Speaker 1: Hello, Hi, what's going on with you? Harper?
Speaker 2: Well, I'll preface this with I am naturally an an introvert.
Speaker 2: I have been living with a lot of roommates more recently.
Speaker 2: I guess I haven't technically lived on my own until
Speaker 2: very recently. But I have been living in my car
Speaker 2: for about a month or so now, and I actually
Speaker 2: really enjoy it. But I'm finding that I'm kind of
Speaker 2: lonely in the friends that I thought I had are
Speaker 2: not as friendly as I thought. I guess.
Speaker 1: This is interesting. Tell me what is it that inspired you?
Speaker 1: Are you? Is this a financial thing? Or are you
Speaker 1: living in your car by choice?
Speaker 2: A little bit of both. I think right now I
Speaker 2: could technically order to live an apartment, but it's really
Speaker 2: expensive here right now, and I wouldn't have any any
Speaker 2: room to save up for anything, or any time to
Speaker 2: pursue anything that would result in me being like paid more,
Speaker 2: if that make sense. And I don't want to get
Speaker 2: stuck in that like spending all my money on apartments
Speaker 2: until I die kind of thing.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, tell me what you are liking about it.
Speaker 2: I love the solitude, I guess partially, I really like
Speaker 2: the freedom. I just feel like I'm always in my car,
Speaker 2: and if I want to go anywhere, I can just
Speaker 2: get in my car and go. It's made me more
Speaker 2: active since I don't have an apartment to shower in.
Speaker 2: I got a gym membership and I've actually been going
Speaker 2: to the gym for the first time in my life,
Speaker 2: and I'm doing my laundering more regularly. I just went
Speaker 2: up into the mountains and took some photographs and edited them,
Speaker 2: just because.
Speaker 3: I wanted to.
Speaker 2: And it's always something I've kind of wanted to do
Speaker 2: but never felt like I had the time too. There's
Speaker 2: kind of stuff like that.
Speaker 1: You said that your friends who you said you thought
Speaker 1: were your friends have been not so much fondly to
Speaker 1: you latly tell me about that.
Speaker 3: There's just.
Speaker 2: Kind of people that I guess, I don't know I've
Speaker 2: had I've been in Like in high school, you have
Speaker 2: your friends who you see all the time at school,
Speaker 2: and you sometimes see outside of school and you guys
Speaker 2: catch up, and then after high school they just sort
Speaker 2: of fade away even though you were spending time outside
Speaker 2: of high school. Now that you don't have to see
Speaker 2: each other on a regular basis, they just kind of
Speaker 2: don't They aren't there anymore. And so it's like some
Speaker 2: of that from old high school friends that are slowly
Speaker 2: fading away, and friends I thought I made like at jobs.
Speaker 2: When I switched jobs, then they didn't really talk to
Speaker 2: me to hang out outside of work, you know. And
Speaker 2: sometimes I'll offer, I'll, you know, say hey, are you
Speaker 2: free tonight, and then they say yeah, and I say, okay,
Speaker 2: let me know when you get off of work or whatever,
Speaker 2: and then I just don't ever get a response back,
Speaker 2: and just they're not really putting any effort in to
Speaker 2: see me or talk to me or check up on
Speaker 2: me anymore.
Speaker 4: I think.
Speaker 1: I'm curious about something. You seem like you really like
Speaker 1: being alone.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 2: I like being alone because I am an introvert and
Speaker 2: my job right now is dealing with a lot of
Speaker 2: people in food service. But I still feel like I
Speaker 2: need some sort of connection friends, people to you know,
Speaker 2: talk to about my day, or like I cut my
Speaker 2: hand open at work and got seven stitches and I
Speaker 2: wanted to tell people and I didn't really have people
Speaker 2: to talk to.
Speaker 1: Throughout your life, have you usually had close friends or
Speaker 1: has it been like this kind of for a while.
Speaker 2: I feel like I've always had at least a couple
Speaker 2: of really close friends, like usually two or three people
Speaker 2: that I hang out at school. Outside of school, I'd
Speaker 2: tell them about all of the deep issues of my life.
Speaker 2: I've never had like a huge your friends, but I
Speaker 2: never really wanted that, just you know, some people that
Speaker 2: were close by.
Speaker 1: Do you see yourself living in your car for a
Speaker 1: long time or do you have plans of eventually getting
Speaker 1: a place anytime soon?
Speaker 2: It kind of depends on financials. I feel like, once
Speaker 2: I feel financially ready enough that I could get my
Speaker 2: own place, that I would, But I'm also kind of
Speaker 2: really liking the car and the life that I'm living.
Speaker 2: I guess besides, the people think.
Speaker 1: So you're experiencing, right, And you told me that before
Speaker 1: this you lived with roommates and that wasn't working out
Speaker 1: for you very well, yeah.
Speaker 2: Just kind of, you know, needed roommates. I was living
Speaker 2: with my parents, then they went to they left and
Speaker 2: went to Germany when I turned eighteen, and so after
Speaker 2: that I lived with my boyfriend and his family, and
Speaker 2: then we broke up, and then it was roommates. And
Speaker 2: then I actually lived with a friend for a couple
Speaker 2: of months who said, you know, I took some time
Speaker 2: off of work because I was really burnt out from it,
Speaker 2: and so that kind of fucked me. And after the
Speaker 2: police was up with the roommates, they all went their
Speaker 2: separate ways and I couldn't keep the apartment, so I
Speaker 2: was staying with a friend who was offering to help.
Speaker 2: And then that friend kind of kicked me out and
Speaker 2: I don't exactly know why, but she is also very introverted,
Speaker 2: so I think she might have just been overwhelmed by
Speaker 2: me being there in general. And then I was in
Speaker 2: my car.
Speaker 1: Are you generally happy with where your life is at
Speaker 1: right now?
Speaker 2: I I think I'm kind of accepting it, like I'm
Speaker 2: I'm not unhappy with it, but it's you know, I'm
Speaker 2: the kind of person that's like, it could always be worse,
Speaker 2: and it's never like sure, I'm not upset with it.
Speaker 2: I think it's really interesting and it'll build character and
Speaker 2: all of that, but you know, I have an image
Speaker 2: of where I'd like to be, and this is not
Speaker 2: really it.
Speaker 1: I like the you have a good perspective about it,
Speaker 1: like the I just I guess the idea that, like,
Speaker 1: you know, my situation is not my life forever and always.
Speaker 1: I mean, how old are.
Speaker 2: You twenty one?
Speaker 1: Okay? Cool? All right, So I mean your your perspective
Speaker 1: of it, that this is life right now, I'm actually
Speaker 1: kind of liking it. And you say it's building character.
Speaker 1: What kinds of character do you do? You think it's
Speaker 1: building for you?
Speaker 2: Well, part of it is things that I'm finding out
Speaker 2: that I can do that I never thought I could.
Speaker 2: Like I've always been kind of on the chunkier side
Speaker 2: as a person, but I was never in sports. I
Speaker 2: was never motivated to ever go out and work out.
Speaker 2: And I like back to school, but that was about it.
Speaker 2: And now I'm actually like going to the gym, you know,
Speaker 2: on a regular basis, which I never thought I would
Speaker 2: do because I didn't think I had like the motivation
Speaker 2: for it, and kind of just the resilience of like
Speaker 2: it's you know, it's Colorado in the winter. It's getting cold.
Speaker 2: But I'm figuring it out and I'm having a few
Speaker 2: shitty nights here and there, but I think it will
Speaker 2: help with just figuring shit out in the future when
Speaker 2: it goes south.
Speaker 3: Kind of thing.
Speaker 1: I like that. I like at Harper, you have a
Speaker 1: you have a good mindset about things. I want to
Speaker 1: hear you said that it's not how you want to
Speaker 1: live for now you've accepted it and the good and
Speaker 1: the bad as to where you are now, but that
Speaker 1: you have an image in your head of how you
Speaker 1: want life to be and this is not it. Tell
Speaker 1: me more about that image.
Speaker 2: Well, the first sentence I ever said as a kid
Speaker 2: was I do it myself, and so I've always been.
Speaker 2: I think that's very true to my character. I've always
Speaker 2: been a very like independent, very resilient person, and so
Speaker 2: I always kind of imagine myself, you know, financially comfortable
Speaker 2: with my own job, able to support myself by myself,
Speaker 2: don't need anybody else. And I find that I'm there,
Speaker 2: but in a much poorer situation that I thought I
Speaker 2: would be. I went to School of Mines for metallurgical
Speaker 2: Engineering for a while and had to drop out after COVID,
Speaker 2: and so for a long time I.
