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Speaker 1: What up, guys, I hope everyone had a really great weekend.

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Speaker 1: And a special shout out to Boston Nation. I love

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Speaker 1: So you guys, you have probably guessed who our guest

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Speaker 1: I'm so proud of you, guys. They were out in Mexico,

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Speaker 1: I was sixteen years old. It was Junior, my very

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Speaker 1: Right Yeah, Because I've also feel bad because there's people

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Speaker 3: I don't know, she's still just this present even.

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Speaker 2: After all this time, and I don't know, she's still

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Speaker 1: She's moving things around, She's still doing her Jenny magic

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Speaker 2: That would have been Mom's ideal things. She would have

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Speaker 1: gonna get married the very first time I got engaged,

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00:20:17,480 --> 00:20:19,119
Speaker 1: and the whole plan was he's going to move in

434
00:20:19,160 --> 00:20:21,560
Speaker 1: with us, and that obviously didn't work out. But then

435
00:20:21,760 --> 00:20:23,479
Speaker 1: when my mom asked me to move out that one

436
00:20:23,560 --> 00:20:26,399
Speaker 1: year she passed away. It's crazy because I feel like

437
00:20:27,240 --> 00:20:29,359
Speaker 1: everything happened the way it was supposed to. I didn't

438
00:20:29,400 --> 00:20:31,200
Speaker 1: understand it then. Obviously, I was like, what the hell

439
00:20:31,280 --> 00:20:33,879
Speaker 1: is going on? Like, we have a plan, mom, But

440
00:20:33,960 --> 00:20:37,600
Speaker 1: it was to prepare me to be strong enough to

441
00:20:37,720 --> 00:20:41,800
Speaker 1: withstand what was coming, you know. And it was not

442
00:20:41,880 --> 00:20:45,040
Speaker 1: even what six months before she passed or a little

443
00:20:45,040 --> 00:20:46,840
Speaker 1: bit more than six months, but it was just it

444
00:20:46,920 --> 00:20:49,440
Speaker 1: was just crazy. And do you feel, Johnny, that everything

445
00:20:49,480 --> 00:20:51,439
Speaker 1: happens for a reason? Do you really really feel that?

446
00:20:51,480 --> 00:20:53,000
Speaker 1: I know it sounds like a cliche, but do you

447
00:20:53,040 --> 00:20:55,760
Speaker 1: feel like, given everything we've been through and how it's been,

448
00:20:56,400 --> 00:20:59,080
Speaker 1: do you feel like everything has happened the way it

449
00:20:59,160 --> 00:21:00,000
Speaker 1: was supposed to happen.

450
00:21:00,480 --> 00:21:04,679
Speaker 2: No, I really feel like even if God allows something

451
00:21:04,760 --> 00:21:08,359
Speaker 2: horrible to happen, like it's going to have reasoning behind it,

452
00:21:08,400 --> 00:21:10,560
Speaker 2: you know what I mean, Like because people are e

453
00:21:10,560 --> 00:21:11,600
Speaker 2: free will at the end of the day.

454
00:21:11,600 --> 00:21:14,320
Speaker 3: But I do, I really do feel like we we.

455
00:21:14,440 --> 00:21:17,520
Speaker 2: Come here with lessons that we have to learn, and

456
00:21:17,560 --> 00:21:19,680
Speaker 2: we know what we're signing up for, like our souls,

457
00:21:20,240 --> 00:21:24,159
Speaker 2: and we're just here to learn absolutely as.

458
00:21:24,040 --> 00:21:31,120
Speaker 1: Human involving creatures, yes, and talking about evolution and change

459
00:21:31,680 --> 00:21:33,800
Speaker 1: and things happening for a reason. I'm going to ask

460
00:21:33,840 --> 00:21:36,719
Speaker 1: another question, and again, guys, we didn't prepare at all,

461
00:21:36,760 --> 00:21:38,399
Speaker 1: which is why I think Johnny was so nervous in

462
00:21:38,440 --> 00:21:40,160
Speaker 1: the beginning. And if you don't want to answer.

