1 00:00:06,880 --> 00:00:10,000 Speaker 1: It's morning and today's today. If I'm gonna make a 2 00:00:10,080 --> 00:00:12,360 Speaker 1: run for it, live my best life in Viral Villa, 3 00:00:12,880 --> 00:00:16,440 Speaker 1: I have to go now. First step, I sneak into 4 00:00:16,520 --> 00:00:19,000 Speaker 1: my parents bedroom and steal my phone back from my 5 00:00:19,040 --> 00:00:22,600 Speaker 1: mom's night stand downstairs. I make it past the breakfast 6 00:00:22,600 --> 00:00:26,040 Speaker 1: table as if I'm going to school. Meanwhile, upstairs, I 7 00:00:26,120 --> 00:00:28,560 Speaker 1: left the note to my bed explaining where I'm actually headed. 8 00:00:29,440 --> 00:00:31,280 Speaker 1: I feel like I'm pulling off a heist of some ship. 9 00:00:32,520 --> 00:00:36,760 Speaker 1: That kid all sleep well, Yeah, slep fun. Oh, your 10 00:00:36,800 --> 00:00:39,239 Speaker 1: backpack looks heavy today. I can't tell if it's a 11 00:00:39,280 --> 00:00:41,920 Speaker 1: leading question or not, but I need to have a 12 00:00:41,920 --> 00:00:47,920 Speaker 1: reply ready. Yeah, I'm I'm bringing some podcast equipment Janelle 13 00:00:47,960 --> 00:00:49,560 Speaker 1: and I are going to use. Here Comes to Break 14 00:00:49,680 --> 00:00:52,760 Speaker 1: is our big semester project, at least that part about 15 00:00:52,760 --> 00:00:56,000 Speaker 1: the podcasting project. It's true when we decided to use 16 00:00:56,040 --> 00:00:58,200 Speaker 1: our experience with the show was the foundation of a 17 00:00:58,280 --> 00:01:02,200 Speaker 1: joint audio lab project. But actually my bag is heavy 18 00:01:02,240 --> 00:01:04,440 Speaker 1: because I'm all geared up from my exclusive invite to 19 00:01:04,480 --> 00:01:08,280 Speaker 1: the Viral Villa in l a three jam packed days 20 00:01:08,319 --> 00:01:12,120 Speaker 1: making fresh content, gaining the mutual follows, and revealing myself 21 00:01:12,160 --> 00:01:17,760 Speaker 1: as the man behind mask on sounds like a good idea. 22 00:01:18,120 --> 00:01:20,959 Speaker 1: This is exactly how you should be applying your extracurriculus. 23 00:01:21,560 --> 00:01:24,120 Speaker 1: Have fun at school, baby. Luckily, that's the last of 24 00:01:24,160 --> 00:01:27,240 Speaker 1: the raised eyebrows from my parents as I grabbed banana 25 00:01:27,280 --> 00:01:30,840 Speaker 1: and bust out the door. From there, it's talk to JFK. 26 00:01:31,720 --> 00:01:34,119 Speaker 1: One of the advantages of living out in Rockaway Beaches 27 00:01:34,200 --> 00:01:35,560 Speaker 1: that I can take the m T A to the 28 00:01:35,560 --> 00:01:38,560 Speaker 1: airport and under an hour comes in clutch right now 29 00:01:38,880 --> 00:01:41,880 Speaker 1: is I'm pulling off the craziest play I ever made. 30 00:01:42,680 --> 00:01:45,200 Speaker 1: After pushing my way through a couple of transfers, it's 31 00:01:45,240 --> 00:01:50,200 Speaker 1: airport time, security, the works. It isn't until I'm sitting 32 00:01:50,200 --> 00:01:52,720 Speaker 1: at the gateway and the board that the true insanity 33 00:01:52,800 --> 00:01:56,640 Speaker 1: of what I'm doing lands home. My limb starts to 34 00:01:56,720 --> 00:01:58,840 Speaker 1: rattle in a pressure like a ton of bricks hits 35 00:01:58,880 --> 00:02:02,360 Speaker 1: my chest. What am I doing traveling across the country 36 00:02:02,360 --> 00:02:05,360 Speaker 1: without telling my parents, breaking ranks with my podcast team 37 00:02:05,400 --> 00:02:06,880 Speaker 1: to make the trip, even though we agree none of 38 00:02:06,960 --> 00:02:10,520 Speaker 1: us would go. I'm blowing up all my closest relationships 39 00:02:10,560 --> 00:02:12,760 Speaker 1: for this one shot to cash in on everything we've 40 00:02:12,760 --> 00:02:16,280 Speaker 1: worked for. But hell no, I'm not gonna have a 41 00:02:16,280 --> 00:02:20,480 Speaker 1: panic attack. Now I've come too far. I fight through it, 42 00:02:20,880 --> 00:02:24,239 Speaker 1: I stay focused. I have to do this for myself, 43 00:02:24,840 --> 00:02:27,639 Speaker 1: a statement that I'm ready to pursue this Internet fame thing, 44 00:02:27,840 --> 00:02:31,120 Speaker 1: that I'm finally ready to own it. And then of 45 00:02:31,200 --> 00:02:36,600 Speaker 1: course my phone goes off with notification bells. We saw 46 00:02:36,600 --> 00:02:38,880 Speaker 1: the message sent back to the villa. What's the deal. 47 00:02:40,200 --> 00:02:43,080 Speaker 1: Marco's already wise to what I've pulled off. Janelle is 48 00:02:43,080 --> 00:02:46,520 Speaker 1: probably in shock, but it's all gonna work out. They'll see. 49 00:02:46,840 --> 00:02:50,519 Speaker 1: I'm sorry, but I'm going We can't miss this chance, 50 00:02:50,840 --> 00:02:54,359 Speaker 1: and I need to do this myself. I can't. This 51 00:02:54,400 --> 00:02:58,480 Speaker 1: is incredibly irresponsible with that I turned my phone on 52 00:02:58,520 --> 00:03:02,200 Speaker 1: airplane mode, a point. They're getting caught out now. There 53 00:03:02,200 --> 00:03:04,120 Speaker 1: will be hell to pay when I get back, but 54 00:03:04,120 --> 00:03:06,160 Speaker 1: I won't let my nerves get to me. I've been 55 00:03:06,200 --> 00:03:08,320 Speaker 1: letting those nerves keep me from pursuing my goals for 56 00:03:08,400 --> 00:03:10,720 Speaker 1: so long, and the success of here comes the break 57 00:03:10,760 --> 00:03:15,120 Speaker 1: has been like a cure. Oh, I feel driven, focused, 58 00:03:15,520 --> 00:03:20,360 Speaker 1: able to do anything. I'm locked in. The