Speaker 1: Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of Our Heart Radio
Speaker 1: and the Black Effects, And just like that, we're back
Speaker 1: on the air. Welcome back to get another Carefully Reckless episode.
Speaker 1: What's Your Girl? Just hilarious And I'm here with my
Speaker 1: sister Shaye, Say, what's up? Yo? Yo? What the holds that?
Speaker 1: I know? Where the fuck the holes at? Okay? So
Speaker 1: she feeling some type of way, all right, So listen,
Speaker 1: Shae just had her heartbroken, you know, and she's experiencing
Speaker 1: the symptoms of a heartbreak. And she always got a story,
Speaker 1: y'all know, y'all been telling me this. You've been telling
Speaker 1: me she always got a story. So I'm gonna let
Speaker 1: her tell the story. Sha tell him what happened first,
Speaker 1: the fucking all first, the fucking all first, the fun
Speaker 1: of all. You mean? So, you guys, I have been
Speaker 1: dating this guy for months. Yes, I'm gonna go like
Speaker 1: the white people, but they talk about babies some dating
Speaker 1: the guy for twenty eight months. He was my baby, yo.
Speaker 1: So I've been dating this guy for a little over
Speaker 1: two years and everything was great. Our kids were friends.
Speaker 1: He has three kids, I have three kids. We often
Speaker 1: talked about like bretty bunch ship and meshing families and
Speaker 1: stuff like that. Things seemed okay, but every time you
Speaker 1: turned around, things seemed a little rocky, and he put
Speaker 1: me at fault for some ship that wasn't even that serious.
Speaker 1: And I didn't realize that the ship wasn't even really
Speaker 1: that serious. I just found myself trying to continuously fix
Speaker 1: that situation or fix what he said was wrong, because
Speaker 1: I loved him and I wanted things to work and
Speaker 1: I wanted to be with him. This man, you know,
Speaker 1: was super involved with My children are very close to
Speaker 1: my youngest. You know, she's so so lovable. I mean,
Speaker 1: picking the kids up from school, picking ash up too,
Speaker 1: spoiling my children as if they were his, referring to
Speaker 1: my children as his bonus children, going to pick the
Speaker 1: kids up from school, and even writing on the sign
Speaker 1: out sheets Stepdad like a bit extreme. Yeah, something has
Speaker 1: been telling me for I want to say, probably for
Speaker 1: at least the last month, that something wasn't right. He
Speaker 1: wasn't at the house as much as he used to be.
Speaker 1: We went from having sex three to four times a
Speaker 1: week to having sex once a week. He went from
Speaker 1: spending the night three to four times a week to
Speaker 1: spending the night, maybe like only three times this whole
Speaker 1: year so far, April exactly. He woke me up every
Speaker 1: morning knowing that I had to get the kids together.
Speaker 1: He's a bus driver. Sometimes, like if my phone was
Speaker 1: dead or something like that, he would literally drive the
Speaker 1: bus to my house, parking around the corner and happen
Speaker 1: his unicycle and come in the house and wake me up.
Speaker 1: Hold on, I know you even just said this name.
Speaker 1: What hot bought the bus that he parked around the
Speaker 1: corner with passengers on it, No passengers yet, they say, yo,
Speaker 1: do don't say and tell me that ship yo? All right? No? Okay.
Speaker 1: So he would talk the bus around the corner and walk. No,
Speaker 1: he wouldn't walk. He would hop on a unicycle the
Speaker 1: one will jump, yeah, the electric unicycle. He wasn't pedaling
Speaker 1: so on some small cop ship. Yeah. He would just
Speaker 1: right around the corner. And he was coming in like
Speaker 1: you gotta get up, you gotta get the kids together.
