Speaker 1: Literally goes on the line making your phone calls every
Speaker 1: night never we can goes to a tide. He's teaching
Speaker 1: you your life's real expert.
Speaker 2: Cow from Phillip.
Speaker 3: Philip.
Speaker 2: Hello.
Speaker 3: What are you doing, Philip?
Speaker 4: Uh, just on my computer and watching wrestling?
Speaker 5: What's going on, mister Gecko?
Speaker 3: Ah man, not a whole lot. What are some of
Speaker 3: your favorite things to do on the computer? Uh?
Speaker 6: Just uh, pretty much.
Speaker 4: I'm a casual PC game are about mostly played PS
Speaker 4: five mm hmm okay.
Speaker 3: Okay, I just thought there aren't those hard to get.
Speaker 5: Uh they were.
Speaker 4: But you know a guy, uh yeah, my game Stop
Speaker 4: manager had a I guess you could say had slash
Speaker 4: has a crush. I'm assumed to be ex wife.
Speaker 3: You said the game Stop guy had a crush on
Speaker 3: your ex wife.
Speaker 7: Yep.
Speaker 2: And how did you know this?
Speaker 6: Well, let's just say it was like.
Speaker 4: It was like an assumption.
Speaker 6: But like every time we'd come in, you know.
Speaker 4: We're all greeted by him by you know, first name basis.
Speaker 6: Uh.
Speaker 3: So you're saying that because you're assuming this guy is
Speaker 3: a crush on your ex wife because he calls her
Speaker 3: by her first name.
Speaker 4: All that, among you know other things you know he's
Speaker 4: done so much for us, especially you know pro to
Speaker 4: the PS five.
Speaker 3: Tell me why she tell me you said you said
Speaker 3: soon to be ex wife? Why why is she used
Speaker 3: soon to be ex wife?
Speaker 4: Ah? She has done nothing but a cheater in the
Speaker 4: past three years.
Speaker 3: I can tell that you're a little insecure because you
Speaker 3: are definitely threatened by this game stuff guy. But also
Speaker 3: she sounds like she's given you some reason to be
Speaker 3: to be that way.
Speaker 6: Uh, well, I have been.
Speaker 4: Living separately mm hmmm, because she wants to, you know,
Speaker 4: she wanted to go try being with an act to
Speaker 4: say enough is actually married and has a third kid.
Speaker 8: On the way.
Speaker 3: Well, look, my friend, let me be the first person
Speaker 3: to congratulate you, uh on on escaping that relationship, because
Speaker 3: that sounds fucking awful.
Speaker 4: Honestly, it completely is fucking awful. And you know it's
Speaker 4: glad to be on you know, your show chit chat
Speaker 4: with you know, good looking get go.
Speaker 3: Hey man, you don't think what so what's what's what's
Speaker 3: next for you? What's what are your plans? What are
Speaker 3: you what are you going to do now that you're
Speaker 3: no longer in this relationship?
Speaker 4: Well, I first, honestly still have to get the divorce
Speaker 4: whole situated, but you can say no longer in it.
Speaker 4: As of you know, the new year, I've been intermittent fasting,
Speaker 4: you know, working on myself. You know, I've been going
Speaker 4: to therapy, and you know, I'm just pretty much you know,
Speaker 4: this is gonna be all about me, not worrying about
Speaker 4: you know, my past life as.
Speaker 5: I call it.
Speaker 3: Dude, I love that you know there's something you know,
Speaker 3: I was thinking about today, and I think people should know.
Speaker 3: I know that like, the world sucks ass right now,
Speaker 3: but I think that eventually, eventually we'll get back to
Speaker 3: some sort of normalcy. And I think that we might
Speaker 3: even if if if you, if you want to be
Speaker 3: optimistic about it, which I like to be, I think
Speaker 3: that you know, we'll get to a place that's even
Speaker 3: better than where we were before. But right now we're
Speaker 3: all in a bit of downtime, and I think it's
Speaker 3: good that you're taking this downtime to invest in yourself
Speaker 3: so that when we do get to that better place,
Speaker 3: after the you know, shittiness of the of of our
Speaker 3: current time is over, you're going to be in a
Speaker 3: beautiful position to reap the opportunities of that new time.
Speaker 6: I definitely agree.
Speaker 3: Real quick before you go, I mean, what do you
Speaker 3: do for fun?
Speaker 4: Uh? I mean, I'm gonna be honest with you. You know,
Speaker 4: it's just been stressful, you know, trying to get out
Speaker 4: of that. So you know, I've just been trying to
Speaker 4: take up gaming more, you know. I I've made a
Speaker 4: couple of friends off rider who I you know, have
Speaker 4: daily conversations with. Sometimes I play games that thumb myself,
Speaker 4: you know, just not I guess fun would be to
Speaker 4: not isolate, you know, just put myself out.
Speaker 3: There and you know, rock and roll man. Thank you,
Speaker 3: thank you, thank you. Say your name is Spencer, Philip Philip,
Speaker 3: Oh my god, I suck all right, Well listen Philip,
Speaker 3: thank you, thank you for calling in man. Best of
Speaker 3: luck to you.
Speaker 2: Yeah, thank you.
Speaker 3: Someone someone, someone send this man. Someone send this man
Speaker 3: of game Stop gift card as a congratulation for getting
Speaker 3: divorced from a terrible person. No, I don't know his wife.
Speaker 3: I don't want to call anyone a terrible person who
Speaker 3: I don't know, but a person who committed I would,
Speaker 3: I would say terrible relationship transgressions. Vinny Vinnie, Vinnie, n Yes, sir,
Speaker 3: what are you doing.
Speaker 9: Watching you relax and kind of wine from work?
Speaker 3: What do you do for fun? Vinnie?
Speaker 9: Play with cars in film?
Speaker 5: Man?
Speaker 3: You play with cars? Yeah, dude, like real cars?
Speaker 5: Yeahs and s?
Speaker 3: Are you rich? No? How much money do you make
Speaker 3: a year?
Speaker 5: Not enough?
Speaker 3: Like the number.
Speaker 9: I'm not going to give you an exact number.
Speaker 5: Why not?
Speaker 9: Because money it's an appropriate talk we.
Speaker 3: Talk about like common stuff on here, dude, we can.
Speaker 9: Talk about com or squirrels or like crazy clown.
Speaker 3: Why won't you tell me to dollar how much money
Speaker 3: you make a year? You don't have to, you know,
Speaker 3: this conversation doesn't This conversation doesn't have to end with
Speaker 3: you telling me. But I wanted to end with me
Speaker 3: understanding why you won't tell me.
Speaker 9: I just told you you did.
Speaker 5: Yeah I did.
Speaker 9: I'll tell me again about twenty four K.
Speaker 3: Twenty four k.
Speaker 10: It's not bad, Ye, it's all right.
Speaker 3: How do you but you say you fu you play
Speaker 3: around with cars?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 9: Like I'm getting ready to do an engine swap on
Speaker 9: my integer right now, and it's a big deal. I've
Speaker 9: been working.
Speaker 5: Months. Yeah, So how do you afford that one piece
Speaker 5: of a time?
Speaker 9: Or you to save up or you sell other car
Speaker 9: parks and do other stuff like that. I can get
Speaker 9: a good deal on something, and I have friends. If
Speaker 9: I can get parts for a good deal, I'll sell
Speaker 9: it later.
Speaker 5: Something like that.
Speaker 2: Have you ever been hit by a car?
Speaker 3: Have you ever been hit by a car?
Speaker 11: Oh?
Speaker 5: Yeah, tell me about that.
Speaker 9: It's horrible. Have you ever been hit by a car?
Speaker 3: I want it? What's the story of you gonna hit
Speaker 3: by a car?
Speaker 9: I was on a bike, so I've rode BMX since
Speaker 9: I was like ten. And I was riding across town
Speaker 9: and I was coming down Main Street where I live in.
Speaker 9: It all downhill and there's the main drag through town.
Speaker 9: I crossed the boulevard and someone pegged me because I
Speaker 9: didn't stop while it was red. I just woke up
Speaker 9: on the ground. I think I was like fifteen, ended
Speaker 9: up like separating my shoulder and breaking some ribs and everything.
Speaker 9: I actually got really lucky.
Speaker 3: That's a lot. Yeah, it sounds awful.
Speaker 9: It wasn't that bad.
Speaker 3: But what happened when you were fifteen?
Speaker 5: Oh yeah?
Speaker 3: How old are you now?
Speaker 5: Thirty?
Speaker 3: So you haven't been hit by a car since?
Speaker 5: No?
Speaker 10: Thankfully?
Speaker 12: No?
Speaker 3: Maybe cars maybe they work. It works kind of like lightning, right,
Speaker 3: you get hit by a car, you get hit by
Speaker 3: a car once, you don't get hit by a car again.
Speaker 3: You kind of have it in.
Speaker 9: I've been hit by a car since then, but I
Speaker 9: was just in a car, so I.
Speaker 3: Don't know how many times they throughout your entire life?
Speaker 3: Have you gotten hit by a car?
Speaker 2: Four?
Speaker 3: How are how much debt are you in? Because that's
Speaker 3: with hospital bills from getting hit by a car from
Speaker 3: four times and having cars as a hobby, you must
Speaker 3: be in a lot of debt.
Speaker 9: No, not really, I'm not as good as a cannibal
Speaker 9: in like two thousand dollars, like two grand right now.
Speaker 9: That's because of COVID COVID screw.
Speaker 3: I thought it was way worse because it costs a
Speaker 3: lot of money to get unhit by a car in
Speaker 3: a hospital.
Speaker 9: Oh yeah, I haven't. Like I paid off my medical
Speaker 9: beer bills like a year ago, so it hasn't been
Speaker 9: that long that I've been free.
Speaker 3: Well hot, damn Adam fuckn No, your name is an
Speaker 3: Adam Vinnie Vinny. Is there anything else you wanted to
Speaker 3: talk about this evening before I let you go?
Speaker 9: No, man, I just wanted to kick it and choke
Speaker 9: for a minute.
