WEBVTT - Kyle Dietz: Suffer Progress 0:00:03.520 --> 0:00:07.720 I use. My family has my recovery. That's my fuel 0:00:07.840 --> 0:00:09.680 right now. I'm just getting back to where I was, 0:00:12.360 --> 0:00:14.840 you know, for them. But you know, I think they 0:00:14.880 --> 0:00:18.880 feel like I should be more selfish and do it 0:00:18.920 --> 0:00:21.920 for myself. But I feel like everything I do anymore 0:00:22.040 --> 0:00:26.720 is for them. I don't think anything's easy. Like, if 0:00:26.760 --> 0:00:28.840 I'm gonna do it, I'm gonna do it full fledged 0:00:28.880 --> 0:00:31.560 and hard as I possibly can, especially on long runs 0:00:31.600 --> 0:00:34.600 and races and you know, long training days. I don't 0:00:35.360 --> 0:00:37.640 want things to be easy. I don't want things given 0:00:37.680 --> 0:00:40.360 to me. I want to work for it, and I 0:00:40.360 --> 0:00:46.040 don't think enough people do that. Welcome to the new podcast. 0:00:46.120 --> 0:00:49.360 The only way is through a collaboration between under Armour 0:00:49.440 --> 0:00:56.160 and I Heart Radio. Episode three, Kyle De's suffer Progress. 0:00:59.040 --> 0:01:01.960 Some people have a fire that burns inside them. It 0:01:02.040 --> 0:01:06.520 goes beyond training, beyond sport. It's intangible. It's the thing 0:01:06.560 --> 0:01:08.520 that tells you to get back up after you've been 0:01:08.560 --> 0:01:11.199 knocked down, the thing that tells you to keep moving 0:01:11.319 --> 0:01:16.040 forward when you've got nothing left in the tank. Former 0:01:16.240 --> 0:01:19.240 m M A Fighter turn ultra runner, Kyle Deets has 0:01:19.240 --> 0:01:22.600 a burning desire to be challenged and to endure it. 0:01:22.680 --> 0:01:25.560 Pushes him through steep inclines of mud and hard rock, 0:01:25.920 --> 0:01:29.880 through ultra marathons that span hundreds of miles, and ultra 0:01:30.080 --> 0:01:33.200 is the ultimate test of stammin us strength and determination, 0:01:33.800 --> 0:01:37.040 because when you're sixty miles in with sixty miles to go, 0:01:37.840 --> 0:01:40.520 you gotta search for something greater than yourself to push 0:01:40.560 --> 0:01:46.240 toward that finish line. For Kyle, it's the thing that 0:01:46.319 --> 0:01:48.760 keeps him primed for the battles that you can't train for. 0:01:50.320 --> 0:01:52.280 It would even be the thing that pushes him through 0:01:52.280 --> 0:01:57.640 the toughest fight of his life. Kyle sat down with 0:01:57.720 --> 0:02:02.960 Kyle Fussman and share his story. He is cow, so 0:02:03.200 --> 0:02:06.840 tell us what got you into trio running. My buddy, 0:02:07.160 --> 0:02:09.400 his wife was going to do this race and he 0:02:09.480 --> 0:02:11.079 was telling me about it before I knew what they were. 0:02:11.120 --> 0:02:12.840 He was like, she's gonna run this thirty mile race 0:02:12.880 --> 0:02:14.799 and I just started laughing. I was like, no one 0:02:14.880 --> 0:02:19.840 runs thirty miles. That's impossible. So I looked into it 0:02:19.919 --> 0:02:21.840 and he was signing up for a fifty miles. Did 0:02:21.880 --> 0:02:23.800 you want to do it with me? I was like sure. 0:02:25.000 --> 0:02:27.480 He'd failed on it a couple of times before He's like, 0:02:27.520 --> 0:02:29.240 you get me to mile thirty, you can go do 0:02:29.280 --> 0:02:32.239 your own thing. Where is his race taking place? Wisconsin? 0:02:32.840 --> 0:02:36.720 He knew everything, every ins and outs of running, but 0:02:36.800 --> 0:02:38.799 I was a better athlete than he was. So we 0:02:38.880 --> 0:02:41.079 get the mile thirty and look over at him and 0:02:41.080 --> 0:02:42.840 he was like, you guys can go. So me and 0:02:42.880 --> 0:02:45.840 my buddy flinchement. I just took off and it was 0:02:46.440 --> 0:02:48.720 until like the last five miles started cramping up. I 0:02:48.760 --> 0:02:53.720 don't really know how to hydrate, right or this funny story. 