Speaker 1: And I'm like, oh, shoot, okay, thank you. You give
Speaker 1: me kids on my head and depth because he got
Speaker 1: to go to his first stop to pick the people up,
Speaker 1: then hop back on the uni. I suppose right around
Speaker 1: and right around the corner I bought there in the
Speaker 1: second one, I back the bus. Yes, yes, that's what
Speaker 1: he did. If that ain't love, I don't know what
Speaker 1: the fun is because if somebody's phone is did, that's
Speaker 1: your responsibility. I got a whole bus I'm supposed to
Speaker 1: be taking to my first stop. But you know he
Speaker 1: did that because he carred. It is more than caring,
Speaker 1: because he obviously loved me. Because only someone that loves
Speaker 1: someone would do something that extreme. Yeah, my woman's intuition
Speaker 1: kicked in. I'm just like, okay, So the girl that
Speaker 1: does his hair, she's also a bus driver, she commented
Speaker 1: on my story a few days ago, and something was
Speaker 1: just like, ask her if he talks to anybody because
Speaker 1: she does his head. You know how stylists or barber's,
Speaker 1: anybody that's behind you doing any kind of service for you,
Speaker 1: they always glance over. You know, they may look at
Speaker 1: your phone, not like really staring in it, but they
Speaker 1: glance and see, like what you're doing. You know, I
Speaker 1: would have been a nosy bitch before. Yo, wait a minute,
Speaker 1: that is so crazy. How you even think like that?
Speaker 1: He gets his head nune by her, so she could
Speaker 1: be watching his phone. Your whole mind thinks like that
Speaker 1: you're crazy anyway, continue but um damn and I am, um,
Speaker 1: that's funny as ship. So I asked her. I'm like, hey, girl,
Speaker 1: because everyone will remain nameless, I got something to ask you.
Speaker 1: Can you stay between you and I? She was like, sure,
Speaker 1: what's up? Mind you? This is like damn they one
Speaker 1: o'clock in the morning. I said, I funk with such
Speaker 1: and such. We've been working with each other for the
Speaker 1: last two years. And I know you do his hair.
Speaker 1: You also work with him. Do you know if he's
Speaker 1: working with somebody? Because my women's intuition is just it
Speaker 1: is saying something different and I'm just like, you know
Speaker 1: what the is going on? She was like wait, what,
Speaker 1: Like do you have proof of that? Like, what do
Speaker 1: you mean? She's like, do you have proof that y'all
Speaker 1: mess with each other? I have tons of pictures, tons
Speaker 1: of videos. So I sent this to her and she's like, Wow,
Speaker 1: this is more than I can even take in right now.
Speaker 1: I know I said that I wouldn't say anything, but
Speaker 1: the person that he deals with because he does deal
Speaker 1: with someone is extremely close to me. Come to find out,
Speaker 1: Shorty is her best friend, best fucking friends. I don't
Speaker 1: know if they like best work friends or what. But
Speaker 1: she was like, I can't hold the same well they're
Speaker 1: all on the same job. Oh and she didn't know
Speaker 1: that you dealt with him. No, nobody knew, you know.
Speaker 1: And that's another thing. I actually asked him because the
Speaker 1: girl that is his stylist, I went to high school
Speaker 1: with her, so her and I have a relationship. We
Speaker 1: literally grew up in the band together in high school.
Speaker 1: It was on the band. Definitely was in the band
Speaker 1: one time in band camp. It was in the band.
Speaker 1: So you know, her and I have our own little
Speaker 1: separate relationship. It's not like we were extremely close to
Speaker 1: anything like that. But you know how you just you're
Speaker 1: cool with somebody and you just continue to be cool
Speaker 1: with them. There's never any bad blood every time you
Speaker 1: link up. It's just it's a good time. That is
Speaker 1: where I am with the stylist. And she told the
Speaker 1: girl and she hit me back and it it was just
Speaker 1: like she would like to talk to you, and I'm
Speaker 1: just like, look, I ain't trying to beef with nobody.
Speaker 1: I ain't trying to argue with nobody, Like that's not
Speaker 1: my ship. She was just like she's not like that either.
Speaker 1: Just like you wanted answers, she wants answers as well.
Speaker 1: And I don't want to be the one giving you
Speaker 1: these answers. That's crazy. I remember going through ship like this, like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, nothing is like you find out that
Speaker 1: somebody is working with the guy you're working with, like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, like, don't it's sucking tragic. I haven't.
Speaker 1: I have not had to go through anything like this,
Speaker 1: and God knows when. Yeah, I don't go through ship
Speaker 1: like this because normally when I'm working with somebody or
Speaker 1: I'm dating somebody or whatever however you want to put it,
Speaker 1: these men they're not stringing me along to the point
Speaker 1: where they're well endoal in my life or in my
Speaker 1: kids lives. This is a second time through this tumble
Speaker 1: baby girlfrither. I mean, but that was that was so long.
Speaker 1: But I was eight years ago. I haven't had no
Speaker 1: heartbreak in eight years. Nobody was able to get that
Speaker 1: close to me, you know, because for the most part,
Speaker 1: these niggas be sort of kinda up front. They don't
Speaker 1: sit there and be like, oh, I'm trying to build
Speaker 1: a family with you. Oh these are my bonus kids.