Speaker 3: Thought like I was going to be a welder.
Speaker 6: I was going to be an.
Speaker 2: Engineer, like some sort of top not top job cutting,
Speaker 2: but like something more sophisticated. And now I'm working in
Speaker 2: food service, which I don't hate. I actually really liked
Speaker 2: the job, but it obviously doesn't doesn't pay very well.
Speaker 1: Because I'm living in my car, so ideally, in this
Speaker 1: image of your ideal life, what are you doing?
Speaker 2: I think something. I love the idea of metals, which
Speaker 2: is why I was doing metallurgical engineering, but I also
Speaker 2: I really love being more hands on. I'm not so
Speaker 2: much a paperwork kind of person. I mean, I can
Speaker 2: do calculus like a motherfucker, I'll do that all day,
Speaker 2: but I want to be more like hands on and
Speaker 2: actually doing shit. So I thought of like welding and
Speaker 2: stuff like that in that area.
Speaker 1: Do you see like a practical path in front of
Speaker 1: you as to how you want to move however, fast
Speaker 1: or slow towards that? Do you see away there from
Speaker 1: where you are now?
Speaker 2: I think right now my two main options would be
Speaker 2: either going back to school minds, and I'm still paying
Speaker 2: off debt from that, so the idea of going back
Speaker 2: and then not being able to finish and being an
Speaker 2: even more debt just kind of worsen the problem that
Speaker 2: scares me.
Speaker 4: Well.
Speaker 2: The other option would be going to like a vocational
Speaker 2: school for welding, but I think that would have to
Speaker 2: be something where I was working a job making some
Speaker 2: sort of income as well as doing that, and I
Speaker 2: don't really see how I can do that, at least
Speaker 2: in the position that I'm in right now. I don't
Speaker 2: think I have the time or the schedule for it.
Speaker 2: You know, I'm working every single day this week, and
Speaker 2: I love the job, but it doesn't leave room for
Speaker 2: schooling on the side.
Speaker 1: Do you see a way? I mean, it sounds like
Speaker 1: there are you kind of know what you want to
Speaker 1: do and how to get there, but they're like just
Speaker 1: these these tough financial barriers. I mean, school is fucking expensive,
Speaker 1: and lots of people are just getting railed by debt.
Speaker 1: Do you yeah, either with the job you have right
Speaker 1: now or with what you know of is potentially available
Speaker 1: to you in terms of other jobs, do you see
Speaker 1: a path forward for yourself to be able to overcome
Speaker 1: that financial obstacle. Yeah.
Speaker 5: I think.
Speaker 2: Another reason I chose to live in my car instead
Speaker 2: of in an apartment is so that I can.
Speaker 3: Save up money.
Speaker 2: And I think if I can save enough where I
Speaker 2: can feel comfortable doing you know, something part time on
Speaker 2: the side and school, that's kind of the goal of
Speaker 2: where I'm working towards just saving up enough.
Speaker 1: You know, I I admire you, Harper, because you have
Speaker 1: this vision towards the future that is not free from obstacles.
Speaker 1: But what I what I admire is that you are
Speaker 1: have this ability to look at where your life is
Speaker 1: right now, because we're all on some journey to something,
Speaker 1: you know, and you really could think of it as
Speaker 1: you really could waste your whole life waiting to be
Speaker 1: happy until you've achieved the destination of that journey, and
Speaker 1: you really will waste your life doing that. But you
Speaker 1: seem like you have this ability to like kind of
Speaker 1: snuff out whatever is going well, whatever you do, appreciate
Speaker 1: about whatever prong on your journey you're on, and to
Speaker 1: be able to be happy today about that. And I
Speaker 1: really do admire that. I think it's a beautiful thing. Yeah.
Speaker 2: I think that comes from I've been diagnosed with major
Speaker 2: depression and anxiety and went through the worst times of
Speaker 2: my life in high school and was put on medication
Speaker 2: from my depression and all that, and that helped immensely.
Speaker 2: But I think going through the really fucked up down
Speaker 2: mindset that I was in at that time taught me
Speaker 2: a lot more to kind of appreciate what I do
Speaker 2: have and when I am feeling good.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I feel like once you've kind of gone on.
Speaker 1: Once you've ridden the roller coaster a little bit, you
Speaker 1: get a better idea of those ups and downs and
Speaker 1: how to look at it from kind of a more
Speaker 1: macro perspective. Yeah, thanks for sharing all of this, Harper.
Speaker 1: How did this feel? I'm kind of curious. I have
Speaker 1: been asking this to people lately, But how did this
Speaker 1: all feel to talk about?
Speaker 2: I think it's good. It's kind of what I needed
Speaker 2: because obviously, living in your car is not something that
Speaker 2: you talk to everybody about, so I haven't really, yeah,
Speaker 2: talked about it much.
Speaker 1: I guess that was the one. I guess that was
Speaker 1: the final piece of the puzzle to this is kind
Speaker 1: of because you wrote it down and you told the
Speaker 1: screener about this is the the like stigmatization that you
Speaker 1: feel about living in your car.
Speaker 2: Yeah, Like homelessness in general has gone up, and especially
Speaker 2: in Colorado. You see it in a lot of places.
Speaker 2: I live kind of closer to like the big city Denver,
Speaker 2: and it's really pretty bad, but there's still no talk
Speaker 2: about it. You don't hear anybody talking about it. And
Speaker 2: a lot of times, because you know, I've seen that
Speaker 2: that homelessness around, but never like been in it. You know,
Speaker 2: you hear about how other people talk about it, and
Speaker 2: it's you know, pitiful, it's disgraceful, it's whatever. And I
Speaker 2: don't think it.
Speaker 6: I don't.
Speaker 2: I think people go through hard shit, but I don't
Speaker 2: think it should be a judge of their character. But
Speaker 2: it is nowadays, it really is.
Speaker 1: Yeah. I guess I'm you know, I'm hoping that, like
Speaker 1: you know, and having conversations like this, that people can
Speaker 1: kind of see a bit more of a three dimensional
Speaker 1: view of a person in a situation like that.
Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah, I've always been kind of an advocate for
Speaker 2: homelessness in general, like poverty. I think I've I've always
Speaker 2: wanted to open people's minds up to it, and I
Speaker 2: never liked the idea that a person's situation is who
Speaker 2: they are.
Speaker 6: Kind I think.
Speaker 1: Harper's anything else you want to say to the people
Speaker 1: of the computer before we go.
Speaker 2: I guess just in general that wherever you're at doesn't
Speaker 2: mean that that's where you're going to be, And don't
Speaker 2: be shitty to homeless people.
Speaker 1: Thank you for calling Harper, Thank you. That was great.
Speaker 1: I liked her a lot. Yeah, I kind of said
Speaker 1: everything that I wanted to say that I admire about her.
Speaker 1: She just seemed I mean, she obviously had a lot
Speaker 1: of problems that she was struggling with, but it didn't
Speaker 1: like she just had this like uncanny ability to like
Speaker 1: look on the bright side of things, you know, like, oh,
Speaker 1: this is the the needing to shower at a at
Speaker 1: a gym has made me more active and I'm getting
Speaker 1: a greater sense of freedom and I'm getting the solitude
Speaker 1: that I've I've been wanting after being with the roommate
Speaker 1: for so long, And she did I don't know. She
Speaker 1: also just seemed like like she had goals for the
Speaker 1: future that she's not in some crazy rush to get
Speaker 1: to in a sense that in a way that would
Speaker 1: make her miserable, but that she is on a conscious
Speaker 1: path towards And yeah, I just I like, I liked
Speaker 1: a lot of things about the way that she was
Speaker 1: thinking and talking about her situation. And I know that
Speaker 1: fucking debt and the education system. I don't want to
Speaker 1: talk about ship that I have no fucking idea about
Speaker 1: because I'm a get go on the internet, but fucks
Speaker 1: get it gets people fucked over, for sure. I talked
Speaker 1: to a lot of people personal and on the phone
Speaker 1: calls here that get fucked with debt. But but all
Speaker 1: of thatwithstanding, I would not be surprised if Harper, you know,
Speaker 1: many years however, many years from now, it is significantly
Speaker 1: closer to that that ideal image that she was talking about,
Speaker 1: and I hope, I hope she gets there. Hello, Hello, Hi,
Speaker 1: how are you?
