WEBVTT - Chaos with Brianna Chickenfry 0:00:02.040 --> 0:00:05.240 Hey guys, and welcome back to another week of Casual Chaos. 0:00:05.320 --> 0:00:08.160 We have a very exciting guest, fresh off the plane 0:00:08.160 --> 0:00:10.080 from Coachella, Brianna. 0:00:10.240 --> 0:00:11.760 Welcome to Casual Chaos. 0:00:11.880 --> 0:00:13.840 Thank you and everyone listening. 0:00:13.840 --> 0:00:16.279 I usually don't sound like this, but my voice is 0:00:16.320 --> 0:00:18.160 gone because I was just singing for three days straight. 0:00:18.200 --> 0:00:20.360 And I was also worried that I'm going to be 0:00:20.400 --> 0:00:23.159 like mouth breathing because I have so much dust in 0:00:23.200 --> 0:00:24.200 my nose from Kachel. 0:00:24.320 --> 0:00:25.640 I remember how bad is it? 0:00:25.680 --> 0:00:26.800 I couldn't believe it. 0:00:26.800 --> 0:00:29.160 It was insane, like I had layers of dust on 0:00:29.200 --> 0:00:32.240 your skin. It's disgusting, so bad. 0:00:32.479 --> 0:00:34.080 We made it. We're here on the podcast. 0:00:34.200 --> 0:00:37.040 I'm so happy, thank you for coming, of course a plane, 0:00:37.080 --> 0:00:39.599 and I'm exciting. A lot of people asked if we've 0:00:39.600 --> 0:00:42.640 ever met before, and I was like, funny story, Actually 0:00:43.120 --> 0:00:47.760 Brianna came to Rutgers when she did her like college tour. 0:00:48.000 --> 0:00:48.440 Row back. 0:00:48.760 --> 0:00:51.120 I had purple hair, so I'd go buy hair colors. 0:00:51.120 --> 0:00:52.839 Of how long ago that was? That was probably like 0:00:52.920 --> 0:00:53.680 four years ago. 0:00:54.000 --> 0:00:57.400 I was I was a I think I was a 0:00:57.440 --> 0:00:58.480 sophomore junior. 0:00:58.840 --> 0:01:02.320 Yeah, so yeah, yeah, that was the first time we 0:01:02.360 --> 0:01:03.720 went to your sorority, right. 0:01:03.760 --> 0:01:07.520 Yes, because everyone at Data wanted to see Brianna, so 0:01:07.560 --> 0:01:10.800 she came. Everyone was freaking out, and then we went 0:01:10.920 --> 0:01:12.880 to Reds and it sucked. 0:01:13.040 --> 0:01:15.240 It's yeah, it sucks, But your sorority. 0:01:15.560 --> 0:01:18.400 I had never, like, I wasn't in a sorority in 0:01:18.480 --> 0:01:21.880 high school, in high school, in college, I did like sports, 0:01:21.880 --> 0:01:24.000 in sports and stuff, but your sorority. You were having 0:01:24.000 --> 0:01:26.520 a party. So it felt like we were walking into 0:01:26.959 --> 0:01:29.280 a sorority out of the movies. It was a little scary, 0:01:29.520 --> 0:01:33.160 like everyone was clapping and doing like gangs like it was. 0:01:33.440 --> 0:01:35.080 I was like, I have to go to the bathroom 0:01:35.400 --> 0:01:38.199 and recollect myself. But it was awesome. All the girls 0:01:38.200 --> 0:01:40.440 were amazing. I had just never been thrown into a 0:01:40.480 --> 0:01:41.640 crazy sorority party like that. 0:01:41.800 --> 0:01:44.760 But no, it was nuts and we were doing our chant. 0:01:44.800 --> 0:01:48.040 It was a whole shang. Yeah, it's it's very cult like. Yeah, 0:01:48.360 --> 0:01:51.520 but it was so funny. Because I remember you got 0:01:51.560 --> 0:01:54.280 so much shit for saying that Rutgers was boring, and 0:01:54.360 --> 0:01:58.680 I felt so bad. But on the real like, Rutgers 0:01:58.720 --> 0:02:01.000 is not that fun. And I will say that being 0:02:01.160 --> 0:02:05.080 an alumni, and I know people are diehard rockers, but I. 0:02:06.800 --> 0:02:08.040 Wasn't. The people were fun. 0:02:08.160 --> 0:02:11.280 Yeah, people were great, but it's the campus the Yeah, 0:02:11.320 --> 0:02:13.000 that was like where I went to college. 