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Speaker 1: Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of Our Heart Radio

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Speaker 1: and the Black Effects, And just like that, we're back

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Speaker 1: on the air. Welcome back to get another Carefully Reckless episode.

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Speaker 1: What's Your Girl? Just hilarious And I'm here with my

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Speaker 1: sister Shaye, Say, what's up? Yo? Yo? What the holds that?

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Speaker 1: I know? Where the fuck the holes at? Okay? So

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Speaker 1: she feeling some type of way, all right, So listen,

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Speaker 1: Shae just had her heartbroken, you know, and she's experiencing

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Speaker 1: the symptoms of a heartbreak. And she always got a story,

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Speaker 1: y'all know, y'all been telling me this. You've been telling

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Speaker 1: me she always got a story. So I'm gonna let

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Speaker 1: her tell the story. Sha tell him what happened first,

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Speaker 1: the fucking all first, the fucking all first, the fun

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Speaker 1: of all. You mean? So, you guys, I have been

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Speaker 1: dating this guy for months. Yes, I'm gonna go like

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Speaker 1: the white people, but they talk about babies some dating

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Speaker 1: the guy for twenty eight months. He was my baby, yo.

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Speaker 1: So I've been dating this guy for a little over

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Speaker 1: two years and everything was great. Our kids were friends.

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Speaker 1: He has three kids, I have three kids. We often

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Speaker 1: talked about like bretty bunch ship and meshing families and

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Speaker 1: stuff like that. Things seemed okay, but every time you

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Speaker 1: turned around, things seemed a little rocky, and he put

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Speaker 1: me at fault for some ship that wasn't even that serious.

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Speaker 1: And I didn't realize that the ship wasn't even really

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Speaker 1: that serious. I just found myself trying to continuously fix

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Speaker 1: that situation or fix what he said was wrong, because

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Speaker 1: I loved him and I wanted things to work and

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Speaker 1: I wanted to be with him. This man, you know,

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Speaker 1: was super involved with My children are very close to

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Speaker 1: my youngest. You know, she's so so lovable. I mean,

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Speaker 1: picking the kids up from school, picking ash up too,

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Speaker 1: spoiling my children as if they were his, referring to

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Speaker 1: my children as his bonus children, going to pick the

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Speaker 1: kids up from school, and even writing on the sign

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Speaker 1: out sheets Stepdad like a bit extreme. Yeah, something has

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Speaker 1: been telling me for I want to say, probably for

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Speaker 1: at least the last month, that something wasn't right. He

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Speaker 1: wasn't at the house as much as he used to be.

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Speaker 1: We went from having sex three to four times a

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Speaker 1: week to having sex once a week. He went from

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Speaker 1: spending the night three to four times a week to

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Speaker 1: spending the night, maybe like only three times this whole

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Speaker 1: year so far, April exactly. He woke me up every

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Speaker 1: morning knowing that I had to get the kids together.

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Speaker 1: He's a bus driver. Sometimes, like if my phone was

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Speaker 1: dead or something like that, he would literally drive the

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Speaker 1: bus to my house, parking around the corner and happen

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Speaker 1: his unicycle and come in the house and wake me up.

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Speaker 1: Hold on, I know you even just said this name.

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Speaker 1: What hot bought the bus that he parked around the

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Speaker 1: corner with passengers on it, No passengers yet, they say, yo,

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Speaker 1: do don't say and tell me that ship yo? All right? No? Okay.

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Speaker 1: So he would talk the bus around the corner and walk. No,

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Speaker 1: he wouldn't walk. He would hop on a unicycle the

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Speaker 1: one will jump, yeah, the electric unicycle. He wasn't pedaling

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Speaker 1: so on some small cop ship. Yeah. He would just

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Speaker 1: right around the corner. And he was coming in like

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Speaker 1: you gotta get up, you gotta get the kids together.