Speaker 6: I am, I'm doing good.
Speaker 1: How can I help you?
Speaker 6: My name is Logan. Oh well, I uh, it's it's
Speaker 6: kind of like, Okay, it's gonna sound funny, but I'm addicted.
Speaker 6: I'm addicted to like curtains, Like I don't know, I'm
Speaker 6: just I'm attracted to curtains.
Speaker 1: Okay, you're attracted to curtains in what way?
Speaker 6: Like I don't know what like way. It's just kind
Speaker 6: of like, you know, like how your average person is
Speaker 6: attracted to, you know, like another person, or like how
Speaker 6: Jeffrey Dahmer was attracted to whatever he was attracted to.
Speaker 1: You know, it's just like logan, Logan, logan, Yes, what
Speaker 1: he's doing.
Speaker 6: M'm I'm I'm coming to get go for therapy. I'm
Speaker 6: like a whole kink thing.
Speaker 1: All right, Okay, you really are attracted to curtains? Yeah, okay,
Speaker 1: what do you how do you express your attraction to curtains.
Speaker 6: Uh, well I did well. Instead of using a blanket,
Speaker 6: I use a curtain as a blanket. I don't really
Speaker 6: do anything sexual fuel with the curtains. That's be weird.
Speaker 6: But but yeah, I don't know.
Speaker 1: How is it is this? How is this a problem
Speaker 1: for you? How has this manifested itself negatively in your life?
Speaker 7: Well?
Speaker 6: What like, it's just people call me weird and stuff.
Speaker 6: If you didn't like when I expressed my problem in
Speaker 6: the chat, I just got slandered or it's so uh,
Speaker 6: I just I just don't know how to. I don't
Speaker 6: know if you could like give me away, like to
Speaker 6: like look at curtains differently.
Speaker 1: Or I can't. I can't. So here's the thing. Look,
Speaker 1: and I can't solve your attraction to curtains. But I
Speaker 1: mean I can tell you what I've told a lot
Speaker 1: of folks who've called in that have you know, sexual
Speaker 1: fetishes that maybe are not of the norm, which is
Speaker 1: that I mean, look, dude, if you want to go
Speaker 1: and take if you want to go into bed, bath
Speaker 1: and beyond, as long as you take the curtains home
Speaker 1: from the store before you do it, wrap your dick
Speaker 1: and curtains all you want. Man, life is short, and
Speaker 1: you're really not hurting anybody by doing that. So if
Speaker 1: the only thing uh standing in between you and having
Speaker 1: sex with curtains is the way that other people feel
Speaker 1: about it, that's not a compelling thing for me. I'm
Speaker 1: trying to think of if there's any moral or ethical
Speaker 1: things here, but I don't think there is. I'm not
Speaker 1: the judge, jury and executioner on that. But if the
Speaker 1: only thing that's really stopping you from having sex with
Speaker 1: these curtains is what your friends might think, this is
Speaker 1: not a compelling reason to me. Logan, I think that
Speaker 1: you should feel compelled to have sex with curtains all
Speaker 1: you want. Now. If you feel as though the curtain
Speaker 1: fucking is preventing you from going out and attempting to
Speaker 1: form sexual relationships with real life people, or it's preventing
Speaker 1: you from moving further positively in your life, then maybe
Speaker 1: it's a problem. But the way that you describe it
Speaker 1: to me, it seems rather harmless.
Speaker 6: No, yeah, totally, I agree with Well, I meant in
Speaker 6: the aspect of like, I just I'm just scared to
Speaker 6: be judged, you know, to like when when I came
Speaker 6: out with this. You know, I just I didn't. I
Speaker 6: didn't know how to tell anyone. I mean, I was
Speaker 6: just super scared to be judged.
Speaker 1: How do you feel about talking about it right now?
Speaker 6: Well, it's like, yeah, it's like it's relieving, I guess.
Speaker 1: Okay, good, good. What kind of curtains do you like
Speaker 1: to have sex with? Is there a color? Is there
Speaker 1: a texture? What specific kind of like are you attracted
Speaker 1: to do? Uh? Uh?
Speaker 6: Gray and white stripes?
Speaker 1: Yes? Okay, you know I thought you were lying, but
Speaker 1: that's actually pretty specific. Yep, thank you for calling Logan.
Speaker 6: All right having a night.
Speaker 1: Now that I think about it, curtains are very soft.
Speaker 1: You know what, I'm gonna go home and fuck my curtains.
Speaker 1: Maybe Logan is onto something. Hello?
Speaker 2: Hello, Hi, Hi, who is this miss Allie?
Speaker 1: What's going on? Ali?
Speaker 5: Well, a lot of the stuff so recently my co
Speaker 5: worker died and it's.
Speaker 2: Been a little rough.
Speaker 5: You know, m hm.
Speaker 1: You were you close with them? Oh?
Speaker 5: Yeah, we well we've been friends for you, you and
Speaker 5: you feels like a long time since I work in
Speaker 5: the food industry and basically you basically walk in and
Speaker 5: work and walk out work together, you know, full they
Speaker 5: in and out to get to know and my one
Speaker 5: coworker who died with friends with another, Well, my friends
Speaker 5: were dating another coworker, So this kind of caused a
Speaker 5: big uh oh.
Speaker 1: Yeah, So let'sten. So you know, you said to the
Speaker 1: call screener that one of your coworkers passed away and
Speaker 1: that this coworker's significant other, the person they were dating.
Speaker 1: You say, they won't leave you alone.
Speaker 5: Yeah, they haven't. They keep treating me as a therapist
Speaker 5: and keeps like even call me after work to talk
Speaker 5: about it, and it is affecting my mental health really bad.
Speaker 6: Mm.
Speaker 1: What a pickle? What a pickle? Okay? So I mean this? Okay,
Speaker 1: So your co worker passed away. Their significant other, who
Speaker 1: you also work with, is having a really tough time
Speaker 1: with it, and they have selected you as the person
Speaker 1: to to to help them through the situation.
Speaker 5: Yeah. They basically tell me that they drink law and
Speaker 5: do drugs and basically all that and it's.
Speaker 7: A lot.
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, huh. I don't really know how to deal
Speaker 1: with this. I don't know how I would deal with this,
Speaker 1: to be honest with you if well.
Speaker 5: Also my friend, so I don't want to like say,
Speaker 5: you know, I don't want to hear this and that
Speaker 5: stuff and don't like, I don't want to sound like
Speaker 5: not supportive because they are like they are like older
Speaker 5: than me, so like I feel like that should have
Speaker 5: been given not to you know, say it.
Speaker 1: But hm, right, it's difficult because you can't. I mean, well, listen,
Speaker 1: if you were to communicate honestly and tell the truth,
Speaker 1: I mean, you would just tell them what you told me.
Speaker 1: You'd be like, hey, you know, listen, I know that
Speaker 1: this is a really tough thing for you, but I can't.
Speaker 1: I just can't handle it.
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, I don't.
Speaker 1: Say that, right, what's your what's your reservation with saying that?
Speaker 5: The thing is that I don't want to say it.
Speaker 5: And then she's like, you're not supportive, you know, you know,
Speaker 5: da da da, And you know she's not being friends
Speaker 5: with me because like she's my only like friend in
Speaker 5: the workplace, because everyone makes fun of me and my work.
Speaker 5: So it's a little rough.
Speaker 1: Everyone makes fun of you at your work. Yeah, okay,
Speaker 1: does that make it a significantly bad place to work?
Speaker 5: I wouldn't say. I mean, I'm only there because it
Speaker 5: pays well, you know, puts food on the table. House
Speaker 5: of the like you know, a house that stuff you
Speaker 5: can't like. I can't quit because then I would have
Speaker 5: like nothing basically, you know.
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, it sounds like you're dealing with a lot
Speaker 1: of issues at work.
Speaker 5: Yeah, but you know you just deal with it?
Speaker 1: Yeah, how do you? How do you respond with and
Speaker 1: deal with people making fun of you at work?
Speaker 5: A lot of times I just both with it, or
Speaker 5: like I just pretended to like, you know, ha ha,
Speaker 5: I'm you know, joking, but it's kind of obvious. But
Speaker 5: a lot of times I can't like hang over it
Speaker 5: because I'm cooking, you know, I'm making food for people,
Speaker 5: So it's not like an you know right back.
