WEBVTT - A WHOLE THING 0:00:00.640 --> 0:00:04.480 Literally goes on the line making your phone calls every 0:00:04.600 --> 0:00:07.720 night never we can goes to a tide. He's teaching 0:00:07.760 --> 0:00:12.320 you your life's real expert. 0:00:16.520 --> 0:00:19.080 Cow from Phillip. 0:00:20.280 --> 0:00:20.680 Philip. 0:00:23.079 --> 0:00:23.279 Hello. 0:00:24.720 --> 0:00:25.720 What are you doing, Philip? 0:00:27.880 --> 0:00:30.960 Uh, just on my computer and watching wrestling? 0:00:31.000 --> 0:00:32.080 What's going on, mister Gecko? 0:00:32.880 --> 0:00:36.040 Ah man, not a whole lot. What are some of 0:00:36.120 --> 0:00:41.120 your favorite things to do on the computer? Uh? 0:00:41.600 --> 0:00:43.479 Just uh, pretty much. 0:00:43.680 --> 0:00:47.520 I'm a casual PC game are about mostly played PS 0:00:47.640 --> 0:00:49.720 five mm hmm okay. 0:00:49.760 --> 0:00:53.559 Okay, I just thought there aren't those hard to get. 0:00:55.960 --> 0:00:57.880 Uh they were. 0:01:00.320 --> 0:01:05.199 But you know a guy, uh yeah, my game Stop 0:01:05.319 --> 0:01:08.720 manager had a I guess you could say had slash 0:01:08.800 --> 0:01:10.800 has a crush. I'm assumed to be ex wife. 0:01:13.440 --> 0:01:15.640 You said the game Stop guy had a crush on 0:01:15.720 --> 0:01:16.440 your ex wife. 0:01:17.720 --> 0:01:17.920 Yep. 0:01:19.959 --> 0:01:21.480 And how did you know this? 0:01:23.319 --> 0:01:25.360 Well, let's just say it was like. 0:01:27.120 --> 0:01:28.360 It was like an assumption. 0:01:29.520 --> 0:01:31.600 But like every time we'd come in, you know. 0:01:31.720 --> 0:01:36.959 We're all greeted by him by you know, first name basis. 0:01:41.120 --> 0:01:41.200 Uh. 0:01:41.480 --> 0:01:44.960 So you're saying that because you're assuming this guy is 0:01:45.000 --> 0:01:46.720 a crush on your ex wife because he calls her 0:01:46.760 --> 0:01:47.960 by her first name. 0:01:49.600 --> 0:01:53.080 All that, among you know other things you know he's 0:01:53.320 --> 0:01:56.080 done so much for us, especially you know pro to 0:01:56.120 --> 0:01:56.880 the PS five. 0:02:01.520 --> 0:02:03.240 Tell me why she tell me you said you said 0:02:03.440 --> 0:02:05.480 soon to be ex wife? Why why is she used 0:02:05.480 --> 0:02:06.360 soon to be ex wife? 0:02:07.480 --> 0:02:12.959 Ah? She has done nothing but a cheater in the 0:02:13.080 --> 0:02:14.000 past three years. 0:02:17.080 --> 0:02:20.239 I can tell that you're a little insecure because you 0:02:21.280 --> 0:02:24.040 are definitely threatened by this game stuff guy. But also 0:02:24.520 --> 0:02:26.480 she sounds like she's given you some reason to be 0:02:26.639 --> 0:02:27.320 to be that way. 0:02:27.880 --> 0:02:34.320 Uh, well, I have been. 0:02:34.240 --> 0:02:40.280 Living separately mm hmmm, because she wants to, you know, 0:02:40.480 --> 0:02:44.880 she wanted to go try being with an act to 0:02:46.600 --> 0:02:50.200 say enough is actually married and has a third kid. 0:02:50.200 --> 0:02:50.720 On the way. 0:02:51.960 --> 0:02:54.320 Well, look, my friend, let me be the first person 0:02:54.400 --> 0:03:00.000 to congratulate you, uh on on escaping that relationship, because 0:03:00.120 --> 0:03:01.560 that sounds fucking awful. 0:03:05.320 --> 0:03:09.000 Honestly, it completely is fucking awful. And you know it's 0:03:09.480 --> 0:03:11.960 glad to be on you know, your show chit chat 0:03:12.080 --> 0:03:14.200 with you know, good looking get go. 0:03:15.840 --> 0:03:21.440 Hey man, you don't think what so what's what's what's 0:03:21.520 --> 0:03:24.080 next for you? What's what are your plans? What are 0:03:24.120 --> 0:03:26.480 you what are you going to do now that you're 0:03:26.560 --> 0:03:28.040 no longer in this relationship? 0:03:29.919 --> 0:03:34.240 Well, I first, honestly still have to get the divorce 0:03:34.240 --> 0:03:37.320 whole situated, but you can say no longer in it. 0:03:39.040 --> 0:03:42.800 As of you know, the new year, I've been intermittent fasting, 0:03:42.960 --> 0:03:46.920 you know, working on myself. You know, I've been going 0:03:46.960 --> 0:03:50.200 to therapy, and you know, I'm just pretty much you know, 0:03:50.360 --> 0:03:53.720 this is gonna be all about me, not worrying about 0:03:53.880 --> 0:03:56.200 you know, my past life as. 0:03:56.160 --> 0:03:56.720 I call it. 0:03:59.480 --> 0:04:01.960 Dude, I love that you know there's something you know, 0:04:02.040 --> 0:04:04.680 I was thinking about today, and I think people should know. 0:04:04.960 --> 0:04:07.320 I know that like, the world sucks ass right now, 0:04:08.240 --> 0:04:13.120 but I think that eventually, eventually we'll get back to 0:04:13.240 --> 0:04:16.440 some sort of normalcy. And I think that we might 0:04:16.560 --> 0:04:18.960 even if if if you, if you want to be 0:04:19.000 --> 0:04:21.080 optimistic about it, which I like to be, I think 0:04:21.120 --> 0:04:23.200 that you know, we'll get to a place that's even 0:04:23.279 --> 0:04:25.760 better than where we were before. But right now we're 0:04:25.800 --> 0:04:28.240 all in a bit of downtime, and I think it's 0:04:28.320 --> 0:04:32.480 good that you're taking this downtime to invest in yourself 0:04:32.640 --> 0:04:35.599 so that when we do get to that better place, 0:04:35.720 --> 0:04:38.680 after the you know, shittiness of the of of our 0:04:38.720 --> 0:04:40.680 current time is over, you're going to be in a 0:04:40.960 --> 0:04:44.719 beautiful position to reap the opportunities of that new time. 0:04:46.800 --> 0:04:48.320 I definitely agree. 0:04:50.120 --> 0:04:52.280 Real quick before you go, I mean, what do you 0:04:52.360 --> 0:04:52.880 do for fun? 0:04:54.960 --> 0:04:59.760 Uh? I mean, I'm gonna be honest with you. You know, 0:05:01.680 --> 0:05:05.039 it's just been stressful, you know, trying to get out 0:05:05.120 --> 0:05:07.320 of that. So you know, I've just been trying to 0:05:07.360 --> 0:05:12.880 take up gaming more, you know. I I've made a 0:05:12.960 --> 0:05:15.080 couple of friends off rider who I you know, have 0:05:15.320 --> 0:05:19.880 daily conversations with. Sometimes I play games that thumb myself, 0:05:20.160 --> 0:05:26.440 you know, just not I guess fun would be to 0:05:26.760 --> 0:05:30.719 not isolate, you know, just put myself out. 0:05:30.560 --> 0:05:39.840 There and you know, rock and roll man. Thank you, 0:05:40.000 --> 0:05:44.240 thank you, thank you. Say your name is Spencer, Philip Philip, 0:05:44.320 --> 0:05:46.640 Oh my god, I suck all right, Well listen Philip, 0:05:46.680 --> 0:05:48.800 thank you, thank you for calling in man. Best of 0:05:48.920 --> 0:05:49.280 luck to you. 0:05:50.600 --> 0:05:51.160 Yeah, thank you. 0:05:55.680 --> 0:05:59.920 Someone someone, someone send this man. Someone send this man 0:06:00.080 --> 0:06:02.760 of game Stop gift card as a congratulation for getting 0:06:02.800 --> 0:06:06.880 divorced from a terrible person. No, I don't know his wife. 0:06:06.880 --> 0:06:08.560 I don't want to call anyone a terrible person who 0:06:08.600 --> 0:06:13.760 I don't know, but a person who committed I would, 0:06:13.839 --> 0:06:25.720 I would say terrible relationship transgressions. Vinny Vinnie, Vinnie, n Yes, sir, 0:06:26.560 --> 0:06:27.480 what are you doing. 0:06:28.760 --> 0:06:32.120 Watching you relax and kind of wine from work? 0:06:33.080 --> 0:06:34.680 What do you do for fun? Vinnie? 0:06:35.920 --> 0:06:37.119 Play with cars in film? 0:06:37.200 --> 0:06:37.360 Man? 0:06:38.360 --> 0:06:42.440 You play with cars? Yeah, dude, like real cars? 0:06:43.440 --> 0:06:46.760 Yeahs and s? 0:06:48.360 --> 0:06:52.600 Are you rich? No? How much money do you make 0:06:52.640 --> 0:06:52.920 a year? 0:06:54.480 --> 0:06:55.000 Not enough? 0:06:56.760 --> 0:06:57.320 Like the number. 0:06:58.440 --> 0:06:59.920 I'm not going to give you an exact number. 0:07:00.480 --> 0:07:00.760 Why not? 0:07:02.560 --> 0:07:06.320 Because money it's an appropriate talk we. 0:07:06.440 --> 0:07:10.040 Talk about like common stuff on here, dude, we can. 0:07:10.000 --> 0:07:13.559 Talk about com or squirrels or like crazy clown. 0:07:13.880 --> 0:07:16.320 Why won't you tell me to dollar how much money 0:07:16.360 --> 0:07:19.000 you make a year? You don't have to, you know, 0:07:19.200 --> 0:07:22.280 this conversation doesn't This conversation doesn't have to end with 0:07:22.520 --> 0:07:25.160 you telling me. But I wanted to end with me 0:07:25.400 --> 0:07:27.320 understanding why you won't tell me. 0:07:28.600 --> 0:07:30.520 I just told you you did. 0:07:31.640 --> 0:07:32.000 Yeah I did. 0:07:32.520 --> 0:07:34.000 I'll tell me again about twenty four K. 0:07:34.880 --> 0:07:35.480 Twenty four k. 0:07:35.760 --> 0:07:37.960 It's not bad, Ye, it's all right. 0:07:39.240 --> 0:07:41.240 How do you but you say you fu you play 0:07:41.240 --> 0:07:41.960 around with cars? 0:07:42.960 --> 0:07:43.200 Yeah? 0:07:44.520 --> 0:07:46.240 Like I'm getting ready to do an engine swap on 0:07:46.320 --> 0:07:48.520 my integer right now, and it's a big deal. I've 0:07:48.520 --> 0:07:49.080 been working. 0:07:50.880 --> 0:07:57.280 Months. Yeah, So how do you afford that one piece 0:07:57.320 --> 0:07:57.760 of a time? 0:07:57.920 --> 0:08:00.440 Or you to save up or you sell other car 0:08:00.600 --> 0:08:03.440 parks and do other stuff like that. I can get 0:08:03.480 --> 0:08:05.400 a good deal on something, and I have friends. If 0:08:05.440 --> 0:08:06.920 I can get parts for a good deal, I'll sell 0:08:06.960 --> 0:08:07.280 it later. 0:08:08.520 --> 0:08:09.000 Something like that. 0:08:10.600 --> 0:08:11.560 Have you ever been hit by a car? 0:08:14.160 --> 0:08:15.360 Have you ever been hit by a car? 0:08:16.200 --> 0:08:16.360 Oh? 0:08:16.480 --> 0:08:18.240 Yeah, tell me about that. 0:08:20.120 --> 0:08:22.360 It's horrible. Have you ever been hit by a car? 0:08:22.800 --> 0:08:24.280 I want it? What's the story of you gonna hit 0:08:24.320 --> 0:08:24.680 by a car? 0:08:26.280 --> 0:08:28.280 I was on a bike, so I've rode BMX since 0:08:28.280 --> 0:08:31.840 I was like ten. And I was riding across town 0:08:31.960 --> 0:08:34.079 and I was coming down Main Street where I live in. 0:08:34.160 --> 0:08:37.360 It all downhill and there's the main drag through town. 0:08:38.000 --> 0:08:40.719 I crossed the boulevard and someone pegged me because I 0:08:40.720 --> 0:08:43.640 didn't stop while it was red. I just woke up 0:08:43.679 --> 0:08:46.720 on the ground. I think I was like fifteen, ended 0:08:46.800 --> 0:08:50.080 up like separating my shoulder and breaking some ribs and everything. 0:08:50.120 --> 0:08:51.240 I actually got really lucky. 0:08:54.400 --> 0:08:57.560 That's a lot. Yeah, it sounds awful. 0:08:58.720 --> 0:08:59.839 It wasn't that bad. 0:09:00.240 --> 0:09:01.560 But what happened when you were fifteen? 0:09:02.440 --> 0:09:02.880 Oh yeah? 0:09:03.360 --> 0:09:04.120 How old are you now? 0:09:05.160 --> 0:09:05.480 Thirty? 0:09:09.559 --> 0:09:11.000 So you haven't been hit by a car since? 0:09:12.520 --> 0:09:12.559 No? 0:09:13.000 --> 0:09:13.440 Thankfully? 0:09:13.559 --> 0:09:13.599 No? 0:09:14.120 --> 0:09:20.160 Maybe cars maybe they work. It works kind of like lightning, right, 0:09:20.360 --> 0:09:22.120 you get hit by a car, you get hit by 0:09:22.160 --> 0:09:24.600 a car once, you don't get hit by a car again. 0:09:25.240 --> 0:09:26.000 You kind of have it in. 0:09:26.480 --> 0:09:28.640 I've been hit by a car since then, but I 0:09:28.840 --> 0:09:31.080 was just in a car, so I. 0:09:31.080 --> 0:09:33.400 Don't know how many times they throughout your entire life? 0:09:33.440 --> 0:09:34.440 Have you gotten hit by a car? 0:09:36.280 --> 0:09:36.520 Four? 0:09:38.640 --> 0:09:42.160 How are how much debt are you in? Because that's 0:09:42.360 --> 0:09:44.400 with hospital bills from getting hit by a car from 0:09:44.440 --> 0:09:48.920 four times and having cars as a hobby, you must 0:09:49.000 --> 0:09:50.040 be in a lot of debt. 0:09:51.840 --> 0:09:54.800 No, not really, I'm not as good as a cannibal 0:09:54.920 --> 0:09:57.600 in like two thousand dollars, like two grand right now. 0:09:57.679 --> 0:09:59.960 That's because of COVID COVID screw. 0:10:00.480 --> 0:10:02.920 I thought it was way worse because it costs a 0:10:02.960 --> 0:10:05.520 lot of money to get unhit by a car in 0:10:05.600 --> 0:10:06.200 a hospital. 0:10:06.360 --> 0:10:10.160 Oh yeah, I haven't. Like I paid off my medical 0:10:10.200 --> 0:10:12.880 beer bills like a year ago, so it hasn't been 0:10:12.920 --> 0:10:14.160 that long that I've been free. 0:10:16.440 --> 0:10:20.959 Well hot, damn Adam fuckn No, your name is an 0:10:20.960 --> 0:10:24.480 Adam Vinnie Vinny. Is there anything else you wanted to 0:10:24.520 --> 0:10:26.439 talk about this evening before I let you go? 0:10:27.520 --> 0:10:30.240 No, man, I just wanted to kick it and choke 0:10:30.280 --> 0:10:30.720 for a minute. 