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Speaker 1: Hello, Hi, Hi?

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Speaker 2: Is this.

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Speaker 1: What's going on?

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Speaker 2: Nothing much it's going on with you? How are you? Geck?

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Speaker 1: I'm doing good. I just ate a lot of.

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Speaker 2: Skittles, you know, I just ate a lot, period, So

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Speaker 2: it's pretty doing pretty well in life.

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Speaker 1: I think, Uh, gigiu, how can I get you today?

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Speaker 1: Is there anything in particularly called in to talk about?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean this is something I haven't really told

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Speaker 2: anyone before because it's kind of like silly. But last year,

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Speaker 2: like right when all the lockdowns were being lifted and stuff,

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Speaker 2: I was coming like I was in the middle of

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Speaker 2: like a really bad depression, and so I decided to

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Speaker 2: go towards like my faith because I was raised Catholic.

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Speaker 2: Decided to go to a Bible study. And I went

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Speaker 2: to like three little sessions of Bible study or whatever,

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Speaker 2: and in those like three hours, they they convinced me

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Speaker 2: that the Bible was real and that the revelation was

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Speaker 2: coming in like twenty years, which, if you don't know,

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Speaker 2: the revelation is like the end of the entire world.

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Speaker 2: So like the last time I went to the Bible study,

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Speaker 2: they told me that, and I was like, just to

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Speaker 2: make sure you guys are telling me that we're all

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Speaker 2: going to die in like forty years. And they were like, yeah,

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Speaker 2: but it's a good thing, don't worry. And I was like, okay, great,

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Speaker 2: I kind of ever come back here again. And since

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Speaker 2: that day, I've had like super, super bad anxiety about

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Speaker 2: just the world ending. Like I can't watch End of

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Speaker 2: the World movies anymore, like twenty like movies like twenty

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Speaker 2: of that. I can't sleep at night without I usually

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Speaker 2: have your podcast on at night in order for me

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Speaker 2: to sleep. Actually, but yeah, it's been wild.

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Speaker 1: Now I really want to know what is it? And

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Speaker 1: you said that you haven't really been all that religious,

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Speaker 1: but you wanted to kind of get back in touch

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Speaker 1: with it. Correct. Yeah, And when you were younger, like whatever,

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Speaker 1: middle school age or just just just growing up in

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Speaker 1: your faith, did they talk about revelations? Do they talk

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Speaker 2: No, it was mostly just like learning my prayers and

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Speaker 2: going to church. But I never really listened in church,

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Speaker 2: you know, I just it was a thing I had to.

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Speaker 3: Go to.

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Speaker 1: What is it that convinced you in these three sessions

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Speaker 2: Well, it was they they used the first couple of

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Speaker 2: Because at first I was a skeptic. I was like,

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Speaker 2: you know, there's no way, but they showed me, like,

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Speaker 2: and I don't want to say I'm going to be

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Speaker 2: using confident words, like like they told me that it

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Speaker 2: you know, I don't know if I should believe it

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Speaker 2: they just showed me like specific lines and stuff in

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Speaker 2: like quite a few things that people at the time

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Speaker 2: So that was like evidence enough for me to be like,

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Speaker 2: and it's written in the Bible, so like it probably

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Speaker 1: And then at the end of it, like can I

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Speaker 2: The one that I remember, they showed me like three

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Speaker 2: anything anymore, but they said it's written in the Bible

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Speaker 1: Okay, all right, So they're showing you evidence that things

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Speaker 1: to revelations, when's the world's supposed to end?

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Speaker 2: They didn't They don't have an exact timeline. They just

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Speaker 1: Now, within your lifetime, world is going to end. Okay.

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Speaker 1: First of all, oh, no, go ahead, I want to

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Speaker 2: Another thing that they mentioned was in the Bible it's

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Speaker 2: be a female god like revealed to the to the world.

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Speaker 2: And there are hints and clues of her in the Bible,

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Speaker 2: but people won't really put it together until the revelation

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Speaker 1: So like, if Beyonce does the Super Bowl halftime show

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Speaker 1: All right, I want to say this. Okay, here's all

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Speaker 1: I have. And this is first of all, this is

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Speaker 1: something I've always thought, which is that if I'm going

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna die. You're gonna die. Everyone listening this is

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Speaker 1: going to die. I feel like the best wouldn't it

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Speaker 1: wouldn't you want to die in an apocalypse? I would

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Speaker 1: rather die Like, here's like the best you could possibly

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Speaker 1: the best move. And it's said in your lifetime. Let's

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Speaker 1: say you get to be like eighty years old and

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Speaker 1: awesome would that be? Wouldn't it?

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Speaker 2: Really?

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Speaker 1: Because almost because one hundred percent of everyone dies alone,

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Speaker 1: But wouldn't it be kind of nice to die like

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Speaker 1: Wouldn't the all the like, all the fuck like everything

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Speaker 1: a moment of unity would be everyone being like, all right,

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Speaker 1: Fuck it, Let's all hold hands and dance and just die,

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Speaker 1: just die because none of this nothing would matter. All

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Speaker 1: I mean, look, let's say there's no apocalypse. You just

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Speaker 1: the reason number one why an apocalypse wouldn't be that bad.

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Speaker 1: It actually be kind of nice. It'd be nice to

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Speaker 1: die with other people. Second thing, what scares you about

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Speaker 1: the apocalypse, like, tell me more about this fear that

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Speaker 2: Well, something that they really pushed was like telling more

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Speaker 2: you know, it's the revelation. So some people are going

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Speaker 2: So Earth is going to become like hell on Earth

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Speaker 2: It was like a panic thing. I don't want to

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Speaker 1: Well, well listen, you're not going to die right Oh

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Speaker 1: you're gonna die, but you're not gonna die right now.

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Speaker 1: Actually I don't Actually I don't know, an I don't

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Speaker 1: Is it like that kind of thing?

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Speaker 2: The girls that were in charge of the study group

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Speaker 1: See, it's I forget. It's somebody. I forget who said this.

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Speaker 1: Maybe it was Marcus Aurelius. And I'm gonna completely butcher this,

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Speaker 1: but I remember here, I remember heard some quote. Can

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Speaker 3: The quote?

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Speaker 1: Maybe maybe it will make you feel better. It's a

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Speaker 1: quote I like. It's sort of a religious thing, Marcus Aurelius.

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Speaker 1: He says, live a good life. If there are gods

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Speaker 1: them anyway. If there are no gods, then you will

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Speaker 1: be gone, but will have lived a noble life that

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Speaker 1: What he's saying is basically, just go out and try

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Speaker 1: try the best you can in life, to to to

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Speaker 1: be good, to do whatever it is you're doing. Because

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Speaker 1: here's the thing. If there is a god and he's

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Speaker 1: why is he cares so much that you're obsessed with him?

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Speaker 3: You know?

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Speaker 2: No, I just look at it as in, like fuck it.

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Speaker 1: That's awesome. I want to get back to your central

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Speaker 1: So you said that, how long ago did you go

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Speaker 1: Okay. Well, I'm honored to sometimes be the thing preventing

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Speaker 1: I I I'll let Marcus Aurelius. I'm such a douchebag.

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Speaker 1: I'll let Marcus Aurelius speak for me. I'm such a douchebag.

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Speaker 1: I'll let Marcus aurelia speak for me. And I'll i'll, i'll, i'll,

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Speaker 2: Thank you guy, that's helped a lot.

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Speaker 1: Anything else you want to of course, I appreciate you.

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Speaker 1: Uh sleeping to my voice that sounded creepy? Is there

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Speaker 2: You were my number one podcast in my Spotify rapp.

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Speaker 1: I saw the Spotify. I've been getting a lot of

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Speaker 2: All Right, Well, thank you, Greg, have a good.

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Speaker 1: Night, you too, Gigi. I said you two really weirdly

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Speaker 5: Hello, Hello, Hi, Hi this Lyle, Yes Francis, Yes, this

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Speaker 4: Well, I mean, if I was just to get right

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Speaker 4: Uh, basically, I have like a crush on my girlfriend's mom,

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Speaker 4: Well, so there will be times where you know, I'll

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Speaker 1: together for ten years, and I assume you have known

436
00:25:23,320 --> 00:25:24,760
Speaker 1: her mom for a very long time.

