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Speaker 1: Welcome to We Talk Back Podcast, the production of iHeartRadio

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Speaker 1: and the Black Effect Network.

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Speaker 2: We're just two unapologetically black women with an opinion who talks.

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Speaker 1: What's up y'all? Is your girl? AJ? Holiday? What's up? DAYA?

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Speaker 2: Damn?

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Speaker 1: Hey, y'all? I love y'all so very much. How you doing, AJ?

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Speaker 1: I'm doing. I'm doing fine. How was your weekend? Girl?

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Speaker 1: Was supposed to storm and all the stuff. So I've

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Speaker 1: been waiting for rain all fucking weekend. It didn't happen.

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Speaker 1: I know storms they were threatened using about, but shit uneventful.

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Speaker 1: Yeah it did rain. It did rain for us.

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Speaker 2: We did get some weather, but it wasn't like what

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Speaker 2: I was hoping for. I was hoping to be like

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Speaker 2: rain ding and watching scary movies.

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Speaker 1: God, have you seen that movie Him yet? No?

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Speaker 2: I wanted to go see it just came out. I

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Speaker 2: heard it was like really mynic Yeah.

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Speaker 1: So I saw when I saw the trailer on Instagram,

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Speaker 1: I commented and I said, you gotta know what you're

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Speaker 1: looking at when you see it, and like all these

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Speaker 1: people was commenting, like some people was like on calling

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Speaker 1: me just from that small line, like I'm a super

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Speaker 1: conspiracy theorist. From the trailer, I could see hell of shit,

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Speaker 1: like I know what that movie is about without watching

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Speaker 1: a movie, and it's real shit. People think they can't

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Speaker 1: be touched by stuff just because they don't believe in it.

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Speaker 1: That is not true. I do feel like they be

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Speaker 1: putting bullshit in these movies, Like I turn shit off

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Speaker 1: and I hear too much chanting and Latin and shit

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Speaker 1: like that. I fast forward because what the fuck are

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Speaker 1: y'all and what you're saying? Yeah? Yeah, And until I

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Speaker 1: learned Latin, I wanted to talk to me.

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Speaker 2: I wanted to go see that movie, and I wanted

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Speaker 2: to see Strangers too.

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Speaker 1: I didn't see the first one and me neither. You're

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Speaker 1: gonna skip. I saw the trailer for that too, Like

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Speaker 1: I can't skip. I gotta watch the other one first.

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Speaker 2: You know. That's what That was my assignment to watch

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Speaker 2: the first one before we went to the movies. But

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Speaker 2: we didn't go to the movie, so I got time.

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Speaker 2: So I've never seen the first one.

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Speaker 1: I think I have. We hope y'all had better weekends, yeah,

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Speaker 1: because our ship was uneventful.

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Speaker 2: But I do have a date coming up next week

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Speaker 2: where I'm going I know and hopefully I won't be

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Speaker 2: sleep because I just feel tired for next week already.

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Speaker 2: Like it's a movie in the a scary movie in

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Speaker 2: the park, So that's gonna be cute outside it's is

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Speaker 2: it a big It's not like it's a it's outside,

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Speaker 2: but it's kind of lazy. It's a kiddie movie, kind

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Speaker 2: of it's Halloween Town.

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Speaker 1: What if? Like, girl, you know what if? Yo? I

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Speaker 1: used to be terrified. I love scary movies. I love

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Speaker 1: scary movies so much. What is wrong with you? Though? Like?

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Speaker 2: Why are you watching this crazy shit? Like I guess

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Speaker 2: I just want to feel scared.

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Speaker 1: I like it too. I'm a scary movie a fiend.

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Speaker 1: I love.

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Speaker 2: This is my season right here, Like this is my season.

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Speaker 2: I want to see all the scary movies. I only

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Speaker 2: want to see it with a man.

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Speaker 1: So I'm like scarce. So shit actually fucking happen? Shit

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Speaker 1: really jump off? I'muld turn into somebody different carry out.

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Speaker 1: I think I might turn into what's the girl off

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Speaker 1: for the Walking day with the dreads? Oh Miche Michelle

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Speaker 1: bitchall turns to macheone so quick, girl. I literally was

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Speaker 1: just saying today, like I need one more pistol.

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Speaker 2: You know, people be having all these guns, but if

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Speaker 2: you single, like it's only one person, only got two hands,

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Speaker 2: you really can't use all of the guns, right, But

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Speaker 2: I need one like the lions got, you know.

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Speaker 1: Like the the uh. Get a three D printer.

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Speaker 2: A little modification on it. What do they call it?

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Speaker 2: They call it a not a clapper, No.

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Speaker 1: Old bitch clapper, it's a switch.

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Speaker 2: I don't want to switch necessarily, all right, Maybe I'll

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Speaker 2: get like a uh uh.

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Speaker 1: I was researching online.

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Speaker 2: Apparently the AR fifteen they have like a pistol like

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Speaker 2: AR fifteen, Like maybe.

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Speaker 1: You could fold it up and ship fold it. It's crazy.

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Speaker 1: Get you just get you a three D printer. You

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Speaker 1: can have anything you want and go to jail. Bitch,

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Speaker 1: you can't be at the house printing guns. And this

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Speaker 1: is Charles America.

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Speaker 2: We do what we went around here, apparently not you're

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Speaker 2: stole a nigga.

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Speaker 1: Let's getting the sens. What were y'all going on this week?

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Speaker 2: Y'all?

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Speaker 1: I want to start off by giving a super big

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Speaker 1: rest in peace to a Sada Chakour. She made it

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Speaker 1: off this hell realm unscathed a little bit because she

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Speaker 1: definitely was skied at some point, but they haven't been

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Speaker 1: able to touch her since the seventies. Thank god.

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Speaker 2: She became a citizen of Cuba never came back to

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Speaker 2: the United States. You know, there's a she has a

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Speaker 2: book that my best friend swears by, and she's been

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Speaker 2: telling me to read it for years, and now that

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Speaker 2: she's passed, it's just you know, prompted me to go

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Speaker 2: ahead and get that book and read it because that

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Speaker 2: is my birth about.

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Speaker 1: To be sold out on the Amazon I bet order tonight.

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Speaker 1: Why you're thinking about it, right.

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Speaker 2: Because I want to read her story because she was

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Speaker 2: a black abolitionist, freedom fighter for all things black and

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Speaker 2: killed a New Jersey officer.

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Speaker 1: She didn't kill anybody. That was all a lie. So

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Speaker 1: this is why she's you know, aside asylum in in

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Speaker 1: in Cuba, she was not guilty of anything. Actually, they

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Speaker 1: were under attack by New Jersey police. So I know

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Speaker 1: the Youngins may not know Assad of Shakur, but that's

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Speaker 1: who Tupac changed. Chose his name after you. No, she's

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Speaker 1: actually his step dad's sister, right, but his their last

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Speaker 1: name was not was it his last name originally? That's

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Speaker 1: not her real name either. Yeah, exactly that's the name

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Speaker 1: that Yeah, so that was her, that's the name they

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Speaker 1: took on. But it wasn't that he, you know, acquired

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Speaker 1: that name from her, like it was just family black

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Speaker 1: panther ship. Oh, I thought it was her that he

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Speaker 1: chose the name behind. No, So her real name is

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Speaker 1: I can't pronounce. Her last name is chess Mard. I

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Speaker 1: believe it's Chess and mar Joan chess Mard. So astat

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Speaker 1: As was wanted by the FBI and other law enforcement

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Speaker 1: agencies for her for her involvement in a nineteen seventy

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Speaker 1: three shootout that killed in New Jersey state trooper Warner Forrester.

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Speaker 1: She was convicted of murder and they senced her to

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Speaker 1: life in prison. Three armed men rolled up in the

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Speaker 1: women's facility and broke her out, and she resurfaced in Cuba. Cuba, Yeah,

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Speaker 1: under Fidel caused Castro.

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Speaker 2: And she label her as a domestic terrorist.

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Speaker 1: Most wanted since the seventies. She actually they they tried

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Speaker 1: to kill her the day that you know, they got

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Speaker 1: into the shootout with the police like they show first

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Speaker 1: to foolie show first. She was shot twice in the

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Speaker 1: back and they literally was like standing over her I

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Speaker 1: watched it like a documentary ones. They literally was just

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Speaker 1: standing over her like, is this bitch dad yet? And

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Speaker 1: then they took her, you know, to the hospital, and

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Speaker 1: then she actually got sentenced to life in prison. She's

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Speaker 1: been minding her business in Cuba and every president has

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Speaker 1: been going after her since the seventies. They have been

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Speaker 1: trying to get extraded her back to the United States.

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Speaker 1: The name and they weren't going for it, Nope. So

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Speaker 1: I'm glad. I'm glad.

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Speaker 2: I heard her name was Tupac and a Tupac song.

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Speaker 2: I can't put my finger on the song right now,

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Speaker 2: but he was really uh huh, he said, saw the

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Speaker 2: she car Moon, Bougie Moon and all the really o

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Speaker 2: gz we out.

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Speaker 1: What song was that? Y'all tell me what song was that?

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Speaker 1: He said that.

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Speaker 2: But that's the first time I heard that name. I

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Speaker 2: was a little girl. Yep, all right, so.

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Speaker 1: You even not a little one. Tupac went out, cut

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Speaker 1: it out, girl got murdered. Was that high school? In

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Speaker 1: middle school? When Tupac got murdered? Middle Okay? Yeah, for me,

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Speaker 1: I was welling out in middle school.

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Speaker 2: So also over the weekend, they released a statue memorializing

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Speaker 2: the queen of rock and roll, Tina Turner.

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Speaker 1: Herself hated at Brownsville, Tennessee.

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Speaker 2: H y'all listen that wig that they gave Like, all right,

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Speaker 2: Tina didn't love some big hair, I'll give it to her.

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Speaker 2: But they really tried it with that piece of hair

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Speaker 2: on the That shit looked like what's that doctor suits book?

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Speaker 1: God damn, I was so bad. If they ever want

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Speaker 1: to give me a statue, don't just put or just

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Speaker 1: why couldn't they just do like a I'm pretty sure

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Speaker 1: that the plenty of wax museums of her, but who asked,

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Speaker 1: Like when it was together, there's somebody like everybody looked

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Speaker 1: that was like that's the one.

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Speaker 2: Like they didn't like have a conversation first, the same

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Speaker 2: Niggaho did Dwaye Wade?

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Speaker 1: She did this one. I bet did they not consult

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Speaker 1: with her family members, her sons, Like nobody it is

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Speaker 1: ten foot tall at that, this is a big statue

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Speaker 1: and three feet a hair. Don't play with Tina like that. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: she could have. I was about to say she could

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Speaker 1: live without that. She can live it out that shit.

