1 00:00:05,920 --> 00:00:09,840 Speaker 1: Hello, gorgeous, Welcome back to the bonus episode of You 2 00:00:09,840 --> 00:00:11,000 Speaker 1: Give Them All a Podcast. 3 00:00:11,360 --> 00:00:14,000 Speaker 2: If you listen to Wednesday's episode, you guys know. 4 00:00:14,320 --> 00:00:19,840 Speaker 1: That today I am addressing any questions I guess, the 5 00:00:19,920 --> 00:00:23,000 Speaker 1: top questions that you guys have had for me throughout 6 00:00:23,120 --> 00:00:27,360 Speaker 1: the course of season eleven. I know that many of 7 00:00:27,400 --> 00:00:31,800 Speaker 1: you have said that I surround myself with yes people. 8 00:00:32,840 --> 00:00:34,560 Speaker 2: That is not true. 9 00:00:36,120 --> 00:00:38,200 Speaker 1: I have a lot of people in my circle who 10 00:00:38,320 --> 00:00:42,800 Speaker 1: are tremendous support systems. But when I look back on 11 00:00:42,840 --> 00:00:47,280 Speaker 1: my life, especially starting season four to where I am now, 12 00:00:48,080 --> 00:00:51,760 Speaker 1: a lot has happened in my world. I've gotten sober, 13 00:00:52,720 --> 00:00:58,240 Speaker 1: I've gone through a really tough breakup. I've handled myself 14 00:00:58,280 --> 00:01:01,680 Speaker 1: in a very eloquent way, and then I've burned that 15 00:01:01,840 --> 00:01:06,400 Speaker 1: to the ground. Many of time, you don't go through 16 00:01:07,240 --> 00:01:11,080 Speaker 1: the types of changes like I've gone through in my life, 17 00:01:11,680 --> 00:01:13,960 Speaker 1: the evolution that I've gone through in my life, what 18 00:01:14,080 --> 00:01:19,800 Speaker 1: we call I guess in Hollywood or TV biz a 19 00:01:19,920 --> 00:01:25,000 Speaker 1: character arc. You don't go through the one that I've 20 00:01:25,080 --> 00:01:27,520 Speaker 1: had being surrounded by yes people. 21 00:01:27,920 --> 00:01:28,639 Speaker 2: You just don't. 22 00:01:29,360 --> 00:01:33,759 Speaker 1: I'm proud of where I am. I am still human 23 00:01:33,840 --> 00:01:38,600 Speaker 1: and make many mistakes. I'm okay with that, I'm not 24 00:01:38,680 --> 00:01:42,080 Speaker 1: too proud to admit that there are times where I 25 00:01:42,160 --> 00:01:44,960 Speaker 1: go Damn, I've had a really humbling moment just now. 26 00:01:45,600 --> 00:01:49,600 Speaker 1: They happened to me all the time, and it's never 27 00:01:49,640 --> 00:01:52,800 Speaker 1: going to change that. I will always continue being my 28 00:01:52,880 --> 00:01:58,960 Speaker 1: biggest fan, because if I don't continue to practice self 29 00:01:59,040 --> 00:02:03,280 Speaker 1: love and self support, I can go into a dark place. 30 00:02:03,640 --> 00:02:07,000 Speaker 1: So I do have many people around me who support me, 31 00:02:07,760 --> 00:02:11,160 Speaker 1: but they check me a lot, and I'm grateful for 32 00:02:11,240 --> 00:02:16,480 Speaker 1: that today because I've been told I'm surrounded by yes people. 33 00:02:17,120 --> 00:02:20,520 Speaker 1: I have pulled producer John, who you guys know from 34 00:02:20,600 --> 00:02:25,799 Speaker 1: the regular episodes. He's going to ask me the questions 35 00:02:26,160 --> 00:02:30,760 Speaker 1: again I've been off social media. I had him come 36 00:02:30,919 --> 00:02:34,400 Speaker 1: through all of the top questions. He wrote them down. 37 00:02:35,040 --> 00:02:37,680 Speaker 1: Unless it's a RAMS game, he's not tuning in. So 38 00:02:38,160 --> 00:02:42,480 Speaker 1: he became aware of La La Kent when my home 39 00:02:42,560 --> 00:02:45,560 Speaker 1: podcast network said Hey, you'll be producing a show called 40 00:02:45,600 --> 00:02:50,200 Speaker 1: Give Them Lala and he's like the RAMS What So. 41 00:02:50,720 --> 00:02:51,880 Speaker 2: Here's producer John. 42 00:02:52,280 --> 00:02:56,120 Speaker 1: He does not know much about anything but sports and 43 00:02:56,160 --> 00:02:59,519 Speaker 1: the podcast that we do together, but as far as VPR, 44 00:02:59,720 --> 00:03:01,360 Speaker 1: he's an outsider. 45 00:03:01,840 --> 00:03:02,720 Speaker 2: Welcome John. 46 00:03:02,880 --> 00:03:05,400 Speaker 3: It feels great to be on camera. Holy moly, I 47 00:03:05,400 --> 00:03:06,799 Speaker 3: have a beaniance, so none of you guys are gonna 48 00:03:06,800 --> 00:03:07,919 Speaker 3: get blinded by this bald head. 49 00:03:07,960 --> 00:03:10,600 Speaker 2: So we love it. He's not a yes man. 50 00:03:10,639 --> 00:03:13,040 Speaker 1: He's just gonna simply ask the top questions that y'all 51 00:03:13,080 --> 00:03:14,640 Speaker 1: have asked throughout season eleven. 52 00:03:15,080 --> 00:03:19,120 Speaker 2: I will answer in my truth and we'll move on. 53 00:03:19,360 --> 00:03:22,320 Speaker 3: All right, let's ride. Number one. Are you upset bpr 54 00:03:22,400 --> 00:03:23,000 Speaker 3: is paused? 55 00:03:24,600 --> 00:03:29,400 Speaker 1: No, I'm quite the opposite. I feel like I need 56 00:03:29,440 --> 00:03:31,200 Speaker 1: a break. I feel like the rest of my cast 57 00:03:31,240 --> 00:03:34,359 Speaker 1: needs a break. As much as I love filming the show, 58 00:03:35,160 --> 00:03:41,080 Speaker 1: it can become very volatile. We are I'm hyper sensitive 59 00:03:41,120 --> 00:03:45,280 Speaker 1: and emotional, especially being pregnant. To be honest, when I 60 00:03:45,320 --> 00:03:48,440 Speaker 1: heard we were paused, it was like an elephant lifted 61 00:03:48,480 --> 00:03:51,280 Speaker 1: off of my chest because it was like, I get 62 00:03:51,320 --> 00:03:55,760 Speaker 1: to create a very peaceful environment for this new baby 63 00:03:55,760 --> 00:03:58,600 Speaker 1: that I'm bringing into the world, and I just feel 64 00:03:58,640 --> 00:03:59,400 Speaker 1: like it's meant to be. 65 00:04:00,160 --> 00:04:02,840 Speaker 3: All right, let's move on. Number two. Are you trying 66 00:04:02,880 --> 00:04:05,280 Speaker 3: to get on the valley? You bought a house there. 67 00:04:06,000 --> 00:04:09,920 Speaker 1: I have not had any conversations about entering the valley. 68 00:04:10,160 --> 00:04:13,400 Speaker 1: I have had no thought about going on the valley. 