Speaker 3: Thank you, man, Thank you for sharing your story. I'm
Speaker 3: gonna be You've inspired me to be more careful on
Speaker 3: the road. Sorry to hit people looks because you sound
Speaker 3: like a nice guy, and I don't want to, Like,
Speaker 3: I don't want to hit someone with my car if
Speaker 3: they're a nice guy.
Speaker 11: You know.
Speaker 9: Yeah, it's good. You know, a little bit of awareness
Speaker 9: is always good.
Speaker 3: I'll talk to soon.
Speaker 6: Man.
Speaker 5: All right, have a good nightmare.
Speaker 12: O call from lesbian part.
Speaker 3: Lesbian?
Speaker 11: Oh my god?
Speaker 3: You Okay, what was the prompt? You want to get
Speaker 3: into the prompt?
Speaker 13: Okay, I'm back.
Speaker 3: Well, the question of the night is, Look, the question
Speaker 3: of the night is what do you What do you miss?
Speaker 14: Oh damn, I'm miss I missed toast.
Speaker 13: I missed bread. Yeah you're gonna ask me.
Speaker 11: But it was diagnosed with celiac, so I have to
Speaker 11: be gluten free and so like you know, no we no, uh,
Speaker 11: none of that or I.
Speaker 13: Get really sick.
Speaker 11: And so I really missed like oh Charlie's roles, like
Speaker 11: all that good stuff, and I can make.
Speaker 6: My own.
Speaker 13: Like recipes and stuff at home or.
Speaker 8: Get like yeah, who hey, gag let me can't talk?
Speaker 3: Can we talk to your mom?
Speaker 15: Yeah?
Speaker 11: Of course someone name. She's a big fan.
Speaker 3: We're gonna we're gonna talk to her mom. Hey, gag,
Speaker 3: what's up, dude? How you doing? What's your name?
Speaker 14: My name is?
Speaker 12: They call me mama Ran where you can just call
Speaker 12: me mom?
Speaker 3: Mama, Mama Rane you I you said I can call
Speaker 3: you mom. I think that's a little too personal, right
Speaker 3: for we don't do we know each other well enough
Speaker 3: for me to call you mom?
Speaker 8: Sure?
Speaker 12: Once you're a mom. You love everybody, you really are,
Speaker 12: so thank you for what you do.
Speaker 3: Oh, you don't thank me. I'm just a dumb agreen
Speaker 3: internet man. But I have a question for you, mom. Yeah,
Speaker 3: what do you what is it? What do you miss?
Speaker 4: So?
Speaker 3: Anything you miss?
Speaker 5: Right now?
Speaker 2: What do I miss?
Speaker 10: Oh that's a loaded question.
Speaker 14: Uh wow, we got dinner at thirteen?
Speaker 5: Right?
Speaker 3: You could say whatever you want. I'm tell me, I'm
Speaker 3: curious now, I'm very curious. Say whatever you want. Don't
Speaker 3: have to keep it anything.
Speaker 14: So I've been divorced white badly.
Speaker 12: And let's just think, kitty, it is dead.
Speaker 2: I like you know what.
Speaker 3: I like that you're more concerned with not saying anything
Speaker 3: inappropriate on the stream than you are saying in front
Speaker 3: of your daughter.
Speaker 12: No, but like we're close, we've been through a lot together.
Speaker 13: It's like and I told her, I told her, I'm
Speaker 13: right now, but.
Speaker 3: The kiddy is dead, going, what what have you been
Speaker 3: out on? Dates? You out there trying to find the
Speaker 3: find the little buddy?
Speaker 10: I was.
Speaker 13: I was so hurt really that.
Speaker 14: I just I just kind of like already had a
Speaker 14: funeral for her.
Speaker 13: And put her out on my shelf.
Speaker 3: No, no, do you do you still masturbate?
Speaker 14: I think you No, she's so dead, I'd have to
Speaker 14: get jumper cable.
Speaker 3: Nonsense, Look what you thought. She's got to help you out,
Speaker 3: She's got to hook you up with her friend's dads
Speaker 3: or something like that.
Speaker 12: Oh you're so sweet.
Speaker 14: I just well, one an alcoholic.
Speaker 5: I just feel like.
Speaker 12: It's kind of over.
Speaker 3: Yeah, No, No, how old are you? Can I ask?
Speaker 3: I know you're not supposed to ask, but you're also
Speaker 3: we're doing a lot of things are I supposed to do?
Speaker 3: And that what's up?
Speaker 8: I was?
Speaker 14: I turned just turned fifty five?
Speaker 3: Fifty five? That you you don't sound the day over forty?
Speaker 3: You gotta go on the webs. There's plenty of sites
Speaker 3: that you can go on. You into are you you
Speaker 3: you you could be like a milfy like, you know,
Speaker 3: go hit on some like twenty year old guys. You
Speaker 3: thought about doing that.
Speaker 14: I just gotta get I gotta get my armor on.
Speaker 3: You know what does that mean? What is your armor?
Speaker 2: So I'm so.
Speaker 12: Scared that I'm gonna get hurt or.
Speaker 7: You know, because I was like.
Speaker 14: Everything was perfect and then different person after you you
Speaker 14: realize other issue to.
Speaker 12: The I'm working on it though. Okay, I'm working on it,
Speaker 12: and I am proud of what you do. Don't don't
Speaker 12: minimize what you do.
Speaker 3: Man, How are you working on it? What are the
Speaker 3: what are the steps that you're taking to work on it?
Speaker 13: Trying to take care of me a little better.
Speaker 12: Yeah, I am going to give therapy a chance again.
Speaker 3: Nice nice, Yeah, real therapy, not ecko therapy.
Speaker 13: Yeah, there you go. And that my daughter here lesbian
Speaker 13: named after her dad, just.
Speaker 3: Her dad or lesbian too.
Speaker 11: Yeah, that was the problem the family.
Speaker 13: He's very confused.
Speaker 10: But yeah, to each his own.
Speaker 13: You know, everybody's different, that's what's it matters.
Speaker 14: So thank you for your advice and your.
Speaker 12: And yeah, my daughter does miss and it sucks.
Speaker 4: It took us like seven.
Speaker 14: Years to get her diagnosed with celiac.
Speaker 11: So but you know, I've found some good looks, snacks
Speaker 11: here and there, and uh just you know.
Speaker 13: Every day then new day.
Speaker 3: So yeah, you know you guys, You guys sound like
Speaker 3: you know there's some struggles there, but you're you're holding
Speaker 3: down the fort best as you can.
Speaker 14: I'm gonna update you, okay, like during your shadow I'll try.
Speaker 12: To text you or something.
Speaker 14: Let you know if Katie's going for.
Speaker 3: A whirl, Okay, please please do let it. Let us
Speaker 3: know how it goes. Okay, don't send that. Don't send
Speaker 3: any pictures though, we're gonna because then we'll get banned.
Speaker 3: But no, never, I guess goodbye, guys.
Speaker 2: Came from Henry.
Speaker 3: Henry is a you. Hello, what are you doing, dude.
Speaker 7: I'm just chilling on bad.
Speaker 3: Not a whole lot. I'm just chilling. I'm in a
Speaker 3: chair and I'm addressed as a gecko, and I'm live
Speaker 3: streaming on the on the website where people play Fortnite.
Speaker 7: Do you play video games?
Speaker 3: I play one video game, whole video game. I play
Speaker 3: Super Smash Brothers Melee for the Nintendo game I played.
Speaker 3: I played a I played a video game recently called
Speaker 3: Inside You ever heard of that? M No, it's called inside.
Speaker 5: I like that.
Speaker 7: Somebody somebody in chat that said, my friend Justin, he's
Speaker 7: corracked out Fortnite? Thank you?
Speaker 3: Are you Justin?
Speaker 7: I'm not? I'm not just.
Speaker 3: Henry. What do you do for fun?
Speaker 7: I like to skateboard, I like to play video games,
Speaker 7: and I like to hang out with front.
Speaker 3: You got that's a beautiful Tinder bio right there? Can
Speaker 3: I steal that?
Speaker 10: I mean?
Speaker 8: Yeah?
Speaker 3: Sure? Do you date? How old are you? Henry?
Speaker 5: Oh?
Speaker 7: I'm twenty.
Speaker 3: How how's the date? How's dating been for you?
Speaker 7: I don't really know.
Speaker 10: My sexuality yet.
Speaker 7: I've been questioning it for a while, so I'm kind
Speaker 7: of staying at dating at all. I figured out how
Speaker 7: like who I am? You know what I mean?
Speaker 3: Mm hmmm? Is that was figuring out, uh, your sexualized?
Speaker 3: That for you like an active process, like you're trying
Speaker 3: to figure it out. You're just kind of going with
Speaker 3: the flow and seeing sort of, you know, how how
Speaker 3: that develops on its own.
Speaker 7: Mm hmmm, trying to just seeing how it goes. I
Speaker 7: try not to, like, I don't devote my life to
Speaker 7: trying to figure it out. Does that make sense?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 3: For sure?
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Are you not interested though, in like actively experimenting, like
Speaker 3: like cooking.
Speaker 5: Up with people?
Speaker 7: Yeah, oh no, not really, I don't. I mean, yeah,
Speaker 7: I've only hooked up with girls before.
Speaker 9: I don't think that.
Speaker 7: If I ever locked myself down to the sexuality, I
Speaker 7: don't think it would be I don't think it would
Speaker 7: be one hundred percent. I think if anything I could
Speaker 7: must likely be by.
Speaker 3: Oh well, I mean you don't. Don't you never have
Speaker 3: to lock yourself down to it anything?
Speaker 13: Yeah, No, that's yeah, only that probably that comes.
Speaker 3: From like the desire to have a label, I think,
Speaker 3: which is kind of a bullshit desire. I'm sorry, were
Speaker 3: you what were you going to say?
Speaker 7: No, I was gonna say, but like when you were
Speaker 7: asking about like physically talking about like people is usually
Speaker 7: just like with women or like physically active. It's just
Speaker 7: it's just women.
