WEBVTT - “MY DAD IS BEING WEIRD IN THE GROUP CHAT” 0:00:00.080 --> 0:00:02.720 Hello, Hello, what is your name? 0:00:03.120 --> 0:00:03.360 Jay? 0:00:05.800 --> 0:00:08.680 Well? Jay, have we ever spoken before? 0:00:09.960 --> 0:00:10.360 We have not. 0:00:10.880 --> 0:00:12.799 I listened to you all the time at work. 0:00:13.640 --> 0:00:19.040 Cool, very cool, very very awesome and sick and rad 0:00:19.200 --> 0:00:26.319 and tits. Uh, well, Jay, what's up? 0:00:29.840 --> 0:00:30.080 Well? 0:00:30.120 --> 0:00:32.600 I was just calling to ask if you think I 0:00:32.600 --> 0:00:37.239 should forgive my dad for cheating on my mom? 0:00:37.600 --> 0:00:40.760 Should you forgive your dad for cheating on your mom? 0:00:41.520 --> 0:00:41.600 Uh? 0:00:41.720 --> 0:00:43.800 Do you do you want? Did this happen recently? 0:00:46.000 --> 0:00:47.560 It's been happening over the past few months. 0:00:47.600 --> 0:00:47.840 Yeah. 0:00:50.520 --> 0:00:52.839 Uh, how old are you? 0:00:54.400 --> 0:00:55.400 I am twenty one? 0:00:56.440 --> 0:00:58.440 Okay, do you still are you still like in that? 0:00:58.480 --> 0:01:00.000 I guess I I Well, I asked you that because 0:01:00.080 --> 0:01:02.480 I'm like, are you still in the house? Like are 0:01:02.480 --> 0:01:02.800 you like? 0:01:02.920 --> 0:01:03.080 No? 0:01:03.200 --> 0:01:06.240 I like, are you like in the midst of the drama? 0:01:08.400 --> 0:01:12.040 Kind of? I just moved States to like a new city. 0:01:13.080 --> 0:01:13.440 Okay. 0:01:14.800 --> 0:01:19.559 Yeah, but my dad has been texting our group chat 0:01:20.080 --> 0:01:24.520 to like continue or kindle some sort of relationship with us, 0:01:25.160 --> 0:01:26.480 and it's just weird. 0:01:27.520 --> 0:01:31.840 Yeah, Well, do you want to have a relationship with 0:01:31.880 --> 0:01:32.280 your dad? 0:01:34.040 --> 0:01:34.400 I don't. 0:01:34.800 --> 0:01:38.560 I don't really know, man, like when we I never 0:01:38.640 --> 0:01:41.399 really knew knew him when I'm growing up, Like he 0:01:41.440 --> 0:01:44.360 was in the house and all that sort of stuff. 0:01:44.400 --> 0:01:47.720 But like he and I just never had a sort 0:01:47.720 --> 0:01:53.200 of relationship. And a few years ago I got kicked 0:01:53.240 --> 0:01:56.960 out and then I condled the relationship with my family 0:01:57.000 --> 0:02:00.000 again after like being out of the house for a year, 0:02:01.200 --> 0:02:04.480 and like since then, he and I haven't really had 0:02:04.480 --> 0:02:07.760 to fight about anything. Like it was just like a 0:02:07.880 --> 0:02:14.360 dad's son not really getting along type shit, And like 0:02:14.560 --> 0:02:16.200 when it came back, he and I didn't really have 0:02:16.200 --> 0:02:18.240 anything to fight about or whatever, so we just didn't 0:02:18.240 --> 0:02:20.720 really talk very much. And then like kind of started 0:02:20.720 --> 0:02:23.240 going uphill, and then recently this happens, and I'm just 0:02:23.280 --> 0:02:24.320 like I don't. 0:02:26.040 --> 0:02:28.640 Yeah, okay, so you never even you didn't really have 0:02:28.720 --> 0:02:30.760 that great of a relationship with him to begin with. 0:02:30.840 --> 0:02:34.240 This was not like everything was so awesome growing up 0:02:34.280 --> 0:02:36.280 with my dad and he was the best, and then 0:02:36.360 --> 0:02:40.040 this happened. There's like from the start, you guys were 0:02:40.080 --> 0:02:40.960 never that cool. 0:02:42.320 --> 0:02:46.080 Yeah, But like he like over the past year or two, 0:02:46.160 --> 0:02:51.040 since I have been hanging hanging around the house and 0:02:51.080 --> 0:02:54.480 like just kind of building a little bit of a 0:02:54.480 --> 0:02:57.960 relationship with him, he's been kind of trying a lot more, 0:02:58.080 --> 0:03:01.560 like he's been taking us to trips from his home 0:03:01.639 --> 0:03:04.359 country from from his home country, which I didn't really 0:03:04.400 --> 0:03:07.440 know much about growing up, and it's been interesting to 0:03:07.520 --> 0:03:09.919 learn like Asian culture and like that sort of thing. 