plane begins border, 59 00:03:20,760 --> 00:03:22,760 Speaker 1: so I put on my headphones and get in lined 60 00:03:23,919 --> 00:03:51,960 Speaker 1: viral villa. Here I come. As soon as I get 61 00:03:52,000 --> 00:03:53,680 Speaker 1: off the plane that someone from the house to pick 62 00:03:53,720 --> 00:03:55,360 Speaker 1: me up and drive me over. I flew on the 63 00:03:55,400 --> 00:03:57,760 Speaker 1: Burt back less traffic to l X. We head back 64 00:03:57,760 --> 00:03:59,680 Speaker 1: to the East Side bungalow that's both the viral villa 65 00:03:59,720 --> 00:04:02,040 Speaker 1: itself and home to the art collective of the same name. 66 00:04:02,080 --> 00:04:05,520 Speaker 1: The works inside. My host, Corbin is called blind Fit 67 00:04:05,720 --> 00:04:08,240 Speaker 1: All American type. He introduces me to the other members 68 00:04:08,280 --> 00:04:09,960 Speaker 1: of the collective and the other busitors for the weekend. 69 00:04:10,120 --> 00:04:13,720 Speaker 1: Aleck j ted a string of names, stone Cold, influencer, 70 00:04:13,880 --> 00:04:15,840 Speaker 1: hat to a one. I recognized them all from the 71 00:04:15,840 --> 00:04:18,360 Speaker 1: ship time. I settled into the spare room, changing to 72 00:04:18,400 --> 00:04:20,440 Speaker 1: swim trunks, and we spend the afternoon in their pool, 73 00:04:20,480 --> 00:04:24,120 Speaker 1: partying the sun, the skin, the pool itself. Everything glows 74 00:04:24,120 --> 00:04:26,320 Speaker 1: in the California air. I make guys with the flight 75 00:04:26,400 --> 00:04:28,279 Speaker 1: chip Alie, and get to the Corbyn over a grim. 76 00:04:28,320 --> 00:04:30,640 Speaker 1: Over dinner, we bring storm ideas for TikTok videos to 77 00:04:30,680 --> 00:04:32,320 Speaker 1: make the next day. I pitched my reveal of my 78 00:04:32,360 --> 00:04:34,760 Speaker 1: mask on identity in one of the videos, and everyone's 79 00:04:34,760 --> 00:04:37,240 Speaker 1: into drinks. Go around after the food, and I'm living 80 00:04:37,240 --> 00:04:39,359 Speaker 1: my best life. So I get drunk with Corbin, Athlete 81 00:04:39,400 --> 00:04:41,440 Speaker 1: and an influencing name Cat. We talked about life in 82 00:04:41,480 --> 00:04:43,800 Speaker 1: the twenty century, kind of running for president by Scott 83 00:04:43,839 --> 00:04:45,800 Speaker 1: and commerce, all of the ship that I love to 84 00:04:45,800 --> 00:04:47,600 Speaker 1: think about, and then they follow me on the ground. 85 00:04:47,720 --> 00:04:50,120 Speaker 1: I crashed hard after that. But up early in that breakfast, 86 00:04:50,120 --> 00:04:52,120 Speaker 1: everyone is already starting to send out live terms and 87 00:04:52,120 --> 00:04:54,440 Speaker 1: make videos on their phones. Corbyn says, that's ca cameo 88 00:04:54,480 --> 00:04:56,599 Speaker 1: on his feet to reveal my identity and I'm not 89 00:04:56,640 --> 00:04:58,919 Speaker 1: about to say no. He shows off the breakfast spread 90 00:04:59,040 --> 00:05:01,080 Speaker 1: and afflis the camera catch me loading on my plate 91 00:05:01,200 --> 00:05:04,360 Speaker 1: out out the right way beach. Yo, we got mask 92 00:05:04,440 --> 00:05:06,280 Speaker 1: on in the house this weekend. He's flowing over with 93 00:05:06,360 --> 00:05:08,720 Speaker 1: this podcast. Here comes the break You've got a less 94 00:05:08,720 --> 00:05:11,039 Speaker 1: sidleless side. It takes all my accounts to the post 95 00:05:11,160 --> 00:05:13,600 Speaker 1: and pretty soon the follows are flooding it. It's like 96 00:05:13,720 --> 00:05:15,599 Speaker 1: Magic Cat and I go for a drive around the 97 00:05:15,600 --> 00:05:16,880 Speaker 1: city and she takes me to a meeting with an 98 00:05:16,920 --> 00:05:19,880 Speaker 1: agent name or After that we hype Griffith Park Observatory. 99 00:05:20,000 --> 00:05:21,560 Speaker 1: When we get back to the villa, we end up 100 00:05:21,600 --> 00:05:24,240 Speaker 1: making out in the pool. Atlice seems disappointed, but what 101 00:05:24,279 --> 00:05:26,560 Speaker 1: can I say? But when you're making fresh clips. I 102 00:05:26,640 --> 00:05:29,839 Speaker 1: checked my messages, nothing from anyone back piece they're probably stealing, 103 00:05:29,880 --> 00:05:31,960 Speaker 1: and how mad they are that I did this problem 104 00:05:31,960 --> 00:05:33,960 Speaker 1: From Monday bub back to the lines, where I end 105 00:05:34,040 --> 00:05:35,760 Speaker 1: up smoking the joint and then meeting a rapper who 106 00:05:35,760 --> 00:05:37,520 Speaker 1: wants to be on the podcast. I tell her hook 107 00:05:37,520 --> 00:05:39,160 Speaker 1: her up with my people when I get home. I'm 108 00:05:39,160 --> 00:05:40,880 Speaker 1: getting used to acting like I belong here. On the 109 00:05:40,920 --> 00:05:43,719 Speaker 1: second night, we ordering for them Thai food. It's better 110 00:05:43,720 --> 00:05:45,920 Speaker 1: than any tie I've ever had on the East Coast. 111 00:05:46,040 --> 00:05:47,960 Speaker 1: Everybody crowds around the kitchen island. A couple of to 112 00:05:48,000 --> 00:05:49,880 Speaker 1: make YouTube videos decides to make a month bang out 113 00:05:49,880 --> 00:05:52,400 Speaker 1: of it, grabbing something from every platter in the huge spread. 