0:02:13.040 --> 0:02:13.760 It's stunk. 0:02:13.800 --> 0:02:16.240 The people were great, boring, not fun. Would go to 0:02:16.240 --> 0:02:17.280 Ohio State every weekend. 0:02:17.800 --> 0:02:18.360 I agree. 0:02:18.440 --> 0:02:21.640 Yeah, And that's the problem when you implement a campus 0:02:21.680 --> 0:02:22.919 into a town like that. 0:02:22.840 --> 0:02:24.120 And that's where people lived. 0:02:24.160 --> 0:02:27.160 That's why people were pissed when Ruckers was built, because 0:02:27.160 --> 0:02:29.280 you're building a campus on top of a town in 0:02:29.320 --> 0:02:35.400 New Jersey. She's not realistic. And that bar closed down, 0:02:35.639 --> 0:02:38.880 did it? So it just shows it was not Yeah, 0:02:38.919 --> 0:02:39.760 it was not that great. 0:02:39.840 --> 0:02:42.720 I remember we ubered home, like from my party, we 0:02:42.800 --> 0:02:44.960 ubered back into the city and went out to a nightclub. 0:02:45.680 --> 0:02:49.119 We got to go back to Manhattan right now. That's 0:02:49.160 --> 0:02:49.760 so funny. 0:02:50.440 --> 0:02:52.440 I know we haven't caught up in a while, but 0:02:53.240 --> 0:02:55.840 a lot has happened. I feel in your life over 0:02:55.919 --> 0:02:57.040 the past couple months. 0:02:57.040 --> 0:02:59.600 I feel like I've lived seventeen lives since i've seen 0:02:59.639 --> 0:03:01.120 you last Yeah, the. 0:03:01.160 --> 0:03:02.280 Breakup with Zach Bryan. 0:03:02.400 --> 0:03:04.440 I know you've talked so much about it and we 0:03:04.480 --> 0:03:06.040 don't need to go into it because you were so 0:03:06.160 --> 0:03:09.680 open about it. And kudos to you because you've shared 0:03:09.880 --> 0:03:14.399 more than you had to. But I feel like you're 0:03:14.520 --> 0:03:18.440 such a free spirited person that you would hate for 0:03:18.560 --> 0:03:22.040 anybody to judge your character or try to guard you. 0:03:22.639 --> 0:03:26.359 What made you realize this is not normal? 0:03:27.240 --> 0:03:31.920 I think throughout the relationship, I just lost myself a 0:03:31.919 --> 0:03:35.840 little bit. And while I was with this person, I 0:03:36.000 --> 0:03:39.040 lost that free spirit that I had. Or I would 0:03:39.080 --> 0:03:41.560 walk into a room and I wouldn't be as loud 0:03:41.640 --> 0:03:43.560 or outgoing as I used to be, and I was 0:03:43.680 --> 0:03:47.120 catching myself worried about what I was saying or how 0:03:47.160 --> 0:03:51.160 people would perceive me. And I was never liked that before. 0:03:51.240 --> 0:03:54.440 But I was so conditioned because of this person to 0:03:54.520 --> 0:03:57.160 walk on eggshells or uh that I was going to 0:03:57.280 --> 0:03:59.760 upset them, or if I said this, then I'm going 0:03:59.800 --> 0:04:01.320 to be in trouble, or it's going to be a 0:04:01.360 --> 0:04:02.920 bad night, it's going to be a bad week. And 0:04:02.960 --> 0:04:05.960 then that started like leaking into my regular life, not 0:04:06.120 --> 0:04:08.960 just my relationship. So I would go on podcasts, I 0:04:08.960 --> 0:04:10.680 would hold my tongue, I wouldn't say things that I 0:04:10.720 --> 0:04:13.400 would normally say. I would be with my family and 0:04:13.440 --> 0:04:17.440 I would even catch myself kind of saying things in 0:04:17.480 --> 0:04:20.839 a particular manner, or I would speak in a different style. 