0:03:11.240 --> 0:03:11.639 But like. 0:03:13.160 --> 0:03:14.560 Now it's just like I don't even know if it's 0:03:14.680 --> 0:03:18.440 worth the effort to try to build any sort of 0:03:18.440 --> 0:03:19.639 relationship with him after this. 0:03:22.040 --> 0:03:24.640 I really can't answer that question for you as to 0:03:24.680 --> 0:03:29.000 whether or not it's worth the effort. That's fair, Yeah, 0:03:29.080 --> 0:03:31.000 I mean this is something you got to decide for yourself. 0:03:31.040 --> 0:03:34.040 Man, Yeah, you're that's fair. 0:03:38.040 --> 0:03:38.240 Yeah. 0:03:38.320 --> 0:03:40.000 I mean, at the age of twenty one, it's like, 0:03:40.800 --> 0:03:42.640 whether or not you want to have a relationship with 0:03:42.680 --> 0:03:46.280 your dad is up to you. But again here's here's okay, 0:03:46.280 --> 0:03:48.360 So I can't give you the answer that question, but 0:03:48.480 --> 0:03:51.160 I will ask you this. I'll ask you to read 0:03:51.360 --> 0:03:56.640 like the question should I have a relationship with my dad? 0:03:56.640 --> 0:03:59.640 I don't think is the question to be asking yourself. 0:03:59.680 --> 0:04:03.240 If I were you, I would ask yourself, well, well, 0:04:03.280 --> 0:04:09.160 having my dad in my life make my life better. Yeah, 0:04:09.360 --> 0:04:12.120 So go ahead and think about the answer to that question, 0:04:12.960 --> 0:04:15.840 and I would make your decisions based off of that. 0:04:18.480 --> 0:04:19.080 Yeah, Sair. 0:04:21.640 --> 0:04:25.200 Actually, unless if is does your dad have a lot 0:04:25.240 --> 0:04:28.080 of money? Or like a hot tub at his house, 0:04:28.520 --> 0:04:33.839 or does he have, you know, connections in the entertainment industry, 0:04:34.000 --> 0:04:37.560 like does he can you use the relationship for some 0:04:37.640 --> 0:04:40.840 kind of personal monk? Well, he would he buy you 0:04:40.880 --> 0:04:47.320 a car? Does he like anything like that? It's also 0:04:47.360 --> 0:04:50.920 important to think about No, I'm just kidding. What's your 0:04:50.960 --> 0:04:51.440 name again? 0:04:52.720 --> 0:04:53.159 I'm Jay? 0:04:54.000 --> 0:04:54.200 Jay? 0:04:54.240 --> 0:04:55.320 Is there anything else you want to say to the 0:04:55.320 --> 0:04:56.680 people of the computer before we go? 0:05:00.760 --> 0:05:01.560 And I don't think so. 0:05:03.320 --> 0:05:07.560 Well. I hope that God looks upon you favorably when 0:05:07.600 --> 0:05:09.760 you die and visit the gates of Saint Peter. 0:05:11.360 --> 0:05:12.440 Thank you, thank you, thank you. 0:05:12.560 --> 0:05:22.800 Le Something tells me he will. Good night, Jay. I'm 0:05:22.839 --> 0:05:25.760 not religious. We're gonna. I don't I'm not religious. I 0:05:25.760 --> 0:05:28.240 feel like people are gonna. I feel like I've been 0:05:28.279 --> 0:05:32.919 being very serious in this podcast lately, and so I 0:05:32.920 --> 0:05:35.920 got to throw in some crazy shit every now and that. 0:05:36.040 --> 0:05:37.719 But I feel like I've been like I feel like 0:05:38.480 --> 0:05:42.520 I've been so sincere that uh, or maybe that's not true, 0:05:42.600 --> 0:05:46.000 that's just my weird perception of myself or whatever. That Like, 0:05:46.080 --> 0:05:50.040 if I go, I think God will look upon you favorably. 