69 00:04:14,280 --> 00:04:16,320 Speaker 1: I bought a house in the Valley because I could 70 00:04:16,320 --> 00:04:19,520 Speaker 1: not afford a home that was large enough for my 71 00:04:19,600 --> 00:04:22,360 Speaker 1: family with a yard in the flats of Beverly Hills. 72 00:04:23,360 --> 00:04:26,640 Speaker 1: When you're ready to be a homeowner and you make 73 00:04:26,720 --> 00:04:28,159 Speaker 1: what me or my friends. 74 00:04:27,880 --> 00:04:29,600 Speaker 2: Make, you move to the valley. 75 00:04:29,680 --> 00:04:32,920 Speaker 1: That's just what you do. There was nothing behind it 76 00:04:32,960 --> 00:04:35,080 Speaker 1: except this is what we can afford, and it's a 77 00:04:35,080 --> 00:04:37,599 Speaker 1: beautiful space for my family. We're suburban people. 78 00:04:37,640 --> 00:04:40,040 Speaker 3: Now, I guess, welcome to the Valley. 79 00:04:40,160 --> 00:04:40,520 Speaker 2: Thank you. 80 00:04:41,240 --> 00:04:44,039 Speaker 3: Next question, did you really pitch your own spinoff? 81 00:04:44,800 --> 00:04:48,240 Speaker 1: I have never pitched a spin off about my life. 82 00:04:48,400 --> 00:04:50,600 Speaker 3: No, all right, let's move on to the next one. 83 00:04:50,880 --> 00:04:52,960 Speaker 3: Did you get pregnant for a storyline? 84 00:04:53,640 --> 00:04:54,559 Speaker 2: Is that really a question? 85 00:04:54,640 --> 00:04:57,120 Speaker 3: That is a question? I got it right here. 86 00:05:00,520 --> 00:05:02,279 Speaker 2: The thing about like, I don't. I don't even know 87 00:05:02,279 --> 00:05:03,520 Speaker 2: how to answer this because it's. 88 00:05:03,400 --> 00:05:07,840 Speaker 1: Such an absurd thing to say someone to say, like 89 00:05:08,279 --> 00:05:09,160 Speaker 1: a storyline. 90 00:05:09,520 --> 00:05:13,159 Speaker 2: This show we filmed two months out of the year. 91 00:05:13,400 --> 00:05:18,440 Speaker 1: It would be crazy of me to go and prep 92 00:05:18,480 --> 00:05:23,560 Speaker 1: my body and get a donor and choose single motherhood 93 00:05:23,720 --> 00:05:28,680 Speaker 1: for the next eighteen But really probably twenty one, twenty two, 94 00:05:28,839 --> 00:05:33,200 Speaker 1: twenty five, thirty, who the fuck knows forever? To have 95 00:05:33,320 --> 00:05:40,160 Speaker 1: one season of a storyline. It just wouldn't make much sense. No, 96 00:05:40,320 --> 00:05:42,760 Speaker 1: I love being a mom more than anything. I wanted 97 00:05:42,800 --> 00:05:45,760 Speaker 1: to give my daughter a sibling. I knew that I 98 00:05:45,800 --> 00:05:50,159 Speaker 1: wanted them close in age, and I feel so grateful 99 00:05:50,240 --> 00:05:54,039 Speaker 1: that I was able to bring a baby into the 100 00:05:54,040 --> 00:05:57,680 Speaker 1: worlds and not have a partner. It's like the best 101 00:05:57,760 --> 00:06:01,320 Speaker 1: of both worlds that is sold to meet and what 102 00:06:01,320 --> 00:06:06,320 Speaker 1: people are saying, But it also doesn't it tracks because 103 00:06:06,360 --> 00:06:10,440 Speaker 1: there's many people on Bravo Mauricio and Kyle, for example, 104 00:06:11,640 --> 00:06:15,680 Speaker 1: They're staging their breakup for a storyline. They're changing the 105 00:06:15,760 --> 00:06:18,560 Speaker 1: dynamic of their family in twenty seven years of marriage 106 00:06:18,560 --> 00:06:19,440 Speaker 1: for a storyline. 107 00:06:19,960 --> 00:06:23,400 Speaker 2: It's absolutely absurd. No, I am not bringing. 108 00:06:23,080 --> 00:06:27,279 Speaker 1: A child into the world stretching my body in all 109 00:06:27,440 --> 00:06:36,960 Speaker 1: different ways for a story. Wow, Oh, I'm sweating wants. 110 00:06:37,000 --> 00:06:39,239 Speaker 1: Some people say that, ye all right. 111 00:06:39,560 --> 00:06:42,640 Speaker 3: All right. Next question, why do you feel your situation 112 00:06:42,800 --> 00:06:46,320 Speaker 3: is so different than Ariana Randal versus Tom You yourself 113 00:06:46,440 --> 00:06:47,800 Speaker 3: said they are both dangerous. 114 00:06:49,320 --> 00:06:53,800 Speaker 1: I think I have a way of pulling things from 115 00:06:53,880 --> 00:06:58,920 Speaker 1: my situation and applying them to things that make sense. 116 00:06:59,480 --> 00:07:03,359 Speaker 1: And there were things about the cheating part of my 117 00:07:03,520 --> 00:07:08,560 Speaker 1: situation with my ex that really triggered me when it 118 00:07:08,600 --> 00:07:14,160 Speaker 1: came to Tom Sandoval to say that Tom Sandoval and 119 00:07:14,240 --> 00:07:19,120 Speaker 1: my ex are the same person. No, the way that 120 00:07:19,160 --> 00:07:22,840 Speaker 1: they moved with creeping around on myself and Ariana, there 121 00:07:22,840 --> 00:07:27,600 Speaker 1: were many things that were running parallel. It's difficult with 122 00:07:27,680 --> 00:07:32,760 Speaker 1: my situation because I want to say eighty percent of 123 00:07:32,800 --> 00:07:36,680 Speaker 1: the information I can't share. I just can't. I can't 124 00:07:36,720 --> 00:07:39,600 Speaker 1: talk about it. If you guys want to google, if 125 00:07:39,640 --> 00:07:42,640 Speaker 1: you want to look things up, You're more than welcome to. 126 00:07:43,320 --> 00:07:47,400 Speaker 1: There are things and reasons for my hardlines. There are 127 00:07:47,400 --> 00:07:51,600 Speaker 1: reasons for me entering a custody battle, and I'm just 128 00:07:51,840 --> 00:07:52,920 Speaker 1: going to leave it there. 129 00:07:53,840 --> 00:07:57,480 Speaker 3: Enough said, all right, are you jealous of Arianna because 130 00:07:57,480 --> 00:08:00,000 Speaker 3: of the way people rallied for her and not for you? 131 00:08:00,720 --> 00:08:01,280 Speaker 2: When my. 132 00:08:03,160 --> 00:08:10,400 Speaker 1: Situation happened with my ex, I was so blindsided that 133 00:08:10,720 --> 00:08:13,320 Speaker 1: just putting one foot in front of the other, simply 134 00:08:13,440 --> 00:08:19,360 Speaker 1: waking up was like a huge win for me. There 135 00:08:19,360 --> 00:08:23,960 Speaker 1: are times that people have said, it must have been 136 00:08:24,000 --> 00:08:27,520 Speaker 1: so difficult to go through what you were going through 137 00:08:29,000 --> 00:08:33,240 Speaker 1: in public, And honestly, I didn't even realize I was 138 00:08:33,280 --> 00:08:36,760 Speaker 1: going through it in public because it wasn't a breakup 139 00:08:36,760 --> 00:08:41,920 Speaker 1: that I was going through I was going into a battle. 