Speaker 1: They just be like, Oh, when you're coming over, niggas
Speaker 1: just be fucking and hanging out with you. And that
Speaker 1: right there, if you have common sense, that's basically you
Speaker 1: know what it is. It is what it is. We fuck,
Speaker 1: we hang out, we chill. But I ain't know, Oh,
Speaker 1: do the kids need anything? The kids hungry? That the
Speaker 1: kids eat you and pick the kids up from school?
Speaker 1: Is none of that. The guys that I've had on
Speaker 1: the back burner all of those years after that heartbreak
Speaker 1: eight years ago, they've never displayed these feelings and trying
Speaker 1: to care and build bonds with my fucking children. So
Speaker 1: that is disturbing. I talked to Shorty on the phone.
Speaker 1: Shorty said he's logged into her Facebook on his phone.
Speaker 1: He checks her phone every night. They've been working with
Speaker 1: each other since August of mind you, him and I've
Speaker 1: been working with each other since January of Actually, he
Speaker 1: slid in my d m andeen when you fired me,
Speaker 1: and he slid in my damn. He always gotta bring
Speaker 1: up when I fired you. She always gotta bring it up.
Speaker 1: I became a brokeye real quick because I am just
Speaker 1: hilarious paying me and broke because that's because she wanted
Speaker 1: to be a bit. I became a brokey real quick.
Speaker 1: So I was like, man, fun, just hilarious. Her money.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna get some money on social media with these
Speaker 1: little followers I got. I'm about to do some promo
Speaker 1: about to post people ship. He hopped in my d
Speaker 1: M and wanted promo because he raps. He wraps about
Speaker 1: the bus. So he's a rapping bus driver. Yes he is.
Speaker 1: He's a rapping bus driver. He's pretty good, and he
Speaker 1: wraps about the bus. He wraps about the pretty good.
Speaker 1: He writes about the bus. He raps on the bus,
Speaker 1: and um, he bust one of his raps. I don't
Speaker 1: even want to I do. I ain't about to give
Speaker 1: him that conshine. You'll know the bus rap I do
Speaker 1: because I love that nixt he'd be talking about the seats,
Speaker 1: be talking about the fair box and the people that
Speaker 1: get on and off, the people that get on and off.
Speaker 1: Yes he does, like the Curry kids all that. No,
Speaker 1: not only cry kids riding to bust. I'm just saying, like,
Speaker 1: do he be talking about he talks about all of
Speaker 1: the motherfucker's like everybody to get on that bitch. He
Speaker 1: talks about him the kids. The old people don't talk
Speaker 1: about the kids. He talked about maybe them high school kids.
Speaker 1: But yeah, that's what I mean. Yeah, he talks about him.
Speaker 1: Hold up, hold up, I know the ship getting good,
Speaker 1: but listen to just a couple of seconds of a commercial.
Speaker 1: If you love me, you'll listen. He's soft a ship
Speaker 1: like I'm used to dealing with hood niggas. You know
Speaker 1: that he's a soft as rapping, bust dry. I'm just
Speaker 1: trying to get it, Damn. I'm trying to making people
Speaker 1: understand we'll be dealing with in now. That does not
Speaker 1: take away from the fact that he's a great father.
Speaker 1: And I guess if you need him to be a friend,
Speaker 1: he's a great friend. I don't know, because, like y'all,
Speaker 1: was really like my best friend. Like I can literally
Speaker 1: beat myself around him, like and it's the last time
Speaker 1: I was able to be myself around somebody was eight
Speaker 1: years ago. Like I know, this is c Mr Gross
Speaker 1: or whatever, like past gas dig up my nose if
Speaker 1: I need to, like anything, I was able to be
Speaker 1: myself around him, and that made me feel comfortable. The
Speaker 1: fact that I could talk to him about anything was
Speaker 1: special to me. I felt like he would talk to
Speaker 1: me about anything as well, but obviously the funk nu.
Speaker 1: But I talked to show me on the phone. She
Speaker 1: was saying, oh, you know all the stuff that he does.
Speaker 1: She was just like, you know, he has a key
Speaker 1: to my house. And I'm like, he got a key
Speaker 1: to my house too. She was like, well, I also
Speaker 1: have a key to his house. I was like, well, damn,
Speaker 1: I don't got no key to his house, but I
Speaker 1: ain't never want one, but damn, like he just gives
Speaker 1: She was like, well I asked for it. I'm like, damn.