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Speaker 1: And I'm like, oh, shoot, okay, thank you. You give

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Speaker 1: me kids on my head and depth because he got

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Speaker 1: to go to his first stop to pick the people up,

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Speaker 1: then hop back on the uni. I suppose right around

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Speaker 1: and right around the corner I bought there in the

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Speaker 1: second one, I back the bus. Yes, yes, that's what

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Speaker 1: he did. If that ain't love, I don't know what

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Speaker 1: the fun is because if somebody's phone is did, that's

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Speaker 1: your responsibility. I got a whole bus I'm supposed to

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Speaker 1: did that because he carred. It is more than caring,

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Speaker 1: because he obviously loved me. Because only someone that loves

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Speaker 1: someone would do something that extreme. Yeah, my woman's intuition

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Speaker 1: kicked in. I'm just like, okay, So the girl that

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Speaker 1: does his hair, she's also a bus driver, she commented

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Speaker 1: on my story a few days ago, and something was

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Speaker 1: just like, ask her if he talks to anybody because

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Speaker 1: she does his head. You know how stylists or barber's,

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Speaker 1: anybody that's behind you doing any kind of service for you,

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Speaker 1: they always glance over. You know, they may look at

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Speaker 1: would have been a nosy bitch before. Yo, wait a minute,

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Speaker 1: that is so crazy. How you even think like that?

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Speaker 1: He gets his head nune by her, so she could

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Speaker 1: be watching his phone. Your whole mind thinks like that

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Speaker 1: you're crazy anyway, continue but um damn and I am, um,

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Speaker 1: that's funny as ship. So I asked her. I'm like, hey, girl,

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Speaker 1: Can you stay between you and I? She was like, sure,

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Speaker 1: what's up? Mind you? This is like damn they one

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Speaker 1: o'clock in the morning. I said, I funk with such

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Speaker 1: and such. We've been working with each other for the

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Speaker 1: last two years. And I know you do his hair.

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Speaker 1: You also work with him. Do you know if he's

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Speaker 1: is saying something different and I'm just like, you know

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Speaker 1: what the is going on? She was like wait, what,

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Speaker 1: Like do you have proof of that? Like, what do

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Speaker 1: you mean? She's like, do you have proof that y'all

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Speaker 1: mess with each other? I have tons of pictures, tons

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Speaker 1: of videos. So I sent this to her and she's like, Wow,

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Speaker 1: this is more than I can even take in right now.

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Speaker 1: I know I said that I wouldn't say anything, but

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Speaker 1: the person that he deals with because he does deal

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Speaker 1: with someone is extremely close to me. Come to find out,

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Speaker 1: Shorty is her best friend, best fucking friends. I don't

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Speaker 1: know if they like best work friends or what. But

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Speaker 1: she was like, I can't hold the same well they're

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Speaker 1: all on the same job. Oh and she didn't know

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Speaker 1: that you dealt with him. No, nobody knew, you know.

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Speaker 1: And that's another thing. I actually asked him because the

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Speaker 1: girl that is his stylist, I went to high school

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Speaker 1: with her, so her and I have a relationship. We

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Speaker 1: literally grew up in the band together in high school.

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Speaker 1: It was on the band. Definitely was in the band

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Speaker 1: one time in band camp. It was in the band.

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Speaker 1: So you know, her and I have our own little

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Speaker 1: separate relationship. It's not like we were extremely close to

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Speaker 1: anything like that. But you know how you just you're

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Speaker 1: with them. There's never any bad blood every time you

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Speaker 1: link up. It's just it's a good time. That is

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Speaker 1: where I am with the stylist. And she told the

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Speaker 1: girl and she hit me back and it it was just

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Speaker 1: like she would like to talk to you, and I'm

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Speaker 1: just like, look, I ain't trying to beef with nobody.

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Speaker 1: I ain't trying to argue with nobody, Like that's not

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Speaker 1: my ship. She was just like she's not like that either.

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Speaker 1: Just like you wanted answers, she wants answers as well.

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Speaker 1: And I don't want to be the one giving you

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Speaker 1: these answers. That's crazy. I remember going through ship like this, like,

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Speaker 1: oh my god, nothing is like you find out that

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Speaker 1: somebody is working with the guy you're working with, like,

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Speaker 1: oh my god, like, don't it's sucking tragic. I haven't.

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Speaker 1: I have not had to go through anything like this,

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Speaker 1: and God knows when. Yeah, I don't go through ship

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Speaker 1: like this because normally when I'm working with somebody or

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Speaker 1: these men they're not stringing me along to the point

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Speaker 1: where they're well endoal in my life or in my

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Speaker 1: kids lives. This is a second time through this tumble

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Speaker 1: baby girlfrither. I mean, but that was that was so long.