0:02:54.120 --> 0:02:56.919 I running and I that leg just because like it 0:02:57.080 --> 0:03:00.240 seized up over my hamstring and I fell and I 0:03:00.280 --> 0:03:01.960 look at the back of my leg and it looks 0:03:02.000 --> 0:03:04.400 like there's a softball. It's just this giant nod. I'm 0:03:04.440 --> 0:03:08.040 like screaming. I'm like grabbing sticks and rubbing sticks on 0:03:08.120 --> 0:03:10.880 my leg and I'm like, so I get up, and 0:03:10.919 --> 0:03:13.240 I'm like, all right, I think I'm good. What like 0:03:13.280 --> 0:03:16.320 ten feet it happens again, he said, it looked like 0:03:16.360 --> 0:03:19.560 a ghost walk again. But I finished and I did 0:03:19.560 --> 0:03:33.080 pretty well, so that kind of let me hear. Running 0:03:33.080 --> 0:03:36.760 for me was always discipline, like ad to cut weight 0:03:36.920 --> 0:03:39.080 or to keep mind during something, to fight or whatever. 0:03:39.200 --> 0:03:41.360 It was never fun. It was never ever ever fun, 0:03:41.840 --> 0:03:45.080 so doing the traathl on stuff, but it takes me 0:03:45.120 --> 0:03:48.440 to the trails whatever, And I was like, this true 0:03:48.520 --> 0:03:50.280 running is where it's at. This is what I want 0:03:50.320 --> 0:03:53.280 to do. The minute you got out on the trail, 0:03:53.640 --> 0:03:57.080 this is it, this is what I was really born 0:03:57.160 --> 0:04:00.720 to do. It was just like an instant love. I 0:04:00.760 --> 0:04:03.240 love it first sight kind of that feelings what am 0:04:03.240 --> 0:04:07.320 I doing? Like this is awesome? What what is it about? It? 0:04:07.440 --> 0:04:11.560 Just being able to see so it's like it's majesty 0:04:12.400 --> 0:04:19.359 sense of awe. You get that fresh air, leaves are changing. Son, 0:04:22.480 --> 0:04:26.360 It's hard to explain if you don't do it. Were 0:04:26.400 --> 0:04:30.120 you seeing life in a different way in a sense? Yeah, 0:04:30.480 --> 0:04:32.240 just kind of like why haven't I done this sooner? 0:04:32.720 --> 0:04:34.479 I grew up planning in the woods and running around. 0:04:34.560 --> 0:04:37.240 It was like a sense of nostalgia, like it came 0:04:37.279 --> 0:04:38.839 back to me. I was like, man, I feel like 0:04:38.880 --> 0:04:41.440 a kid. I'm out here running being doing the hell 0:04:41.560 --> 0:04:44.159 I want and climbed this tree I want Like no 0:04:44.200 --> 0:04:45.640 one's going to tell you what to do out there. 0:04:46.440 --> 0:04:49.920 The moment you just described was fantastic and it's your 0:04:49.960 --> 0:04:53.479 first moment, is there the best moment that you can 0:04:53.480 --> 0:04:57.800 recall on on the trails as you're moving forward. It 0:04:57.920 --> 0:05:02.719 was a failed attempt, but uh I went to Dominica 0:05:02.920 --> 0:05:05.280 a couple of years back and it was I was 0:05:05.320 --> 0:05:08.280 running the White two Guboe trail. So the trail they say, 0:05:08.320 --> 0:05:10.200 it's a hundred fifteen miles and they're like, well, how 0:05:10.200 --> 0:05:11.360 long do you think go take to you? And I 0:05:11.440 --> 0:05:14.440 was like, oh, maybe, like oh twenty four hours. I 0:05:14.440 --> 0:05:17.400 can get it done today. So we fly into St. 0:05:17.400 --> 0:05:20.720 Martin and it is the most mountainous island I've ever 0:05:20.760 --> 0:05:22.960 seen in my life. So they give us the map 0:05:23.040 --> 0:05:25.440 and we're looking at topo. Was just like ups and down, 0:05:25.520 --> 0:05:27.440 up and down, up and down, up and down. I'm like, cool, 0:05:27.520 --> 0:05:29.360 it's a hundred fifty miles. Was like yeah, we think 0:05:29.600 --> 0:05:33.760 they don't know. So we're starting this tiny little Captain's 0:05:33.800 --> 0:05:36.440 off the island and it's almost like a little bridge, 0:05:36.440 --> 0:05:39.280 and we run up into the jungle. I've never ran 0:05:39.360 --> 0:05:42.080 the jungle before. I don't really care for jungles, but 0:05:42.360 --> 0:05:44.600 I'm like, what kind of wildlife do I need to 0:05:44.600 --> 0:05:47.480 be worried about? Like snakes, spiders. I was like, there's 0:05:47.520 --> 0:05:50.480 nothing on the island that's poison this. I was like, okay, 0:05:50.600 --> 0:05:54.440 that's really good to know. Can anything kill me? They're like, well, 0:05:55.040 --> 0:05:57.719 like there might be some stuff out that, like, all right, whatever. 