Speaker 1: Can I ask you this? It just in your life
Speaker 1: as a whole, this issue yeah? Uh, I guess both
Speaker 1: the issues of your co worker sort of let's use
Speaker 1: the phrase trauma dumping on you, uh, and then your
Speaker 1: other coworkers making fun of you, just the general uncomfortable
Speaker 1: social vibe of your workplace. How significant of an issue
Speaker 1: is that from the broader perspective of your life as
Speaker 1: a whole.
Speaker 5: I mean, it's it's been really tough because I also
Speaker 5: have under mantal illness is on top of it so
Speaker 5: like a big one is like I have the ID,
Speaker 5: which then you know it's in like gang Yelda is
Speaker 5: also another thing that I don't like because of my PTSD.
Speaker 1: But you know what is what is the idea?
Speaker 5: Uh? It's the social identity disorder?
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, So like stuff.
Speaker 5: Like that, like being made fun of or maybe getting
Speaker 5: you know that uld bullying. Sometimes it makes a new
Speaker 5: person in my head. It's really hard to explain.
Speaker 1: Yeah, do you go to real therapist?
Speaker 7: Yeah?
Speaker 2: I do.
Speaker 1: What kinds of things does your real therapist tell you
Speaker 1: about this?
Speaker 5: They just tell me about like they tell me about
Speaker 5: ways to cope with it, like writing down my feelings
Speaker 5: and that stuff. But you know, other than that, they
Speaker 5: know that my situation is that good and uh I
Speaker 5: don't go to college or go to school that stuff.
Speaker 5: So they say my job, like my job list is limited,
Speaker 5: and where I live, they don't really look for what
Speaker 5: I have.
Speaker 1: Yeah. Has any of the stuff that they've been telling
Speaker 1: you been helpful for you?
Speaker 5: I mean not really, But I've been trying to find
Speaker 5: new hobbies and that stuff to help with it.
Speaker 1: What do you want out of life? Ali?
Speaker 5: Well, right now I'm going to go to coding. I'm
Speaker 5: trying to get back into the swing of school, trying
Speaker 5: to find money, E scramble some money, save up to
Speaker 5: go to coding school. And I kind of just want
Speaker 5: to you know, I don't have any big dreams, like
Speaker 5: you know how people say they want to be like
Speaker 5: a superstar or they want to get big. I just
Speaker 5: want to live, you know, Yeah, I just want to,
Speaker 5: you know, live a good life.
Speaker 1: What is what is living a good life look like
Speaker 1: to you?
Speaker 7: House?
Speaker 5: Food, maybe a family, nothing big, Just to get by
Speaker 5: in life, you know.
Speaker 1: Okay. I I try not to give advice, but can
Speaker 1: I give some advice?
Speaker 5: Of course?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Okay. So you're saying you're trying to get into coding
Speaker 1: with the hopes that that it will allow you to
Speaker 1: pursue a better job than you win you have now, Yeah,
Speaker 1: to whatever degree you can, Ali, I feel like I would.
Speaker 1: I know it probably sucks to get made fun of
Speaker 1: at work, and I know that it sucks to be
Speaker 1: dealing with the trauma of somebody else's dead significant other,
Speaker 1: and that's that's just a fucking lot. But to whatever
Speaker 1: degree you can metaphorically put your head down and just
Speaker 1: with as much single minded focus as you can put
Speaker 1: your energy towards this goal you have of learning the
Speaker 1: coding to get out of the situation. It's you have
Speaker 1: a great it's a great plan. I'm glad that you
Speaker 1: have a plan. I don't know how helpful any of
Speaker 1: this of what I'm saying is, but I would ignore
Speaker 1: and just deal with all this stuff, which it sounds
Speaker 1: like you're already doing from the way that you're talking
Speaker 1: to me about it. I would just put my head I.
Speaker 5: Try to help her.
Speaker 4: You know, you're clearly, uh, you know, a sweet, empathetic person,
Speaker 4: and so you're compelled to do that.
Speaker 1: But focus as much as you can on this, this
Speaker 1: this goal of doing the coding thing and getting out
Speaker 1: of there, because it doesn't sound like a great place
Speaker 1: for you to be, at least from what you've told us.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I think I think it's great advice, and I
Speaker 5: am going to take that advice in one with it
Speaker 5: because I think it's a good advice to take and
Speaker 5: I kind of need any advice I can get at
Speaker 5: the moment.
Speaker 1: Keep your head up all you sound, I mean, I
Speaker 1: don't know, you just have this demeanor that I like. Uh,
Speaker 1: you say you want a simple life, you want to
Speaker 1: be able to eat, you want to have a house,
Speaker 1: you want to have a job where people are not
Speaker 1: making fun of you. I feel confident in your ability
Speaker 1: to achieve those things.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I think I am.
Speaker 5: I mean, I'm starting to learn code on my phone
Speaker 5: and on the laptop and you know, and I'm starting
Speaker 5: to do things, and I'm starting to get the ball
Speaker 5: rolling and I'm thinking about, like this season or next
Speaker 5: season to actually roll it in the school since I
Speaker 5: finally got enough money too, you know.
Speaker 1: Good good. I feel like I feel like it's up
Speaker 1: and up with you.
Speaker 5: I hope. So a lot of stuff has been.
Speaker 1: Happening, Allie. Is there anything else you want to say
Speaker 1: to the people of the computer before we go, or
Speaker 1: any aspect of anything that you feel like we did
Speaker 1: not cover.
Speaker 5: I would say, chat still just keeping chat. You know,
Speaker 5: you guys are amazing. I love reading you guys' comments,
Speaker 5: and I hope that if anything is going on with
Speaker 5: Chat that they get the help and always know that
Speaker 5: there's someone you could talk to. But make sure you
Speaker 5: don't trauma dump on your homies that much because they're
Speaker 5: shitting cool. Sorry, adviceful and I'm not allowed too, But no,
Speaker 5: you can say whatever.
Speaker 1: The hell you want. Man, all right, thank you all,
Speaker 1: have a good night.
Speaker 4: To night.
Speaker 1: I liked her, man, She's cool. She just had this
Speaker 1: like very cool That's what I would say. It's very
Speaker 1: cool demeanor about all of this shit. I mean, she
Speaker 1: was going on about like and I don't know. I
Speaker 1: never know, Like, dude, I don't I don't know what
Speaker 1: the contrast is between how a person presents themselves on
Speaker 1: the phone to me versus what's really going on. And
Speaker 1: I never will know for sure, but from what I
Speaker 1: can gather in our phone call, I mean, she was
Speaker 1: going on about, like, you know, everyone in my workplace
Speaker 1: is fucking bullies. Me and I have all these mental
Speaker 1: health issues and I got this going wrong and this
Speaker 1: going around. But she was so like cool about it,
Speaker 1: like it's just I don't know. I was I was
Speaker 1: inspired by like she was mentioning all these problems and again,
Speaker 1: I don't I don't know what's really going on inside.
Speaker 1: I don't know what that contrast is. But she was
Speaker 1: cool about it in the sense of she was like, yes,
Speaker 1: I'm dealing with this stuff, and I'm I am dealing
Speaker 1: with it and it's happening, but it's not destroying me.
Speaker 1: And I still am like, you know, I don't want
Speaker 1: I don't need to be a superstar. I don't need
Speaker 1: to fucking become the next m Steve Jobs coder, entrepreneur person.
Speaker 1: But it'd be nice to have a house and life
Speaker 1: and stuff. And uh, I don't know, I appreciated that,
Speaker 1: and uh I I do believe it is on the
Speaker 1: up and up for allie. Hello, Hello, Hi, oh my god?
Speaker 4: Is this is this?
Speaker 1: Is this a gig? Yeah? Who is this?
Speaker 6: This is.
Speaker 4: J?
Speaker 1: This is who? Now?
Speaker 4: All right, yeah, CJ?
Speaker 1: What's up? CJ? What's going on with you?
Speaker 4: Uh? Well, yeah, I came to talk to you about
Speaker 4: this this little predicament that I'm kind of in. All right,
Speaker 4: so much call it my girlfriend, right, she doesn't like
Speaker 4: getting receiving head right, Well, the thing is with me,
Speaker 4: I love it. You know, it's one of my favorite
Speaker 4: things to do. So like, it's kind of a weird
Speaker 4: thing going that she really does not prefer it. But
Speaker 4: that's the way that gets me going. She always says, no,
Speaker 4: I don't like it, and listen, this kind of puts
Speaker 4: me down. By'm like, dam you know, I'm trying to
Speaker 4: make you feel good. But then you know, she doesn't,
Speaker 4: she doesn't like it. So I just I just don't know, all.