0:10:31.200 --> 0:10:33.959 Thank you, man, Thank you for sharing your story. I'm 0:10:33.960 --> 0:10:36.079 gonna be You've inspired me to be more careful on 0:10:36.160 --> 0:10:40.640 the road. Sorry to hit people looks because you sound 0:10:40.720 --> 0:10:42.360 like a nice guy, and I don't want to, Like, 0:10:43.559 --> 0:10:45.720 I don't want to hit someone with my car if 0:10:45.760 --> 0:10:46.600 they're a nice guy. 0:10:46.760 --> 0:10:46.920 You know. 0:10:48.200 --> 0:10:51.480 Yeah, it's good. You know, a little bit of awareness 0:10:51.559 --> 0:10:52.160 is always good. 0:10:54.440 --> 0:10:55.280 I'll talk to soon. 0:10:55.360 --> 0:10:55.560 Man. 0:10:56.559 --> 0:10:58.280 All right, have a good nightmare. 0:11:01.080 --> 0:11:06.880 O call from lesbian part. 0:11:08.800 --> 0:11:09.359 Lesbian? 0:11:10.960 --> 0:11:11.600 Oh my god? 0:11:12.960 --> 0:11:22.000 You Okay, what was the prompt? You want to get 0:11:22.040 --> 0:11:22.720 into the prompt? 0:11:23.960 --> 0:11:24.600 Okay, I'm back. 0:11:24.880 --> 0:11:28.840 Well, the question of the night is, Look, the question 0:11:28.920 --> 0:11:30.480 of the night is what do you What do you miss? 0:11:31.920 --> 0:11:35.640 Oh damn, I'm miss I missed toast. 0:11:36.320 --> 0:11:40.000 I missed bread. Yeah you're gonna ask me. 0:11:40.640 --> 0:11:48.599 But it was diagnosed with celiac, so I have to 0:11:48.640 --> 0:11:54.640 be gluten free and so like you know, no we no, uh, 0:11:55.679 --> 0:11:57.000 none of that or I. 0:11:57.040 --> 0:11:57.800 Get really sick. 0:11:58.720 --> 0:12:04.079 And so I really missed like oh Charlie's roles, like 0:12:04.360 --> 0:12:07.679 all that good stuff, and I can make. 0:12:07.600 --> 0:12:08.280 My own. 0:12:10.200 --> 0:12:13.240 Like recipes and stuff at home or. 0:12:13.280 --> 0:12:21.600 Get like yeah, who hey, gag let me can't talk? 0:12:21.679 --> 0:12:22.640 Can we talk to your mom? 0:12:23.559 --> 0:12:23.760 Yeah? 0:12:23.840 --> 0:12:26.839 Of course someone name. She's a big fan. 0:12:27.080 --> 0:12:30.720 We're gonna we're gonna talk to her mom. Hey, gag, 0:12:31.679 --> 0:12:33.600 what's up, dude? How you doing? What's your name? 0:12:34.960 --> 0:12:35.480 My name is? 0:12:36.120 --> 0:12:38.440 They call me mama Ran where you can just call 0:12:38.520 --> 0:12:38.920 me mom? 0:12:39.679 --> 0:12:41.880 Mama, Mama Rane you I you said I can call 0:12:41.960 --> 0:12:45.520 you mom. I think that's a little too personal, right 0:12:45.679 --> 0:12:48.079 for we don't do we know each other well enough 0:12:48.120 --> 0:12:49.120 for me to call you mom? 0:12:49.960 --> 0:12:50.200 Sure? 0:12:51.520 --> 0:12:55.720 Once you're a mom. You love everybody, you really are, 0:12:58.559 --> 0:12:59.719 so thank you for what you do. 0:13:00.720 --> 0:13:04.280 Oh, you don't thank me. I'm just a dumb agreen 0:13:04.400 --> 0:13:08.480 internet man. But I have a question for you, mom. Yeah, 0:13:09.280 --> 0:13:10.880 what do you what is it? What do you miss? 0:13:11.640 --> 0:13:11.679 So? 0:13:11.760 --> 0:13:12.640 Anything you miss? 0:13:12.800 --> 0:13:13.160 Right now? 0:13:14.440 --> 0:13:15.240 What do I miss? 0:13:15.800 --> 0:13:17.559 Oh that's a loaded question. 0:13:20.440 --> 0:13:25.040 Uh wow, we got dinner at thirteen? 0:13:25.240 --> 0:13:25.400 Right? 0:13:26.559 --> 0:13:29.480 You could say whatever you want. I'm tell me, I'm 0:13:29.559 --> 0:13:32.000 curious now, I'm very curious. Say whatever you want. Don't 0:13:32.040 --> 0:13:32.920 have to keep it anything. 0:13:34.080 --> 0:13:37.560 So I've been divorced white badly. 0:13:39.160 --> 0:13:42.280 And let's just think, kitty, it is dead. 0:13:44.840 --> 0:13:45.599 I like you know what. 0:13:45.840 --> 0:13:49.280 I like that you're more concerned with not saying anything 0:13:49.320 --> 0:13:53.280 inappropriate on the stream than you are saying in front 0:13:53.320 --> 0:13:53.840 of your daughter. 0:13:55.720 --> 0:13:58.520 No, but like we're close, we've been through a lot together. 0:13:59.480 --> 0:14:02.360 It's like and I told her, I told her, I'm 0:14:02.960 --> 0:14:03.600 right now, but. 0:14:07.240 --> 0:14:10.040 The kiddy is dead, going, what what have you been 0:14:10.080 --> 0:14:12.480 out on? Dates? You out there trying to find the 0:14:13.600 --> 0:14:14.560 find the little buddy? 0:14:15.600 --> 0:14:15.880 I was. 0:14:16.320 --> 0:14:17.920 I was so hurt really that. 0:14:18.040 --> 0:14:21.240 I just I just kind of like already had a 0:14:21.320 --> 0:14:22.120 funeral for her. 0:14:22.200 --> 0:14:24.400 And put her out on my shelf. 0:14:25.400 --> 0:14:27.760 No, no, do you do you still masturbate? 0:14:29.400 --> 0:14:31.840 I think you No, she's so dead, I'd have to 0:14:31.920 --> 0:14:33.040 get jumper cable. 0:14:37.640 --> 0:14:42.760 Nonsense, Look what you thought. She's got to help you out, 0:14:42.840 --> 0:14:45.040 She's got to hook you up with her friend's dads 0:14:45.200 --> 0:14:45.960 or something like that. 0:14:47.560 --> 0:14:48.520 Oh you're so sweet. 0:14:48.640 --> 0:14:50.280 I just well, one an alcoholic. 0:14:54.280 --> 0:14:55.000 I just feel like. 0:14:55.040 --> 0:14:56.200 It's kind of over. 0:14:56.800 --> 0:14:59.920 Yeah, No, No, how old are you? Can I ask? 0:15:00.080 --> 0:15:02.000 I know you're not supposed to ask, but you're also 0:15:02.200 --> 0:15:04.160 we're doing a lot of things are I supposed to do? 0:15:04.240 --> 0:15:04.880 And that what's up? 0:15:05.800 --> 0:15:06.040 I was? 0:15:06.680 --> 0:15:08.200 I turned just turned fifty five? 0:15:08.920 --> 0:15:14.080 Fifty five? That you you don't sound the day over forty? 0:15:15.280 --> 0:15:18.240 You gotta go on the webs. There's plenty of sites 0:15:19.160 --> 0:15:22.160 that you can go on. You into are you you 0:15:22.520 --> 0:15:26.520 you you could be like a milfy like, you know, 0:15:26.760 --> 0:15:30.160 go hit on some like twenty year old guys. You 0:15:30.240 --> 0:15:31.040 thought about doing that. 0:15:32.480 --> 0:15:35.920 I just gotta get I gotta get my armor on. 0:15:36.200 --> 0:15:39.320 You know what does that mean? What is your armor? 0:15:39.880 --> 0:15:40.360 So I'm so. 0:15:40.520 --> 0:15:42.120 Scared that I'm gonna get hurt or. 0:15:43.600 --> 0:15:51.760 You know, because I was like. 0:15:53.320 --> 0:15:58.400 Everything was perfect and then different person after you you 0:15:58.520 --> 0:16:00.160 realize other issue to. 0:16:00.440 --> 0:16:08.920 The I'm working on it though. Okay, I'm working on it, 0:16:09.360 --> 0:16:11.200 and I am proud of what you do. Don't don't 0:16:11.200 --> 0:16:12.120 minimize what you do. 0:16:12.280 --> 0:16:15.120 Man, How are you working on it? What are the 0:16:15.440 --> 0:16:17.400 what are the steps that you're taking to work on it? 0:16:20.600 --> 0:16:22.240 Trying to take care of me a little better. 0:16:24.440 --> 0:16:32.000 Yeah, I am going to give therapy a chance again. 0:16:32.800 --> 0:16:38.040 Nice nice, Yeah, real therapy, not ecko therapy. 0:16:39.040 --> 0:16:44.080 Yeah, there you go. And that my daughter here lesbian 0:16:44.360 --> 0:16:47.000 named after her dad, just. 0:16:47.160 --> 0:16:48.400 Her dad or lesbian too. 0:16:49.120 --> 0:16:51.360 Yeah, that was the problem the family. 0:16:51.960 --> 0:16:53.200 He's very confused. 0:16:53.320 --> 0:16:55.040 But yeah, to each his own. 0:16:55.120 --> 0:16:58.040 You know, everybody's different, that's what's it matters. 0:17:00.240 --> 0:17:02.240 So thank you for your advice and your. 0:17:03.600 --> 0:17:06.080 And yeah, my daughter does miss and it sucks. 0:17:06.760 --> 0:17:08.119 It took us like seven. 0:17:07.920 --> 0:17:10.960 Years to get her diagnosed with celiac. 0:17:11.160 --> 0:17:16.720 So but you know, I've found some good looks, snacks 0:17:16.800 --> 0:17:19.280 here and there, and uh just you know. 0:17:19.359 --> 0:17:20.560 Every day then new day. 0:17:20.840 --> 0:17:23.920 So yeah, you know you guys, You guys sound like 0:17:24.080 --> 0:17:28.440 you know there's some struggles there, but you're you're holding 0:17:28.480 --> 0:17:29.840 down the fort best as you can. 0:17:31.320 --> 0:17:35.120 I'm gonna update you, okay, like during your shadow I'll try. 0:17:34.960 --> 0:17:35.800 To text you or something. 0:17:35.920 --> 0:17:37.439 Let you know if Katie's going for. 0:17:37.520 --> 0:17:40.760 A whirl, Okay, please please do let it. Let us 0:17:40.800 --> 0:17:44.520 know how it goes. Okay, don't send that. Don't send 0:17:44.560 --> 0:17:46.639 any pictures though, we're gonna because then we'll get banned. 0:17:46.720 --> 0:17:52.680 But no, never, I guess goodbye, guys. 0:17:55.359 --> 0:17:57.000 Came from Henry. 0:17:59.240 --> 0:18:04.320 Henry is a you. Hello, what are you doing, dude. 0:18:06.359 --> 0:18:07.920 I'm just chilling on bad. 0:18:10.400 --> 0:18:11.960 Not a whole lot. I'm just chilling. I'm in a 0:18:12.080 --> 0:18:14.960 chair and I'm addressed as a gecko, and I'm live 0:18:15.040 --> 0:18:18.200 streaming on the on the website where people play Fortnite. 0:18:19.760 --> 0:18:20.760 Do you play video games? 0:18:22.040 --> 0:18:25.840 I play one video game, whole video game. I play 0:18:25.920 --> 0:18:28.639 Super Smash Brothers Melee for the Nintendo game I played. 0:18:28.960 --> 0:18:34.280 I played a I played a video game recently called 0:18:34.480 --> 0:18:40.520 Inside You ever heard of that? M No, it's called inside. 0:18:41.600 --> 0:18:42.040 I like that. 0:18:42.200 --> 0:18:45.480 Somebody somebody in chat that said, my friend Justin, he's 0:18:45.560 --> 0:18:48.920 corracked out Fortnite? Thank you? 0:18:50.560 --> 0:18:51.320 Are you Justin? 0:18:54.440 --> 0:18:55.600 I'm not? I'm not just. 0:18:57.480 --> 0:18:58.680 Henry. What do you do for fun? 0:19:03.359 --> 0:19:06.200 I like to skateboard, I like to play video games, 0:19:07.000 --> 0:19:09.760 and I like to hang out with front. 0:19:11.400 --> 0:19:13.639 You got that's a beautiful Tinder bio right there? Can 0:19:13.720 --> 0:19:14.159 I steal that? 0:19:15.320 --> 0:19:15.640 I mean? 0:19:15.960 --> 0:19:16.160 Yeah? 0:19:16.280 --> 0:19:22.560 Sure? Do you date? How old are you? Henry? 0:19:23.359 --> 0:19:23.520 Oh? 0:19:23.600 --> 0:19:24.119 I'm twenty. 0:19:25.240 --> 0:19:27.800 How how's the date? How's dating been for you? 0:19:29.000 --> 0:19:30.320 I don't really know. 0:19:30.400 --> 0:19:31.440 My sexuality yet. 0:19:31.560 --> 0:19:34.880 I've been questioning it for a while, so I'm kind 0:19:34.920 --> 0:19:38.040 of staying at dating at all. I figured out how 0:19:38.400 --> 0:19:39.879 like who I am? You know what I mean? 0:19:40.520 --> 0:19:47.080 Mm hmmm? Is that was figuring out, uh, your sexualized? 0:19:47.119 --> 0:19:51.240 That for you like an active process, like you're trying 0:19:51.280 --> 0:19:52.639 to figure it out. You're just kind of going with 0:19:52.760 --> 0:19:56.400 the flow and seeing sort of, you know, how how 0:19:56.520 --> 0:19:57.840 that develops on its own. 0:19:58.800 --> 0:20:02.879 Mm hmmm, trying to just seeing how it goes. I 0:20:03.000 --> 0:20:05.720 try not to, like, I don't devote my life to 0:20:05.880 --> 0:20:09.960 trying to figure it out. Does that make sense? 0:20:10.800 --> 0:20:11.000 Yeah? 0:20:11.160 --> 0:20:11.560 For sure? 0:20:12.320 --> 0:20:12.560 Yeah. 0:20:14.560 --> 0:20:19.960 Are you not interested though, in like actively experimenting, like 0:20:20.920 --> 0:20:22.320 like cooking. 0:20:22.119 --> 0:20:22.680 Up with people? 0:20:23.480 --> 0:20:31.120 Yeah, oh no, not really, I don't. I mean, yeah, 0:20:31.280 --> 0:20:34.080 I've only hooked up with girls before. 0:20:34.119 --> 0:20:34.679 I don't think that. 0:20:36.320 --> 0:20:39.560 If I ever locked myself down to the sexuality, I 0:20:39.600 --> 0:20:42.920 don't think it would be I don't think it would 0:20:42.960 --> 0:20:46.600 be one hundred percent. I think if anything I could 0:20:46.800 --> 0:20:47.919 must likely be by. 0:20:50.200 --> 0:20:52.000 Oh well, I mean you don't. Don't you never have 0:20:52.119 --> 0:20:55.520 to lock yourself down to it anything? 0:20:56.760 --> 0:21:02.640 Yeah, No, that's yeah, only that probably that comes. 0:21:02.440 --> 0:21:06.400 From like the desire to have a label, I think, 0:21:07.840 --> 0:21:10.520 which is kind of a bullshit desire. I'm sorry, were 0:21:10.560 --> 0:21:11.440 you what were you going to say? 0:21:12.480 --> 0:21:14.320 No, I was gonna say, but like when you were 0:21:14.359 --> 0:21:21.720 asking about like physically talking about like people is usually 0:21:21.880 --> 0:21:26.680 just like with women or like physically active. It's just 0:21:26.880 --> 0:21:27.520 it's just women. 0:21:28.600 --> 0:21:28.879 Mm hm. 0:21:31.480 --> 0:21:35.720 So that like I think it's like weird to get 0:21:35.800 --> 0:21:38.639 with a guy, But I think the idea of like 0:21:39.200 --> 0:21:42.400 being more than a friends with guys isn't a bad thing. 