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Speaker 1: But I was eight years ago. I haven't had no

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Speaker 1: heartbreak in eight years. Nobody was able to get that

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Speaker 1: close to me, you know, because for the most part,

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Speaker 1: these niggas be sort of kinda up front. They don't

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Speaker 1: sit there and be like, oh, I'm trying to build

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Speaker 1: They just be like, Oh, when you're coming over, niggas

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Speaker 1: just be fucking and hanging out with you. And that

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Speaker 1: right there, if you have common sense, that's basically you

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Speaker 1: know what it is. It is what it is. We fuck,

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Speaker 1: we hang out, we chill. But I ain't know, Oh,

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Speaker 1: do the kids need anything? The kids hungry? That the

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Speaker 1: kids eat you and pick the kids up from school?

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Speaker 1: Is none of that. The guys that I've had on

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Speaker 1: the back burner all of those years after that heartbreak

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Speaker 1: eight years ago, they've never displayed these feelings and trying

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Speaker 1: to care and build bonds with my fucking children. So

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Speaker 1: that is disturbing. I talked to Shorty on the phone.

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Speaker 1: Shorty said he's logged into her Facebook on his phone.

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Speaker 1: He checks her phone every night. They've been working with

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Speaker 1: each other since August of mind you, him and I've

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Speaker 1: been working with each other since January of Actually, he

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Speaker 1: and he slid in my damn. He always gotta bring

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Speaker 1: up when I fired you. She always gotta bring it up.

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Speaker 1: I became a brokeye real quick because I am just

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Speaker 1: So I was like, man, fun, just hilarious. Her money.

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna get some money on social media with these

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Speaker 1: little followers I got. I'm about to do some promo

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Speaker 1: M and wanted promo because he raps. He wraps about

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Speaker 1: the bus. So he's a rapping bus driver. Yes he is.

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Speaker 1: He's a rapping bus driver. He's pretty good, and he

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Speaker 1: wraps about the bus. He wraps about the pretty good.

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Speaker 1: He writes about the bus. He raps on the bus,

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Speaker 1: and um, he bust one of his raps. I don't

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Speaker 1: even want to I do. I ain't about to give

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Speaker 1: him that conshine. You'll know the bus rap I do

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Speaker 1: because I love that nixt he'd be talking about the seats,

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Speaker 1: be talking about the fair box and the people that

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Speaker 1: Yes he does, like the Curry kids all that. No,

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Speaker 1: not only cry kids riding to bust. I'm just saying, like,

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Speaker 1: do he be talking about he talks about all of

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Speaker 1: the motherfucker's like everybody to get on that bitch. He

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Speaker 1: talks about him the kids. The old people don't talk

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Speaker 1: about the kids. He talked about maybe them high school kids.

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Speaker 1: But yeah, that's what I mean. Yeah, he talks about him.

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Speaker 1: Hold up, hold up, I know the ship getting good,

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Speaker 1: but listen to just a couple of seconds of a commercial.

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Speaker 1: If you love me, you'll listen. He's soft a ship

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Speaker 1: like I'm used to dealing with hood niggas. You know

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Speaker 1: that he's a soft as rapping, bust dry. I'm just

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Speaker 1: trying to get it, Damn. I'm trying to making people

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Speaker 1: understand we'll be dealing with in now. That does not

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Speaker 1: take away from the fact that he's a great father.

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Speaker 1: And I guess if you need him to be a friend,

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Speaker 1: he's a great friend. I don't know, because, like y'all,

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Speaker 1: was really like my best friend. Like I can literally

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Speaker 1: beat myself around him, like and it's the last time

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Speaker 1: I was able to be myself around somebody was eight

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Speaker 1: years ago. Like I know, this is c Mr Gross

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Speaker 1: or whatever, like past gas dig up my nose if

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Speaker 1: I was like, okay, she already. He was like, oh yeah,

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Speaker 1: what's going on? What is going on? Baby? Like, bitch,

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Speaker 1: who the funk are you? Bitch? Went avenue, bitch, what

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Speaker 1: is you're talking about? Bitch? Oh my gosh, baby likes

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Speaker 1: going on talking to his bitch. And so he was

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Speaker 1: I'm just trying to clear her name up because I

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Speaker 1: what people think about her. So, in all actuality, that

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Speaker 1: do me this one solid favor? What he said that's

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Speaker 1: on video. You know, I can't remember everything I've done

423
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Speaker 1: for you and the kids. Can you just do me

424
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Speaker 1: this one solid favor? Never in your life throw in

425
00:22:19,960 --> 00:22:23,399
Speaker 1: my face what you've done for me and my kids.