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Speaker 1: We could live without that shit. Okay, Tina would not

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Speaker 1: be happy if she were to see this big ass

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Speaker 1: the hair, Hey, guys, metal hair, the.

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Speaker 2: Same Dwayne Wade's statue. The last couple of statues came

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Speaker 2: out was fucked this one. The Wayne Waye's in that

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Speaker 2: statue of get that get out nigga, and he was

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Speaker 2: in the sucker's place on the statue. What about that

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Speaker 2: fat one in the damn New York Times statue.

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Speaker 1: Let's let statues go.

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Speaker 2: They I feel like they're trying to pay us back

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Speaker 2: for taking down all of got that World War two

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Speaker 2: criminals right from around the country. I feel like they're

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Speaker 2: trying to pay us back. So he is resurrecting all

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Speaker 2: his bullshit. Nobody's asking for give us the money.

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Speaker 1: Right. That's that black girl at the time. Score.

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Speaker 2: They ain't even put her in a qute outfit like

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Speaker 2: leaving McDonald's.

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Speaker 1: Like I feel like her belly was hanging out a

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Speaker 1: little bit with her T shirt. Yeah, it was like

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Speaker 1: the real disrespectful and love with that girl her girls.

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Speaker 1: If you don't a statue can go to hell. So

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Speaker 1: that's statue got on my damn nerves, y'all. Soo young

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Speaker 1: thug is one hundred percent fulfilling his duties right because

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Speaker 1: under his release. Yeah, under his release, and like his

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Speaker 1: what is my brain? What's going on today?

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Speaker 2: His his plea deal, his plea bargain. Right, there's certain things,

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Speaker 2: certain things he has to do.

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Speaker 1: So one of them was like, you know, community service

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Speaker 1: and also like speaking to the youth and stuff like that.

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Speaker 1: So he put on a concert this weekend in front

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Speaker 1: of the Atlanta Courthouse. Okay, So Young Thug performs a

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Speaker 1: surprise concert in front of the full courthouse. Yeah, free

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Speaker 1: for his fans on Sunday. The rapper, who was previously

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Speaker 1: banned from Atlanta due to the terms of his probation

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Speaker 1: until condition was amended in December, announced the the surprise

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Speaker 1: show on Sunday, September twenty eight. So yeah, So he

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Speaker 1: tweeted a picture of the album cover. I'm trying to

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Speaker 1: figure out why he lights kin on the album cover?

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Speaker 2: What was that about? That's what I was confused. I

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Speaker 2: Definitely she told to somebody out side of you y'all

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Speaker 2: It was bitch a whole lot of shit? Okay, I'm

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Speaker 1: And when y'all started, don't you gotta re imagine? You

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Speaker 2: Level of homelessness is different. Okay, at your mama house,

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Speaker 1: Bitch. I felt homeless at my mama's house. I just

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Speaker 2: I'm ready for my own space again, like I've been

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Speaker 1: We can sit down and talk about all the other options.

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Speaker 2: Un let's see if we've exhausted those. And if we

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Speaker 2: And if someone clean your house for you, they love you.

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Speaker 2: Huh what to clean my friends houses? Really, I haven't

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Speaker 1: Now, I have cleaned the space i'm ana being in

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Speaker 1: is letting you fuck them with this bathroom? Like this?

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00:24:17,880 --> 00:24:21,800
Speaker 1: Who letting you fuck them? I had let him fuck me,

432
00:24:22,000 --> 00:24:29,760
Speaker 1: but just one time because I was already there. But

433
00:24:29,840 --> 00:24:32,600
Speaker 1: who playing you fucking the regular? What this like? They're

434
00:24:32,600 --> 00:24:35,360
Speaker 1: not uthom when they come right that part.

435
00:24:36,200 --> 00:24:39,119
Speaker 2: Jesus Like, if you go to a manhouse and you

436
00:24:39,200 --> 00:24:41,399
Speaker 2: feel like you gotta hover up all of his toilet

437
00:24:41,440 --> 00:24:43,440
Speaker 2: to use it, you probably shouldn't have sex on him.

438
00:24:44,000 --> 00:24:45,800
Speaker 1: Hell don't know. And I'm pissing on your floor.

439
00:24:46,680 --> 00:24:49,960
Speaker 2: Okay, I'm pissing all over your toilet. See, I'm just

440
00:24:50,040 --> 00:24:53,360
Speaker 2: treating your ship like you do. I'm pissing all over

441
00:24:53,400 --> 00:24:53,960
Speaker 2: this shit.

442
00:24:55,600 --> 00:25:01,320
Speaker 1: Guad station. This is sphinx bathroom. Bitch. This is no

443
00:25:01,440 --> 00:25:04,199
Speaker 1: fucking nigger of mine. Did you hear that?

444
00:25:04,560 --> 00:25:04,600
Speaker 2: Er?

445
00:25:05,000 --> 00:25:10,159
Speaker 1: This is no nigger of mine? That are crazy? All right?

446
00:25:10,200 --> 00:25:12,199
Speaker 1: What's one of my fears. I'm gonna share it with y'all.

447
00:25:13,600 --> 00:25:15,400
Speaker 2: And this is hard for me to say, and it's

448
00:25:15,440 --> 00:25:21,800
Speaker 2: probably reflected in my social media. I fear look here ugly.

449
00:25:24,880 --> 00:25:26,080
Speaker 1: I far it like.

450
00:25:26,040 --> 00:25:28,720
Speaker 2: So I'm like, I'm so self conscious about how I

451
00:25:28,760 --> 00:25:30,679
Speaker 2: look on social media that I don't I end up

452
00:25:30,720 --> 00:25:31,440
Speaker 2: not posting nothing.

453
00:25:31,680 --> 00:25:32,840
Speaker 1: I'll take a picture, I'd be.

454
00:25:32,720 --> 00:25:35,320
Speaker 2: Like, that's cute, and then I'll analyze it seventeen thousand

455
00:25:35,400 --> 00:25:38,280
Speaker 2: different ways, and then I'll be like, I'm not posting that.

456
00:25:39,200 --> 00:25:41,159
Speaker 2: I would take outfit picks and I swear I'm the

457
00:25:41,160 --> 00:25:43,520
Speaker 2: baddest bitch in my outfit and feel like the baddest

458
00:25:43,520 --> 00:25:45,239
Speaker 2: bitch out in my outfit, and then I look at

459
00:25:45,240 --> 00:25:48,880
Speaker 2: myself in the picture and I'll be like, yours.

460
00:25:48,560 --> 00:25:51,399
Speaker 1: Not you, girl, it's the fucking iPhone camera. I already

461
00:25:51,480 --> 00:25:54,439
Speaker 1: told you that shit. They fucking with our perception, so

462
00:25:54,480 --> 00:25:58,080
Speaker 1: we use these stupid ass filters. I know I look

463
00:25:58,160 --> 00:25:59,960
Speaker 1: bad in person than I do on the Internet.

464
00:26:00,160 --> 00:26:04,359
Speaker 2: Yes, Internet, I'm too much finer than the Internet. And

465
00:26:04,400 --> 00:26:07,159
Speaker 2: then when I think videos. All right, so, y'all, I

466
00:26:07,200 --> 00:26:09,359
Speaker 2: got a nice smile, but these two bottom teeth, they

467
00:26:10,080 --> 00:26:13,200
Speaker 2: like the wisdoms tooth start growing in and they started shifting.

468
00:26:13,760 --> 00:26:16,320
Speaker 1: And I feel like, curry b I'll be wearing low shirts.

469
00:26:16,320 --> 00:26:22,920
Speaker 2: So you don't look at my bottom teeth because they cricketies.

470
00:26:21,119 --> 00:26:22,040
Speaker 1: There, cut it out.

471
00:26:23,119 --> 00:26:26,119
Speaker 2: They still looking at your face, girl, the face. They

472
00:26:26,200 --> 00:26:31,040
Speaker 2: looking at your smile, and don't nobody see them fucking teeth. Okay, no, no,

473
00:26:32,520 --> 00:26:33,920
Speaker 2: we we stole hard on that stuff.

474
00:26:33,920 --> 00:26:36,480
Speaker 1: No I can. I can say I have sort of

475
00:26:36,520 --> 00:26:38,720
Speaker 1: the same fear. Right. First of all, I don't like

476
00:26:38,760 --> 00:26:41,960
Speaker 1: people my fucking life for real. But recently I saw

477
00:26:42,000 --> 00:26:47,200
Speaker 1: this girl's Instagram and she was big, honey, pretty face, okay,

478
00:26:47,600 --> 00:26:51,159
Speaker 1: big pretty, but stomach out Kuchie cut is on. She

479
00:26:51,280 --> 00:26:53,320
Speaker 1: in the drive through, in the driveway in her house.

480
00:26:53,359 --> 00:26:56,840
Speaker 1: She's like, fuck y'all, bitches, y'all just mad. Then I

481
00:26:56,840 --> 00:26:57,639
Speaker 1: don't give a funk.

482
00:26:57,840 --> 00:27:00,359
Speaker 2: Y'all mad because I can get on here, look like

483
00:27:00,440 --> 00:27:03,399
Speaker 2: I'm looking and not give a damn. Had hell of

484
00:27:03,440 --> 00:27:08,959
Speaker 2: followers and people like authenticity, right, So of course if

485
00:27:09,000 --> 00:27:12,200
Speaker 2: we could just wake up and get on live, shit

486
00:27:12,240 --> 00:27:13,160
Speaker 2: would be lit.

487
00:27:13,040 --> 00:27:15,800
Speaker 1: And not give a fuck. That's why I aspired to

488
00:27:15,800 --> 00:27:17,520
Speaker 1: you for I don't want to.

489
00:27:18,000 --> 00:27:19,919
Speaker 2: I do I want to, I want to not. I

490
00:27:19,920 --> 00:27:21,840
Speaker 2: want to get online. I want to get on my

491
00:27:21,920 --> 00:27:24,960
Speaker 2: I g lap and not give a single solitary fuck.