0:05:50.040 --> 0:05:51.800 At the case of Saint Peter, people will hear that, 0:05:51.839 --> 0:05:54.240 and they'll go, what the fuck is he like religious 0:05:54.320 --> 0:05:56.200 or something? But no, I was, I don't know, maybe 0:05:56.240 --> 0:05:58.240 I maybe I am. Fuck you don't you don't know, 0:05:58.440 --> 0:06:03.960 you don't know? That's maybe. No, I'm not a lot 0:06:04.000 --> 0:06:08.479 of people like to say that they are spiritual. I 0:06:08.480 --> 0:06:12.560 don't know what that means to be spiritual. I don't 0:06:12.560 --> 0:06:17.440 even know if I'm spiritual, Like, uh, what does it 0:06:17.480 --> 0:06:23.839 mean to be spiritual? I don't think. I don't believe in, uh, determinism. 0:06:23.880 --> 0:06:25.919 I think that's what they call is that is that 0:06:25.960 --> 0:06:31.520 what it's called when uh, like, there's you you believe 0:06:31.560 --> 0:06:35.719 that all of the events of life are predetermined by 0:06:35.760 --> 0:06:38.040 some external force. I don't believe in that at all. 0:06:38.720 --> 0:06:40.640 I don't believe in that at all. I don't believe 0:06:40.640 --> 0:06:46.400 in any kind of like external force that is making 0:06:47.760 --> 0:06:52.920 the universe function in the way that it does. And 0:06:53.120 --> 0:06:56.080 if that were to be a thing, if there were 0:06:56.120 --> 0:07:00.440 to be some magical spiritual force that makes the universe 0:07:00.480 --> 0:07:04.599 the way it does, I have no fucking idea. First 0:07:04.600 --> 0:07:06.600 of all, they would be an asshole. They would I 0:07:06.600 --> 0:07:08.080 don't know if they would be an asshole, but they 0:07:08.120 --> 0:07:11.600 would definitely be Maybe they wouldn't be bad at the job. 0:07:11.720 --> 0:07:13.600 Maybe I'm full, you know, I might be full of shit, 0:07:13.720 --> 0:07:18.360 you know, like the idea of like God's plan, Like 0:07:18.400 --> 0:07:22.920 there's an external force that is making the universe the 0:07:22.960 --> 0:07:26.760 way it is, and that force has a greater plan, 0:07:27.480 --> 0:07:31.960 and that is why it gave this child cancer. Maybe 0:07:32.160 --> 0:07:34.440 the fucking maybe it does, right, because if there is 0:07:35.280 --> 0:07:40.600 some kind of God, if there's a fucking God, and 0:07:40.720 --> 0:07:43.760 the God is like that crazy cool of what, I 0:07:43.920 --> 0:07:47.640 just are so knowledgeable, Maybe they really did give that 0:07:47.760 --> 0:07:50.040 kid cancer for some kind of greater purpose. Maybe that 0:07:50.120 --> 0:07:53.920 kid was I don't know. I don't know. I don't 0:07:53.920 --> 0:07:56.880 think so, you know what I actually do know, I 0:07:56.880 --> 0:07:59.760 don't think so. I think that that. I think that 0:07:59.760 --> 0:08:02.960 that kid just got cancer because we live in a 0:08:03.000 --> 0:08:07.040 world where random horrible things happen, and if you're not 0:08:07.680 --> 0:08:11.960 currently the subject of a random horrible thing, you're thriving 0:08:12.000 --> 0:08:16.560 and you're doing pretty great. Ultimately. That's I guess my 0:08:16.680 --> 0:08:23.320 spiritual belief, which I'm not in. I'll complain about stupid 0:08:23.400 --> 0:08:27.160 things all the time. I'm not particularly in touch with 0:08:27.280 --> 0:08:30.080 that spiritual belief. But if I'm in a spiritual mood, 0:08:30.080 --> 0:08:32.960 if I'm praying at all. That's what I'm thinking about. 0:08:33.000 --> 0:08:37.679 I'm thinking, thank God, a random horrible thing. Thank God. Well, 0:08:37.800 --> 0:08:39.520 that's what I think when I pray, I go thank 0:08:39.559 --> 0:08:45.240 God that of all of the random horrible things that 0:08:45.280 --> 0:08:48.559 are happening right now at thet I guess at least 0:08:48.600 --> 0:08:52.000 they're not happening to me or anyone that I care about. 