463
00:21:40,000 --> 00:21:42,320
Speaker 3: It, you don't, yeh. But I liked it better like

464
00:21:42,359 --> 00:21:42,920
Speaker 3: that though.

465
00:21:42,800 --> 00:21:46,280
Speaker 1: Yeah, me too. I like to win things. I like

466
00:21:46,320 --> 00:21:50,399
Speaker 1: to be surprised. Okay, So my question is all the

467
00:21:50,400 --> 00:21:53,959
Speaker 1: shit that happened starting last year or was it this year? Anyways,

468
00:21:54,000 --> 00:21:56,520
Speaker 1: the whole thing with the accounting with the extended family,

469
00:21:57,160 --> 00:22:00,480
Speaker 1: the one really that sparked everything was you. You know,

470
00:22:00,840 --> 00:22:02,800
Speaker 1: you had been asking me to do it, to do

471
00:22:02,840 --> 00:22:05,919
Speaker 1: the accounting for months and months and months, years. Actually

472
00:22:05,960 --> 00:22:08,200
Speaker 1: I'm lying years since you were I want to say,

473
00:22:08,240 --> 00:22:11,120
Speaker 1: sixteen fifteen, and I just didn't want to steer the pot.

474
00:22:11,160 --> 00:22:12,440
Speaker 1: I didn't want to open up a kind of worms.

475
00:22:12,480 --> 00:22:14,760
Speaker 1: I was just like, no, like at that time felt

476
00:22:15,200 --> 00:22:17,360
Speaker 1: you know, it's our family at the end of the day, whatever,

477
00:22:17,560 --> 00:22:21,440
Speaker 1: you know, do you regret it? Do you regret because

478
00:22:21,440 --> 00:22:23,040
Speaker 1: you got a lot of shit for it? And that

479
00:22:23,080 --> 00:22:25,200
Speaker 1: pissed me off, you guys, because as his older sister,

480
00:22:25,240 --> 00:22:27,120
Speaker 1: as his mom, I was just like watching this and

481
00:22:27,160 --> 00:22:29,640
Speaker 1: I can't help but to defend my siblings. And I'll

482
00:22:29,680 --> 00:22:32,080
Speaker 1: go to freaking war for my siblings, you know. And

483
00:22:32,119 --> 00:22:34,680
Speaker 1: I'm more of like peace and love, but especially when

484
00:22:34,680 --> 00:22:37,760
Speaker 1: they're in their right that's where I get very defensive.

485
00:22:38,119 --> 00:22:40,960
Speaker 1: But do you regret doing that? Do you feel like

486
00:22:41,920 --> 00:22:43,600
Speaker 1: it was the right thing to do? Are you happy?

487
00:22:43,640 --> 00:22:45,320
Speaker 1: Because it has been tough?

488
00:22:45,600 --> 00:22:50,919
Speaker 2: You know, Honestly, I really don't regret it, and if anything,

489
00:22:50,960 --> 00:22:54,520
Speaker 2: I just regret not having done it sooner. Truth be told,

490
00:22:54,640 --> 00:22:57,760
Speaker 2: I only didn't do it because I really didn't want

491
00:22:57,800 --> 00:23:01,400
Speaker 2: to hurt anyone's feelings, rule anyone's feathers. But I got

492
00:23:01,400 --> 00:23:03,560
Speaker 2: to a point where, you know, there was just certain

493
00:23:03,560 --> 00:23:07,840
Speaker 2: things I couldn't ignore, and I just exiled myself from

494
00:23:07,840 --> 00:23:09,920
Speaker 2: my family, and I figure, you know, I got nothing

495
00:23:09,960 --> 00:23:11,480
Speaker 2: to lose at this point, so I'm just going to

496
00:23:11,560 --> 00:23:12,680
Speaker 2: do it.

497
00:23:12,680 --> 00:23:14,640
Speaker 3: It happened, and.