492
00:27:25,880 --> 00:27:30,920
Speaker 1: I want that, but I can't. It's so difficult. What's

493
00:27:31,000 --> 00:27:34,119
Speaker 1: unpack that a little bit? Because I feel like I

494
00:27:34,280 --> 00:27:36,359
Speaker 1: just you know how people be talking shit about women

495
00:27:36,440 --> 00:27:38,960
Speaker 1: wearing hair and make up all the shit, Like, bitch,

496
00:27:38,960 --> 00:27:41,000
Speaker 1: I'm gonna look like I'm going to a wedding every

497
00:27:41,040 --> 00:27:43,880
Speaker 1: fucking day, the same shit y'all natural bitches do y'all

498
00:27:43,880 --> 00:27:45,520
Speaker 1: when y'all gotta go to a wedding, y'all go, get

499
00:27:45,600 --> 00:27:49,080
Speaker 1: y'all a bus down, y'all, putash on top of y'all, dredge, y'all,

500
00:27:49,119 --> 00:27:52,919
Speaker 1: putsh on top of y'all, uh low cuts, Like I

501
00:27:52,960 --> 00:27:55,880
Speaker 1: want to look like that every day? What's wrong with that?

502
00:27:56,800 --> 00:27:59,640
Speaker 1: What's wrong with that? Nothing? I want to I want

503
00:27:59,640 --> 00:28:01,760
Speaker 1: to present my best every day, and I feel like

504
00:28:01,760 --> 00:28:04,760
Speaker 1: even like in relationships, like I remember my ex telling

505
00:28:04,760 --> 00:28:08,960
Speaker 1: me basically basically like not to wear my wigs. He

506
00:28:09,080 --> 00:28:11,800
Speaker 1: just want me to be comfortable. I'm comfortable like this.

507
00:28:11,920 --> 00:28:14,200
Speaker 2: I'm not gonna be comfortable walking around with this shit,

508
00:28:14,560 --> 00:28:16,800
Speaker 2: this untreated ass fucking here.

509
00:28:17,240 --> 00:28:20,040
Speaker 1: Okay, this shit as little as a motherfucker. I mean

510
00:28:20,040 --> 00:28:24,160
Speaker 1: it's stretches, but as little as I'm not comfortable. Yes,

511
00:28:24,960 --> 00:28:27,879
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna be comfortable like that. So what you

512
00:28:28,000 --> 00:28:30,199
Speaker 1: really think you're gonna do is like you think you

513
00:28:30,240 --> 00:28:32,920
Speaker 1: can take my swag. That's the cutting of the wig,

514
00:28:33,119 --> 00:28:38,240
Speaker 1: right he thought he was like taking my swag, No, bitch, like,

515
00:28:38,480 --> 00:28:41,200
Speaker 1: I'm still mean with without the fucking wig. I just

516
00:28:41,280 --> 00:28:43,960
Speaker 1: feel better when I look like I'm going to a

517
00:28:43,960 --> 00:28:46,000
Speaker 1: fucking wedding. And why would you not want your bitch

518
00:28:46,080 --> 00:28:50,480
Speaker 1: to feel good about yourself right at all times?

519
00:28:50,520 --> 00:28:53,600
Speaker 2: But I think they want us to feel good about ourselves.

520
00:28:54,240 --> 00:28:59,520
Speaker 2: And it's full authenticity without weave, without lashes, without makeup, without.

521
00:29:00,320 --> 00:29:03,560
Speaker 1: If all black women started pulling up just like that,

522
00:29:04,240 --> 00:29:08,719
Speaker 1: these niggas would definitely be leaving the community and droves

523
00:29:08,760 --> 00:29:12,600
Speaker 1: even more than they are now. That ain't with y'all.

524
00:29:12,600 --> 00:29:15,720
Speaker 1: Don't want y'all mama. It's your mama up under this wig. Nigga.

525
00:29:16,560 --> 00:29:19,320
Speaker 1: You don't want your mama. You want a bad bitch.

526
00:29:19,680 --> 00:29:23,160
Speaker 1: And all my ninge on my hinge.

527
00:29:23,800 --> 00:29:25,840
Speaker 2: I like, I was courageous, right, And I was like,

528
00:29:25,880 --> 00:29:27,920
Speaker 2: I need these niggas to see me how.

529
00:29:27,840 --> 00:29:28,560
Speaker 1: I am right?

530
00:29:29,440 --> 00:29:31,920
Speaker 2: So I put one picture of myself of me in

531
00:29:32,000 --> 00:29:34,680
Speaker 2: a robe. It was you couldn't see all the robe, right,

532
00:29:35,240 --> 00:29:38,240
Speaker 2: but it was no, it was like you all these dates, bitch.

533
00:29:38,920 --> 00:29:41,680
Speaker 1: It was my top, just the top, not even but

534
00:29:41,760 --> 00:29:43,000
Speaker 1: you could see the top of my rope.

535
00:29:43,040 --> 00:29:47,440
Speaker 2: And I have on a bonnet and it's okay, And

536
00:29:47,800 --> 00:29:50,520
Speaker 2: like my edges is nappy and gray coming out in

537
00:29:50,560 --> 00:29:51,880
Speaker 2: front of the bonnet.

538
00:29:52,120 --> 00:29:54,760
Speaker 1: And when I tell you, the niggas is on that picture, No,

539
00:29:54,880 --> 00:29:57,600
Speaker 1: nigga's definitely like an ugly bitch, okay. And I'm saying ugly,

540
00:29:57,640 --> 00:29:59,800
Speaker 1: Like how weed are feeling ugly? No?

541
00:30:00,640 --> 00:30:02,480
Speaker 2: How you don't like when you know when you look

542
00:30:02,560 --> 00:30:05,160
Speaker 2: not looking the best and niggas be on you like

543
00:30:05,280 --> 00:30:08,920
Speaker 2: target so much. Picture, Yeah, and I'm surprised, like that

544
00:30:09,040 --> 00:30:11,720
Speaker 2: surprised me because I'm like, damn, that is just me,

545
00:30:11,960 --> 00:30:18,240
Speaker 2: like literally, in my mind, the most basic looking version

546
00:30:18,280 --> 00:30:20,400
Speaker 2: of myself, and it's all kinds of fishures in me

547
00:30:20,440 --> 00:30:24,600
Speaker 2: and workout gear and like looking you know, the dresses

548
00:30:24,640 --> 00:30:26,360
Speaker 2: on there and the one with me just in a

549
00:30:26,440 --> 00:30:28,560
Speaker 2: bonnet is like getting all the love.

550
00:30:28,720 --> 00:30:30,080
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh shit, well.

551
00:30:29,920 --> 00:30:31,720
Speaker 2: Maybe it ain't that bad out here when you got

552
00:30:31,760 --> 00:30:33,920
Speaker 2: like a mama and that one probably you just look

553
00:30:34,000 --> 00:30:35,880
Speaker 2: like you ready to be a wife.

554
00:30:36,200 --> 00:30:38,960
Speaker 1: Wife. I feel like, why should not be walking around

555
00:30:38,960 --> 00:30:40,760
Speaker 1: all day with bond ands on? Okay?

556
00:30:41,000 --> 00:30:46,440
Speaker 2: Men like you gotta feel, yes, you gotta bitch. If

557
00:30:46,480 --> 00:30:48,120
Speaker 2: you don't make it a fantasy for your nigga, he

558
00:30:48,160 --> 00:30:50,640
Speaker 2: can go look for one so and make sure make

559
00:30:50,720 --> 00:30:53,640
Speaker 2: sure you remain a fantasy. Men should na see all

560
00:30:53,680 --> 00:30:55,680
Speaker 2: the things? Why this nigga this weekend? He was like,

561
00:30:56,640 --> 00:30:57,680
Speaker 2: he was like, I almost.

562
00:30:57,400 --> 00:30:59,400
Speaker 1: Saw your hair today, bitch.

563
00:30:59,440 --> 00:31:00,960
Speaker 2: When I tell you I took that bonnet off and

564
00:31:01,000 --> 00:31:04,320
Speaker 2: put my hat weg on so quick, I mean you

565
00:31:04,480 --> 00:31:06,240
Speaker 2: missed it. And I was like, you wouldn't have seen

566
00:31:06,240 --> 00:31:08,800
Speaker 2: it anyway because I got a stocking cap or talking.

567
00:31:09,520 --> 00:31:13,320
Speaker 1: You don't let them see your hair, not if it's

568
00:31:13,360 --> 00:31:15,200
Speaker 1: not first first of all. Like, right now, what I've

569
00:31:15,240 --> 00:31:16,760
Speaker 1: been doing is just slicking my shit back in the

570
00:31:16,800 --> 00:31:18,680
Speaker 1: point you tell it. I should not even like braided.

571
00:31:18,760 --> 00:31:22,280
Speaker 1: It's just like real rough right now. I am looking

572
00:31:22,280 --> 00:31:26,080
Speaker 1: for like somebody who specialized not your hairshit is cool,

573
00:31:26,080 --> 00:31:28,840
Speaker 1: but you do have to take care of your hair.

574
00:31:29,240 --> 00:31:31,200
Speaker 1: You do have to get treatments and stuff like that,

575
00:31:31,240 --> 00:31:33,840
Speaker 1: and I just haven't been. I haven't been taking care

576
00:31:33,880 --> 00:31:36,360
Speaker 1: of my hair. So I'm looking for somebody that I

577
00:31:36,400 --> 00:31:40,160
Speaker 1: can start a regimen with and take care of my

578
00:31:40,280 --> 00:31:42,440
Speaker 1: actual hair. But right now, it's no shape. It's just

579
00:31:43,120 --> 00:31:45,040
Speaker 1: bit you you know, you know what time it is,

580
00:31:47,120 --> 00:31:48,640
Speaker 1: so you sleep in your wing or you take it

581
00:31:48,680 --> 00:31:51,200
Speaker 1: off and just put on the hell no about it.

582
00:31:51,760 --> 00:31:54,760
Speaker 1: Oh no, that is miserable. No, I'm past that part, Lie.

583
00:31:54,920 --> 00:31:57,760
Speaker 1: Especially if we listen to list when I was like

584
00:31:58,480 --> 00:31:59,640
Speaker 1: just wags off.

585
00:31:59,560 --> 00:32:01,160
Speaker 2: We would have man for the first time. And I

586
00:32:01,200 --> 00:32:03,200
Speaker 2: have them I'm wearing a wig. I let them know,

587
00:32:03,320 --> 00:32:07,040
Speaker 2: like when I come out the bathroom, my wig is

588
00:32:07,080 --> 00:32:10,280
Speaker 2: gonna stay in there, and I'm gonna put on a

589
00:32:10,320 --> 00:32:15,040
Speaker 2: bonnet or I might not. I want you to treat

590
00:32:15,040 --> 00:32:18,120
Speaker 2: my bonnet like a crown. Okay, that's what it is.

591
00:32:19,320 --> 00:32:21,920
Speaker 2: And don't be alarmed by the hair hanging up in there.