Speaker 6: Mm hm.
Speaker 7: So that like I think it's like weird to get
Speaker 7: with a guy, But I think the idea of like
Speaker 7: being more than a friends with guys isn't a bad thing.
Speaker 3: But you think it's in what in what sense do
Speaker 3: you think it's weird to get with a guy like you,
Speaker 3: like you personally feel weird about it?
Speaker 7: Like like sexually like with the guy. Okay, like if
Speaker 7: I was with if I was with a girl, I
Speaker 7: could I know, I know, it's.
Speaker 3: Like you could be you could be like, well, you
Speaker 3: could be like romantically attracted to men but not sexually.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 7: But so then I think that, Yeah, I think I'm
Speaker 7: romantically Yeah, I think you're right about that. But with women,
Speaker 7: I mean, I I guess I could experiment. I've never
Speaker 7: been known for like like I don't. I don't see
Speaker 7: the fun in like cooking up with people, and it
Speaker 7: just feels weird. That's why. I mean, I've even thought
Speaker 7: that I'm what are they call it asexual words? Yeah,
Speaker 7: or auto I don't know, something like that. But I
Speaker 7: mean it really just depends on the person, which makes
Speaker 7: it a whole back confusing, like more confusing.
Speaker 3: I think there's a there's a word for that, like
Speaker 3: but the words and I think there's I know, there's
Speaker 3: like this, there's like this inherent desire to like I
Speaker 3: think maybe like rush. And I even just kind of
Speaker 3: proved it there by saying there's a word for this
Speaker 3: erent desire like rush towards a label just so that
Speaker 3: you can take these these feelings and put them somewhere
Speaker 3: and identify yourself as Oh I am this, but you
Speaker 3: know there's no reason to rush to that.
Speaker 7: Yeah, you're a you're a pretty good person to talk
Speaker 7: about this with. You. Like, honestly, I've been watching your
Speaker 7: stream for about a month now. You're really open minded.
Speaker 3: Oh thanks man, I'm I'm fool feel comfortable talking about that.
Speaker 5: I think that you're so patient.
Speaker 7: You get some annoying as people to get on here,
Speaker 7: but you put up with them, and I think that
Speaker 7: that that says a lot about you as a person.
Speaker 3: Well, thanks man. You know, the annoying people that it's
Speaker 3: part of the uphold the presentation because look, because you know,
Speaker 3: look in life, some people are annoying. I enjoy I
Speaker 3: enjoy the diversity of the callers, not just in terms
Speaker 3: of you know, backgrounds and you know all that stuff,
Speaker 3: but also in terms of, you know, I like a
Speaker 3: diverse amount of annoyingness. I think it's good to have that.
Speaker 7: Yeah, all right, man, Well I don't want to wrap
Speaker 7: up a conversation, but I am very bad. I just
Speaker 7: wanted to get a call in. But it was actually
Speaker 7: pretty nice talking to you. Maybe I'll call back you guys.
Speaker 10: Let call back.
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, call call back in sometime. You say your
Speaker 3: name is Henry, Yeah, Henry, baby, I remember your name. Awesome,
Speaker 3: take care Henry. You have a good night.
Speaker 8: Man.
Speaker 7: All right, I'll call you Friday if I can make it.
Speaker 3: Hit me whenever I'm the line is open. I'm crazy,
Speaker 3: all right, lad bye guys. He was a good guy.
Speaker 2: Aw fun.
Speaker 5: Blake, Blake, holy ship?
Speaker 3: How you doing?
Speaker 11: Blake?
Speaker 5: Relieved? Why?
Speaker 3: Relieved?
Speaker 8: What? What?
Speaker 4: What?
Speaker 3: Where was the tension beforehand?
Speaker 5: Started? Last Wednesday?
Speaker 3: What was the tension?
Speaker 5: I was on a trip, uh, an acid trip and
Speaker 5: stumbled across your live stream m hm and sat there
Speaker 5: and tried to call for hours and never got the
Speaker 5: closure I needed? What?
Speaker 3: Okay? What was Why? Do you feel like there was
Speaker 3: a need for closure?
Speaker 4: Like? What?
Speaker 5: What? What was left open for you not having this conversation?
Speaker 5: Mm hmm.
Speaker 3: But but do you feel like may like some sort
Speaker 3: of parasocial relationship developed between me and you? Because I've
Speaker 3: never heard your voice before, but you've heard my voice.
Speaker 3: Do you feel you feel like you need some closure
Speaker 3: you need to talk to me for I don't know,
Speaker 3: like why?
Speaker 14: Why?
Speaker 3: Where does that? Where did that come from?
Speaker 5: Whenever I'm tripping, I normally find something and the obsess
Speaker 5: on it and try to you know, learn with it
Speaker 5: and you know, have fun around it. Okay, And watching
Speaker 5: your streams has brought that, I brought a lot of
Speaker 5: entertainment and you know kind of excitement.
Speaker 3: Do you think that the stream is better when you
Speaker 3: are on acid?
Speaker 2: Better?
Speaker 4: Is it?
Speaker 5: I don't know if I would use the word better,
Speaker 5: I'd say different stories where you know, more can like
Speaker 5: you know, changed in my head and everything like that.
Speaker 5: And I was laying in my living room watching you
Speaker 5: on the TV and calling on my phone and you know,
Speaker 5: your face more thing and everything was quite entertaining.
Speaker 3: Maybe I've always people always think I'm like, hi, when
Speaker 3: I'm doing this, I'm not for me. It's hard because
Speaker 3: you can't I can't be high and talk to people.
Speaker 3: That's too much for me. If I'm going to get high,
Speaker 3: I want to do it alone. After I don't have
Speaker 3: like I don't want to get high, and then like, oh,
Speaker 3: I have to go do I've got to go do
Speaker 3: a thing. You know, I just want to be alone.
Speaker 3: So that might that might be an interesting experience to
Speaker 3: watch it while on drugs.
Speaker 5: You know. I actually I can't smoke weed. It's kind
Speaker 5: of It's funny, I've I don't really met many other
Speaker 5: people that are like that.
Speaker 3: Why can't you smoke weed?
Speaker 10: I found this out about.
Speaker 5: Three years ago. I every time I smoke, whether it
Speaker 5: be a small amount, I've only had probably five pleasurable
Speaker 5: high experiences out of the twenty or thirty times tried.
Speaker 5: I end up throwing up and getting I end up
Speaker 5: greening out pretty much. I throw up, I get nauseous,
Speaker 5: and I end up getting severe vertigo. So I end
Speaker 5: up passing out from exhaustion.
Speaker 3: But acid doesn't do that to you, No, not at all.
Speaker 5: Actually, I love tripping. It's I don't do it too
Speaker 5: frequently because I know it. You know what the damage
Speaker 5: you can cause is.
Speaker 3: But can you sell me on it? Because my problem
Speaker 3: is I when I get too high, I think too much,
Speaker 3: and I don't like being that. I believe I'm happiest.
Speaker 3: I think people are probably in general, happiest when they
Speaker 3: are outside of themselves and not like in their head
Speaker 3: overthinking every fucking thing.
Speaker 2: You know what I mean?
Speaker 3: Yeah, Like you know, when you're hanging out with your friends,
Speaker 3: like you're having a good time, you don't know, like
Speaker 3: the time is past your time flies and you're having fun, right,
Speaker 3: and the time moves slowly when you're in your head
Speaker 3: just anxious and thinking about shit. And we gets me
Speaker 3: into that place where I'm in my head and think
Speaker 3: about shit. So I went to the depression. That acid
Speaker 3: is like we times ten thousand, and it's just gonna
Speaker 3: put me super deep into my head? Is that true?
Speaker 13: Is that gonna happen?
Speaker 5: From everything that I know in all my experiences, it's mindset.
Speaker 5: Like this past time, I was with my girlfriend and
Speaker 5: she was about to not literally, but she was about
Speaker 5: to kill me for me sitting there freaking out about
Speaker 5: getting on the phone with you. And I was in
Speaker 5: a very good headspace that whole time, besides stressing and
Speaker 5: becoming anxious about getting on the phone. But I believe
Speaker 5: it's you know, kind of your headspace, what you're around.
Speaker 5: If you're in a good environment that you like and
Speaker 5: you are tripping, it'll just amplify.
Speaker 3: You said you were stressing about getting on the phone.
Speaker 3: Were you you were stressing about like you're stressing about me,
Speaker 3: answering about me, not answering.
Speaker 5: About about getting through Pretty much this is it actually
Speaker 5: was the first live stream i'd watched. I've seen clips
Speaker 5: on Twitter and the people had, you know, retweeted and
Speaker 5: everything like that. I was actually scrolling through Reddit and
Speaker 5: a park on my come up and it was about
Speaker 5: three pm. I in Central, It's about three pm, and
Speaker 5: I saw that you were going to be live streaming
Speaker 5: at ten on ten Eastern and I was like, dude,
Speaker 5: no way, I got to watch this guy. I was like,
Speaker 5: I gotta do it.
Speaker 3: And since then, uh, you said that, you said you
Speaker 3: said a feeling of stress. I want to. I want
Speaker 3: to know. I want to get to why you felt stressed,
Speaker 3: because that's a very specific sort of emotion.
Speaker 5: I think it's dimmed in like the obsession over it,
Speaker 5: the fact of like I was like, I want to
Speaker 5: because at the beginning, for the first forty minutes, I
Speaker 5: didn't want to call at all. I was too anxious.
Speaker 5: And then I was like, I gotta call. I gotta
Speaker 5: do this. I gotta like, I got a I got
Speaker 5: I have to call. I need to talk to him.
Speaker 5: And the stress of not being able to get through,
Speaker 5: I guess is what it was.
Speaker 3: M under her. Do you how do you feel now?
Speaker 3: Do you feel bad? Do you feel better? Do you
Speaker 3: feel anxious? Are you anxious now that you're on the stream.
Speaker 10: A little bit.