426
00:22:23,760 --> 00:22:26,760
Speaker 1: You did it because you wanted to. Yeah, but like,

427
00:22:27,200 --> 00:22:29,920
Speaker 1: what the fuck I'm gonna save your relationship when he

428
00:22:30,000 --> 00:22:32,320
Speaker 1: was just basically in the relationship with me exactly, I'm

429
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Speaker 1: gonna save you a new one because all you've done

430
00:22:35,320 --> 00:22:38,159
Speaker 1: for my kids and but but I've done stuff for

431
00:22:38,240 --> 00:22:40,560
Speaker 1: him too. We've done things. That's what I'm saying. I'm

432
00:22:40,600 --> 00:22:42,960
Speaker 1: waiting for you to tell them that. So you know,

433
00:22:43,640 --> 00:22:46,000
Speaker 1: he was in a buying where he was behind on

434
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Speaker 1: his rent. You know he was he was only buying.

435
00:22:50,680 --> 00:22:52,560
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. He went in the bedroom

436
00:22:52,640 --> 00:22:57,119
Speaker 1: score my mother fucking juice his alf But you know,

437
00:22:57,240 --> 00:22:59,159
Speaker 1: he was in a bind. And because I loved him,

438
00:22:59,400 --> 00:23:01,680
Speaker 1: I had applied for unemployment and I didn't realize that

439
00:23:01,680 --> 00:23:03,359
Speaker 1: I was able to apply for unemployment. And I had

440
00:23:03,400 --> 00:23:05,920
Speaker 1: like over twelve tho dollars unemployment money. So I was

441
00:23:06,000 --> 00:23:07,600
Speaker 1: just like I knew he was behind in his rent

442
00:23:07,800 --> 00:23:10,720
Speaker 1: and I was like, oh my gosh, I got unemployment money.

443
00:23:10,720 --> 00:23:12,879
Speaker 1: They literally gave me all of my bag money. I

444
00:23:12,920 --> 00:23:15,040
Speaker 1: want to help you with your rent. I pay pailed

445
00:23:15,080 --> 00:23:17,639
Speaker 1: him two thousand dollars so he can catch up with

446
00:23:17,880 --> 00:23:20,800
Speaker 1: no problem. Because of the feelings that I had for him,

447
00:23:20,840 --> 00:23:23,359
Speaker 1: and because I cared and I loved him, it was

448
00:23:23,440 --> 00:23:25,600
Speaker 1: nothing to me. I'm just like, all right, I got

449
00:23:25,640 --> 00:23:27,920
Speaker 1: over twelve thousand dollars, I still got ten thousand plus

450
00:23:28,040 --> 00:23:30,640
Speaker 1: this two thousands ain't nothing. Here you go. I gave

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Speaker 1: him that with no problem. So it's just like we've

452
00:23:34,200 --> 00:23:36,720
Speaker 1: done things for one another. Just a week and a

453
00:23:36,760 --> 00:23:38,600
Speaker 1: half ago, I got his haircut. I paid for his

454
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Speaker 1: fucking haircut for him, just as a surprise. And then

455
00:23:41,920 --> 00:23:44,720
Speaker 1: right before then, I gave him a rose. I gave

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Speaker 1: him a single red rose, one of those roses that

457
00:23:46,840 --> 00:23:48,879
Speaker 1: last full year. When he came over the house, I

458
00:23:48,960 --> 00:23:51,159
Speaker 1: was just like, I want to give you this because

459
00:23:51,840 --> 00:23:54,120
Speaker 1: I saw a post where they said that men don't

460
00:23:54,160 --> 00:23:57,320
Speaker 1: get flowers until they die, and I love you, so

461
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Speaker 1: I want to give you your flower while you're alive

462
00:24:00,600 --> 00:24:02,720
Speaker 1: and you can still smell it. I literally just gave

463
00:24:02,800 --> 00:24:04,600
Speaker 1: his Nike a single raid roles and I chose the

464
00:24:04,640 --> 00:24:07,320
Speaker 1: red rules because it's a symbol of love. What did

465
00:24:07,359 --> 00:24:09,359
Speaker 1: he say? Did he cry? Did he say that? Just

466
00:24:09,480 --> 00:24:12,280
Speaker 1: like he was just like, oh sh you know, he

467
00:24:12,400 --> 00:24:14,800
Speaker 1: hugged me, he kissed me. It was just like he joking,

468
00:24:14,840 --> 00:24:17,600
Speaker 1: like what, you're about to kill me now? Like bye boy?