0:05:58.279 --> 0:06:02.960 So we start and it's so high. It's like sweating. Brutal. 0:06:03.240 --> 0:06:06.240 It's literally brutal. And I had no idea what time 0:06:06.279 --> 0:06:08.159 it was, and I didn't know how much time i'd 0:06:08.160 --> 0:06:09.640 go by. I just wasn't looking at watch. I was 0:06:09.680 --> 0:06:11.479 just trying to get done. How long was the race 0:06:11.560 --> 0:06:13.520 in total? It wasn't a race. We were trying to 0:06:13.520 --> 0:06:16.240 set the fastest known time on the trail and to 0:06:16.360 --> 0:06:18.359 be the first ones to do it. So let me 0:06:18.440 --> 0:06:22.320 go on. It comes nighttime. Here, crunch, crunch, crunch. Turn 0:06:22.320 --> 0:06:24.680 on my head lamp and as far as I can 0:06:24.720 --> 0:06:28.120 see how it's just crabs. Were literally running on top 0:06:28.120 --> 0:06:30.680 of crabs, like you don't see the ground because it's 0:06:30.720 --> 0:06:33.280 just giant crabs. And that's the only way two weys 0:06:33.320 --> 0:06:37.240 yet to run on top of It's disgusting. I had 0:06:37.279 --> 0:06:43.680 been running for exactly like straight. My last few miles, 0:06:43.680 --> 0:06:48.000 I ran thirty minute miles, so dense it was. That's 0:06:48.120 --> 0:06:52.000 very slow. I had only made it fifty five miles 0:06:52.760 --> 0:06:57.320 in thirty seven thousand feet elevation game. It was insane. 0:06:57.920 --> 0:07:02.120 But it was amazing trip. Just watching your face tell 0:07:02.240 --> 0:07:06.919 that story, I can tell how much you loved even 0:07:07.000 --> 0:07:11.000 the worst moments. Seven It was just hilarious. So what 0:07:11.200 --> 0:07:15.280 year more or less did you start running on the trails? Shoot? Wow, 0:07:16.800 --> 0:07:20.040 I'm going on maybe eight or nine years now, and 0:07:20.080 --> 0:07:22.400 I actually have quite a bit of memory loss from 0:07:22.600 --> 0:07:26.120 my injury. But uh, I don't know the Zach day 0:07:26.360 --> 0:07:29.840 when I really started turning. Okay, so you have no 0:07:30.160 --> 0:07:36.600 memory from the time that these symptoms are approaching. So 0:07:37.000 --> 0:07:39.000 when I started acting we or whatever, people are like, hey, 0:07:39.000 --> 0:07:42.000 are you all right? God, I just said, migraines. I've 0:07:42.000 --> 0:07:45.400 always had them. I know how to deal with them. 0:07:45.440 --> 0:07:48.160 So that was it. But people like skyline drugs is 0:07:48.200 --> 0:07:51.840 what is going on. It's not acting like himself. Like 0:07:51.880 --> 0:07:53.280 I would just be at work and I would leave 0:07:53.800 --> 0:07:56.520 or I just wouldn't show up to work. That's not me. 0:07:57.480 --> 0:07:59.200 One day I was at work. I didn't know what 0:07:59.240 --> 0:08:05.000 I was doing. I didn't know how to do my job. 0:08:05.760 --> 0:08:07.840 What was the job? I was on the computer, I 0:08:07.840 --> 0:08:10.720 didn't know how like typing all this stuff, and I 0:08:10.720 --> 0:08:15.239 didn't know my coworkers names. Everything was just shutting down. 0:08:18.280 --> 0:08:23.480 I remember I was in the bathroom, and I didn't 0:08:23.480 --> 0:08:26.080 know how to go to the bathroom. Now I didn't 0:08:26.080 --> 0:08:29.560 know what I was doing, so he became reclusive. What 0:08:29.600 --> 0:08:34.920 about your girlfriend? It's at this point things go blank. 