Speaker 5: My heart's racing with kind of like excitement that because,
Speaker 5: like I was, I was watching the stream in the
Speaker 5: background on my phone while calling, and I heard you
Speaker 5: say my name on the stream, and then I realized
Speaker 5: took a second to hit and I was like, I'm
Speaker 5: and uh, you know, I didn't think I was going
Speaker 5: to get through, Honestly, I was. I was about to
Speaker 5: give up on calling.
Speaker 3: So how would you rate this experience of I mean,
Speaker 3: just the whole thing of you trying really hard to
Speaker 3: call in to then have a conversation about you trying
Speaker 3: hard to call in.
Speaker 5: I read this an amazing experience.
Speaker 3: Uh.
Speaker 5: I'm Harry damn excited to tell my girlfriend when I
Speaker 5: got to pick her up from work about this. This
Speaker 5: was an amazing experience. I'm definitely not going to forget
Speaker 5: this for a while.
Speaker 3: Beau, Well, thank you for calling in, Blake, Thank you
Speaker 3: for answering that of course, man, for look your your
Speaker 3: determination is much appreciated by the Geak nation, and I
Speaker 3: think you got what it takes to make yourself a
Speaker 3: name here as a as a Gak warrior.
Speaker 5: Thank you, man.
Speaker 6: That means a lot.
Speaker 3: You take care, man, I'll talk to you soon.
Speaker 5: Thank you, man, have a good night.
Speaker 7: Oh awesome, George.
Speaker 2: Judge you Oh what's up?
Speaker 9: While?
Speaker 3: Oh my goodness.
Speaker 10: Man.
Speaker 3: Look man, I'm not a whole lot. We're near and
Speaker 3: we're nearing midnight. I'm fully gecked out of my mind.
Speaker 3: I'm psyched, I'm pumped, I'm ready. What do you What
Speaker 3: are you up to?
Speaker 12: Man?
Speaker 3: But you got anything for me?
Speaker 10: I don't. I got stories. I have some stories.
Speaker 3: Tell me a story.
Speaker 10: Let's see what do I got?
Speaker 5: Give me a topic?
Speaker 3: Well, you know, I I asked you the car. What
Speaker 3: do you do for fun?
Speaker 5: Man?
Speaker 10: What do I do for fun? I bike a lot?
Speaker 3: We got another bike.
Speaker 10: Yeah, it's good. There was that one guy who's in
Speaker 10: the middle of the field.
Speaker 3: Yes, that's an all time that's an all time favorite.
Speaker 3: The guy who is in the middle of the field.
Speaker 3: He is a good guy. Well, okay, you bike a lot.
Speaker 10: I bike a lot. I used to partake in copious
Speaker 10: amounts of drugs.
Speaker 3: Which ones.
Speaker 10: Mushrooms, acid, marijuana, cocaine, danus the main ones.
Speaker 3: And do you not do so anymore? You said you
Speaker 3: used to.
Speaker 10: No, I don't do that anymore. This was in the
Speaker 10: span of ages fifteen to seventeen, which was really fucking bad.
Speaker 3: That's yeah, that's a lot of shit from fifteen to seventeen.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it was.
Speaker 5: It was some shit.
Speaker 10: I dropped out of high school because of it. I
Speaker 10: mean not solely because of it, but definitely aided. I
Speaker 10: would say, Okay.
Speaker 3: How how are you an now I'm nineteen? What did
Speaker 3: you do after you dropped out of high school?
Speaker 10: Well, it took me about a year. I was like
Speaker 10: working all the time, and I was working at construction job.
Speaker 10: So I was brail and blow with guys in the
Speaker 10: fucking back with construction site bent and kept doing that,
Speaker 10: kept doing that, and then I wasn't making enough money.
Speaker 10: I was spending all my money on shit like that.
Speaker 10: And then I actually ended up hanging out with my
Speaker 10: buddies one time and we fucking took I think I
Speaker 10: took like five tabs of acid, which is a horrendous
Speaker 10: amount for anybody.
Speaker 3: What did five tabs of acid end up doing to you?
Speaker 10: I ended up like it was like sleep paralysis. Basically.
Speaker 10: I just ended up laying on the couch and my
Speaker 10: buddies and basement like hallucinating. My own intervention, which was wild. So,
Speaker 10: and I woke up the next.
Speaker 3: Day and like, real quick, tell me about this hallucination
Speaker 3: of your intervention.
Speaker 5: I don't.
Speaker 3: It's hard to remember it, but if you remember any
Speaker 3: of it.
Speaker 10: The only way I remember it really is because I
Speaker 10: wrote on my phone on like snapchat messages. I was
Speaker 10: like writing fucking with the drawing thing and saving the
Speaker 10: pictures and I read them the next morning and it
Speaker 10: was like just some whacked out shit like you gotta
Speaker 10: stop blah blah blah. It was like talking in the
Speaker 10: third person as well, like George blah blah blah has
Speaker 10: to do this.
Speaker 5: Wild.
Speaker 10: So I woke up the next morning read that whatever.
Speaker 10: I was like, oh, man, that's fucked up, right, because
Speaker 10: that's pretty fucked up. And uh, I haven't done drugs since.
Speaker 3: M so I think that's the something said that's called
Speaker 3: an ego death.
Speaker 10: Yeah, yeah, solid ego death right there.
Speaker 3: M How how long you been claimed for?
Speaker 4: Shoot?
Speaker 10: Nineteen seventeen? Two years?
Speaker 3: Awesome? Man? Do you have anything? Did you end up
Speaker 3: getting your ged or anything like that?
Speaker 12: Yeah?
Speaker 10: I actually the next year after that, I went in.
Speaker 10: My area has fucking programs so seniors who don't have
Speaker 10: enough credits can I actually get their high school diploma
Speaker 10: if they qualify for all the ged stuff, So I
Speaker 10: gotta get a hold diploma.
Speaker 3: Awesome, it's nice.
Speaker 7: What do what do I do with that?
Speaker 5: Well?
Speaker 10: I actually I just got accepted into college yesterday, tech
Speaker 10: School for autumn mechanics. Good stuff.
Speaker 3: Hell yeah, man, you're gonna be like that guy. You're
Speaker 3: gonna be like the nice guy who, uh, that nice
Speaker 3: car man that we were talking to earlier.
Speaker 10: Yeah, no, he was a cool guy. I actually worked
Speaker 10: on Honda's too.
Speaker 8: Oh.
Speaker 10: I was trying to ask him what he was putting
Speaker 10: in Maddon tegra So if he's there getting the chat,
Speaker 10: maybe i'll find it later.
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, to talk some shop. Right, Well, Matt, I'm
Speaker 3: happy for you.
Speaker 12: Man.
Speaker 3: That's that's that's that's There must be a lot to like.
Speaker 4: That.
Speaker 3: That must be like because it's so hard to you know,
Speaker 3: it's hard to quit one thing, right, It's hard to
Speaker 3: quit fucking Waird or quit cocaine. But to quit all
Speaker 3: of it at once, it's gotta be a nightmare, just.
Speaker 10: A straight up like a full on hit a brick
Speaker 10: wall stop cold turkey. It's I don't know how I
Speaker 10: did it, but I did it. I think I just
Speaker 10: had to get you have to get past that that
Speaker 10: statementally mm hmm, to where you can actually progress and
Speaker 10: get anywhere. And I think that kind of is a
Speaker 10: whole thing with any problem you really have in life.
Speaker 10: If you are blocking yourself mentally from doing something, you're
Speaker 10: not gonna be able to do it. I mean, if
Speaker 10: I say, oh, I can't walk up these stairs, and
Speaker 10: I firmly believe that I can't walk upstairs, I'm not
Speaker 10: going to be able to walk up the fucking stairs.
Speaker 10: But I think an all around good uh moralss story
Speaker 10: here whatever, uh learn from others' mistakes. There were a
Speaker 10: lot of people that I could have looked at and
Speaker 10: kind of scene where they were going, and I could
Speaker 10: have gotten to that point earlier that was being a
Speaker 10: little stupid kid, and I just kept doing things that
Speaker 10: I shouldn't have been doing.
Speaker 3: Yeah, well, I mean, you know, look, it's good that
Speaker 3: you at least you know sort of. I mean, although
Speaker 3: although that was a lot for a kid to be doing,
Speaker 3: you know, it's good that you sort of learned your
Speaker 3: lesson at a very young age. And oh my god,
Speaker 3: you're still night I mean nineteen, Yeah, you do you
Speaker 3: start dude, So, I mean, it's it's you know, especially
Speaker 3: if you're a funck alone. I don't know if could
Speaker 3: you say something real quick, I don't know if my
Speaker 3: fucking air pods just gets connected. Fuck okay, I can
Speaker 3: hear you now, beautiful. Sorry, this is a very amateur
Speaker 3: they produced show.
Speaker 5: Dude.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I was gonna say, like, it's I know, that's
Speaker 3: a lot of ship for a kid to be doing.
Speaker 3: But it's good that you at least learned your lesson now,
Speaker 3: you know, And like the fact that you've been sober
Speaker 3: for two years and like you've you've kind of gotten
Speaker 3: over this at least, you know, I know, I know,
Speaker 3: I know it's a strug every day and then then
Speaker 3: you know it's it's a thing to be maintained. But
Speaker 3: all all, all the all, the best of you man,
Speaker 3: you got. It's so young, nineteen, you got, you got,
Speaker 3: you got a whole bunch of shit ahead of you.
Speaker 3: So man, good good, good luck, and congrats to you.
Speaker 3: Thank you le for sure man, you take would you
Speaker 3: say your name was again? It was George, George. You
Speaker 3: take care of George.
Speaker 12: Man.
Speaker 3: Have a good night. Thank you for calling you two
Speaker 3: dog have a good one.
Speaker 2: All from Yeah, yeah, is that you?
Speaker 6: Oh buddy?
Speaker 10: You know me?
Speaker 3: Well, I don't. What's up?
Speaker 5: How are you good man?
Speaker 6: How are you man?
Speaker 3: I'm uh, I'm alive as I can be. How are you?
Speaker 12: Yeah?
