, that shit, when I all the way left,

1019
00:51:53,520 --> 00:51:55,040
Speaker 1: ain't nobody talking right now?

1020
00:51:56,280 --> 00:51:57,479
Speaker 2: You gotta started some shit.

1021
00:51:57,719 --> 00:51:59,640
Speaker 1: I did, but I wasn't. That wasn't the goal. It

1022
00:51:59,680 --> 00:52:02,239
Speaker 1: wasn't It didn't come from a place of argument or

1023
00:52:02,320 --> 00:52:05,680
Speaker 1: angry or it was just trying to encourage some self

1024
00:52:05,680 --> 00:52:07,000
Speaker 1: awareness for both of us.

1025
00:52:07,080 --> 00:52:09,520
Speaker 2: And she might she might go to the she may

1026
00:52:09,760 --> 00:52:12,800
Speaker 2: she might do this in private, the private self awareness assessment.

1027
00:52:13,400 --> 00:52:15,440
Speaker 2: She might do it in private, but she may not

1028
00:52:16,680 --> 00:52:19,720
Speaker 2: have the depth to actually tell you were right. Yeah,

1029
00:52:19,880 --> 00:52:21,839
Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying, Like, oh, well, I thought

1030
00:52:21,840 --> 00:52:26,200
Speaker 2: about this, like some people, some people just gotta leave alone. Man, Yeah,

1031
00:52:26,760 --> 00:52:27,720
Speaker 2: honestly some.

1032
00:52:27,600 --> 00:52:31,120
Speaker 1: People at right, some people.

1033
00:52:30,840 --> 00:52:33,920
Speaker 2: Are just impossible people. So even if you tried to

1034
00:52:33,960 --> 00:52:37,040
Speaker 2: put yourself in a mix, because everybody can work on things, right,

1035
00:52:37,080 --> 00:52:39,120
Speaker 2: So me not trying to single you out by yourself.

1036
00:52:39,160 --> 00:52:41,399
Speaker 2: I'm like, you know, we both can work on this.

1037
00:52:41,520 --> 00:52:43,360
Speaker 1: And I recognize it in you because I see it

1038
00:52:43,400 --> 00:52:45,440
Speaker 1: in myself, right, That's how I presented it, you know.

1039
00:52:46,160 --> 00:52:50,280
Speaker 2: But some people may never have any I mean, they're

1040
00:52:50,280 --> 00:52:53,200
Speaker 2: gonna always forever be a part of that eighty percent.

1041
00:52:53,640 --> 00:52:55,520
Speaker 2: They don't have any self awareness and they don't care

1042
00:52:55,600 --> 00:52:59,040
Speaker 2: to because it's their world and bit you are going

1043
00:52:59,080 --> 00:53:01,040
Speaker 2: to exist in it or not. I can't deal with

1044
00:53:01,080 --> 00:53:01,600
Speaker 2: people like that.

1045
00:53:02,719 --> 00:53:06,080
Speaker 1: Well, like you said earlier, like sometimes you have to

1046
00:53:06,120 --> 00:53:09,239
Speaker 1: see who people are and adjust so you can deal

1047
00:53:09,239 --> 00:53:11,319
Speaker 1: with them. Like so now I just know that I

1048
00:53:11,360 --> 00:53:13,080
Speaker 1: have to adjust how I move with you.

1049
00:53:13,680 --> 00:53:18,320
Speaker 2: That's it, short spoon or long spoon number seven says

1050
00:53:18,560 --> 00:53:23,120
Speaker 2: angry at someone take the third person perspective. Ultimately, the

1051
00:53:23,120 --> 00:53:26,080
Speaker 2: benefits of self awareness are to serve not only you

1052
00:53:26,120 --> 00:53:32,160
Speaker 2: in emotional management, but also to serve your relationships. If

1053
00:53:32,200 --> 00:53:35,640
Speaker 2: you catch yourself raising your voice, you may feel justified

1054
00:53:35,719 --> 00:53:39,279
Speaker 2: due to being upset. However, for the person with you,