437
00:25:26,560 --> 00:25:32,480
Speaker 4: I have, but it's just recently that these uh, I

438
00:25:32,480 --> 00:25:36,240
Speaker 4: guess it's kind of always been there, but recently.

439
00:25:37,400 --> 00:25:40,080
Speaker 1: Do I why why do you think this has happened recently?

440
00:25:41,840 --> 00:25:44,000
Speaker 4: Well, because it's just been building up over time. It's

441
00:25:44,000 --> 00:25:45,600
Speaker 4: not like I see them all the time, but then

442
00:25:45,640 --> 00:25:47,879
Speaker 4: recently it's like it kind of has this build up

443
00:25:47,920 --> 00:25:52,600
Speaker 4: of like, oh do or don't? You know, Like like

444
00:25:53,200 --> 00:25:55,920
Speaker 4: I feel like I always thought that there was something there,

445
00:25:55,960 --> 00:25:57,640
Speaker 4: but now I know, I know for sure.

446
00:25:57,480 --> 00:25:58,480
Speaker 3: There is something there.

447
00:25:59,119 --> 00:26:01,920
Speaker 4: So I think, okay, because we both know now, it's

448
00:26:01,960 --> 00:26:04,160
Speaker 4: like it's out in the open, at least for us.

449
00:26:04,520 --> 00:26:07,760
Speaker 3: So it's kind of like, you know, yeah.

450
00:26:07,440 --> 00:26:13,000
Speaker 1: So Francis, here's a couple. Here's a couple of things.

451
00:26:14,720 --> 00:26:19,840
Speaker 1: I think you being attracted to your girlfriend's mom, You

452
00:26:19,960 --> 00:26:26,159
Speaker 1: having feelings for your girlfriend's mom. Feelings and attractions I

453
00:26:26,600 --> 00:26:34,760
Speaker 1: think are things that you don't control, right, so you

454
00:26:34,800 --> 00:26:38,800
Speaker 1: know you don't have to, you know, hate yourself for

455
00:26:38,960 --> 00:26:43,040
Speaker 1: feeling attracted to her or feeling feelings for her. But

456
00:26:46,160 --> 00:26:50,680
Speaker 1: what you decide whether or not you decide to act

457
00:26:51,000 --> 00:26:56,240
Speaker 1: on those feelings. Is one hundred percent in your control?

458
00:26:57,440 --> 00:26:58,440
Speaker 1: Do you agree with you?

459
00:26:58,640 --> 00:27:00,400
Speaker 3: H yeah?

460
00:27:00,440 --> 00:27:02,400
Speaker 4: And I think that's kind of why I have this conflict,

461
00:27:02,480 --> 00:27:05,639
Speaker 4: is like should I shouldn't I because you know, this

462
00:27:05,680 --> 00:27:07,680
Speaker 4: should kind of get excite me. But at the same time,

463
00:27:07,680 --> 00:27:12,320
Speaker 4: I'm like, you know, maybe next time, like when everyone

464
00:27:12,359 --> 00:27:14,440
Speaker 4: falls asleep, I'll just be like, oh, let's get an uber,

465
00:27:14,480 --> 00:27:18,359
Speaker 4: let's go home, like immediately, like don't even like just

466
00:27:18,400 --> 00:27:21,000
Speaker 4: try to limit I think just talking about this with you,

467
00:27:21,359 --> 00:27:23,560
Speaker 4: just thinking about it is kind of like helping me.

468
00:27:25,400 --> 00:27:27,760
Speaker 4: I don't know, see myself, because I don't talk about

469
00:27:27,760 --> 00:27:32,000
Speaker 4: this with anybody, So it's just helping me, like talk

470
00:27:32,040 --> 00:27:35,800
Speaker 4: out loud, and maybe maybe I just don't let don't

471
00:27:35,840 --> 00:27:36,800
Speaker 4: let that happen, you know.

472
00:27:37,480 --> 00:27:39,840
Speaker 1: Okay, what are you thinking about as your when you're

473
00:27:39,920 --> 00:27:41,880
Speaker 1: talking about this out loud? And you say you're thinking

474
00:27:41,880 --> 00:27:44,199
Speaker 1: about it differently? Now, what are you thinking about as

475
00:27:44,240 --> 00:27:48,880
Speaker 1: you're talking about this out loud?

476
00:27:50,119 --> 00:27:52,280
Speaker 4: I guess it's just not worth it to me to

477
00:27:52,359 --> 00:27:54,800
Speaker 4: lose my girl and to break up a whole family.

478
00:27:54,840 --> 00:27:57,119
Speaker 4: And knowing that this is an ongoing problem with me

479
00:27:57,880 --> 00:28:01,480
Speaker 4: as far as you know, get with other people's girlfriends

480
00:28:01,560 --> 00:28:05,440
Speaker 4: or doing things I'm supposed like relationship taboosh, maybe that's

481
00:28:05,520 --> 00:28:09,560
Speaker 4: kind of just the like a weird thing I have

482
00:28:09,640 --> 00:28:12,600
Speaker 4: where I just want to like, I don't know, I'm

483
00:28:12,640 --> 00:28:14,919
Speaker 4: starting to think of it as like maybe that's what

484
00:28:15,240 --> 00:28:18,480
Speaker 4: excites me, like like, I guess it's not like a kink,

485
00:28:18,560 --> 00:28:19,959
Speaker 4: but you don't try to say it.

486
00:28:20,640 --> 00:28:26,760
Speaker 1: And maybe that's sure. You're you're excited by how taboo

487
00:28:26,920 --> 00:28:30,000
Speaker 1: it is and how wrong it is, and you know,

488
00:28:30,280 --> 00:28:34,480
Speaker 1: I mean that makes sense, right, But again, whether or

489
00:28:34,480 --> 00:28:42,760
Speaker 1: not you choose to to succumb to that feeling is

490
00:28:42,920 --> 00:28:46,480
Speaker 1: up to you. That's in your control. Yeah, And so

491
00:28:46,600 --> 00:28:51,120
Speaker 1: I think if I were you, I would first first

492
00:28:51,120 --> 00:28:58,000
Speaker 1: of all, masturbate furiously, just masturbate like mastermate, like ten

493
00:28:58,040 --> 00:29:01,520
Speaker 1: times master been ten times in a row, okay. And

494
00:29:01,560 --> 00:29:07,680
Speaker 1: then after you've done that, after you've done that, take

495
00:29:07,720 --> 00:29:12,120
Speaker 1: a second here and really look, I don't think you're

496
00:29:12,120 --> 00:29:16,760
Speaker 1: a dumb dude, you know, take a really think about

497
00:29:19,160 --> 00:29:24,760
Speaker 1: the pros and cons of following these feelings. And I

498
00:29:24,800 --> 00:29:32,200
Speaker 1: think after doing that, in as logical and non emotional

499
00:29:32,240 --> 00:29:37,480
Speaker 1: of a mindset as you have available to you, you

500
00:29:37,640 --> 00:29:44,120
Speaker 1: will come to whatever is the correct decision for you.

501
00:29:45,080 --> 00:29:45,920
Speaker 1: Does that make sense?

502
00:29:47,600 --> 00:29:49,280
Speaker 3: Yeah?

503
00:29:49,760 --> 00:29:54,520
Speaker 4: Yeah, I maturation parts kind of extreme, But as far

504
00:29:54,560 --> 00:29:57,880
Speaker 4: as trying to take the emotion out of it, I

505
00:29:57,920 --> 00:30:01,840
Speaker 4: can get that, you know, Like, well, the other thing

506
00:30:01,920 --> 00:30:04,760
Speaker 4: is like, oh, worried about It's like, do I really

507
00:30:05,240 --> 00:30:06,920
Speaker 4: like you said, it's not it's not in my control.

508
00:30:07,080 --> 00:30:09,640
Speaker 4: Like I can still love my girlfriend and be attructed

509
00:30:09,640 --> 00:30:12,840
Speaker 4: with my girlfriend and like, you know, not not feel bad.