Speaker 1: And that right there was just like kind of like
Speaker 1: a smack in the face, and I'm just like, wow,
Speaker 1: like he cares enough about her to give her a
Speaker 1: key and I ain't asked one even bit. Where my
Speaker 1: motherfucker key damn? You know. So that was like that
Speaker 1: right there. It was a smack in the face, and
Speaker 1: you know, I'm just like, you know, he has a
Speaker 1: bond with my kids, like especially the youngest one, And
Speaker 1: she was like, he had a bomb with my son too,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, damn, Like for real, yo, while his
Speaker 1: serial bonding with people's fucking kids and ship like it
Speaker 1: really it's we that is a mental illness, because if
Speaker 1: you know that you don't want to pursue somebody in
Speaker 1: the long run, why the funk are you building bonds
Speaker 1: with their children. He's taking my son to get his
Speaker 1: hair cut. He's done so much over this two year
Speaker 1: time frame. We went to Vegas for my birthday in September.
Speaker 1: My birthday September two. Okay, her birthday is September one child.
Speaker 1: He must love a virgo. Oh my going. So while
Speaker 1: we were in Vegas for my birthday, he told her
Speaker 1: that he was in Vegas for music. They needed a
Speaker 1: surfacet wrapping bus driver, I guess, so to come through
Speaker 1: Vegas and perform. First of all, let me tell you
Speaker 1: about when we went to Vegas. He opened the suitcase.
Speaker 1: He had a unicycle in the suitcase, and I was
Speaker 1: very upset, and I'm just like, that's why. Then Southwest
Speaker 1: was saying it ship was too you have, because why
Speaker 1: the funk would you bring that? He had to pay
Speaker 1: extra because why the funk would you bring that unity
Speaker 1: go in the suitcase. And then he was using my
Speaker 1: suitcase and that sho could have messed my fucking zipper
Speaker 1: up the fuck. So, I mean, granted, you know, he
Speaker 1: don't drink or whatever, so I'm fucked up. He's my
Speaker 1: designated person, you know, to make sure I'm together. And
Speaker 1: I was super funked up the day before my birthday
Speaker 1: and she was like, you know, I was talking to
Speaker 1: her while he was in Vegas, like this bitch really
Speaker 1: not her but him. This bitch really left me in
Speaker 1: there fucked up, laying in the bed and was talking
Speaker 1: to this bitch on her birthday while he on my
Speaker 1: birthday churped with me. I'm just trying to figure out
Speaker 1: why he did not walk away. He could have walked away.
Speaker 1: He had tons of chances to walk away. I think
Speaker 1: it was the sex, because you that guawk and that
Speaker 1: Selurby slurb beach it's okay and although she ain't got
Speaker 1: that white meat yeah show. So Saturday, I went to
Speaker 1: a good friend of mine's comedy show and I hit
Speaker 1: the guy that I've been dating, and I saw that
Speaker 1: my messages were not being delivered, and I'm like, well,
Speaker 1: maybe his phone is dead. And I'm just like, no,
Speaker 1: it's Saturday, Like what the hell? So I'll call his phone.
Speaker 1: It goes straight to voicemail. M hm, Well maybe he's
Speaker 1: dilling out let me call again, it goes straight to voicemail. Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm fucking crazy. Let me call again. It goes straight
Speaker 1: to voicemail. So I'm a old school Star sixty seven.
Speaker 1: The phone rings. Wow, oh okay, well maybe I'm tramping
Speaker 1: Star sixty seven again. The phone rings. Okay, No, Star
Speaker 1: sixty seven. Straight to voicemail. Okay, So he has me blocked?
Speaker 1: Why am I blocked? So I sent him a text,
Speaker 1: and I'm just like, I think I see what's going on.
Speaker 1: You know, I guess maybe we should just call this
Speaker 1: quits because I don't know why you blocked me. I
Speaker 1: didn't do anything to you, and you left me on
Speaker 1: red and didn't say anything. So after I talked to
Speaker 1: his stylus and she basically said whatever whatever. I was
Speaker 1: just like, you know, I'm gonna learn him over here.