140 00:08:43,400 --> 00:08:44,040 Speaker 2: For ocean. 141 00:08:46,000 --> 00:08:50,400 Speaker 1: And as time passed and I did like the season 142 00:08:50,480 --> 00:08:55,520 Speaker 1: nine reunion, which was very difficult. That was just a 143 00:08:55,559 --> 00:09:01,679 Speaker 1: couple weeks after I had left my situation and was 144 00:09:02,640 --> 00:09:06,840 Speaker 1: overwhelmed with information and knowing like why I have to 145 00:09:06,880 --> 00:09:09,320 Speaker 1: protect my seven month old. 146 00:09:10,640 --> 00:09:17,160 Speaker 2: And then seeing people say like you deserved this, This 147 00:09:17,320 --> 00:09:18,040 Speaker 2: is your karma. 148 00:09:19,320 --> 00:09:21,720 Speaker 1: When you see things like that or hear things like 149 00:09:21,760 --> 00:09:34,240 Speaker 1: that and you're looking at your baby, you develop like 150 00:09:34,280 --> 00:09:36,400 Speaker 1: a different strength in that moment. 151 00:09:38,480 --> 00:09:41,280 Speaker 2: It's wild. 152 00:09:42,240 --> 00:09:48,760 Speaker 1: And I truly wouldn't wish that upon anybody. That time 153 00:09:48,800 --> 00:09:55,960 Speaker 1: in my life was nothing short of torture, mental torture. 154 00:09:58,080 --> 00:10:04,280 Speaker 1: When everything happened with Ariana, I was thrilled to see 155 00:10:04,679 --> 00:10:09,760 Speaker 1: the audience rally around her. Do I wish I would 156 00:10:09,800 --> 00:10:12,800 Speaker 1: have gotten that, Yeah, that would have been really, really nice, 157 00:10:13,760 --> 00:10:18,040 Speaker 1: But I didn't. And I'm okay to ask if I'm 158 00:10:18,160 --> 00:10:24,199 Speaker 1: jealous of Arianna. I find her to be extremely talented. 159 00:10:25,640 --> 00:10:30,040 Speaker 1: I enjoyed watching her on Broadway. I truly believe that's 160 00:10:30,040 --> 00:10:33,840 Speaker 1: where she deserves to be. She has proven herself tremendously 161 00:10:33,880 --> 00:10:37,079 Speaker 1: in that space, and I stand by that. I also 162 00:10:37,200 --> 00:10:40,440 Speaker 1: stand by the fact that she made film me, a 163 00:10:40,480 --> 00:10:44,160 Speaker 1: television show that we've been filming, some of them eleven years, 164 00:10:44,240 --> 00:10:47,040 Speaker 1: ME eight extremely. 165 00:10:46,320 --> 00:10:47,280 Speaker 2: Difficult this year. 166 00:10:49,080 --> 00:10:51,560 Speaker 1: And I don't hold that against her, because it was 167 00:10:51,679 --> 00:10:57,400 Speaker 1: funky for all of us. We were all in unchartered waters, 168 00:10:57,440 --> 00:11:00,720 Speaker 1: and I wasn't trying to be tough on her or 169 00:11:00,840 --> 00:11:06,599 Speaker 1: make her move along in this process quicker. But I 170 00:11:06,640 --> 00:11:09,920 Speaker 1: knew we were filming a TV show, and just like 171 00:11:10,040 --> 00:11:13,680 Speaker 1: Lisa vander pump had drilled me in her kitchen about 172 00:11:13,679 --> 00:11:16,680 Speaker 1: my situation, did I enjoy that? 173 00:11:17,320 --> 00:11:18,000 Speaker 2: Not at all? 174 00:11:18,640 --> 00:11:20,400 Speaker 1: But I knew we were filming a show, and I 175 00:11:20,440 --> 00:11:23,320 Speaker 1: knew there were people out there in the audience who 176 00:11:23,320 --> 00:11:27,840 Speaker 1: were going to wonder these things. So with Arianna, when 177 00:11:27,840 --> 00:11:31,480 Speaker 1: filming a television show, I asked her the things that 178 00:11:31,600 --> 00:11:36,640 Speaker 1: I felt the audience may want to know. I, in 179 00:11:36,720 --> 00:11:39,040 Speaker 1: no way, shape or form, was trying to move her 180 00:11:39,080 --> 00:11:42,080 Speaker 1: along in a process. I was not upset about the 181 00:11:42,120 --> 00:11:45,440 Speaker 1: opportunities that she was getting. I was not mad that 182 00:11:45,800 --> 00:11:48,440 Speaker 1: she got so much love all of those things. 183 00:11:48,520 --> 00:11:51,920 Speaker 2: I was thrilled for her about. That is fact. 184 00:11:52,880 --> 00:11:56,240 Speaker 1: It's also fact that filming a show with her this 185 00:11:56,360 --> 00:11:58,720 Speaker 1: year was very, very hard. 186 00:12:00,120 --> 00:12:03,360 Speaker 3: All right, Next question, why the hypocrisy? When it comes 187 00:12:03,360 --> 00:12:06,400 Speaker 3: to setting boundaries and respecting them. For example, you told 188 00:12:06,480 --> 00:12:08,960 Speaker 3: Katie she didn't need to understand your life, but felt 189 00:12:08,960 --> 00:12:10,800 Speaker 3: the need to understand Ariana's. 190 00:12:11,280 --> 00:12:13,600 Speaker 1: I mean, I feel like that's a completely valid question, 191 00:12:14,200 --> 00:12:17,920 Speaker 1: and Ariana was right in talking about her boundaries and 192 00:12:18,000 --> 00:12:22,160 Speaker 1: saying that I didn't need to understand them. She's absolutely correct. 193 00:12:22,440 --> 00:12:25,400 Speaker 1: You're allowed to set boundaries. It doesn't matter if I 194 00:12:25,480 --> 00:12:29,640 Speaker 1: understand them. It's her life. I was simply asked, answering 195 00:12:29,679 --> 00:12:31,960 Speaker 1: the question that Andy asked me and film me at 196 00:12:31,960 --> 00:12:32,800 Speaker 1: TV show. 197 00:12:33,000 --> 00:12:36,720 Speaker 3: And what exactly was your storyline this season? Given it's 198 00:12:36,800 --> 00:12:40,480 Speaker 3: all you talked about, while also saying Ariana brought nothing. 