Speaker 3: I'm doing like the US, I.
Speaker 2: Was doing really well.
Speaker 6: St I remember the last time I called him, and
Speaker 6: I'm gonna be ask for you. I think I messaged you,
Speaker 6: but I have no idea what happened. All right, it
Speaker 6: was a bad night. It was a bad, bad night.
Speaker 3: Tell me tell me about the night the last night
Speaker 3: that you called.
Speaker 6: In that you said, I really don't want to bring
Speaker 6: it back up.
Speaker 3: When you have to bring it, you can't just talk
Speaker 3: about it and not bring it back up. They brought
Speaker 3: it back up.
Speaker 6: It was the one where I talked about animal crossing.
Speaker 2: And omeg.
Speaker 12: Uh.
Speaker 3: Yes, you talked about how you like to talk to
Speaker 3: boys on Omego.
Speaker 6: I watched it the next morning because I was like,
Speaker 6: did I call the Gecko Show? And I can't believe
Speaker 6: I said that it was. It's the most embarrassing moment
Speaker 6: of my life.
Speaker 3: You need to remind us of what you said.
Speaker 5: I said.
Speaker 6: I said, I called, and I said I like to
Speaker 6: go on Omego and talk to animal cross talk about
Speaker 6: animal crossing with boys?
Speaker 3: Now, why did you say that?
Speaker 5: I listen?
Speaker 6: I was absolutely ship fast all night. Okay, I don't
Speaker 6: want to switch. I've never been on Omego. I don't
Speaker 6: know why I said it. I didn't have.
Speaker 3: Anyone calling back for like redemption.
Speaker 6: No, I would like to call back and take this
Speaker 6: question normally.
Speaker 3: How drunk? How drunk are you?
Speaker 8: Right?
Speaker 3: I bet you're Are you like only eighty percent as
Speaker 3: drunk as now as you were?
Speaker 6: Then I would say you're solid fifty. All right, It's
Speaker 6: not as bad, but it's still on that line. You
Speaker 6: know that line Why I got to keep myself in
Speaker 6: shack to make sure I don't start talking about Omego again, right,
Speaker 6: because there's one. There's a line, man.
Speaker 3: All right, I'm gonna against my better judgment. I'm gonna
Speaker 3: let you answer the question of the day. Okay, But
Speaker 3: if you say, if you start talking about just look, look,
Speaker 3: I'm trusting you, yack, No, No, I'm not. Does that
Speaker 3: mean nothing to you that I trust you?
Speaker 6: I trust you too, and I.
Speaker 3: Don't care if you trust me. I'm trusting you.
Speaker 6: I'm taking the trust you're giving me, and I'm putting
Speaker 6: it in my heart. I'm going to give you a
Speaker 6: PG answer. All right, there's nothing wrong with this.
Speaker 3: You don't have to give me a you just tell
Speaker 3: me the truth.
Speaker 6: Yeah, the truth. I'm going to tell you.
Speaker 3: Yeah, what do you miss?
Speaker 6: What do I miss?
Speaker 8: Yes?
Speaker 6: Miss, I'm miss being a kid?
Speaker 5: Man?
Speaker 3: Why do you miss being a kid? What do you miss?
Speaker 3: Or what what do you miss about being a kid?
Speaker 6: I missed the people, the people more than anything I
Speaker 6: could say. I could say, you know, the the lack
Speaker 6: of care or.
Speaker 5: How school was so.
Speaker 6: Easy, But I just missed the people. All right, I know,
Speaker 6: I keep in cond but none of the people I know.
Speaker 3: All right, What do you mean by you miss the people?
Speaker 3: Like you miss? You miss specifically the people you're friends
Speaker 3: with when you were a kid?
Speaker 2: Yeah, I do.
Speaker 6: I had this friend group when I was in the
Speaker 6: fourth grade. There it was the coolest people I ever met.
Speaker 6: We played a.
Speaker 5: That uh.
Speaker 6: Was the Minecraft?
Speaker 12: Oh?
Speaker 6: Maybe it was so much fun? I still so many
Speaker 6: lad I was How am I twenty two ninety eight
Speaker 6: born in ninety eight.
Speaker 8: Yeah?
Speaker 3: No, there was there was Minecraft in fourth grade. I'm
Speaker 3: sorry there was anyway, Okay, it was very new, but
Speaker 3: I'm sorry. You sound like you're fifty two?
Speaker 8: Are you do?
Speaker 5: But do you know that?
Speaker 2: Do you know that?
Speaker 5: I get that a lot.
Speaker 6: If you saw my face, you'd be like, there's no
Speaker 6: way that guy sounds like he's fifty two.
Speaker 3: Isn't this crazy?
Speaker 5: You know?
Speaker 3: You came in here, you said something weird about boys,
Speaker 3: and then it turns out you yourself are a boy.
Speaker 6: Yeah, I guess, yeah, I guess you could a demograph.
Speaker 6: You could consider me a boy?
Speaker 5: M hm?
Speaker 2: Would you go back?
Speaker 3: And would you?
Speaker 10: Would you?
Speaker 3: Would you go back and become a kid if again?
Speaker 3: If you could? No, I'm a get go If would
Speaker 3: you go back and become a kid again?
Speaker 6: Under what circumstances? Could rewind time?
Speaker 5: Became a kid? Right now?
Speaker 6: Time rewind time without a doubt in my mind?
Speaker 2: Yack?
Speaker 6: What I remember now?
Speaker 4: No?
Speaker 3: Yack that yack. Don't do that, man, I hate I
Speaker 3: would never do that. Never, don't do that. Don't don't
Speaker 3: regress yack because you're look, you're only twenty two, dude,
Speaker 3: Like fuck, being a kid, being a kid was sucked.
Speaker 2: You couldn't do it, every stupid kid everything.
Speaker 6: I would do it again if I had the chance.
Speaker 3: No, don't do it. No you have but by the way,
Speaker 3: you have the shance to do it again because you're
Speaker 3: twenty two.
Speaker 6: Yeah, the whole life, the school. I could have spent
Speaker 6: so much time just since year going around. Man, I
Speaker 6: could have had so much more fun if I.
Speaker 2: Knew in the ending you can have more fun. What fun?
Speaker 3: Okay, fun when you're in fourth grade sucks? Okay. I
Speaker 3: played Call of Duty zombies with my friends in fourth
Speaker 3: grade two and it wasn't that good. Looking back on
Speaker 3: it was that good?
Speaker 6: Though it was?
Speaker 5: It was good.
Speaker 7: Your life.
Speaker 3: There's so much more to life than that that you
Speaker 3: could experience.
Speaker 6: And forty years are you going to look back and
Speaker 6: you dressing up as you? You being a Get Go
Speaker 6: and you go, why did I do that?
Speaker 5: No, you're gonna go.
Speaker 6: I love doing that when I when I when I
Speaker 6: was with Get Go.
Speaker 3: Okay, yeah, yeah I am, and I'm not. I'm not
Speaker 3: in fourth grade. I'm not either, okay, but you Yeah,
Speaker 3: but I didn't even know. I've only been I've been
Speaker 3: doing this for less than six months. I've been I've
Speaker 3: not been doing addressing up.
Speaker 6: You were dressing up as a beam more than six
Speaker 6: months ago and going on the B factory.
Speaker 3: Yeah, but that would it didn't even Yeah, But what
Speaker 3: I'm trying to say is like, dude, I'm when you
Speaker 3: were fucking like you could have whatever your version is
Speaker 3: of dressing up as a gecko and being like, oh,
Speaker 3: that's a good thing to do, but that that could
Speaker 3: be ahead of you, but you won't even be able
Speaker 3: to find it if you're too busy like thinking about
Speaker 3: how fun it was to play Minecraft when you were
Speaker 3: in fourth Graen.
Speaker 12: No, no, no, no.
Speaker 6: But the point, the point is I would do it again,
Speaker 6: just to do it again. I would go back for
Speaker 6: a day if I could just have a day back there.
Speaker 6: I don't want to get rid of now.
Speaker 3: Okay, I mean, look I do. I guess I funk
Speaker 3: around with the day. But you weren't talking about fucking
Speaker 3: out with the day. You were talking about going back.
Speaker 3: That's what I was saying, you know.
Speaker 6: Well, I mean if I could relive it and just continue,
Speaker 6: Like if I could just relive it now and just
Speaker 6: do everything again, even if I did it exactly the same,
Speaker 6: would I never be satisfied? Probably? But would I do it?
Speaker 5: Yes?
Speaker 6: We as humans are never going to be satisfied.
Speaker 8: With what we do.
Speaker 6: We could always always say we could have done more,
Speaker 6: even though we couldn't have.
Speaker 3: But you're you. You know what you sound. You are
Speaker 3: sound like you're fifty two, not just because of your voice,
Speaker 3: but because of the way that you're You sound like
Speaker 3: you're fucking eighty five. Right now, you sound like you're dying.
Speaker 3: You're not dying. You're twenty two. You have so much life.
Speaker 3: What are you talking about? Play Minecraft right now?
Speaker 6: I don't want to play Minecraft right now?
Speaker 3: Then okay, but that's then. Then why do you want
Speaker 3: to play Minecraft? If you don't want to play Minecraft?
Speaker 6: I want to play as a twelve year old and
Speaker 6: missus Lesby's.
Speaker 3: Class a fuck Missus Wesby, dude, Missus.
Speaker 6: Wesby was a great teacher and everyone.
Speaker 2: I'm sure she was.
Speaker 3: But she's probably dead now and you have a whole
Speaker 3: life that you have to go live.
Speaker 6: Oh she is dead, I think, all right, So she's in.
Speaker 3: The past, and now you have your own life that
Speaker 3: you can go live.
Speaker 5: What am I?
Speaker 2: What am I supposed to do?
Speaker 6: I don't even know what I'm doing? Yack? What am
Speaker 6: I supposed to do?
Speaker 12: What I what I have?
Speaker 9: What?
Speaker 7: What do you?
Speaker 1: What do you?
Speaker 3: What do you want to do?