592
00:32:22,040 --> 00:32:23,720
Speaker 2: It's the long you're gonna be on my fucking head

593
00:32:23,720 --> 00:32:27,000
Speaker 2: because I cannot sleep like that. Yeah, but I don't

594
00:32:27,040 --> 00:32:30,800
Speaker 2: want to have sex without my hair though, Yeah.

595
00:32:30,680 --> 00:32:32,960
Speaker 1: Bitch, because who ain't in there like a porn star

596
00:32:33,120 --> 00:32:35,320
Speaker 1: like flipping that shit. And don't pull it too hard,

597
00:32:35,320 --> 00:32:37,680
Speaker 1: but pull it. Yeah, we will barrow this pussy in

598
00:32:37,760 --> 00:32:39,680
Speaker 1: his hair, thank you.

599
00:32:39,720 --> 00:32:42,080
Speaker 2: But I remember my last boyfriend. He used to do

600
00:32:42,120 --> 00:32:43,840
Speaker 2: it on purpose. He used to piss me off, like

601
00:32:43,960 --> 00:32:47,120
Speaker 2: when we were having sex, like dogy style, he'd take

602
00:32:47,160 --> 00:32:51,800
Speaker 2: my wig off and put it on his head. Stop

603
00:32:52,520 --> 00:32:55,200
Speaker 2: gay back my fucking hair ruining it for me?

604
00:32:56,320 --> 00:32:57,960
Speaker 1: Let me find out you be wearing my shit when

605
00:32:57,960 --> 00:33:02,360
Speaker 1: I'm home. Look cute on you though, Stop, I remember

606
00:33:02,400 --> 00:33:04,640
Speaker 1: somebody's pulling my hair so hard, Like Okay, I'll glue

607
00:33:04,680 --> 00:33:07,000
Speaker 1: my wigs down sometimes and sometimes I don't, and I

608
00:33:07,040 --> 00:33:11,200
Speaker 1: have my shit blue down and nigga yanked me. Are

609
00:33:14,040 --> 00:33:14,720
Speaker 1: are you well?

610
00:33:14,960 --> 00:33:16,600
Speaker 2: I don't know, wags, you're a bitch at the house

611
00:33:16,600 --> 00:33:19,840
Speaker 2: where But why are you pulling my hair hard like that?

612
00:33:19,920 --> 00:33:22,560
Speaker 1: Like it's attached to my scalp? So like days where

613
00:33:22,600 --> 00:33:25,840
Speaker 1: I actually blew my shit down. Of course, I might

614
00:33:25,920 --> 00:33:28,040
Speaker 1: have to wear it to bed, like I wore my

615
00:33:28,080 --> 00:33:29,960
Speaker 1: hair to bed last night because I had shit to

616
00:33:29,960 --> 00:33:32,840
Speaker 1: do today. But on a regular day, no, I'm taking

617
00:33:32,840 --> 00:33:35,320
Speaker 1: that shit off. Have you ever remember I do having

618
00:33:35,320 --> 00:33:38,040
Speaker 1: a bonnet? Have you ever missed an opportunity because of

619
00:33:38,080 --> 00:33:43,720
Speaker 1: fear or delayed the goal or you know what? I

620
00:33:43,760 --> 00:33:46,680
Speaker 1: as an adult, I feel like I you know, I,

621
00:33:46,680 --> 00:33:50,040
Speaker 1: I definitely don't execute on all opportunities. And it's not

622
00:33:50,040 --> 00:33:53,400
Speaker 1: out of fear, though, it's out of fucking procrastination and laziness.

623
00:33:53,440 --> 00:33:56,680
Speaker 1: That's what I'm fighting more than fear every fucking day.

624
00:33:56,720 --> 00:33:58,760
Speaker 1: But I can remember as a child, and I recently

625
00:33:58,800 --> 00:34:02,000
Speaker 1: I was saying as how adults are really just dream killers.

626
00:34:02,440 --> 00:34:04,080
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. I remember like things I

627
00:34:04,080 --> 00:34:05,920
Speaker 1: wanted to do as a kid, and I was talked

628
00:34:05,960 --> 00:34:09,160
Speaker 1: out of doing it because of somebody else's fear. It

629
00:34:09,239 --> 00:34:12,160
Speaker 1: was never my fear, bitch. I've been a big personality.

630
00:34:12,640 --> 00:34:14,759
Speaker 1: So that's why if you don't have a parent to

631
00:34:14,920 --> 00:34:19,560
Speaker 1: cultivate that, you know, because of their fears not sharing

632
00:34:19,600 --> 00:34:23,440
Speaker 1: all your goals. Yeah, now you grow up, Yeah, that.

633
00:34:23,320 --> 00:34:25,960
Speaker 2: People will unlock a new fear for you that you

634
00:34:26,000 --> 00:34:30,480
Speaker 2: didn't even have just by you sharing your dreams with them. Right, Okay,

635
00:34:30,640 --> 00:34:31,480
Speaker 2: new fear a lot.

636
00:34:32,280 --> 00:34:34,600
Speaker 1: Right. I was talking to my homegirl today because she's

637
00:34:34,600 --> 00:34:37,680
Speaker 1: a whole fucking psychologist. Bitch. If you listening, sometimes I

638
00:34:37,760 --> 00:34:40,200
Speaker 1: have to be like, hey, because this bitch want map out.

639
00:34:40,200 --> 00:34:42,239
Speaker 1: She will map out her whole entire life. Like I'm

640
00:34:42,280 --> 00:34:45,600
Speaker 1: not like, I'm kind of like, go with the flow, bitch,

641
00:34:45,760 --> 00:34:48,479
Speaker 1: you figure it out. We got some time, She got

642
00:34:48,520 --> 00:34:51,480
Speaker 1: a whole I'm like, listen, I don't have all the

643
00:34:51,520 --> 00:34:54,359
Speaker 1: answers right now that you're asking me, like you're trying

644
00:34:54,400 --> 00:34:57,080
Speaker 1: to force me to map out the next nine fucking

645
00:34:57,120 --> 00:34:59,959
Speaker 1: ten months while I'm driving on the highway. I don't

646
00:35:00,080 --> 00:35:04,560
Speaker 1: got it. Don't ask me. Shit, I don't know what's

647
00:35:04,600 --> 00:35:07,160
Speaker 1: gonna happen, but it'll be figured out when it needs

648
00:35:07,200 --> 00:35:15,080
Speaker 1: to be. I have some procrastinations, my problem.

649
00:35:15,120 --> 00:35:16,799
Speaker 2: I have some fears that I'm gonna share that are

650
00:35:17,880 --> 00:35:21,600
Speaker 2: gonna go. It's a little deeper, y'all, but we family

651
00:35:21,680 --> 00:35:23,640
Speaker 2: all here, and I'm gonna tell y'all my truth. This

652
00:35:23,719 --> 00:35:26,560
Speaker 2: is what this space is for. I fear.

653
00:35:27,840 --> 00:35:30,520
Speaker 1: I'm afraid to be a mother, and I'm afraid not

654
00:35:30,600 --> 00:35:36,480
Speaker 1: to be a mother. Mm. Interesting, I'm not afraid to

655
00:35:36,600 --> 00:35:38,719
Speaker 1: like raise a child.

656
00:35:38,800 --> 00:35:42,160
Speaker 2: I'm afraid of trying to have a child, like actually

657
00:35:42,200 --> 00:35:45,279
Speaker 2: the physical part of just because of my experience with

658
00:35:45,320 --> 00:35:45,800
Speaker 2: it before.

659
00:35:46,320 --> 00:35:47,120
Speaker 1: That scares me.

660
00:35:47,880 --> 00:35:52,440
Speaker 2: Then I'm afraid of picking a bad partner. M That

661
00:35:52,600 --> 00:35:55,879
Speaker 2: scares the shit out of me. But then I'm also

662
00:35:56,040 --> 00:35:59,440
Speaker 2: scared that what if I I'm like, I'm getting older,

663
00:36:00,040 --> 00:36:02,920
Speaker 2: what if I never become a mom? So those are

664
00:36:03,040 --> 00:36:05,000
Speaker 2: real life fears for me. What if you get a

665
00:36:05,040 --> 00:36:08,760
Speaker 2: serial killer? I mean you just never fucking know what She's.

666
00:36:09,480 --> 00:36:13,920
Speaker 1: Yeah, you're just gonna have to go with with God.

667
00:36:15,239 --> 00:36:17,759
Speaker 2: Because I mean, like when we're thinking about the simple oldfairs,

668
00:36:17,840 --> 00:36:18,920
Speaker 2: like shit could get worse.

669
00:36:19,040 --> 00:36:21,399
Speaker 1: That's why, Like it'd be like the little things that

670
00:36:21,440 --> 00:36:25,600
Speaker 1: harass me. It's not ever like the big things. I

671
00:36:25,640 --> 00:36:28,400
Speaker 1: don't think. Okay, I've been past the fear of not

672
00:36:28,600 --> 00:36:33,000
Speaker 1: having children because I've had two tuber pregnancies years ago. Right,

673
00:36:33,719 --> 00:36:37,520
Speaker 1: I'm forty one now, and it's like that's just the reality.

674
00:36:37,800 --> 00:36:40,520
Speaker 1: I'm gonna get this bag though. I got two nieces

675
00:36:40,760 --> 00:36:43,600
Speaker 1: and a nephew, and I want to see them very,

676
00:36:43,719 --> 00:36:47,000
Speaker 1: very happy. Right, So if that's the way I gotta go.

677
00:36:47,040 --> 00:36:48,920
Speaker 1: I gotta go that route. I don't think it's Also,

678
00:36:49,200 --> 00:36:52,279
Speaker 1: it's not selfish for like say Frans is either one

679
00:36:52,320 --> 00:36:53,440
Speaker 1: or like I don't want to kids, this's over with.

680
00:36:53,560 --> 00:36:56,640
Speaker 1: I don't even fuck it. It's not selfish. It's not selfish

681
00:36:56,680 --> 00:36:58,680
Speaker 1: to not want to be responsible for somebody else for

682
00:36:58,719 --> 00:37:02,120
Speaker 1: the rest of your life, like your fucking life changes.

683
00:37:02,800 --> 00:37:05,759
Speaker 1: And without having had a kid yet, like I'm a

684
00:37:05,800 --> 00:37:08,520
Speaker 1: mother at heart, I'm a mom, like, so it.

685
00:37:08,480 --> 00:37:11,759
Speaker 2: Doesn't scare me to actually have to have a kid.

686
00:37:11,920 --> 00:37:15,640
Speaker 2: And and but they don't stay little. You know, you're

687
00:37:15,680 --> 00:37:17,120
Speaker 2: gonna add with a teenager.