114 00:05:52,680 --> 00:05:54,880 Speaker 1: By this point, the number of followers on my social 115 00:05:54,880 --> 00:05:57,600 Speaker 1: feast has gone out of control. I'm not doing monk 116 00:05:57,640 --> 00:05:59,839 Speaker 1: on numbers. But but when more crossover events like this, 117 00:06:00,200 --> 00:06:02,320 Speaker 1: we could get there and everyone will be in all new. 118 00:06:02,400 --> 00:06:04,480 Speaker 1: Here comes to break listener. Finally I'm going to be 119 00:06:04,520 --> 00:06:06,960 Speaker 1: able to interact with the online audience directly. No more 120 00:06:06,960 --> 00:06:09,800 Speaker 1: smoke screen with market Engine. Now. I stumbled in my 121 00:06:09,839 --> 00:06:11,800 Speaker 1: room at one a m after another night of drinking 122 00:06:11,800 --> 00:06:14,720 Speaker 1: with Corbin in the house regulars. Someone's passing around Zandis 123 00:06:14,839 --> 00:06:17,040 Speaker 1: and I take the the booze mixes with the pills 124 00:06:17,120 --> 00:06:19,200 Speaker 1: and the weeds from earlier. He got me favor. For 125 00:06:19,240 --> 00:06:21,000 Speaker 1: the second night in the row, I forget to take 126 00:06:21,040 --> 00:06:22,919 Speaker 1: my meds, but I'm living off the high of just 127 00:06:23,080 --> 00:06:25,480 Speaker 1: being here right now. I wake up with a hangover 128 00:06:25,480 --> 00:06:27,120 Speaker 1: on the third morning, I have to go back east 129 00:06:27,120 --> 00:06:29,120 Speaker 1: and think something went at home soon harder to keep 130 00:06:29,120 --> 00:06:30,960 Speaker 1: that thought from my mind. Went off gonna like ship. 131 00:06:31,040 --> 00:06:32,720 Speaker 1: As soon as I make my way to the common area, 132 00:06:32,880 --> 00:06:34,960 Speaker 1: I'm lit up by all the energy of these creatives. 133 00:06:35,240 --> 00:06:38,680 Speaker 1: Everybody's at it, the game driven. It's a high. I 134 00:06:38,720 --> 00:06:41,000 Speaker 1: came here win some tiktoks with Ted, Jagan, Natalie. Before 135 00:06:41,000 --> 00:06:43,119 Speaker 1: it's time to head back to the airport, Corbyn offers 136 00:06:43,120 --> 00:06:45,080 Speaker 1: to drive me back to Bourban. We squeeze in one 137 00:06:45,080 --> 00:06:46,800 Speaker 1: more swimming the pool when we leave, and I try 138 00:06:46,800 --> 00:06:49,239 Speaker 1: to get Cat's numbered, but she shoots me down. Can't 139 00:06:49,279 --> 00:06:52,560 Speaker 1: win them all. As far as business goes, this weekend 140 00:06:52,560 --> 00:06:59,279 Speaker 1: has been a total success. Put Once something back on 141 00:06:59,320 --> 00:07:02,760 Speaker 1: the plane, the reality starts to set in. I went 142 00:07:02,800 --> 00:07:06,159 Speaker 1: behind markt with Janelle's back, I basically ran away from home. 143 00:07:07,000 --> 00:07:09,440 Speaker 1: Mission accomplished in terms to grow on my social following 144 00:07:09,440 --> 00:07:12,640 Speaker 1: in the podcast. Mission accomplished in terms of taking the 145 00:07:12,680 --> 00:07:18,120 Speaker 1: power back for mom and Dad. But holy shit. At 146 00:07:18,120 --> 00:07:20,880 Speaker 1: first I laid my phone off during the flight avoid 147 00:07:20,920 --> 00:07:23,680 Speaker 1: checking my messages again. But now that I've got nothing 148 00:07:23,720 --> 00:07:26,120 Speaker 1: to do but sit and think, my mind is going 149 00:07:26,160 --> 00:07:29,840 Speaker 1: crazy with the worst case scenarios, Marco Originelle quitting for one, 150 00:07:30,240 --> 00:07:33,200 Speaker 1: being grounded forever. In a day, my phone burns a 151 00:07:33,240 --> 00:07:36,080 Speaker 1: hole in my pocket. I have to smooth things over somehow. 152 00:07:36,520 --> 00:07:38,320 Speaker 1: Now that I've run off with the inviting parties, it 153 00:07:38,400 --> 00:07:41,640 Speaker 1: up with the highest TikTok stars in that leg ship. 154 00:07:42,280 --> 00:07:45,000 Speaker 1: There's no easy way to do this. It's gonna ring hollow. 155 00:07:45,960 --> 00:07:48,560 Speaker 1: Eventually I can't take it anymore. I pull out my 156 00:07:48,600 --> 00:07:51,120 Speaker 1: phone and turn it on and log into the plane's WiFi. 157 00:07:51,800 --> 00:07:54,680 Speaker 1: Still no messages from my parents, and nothing from Mark 158 00:07:54,800 --> 00:07:57,800 Speaker 1: Riginelle either. When I didn't hear from them over the weekend, 159 00:07:57,800 --> 00:08:00,120 Speaker 1: it was easy to avoid feem bad. But now the 160 00:08:00,160 --> 00:08:03,160 Speaker 1: silence puts a pit of dread in my stomach. I 161 00:08:03,240 --> 00:08:09,440 Speaker 1: get one message Marco starting to the podcast. Damnit, worst 162 00:08:09,440 --> 00:08:13,600 Speaker 1: case scenario getting way too close to reality. I immediately 163 00:08:13,600 --> 00:08:17,480 Speaker 1: start drafting the message to Marco, Hey man, I'm really 164 00:08:17,520 --> 00:08:20,000 Speaker 1: sorry for the way I pulled this move. It wasn't 165 00:08:20,000 --> 00:08:22,000 Speaker 1: fair to you. Let's talk about it. And then as 166 00:08:22,040 --> 00:08:25,800 Speaker 1: I'm back, I hit sin and wait, nothing comes back 167 00:08:25,880 --> 00:08:29,320 Speaker 1: right away. Damn. I was so focused on getting this 168 00:08:29,400 --> 00:08:32,600 Speaker 1: experience living an influencer of life, I just barreled straight 169 00:08:32,640 --> 00:08:36,520 Speaker 1: ahead and now it's all in danger. On a whim, 170 00:08:36,600 --> 00:08:39,080 Speaker 1: I checked my podcast feeds and I see that Marco 171 00:08:39,160 --> 00:08:41,520 Speaker 1: and Janelle posted a fresh episode over the weekend while 172 00:08:41,559 --> 00:08:44,480 Speaker 1: I was away. Our interview with st Body one of 173 00:08:44,520 --> 00:08:46,760 Speaker 1: the ones we already had in the can. It's a 174 00:08:46,800 --> 00:08:49,240 Speaker 1: glimmer of hope if they finished the mix on their 175 00:08:49,280 --> 00:08:52,719 Speaker 1: own and posted it. Marco hasn't quit yet. I can 176 00:08:52,760 --> 00:09:02,240 Speaker 1: still make it right in your own words. Who is 177 00:09:02,400 --> 00:09:11,960 Speaker 1: sat both? Same body is rebellious, crazy, sensitive, intuitive, Jesus. 