Speaker 1: Right, what what do you like about giving giving head?
Speaker 4: Oh? The feeling you know, just I don't know, just
Speaker 4: the feeling of making the my girlfriend just feel good,
Speaker 4: you know, and just having that power over it.
Speaker 5: You know.
Speaker 4: It's like it's like like when you're ever having sex
Speaker 4: and you and you know you're doing good. It's also
Speaker 4: the same kind of feeling when you know you're you're
Speaker 4: doing a good then all.
Speaker 1: Right, So so you enjoy you enjoy giving pleasure? Yes, yes,
Speaker 1: all right? So I mean are there ways that she
Speaker 1: receives pleasure besides just uh, you know, you giving her head?
Speaker 4: Like?
Speaker 1: What else could you do to give her pleasure?
Speaker 6: Oh?
Speaker 4: I do everything. You know she likes to know, the
Speaker 4: neck kisses, all that stuff, grabbing up on her. There's
Speaker 4: plenty of other different things I could do, right, and
Speaker 4: that I do do, like we are, is very good
Speaker 4: and stuff like. So's a lot of different things we've
Speaker 4: tried and stuff like that. But I just really like
Speaker 4: to do that to her, to go down on her.
Speaker 4: Before you get into business, you know, you like to pregame,
Speaker 4: you know, you know, little.
Speaker 1: What is she what is what is what? When you've
Speaker 1: talked to her about this? What does she enjoy doing
Speaker 1: in bed?
Speaker 4: Uh? She she enjoys the floor poor play that we do,
Speaker 4: but just not just me going down her. She likes
Speaker 4: everything else, you know, the next casey and grabbing up
Speaker 4: on her.
Speaker 7: You know.
Speaker 4: She she's very submissive in that way. So then I
Speaker 4: step up and be the more dominant one. And that's
Speaker 4: what That's what she likes, and that's what I like.
Speaker 4: I like to do.
Speaker 5: You know.
Speaker 1: M Well, well, ship man, I mean, why don't you
Speaker 1: if you know what she likes? And it sounds like
Speaker 1: you guys are very very communicative, communicative with one another,
Speaker 1: why don't you use the results of that communication to
Speaker 1: guide whatever it is that you you do in bed?
Speaker 1: Mm hmmm.
Speaker 4: That's true. I do do that sometimes, you know, But
Speaker 4: there's also some things that she doesn't like that I'm
Speaker 4: angry now. Yeah, so my girlfriend just came in. But
Speaker 4: but yeah, it's just I do do a lot of
Speaker 4: different things, and I'm trying to get more in to it.
Speaker 4: But you know, because she she she does one thing
Speaker 4: that I don't like that that she would likes. She
Speaker 4: likes to be to get came on. You know, that's
Speaker 4: that's what her thing is. But I don't like that,
Speaker 4: you know, so we're just trying to figure out different ways.
Speaker 1: Why don't why don't you like? Why don't you like
Speaker 1: coming on your girlfriend? I don't know.
Speaker 4: I don't know. Honestly, I feel like it's kind of
Speaker 4: like it's not gross or anything to me. I just
Speaker 4: not my type of tea, you.
Speaker 1: Know, like, let me talk, Let me talk to her.
Speaker 1: Can I talk to her?
Speaker 4: Maybe? Maybe I want to talk to you?
Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, Hi, Hello, So your boyfriend is talking all about,
Speaker 1: you know, communicating with you about sex stuff. I don't
Speaker 1: know if you've heard everything he's been talking about.
Speaker 3: No, I tuned in a little bit late.
Speaker 1: Okay, So let me ask you this in bed. What
Speaker 1: would you like to sort of get from your boyfriend
Speaker 1: more that that you think he could be doing a
Speaker 1: better job of.
Speaker 3: Well, I mean our sex life is pretty good, Like
Speaker 3: like he said, we like communicate about it and stuff.
Speaker 3: It's literally the only issue. It's just him going down
Speaker 3: on me. I don't really prefer it. Everything else is good,
Speaker 3: like I'd like everything else that we do.
Speaker 1: Well, shit, you know, look, if you don't like it,
Speaker 1: I mean, that's fucking I feel like that's that's that.
Speaker 1: You know, what else is there to really be be
Speaker 1: said and done?
Speaker 7: Know?
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's what I keep telling him, because it's not
Speaker 3: like I don't always not let him go down Does
Speaker 3: that make sense?
Speaker 1: I don't always not let him. No, that doesn't make sense.
Speaker 3: Like he does it sometimes, Like I won't like completely
Speaker 3: turn him down from it. You know, if he hits
Speaker 3: the right spots, I'll react to it. It's not like
Speaker 3: I completely hate it. I just don't prefer it.
Speaker 1: M Well, shit, if you don't prefer it, then I
Speaker 1: don't know. I don't really know what else there is
Speaker 1: to do here. I wonder what a real sex here?
Speaker 1: This is some points I just hit break. There's some
Speaker 1: calls I just hip brick walls with and I'm like,
Speaker 1: what an actual fucking person who knows about.
Speaker 3: Here's the thing I I told him that I would,
Speaker 3: I would let him. I would let him go down
Speaker 3: on anymore if he would just like nut on you
Speaker 3: when I asked him to.
Speaker 1: Okay, so we're doing a little bit of sexual barter.
Speaker 3: Bartering bartering is exactly.
Speaker 1: Okay. So we're making a trade here, Yes, exactly. Okay,
Speaker 1: I think a trade is fair, like a trade is fair?
Speaker 1: Is he what? What's his? Is his? How does he
Speaker 1: feel about a trade?
Speaker 4: I mean, there's the trade sounds. Oh, guys, I just don't.
Speaker 3: Know, man.
Speaker 4: I really don't like coming on her.
Speaker 1: I don't know, because and she doesn't like when you
Speaker 1: lick her for China and you guys are bartering, you're compromising. Yeah,
Speaker 1: that's a trade. That's what a trade is. I give
Speaker 1: somebody twenty dollars for a sandwich. That's one of those
Speaker 1: fucking expensive futus. I don't like giving people twenty dollars,
Speaker 1: but I like sandwiches. Yeah, I guess. I guess it's
Speaker 1: a trade.
Speaker 4: True.
Speaker 1: How do we so, I'm asking both of you guys,
Speaker 1: how do we feel about this trade? Yeah?
Speaker 4: I feel like it's just a good middle ground. I
Speaker 4: feel like this could have worked, you know, because, uh,
Speaker 4: but most of the time I do come on her,
Speaker 4: just on her ask you know, you hit it from
Speaker 4: the back, but you know, but like whenever hitting it
Speaker 4: from like a missionary, you know, from the front.
Speaker 6: You know.
Speaker 4: I just don't like Solily in that moment it's come.
Speaker 4: I don't know if that makes sense. I don't know,
Speaker 4: because I just really liked the way it looks.
Speaker 1: What's your name, c J, c J, c J. Your girlfriends.
Speaker 1: I want you to have samanpathy for sake. I want
Speaker 1: you to think about your girlfriends, what you think about.
Speaker 1: You don't like coming on people, but imagine getting comedne.
Speaker 1: It probably feels nice, you know, come, is you EVERJJJ?
Speaker 1: Listen to me? Okay, have you ever jacked off and
Speaker 1: you accidentally came on your thigh or your hand and
Speaker 1: it is like a warm sensation. It's like you're being hot,
Speaker 1: Like all the little sperm cells in your jeez, they're
Speaker 1: like hugging you. You know, it's a nice feel. It
Speaker 1: feels nice to get comed onne. And so when you
Speaker 1: come on your girlfriends, you're giving her that pleasure of
Speaker 1: the warm sensation of your ejaculate. And that's because that's
Speaker 1: what she desires, that's what she's asking for from you.
Speaker 1: And so just have some empathy for that, you know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying?
Speaker 4: Oh, yeah, I got you, I got Yeah.
Speaker 5: That makes sense.
Speaker 4: I guess that we thought of it that way. I
Speaker 4: don't know. From the very young age, I never like.
Speaker 1: Things.
Speaker 4: I don't know, it just kind of grows from a.
Speaker 1: Very young age. You never liked coming on things.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I've been a Yeah, I started very young. I'm
Speaker 4: not proud to say that I started very young.