498
00:23:14,280 --> 00:23:19,280
Speaker 2: I think, honestly, once the smoke settled, it became one

499
00:23:19,320 --> 00:23:23,199
Speaker 2: of the most peaceful times in my life. Honestly, I

500
00:23:23,200 --> 00:23:25,280
Speaker 2: can't say I can complain at all. Like I'm just

501
00:23:25,440 --> 00:23:29,000
Speaker 2: very very happy with where I'm at. And I think

502
00:23:29,000 --> 00:23:34,040
Speaker 2: I just keep getting confirmation from God the universe, whether

503
00:23:34,640 --> 00:23:38,680
Speaker 2: you know it's through the Bible or stuff I find

504
00:23:38,720 --> 00:23:40,960
Speaker 2: at the office, like you know, what I did was

505
00:23:41,000 --> 00:23:42,959
Speaker 2: the right thing, confirmation.

506
00:23:43,520 --> 00:23:47,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, and see, and a lot of people have this misconception,

507
00:23:47,560 --> 00:23:49,280
Speaker 1: and I'm fine with it now. I don't I don't

508
00:23:49,280 --> 00:23:52,119
Speaker 1: really don't care. But where it was like I forced you,

509
00:23:52,200 --> 00:23:54,320
Speaker 1: I forced you to do that. And it's like you guys,

510
00:23:54,359 --> 00:23:59,640
Speaker 1: if you guys only knew how intelligent, how freaking why

511
00:23:59,720 --> 00:24:02,840
Speaker 1: is this manned? Because now he's a young man, he's

512
00:24:02,840 --> 00:24:05,480
Speaker 1: been since he was a child. Johnny was at six

513
00:24:05,520 --> 00:24:07,840
Speaker 1: years old and you guys could probably find these videos

514
00:24:07,840 --> 00:24:09,399
Speaker 1: on YouTube. I don't know if they're still there. He

515
00:24:09,480 --> 00:24:11,919
Speaker 1: was six years old making moving What do they call

516
00:24:12,000 --> 00:24:13,280
Speaker 1: Poppy with the legos.

517
00:24:13,000 --> 00:24:16,320
Speaker 2: Well stop motion lego movies you can't find you can't

518
00:24:16,320 --> 00:24:18,359
Speaker 2: find them anymore because I have them all on private.

519
00:24:18,400 --> 00:24:20,040
Speaker 1: But John should upload them.

520
00:24:20,119 --> 00:24:23,680
Speaker 3: John, I can't. I can't, can I just can't.

521
00:24:24,160 --> 00:24:28,919
Speaker 1: My mom and I would be like, dude, what like

522
00:24:29,640 --> 00:24:31,120
Speaker 1: you guys should read on it because I don't really

523
00:24:31,119 --> 00:24:34,000
Speaker 1: know like the definition definition of an indigo child, but

524
00:24:34,080 --> 00:24:36,000
Speaker 1: my mom was told that Johnny was an indigo child,

525
00:24:36,200 --> 00:24:38,879
Speaker 1: special gifted kid. Well, yes, at six years old, he

526
00:24:38,960 --> 00:24:41,879
Speaker 1: was doing this in hours and building the legos and

527
00:24:41,920 --> 00:24:44,919
Speaker 1: making the move and making them talk. So just putting

528
00:24:44,920 --> 00:24:47,960
Speaker 1: that out there, okay. I mean, hopefully one day he'll

529
00:24:48,160 --> 00:24:50,800
Speaker 1: let you guys watch them, because it's pretty crazy, but

530
00:24:51,480 --> 00:24:53,720
Speaker 1: there's no way. I've just always been that type of

531
00:24:54,040 --> 00:24:57,639
Speaker 1: sister to say I'm gonna I have to respect you

532
00:24:57,720 --> 00:25:00,919
Speaker 1: guys as individuals and you guys have a mind of

533
00:25:00,960 --> 00:25:03,159
Speaker 1: your own. And when Johnny was eighteen, I said, okay,

534
00:25:03,280 --> 00:25:05,600
Speaker 1: like I have to respect this, and he's been asking

535
00:25:05,600 --> 00:25:07,159
Speaker 1: for it for a long time and I didn't do

536
00:25:07,200 --> 00:25:08,800
Speaker 1: it for whatever reason, and a part of me really

537
00:25:08,840 --> 00:25:10,760
Speaker 1: does regret it as well. I'm like, fuck, I should

538
00:25:10,800 --> 00:25:13,800
Speaker 1: have done this sooner. But you know, everything happens when

539
00:25:13,800 --> 00:25:18,359
Speaker 1: it's supposed to happen Los Santos. And now, like you said,

540
00:25:18,400 --> 00:25:20,960
Speaker 1: right now, John, I completely agree with you. This has

541
00:25:21,000 --> 00:25:24,680
Speaker 1: been the most peaceful time in our life since Mom left.