Speaker 6: I don't know what I want to do. I want
Speaker 6: to I want to do something.
Speaker 3: I look by the way. Sometimes sometimes you figure out
Speaker 3: what you want to do by just doing shit. I
Speaker 3: never woke up and was like I want I never
Speaker 3: will I never ever, there's never like with this show.
Speaker 3: I know, if you want to bring up this ship
Speaker 3: as an example, I was never like I want to
Speaker 3: go be a gecko and take calls. I just started
Speaker 3: doing things and fucking around with the tools around me
Speaker 3: that I thought were interesting, and then something came out
Speaker 3: of it and I ended up rolling with it. But
Speaker 3: it didn't come from like a you know, So that's
Speaker 3: what you gotta do. You gotta just look at the
Speaker 3: tools around you and start fucking around with them and
Speaker 3: experimenting and doing things. Don't and don't think about going
Speaker 3: back to being twelve and playing Minecraft, because these days
Speaker 3: are over and you're only twenty two going back.
Speaker 6: You don't think about the days when you were, when
Speaker 6: you were in the fourth grade and think about you
Speaker 6: so sweetly.
Speaker 3: You don't do that, No, I'm honest, No, honestly, I
Speaker 3: try not to. I mean, look, I I look fondly
Speaker 3: at my life, but I'm interested more in the present
Speaker 3: than I am in the past.
Speaker 6: If you died tomorrow, would you be content with your life?
Speaker 3: Totally?
Speaker 8: Really?
Speaker 12: Yes?
Speaker 6: There's nothing you want to do you'd want to be
Speaker 6: like I wish I could have done that before I died.
Speaker 3: There's a lot of things I want to do before
Speaker 3: I die. But if I fucking died right now, I look,
Speaker 3: I have had a great life. You've tund you just
Speaker 3: sound like you've had a good life too, everybody, Like
Speaker 3: most people. I don't want to get into other people's bullship.
Speaker 3: But there's more do you have so much more life
Speaker 3: left to live? I don't know why you're throwing in
Speaker 3: the towel at twenty two.
Speaker 6: I'm not throwing in the town. I'm trying things, all right.
Speaker 6: I'm trying to make this movie.
Speaker 3: You're trying to make a movie.
Speaker 6: I'm trying to make a movie.
Speaker 3: Go make a movie. I like that idea. I like
Speaker 3: you making a movie.
Speaker 6: I'm trying, man, I'm trying.
Speaker 3: Make a documentary about Missus WEBBSY make an ode to
Speaker 3: her life. An ode, Yes, an ode.
Speaker 6: Missus Wesby like lighthouses, all right. She liked lighthouses, and
Speaker 6: she was fat. She was more than the obese. No
Speaker 6: offense to missus Lesby.
Speaker 2: So so okay, so I don't I'm just I'm.
Speaker 6: Just I'm just thinking. I'm just thinking out loud.
Speaker 3: All right, listen, yeah, thank you for thank you for
Speaker 3: calling in man, and look, go give missus Wellsby a call.
Speaker 3: Find out that is she does she really dead?
Speaker 6: I don't know?
Speaker 3: Then who can? Then then it does? Then you don't.
Speaker 3: If you don't know if she's dead or not, then
Speaker 3: you don't care about her. Then she's not that important
Speaker 3: in your present life.
Speaker 5: Okay.
Speaker 2: So I will look then at people that.
Speaker 3: I know, anyone who I currently anyone who is important
Speaker 3: to me in my present day life. I know the
Speaker 3: status of whether or not they're they're alive or death.
Speaker 10: She's not important me.
Speaker 6: I'm not you know, checking my my watch every minute
Speaker 6: to see how missus Lesby is. All right, Maybe you
Speaker 6: know my buddy Tony who is on the street. Maybe
Speaker 6: I'll go check in on him, but you know, not
Speaker 6: not not not okay. See I type in I type
Speaker 6: in her name and.
Speaker 2: It comes up with a talent.
Speaker 3: All right, ya yack, you.
Speaker 6: Need to take some other calls. I don't know what
Speaker 6: you're doing with me.
Speaker 3: Good luck, Yack. I'm that serious. Good luck, good luck,
Speaker 3: think about what I said. Fuck fuck fuck fuck Missus
Speaker 3: Wesby and fuck minecraft. Go make a movie.
Speaker 6: All right, I'll try, I'll try, I'll I'll talk to
Speaker 6: you soon, you know.
Speaker 3: Good night?
Speaker 6: Yeah, all right, good.
Speaker 2: Night call from Flo.
Speaker 3: Flow. You know, Flow, you and I can relate to you,
Speaker 3: and I have the thing that we can relate to.
Speaker 3: Absolutely guess what you know what it is?
Speaker 13: We both graduated in Jesus night.
Speaker 3: No, how do you know I didn't graduate too that?
Speaker 3: What do you graduate from?
Speaker 2: One?
Speaker 5: Do?
Speaker 3: Doesn't it.
Speaker 13: High school?
Speaker 3: Who can guess what Flow and I have in common
Speaker 3: to bond over Flow? Think here?
Speaker 13: Uh, you know, I'm really trying, but I'm not getting anything.
Speaker 3: Flow. We both get a disgusting amount of unfunny insurance
Speaker 3: jokes message to us on a daily basis.
Speaker 13: You're right, You're right.
Speaker 3: How does that feel for you?
Speaker 5: You know?
Speaker 12: Not bad?
Speaker 10: Not great.
Speaker 13: I think it was worse when my dad said I
Speaker 13: looked like her when I was like sixteen.
Speaker 3: I was like, no, I do not think there's nothing
Speaker 3: wrong with looking like Flow. She's very beautiful.
Speaker 13: Well I'm not saying she's not beautiful, but I'm saying
Speaker 13: I do not look anything like her.
Speaker 3: Well, listen, flow, you must have called in for a reason.
Speaker 3: How can I help you this evening?
Speaker 13: You know, I've just been watching your stream, probably for.
Speaker 8: Since the beginning of the year I think was the
Speaker 8: beginning of this year, of this year.
Speaker 13: Yeah, it's been like maybe a week or.
Speaker 3: Two twenty twenty dec Nation. And what's what's your least
Speaker 3: favorite part of the stream? What makes you what parts
Speaker 3: of it make you want to turn it off?
Speaker 13: The boring calls?
Speaker 3: Okay, the boring How do you define a boring call?
Speaker 13: I don't know. There's just sometimes when you get some
Speaker 13: calls that are usually from thirty something males that just
Speaker 13: don't have anything to talk about. But also I really
Speaker 13: dislike a lot of the underage calls and the really
Speaker 13: truly calls.
Speaker 3: So you say, the most boring calls are from like
Speaker 3: thirty year old men that don't have anything to talk about.
Speaker 3: Is there anyone in particular that you maybe remember You
Speaker 3: don't have to know their names, but a situation you
Speaker 3: can describe that you remember being very boring. Well, I
Speaker 3: guess that's hard because it's boring, so you probably remember it.
Speaker 13: But yeah, exactly, man, I know It was one of
Speaker 13: the first times I watched the stream and he just
Speaker 13: seemed to drone on and on and the conversation.
Speaker 3: Went nowhere, do you think that this call is boring?
Speaker 13: I mean it definitely could be. There's not as much
Speaker 13: spice to the call as you usually have because a
Speaker 13: lot of people have a lot of hot take.
Speaker 3: Hot takes you, so you think that it would spice
Speaker 3: up the call for for either of us to have
Speaker 3: a hot take to present to to to to the
Speaker 3: stream or to each other.
Speaker 13: Absolutely the case.
Speaker 3: This is interesting for me because I want to I
Speaker 3: want to know you know. Look, I think that you
Speaker 3: can improve something unless if you're willing to accept the
Speaker 3: flaws of it. So this has helped interesting information for me.
Speaker 3: I mean, what do you think I could do to
Speaker 3: make these calls less boring?
Speaker 12: Uh?
Speaker 13: Definitely have a fire round of.
Speaker 3: Questions, fire round? Okay, I like it?
Speaker 13: Yeah, Like just off topic completely, just Sam, Sam, What
Speaker 13: do they got to say about a topic that makes
Speaker 13: absolutely no sense? Like, for example, what do you think
Speaker 13: about a Veno lotion?
Speaker 3: A Veno lotion?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 3: I don't like that question that much because what about
Speaker 3: is that it feels it feels sort of closed, right,
Speaker 3: like a Veno lotion. It's like, I don't think anything
Speaker 3: of it. I have no experience. I don't even know
Speaker 3: what it is.
Speaker 10: Yeah, exactly.
Speaker 3: Well, I mean okay, so what do you mean exactly?
Speaker 3: That's that would be boring because I don't know what
Speaker 3: it is. I don't have any I don't have a
Speaker 3: strong opinion about it.
Speaker 13: Yes, but take something where you do have a strong opinion, right,
Speaker 13: like do you like bottled water?
Speaker 2: Do I like what bottled water?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 3: I like bottled water.
Speaker 13: See there's something there for everybody. Uh here, here's my
Speaker 13: the hottest take that I have. Okay, I remember All
Speaker 13: Summer Long came out in two thousand and eight was
Speaker 13: a matchup of Sweet Home Alabama and you have a
Speaker 13: would you have.
Speaker 3: A weird fascination with two thousand and eight? Was that
Speaker 3: a good year for you?
Speaker 12: Oh?
Speaker 13: Absolutely not? Fucking hated that song. And I think Kid
Speaker 13: Rock is a horrible artist.
Speaker 3: There that is, I don't Here's my thing is, I
Speaker 3: don't really do anything aside from this. I really do
Speaker 3: just sit at home and stare at a wall. So like,
Speaker 3: I'm not well, I'm not good at talking about bands
Speaker 3: or pop culture or you know, bottled water. I don't
Speaker 3: have I don't have hot takes. I don't I'm not
Speaker 3: knowledgeable enough for hot takes. That's kind of why, like
Speaker 3: a ninety percent of the stream is, you know, listening
Speaker 3: to other people because I don't. I don't have strong takes.