199 00:12:43,280 --> 00:12:46,680 Speaker 1: This season was extremely difficult. None of us were really 200 00:12:46,720 --> 00:12:50,040 Speaker 1: able to have a storyline. We had to talk about this. 201 00:12:50,920 --> 00:12:53,719 Speaker 1: It wasn't even a divide in the group, like this 202 00:12:53,800 --> 00:12:58,240 Speaker 1: had demolished the group. I don't even know how to 203 00:12:58,360 --> 00:13:02,320 Speaker 1: answer that question, because so many times there were a 204 00:13:02,360 --> 00:13:05,640 Speaker 1: lot of us who tried to push past talking about this, 205 00:13:06,160 --> 00:13:08,000 Speaker 1: and we simply couldn't. 206 00:13:08,320 --> 00:13:09,200 Speaker 2: We couldn't. 207 00:13:10,000 --> 00:13:15,160 Speaker 1: I mean, my life at this point in time, I 208 00:13:15,240 --> 00:13:18,920 Speaker 1: was wanting to have a baby. I was going down 209 00:13:19,080 --> 00:13:22,360 Speaker 1: a path of healing and sinking into what my reality is, 210 00:13:23,720 --> 00:13:25,320 Speaker 1: trying to let go of a lot of anger. And 211 00:13:25,360 --> 00:13:27,240 Speaker 1: I think you saw at the beginning of the season. 212 00:13:27,480 --> 00:13:29,560 Speaker 1: You know where I lose it on Sandoval on the 213 00:13:29,600 --> 00:13:31,760 Speaker 1: boat and I have to catch myself. 214 00:13:32,240 --> 00:13:32,520 Speaker 2: You know. 215 00:13:32,760 --> 00:13:37,240 Speaker 1: The triggers for me run very, very deep, and if 216 00:13:37,280 --> 00:13:42,160 Speaker 1: I don't start checking myself, and I've said this during 217 00:13:42,160 --> 00:13:43,959 Speaker 1: the season, I'm gonna end up in a. 218 00:13:43,960 --> 00:13:45,880 Speaker 2: Really bad spot. 219 00:13:46,480 --> 00:13:51,720 Speaker 1: So I don't know what people want me to say. 220 00:13:51,720 --> 00:13:55,000 Speaker 1: As far as what my storyline was, I showed up. 221 00:13:55,679 --> 00:14:00,000 Speaker 1: I was willing to talk about anything and everything. Unfortunately, 222 00:14:00,120 --> 00:14:04,720 Speaker 1: least something that Tom Sandoval did destroyed the dynamic of 223 00:14:04,760 --> 00:14:09,079 Speaker 1: the group. And unfortunately, and fortunately we film a television 224 00:14:09,160 --> 00:14:14,839 Speaker 1: show based on this group. There was no avoiding the conversation. 225 00:14:15,480 --> 00:14:18,360 Speaker 1: I also would have liked to have moved on. Many 226 00:14:18,400 --> 00:14:20,920 Speaker 1: of us wanted to move on. We tried to move 227 00:14:20,960 --> 00:14:25,480 Speaker 1: the needle. It was hard, and I think that most 228 00:14:25,640 --> 00:14:30,720 Speaker 1: people will not understand because they don't film a show. 229 00:14:30,760 --> 00:14:33,920 Speaker 1: Their lives are not a show. When you have to 230 00:14:33,960 --> 00:14:39,800 Speaker 1: combine the two, it really is fucking hard, especially when 231 00:14:39,880 --> 00:14:44,080 Speaker 1: something as traumatic as Scanned of All happens in a 232 00:14:44,120 --> 00:14:47,120 Speaker 1: group of people who have known each other a decade plus, 233 00:14:47,360 --> 00:14:50,640 Speaker 1: been filming a show for eleven years. It was challenging, 234 00:14:51,960 --> 00:14:56,600 Speaker 1: and the fact that we pulled it off eighteen episodes 235 00:14:57,480 --> 00:14:58,560 Speaker 1: fucking wild to me. 236 00:15:00,320 --> 00:15:03,640 Speaker 3: From last season to this season is so confusing. Why 237 00:15:03,640 --> 00:15:06,200 Speaker 3: would you go after Tom that way in the reunion 238 00:15:06,520 --> 00:15:08,960 Speaker 3: and then ride so hard for him this season? 239 00:15:10,840 --> 00:15:12,920 Speaker 1: Well, Number one, I didn't ride for him so hard 240 00:15:13,800 --> 00:15:16,200 Speaker 1: at all. I didn't show up to any of his 241 00:15:16,240 --> 00:15:22,160 Speaker 1: events that he invited me to. I simply practiced compassion 242 00:15:22,680 --> 00:15:24,080 Speaker 1: and acknowledged that a. 243 00:15:24,080 --> 00:15:25,560 Speaker 2: Human being was a human being. 244 00:15:27,640 --> 00:15:33,160 Speaker 1: And it's wild that I was actually lit on fire 245 00:15:33,600 --> 00:15:34,200 Speaker 1: because of it. 246 00:15:34,240 --> 00:15:34,760 Speaker 2: This season. 247 00:15:36,080 --> 00:15:38,120 Speaker 1: I did not jump on the Tom sand of All 248 00:15:38,200 --> 00:15:43,200 Speaker 1: train in any way, shape or form. I acknowledged where 249 00:15:43,240 --> 00:15:46,760 Speaker 1: I wanted to be in my life mentally and emotionally, 250 00:15:47,960 --> 00:15:50,560 Speaker 1: knowing that I was going to bring a child into 251 00:15:50,640 --> 00:15:52,800 Speaker 1: the world and I wanted to be in a healthy space. 252 00:15:54,640 --> 00:15:55,560 Speaker 2: I did that all for me. 253 00:15:56,320 --> 00:16:00,160 Speaker 1: I think people are fixating on the Tom Sands of 254 00:16:00,160 --> 00:16:04,520 Speaker 1: all of it. Take Tom out, insert someone else, it 255 00:16:04,560 --> 00:16:10,480 Speaker 1: doesn't matter. This was my journey of healing. You're gonna 256 00:16:10,560 --> 00:16:14,760 Speaker 1: see me switch up a lot. That's how life works. 257 00:16:15,400 --> 00:16:20,000 Speaker 1: I don't just pop up on your screen once a year, 258 00:16:20,000 --> 00:16:23,080 Speaker 1: for fifteen weeks, for ten minutes. 259 00:16:23,080 --> 00:16:26,680 Speaker 2: Max, I live a life every single. 260 00:16:26,440 --> 00:16:28,520 Speaker 1: Day from the time I wake up to the time 261 00:16:28,560 --> 00:16:30,560 Speaker 1: I go to bed and we start over, and I 262 00:16:30,680 --> 00:16:36,520 Speaker 1: experience different things during those days that shape me differently, 263 00:16:36,920 --> 00:16:40,840 Speaker 1: make me look at life differently. When I have this baby, 264 00:16:41,360 --> 00:16:45,960 Speaker 1: I'm gonna look at life differently. I'm changing every single day. 265 00:16:46,880 --> 00:16:51,280 Speaker 1: So while I understand the audience feels like the reunion happened, 266 00:16:51,360 --> 00:16:53,800 Speaker 1: and then the next day that's what I was acting like. 267 00:16:54,160 --> 00:16:55,320 Speaker 2: Time had passed for me. 268 00:16:56,520 --> 00:17:00,600 Speaker 1: I was not directly affected by scandabal Arianna, and I 269 00:17:00,640 --> 00:17:07,200 Speaker 1: felt for her, but my life had kept moving. And 270 00:17:07,240 --> 00:17:12,280 Speaker 1: I am not someone who is friends with Tom Sandoval. 