688
00:37:17,200 --> 00:37:19,840
Speaker 1: I've always wanted a seven year old though, so I

689
00:37:19,840 --> 00:37:24,719
Speaker 1: can stay. My mama said, like, that's all I want.

690
00:37:24,760 --> 00:37:28,080
Speaker 1: My little girl will be saying, Well, my mama said, it's.

691
00:37:27,920 --> 00:37:30,839
Speaker 2: Not the raising the kid that it's the physical part

692
00:37:30,880 --> 00:37:32,840
Speaker 2: of trying to push a kid into the world.

693
00:37:32,920 --> 00:37:33,600
Speaker 1: I can't wait.

694
00:37:33,880 --> 00:37:37,319
Speaker 2: That's security because I just my experience with it was

695
00:37:37,400 --> 00:37:38,799
Speaker 2: just not a healthy one, you know.

696
00:37:38,960 --> 00:37:41,000
Speaker 1: So yeah, I can't wait. And I'm gonna do it

697
00:37:41,000 --> 00:37:43,480
Speaker 1: in the house in the pool. You're a bad bitch,

698
00:37:44,280 --> 00:37:48,799
Speaker 1: epidual me right now. Give me all Martyn medicine and drugs,

699
00:37:49,719 --> 00:37:51,719
Speaker 1: and you know, because I've had a tuer pregnancy and

700
00:37:51,760 --> 00:37:55,279
Speaker 1: I've actually been cut before, like the doctors will now

701
00:37:55,400 --> 00:37:57,319
Speaker 1: be inclined to like try to make me do like

702
00:37:57,320 --> 00:37:58,960
Speaker 1: a C section if I were to have a kid,

703
00:37:59,040 --> 00:38:01,480
Speaker 1: like I want to push not having no sea section

704
00:38:01,600 --> 00:38:04,280
Speaker 1: unless than my fucking stepping out this coochie feet first

705
00:38:04,320 --> 00:38:06,640
Speaker 1: like I did my mama. Okay, then I'll do a

706
00:38:06,640 --> 00:38:08,680
Speaker 1: sea section if they like breached or something like that.

707
00:38:09,360 --> 00:38:12,440
Speaker 1: You're not about to do a sea section around your

708
00:38:12,480 --> 00:38:15,480
Speaker 1: schedule because you got vacation is to I don't know

709
00:38:15,560 --> 00:38:19,520
Speaker 1: Italy next month, and that's what they be doing, scheduling

710
00:38:19,520 --> 00:38:23,200
Speaker 1: your child's birth around in their life, right the other

711
00:38:23,200 --> 00:38:29,040
Speaker 1: way around. Yeah, what else? I fear picking the wrong partner.

712
00:38:29,480 --> 00:38:33,640
Speaker 2: I don't pick nobody, and then you just gotta pick

713
00:38:33,680 --> 00:38:35,080
Speaker 2: him in it. If it's not right, you just do

714
00:38:35,120 --> 00:38:35,480
Speaker 2: it again.

715
00:38:37,000 --> 00:38:39,840
Speaker 1: I just can't pick. I just struggle with picking.

716
00:38:40,440 --> 00:38:45,640
Speaker 2: So I'm always like dating people who are I'm always

717
00:38:45,760 --> 00:38:49,520
Speaker 2: entertaining people who I don't see future with. Like I'll

718
00:38:49,560 --> 00:38:51,640
Speaker 2: be like, oh, he's so young, this is fun. We'll

719
00:38:51,680 --> 00:38:54,080
Speaker 2: do that, but he's too young to be serious about

720
00:38:54,640 --> 00:38:56,800
Speaker 2: or he's cool, he's.

721
00:38:56,680 --> 00:38:58,920
Speaker 1: Not talking keep talking so you can hear you bullshit.

722
00:38:59,080 --> 00:38:59,560
Speaker 1: Keep talking.

723
00:38:59,600 --> 00:39:03,800
Speaker 2: I'm going I'm being honest right now, I'm being right. Yeah,

724
00:39:04,200 --> 00:39:07,239
Speaker 2: But I like my shit, you know my shit. My

725
00:39:07,320 --> 00:39:10,600
Speaker 2: fear is when it comes to relationships. I just I've

726
00:39:10,680 --> 00:39:14,319
Speaker 2: never been in a relationship where I wasn't forced. You

727
00:39:14,360 --> 00:39:19,200
Speaker 2: don't that, so I have to here with relationships. But

728
00:39:19,239 --> 00:39:22,960
Speaker 2: then I'm also afraid to get alone by myself. Yeah,

729
00:39:23,400 --> 00:39:26,440
Speaker 2: it's just so stupid, and it's so contradictory and so dumb.

730
00:39:27,160 --> 00:39:31,160
Speaker 1: I just fear of picking the wrong partner. So I mean,

731
00:39:31,360 --> 00:39:33,319
Speaker 1: I guess I'm past that because I did that shit

732
00:39:33,440 --> 00:39:36,239
Speaker 1: a lot. Why not at another you know what I'm saying.

733
00:39:36,280 --> 00:39:38,879
Speaker 1: That's really how I be feeling. Boy Like, I love

734
00:39:39,000 --> 00:39:42,319
Speaker 1: love like. I'm never afraid to do it again. I

735
00:39:42,360 --> 00:39:45,080
Speaker 1: am never I will love like I've never been hurt before,

736
00:39:45,719 --> 00:39:47,160
Speaker 1: and I'm gonna keep doing it. I don't give a

737
00:39:47,160 --> 00:39:49,200
Speaker 1: fuck if I'm one hundred bitch, if I'm unhappy in

738
00:39:49,200 --> 00:39:51,760
Speaker 1: this marriage, I'm getting a fuck up out of there. Recently,

739
00:39:51,800 --> 00:39:54,040
Speaker 1: one hundred year old man or ninety something year old

740
00:39:54,120 --> 00:39:58,320
Speaker 1: man divorced his He's ninety six or something. His wife

741
00:39:58,360 --> 00:40:00,719
Speaker 1: is like ninety two and he divorced her because he.

742
00:40:00,719 --> 00:40:04,880
Speaker 2: Found out that she cheated thirty or sixty years in

743
00:40:04,960 --> 00:40:06,240
Speaker 2: the fucking past.

744
00:40:07,360 --> 00:40:10,600
Speaker 1: That'll be me. I'm not happy here. I'm one hundred

745
00:40:10,640 --> 00:40:12,560
Speaker 1: cave or walk cootie dry.

746
00:40:12,640 --> 00:40:15,040
Speaker 2: I'm out of there. Yeah, I'm gonna start again, and

747
00:40:15,080 --> 00:40:16,640
Speaker 2: I think I can get me another nigga.

748
00:40:16,760 --> 00:40:20,080
Speaker 1: Like I've been past that fear of standing in situations.

749
00:40:20,400 --> 00:40:22,760
Speaker 1: I don't even get you fucking long. I'm so scared.

750
00:40:22,760 --> 00:40:24,360
Speaker 1: I don't even get in this situation.

751
00:40:24,600 --> 00:40:27,200
Speaker 2: Like if something about stay that, I won't even go

752
00:40:27,280 --> 00:40:29,759
Speaker 2: in that motherfucker try one.

753
00:40:30,040 --> 00:40:31,880
Speaker 1: Just just pick go on and see what happens.

754
00:40:32,600 --> 00:40:36,879
Speaker 2: I'm like, all right, So the movie guy, mm hm

755
00:40:36,920 --> 00:40:42,240
Speaker 2: sentia there, Okay, he yeah, there's potential there, so we'll see.

756
00:40:42,520 --> 00:40:44,680
Speaker 2: And I just watched that Boaz and Roof and y'all,

757
00:40:44,760 --> 00:40:47,800
Speaker 2: y'all need to watch that. I cried so hard watching

758
00:40:47,800 --> 00:40:49,239
Speaker 2: that movie because I was like, yeah, I want to

759
00:40:49,280 --> 00:40:52,200
Speaker 2: be in I'm like that it was so beautiful and

760
00:40:52,200 --> 00:40:53,640
Speaker 2: that man, it's so fine.

761
00:40:54,080 --> 00:40:58,000
Speaker 1: And what's her name? I don't even know the movie.

762
00:40:58,040 --> 00:41:02,400
Speaker 1: You mentioned it to me today and I hadn't even It's.

763
00:41:02,120 --> 00:41:07,840
Speaker 2: Like soyah soriah her she's so beautiful and Tyre.

764
00:41:07,760 --> 00:41:11,480
Speaker 1: Lepley is just a god. He's in there and he

765
00:41:11,520 --> 00:41:12,680
Speaker 1: plays bowl ass.

766
00:41:14,480 --> 00:41:19,320
Speaker 2: And I'm like, oh, yes, yes, send me that guy,

767
00:41:20,000 --> 00:41:21,960
Speaker 2: And that would just make you want to pray and

768
00:41:22,760 --> 00:41:27,239
Speaker 2: just be very you know, sincere about what you want

769
00:41:27,280 --> 00:41:29,040
Speaker 2: from a partner and who you want to be as

770
00:41:29,080 --> 00:41:31,520
Speaker 2: a partner. You know who you want to show up as,

771
00:41:31,920 --> 00:41:33,200
Speaker 2: so you know that.

772
00:41:33,400 --> 00:41:35,160
Speaker 1: You got to be what you want. Right. So we

773
00:41:35,320 --> 00:41:38,200
Speaker 1: be having all these demands as women and you suck

774
00:41:38,280 --> 00:41:40,799
Speaker 1: run and run into somebody right that you wrote down.

775
00:41:40,800 --> 00:41:42,160
Speaker 1: If you want all these things out of them and

776
00:41:42,200 --> 00:41:45,000
Speaker 1: you're not ready as a woman for that type of man,

777
00:41:45,080 --> 00:41:49,359
Speaker 1: you gotta make sure you're ready for that type of man. Also, yep,

778
00:41:49,680 --> 00:41:52,880
Speaker 1: because that type of nigga comes like, ah, this bit stupid,

779
00:41:53,800 --> 00:41:58,319
Speaker 1: Like but don't know what you want, don't I don't

780
00:41:58,320 --> 00:42:01,200
Speaker 1: know what You gotta be sure you be decisive. You

781
00:42:01,200 --> 00:42:04,800
Speaker 1: know that part? Yeah, man. So that's something that's my fears.

782
00:42:04,880 --> 00:42:06,160
Speaker 1: That's like and.

783
00:42:07,960 --> 00:42:12,680
Speaker 2: Another one that I'm really gonna share with y'all. I'll

784
00:42:12,719 --> 00:42:18,200
Speaker 2: be scared of like getting sick or being really sick.