510
00:30:13,000 --> 00:30:17,840
Speaker 4: You know, like you said, all right, man, yeah, yeah.

511
00:30:17,440 --> 00:30:19,760
Speaker 1: Well look you don't do that, just just just all

512
00:30:19,760 --> 00:30:28,080
Speaker 1: you got to do is like, look, man, just don't

513
00:30:28,640 --> 00:30:32,320
Speaker 1: don't I like, yes, I did mean what I said

514
00:30:32,520 --> 00:30:34,360
Speaker 1: when I was like, you don't have to you know't

515
00:30:34,400 --> 00:30:38,240
Speaker 1: you shouldn't feel ashamed of feelings or attractions. But again,

516
00:30:38,280 --> 00:30:40,160
Speaker 1: it's about it's about what you decided to do with

517
00:30:40,200 --> 00:30:45,000
Speaker 1: them moving forward. Yeah, we both dude, I I don't.

518
00:30:45,200 --> 00:30:48,440
Speaker 1: I try to remain neutral in situations, but we both

519
00:30:48,480 --> 00:30:52,280
Speaker 1: know you can't be fucking your girlfriend's mom. I don't

520
00:30:52,320 --> 00:30:52,920
Speaker 1: have to say that.

521
00:30:53,400 --> 00:30:54,520
Speaker 5: Oh yeah.

522
00:30:55,000 --> 00:30:56,720
Speaker 4: Part of me is like if I was to like

523
00:30:56,840 --> 00:30:58,840
Speaker 4: break up on my girl and try to go after

524
00:31:00,320 --> 00:31:01,959
Speaker 4: but still that would break the family up.

525
00:31:01,960 --> 00:31:06,200
Speaker 1: And can I tell you? Can I tell you yeah,

526
00:31:06,360 --> 00:31:08,720
Speaker 1: I think you would feel really stupid if you did that.

527
00:31:09,760 --> 00:31:12,680
Speaker 1: I think I think if you think if you broke

528
00:31:12,800 --> 00:31:15,880
Speaker 1: up with your girlfriend to try to have five seconds

529
00:31:15,880 --> 00:31:18,080
Speaker 1: with them mount, I think you would. I'm telling you that.

530
00:31:18,080 --> 00:31:21,600
Speaker 1: I just think you would feel really stupid. I think

531
00:31:21,640 --> 00:31:26,040
Speaker 1: you would feel so stupid. I try to what you

532
00:31:26,040 --> 00:31:28,200
Speaker 1: don't want to. You would feel really stupid if you

533
00:31:28,240 --> 00:31:28,520
Speaker 1: did that.

534
00:31:30,080 --> 00:31:30,840
Speaker 3: Yeah, you're right.

535
00:31:33,280 --> 00:31:36,960
Speaker 4: Yeah, so I'm just it's gonna not do it.

536
00:31:37,080 --> 00:31:38,360
Speaker 6: But I don't even want to, like.

537
00:31:38,920 --> 00:31:41,440
Speaker 4: Have the because if I start drinking and I let

538
00:31:41,440 --> 00:31:44,400
Speaker 4: alcohol kind of make the decisions for me quote unquote

539
00:31:45,600 --> 00:31:47,520
Speaker 4: make it compared, then I would.

540
00:31:47,280 --> 00:31:49,840
Speaker 1: Do one of the things that I I when you

541
00:31:49,880 --> 00:31:52,640
Speaker 1: say alcohol make the decisions for you, and like whatever.

542
00:31:52,640 --> 00:31:54,760
Speaker 1: I'm not a heavy drink or anything, but I always

543
00:31:54,760 --> 00:31:57,120
Speaker 1: hate when people are like, oh I did it because

544
00:31:57,120 --> 00:31:58,840
Speaker 1: I was high, because I was drunk. It's like you're

545
00:31:58,840 --> 00:32:01,040
Speaker 1: still you.

546
00:32:00,200 --> 00:32:06,960
Speaker 4: Know, Yeah, yeah that's true. But anyway, but but part

547
00:32:07,040 --> 00:32:09,520
Speaker 4: part of me is like if it kind of gets

548
00:32:09,520 --> 00:32:12,560
Speaker 4: through of that, I don't give fuck like kind of

549
00:32:12,560 --> 00:32:13,520
Speaker 4: makes me do that, you.

550
00:32:13,440 --> 00:32:16,480
Speaker 3: Know, but yeah, I gotta.

551
00:32:18,480 --> 00:32:20,640
Speaker 4: You know, you're right, like this is a don't think

552
00:32:20,640 --> 00:32:21,280
Speaker 4: I'm gonna drink.

553
00:32:21,280 --> 00:32:21,440
Speaker 3: Oh.

554
00:32:21,480 --> 00:32:23,560
Speaker 1: Here's the thing, man, is if is if, and this

555
00:32:23,640 --> 00:32:28,120
Speaker 1: is the thing of relationships in general, is if you're

556
00:32:28,120 --> 00:32:32,800
Speaker 1: making a commitment to someone. If you're making a commitment

557
00:32:32,800 --> 00:32:38,400
Speaker 1: to someone, you're like, what's the point of even doing

558
00:32:38,400 --> 00:32:41,240
Speaker 1: what's the point of even being in that kind of

559
00:32:41,240 --> 00:32:44,560
Speaker 1: a relationship if you're not going to fully dive into

560
00:32:44,600 --> 00:32:48,400
Speaker 1: the commitments? You know, like, what do you do?

561
00:32:50,480 --> 00:32:52,480
Speaker 6: That's what I was thinking, is like, maybe it's deeper

562
00:32:52,520 --> 00:32:57,080
Speaker 6: than just you know this thing I have, Maybe like

563
00:32:57,160 --> 00:32:59,840
Speaker 6: it is like a kind of a like a says

564
00:32:59,840 --> 00:33:02,520
Speaker 6: some think about our relationship that would even consider it,

565
00:33:02,720 --> 00:33:07,640
Speaker 6: you know that trouble by the way.

566
00:33:09,120 --> 00:33:11,240
Speaker 4: Mmm, no, but I was even thinking about saying one.

567
00:33:12,320 --> 00:33:17,200
Speaker 4: Just I told my birl too, like, h.

568
00:33:17,680 --> 00:33:21,720
Speaker 6: Probably gonna see therapist. I want her to go not

569
00:33:21,880 --> 00:33:24,720
Speaker 6: with me, but to one too. But yeah, I gotta

570
00:33:25,480 --> 00:33:26,480
Speaker 6: I gotta figure that out.

571
00:33:27,760 --> 00:33:29,320
Speaker 3: Okay, I think it would be beneficial.

572
00:33:29,880 --> 00:33:33,920
Speaker 1: Francis, go jack off ten times. That part's non negotiably.

573
00:33:34,000 --> 00:33:36,600
Speaker 1: That's actually I actually have to do that by calling

574
00:33:36,640 --> 00:33:39,760
Speaker 1: into the stream. All right, you're actually legally obligated your

575
00:33:39,880 --> 00:33:45,080
Speaker 1: jack off ten times, all right, and then go think

576
00:33:45,080 --> 00:33:48,120
Speaker 1: about what's important to you in life and think about

577
00:33:48,280 --> 00:33:52,160
Speaker 1: how you can act in certain ways that uh serve

578
00:33:52,280 --> 00:33:53,720
Speaker 1: those things that are important to you.

579
00:33:55,960 --> 00:33:59,080
Speaker 6: All right, cool man, thanks for the help.

580
00:33:59,760 --> 00:33:59,880
Speaker 3: Uh.

581
00:34:00,080 --> 00:34:02,080
Speaker 4: I know, I know I can't say this and you

582
00:34:02,120 --> 00:34:04,640
Speaker 4: can do what you will with but I would appreciate

583
00:34:04,680 --> 00:34:07,240
Speaker 4: if you didn't clip it. But if you did, I

584
00:34:07,280 --> 00:34:09,879
Speaker 4: don't think I could blame you, you.

585
00:34:09,840 --> 00:34:15,040
Speaker 6: Know, so I appreciate it, like clip.