178 00:09:12,240 --> 00:09:14,280 Speaker 1: It's kind of like all over the place. But I'll 179 00:09:14,320 --> 00:09:16,520 Speaker 1: make sense at the same time, like you might catch 180 00:09:16,559 --> 00:09:18,199 Speaker 1: me on it. Oh, I want to give everybody flowers 181 00:09:18,200 --> 00:09:19,480 Speaker 1: and rolls. And the next day I'm just like, no, 182 00:09:19,720 --> 00:09:21,320 Speaker 1: none of this makes sense. We've got to change the 183 00:09:21,400 --> 00:09:24,000 Speaker 1: order and this is how it's closed to be so. 184 00:09:24,000 --> 00:09:25,959 Speaker 1: But at the end of the day, I'm usually helping 185 00:09:25,960 --> 00:09:28,920 Speaker 1: people out with their lives, and I usually make sense 186 00:09:28,960 --> 00:09:30,400 Speaker 1: at the end of the day, with so much going 187 00:09:30,480 --> 00:09:32,679 Speaker 1: on in the world, what role does your music like 188 00:09:32,840 --> 00:09:35,319 Speaker 1: during the time of revolution? And that's crazy because I've 189 00:09:35,360 --> 00:09:38,679 Speaker 1: been like reflecting on that. It's Anita Simon interview that 190 00:09:38,760 --> 00:09:40,640 Speaker 1: she did and she said that as an artist, our 191 00:09:40,720 --> 00:09:44,560 Speaker 1: job is to reflect the time, and so I've been 192 00:09:44,760 --> 00:09:47,280 Speaker 1: been pushing It's difficult because when you start off as 193 00:09:47,320 --> 00:09:48,840 Speaker 1: a certain type of artist, everyone just like, are you 194 00:09:48,840 --> 00:09:51,320 Speaker 1: staying the slame famous lane? But when you start seeing 195 00:09:51,360 --> 00:09:54,160 Speaker 1: your people in your black women and black men dealing 196 00:09:54,160 --> 00:09:55,840 Speaker 1: with so many things, you start kind of getting that 197 00:09:55,920 --> 00:09:59,720 Speaker 1: revolutionary strike going on. And so it's just been forcing 198 00:09:59,760 --> 00:10:01,840 Speaker 1: me to a more so to speak about what I've 199 00:10:01,840 --> 00:10:05,880 Speaker 1: dealt with as an African American artist. You know, sometimes 200 00:10:05,920 --> 00:10:07,680 Speaker 1: you can't just release a record we want to. So 201 00:10:07,760 --> 00:10:09,640 Speaker 1: I've just been kind of hammering people on the head 202 00:10:09,720 --> 00:10:12,439 Speaker 1: like this isn't right. Aggressive. I guess you can say 203 00:10:12,440 --> 00:10:14,800 Speaker 1: I've been a really aggressive artist. This is not only 204 00:10:14,880 --> 00:10:19,040 Speaker 1: their problem, it's my problem. Dyeah, how is that influence? 205 00:10:19,120 --> 00:10:22,800 Speaker 1: She was an artist? I appreciate my experience kind of 206 00:10:22,880 --> 00:10:25,080 Speaker 1: like moded me as a woman and as a human. 207 00:10:25,120 --> 00:10:26,719 Speaker 1: I've seen a lot of things. I've seen a lot 208 00:10:26,720 --> 00:10:29,400 Speaker 1: of darkness, depth, you know, just I can go down 209 00:10:29,400 --> 00:10:32,000 Speaker 1: the list. But it helps me. I guess it helps 210 00:10:32,040 --> 00:10:36,000 Speaker 1: you be strong and sensitive at the same time. And creativity, 211 00:10:36,120 --> 00:10:38,160 Speaker 1: Like it's so much art. I know. Sometimes I'll just 212 00:10:38,240 --> 00:10:40,360 Speaker 1: drive down to the hood and I like, I'm in 213 00:10:40,400 --> 00:10:42,959 Speaker 1: the hood all the time, and I'm shopping sloughs in 214 00:10:43,000 --> 00:10:44,839 Speaker 1: and everything. And that's where all the art comes from. 215 00:10:44,880 --> 00:10:46,880 Speaker 1: It doesn't come from being in Beverly Hills and being 216 00:10:46,880 --> 00:10:49,120 Speaker 1: in sucking Santa Monica and all these things. It's like 217 00:10:49,160 --> 00:10:51,760 Speaker 1: the arts where the people are. I have a show, 218 00:10:52,360 --> 00:10:55,680 Speaker 1: remember all the grinding, and so sometimes I'm just like, 219 00:10:55,720 --> 00:10:57,960 Speaker 1: I deserve this. I deserve this, I deserve this, I 220 00:10:58,040 --> 00:11:00,720 Speaker 1: created this, I made this. But what I've been noticing 221 00:11:00,720 --> 00:11:03,079 Speaker 1: now as a young woman is that my over it. 222 00:11:03,640 --> 00:11:06,920 Speaker 1: And so because I dealt with so many traumatic experiences 223 00:11:07,000 --> 00:11:11,320 Speaker 1: like throughout my career, and so the thing that's helping 224 00:11:11,360 --> 00:11:14,240 Speaker 1: me let it go is alright, create the music, talk 225 00:11:14,320 --> 00:11:16,480 Speaker 1: your feelings out, and then you have to let it 226 00:11:16,520 --> 00:11:18,400 Speaker 1: go or else I'm not gonna be able to evolve 227 00:11:18,600 --> 00:11:21,160 Speaker 1: until the next person if I keep holding onto all 228 00:11:21,240 --> 00:11:24,440 Speaker 1: the trauma. And so I think that's how the background 229 00:11:24,720 --> 00:11:28,079 Speaker 1: is starting to shape me. It's just I'm starting to process. Hello, dude, 230 00:11:28,080 --> 00:11:30,600 Speaker 1: you're not always okay, and this ship was sucked up 231 00:11:30,640 --> 00:11:33,920 Speaker 1: and you gotta release, and so that's what it's doing. 