0:04:20.880 --> 0:04:23.120 I was like, who the even am I becoming? I 0:04:23.120 --> 0:04:26.920 couldn't recognize myself anymore. So I think once that started happening, 0:04:27.000 --> 0:04:30.000 and once my friends started saying stuff like, pre are 0:04:30.040 --> 0:04:32.560 you okay? You just seem so out of it, you 0:04:32.560 --> 0:04:35.560 don't seem like yourself anymore, I think it took other people, 0:04:35.680 --> 0:04:38.360 even people online. All my comments were like, I don't 0:04:38.360 --> 0:04:39.839 even know who you are anymore, Like you don't even 0:04:39.839 --> 0:04:42.599 recognize you? Who are You're not the same person. But 0:04:42.640 --> 0:04:46.400 I didn't even realize I was turning into something. 0:04:46.080 --> 0:04:46.719 That I wasn't. 0:04:47.000 --> 0:04:49.000 And I think that's what kind of when the light 0:04:49.000 --> 0:04:52.320 bulb went off and someone really can have so much 0:04:52.400 --> 0:04:55.440 control or power over you without you even realizing it. 0:04:55.920 --> 0:04:58.560 When you got out, did you feel like you had 0:04:58.680 --> 0:05:00.640 a weight was lifted off of your show? And as 0:05:00.680 --> 0:05:03.560 crazy as it is to say, got out, it wasn't 0:05:03.560 --> 0:05:04.560 easy for you to leave. 0:05:04.880 --> 0:05:08.200 Yeah, And I think this is relatable for a lot 0:05:08.240 --> 0:05:11.880 of people once the relationship ends, and especially when you're 0:05:11.880 --> 0:05:16.360 in a mentally abusive relationship. When it ends, you're not 0:05:16.520 --> 0:05:18.880 just like, oh my gosh, I'm happy, this is great, 0:05:18.920 --> 0:05:19.320 it's over. 0:05:19.440 --> 0:05:20.240 You're still so. 0:05:21.320 --> 0:05:23.240 Attached you feel like you need him. 0:05:23.320 --> 0:05:25.799 Yeah, you're attached. It's like a toxic cycle. Your brain 0:05:25.880 --> 0:05:29.200 is rewired. So it took me a while to finally, 0:05:29.360 --> 0:05:32.440 I don't know, come to light and feel okay again 0:05:32.480 --> 0:05:35.280 and feel like, oh my gosh, my world didn't just end. 0:05:35.560 --> 0:05:38.280 And in that moment, it felt like my world had 0:05:38.360 --> 0:05:41.240 just ended, especially it being so public and also going 0:05:41.279 --> 0:05:43.520 through a best friend breakup at the same time, in 0:05:43.560 --> 0:05:46.440 the whole world judging you everything that you say or do. 0:05:46.600 --> 0:05:48.440 I was going through so much and. 0:05:48.400 --> 0:05:50.760 Then I have so many people giving their two cents, 0:05:50.760 --> 0:05:53.279 which I get, it's my job and I signed it 0:05:53.279 --> 0:05:56.240 a life that we have, Yeah, exactly, but it just 0:05:56.279 --> 0:05:57.560 definitely didn't make it easier. 0:05:57.560 --> 0:05:59.680 It made it all a lot more confusing. 0:06:01.080 --> 0:06:03.159 But I slowly got back to myself and I just 0:06:03.200 --> 0:06:05.720 surrounded myself with my family and my best friends, and 0:06:06.400 --> 0:06:08.680 it's possible to be okay again. And I think a 0:06:08.720 --> 0:06:11.640 lot of people, especially based off of my messages and 0:06:11.720 --> 0:06:14.040 girls that come up to me, they think it's never 0:06:14.080 --> 0:06:14.839 going to be okay again. 0:06:14.880 --> 0:06:16.880 It is. It's just going to take time and work. 0:06:16.920 --> 0:06:18.279 You have to like work on yourself. 0:06:18.480 --> 0:06:23.000 Yeah, Grace was there the night that when you came 0:06:23.120 --> 0:06:28.800 to roppers and did she just did that friendship end 0:06:28.839 --> 0:06:31.960 because she didn't want to see you hurt anymore? No, no, 0:06:32.240 --> 0:06:35.120 it was It was not related to the Zach Bryant. 0:06:34.800 --> 0:06:35.560 To break up at all. 0:06:35.640 --> 0:06:37.640 No, no, no, no, it just there were so much 0:06:37.680 --> 0:06:39.719 other stuff going on, and I'd like tried to say 0:06:39.760 --> 0:06:43.919 that online without saying what actually went down. But I 0:06:43.960 --> 0:06:47.240 mean whatever, because you guys had a podcast together, they've 0:06:47.279 --> 0:06:48.680 worked together, We worked. 