586
00:34:17,680 --> 00:34:20,800
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, but I mean, you know this is your stream,

587
00:34:20,880 --> 00:34:22,880
Speaker 4: so do it with that well as you please, but

588
00:34:23,440 --> 00:34:25,160
Speaker 4: you listen to put that out there anyways.

589
00:34:25,239 --> 00:34:25,920
Speaker 3: I appreciate that.

590
00:34:26,040 --> 00:34:28,560
Speaker 1: I won't. I won't clip it and put it on TikTok.

591
00:34:29,520 --> 00:34:32,239
Speaker 4: Oh, dude, you're a real one, bro.

592
00:34:32,880 --> 00:34:34,440
Speaker 3: Thank you of co.

593
00:34:34,480 --> 00:34:35,759
Speaker 1: All right man, anything else you want to say to

594
00:34:35,760 --> 00:34:36,840
Speaker 1: the people the computer before we go?

595
00:34:36,880 --> 00:34:44,840
Speaker 4: Francis, good therapy, masturbate and lile forever.

596
00:34:45,960 --> 00:34:52,080
Speaker 1: I like all those things. Thanks Francis, thank you. I

597
00:34:52,400 --> 00:34:54,200
Speaker 1: am not putting. I won't make a clip and put

598
00:34:54,200 --> 00:34:57,239
Speaker 1: it on TikTok, but this is totally going in the podcast.

599
00:35:01,040 --> 00:35:02,440
Speaker 1: I don't know if I have anything else to say

600
00:35:02,480 --> 00:35:06,560
Speaker 1: about Francis. I really do wonder when an actual there

601
00:35:06,560 --> 00:35:10,320
Speaker 1: are so many calls I get here. Well, I really

602
00:35:10,360 --> 00:35:15,279
Speaker 1: wonder what an actual therapist would say if you're a

603
00:35:15,320 --> 00:35:17,520
Speaker 1: real therapist out there and you have a comment, you

604
00:35:17,520 --> 00:35:22,440
Speaker 1: have you have, you have thoughts about that whole I

605
00:35:22,560 --> 00:35:24,600
Speaker 1: like that as a subject, the whole thing of UH.

606
00:35:25,480 --> 00:35:28,080
Speaker 1: You can't control your attractions and your feelings, but you

607
00:35:28,120 --> 00:35:33,400
Speaker 1: can't control your actions. I wonder, like what actual philosophers

608
00:35:33,400 --> 00:35:39,040
Speaker 1: and therapists have to say about that shit. But I

609
00:35:39,440 --> 00:35:45,000
Speaker 1: hope that Francis makes UH, you know, an informed decision

610
00:35:46,200 --> 00:35:51,719
Speaker 1: about how to maneuver this situation. And the best way

611
00:35:51,760 --> 00:35:55,480
Speaker 1: to make informed decisions is too it's to jack off

612
00:35:55,480 --> 00:35:56,040
Speaker 1: ten times.

613
00:35:57,719 --> 00:35:58,120
Speaker 3: Hello.

614
00:35:58,440 --> 00:36:04,120
Speaker 1: Hello, is this Lewis? Yes, what's going on? Lewis?

615
00:36:04,320 --> 00:36:07,680
Speaker 3: I'm super fucking nervous because this is my first time

616
00:36:07,840 --> 00:36:10,960
Speaker 3: like watching your stream, and I just decided maybe I

617
00:36:10,960 --> 00:36:13,920
Speaker 3: should call in and yeah, I'm now I'm on the phone.

618
00:36:15,160 --> 00:36:17,239
Speaker 1: This is the first time ever watching the stream. Have

619
00:36:17,320 --> 00:36:19,799
Speaker 1: you like listened to anything else or is this your

620
00:36:19,840 --> 00:36:24,120
Speaker 1: first encounter with UH?

621
00:36:24,239 --> 00:36:28,640
Speaker 3: No? I like, I like, I don't know, Like three

622
00:36:28,680 --> 00:36:31,759
Speaker 3: weeks ago, I like discovered your I think it was

623
00:36:31,800 --> 00:36:37,000
Speaker 3: from install YouTube shorts, and then I like discovered your channel,

624
00:36:37,120 --> 00:36:38,680
Speaker 3: and then I discovered your stream and.

625
00:36:38,719 --> 00:36:46,120
Speaker 1: Yeah, so Lewis says, you're calling us from Germany. Yes,

626
00:36:46,360 --> 00:36:48,239
Speaker 1: what is going on over there?

627
00:36:50,960 --> 00:36:53,560
Speaker 3: It's in the middle of the night. It's like, let

628
00:36:53,560 --> 00:36:58,760
Speaker 3: me see it. I think it's four am? Yeah almost?

629
00:36:59,440 --> 00:37:01,799
Speaker 1: Wow? What are you doing up so late?

630
00:37:04,239 --> 00:37:08,280
Speaker 3: I'm extremely sleep deprived and I go to university regularly,

631
00:37:09,160 --> 00:37:13,040
Speaker 3: but today I like being sleep and now I wanted

632
00:37:13,040 --> 00:37:15,000
Speaker 3: to go to bed early. But then I saw like

633
00:37:15,080 --> 00:37:18,920
Speaker 3: you had a stree today and yeah, so I stayed

634
00:37:18,960 --> 00:37:19,759
Speaker 3: up a little bit longer.

635
00:37:20,719 --> 00:37:27,480
Speaker 1: Well, thanks, Slash, I'm sorry for for staying up so

636
00:37:27,560 --> 00:37:28,400
Speaker 1: late to catch this.

637
00:37:29,400 --> 00:37:32,040
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean it's that's would be my full thing.

638
00:37:33,000 --> 00:37:34,560
Speaker 1: What city in Germany.

639
00:37:34,200 --> 00:37:39,320
Speaker 3: Are you in? It's I don't know you you won't

640
00:37:39,320 --> 00:37:42,200
Speaker 3: not it probably because it's like a little city. It's

641
00:37:42,239 --> 00:37:44,120
Speaker 3: called Rostock in the northern of Germany.

642
00:37:44,760 --> 00:37:45,280
Speaker 1: Rostock.

643
00:37:47,680 --> 00:37:48,880
Speaker 3: Yes, okay, exactly.

644
00:37:48,920 --> 00:37:53,720
Speaker 1: I went to Berlin four years ago. I'm going back

645
00:37:54,760 --> 00:37:58,279
Speaker 1: next year. I liked it a lot. I ate a

646
00:37:58,320 --> 00:38:04,719
Speaker 1: lot of kree worst and looked at stuff. Great. It

647
00:38:04,840 --> 00:38:05,560
Speaker 1: was great.

648
00:38:07,800 --> 00:38:09,600
Speaker 3: Because it was just like the best.

649
00:38:09,680 --> 00:38:15,600
Speaker 1: It's really good, Lewis Lewis, what is is there anything

650
00:38:15,600 --> 00:38:17,799
Speaker 1: in particular that you called in to talk about? It's

651
00:38:17,800 --> 00:38:21,080
Speaker 1: if not, it's cool. We can keep talking about Curry worst.

652
00:38:23,520 --> 00:38:25,560
Speaker 3: Yeah, I don't know. I just wanted to like call

653
00:38:25,640 --> 00:38:28,000
Speaker 3: in and I have like a lot of stuff I

654
00:38:28,000 --> 00:38:31,319
Speaker 3: can talk about. I just didn't have something specific, so

655
00:38:31,400 --> 00:38:34,000
Speaker 3: I just said to the film manager, I like to

656
00:38:34,120 --> 00:38:37,360
Speaker 3: have pont ofach maybe, but we can talk about everything

657
00:38:37,360 --> 00:38:37,880
Speaker 3: if you want to.

658
00:38:40,400 --> 00:38:42,560
Speaker 1: What would you in this moment? What would you most

659
00:38:42,600 --> 00:38:43,320
Speaker 1: like to talk about?

660
00:38:45,680 --> 00:38:48,799
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm like, like I said, I'm really deprived right now.

661
00:38:48,840 --> 00:38:52,080
Speaker 3: I can't really properly think, so I'm open for everything.

662
00:38:53,239 --> 00:38:55,640
Speaker 1: Are you do you usually stay up this late.