0:08:52.600 --> 0:08:54.600 But then I get sad because I'm like, Okay, but 0:08:54.760 --> 0:08:57.480 they're happening to other people, and that's fucked up. That's sad, 0:08:57.640 --> 0:09:00.840 that's not cool. A random horrible thing things are happening 0:09:00.840 --> 0:09:03.800 to other people. I don't really know what to do. 0:09:03.840 --> 0:09:07.520 I can't really do anything about it. There will for life, 0:09:08.200 --> 0:09:10.959 and the universe will forever have lots of horrible, fucked 0:09:11.040 --> 0:09:14.920 up things happening all over that will be a constant forever. 0:09:15.120 --> 0:09:16.760 But it's about you know what, you know what I 0:09:17.200 --> 0:09:21.320 think about this a lot. I think it's about how 0:09:21.360 --> 0:09:25.120 you want to see it, because a lot of good 0:09:25.120 --> 0:09:27.160 things are happening in the world, Like like if you 0:09:27.280 --> 0:09:30.040 just take a walk down the street, that's the cool. 0:09:30.040 --> 0:09:34.360 That's the cool thing about about like a big city, 0:09:34.400 --> 0:09:37.720 about like like I'm in New York and I'm walking 0:09:37.760 --> 0:09:42.320 around and it's if you walk around New York and 0:09:42.360 --> 0:09:47.960 you want to look for like poverty and horrible thing 0:09:48.000 --> 0:09:49.240 and you want to just you just want to look 0:09:49.240 --> 0:09:53.000 for like bad shit, you'll totally find it. But if 0:09:53.000 --> 0:09:54.920 you want to look for like, I don't know, like 0:09:55.080 --> 0:09:59.480 two people walking, like talking to each other and laughing, 0:10:00.480 --> 0:10:04.800 and or like kids running around having a good time whatever. Like, 0:10:04.840 --> 0:10:06.520 if you want to look for like good stuff, you'll 0:10:06.559 --> 0:10:08.800 find that too. So I guess that's what it is. 0:10:08.880 --> 0:10:12.680 I guess it's. Yes, there's horrible things happening all the time, 0:10:12.720 --> 0:10:15.040 but there's also there's a whole lot of good things 0:10:15.040 --> 0:10:17.680 happening all the time. There's people eating and walking around 0:10:17.720 --> 0:10:23.280 and talking to each other and smiling, and that stuff 0:10:23.320 --> 0:10:25.520 is out That stuff is out there too, So I 0:10:25.559 --> 0:10:27.440 guess at the end of the day, it's really every 0:10:27.559 --> 0:10:31.440 there's horrible things and great amazing things like the sky. 0:10:31.679 --> 0:10:34.520 The sky is out. That's pretty great. I guess at 0:10:34.559 --> 0:10:36.440 the end of the day, it's it's about what you wanna, 0:10:37.240 --> 0:10:41.280 what you're looking for. I gotta think about it that 0:10:41.320 --> 0:10:41.880 more often. 0:10:44.120 --> 0:10:45.480 All from Keith. 0:10:46.200 --> 0:10:49.520 Hello, Hello, Hi, what is your name? 0:10:50.600 --> 0:10:50.920 Keith? 0:10:52.360 --> 0:10:54.160 Keith? Have we ever spoken before? 0:10:54.280 --> 0:10:54.400 Kee? 0:10:55.600 --> 0:10:58.559 No, we haven't a key as like. 0:10:58.520 --> 0:11:00.320 A key to luck. 0:11:01.360 --> 0:11:03.480 Okay, I thought you said Keith, like like you know 0:11:03.520 --> 0:11:05.280 when you when you when you're grinding up a bunch 0:11:05.320 --> 0:11:07.320 of weed and and at the very end, at the 0:11:07.320 --> 0:11:09.800 bottom they have Keith and you sprinkle it on top 0:11:09.840 --> 0:11:11.920 of a bowl and you get really high and you 0:11:11.960 --> 0:11:14.720 listen to to Chance the Wrappers acid rap and a 0:11:14.800 --> 0:11:16.319 car with your friends. 