0:21:48.280 --> 0:21:52.399 But you think it's in what in what sense do 0:21:52.480 --> 0:21:56.760 you think it's weird to get with a guy like you, 0:21:57.280 --> 0:22:00.240 like you personally feel weird about it? 0:22:01.160 --> 0:22:05.280 Like like sexually like with the guy. Okay, like if 0:22:05.359 --> 0:22:08.200 I was with if I was with a girl, I 0:22:08.800 --> 0:22:11.320 could I know, I know, it's. 0:22:11.240 --> 0:22:15.080 Like you could be you could be like, well, you 0:22:15.160 --> 0:22:19.720 could be like romantically attracted to men but not sexually. 0:22:20.440 --> 0:22:20.640 Yeah. 0:22:20.720 --> 0:22:23.040 But so then I think that, Yeah, I think I'm 0:22:23.119 --> 0:22:31.040 romantically Yeah, I think you're right about that. But with women, 0:22:31.320 --> 0:22:33.480 I mean, I I guess I could experiment. I've never 0:22:33.600 --> 0:22:37.600 been known for like like I don't. I don't see 0:22:37.640 --> 0:22:40.080 the fun in like cooking up with people, and it 0:22:40.240 --> 0:22:43.480 just feels weird. That's why. I mean, I've even thought 0:22:43.520 --> 0:22:46.880 that I'm what are they call it asexual words? Yeah, 0:22:47.880 --> 0:22:51.240 or auto I don't know, something like that. But I 0:22:51.359 --> 0:22:54.560 mean it really just depends on the person, which makes 0:22:54.600 --> 0:22:56.920 it a whole back confusing, like more confusing. 0:22:58.920 --> 0:23:02.800 I think there's a there's a word for that, like 0:23:06.000 --> 0:23:09.480 but the words and I think there's I know, there's 0:23:09.520 --> 0:23:12.320 like this, there's like this inherent desire to like I 0:23:12.440 --> 0:23:15.480 think maybe like rush. And I even just kind of 0:23:15.560 --> 0:23:16.960 proved it there by saying there's a word for this 0:23:17.200 --> 0:23:20.480 erent desire like rush towards a label just so that 0:23:20.560 --> 0:23:25.080 you can take these these feelings and put them somewhere 0:23:25.119 --> 0:23:27.359 and identify yourself as Oh I am this, but you 0:23:27.400 --> 0:23:28.680 know there's no reason to rush to that. 0:23:30.200 --> 0:23:32.800 Yeah, you're a you're a pretty good person to talk 0:23:32.840 --> 0:23:35.760 about this with. You. Like, honestly, I've been watching your 0:23:35.760 --> 0:23:39.000 stream for about a month now. You're really open minded. 0:23:39.800 --> 0:23:43.399 Oh thanks man, I'm I'm fool feel comfortable talking about that. 0:23:44.440 --> 0:23:46.399 I think that you're so patient. 0:23:46.520 --> 0:23:49.280 You get some annoying as people to get on here, 0:23:49.400 --> 0:23:51.159 but you put up with them, and I think that 0:23:52.000 --> 0:23:54.720 that that says a lot about you as a person. 0:23:55.680 --> 0:23:58.720 Well, thanks man. You know, the annoying people that it's 0:23:58.800 --> 0:24:03.680 part of the uphold the presentation because look, because you know, 0:24:03.800 --> 0:24:09.240 look in life, some people are annoying. I enjoy I 0:24:09.480 --> 0:24:13.160 enjoy the diversity of the callers, not just in terms 0:24:13.200 --> 0:24:16.000 of you know, backgrounds and you know all that stuff, 0:24:16.040 --> 0:24:18.080 but also in terms of, you know, I like a 0:24:18.240 --> 0:24:22.639 diverse amount of annoyingness. I think it's good to have that. 0:24:24.359 --> 0:24:27.600 Yeah, all right, man, Well I don't want to wrap 0:24:27.720 --> 0:24:30.960 up a conversation, but I am very bad. I just 0:24:31.000 --> 0:24:33.080 wanted to get a call in. But it was actually 0:24:33.160 --> 0:24:36.040 pretty nice talking to you. Maybe I'll call back you guys. 0:24:36.160 --> 0:24:36.840 Let call back. 0:24:38.720 --> 0:24:40.919 Yeah, yeah, call call back in sometime. You say your 0:24:40.960 --> 0:24:45.560 name is Henry, Yeah, Henry, baby, I remember your name. Awesome, 0:24:45.920 --> 0:24:47.199 take care Henry. You have a good night. 0:24:47.240 --> 0:24:47.359 Man. 0:24:47.920 --> 0:24:50.960 All right, I'll call you Friday if I can make it. 0:24:51.720 --> 0:24:54.399 Hit me whenever I'm the line is open. I'm crazy, 0:24:55.240 --> 0:25:02.320 all right, lad bye guys. He was a good guy. 0:25:02.920 --> 0:25:03.440 Aw fun. 0:25:04.280 --> 0:25:10.920 Blake, Blake, holy ship? 0:25:14.680 --> 0:25:15.240 How you doing? 0:25:15.320 --> 0:25:15.600 Blake? 0:25:17.800 --> 0:25:19.400 Relieved? Why? 0:25:19.520 --> 0:25:20.000 Relieved? 0:25:20.560 --> 0:25:20.879 What? What? 0:25:21.040 --> 0:25:21.080 What? 0:25:21.200 --> 0:25:22.840 Where was the tension beforehand? 0:25:24.920 --> 0:25:26.240 Started? Last Wednesday? 0:25:27.640 --> 0:25:28.439 What was the tension? 0:25:30.359 --> 0:25:33.320 I was on a trip, uh, an acid trip and 0:25:33.800 --> 0:25:37.960 stumbled across your live stream m hm and sat there 0:25:38.000 --> 0:25:43.720 and tried to call for hours and never got the 0:25:43.800 --> 0:25:45.600 closure I needed? What? 0:25:45.800 --> 0:25:47.920 Okay? What was Why? Do you feel like there was 0:25:47.920 --> 0:25:48.840 a need for closure? 0:25:49.160 --> 0:25:49.359 Like? What? 0:25:49.560 --> 0:25:54.679 What? What was left open for you not having this conversation? 0:25:56.760 --> 0:25:57.160 Mm hmm. 0:25:57.480 --> 0:26:00.560 But but do you feel like may like some sort 0:26:00.560 --> 0:26:03.920 of parasocial relationship developed between me and you? Because I've 0:26:03.960 --> 0:26:06.439 never heard your voice before, but you've heard my voice. 0:26:07.960 --> 0:26:09.439 Do you feel you feel like you need some closure 0:26:09.480 --> 0:26:12.760 you need to talk to me for I don't know, 0:26:12.960 --> 0:26:13.240 like why? 0:26:13.320 --> 0:26:13.480 Why? 0:26:13.600 --> 0:26:15.120 Where does that? Where did that come from? 0:26:18.040 --> 0:26:22.240 Whenever I'm tripping, I normally find something and the obsess 0:26:22.359 --> 0:26:26.399 on it and try to you know, learn with it 0:26:26.640 --> 0:26:30.639 and you know, have fun around it. Okay, And watching 0:26:30.720 --> 0:26:33.119 your streams has brought that, I brought a lot of 0:26:33.600 --> 0:26:36.040 entertainment and you know kind of excitement. 0:26:37.320 --> 0:26:39.000 Do you think that the stream is better when you 0:26:39.080 --> 0:26:39.760 are on acid? 0:26:43.320 --> 0:26:43.600 Better? 0:26:44.560 --> 0:26:44.680 Is it? 0:26:44.800 --> 0:26:46.280 I don't know if I would use the word better, 0:26:46.480 --> 0:26:52.960 I'd say different stories where you know, more can like 0:26:53.080 --> 0:26:55.440 you know, changed in my head and everything like that. 0:26:55.640 --> 0:26:58.159 And I was laying in my living room watching you 0:26:58.280 --> 0:27:01.359 on the TV and calling on my phone and you know, 0:27:01.560 --> 0:27:04.480 your face more thing and everything was quite entertaining. 0:27:07.880 --> 0:27:11.160 Maybe I've always people always think I'm like, hi, when 0:27:11.160 --> 0:27:14.479 I'm doing this, I'm not for me. It's hard because 0:27:14.920 --> 0:27:17.440 you can't I can't be high and talk to people. 0:27:18.160 --> 0:27:20.800 That's too much for me. If I'm going to get high, 0:27:20.800 --> 0:27:22.720 I want to do it alone. After I don't have 0:27:22.920 --> 0:27:24.359 like I don't want to get high, and then like, oh, 0:27:24.440 --> 0:27:25.879 I have to go do I've got to go do 0:27:26.000 --> 0:27:28.440 a thing. You know, I just want to be alone. 0:27:28.720 --> 0:27:30.720 So that might that might be an interesting experience to 0:27:30.880 --> 0:27:33.720 watch it while on drugs. 0:27:35.640 --> 0:27:38.440 You know. I actually I can't smoke weed. It's kind 0:27:38.480 --> 0:27:40.880 of It's funny, I've I don't really met many other 0:27:40.960 --> 0:27:42.720 people that are like that. 0:27:43.760 --> 0:27:44.760 Why can't you smoke weed? 0:27:46.280 --> 0:27:48.560 I found this out about. 0:27:48.880 --> 0:27:52.560 Three years ago. I every time I smoke, whether it 0:27:52.720 --> 0:27:56.560 be a small amount, I've only had probably five pleasurable 0:27:56.640 --> 0:28:00.520 high experiences out of the twenty or thirty times tried. 0:28:01.080 --> 0:28:03.239 I end up throwing up and getting I end up 0:28:03.240 --> 0:28:05.720 greening out pretty much. I throw up, I get nauseous, 0:28:06.840 --> 0:28:09.800 and I end up getting severe vertigo. So I end 0:28:09.880 --> 0:28:11.080 up passing out from exhaustion. 0:28:14.320 --> 0:28:17.160 But acid doesn't do that to you, No, not at all. 0:28:17.320 --> 0:28:21.080 Actually, I love tripping. It's I don't do it too 0:28:21.119 --> 0:28:24.760 frequently because I know it. You know what the damage 0:28:24.760 --> 0:28:25.440 you can cause is. 0:28:25.600 --> 0:28:28.760 But can you sell me on it? Because my problem 0:28:28.960 --> 0:28:32.400 is I when I get too high, I think too much, 0:28:33.400 --> 0:28:38.080 and I don't like being that. I believe I'm happiest. 0:28:38.240 --> 0:28:41.520 I think people are probably in general, happiest when they 0:28:41.560 --> 0:28:44.840 are outside of themselves and not like in their head 0:28:45.040 --> 0:28:46.640 overthinking every fucking thing. 0:28:47.120 --> 0:28:47.760 You know what I mean? 0:28:48.440 --> 0:28:50.880 Yeah, Like you know, when you're hanging out with your friends, 0:28:50.920 --> 0:28:52.160 like you're having a good time, you don't know, like 0:28:52.240 --> 0:28:55.040 the time is past your time flies and you're having fun, right, 0:28:55.360 --> 0:28:59.400 and the time moves slowly when you're in your head 0:28:59.560 --> 0:29:02.160 just anxious and thinking about shit. And we gets me 0:29:02.240 --> 0:29:03.719 into that place where I'm in my head and think 0:29:03.760 --> 0:29:06.880 about shit. So I went to the depression. That acid 0:29:07.200 --> 0:29:09.760 is like we times ten thousand, and it's just gonna 0:29:09.800 --> 0:29:12.920 put me super deep into my head? Is that true? 0:29:13.040 --> 0:29:14.320 Is that gonna happen? 0:29:15.480 --> 0:29:19.280 From everything that I know in all my experiences, it's mindset. 0:29:21.040 --> 0:29:23.480 Like this past time, I was with my girlfriend and 0:29:24.000 --> 0:29:27.080 she was about to not literally, but she was about 0:29:27.120 --> 0:29:31.240 to kill me for me sitting there freaking out about 0:29:31.320 --> 0:29:33.960 getting on the phone with you. And I was in 0:29:34.040 --> 0:29:37.040 a very good headspace that whole time, besides stressing and 0:29:37.120 --> 0:29:42.280 becoming anxious about getting on the phone. But I believe 0:29:42.360 --> 0:29:45.520 it's you know, kind of your headspace, what you're around. 0:29:45.600 --> 0:29:48.040 If you're in a good environment that you like and 0:29:48.240 --> 0:29:50.600 you are tripping, it'll just amplify. 0:29:52.560 --> 0:29:54.760 You said you were stressing about getting on the phone. 0:29:54.800 --> 0:29:57.640 Were you you were stressing about like you're stressing about me, 0:29:57.680 --> 0:29:59.400 answering about me, not answering. 0:30:00.120 --> 0:30:04.320 About about getting through Pretty much this is it actually 0:30:04.440 --> 0:30:07.520 was the first live stream i'd watched. I've seen clips 0:30:07.600 --> 0:30:10.160 on Twitter and the people had, you know, retweeted and 0:30:10.840 --> 0:30:13.200 everything like that. I was actually scrolling through Reddit and 0:30:13.320 --> 0:30:16.920 a park on my come up and it was about 0:30:16.960 --> 0:30:20.560 three pm. I in Central, It's about three pm, and 0:30:21.440 --> 0:30:23.120 I saw that you were going to be live streaming 0:30:23.280 --> 0:30:26.360 at ten on ten Eastern and I was like, dude, 0:30:26.440 --> 0:30:28.840 no way, I got to watch this guy. I was like, 0:30:28.880 --> 0:30:29.520 I gotta do it. 0:30:30.520 --> 0:30:34.480 And since then, uh, you said that, you said you 0:30:34.560 --> 0:30:36.800 said a feeling of stress. I want to. I want 0:30:36.840 --> 0:30:39.800 to know. I want to get to why you felt stressed, 0:30:40.120 --> 0:30:43.040 because that's a very specific sort of emotion. 0:30:46.440 --> 0:30:50.760 I think it's dimmed in like the obsession over it, 0:30:50.840 --> 0:30:52.640 the fact of like I was like, I want to 0:30:52.680 --> 0:30:54.800 because at the beginning, for the first forty minutes, I 0:30:54.840 --> 0:30:56.600 didn't want to call at all. I was too anxious. 0:30:57.200 --> 0:30:58.800 And then I was like, I gotta call. I gotta 0:30:58.880 --> 0:31:01.240 do this. I gotta like, I got a I got 0:31:01.480 --> 0:31:05.280 I have to call. I need to talk to him. 0:31:06.120 --> 0:31:09.920 And the stress of not being able to get through, 0:31:10.040 --> 0:31:10.960 I guess is what it was. 0:31:12.720 --> 0:31:17.880 M under her. Do you how do you feel now? 0:31:18.000 --> 0:31:20.280 Do you feel bad? Do you feel better? Do you 0:31:20.320 --> 0:31:23.440 feel anxious? Are you anxious now that you're on the stream. 