Speaker 1: Well, CJ, I feel like I've heard enough about you
Speaker 1: and your girlfriend's genitals for this evening. Is there anything
Speaker 1: else that you want to say to the people of
Speaker 1: the computer before we go?
Speaker 4: I guess, I guess come on your girlfriend, which he asked.
Speaker 1: Okay, this is good. We have a breakthrough here.
Speaker 6: Yeah, yeah, I think so.
Speaker 4: I think we did. I think I think it might
Speaker 4: try it tonight. See what happened.
Speaker 1: Beautiful, beautiful, you guys have a wonderful rest of the evening.
Speaker 4: I appreciate you. Thanks for getting me.
Speaker 6: Thanks.
Speaker 1: Let's see. I think, Oh, they're gonna have a great time.
Speaker 7: Man.
Speaker 1: It does. By the way, I'm not like I've never
Speaker 1: had somebody else come on me. I don't want I
Speaker 1: wouldn't want to. But every time I come on myself,
Speaker 1: I like, get it. Every time I accidentally come on
Speaker 1: my own stomach, I'm like, oh, this feels nice. So
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna say I don't understand. Hello, it is Lyle.
Speaker 1: We have reached the end of the phone. Calls of
Speaker 1: this stream, and I would now like to share with
Speaker 1: you an interview that I did with a frenchwoman on
Speaker 1: the beaches of Cancun in real life. I was in
Speaker 1: Cancun on a little post tour vacation when I realized
Speaker 1: that I get just really antsy sitting around and doing
Speaker 1: nothing on a beach. I like to get out and
Speaker 1: work and do stuff. I know it sounds insane, but
Speaker 1: I set up my Gecko interview station and I did
Speaker 1: a bunch of interviews on the beach there. So if
Speaker 1: you like this segment and you want to hear the
Speaker 1: full thing, you can go to YouTube dot com, slash
Speaker 1: lyle forever, or just search being a Gecko in Cancun. Okay,
Speaker 1: let's get into the interview. Thank you for saying I
Speaker 1: think people. I think most people, and you know rightly enough,
Speaker 1: most people think I'm like trying to charge the money
Speaker 1: for pictures and stuff.
Speaker 7: Honestly, I just find it really fun.
Speaker 1: What's what's your name, Katie? Katie? Very nice to meet you.
Speaker 1: What are you doing here on the beach of Plia
Speaker 1: del Carmen vacation.
Speaker 7: I guess, okay, I guess like you.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yeah, what What do you do when you're
Speaker 1: not vacationing?
Speaker 7: I'm working?
Speaker 1: You're working. Do you know? Do you like your job?
Speaker 7: I love my job.
Speaker 1: What do you do?
Speaker 7: I work in hotel?
Speaker 1: You work at hotels?
Speaker 7: Yes?
Speaker 1: Okay, well so so like weirdly enough, just going on
Speaker 1: vacation and being at a hotel like make you think
Speaker 1: about work?
Speaker 7: Actually it does, but when you switch it off, it's
Speaker 7: so much better.
Speaker 1: Okay, switch it off. Who are you here with anyone?
Speaker 7: No? By myself?
Speaker 1: Oh you can by yourself. That's great. Do you do
Speaker 1: you take vacations by yourself A lot?
Speaker 7: I do.
Speaker 1: Do you prefer to vacation by yourself and with other people?
Speaker 7: I do? Why is that because I don't have to
Speaker 7: wait for anyone? You know, in the morning, you wake up, okay,
Speaker 7: I might go back to bed, that's okay. There's no
Speaker 7: one next to you say, oh, let's go for breakfast,
Speaker 7: or let's go someone do shopping or something. You decide
Speaker 7: your own schedule.
Speaker 1: Yep, yep, yep.
Speaker 7: So that's what I love about it.
Speaker 1: I like that too, Yeah. I like I like doing
Speaker 1: things by myself all the time. I like going to
Speaker 1: like the aquarium by myself. I can sit and stare
Speaker 1: at one fish for like an hour and there's no
Speaker 1: one tapping me being like, we gotta go.
Speaker 7: Do you use a that's outfit when you do that?
Speaker 1: Sometime it'd be fun to do one of these with
Speaker 1: the aquarium.
Speaker 7: You should.
Speaker 1: So you're on what is your How long are you
Speaker 1: on vacation for?
Speaker 7: I've been here for three days already, so I have
Speaker 7: five more days.
Speaker 1: You're on vacation for eight weeks? No, I mean eight days?
Speaker 1: So I can I ask you? Though? So you're vacationing
Speaker 1: by yourself, and I totally understand. That's how I like
Speaker 1: to do my vacations too. Does it ever get lonely?
Speaker 7: Sometime it does? You know, Sometime you're like, okay, because
Speaker 7: if the thing is, it's easier to meet people when
Speaker 7: you're by yourself. Definitely, when you have like you're in
Speaker 7: the crowd and everything people are maybe you know, worried
Speaker 7: to actually approach true and by yourself, it's so much different.
Speaker 7: But sometimes it does get lonely. You're in the restaurant
Speaker 7: or something, You're looking at all the people, so you
Speaker 7: don't want to disturb them, so you end up being
Speaker 7: alone a little bit. Sometimes you might want to do
Speaker 7: some activities and you have to pair with someone for
Speaker 7: you by yourself. Sometimes it does, but at the end
Speaker 7: of the day, the highlight is because I feel like
Speaker 7: I've met so many people and other people person.
Speaker 1: So I love it definitely. That's my favorite part of
Speaker 1: traveling alone is it makes it easier to meet other people.
Speaker 1: Weirdly enough, exactly have you been meeting a lot of
Speaker 1: people and you travel so far? Honestly, yes, where you
Speaker 1: meet them like you're on at the clubs and anyone.
Speaker 7: Today, I want I meet a French lady. I'm French
Speaker 7: and she's so nice. I was just, you know, doing
Speaker 7: shopping and I met her. So we connect you on Instagram,
Speaker 7: so we'll see how it goes.
Speaker 1: Now, that's great, that's great. Where in Fronts are from?
Speaker 7: In Friends?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 7: Actually I was raised in Cholet, the small little town
Speaker 7: next to Note. Do you know friends?
Speaker 1: I know, I know Paris, and I know Nice, which
Speaker 1: I called nice for a very long time until I
Speaker 1: find out always pronounced nice.
Speaker 7: Like the movie movie Bresnie so brusty. Nice is something No,
Speaker 7: I've never heard of any movie you watch this? Okay,
Speaker 7: well I'll write that Dan, I guess we're recording it.
Speaker 1: Hopefully. I hope this thing is on.
Speaker 7: How about you people?
Speaker 1: I said that again?
Speaker 7: Have you did you meet a lot of people?
Speaker 1: Let's see, I met one guy just now who's a
Speaker 1: travel blogger. I met you. It's it's very I'm glad
Speaker 1: I met you because I after about ten people are
Speaker 1: hoards of people are walking by and I'm like trying
Speaker 1: to get them to talk to me, and they're like
Speaker 1: not looking. And it's funny because earlier today I was
Speaker 1: walking around just as myself around the town and other
Speaker 1: people in costumes. Have you seen them? There's like guys
Speaker 1: run around just a spider man or likeeople who like
Speaker 1: are you know, stand outside a restaurants like trying to
Speaker 1: be like, hey come, you know, take a picture or whatever.
Speaker 1: And I do the same thing to them. So I
Speaker 1: feel like I'm on the opposite side of what I've
Speaker 1: been gave out this morning, you know.
Speaker 7: Okay, So my question is you YouTube or you have
Speaker 7: an Instagram?
Speaker 1: I have both. I do YouTube and Instagram. Yeah. Do
Speaker 1: you are you of longer of any kind? Do you
Speaker 1: document your travels?
Speaker 7: I don't.
Speaker 1: Do you Do you have a journal at all?
Speaker 7: I have my personal journal, Yes, Okay, it's a written one.
Speaker 7: Nobody actually have to read it. It's for myself.
Speaker 1: What do you can I ask? What kinds of things
Speaker 1: you talk about in the journal?
Speaker 7: Anyway? Anything?
Speaker 1: Anything?
Speaker 7: Anything?
Speaker 1: What? What did what did your entry sound like yesterday?
Speaker 1: Do you do it every day?
Speaker 7: Not every day? Only when I feel like it? Yesterday
Speaker 7: I was so tired, so actually look like, Okay, that's
Speaker 7: what I did today. And I was talking about the
Speaker 7: fact that you know, when you exhausted, it comes from
Speaker 7: so many things. So it came from I was about society,
Speaker 7: and I was talking about so many things that I once.