0:11:17.400 --> 0:11:19.959 Doesn't sound too bad? And that was your crazy nickname. 0:11:21.720 --> 0:11:25.480 Well, what's up? T how can how's? How's how be 0:11:25.640 --> 0:11:27.720 it going? What's up? Tell me everything? 0:11:27.840 --> 0:11:33.880 Tell me, not them, it'd be okay, be okay, Like 0:11:33.920 --> 0:11:41.079 I'm doing all right generally a little I'm becoming a 0:11:41.080 --> 0:11:44.719 little disillusioned with the whole nine five thing. And I 0:11:44.720 --> 0:11:46.840 guess what I wanted to talk about was I was 0:11:47.520 --> 0:11:50.640 pretty much about to start doing only fans. It's like 0:11:50.679 --> 0:11:51.400 a side hustle. 0:11:52.640 --> 0:12:00.520 Okay, what I guess do you tell me? 0:12:00.679 --> 0:12:00.800 Like? 0:12:00.880 --> 0:12:04.920 What aspect of that are you? Did you want to 0:12:04.960 --> 0:12:09.760 talk about? Are you feeling like like tell me more? 0:12:11.960 --> 0:12:16.800 Okay? I think I just kind of wanted to talk 0:12:16.800 --> 0:12:18.719 about it just to like, I don't know, kind of 0:12:18.760 --> 0:12:22.000 stand on it a little more, okay, because I don't 0:12:22.000 --> 0:12:24.320 know there's definitely like a lot of shame obviously around 0:12:24.400 --> 0:12:29.280 like doing sex worker like wanting to which I've kind 0:12:29.320 --> 0:12:34.080 of dabbled for like a while, but really felt very like, 0:12:34.559 --> 0:12:38.520 I don't know, kills very taboo because. 0:12:38.240 --> 0:12:38.559 It is. 0:12:42.559 --> 0:12:45.000 I mean, I guess to me it boils down to 0:12:45.360 --> 0:12:49.240 the question of whether or not you want to do it. 0:12:49.800 --> 0:12:53.480 Oh well, like the answer is yeah. It's just more 0:12:53.559 --> 0:12:57.600 so the risks involved that I think I'm like kind 0:12:57.600 --> 0:13:01.240 of continually hung up on, you know, because like they 0:13:01.280 --> 0:13:06.000 are real lah and by risks, I think one of 0:13:06.040 --> 0:13:09.080 them that I'm like kind of trying to like get 0:13:09.120 --> 0:13:11.880 over is like oh like people might find out, which 0:13:11.880 --> 0:13:16.800 I'm more so becoming like okay, like that's not really 0:13:16.840 --> 0:13:18.800 the end of the world. Like we're mostly afraid of judgment. 0:13:18.880 --> 0:13:21.880 Like I'm like, okay, that's something that's kind of manageable 0:13:21.920 --> 0:13:22.520 to work through. 0:13:23.280 --> 0:13:25.760 Yeah, I mean, I mean, if that's what you know, sorry, 0:13:25.800 --> 0:13:26.680 go ahead to let you finish. 0:13:27.960 --> 0:13:32.520 Oh okay. And then there's like the risks of like 0:13:32.559 --> 0:13:35.719 you're like, I don't know information, like you're safety. I 0:13:35.720 --> 0:13:37.480 think it's probably honestly, how I'm saying, I think it 0:13:37.559 --> 0:13:41.360 is mostly the judgment when I start looking into like 0:13:41.400 --> 0:13:43.800 how to like protect you know, your anonymous this you 0:13:43.800 --> 0:13:47.520 can like just your general safety. I'm like, oh, it's 0:13:47.559 --> 0:13:50.600 like not that like for the most part, it's not 0:13:50.720 --> 0:13:54.840 that crazy like that difficult to do, so but you go. 0:13:56.880 --> 0:13:59.600 Yeah, I mean as far as like like like actual 0:13:59.640 --> 0:14:03.559 genuine like safety risks, it's like whatever, if you put 0:14:03.600 --> 0:14:07.719 yourself out on the internet at all, there's always the 0:14:07.760 --> 0:14:10.800 possibility that somebody will try to swat you or do 0:14:10.920 --> 0:14:13.480 something fucking crazy. But that's all. I guess. That's also 0:14:13.600 --> 0:14:15.839 the risk you take anytime you decide to leave