0:31:24.880 --> 0:31:25.479 A little bit. 0:31:25.680 --> 0:31:28.560 My heart's racing with kind of like excitement that because, 0:31:28.600 --> 0:31:30.840 like I was, I was watching the stream in the 0:31:30.920 --> 0:31:33.440 background on my phone while calling, and I heard you 0:31:34.200 --> 0:31:37.200 say my name on the stream, and then I realized 0:31:37.200 --> 0:31:39.080 took a second to hit and I was like, I'm 0:31:41.960 --> 0:31:44.880 and uh, you know, I didn't think I was going 0:31:44.920 --> 0:31:48.480 to get through, Honestly, I was. I was about to 0:31:48.520 --> 0:31:49.320 give up on calling. 0:31:50.960 --> 0:31:54.160 So how would you rate this experience of I mean, 0:31:54.280 --> 0:31:58.360 just the whole thing of you trying really hard to 0:31:58.480 --> 0:32:03.840 call in to then have a conversation about you trying 0:32:03.960 --> 0:32:04.880 hard to call in. 0:32:07.720 --> 0:32:10.480 I read this an amazing experience. 0:32:10.880 --> 0:32:11.000 Uh. 0:32:12.080 --> 0:32:15.760 I'm Harry damn excited to tell my girlfriend when I 0:32:15.760 --> 0:32:19.360 got to pick her up from work about this. This 0:32:19.680 --> 0:32:23.880 was an amazing experience. I'm definitely not going to forget 0:32:23.920 --> 0:32:24.680 this for a while. 0:32:25.600 --> 0:32:28.920 Beau, Well, thank you for calling in, Blake, Thank you 0:32:29.000 --> 0:32:31.920 for answering that of course, man, for look your your 0:32:31.960 --> 0:32:36.760 determination is much appreciated by the Geak nation, and I 0:32:36.840 --> 0:32:38.920 think you got what it takes to make yourself a 0:32:39.040 --> 0:32:41.920 name here as a as a Gak warrior. 0:32:43.000 --> 0:32:43.560 Thank you, man. 0:32:43.640 --> 0:32:44.280 That means a lot. 0:32:45.560 --> 0:32:47.120 You take care, man, I'll talk to you soon. 0:32:47.840 --> 0:32:48.880 Thank you, man, have a good night. 0:32:51.880 --> 0:32:55.480 Oh awesome, George. 0:32:58.280 --> 0:33:00.719 Judge you Oh what's up? 0:33:00.840 --> 0:33:01.080 While? 0:33:02.160 --> 0:33:03.000 Oh my goodness. 0:33:03.120 --> 0:33:03.280 Man. 0:33:03.440 --> 0:33:06.120 Look man, I'm not a whole lot. We're near and 0:33:06.320 --> 0:33:10.640 we're nearing midnight. I'm fully gecked out of my mind. 0:33:12.200 --> 0:33:14.440 I'm psyched, I'm pumped, I'm ready. What do you What 0:33:14.520 --> 0:33:15.000 are you up to? 0:33:15.120 --> 0:33:15.280 Man? 0:33:15.320 --> 0:33:16.560 But you got anything for me? 0:33:18.320 --> 0:33:21.840 I don't. I got stories. I have some stories. 0:33:22.360 --> 0:33:23.200 Tell me a story. 0:33:27.080 --> 0:33:31.440 Let's see what do I got? 0:33:32.240 --> 0:33:33.040 Give me a topic? 0:33:34.400 --> 0:33:35.760 Well, you know, I I asked you the car. What 0:33:35.800 --> 0:33:36.440 do you do for fun? 0:33:36.520 --> 0:33:36.680 Man? 0:33:37.440 --> 0:33:39.520 What do I do for fun? I bike a lot? 0:33:40.600 --> 0:33:41.520 We got another bike. 0:33:43.800 --> 0:33:45.720 Yeah, it's good. There was that one guy who's in 0:33:45.760 --> 0:33:46.640 the middle of the field. 0:33:48.640 --> 0:33:51.720 Yes, that's an all time that's an all time favorite. 0:33:52.400 --> 0:33:54.040 The guy who is in the middle of the field. 0:33:54.120 --> 0:33:57.280 He is a good guy. Well, okay, you bike a lot. 0:33:58.280 --> 0:34:03.640 I bike a lot. I used to partake in copious 0:34:03.680 --> 0:34:04.920 amounts of drugs. 0:34:07.360 --> 0:34:08.200 Which ones. 0:34:11.239 --> 0:34:20.280 Mushrooms, acid, marijuana, cocaine, danus the main ones. 0:34:21.360 --> 0:34:23.279 And do you not do so anymore? You said you 0:34:23.400 --> 0:34:23.640 used to. 0:34:24.200 --> 0:34:26.320 No, I don't do that anymore. This was in the 0:34:26.440 --> 0:34:33.560 span of ages fifteen to seventeen, which was really fucking bad. 0:34:34.400 --> 0:34:37.200 That's yeah, that's a lot of shit from fifteen to seventeen. 0:34:38.080 --> 0:34:39.640 Yeah, it was. 0:34:39.880 --> 0:34:40.680 It was some shit. 0:34:40.880 --> 0:34:44.880 I dropped out of high school because of it. I 0:34:44.960 --> 0:34:52.400 mean not solely because of it, but definitely aided. I 0:34:52.480 --> 0:34:54.640 would say, Okay. 0:34:54.680 --> 0:34:58.440 How how are you an now I'm nineteen? What did 0:34:58.480 --> 0:35:00.000 you do after you dropped out of high school? 0:35:01.920 --> 0:35:03.840 Well, it took me about a year. I was like 0:35:03.960 --> 0:35:09.279 working all the time, and I was working at construction job. 0:35:09.440 --> 0:35:12.920 So I was brail and blow with guys in the 0:35:12.960 --> 0:35:19.719 fucking back with construction site bent and kept doing that, 0:35:19.920 --> 0:35:23.880 kept doing that, and then I wasn't making enough money. 0:35:23.920 --> 0:35:25.759 I was spending all my money on shit like that. 0:35:27.360 --> 0:35:31.279 And then I actually ended up hanging out with my 0:35:31.400 --> 0:35:36.640 buddies one time and we fucking took I think I 0:35:36.760 --> 0:35:42.520 took like five tabs of acid, which is a horrendous 0:35:42.520 --> 0:35:45.680 amount for anybody. 0:35:46.320 --> 0:35:48.800 What did five tabs of acid end up doing to you? 0:35:49.800 --> 0:35:55.640 I ended up like it was like sleep paralysis. Basically. 0:35:56.680 --> 0:35:59.320 I just ended up laying on the couch and my 0:35:59.400 --> 0:36:11.040 buddies and basement like hallucinating. My own intervention, which was wild. So, 0:36:11.680 --> 0:36:13.160 and I woke up the next. 0:36:13.040 --> 0:36:16.760 Day and like, real quick, tell me about this hallucination 0:36:16.960 --> 0:36:17.880 of your intervention. 0:36:19.000 --> 0:36:19.399 I don't. 0:36:20.960 --> 0:36:22.960 It's hard to remember it, but if you remember any 0:36:23.000 --> 0:36:23.160 of it. 0:36:23.719 --> 0:36:27.160 The only way I remember it really is because I 0:36:27.400 --> 0:36:30.680 wrote on my phone on like snapchat messages. I was 0:36:30.760 --> 0:36:35.120 like writing fucking with the drawing thing and saving the 0:36:35.239 --> 0:36:39.560 pictures and I read them the next morning and it 0:36:39.719 --> 0:36:42.840 was like just some whacked out shit like you gotta 0:36:42.880 --> 0:36:46.520 stop blah blah blah. It was like talking in the 0:36:46.640 --> 0:36:49.520 third person as well, like George blah blah blah has 0:36:49.600 --> 0:36:50.000 to do this. 0:36:51.239 --> 0:36:51.600 Wild. 0:36:53.120 --> 0:36:56.120 So I woke up the next morning read that whatever. 0:36:56.239 --> 0:37:01.160 I was like, oh, man, that's fucked up, right, because 0:37:01.160 --> 0:37:07.200 that's pretty fucked up. And uh, I haven't done drugs since. 0:37:08.840 --> 0:37:11.080 M so I think that's the something said that's called 0:37:11.120 --> 0:37:11.919 an ego death. 0:37:12.840 --> 0:37:15.120 Yeah, yeah, solid ego death right there. 0:37:16.520 --> 0:37:19.840 M How how long you been claimed for? 0:37:21.960 --> 0:37:22.240 Shoot? 0:37:22.440 --> 0:37:25.040 Nineteen seventeen? Two years? 0:37:26.080 --> 0:37:28.680 Awesome? Man? Do you have anything? Did you end up 0:37:28.680 --> 0:37:30.120 getting your ged or anything like that? 0:37:30.400 --> 0:37:30.560 Yeah? 0:37:31.080 --> 0:37:34.360 I actually the next year after that, I went in. 0:37:35.320 --> 0:37:40.120 My area has fucking programs so seniors who don't have 0:37:40.239 --> 0:37:44.960 enough credits can I actually get their high school diploma 0:37:45.960 --> 0:37:49.800 if they qualify for all the ged stuff, So I 0:37:49.920 --> 0:37:51.280 gotta get a hold diploma. 0:37:52.520 --> 0:37:53.680 Awesome, it's nice. 0:37:54.080 --> 0:37:55.200 What do what do I do with that? 0:37:56.880 --> 0:37:57.080 Well? 0:37:57.120 --> 0:38:02.000 I actually I just got accepted into college yesterday, tech 0:38:02.040 --> 0:38:06.200 School for autumn mechanics. Good stuff. 0:38:07.880 --> 0:38:09.759 Hell yeah, man, you're gonna be like that guy. You're 0:38:09.760 --> 0:38:12.960 gonna be like the nice guy who, uh, that nice 0:38:13.080 --> 0:38:15.160 car man that we were talking to earlier. 0:38:16.320 --> 0:38:18.359 Yeah, no, he was a cool guy. I actually worked 0:38:18.400 --> 0:38:19.120 on Honda's too. 0:38:20.040 --> 0:38:20.200 Oh. 0:38:21.320 --> 0:38:23.760 I was trying to ask him what he was putting 0:38:23.760 --> 0:38:27.960 in Maddon tegra So if he's there getting the chat, 0:38:28.200 --> 0:38:29.279 maybe i'll find it later. 0:38:30.239 --> 0:38:34.160 Yeah, yeah, to talk some shop. Right, Well, Matt, I'm 0:38:34.200 --> 0:38:34.759 happy for you. 0:38:34.920 --> 0:38:35.080 Man. 0:38:35.160 --> 0:38:39.440 That's that's that's that's There must be a lot to like. 0:38:40.960 --> 0:38:41.000 That. 0:38:41.120 --> 0:38:44.600 That must be like because it's so hard to you know, 0:38:45.200 --> 0:38:47.600 it's hard to quit one thing, right, It's hard to 0:38:47.800 --> 0:38:50.120 quit fucking Waird or quit cocaine. But to quit all 0:38:50.160 --> 0:38:52.600 of it at once, it's gotta be a nightmare, just. 0:38:52.680 --> 0:38:55.120 A straight up like a full on hit a brick 0:38:55.200 --> 0:39:00.680 wall stop cold turkey. It's I don't know how I 0:39:00.800 --> 0:39:03.239 did it, but I did it. I think I just 0:39:03.320 --> 0:39:05.160 had to get you have to get past that that 0:39:05.360 --> 0:39:10.560 statementally mm hmm, to where you can actually progress and 0:39:10.680 --> 0:39:14.160 get anywhere. And I think that kind of is a 0:39:14.200 --> 0:39:17.239 whole thing with any problem you really have in life. 0:39:19.080 --> 0:39:22.640 If you are blocking yourself mentally from doing something, you're 0:39:22.680 --> 0:39:24.520 not gonna be able to do it. I mean, if 0:39:24.560 --> 0:39:27.640 I say, oh, I can't walk up these stairs, and 0:39:27.760 --> 0:39:31.520 I firmly believe that I can't walk upstairs, I'm not 0:39:31.600 --> 0:39:33.360 going to be able to walk up the fucking stairs. 0:39:37.440 --> 0:39:42.520 But I think an all around good uh moralss story 0:39:42.640 --> 0:39:48.640 here whatever, uh learn from others' mistakes. There were a 0:39:48.680 --> 0:39:52.440 lot of people that I could have looked at and 0:39:52.560 --> 0:39:55.000 kind of scene where they were going, and I could 0:39:55.040 --> 0:39:58.000 have gotten to that point earlier that was being a 0:39:58.040 --> 0:40:02.960 little stupid kid, and I just kept doing things that 0:40:03.040 --> 0:40:03.960 I shouldn't have been doing. 0:40:06.360 --> 0:40:10.000 Yeah, well, I mean, you know, look, it's good that 0:40:10.040 --> 0:40:12.720 you at least you know sort of. I mean, although 0:40:13.120 --> 0:40:15.359 although that was a lot for a kid to be doing, 0:40:15.960 --> 0:40:18.080 you know, it's good that you sort of learned your 0:40:18.200 --> 0:40:19.759 lesson at a very young age. And oh my god, 0:40:19.800 --> 0:40:23.719 you're still night I mean nineteen, Yeah, you do you 0:40:23.800 --> 0:40:27.840 start dude, So, I mean, it's it's you know, especially 0:40:27.880 --> 0:40:30.040 if you're a funck alone. I don't know if could 0:40:30.040 --> 0:40:31.239 you say something real quick, I don't know if my 0:40:31.360 --> 0:40:37.600 fucking air pods just gets connected. Fuck okay, I can 0:40:37.680 --> 0:40:41.160 hear you now, beautiful. Sorry, this is a very amateur 0:40:41.239 --> 0:40:42.000 they produced show. 0:40:44.680 --> 0:40:44.879 Dude. 0:40:46.239 --> 0:40:48.560 Yeah, I was gonna say, like, it's I know, that's 0:40:48.560 --> 0:40:49.640 a lot of ship for a kid to be doing. 0:40:49.680 --> 0:40:52.160 But it's good that you at least learned your lesson now, 0:40:52.400 --> 0:40:54.240 you know, And like the fact that you've been sober 0:40:54.280 --> 0:40:56.440 for two years and like you've you've kind of gotten 0:40:56.520 --> 0:40:58.719 over this at least, you know, I know, I know, 0:40:58.840 --> 0:41:01.000 I know it's a strug every day and then then 0:41:01.080 --> 0:41:04.279 you know it's it's a thing to be maintained. But 0:41:06.480 --> 0:41:08.400 all all, all the all, the best of you man, 0:41:08.440 --> 0:41:10.400 you got. It's so young, nineteen, you got, you got, 0:41:10.480 --> 0:41:11.640 you got a whole bunch of shit ahead of you. 0:41:11.760 --> 0:41:13.719 So man, good good, good luck, and congrats to you. 0:41:14.840 --> 0:41:18.360 Thank you le for sure man, you take would you 0:41:18.360 --> 0:41:21.680 say your name was again? It was George, George. You 0:41:21.760 --> 0:41:22.520 take care of George. 0:41:22.560 --> 0:41:22.680 Man. 0:41:22.719 --> 0:41:25.000 Have a good night. Thank you for calling you two 0:41:25.080 --> 0:41:25.920 dog have a good one. 0:41:30.120 --> 0:41:35.239 All from Yeah, yeah, is that you? 0:41:36.160 --> 0:41:36.720 Oh buddy? 0:41:36.760 --> 0:41:37.160 You know me? 0:41:38.960 --> 0:41:40.839 Well, I don't. What's up? 0:41:40.920 --> 0:41:42.680 How are you good man? 0:41:42.760 --> 0:41:43.480 How are you man? 0:41:44.200 --> 0:41:50.000 I'm uh, I'm alive as I can be. How are you? 0:41:51.200 --> 0:41:51.439 Yeah? 0:41:52.320 --> 0:41:54.799 I'm doing like the US, I. 0:41:54.920 --> 0:41:55.640 Was doing really well. 0:41:55.719 --> 0:41:57.920 St I remember the last time I called him, and 0:41:58.080 --> 0:42:02.279 I'm gonna be ask for you. I think I messaged you, 0:42:02.360 --> 0:42:04.200 but I have no idea what happened. All right, it 0:42:04.320 --> 0:42:06.080 was a bad night. It was a bad, bad night. 