1055
00:53:39,520 --> 00:53:43,440
Speaker 2: the second person, the experience will be quite different. Trying

1056
00:53:43,480 --> 00:53:47,360
Speaker 2: to imagine yourself in the person's place will improve self awareness,

1057
00:53:47,480 --> 00:53:52,200
Speaker 2: reduce defensiveness, and quite possibly improve your relationship with that

1058
00:53:52,239 --> 00:53:56,879
Speaker 2: person as well. Third person is particularly effective for people

1059
00:53:56,960 --> 00:54:01,000
Speaker 2: who are overly self critical or who trains to be

1060
00:54:01,080 --> 00:54:05,120
Speaker 2: self destructive. What would you advise if you were a

1061
00:54:05,160 --> 00:54:08,520
Speaker 2: caring friend watching your behavior? That would be taking a

1062
00:54:08,560 --> 00:54:14,120
Speaker 2: third person perspective. So I'm gonna be honest. So, and

1063
00:54:14,200 --> 00:54:16,680
Speaker 2: I still don't feel like I'm wrong. Y'all know the

1064
00:54:17,040 --> 00:54:19,680
Speaker 2: public argument that we posted, because it was a conscious

1065
00:54:19,719 --> 00:54:22,960
Speaker 2: decision we made to post this argument, and I did

1066
00:54:23,000 --> 00:54:26,719
Speaker 2: take a lot of feedback into consideration. And again, I

1067
00:54:26,760 --> 00:54:29,839
Speaker 2: still don't think I'm wrong because there are some things

1068
00:54:29,840 --> 00:54:32,080
Speaker 2: that the public can't see that may have transpired that

1069
00:54:32,200 --> 00:54:34,640
Speaker 2: led to that particular moment. That's what I didn't take

1070
00:54:34,640 --> 00:54:38,600
Speaker 2: into consideration, that people would be looking at this one moment.

1071
00:54:38,840 --> 00:54:42,120
Speaker 2: You don't see the build up to this one moment, right,

1072
00:54:42,719 --> 00:54:48,200
Speaker 2: So whatever, But that I rewatched it, and I decided

1073
00:54:48,239 --> 00:54:50,120
Speaker 2: that That's when I decide I'm not arguing with people

1074
00:54:50,120 --> 00:54:52,919
Speaker 2: no more because it doesn't make sense. It doesn't make

1075
00:54:52,960 --> 00:54:57,560
Speaker 2: sense to argue with anybody anymore. So I don't feel

1076
00:54:57,640 --> 00:55:00,600
Speaker 2: good when I argue. I literally my blood pressure going up.

1077
00:55:00,920 --> 00:55:03,160
Speaker 2: I have anxiety. All type of shit be happening. I

1078
00:55:03,160 --> 00:55:06,480
Speaker 2: got a fart, fucking palm sweat, and you know what

1079
00:55:06,480 --> 00:55:08,600
Speaker 2: I'm saying, I don't want to do it anymore. So

1080
00:55:08,760 --> 00:55:11,960
Speaker 2: what can I do different differently? How could I present

1081
00:55:12,120 --> 00:55:16,239
Speaker 2: differently going forward to avoid conflicts? You You're not gonna

1082
00:55:16,239 --> 00:55:19,040
Speaker 2: be able to avoid every conflict, but some things can

1083
00:55:19,080 --> 00:55:24,080
Speaker 2: be resolved without yelling and getting that fucking mad. And

1084
00:55:24,800 --> 00:55:26,400
Speaker 2: you know, part of it is just me shutting the

1085
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Speaker 2: fuck up sometimes just you know what I'm saying to you.

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Speaker 2: If you like it, I love it. Type shit.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I also don't feel wrong, and you know, and

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00:55:35,080 --> 00:55:38,440
Speaker 1: I just feel like we have to agree to disagree

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00:55:38,480 --> 00:55:42,279
Speaker 1: sometimes just for the sake of just moving forward. You know,

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00:55:42,400 --> 00:55:45,720
Speaker 1: sometimes we're not gonna we have different perspectives on things

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00:55:45,920 --> 00:55:48,319
Speaker 1: and we're just going to see it differently, you know.