your 0:14:15.840 --> 0:14:19.440 house and fucking do anything. Is that you anytime you 0:14:19.560 --> 0:14:22.600 leave your house or get in a car or put 0:14:22.640 --> 0:14:25.360 a photo of yourself on the internet, you expose yourself 0:14:25.920 --> 0:14:30.080 to the potential will of you expose yourself to the 0:14:30.120 --> 0:14:32.400 will of any and all insane people you might come 0:14:32.440 --> 0:14:34.800 across as you live your life on the earth, I 0:14:34.840 --> 0:14:41.560 suppose is true. Yeah, yeah, as far as like your 0:14:41.800 --> 0:14:47.920 your you're like the judgment of other people, I mean yeah, 0:14:48.200 --> 0:14:51.000 like uh, if if, if, if this is what you're 0:14:51.000 --> 0:14:53.560 gonna do, I guess you would have you would have 0:14:53.600 --> 0:14:57.680 to come to peace with with with that fact that 0:14:57.800 --> 0:15:02.200 people may discover it and they may think things, and 0:15:02.280 --> 0:15:08.280 I think coming to coming to peace with that is 0:15:07.760 --> 0:15:12.200 it seems likely crucial to do that. 0:15:14.240 --> 0:15:15.760 I feel like it's also kind of like a good 0:15:15.840 --> 0:15:19.600 challenge in a way, like like like you know what, 0:15:19.640 --> 0:15:21.400 I'm kind of like, I mean that is to happen, 0:15:21.480 --> 0:15:23.320 like I would just have to really learn how to 0:15:23.320 --> 0:15:29.280 get comfortable, like yeah, like that insecurity, you know, sure? 0:15:31.040 --> 0:15:33.360 I mean yeah, with this kind of thing again, it's 0:15:33.080 --> 0:15:35.840 it's just a question of if you want to fucking 0:15:35.880 --> 0:15:38.520 do it or not. And if you know, it's definitely 0:15:38.560 --> 0:15:44.680 not thought about. I mean, if you if you thought 0:15:44.880 --> 0:15:48.960 about uh yeah, I mean sounds well, it sounds like 0:15:49.000 --> 0:15:51.480 you've thought through all of these aspects of all of 0:15:51.520 --> 0:15:53.720 the things that we would talk about. 0:15:55.360 --> 0:16:04.920 Yeah, that might be true, but I appreciate the chat nonetheless. 0:16:05.920 --> 0:16:08.080 Yeah, what's I mean? What do you do? Is your 0:16:08.080 --> 0:16:12.320 current jobs? 0:16:12.360 --> 0:16:13.640 Like nonprofit work? 0:16:15.200 --> 0:16:23.360 Okay? Yeah, that's cool. I could maybe you could run 0:16:23.360 --> 0:16:26.880 an I guess has anyone ever ran like a nonprofits 0:16:27.560 --> 0:16:28.560 only fans? 0:16:29.640 --> 0:16:30.160 Okay? 0:16:30.480 --> 0:16:32.280 This I was talking of my therapist about this and 0:16:32.320 --> 0:16:35.280 she was like very disclusioned with the nine to five 0:16:35.320 --> 0:16:38.320 As I said, She's like, so why don't you just 0:16:38.360 --> 0:16:40.200 go work for like an organization that like does like 0:16:40.240 --> 0:16:43.080 sex education or like you know, like slut rights like 0:16:43.360 --> 0:16:45.280 like like she's like, there's a million things you could 0:16:45.320 --> 0:16:47.400 do there. And I was like, oh, that's actually a 0:16:47.440 --> 0:16:50.240 really good idea because I start working for jobs because okay, 0:16:50.280 --> 0:16:52.960 you're your job, I'll just go find another one. And 0:16:53.040 --> 0:16:55.600 I'm as I'm looking, I'm like, yo, this is all 0:16:55.640 --> 0:16:58.200 really depressing. Ship like I don't want to do any 0:16:58.240 --> 0:17:02.280 of this either, but that she had a similar ish 0:17:02.560 --> 0:17:03.080 idea to you. 0:17:05.040 --> 0:17:09.120 Uh yeah, oh well you'll wait, you'll make way less money. 0:17:08.800 --> 0:17:12.439 Too, make way less money. 0:17:14.320 --> 0:17:17.080 I was working for a nonprofit. But that doesn't really matter. 