WEBVTT - ...And We're Back!

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<v Speaker 1>Welcome to Can't Flee Reckless, the production of iHeart Radio

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<v Speaker 1>and the Black Effects.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh shit, be back on the air.

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<v Speaker 1>Welcome back to yet another carefully reckless episode with your

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<v Speaker 1>girl Jess.

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<v Speaker 2>Hilarious.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna be fixing the mess. Hold on, let me

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<v Speaker 1>get this flm out my throat now, y'all took a vacation.

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<v Speaker 1>I know a lot of y'all saw the vacation, the

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<v Speaker 1>vacation that I went on. Yes, I had fun, and

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<v Speaker 1>I work very very very very very hard, y'all, and

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<v Speaker 1>I just wanted to enjoy the fruits of my labor

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<v Speaker 1>last week. And I could have done a podcast from Mexico,

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<v Speaker 1>but I just wanted to. It seemed like every time

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<v Speaker 1>I go on vacation, that's all I do is work,

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<v Speaker 1>because the industry that I'm in.

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<v Speaker 2>Is a little different. If you don't work, you don't

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<v Speaker 2>make no goddamn money.

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<v Speaker 1>So you know, I can't take off and then still

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<v Speaker 1>get paid for vacation leave, and shit, I work for myself,

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<v Speaker 1>so I could have very well done that, but I

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<v Speaker 1>knew that y'all would understand that even I have to

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<v Speaker 1>clock out sometimes and not be just hilarious, but.

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<v Speaker 2>Be more of Jessicamore.

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<v Speaker 1>Y'all and I had the best time, but now it's

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<v Speaker 1>time to get back to work because y'all been missing me.

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<v Speaker 1>So we're about to jump right in now. This is

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<v Speaker 1>someone who has an update. I'm gonna give y'all just

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<v Speaker 1>a quick backstory on what she's updating us on. All right,

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<v Speaker 1>So sometime last year, this lady had wrote this to me.

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<v Speaker 1>My best friend been married for eleven years with a

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<v Speaker 1>boyfriend of nine years who was married to his wife

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<v Speaker 1>of over fifteen years. I've been in this friendship and

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<v Speaker 1>Saint it all play out very peaceful, non toxic. Both

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<v Speaker 1>of the men.

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<v Speaker 2>Love that girl to death.

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<v Speaker 1>Her husband will kill her if he ever found out

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<v Speaker 1>about the boyfriend that treats her like gold. I'm scared

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<v Speaker 1>for her, and the one time I tell her about herself,

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<v Speaker 1>we end up falling out and the wife gets a

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<v Speaker 1>message about them. And I would have never done that,

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<v Speaker 1>but she thought it was me that told her just

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<v Speaker 1>because we fell out. Furthermore, I am married ten years,

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<v Speaker 1>but her shit got me on my husband case all

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<v Speaker 1>the time. Anyway, should I try to fix us or

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<v Speaker 1>say fuck us? For her to think that I told

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<v Speaker 1>that woman that I got a pick of them, and

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<v Speaker 1>I would want to tell her business like that.

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<v Speaker 2>All right.

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<v Speaker 1>So I don't know if y'all remember that, but I

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<v Speaker 1>gave her some really, really really keen advice. Yeah, you

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<v Speaker 1>might want to let that relationship go until she finished

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<v Speaker 1>doing what she doing, because you don't want that to

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<v Speaker 1>spell over into your marriage. And you already admitted that

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<v Speaker 1>it has been doing that. I know our husband was

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<v Speaker 1>probably like the fuck, what the fuck?

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<v Speaker 2>I knew, you know what I mean?

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<v Speaker 1>So and then also, I hope you didn't share that

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<v Speaker 1>with your husband because your husband probably would be looking

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<v Speaker 1>at you like, well, why are you still friends with

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<v Speaker 1>this bitch? I mean, uh uh Wayne condoning that shit,

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<v Speaker 1>you know what I mean? So I definitely get it.