0:06:48.440 --> 0:06:50.240 So did you kind of feel like it was too 0:06:50.279 --> 0:06:53.240 close for comfort? It came to a point of, Okay, 0:06:53.320 --> 0:06:55.200 we're mixing, because you know how they never say to 0:06:55.279 --> 0:06:56.159 mix family. 0:06:55.920 --> 0:06:58.800 And business when I's kind of the same thing. When 0:06:58.800 --> 0:07:02.520 I started bars, I'll never forget. Her name was Jen Simons. 0:07:02.520 --> 0:07:04.640 She used to work a parstool. She's like our sales 0:07:04.640 --> 0:07:06.760 rep or whatever. I was super close with her. She 0:07:06.839 --> 0:07:08.800 took me into a room and she was like, are 0:07:08.880 --> 0:07:11.080 you sure you want to work with your best friend? 0:07:11.280 --> 0:07:13.200 And I was like, yeah, she's not my best friend, 0:07:13.200 --> 0:07:13.840 she's like my sister. 0:07:13.960 --> 0:07:16.360 It sounds all great and the best thing. 0:07:16.280 --> 0:07:18.880 After it did work forever, Like it works for a while, 0:07:18.960 --> 0:07:22.400 but then like people's egos get big and they're it's 0:07:22.520 --> 0:07:24.840 just it's a recipe for disaster. And I talk to 0:07:24.880 --> 0:07:27.120 a lot of people that work with their friends in 0:07:27.160 --> 0:07:29.040 the industry and they say the same thing. 0:07:29.080 --> 0:07:31.560 It's just kind of like a recipe for disaster. 0:07:31.920 --> 0:07:34.280 Which thanks because you want to do everything with the 0:07:34.280 --> 0:07:35.040 people you love. 0:07:35.160 --> 0:07:37.400 But yeah, I came to a point where it was 0:07:37.400 --> 0:07:38.480 like this is not working. 0:07:38.520 --> 0:07:40.760 There's just so much going on behind the scenes where 0:07:40.800 --> 0:07:44.000 it was like it's not worth it's not worth it, 0:07:44.400 --> 0:07:45.200 not happy anymore. 0:07:45.240 --> 0:07:48.920 Yeah, No, you're right, because like they, like I just said, 0:07:48.960 --> 0:07:52.280 you know, combining friends and family, work with family, anything 0:07:52.360 --> 0:07:56.200 like that, it's bound to happen where jealousy picks up. 0:07:56.480 --> 0:07:59.320 Someone's jealous of the other person if this person is 0:07:59.360 --> 0:08:02.800 striving high higher than the other, especially because you guys 0:08:02.800 --> 0:08:05.560 were on the podcast together. Yeah, so you guys are 0:08:06.600 --> 0:08:08.720 and you shouldn't even be competing for the same thing, 0:08:08.840 --> 0:08:11.720 but you guys, it probably felt like you were. If 0:08:11.720 --> 0:08:14.640 more people were gravitating towards you or not grace or 0:08:14.720 --> 0:08:18.640 vice versa. It just creates unnecessary tension for no reason. 0:08:18.760 --> 0:08:21.040 But it's bound to happen because you just hear the 0:08:21.040 --> 0:08:24.920 public put in their opinion and I think. 0:08:24.800 --> 0:08:28.280 We just also wanted two different things. I wanted to podcast, 0:08:28.320 --> 0:08:30.680 you wanted to be a comedian. It was just it 0:08:30.720 --> 0:08:33.120 was just like two forces coming together hitting each other. 0:08:33.120 --> 0:08:35.400 It was just not working anymore. And you you work 0:08:35.440 --> 0:08:38.680 with your family. I couldn't even imagine that I would 0:08:38.720 --> 0:08:41.120 going crazy if I works with my family. 