0:08:35.840 --> 0:08:38.560 Kyle only remembers this period because of what his friends 0:08:38.600 --> 0:08:41.040 and family have told him. They've helped him fill in 0:08:41.080 --> 0:08:46.320 the gaps. Kyle's dad, Fred, his daughter Ava, his friend Nathan, 0:08:46.600 --> 0:08:50.440 and his girlfriend Kelly Well guide us through, just like 0:08:50.480 --> 0:08:55.920 they did for Kyle. We had only been together probably 0:08:56.000 --> 0:09:00.320 six months before things had started to like kind of flip. 0:09:01.240 --> 0:09:03.160 She was like reaching out to my friends, like, what's 0:09:03.160 --> 0:09:06.280 going on Kyle. Yeah, it's just like like he wasn't 0:09:06.480 --> 0:09:09.440 and it needs to be reliable, and then it wasn't. 0:09:10.559 --> 0:09:13.240 The last couple of months when I was getting these calls, 0:09:14.120 --> 0:09:18.360 calls from friends, calls from his boss. You need to 0:09:18.440 --> 0:09:21.920 check on Kyle. He goes he's always here early, and 0:09:22.240 --> 0:09:24.920 he didn't show up. I think more towards the end 0:09:24.960 --> 0:09:27.200 he stopped like coming around more because he forgot a 0:09:27.200 --> 0:09:30.520 lot of things. And then it was just he was 0:09:30.880 --> 0:09:34.120 very manic where he would not work out at all. 0:09:34.760 --> 0:09:37.079 He just wasn't around a lot. I finally able to 0:09:37.120 --> 0:09:38.680 track him down we just went for a run. Let 0:09:38.720 --> 0:09:41.240 me get this spot, and I really had to relieve myself, 0:09:41.280 --> 0:09:43.480 so I took off. I came back and I didn't 0:09:43.520 --> 0:09:45.880 didn't see him. Eventually worked my way back down to 0:09:45.880 --> 0:09:48.960 the car and all the cars were gone, Hey, you 0:09:49.000 --> 0:09:50.880 were going to go to the doctor, right? Did you 0:09:50.960 --> 0:09:53.280 do that? And I was telling everyone I was going 0:09:53.320 --> 0:09:56.240 to the hospital. Whatever it wasn't I was like, yeah, 0:09:56.320 --> 0:09:58.240 but girl, I got checked out. But it's just in 0:09:58.320 --> 0:10:01.560 my head. I had no idea. I didn't know, Like 0:10:01.920 --> 0:10:03.360 I hate saying that to him, but like I was like, 0:10:03.600 --> 0:10:05.120 I didn't know if you were like a con artist 0:10:05.360 --> 0:10:08.120 or what was happening, because when I first met you, 0:10:08.120 --> 0:10:11.880 you were this person. And then like everything stopped. So 0:10:11.960 --> 0:10:14.040 I called a doctor and he goes, we hadn't seen 0:10:14.120 --> 0:10:19.640 Kyle in seven years really, And then my dad came 0:10:19.720 --> 0:10:21.720 and I was like, we're taking you to the hospital 0:10:21.840 --> 0:10:24.400 right now. I tell you this, We've seen something we 0:10:24.440 --> 0:10:29.960 really don't like. Do you have a brain tumor? Compared 0:10:30.000 --> 0:10:31.880 to their brain looked like about one third of the brain. 0:10:32.960 --> 0:10:36.040 My tumor was so big it was pressing on my personality. 0:10:36.640 --> 0:10:40.360 I think it was Saturday or Sunday, and I was 0:10:40.400 --> 0:10:41.920 in my room and my grandma called me and she 0:10:42.000 --> 0:10:44.679 told me, and so I cried to my mom about it. 0:10:44.679 --> 0:10:47.960 It's pretty had no feelings, like if you were to 0:10:48.000 --> 0:10:50.320 tell me your dog got ran over, it would be 0:10:50.400 --> 0:10:53.480 nothing to me. That's been one of the hardest things 0:10:53.520 --> 0:10:55.080 for me. I feel like I was a piece of 0:10:55.080 --> 0:10:59.120 ship to people. He's super apologic to all of his friends, 0:10:59.280 --> 0:11:03.600 thinking he let down, and I didn't go knock on 0:11:03.679 --> 0:11:05.960 his door to see if he's okay. So we're kind 0:11:05.960 --> 0:11:09.800 of a friend of mine, and people understand, but it's 0:11:09.800 --> 0:11:16.600 like that kills me. That's kills me thinking about it. 0:11:23.280 --> 0:11:27.439 Kyle's tumor was diagnosed as a hamagio parasite toma, a 0:11:27.520 --> 0:11:30.240 type of aggressive tumor that can occur anywhere in the 0:11:30.280 --> 0:11:34.160 body where capillaries