Speaker 1: I told him, just come over here so we can
Speaker 1: have sex my last time. I want to come, Like
Speaker 1: I don't, I'm trying to. Yeah, Like he was like,
Speaker 1: all right, I'll be over there after I leave the
Speaker 1: bubber shop. Like straight was like, yeah, be ready to
Speaker 1: take a shower, go do what you gotta do. You
Speaker 1: on the phone on me, you heard everything he was suppressed. Obviously,
Speaker 1: the fucking pussy is that fucking good. You can tell nick.
Speaker 1: I was on the phone, so he came over and
Speaker 1: when I tell you, he got neked so fast. He
Speaker 1: was neked before I even got to turn the TV on.
Speaker 1: The egg like sucking Netflix. We was watching Netflix because
Speaker 1: my son was in the next room, and that right
Speaker 1: there just basically spoke, I'm on the time schedule, hurry up.
Speaker 1: You know he ate the pussy. You know, fuck mouth
Speaker 1: is awesome, Dick is awesome. I'm sorry. You know it
Speaker 1: is what it is. I mean, yeah, I man, you
Speaker 1: know it is what it is. So even though he
Speaker 1: was a soft remnisce bus driver, Dick was hard and
Speaker 1: the mouth was moist, but fuck him. Yo. So after
Speaker 1: we finished, I let go, he let go the mind
Speaker 1: you we're having sex unprotected and shut. He told me
Speaker 1: that they also were having unprotected sex, which is a
Speaker 1: little scary because I'm pretty sure she can get pregnant.
Speaker 1: My tubes just stopped. My uterus is burnt, like damn,
Speaker 1: this shop is closed. Ain't no babies coming out of here.
Speaker 1: But I hope you niggas don't think that I want
Speaker 1: you to shoot up the club because I don't, so
Speaker 1: get it out of your mind. But that is nasty.
Speaker 1: That as nasty as fuck. You are really out here
Speaker 1: having sex with two females unprotected, Like you don't know
Speaker 1: what I got going on? You don't know what the
Speaker 1: funk she doing? Well, I guess he do you know
Speaker 1: what she's doing because she said that he, you know,
Speaker 1: goes through her phone daily. He has her You mean daily,
Speaker 1: I guess, like going on a nightly basis, Like all right,
Speaker 1: let's lay down, let me go through your phone now.
Speaker 1: Because the first of all, him and I don't touch
Speaker 1: each other's phone. So when you called me and I
Speaker 1: was in the bathroom, what was even said? I walked
Speaker 1: in the room. He was like, oh, Jess called you,
Speaker 1: And I'm like, I was calling because but you didn't
Speaker 1: answer the phone. And you told me that he was
Speaker 1: doing his way over there because you wanted to fight him.
Speaker 1: But I'm like, you answered my phone? What did they
Speaker 1: say to you? He just was like, she ain't a
Speaker 1: man from she didna call you when she get out.
Speaker 1: I was like, okay, she already. He was like, oh yeah,
Speaker 1: we're just talking. So I asked, I'm like, why would
Speaker 1: you answer my phone? He said, also it was Jess calling,
Speaker 1: So so the fun two years plus he's never answered
Speaker 1: my phone before. I don't touch is like, I may
Speaker 1: have glimpse just as a as a reaction. You see
Speaker 1: my phone ring, you glimpse like, oh ship, that ain't
Speaker 1: my phone, but you know, you just it's just a
Speaker 1: natural reaction for human beings. And everybody got a sucking iPhone.
Speaker 1: So when the phone laid up is in this around
Speaker 1: other phones, you want to look to see if it
Speaker 1: is yours. Yeah, but anyway, yeah, Nosy didn't motherfucking nos Jr.
Speaker 1: So after became I confronted him. You know, I'm sitting there,
Speaker 1: So I was just like, so, when were you going
Speaker 1: to tell me about her? He was like, what are
Speaker 1: you talking about? Shaye? I said, when were you going
Speaker 1: to tell me about her? After sex? After sex, because
Speaker 1: I definitely wanted to dick one last time, and he
Speaker 1: was like it ain't nobody and blah blah blah blah blah.
Speaker 1: So we still denied. It was lying right in my
Speaker 1: face after sex. This nigga's lying in my face. I'm like,
Speaker 1: all right, cut the bullshit, yo, I already know that
Speaker 1: it's somebody I don't know who is I know that
Speaker 1: you work with her. I just don't know who it is.
Speaker 1: And I don't know how long you're been with each other,
Speaker 1: but I know it's somebody else. So who is she?
Speaker 1: I was on some brandy ship? Who is she to?