0:08:41.200 --> 0:08:41.960 How do you deal with that? 0:08:42.600 --> 0:08:47.240 I mean, I my mom joined in The Real Housewives 0:08:47.280 --> 0:08:49.720 when I was eight years old, so it's been everything 0:08:49.800 --> 0:08:55.319 that I've ever known. And I grew up thinking that 0:08:55.400 --> 0:08:58.280 this was normal and it was every little girl's dream, 0:08:58.400 --> 0:09:00.920 especially if you were in that girly state, to be 0:09:01.040 --> 0:09:04.240 famous and you know anything. But I was also in 0:09:04.240 --> 0:09:06.439 that industry when I was younger. My mom always took 0:09:06.520 --> 0:09:09.280 me on auditions to the city, so I was constantly 0:09:09.320 --> 0:09:12.800 in that room, realm of things, and I thought it 0:09:12.840 --> 0:09:18.720 was always normal, And it honestly became very toxic once 0:09:18.800 --> 0:09:21.880 my mom started fighting with her brother, and there was 0:09:22.000 --> 0:09:24.720 just a lot of turmoil on the show. Hence why 0:09:25.280 --> 0:09:29.560 Jersey's on pause right now. So it just like it 0:09:29.600 --> 0:09:32.240 doesn't work, you know, kind of the same thing. You know, 0:09:32.480 --> 0:09:35.200 my mom and her brother were fighting for ten years. 0:09:35.679 --> 0:09:38.520 Oh my god, Like you're watching this, it's almost like 0:09:38.559 --> 0:09:40.960 You're watching the same commercial happen over and over again, 0:09:41.320 --> 0:09:44.880 but in different versions, and it's like, when is it 0:09:44.920 --> 0:09:48.040 going to stop? No one wants to see this anymore. 0:09:48.520 --> 0:09:51.840 We don't want to do this anymore. This is so toxic. 0:09:51.960 --> 0:09:57.720 We're getting absolutely nowhere. And then, you know, I dealt 0:09:57.720 --> 0:10:01.160 with things because I was growing up and became an 0:10:01.200 --> 0:10:04.720 adult on Housewives, and yes, it's an adult show, but 0:10:04.960 --> 0:10:08.320 you involve your families in it because the families are 0:10:08.360 --> 0:10:11.480 still a part of the Real Housewives. It's showing family 0:10:11.600 --> 0:10:15.280 and friends in New Jersey. So I got a lot 0:10:15.320 --> 0:10:20.120 of backlash for kind of inserting myself into adult drama. 0:10:20.320 --> 0:10:23.000 But this adult drama was between my mom and my uncle, 0:10:23.640 --> 0:10:24.480 so it was. 0:10:25.559 --> 0:10:26.960 Family, my family. 0:10:27.280 --> 0:10:31.120 So people are at your Thanksgiving dinner watching it exactly. 0:10:31.320 --> 0:10:35.240 I have learned that the Bravo fans are They're really mean, 0:10:36.480 --> 0:10:40.559 you know, And I was like, actually, I don't know 0:10:40.559 --> 0:10:42.559 if I want to be friends with you anymore because 0:10:42.640 --> 0:10:45.640 this is crazy. I was like spotted with him once 0:10:45.720 --> 0:10:48.840 and then they like circulated all this crazy stuff about us, 0:10:48.880 --> 0:10:51.200 and then he said that we made out, and I'm like, 0:10:51.200 --> 0:10:52.760 why would you say. 0:10:52.559 --> 0:10:55.080 That, Well, yeah, we that was literally I was going 0:10:55.160 --> 0:10:56.120 to ask you about that? 0:10:56.280 --> 0:10:56.600 Crazy? 0:10:56.600 --> 0:10:58.400 Why would he report to the tabloids? 0:10:58.480 --> 0:11:00.800 Yeah, why would you do that? Why would you do that? 0:11:00.880 --> 0:11:02.439 I was so mad at him. 0:11:02.559 --> 0:11:05.240 He's like, I'm so not pr trained, I don't know 0:11:05.280 --> 0:11:09.280 what I'm doing, but it shows West. But yeah, I 0:11:09.360 --> 0:11:11.400 learned through that that the Bravo fans can be a 0:11:11.440 --> 0:11:12.120 little harsh. 0:11:12.160 --> 0:11:15.040 They're crazy, yeah, but I think that they're loyal. 