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Speaker 1: And despite what anybody on the outside looking in for

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00:55:51,400 --> 00:55:53,920
Speaker 1: this one particular moment says, you know, we have our

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00:55:53,960 --> 00:56:00,480
Speaker 1: individual feelings and just respect you know, each other's. That's

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00:56:01,000 --> 00:56:03,160
Speaker 1: that's where I'm at. I try to respect yours and

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00:56:03,239 --> 00:56:05,239
Speaker 1: you try to respect mine. We can always work together,

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Speaker 1: and I don't ever want to get better respecting, right,

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Speaker 1: And I think I think since then we've gotten better.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, because I mean also because I feel like we

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00:56:16,760 --> 00:56:19,080
Speaker 2: probably you have to look at the bigger picture and

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00:56:19,080 --> 00:56:22,640
Speaker 2: the bigger goal of all things. That that is how

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00:56:22,719 --> 00:56:25,960
Speaker 2: you make things better, you know, especially in a business relationship.

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00:56:26,320 --> 00:56:28,759
Speaker 2: We just watched one of the biggest podcasts.

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Speaker 1: Fall out about that and I was like, Lord, don't

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00:56:32,160 --> 00:56:32,920
Speaker 1: let that happen.

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00:56:33,920 --> 00:56:37,200
Speaker 2: And I under from the outside looking in, I can

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00:56:37,239 --> 00:56:41,800
Speaker 2: see how that happens. I can see how that happens

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00:56:42,440 --> 00:56:47,520
Speaker 2: without knowing exactly what transpired. It's hard being in relationships.

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00:56:48,160 --> 00:56:50,840
Speaker 2: A lot of people being in a relationship with themselves.

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Speaker 2: That's what this episode is about. Like a lot of

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00:56:53,200 --> 00:56:55,839
Speaker 2: people don't have a relationship with themselves. So how are

1112
00:56:55,880 --> 00:56:57,560
Speaker 2: you expecting somebody else to deal with you?

1113
00:56:57,400 --> 00:56:59,719
Speaker 1: And you can health your relationship with themselves.

1114
00:57:00,600 --> 00:57:02,799
Speaker 2: You can't even deal with you, And now you're going

1115
00:57:02,800 --> 00:57:05,800
Speaker 2: out in the world and thinking other people supposed to

1116
00:57:05,840 --> 00:57:09,319
Speaker 2: be able to deal with you. Absolutely not so worry

1117
00:57:09,360 --> 00:57:14,399
Speaker 2: about your fucking self. Deal with you. Okay, we got

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Speaker 2: two more on the list and we're gonna close out,

1119
00:57:16,600 --> 00:57:20,520
Speaker 2: But so keep checking in with yourself and a list

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Speaker 2: of your feelings. Clinically, the most effective method for the

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00:57:24,040 --> 00:57:26,920
Speaker 2: development of self awareness is a pause and brief checking

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00:57:27,000 --> 00:57:30,360
Speaker 2: with oneself. How am I feeling right now? What do

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00:57:30,440 --> 00:57:34,080
Speaker 2: I think might be driving that feeling? This may seem

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00:57:34,080 --> 00:57:38,000
Speaker 2: absurdly simple, and in practice it may be quite difficult.

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Speaker 2: Many need to carry a list of possible emotions with

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00:57:41,080 --> 00:57:44,160
Speaker 2: them as they begin to exercise. You're just carrying around

1127
00:57:44,600 --> 00:57:47,360
Speaker 2: a list of shit. Or let me check my list

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Speaker 2: because let me see how the fuck I feel right now?

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Speaker 1: Wait, carry a list of positive emotions you feel about yourself,

1130
00:57:54,440 --> 00:57:57,400
Speaker 1: like I like my hair today, like that?