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<v Speaker 1>I would definitely I would have fallen back from her

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<v Speaker 1>as a friend. You know, that was just her guilty conscience,

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<v Speaker 1>thinking that you automatically told the wife because she thought

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<v Speaker 1>that she was just moving that slick for nine years

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<v Speaker 1>and nobody was ever gonna find out about you messing

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<v Speaker 1>with this other married man and you're a married woman

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<v Speaker 1>as well. So this is what she has to say, guys.

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<v Speaker 1>She's she came back and said, update on the love

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<v Speaker 1>triangle and lost friendship.

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<v Speaker 3>Here it is, Hey, Jess, I just want to give

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<v Speaker 3>you an update on the love triangle advice that you

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<v Speaker 3>gave me about my friend of twenty years and all

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<v Speaker 3>that good stuff and all her relationships. I didn't give

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<v Speaker 3>you as much context. No, the husband of course didn't know.

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<v Speaker 3>The boyfriend didn't know. As a matter of fact, he

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<v Speaker 3>don't been in the husband face that I've been in

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<v Speaker 3>my face. It's like a big old, r weird family

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<v Speaker 3>m craziest shit I ever seen. But just to update

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<v Speaker 3>on that situation, me and her have not we have

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<v Speaker 3>spoke about that situation, but I decided to move out

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<v Speaker 3>her way. I can't be in a person life where

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<v Speaker 3>there's standard there there are more rules. Is that fucked up?

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<v Speaker 3>And and and don't have a conscience of what you're doing.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, everybody don't. Ain't nobody perfect and everybody make mistakes,

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<v Speaker 3>he all. I I have made some myself, But you know,

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<v Speaker 3>I just can't live in no wrongdoing for years like

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<v Speaker 3>that to anybody. So it's like, I, she's just not

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<v Speaker 3>my type of person anymore to deal with so far

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<v Speaker 3>as a friendship is done, and I just love her

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<v Speaker 3>from a distance as far as the affairs. She stayed

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<v Speaker 3>in as long as she could, up until I was

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<v Speaker 3>held at gunpoint behind her saying she's with me, and

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<v Speaker 3>she was with me, she was with the do and

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<v Speaker 3>I'm at my house with a gun at me because

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<v Speaker 3>of her husband knowing she played some kind of games

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<v Speaker 3>and it was a mess, and I knew it was

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<v Speaker 3>going to end up and something deadly or something really

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<v Speaker 3>really horrific that will end up happening, and me just

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<v Speaker 3>trying to tell her to stop is the one that

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<v Speaker 3>had a gun point at me. But long story short,

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<v Speaker 3>she sat in her cake into the motherfucking cake, smushed

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<v Speaker 3>in her own face because it's over. For that situation.

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<v Speaker 3>The wife knows, everybody knows. She ended up being exposed

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<v Speaker 3>in a terrible way and got super duper messy. But

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<v Speaker 3>all I can do is just pray for But I

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<v Speaker 3>just wanted to give you the heads up again for

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<v Speaker 3>that's what it was. She was in a relationship with

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<v Speaker 3>this merried man for going on ten years and she

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<v Speaker 3>was married for that long, and it was just a

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<v Speaker 3>very disturbing situation that I just knew it was going

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<v Speaker 3>to hit her in the face. Didn't want it to

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<v Speaker 3>be as bad as it did. I don't want to

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<v Speaker 3>put too much context out there, but just know she

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<v Speaker 3>ain't got no fingers on the right hand. So yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>why they love shit is real and if anybody hear it,

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<v Speaker 3>just don't play with it because mos folks don't know

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<v Speaker 3>when they snap, they snap, they don't. Don't play with

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<v Speaker 3>nobody's heart, and certainly don't be in a marriage for

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<v Speaker 3>that long if you wanted to play with it. And

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<v Speaker 3>she didn't even get the fingers, didn't even get snapped

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<v Speaker 3>by the husband. The fingers got snapped by the boyfriend.