232 00:11:34,040 --> 00:11:36,160 Speaker 1: I don't make music, and it's it might sound crazy, 233 00:11:36,160 --> 00:11:38,520 Speaker 1: It's like I don't really make music because I wanted 234 00:11:38,559 --> 00:11:40,840 Speaker 1: to help people. But I'm doing it because this is 235 00:11:40,880 --> 00:11:43,320 Speaker 1: my only sense of therapy at itself. I can't talk 236 00:11:43,360 --> 00:11:45,800 Speaker 1: to someone about it because no one gets it. If 237 00:11:45,840 --> 00:11:47,679 Speaker 1: I make the music for some reason, that's the only 238 00:11:47,679 --> 00:11:52,840 Speaker 1: way I can help. Wow. Wow, that's powerful. Um, Okay, 239 00:11:53,240 --> 00:11:55,600 Speaker 1: what advice would you give to emergent artists just getting 240 00:11:55,600 --> 00:11:58,840 Speaker 1: started who wanted signs were labels? I mean, I guess 241 00:11:58,880 --> 00:12:01,320 Speaker 1: the best advice to be got to be patient. You know, 242 00:12:01,480 --> 00:12:03,480 Speaker 1: this is a new generation, no in my twenties, and 243 00:12:03,520 --> 00:12:07,720 Speaker 1: so we want ship expeditiously like instant coffee. Be patient, 244 00:12:08,120 --> 00:12:10,760 Speaker 1: have intuition about the situation. There's gonna be times where 245 00:12:10,760 --> 00:12:13,280 Speaker 1: everyone is wrong and you're the right one, and you're 246 00:12:13,280 --> 00:12:15,000 Speaker 1: gonna have to speak up for yourself and just be 247 00:12:15,000 --> 00:12:16,599 Speaker 1: like no, man, like that's not what the hell I 248 00:12:16,679 --> 00:12:18,319 Speaker 1: want to do. But you also have to continue to 249 00:12:18,320 --> 00:12:20,480 Speaker 1: be humble because you know, don't treat yourself at the 250 00:12:20,480 --> 00:12:23,520 Speaker 1: foot because your label, they're all working for you, not 251 00:12:23,640 --> 00:12:26,000 Speaker 1: against you, you know, so I guess that would be 252 00:12:26,080 --> 00:12:30,120 Speaker 1: the big the big message. Just be motivated and motivate 253 00:12:30,200 --> 00:12:32,360 Speaker 1: your team. Like a lot of artists get shine and 254 00:12:32,400 --> 00:12:34,280 Speaker 1: they don't motivate their team, and they're just like, well, 255 00:12:34,320 --> 00:12:35,800 Speaker 1: do this for me, do that for me, and it's 256 00:12:35,800 --> 00:12:37,880 Speaker 1: just like no, you actually gotta sometimes you gotta make 257 00:12:37,880 --> 00:12:39,440 Speaker 1: those phone call. Hey, you what you're doing? How are 258 00:12:39,440 --> 00:12:41,160 Speaker 1: you feeling today? All right, what we're doing today? You know, 259 00:12:41,280 --> 00:12:42,760 Speaker 1: you've got to kind of be the leader. I'll say, 260 00:12:42,840 --> 00:12:46,760 Speaker 1: not gonna know how to leave. And it's a successful 261 00:12:46,840 --> 00:12:49,680 Speaker 1: artist what a self killing looked like to you? Man, 262 00:12:50,080 --> 00:12:52,520 Speaker 1: that's so crazy because it's keeping my house together, in 263 00:12:52,559 --> 00:12:54,720 Speaker 1: my car together. I know that sounds like minute, but 264 00:12:55,120 --> 00:12:58,200 Speaker 1: when my house is organized, when my car is organized, 265 00:12:58,320 --> 00:13:00,720 Speaker 1: I feel very calm. When I speak into my family 266 00:13:00,760 --> 00:13:04,320 Speaker 1: and giving them their praises and love, that makes me 267 00:13:04,440 --> 00:13:07,960 Speaker 1: very happy. And then I'll disconnect. Sometimes I'll turn my 268 00:13:07,960 --> 00:13:09,679 Speaker 1: phone off for like a day or two, and it 269 00:13:09,720 --> 00:13:12,520 Speaker 1: irritates people sometimes, but I don't care, and I'll just 270 00:13:12,559 --> 00:13:14,640 Speaker 1: go into this self love of doing my nails in 271 00:13:14,720 --> 00:13:17,320 Speaker 1: my hair. Sometimes I won't even get my nails done. 272 00:13:17,320 --> 00:13:20,439 Speaker 1: I'll do that myself. It's just a self care thing. 273 00:13:20,440 --> 00:13:22,599 Speaker 1: And I have like this little pyramid and like my crystals. 274 00:13:22,640 --> 00:13:26,400 Speaker 1: I'll meditate, I like candles, write notes to myself. I 275 00:13:26,480 --> 00:13:28,719 Speaker 1: do a lot of like keeping my mental and check 276 00:13:28,760 --> 00:13:31,520 Speaker 1: because as artists, our brains are all over the place, 277 00:13:31,720 --> 00:13:34,360 Speaker 1: so I have to do certain things like that. I'll 278 00:13:34,360 --> 00:13:37,079 Speaker 1: play video games. I'm a nerd, so I love video games. 279 00:13:37,080 --> 00:13:40,000 Speaker 1: I love anime. I love to read and just disconnect. 280 00:13:41,040 --> 00:13:43,960 Speaker 1: Last question, and this is something I asked every artist, 281 00:13:44,440 --> 00:13:47,760 Speaker 1: what do you want your legacy to teach people about? 282 00:13:48,360 --> 00:13:51,160 Speaker 1: So I feel like we're in this really weird period 283 00:13:51,400 --> 00:13:53,880 Speaker 1: of life where a lot of people are selfish, and 284 00:13:53,920 --> 00:13:57,480 Speaker 1: a lot of people are in this like each your bag, 285 00:13:57,520 --> 00:13:59,199 Speaker 1: and men are like, oh, I mean, I like five 286 00:13:59,200 --> 00:14:01,120 Speaker 1: teen seven eight girls and you know, let me not 287 00:14:01,200 --> 00:14:04,400 Speaker 1: be transparent and honest blah blah blah and show. I 288 00:14:04,440 --> 00:14:07,400 Speaker 1: feel like I want to teach people to do more transparency. 