663
00:39:00,800 --> 00:39:05,080
Speaker 3: Sometimes? Yeah, but like not every day, Like nobody can

664
00:39:05,160 --> 00:39:06,920
Speaker 3: handle that. I think you.

665
00:39:06,920 --> 00:39:09,720
Speaker 1: Said, you're in university. What do you What do you study?

666
00:39:12,960 --> 00:39:16,080
Speaker 3: I like recently moved to I don't know how it's

667
00:39:16,120 --> 00:39:20,120
Speaker 3: called in English. We just said it how it's called

668
00:39:20,120 --> 00:39:21,280
Speaker 3: in English. It's called.

669
00:39:22,960 --> 00:39:31,120
Speaker 1: Like child education, child education. Okay, they have children in

670
00:39:31,160 --> 00:39:35,960
Speaker 1: Germany in the shore need educations. You're studying child education?

671
00:39:36,040 --> 00:39:37,440
Speaker 1: Do you want to be a teacher.

672
00:39:41,640 --> 00:39:44,400
Speaker 3: Like something similar? Maybe like I want to do something

673
00:39:44,440 --> 00:39:48,280
Speaker 3: with children. I would really love to, but not exactly

674
00:39:48,320 --> 00:39:52,120
Speaker 3: a teacher. I actually, like a few days ago, I

675
00:39:52,160 --> 00:39:55,839
Speaker 3: saw a video from you where you where you were

676
00:39:55,880 --> 00:39:59,000
Speaker 3: talking like to a I think it was in Mexico,

677
00:39:59,200 --> 00:40:02,960
Speaker 3: I think, or in some Spanish lands. We were talking

678
00:40:02,960 --> 00:40:05,279
Speaker 3: to a guy and he said he was like like

679
00:40:05,280 --> 00:40:08,960
Speaker 3: a child psychiatrist, and it really really really inspires me

680
00:40:09,040 --> 00:40:11,520
Speaker 3: because I absolutely felt what he said.

681
00:40:12,000 --> 00:40:14,640
Speaker 1: Yeah, yes, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I loved that interview.

682
00:40:14,680 --> 00:40:17,120
Speaker 1: I love that guy. Yeah, totally know what you're talking about. Okay, great,

683
00:40:17,120 --> 00:40:17,799
Speaker 1: I'm glad to hear that.

684
00:40:18,480 --> 00:40:20,840
Speaker 3: Fucking fucking amazing and fucking sympathect.

685
00:40:21,400 --> 00:40:24,120
Speaker 1: Fuck yeah fuck yeah. What is it that is interesting

686
00:40:24,160 --> 00:40:27,839
Speaker 1: to you about teaching children or being a child psychologist?

687
00:40:31,239 --> 00:40:35,759
Speaker 3: We had a lot of personal feelings involved with all

688
00:40:35,800 --> 00:40:40,359
Speaker 3: of that, and just I think I can really like

689
00:40:40,960 --> 00:40:42,560
Speaker 3: represent myself into them.

690
00:40:42,680 --> 00:40:45,960
Speaker 1: It makes any sense, Yes, it does make sense. What

691
00:40:46,040 --> 00:40:47,800
Speaker 1: are these personal feelings?

692
00:40:50,360 --> 00:40:53,920
Speaker 3: Yeah, A lot of like fucking lot of anxiety on

693
00:40:54,000 --> 00:40:59,960
Speaker 3: my personal life and like emotional like trauma stuff back

694
00:41:00,280 --> 00:41:01,239
Speaker 3: in my childhood.

695
00:41:01,080 --> 00:41:05,120
Speaker 1: And h m hmmm. Is and you don't have to

696
00:41:05,120 --> 00:41:06,600
Speaker 1: talk about anything on here that you don't want to

697
00:41:06,600 --> 00:41:07,240
Speaker 1: talk about.

698
00:41:07,000 --> 00:41:12,319
Speaker 3: Of course, it's okay, Just like I talked a tongue

699
00:41:12,320 --> 00:41:12,759
Speaker 3: about it.

700
00:41:12,800 --> 00:41:18,200
Speaker 1: So I'm yeah, is there a particular issue or like

701
00:41:18,960 --> 00:41:21,080
Speaker 1: kind of subject that you want to be able to

702
00:41:23,160 --> 00:41:28,279
Speaker 1: give back about like it sounds as though you've been

703
00:41:28,320 --> 00:41:32,319
Speaker 1: through some rough shit yourself as a child, and now

704
00:41:32,360 --> 00:41:34,759
Speaker 1: that you're an adult, you want to go and help

705
00:41:34,880 --> 00:41:39,600
Speaker 1: children who might have gone through something similar as you,

706
00:41:40,239 --> 00:41:42,360
Speaker 1: which is an admirable thing to do. Is there a

707
00:41:42,400 --> 00:41:46,520
Speaker 1: particular area of thing that you you want to help

708
00:41:46,560 --> 00:41:47,000
Speaker 1: people with.

709
00:41:50,200 --> 00:41:56,480
Speaker 3: I'm a thing mainly like mainly showing them that they

710
00:41:56,600 --> 00:42:00,120
Speaker 3: can always open up emotionally. That is really important for

711
00:42:00,160 --> 00:42:01,440
Speaker 3: me to show that children.

712
00:42:02,440 --> 00:42:08,160
Speaker 1: Mm hmmm hm. When you were a child, did you

713
00:42:08,239 --> 00:42:09,719
Speaker 1: not have anyone that you could open up to?

714
00:42:12,920 --> 00:42:15,799
Speaker 3: And yet it's like it's a little bit complex, but

715
00:42:16,320 --> 00:42:18,920
Speaker 3: I grew up in that mindset that I thought I

716
00:42:18,960 --> 00:42:23,279
Speaker 3: had nobody yet mm hmmm hm m hm.

717
00:42:23,960 --> 00:42:28,239
Speaker 1: How has that affected you, uh sort of in your

718
00:42:28,280 --> 00:42:28,920
Speaker 1: life today.

719
00:42:32,280 --> 00:42:36,440
Speaker 3: Yeah, Like I said, like I'm I'm I'm asking a

720
00:42:36,520 --> 00:42:38,640
Speaker 3: lot like the guy like that was on the phone

721
00:42:38,640 --> 00:42:41,839
Speaker 3: before me, I can really relate to him in many

722
00:42:41,880 --> 00:42:45,280
Speaker 3: ways of you sorry, I just I just spoke German

723
00:42:46,280 --> 00:42:49,040
Speaker 3: and sometimes that happened.

724
00:42:50,400 --> 00:42:52,880
Speaker 1: Okay, we we we can always stand to learn a

725
00:42:52,920 --> 00:42:54,120
Speaker 1: little bit of a new language.

726
00:42:56,920 --> 00:42:59,160
Speaker 3: I can teach you some new German with if you

727
00:42:59,200 --> 00:43:00,920
Speaker 3: want to, well, I.

728
00:43:00,920 --> 00:43:02,560
Speaker 1: Don't want to interrupt you from what you were saying.

729
00:43:04,880 --> 00:43:08,040
Speaker 1: You felt as though you were masking things.

730
00:43:08,680 --> 00:43:11,359
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, Like, like the thing is that if you

731
00:43:11,680 --> 00:43:15,759
Speaker 3: experience some kind of I just say, trauma in your

732
00:43:15,840 --> 00:43:20,000
Speaker 3: in your childhood, some kind of then you grow up

733
00:43:21,239 --> 00:43:24,400
Speaker 3: in that mindset that you experience, and like what happens

734
00:43:24,400 --> 00:43:28,440
Speaker 3: in your childhood is basically what it is through the life.

735
00:43:28,680 --> 00:43:33,320
Speaker 3: You know. So, and I think, when something.

736
00:43:36,040 --> 00:43:39,480
Speaker 1: Go ahead, what do you want to say?

737
00:43:39,800 --> 00:43:43,520
Speaker 3: So? I think, like, when you experience something in early childhood,

738
00:43:43,880 --> 00:43:48,439
Speaker 3: then especially then like you have extremely high risk of

739
00:43:48,480 --> 00:43:52,600
Speaker 3: developing anxiety disorders and like personality disorders later in your

740
00:43:52,600 --> 00:43:53,200
Speaker 3: adult life.