Speaker 1: You don't lie to me like but he still was denying.
Speaker 1: It's nobody. It's nobody's nobody. So you know, one thing
Speaker 1: led to another, and he passed out in my room.
Speaker 1: I ain't gonna say why he passed out, but he
Speaker 1: definitely passed out. Oh my god, straight onto the floor.
Speaker 1: And he was holding me hostage in my room. And
Speaker 1: he would not let me leave my room and could
Speaker 1: have left when he passed out. Why then you stay
Speaker 1: right there totil he broke up. It was quick. It
Speaker 1: was a quick faint like what he had my phone
Speaker 1: hostagenari and he would let me ask my phone you
Speaker 1: was knocking at my door? You know. He wouldn't let
Speaker 1: me go to the window to see who was knocking
Speaker 1: at the door anything. He literally begged me. Now we
Speaker 1: got a commercial, and if you click off of this podcast,
Speaker 1: I swear I'm gonna beat your ass. Listen. He sat
Speaker 1: on the bed, got down on one knee. He was like,
Speaker 1: I'm begging you. Can you call the stylists and tell
Speaker 1: her that you were lying? And I'm looking at him, like,
Speaker 1: what the fund do you mean? What do you mean
Speaker 1: tell her that I was lying? Like I sent the receipts.
Speaker 1: He's like, what do you mean with you mean? I
Speaker 1: sent the pictures and videos of what of? What did
Speaker 1: you send the time frame? Does it matter? I said,
Speaker 1: you hurt me? He said, okay, you hurt me too,
Speaker 1: nig I ain't hurt you. Use this a soft ast
Speaker 1: fucking bitch, like, I don't mean hurt you. I'm just
Speaker 1: in the hood. Niggas like use the county nigger that
Speaker 1: rolled the fucking cheese bus back and forth to school,
Speaker 1: and then we dropped the big bus. Yes, he dropped
Speaker 1: the big bus and the bus. Yes, he loved the bus.
Speaker 1: Wheels on the bus go round and round, and then
Speaker 1: you know, like a will too wheels. That's why he
Speaker 1: was behind my wheels because he loved him. This ain't
Speaker 1: got no wheels. But I don't hand no ill feelings
Speaker 1: to her because she whatever don't wheels to be in.
Speaker 1: So he goes. He comes open the door for you,
Speaker 1: just come upstairs. Talking with this fucking white voice. Y'all
Speaker 1: know how she get this white voice on absolutely no
Speaker 1: reason why. I don't know how. She's like, oh my gosh, baby,
Speaker 1: what's going on? What is going on? Baby? Like, bitch,
Speaker 1: who the funk are you? Bitch? Went avenue, bitch, what
Speaker 1: is you're talking about? Bitch? Oh my gosh, baby likes
Speaker 1: going on talking to his bitch. And so he was
Speaker 1: just like jes. I told her to just call the
Speaker 1: stylus and tell the stylus that she was joking because
Speaker 1: I'm just trying to clear her name up because I
Speaker 1: don't want her look in a certain way. And your
Speaker 1: reply was, do you think that my sister give a
Speaker 1: fuck you know about how anyone looks at her or
Speaker 1: what people think about her. So, in all actuality, that
Speaker 1: was another fucking lie with his lying, fucking ass. He
Speaker 1: wanted me to tell the stylus that I was lying,
Speaker 1: so she wouldn't tell a girl, or she wouldn't go back,
Speaker 1: and right, she would go back and tell a girl
Speaker 1: if she had already told a girl. That is a
Speaker 1: fucking clown, a narcissistic clown. You know, he's looking at
Speaker 1: me dead in my face, like you know everything that
Speaker 1: I've done for you and the kids, Can you just
Speaker 1: do me this one solid favor? What he said that's
Speaker 1: on video. You know, I can't remember everything I've done
Speaker 1: for you and the kids. Can you just do me
Speaker 1: this one solid favor? Never in your life throw in
Speaker 1: my face what you've done for me and my kids.
Speaker 1: You did it because you wanted to. Yeah, but like,
Speaker 1: what the fuck I'm gonna save your relationship when he
Speaker 1: was just basically in the relationship with me exactly, I'm
Speaker 1: gonna save you a new one because all you've done
Speaker 1: for my kids and but but I've done stuff for
Speaker 1: him too. We've done things. That's what I'm saying. I'm
Speaker 1: waiting for you to tell them that. So you know,
Speaker 1: he was in a buying where he was behind on
Speaker 1: his rent. You know he was he was only buying.