0:11:15.200 --> 0:11:19.160 They're loyal, but they have they have a lot of 0:11:19.640 --> 0:11:22.360 their team a Sierra, So that's why I think they 0:11:22.440 --> 0:11:25.880 just hated any girl that was associated with Wes. I've 0:11:25.920 --> 0:11:28.480 never watched Summerhouse, so I had no idea of this lore, 0:11:28.559 --> 0:11:29.280 of this tea. 0:11:29.400 --> 0:11:31.160 I would have never been spotted with. 0:11:31.160 --> 0:11:34.520 This man if I knew that had this whole like 0:11:34.920 --> 0:11:37.840 with yeah, this whole relationship. I had no idea, No, 0:11:38.000 --> 0:11:39.440 but yeah, that was a whole thing. 0:11:39.600 --> 0:11:42.920 I mean, honestly, Summerhouse is so big right now, and 0:11:42.960 --> 0:11:45.640 I know many of their cast members are just popping off, 0:11:45.720 --> 0:11:47.640 like Page and Hannah with Giggley Squad. 0:11:47.760 --> 0:11:48.679 I love Page and Hannah. 0:11:48.679 --> 0:11:50.840 They're great, killing it. They just come out with their 0:11:50.840 --> 0:11:53.680 own book too. I had no idea, and I just 0:11:53.679 --> 0:11:57.160 saw that recently. I was like so smart, who is 0:11:57.240 --> 0:11:58.760 your PR marketing team? 0:11:58.840 --> 0:12:01.520 They actually wrote their book themselves. So I had a 0:12:01.559 --> 0:12:03.120 meeting I'm coming out with the book, and I was 0:12:03.480 --> 0:12:05.480 I'm working with like the same publishing team hopefully. 0:12:05.559 --> 0:12:06.679 I've been having meetings. 0:12:06.920 --> 0:12:09.800 And I asked them because it's so confusing how these 0:12:09.800 --> 0:12:11.920 people have time to write their own books. And I 0:12:12.000 --> 0:12:14.400 went in being, I need to write my own thing. 0:12:14.400 --> 0:12:16.560 I don't want to have a ghostwriter. It really needs 0:12:16.600 --> 0:12:18.559 to be my voice. And they sent me a bunch 0:12:18.600 --> 0:12:21.360 of copies from people that have actually written theirs and 0:12:21.520 --> 0:12:23.520 fun fact Page and Hannah are one of them, but 0:12:23.520 --> 0:12:26.040 there's so many where they put out their books. I 0:12:26.120 --> 0:12:29.120 work so hard on this, you didn't even write one thing. 0:12:29.240 --> 0:12:32.000 It's a ghost writer, which is fine. A lot of 0:12:32.000 --> 0:12:34.160 people do that, but don't claim that you wrote the 0:12:34.200 --> 0:12:36.160 whole thing and sat up for hours all night writing 0:12:36.160 --> 0:12:37.079 ago when you did it. 0:12:37.400 --> 0:12:38.720 What is your book going to be about? 0:12:38.880 --> 0:12:40.280 My book is just going to kind of be about 0:12:40.280 --> 0:12:43.240 my life, but it's also far Yeah not so, it's 0:12:43.240 --> 0:12:45.320 going to be mixed with fiction as well, but I'm 0:12:45.320 --> 0:12:47.120 going to use stories from my life and then kind 0:12:47.120 --> 0:12:48.200 of amp them up a little bit. 0:12:48.480 --> 0:12:50.240 I love that. Yeah, I feel like. 0:12:50.960 --> 0:12:56.920 Your progression throughout life, especially watching you build your whole brand, 0:12:57.440 --> 0:13:00.360 You've gone through a lot, and you've just also been 0:13:00.559 --> 0:13:04.640 around so much too. And I feel like it's also 0:13:04.840 --> 0:13:08.600 interesting things that everyone wants to know. How are the 0:13:08.679 --> 0:13:12.079 influencer events? How are people in real life? Are they 0:13:12.120 --> 0:13:15.800 really as hyped up as they are? Like Coachella? Is 0:13:15.840 --> 0:13:19.280 it really everything that it is made to be? Is 0:13:19.320 --> 0:13:21.760 the Ferish feel really that cool? And it really is? 0:13:21.800 --> 0:13:22.640 Coachella is sick. 0:13:23.120 --> 0:13:27.280 I lovell was awesome, but I went into it saying 0:13:27.360 --> 0:13:29.720 I'm not I'm not doing an influencer thing. I'm not 0:13:29.800 --> 0:13:31.679 doing this to like take the pictures, to do all that. 0:13:31.760 --> 0:13:34.000 I went in with all my best friends from home saying, 0:13:34.040 --> 0:13:35.760 this is going to be the best beginning of our lives. 