741
00:43:55,280 --> 00:44:04,080
Speaker 1: So now he says, you're twenty one, Yes, do you

742
00:44:04,360 --> 00:44:07,239
Speaker 1: feel as though do you feel a similar way that

743
00:44:07,280 --> 00:44:08,920
Speaker 1: you felt as a child where you feel like you

744
00:44:08,960 --> 00:44:11,000
Speaker 1: don't have people that you can open up to.

745
00:44:14,880 --> 00:44:18,799
Speaker 3: It's got really better because I have loving friends and

746
00:44:18,880 --> 00:44:24,120
Speaker 3: I'm really grateful for that. But recently I just experienced

747
00:44:24,120 --> 00:44:27,160
Speaker 3: some kind of mini flashbacks the first time my entire life.

748
00:44:27,880 --> 00:44:30,200
Speaker 3: And I didn't even know like I had something to

749
00:44:30,400 --> 00:44:33,279
Speaker 3: flash back to, but apparently I did. And yeah, I

750
00:44:33,360 --> 00:44:36,880
Speaker 3: lived a little bit through that, but I like I

751
00:44:36,960 --> 00:44:38,000
Speaker 3: hear that's pretty well.

752
00:44:38,040 --> 00:44:41,239
Speaker 1: I would say, do you want to tell us about

753
00:44:41,280 --> 00:44:41,880
Speaker 1: this flashback?

754
00:44:46,160 --> 00:44:48,239
Speaker 3: Not like I don't have a problem talking about it,

755
00:44:48,280 --> 00:44:50,880
Speaker 3: but I just don't feel like in the mood right

756
00:44:50,960 --> 00:44:54,080
Speaker 3: now to talk about extreme deep stuff. You know.

757
00:44:54,800 --> 00:44:56,960
Speaker 1: Yeah, sure, no problem at all, No problem at all.

758
00:44:58,360 --> 00:45:02,960
Speaker 1: I find it admirable that you want to go back

759
00:45:03,000 --> 00:45:08,600
Speaker 1: and help people with the thing that you were struggling with.

760
00:45:09,280 --> 00:45:11,440
Speaker 1: So I'm glad to hear that that you're doing that.

761
00:45:11,520 --> 00:45:14,680
Speaker 1: I almost feel like it'll help you deal with those

762
00:45:14,719 --> 00:45:15,440
Speaker 1: things as well.

763
00:45:17,880 --> 00:45:21,880
Speaker 3: Yeah, obviously of course. Yeah, And like, sorry for my

764
00:45:22,200 --> 00:45:25,080
Speaker 3: monotone voice all the time, but I'm really nervous safe

765
00:45:25,080 --> 00:45:26,880
Speaker 3: to say, and this always gets monotone.

766
00:45:26,880 --> 00:45:30,600
Speaker 1: Then No, you're doing great, man, don't be nervous at all.

767
00:45:30,640 --> 00:45:35,279
Speaker 1: I'm excited to be talking to you. Okay, So you're

768
00:45:35,280 --> 00:45:39,960
Speaker 1: going to school to do a to do a to

769
00:45:40,040 --> 00:45:44,000
Speaker 1: do a therapy thing. That's good stuff. What else is

770
00:45:44,040 --> 00:45:46,440
Speaker 1: going on with you in your life, Lewis. We've been

771
00:45:46,440 --> 00:45:48,520
Speaker 1: talking about a bunch of depressing things, and I'm sure

772
00:45:48,560 --> 00:45:51,080
Speaker 1: that that's not the extent of your life. You said

773
00:45:51,120 --> 00:45:53,279
Speaker 1: you have great friends. What do you what do you

774
00:45:53,360 --> 00:45:59,719
Speaker 1: do outside of school? Outside of you know, the monotony.

775
00:46:02,840 --> 00:46:05,600
Speaker 3: Yeah, Like I am really really really into art and

776
00:46:06,120 --> 00:46:10,160
Speaker 3: music and stuff like that. So that's why I related

777
00:46:10,239 --> 00:46:13,040
Speaker 3: with the Mexican guy extremely because I think he said

778
00:46:13,080 --> 00:46:15,880
Speaker 3: something similar if I remember correctly, that he was like

779
00:46:15,920 --> 00:46:19,239
Speaker 3: a creative guy, but he works in this like having

780
00:46:19,320 --> 00:46:23,320
Speaker 3: children's psychology psychology job. And I can really rate to

781
00:46:23,440 --> 00:46:26,000
Speaker 3: that because I love making music myself.

782
00:46:26,680 --> 00:46:29,400
Speaker 1: And what do you what do you make music about?

783
00:46:33,640 --> 00:46:37,600
Speaker 3: Like I started with rap and lyrics stuff back in

784
00:46:37,680 --> 00:46:42,200
Speaker 3: my puberty, I would say, and that's kind of transformative

785
00:46:42,320 --> 00:46:46,760
Speaker 3: to like doing beats nowadays, and doing music on piano

786
00:46:46,960 --> 00:46:50,239
Speaker 3: and like just just just everything related to music that

787
00:46:50,280 --> 00:46:51,040
Speaker 3: comes into my mind.

788
00:46:54,160 --> 00:46:56,920
Speaker 1: He said, you wrapped? What kinds of things did you

789
00:46:56,960 --> 00:46:57,520
Speaker 1: wrap about?

790
00:46:57,800 --> 00:47:05,440
Speaker 3: Yes, a little bit, dark stuff, A little bit. I

791
00:47:05,440 --> 00:47:07,879
Speaker 3: don't know, just just what comes to my mind. It's

792
00:47:07,880 --> 00:47:11,600
Speaker 3: not specific exactly. Mm hmm.

793
00:47:14,320 --> 00:47:16,600
Speaker 1: Is wrap something that you still want to pursue? Is

794
00:47:16,760 --> 00:47:19,560
Speaker 1: do you intend to do music while you're studying?

795
00:47:22,239 --> 00:47:24,279
Speaker 3: Yeah, I like I would like to do it, Like

796
00:47:24,320 --> 00:47:28,279
Speaker 3: to pursue this every time I have the chance to, Like,

797
00:47:28,960 --> 00:47:30,799
Speaker 3: as long as my passion is there, I would love

798
00:47:30,840 --> 00:47:33,560
Speaker 3: to hear m hm hm.

799
00:47:34,600 --> 00:47:36,319
Speaker 1: Tell me more about these friends.

800
00:47:36,480 --> 00:47:38,520
Speaker 3: Even now even even now during.

801
00:47:38,360 --> 00:47:46,880
Speaker 1: O if is me no, go ahead, Like I just want.

802
00:47:46,800 --> 00:47:49,239
Speaker 3: To say, like, even now during our cools, I have

803
00:47:49,440 --> 00:47:51,320
Speaker 3: my loop station. I don't know if you know what

804
00:47:51,440 --> 00:47:56,480
Speaker 3: that is. Yeah, I know the musical device. Okay, Like

805
00:47:56,520 --> 00:47:58,440
Speaker 3: I have it right now here, and it's staying on

806
00:47:58,480 --> 00:48:01,640
Speaker 3: repeat all the time. So during our call, this phase

807
00:48:01,640 --> 00:48:03,120
Speaker 3: don't repeat like in the background.

808
00:48:03,160 --> 00:48:07,000
Speaker 1: And yeah, wait, you're you're looping our call right now.

809
00:48:09,120 --> 00:48:11,160
Speaker 3: No, no, no, I'm just looping like my own stuff

810
00:48:11,280 --> 00:48:13,359
Speaker 3: before the call. But I forgot to turn it off

811
00:48:13,360 --> 00:48:15,160
Speaker 3: and now I'm on the call and like this thing

812
00:48:15,280 --> 00:48:16,840
Speaker 3: is repeating itself in the background.

813
00:48:17,719 --> 00:48:20,040
Speaker 1: Ah. So you were up late at night making music.

814
00:48:20,120 --> 00:48:24,399
Speaker 1: You you were one of those night owl musicians.