0:17:17.160 --> 0:17:18.959 That's I mean, I don't know if that's that's not 0:17:19.000 --> 0:17:22.560 something you mentioned, uh whether or not you care that 0:17:22.640 --> 0:17:24.760 much about? What did your real therapist say? 0:17:27.160 --> 0:17:33.560 My real service? She she was, I said, I was like, okay, 0:17:33.600 --> 0:17:35.520 so I was talking. She was talking about the possible 0:17:35.560 --> 0:17:38.800 career tracks I could take given my like degrees, and 0:17:40.080 --> 0:17:43.240 I was like, yeah, like this, like this all sounds 0:17:43.320 --> 0:17:46.399 quite terrible, Like I'm not excited to like go like 0:17:46.440 --> 0:17:51.040 I couldn't imagine interviewing for a job like for some 0:17:51.119 --> 0:17:53.119 other shit and just being like yeah, and I'm so 0:17:53.160 --> 0:17:55.960 excited to work here, like I can't wait. And she 0:17:56.160 --> 0:17:58.040 was like, okay, so what what is exciting to you? 0:17:58.119 --> 0:17:59.560 What would make you want to get out of bed 0:17:59.560 --> 0:18:01.399 to do this? And I was like, I don't know, 0:18:01.520 --> 0:18:04.040 like I want to do something non normative, you know, 0:18:04.160 --> 0:18:06.240 like I just feel like this is so like what 0:18:06.280 --> 0:18:11.280 I'm doing is so keen, so whatever, and like I 0:18:11.280 --> 0:18:13.440 don't know's I'm like, who am I to be? Like 0:18:13.480 --> 0:18:15.679 I need something really radical like blah blah blah, but 0:18:15.760 --> 0:18:19.040 I don't know. Sex work is very which I'm very 0:18:19.040 --> 0:18:22.320 great obvious obviously I'm choosing to do it if I want, 0:18:23.760 --> 0:18:26.240 but like, I don't know, I feel like I'm not 0:18:26.400 --> 0:18:29.840 expected are enough the post to profit off like my 0:18:29.960 --> 0:18:33.320 desirability or like like I don't know, it feels like 0:18:33.480 --> 0:18:35.639 my own like you know, I was a personal political. 0:18:35.920 --> 0:18:39.600 It feels like my own little political like non normative, like. 0:18:39.920 --> 0:18:42.000 What did what did your what did your therapists say 0:18:42.000 --> 0:18:45.160 about about you wanting to start and only fans? 0:18:46.359 --> 0:18:46.520 Oh? 0:18:46.560 --> 0:18:50.520 She I mean she just kind of was like, then 0:18:50.520 --> 0:18:53.760 you can do it, like I yeah, Like I don't 0:18:53.760 --> 0:18:55.159 know if you want to do so like you're already 0:18:55.200 --> 0:19:00.240 doing it, like I would find it's your business. Like yeah, 0:19:00.240 --> 0:19:03.560 she was pretty much like, sure, but you know, obviously 0:19:03.560 --> 0:19:07.119 you're doing anything her. Then she gave a better advice 0:19:07.160 --> 0:19:10.520 of like make sure you're like, you know, figuring out 0:19:10.520 --> 0:19:12.800 how to best go about this, like finding other people 0:19:12.840 --> 0:19:15.040 who do it like listening, because I'm like, don't. Yeah, sure, 0:19:16.000 --> 0:19:18.479 you know, like obviously like do your research and like, 0:19:18.560 --> 0:19:21.800 well like don't do this completely her own. But yeah, 0:19:21.840 --> 0:19:23.480 she was kind of like, I so that's your thing. 0:19:26.119 --> 0:19:32.080 That's your therapist. Sounds uh, that all sounds reasonable. I 0:19:32.119 --> 0:19:34.399 have no I have no I have nothing quippy to 0:19:34.400 --> 0:19:37.520 say about any of this. This is sounds like it 0:19:37.600 --> 0:19:40.240 sounds like you have thought through this decision. 0:19:42.600 --> 0:19:44.800 Well yeah, I feel like I guess the only thing 0:19:44.920 --> 0:19:46.360 was to do it, so. 0:19:48.720 --> 0:19:50.040 Well, is there anything else you want to say to 0:19:50.080 --> 0:19:51.679 the people of the computer before we go? 0:19:56.600 --> 0:19:59.280 No, No, I got nothing. Thank you for chatting. 