0:42:07.560 --> 0:42:09.160 Tell me tell me about the night the last night 0:42:09.200 --> 0:42:09.840 that you called. 0:42:09.680 --> 0:42:12.080 In that you said, I really don't want to bring 0:42:12.120 --> 0:42:12.560 it back up. 0:42:13.160 --> 0:42:14.520 When you have to bring it, you can't just talk 0:42:14.520 --> 0:42:17.560 about it and not bring it back up. They brought 0:42:17.560 --> 0:42:18.000 it back up. 0:42:19.040 --> 0:42:22.560 It was the one where I talked about animal crossing. 0:42:24.280 --> 0:42:24.800 And omeg. 0:42:26.760 --> 0:42:26.880 Uh. 0:42:27.000 --> 0:42:28.640 Yes, you talked about how you like to talk to 0:42:28.760 --> 0:42:29.720 boys on Omego. 0:42:31.360 --> 0:42:33.200 I watched it the next morning because I was like, 0:42:33.280 --> 0:42:36.560 did I call the Gecko Show? And I can't believe 0:42:36.640 --> 0:42:40.160 I said that it was. It's the most embarrassing moment 0:42:40.200 --> 0:42:40.640 of my life. 0:42:42.000 --> 0:42:43.359 You need to remind us of what you said. 0:42:44.480 --> 0:42:44.919 I said. 0:42:45.120 --> 0:42:48.320 I said, I called, and I said I like to 0:42:48.400 --> 0:42:51.399 go on Omego and talk to animal cross talk about 0:42:51.400 --> 0:42:52.720 animal crossing with boys? 0:42:54.520 --> 0:42:55.440 Now, why did you say that? 0:42:56.239 --> 0:42:58.360 I listen? 0:42:59.320 --> 0:43:07.080 I was absolutely ship fast all night. Okay, I don't 0:43:07.120 --> 0:43:09.680 want to switch. I've never been on Omego. I don't 0:43:09.680 --> 0:43:16.239 know why I said it. I didn't have. 0:43:16.280 --> 0:43:19.400 Anyone calling back for like redemption. 0:43:20.480 --> 0:43:22.400 No, I would like to call back and take this 0:43:22.560 --> 0:43:23.680 question normally. 0:43:26.160 --> 0:43:27.239 How drunk? How drunk are you? 0:43:27.360 --> 0:43:27.480 Right? 0:43:27.880 --> 0:43:30.719 I bet you're Are you like only eighty percent as 0:43:30.800 --> 0:43:31.960 drunk as now as you were? 0:43:32.080 --> 0:43:34.600 Then I would say you're solid fifty. All right, It's 0:43:34.640 --> 0:43:40.480 not as bad, but it's still on that line. You 0:43:40.560 --> 0:43:43.239 know that line Why I got to keep myself in 0:43:43.360 --> 0:43:46.440 shack to make sure I don't start talking about Omego again, right, 0:43:46.880 --> 0:43:50.480 because there's one. There's a line, man. 0:43:52.080 --> 0:43:55.640 All right, I'm gonna against my better judgment. I'm gonna 0:43:55.719 --> 0:43:58.400 let you answer the question of the day. Okay, But 0:43:58.400 --> 0:44:03.399 if you say, if you start talking about just look, look, 0:44:03.440 --> 0:44:06.440 I'm trusting you, yack, No, No, I'm not. Does that 0:44:06.560 --> 0:44:08.080 mean nothing to you that I trust you? 0:44:08.800 --> 0:44:10.080 I trust you too, and I. 0:44:10.800 --> 0:44:13.000 Don't care if you trust me. I'm trusting you. 0:44:13.200 --> 0:44:15.160 I'm taking the trust you're giving me, and I'm putting 0:44:15.160 --> 0:44:16.800 it in my heart. I'm going to give you a 0:44:17.719 --> 0:44:20.000 PG answer. All right, there's nothing wrong with this. 0:44:20.120 --> 0:44:24.279 You don't have to give me a you just tell 0:44:24.320 --> 0:44:24.920 me the truth. 0:44:26.040 --> 0:44:27.759 Yeah, the truth. I'm going to tell you. 0:44:28.280 --> 0:44:29.040 Yeah, what do you miss? 0:44:31.080 --> 0:44:31.640 What do I miss? 0:44:34.000 --> 0:44:34.200 Yes? 0:44:34.880 --> 0:44:37.600 Miss, I'm miss being a kid? 0:44:37.680 --> 0:44:37.839 Man? 0:44:39.719 --> 0:44:42.080 Why do you miss being a kid? What do you miss? 0:44:42.280 --> 0:44:43.920 Or what what do you miss about being a kid? 0:44:44.560 --> 0:44:48.440 I missed the people, the people more than anything I 0:44:48.480 --> 0:44:50.960 could say. I could say, you know, the the lack 0:44:51.000 --> 0:44:51.920 of care or. 0:44:53.560 --> 0:44:54.680 How school was so. 0:44:55.080 --> 0:44:58.719 Easy, But I just missed the people. All right, I know, 0:44:58.920 --> 0:45:01.120 I keep in cond but none of the people I know. 0:45:02.920 --> 0:45:04.880 All right, What do you mean by you miss the people? 0:45:04.960 --> 0:45:07.640 Like you miss? You miss specifically the people you're friends 0:45:07.719 --> 0:45:08.600 with when you were a kid? 0:45:09.440 --> 0:45:10.360 Yeah, I do. 0:45:11.480 --> 0:45:14.120 I had this friend group when I was in the 0:45:14.160 --> 0:45:17.200 fourth grade. There it was the coolest people I ever met. 0:45:17.239 --> 0:45:17.759 We played a. 0:45:19.239 --> 0:45:19.719 That uh. 0:45:21.760 --> 0:45:23.160 Was the Minecraft? 0:45:24.400 --> 0:45:24.560 Oh? 0:45:24.800 --> 0:45:29.319 Maybe it was so much fun? I still so many 0:45:29.360 --> 0:45:33.480 lad I was How am I twenty two ninety eight 0:45:36.600 --> 0:45:37.480 born in ninety eight. 0:45:37.600 --> 0:45:37.759 Yeah? 0:45:37.800 --> 0:45:39.440 No, there was there was Minecraft in fourth grade. I'm 0:45:39.440 --> 0:45:43.080 sorry there was anyway, Okay, it was very new, but 0:45:44.680 --> 0:45:46.319 I'm sorry. You sound like you're fifty two? 0:45:47.280 --> 0:45:47.680 Are you do? 0:45:48.040 --> 0:45:48.560 But do you know that? 0:45:48.600 --> 0:45:49.000 Do you know that? 0:45:50.360 --> 0:45:51.080 I get that a lot. 0:45:54.160 --> 0:45:55.960 If you saw my face, you'd be like, there's no 0:45:56.040 --> 0:45:57.560 way that guy sounds like he's fifty two. 0:46:00.600 --> 0:46:01.320 Isn't this crazy? 0:46:01.400 --> 0:46:01.560 You know? 0:46:01.760 --> 0:46:04.480 You came in here, you said something weird about boys, 0:46:04.600 --> 0:46:06.560 and then it turns out you yourself are a boy. 0:46:08.560 --> 0:46:12.040 Yeah, I guess, yeah, I guess you could a demograph. 0:46:12.120 --> 0:46:13.160 You could consider me a boy? 0:46:16.239 --> 0:46:16.560 M hm? 0:46:18.000 --> 0:46:18.680 Would you go back? 0:46:18.719 --> 0:46:19.080 And would you? 0:46:19.160 --> 0:46:19.480 Would you? 0:46:19.480 --> 0:46:21.759 Would you go back and become a kid if again? 0:46:21.800 --> 0:46:23.359 If you could? No, I'm a get go If would 0:46:23.360 --> 0:46:24.520 you go back and become a kid again? 0:46:26.160 --> 0:46:29.439 Under what circumstances? Could rewind time? 0:46:30.840 --> 0:46:31.680 Became a kid? Right now? 0:46:32.600 --> 0:46:35.680 Time rewind time without a doubt in my mind? 0:46:36.719 --> 0:46:37.000 Yack? 0:46:37.960 --> 0:46:38.799 What I remember now? 0:46:40.800 --> 0:46:40.840 No? 0:46:41.200 --> 0:46:43.640 Yack that yack. Don't do that, man, I hate I 0:46:43.640 --> 0:46:45.960 would never do that. Never, don't do that. Don't don't 0:46:46.000 --> 0:46:49.160 regress yack because you're look, you're only twenty two, dude, 0:46:49.760 --> 0:46:52.760 Like fuck, being a kid, being a kid was sucked. 0:46:53.040 --> 0:46:55.520 You couldn't do it, every stupid kid everything. 0:46:55.560 --> 0:46:57.399 I would do it again if I had the chance. 0:46:57.800 --> 0:46:59.399 No, don't do it. No you have but by the way, 0:46:59.440 --> 0:47:01.560 you have the shance to do it again because you're 0:47:01.560 --> 0:47:02.000 twenty two. 0:47:03.800 --> 0:47:07.600 Yeah, the whole life, the school. I could have spent 0:47:07.680 --> 0:47:09.920 so much time just since year going around. Man, I 0:47:09.960 --> 0:47:11.759 could have had so much more fun if I. 0:47:11.840 --> 0:47:15.000 Knew in the ending you can have more fun. What fun? 0:47:15.840 --> 0:47:19.920 Okay, fun when you're in fourth grade sucks? Okay. I 0:47:20.800 --> 0:47:22.680 played Call of Duty zombies with my friends in fourth 0:47:22.680 --> 0:47:24.759 grade two and it wasn't that good. Looking back on 0:47:24.880 --> 0:47:25.600 it was that good? 0:47:25.680 --> 0:47:26.360 Though it was? 0:47:26.800 --> 0:47:27.200 It was good. 0:47:27.239 --> 0:47:27.560 Your life. 0:47:28.239 --> 0:47:30.080 There's so much more to life than that that you 0:47:30.200 --> 0:47:30.840 could experience. 0:47:30.960 --> 0:47:32.400 And forty years are you going to look back and 0:47:32.520 --> 0:47:34.640 you dressing up as you? You being a Get Go 0:47:34.760 --> 0:47:36.600 and you go, why did I do that? 0:47:37.000 --> 0:47:37.759 No, you're gonna go. 0:47:38.040 --> 0:47:39.880 I love doing that when I when I when I 0:47:40.000 --> 0:47:40.440 was with Get Go. 0:47:40.800 --> 0:47:43.480 Okay, yeah, yeah I am, and I'm not. I'm not 0:47:43.760 --> 0:47:48.799 in fourth grade. I'm not either, okay, but you Yeah, 0:47:48.840 --> 0:47:51.160 but I didn't even know. I've only been I've been 0:47:51.200 --> 0:47:55.920 doing this for less than six months. I've been I've 0:47:55.960 --> 0:47:57.000 not been doing addressing up. 0:47:57.280 --> 0:47:59.719 You were dressing up as a beam more than six 0:47:59.760 --> 0:48:01.440 months ago and going on the B factory. 0:48:02.200 --> 0:48:03.920 Yeah, but that would it didn't even Yeah, But what 0:48:03.960 --> 0:48:07.440 I'm trying to say is like, dude, I'm when you 0:48:07.520 --> 0:48:12.239 were fucking like you could have whatever your version is 0:48:12.280 --> 0:48:13.920 of dressing up as a gecko and being like, oh, 0:48:14.000 --> 0:48:15.600 that's a good thing to do, but that that could 0:48:15.600 --> 0:48:17.520 be ahead of you, but you won't even be able 0:48:17.560 --> 0:48:19.239 to find it if you're too busy like thinking about 0:48:19.239 --> 0:48:20.680 how fun it was to play Minecraft when you were 0:48:20.680 --> 0:48:21.120 in fourth Graen. 0:48:21.200 --> 0:48:21.520 No, no, no, no. 0:48:21.719 --> 0:48:23.480 But the point, the point is I would do it again, 0:48:23.600 --> 0:48:25.040 just to do it again. I would go back for 0:48:25.120 --> 0:48:27.239 a day if I could just have a day back there. 0:48:27.840 --> 0:48:29.360 I don't want to get rid of now. 0:48:29.400 --> 0:48:31.799 Okay, I mean, look I do. I guess I funk 0:48:31.840 --> 0:48:34.040 around with the day. But you weren't talking about fucking 0:48:34.080 --> 0:48:35.680 out with the day. You were talking about going back. 0:48:35.840 --> 0:48:36.960 That's what I was saying, you know. 0:48:37.239 --> 0:48:40.040 Well, I mean if I could relive it and just continue, 0:48:40.120 --> 0:48:42.320 Like if I could just relive it now and just 0:48:42.400 --> 0:48:45.000 do everything again, even if I did it exactly the same, 0:48:46.600 --> 0:48:48.920 would I never be satisfied? Probably? But would I do it? 0:48:49.040 --> 0:48:49.239 Yes? 0:48:52.920 --> 0:48:55.320 We as humans are never going to be satisfied. 0:48:54.840 --> 0:48:55.279 With what we do. 0:48:55.400 --> 0:48:57.879 We could always always say we could have done more, 0:48:58.000 --> 0:48:59.040 even though we couldn't have. 0:49:00.080 --> 0:49:03.200 But you're you. You know what you sound. You are 0:49:03.320 --> 0:49:05.399 sound like you're fifty two, not just because of your voice, 0:49:05.440 --> 0:49:07.000 but because of the way that you're You sound like 0:49:07.040 --> 0:49:10.360 you're fucking eighty five. Right now, you sound like you're dying. 0:49:10.480 --> 0:49:12.520 You're not dying. You're twenty two. You have so much life. 0:49:12.560 --> 0:49:16.120 What are you talking about? Play Minecraft right now? 0:49:16.840 --> 0:49:18.400 I don't want to play Minecraft right now? 0:49:18.920 --> 0:49:22.399 Then okay, but that's then. Then why do you want 0:49:22.480 --> 0:49:24.840 to play Minecraft? If you don't want to play Minecraft? 0:49:25.400 --> 0:49:28.239 I want to play as a twelve year old and 0:49:28.320 --> 0:49:29.600 missus Lesby's. 0:49:29.200 --> 0:49:33.799 Class a fuck Missus Wesby, dude, Missus. 0:49:33.520 --> 0:49:35.440 Wesby was a great teacher and everyone. 0:49:35.680 --> 0:49:36.600 I'm sure she was. 0:49:36.719 --> 0:49:38.839 But she's probably dead now and you have a whole 0:49:38.880 --> 0:49:40.000 life that you have to go live. 0:49:40.600 --> 0:49:44.880 Oh she is dead, I think, all right, So she's in. 0:49:44.920 --> 0:49:47.000 The past, and now you have your own life that 0:49:47.120 --> 0:49:47.799 you can go live. 0:49:49.280 --> 0:49:49.640 What am I? 0:49:49.719 --> 0:49:50.600 What am I supposed to do? 0:49:51.040 --> 0:49:54.279 I don't even know what I'm doing? Yack? What am 0:49:54.320 --> 0:49:54.880 I supposed to do? 0:49:55.000 --> 0:49:55.840 What I what I have? 0:49:57.560 --> 0:49:57.600 What? 0:49:57.840 --> 0:49:58.160 What do you? 0:49:58.360 --> 0:49:58.680 What do you? 0:49:58.880 --> 0:49:59.759 What do you want to do? 0:50:01.200 --> 0:50:04.839 I don't know what I want to do. I want 0:50:04.840 --> 0:50:05.840 to I want to do something. 