815
00:48:25,000 --> 00:48:25,239
Speaker 3: Yeah.

816
00:48:26,880 --> 00:48:30,360
Speaker 1: Is the even middle of the night an inspiring time

817
00:48:30,480 --> 00:48:34,640
Speaker 1: for you? Do you get a lot of ideas?

818
00:48:35,400 --> 00:48:39,080
Speaker 3: Absolutely? Yeah, m hmm.

819
00:48:42,480 --> 00:48:46,239
Speaker 1: It's the last like epiphany type idea that came to

820
00:48:46,280 --> 00:48:47,200
Speaker 1: you in the middle of the night.

821
00:48:52,280 --> 00:48:55,719
Speaker 3: It's a good question, actually, Like do you mean like

822
00:48:55,840 --> 00:48:57,920
Speaker 3: music related or just general.

823
00:48:59,440 --> 00:48:59,960
Speaker 1: Just general?

824
00:49:04,600 --> 00:49:06,879
Speaker 3: I don't know, Like I love to think, I love

825
00:49:06,960 --> 00:49:11,760
Speaker 3: to do philosophy and everything, but I can't like exactly

826
00:49:11,800 --> 00:49:16,440
Speaker 3: remember what the lasts breakthrough thought was in midnight.

827
00:49:17,760 --> 00:49:21,400
Speaker 1: Do you have a personal philosophy?

828
00:49:23,600 --> 00:49:28,200
Speaker 3: Yes, like it's it's really tied in with psychology in

829
00:49:28,239 --> 00:49:32,600
Speaker 3: my case, Like I just I think everybody should be

830
00:49:34,120 --> 00:49:36,640
Speaker 3: I don't know as a it's it's it's it's hard

831
00:49:36,640 --> 00:49:38,440
Speaker 3: to explain. Like I said, I can't really concentrate it

832
00:49:38,560 --> 00:49:40,120
Speaker 3: now because it's in the middle of the night in

833
00:49:40,200 --> 00:49:45,920
Speaker 3: type A M. Yeah, it's it's complex to explain. I

834
00:49:45,960 --> 00:49:49,560
Speaker 3: think I just everybody should grow up healthy and should

835
00:49:49,640 --> 00:49:56,080
Speaker 3: grow up in emotional and thought freedom.

836
00:49:56,239 --> 00:49:59,400
Speaker 1: Well, I like that. I like that you're doing something

837
00:49:59,400 --> 00:50:03,000
Speaker 1: that contribute to your personal philosophy. A lot of people

838
00:50:03,800 --> 00:50:07,719
Speaker 1: have personal philosophies and they just have them. It's just

839
00:50:07,760 --> 00:50:10,360
Speaker 1: this is my personal philosophy, this is what I believe.

840
00:50:10,480 --> 00:50:13,200
Speaker 1: But you're really going and being like, this is my

841
00:50:13,280 --> 00:50:17,760
Speaker 1: personal philosophy, and I'm about to go dedicate my life

842
00:50:17,960 --> 00:50:21,279
Speaker 1: my vocation to its fulfillment.

843
00:50:22,120 --> 00:50:22,319
Speaker 3: You know.

844
00:50:22,400 --> 00:50:23,879
Speaker 1: I think that's all. I think that says a lot.

845
00:50:26,680 --> 00:50:30,600
Speaker 3: Just actually, like, now that I think about it, I

846
00:50:30,600 --> 00:50:33,600
Speaker 3: can say that my philosophy is like follow your passion.

847
00:50:33,840 --> 00:50:37,040
Speaker 3: I think that's extremely important. And I think that everybody,

848
00:50:37,160 --> 00:50:41,680
Speaker 3: like really everybody, no exception, has this kind of passion

849
00:50:41,760 --> 00:50:44,600
Speaker 3: inside of them, and I think most of them maybe

850
00:50:44,640 --> 00:50:47,360
Speaker 3: don't even know it or haven't discovered it. But I

851
00:50:47,360 --> 00:50:50,640
Speaker 3: absolutely think everybody has really great passion in fire insight

852
00:50:50,719 --> 00:50:53,399
Speaker 3: and can undis it in some sort of way.

853
00:50:55,640 --> 00:50:57,799
Speaker 1: I wanted to ask you this, Lewis, tell me about

854
00:50:57,800 --> 00:51:01,000
Speaker 1: your friends, because you mentioned earlier that you felt for

855
00:51:01,040 --> 00:51:03,040
Speaker 1: a long time you had nobody that you could open

856
00:51:03,120 --> 00:51:06,120
Speaker 1: up to about things, and now you say you're lucky

857
00:51:06,160 --> 00:51:08,440
Speaker 1: enough to have really good friends. Tell me about these friends.

858
00:51:10,760 --> 00:51:14,480
Speaker 3: Yes, yes, so, like I have my best friends. He's

859
00:51:14,520 --> 00:51:19,040
Speaker 3: called Noel, and we are like extremely close. We are

860
00:51:19,080 --> 00:51:25,279
Speaker 3: like brothers, and like everybody, like people who don't even

861
00:51:25,320 --> 00:51:27,600
Speaker 3: know us say, like, yo, you look like brothers or

862
00:51:27,640 --> 00:51:31,160
Speaker 3: you act like brothers, and so it's really intimate and

863
00:51:31,280 --> 00:51:32,120
Speaker 3: close friendship here.

864
00:51:34,480 --> 00:51:36,680
Speaker 1: That's great. Is have you known him for a long time?

865
00:51:40,719 --> 00:51:44,919
Speaker 3: Yeah? I know him since I think seven years now.

866
00:51:47,320 --> 00:51:48,880
Speaker 1: And is it just you guys or is there a

867
00:51:48,920 --> 00:51:49,399
Speaker 1: whole group?

868
00:51:52,360 --> 00:51:55,080
Speaker 3: No, there is like a whole group obviously. But we

869
00:51:55,200 --> 00:51:58,279
Speaker 3: kind of split a little bit in the last month

870
00:51:58,480 --> 00:52:01,719
Speaker 3: or the last year because like everybody is growing up

871
00:52:01,760 --> 00:52:07,160
Speaker 3: and getting adult and kind of separating, and you know, yeah,

872
00:52:08,360 --> 00:52:11,160
Speaker 3: but we stayed together. We too.

873
00:52:12,120 --> 00:52:14,640
Speaker 1: Has that been a tough thing, everybody separating and going

874
00:52:14,640 --> 00:52:16,200
Speaker 1: in their different ways.

875
00:52:18,160 --> 00:52:21,640
Speaker 3: Yes, like for me, especially because I can't really handle

876
00:52:22,200 --> 00:52:28,040
Speaker 3: like abandonments really well and loneliness and I like I

877
00:52:28,640 --> 00:52:32,600
Speaker 3: love to have things that stay and not change, like

878
00:52:33,239 --> 00:52:36,160
Speaker 3: especially for me, it's a real challenge for new things.

879
00:52:37,280 --> 00:52:40,040
Speaker 3: And yeah, that's why, Like I think that my old

880
00:52:40,080 --> 00:52:44,799
Speaker 3: friendship last and persis really strong and good, but I'm

881
00:52:44,800 --> 00:52:49,000
Speaker 3: not really good in spontaneously like new making friends right now?

882
00:52:51,600 --> 00:52:55,720
Speaker 1: Do you? Did you say that you are in school

883
00:52:55,760 --> 00:52:57,320
Speaker 1: right now or your plan to go to school?

884
00:52:57,440 --> 00:53:01,000
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm in university right now, like not right now

885
00:53:01,120 --> 00:53:02,080
Speaker 3: at the moment, but you know.

886
00:53:02,719 --> 00:53:05,680
Speaker 1: Do you are you able to make friends in your

887
00:53:05,719 --> 00:53:08,960
Speaker 1: classes or in after school activities or anything like that?

888
00:53:11,520 --> 00:53:17,440
Speaker 3: Yeah, a little bit, like kind of a little bit challenging,

889
00:53:17,480 --> 00:53:21,200
Speaker 3: but it is okay, it's better that I thought of him.