542
00:25:25,280 --> 00:25:30,080
Speaker 1: I really think, so separating ourselves from certain situations and

543
00:25:30,160 --> 00:25:32,920
Speaker 1: certain things, and it's just I feel the liberty to

544
00:25:32,960 --> 00:25:35,160
Speaker 1: just be myself. It's crazy.

545
00:25:35,320 --> 00:25:37,119
Speaker 3: Yeah, I get exactly what you mean.

546
00:25:37,359 --> 00:25:39,640
Speaker 2: I just feel solid, like I know who I am

547
00:25:39,760 --> 00:25:44,600
Speaker 2: I and I don't necessarily have to, you know, act

548
00:25:44,640 --> 00:25:46,480
Speaker 2: a certain way to please anyone anymore.

549
00:25:47,560 --> 00:25:49,720
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, yes, And I want to say thank you.

550
00:25:49,760 --> 00:25:59,840
Speaker 1: I don't know if I've even thank you. Now. What's

551
00:25:59,880 --> 00:26:03,359
Speaker 1: the best and worst thing about being raised by me?

552
00:26:07,800 --> 00:26:13,480
Speaker 2: I think the best thing was, honestly, like your lessons,

553
00:26:13,520 --> 00:26:15,880
Speaker 2: like you just had ever since I was little.

554
00:26:15,920 --> 00:26:17,000
Speaker 3: You had this way.

555
00:26:16,840 --> 00:26:21,680
Speaker 2: Of like just keeping me optimistic and like just trying

556
00:26:21,720 --> 00:26:25,720
Speaker 2: to put light in my life. And it wasn't necessarily

557
00:26:25,720 --> 00:26:28,720
Speaker 2: like through like religion or anything, but you made it

558
00:26:28,840 --> 00:26:32,200
Speaker 2: very You made God like a very clear presence of

559
00:26:32,240 --> 00:26:33,640
Speaker 2: my life ever since I was a little boy.

560
00:26:33,840 --> 00:26:34,800
Speaker 3: All you guys did.

561
00:26:34,800 --> 00:26:38,480
Speaker 2: Mom, Jackie you, but I remember like just the way

562
00:26:38,560 --> 00:26:41,399
Speaker 2: you presented him and the way you.

563
00:26:41,320 --> 00:26:43,280
Speaker 3: Just presented life to me.

564
00:26:43,840 --> 00:26:45,399
Speaker 2: It taught me so much from a young age, and

565
00:26:45,560 --> 00:26:48,000
Speaker 2: I didn't start understanding it a lot more until I

566
00:26:48,080 --> 00:26:51,000
Speaker 2: was like nineteen, until these last three four years, and

567
00:26:51,040 --> 00:26:55,960
Speaker 2: then I think the worst thing. I think the worst

568
00:26:56,000 --> 00:26:58,080
Speaker 2: thing is that, like let's say I was like thirteen

569
00:26:58,160 --> 00:26:59,679
Speaker 2: or fourteen, and I was like on a streak of

570
00:26:59,720 --> 00:27:02,720
Speaker 2: like being really fucking good. Like let's say I was

571
00:27:03,000 --> 00:27:05,920
Speaker 2: really trying to be good and I did something small

572
00:27:05,920 --> 00:27:09,840
Speaker 2: by accident, you see, last you would like react the

573
00:27:09,920 --> 00:27:13,080
Speaker 2: worst or like you want to beat my ass. But

574
00:27:13,160 --> 00:27:15,040
Speaker 2: granted it was a really it was a really tough

575
00:27:15,040 --> 00:27:15,920
Speaker 2: time in your life too.