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<v Speaker 1>So yeah, God damn Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, heal us.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh oh my god, that's crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, So that that was a pretty detailed update.

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<v Speaker 2>So back to my listeners. Man, like she said, you

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<v Speaker 2>can't play with love.

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<v Speaker 1>And you know how people just automatically always think, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>women go crazy behind love, you know, and we do

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<v Speaker 1>some crazy things. No, man, people put their heart. That's

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<v Speaker 1>people periods. Some men that will really kill for their wives,

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<v Speaker 1>is women that will kill for their husbands, and then

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<v Speaker 1>it's people that will kill for their own heart. I

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<v Speaker 1>put my heart on the line for you. I gave

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<v Speaker 1>you my everything, and some people just can't take it.

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<v Speaker 1>They can't take betrayal of you know, they can't take heartbreak,

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<v Speaker 1>they can't take a partner cheating on them. When you

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<v Speaker 1>put your trust, your everything into someone and you feel

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<v Speaker 1>like it's reciprocated and that person.

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<v Speaker 2>Would never do you wrong, and then they do, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>some people snap.

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<v Speaker 1>Some people snap, and like she said, she was held

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<v Speaker 1>at gunpoint because her friend was lying on her. You

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<v Speaker 1>have to be careful these days, all days, but be careful.

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<v Speaker 1>There's a lot of bold people out there and a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of people who just don't give a fuck. And

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<v Speaker 1>they feel like once they lost the love of their life,

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<v Speaker 1>they don't have anything else. They don't have anything to

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<v Speaker 1>live for, especially when you put your everything in one person,

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<v Speaker 1>because that's what you have to do for somebody to

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<v Speaker 1>destroy you, you have to give them everything to destroy you.

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<v Speaker 1>And I'm pretty sure that husband and boyfriend boyfriend both

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<v Speaker 1>felt destroyed by her, like the girl who wrote me,

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<v Speaker 1>Like she said in the first story, them men both

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<v Speaker 1>loved her, both treated her like gold.

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<v Speaker 2>And her husband she really meant what she said.

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<v Speaker 1>Her husband will kill her if he found out, and

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<v Speaker 1>she knows that first hand. Because he was ready to

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<v Speaker 1>kill her, kill the friend because the wife then gave

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<v Speaker 1>him a fucking alibi and he pulled up on a friend.

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<v Speaker 2>All right, shame with you. I got you at gunpoint. Now.

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<v Speaker 2>You know what I'm saying. It's crazy as wrong as

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<v Speaker 2>it is.

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<v Speaker 1>That's all the wife's fault. You know what I'm saying. Like, damn, y'all,

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<v Speaker 1>that's the wife's fault. Love can make you crazy, man.

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<v Speaker 1>It doesn't have to be that hard.

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<v Speaker 2>It doesn't.

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<v Speaker 1>All you how to do is say, look, I'm not happy, communicate.

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<v Speaker 1>Let somebody know. When people are in love, they are

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<v Speaker 1>in love. You gotta let somebody know if you ain't

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<v Speaker 1>feeling the same. You always want to be on the

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<v Speaker 1>same page in a marriage, Yes, in a relationship, but

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<v Speaker 1>in a marriage, be on the same page. That's a covenant.

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<v Speaker 1>That's a contract that y'all signed. That's a lot.

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<v Speaker 2>You know what I'm saying. Y'all are binded legally.

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<v Speaker 1>You can't just walk away from a marriage like you

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<v Speaker 1>can walk away from a boyfriend, a relationship, a friendship.

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<v Speaker 1>You understand what I'm saying. So y'all just be careful

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<v Speaker 1>out there. That was That was a sad update. But

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<v Speaker 1>I hope that this actually teaches her friend or her

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<v Speaker 1>ex friend, you don't play with love next time. You

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<v Speaker 1>could lose your life. Good thing that you lost one hand.