289 00:14:07,520 --> 00:14:08,920 Speaker 1: Like one of the reasons why some of my songs 290 00:14:08,960 --> 00:14:12,560 Speaker 1: are so jarring is because it's very pure honesty, and 291 00:14:12,640 --> 00:14:15,120 Speaker 1: so I just want to teach people that it's okay 292 00:14:15,160 --> 00:14:18,559 Speaker 1: to tell that girl, yo, I got four girlfriends and 293 00:14:18,600 --> 00:14:20,800 Speaker 1: a baby mama, but you have a choice, or I 294 00:14:20,840 --> 00:14:23,520 Speaker 1: got you know, this is my life situation, or I'm 295 00:14:23,520 --> 00:14:25,560 Speaker 1: depressed today? Why am I telling you I'm great? Like 296 00:14:25,600 --> 00:14:26,960 Speaker 1: if you go to a barber shop and you get 297 00:14:26,960 --> 00:14:29,040 Speaker 1: your hair cut, how you doing today? You say I'm fine, 298 00:14:29,080 --> 00:14:32,400 Speaker 1: but you're depressed, then it's just like you know you're lying. 299 00:14:32,440 --> 00:14:33,960 Speaker 1: So I just want to teach people to come from 300 00:14:34,000 --> 00:14:36,000 Speaker 1: the pureness of their heart and just be honest, like 301 00:14:36,040 --> 00:14:38,760 Speaker 1: there's nothing wrong with it. And that's like the main motive. 302 00:14:38,920 --> 00:14:41,600 Speaker 1: Most irritating thing to me is when people are not honest. 303 00:14:45,320 --> 00:14:54,160 Speaker 1: We'll be right back and now back to the show. 304 00:15:00,080 --> 00:15:09,760 Speaker 1: M I get home in the evening Eastern time, make 305 00:15:09,800 --> 00:15:12,680 Speaker 1: my way back to the house and St. Bodie's words 306 00:15:12,680 --> 00:15:16,600 Speaker 1: about dishonesty are ringing in my ears. I paused at 307 00:15:16,640 --> 00:15:19,400 Speaker 1: the front door, filling the full way to my backpack 308 00:15:19,440 --> 00:15:22,120 Speaker 1: on my shoulders and a ton of bricks to bury 309 00:15:22,160 --> 00:15:24,360 Speaker 1: me alive that my parents are about to lay on me, 310 00:15:25,680 --> 00:15:33,200 Speaker 1: and take a deep breath and turn the knob. Inside. 311 00:15:33,760 --> 00:15:36,400 Speaker 1: Mom and Dad are waiting for me in silence. He's 312 00:15:36,400 --> 00:15:40,080 Speaker 1: in the recliner. She's on the couch in Their faces 313 00:15:40,640 --> 00:15:44,520 Speaker 1: are stone cold. How long have you guys been waiting 314 00:15:44,560 --> 00:15:47,760 Speaker 1: like this? Mom doesn't say a word. Her stare alone 315 00:15:47,760 --> 00:15:51,080 Speaker 1: burns right through me like a laser. She's gonna wear 316 00:15:51,120 --> 00:15:54,520 Speaker 1: my ass. She gets up and storms out of the room. 317 00:15:54,640 --> 00:15:59,560 Speaker 1: Up the stairs, Go to your room. It's gonna be 318 00:15:59,640 --> 00:16:05,080 Speaker 1: comforble quinces for this severe consequences. We're talking the morning. 319 00:16:05,840 --> 00:16:07,880 Speaker 1: My dad heads up the stairs behind my mom, who 320 00:16:07,960 --> 00:16:11,160 Speaker 1: slams the room door. That's why I felt the house shake. 321 00:16:12,320 --> 00:16:16,240 Speaker 1: I'm left in the living room alone, but I'm confused. 322 00:16:16,920 --> 00:16:22,000 Speaker 1: That was short and almost too easy. I thought for 323 00:16:22,040 --> 00:16:24,800 Speaker 1: sure I was in for a fight right away. I 324 00:16:24,840 --> 00:16:28,440 Speaker 1: sit in the silence for a moment. It feels heavy, 325 00:16:28,720 --> 00:16:31,520 Speaker 1: with nothing left to do. I head up the stairs too, 326 00:16:31,920 --> 00:16:36,800 Speaker 1: to my room. The house is so quiet. My parents 327 00:16:36,800 --> 00:16:41,400 Speaker 1: reaction was so muted. It's it's unsettled me on a 328 00:16:41,440 --> 00:16:43,560 Speaker 1: selfish level. I know that even if they ground me 329 00:16:43,640 --> 00:16:47,040 Speaker 1: till Kingdom come, we got work arounds to record the 330 00:16:47,040 --> 00:16:50,560 Speaker 1: remaining podcast interviews from my closet. But I also worry 331 00:16:50,560 --> 00:16:54,040 Speaker 1: I've damaged that trust beyond repair, just like I might 332 00:16:54,080 --> 00:16:58,160 Speaker 1: have with Marco. I checked my phone. I'm just telling 333 00:16:58,160 --> 00:17:01,960 Speaker 1: the reply from him. He he's tight, or maybe he's 334 00:17:02,000 --> 00:17:05,679 Speaker 1: just blown off steam. Either way, I haven't felt this 335 00:17:05,720 --> 00:17:08,639 Speaker 1: alone in a long time. Under the way of the guilt, 336 00:17:09,040 --> 00:17:13,000 Speaker 1: I start reviewing the crazy weekend in my head, but 337 00:17:13,119 --> 00:17:15,720 Speaker 1: for some reason, it just doesn't seem as glamorous. I 338 00:17:15,760 --> 00:17:20,680 Speaker 1: remember my second night, drinking, smoking, taking pills, stumbling in 339 00:17:20,760 --> 00:17:23,760 Speaker 1: my room at one am. I remember making a rejected 340 00:17:23,800 --> 00:17:28,000 Speaker 1: pass a cat. I haven't been taking by meds. I 341 00:17:28,040 --> 00:17:33,080 Speaker 1: haven't been taking my meds. I got so fixated on 342 00:17:33,119 --> 00:17:37,640 Speaker 1: this trip as some wild break from my stifling home life. 343 00:17:37,640 --> 00:17:41,560 Speaker 1: Except it wasn't a clean break. It was just a vacation. 