0:50:06.200 --> 0:50:09.600 I look by the way. Sometimes sometimes you figure out 0:50:09.640 --> 0:50:11.880 what you want to do by just doing shit. I 0:50:12.040 --> 0:50:14.399 never woke up and was like I want I never 0:50:14.480 --> 0:50:16.719 will I never ever, there's never like with this show. 0:50:16.760 --> 0:50:18.160 I know, if you want to bring up this ship 0:50:18.200 --> 0:50:20.640 as an example, I was never like I want to 0:50:20.800 --> 0:50:24.320 go be a gecko and take calls. I just started 0:50:24.440 --> 0:50:28.640 doing things and fucking around with the tools around me 0:50:28.840 --> 0:50:31.799 that I thought were interesting, and then something came out 0:50:31.840 --> 0:50:33.400 of it and I ended up rolling with it. But 0:50:33.600 --> 0:50:35.839 it didn't come from like a you know, So that's 0:50:35.840 --> 0:50:37.400 what you gotta do. You gotta just look at the 0:50:37.480 --> 0:50:39.759 tools around you and start fucking around with them and 0:50:39.840 --> 0:50:43.959 experimenting and doing things. Don't and don't think about going 0:50:44.000 --> 0:50:46.879 back to being twelve and playing Minecraft, because these days 0:50:46.920 --> 0:50:49.719 are over and you're only twenty two going back. 0:50:50.320 --> 0:50:52.520 You don't think about the days when you were, when 0:50:52.520 --> 0:50:54.279 you were in the fourth grade and think about you 0:50:54.680 --> 0:50:55.240 so sweetly. 0:50:55.320 --> 0:50:58.800 You don't do that, No, I'm honest, No, honestly, I 0:50:58.880 --> 0:51:00.720 try not to. I mean, look, I I look fondly 0:51:00.840 --> 0:51:04.680 at my life, but I'm interested more in the present 0:51:05.640 --> 0:51:06.680 than I am in the past. 0:51:08.520 --> 0:51:10.759 If you died tomorrow, would you be content with your life? 0:51:10.800 --> 0:51:11.120 Totally? 0:51:12.960 --> 0:51:13.200 Really? 0:51:13.880 --> 0:51:14.040 Yes? 0:51:15.480 --> 0:51:17.880 There's nothing you want to do you'd want to be 0:51:18.000 --> 0:51:19.799 like I wish I could have done that before I died. 0:51:20.760 --> 0:51:22.200 There's a lot of things I want to do before 0:51:22.200 --> 0:51:24.399 I die. But if I fucking died right now, I look, 0:51:24.640 --> 0:51:26.759 I have had a great life. You've tund you just 0:51:26.760 --> 0:51:29.640 sound like you've had a good life too, everybody, Like 0:51:29.719 --> 0:51:33.200 most people. I don't want to get into other people's bullship. 0:51:33.239 --> 0:51:37.799 But there's more do you have so much more life 0:51:37.880 --> 0:51:40.160 left to live? I don't know why you're throwing in 0:51:40.239 --> 0:51:41.160 the towel at twenty two. 0:51:41.880 --> 0:51:44.279 I'm not throwing in the town. I'm trying things, all right. 0:51:44.600 --> 0:51:45.879 I'm trying to make this movie. 0:51:46.840 --> 0:51:47.719 You're trying to make a movie. 0:51:48.400 --> 0:51:49.399 I'm trying to make a movie. 0:51:50.960 --> 0:51:52.880 Go make a movie. I like that idea. I like 0:51:52.920 --> 0:51:53.560 you making a movie. 0:51:54.320 --> 0:51:56.160 I'm trying, man, I'm trying. 0:51:57.640 --> 0:52:00.840 Make a documentary about Missus WEBBSY make an ode to 0:52:00.920 --> 0:52:04.840 her life. An ode, Yes, an ode. 0:52:06.840 --> 0:52:09.680 Missus Wesby like lighthouses, all right. She liked lighthouses, and 0:52:09.760 --> 0:52:14.560 she was fat. She was more than the obese. No 0:52:14.640 --> 0:52:15.600 offense to missus Lesby. 0:52:17.800 --> 0:52:21.520 So so okay, so I don't I'm just I'm. 0:52:21.480 --> 0:52:23.920 Just I'm just thinking. I'm just thinking out loud. 0:52:24.600 --> 0:52:28.080 All right, listen, yeah, thank you for thank you for 0:52:28.200 --> 0:52:31.080 calling in man, and look, go give missus Wellsby a call. 0:52:31.160 --> 0:52:33.000 Find out that is she does she really dead? 0:52:33.760 --> 0:52:34.239 I don't know? 0:52:35.880 --> 0:52:38.040 Then who can? Then then it does? Then you don't. 0:52:38.040 --> 0:52:40.840 If you don't know if she's dead or not, then 0:52:40.880 --> 0:52:43.480 you don't care about her. Then she's not that important 0:52:43.520 --> 0:52:44.640 in your present life. 0:52:45.239 --> 0:52:45.520 Okay. 0:52:45.520 --> 0:52:49.480 So I will look then at people that. 0:52:49.840 --> 0:52:52.880 I know, anyone who I currently anyone who is important 0:52:52.920 --> 0:52:56.080 to me in my present day life. I know the 0:52:56.160 --> 0:52:58.600 status of whether or not they're they're alive or death. 0:52:59.000 --> 0:53:00.160 She's not important me. 0:53:00.200 --> 0:53:03.080 I'm not you know, checking my my watch every minute 0:53:03.080 --> 0:53:04.960 to see how missus Lesby is. All right, Maybe you 0:53:05.040 --> 0:53:06.879 know my buddy Tony who is on the street. Maybe 0:53:06.920 --> 0:53:09.640 I'll go check in on him, but you know, not 0:53:09.840 --> 0:53:12.000 not not not okay. See I type in I type 0:53:12.040 --> 0:53:12.560 in her name and. 0:53:12.600 --> 0:53:13.760 It comes up with a talent. 0:53:13.880 --> 0:53:16.560 All right, ya yack, you. 0:53:16.600 --> 0:53:17.840 Need to take some other calls. I don't know what 0:53:17.880 --> 0:53:18.400 you're doing with me. 0:53:20.640 --> 0:53:23.279 Good luck, Yack. I'm that serious. Good luck, good luck, 0:53:23.480 --> 0:53:25.880 think about what I said. Fuck fuck fuck fuck Missus 0:53:25.920 --> 0:53:27.799 Wesby and fuck minecraft. Go make a movie. 0:53:29.280 --> 0:53:32.120 All right, I'll try, I'll try, I'll I'll talk to 0:53:32.160 --> 0:53:33.000 you soon, you know. 0:53:35.239 --> 0:53:35.560 Good night? 0:53:35.640 --> 0:53:37.160 Yeah, all right, good. 0:53:37.120 --> 0:53:43.359 Night call from Flo. 0:53:45.640 --> 0:53:49.200 Flow. You know, Flow, you and I can relate to you, 0:53:49.280 --> 0:53:50.719 and I have the thing that we can relate to. 0:53:52.320 --> 0:53:54.400 Absolutely guess what you know what it is? 0:53:57.200 --> 0:53:58.960 We both graduated in Jesus night. 0:54:00.920 --> 0:54:02.600 No, how do you know I didn't graduate too that? 0:54:02.640 --> 0:54:03.359 What do you graduate from? 0:54:03.400 --> 0:54:03.480 One? 0:54:03.560 --> 0:54:03.600 Do? 0:54:03.640 --> 0:54:04.040 Doesn't it. 0:54:05.760 --> 0:54:06.240 High school? 0:54:09.200 --> 0:54:12.120 Who can guess what Flow and I have in common 0:54:13.000 --> 0:54:18.759 to bond over Flow? Think here? 0:54:22.239 --> 0:54:31.720 Uh, you know, I'm really trying, but I'm not getting anything. 0:54:32.320 --> 0:54:36.680 Flow. We both get a disgusting amount of unfunny insurance 0:54:36.800 --> 0:54:39.800 jokes message to us on a daily basis. 0:54:41.560 --> 0:54:42.960 You're right, You're right. 0:54:44.640 --> 0:54:45.680 How does that feel for you? 0:54:49.640 --> 0:54:49.800 You know? 0:54:51.400 --> 0:54:51.879 Not bad? 0:54:52.480 --> 0:54:53.000 Not great. 0:54:55.400 --> 0:54:58.320 I think it was worse when my dad said I 0:54:58.520 --> 0:55:01.640 looked like her when I was like sixteen. 0:55:01.760 --> 0:55:05.439 I was like, no, I do not think there's nothing 0:55:05.480 --> 0:55:07.520 wrong with looking like Flow. She's very beautiful. 0:55:09.160 --> 0:55:13.560 Well I'm not saying she's not beautiful, but I'm saying 0:55:14.520 --> 0:55:16.359 I do not look anything like her. 0:55:18.080 --> 0:55:20.640 Well, listen, flow, you must have called in for a reason. 0:55:20.719 --> 0:55:21.920 How can I help you this evening? 0:55:24.280 --> 0:55:28.000 You know, I've just been watching your stream, probably for. 0:55:29.800 --> 0:55:34.560 Since the beginning of the year I think was the 0:55:34.640 --> 0:55:37.319 beginning of this year, of this year. 0:55:37.440 --> 0:55:40.360 Yeah, it's been like maybe a week or. 0:55:40.360 --> 0:55:44.200 Two twenty twenty dec Nation. And what's what's your least 0:55:44.239 --> 0:55:46.880 favorite part of the stream? What makes you what parts 0:55:47.320 --> 0:55:48.680 of it make you want to turn it off? 0:55:50.960 --> 0:55:51.840 The boring calls? 0:55:53.200 --> 0:55:57.239 Okay, the boring How do you define a boring call? 0:56:01.160 --> 0:56:03.880 I don't know. There's just sometimes when you get some 0:56:04.080 --> 0:56:11.520 calls that are usually from thirty something males that just 0:56:12.239 --> 0:56:15.719 don't have anything to talk about. But also I really 0:56:15.840 --> 0:56:19.480 dislike a lot of the underage calls and the really 0:56:19.680 --> 0:56:20.520 truly calls. 0:56:23.160 --> 0:56:25.719 So you say, the most boring calls are from like 0:56:25.840 --> 0:56:27.919 thirty year old men that don't have anything to talk about. 0:56:27.960 --> 0:56:30.160 Is there anyone in particular that you maybe remember You 0:56:30.200 --> 0:56:32.160 don't have to know their names, but a situation you 0:56:32.200 --> 0:56:35.080 can describe that you remember being very boring. Well, I 0:56:35.120 --> 0:56:38.000 guess that's hard because it's boring, so you probably remember it. 0:56:38.120 --> 0:56:46.120 But yeah, exactly, man, I know It was one of 0:56:46.200 --> 0:56:50.800 the first times I watched the stream and he just 0:56:51.840 --> 0:56:55.759 seemed to drone on and on and the conversation. 0:56:55.320 --> 0:57:00.359 Went nowhere, do you think that this call is boring? 0:57:02.160 --> 0:57:05.200 I mean it definitely could be. There's not as much 0:57:07.600 --> 0:57:13.360 spice to the call as you usually have because a 0:57:13.440 --> 0:57:16.160 lot of people have a lot of hot take. 0:57:17.600 --> 0:57:19.920 Hot takes you, so you think that it would spice 0:57:20.000 --> 0:57:21.720 up the call for for either of us to have 0:57:22.160 --> 0:57:25.160 a hot take to present to to to to the 0:57:25.240 --> 0:57:26.400 stream or to each other. 0:57:27.840 --> 0:57:30.280 Absolutely the case. 0:57:30.560 --> 0:57:33.080 This is interesting for me because I want to I 0:57:33.200 --> 0:57:35.520 want to know you know. Look, I think that you 0:57:35.600 --> 0:57:38.160 can improve something unless if you're willing to accept the 0:57:38.200 --> 0:57:42.440 flaws of it. So this has helped interesting information for me. 0:57:42.520 --> 0:57:43.640 I mean, what do you think I could do to 0:57:43.680 --> 0:57:44.800 make these calls less boring? 0:57:47.400 --> 0:57:47.520 Uh? 0:57:47.920 --> 0:57:50.440 Definitely have a fire round of. 0:57:50.600 --> 0:57:54.040 Questions, fire round? Okay, I like it? 0:57:54.160 --> 0:58:00.760 Yeah, Like just off topic completely, just Sam, Sam, What 0:58:00.920 --> 0:58:05.040 do they got to say about a topic that makes 0:58:05.080 --> 0:58:08.000 absolutely no sense? Like, for example, what do you think 0:58:08.000 --> 0:58:10.000 about a Veno lotion? 0:58:11.280 --> 0:58:12.080 A Veno lotion? 0:58:13.240 --> 0:58:13.439 Yeah? 0:58:15.080 --> 0:58:17.959 I don't like that question that much because what about 0:58:18.200 --> 0:58:20.480 is that it feels it feels sort of closed, right, 0:58:20.640 --> 0:58:23.360 like a Veno lotion. It's like, I don't think anything 0:58:23.400 --> 0:58:24.760 of it. I have no experience. I don't even know 0:58:24.800 --> 0:58:25.160 what it is. 0:58:26.800 --> 0:58:27.480 Yeah, exactly. 0:58:28.120 --> 0:58:31.320 Well, I mean okay, so what do you mean exactly? 0:58:31.480 --> 0:58:33.120 That's that would be boring because I don't know what 0:58:33.200 --> 0:58:35.040 it is. I don't have any I don't have a 0:58:35.080 --> 0:58:35.920 strong opinion about it. 0:58:37.720 --> 0:58:40.560 Yes, but take something where you do have a strong opinion, right, 0:58:41.160 --> 0:58:43.160 like do you like bottled water? 0:58:48.040 --> 0:58:50.520 Do I like what bottled water? 0:58:52.320 --> 0:58:52.480 Yeah? 0:58:52.520 --> 0:58:53.400 I like bottled water. 0:58:55.120 --> 0:58:59.840 See there's something there for everybody. Uh here, here's my 0:59:00.960 --> 0:59:05.080 the hottest take that I have. Okay, I remember All 0:59:05.240 --> 0:59:08.480 Summer Long came out in two thousand and eight was 0:59:09.000 --> 0:59:11.760 a matchup of Sweet Home Alabama and you have a 0:59:11.800 --> 0:59:12.200 would you have. 0:59:12.200 --> 0:59:14.640 A weird fascination with two thousand and eight? Was that 0:59:14.760 --> 0:59:15.440 a good year for you? 0:59:16.840 --> 0:59:17.000 Oh? 0:59:17.320 --> 0:59:21.320 Absolutely not? Fucking hated that song. And I think Kid 0:59:21.480 --> 0:59:22.800 Rock is a horrible artist. 0:59:23.640 --> 0:59:26.960 There that is, I don't Here's my thing is, I 0:59:27.040 --> 0:59:31.040 don't really do anything aside from this. I really do 0:59:31.320 --> 0:59:33.640 just sit at home and stare at a wall. So like, 0:59:33.920 --> 0:59:36.160 I'm not well, I'm not good at talking about bands 0:59:36.240 --> 0:59:42.720 or pop culture or you know, bottled water. I don't 0:59:42.760 --> 0:59:44.440 have I don't have hot takes. I don't I'm not 0:59:44.520 --> 0:59:47.840 knowledgeable enough for hot takes. That's kind of why, like 0:59:47.840 --> 0:59:51.000 a ninety percent of the stream is, you know, listening 0:59:51.080 --> 0:59:55.120 to other people because I don't. I don't have strong takes. 