271 00:17:13,200 --> 00:17:17,440 Speaker 1: I wasn't friends with him before this happened. I most 272 00:17:17,440 --> 00:17:22,119 Speaker 1: certainly wouldn't be friends with him after this happened. And 273 00:17:22,119 --> 00:17:24,719 Speaker 1: there were many times this season that he did invite 274 00:17:24,760 --> 00:17:32,320 Speaker 1: me to his concerts, the hangouts. I didn't go to 275 00:17:32,359 --> 00:17:35,639 Speaker 1: any of them because number one, it wouldn't make sense. 276 00:17:36,520 --> 00:17:39,200 Speaker 1: I would never go if we weren't filming a show. 277 00:17:39,800 --> 00:17:43,280 Speaker 1: And number two, even though I had questions for Ariana, 278 00:17:43,359 --> 00:17:47,359 Speaker 1: because that's just what we do in this environment that 279 00:17:47,400 --> 00:17:50,560 Speaker 1: we've been doing for many years. I would always pick 280 00:17:50,600 --> 00:17:56,920 Speaker 1: her still right now, us not seeing eye to eye. 281 00:17:57,040 --> 00:18:00,680 Speaker 1: If you said pick Sand of aal or Ariana, it's 282 00:18:00,760 --> 00:18:01,560 Speaker 1: a no brainer. 283 00:18:02,400 --> 00:18:04,679 Speaker 3: That brings me to my next question. Good segue right there. 284 00:18:04,920 --> 00:18:07,879 Speaker 3: Why did you really unfollow Katie and Arianna? Are you 285 00:18:08,000 --> 00:18:11,679 Speaker 3: really not friends anymore or not on speaking terms again? 286 00:18:11,720 --> 00:18:16,679 Speaker 1: I think that time does very crazy things. When I 287 00:18:16,680 --> 00:18:20,240 Speaker 1: think about time, I always, for some reason go back 288 00:18:20,280 --> 00:18:25,199 Speaker 1: to my dad. And it was like one day I 289 00:18:25,240 --> 00:18:28,359 Speaker 1: had a dad, and in a matter of seconds I didn't, 290 00:18:28,880 --> 00:18:32,399 Speaker 1: And then I spiraled for a really long time, and 291 00:18:32,560 --> 00:18:38,439 Speaker 1: time passed and I have healed a lot. Something that 292 00:18:38,480 --> 00:18:40,639 Speaker 1: you feel like you can never come back from, you 293 00:18:40,720 --> 00:18:41,840 Speaker 1: suddenly come back from. 294 00:18:42,000 --> 00:18:43,000 Speaker 2: That's what time does. 295 00:18:43,880 --> 00:18:46,280 Speaker 1: So I'm not going to say that I would never 296 00:18:46,320 --> 00:18:49,000 Speaker 1: be friends with them again. What I do know is 297 00:18:49,080 --> 00:18:53,119 Speaker 1: this season was very tough for me. I felt like 298 00:18:54,320 --> 00:18:58,399 Speaker 1: there were moments where I was being I was having 299 00:18:58,440 --> 00:19:00,720 Speaker 1: people come at things that had nothing to do with 300 00:19:00,760 --> 00:19:05,639 Speaker 1: the show. Right it got dark, and there are things 301 00:19:05,640 --> 00:19:09,280 Speaker 1: that I do sometimes to kind of bring me back 302 00:19:09,320 --> 00:19:13,280 Speaker 1: to the light. And if one of those things happens 303 00:19:13,320 --> 00:19:17,800 Speaker 1: to be unfollowing people who don't really make me feel 304 00:19:17,800 --> 00:19:21,680 Speaker 1: good in the moment, I'm going to do that, and 305 00:19:21,840 --> 00:19:27,200 Speaker 1: I think anybody and everybody should exercise doing whatever they 306 00:19:27,240 --> 00:19:30,879 Speaker 1: need in the moment to feel good. You don't need 307 00:19:30,920 --> 00:19:34,760 Speaker 1: to explain it to anybody unless you're doing this podcast. 308 00:19:35,160 --> 00:19:37,560 Speaker 1: But like, I just wanted to feel good for a moment. 309 00:19:38,119 --> 00:19:43,399 Speaker 1: I mean, this season, I was really being obliterated. It 310 00:19:43,480 --> 00:19:46,560 Speaker 1: was very loud, and I'm used to having seasons where 311 00:19:46,600 --> 00:19:51,560 Speaker 1: I'm not people's favorite, but the amount of hate that 312 00:19:51,640 --> 00:19:54,120 Speaker 1: I was getting this season that had nothing to do 313 00:19:54,280 --> 00:19:58,600 Speaker 1: with what was being shown on TV, it was a lot, 314 00:19:58,840 --> 00:20:02,520 Speaker 1: and it really hurts my feelings. So if I needed 315 00:20:02,560 --> 00:20:06,520 Speaker 1: to delete social media and unfrint a few people on 316 00:20:06,600 --> 00:20:12,120 Speaker 1: Instagram to keep me where the light is, especially being pregnant, 317 00:20:12,359 --> 00:20:13,439 Speaker 1: then that's what I'm gonna do. 318 00:20:14,200 --> 00:20:16,480 Speaker 3: You claim to be a girl's girl, Why can't you 319 00:20:16,520 --> 00:20:17,440 Speaker 3: support Ariana? 320 00:20:18,240 --> 00:20:20,720 Speaker 1: I don't know when I've claimed to be a girls girl. 321 00:20:20,840 --> 00:20:23,080 Speaker 1: Do I prefer chicks over men? 322 00:20:23,600 --> 00:20:23,800 Speaker 2: Hell? 323 00:20:23,880 --> 00:20:26,560 Speaker 1: Yeah, But that doesn't mean that just because you're a girl, 324 00:20:26,720 --> 00:20:30,840 Speaker 1: I blindly go into this and support you. I mean, 325 00:20:31,280 --> 00:20:34,280 Speaker 1: for the most part, the people who are dragging me 326 00:20:34,400 --> 00:20:37,640 Speaker 1: down to the depths of hell this season have all 327 00:20:37,680 --> 00:20:42,200 Speaker 1: been women who don't know me. So do I prefer 328 00:20:42,280 --> 00:20:48,359 Speaker 1: women over men, Yes, But to call me a girl's girl, 329 00:20:47,680 --> 00:20:50,320 Speaker 1: I don't know that I've ever said that I'm a 330 00:20:50,320 --> 00:20:53,800 Speaker 1: girl's girl. I think people labeled me a feminist after 331 00:20:53,920 --> 00:20:56,520 Speaker 1: season six where I was like, pussy runs everything, and 332 00:20:57,119 --> 00:20:58,000 Speaker 1: I do believe that. 333 00:20:58,160 --> 00:21:00,280 Speaker 2: But just because you or. 334 00:21:01,119 --> 00:21:04,760 Speaker 1: A woman does not mean that like I'm gonna mess 335 00:21:04,800 --> 00:21:10,120 Speaker 1: with you, because, like I said, it's women who really 336 00:21:10,160 --> 00:21:13,400 Speaker 1: try to like bring me down pretty hardcore and they 337 00:21:13,400 --> 00:21:14,119 Speaker 1: don't even know me. 338 00:21:15,800 --> 00:21:18,640 Speaker 3: Were you a production puppet this season because you thought 339 00:21:18,640 --> 00:21:19,840 Speaker 3: you were going to be rewarded. 