785
00:42:19,040 --> 00:42:21,440
Speaker 2: That's a fear, like I'm sure everybody's scared to get

786
00:42:21,480 --> 00:42:24,279
Speaker 2: sick and be really sick and be. I don't want

787
00:42:24,320 --> 00:42:27,239
Speaker 2: to be It's the word I'm looking for.

788
00:42:28,280 --> 00:42:31,320
Speaker 1: Burden. Yes, you took it right over my tongue. I

789
00:42:31,360 --> 00:42:34,680
Speaker 1: don't want to be a burden. Mm hmm. That's a

790
00:42:34,680 --> 00:42:38,320
Speaker 1: fear of mine. So I don't want to be alive

791
00:42:38,360 --> 00:42:40,600
Speaker 1: and sick. I'm not afraid to die, and I feel

792
00:42:40,640 --> 00:42:44,279
Speaker 1: like once you conquered the fair of death, you can

793
00:42:44,320 --> 00:42:47,560
Speaker 1: do anything on this planet. Okay, I'm more afraid of

794
00:42:47,600 --> 00:42:50,680
Speaker 1: prison than death. So it's my time to get the

795
00:42:50,680 --> 00:42:52,120
Speaker 1: fuck up out of here. I'm out of here. But

796
00:42:52,440 --> 00:42:54,920
Speaker 1: I do not want that's a fear of mine, to

797
00:42:55,000 --> 00:42:58,279
Speaker 1: be alive and sick, not to be sick, because I

798
00:42:58,280 --> 00:43:02,759
Speaker 1: feel like my body's gonna always fight me to have to, like, yes,

799
00:43:02,880 --> 00:43:05,640
Speaker 1: be a burden heard at somebody else, especially having children

800
00:43:05,840 --> 00:43:07,840
Speaker 1: and stuff like that, you know, like you know, just

801
00:43:08,040 --> 00:43:11,239
Speaker 1: I look at my parents. My my mama is in

802
00:43:11,280 --> 00:43:14,640
Speaker 1: pretty good health for her age, though she doesn't think

803
00:43:14,680 --> 00:43:20,279
Speaker 1: she is. She's in really good health. My stepdad not

804
00:43:20,440 --> 00:43:22,560
Speaker 1: so much, my daddy not so much, and my daddy

805
00:43:22,560 --> 00:43:26,680
Speaker 1: wife like shit, she's our age. Okay, I'm so grateful

806
00:43:26,719 --> 00:43:29,560
Speaker 1: that she exists because she could take care of him,

807
00:43:30,760 --> 00:43:36,120
Speaker 1: I wouldn't have to, but I think, uh, I wouldn't

808
00:43:36,160 --> 00:43:38,200
Speaker 1: want my kids to have to take care of me.

809
00:43:38,920 --> 00:43:41,080
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't want nobody. I don't want anybody to

810
00:43:41,120 --> 00:43:44,000
Speaker 2: slow anybody's life down because they taking care of me.

811
00:43:45,000 --> 00:43:49,520
Speaker 1: That's a fear, you know. Yeah, that's a real fear. Mm.

812
00:43:50,480 --> 00:43:54,959
Speaker 2: But nonetheless, I just be out here living like I'm fearless. Though,

813
00:43:56,040 --> 00:43:57,040
Speaker 2: But what else do you do?

814
00:43:57,280 --> 00:43:57,600
Speaker 1: You know?

815
00:43:58,239 --> 00:44:00,600
Speaker 2: But when it comes to that social media shit, y'all,

816
00:44:01,640 --> 00:44:05,120
Speaker 2: I just gotta lock it again because I know I

817
00:44:05,239 --> 00:44:08,080
Speaker 2: like both of us, we should both have at least

818
00:44:08,120 --> 00:44:09,640
Speaker 2: one hundred thousand followers by now.

819
00:44:11,560 --> 00:44:14,879
Speaker 1: We should. We just want the money though. I'm gonna

820
00:44:14,880 --> 00:44:17,440
Speaker 1: tell y'all, I'm gonna be honest with y'all. Be honest,

821
00:44:17,960 --> 00:44:24,040
Speaker 1: be honest, fucking honest. I want to have enough money

822
00:44:24,200 --> 00:44:29,200
Speaker 1: so motherfuckers can't see me. I don't want like that

823
00:44:29,360 --> 00:44:31,919
Speaker 1: is not like this, And I know that's where we're

824
00:44:31,960 --> 00:44:34,200
Speaker 1: headed at with like AI and you know, getting rid

825
00:44:34,280 --> 00:44:36,719
Speaker 1: of actual jobs, Like you're going to literally be a

826
00:44:36,800 --> 00:44:38,879
Speaker 1: job now, right, so you're gonna have to figure out

827
00:44:38,880 --> 00:44:42,120
Speaker 1: a way to sell yourself to make money. That is

828
00:44:42,160 --> 00:44:44,560
Speaker 1: where we are with the social media, and not the

829
00:44:44,600 --> 00:44:50,120
Speaker 1: way you used to do it, like right used to shit, bitch,

830
00:44:50,480 --> 00:44:53,200
Speaker 1: I just tell them a loved one girl.

831
00:44:53,320 --> 00:44:55,000
Speaker 2: Get each white of them niggas you fucking on to

832
00:44:55,000 --> 00:44:56,800
Speaker 2: give you a hundred dollars at least?

833
00:44:57,280 --> 00:45:00,200
Speaker 1: That ain't even no money. I challenge that, bitch. I

834
00:45:00,200 --> 00:45:05,240
Speaker 1: love you girl, I challenged her. I said, listen, dollars,

835
00:45:05,360 --> 00:45:08,080
Speaker 1: there ain't no fucking money. Remember one year they had

836
00:45:08,120 --> 00:45:11,080
Speaker 1: a winter cold challenge. They have bitches hitting up the

837
00:45:11,160 --> 00:45:13,479
Speaker 1: nigga ain't fucking asking for on winter. Niggas was really

838
00:45:13,480 --> 00:45:17,399
Speaker 1: curving bitches by the winter cold. And you are in

839
00:45:17,440 --> 00:45:20,880
Speaker 1: the winter. A lot of y'all bitches fear asking niggas

840
00:45:20,920 --> 00:45:23,160
Speaker 1: for money. And that's where y'all got me fucked up

841
00:45:23,160 --> 00:45:26,440
Speaker 1: at now. I'm not I don't really ask men for money,

842
00:45:26,440 --> 00:45:28,359
Speaker 1: But I'm not fucking with somebody I know wouldn't give

843
00:45:28,400 --> 00:45:32,080
Speaker 1: me money if I need it. Okay, that's a difference.

844
00:45:32,080 --> 00:45:33,960
Speaker 1: I'm not fucking with. I'm not fucking with somebody who

845
00:45:33,960 --> 00:45:36,400
Speaker 1: can't at least take care of themselves, and I'm not

846
00:45:36,440 --> 00:45:39,640
Speaker 1: fucking with somebody who doesn't have the means if I

847
00:45:39,719 --> 00:45:41,600
Speaker 1: happen to need something, because I don't have a fear

848
00:45:41,600 --> 00:45:44,160
Speaker 1: of asking. I just don't because I feel like you

849
00:45:44,200 --> 00:45:48,000
Speaker 1: should just do because yeah, but they're gonna ask us

850
00:45:48,040 --> 00:45:51,440
Speaker 1: for anything they want without fear, without record, so I

851
00:45:51,480 --> 00:45:54,960
Speaker 1: don't have. You're gonna put like a little weird laugh

852
00:45:55,040 --> 00:46:01,040
Speaker 1: behind its. Yeah, and I'm mouth and your ears and

853
00:46:01,080 --> 00:46:03,399
Speaker 1: your fucking knows if they wanted you want to ask

854
00:46:03,480 --> 00:46:08,360
Speaker 1: for it. So stop having fear of the energy your youth.

855
00:46:09,239 --> 00:46:13,879
Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, they were, so I don't have no fear

856
00:46:13,880 --> 00:46:16,520
Speaker 2: of asking, and I'll be real.

857
00:46:18,280 --> 00:46:23,799
Speaker 1: How you doing? Tell me just how to ask for money? Tim, Hey, baby,

858
00:46:24,400 --> 00:46:29,279
Speaker 1: how are your day? And that's good? That's good. M

859
00:46:29,560 --> 00:46:32,200
Speaker 1: Did you had fun last night? I had such a

860
00:46:32,200 --> 00:46:39,000
Speaker 1: good time. Yeah. I want to ask you something. Remember

861
00:46:39,080 --> 00:46:42,920
Speaker 1: I told you about that thing I needed. I really

862
00:46:43,000 --> 00:46:47,520
Speaker 1: really would appreciate it if you could help me with that. Now.

863
00:46:47,520 --> 00:46:50,120
Speaker 2: If you can't, it's fine, but if you could, it

864
00:46:50,120 --> 00:46:51,720
Speaker 2: would make me really really happy.

865
00:46:53,560 --> 00:46:58,680
Speaker 1: Okay, thank you, I really appreciate me. And listen, don't

866
00:46:58,760 --> 00:47:02,200
Speaker 1: text people asking them money. You call them. You verbally

867
00:47:02,239 --> 00:47:04,960
Speaker 1: call And as I don't like somebody texting me about money,

868
00:47:05,400 --> 00:47:07,720
Speaker 1: I need you to call me and ask me verbally

869
00:47:08,200 --> 00:47:10,520
Speaker 1: for my damn money. I'm not gonna ask you what for.

870
00:47:10,760 --> 00:47:12,480
Speaker 1: I have no extra questions. If I can do it,

871
00:47:12,480 --> 00:47:14,279
Speaker 1: I'm gonna do it. If I can, I can't. If

872
00:47:14,320 --> 00:47:17,080
Speaker 1: you need some money from that man, you gotta get

873
00:47:17,160 --> 00:47:20,040
Speaker 1: him at face to face, all over the phone, FaceTime

874
00:47:20,320 --> 00:47:22,400
Speaker 1: or something. He gonna have to tell you no to

875
00:47:22,440 --> 00:47:24,720
Speaker 1: your face, girl, and I will always gonna be hard.

876
00:47:24,960 --> 00:47:27,000
Speaker 1: I didn't really mention what I want before I ask

877
00:47:27,120 --> 00:47:34,160
Speaker 1: him for it too. Mm hm, Like what like, I

878
00:47:34,200 --> 00:47:35,880
Speaker 1: don't know, Like something you saw that you want to

879
00:47:35,920 --> 00:47:38,080
Speaker 1: want to buy? It's this class I want to take.

880
00:47:39,239 --> 00:47:41,719
Speaker 2: I like, yeah, it's this class, and I think it

881
00:47:41,719 --> 00:47:44,120
Speaker 2: would really help me with what I'm trying to do.