890
00:53:21,239 --> 00:53:23,839
Speaker 1: Good. Good. I'm glad to hear that it's going better

891
00:53:23,880 --> 00:53:27,080
Speaker 1: than you thought it would, Lois, Thanks for staying up

892
00:53:27,120 --> 00:53:30,440
Speaker 1: so late to Thanks for staying up so late to

893
00:53:30,480 --> 00:53:34,279
Speaker 1: talk to us. Man, I'm trying to think, is there

894
00:53:34,280 --> 00:53:39,200
Speaker 1: any other aspect of your life that you you might

895
00:53:39,280 --> 00:53:42,840
Speaker 1: want to share with us, or any philosophies, or I

896
00:53:42,840 --> 00:53:44,560
Speaker 1: guess anything else you want to say before.

897
00:53:44,320 --> 00:53:51,680
Speaker 3: You go, not in particular, but maybe like I can

898
00:53:51,880 --> 00:53:54,239
Speaker 3: teach you, like one or two German words you didn't

899
00:53:54,560 --> 00:53:55,080
Speaker 3: already know.

900
00:53:55,760 --> 00:53:57,600
Speaker 1: I would love to hear one or two German words

901
00:53:57,600 --> 00:53:58,400
Speaker 1: that I didn't already know.

902
00:54:01,080 --> 00:54:03,719
Speaker 3: All right, then tell me what you want to have translated.

903
00:54:04,719 --> 00:54:07,919
Speaker 1: All right, I'm gonna go to the chat for this one. Chat.

904
00:54:07,960 --> 00:54:09,959
Speaker 1: What what words should we have?

905
00:54:11,040 --> 00:54:11,239
Speaker 2: What?

906
00:54:11,239 --> 00:54:15,000
Speaker 1: What words do we want translated into German?

907
00:54:19,520 --> 00:54:19,680
Speaker 3: Oh?

908
00:54:19,800 --> 00:54:23,360
Speaker 1: Yes, can we get gecko translated into German? What is gecko?

909
00:54:26,320 --> 00:54:28,320
Speaker 3: It's basically gecko. It's the same.

910
00:54:29,080 --> 00:54:34,200
Speaker 1: Oh, okay, all right, that one didn't count. They want

911
00:54:34,200 --> 00:54:35,839
Speaker 1: to know what that one. They want to know what

912
00:54:35,880 --> 00:54:37,280
Speaker 1: butt crack is in German?

913
00:54:40,360 --> 00:54:44,279
Speaker 3: Oh okay, okay, so it is called.

914
00:54:46,600 --> 00:54:48,080
Speaker 1: Uh so say that again?

915
00:54:51,239 --> 00:54:58,120
Speaker 3: It's like yes, ah.

916
00:54:59,640 --> 00:55:07,560
Speaker 1: Yeah, like Aschwitzer. My Aschwitzer hurts. I'm scratching my aschwitzer

917
00:55:08,080 --> 00:55:15,600
Speaker 1: and that only makes it itchierh They want to know

918
00:55:16,080 --> 00:55:21,200
Speaker 1: what how do you say? Oh? This is how do

919
00:55:21,280 --> 00:55:24,160
Speaker 1: you say passion? In German?

920
00:55:27,719 --> 00:55:30,280
Speaker 3: It's called like we have a word for it. It's

921
00:55:30,560 --> 00:55:33,360
Speaker 3: we can also use like passion because it's called puffun.

922
00:55:34,120 --> 00:55:36,800
Speaker 3: But there is like another word and it's called lighten

923
00:55:36,840 --> 00:55:39,080
Speaker 3: shoft and that's basically the same.

924
00:55:40,160 --> 00:55:49,399
Speaker 1: Say that word again, lighten shaft, lighten shaft. Someone wants

925
00:55:49,400 --> 00:55:52,759
Speaker 1: to know what Someone wants to know what penis is,

926
00:55:52,840 --> 00:55:57,120
Speaker 1: and lighten shaft sounds like what penis is in German.

927
00:56:00,160 --> 00:56:03,480
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, you're right, actually a little bit like penis

928
00:56:03,520 --> 00:56:07,000
Speaker 3: is basically penis. It's almost the same.

929
00:56:08,239 --> 00:56:13,280
Speaker 1: Penis and German penis. I am finding out by talking

930
00:56:13,320 --> 00:56:15,440
Speaker 1: to you that I actually know a lot more German

931
00:56:15,480 --> 00:56:16,040
Speaker 1: than I thought.

932
00:56:18,520 --> 00:56:20,760
Speaker 3: Yeah, like English and German are really similar.

933
00:56:23,080 --> 00:56:25,040
Speaker 1: Well, thank you for teaching us those words, Lewis. Is

934
00:56:25,040 --> 00:56:26,640
Speaker 1: there anything else you want to say to the people

935
00:56:26,640 --> 00:56:31,360
Speaker 1: of the computer before we go, not.

936
00:56:31,560 --> 00:56:33,600
Speaker 3: In particular, No, nothing I can think of.

937
00:56:33,960 --> 00:56:36,839
Speaker 1: Just thank you, Yeah, thank you very much man, And

938
00:56:37,360 --> 00:56:38,680
Speaker 1: fucking get some sleep.

939
00:56:38,440 --> 00:56:40,000
Speaker 3: Brother, Yeah, thank you.

940
00:56:40,239 --> 00:56:43,839
Speaker 1: I will take care of those. I liked that, dude

941
00:56:43,840 --> 00:56:47,239
Speaker 1: a lot. Man, It's very cool. It's the coolest thing

942
00:56:47,480 --> 00:56:52,520
Speaker 1: ever to me that people are finding this stream, this

943
00:56:52,600 --> 00:57:01,120
Speaker 1: podcast in other countries and that maybe this you know.

944
00:57:01,160 --> 00:57:04,400
Speaker 1: What my persistent thought was during that call and during

945
00:57:04,400 --> 00:57:06,759
Speaker 1: a lot of any time we get international calls, is

946
00:57:06,840 --> 00:57:11,920
Speaker 1: like it's very interesting to me that there are just

947
00:57:12,000 --> 00:57:14,400
Speaker 1: these I don't know if this sounds cliche, but I'm

948
00:57:14,440 --> 00:57:16,520
Speaker 1: gonna say it's very interesting to me that there are

949
00:57:16,520 --> 00:57:24,760
Speaker 1: like these common, common, common human issues that persist all

950
00:57:24,800 --> 00:57:30,440
Speaker 1: over the world. Right, Like you know, Lewis was talking

951
00:57:30,480 --> 00:57:34,640
Speaker 1: about having trouble making friends and putting himself out there,

952
00:57:34,760 --> 00:57:37,840
Speaker 1: and you know, having this great group of friends that

953
00:57:38,000 --> 00:57:40,160
Speaker 1: you know eventually grow apart, and I don't know, it

954
00:57:40,280 --> 00:57:43,720
Speaker 1: just it's interesting to see that be a universal experience,

955
00:57:46,320 --> 00:57:48,560
Speaker 1: you know. It's it's good to see that staying up

956
00:57:48,640 --> 00:57:51,560
Speaker 1: until five am is a universal experience because that kind

957
00:57:51,560 --> 00:57:53,720
Speaker 1: of makes me feel better about the fact that I

958
00:57:53,760 --> 00:57:56,200
Speaker 1: did that last night and we'll be doing it again tomorrow.

959
00:57:59,640 --> 00:58:02,080
Speaker 1: Thank you for calling and sharing, Lewis. I'll be I'm

960
00:58:02,080 --> 00:58:04,160
Speaker 1: coming to Berlin. I'm doing a live show in Berlin

961
00:58:04,200 --> 00:58:10,200
Speaker 1: at some point, so I'll report their live There be

962
00:58:10,440 --> 00:58:13,920
Speaker 1: Ken goes on the line taking your phone calls every night.

963
00:58:14,280 --> 00:58:16,160
Speaker 1: There Rep Can goes doing his hide.

964
00:58:16,280 --> 00:58:18,440
Speaker 2: You're just teaching you cloud in the midd of your life,

965
00:58:18,800 --> 00:58:21,000
Speaker 2: but he's not really an expert.