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. He went in the bedroom
Speaker 1: score my mother fucking juice his alf But you know,
Speaker 1: he was in a bind. And because I loved him,
Speaker 1: I had applied for unemployment and I didn't realize that
Speaker 1: I was able to apply for unemployment. And I had
Speaker 1: like over twelve tho dollars unemployment money. So I was
Speaker 1: just like I knew he was behind in his rent
Speaker 1: and I was like, oh my gosh, I got unemployment money.
Speaker 1: They literally gave me all of my bag money. I
Speaker 1: want to help you with your rent. I pay pailed
Speaker 1: him two thousand dollars so he can catch up with
Speaker 1: no problem. Because of the feelings that I had for him,
Speaker 1: and because I cared and I loved him, it was
Speaker 1: nothing to me. I'm just like, all right, I got
Speaker 1: over twelve thousand dollars, I still got ten thousand plus
Speaker 1: this two thousands ain't nothing. Here you go. I gave
Speaker 1: him that with no problem. So it's just like we've
Speaker 1: done things for one another. Just a week and a
Speaker 1: half ago, I got his haircut. I paid for his
Speaker 1: fucking haircut for him, just as a surprise. And then
Speaker 1: right before then, I gave him a rose. I gave
Speaker 1: him a single red rose, one of those roses that
Speaker 1: last full year. When he came over the house, I
Speaker 1: was just like, I want to give you this because
Speaker 1: I saw a post where they said that men don't
Speaker 1: get flowers until they die, and I love you, so
Speaker 1: I want to give you your flower while you're alive
Speaker 1: and you can still smell it. I literally just gave
Speaker 1: his Nike a single raid roles and I chose the
Speaker 1: red rules because it's a symbol of love. What did
Speaker 1: he say? Did he cry? Did he say that? Just
Speaker 1: like he was just like, oh sh you know, he
Speaker 1: hugged me, he kissed me. It was just like he joking,
Speaker 1: like what, you're about to kill me now? Like bye boy?
Speaker 1: You know, But I did that because it was a
Speaker 1: real and true token of appreciation from me to him.
Speaker 1: While we were in my room talking, he literally looked
Speaker 1: at me in my face and he said to me,
Speaker 1: I don't want her to be hurt. She deserves oh Shane,
Speaker 1: he said, she deserves a good man, and I don't
Speaker 1: deserve anyone. He told me I was gonna be by
Speaker 1: myself for the rest of my life. That should hurt
Speaker 1: me so bad. Why why would you say some ship
Speaker 1: like that to me? And he really wanted me to
Speaker 1: clear up some ship so he can be with this bitch,
Speaker 1: Like I'm not doing that, and he's stuck around for
Speaker 1: hours and hours and hours and I'm just like, I'm
Speaker 1: not doing that. I'm not doing it. What the funk
Speaker 1: do I look like I put in so much time
Speaker 1: I'm putting so much energy. My children are involved in this,
Speaker 1: and you sit there and you you tell me to
Speaker 1: fix some ships so you can move on with another bitch.
Speaker 1: I don't give a funk about her. I don't give
Speaker 1: a funk about what y'all have, what y'all head, what
Speaker 1: y'all are building. I don't give a funk about any
Speaker 1: of that. Why would you part your lips and say
Speaker 1: some ship like that to me in my house, in
Speaker 1: my face. That is the most disgraceful, disrespectful ship that
Speaker 1: I have ever endured from a man. I've never felt
Speaker 1: that way before. That should hurt. It cut me deep,
Speaker 1: and all I could do was stand there and cry,
Speaker 1: m I've been fucked up. This ain't even happened a
Speaker 1: week ago. Yet. It's difficult for me because I love him,
Speaker 1: and I'm saying I love him because I still do.