Speaker 1: So, okay, you're talking about society. I am you have
Speaker 1: thoughts about society that you've been because when you when
Speaker 1: you're traveling alone. I know this from experience, you got
Speaker 1: lots of time to just think exactly. Can I hear
Speaker 1: like some of your thoughts about society?
Speaker 7: No?
Speaker 1: Okay, fair enough enough myself? Okay, fair enough, fair enough?
Speaker 1: Where are you off to next?
Speaker 7: Next? I'll just work a little bit more, try to
Speaker 7: see you around. I'm not actually staying in play at
Speaker 7: de Camp and I'm actually staying in Tulom, so I
Speaker 7: have to take a collective look back to Tuloom soon.
Speaker 1: So what kinds of things do you do back home
Speaker 1: in France like that when you're not working, when you're
Speaker 1: not vacation, and what do you do with your life?
Speaker 7: I'm boring? No, actually, for some people I'm boring, But
Speaker 7: for myself, I'm not boring.
Speaker 1: I don't think you're boring at all. You're traveling to
Speaker 1: foreign countries alone, You're zooming all around.
Speaker 7: Well, what I do I need? I drew some time,
Speaker 7: I sing for myself. I go shopping with my friends,
Speaker 7: and honestly, I spent actually my time to actually look
Speaker 7: read a lot.
Speaker 1: You draw? You said, what kinds of things inspire your art?
Speaker 7: People?
Speaker 1: People do you like to draw? People like to do
Speaker 1: you draw your family and friends? What do you What
Speaker 1: kind of people do you draw?
Speaker 7: Just people that I see around, just people.
Speaker 1: You see around? So have you been doing that at all?
Speaker 1: Like just kind of sitting on the beach and no, No,
Speaker 1: I'm on vacation. Okay, maybe when I go back to
Speaker 1: my room. Okay, I respect that. I was thinking myself.
Speaker 1: I was I was about to not do this because
Speaker 1: I was sitting in my hotel room. I was like,
Speaker 1: I'm on vacation.
Speaker 7: So do.
Speaker 1: I really need to bust out the gecko soup, But
Speaker 1: every time I do, I'm glad I get to meet someone.
Speaker 7: Yeah, exactly. So question for you, how long you've been
Speaker 7: on vacation.
Speaker 1: For I got here two days ago, two days ago,
Speaker 1: and I leave tomorrow.
Speaker 7: That's a sure vacation.
Speaker 1: It's a sure but I honestly, I, uh, well, I've
Speaker 1: been I I do. I do like live shows and stuff.
Speaker 1: And I was on a tour in the US, okay,
Speaker 1: and for about two weeks. And I came straight from
Speaker 1: that tour to me, heret of this your comedian, I
Speaker 1: do that. I actually do. I do this but on
Speaker 1: stage with people, and so I've been doing that for
Speaker 1: two weeks, and I came right here and then I, uh, I.
Speaker 7: Got me curious. Now I'm gonna have to go and
Speaker 7: actually check you out.
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, okay, I'll show you. I'll show you the gram.
Speaker 1: But I'm actually like, it was a short trip, but
Speaker 1: it's perfect amount because I'm very ready to go home
Speaker 1: actually and do nothing. I haven't been in my apartment
Speaker 1: for two weeks, so it could be on fire right now.
Speaker 1: I don't know what's going on there. Oh, mushroom's growing,
Speaker 1: mushrooms growing dead mice. Do you do you live alone?
Speaker 1: Are you not worried that, Like I'm always worried that
Speaker 1: something's gonna happen.
Speaker 7: No, No, I mean I live in Montreal, so oh
Speaker 7: really if something, actually, if my apartment has to catch.
Speaker 1: Fire, I've never been to Montreal before. Is it worth it?
Speaker 6: So?
Speaker 7: Worth it?
Speaker 1: Okay, it is amazing.
Speaker 7: It's an amazing city, especially during summer with all the festival.
Speaker 7: If you're like you know meaning people, you know the
Speaker 7: old the festival in music? Do you love music?
Speaker 1: Are you a music festival person?
Speaker 7: I am?
Speaker 1: Okay, I got that vibe from you. You have this like friendly,
Speaker 1: open vibe to yourself that I see whenever I go
Speaker 1: to music festivals exactly.
Speaker 7: So music festivals so many of them in Montreal, so
Speaker 7: you don't get bored and it's always alive. So now
Speaker 7: winter is coming soon.
Speaker 1: And what kind of music do you listen to anything? Anything?
Speaker 7: So this summer, most of it was house because of
Speaker 7: the person I've been spending time with this summer, she
Speaker 7: loves house electro. So we've been going to this kind
Speaker 7: of music festival. But it depends on the mood. I guess.
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, what what have you been listening to while
Speaker 1: you've been on vacation. That's classical music? And like do
Speaker 1: like that kind of stuff?
Speaker 4: Well?
Speaker 7: No, mostly, like, yeah, a little bit, but.
Speaker 1: Not the same piano music. Interesting? Interesting? Is that what
Speaker 1: you were listen into while you were walking?
Speaker 7: No, I don't have any No, I really don't.
Speaker 1: What do you when you when you relax on the beach?
Speaker 1: Are you like? Do you listen to music? Do you
Speaker 1: read a book? Or do you do you sleep? Or
Speaker 1: do you just stare at the ocean? What do you
Speaker 1: how do you relax?
Speaker 7: I listened to the ocean? Okay, well, yeah, and I
Speaker 7: read but I don't have my book today so it
Speaker 7: won't work. And yeah, that's it. You just listen to
Speaker 7: the people around you.
Speaker 1: You you eaves drop on folks. No, No, it's boring.
Speaker 7: This it's a you know, like an interesting conversation. No,
Speaker 7: it's boring you.
Speaker 1: Like you've tried eves dropping on people and you're like,
Speaker 1: I don't care about your you know, the divorce you're
Speaker 1: going through or the you.
Speaker 7: I don't try, but sometimes it comes up. Okay, I'm
Speaker 7: pretty sure you do that if you ask me. The question.
Speaker 7: It means that you do that.
Speaker 1: But yeah, my whole thing is, you know, talking to
Speaker 1: I'm always curious what's going on with people. I eaves
Speaker 1: drop on stuff. I also, I like, you know, I'm
Speaker 1: always trying to pay attention to how other people behave
Speaker 1: and talk because it keys me into like, you know,
Speaker 1: how should I behave and talk as as I maneuver
Speaker 1: through the universe. And so maybe I'll listen to other people.
Speaker 1: I'll be like, man, that guy having this conversation that
Speaker 1: writes to me, he's really confident. I should like take
Speaker 1: notes on what he's you know, saying. So I'll do that. Yeah,
Speaker 1: now I would like literally pull out a pen and
Speaker 1: take notes, but like mental notes, I get it.
Speaker 7: You learn from other people exactly exactly. So my question
Speaker 7: is to speak Spanish?
Speaker 1: Un poquito o poquito? Is that even a word? Piqito?
Speaker 1: I know, and I know a handful of phrases and
Speaker 1: enough that I can like walk around, walk around and
Speaker 1: say a few things, but I can't really have like
Speaker 1: a conversation. What do you what do you do? You
Speaker 1: know any Spanish that fly a key? Okay, I guess
Speaker 1: numbers katiki cat.
Speaker 7: Cat, It's kitty. But in French, okay, if you want,
Speaker 7: and you know French, I'm French.
Speaker 1: I feel like Spanish and French are like actually kind
Speaker 1: of similar.
Speaker 7: I guess I've been told that. But you know, with
Speaker 7: the four years trying to learn Spanish, not that much.
Speaker 1: You spent four years trying to learn Spanish really okay,
Speaker 1: you know, trying in about four years of due lingo exactly.
Speaker 7: You said it, Okay, look like the guy you know?
Speaker 1: Like, are you saying I look like the d lingo bird.
Speaker 1: I've never gotten that before, but that's true. I've gotten
Speaker 1: people say I look like a frog. They said I
Speaker 1: look like, yo, you look like a frog. I'll take that.
Speaker 1: I respect that. I don't I'm not a frog, but
Speaker 1: people have been you know, I I don't know. I
Speaker 1: think in Spanish the word gecko is just gecko. But
Speaker 1: people have been pointing at me and being like, like
Speaker 1: little kids will be like Poppy's larana, it's larana, I
Speaker 1: mean it's frog, okay, or orlaple, what is it? There's
Speaker 1: a both frogs?