exist. Kyle's grew in the frontal area 0:11:34.200 --> 0:11:37.760 of his brain. Unlike most tumors, Kyle's was growing for 0:11:37.800 --> 0:11:40.920 as long as eight years, remaining undetected, and by the 0:11:40.960 --> 0:11:43.839 time it was discovered, was already stage three. Out of 0:11:44.640 --> 0:11:47.600 all brain tumors, there's one percent chance anyone could ever 0:11:47.600 --> 0:11:51.360 have this tumor, that's how rare it was. Thankfully, these 0:11:51.400 --> 0:11:53.880 doctors they all came together, like I think there's two 0:11:53.880 --> 0:11:57.280 teams that worked on me for a fifteen hours straight. Yeah, 0:11:57.400 --> 0:11:59.640 we got it all out, and they said, if I 0:11:59.679 --> 0:12:01.120 want to on it, and I probably wouldn't have made 0:12:01.120 --> 0:12:05.720 another two weeks. It's insane, So very thankful for my 0:12:05.800 --> 0:12:09.959 friends and family to get my ass in there. His 0:12:10.120 --> 0:12:13.800 mind works in the athlete way. That's Kyle's girlfriend, Kelly. 0:12:14.280 --> 0:12:16.960 She stuck about kyle side every step of the way. 0:12:17.160 --> 0:12:21.280 When he woke up from surgery. There was no sit 0:12:21.360 --> 0:12:24.920 down talk about well, if something goes wrong and you 0:12:24.920 --> 0:12:26.440 can't run again. It was like, Okay, what do we 0:12:26.480 --> 0:12:28.840 do next, Let's take the next step, Let's be there. 0:12:29.559 --> 0:12:30.920 Let's just kind of move in the moment and not 0:12:30.960 --> 0:12:34.360 worry about how far ahead we're looking. He couldn't walk. 0:12:34.679 --> 0:12:36.800 He was just gonna keep standing until he could take 0:12:36.840 --> 0:12:42.920 a step and then go from there out of the hospital. 0:12:43.080 --> 0:12:46.599 I couldn't see, I couldn't hear, I couldn't walk. I 0:12:46.600 --> 0:12:49.960 couldn't really do ship. It was awful. I could see, 0:12:50.000 --> 0:12:53.840 but like I couldn't make out anything in my ear. 0:12:53.920 --> 0:12:58.520 I could hear, but it was just hanstant reading. Learning 0:12:58.520 --> 0:13:02.640 how to walk again. That was tough. Like equilibrium was 0:13:02.679 --> 0:13:05.040 so off. I'm stand I'll get up out of my 0:13:05.080 --> 0:13:06.840 chair because I had to sit up for a long time. 0:13:07.240 --> 0:13:09.840 I'm good, and I would just stand there just to 0:13:09.840 --> 0:13:12.080 work on my balance. Tell the fall back into my chair. 0:13:13.320 --> 0:13:16.000 Each member of Kyle's family played a significant role in 0:13:16.040 --> 0:13:18.880 as we had. His dad spent each day helping him 0:13:18.960 --> 0:13:22.400 learn to walk again and guiding him as Kyle pushed himself. 0:13:23.040 --> 0:13:26.800 Here's fred Dee's and uh, okay, we're gonna go. We're 0:13:26.800 --> 0:13:29.640 gonna go out the door. Okay. Now we're gonna go 0:13:29.679 --> 0:13:32.520 out the door and pass Bob's house. Okay, we're gonna 0:13:32.520 --> 0:13:34.800 go out the door, pass bop saus next door. And 0:13:34.840 --> 0:13:38.200 he's wore out. I mean, that's all he's got. So 0:13:38.280 --> 0:13:40.400 the next day we're gonna go a little bit further, 0:13:40.480 --> 0:13:43.480 a little bit further and then get to the end 0:13:43.520 --> 0:13:46.240 of the block, which is like a hundred mile marathon. Now, 0:13:46.920 --> 0:13:49.319 just everything he had to get to the end of 0:13:49.320 --> 0:13:54.199 the block. Touch the top foot them, let's stop right here. 0:13:54.480 --> 0:13:57.040 You know, one little touch a televile bowl. I can't 0:13:57.080 --> 0:13:59.800 carry you back. I'll be okay, I got touched to 0:13:59.880 --> 0:14:07.720 the bowl. Okay, touch horrible back Kyle's daughter spent long 0:14:07.760 --> 0:14:10.680 hours with her dad while he got better, playing games 0:14:10.800 --> 0:14:13.680 and working on puzzles to help his mind. I haven't 0:14:13.679 --> 0:14:15.360 sleep on the couch right next to him, so like 