1131
00:57:57,600 --> 00:58:04,160
Speaker 2: Or negative like just write them and write their emotions down. Mmm,

1132
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Speaker 2: I don't know. You know, what's a hard question to answer?

1133
00:58:07,640 --> 00:58:10,800
Speaker 2: Like sometimes you don't put some When somebody asks you,

1134
00:58:10,840 --> 00:58:13,880
Speaker 2: are you happy? Is that easy for you to answer?

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00:58:14,920 --> 00:58:15,160
Speaker 1: Oh?

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00:58:16,200 --> 00:58:21,960
Speaker 2: Yeah, just yes, technically, just generally, like I found.

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00:58:21,800 --> 00:58:25,080
Speaker 1: That once I started practicing gratitude, I'm more, you know,

1138
00:58:25,200 --> 00:58:27,160
Speaker 1: I can find a lot of reasons more reasons to

1139
00:58:27,200 --> 00:58:30,240
Speaker 1: be happy than sad, you know. So typically the answer

1140
00:58:30,320 --> 00:58:33,160
Speaker 1: is yes, Now do I get sad, absolutely, you know,

1141
00:58:33,240 --> 00:58:35,800
Speaker 1: But overall I just like it. I'm happy.

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00:58:36,360 --> 00:58:39,120
Speaker 2: I think a lot of people will be surprised that

1143
00:58:39,440 --> 00:58:43,280
Speaker 2: just gratitude will resolve a lot of it.

1144
00:58:43,440 --> 00:58:44,600
Speaker 1: Really, it really does.

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00:58:44,760 --> 00:58:46,920
Speaker 2: There's a person real close to me, there's a person

1146
00:58:46,960 --> 00:58:50,360
Speaker 2: real close to me in my life right and I

1147
00:58:50,360 --> 00:58:53,480
Speaker 2: I just feel like she doesn't practice gratitude. And this

1148
00:58:53,600 --> 00:58:57,480
Speaker 2: is why you upset. You can't see the goodness and

1149
00:58:57,520 --> 00:59:00,479
Speaker 2: anything in your life. Nothing you do. I don't see

1150
00:59:00,560 --> 00:59:03,880
Speaker 2: nothing positive. You don't have anything to smile about and

1151
00:59:03,880 --> 00:59:07,560
Speaker 2: be happy about. Meanwhile, I see a million trillion things

1152
00:59:07,600 --> 00:59:09,400
Speaker 2: that I don't that i'd be having to deal with

1153
00:59:09,680 --> 00:59:12,640
Speaker 2: that you don't got to deal with. And you find

1154
00:59:12,640 --> 00:59:14,680
Speaker 2: a reason to be fucking mad every morning when you

1155
00:59:14,720 --> 00:59:17,880
Speaker 2: wake up. You gotta find gratitude.

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00:59:18,400 --> 00:59:20,080
Speaker 1: Just when I wake up in the morning, I'd be

1157
00:59:20,080 --> 00:59:20,640
Speaker 1: waking up.

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00:59:20,600 --> 00:59:23,400
Speaker 2: Like, did I say thank you? I say thank you?

1159
00:59:23,520 --> 00:59:24,640
Speaker 2: Hit the lottery again?

1160
00:59:24,720 --> 00:59:25,320
Speaker 1: God damn it.

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00:59:25,960 --> 00:59:28,480
Speaker 2: That's how I feel, not about waking up, because I mean,

1162
00:59:28,560 --> 00:59:31,160
Speaker 2: rather I wake up or not. I'm not overly concerned

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00:59:31,160 --> 00:59:34,000
Speaker 2: about living a dying at this point in my life, I've.

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Speaker 1: I'm just every day to wake up again because you know,

1165
00:59:37,680 --> 00:59:40,520
Speaker 1: yet another day. And I think another thing that helped

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00:59:40,520 --> 00:59:43,600
Speaker 1: me to practice a new level of gratitude for myself

1167
00:59:43,680 --> 00:59:45,920
Speaker 1: is I have a mess, you know, and each day

1168
00:59:45,960 --> 00:59:50,040
Speaker 1: I wake up with my eyes, my vision able to swallow,

1169
00:59:50,120 --> 00:59:53,840
Speaker 1: my pear working. It's like, yes, I'm winning out here.