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<v Speaker 1>You're walking around all nubby now, but you know what

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<v Speaker 1>I'm saying, You could have lost your fucking life.

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<v Speaker 2>Hold up, hold up.

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<v Speaker 1>I know this shit getting good, but listen to just

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<v Speaker 1>a couple seconds of a commercial. If you love me,

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<v Speaker 1>you'll listen. Cay moving on to the next story. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>this is not a voice, No, this is written. It

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<v Speaker 1>says Jess. This isn't really mess, but more of a

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<v Speaker 1>young and just asking for advice from somebody who's been

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<v Speaker 1>through it. So I'm twenty three and I'm planning a

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<v Speaker 1>big move. I just got out of a long abusive

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<v Speaker 1>relationship that lasted four years, and prior to that, I

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<v Speaker 1>had been in three other relationships that lasted a year

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<v Speaker 1>and a half, three years, and two years. So if

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<v Speaker 1>that tells you anything, it should tell you I'm not

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<v Speaker 1>the best at being alone. So that brings me to

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<v Speaker 1>my question, how do I go about being alone and

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<v Speaker 1>learning to love and accept myself. I plan on moving

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<v Speaker 1>out of state by myself in an attempt to jumpstart

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<v Speaker 1>my life and to stop being afraid of the world.

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<v Speaker 1>But yet again, I'm young and I've literally never done

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<v Speaker 1>anything alone. I've lived in the same city, same state,

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<v Speaker 1>my whole life. Thank you in advance, Jess.

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<v Speaker 2>I love you. I don't always like what you say,

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<v Speaker 2>but damn you do.

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<v Speaker 1>Keep it real, and to be honest, I sure do

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<v Speaker 1>be needing to hear it much respect. I've been a

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<v Speaker 1>fan since I was too young to be watching you.

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<v Speaker 1>By the way, yeah, girl, I've been and out of

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<v Speaker 1>relationships since I was thirteen. You ain't gotta tell me.

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<v Speaker 1>My mama already has. This is the reason I'm trying

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<v Speaker 1>to run away. Okay, okay, wow, I tell you what

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<v Speaker 1>you don't need to be doing running away. It's okay, okay.

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<v Speaker 1>I love how you keep saying my whole life. You

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<v Speaker 1>only have been here for twenty three years, girl, some

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<v Speaker 1>of my whole life. My whole life. Oh shit, you're

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<v Speaker 1>a guy. My bad, because I'm trying to see something

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<v Speaker 1>real quick.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't want to Oh no, okay, you're a girl.

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<v Speaker 2>You're a girl, okay, all right, all right, all right,

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<v Speaker 2>but you look like a tom girl. My bad, my bad,

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<v Speaker 2>all right, Yeah, you're.

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<v Speaker 1>Only twenty three. Boo, you don't need to be running

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<v Speaker 1>away looking for no damn love. That's not what you

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<v Speaker 1>need to do. You want me to give you advice

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<v Speaker 1>on how to be alone. You just have to learn

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<v Speaker 1>how to love yourself, you know, because if you're always

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<v Speaker 1>with somebody, you never get to know yourself. That's how

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<v Speaker 1>I know you don't know yourself. You know you're trying

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<v Speaker 1>to figure out right now how to be alone. And

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<v Speaker 1>you're only twenty three. You know what I'm saying. You're

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<v Speaker 1>just the lover. That's what it is. You know, you're

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<v Speaker 1>a hopeless romantic. If you don't know what that is.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, you give romance a try, no matter what

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<v Speaker 1>it is, who it is, what level you are in

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<v Speaker 1>your life, the status that you are, whatever, You're always

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<v Speaker 1>willing to give love a try, and you always see

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<v Speaker 1>the good in people. You got to give me more clarity, though,

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<v Speaker 1>Why are these relationships only lasting, you know, but so long?