882
00:47:44,239 --> 00:47:48,400
Speaker 1: Blah blah blah. But it's five thousand dollars. Man, it

883
00:47:48,480 --> 00:47:52,440
Speaker 1: is crazy. Yeah, it's crazy. But if you do, if

884
00:47:52,440 --> 00:47:54,600
Speaker 1: you know ten niggas, you do that to each one

885
00:47:54,640 --> 00:47:57,960
Speaker 1: of them, you could at least you could fundraise amongst

886
00:47:57,960 --> 00:48:01,600
Speaker 1: your contacts in your cell phone, crowd sharing with your niggas.

887
00:48:03,200 --> 00:48:10,880
Speaker 1: It's fundraising. Go fund me, yeah, fund me. But I

888
00:48:10,960 --> 00:48:14,480
Speaker 1: ain't like people have the time for that many people

889
00:48:16,680 --> 00:48:18,600
Speaker 1: I'm talking, I feel like, I don't know why. I

890
00:48:18,640 --> 00:48:20,400
Speaker 1: just feel like most of the people who listen to

891
00:48:20,400 --> 00:48:23,360
Speaker 1: the podcast, are like younger, yeah, so, and I know

892
00:48:23,400 --> 00:48:26,920
Speaker 1: they are afraid to ask h men for money. It

893
00:48:27,000 --> 00:48:30,080
Speaker 1: was a time I might have been afraid, but then

894
00:48:30,160 --> 00:48:32,480
Speaker 1: you realize that, like Damn said, they don't give a

895
00:48:32,520 --> 00:48:34,480
Speaker 1: god damn, they are asking you for whatever it is

896
00:48:34,560 --> 00:48:40,120
Speaker 1: they want. Hold chest out and yeah, and then guess

897
00:48:40,120 --> 00:48:44,000
Speaker 1: what if he say no, you could just lock the list.

898
00:48:44,280 --> 00:48:45,960
Speaker 1: Now you got to deal with him. I definitely ask

899
00:48:46,080 --> 00:48:47,759
Speaker 1: niggas for money when I get want to get rid

900
00:48:47,760 --> 00:48:49,960
Speaker 1: of it. I won't leave a nigga. I won't leave

901
00:48:49,960 --> 00:48:50,720
Speaker 1: a nigga alone.

902
00:48:50,719 --> 00:48:53,000
Speaker 2: If he say no for a good reason, if he

903
00:48:53,080 --> 00:48:55,719
Speaker 2: has a good reason why he can't, well, if he

904
00:48:55,800 --> 00:49:01,520
Speaker 2: don't just don't want to, then you got.

905
00:49:00,880 --> 00:49:03,520
Speaker 1: I remember one time I asked this dude I used

906
00:49:03,520 --> 00:49:05,799
Speaker 1: to fuck with. I was in college at the time,

907
00:49:05,840 --> 00:49:09,080
Speaker 1: but you know Meastionnari and Vonder living in an apartment together,

908
00:49:09,520 --> 00:49:13,320
Speaker 1: and I asked him for the pet fee, if he

909
00:49:13,360 --> 00:49:16,480
Speaker 1: would pay my pet fee for my dog and he

910
00:49:16,560 --> 00:49:20,480
Speaker 1: told me no. He was like, dang, some shit, I

911
00:49:20,520 --> 00:49:24,280
Speaker 1: want to spend money on. No, this is very important

912
00:49:24,280 --> 00:49:27,560
Speaker 1: to me. It's my dog. I just stopped talking to him.

913
00:49:27,560 --> 00:49:30,919
Speaker 1: And this is somebody I haven't talking to for years, Like, no,

914
00:49:31,480 --> 00:49:33,680
Speaker 1: what do you mean? I'm confused And it ain't even

915
00:49:33,680 --> 00:49:36,800
Speaker 1: that much. Yes, I'm asking you for like three hundred

916
00:49:36,800 --> 00:49:37,480
Speaker 1: and fifty dollars.

917
00:49:38,800 --> 00:49:42,040
Speaker 2: Okay, hold out in college, that was a lot. This

918
00:49:42,239 --> 00:49:45,000
Speaker 2: was a grown man. This is not a college student.

919
00:49:45,120 --> 00:49:48,960
Speaker 2: Oh okay, this is somebody's father. Oh okay, daddy.

920
00:49:49,000 --> 00:49:52,640
Speaker 1: If you don't pay for this, yeah yeah, pay for this.

921
00:49:52,880 --> 00:49:55,359
Speaker 1: Like what do you I mean? Yeah, that's the quickest way.

922
00:49:55,840 --> 00:49:57,720
Speaker 1: And I mean if you don't like a guy anymore,

923
00:49:57,760 --> 00:49:59,279
Speaker 1: that is also, like I said, the quickest way to

924
00:49:59,280 --> 00:50:02,160
Speaker 1: get rid of him, ask him from some outlandish amount

925
00:50:02,160 --> 00:50:04,239
Speaker 1: of money like ten grand or something like that. Man,

926
00:50:04,280 --> 00:50:07,359
Speaker 1: that nigga ain't never calling you again. You're he might

927
00:50:07,400 --> 00:50:10,040
Speaker 1: call you in a year, lady, like like, hopefully you

928
00:50:10,120 --> 00:50:14,360
Speaker 1: forgot about Yeah you forgot that. I ask for it again,

929
00:50:14,560 --> 00:50:19,360
Speaker 1: stilling it. I still need that land and getting the

930
00:50:19,400 --> 00:50:22,600
Speaker 1: handlob like stitched up the heavy earrings weird. And that's

931
00:50:22,640 --> 00:50:24,719
Speaker 1: only like three hundred five hundred dollars. You could get

932
00:50:24,760 --> 00:50:27,280
Speaker 1: that done quick. I need the whole blue ear nigga

933
00:50:27,560 --> 00:50:32,040
Speaker 1: ten thousand, because I said no, I can't hear no

934
00:50:32,280 --> 00:50:35,239
Speaker 1: what Shay. I'm trying to think if I have any

935
00:50:35,280 --> 00:50:37,719
Speaker 1: other like super fear. I used to be afraid of

936
00:50:37,719 --> 00:50:39,279
Speaker 1: the dark. I used to be afraid to sleep on

937
00:50:39,320 --> 00:50:41,600
Speaker 1: my back. I have conquered all those things. Like I said,

938
00:50:42,120 --> 00:50:43,800
Speaker 1: I was afraid of the dark, and I was afraid

939
00:50:43,800 --> 00:50:45,440
Speaker 1: to sleep on my back because I was afraid of

940
00:50:45,520 --> 00:50:48,480
Speaker 1: death and laying on my back felt like a coffin.

941
00:50:49,080 --> 00:50:51,879
Speaker 1: But now I intentionally sleep on my back because it's

942
00:50:51,920 --> 00:50:54,120
Speaker 1: good for your health and it's good to make sure

943
00:50:54,120 --> 00:50:56,360
Speaker 1: your body is aligned as much as possible in the

944
00:50:56,480 --> 00:51:01,319
Speaker 1: soft ass fucking mattresses, on soft mattresses. I'd be too,

945
00:51:01,719 --> 00:51:05,759
Speaker 1: I'll be like I would prefer that, not yet though,

946
00:51:06,080 --> 00:51:06,640
Speaker 1: Like that's how.

947
00:51:06,560 --> 00:51:09,640
Speaker 2: I want it at ninety eight, not not in nineteen

948
00:51:09,760 --> 00:51:12,400
Speaker 2: ninety eight, you know, at ninety.

949
00:51:12,160 --> 00:51:17,480
Speaker 1: Eight, so on nine to twenty eight exactly, see you.

950
00:51:17,480 --> 00:51:19,399
Speaker 2: No, I don't want that. I just want I don't

951
00:51:19,400 --> 00:51:21,879
Speaker 2: want to die in my sleep yet. That's a fear

952
00:51:21,960 --> 00:51:22,840
Speaker 2: that's been a fear.

953
00:51:22,680 --> 00:51:28,640
Speaker 1: Of mine, dying young. Like you know, I don't yeah

954
00:51:28,680 --> 00:51:31,680
Speaker 1: all of that. Yeah, I'm still trying to figure out

955
00:51:31,760 --> 00:51:34,719
Speaker 1: what happened with my homegirl. And it's just like her

956
00:51:34,760 --> 00:51:37,400
Speaker 1: mom just says she was. She came home and she

957
00:51:37,480 --> 00:51:42,160
Speaker 1: was in the recliner. And you know, one thing that

958
00:51:42,280 --> 00:51:44,880
Speaker 1: makes me so sad about that is that she didn't

959
00:51:44,920 --> 00:51:46,880
Speaker 1: have like a peace of mind before leaving the planet.

960
00:51:46,880 --> 00:51:48,799
Speaker 1: Like she was struggling and she was trying to get

961
00:51:48,800 --> 00:51:51,080
Speaker 1: out of her mom's house. You know what I'm saying, Like,

962
00:51:51,320 --> 00:51:54,200
Speaker 1: depression can really set in when you end up back

963
00:51:54,200 --> 00:51:57,839
Speaker 1: in the place you're raised in, Okay, so you really

964
00:51:57,840 --> 00:51:59,920
Speaker 1: got to go in with a plan to get the

965
00:52:00,080 --> 00:52:03,080
Speaker 1: fuck up on out of there. And she just it

966
00:52:03,239 --> 00:52:05,560
Speaker 1: just you know, she was just piling up. It was

967
00:52:05,600 --> 00:52:07,920
Speaker 1: just piling up. I just knew. I almost feel like

968
00:52:07,960 --> 00:52:11,040
Speaker 1: she just let go, you know what I'm saying, Like,

969
00:52:11,120 --> 00:52:12,480
Speaker 1: I just feel like she just was like, let me

970
00:52:12,480 --> 00:52:14,480
Speaker 1: get the fuck up out of here. Yeah.

971
00:52:15,200 --> 00:52:19,000
Speaker 2: And it's but I mean I try. I'm like, at

972
00:52:19,000 --> 00:52:22,360
Speaker 2: this stage of my life, I'm trying to It's the

973
00:52:22,360 --> 00:52:25,960
Speaker 2: fear of the unknown, right because we know, we know

974
00:52:26,520 --> 00:52:30,279
Speaker 2: that we gotta die, all of us, right, But it's

975
00:52:30,320 --> 00:52:34,560
Speaker 2: just not knowing what's next. And so I just tried

976
00:52:34,600 --> 00:52:38,040
Speaker 2: to always visualize that what's next is better than what's now.