576
00:27:16,560 --> 00:27:18,840
Speaker 1: It was a tough time. But you know what, I

577
00:27:18,880 --> 00:27:20,800
Speaker 1: will be honest with you guys. You guys know that

578
00:27:20,840 --> 00:27:24,439
Speaker 1: I'm super transparent. I believe in disciplining your children, and

579
00:27:24,480 --> 00:27:27,040
Speaker 1: I definitely disciplined Johnny, and I felt like he was

580
00:27:27,040 --> 00:27:28,720
Speaker 1: the type of kid. Not all kids need it, but

581
00:27:28,720 --> 00:27:30,560
Speaker 1: I feel like Johnny needed it, you know what I mean,

582
00:27:30,640 --> 00:27:33,160
Speaker 1: Like I was, like you need Like I was very

583
00:27:33,200 --> 00:27:36,280
Speaker 1: strict and sometimes a little too strict. I won't say

584
00:27:36,440 --> 00:27:38,440
Speaker 1: that I wasn't because yeah.

585
00:27:38,359 --> 00:27:41,000
Speaker 3: You were strict, but you believe I did that you were.

586
00:27:41,160 --> 00:27:42,920
Speaker 2: You were strict, but you also gave me so much

587
00:27:42,920 --> 00:27:46,800
Speaker 2: fucking independence, Like you let me walk by myself through

588
00:27:46,800 --> 00:27:48,720
Speaker 2: the streets taking the metro card to give me like

589
00:27:48,720 --> 00:27:49,680
Speaker 2: that kind of independence.

590
00:27:49,680 --> 00:27:51,640
Speaker 3: I don't think I've ever really talked about that publicly,

591
00:27:52,240 --> 00:27:52,680
Speaker 3: but like.

592
00:27:54,119 --> 00:27:58,000
Speaker 2: Thirteen fourteen fifteen, like for a good two to three years,

593
00:27:58,000 --> 00:28:00,280
Speaker 2: I was like getting myself to school in them trail

594
00:28:00,359 --> 00:28:03,200
Speaker 2: certain places, you know, just I figured I figured out

595
00:28:03,640 --> 00:28:07,000
Speaker 2: the whole bus system. And I'm sure you were wor

596
00:28:07,240 --> 00:28:08,040
Speaker 2: shitless all the.

597
00:28:08,000 --> 00:28:11,720
Speaker 3: Time, So I don't know. I don't know how fresh after.

598
00:28:11,640 --> 00:28:14,359
Speaker 2: Losing Mom you let me do that, But honestly, I'm

599
00:28:14,400 --> 00:28:18,080
Speaker 2: really glad you did because it character shifted me a lot.

600
00:28:18,359 --> 00:28:20,199
Speaker 1: Well. I had to, because a part of me was

601
00:28:20,200 --> 00:28:22,760
Speaker 1: like I want to protect him, and then sometimes I

602
00:28:22,880 --> 00:28:25,240
Speaker 1: was too overbearing, and then I was like I have

603
00:28:25,320 --> 00:28:29,560
Speaker 1: to also allow him to figure it out the way

604
00:28:29,600 --> 00:28:32,399
Speaker 1: Mom made me do it. And I feel like I

605
00:28:32,440 --> 00:28:34,600
Speaker 1: can't keep holding his hand although I wanted to and

606
00:28:34,640 --> 00:28:36,720
Speaker 1: I still want to. I'm like, okay, wait, I have

607
00:28:36,800 --> 00:28:38,800
Speaker 1: to just be like okay, Johnny, go, just go, and

608
00:28:38,840 --> 00:28:40,239
Speaker 1: I have to leave you in God's hands. And that's

609
00:28:40,240 --> 00:28:42,240
Speaker 1: what I do now. I'm like, okay, Lord, now you

610
00:28:42,280 --> 00:28:44,000
Speaker 1: know he drinks, and he knows he better not ever

611
00:28:44,040 --> 00:28:46,880
Speaker 1: drink and drive. He knows this already. But I'm just like, okay, God,

612
00:28:47,520 --> 00:28:50,400
Speaker 1: just take care of him for me and Nimo. You know.