1170
00:59:53,960 --> 00:59:56,200
Speaker 1: So it's just hard for me to really really feel

1171
00:59:56,200 --> 00:59:57,920
Speaker 1: like sad.

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Speaker 2: My niece is twenty five and she has lupis, and God,

1173
01:00:01,760 --> 01:00:03,920
Speaker 2: I wish. I don't want to. I don't want to

1174
01:00:03,960 --> 01:00:05,920
Speaker 2: take the disease on, but I know I'd be able

1175
01:00:05,920 --> 01:00:08,800
Speaker 2: to manage it better than her. I feel sorry for her,

1176
01:00:08,800 --> 01:00:11,520
Speaker 2: but that helps me sure I'm healthy. You know what

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01:00:11,560 --> 01:00:13,880
Speaker 2: I'm saying. She's in pain at twenty five years old.

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01:00:14,120 --> 01:00:16,480
Speaker 2: Every day. You know what I'm saying, she's taking all

1179
01:00:16,480 --> 01:00:18,120
Speaker 2: of this medicine. I don't have to deal with that.

1180
01:00:18,680 --> 01:00:22,480
Speaker 2: So even just having be grateful for having good health,

1181
01:00:23,160 --> 01:00:25,760
Speaker 2: absolutely because you don't want to be alive and sick.

1182
01:00:25,920 --> 01:00:26,600
Speaker 2: It's not fun.

1183
01:00:26,760 --> 01:00:29,280
Speaker 1: Or just look at the Congo, the people in Palestine,

1184
01:00:29,320 --> 01:00:32,600
Speaker 1: the people of Israel, all these reasons why you should

1185
01:00:32,600 --> 01:00:35,360
Speaker 1: be grateful for whatever misfortune you're experiencing right now.

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01:00:35,360 --> 01:00:36,480
Speaker 2: He's eight dollar eggs.

1187
01:00:37,040 --> 01:00:40,480
Speaker 1: Be grateful that you got access to eight dollar eggs.

1188
01:00:40,520 --> 01:00:42,840
Speaker 2: You know so, Man, I'm about to start stealing eggs.

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01:00:42,840 --> 01:00:43,439
Speaker 2: I ain't a lie.

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01:00:43,520 --> 01:00:45,960
Speaker 1: Well, bring me a breaking them, Bring.

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01:00:45,720 --> 01:00:48,920
Speaker 2: Me a dozen. I want to start stealing eggs. This

1192
01:00:48,920 --> 01:00:51,640
Speaker 2: shit is ridiculous, Like, why are the eggs eight ninety nine?

1193
01:00:51,680 --> 01:00:52,360
Speaker 1: Bring me a dozen?

1194
01:00:52,400 --> 01:00:55,160
Speaker 2: Baby? You need it all right? So the last one

1195
01:00:55,200 --> 01:00:58,760
Speaker 2: is keep learning. The journey never ends. While this article

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01:00:58,880 --> 01:01:02,760
Speaker 2: helpfully hopefully help help with pointers, there is a strove

1197
01:01:03,080 --> 01:01:06,560
Speaker 2: of excuse me, there is a trove of wonderful material

1198
01:01:07,000 --> 01:01:10,360
Speaker 2: out there that can be of guidance in your ever

1199
01:01:10,560 --> 01:01:14,960
Speaker 2: evolving journey towards self awareness. Read and learn about the

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01:01:15,000 --> 01:01:18,720
Speaker 2: psychology and practices of self awareness. Get excited about it.