0:13:36.000 --> 0:13:36.760 Never have more fun. 0:13:36.960 --> 0:13:39.960 I've never danced that hard in my life. And actually, 0:13:40.000 --> 0:13:43.120 this thing about Coachella, no one was dancing in VIP, 0:13:43.320 --> 0:13:45.280 Not one person was dancing. People were looking at me 0:13:45.360 --> 0:13:46.040 like I was crazy. 0:13:46.200 --> 0:13:48.320 I know, and VIP it's no one dances. 0:13:48.400 --> 0:13:49.040 It's bizarre. 0:13:49.160 --> 0:13:49.440 I know. 0:13:49.720 --> 0:13:51.640 My friends and I couldn't believe it, Like what what 0:13:51.679 --> 0:13:53.720 are you here for? What did you It's a million 0:13:53.760 --> 0:13:55.559 dollars to a year. Why wouldn't you shake your ass? 0:13:55.559 --> 0:13:57.839 It's crazy, it's beyond me. But I have the best. 0:13:58.600 --> 0:14:01.400 But you have to go into Yeah, that's where people 0:14:01.400 --> 0:14:03.760 are dancing, especially when you get more of the house 0:14:03.880 --> 0:14:07.239 music and like hip hop rap, like R and B performers. 0:14:07.480 --> 0:14:09.000 Then everyone starts dancing. 0:14:09.200 --> 0:14:12.040 Yeah, but yeah, I don't know the VIP section then 0:14:12.360 --> 0:14:15.480 I know, and they just kind of go by the 0:14:15.559 --> 0:14:17.120 food and drink area. 0:14:17.520 --> 0:14:19.760 I think I ate one thing all weekend. I was 0:14:19.840 --> 0:14:21.640 just at the bar on the floor. At the bar 0:14:21.720 --> 0:14:23.520 on the floor, it was it was worth the hype. 0:14:23.560 --> 0:14:25.000 I say, everyone needs to go once a night. 0:14:25.120 --> 0:14:27.760 I agree. And then there's stage. I really want to 0:14:27.760 --> 0:14:30.200 go to Stage Coach too. You should, but you're probably 0:14:30.200 --> 0:14:31.520 scarred from country music. 0:14:32.040 --> 0:14:33.880 I love. I don't know, I like it. I mean, 0:14:33.920 --> 0:14:35.680 if my ex wasn't headlining, I was gonna go. 0:14:35.760 --> 0:14:40.560 But oh he's there. Yeah, I don't want to stage coach. Yeah, 0:14:40.880 --> 0:14:43.640 just go every other day when he's not, or you 0:14:43.640 --> 0:14:56.000 can go and throw it to my notes. Oh my god, 0:14:56.000 --> 0:14:59.400 how has your relationship the past relationship with Zach Bryan 0:14:59.480 --> 0:15:03.080 changed your approach into going into another relationship or even 0:15:03.240 --> 0:15:09.520 just dating in general. Yeah, I think I'm totally emotionally unavailable, 0:15:09.520 --> 0:15:11.680 which stinks, and I just want to be honest and 0:15:11.800 --> 0:15:15.280 open about it because every person that when I go out, 0:15:15.320 --> 0:15:15.800 they ask me. 0:15:15.760 --> 0:15:17.280 Like what's dating? Like what are you? Who are you 0:15:17.320 --> 0:15:22.200 talking to? Who's this? What's that? I just genuinely need to. 0:15:22.920 --> 0:15:25.480 Fix all of the scars that are like left on 0:15:25.600 --> 0:15:28.000 me from that relationship. And if I were to jump 0:15:28.040 --> 0:15:32.640 into something else, I feel like I'd be being inconsiderate 0:15:32.680 --> 0:15:34.040 to whoever I'm talking to. 0:15:34.360 --> 0:15:37.320 I just don't find the need. Here's the thing. I 0:15:37.360 --> 0:15:38.600 was talking about this with Lola Jung. 0:15:39.280 --> 0:15:42.680 When you're a successful woman and you kind of have 0:15:42.720 --> 0:15:45.920 your own thing going, you don't really need to be 0:15:45.960 --> 0:15:49.320 in a