469
00:24:18,160 --> 00:24:20,879
Speaker 1: You know, But I did that because it was a

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00:24:21,080 --> 00:24:26,400
Speaker 1: real and true token of appreciation from me to him.

471
00:24:27,280 --> 00:24:31,440
Speaker 1: While we were in my room talking, he literally looked

472
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Speaker 1: at me in my face and he said to me,

473
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Speaker 1: I don't want her to be hurt. She deserves oh Shane,

474
00:24:45,240 --> 00:24:49,960
Speaker 1: he said, she deserves a good man, and I don't

475
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Speaker 1: deserve anyone. He told me I was gonna be by

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Speaker 1: myself for the rest of my life. That should hurt

477
00:24:57,480 --> 00:25:02,600
Speaker 1: me so bad. Why why would you say some ship

478
00:25:02,760 --> 00:25:06,359
Speaker 1: like that to me? And he really wanted me to

479
00:25:07,800 --> 00:25:11,480
Speaker 1: clear up some ship so he can be with this bitch,

480
00:25:12,440 --> 00:25:16,080
Speaker 1: Like I'm not doing that, and he's stuck around for

481
00:25:16,280 --> 00:25:19,360
Speaker 1: hours and hours and hours and I'm just like, I'm

482
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Speaker 1: not doing that. I'm not doing it. What the funk

483
00:25:22,040 --> 00:25:24,600
Speaker 1: do I look like I put in so much time

484
00:25:24,640 --> 00:25:29,040
Speaker 1: I'm putting so much energy. My children are involved in this,

485
00:25:29,520 --> 00:25:32,080
Speaker 1: and you sit there and you you tell me to

486
00:25:32,240 --> 00:25:34,480
Speaker 1: fix some ships so you can move on with another bitch.

487
00:25:35,119 --> 00:25:37,520
Speaker 1: I don't give a funk about her. I don't give

488
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Speaker 1: a funk about what y'all have, what y'all head, what

489
00:25:39,880 --> 00:25:41,720
Speaker 1: y'all are building. I don't give a funk about any

490
00:25:41,760 --> 00:25:46,120
Speaker 1: of that. Why would you part your lips and say

491
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Speaker 1: some ship like that to me in my house, in

492
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Speaker 1: my face. That is the most disgraceful, disrespectful ship that

493
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Speaker 1: I have ever endured from a man. I've never felt

494
00:25:58,440 --> 00:26:01,640
Speaker 1: that way before. That should hurt. It cut me deep,

495
00:26:01,800 --> 00:26:03,800
Speaker 1: and all I could do was stand there and cry,

496
00:26:05,000 --> 00:26:08,600
Speaker 1: m I've been fucked up. This ain't even happened a

497
00:26:08,720 --> 00:26:12,240
Speaker 1: week ago. Yet. It's difficult for me because I love him,

498
00:26:12,560 --> 00:26:14,320
Speaker 1: and I'm saying I love him because I still do.

499
00:26:15,160 --> 00:26:18,800
Speaker 1: I love him because if you when you truly love somebody,

500
00:26:19,040 --> 00:26:21,240
Speaker 1: you can't just cut that shirt off. But I love

501
00:26:21,320 --> 00:26:23,760
Speaker 1: me more, and if he reached out to me, I

502
00:26:23,880 --> 00:26:26,040
Speaker 1: love me more. Like I said, I know he's not

503
00:26:26,080 --> 00:26:28,440
Speaker 1: going to reach out to me, but it's crazy because

504
00:26:28,560 --> 00:26:31,320
Speaker 1: him and I are in social media friends and it's

505
00:26:31,520 --> 00:26:33,399
Speaker 1: you know, I've been seeing stuff all on social media

506
00:26:33,640 --> 00:26:36,399
Speaker 1: that I'm just like, oh, wow, him and I have

507
00:26:36,440 --> 00:26:38,280
Speaker 1: been dealing with each other for this time frame, and