344 00:17:42,240 --> 00:17:44,560 Speaker 1: I'm sitting in the records that I've created with parents 345 00:17:44,600 --> 00:17:46,600 Speaker 1: who are going to make it as hard as they 346 00:17:46,600 --> 00:17:49,480 Speaker 1: can for me to finish the podcast, and my crew 347 00:17:49,520 --> 00:17:53,119 Speaker 1: maybe done with me too. There's no escaping it, no 348 00:17:53,240 --> 00:17:58,080 Speaker 1: pretending my problems don't exist. Now it's my reality. I 349 00:17:58,200 --> 00:18:01,560 Speaker 1: turned on my phone again and text you, now, Hey, 350 00:18:01,920 --> 00:18:06,479 Speaker 1: that's Marco. Haven't really heard back. What's this headache? For 351 00:18:06,520 --> 00:18:09,840 Speaker 1: a moment, I'm in suspense, but soon I see the 352 00:18:09,840 --> 00:18:13,359 Speaker 1: three little floating dots to say, now is typing back. Hey, 353 00:18:13,359 --> 00:18:16,960 Speaker 1: at least somebody's still talking to me. Marco was hurt. 354 00:18:17,600 --> 00:18:19,720 Speaker 1: Your parents have been reaching out to everyone all weekend 355 00:18:19,720 --> 00:18:22,359 Speaker 1: for more info. We put out the episode Well You're Away, 356 00:18:22,400 --> 00:18:24,679 Speaker 1: but I had to drag him, kicking and screaming. I 357 00:18:24,680 --> 00:18:26,840 Speaker 1: hope you brought him back a souvenir. At least he's 358 00:18:26,880 --> 00:18:30,000 Speaker 1: pissed to say. In the least the sixteen thousand new 359 00:18:30,040 --> 00:18:35,160 Speaker 1: followers count with him, I'm sure I'll take the followers. However, 360 00:18:35,240 --> 00:18:40,520 Speaker 1: that's your boy. You have to make it right for him. Honestly, 361 00:18:41,160 --> 00:18:44,280 Speaker 1: I'm pretty disappointed in you. That's straight up a trail. 362 00:18:44,800 --> 00:18:47,080 Speaker 1: You refused to let Marco go, then you ran off 363 00:18:47,160 --> 00:18:50,600 Speaker 1: yourself without permission. I think it's a whack of you 364 00:18:50,640 --> 00:18:52,680 Speaker 1: to sacrifice your friendships for a weekend of fame and 365 00:18:52,760 --> 00:18:55,800 Speaker 1: late night sessions in the pool, hardying it up, cuddling 366 00:18:55,880 --> 00:18:59,480 Speaker 1: up with that girl Cat. It was right in Marco's face. Damn. 367 00:19:00,119 --> 00:19:01,919 Speaker 1: How the hell did you know about Cat? Do you 368 00:19:01,960 --> 00:19:04,880 Speaker 1: think she wouldn't post about that? You spent a weekend 369 00:19:04,920 --> 00:19:07,880 Speaker 1: at a place called viral Villa with influencers who live 370 00:19:07,960 --> 00:19:11,359 Speaker 1: on their phones. Dude, you still have a lot of 371 00:19:11,400 --> 00:19:14,720 Speaker 1: growing up to do. Nothing is private. How long have 372 00:19:14,800 --> 00:19:19,240 Speaker 1: you known Marco? Because we were little six seven? You're 373 00:19:19,320 --> 00:19:22,720 Speaker 1: cold blooded. Her clap back hits me hard across the face. 374 00:19:23,400 --> 00:19:26,480 Speaker 1: Marco Co founded his pot with me. I mean, he's 375 00:19:26,520 --> 00:19:29,360 Speaker 1: the reason I mask on really and I did him 376 00:19:29,400 --> 00:19:31,840 Speaker 1: dad wrong. Point take it. I'll reach out to him 377 00:19:31,840 --> 00:19:35,719 Speaker 1: again the mom and I'll see you with school. Hopefully 378 00:19:35,800 --> 00:19:37,800 Speaker 1: you're still alive in the morning. I put the phone 379 00:19:37,800 --> 00:19:40,480 Speaker 1: aside and collapse on my bed. I feel the weight 380 00:19:40,480 --> 00:19:43,040 Speaker 1: of every burned out nerve and impressing in on me, 381 00:19:43,600 --> 00:19:47,320 Speaker 1: anxiety from every direction. What is this with me? Lately? 382 00:19:48,040 --> 00:19:51,119 Speaker 1: I've been having so many panic attacks, missing my man's 383 00:19:51,119 --> 00:19:53,440 Speaker 1: and then I blow up my life for this weekended 384 00:19:53,520 --> 00:19:59,040 Speaker 1: viral villa out of nowhere. When I take a step back, 385 00:19:59,119 --> 00:20:06,000 Speaker 1: I to don't feel so good about it. I feel uneasy, sick, 386 00:20:06,160 --> 00:20:14,159 Speaker 1: sick to my stomach. Janelle not blowing up at me 387 00:20:14,280 --> 00:20:16,440 Speaker 1: is a clear sign that I've dug a grave for myself. 388 00:20:17,520 --> 00:20:22,480 Speaker 1: She's detached. She thinks less of me, that's clear, but 389 00:20:22,680 --> 00:20:24,480 Speaker 1: she wants in on the show and the grade for 390 00:20:24,480 --> 00:20:29,199 Speaker 1: the project. My worries from before about competing for her 391 00:20:29,200 --> 00:20:34,840 Speaker 1: with Marco seems like nothing now. Stupid teenage stuff, and 392 00:20:34,920 --> 00:20:37,640 Speaker 1: morning will soon come, and then I'll have to face 393 00:20:37,720 --> 00:20:40,440 Speaker 1: my parents, which will be less about the punishment and 394 00:20:40,880 --> 00:20:43,120 Speaker 1: definitely more about the scare that I put them through. 395 00:20:43,840 --> 00:20:49,399 Speaker 1: I'm sure that it's keeping me up. I expected to 396 00:20:49,400 --> 00:20:51,159 Speaker 1: have the memory of the week and to hold onto 397 00:20:51,200 --> 00:20:55,560 Speaker 1: like like like a source of pride and energy when 398 00:20:55,560 --> 00:20:58,359 Speaker 1: it came time to face these consequences with the actual 399 00:20:58,440 --> 00:21:01,200 Speaker 1: cost of it hanging over me. Now, I'm not sure. 400 00:21:06,960 --> 00:21:09,359 Speaker 1: One clod up in later and I am hoping to 401 00:21:09,440 --> 00:21:13,080 Speaker 1: fade out so I fantasized about the glamour. Coming back 402 00:21:13,080 --> 00:21:17,160 Speaker 1: to this weekend's memories, I'm remembering all the people I met, 403 00:21:17,840 --> 00:21:22,880 Speaker 1: the California's son, the surf, the pool, the food, all 404 00:21:22,880 --> 00:21:26,399 Speaker 1: of my horizons expanding. I can't go back to just 405 00:21:26,480 --> 00:21:28,439 Speaker 1: being a student at a STEM school, planning for a 406 00:21:28,480 --> 00:21:32,359 Speaker 1: normal life. I've had that taste again, the taste of 407 00:21:32,359 --> 00:21:36,840 Speaker 1: online fame. It's all within my reach. I'm about to 408 00:21:36,920 --> 00:21:40,840 Speaker 1: drift off the pleasant dreams when my phone buzzes. It's 409 00:21:40,840 --> 00:21:45,800 Speaker 1: an instant notification. It's from Marco. He's gone public with 410 00:21:45,880 --> 00:21:50,080 Speaker 1: our beef. He's tagged me in and he's now calling me. 411 00:21:50,119 --> 00:21:52,800 Speaker 1: I'll for abandoned my team to go to viral Villa. 