613
00:28:50,480 --> 00:28:52,520
Speaker 1: Now now he's starting to party, you guys. Now he's

614
00:28:52,560 --> 00:28:54,480
Speaker 1: liking the party life. But for a long time he didn't.

615
00:28:54,520 --> 00:28:57,520
Speaker 1: I always knew We're telling was in his room. Now

616
00:28:57,840 --> 00:28:59,920
Speaker 1: Johnny's going to freaking raves.

617
00:28:59,600 --> 00:28:59,760
Speaker 3: You know.

618
00:29:00,960 --> 00:29:03,120
Speaker 1: And I'm like, Okay, he's living his life. You should

619
00:29:03,160 --> 00:29:05,920
Speaker 1: do that in your twenties, absolutely, And all I have

620
00:29:05,960 --> 00:29:06,800
Speaker 1: to do is just God.

621
00:29:07,280 --> 00:29:08,880
Speaker 2: It actually took me a long time to get into

622
00:29:08,920 --> 00:29:11,400
Speaker 2: that that phase in my life though, and I'm happy

623
00:29:11,360 --> 00:29:13,600
Speaker 2: to know. Yeah, and I think I've done it in

624
00:29:13,640 --> 00:29:15,160
Speaker 2: a really responsible way.

625
00:29:15,520 --> 00:29:18,200
Speaker 1: You have. You're very responsible. You're very honest with me,

626
00:29:18,960 --> 00:29:20,680
Speaker 1: and I'm like, Johnny, where are you? And I have

627
00:29:20,760 --> 00:29:23,760
Speaker 1: his location and it's just you know what I mean,

628
00:29:23,760 --> 00:29:25,160
Speaker 1: Not because I'm trying to be controlling, but I just

629
00:29:25,200 --> 00:29:27,040
Speaker 1: want to make sure I know where he's at. He's fine.

630
00:29:27,120 --> 00:29:28,840
Speaker 1: I feel like with your kids, if you the more

631
00:29:29,640 --> 00:29:31,600
Speaker 1: you want to be controlling and hold him tight, the

632
00:29:31,640 --> 00:29:33,040
Speaker 1: more they want to rebel. So I'm just like, well,

633
00:29:33,120 --> 00:29:35,080
Speaker 1: Nimo just got to kind of let him do his thing. Yes,

634
00:29:35,120 --> 00:29:36,880
Speaker 1: he lives under my roof, and he has to respect

635
00:29:37,200 --> 00:29:40,320
Speaker 1: certain things, but at the end of the day, he's

636
00:29:40,320 --> 00:29:43,040
Speaker 1: still a young man. Okay, Now let's talk about Emilio Johnny,

637
00:29:43,040 --> 00:29:45,280
Speaker 1: because you know, doctor Black, that's what you call him.

638
00:29:45,800 --> 00:29:49,040
Speaker 3: Yeah, and he lives here.

639
00:29:49,000 --> 00:29:51,640
Speaker 1: With us now, and yeah, I love that you guys

640
00:29:51,680 --> 00:29:55,120
Speaker 1: love each other. Thank God, Thank god you guys. Honestly,

641
00:29:55,120 --> 00:29:57,240
Speaker 1: you have no idea how much peace my heart feels.

642
00:29:57,240 --> 00:30:01,840
Speaker 1: And they text each other so much, like they tell

643
00:30:01,880 --> 00:30:03,680
Speaker 1: each other that they love each other, and it's just

644
00:30:03,680 --> 00:30:05,560
Speaker 1: like it's really nice. They have a really nice bond.

645
00:30:05,600 --> 00:30:08,320
Speaker 1: When I'm gone, they go to Korean barbecue together. So

646
00:30:08,600 --> 00:30:10,560
Speaker 1: how do you feel? Are you excited or you more

647
00:30:10,560 --> 00:30:13,840
Speaker 1: nervous about me getting married? Okay, guys, so we're gonna

648
00:30:13,880 --> 00:30:17,040
Speaker 1: end this conversation here, but stay tuned for part two

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Speaker 1: of this conversation with my baby brother Johnny. We'll bring

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Speaker 1: that episode to you Mayana tomorrow, so stay tuned for that. Besitos.

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