relationship other from the facts that maybe you 0:15:49.320 --> 0:15:51.080 want to cuddle with someone or you want them to 0:15:51.160 --> 0:15:54.760 be like your soulmate. We make our own money, we 0:15:54.800 --> 0:15:57.120 do our own things, we have our best friends. We 0:15:57.360 --> 0:16:01.440 don't essentially need anyone. So if you're not my everything, 0:16:01.440 --> 0:16:03.480 are going to be that perfect person? So what are 0:16:03.520 --> 0:16:05.720 you bringing to the table? Why do I want to 0:16:05.760 --> 0:16:07.960 be with you type of thing. I'm in that mindset 0:16:08.000 --> 0:16:09.600 where I just want to be with someone that can 0:16:09.600 --> 0:16:12.080 elevate my life, not bring it down down. 0:16:12.240 --> 0:16:15.320 Yeah, no, I couldn't agree more. 0:16:15.560 --> 0:16:18.520 And it's true, and you are such a successful woman 0:16:18.760 --> 0:16:21.360 and you can do everything on your own because I 0:16:21.360 --> 0:16:24.520 also feel you know, it's really it has changed so 0:16:24.680 --> 0:16:28.520 much now when women are so empowering and on their 0:16:28.560 --> 0:16:31.720 own and working on their own. But in the past, 0:16:31.840 --> 0:16:35.000 it was very frowned upon. The men were supposed to 0:16:35.040 --> 0:16:38.800 work provide for the women. You need a man to 0:16:38.840 --> 0:16:42.600 succeed in life or to achieve your goals, and that 0:16:42.760 --> 0:16:47.080 is so false now and especially in the world that 0:16:47.120 --> 0:16:50.040 we are in it we are so blessed. 0:16:50.080 --> 0:16:53.120 We're very successful. We work our asses off. 0:16:53.240 --> 0:16:55.320 As much as people think that our jobs are a 0:16:55.360 --> 0:17:00.280 little cliche, but we really do work our asses off 0:17:00.320 --> 0:17:04.320 every day, and by doing that we can create. 0:17:04.119 --> 0:17:05.560 A beautiful life for ourselves. 0:17:05.600 --> 0:17:08.080 So when there is that person that is going to 0:17:08.160 --> 0:17:10.520 bring you to the next level, then it's worth it. 0:17:10.680 --> 0:17:14.600 Otherwise it honestly just affects your whole image and doesn't 0:17:14.600 --> 0:17:17.040 make you that authentic self that everybody wants to see. 0:17:17.080 --> 0:17:21.320 It knows, so exactly. Yeah, I just personally, I haven't 0:17:21.359 --> 0:17:23.679 been single since I was sixteen. Well, this is my 0:17:23.760 --> 0:17:24.600 first time being sad. 0:17:24.600 --> 0:17:25.679 That's what I was going to say to you. 0:17:25.760 --> 0:17:29.359 I feel like everyone always says about you and I 0:17:29.400 --> 0:17:32.560 feel bad. But yes, people are relationship person like, Oh, 0:17:32.600 --> 0:17:34.560 I am people are relationship people. 0:17:34.800 --> 0:17:35.360 I am too. 0:17:35.880 --> 0:17:39.320 I've pretty much always been in a relationship too. But 0:17:40.640 --> 0:17:44.159 people always say about you, Oh, she's never alone, but 0:17:45.520 --> 0:17:46.400 it's okay. 0:17:46.880 --> 0:17:48.640 But I it's not a bad thing. 0:17:48.800 --> 0:17:50.240 No, I don't think there's anything wrong. 0:17:50.400 --> 0:17:51.480 I know. 0:17:51.560 --> 0:17:54.320 You know, people say, oh, when you're not alone, you're 0:17:54.359 --> 0:17:58.199 not healing and you're leaning on somebody for comfort. But 0:17:59.160 --> 0:18:01.879 there's a difference between a fling and actually getting into 0:18:01.960 --> 0:18:05.439 another relationship. Oh my god, you can go hook up 0:18:05.440 --> 0:18:07.400 with the guy to make yourself feel better. You don't 0:18:07.400 --> 0:18:10.040 need to start a six your relationship with that exactly. 0:18:11.960 --> 0:18:12.240