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<v Speaker 1>And I honestly feel like the three year and the

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<v Speaker 1>two year was all right, and then you know you

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<v Speaker 1>got out of a four year. I mean, it ain't

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<v Speaker 1>like you had that. If you add all that up,

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<v Speaker 1>that's nine years. It ain't like you had nine relationships

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<v Speaker 1>in nine years. You had three in nine years. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>some people double your age been in thousands of relationships.

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<v Speaker 1>Some people younger than you have been in thousands of relationships.

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<v Speaker 1>They can't even count on their hands how many people,

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<v Speaker 1>how many partners they had, you know what I mean.

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<v Speaker 1>So I think that you're being a little bit too

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<v Speaker 1>hard on yourself, but you're also trying to grow up

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<v Speaker 1>too fast, and you got your whole life ahead of you.

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<v Speaker 2>What do you want to do? What are your dreams?

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<v Speaker 2>What are your goals?

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<v Speaker 3>Like?

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<v Speaker 2>Fuck love? Right now? Like what do you want to do?

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<v Speaker 1>Because the quicker you figure out what you want to do,

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<v Speaker 1>which is something that you don't want to rush, but

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<v Speaker 1>just put your focus there, you may fall into like

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<v Speaker 1>your career or which your lifelong goal may be, and

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<v Speaker 1>you may find your person in that journey, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>So you have to focus on what you're going to

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<v Speaker 1>do with the rest of your life other than love.

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<v Speaker 1>You know what I'm saying, Because that shit gonna come.

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<v Speaker 1>It's gonna come, just like you shouldn't chase being rich,

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<v Speaker 1>Never chase being rich, never chase love, you know what

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<v Speaker 1>I'm saying, Because all that shit just comes when you're

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<v Speaker 1>already doing everything right, you know, and what you're not

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<v Speaker 1>doing right right now is self love. You're not loving

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<v Speaker 1>on yourself. So that's just easy, babe. You just got

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<v Speaker 1>to figure out what you want to do in your life.

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<v Speaker 1>Talking about career wise, what are you good at, what's

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<v Speaker 1>gonna make you like? What's your passion?

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<v Speaker 2>You know?

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<v Speaker 1>And if everything comes back to love, then you should

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<v Speaker 1>be a goddamn therapist. You should do something that gears

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<v Speaker 1>to love. You could be a love doctor. You could

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<v Speaker 1>be like Hits. You could set people up, you know

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<v Speaker 1>what I'm saying, and you can do that. You can

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<v Speaker 1>be a relationship specialist.

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<v Speaker 2>You can do that.

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<v Speaker 1>You've been in three of them, one abusive. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know about the other two or how they ended, but

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<v Speaker 1>I think you'll be fine.

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<v Speaker 2>I think you'll be great.

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<v Speaker 1>Don't think too hard about it, baby girl, Hit me back,

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<v Speaker 1>update me love you. If you love me, you'll listen

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<v Speaker 1>to this commercial and then we'll be right back. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>And before we end this episode today, we got one

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<v Speaker 1>left one update.

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<v Speaker 2>This is actually one of my favorite stories. Man.

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<v Speaker 1>This girl was really stressed out about you know, she

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<v Speaker 1>had married somebody, and she married you. Know, she was

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<v Speaker 1>married to her wife for a while, and the wife

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<v Speaker 1>cheated on her, made a baby with a guy who

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<v Speaker 1>didn't want nothing to do with the baby, and then

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<v Speaker 1>so she wanted to run back to our wife because

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<v Speaker 1>she knew that this girl wouldn't let her be just

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<v Speaker 1>out there with a baby by herself and just see her,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, try to raise the baby on her own.

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<v Speaker 1>She loved the wife and the baby so much that

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<v Speaker 1>she has taken on the role of the parent of

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<v Speaker 1>the baby. You know, she's the baby's mom, and the

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<v Speaker 1>girl cheated on her again, you know, just well, you

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<v Speaker 1>know it. It was a very messy situation. She started

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<v Speaker 1>using using her just for the baby and shit like that,

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<v Speaker 1>you know what I'm saying. So it was definitely betrayal.