0:14:15.400 --> 0:14:17.120 I would always be awake all the time. So then 0:14:17.280 --> 0:14:19.040 if he needed help, I would help him up stairs 0:14:19.040 --> 0:14:20.520 to use the bathroom. And I was sitting away for 0:14:20.600 --> 0:14:23.040 him so I could take him back downstairs. We did 0:14:23.200 --> 0:14:25.120 like word searches all the time, and we can never 0:14:25.160 --> 0:14:27.680 find words, so we'd always give bad and then we 0:14:27.800 --> 0:14:30.240 just put it down and walk away. They wouldn't give 0:14:30.320 --> 0:14:31.760 up on me, and they wouldn't let me give up 0:14:31.760 --> 0:14:35.040 on myself. Say with my daughter, she's built just like me. 0:14:35.920 --> 0:14:42.040 What's she's the best? What's her name? Ava? What did 0:14:42.080 --> 0:14:44.480 you feel like walking on your own for the first time? 0:14:45.040 --> 0:14:49.280 It was emotional, it was and like my first run back. 0:14:49.880 --> 0:14:52.080 So we have a skybridge at home. My buddies all 0:14:52.120 --> 0:14:54.760 took me to go for a run. And he's dead 0:14:54.760 --> 0:14:57.080 and want to be on a horrible winner, so they 0:14:57.120 --> 0:14:59.800 took me up there. I think I ran down one 0:15:00.320 --> 0:15:02.200 stretch of it. I don't know if you'd call it running, 0:15:02.240 --> 0:15:04.560 but shuffled down and nothing. I just tucked in one 0:15:04.560 --> 0:15:08.640 of the corners. It was broke down. It was it 0:15:08.760 --> 0:15:12.360 was hard, Uh, just that you were able to be 0:15:12.480 --> 0:15:15.840 running again, It was, it was, It was. It was 0:15:15.880 --> 0:15:18.520 hard on me, like because I didn't think I wasn't 0:15:18.560 --> 0:15:21.840 able to get back, Like you know, I'm not a 0:15:21.840 --> 0:15:24.480 negative person, but it was like, how the hell am 0:15:24.480 --> 0:15:26.200 I gonna get back on my feet after all this? 0:15:27.040 --> 0:15:30.760 Here is Nathan TACKI a running partner and friend of Kyle's. 0:15:31.800 --> 0:15:34.080 He's passionate about all sorts of different things, and when 0:15:34.080 --> 0:15:36.680 it burns, it's bright man, just like the dimmer ever 0:15:36.720 --> 0:15:38.480 there on that wall. When he finds something, whether it's 0:15:38.520 --> 0:15:42.080 your frenzy likes or where any activity is gonna do 0:15:42.240 --> 0:15:44.680 his mountain climbing, fighting bike, it's going to be that 0:15:44.760 --> 0:15:46.960 lights which is on and it's on all the way. 0:15:47.000 --> 0:15:50.080 There's no no dimmer there. Then my opinion of him 0:15:50.160 --> 0:15:51.560 is so high as an athlete and it it was just 0:15:51.600 --> 0:15:53.800 a man, but as a runner was so good that 0:15:53.880 --> 0:15:56.080 I was like, finally slowed down a little by me. 0:15:56.080 --> 0:15:58.960 I can keep up with them, finally, that's not true. 0:15:59.240 --> 0:16:04.160 Maybe that first runner too that, but not so. At 0:16:04.200 --> 0:16:08.800 what point does your memory return? I remember stuff like 0:16:08.840 --> 0:16:10.760 off the bat I remember stuff, chunks of stuff I 0:16:10.760 --> 0:16:15.280 still don't remember. Do you remember that you love to run? Yeah? 0:16:16.120 --> 0:16:19.080 M hmm, it was weird. I remember. I woke up 0:16:19.200 --> 0:16:22.000 wanting to train fighting again though like that, What's all 0:16:22.040 --> 0:16:26.160 I wanted to do was started doing m hold on 0:16:26.880 --> 0:16:34.360 going back for a minute. Yeah he did m M 0:16:34.360 --> 0:16:38.960 A help give you the tools through this through training. Yeah. 0:16:39.360 --> 0:16:41.480 So like our gym was known for being one of 0:16:41.520 --> 0:16:44.360 the toughest gyms as well, and you basically go through 0:16:44.400 --> 0:16:49.240 like a hell week. It's everyone just speaks the ship 0:16:49.320 --> 0:16:54.200 out of you. Yeah, you can prove your worth. You 0:16:54.280 --> 0:16:56.520 get your ass kicked, and you keep coming back and 0:16:56.600 --> 0:17:00.680 you 'ear in that respect, you didn't really get a 0:17:00.720 --> 0:17:02.720 chance to take a break. It was there were two 0:17:02.840 --> 0:17:07.639 rounds on you. You're exhausted, the other guys fresh, and 0:17:07.640 --> 0:17:12.400 you're just getting beat up. Yeah. What does that teach 0:17:12.480 --> 0:17:17.120 you everything? How to keep that dog in you? Right? 