Speaker 3: Actually that's not true. The other day I was talking
Speaker 3: about how we should be allowed to poop in public,
Speaker 3: but I was like, I was eighty percent kidding. Was
Speaker 3: this a boring call? Be honest?
Speaker 13: Oh definitely?
Speaker 3: Do you think it was definitely boring?
Speaker 13: It's definitely bullet boring because honestly, I had no fucking
Speaker 13: like idea that I was going to get through.
Speaker 3: I'm so fun. We're fucked, dude, we can't. We're fucked this.
Speaker 3: This isn't gonna go. This is not good this. I
Speaker 3: don't think we can. I don't think this is sustainable
Speaker 3: to just have all these boring calls. What are we
Speaker 3: gonna do?
Speaker 13: I mean, you're gonna find somebody that's probably better than
Speaker 13: I am that talking on the therapy gecko. Honestly, what
Speaker 13: I really wanted to say, sure, was I really enjoyed
Speaker 13: your haiku stream last week?
Speaker 3: Oh? Thank you, thank you, thank you, tomorrow Experimental Tuesdays.
Speaker 3: I got I got a good thing cooking for tomorrow. Yeah,
Speaker 3: will you be there? No, no spoilers, you got to
Speaker 3: be there. But are you going to be there?
Speaker 2: Oh?
Speaker 13: Hell yeah, I'm gonna be listening. I listen every single time.
Speaker 3: Every single time, even though it's boring. That's that's how.
Speaker 3: That's how I know you're a real one. All right, Look,
Speaker 3: I'm boring you. We're boring each other. We should get all.
Speaker 3: We should get off the phone with each other. Do
Speaker 3: you think that would be helpful to both of us?
Speaker 13: I mean, honestly, probably, But also I'm kind of having
Speaker 13: a little fun trolling chat just because they're calling me boring.
Speaker 2: How are you?
Speaker 3: No one's trolling anyone. We're just on the phone, I know.
Speaker 13: But it's amazingly funny that I get to be the
Speaker 13: boring one.
Speaker 3: Well see, I don't have anything to say to that,
Speaker 3: because it's because you know what, what's would you say?
Speaker 3: Your name was?
Speaker 5: Wow?
Speaker 3: Like the girl from Progressive the car insurance lady? Do
Speaker 3: you sell insurance? No, I'll talk to you later.
Speaker 13: Flow all right, I'll be get.
Speaker 2: All from Mark, Mark, my friend.
Speaker 6: I am a man of little time, So do you
Speaker 6: care if I give this call to a friend of mine?
Speaker 1: Uh not?
Speaker 8: Go for it?
Speaker 2: All right, Tony, We'll wait for him.
Speaker 8: Hello, Tony, hey man, how's it going.
Speaker 3: It's going all right. I want to hear you. Thank
Speaker 3: you friend Mark for giving your giving away his call
Speaker 3: to you.
Speaker 6: Mark.
Speaker 5: I really, I really appreciate it.
Speaker 15: We've been trying this for about an hour and a
Speaker 15: half now.
Speaker 9: I just want to give my shout out because.
Speaker 15: He's in my friend since third grade, and uh, yeah,
Speaker 15: it was nice of.
Speaker 3: Him to I mean, it was nice of him to
Speaker 3: give away his call like that to you. Do you
Speaker 3: feel like, do you feel sort of a pressure to
Speaker 3: like make it worthwhile, to like make this a good call,
Speaker 3: like for for this for his sake because he donated
Speaker 3: it to you.
Speaker 15: I do, I do, I'll make it a good call.
Speaker 3: Well, the joke, the joke's on you, because there is
Speaker 3: no such thing as a qualitative judgment of the calls.
Speaker 3: It's not a real thing. Does call.
Speaker 5: I'm just called what do you do? What do you do?
Speaker 3: What do you do for fun? Tony?
Speaker 5: For fun?
Speaker 15: So I I live in Louisiana, right, and in Louisiana,
Speaker 15: you can do this thing like you can. You can
Speaker 15: do alligator wrestling.
Speaker 10: Really.
Speaker 15: Uh it's it's like really readily available.
Speaker 5: Like you can go to a place.
Speaker 15: And uh, they'll they'll, they'll, they'll, you'll they'll teach you
Speaker 15: how to wrestle alligators for like fifty bucks.
Speaker 6: Mm.
Speaker 3: Now, when you go to do alligator wrestling, who typically
Speaker 3: wins between you and the alligator?
Speaker 15: Well, I only do the baby ones because I don't
Speaker 15: really want to, Like you can you can choose, Like
Speaker 15: I only weigh one hundred and forty pounds, so I
Speaker 15: have to do like the little ones because the big
Speaker 15: ones are.
Speaker 8: Those eat me.
Speaker 15: So you can pick like tears, Like there's like tiers
Speaker 15: of alligators and there's sizes, so like the small ones.
Speaker 15: I I mean, obviously I win, Because I didn't, that
Speaker 15: wouldn't be good.
Speaker 3: Okay, okay, hold on, hold on, hold I don't think
Speaker 3: I still I wouldn't say, like, obviously you win. I
Speaker 3: still feel like a baby alligator is a threat.
Speaker 5: Yeah, you're right, you're right, you're right.
Speaker 15: They they've got some some safety precautions because you know,
Speaker 15: the baby alligators.
Speaker 3: I mean, they have safety precautions for the alligators themselves,
Speaker 3: because because that's the thing right, is who really wins
Speaker 3: when you beat up a baby alligator?
Speaker 5: Yeah, I say baby.
Speaker 15: But like they're they're just like small, small alligators. I
Speaker 15: shouldn't think they're.
Speaker 3: Not Like it's not like because I'm imagining like a cute, little, tiny,
Speaker 3: little alligator with like big bulgy eyes. That's like they
Speaker 3: just don't wrestle. That's saying to you, please don't wrestle me.
Speaker 3: It hurts.
Speaker 5: I just want to go.
Speaker 15: I'm not evil, you know. So like the youve got
Speaker 15: like there's like three four foot long alligators, and there's
Speaker 15: like the the terrifying like six seven foot alligators. They're
Speaker 15: just like monsters. So the the small ones you gotta like,
Speaker 15: you gotta. There's there's there's there's a strategy.
Speaker 6: That they teach you, and it's just do you got
Speaker 6: to get behind them needed the neck.
Speaker 15: You put them in like a chokehold, and I mean
Speaker 15: you pretty much got it at that point. Then you
Speaker 15: got to tape up like their mouth and stuff so
Speaker 15: they don't just you know, buy your nose off.
Speaker 3: What inspired you to want to wrestle alligators?
Speaker 15: Well, I'm scared of them, and it's it's something I
Speaker 15: like to do, is to challenge my my fears. It's
Speaker 15: like it's like a like a like a self improvement
Speaker 15: kind of thing. But you know, if I'm scared of
Speaker 15: doing something, doing it, well, negate that fear.
Speaker 3: But don't you have don't don't you don't you feel
Speaker 3: bad for the baby alley? Don't you feel bad when
Speaker 3: you're putting your knee on the neck of a baby
Speaker 3: alley gator?
Speaker 5: I do, but not not in the moment. There's a
Speaker 5: lot of adrenaline.
Speaker 3: I'll tell you the moment. The moment is where it
Speaker 3: counts the most, because the moment is when is when
Speaker 3: you're doing it.
Speaker 15: Yeah, yeah, I've I've only I've only wrestled them a
Speaker 15: couple of times.
Speaker 6: Two I just two times.
Speaker 15: In the summer of twenty fourteen. There was just something
Speaker 15: in the air, and I thought wrestling alligators sounded like
Speaker 15: a good idea. But you know, as as my fear diminished,
Speaker 15: I realized that that's that's not a it's not really
Speaker 15: a nice thing to do to the alligators. It's just
Speaker 15: wrestle them and then you let them go. But like
Speaker 15: I mean, I wouldn't want an alligator wrestling my child.
Speaker 3: It's true, So I kind of like, you know, that's true,
Speaker 3: it's gary, it's.
Speaker 5: Right.
Speaker 3: Imagine if alligators try to wrestle us, that would be.
Speaker 2: Yeah, we'd be terrificiated.
Speaker 15: Yeah, but I mean, I.
Speaker 6: I don't know.
Speaker 15: I think the alligators are just as scared of us
Speaker 15: as we are them.
Speaker 5: I like I like that.
Speaker 3: I like that as like the central theme of this. Right,
Speaker 3: we think of alligators as terrifying and like they don't
Speaker 3: give a fuck and they're bad ass because they're alligators,
Speaker 3: But in reality they're they're scared of us too, and
Speaker 3: we sort of have to come to a mutual I
Speaker 3: think that's how we solve this, is humans and alligators
Speaker 3: need to come to a mutual understanding that there's actually
Speaker 3: more that we actually have more in there's more that
Speaker 3: brings us together than than separates us from each other.
Speaker 3: Have you ever gotten your ass kicked by one of
Speaker 3: these alligators? Has any of them ever? I?
Speaker 15: I have not else, but I've seen it happen. Because
Speaker 15: these these alligators, you know, they.
Speaker 6: Like the ones that I wrestle.
Speaker 5: I gotta go with the lower tier.
Speaker 15: You know, I'm not all sports olegger here, So like
Speaker 15: the alligators that I wrestle are the small one. You know,
Speaker 15: I I've got I've got the benefit of the doubt there.
Speaker 5: But there was a guy who I like, you gotta like.
Speaker 8: There's like a line and.
Speaker 15: This guy was wrestling a like this six foot long
Speaker 15: alligator dude, and.
Speaker 6: He he goes to put the put.
Speaker 15: The put the knee on the neck, like I told you,
Speaker 15: and he like the alligator like like moves like he's
Speaker 15: turns his neck.
Speaker 5: Guy.
Speaker 15: The guy's knee misses and the alligator like like runs away,
Speaker 15: runs away, and they had to they had to go
Speaker 15: down and catch the alligator.
Speaker 3: But he was trying to because someone he.