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<v Speaker 1>And this is the update that she left us. Yo.

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<v Speaker 4>Just I couldn't type nothing because I'm driving to work

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<v Speaker 4>this morning, but I wanted to say thank you dog.

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<v Speaker 4>Like this gonna sound kind of like out of box,

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<v Speaker 4>but like, I really been feeling like I couldn't go

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<v Speaker 4>to nobody with that shit for the longest time, and

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<v Speaker 4>I just been kind of feeling like I'm in my

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<v Speaker 4>own space with it, you know, and I've been holding

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<v Speaker 4>that shit in so like it felt really good to

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<v Speaker 4>get it out and to have you hear it and

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<v Speaker 4>like genuinely care, like I appreciate that, and I know

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<v Speaker 4>that you know, this podcast means a lot to a

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<v Speaker 4>lot of people. So I really just wanted to say

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<v Speaker 4>thank you for hearing me, man, like I'm gonna cry

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<v Speaker 4>dog for real and just making me feel like I'm

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<v Speaker 4>not I'm not alone all the time and this shit, man.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you damn it. Y'all know my ass is a

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<v Speaker 1>cry baby too. I'm sitting there, I started fucking and

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<v Speaker 1>this was a tear jerker before she even said she

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<v Speaker 1>was about to cry. I really do appreciate you, baby girl,

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<v Speaker 1>I really really do thank you for trusting me with

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<v Speaker 1>your story. You know what I'm saying, because this is

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<v Speaker 1>a platform where you have to be strong enough to

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<v Speaker 1>exposure you're you know, whatever you're going through, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>because other people are listening, and we let people intell

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<v Speaker 1>our lives into our lives, and you just never know

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<v Speaker 1>what somebody can do with your information. So I always

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<v Speaker 1>thank everybody for us for even trusting me to help

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<v Speaker 1>fix their mess.

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<v Speaker 2>I love you too, I really love you, like seriously.

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<v Speaker 1>I love everybody who I help, you know, even the

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<v Speaker 1>ones I can't help, I love them too, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>because that's what everybody needs, you know, just just fucking love,

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<v Speaker 1>love those big hugs.

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<v Speaker 2>Even the toughest people.

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<v Speaker 1>They need to just break down and cry and just scream,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, just go in your yard and scream and

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<v Speaker 1>then get it all out.

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<v Speaker 2>Everybody needs a release.

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<v Speaker 3>Man.

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<v Speaker 1>This world it could fuck you up if you let it.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, it's cruel. This world ain't like what it

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<v Speaker 1>used to be, you know. So I'm here. I'm always here, baby,

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<v Speaker 1>So even if you want to, if you got some

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<v Speaker 1>old mess, let me know. She also left us with

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<v Speaker 1>this piece of great news. She typed this part. We

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<v Speaker 1>just went today to officially fil for our divorce. The

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<v Speaker 1>process would only take a few weeks and I'll be

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<v Speaker 1>moving out of state for a month or so for work.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you, Jess for giving me support when I needed it.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm updating you like you my bestie or something. Look

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<v Speaker 1>at my foolish ass, girls, stay blessed. You ain't foolish

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<v Speaker 1>at all. No, you ain't foolish. You would be foolish

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<v Speaker 1>if you was still in that marriage. And I'm proud

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<v Speaker 1>of you, proud of you. I'll be loving how with

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<v Speaker 1>my motherfucking people.

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<v Speaker 5>Man.

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<v Speaker 1>I love it, I love it, and I love you,

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<v Speaker 1>and I love every listener. And make sure you tune

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<v Speaker 1>you can find me at And then my deepest Pam voice.

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<v Speaker 2>Peace.

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<v Speaker 5>Ta class Man.

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