Speaker 7: I mean, is it like it's from a coltoon? I
Speaker 7: don't even know.
Speaker 1: Like me, I'm just like a gecko, okay, so your
Speaker 1: friends and family, are you keeping in touch with them
Speaker 1: while you are here on the beach. Are they like
Speaker 1: not worried about you?
Speaker 7: They're used to it. My dad called me this morning, Okay,
Speaker 7: do you wish maybe a happy body in advance their
Speaker 7: birthday tomorrow?
Speaker 1: What are you gonna do for your birthday?
Speaker 7: Well, I'm gonna go visit the reoms in Tulum in
Speaker 7: the morning. In the afternoon, I booked a extcution. I
Speaker 7: think they're taking me around. I think not too far
Speaker 7: from here, something like that. And in the evening, I
Speaker 7: booked a dinner in a restaurant. From what I understand
Speaker 7: is a U can't start cuisin something like that.
Speaker 1: So, yeah, you're kind of asked you a question that
Speaker 1: I'm curious about. I love to solo travel. I love
Speaker 1: going place by myself. I have friends who are women
Speaker 1: that I tell them about it, and they're like, oh,
Speaker 1: I wish I could do that, but they're like afraid
Speaker 1: for their safety. But yet when I'm on the road,
Speaker 1: I do meet a lot of like solo female travelers,
Speaker 1: So I'm like, well, there are people out there doing it.
Speaker 1: Do you have like anything that you would say or
Speaker 1: any advice to anyone who is like afraid to go
Speaker 1: out and travel by themselves, like safety wise, but wants
Speaker 1: to do it.
Speaker 7: The thing is a phrase, Well, we only have one life,
Speaker 7: so if you have to live by your fear, you
Speaker 7: will never leave. That will be something I would say,
Speaker 7: because to be honest with you, I was afraid to
Speaker 7: to come. But every single time I actually good travel,
Speaker 7: I'm always care what if something happens to me? Is
Speaker 7: this happens to me? But as long as you actually
Speaker 7: you know, just do your own research. And actually you
Speaker 7: need to find the places where you're comfortable with and
Speaker 7: you don't have to do things that you don't feel
Speaker 7: comfortable with, so don't force yourself. But at the same time,
Speaker 7: you need to enjoy life.
Speaker 1: So m M, do you feel as though you are
Speaker 1: good at conquering your fears? Me? No, But were you
Speaker 1: were you afraid to come out of here by yourself?
Speaker 7: Well you know into here? No play at the campine
Speaker 7: is different. But tulun Yas because Tulum is in the
Speaker 7: jungle something like that. And my hotel is actually right
Speaker 7: in the middle of the jungle.
Speaker 1: From in the middle of the jungle.
Speaker 7: If something like that, I guess because around it When
Speaker 7: I look at the map, there's nothing just besides this,
Speaker 7: and we're just next to the sea. So beside the sea,
Speaker 7: the result and the jungle. There's some other result next
Speaker 7: to it, but there's nothing around. So that's where we sam.
Speaker 7: But other than that, I mean, now you know, I'm
Speaker 7: scared of spiders, I'm scared of all these things.
Speaker 1: So obviously are you Are you ever going to face
Speaker 1: those fears? Are you ever going to have no choice?
Speaker 7: At some point? I guess if they come up to me,
Speaker 7: what am I going to do?
Speaker 1: I like that? Like what you said, Just say say
Speaker 1: what you said again. You said, if you live by
Speaker 1: your fear, you won't live it all. Something like that.
Speaker 7: Yeah, So basically, if you have to live by your
Speaker 7: fail you will never live at all.
Speaker 1: Tell me, is that something? Is that a philosophy that
Speaker 1: you kind of had to work your way up towards
Speaker 1: or was that something you've always had within you?
Speaker 7: I had to learn it?
Speaker 1: How do you feel like you learned it? My friends,
Speaker 1: your friends.
Speaker 7: The people surrounding, the people I've been meeting. So, I mean,
Speaker 7: you know, it takes a lot of courage to actually
Speaker 7: decide to leave. You know, where you were raised, so
Speaker 7: leave friends was not easy, but I wanted to leave anyway.
Speaker 7: So I started with London and then I moved after
Speaker 7: that to Canada, and then from Canada, Okay, now I'm
Speaker 7: traveling a little bit more around. So you need to
Speaker 7: start somewhere.
Speaker 1: Right right. I feel like that's like the people I've
Speaker 1: talked to who are like afraid of, you know, traveling.
Speaker 1: It's like, go take a weekend to like another state first.
Speaker 1: You don't have to start by going to Korea exactly.
Speaker 1: That you just start in another state and then you
Speaker 1: kind of work your way up, like you were talking about.
Speaker 7: So just start with something exactly. Just go somewhere where
Speaker 7: is going to be something different, and then slowly, by slowly,
Speaker 7: you will have the confidence to actually go further.
Speaker 1: And what's your next trip that you're going to take.
Speaker 7: I really don't know. Well, technically, yes, I have to
Speaker 7: take a plane back to Montreal, but honestly, I'm hoping
Speaker 7: that next year I'm going to go to Bali, Bali.
Speaker 1: I've heard cool things about Bali me too. I've heard
Speaker 1: that like in all those places like Bali and Vietnam
Speaker 1: and Thailand, there's like a big solo travel you know,
Speaker 1: community there.
Speaker 7: There's a lot of people over there, and surprising there's
Speaker 7: a lot of French people everywhere. So that's fine.
Speaker 1: Have you met tell me this. I have been France
Speaker 1: and it was cool. People talk a lot about how
Speaker 1: they think that French people can can be assholes. Now
Speaker 1: you're very nice.
Speaker 7: Everybody can be assholes.
Speaker 1: Everybody can be assles. That's why I That's why I
Speaker 1: think too anytime there's any sort of like generalization of like,
Speaker 1: you know, well, the people from this part of America,
Speaker 1: this part of Europe can be this.
Speaker 7: But I'm like everywhere, I do get the feeding because
Speaker 7: to benest with you, Paris is another environment. I'm not
Speaker 7: from Paris, so I love Parisian people. I do love them.
Speaker 7: But the environment sometimes when you're on outsider, it's different.
Speaker 7: It's different, but it's the same for big cities, you know,
Speaker 7: like in London is the same. Some people when they
Speaker 7: actually you know, British people, they will go to London,
Speaker 7: but they don't feel comfortable because the vibe is different.
Speaker 7: But it is the same in big cities, you know.
Speaker 7: Same thing for people that comes from Calgary, let's say,
Speaker 7: and they will have to go to Montreal and Montreal
Speaker 7: is a big city or something like that. You know,
Speaker 7: it's the same. But at the end of the day,
Speaker 7: I will say, if you go to Friends, don't stop
Speaker 7: at Paris. You have to travel around. Okay, try the
Speaker 7: small cities, my friends. Is such a beautiful country, you know,
Speaker 7: all the history, all the different places, the culture, and
Speaker 7: the food. The food. It's all about the food anyway.
Speaker 1: So yes, what is your name again?
Speaker 7: Katie?
Speaker 1: Katie? Thank you for talking to a gat though. I
Speaker 1: want to say just to anyone who's listening at home,
Speaker 1: because you know, I've sat here and I have twenty
Speaker 1: tons of people are walking by. They're not looking at me.
Speaker 1: I'm about to get I say this every episode. I'm
Speaker 1: about to give up. I'm like, ah, fuck, nobody's gonna
Speaker 1: come stop. And then a very friendly person stops by.
Speaker 1: We have a good conversation. It always goes to show that,
Speaker 1: you know, stick it out for a little bit longer
Speaker 1: and something fun and cool will happen. So thank you
Speaker 1: very much. Is there anything else you want to say
Speaker 1: to the people of the computer, Well.
Speaker 7: Geko's nice and thank you so much for talking to
Speaker 7: me today.
Speaker 1: Thank you for talking to me today. I appreciate it, oh,
Speaker 1: I appreciate that. That's awesome. Than you have a good
Speaker 1: rest of the trip. I'm giving you my gecko blessings
Speaker 1: for the remaining five days, and I'll see you out
Speaker 1: there in the universe. Thank you, of course, and goes
Speaker 1: on the line taking your phone calls every night, never
Speaker 1: goes to side. He's teaching you Cloud in the mid
Speaker 1: of your life.
Speaker 7: An expert