0:17:17.280 --> 0:17:19.119 You want to keep fighting, You don't want to give up, 0:17:20.160 --> 0:17:23.200 beaming help to endure and coming back over and over 0:17:23.240 --> 0:17:27.399 and over and suffering. Once you have that, does it 0:17:27.520 --> 0:17:30.480 translate to every aspect of your life? For me, it has. 0:17:31.200 --> 0:17:32.800 Out of all the things I've done, I don't think 0:17:32.840 --> 0:17:35.920 that's ever gonna leave me. As a championship belt right there. 0:17:37.080 --> 0:17:42.400 When I run, I'm fighting, When I run my bike, 0:17:42.440 --> 0:17:50.880 I'm fighting. When I'm doing anything, I'm fighting. The fighter 0:17:50.920 --> 0:17:53.760 will always be in me. So that just doesn't never 0:17:53.840 --> 0:17:58.640 leave me. But as you recovered, you had trouble remembering 0:17:58.680 --> 0:18:01.920 other things, chunks of stuff I still don't remember. It's 0:18:01.920 --> 0:18:03.960 just weird. I don't remember a couple of my buddies. 0:18:03.960 --> 0:18:08.399 Still I'm learning them. Even now, you're meeting people who 0:18:08.480 --> 0:18:10.880 you knew for a long time. Could you remember when 0:18:10.880 --> 0:18:13.639 you met Kelly? No, No, I had no idea, so 0:18:13.960 --> 0:18:16.680 you didn't even know when you met your girlfriend. When 0:18:16.680 --> 0:18:18.199 I woke up, I thought I was still with my 0:18:18.320 --> 0:18:21.480 ex girlfriend. We had been apart for almost two years, 0:18:22.160 --> 0:18:25.399 so when I woke up, my feelings we're still for 0:18:25.480 --> 0:18:28.800 that person. So did Kelly have to win your heart 0:18:28.840 --> 0:18:32.480 all over again? She did flying colors, Like you're in 0:18:32.520 --> 0:18:35.760 the hospital, your girlfriend is there, you don't even know 0:18:35.800 --> 0:18:41.200 who she is, don't recognize her, and now she's got 0:18:41.280 --> 0:18:46.480 to make you realize that you're together. So it was cool. 0:18:46.920 --> 0:18:51.800 She was heart. She never pressured me into a relationship, 0:18:52.080 --> 0:18:54.440 She never put it on me, or made you feel 0:18:54.440 --> 0:18:56.679 bad for not remember who she was. She made me 0:18:56.760 --> 0:18:59.560 like a big picture book with pictures of us doing 0:18:59.600 --> 0:19:03.719 things and trying to help my memory and still nothing. 0:19:04.160 --> 0:19:06.520 But I see these photos of us and me with 0:19:06.520 --> 0:19:08.520 her family, and I don't know her friends and my 0:19:08.640 --> 0:19:12.040 friends and all of this, Like how how was this 0:19:12.240 --> 0:19:15.719 blocked out? You know? So she won me over again. 0:19:16.920 --> 0:19:20.919 It's just made us stronger. Kyle's athletic ability is rooted 0:19:20.920 --> 0:19:26.560 in the intangibles. It's hard, his focus, his fight. Kelly 0:19:26.560 --> 0:19:29.680 shares these same qualities. These are the things that bond them, 0:19:30.320 --> 0:19:35.080 that brings them balance. Here's Kelly. I could communicate for him, 0:19:35.080 --> 0:19:37.800 no problem. If somebody else was asking him something, or 0:19:37.840 --> 0:19:40.240 he needed to tell somebody something, he couldn't get the 0:19:40.240 --> 0:19:44.280 words out. It just bonded it so quick, so easy. 0:19:44.440 --> 0:19:46.760 And there was a point we didn't know if we 0:19:46.760 --> 0:19:48.840 would just be friends or date or whatever else. That's 0:19:49.000 --> 0:19:51.600 kind of how it turned into us dating because he 0:19:51.680 --> 0:19:55.600 didn't want people to feel sorry for him. So my 0:19:55.680 --> 0:19:58.359 main goal was just to be there and if he 0:19:58.400 --> 0:20:00.159 needed to see, then I would help him see. If 0:20:00.160 --> 0:20:01.760 you needed to walk, I'd help him be his legs. 0:20:02.240 --> 0:20:04.480 You just see someone who's so passionate lose it and 0:20:04.480 --> 0:20:07.760 then want it so bad you don't give a crap 0:20:07.800 --> 0:20:10.360 about anything else. You just want to help them move 0:20:10.400 --> 0:20:13.480 along their journey without feeling bad because they're a burden 0:20:13.560 --> 0:20:17.399 on somebody. My most proud woman, so Kyler behind the scenes, 0:20:17.520 --> 0:20:20.440 when no one's watching him or no one cares, he's 0:20:20.480 --> 0:20:25.560 going harder than anybody else that has no hindrance to 0:20:25.600 --> 0:20:30.560 their athletic ability. Like, my tumor messed with my brain 0:20:31.000 --> 0:20:33.440 so much that now I have a clear conscience, right, 0:20:33.960 --> 0:20:35.760 So it's like all this stuff that was like these 0:20:35.800 --> 0:20:38.080 little disciplines and things I was just thinking about my 0:20:38.119 --> 0:20:41.480 brains working full force. Now it's like everything's clear now, 0:20:41.600 --> 0:20:43.119 and like I see all these things like, oh man, 0:20:43.160 --> 0:20:44.840 if I did this better, I could do this, and 0:20:45.160 --> 0:20:49.480 so you could see clearly. But and one of the 0:20:49.560 --> 0:20:53.439 things that this affected was your eyes. Yeah, so I 0:20:53.480 --> 0:20:57.240 had really good eyes before this. Now I'm visually imparent. 0:20:59.119 --> 0:21:01.080 So my left eyes but he doesn't work. My right 0:21:01.080 --> 0:21:02.800 eye ites like how does she ran rap over it? 0:21:03.960 --> 0:21:06.360 And my eyes are fine. It's the nerves from the trauma. 0:21:08.400 --> 0:21:10.480 I mean, that's probably the hardest thing that throughout this 0:21:10.520 --> 0:21:14.320 whole situation. A couple of days after surgery, he said, 0:21:14.320 --> 0:21:16.639 don't take my eyes. And that's the only thing that 0:21:16.720 --> 0:21:21.119 has not come back. So that's pretty sad. But like 0:21:21.160 --> 0:21:23.840 I said, it's just something that you can't sit around 0:21:23.840 --> 0:21:31.240 and sulk in are you You'll just be stuck. So 0:21:31.880 --> 0:21:36.639 we just kind of moved forward. And how does that 0:21:37.040 --> 0:21:40.679 affect you when you go out to run Roman ancles 0:21:40.680 --> 0:21:46.399 a lot? My depth perception is really off, so um 0:21:47.119 --> 0:21:50.320 could come back. It might not. They don't know. Kelly 0:21:50.640 --> 0:21:53.560 one of our my first rate I think, first real race. 0:21:54.119 --> 0:21:57.680 We rank arm in arm and she never ran the 0:21:57.800 --> 0:22:02.720 partner but maybe on here, hold on here. So you 0:22:02.800 --> 0:22:07.520 wake up in the hospital, your girlfriend's there and you 0:22:07.600 --> 0:22:11.880 don't even know she's your girlfriend, and she's never really 0:22:11.960 --> 0:22:15.720 run before. She ran a little bit from what she 0:22:15.800 --> 0:22:17.879 was telling like she would do like local races like 0:22:17.960 --> 0:22:22.440 five cases. But now she's out with you for fifty. 0:22:22.560 --> 0:22:24.399 So when I got back on my feet again and 0:22:24.480 --> 0:22:27.280 started running and walking, she was there. Her and my 0:22:27.359 --> 0:22:30.679 family were there with me every day. But on a 0:22:30.760 --> 0:22:36.520 trail it's a completely different landscape. It's not flat and 0:22:36.560 --> 0:22:39.480 you have to really be able to see so that 0:22:39.600 --> 0:22:42.200 where are you going so we went out and ran 0:22:42.200 --> 0:22:44.720 a couple of trails that I think I kicked every 0:22:44.840 --> 0:22:48.320 rock and rolled backle on every stomp, Like so Kelly 0:22:48.400 --> 0:22:54.640 is with you when the whole time you're running arm 0:22:52.400 --> 0:22:58.960