977
00:52:38,719 --> 00:52:42,399
Speaker 2: And it's hard because you just don't know. You all

978
00:52:42,440 --> 00:52:44,799
Speaker 2: these stories about heaven and hell and the places you

979
00:52:44,840 --> 00:52:49,239
Speaker 2: can go. And you know, I mean, nobody wants to

980
00:52:49,280 --> 00:52:50,360
Speaker 2: go and burn.

981
00:52:51,320 --> 00:52:53,360
Speaker 1: You remember when Tie passed, how you went to school

982
00:52:53,360 --> 00:52:57,680
Speaker 1: with us, went to Benedict, finally got murdered. Yes, So

983
00:52:57,719 --> 00:53:00,399
Speaker 1: the week before Ty passed, one week to the day

984
00:53:00,600 --> 00:53:03,160
Speaker 1: that he passed, he had posted a picture of him.

985
00:53:03,400 --> 00:53:05,279
Speaker 1: I forgot the guy who was in the picture with him,

986
00:53:05,440 --> 00:53:08,080
Speaker 1: somebody from Benedict too, but he posted a picture he

987
00:53:08,160 --> 00:53:12,200
Speaker 1: and it said live because we did a lot longer.

988
00:53:12,640 --> 00:53:15,960
Speaker 1: And I commented and I said, do we really know that?

989
00:53:16,280 --> 00:53:18,880
Speaker 1: And he commented back, was like I think we do.

990
00:53:19,640 --> 00:53:21,799
Speaker 1: One week later he was out of here and I

991
00:53:21,840 --> 00:53:23,600
Speaker 1: went back and I commented. I was like, you know,

992
00:53:24,040 --> 00:53:27,400
Speaker 1: rest in peace to whatever one of us now gets

993
00:53:27,400 --> 00:53:30,359
Speaker 1: to experience the unknown, because I don't think this is it.

994
00:53:30,840 --> 00:53:33,080
Speaker 1: And that's why like this, like this is not this

995
00:53:33,280 --> 00:53:35,399
Speaker 1: the way this world that we live in is set

996
00:53:35,440 --> 00:53:41,279
Speaker 1: up where children are abused, murdered, kidnapped. It's just a

997
00:53:41,320 --> 00:53:43,440
Speaker 1: hell realm. It's nothing good about this place, you know

998
00:53:43,480 --> 00:53:47,520
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, Like evil prevails around it Like no,

999
00:53:47,600 --> 00:53:50,960
Speaker 1: I don't know if not, Like I just it's listen,

1000
00:53:51,000 --> 00:53:53,360
Speaker 1: a new Earth is coming right, So things are starting

1001
00:53:53,360 --> 00:53:56,239
Speaker 1: to be unveiled. But it takes it takes a lot

1002
00:53:56,280 --> 00:53:59,400
Speaker 1: of people to be aware of the evil that actually exists,

1003
00:53:59,400 --> 00:54:02,400
Speaker 1: because people don't think that these things are actually happening

1004
00:54:02,400 --> 00:54:04,839
Speaker 1: in this world. No, I know they they don't think

1005
00:54:04,880 --> 00:54:08,360
Speaker 1: it's a three four hundred thousand black women missing in

1006
00:54:08,480 --> 00:54:13,080
Speaker 1: America annually, teenage girls like this ship is fucking happening.

1007
00:54:13,200 --> 00:54:16,400
Speaker 1: This is not a good place, so there has to

1008
00:54:16,440 --> 00:54:20,600
Speaker 1: be a better place than this. I ain't coming back.

1009
00:54:21,360 --> 00:54:23,920
Speaker 1: I just I'm lif fath number nine bitches over with

1010
00:54:24,040 --> 00:54:27,799
Speaker 1: for me. I just hope that there's coffee at the

1011
00:54:27,880 --> 00:54:32,439
Speaker 1: next place. You're a vampire. You love coffee. Vampires drink

1012
00:54:32,480 --> 00:54:34,360
Speaker 1: coffee so they don't eat drink blood. They don't have

1013
00:54:34,360 --> 00:54:37,640
Speaker 1: to urge to drink blood. Get you, some macha, bitch.

1014
00:54:38,760 --> 00:54:42,200
Speaker 1: Not you hope there's coffee. A different type of meat.

1015
00:54:42,719 --> 00:54:44,680
Speaker 1: You said, some proper ship, and then I was like,

1016
00:54:44,800 --> 00:54:48,640
Speaker 1: ohe they got coffee a chickenweed. You know you want

1017
00:54:48,680 --> 00:54:52,120
Speaker 1: a different meat. You want to what I want?

1018
00:54:52,239 --> 00:54:58,040
Speaker 2: Some shit tie down the same old meat.

1019
00:54:58,600 --> 00:55:00,919
Speaker 1: They just break some blue meat. That be great, though,

1020
00:55:01,080 --> 00:55:04,400
Speaker 1: like a new meat that takes meat you ever had before.

1021
00:55:05,280 --> 00:55:08,840
Speaker 1: I eat this veggie meat from the factory and Rowley

1022
00:55:09,480 --> 00:55:13,200
Speaker 1: chickpea burger. It is so good. Remember those little nuggets

1023
00:55:13,200 --> 00:55:17,279
Speaker 1: from Whole Foods. Somebody used to get those, order them? Yeah,

1024
00:55:17,320 --> 00:55:19,839
Speaker 1: I ordered those, that's veggie. I ordered those directly from

1025
00:55:19,840 --> 00:55:24,440
Speaker 1: the factory. Now, like that is a good protein. What

1026
00:55:24,480 --> 00:55:27,520
Speaker 1: the fuck was that you had to these little nicely

1027
00:55:27,600 --> 00:55:31,920
Speaker 1: seasoned cardboard done? Yet this she used to be busting

1028
00:55:33,440 --> 00:55:39,320
Speaker 1: your last busting her last laugh About fear, Ah, nothing

1029
00:55:39,400 --> 00:55:43,640
Speaker 1: fear is fear but fear itself. Nothing fierce fear but fears.

1030
00:55:43,680 --> 00:55:48,359
Speaker 1: He like, don't fear, listen, just do everything trembling and

1031
00:55:48,440 --> 00:55:51,240
Speaker 1: fear and and fear. Just still do it, though, push

1032
00:55:51,360 --> 00:55:54,239
Speaker 1: through because once you push through that fair the other

1033
00:55:54,360 --> 00:56:01,240
Speaker 1: side is so fucking miraculous, amazing eggs. So one another.

1034
00:56:01,360 --> 00:56:05,080
Speaker 1: Fair is public speaking? Right? And I have actually done

1035
00:56:05,120 --> 00:56:08,720
Speaker 1: a couple, yes, And isn't that weird? I have done

1036
00:56:10,000 --> 00:56:12,400
Speaker 1: not like not like public speaking while I'm just getting

1037
00:56:12,440 --> 00:56:15,600
Speaker 1: up there talking shit. I mean like in a professional setting,

1038
00:56:15,760 --> 00:56:19,840
Speaker 1: public speaking type thing, right where I have to really

1039
00:56:20,080 --> 00:56:25,719
Speaker 1: uh articulate for the niggas in the room, Like, I mean,

1040
00:56:25,800 --> 00:56:27,799
Speaker 1: one thing, you just gotta know what the fuck it

1041
00:56:27,880 --> 00:56:30,919
Speaker 1: is that you're talking about. You're talking about. Yeah, I've

1042
00:56:30,960 --> 00:56:37,080
Speaker 1: done toast masters several times, and I have not kicked

1043
00:56:37,080 --> 00:56:40,880
Speaker 1: the fear of public speaking. I haven't. I start sweating,

1044
00:56:40,880 --> 00:56:42,640
Speaker 1: Like once I get up there and start talking, I'm cool,

1045
00:56:43,400 --> 00:56:46,520
Speaker 1: but I'm gonna stutter. I'm gonna farnt. I'm gonna sweat

1046
00:56:46,800 --> 00:56:49,640
Speaker 1: far up there. Far. You really got to imagine to

1047
00:56:49,680 --> 00:56:52,600
Speaker 1: hope the mic ain't like these condense ther mics. Okay,

1048
00:56:52,600 --> 00:56:54,399
Speaker 1: I hope you don't pick up everything, because yes, I'm

1049
00:56:54,400 --> 00:56:57,520
Speaker 1: a farnt too, and I'm gonna be sweat. But do it,

1050
00:56:57,920 --> 00:56:59,480
Speaker 1: my still't do it? Yeah? Do it?

1051
00:56:59,560 --> 00:57:03,000
Speaker 2: Fear a disease, you guys, don't let it into your

1052
00:57:03,080 --> 00:57:07,239
Speaker 2: spirit the best you can. And if you encourages not

1053
00:57:07,520 --> 00:57:11,520
Speaker 2: being without fear, courage is doing it in that spite

1054
00:57:11,600 --> 00:57:12,040
Speaker 2: of fear.

1055
00:57:12,800 --> 00:57:17,520
Speaker 1: Exactly, be courageous in all things. I challenge you all, listening.

1056
00:57:17,280 --> 00:57:21,160
Speaker 2: To the sound of our voices, to pick one thing

1057
00:57:21,400 --> 00:57:24,480
Speaker 2: that brings you fear in your life right now, and

1058
00:57:24,520 --> 00:57:27,000
Speaker 2: I want you to attack that fear with all the

1059
00:57:27,000 --> 00:57:30,560
Speaker 2: ferocity you have in your body. Just one thing this

1060
00:57:30,600 --> 00:57:34,120
Speaker 2: week that makes you afraid, that makes you scared. I

1061
00:57:34,160 --> 00:57:37,520
Speaker 2: want you to attack that thing even.

1062
00:57:37,240 --> 00:57:41,200
Speaker 1: If it's that nigga, don't be putting his hands on you.

1063
00:57:41,400 --> 00:57:44,160
Speaker 1: Pull me over there. We could double team him together.

1064
00:57:44,720 --> 00:57:45,640
Speaker 1: Whoever it is.

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Speaker 2: Fear him, attack that thing, y'all, because there's somebody listening

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Speaker 2: getting the ass beat.

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Speaker 1: It's just inevitable. Oh yeah, that's at least abody. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: call me. I'll pistol whoop your nigga for you. I

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Speaker 1: promise you will, because on that one, I'm not fighting.

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Speaker 1: I'm patting like once I broke my foot.

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Speaker 2: The all the fight that I had in me left

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Speaker 2: that for three him your friend that will call the

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Speaker 2: police for you, I doubt fast shame.

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Speaker 2: now and neighverhold your fears, fuck fear, fucked them fears,

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Speaker 2: period deuces.

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