0:59:55.800 --> 0:59:57.400 Actually that's not true. The other day I was talking 0:59:57.400 --> 0:59:59.320 about how we should be allowed to poop in public, 0:59:59.400 --> 1:00:09.200 but I was like, I was eighty percent kidding. Was 1:00:09.280 --> 1:00:11.600 this a boring call? Be honest? 1:00:11.680 --> 1:00:12.400 Oh definitely? 1:00:13.000 --> 1:00:14.600 Do you think it was definitely boring? 1:00:15.520 --> 1:00:23.000 It's definitely bullet boring because honestly, I had no fucking 1:00:23.400 --> 1:00:25.080 like idea that I was going to get through. 1:00:28.560 --> 1:00:33.240 I'm so fun. We're fucked, dude, we can't. We're fucked this. 1:00:33.520 --> 1:00:35.240 This isn't gonna go. This is not good this. I 1:00:35.280 --> 1:00:37.040 don't think we can. I don't think this is sustainable 1:00:37.400 --> 1:00:39.880 to just have all these boring calls. What are we 1:00:40.000 --> 1:00:40.320 gonna do? 1:00:42.800 --> 1:00:45.960 I mean, you're gonna find somebody that's probably better than 1:00:46.000 --> 1:00:49.480 I am that talking on the therapy gecko. Honestly, what 1:00:49.640 --> 1:00:53.160 I really wanted to say, sure, was I really enjoyed 1:00:53.200 --> 1:00:54.800 your haiku stream last week? 1:00:56.040 --> 1:00:59.560 Oh? Thank you, thank you, thank you, tomorrow Experimental Tuesdays. 1:00:59.560 --> 1:01:04.720 I got I got a good thing cooking for tomorrow. Yeah, 1:01:05.240 --> 1:01:08.440 will you be there? No, no spoilers, you got to 1:01:08.480 --> 1:01:09.880 be there. But are you going to be there? 1:01:10.920 --> 1:01:11.040 Oh? 1:01:11.120 --> 1:01:14.400 Hell yeah, I'm gonna be listening. I listen every single time. 1:01:15.240 --> 1:01:17.600 Every single time, even though it's boring. That's that's how. 1:01:17.800 --> 1:01:19.720 That's how I know you're a real one. All right, Look, 1:01:20.320 --> 1:01:23.320 I'm boring you. We're boring each other. We should get all. 1:01:23.320 --> 1:01:24.680 We should get off the phone with each other. Do 1:01:24.760 --> 1:01:26.640 you think that would be helpful to both of us? 1:01:28.160 --> 1:01:32.840 I mean, honestly, probably, But also I'm kind of having 1:01:32.880 --> 1:01:35.840 a little fun trolling chat just because they're calling me boring. 1:01:37.160 --> 1:01:37.480 How are you? 1:01:37.760 --> 1:01:41.360 No one's trolling anyone. We're just on the phone, I know. 1:01:41.640 --> 1:01:46.280 But it's amazingly funny that I get to be the 1:01:46.360 --> 1:01:46.919 boring one. 1:01:49.920 --> 1:01:54.000 Well see, I don't have anything to say to that, 1:01:54.080 --> 1:01:56.120 because it's because you know what, what's would you say? 1:01:56.120 --> 1:01:56.600 Your name was? 1:01:57.840 --> 1:01:58.040 Wow? 1:02:00.920 --> 1:02:03.120 Like the girl from Progressive the car insurance lady? Do 1:02:03.200 --> 1:02:09.760 you sell insurance? No, I'll talk to you later. 1:02:09.800 --> 1:02:12.840 Flow all right, I'll be get. 1:02:18.320 --> 1:02:24.000 All from Mark, Mark, my friend. 1:02:24.200 --> 1:02:25.640 I am a man of little time, So do you 1:02:25.800 --> 1:02:28.000 care if I give this call to a friend of mine? 1:02:29.280 --> 1:02:29.640 Uh not? 1:02:29.800 --> 1:02:30.160 Go for it? 1:02:31.120 --> 1:02:40.600 All right, Tony, We'll wait for him. 1:02:43.080 --> 1:02:47.280 Hello, Tony, hey man, how's it going. 1:02:48.040 --> 1:02:49.800 It's going all right. I want to hear you. Thank 1:02:49.840 --> 1:02:52.480 you friend Mark for giving your giving away his call 1:02:52.560 --> 1:02:52.720 to you. 1:02:53.760 --> 1:02:53.960 Mark. 1:02:54.040 --> 1:02:55.400 I really, I really appreciate it. 1:02:55.520 --> 1:02:57.880 We've been trying this for about an hour and a 1:02:57.880 --> 1:02:58.280 half now. 1:02:59.280 --> 1:03:02.520 I just want to give my shout out because. 1:03:03.800 --> 1:03:08.200 He's in my friend since third grade, and uh, yeah, 1:03:09.120 --> 1:03:09.800 it was nice of. 1:03:09.880 --> 1:03:11.160 Him to I mean, it was nice of him to 1:03:11.200 --> 1:03:13.600 give away his call like that to you. Do you 1:03:13.720 --> 1:03:15.960 feel like, do you feel sort of a pressure to 1:03:16.160 --> 1:03:19.680 like make it worthwhile, to like make this a good call, 1:03:19.880 --> 1:03:23.160 like for for this for his sake because he donated 1:03:23.160 --> 1:03:23.400 it to you. 1:03:24.600 --> 1:03:26.600 I do, I do, I'll make it a good call. 1:03:28.120 --> 1:03:30.120 Well, the joke, the joke's on you, because there is 1:03:30.200 --> 1:03:32.480 no such thing as a qualitative judgment of the calls. 1:03:33.200 --> 1:03:35.920 It's not a real thing. Does call. 1:03:37.920 --> 1:03:40.040 I'm just called what do you do? What do you do? 1:03:40.120 --> 1:03:41.520 What do you do for fun? Tony? 1:03:42.600 --> 1:03:43.080 For fun? 1:03:44.880 --> 1:03:52.920 So I I live in Louisiana, right, and in Louisiana, 1:03:53.840 --> 1:03:56.600 you can do this thing like you can. You can 1:03:56.680 --> 1:03:58.240 do alligator wrestling. 1:03:59.440 --> 1:03:59.680 Really. 1:04:00.080 --> 1:04:02.760 Uh it's it's like really readily available. 1:04:02.840 --> 1:04:05.080 Like you can go to a place. 1:04:06.880 --> 1:04:09.360 And uh, they'll they'll, they'll, they'll, you'll they'll teach you 1:04:09.360 --> 1:04:11.640 how to wrestle alligators for like fifty bucks. 1:04:12.480 --> 1:04:12.800 Mm. 1:04:13.640 --> 1:04:16.040 Now, when you go to do alligator wrestling, who typically 1:04:16.160 --> 1:04:18.560 wins between you and the alligator? 1:04:19.640 --> 1:04:22.240 Well, I only do the baby ones because I don't 1:04:22.280 --> 1:04:24.400 really want to, Like you can you can choose, Like 1:04:25.200 --> 1:04:26.840 I only weigh one hundred and forty pounds, so I 1:04:26.960 --> 1:04:28.840 have to do like the little ones because the big 1:04:28.920 --> 1:04:29.400 ones are. 1:04:29.440 --> 1:04:30.840 Those eat me. 1:04:31.360 --> 1:04:34.800 So you can pick like tears, Like there's like tiers 1:04:34.840 --> 1:04:38.320 of alligators and there's sizes, so like the small ones. 1:04:38.480 --> 1:04:41.800 I I mean, obviously I win, Because I didn't, that 1:04:41.840 --> 1:04:42.400 wouldn't be good. 1:04:42.440 --> 1:04:44.440 Okay, okay, hold on, hold on, hold I don't think 1:04:44.520 --> 1:04:48.120 I still I wouldn't say, like, obviously you win. I 1:04:48.240 --> 1:04:51.520 still feel like a baby alligator is a threat. 1:04:53.120 --> 1:04:55.120 Yeah, you're right, you're right, you're right. 1:04:55.240 --> 1:04:59.560 They they've got some some safety precautions because you know, 1:05:00.040 --> 1:05:01.040 the baby alligators. 1:05:01.120 --> 1:05:06.560 I mean, they have safety precautions for the alligators themselves, 1:05:07.440 --> 1:05:09.720 because because that's the thing right, is who really wins 1:05:09.880 --> 1:05:11.520 when you beat up a baby alligator? 1:05:12.120 --> 1:05:14.520 Yeah, I say baby. 1:05:14.600 --> 1:05:17.760 But like they're they're just like small, small alligators. I 1:05:17.800 --> 1:05:18.760 shouldn't think they're. 1:05:18.600 --> 1:05:22.640 Not Like it's not like because I'm imagining like a cute, little, tiny, 1:05:22.640 --> 1:05:27.280 little alligator with like big bulgy eyes. That's like they 1:05:27.280 --> 1:05:29.720 just don't wrestle. That's saying to you, please don't wrestle me. 1:05:29.800 --> 1:05:30.280 It hurts. 1:05:31.080 --> 1:05:31.720 I just want to go. 1:05:33.240 --> 1:05:36.400 I'm not evil, you know. So like the youve got 1:05:36.440 --> 1:05:40.400 like there's like three four foot long alligators, and there's 1:05:40.480 --> 1:05:45.160 like the the terrifying like six seven foot alligators. They're 1:05:45.240 --> 1:05:52.080 just like monsters. So the the small ones you gotta like, 1:05:52.360 --> 1:05:55.160 you gotta. There's there's there's there's a strategy. 1:05:54.720 --> 1:05:58.720 That they teach you, and it's just do you got 1:05:58.800 --> 1:06:01.240 to get behind them needed the neck. 1:06:02.240 --> 1:06:05.640 You put them in like a chokehold, and I mean 1:06:05.680 --> 1:06:07.680 you pretty much got it at that point. Then you 1:06:07.800 --> 1:06:09.360 got to tape up like their mouth and stuff so 1:06:09.400 --> 1:06:12.640 they don't just you know, buy your nose off. 1:06:15.280 --> 1:06:19.520 What inspired you to want to wrestle alligators? 1:06:22.360 --> 1:06:29.960 Well, I'm scared of them, and it's it's something I 1:06:30.160 --> 1:06:37.960 like to do, is to challenge my my fears. It's 1:06:38.040 --> 1:06:41.400 like it's like a like a like a self improvement 1:06:41.480 --> 1:06:44.720 kind of thing. But you know, if I'm scared of 1:06:44.800 --> 1:06:52.360 doing something, doing it, well, negate that fear. 1:06:52.760 --> 1:06:55.439 But don't you have don't don't you don't you feel 1:06:55.480 --> 1:06:57.840 bad for the baby alley? Don't you feel bad when 1:06:57.840 --> 1:06:59.720 you're putting your knee on the neck of a baby 1:06:59.720 --> 1:07:00.400 alley gator? 1:07:01.760 --> 1:07:08.560 I do, but not not in the moment. There's a 1:07:08.600 --> 1:07:09.360 lot of adrenaline. 1:07:09.680 --> 1:07:11.480 I'll tell you the moment. The moment is where it 1:07:11.560 --> 1:07:14.920 counts the most, because the moment is when is when 1:07:14.960 --> 1:07:15.480 you're doing it. 1:07:17.160 --> 1:07:21.520 Yeah, yeah, I've I've only I've only wrestled them a 1:07:21.600 --> 1:07:22.240 couple of times. 1:07:23.560 --> 1:07:25.480 Two I just two times. 1:07:25.800 --> 1:07:30.240 In the summer of twenty fourteen. There was just something 1:07:30.280 --> 1:07:32.680 in the air, and I thought wrestling alligators sounded like 1:07:32.720 --> 1:07:39.120 a good idea. But you know, as as my fear diminished, 1:07:40.080 --> 1:07:44.640 I realized that that's that's not a it's not really 1:07:44.640 --> 1:07:47.600 a nice thing to do to the alligators. It's just 1:07:47.680 --> 1:07:49.760 wrestle them and then you let them go. But like 1:07:50.680 --> 1:07:54.520 I mean, I wouldn't want an alligator wrestling my child. 1:07:55.040 --> 1:07:59.240 It's true, So I kind of like, you know, that's true, 1:07:59.640 --> 1:08:00.840 it's gary, it's. 1:08:02.360 --> 1:08:02.480 Right. 1:08:02.520 --> 1:08:06.400 Imagine if alligators try to wrestle us, that would be. 1:08:06.480 --> 1:08:08.000 Yeah, we'd be terrificiated. 1:08:09.040 --> 1:08:11.040 Yeah, but I mean, I. 1:08:12.840 --> 1:08:13.160 I don't know. 1:08:14.360 --> 1:08:17.360 I think the alligators are just as scared of us 1:08:18.240 --> 1:08:19.120 as we are them. 1:08:20.479 --> 1:08:21.519 I like I like that. 1:08:21.640 --> 1:08:25.320 I like that as like the central theme of this. Right, 1:08:25.400 --> 1:08:28.639 we think of alligators as terrifying and like they don't 1:08:28.640 --> 1:08:30.599 give a fuck and they're bad ass because they're alligators, 1:08:30.600 --> 1:08:33.280 But in reality they're they're scared of us too, and 1:08:33.400 --> 1:08:35.800 we sort of have to come to a mutual I 1:08:35.880 --> 1:08:38.839 think that's how we solve this, is humans and alligators 1:08:38.880 --> 1:08:41.080 need to come to a mutual understanding that there's actually 1:08:41.200 --> 1:08:43.760 more that we actually have more in there's more that 1:08:44.160 --> 1:08:47.360 brings us together than than separates us from each other. 1:08:52.280 --> 1:08:53.880 Have you ever gotten your ass kicked by one of 1:08:53.920 --> 1:08:57.439 these alligators? Has any of them ever? I? 1:08:58.520 --> 1:09:03.719 I have not else, but I've seen it happen. Because 1:09:04.760 --> 1:09:06.519 these these alligators, you know, they. 1:09:08.160 --> 1:09:09.559 Like the ones that I wrestle. 1:09:09.960 --> 1:09:11.200 I gotta go with the lower tier. 1:09:12.360 --> 1:09:15.360 You know, I'm not all sports olegger here, So like 1:09:15.600 --> 1:09:18.800 the alligators that I wrestle are the small one. You know, 1:09:18.920 --> 1:09:21.479 I I've got I've got the benefit of the doubt there. 1:09:22.200 --> 1:09:25.439 But there was a guy who I like, you gotta like. 1:09:25.479 --> 1:09:27.479 There's like a line and. 1:09:29.880 --> 1:09:33.639 This guy was wrestling a like this six foot long 1:09:33.680 --> 1:09:34.760 alligator dude, and. 1:09:36.400 --> 1:09:38.840 He he goes to put the put. 1:09:38.720 --> 1:09:40.479 The put the knee on the neck, like I told you, 1:09:41.160 --> 1:09:44.880 and he like the alligator like like moves like he's 1:09:45.960 --> 1:09:46.680 turns his neck. 1:09:47.000 --> 1:09:47.160 Guy. 1:09:47.280 --> 1:09:53.599 The guy's knee misses and the alligator like like runs away, 1:09:54.560 --> 1:09:56.320 runs away, and they had to they had to go 1:09:56.400 --> 1:09:57.480 down and catch the alligator. 1:09:57.520 --> 1:10:01.280 But he was trying to because someone he. 1:10:03.560 --> 1:10:07.400 Didn't he didn't even fight back, he just ran and 1:10:07.520 --> 1:10:14.280 so he didn't really get that. I would be now 1:10:14.280 --> 1:10:15.840 we're going to try to put his knee on my neck. 1:10:16.360 --> 1:10:17.280 I'm not sticking around. 