340 00:21:21,280 --> 00:21:24,439 Speaker 1: I've been in this game a long time. You're not 341 00:21:24,840 --> 00:21:29,879 Speaker 1: rewarded for things like that. There's a tear system in place. 342 00:21:30,600 --> 00:21:33,400 Speaker 1: I went in and I was authentic and things that 343 00:21:33,720 --> 00:21:37,439 Speaker 1: didn't make sense to me. I asked questions if I 344 00:21:37,480 --> 00:21:40,320 Speaker 1: felt it, I said it like I said, I will 345 00:21:40,320 --> 00:21:42,760 Speaker 1: always have an opinion. It's what allows me to go 346 00:21:42,800 --> 00:21:44,959 Speaker 1: in and make TV. And I'm happy the audience has 347 00:21:44,960 --> 00:21:47,720 Speaker 1: an opinion because they are what makes it so that 348 00:21:47,760 --> 00:21:50,720 Speaker 1: we can have a successful show. Without us both having 349 00:21:50,720 --> 00:21:55,159 Speaker 1: an opinion, there's no show to be discussed. I have 350 00:21:55,280 --> 00:22:00,280 Speaker 1: never been anyone's puppet. The audience knows me. I know 351 00:22:00,400 --> 00:22:05,040 Speaker 1: that I can change up quick. I ask questions if 352 00:22:05,040 --> 00:22:09,159 Speaker 1: things don't make sense, I can go from slicing you 353 00:22:09,240 --> 00:22:11,440 Speaker 1: with my words to being putty in your hand. 354 00:22:11,600 --> 00:22:12,960 Speaker 2: It is what it is. This is the way I've 355 00:22:12,960 --> 00:22:14,160 Speaker 2: been since I was a young kid. 356 00:22:14,520 --> 00:22:16,879 Speaker 1: I went into this season like I go into every 357 00:22:16,920 --> 00:22:21,280 Speaker 1: single season. This is how I feel, and people can 358 00:22:21,320 --> 00:22:24,359 Speaker 1: try to change my mind. I'm open to, like I said, 359 00:22:24,520 --> 00:22:28,560 Speaker 1: healthy debates, healthy conversations. I love not seeing eye to 360 00:22:28,600 --> 00:22:33,919 Speaker 1: eye with people because it opens such fun, intense conversations, 361 00:22:33,960 --> 00:22:36,280 Speaker 1: and I thrive off of environments like that, which is 362 00:22:36,280 --> 00:22:40,080 Speaker 1: why I keep exposing myself to reality television because I 363 00:22:40,240 --> 00:22:40,760 Speaker 1: enjoy it. 364 00:22:42,960 --> 00:22:45,200 Speaker 2: I've never been anyone's puppet, and I certainly was in 365 00:22:45,280 --> 00:22:45,800 Speaker 2: this season. 366 00:22:46,320 --> 00:22:48,359 Speaker 3: Why did you feel the need to disclose a private 367 00:22:48,359 --> 00:22:51,440 Speaker 3: conversation with Katie that happened off camera and bring your 368 00:22:51,440 --> 00:22:54,440 Speaker 3: conva with Arianna where she apologized. 369 00:22:53,720 --> 00:22:56,679 Speaker 1: Back up, The conversation that I had with Katie was 370 00:22:56,760 --> 00:23:01,320 Speaker 1: not private. These were things she had said to production, 371 00:23:02,119 --> 00:23:05,600 Speaker 1: and the phone call that I was referring to production 372 00:23:05,800 --> 00:23:08,720 Speaker 1: was on the phone. She has been a part of 373 00:23:08,720 --> 00:23:12,120 Speaker 1: this show since its conception. She knows the drill. It's 374 00:23:12,160 --> 00:23:14,439 Speaker 1: always been the same. It's been the same in my 375 00:23:14,520 --> 00:23:17,760 Speaker 1: eight years of doing it. That conversation that I brought 376 00:23:17,800 --> 00:23:21,800 Speaker 1: up had to do with production, and she knows that. 377 00:23:23,520 --> 00:23:26,840 Speaker 1: The second what was the second part of the question and. 378 00:23:26,800 --> 00:23:29,040 Speaker 3: Why did you bring your convo with Arianna where she 379 00:23:29,119 --> 00:23:30,320 Speaker 3: apologized back up? 380 00:23:31,119 --> 00:23:33,720 Speaker 1: Because there are things that I've apologized for many times 381 00:23:33,760 --> 00:23:38,119 Speaker 1: where they bring a flashback up. I mean the amount 382 00:23:38,119 --> 00:23:42,280 Speaker 1: of times I've seen me getting my hair done, talking 383 00:23:42,320 --> 00:23:45,800 Speaker 1: about the range drover I got after letting someone hit 384 00:23:45,840 --> 00:23:48,440 Speaker 1: it the first night, or me calling my excess stand 385 00:23:48,520 --> 00:23:52,359 Speaker 1: up guy. I mean, I've seen this flashback more times 386 00:23:52,359 --> 00:23:55,439 Speaker 1: than I ever cared to see ever in my life, 387 00:23:56,359 --> 00:24:01,159 Speaker 1: and I wanted it to be a fair playing fields. 388 00:24:01,560 --> 00:24:02,600 Speaker 2: You may have apologized. 389 00:24:02,600 --> 00:24:06,480 Speaker 1: I've apologized for things too, but I'm still held accountable. 390 00:24:07,560 --> 00:24:09,320 Speaker 1: So it was my way of kind of saying, like, 391 00:24:09,359 --> 00:24:12,680 Speaker 1: can we get a flashback that Ariana has not always. 392 00:24:12,320 --> 00:24:15,920 Speaker 2: Been this perfect girl's girl. 393 00:24:16,400 --> 00:24:19,399 Speaker 1: She didn't acknowledge me at all when I had a 394 00:24:19,440 --> 00:24:22,960 Speaker 1: party to celebrate the longevity of the Give Them La 395 00:24:23,040 --> 00:24:29,919 Speaker 1: La brand. She has openly stood there while Tom Sandoval, 396 00:24:30,160 --> 00:24:34,679 Speaker 1: her then boyfriend, had belittled and degraded people like me, 397 00:24:34,960 --> 00:24:40,640 Speaker 1: people like Stacy, and she also watched Charlie laugh at 398 00:24:40,680 --> 00:24:43,879 Speaker 1: me when she was saying that I basically wasn't a 399 00:24:43,880 --> 00:24:44,919 Speaker 1: good enough gold digger. 400 00:24:45,400 --> 00:24:48,480 Speaker 2: Where are the flashbacks, y'all? 401 00:24:48,520 --> 00:24:51,119 Speaker 1: Do flashbacks to me in my not proud moments that 402 00:24:51,160 --> 00:24:52,200 Speaker 1: I've apologized for. 403 00:24:52,359 --> 00:24:54,960 Speaker 2: All the time. Can we get the flashback? 