Speaker 1: I love him because if you when you truly love somebody,
Speaker 1: you can't just cut that shirt off. But I love
Speaker 1: me more, and if he reached out to me, I
Speaker 1: love me more. Like I said, I know he's not
Speaker 1: going to reach out to me, but it's crazy because
Speaker 1: him and I are in social media friends and it's
Speaker 1: you know, I've been seeing stuff all on social media
Speaker 1: that I'm just like, oh, wow, him and I have
Speaker 1: been dealing with each other for this time frame, and
Speaker 1: he's just like, oh, I'm not going to post you
Speaker 1: because a lot of my co workers they want you
Speaker 1: and they like you. Yeah, a lot of the bus
Speaker 1: drivers do like me, you know, but it's obviously them
Speaker 1: bus drivers are sucking holes. They want to funk. They
Speaker 1: like what they see, got a fat ass, they want
Speaker 1: to get behind it. That's just that's men. So you know,
Speaker 1: his excuse for not posting me is they already don't
Speaker 1: like me. I feel like they're gonna not like me
Speaker 1: even more if they see that we're messing with each other. Boy,
Speaker 1: what the funk old is you? They're not gonna like
Speaker 1: me more? I don't know what I mean. It's literally
Speaker 1: daycare and it literally it's like it's like a high school.
Speaker 1: You're a growing ass man. They're not gonna like me more.
Speaker 1: I don't know, but you know, in my mind it
Speaker 1: made sense because it's coming from somebody that I love.
Speaker 1: And you know, when you love somebody, the ship that
Speaker 1: they say cannot make a bitter fucking sense, but you
Speaker 1: are gonna make it make sense because you love that person,
Speaker 1: and I made that ship makes sense in my mind
Speaker 1: because of the love that I had for him. If
Speaker 1: I was like that, I've been all around that job.
Speaker 1: But I'm not like that. I chose him, and looking
Speaker 1: at him, you know the type of niggas that I
Speaker 1: work with, He's not even somebody that I would even
Speaker 1: funk if he's not even my type. But I chose him,
Speaker 1: and I gave him a chance because of his personality,
Speaker 1: because of the type of person that he was. I
Speaker 1: gave him a chance. I let him, and I let
Speaker 1: him all the way in to the point where my
Speaker 1: mother was liking him. And you know how my mother is.
Speaker 1: She likes nobody. Your mother was loving him everyone. I
Speaker 1: thought he was, you know, a great guy, and he
Speaker 1: let me down. So last week I wrote a song.
Speaker 1: I've never written a song I have in my life.
Speaker 1: I pulled over on the side of the road and
Speaker 1: wrote a song on a brown paper bag and I
Speaker 1: literally just let out all emotion. And y'all gonna have
Speaker 1: to stay tuned for that. Pray for me. You'll pray
Speaker 1: for my strength because this ship is not easy. It
Speaker 1: is not It's not a walk in the park. You know.
Speaker 1: I'm sure they've gone through you know, heartbreaks. That ship
Speaker 1: is definitely that's the last thing you want to feel.
Speaker 1: You know. I've been hurt like ship before. You have
Speaker 1: ever heard like this. But baby, your father hurt you bad.
Speaker 1: Yeah he did hurt me. He literally did the same
Speaker 1: thing that my last baby all that did to me.
Speaker 1: I was living two separate lives, point blank period. He
Speaker 1: was living two separate lives like Trey Song say, one
Speaker 1: girl in the day and you at night, like he
Speaker 1: literally was. The girl said that he was at her
Speaker 1: house every night. He told me he was doing overtime
Speaker 1: or he fell asleep, and I believe him because those
Speaker 1: bus drivers they get Hella overtime is available for them.
Speaker 1: So I wasn't going to question what he was saying.
Speaker 1: You want a paper chase, You want a paper chase.
Speaker 1: I ain't about to knock that. I'm not about to
Speaker 1: be no bitch and be all your bush is like,
Speaker 1: oh where are you doing? Where are you at? Blah
Speaker 1: blah blah blah. He was just really good at living
Speaker 1: to your lives. He was. And I'm telling fuck them,
Speaker 1: Boom moved the funk on, because you will never be
Speaker 1: good enough for the wrong motherfucker and that's just that.
Speaker 1: Listen to me going in this episode, yo'all, pray for
Speaker 1: my system. I love us so much. I really really did.
Speaker 1: She didn't expose her owner ability to y'all today she cried.
Speaker 1: I haven't seen her crying so long, so this really
Speaker 1: hurts me as well. But y'all you're dealing with heartbreak.
Speaker 1: I'm so sorry, But that ship ain't gonna be forever.
Speaker 1: Only time. Hells that. Just keep your kids close to you,
Speaker 1: you know, stay busy, your friends, all that ship. And
Speaker 1: just like that, we've come to the end of another
Speaker 1: Carefully Reckless episode. Say by shack Piece out y'all, pray
Speaker 1: for motherfucker's sister because I needed soon in next week
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