Speaker 15: Didn't he didn't even fight back, he just ran and
Speaker 15: so he didn't really get that. I would be now
Speaker 15: we're going to try to put his knee on my neck.
Speaker 15: I'm not sticking around.
Speaker 3: If an alligator tried to put his knee on my
Speaker 3: neck and I had the opportunity to either fight the
Speaker 3: alligator or run away, I would absolutely run away from
Speaker 3: the alligator.
Speaker 6: I would run so fast, not even funny.
Speaker 3: Well man, what when's when's the last are you? When's
Speaker 3: the last time that you went alligator wrestling?
Speaker 5: That that was?
Speaker 15: That was that was six years ago. Clean now I'm clean.
Speaker 15: I'm six years clean. I've got a little token and everything.
Speaker 5: I'm not. I'm not.
Speaker 15: I don't play on wrestling anymore alligators because I know
Speaker 15: what I want to do.
Speaker 3: I'm sorry. What were you gonna say?
Speaker 5: Now?
Speaker 3: That's all right, you go ahead, No, please, you realized, Oh.
Speaker 15: I just realized that it's not you know, nice.
Speaker 3: I was going to say, I'm thinking about what if
Speaker 3: I opened like a gecko wrestling place where you could
Speaker 3: come and you could wrestle geckos, but the only gecko
Speaker 3: there is me, and it's just people come and they
Speaker 3: wrestle me, and then at the end we kiss.
Speaker 15: If you if you would offer me like a like
Speaker 15: if I could buy a stock into that company, I
Speaker 15: would do it.
Speaker 3: I'll let you know when we go public.
Speaker 7: Hit me up.
Speaker 3: I'll talk to you soon.
Speaker 2: Man.
Speaker 3: Thank you for going, Thank.
Speaker 15: You for loving me?
Speaker 2: How from.
Speaker 3: Hello?
Speaker 2: While m Where do we go when we die?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 8: That's well, I'm you know, we're trying to figure that out.
Speaker 8: I don't think it matters where we get. I think
Speaker 8: it matters the legacy we leave.
Speaker 3: What what's your name for a series of note? You said?
Speaker 3: Rickmus Riffner R A. S.
Speaker 5: S N. E. R.
Speaker 3: Riffner. What do you believe your legacy will be?
Speaker 5: Hm?
Speaker 8: Right now, my legacy would be?
Speaker 3: Or actually you actually you give me an idea here.
Speaker 3: If you died tomorrow, what would your legacy be? And
Speaker 3: then and then I want to hear what you what
Speaker 3: you hope your legacy to be for your whole life?
Speaker 3: So tell me now, what would your legacy be if
Speaker 3: you died tomorrow, if you got hit by a bus?
Speaker 8: Okay, if I died tomorrow, my legacy would be honestly, like,
Speaker 8: like to be honest with you, lyle, my my legacy
Speaker 8: would be that someone who had a kid at twenty.
Speaker 8: That would be it.
Speaker 3: Your legacy would be to be a kid at twenty.
Speaker 8: No, I had a kid at twenty.
Speaker 3: You had a kid at twenty Yeah, so you have
Speaker 3: a kid. Yeah, so your kid would be would be
Speaker 3: your legacy?
Speaker 8: Correct? But I don't think that that counts because it's like,
Speaker 8: I don't think I have had much of an impact
Speaker 8: on her life yet.
Speaker 3: You know, Okay, how old is she?
Speaker 8: She is going to be a year on the twenty fifth.
Speaker 3: Nice a year is you can have a fair amount
Speaker 3: of an impact on a year. Octually, I guess not.
Speaker 3: I don't know. I'm not an early childhood specialist. G echo.
Speaker 3: But okay, so what would your what do you hope
Speaker 3: for your legacy to be throughout your whole life?
Speaker 8: I would hope that it would be someone who could
Speaker 8: do right by his kids.
Speaker 3: Okay, now, and in what way do you hope to
Speaker 3: do right by your kids?
Speaker 8: Be able to like just be like a supportive father,
Speaker 8: the loved father, show them care, affection, you know, the essentials.
Speaker 3: How do you feel about having had kids pretty young?
Speaker 8: You know, originally I was turned off by it, like
Speaker 8: like it was something that I was kind of ashamed of,
Speaker 8: to be honest. But now I've like been through a
Speaker 8: whole year of it, and it's kind of the most
Speaker 8: amazing thing that like I've ever been through.
Speaker 3: You know, you said you were ashamed of it, Yeah,
Speaker 3: a little bit. Why were you ashamed?
Speaker 8: Because I wasn't totally like like I wasn't with like
Speaker 8: totally emotionally invested in the person I had her with.
Speaker 8: So it kind of was like I was in a
Speaker 8: weird situation where like, oh, okay, I felt like I
Speaker 8: had to be there for that person and I had
Speaker 8: to like support this person when they didn't really care
Speaker 8: about me. But I'm out of that now. I'm trying
Speaker 8: my best to move on.
Speaker 3: Yeah, you know, I don't feel I don't feel like
Speaker 3: your relationship with the kid has to be predicated in
Speaker 3: any way, shape or formed by the relationship with the
Speaker 3: person you had you you had her with.
Speaker 8: I agree with you, It's just that her mom makes
Speaker 8: that kind of difficult sometimes.
Speaker 3: Sure, but you know, I mean you have you have
Speaker 3: sort of your own I mean, look, you have your
Speaker 3: own relationship with your kid. It's untethered to to your mom,
Speaker 3: and you know that's that's the whole thing for you
Speaker 3: to develop.
Speaker 8: Absolutely, I'm looking forward to that too.
Speaker 3: Yeah, man, I'm trying to I'm trying to think, here
Speaker 3: does it.
Speaker 6: Why?
Speaker 3: Why was why was your relationship strained with with the mother?
Speaker 8: There's a long list of answers to that question.
Speaker 3: Sure, but.
Speaker 5: I was kind of.
Speaker 8: I guess basically, I was like supposed to be this
Speaker 8: emotional support person for her and I just like couldn't
Speaker 8: be that, you know, and she got.
Speaker 5: Pissed at it.
Speaker 3: Well, I mean it's a lot of work to you know,
Speaker 3: support a significant other, end to support a kid, and
Speaker 3: there's a lot of work. There's a lot of work
Speaker 3: for someone who's twenty two, right, you know. But it's
Speaker 3: good to it's good to hear that you're excited for,
Speaker 3: you know, fostering a relationship with your kid, you know.
Speaker 3: And I can tell I can tell that, you mean that,
Speaker 3: I can tell that you're you're you're invested in that relationship.
Speaker 8: Thank you. Yeah, man, yeah, do to be honest, to
Speaker 8: be honest with you, man, like you're so she doesn't
Speaker 8: live in the same statement right and over the summer,
Speaker 8: but I had to, like with COVID and like school
Speaker 8: starting and stuff, I had to move like miles and
Speaker 8: miles away from her, and I was going through like
Speaker 8: the worst shared of my life. And your stream, your
Speaker 8: your podcast is like the only thing I got.
Speaker 7: Me through it.
Speaker 3: Oh, thank you, man, I'm glad. I'm glad that you
Speaker 3: that you dug that. I'm happy that it helped in
Speaker 3: any way, shape or form. Man, Is there any like
Speaker 3: any anything else that you wanted to sort of talk about?
Speaker 9: Have we not?
Speaker 3: Have we not spoken before?
Speaker 2: We have not.
Speaker 8: I've been in your chat a few times, but and
Speaker 8: I've been listening since like August September.
Speaker 3: I think, oh, surely you've probably been here, like I've
Speaker 3: been doing it since August ish, you know what.
Speaker 8: No, I've been here since the an episode of the
Speaker 8: podcast came out.
Speaker 2: So not like some cool here for a while.
Speaker 3: No, that's pretty much the beginning. Yeah, dude, is there
Speaker 3: is there anything that that else that you wanted to
Speaker 3: share before we go?
Speaker 8: Not particularly you know, this was kind of exactly what
Speaker 8: I imagined out of our first talk. Just wanted to
Speaker 8: let you know, like how often your stream's done for me, man,
Speaker 8: Like it's really been take the ship, dude, You got any.
Speaker 3: You got any let's you know, I think I've talked
Speaker 3: to a few other you know, young parents out there.
Speaker 3: You got any words of advice for any other young
Speaker 3: parents out there that might be having a difficult time
Speaker 3: with the situation?
Speaker 8: Just make it all about the kids like that. That's really,
Speaker 8: at the end of the day, what it's about. Like,
Speaker 8: your own insecurities are valid, but like too, it's part
Speaker 8: of who you are, and.
Speaker 3: To just like focus I'm the kids totally.
Speaker 7: Man.
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's I feel like that's the thing I don't
Speaker 3: obviously I don't have kids, but you know I've heard
Speaker 3: that that's the thing. You know, when you have kids.
Speaker 3: It's that, you know, you you have the opportunity to
Speaker 3: focus on something that's completely outside of yourself.
Speaker 8: Yeah, totally so, and that that itself comes with like
Speaker 8: like the pursuit to get there comes with like a
Speaker 8: whole other slew of self improvement along the way, and
Speaker 8: it's just awesome.
Speaker 3: Oh totally. I mean it's difficult. Look, you know, I'll say,
Speaker 3: I mean, you know, it's hard because when you're single,
Speaker 3: your life is all your you go from, especially when
Speaker 3: you go from like your life is all about you
Speaker 3: and then all of a sudden that's not the case anymore.
Speaker 3: That's a difficult transition to make. But yeah, man, good good, good,
Speaker 3: good luck to you, and good luck to your kid. Man,
Speaker 3: thank you, thank you for calling in and I appreciate
Speaker 3: the kind words.
Speaker 8: Yeah, thank you, Lyle.
Speaker 3: You have a good night you too, Man, take care.
Speaker 1: The repeat goes on the line taking your phone calls
Speaker 1: every night. The repeat goes doing his eye. Who's teaching
Speaker 1: you to house liver your life? But he's not really
Speaker 1: an expert.