404 00:24:55,280 --> 00:24:57,879 Speaker 1: So I was happy to see that they did the flashback, 405 00:24:57,920 --> 00:24:59,800 Speaker 1: and I was also happy to see that they put 406 00:24:59,800 --> 00:25:00,800 Speaker 1: an her apology. 407 00:25:02,280 --> 00:25:02,879 Speaker 2: That was it. 408 00:25:02,880 --> 00:25:05,520 Speaker 1: It was that simple. We're all going to get flashbacks. 409 00:25:05,760 --> 00:25:08,440 Speaker 1: None of us are going to forget our past. Let's 410 00:25:08,600 --> 00:25:11,040 Speaker 1: have a level playing field. 411 00:25:11,520 --> 00:25:14,119 Speaker 3: If you don't care about Katie's business, why should she 412 00:25:14,200 --> 00:25:15,280 Speaker 3: care about yours. 413 00:25:15,680 --> 00:25:21,160 Speaker 1: I care tremendously about Katie's business. I have done nothing 414 00:25:21,200 --> 00:25:25,040 Speaker 1: but support something about her since they came up with 415 00:25:25,080 --> 00:25:31,320 Speaker 1: the idea. Again, these were things that she had spoken 416 00:25:31,359 --> 00:25:34,720 Speaker 1: to production about and me, and we're filming a show 417 00:25:34,880 --> 00:25:40,080 Speaker 1: something about her was conceived on vander Pump Rules finale, 418 00:25:40,160 --> 00:25:41,679 Speaker 1: season nine. 419 00:25:41,760 --> 00:25:42,360 Speaker 2: These were the. 420 00:25:42,359 --> 00:25:46,479 Speaker 1: Same types of conversations that Tom Sandbal and Tom Schwartz 421 00:25:46,520 --> 00:25:52,560 Speaker 1: had to have about Schwartz and Sandy's So I felt 422 00:25:52,560 --> 00:25:55,919 Speaker 1: like what she had said to production and myself and 423 00:25:55,960 --> 00:25:59,240 Speaker 1: then decided last minute that she didn't want to do 424 00:25:59,359 --> 00:26:02,399 Speaker 1: any of that. She was worried about her business. I 425 00:26:02,400 --> 00:26:08,480 Speaker 1: didn't feel like anything she was saying would destroy the business. 426 00:26:09,400 --> 00:26:14,600 Speaker 1: They were completely valid things that she was saying. It 427 00:26:14,680 --> 00:26:18,240 Speaker 1: just doesn't it didn't make sense to me. I could 428 00:26:18,240 --> 00:26:20,600 Speaker 1: see if I said, you need to bring these things 429 00:26:20,680 --> 00:26:22,639 Speaker 1: up because I want to fuck with your business. I 430 00:26:22,640 --> 00:26:24,760 Speaker 1: want to burn it to the ground, because she literally 431 00:26:24,760 --> 00:26:26,680 Speaker 1: said that on the phone to me. If you're gonna 432 00:26:26,680 --> 00:26:29,520 Speaker 1: fuck with my business, I'm gonna fuck with yours. And 433 00:26:29,600 --> 00:26:31,600 Speaker 1: I did feel at that point in time that there 434 00:26:31,720 --> 00:26:35,800 Speaker 1: was no business to speak of that she had. Mine 435 00:26:35,840 --> 00:26:41,080 Speaker 1: was actually supporting my family is supporting my family. I 436 00:26:41,160 --> 00:26:45,199 Speaker 1: just didn't understand, like why she couldn't have conversations that 437 00:26:45,240 --> 00:26:48,359 Speaker 1: I've watched the Toms have many times, and they opened 438 00:26:48,359 --> 00:26:51,920 Speaker 1: a very successful bar and we're filming a TV show. 439 00:26:52,040 --> 00:26:56,560 Speaker 1: I just didn't understand, like how the game had changed 440 00:26:57,560 --> 00:27:00,240 Speaker 1: and Schwartzy has come for my business before everyone knows 441 00:27:00,280 --> 00:27:02,960 Speaker 1: how that ends. I almost Teresa judaize the table on 442 00:27:03,040 --> 00:27:06,360 Speaker 1: Tom Schwartz when he tried to clown on my business 443 00:27:07,520 --> 00:27:08,240 Speaker 1: that was on TV. 444 00:27:09,359 --> 00:27:11,000 Speaker 3: Do you think you're a bad friend? 445 00:27:12,400 --> 00:27:15,000 Speaker 1: I think I'm a friend. I don't think I'm a 446 00:27:15,000 --> 00:27:17,159 Speaker 1: great friend. I don't think i'm a good friend. I 447 00:27:17,160 --> 00:27:21,920 Speaker 1: think I'm a friend. I'm thirty three years old. I'm 448 00:27:21,960 --> 00:27:25,000 Speaker 1: past the point of being in the sandbox saying you're 449 00:27:25,040 --> 00:27:29,040 Speaker 1: my best friend. I have a family. I'm always gonna 450 00:27:29,040 --> 00:27:32,159 Speaker 1: pick them over you. I can call you on the 451 00:27:32,160 --> 00:27:35,400 Speaker 1: phone here and there, send you some text messages, let 452 00:27:35,400 --> 00:27:38,320 Speaker 1: you know I'm proud of you. But if you're looking 453 00:27:38,480 --> 00:27:42,200 Speaker 1: for someone to really be blindly loyal and show up 454 00:27:42,200 --> 00:27:45,800 Speaker 1: and be a best friend, I'm not it. And I 455 00:27:45,840 --> 00:27:49,119 Speaker 1: also don't expect that from my friends. My priorities are different. 456 00:27:49,440 --> 00:27:50,959 Speaker 1: I have a baby, I got a mama, I got 457 00:27:51,000 --> 00:27:54,639 Speaker 1: a brother. We all live together, like I have my pod. 458 00:27:56,000 --> 00:27:59,240 Speaker 1: So if you're going to be a friend who's needy 459 00:27:59,280 --> 00:28:01,280 Speaker 1: and needs things for me, that's going to take away 460 00:28:01,280 --> 00:28:04,159 Speaker 1: from my pod. Like I'm not the friend for you. 461 00:28:06,160 --> 00:28:09,479 Speaker 1: I have no problem saying that I'm a friend. If 462 00:28:09,520 --> 00:28:12,159 Speaker 1: you're looking for a great friend or a bad friend, 463 00:28:12,400 --> 00:28:13,200 Speaker 1: I'm in the middle. 464 00:28:13,400 --> 00:28:14,240 Speaker 2: I'm just the friend. 465 00:28:16,560 --> 00:28:19,800 Speaker 3: What is your biggest regret from this season? There is 466 00:28:19,840 --> 00:28:22,560 Speaker 3: a change in your energy and approach. What happened? 467 00:28:24,000 --> 00:28:27,560 Speaker 1: I think a lot of things happened. I think season ten, 468 00:28:27,640 --> 00:28:32,520 Speaker 1: I came off very angry, and by the way, the 469 00:28:32,520 --> 00:28:37,360 Speaker 1: only reason why it was validated was because scandival happened. 