1201
01:01:19,680 --> 01:01:22,520
Speaker 2: Get excited about getting the knowledge that will help you

1202
01:01:22,640 --> 01:01:25,840
Speaker 2: learn about yourself. Y'all. This is from actual. This is

1203
01:01:25,840 --> 01:01:29,439
Speaker 2: from nbcnews dot com. This particular article that I read

1204
01:01:29,440 --> 01:01:33,040
Speaker 2: all the different ways to cultivate more self awareness, because

1205
01:01:33,040 --> 01:01:36,400
Speaker 2: that's why people needle. Motherfuckers just walk around here not

1206
01:01:36,520 --> 01:01:39,919
Speaker 2: in control of their own vessel. They're being operated by demons,

1207
01:01:40,560 --> 01:01:42,880
Speaker 2: and you out here hurting people because you're hurt.

1208
01:01:42,920 --> 01:01:44,680
Speaker 1: Right, That's really what it is.

1209
01:01:44,800 --> 01:01:48,440
Speaker 2: That's all it is. But I don't know. Man. We

1210
01:01:48,840 --> 01:01:50,800
Speaker 2: live in this some times, but it is definitely a

1211
01:01:50,840 --> 01:01:53,120
Speaker 2: time to be alive. The shit that we are witnessing

1212
01:01:53,160 --> 01:01:56,120
Speaker 2: in this world today is unprecedented. We will be in

1213
01:01:56,280 --> 01:01:58,960
Speaker 2: history books where you want to be at. Do you

1214
01:01:59,040 --> 01:01:59,640
Speaker 2: know who you are?

1215
01:02:00,240 --> 01:02:04,400
Speaker 1: Yes? I'm Tamla Nicole Bowing, the daughter of Brian Hart

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01:02:04,440 --> 01:02:07,200
Speaker 1: and Sarah Hart. And I'm a loving console and I

1217
01:02:07,240 --> 01:02:08,120
Speaker 1: love y'all girl.

1218
01:02:08,160 --> 01:02:10,520
Speaker 2: A lot people about to put your social Security number

1219
01:02:10,520 --> 01:02:11,040
Speaker 2: in somewhere.

1220
01:02:11,400 --> 01:02:13,440
Speaker 1: I ain't give them myself. Listen.

1221
01:02:13,920 --> 01:02:15,600
Speaker 2: They can't do nothing with my ship right now.

1222
01:02:15,600 --> 01:02:16,920
Speaker 1: I'm not able to help you.

1223
01:02:16,960 --> 01:02:20,120
Speaker 2: God damn, please do something with my Daren credits. I

1224
01:02:20,120 --> 01:02:22,320
Speaker 2: can blame you student loans and taxes and all type

1225
01:02:22,320 --> 01:02:24,240
Speaker 2: of shit on y'all. Ass I didn't do that. I

1226
01:02:24,240 --> 01:02:26,680
Speaker 2: didn't do none of this is credit cards.

1227
01:02:26,720 --> 01:02:27,760
Speaker 1: I'm appalled.

1228
01:02:30,400 --> 01:02:36,000
Speaker 2: It's prove it wasn't me. I don't know, man, this

1229
01:02:36,080 --> 01:02:38,800
Speaker 2: is a shot. That's who I am, Okay. I am

1230
01:02:38,840 --> 01:02:43,800
Speaker 2: here to gain knowledge and share with people to help.

1231
01:02:43,920 --> 01:02:47,880
Speaker 2: That's my purpose on this realm.

1232
01:02:48,160 --> 01:02:50,400
Speaker 1: I don't know, to help. I think mine is to

1233
01:02:50,440 --> 01:02:54,240
Speaker 1: spread joy, love and goodness all the days of my life.

1234
01:02:54,360 --> 01:02:56,960
Speaker 2: I guess that's what I want to do. Yeah, I

1235
01:02:57,000 --> 01:02:59,560
Speaker 2: want to spread awareness. I want people to be aware

1236
01:02:59,560 --> 01:03:01,600
Speaker 2: of what the fuck is going on around them and

1237
01:03:01,640 --> 01:03:07,080
Speaker 2: in them. People be walking around here just aimlessly like

1238
01:03:07,160 --> 01:03:10,680
Speaker 2: she's sweet, and it's not. Y'all. We are slowly becoming

1239
01:03:10,680 --> 01:03:12,640
Speaker 2: a third world country. I don't know if y'all see

1240
01:03:12,640 --> 01:03:15,080
Speaker 2: it or not, but it is happening. What we're gonna

1241
01:03:15,120 --> 01:03:19,800
Speaker 2: do barbecue mildew. Anyway, y'all, listen to your best practices.