412 00:21:53,160 --> 00:21:56,920 Speaker 1: Man I shifted up in bed. This is worse than 413 00:21:56,960 --> 00:22:00,159 Speaker 1: I thought. I want to respond with something, but the 414 00:22:00,240 --> 00:22:02,920 Speaker 1: men's to taking me down and and internet flame war 415 00:22:03,080 --> 00:22:06,199 Speaker 1: is Marco's home turf. He posted a parody of my 416 00:22:06,280 --> 00:22:08,879 Speaker 1: cameo on Corbin's feed, with him making the screwed up 417 00:22:08,920 --> 00:22:11,399 Speaker 1: face and airing all our dirty laundry in the caption 418 00:22:11,840 --> 00:22:14,639 Speaker 1: mask on. My good friend turned his back on me 419 00:22:14,760 --> 00:22:17,240 Speaker 1: this weekend and ran off to viral Villa like a villain. 420 00:22:18,040 --> 00:22:20,520 Speaker 1: But don't worry, here comes the break still dropped. No 421 00:22:20,680 --> 00:22:24,240 Speaker 1: thanks at all, Robinson, We're not cool. I mean, we'll 422 00:22:24,240 --> 00:22:28,960 Speaker 1: seeven the appropriate response to that. It's childish, right, but 423 00:22:29,200 --> 00:22:32,320 Speaker 1: he hates me. I'll deal with this in the morning 424 00:22:32,920 --> 00:22:36,000 Speaker 1: after my parents. I feel like I took my mask 425 00:22:36,040 --> 00:22:39,600 Speaker 1: off and everyone in my life recoiled in horror. What 426 00:22:39,680 --> 00:22:43,680 Speaker 1: do I do now? And now? An exclusive track from 427 00:22:43,720 --> 00:23:00,119 Speaker 1: st Body see Thank Kevin is v But the was 428 00:23:00,240 --> 00:23:02,600 Speaker 1: that shot and the brand new balls trying to make 429 00:23:02,640 --> 00:23:08,479 Speaker 1: the ditch. I see the streets of paper with gold 430 00:23:09,480 --> 00:23:22,600 Speaker 1: when the blackheads dropping needles. No one know mm hmm, no, 431 00:23:23,840 --> 00:23:32,680 Speaker 1: nohe knows. No one knows. Sackhead drives his needle. No 432 00:23:32,840 --> 00:23:36,480 Speaker 1: one no, but I know Heaven is weird. I'm still 433 00:23:36,560 --> 00:23:39,040 Speaker 1: learning my wife because where I'm from Black Girls there 434 00:23:39,080 --> 00:23:41,879 Speaker 1: treated like bod manipulated right than the end of bo 435 00:23:41,960 --> 00:23:45,800 Speaker 1: t Shirts, Long Beach Boulevard. In the Mini Stird Large, 436 00:23:46,000 --> 00:23:48,240 Speaker 1: save a couple of shoot ups, I didn't want to 437 00:23:48,240 --> 00:23:51,480 Speaker 1: be involved. I needed guy this because I didn't feel important. 438 00:23:51,840 --> 00:23:53,960 Speaker 1: I let him touch because I didn't have a voice. 439 00:23:54,400 --> 00:23:59,680 Speaker 1: Took many things den Black Girls and it doesn't need 440 00:24:00,200 --> 00:24:08,120 Speaker 1: love and learning the war and you'll be game. No hearts, 441 00:24:08,359 --> 00:24:11,919 Speaker 1: but you got to brush your dirt off. Let the 442 00:24:12,080 --> 00:24:18,440 Speaker 1: angle jeans of the fine. Oh. I feel like Kevin 443 00:24:18,560 --> 00:24:22,160 Speaker 1: is real, but the devil's that shot in the brand 444 00:24:22,200 --> 00:24:27,840 Speaker 1: New bullsh trying to make the deep. I see the 445 00:24:27,920 --> 00:24:32,680 Speaker 1: streets of paper gold or on the Blackhead dropping needles. 446 00:24:33,160 --> 00:24:50,200 Speaker 1: I don't want know, mm hmm, nor knows. No one knows, no, No, 447 00:24:50,960 --> 00:24:55,800 Speaker 1: Backeat drops his needle. Non't know, but I know Heaven 448 00:24:55,920 --> 00:24:58,120 Speaker 1: is flirts and the doctor reveals herself in a light 449 00:24:58,640 --> 00:25:00,400 Speaker 1: scars on your back, show to st I think you'll 450 00:25:00,440 --> 00:25:03,320 Speaker 1: flight and I know it ain't needs it. Wait Jeous 451 00:25:03,359 --> 00:25:06,560 Speaker 1: bullet proves you don't fue blood. The suberstrass old on 452 00:25:07,359 --> 00:25:10,679 Speaker 1: breaking should don't to bid up because behind all that thing, 453 00:25:10,880 --> 00:25:14,600 Speaker 1: Shanno Glitch, you shine like that to him, you shine 454 00:25:14,720 --> 00:25:20,560 Speaker 1: too many seas dead blood girls and it doesn't need 455 00:25:20,680 --> 00:25:26,879 Speaker 1: to love and learning all any of the game. No 456 00:25:27,280 --> 00:25:37,440 Speaker 1: not spill be No, No, they are find another. I 457 00:25:37,720 --> 00:25:42,520 Speaker 1: feel like Kevin is me, but the Devil's I shot 458 00:25:42,520 --> 00:25:46,040 Speaker 1: and the brand new Pauls trying to make the deep. 459 00:25:47,320 --> 00:25:51,480 Speaker 1: I see the streets of paper gold or in the 460 00:25:51,560 --> 00:26:12,119 Speaker 1: clackets drapping needles. Don't want know m hm, you're sec 461 00:26:12,440 --> 00:26:18,800 Speaker 1: Jeff Steed, but I know heaven is here. 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