1:10:17.680 --> 1:10:19.400 If an alligator tried to put his knee on my 1:10:19.520 --> 1:10:21.720 neck and I had the opportunity to either fight the 1:10:21.760 --> 1:10:24.280 alligator or run away, I would absolutely run away from 1:10:24.320 --> 1:10:24.920 the alligator. 1:10:25.760 --> 1:10:28.040 I would run so fast, not even funny. 1:10:30.400 --> 1:10:32.679 Well man, what when's when's the last are you? When's 1:10:32.720 --> 1:10:35.040 the last time that you went alligator wrestling? 1:10:36.479 --> 1:10:37.080 That that was? 1:10:37.200 --> 1:10:42.800 That was that was six years ago. Clean now I'm clean. 1:10:43.360 --> 1:10:46.040 I'm six years clean. I've got a little token and everything. 1:10:47.360 --> 1:10:48.040 I'm not. I'm not. 1:10:48.240 --> 1:10:50.680 I don't play on wrestling anymore alligators because I know 1:10:50.760 --> 1:10:51.320 what I want to do. 1:10:52.439 --> 1:10:53.519 I'm sorry. What were you gonna say? 1:10:54.439 --> 1:10:54.559 Now? 1:10:54.600 --> 1:11:00.080 That's all right, you go ahead, No, please, you realized, Oh. 1:11:00.080 --> 1:11:04.080 I just realized that it's not you know, nice. 1:11:07.360 --> 1:11:09.559 I was going to say, I'm thinking about what if 1:11:09.640 --> 1:11:13.080 I opened like a gecko wrestling place where you could 1:11:13.120 --> 1:11:15.880 come and you could wrestle geckos, but the only gecko 1:11:16.000 --> 1:11:17.800 there is me, and it's just people come and they 1:11:17.920 --> 1:11:21.240 wrestle me, and then at the end we kiss. 1:11:22.680 --> 1:11:25.640 If you if you would offer me like a like 1:11:25.720 --> 1:11:28.880 if I could buy a stock into that company, I 1:11:28.920 --> 1:11:29.360 would do it. 1:11:30.000 --> 1:11:31.280 I'll let you know when we go public. 1:11:33.280 --> 1:11:33.760 Hit me up. 1:11:34.760 --> 1:11:35.479 I'll talk to you soon. 1:11:35.560 --> 1:11:35.680 Man. 1:11:35.720 --> 1:11:37.799 Thank you for going, Thank. 1:11:37.640 --> 1:11:38.120 You for loving me? 1:11:43.240 --> 1:11:43.960 How from. 1:11:47.080 --> 1:11:47.360 Hello? 1:11:49.160 --> 1:11:52.000 While m Where do we go when we die? 1:11:53.600 --> 1:11:53.800 Oh? 1:11:54.280 --> 1:11:57.040 That's well, I'm you know, we're trying to figure that out. 1:11:58.680 --> 1:12:00.400 I don't think it matters where we get. I think 1:12:00.479 --> 1:12:01.920 it matters the legacy we leave. 1:12:02.960 --> 1:12:08.599 What what's your name for a series of note? You said? 1:12:08.720 --> 1:12:11.400 Rickmus Riffner R A. S. 1:12:11.520 --> 1:12:12.000 S N. E. R. 1:12:13.120 --> 1:12:15.160 Riffner. What do you believe your legacy will be? 1:12:19.800 --> 1:12:19.920 Hm? 1:12:20.600 --> 1:12:24.080 Right now, my legacy would be? 1:12:25.920 --> 1:12:28.000 Or actually you actually you give me an idea here. 1:12:28.160 --> 1:12:31.640 If you died tomorrow, what would your legacy be? And 1:12:31.720 --> 1:12:33.320 then and then I want to hear what you what 1:12:33.439 --> 1:12:35.320 you hope your legacy to be for your whole life? 1:12:35.360 --> 1:12:36.920 So tell me now, what would your legacy be if 1:12:36.920 --> 1:12:38.800 you died tomorrow, if you got hit by a bus? 1:12:39.760 --> 1:12:45.280 Okay, if I died tomorrow, my legacy would be honestly, like, 1:12:45.960 --> 1:12:49.160 like to be honest with you, lyle, my my legacy 1:12:49.200 --> 1:12:51.880 would be that someone who had a kid at twenty. 1:12:53.600 --> 1:12:54.120 That would be it. 1:12:56.600 --> 1:12:59.880 Your legacy would be to be a kid at twenty. 1:13:01.040 --> 1:13:02.519 No, I had a kid at twenty. 1:13:03.120 --> 1:13:06.640 You had a kid at twenty Yeah, so you have 1:13:06.680 --> 1:13:10.320 a kid. Yeah, so your kid would be would be 1:13:10.360 --> 1:13:10.880 your legacy? 1:13:12.280 --> 1:13:15.600 Correct? But I don't think that that counts because it's like, 1:13:15.760 --> 1:13:18.920 I don't think I have had much of an impact 1:13:19.000 --> 1:13:19.840 on her life yet. 1:13:19.960 --> 1:13:22.120 You know, Okay, how old is she? 1:13:24.320 --> 1:13:26.080 She is going to be a year on the twenty fifth. 1:13:27.200 --> 1:13:32.200 Nice a year is you can have a fair amount 1:13:32.200 --> 1:13:33.680 of an impact on a year. Octually, I guess not. 1:13:33.800 --> 1:13:36.360 I don't know. I'm not an early childhood specialist. G echo. 1:13:37.240 --> 1:13:41.040 But okay, so what would your what do you hope 1:13:41.040 --> 1:13:42.760 for your legacy to be throughout your whole life? 1:13:45.439 --> 1:13:47.120 I would hope that it would be someone who could 1:13:47.120 --> 1:13:48.240 do right by his kids. 1:13:49.479 --> 1:13:56.000 Okay, now, and in what way do you hope to 1:13:56.040 --> 1:13:56.960 do right by your kids? 1:13:58.760 --> 1:14:01.360 Be able to like just be like a supportive father, 1:14:01.560 --> 1:14:07.840 the loved father, show them care, affection, you know, the essentials. 1:14:11.880 --> 1:14:14.479 How do you feel about having had kids pretty young? 1:14:16.280 --> 1:14:20.240 You know, originally I was turned off by it, like 1:14:20.560 --> 1:14:22.840 like it was something that I was kind of ashamed of, 1:14:23.000 --> 1:14:26.200 to be honest. But now I've like been through a 1:14:26.240 --> 1:14:27.760 whole year of it, and it's kind of the most 1:14:27.760 --> 1:14:29.639 amazing thing that like I've ever been through. 1:14:29.720 --> 1:14:36.320 You know, you said you were ashamed of it, Yeah, 1:14:36.360 --> 1:14:38.439 a little bit. Why were you ashamed? 1:14:40.400 --> 1:14:47.000 Because I wasn't totally like like I wasn't with like 1:14:47.240 --> 1:14:53.840 totally emotionally invested in the person I had her with. 1:14:54.280 --> 1:14:56.160 So it kind of was like I was in a 1:14:56.200 --> 1:14:59.040 weird situation where like, oh, okay, I felt like I 1:14:59.120 --> 1:15:01.960 had to be there for that person and I had 1:15:02.040 --> 1:15:04.960 to like support this person when they didn't really care 1:15:05.000 --> 1:15:09.000 about me. But I'm out of that now. I'm trying 1:15:09.040 --> 1:15:09.840 my best to move on. 1:15:12.479 --> 1:15:14.200 Yeah, you know, I don't feel I don't feel like 1:15:14.280 --> 1:15:16.760 your relationship with the kid has to be predicated in 1:15:16.840 --> 1:15:18.720 any way, shape or formed by the relationship with the 1:15:18.760 --> 1:15:20.280 person you had you you had her with. 1:15:21.360 --> 1:15:23.559 I agree with you, It's just that her mom makes 1:15:23.600 --> 1:15:24.959 that kind of difficult sometimes. 1:15:27.439 --> 1:15:30.000 Sure, but you know, I mean you have you have 1:15:30.080 --> 1:15:31.400 sort of your own I mean, look, you have your 1:15:31.400 --> 1:15:35.160 own relationship with your kid. It's untethered to to your mom, 1:15:35.200 --> 1:15:36.680 and you know that's that's the whole thing for you 1:15:36.760 --> 1:15:37.240 to develop. 1:15:38.320 --> 1:15:40.120 Absolutely, I'm looking forward to that too. 1:15:47.000 --> 1:15:49.240 Yeah, man, I'm trying to I'm trying to think, here 1:15:50.080 --> 1:15:50.400 does it. 1:15:52.840 --> 1:15:53.000 Why? 1:15:53.080 --> 1:15:56.160 Why was why was your relationship strained with with the mother? 1:16:01.720 --> 1:16:05.679 There's a long list of answers to that question. 1:16:06.240 --> 1:16:08.680 Sure, but. 1:16:10.240 --> 1:16:10.960 I was kind of. 1:16:12.520 --> 1:16:14.840 I guess basically, I was like supposed to be this 1:16:15.240 --> 1:16:18.160 emotional support person for her and I just like couldn't 1:16:18.200 --> 1:16:20.400 be that, you know, and she got. 1:16:20.280 --> 1:16:20.760 Pissed at it. 1:16:22.439 --> 1:16:25.200 Well, I mean it's a lot of work to you know, 1:16:25.520 --> 1:16:28.920 support a significant other, end to support a kid, and 1:16:28.920 --> 1:16:30.120 there's a lot of work. There's a lot of work 1:16:30.160 --> 1:16:35.720 for someone who's twenty two, right, you know. But it's 1:16:35.760 --> 1:16:38.280 good to it's good to hear that you're excited for, 1:16:38.800 --> 1:16:41.840 you know, fostering a relationship with your kid, you know. 1:16:41.960 --> 1:16:43.560 And I can tell I can tell that, you mean that, 1:16:43.680 --> 1:16:46.920 I can tell that you're you're you're invested in that relationship. 1:16:48.000 --> 1:16:54.000 Thank you. Yeah, man, yeah, do to be honest, to 1:16:54.080 --> 1:16:58.200 be honest with you, man, like you're so she doesn't 1:16:58.280 --> 1:17:02.320 live in the same statement right and over the summer, 1:17:03.600 --> 1:17:07.200 but I had to, like with COVID and like school 1:17:07.439 --> 1:17:12.280 starting and stuff, I had to move like miles and 1:17:12.320 --> 1:17:14.600 miles away from her, and I was going through like 1:17:14.680 --> 1:17:18.160 the worst shared of my life. And your stream, your 1:17:18.280 --> 1:17:20.160 your podcast is like the only thing I got. 1:17:20.080 --> 1:17:20.439 Me through it. 1:17:21.200 --> 1:17:23.400 Oh, thank you, man, I'm glad. I'm glad that you 1:17:23.600 --> 1:17:27.200 that you dug that. I'm happy that it helped in 1:17:27.320 --> 1:17:34.120 any way, shape or form. Man, Is there any like 1:17:36.880 --> 1:17:39.840 any anything else that you wanted to sort of talk about? 1:17:40.000 --> 1:17:40.360 Have we not? 1:17:40.439 --> 1:17:41.639 Have we not spoken before? 1:17:42.640 --> 1:17:43.080 We have not. 1:17:43.280 --> 1:17:45.439 I've been in your chat a few times, but and 1:17:45.560 --> 1:17:50.520 I've been listening since like August September. 1:17:50.840 --> 1:17:54.280 I think, oh, surely you've probably been here, like I've 1:17:54.320 --> 1:17:58.360 been doing it since August ish, you know what. 1:17:58.479 --> 1:18:00.640 No, I've been here since the an episode of the 1:18:00.680 --> 1:18:01.679 podcast came out. 1:18:01.600 --> 1:18:03.800 So not like some cool here for a while. 1:18:04.360 --> 1:18:08.920 No, that's pretty much the beginning. Yeah, dude, is there 1:18:09.040 --> 1:18:11.000 is there anything that that else that you wanted to 1:18:11.080 --> 1:18:12.280 share before we go? 1:18:17.920 --> 1:18:21.439 Not particularly you know, this was kind of exactly what 1:18:21.560 --> 1:18:24.360 I imagined out of our first talk. Just wanted to 1:18:24.479 --> 1:18:28.200 let you know, like how often your stream's done for me, man, 1:18:28.479 --> 1:18:33.479 Like it's really been take the ship, dude, You got any. 1:18:33.640 --> 1:18:36.439 You got any let's you know, I think I've talked 1:18:36.479 --> 1:18:38.840 to a few other you know, young parents out there. 1:18:38.880 --> 1:18:41.120 You got any words of advice for any other young 1:18:41.200 --> 1:18:43.720 parents out there that might be having a difficult time 1:18:43.800 --> 1:18:44.479 with the situation? 1:18:48.120 --> 1:18:50.639 Just make it all about the kids like that. That's really, 1:18:50.680 --> 1:18:52.160 at the end of the day, what it's about. Like, 1:18:53.080 --> 1:18:57.920 your own insecurities are valid, but like too, it's part 1:18:57.960 --> 1:18:58.760 of who you are, and. 1:18:59.040 --> 1:19:02.080 To just like focus I'm the kids totally. 1:19:02.160 --> 1:19:02.320 Man. 1:19:03.240 --> 1:19:04.639 Yeah, that's I feel like that's the thing I don't 1:19:05.000 --> 1:19:07.360 obviously I don't have kids, but you know I've heard 1:19:07.400 --> 1:19:08.960 that that's the thing. You know, when you have kids. 1:19:09.000 --> 1:19:12.519 It's that, you know, you you have the opportunity to 1:19:12.600 --> 1:19:15.519 focus on something that's completely outside of yourself. 1:19:17.400 --> 1:19:21.120 Yeah, totally so, and that that itself comes with like 1:19:22.000 --> 1:19:24.920 like the pursuit to get there comes with like a 1:19:25.040 --> 1:19:27.840 whole other slew of self improvement along the way, and 1:19:27.920 --> 1:19:28.960 it's just awesome. 1:19:30.040 --> 1:19:32.240 Oh totally. I mean it's difficult. Look, you know, I'll say, 1:19:32.400 --> 1:19:34.759 I mean, you know, it's hard because when you're single, 1:19:34.800 --> 1:19:37.960 your life is all your you go from, especially when 1:19:37.960 --> 1:19:40.920 you go from like your life is all about you 1:19:42.040 --> 1:19:43.719 and then all of a sudden that's not the case anymore. 1:19:44.080 --> 1:19:51.120 That's a difficult transition to make. But yeah, man, good good, good, 1:19:51.280 --> 1:19:53.120 good luck to you, and good luck to your kid. Man, 1:19:53.160 --> 1:19:55.200 thank you, thank you for calling in and I appreciate 1:19:55.280 --> 1:19:55.920 the kind words. 1:19:56.760 --> 1:19:57.639 Yeah, thank you, Lyle. 1:19:57.720 --> 1:19:59.599 You have a good night you too, Man, take care. 1:20:04.000 --> 1:20:07.439 The repeat goes on the line taking your phone calls 1:20:07.520 --> 1:20:11.040 every night. The repeat goes doing his eye. Who's teaching 1:20:11.080 --> 1:20:14.160 you to house liver your life? But he's not really 1:20:14.400 --> 1:20:15.160 an expert.