508
00:26:38,359 --> 00:26:40,520
Speaker 1: he's just like, oh, I'm not going to post you

509
00:26:40,600 --> 00:26:42,840
Speaker 1: because a lot of my co workers they want you

510
00:26:42,880 --> 00:26:44,359
Speaker 1: and they like you. Yeah, a lot of the bus

511
00:26:44,520 --> 00:26:48,560
Speaker 1: drivers do like me, you know, but it's obviously them

512
00:26:48,600 --> 00:26:50,960
Speaker 1: bus drivers are sucking holes. They want to funk. They

513
00:26:51,040 --> 00:26:53,320
Speaker 1: like what they see, got a fat ass, they want

514
00:26:53,320 --> 00:26:57,000
Speaker 1: to get behind it. That's just that's men. So you know,

515
00:26:57,200 --> 00:27:00,480
Speaker 1: his excuse for not posting me is they already don't

516
00:27:00,520 --> 00:27:03,359
Speaker 1: like me. I feel like they're gonna not like me

517
00:27:03,480 --> 00:27:06,800
Speaker 1: even more if they see that we're messing with each other. Boy,

518
00:27:06,960 --> 00:27:09,119
Speaker 1: what the funk old is you? They're not gonna like

519
00:27:09,320 --> 00:27:13,040
Speaker 1: me more? I don't know what I mean. It's literally

520
00:27:13,480 --> 00:27:16,720
Speaker 1: daycare and it literally it's like it's like a high school.

521
00:27:16,760 --> 00:27:18,960
Speaker 1: You're a growing ass man. They're not gonna like me more.

522
00:27:21,119 --> 00:27:23,560
Speaker 1: I don't know, but you know, in my mind it

523
00:27:23,680 --> 00:27:26,119
Speaker 1: made sense because it's coming from somebody that I love.

524
00:27:26,200 --> 00:27:28,320
Speaker 1: And you know, when you love somebody, the ship that

525
00:27:28,400 --> 00:27:31,600
Speaker 1: they say cannot make a bitter fucking sense, but you

526
00:27:31,880 --> 00:27:34,040
Speaker 1: are gonna make it make sense because you love that person,

527
00:27:34,680 --> 00:27:37,240
Speaker 1: and I made that ship makes sense in my mind

528
00:27:37,400 --> 00:27:41,000
Speaker 1: because of the love that I had for him. If

529
00:27:41,040 --> 00:27:43,760
Speaker 1: I was like that, I've been all around that job.

530
00:27:44,160 --> 00:27:47,399
Speaker 1: But I'm not like that. I chose him, and looking

531
00:27:47,440 --> 00:27:49,720
Speaker 1: at him, you know the type of niggas that I

532
00:27:49,800 --> 00:27:52,160
Speaker 1: work with, He's not even somebody that I would even

533
00:27:52,200 --> 00:27:54,400
Speaker 1: funk if he's not even my type. But I chose him,

534
00:27:54,400 --> 00:27:56,520
Speaker 1: and I gave him a chance because of his personality,

535
00:27:56,560 --> 00:27:58,480
Speaker 1: because of the type of person that he was. I

536
00:27:58,520 --> 00:28:00,359
Speaker 1: gave him a chance. I let him, and I let

537
00:28:00,440 --> 00:28:03,119
Speaker 1: him all the way in to the point where my

538
00:28:03,280 --> 00:28:06,720
Speaker 1: mother was liking him. And you know how my mother is.

539
00:28:07,520 --> 00:28:12,879
Speaker 1: She likes nobody. Your mother was loving him everyone. I

540
00:28:13,000 --> 00:28:16,040
Speaker 1: thought he was, you know, a great guy, and he

541
00:28:16,280 --> 00:28:19,720
Speaker 1: let me down. So last week I wrote a song.

542
00:28:20,080 --> 00:28:22,120
Speaker 1: I've never written a song I have in my life.

543
00:28:22,560 --> 00:28:24,000
Speaker 1: I pulled over on the side of the road and

544
00:28:24,080 --> 00:28:27,240
Speaker 1: wrote a song on a brown paper bag and I

545
00:28:27,400 --> 00:28:31,480
Speaker 1: literally just let out all emotion. And y'all gonna have

546
00:28:31,520 --> 00:28:35,080
Speaker 1: to stay tuned for that. Pray for me. You'll pray

547
00:28:35,160 --> 00:28:38,560
Speaker 1: for my strength because this ship is not easy. It

548
00:28:38,720 --> 00:28:41,200
Speaker 1: is not It's not a walk in the park. You know.