470 00:28:38,240 --> 00:28:41,760 Speaker 1: It was like, oh, well, it makes perfect sense, you know, 471 00:28:41,880 --> 00:28:44,840 Speaker 1: had Scannaval not happened. I was looked at that season 472 00:28:44,920 --> 00:28:48,160 Speaker 1: is angry and bitter. This season, I'm acting the way 473 00:28:48,160 --> 00:28:51,480 Speaker 1: everyone wanted me to act season ten. The problem is 474 00:28:51,480 --> 00:28:54,120 Speaker 1: is I was dealing with a lot of trauma season ten, 475 00:28:55,000 --> 00:28:58,200 Speaker 1: sand or Scannaval happens and it's like, oh shit, the 476 00:28:58,240 --> 00:28:59,120 Speaker 1: perfect storm. 477 00:28:59,360 --> 00:29:01,800 Speaker 2: Everything I was saying I was being vindicated on. 478 00:29:03,960 --> 00:29:06,040 Speaker 1: When you have downtime and you come off of the 479 00:29:06,120 --> 00:29:09,840 Speaker 1: high and you realize, I'm in a custody battle still, 480 00:29:10,840 --> 00:29:13,480 Speaker 1: I want more children, and the plan was to have 481 00:29:13,560 --> 00:29:15,920 Speaker 1: more children now, and the plan was that the custody 482 00:29:15,920 --> 00:29:17,640 Speaker 1: battle was going to be wrapped up, and the plan 483 00:29:17,880 --> 00:29:21,760 Speaker 1: was X, Y, and Z, And you realize the plan 484 00:29:22,920 --> 00:29:24,720 Speaker 1: has still not happened. 485 00:29:25,600 --> 00:29:26,640 Speaker 2: So what do you do. 486 00:29:26,720 --> 00:29:28,920 Speaker 1: You crawl into a hole, you continue to be angry, 487 00:29:28,960 --> 00:29:31,800 Speaker 1: you continue to put your life on hold, or you 488 00:29:31,880 --> 00:29:35,160 Speaker 1: say fuck it, I'm taking my life into my own 489 00:29:35,200 --> 00:29:37,640 Speaker 1: hands and I'm gonna be a grown ass woman and 490 00:29:37,680 --> 00:29:40,480 Speaker 1: I'm going to handle my shit with ocean and handle 491 00:29:40,520 --> 00:29:43,840 Speaker 1: this custody battle and remain hopefules as fuck. I'm gonna 492 00:29:43,840 --> 00:29:46,320 Speaker 1: heal my heart so that I can go out and 493 00:29:47,000 --> 00:29:49,800 Speaker 1: have fun and laugh and be around straight men and 494 00:29:49,880 --> 00:29:52,160 Speaker 1: date at some point. And I'm also going to bring 495 00:29:52,200 --> 00:29:54,360 Speaker 1: another baby into the world, and you know what, We're 496 00:29:54,400 --> 00:29:57,479 Speaker 1: going to create a beautiful environment and show my kids, 497 00:29:58,000 --> 00:30:01,680 Speaker 1: my two little girls, that you can go through some. 498 00:30:01,880 --> 00:30:03,280 Speaker 2: Real shit. 499 00:30:04,800 --> 00:30:10,959 Speaker 1: Where you think you're gonna be taken out and still 500 00:30:11,040 --> 00:30:14,000 Speaker 1: find a way to live like a really, really. 501 00:30:13,800 --> 00:30:18,320 Speaker 2: Meaningful, incredible life, and not only have that, but do 502 00:30:18,440 --> 00:30:20,000 Speaker 2: it all on camera. 503 00:30:21,320 --> 00:30:24,880 Speaker 1: With so many people judging the way that you choose 504 00:30:24,920 --> 00:30:30,400 Speaker 1: to process, the way you choose to move through life. 505 00:30:30,560 --> 00:30:34,400 Speaker 1: And by the way, this isn't just me Ariana goes 506 00:30:34,440 --> 00:30:36,720 Speaker 1: through it, Tom Sandoval Sena. 507 00:30:36,800 --> 00:30:38,040 Speaker 2: We're all going through it. 508 00:30:38,360 --> 00:30:40,440 Speaker 1: And even though we don't see eye to eye right now, 509 00:30:40,680 --> 00:30:43,960 Speaker 1: like there's a bond between all of us because we 510 00:30:44,120 --> 00:30:46,400 Speaker 1: all know what it's like to be brave enough to 511 00:30:46,480 --> 00:30:51,600 Speaker 1: live this shit in real life, but on camera it's 512 00:30:51,720 --> 00:30:58,760 Speaker 1: such a wild ride. But I'm extremely proud of what 513 00:30:58,920 --> 00:31:02,240 Speaker 1: I have done from the time I entered this show 514 00:31:02,280 --> 00:31:06,000 Speaker 1: to where I am now, and I want my cast 515 00:31:06,040 --> 00:31:09,920 Speaker 1: to be proud of where they are too. I'm glad 516 00:31:09,960 --> 00:31:11,360 Speaker 1: the audience has opinions. 517 00:31:12,080 --> 00:31:12,680 Speaker 2: I love that. 518 00:31:12,680 --> 00:31:15,680 Speaker 1: That's why we get to make a show. And even 519 00:31:15,720 --> 00:31:19,640 Speaker 1: though my cast and I may not be fucking with 520 00:31:19,680 --> 00:31:22,120 Speaker 1: each other right now, that will never take away from 521 00:31:22,120 --> 00:31:25,560 Speaker 1: the fact that I truly respect each and every one 522 00:31:25,600 --> 00:31:31,680 Speaker 1: of them, because this is not easy. My loves there 523 00:31:31,960 --> 00:31:36,800 Speaker 1: was the non yes man asking all of the top 524 00:31:36,880 --> 00:31:41,320 Speaker 1: questions that you guys had for season eleven. I want 525 00:31:41,320 --> 00:31:44,959 Speaker 1: to thank you guys for watching. I know it was 526 00:31:45,920 --> 00:31:48,920 Speaker 1: a wild ride, but I hope that you enjoyed this season. 527 00:31:49,600 --> 00:31:53,680 Speaker 1: I'm grateful for you guys. I'm grateful for a summer off. 528 00:31:53,840 --> 00:31:55,920 Speaker 1: I hope you enjoyed this episode of the Give Them 529 00:31:56,000 --> 00:31:58,640 Speaker 1: Lalla Podcast. And now I would truly like to put 530 00:31:58,800 --> 00:32:04,960 Speaker 1: season eleven behind me and incubate this new baby girl 531 00:32:05,000 --> 00:32:09,960 Speaker 1: that I have growing inside, who is a fighter. I 532 00:32:10,000 --> 00:32:13,960 Speaker 1: will say, she's kicking and punching and she's doing well, 533 00:32:14,000 --> 00:32:18,280 Speaker 1: and I'm just it's wild that it was such an 534 00:32:18,320 --> 00:32:21,120 Speaker 1: intense season, but I am the happiest that I have 535 00:32:21,600 --> 00:32:24,960 Speaker 1: ever been in my life. And to experience those two 536 00:32:25,040 --> 00:32:30,160 Speaker 1: things at once and have them coexisting has been a trip. 537 00:32:31,080 --> 00:32:33,560 Speaker 1: So I love you guys, and I will catch you 538 00:32:33,600 --> 00:32:34,040 Speaker 1: next week.