1242
01:03:20,480 --> 01:03:24,120
Speaker 2: Breathe in, breathe out. Do you journaling, Talk to a

1243
01:03:24,200 --> 01:03:27,240
Speaker 2: good friend, somebody who's gonna help you. Hold that mirror up.

1244
01:03:27,720 --> 01:03:29,920
Speaker 2: Go take all the week wig off and take your

1245
01:03:29,960 --> 01:03:32,360
Speaker 2: lashes off and all the ship and go stand in

1246
01:03:32,360 --> 01:03:34,320
Speaker 2: the mirror and actually look at yourself.

1247
01:03:34,760 --> 01:03:37,640
Speaker 1: Go stand in the sun without the week.

1248
01:03:38,680 --> 01:03:44,919
Speaker 2: Oh shit, bitch, you asking for too much. You have Listen.

1249
01:03:44,960 --> 01:03:47,080
Speaker 2: I just to say how my scalp need some fucking son.

1250
01:03:47,080 --> 01:03:49,080
Speaker 2: I'm gonna do it one day. You go ride bike

1251
01:03:49,200 --> 01:03:50,680
Speaker 2: or two pigtails down the side.

1252
01:03:51,400 --> 01:03:54,040
Speaker 1: All right, y'all, if you enjoyed this episode, betch that's

1253
01:03:54,040 --> 01:03:56,440
Speaker 1: my part anyway, y'all.

1254
01:03:58,040 --> 01:04:00,360
Speaker 2: Send us some dumb bitch stories. Y'all act like y'all

1255
01:04:00,400 --> 01:04:02,000
Speaker 2: ain't got nothing going on in life, like y'all so

1256
01:04:02,160 --> 01:04:03,040
Speaker 2: self aware.

1257
01:04:03,120 --> 01:04:05,600
Speaker 1: And we know y'all be listening cause y'all be commenting

1258
01:04:06,600 --> 01:04:10,320
Speaker 1: in the reviews telling us what y'all don't like. Let's

1259
01:04:10,400 --> 01:04:12,480
Speaker 1: share your share your stories with us. Man.

1260
01:04:13,320 --> 01:04:17,080
Speaker 2: Anyway, y'all listen. If you enjoyed this episode, tune in,

1261
01:04:17,640 --> 01:04:19,720
Speaker 2: you know, become more self aware and tune in every

1262
01:04:19,720 --> 01:04:22,240
Speaker 2: Thursday your iHeartRadio app wherever the fuck you get your

1263
01:04:22,280 --> 01:04:26,600
Speaker 2: podcast at. This is your co host AJ Holiday. It's

1264
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Speaker 2: two point zero on Instagrams. I did uh take the

1265
01:04:30,760 --> 01:04:33,280
Speaker 2: I Am a J Holiday. Maybe y'all'll go over to

1266
01:04:33,360 --> 01:04:34,240
Speaker 2: that one one day.

1267
01:04:34,560 --> 01:04:35,920
Speaker 1: Oh you got that one?

1268
01:04:36,040 --> 01:04:39,920
Speaker 2: I might change up, switch it up on these motherfuckers anyway,

1269
01:04:39,920 --> 01:04:40,720
Speaker 2: what you got going on?

1270
01:04:40,800 --> 01:04:45,040
Speaker 1: Zam y'all? Once again, I remind y'all that you are

1271
01:04:45,160 --> 01:04:51,080
Speaker 1: loved by me. Every week It's official TA band on Instagram.

1272
01:04:51,200 --> 01:04:54,080
Speaker 1: Y'all follow me and remember to speak now.

1273
01:04:54,600 --> 01:04:59,280
Speaker 2: And never hold your peace mobile