0:20:00.600 --> 0:20:05.920 See around the universe see you, I mean, yeah, you 0:20:05.920 --> 0:20:10.840 want to start only fans starting only fans? Do whatever 0:20:10.880 --> 0:20:14.439 you want. I guess I don't. As long as I 0:20:14.480 --> 0:20:21.280 think in life, I guess like like your decisions should 0:20:21.280 --> 0:20:26.720 be made I think based on like what what's I 0:20:26.760 --> 0:20:29.080 think the goal in life is like to be safe 0:20:29.160 --> 0:20:35.199 and happy, and I guess the but with it. But 0:20:35.359 --> 0:20:41.840 achieving those two things is complex, right, That's kind of 0:20:41.840 --> 0:20:45.719 what everyone wants, right, is to be safe and happy. 0:20:47.200 --> 0:20:51.080 But then it's like being happy is like a comprised 0:20:51.080 --> 0:20:56.359 of like eight billion fucking whatever different things, you know, 0:20:56.880 --> 0:20:59.960 and then being safe is I guess, kind of straightforward. 0:21:00.640 --> 0:21:05.920 So I don't know. It seems like this person thought 0:21:06.000 --> 0:21:10.200 through her decision as to what would make her safe 0:21:10.200 --> 0:21:16.240 and happy and arrived at that conclusion, and that that 0:21:16.320 --> 0:21:23.400 appears to be well, that matters. I suppose Hello, Hello, Hi, 0:21:23.480 --> 0:21:24.120 what is your name? 0:21:25.440 --> 0:21:26.320 My name is Asher? 0:21:27.520 --> 0:21:29.560 Asher? What's going on? Asher? How can I get you? 0:21:32.080 --> 0:21:36.480 I'm probably gonna have to flee Texas to New Mexico? 0:21:41.000 --> 0:21:43.600 Do you want to tell us why? 0:21:46.600 --> 0:21:52.320 So? I'm a transgender man. Okay, And the Attorney General 0:21:52.359 --> 0:21:57.520 of Texas put in an order to stop all gender 0:21:59.160 --> 0:22:04.440 changes for or driver's license, even with court orders, And 0:22:05.480 --> 0:22:08.800 if you try to get a change, they will deny 0:22:08.880 --> 0:22:11.200 it and then send your name to an email list, 0:22:13.720 --> 0:22:15.600 which is kind of scary. 0:22:15.800 --> 0:22:18.520 Wait, so if you try to change the gender on 0:22:18.560 --> 0:22:21.200 your license they send you to what kind. 0:22:21.080 --> 0:22:22.720 Of like. 0:22:25.480 --> 0:22:25.560 That. 0:22:26.560 --> 0:22:30.520 It's just it was leaked email saying hey, if someone 0:22:30.560 --> 0:22:33.960 tries to change it, deny it and send their name 0:22:34.000 --> 0:22:35.040 and information here. 0:22:37.600 --> 0:22:40.439 Okay, So I'm confused. So if you so, if you go, 0:22:40.600 --> 0:22:42.080 where do you Where does one go to change the 0:22:42.119 --> 0:22:43.560 gender on their license? The DMV? 0:22:45.160 --> 0:22:50.119 Yeah, like DPS or that's the big Texas version of 0:22:50.480 --> 0:22:51.040 the DMV. 0:22:51.840 --> 0:22:54.240 Okay. So if you go to the DPS, the DMV 0:22:54.359 --> 0:22:56.679 or whatever it is, and you ask them if you 0:22:56.720 --> 0:23:00.280 can change the gender on your license, they sent put 0:23:00.280 --> 0:23:02.080 you on an email list. But we don't even know 0:23:02.119 --> 0:23:03.159 what this email list is. 0:23:04.160 --> 0:23:08.960 Yeah, so okay, but there's something in my gut says 0:23:09.400 --> 0:23:13.919 if a government is trying to collect the data of minorities, 0:23:15.440 --> 0:23:20.160 especially especially like a extremely small population or something up. 0:23:21.640 --> 0:23:23.919 So why does it? Why do you feel like you 0:23:24.000 --> 0:23:25.720 need to flee Texas? 0:23:27.400 --> 0:23:35.480