549
00:28:41,400 --> 00:28:44,360
Speaker 1: I'm sure they've gone through you know, heartbreaks. That ship

550
00:28:44,600 --> 00:28:47,320
Speaker 1: is definitely that's the last thing you want to feel.

551
00:28:47,960 --> 00:28:51,800
Speaker 1: You know. I've been hurt like ship before. You have

552
00:28:51,840 --> 00:28:55,040
Speaker 1: ever heard like this. But baby, your father hurt you bad.

553
00:28:55,320 --> 00:28:58,080
Speaker 1: Yeah he did hurt me. He literally did the same

554
00:28:58,160 --> 00:29:00,600
Speaker 1: thing that my last baby all that did to me.

555
00:29:00,960 --> 00:29:03,600
Speaker 1: I was living two separate lives, point blank period. He

556
00:29:03,720 --> 00:29:05,960
Speaker 1: was living two separate lives like Trey Song say, one

557
00:29:06,000 --> 00:29:08,160
Speaker 1: girl in the day and you at night, like he

558
00:29:08,320 --> 00:29:10,440
Speaker 1: literally was. The girl said that he was at her

559
00:29:10,480 --> 00:29:12,760
Speaker 1: house every night. He told me he was doing overtime

560
00:29:13,000 --> 00:29:15,600
Speaker 1: or he fell asleep, and I believe him because those

561
00:29:15,600 --> 00:29:18,440
Speaker 1: bus drivers they get Hella overtime is available for them.

562
00:29:18,640 --> 00:29:20,840
Speaker 1: So I wasn't going to question what he was saying.

563
00:29:21,160 --> 00:29:23,200
Speaker 1: You want a paper chase, You want a paper chase.

564
00:29:23,440 --> 00:29:24,920
Speaker 1: I ain't about to knock that. I'm not about to

565
00:29:24,920 --> 00:29:26,440
Speaker 1: be no bitch and be all your bush is like,

566
00:29:26,480 --> 00:29:27,760
Speaker 1: oh where are you doing? Where are you at? Blah

567
00:29:27,760 --> 00:29:30,640
Speaker 1: blah blah blah. He was just really good at living

568
00:29:30,680 --> 00:29:33,640
Speaker 1: to your lives. He was. And I'm telling fuck them,

569
00:29:33,880 --> 00:29:37,120
Speaker 1: Boom moved the funk on, because you will never be

570
00:29:37,760 --> 00:29:40,800
Speaker 1: good enough for the wrong motherfucker and that's just that.

571
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Speaker 1: Listen to me going in this episode, yo'all, pray for

572
00:29:43,160 --> 00:29:45,440
Speaker 1: my system. I love us so much. I really really did.

573
00:29:45,880 --> 00:29:50,320
Speaker 1: She didn't expose her owner ability to y'all today she cried.

574
00:29:50,760 --> 00:29:53,840
Speaker 1: I haven't seen her crying so long, so this really

575
00:29:53,960 --> 00:29:57,320
Speaker 1: hurts me as well. But y'all you're dealing with heartbreak.

576
00:29:57,640 --> 00:29:59,600
Speaker 1: I'm so sorry, But that ship ain't gonna be forever.

577
00:30:00,080 --> 00:30:03,160
Speaker 1: Only time. Hells that. Just keep your kids close to you,

578
00:30:03,280 --> 00:30:06,520
Speaker 1: you know, stay busy, your friends, all that ship. And

579
00:30:06,720 --> 00:30:09,520
Speaker 1: just like that, we've come to the end of another

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00:30:09,600 --> 00:30:13,200
Speaker 1: Carefully Reckless episode. Say by shack Piece out y'all, pray

581
00:30:13,280 --> 00:30:16,920
Speaker 1: for motherfucker's sister because I needed soon in next week

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Speaker 1: every Wednesday, seven am. Piece. Carefully Reckless is a production

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Speaker 1: of I Heart Radio and The Black Effect. For more

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Speaker 1: podcasts from My Heart Radio, visit the I Heart Radio app,

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Speaker 1: Apple podcast, or wherever you listen to your favorite shows.