Speaker 1: Hello, people of the computer or the phone, whichever one
Speaker 1: of those two or mediums you're using to listen to this,
Speaker 1: or maybe you're listening in your car, or maybe you're
Speaker 1: listening inside the belly of a whale, although probably not
Speaker 1: you're probably maybe you're walking, maybe you're on a train.
Speaker 1: Maybe maybe you have this podcast playing in like another
Speaker 1: room to no one well, and you like left it
Speaker 1: on and you forgot, and I'm just speaking into this
Speaker 1: void of an empty room while you're off, you know,
Speaker 1: doing something else, not even knowing that I'm speaking. Maybe
Speaker 1: that's where this podcast is going right now. But what's up, everybody?
Speaker 1: How's it going? This is gek Mail. I'm gonna fucking
Speaker 1: shoot the shit with myself for a little bit and
Speaker 1: then I'm gonna read some viewer mail. So I guess
Speaker 1: what's going on with me? Real quick? Is I am
Speaker 1: in Japan right now. I've been here for two months.
Speaker 1: It's been a beautiful, beautiful experience. I'm sad to go back,
Speaker 1: but I think it'll be good. I think it'll be grounding,
Speaker 1: you know, at the end of the day. At the
Speaker 1: end of the day, right it's like you can go on.
Speaker 1: I've had a been fortunate enough in my life to
Speaker 1: go on many, many crazy, beautiful adventures, both thanks to
Speaker 1: the therapy Gecko and also just thanks to like, you know,
Speaker 1: something in my brain, for better or for worse, requires
Speaker 1: me to fucking have like some some sense of novelty
Speaker 1: going on. So I'm always running around and doing stuff,
Speaker 1: and it's been good. But the old what's that song?
Speaker 1: Been all over the world, only place left to go
Speaker 1: is home something like that. Who does that song? Anyway? Yeah,
Speaker 1: the song is good. So yeah, man, I'm excited to
Speaker 1: return back and see my family and my friends and
Speaker 1: it'll be good. You know. That's the meaning of life,
Speaker 1: I think is one of the things I've learned over
Speaker 1: the past I'm not even gonna say two months, because
Speaker 1: I knew it kind of before I came here. But
Speaker 1: the quality of your life is always going to be
Speaker 1: the quality of the people around you at the end
Speaker 1: of the day. I think for me, at least, I
Speaker 1: don't know. You might you might be able to go
Speaker 1: into the woods. Everyone's different, everyone's brain is wired differently,
Speaker 1: So you might be able to just go into the
Speaker 1: woods and live there forever and it's awesome for you.
Speaker 1: So actually I take back everything I said. I don't
Speaker 1: fucking know the life. I don't even I regret even
Speaker 1: pretending for a second like I did. But I guess
Speaker 1: it's the meaning of I guess my life and probably
Speaker 1: the meaning of a lot of people's lives is to
Speaker 1: just be around as folks. You know, life is like
Speaker 1: a tremendously uh scary and lonely and frightening bizarre experience,
Speaker 1: and uh, you know it's everything is cope, but it's good.
Speaker 1: Cope is good cope is you know, Yeah, your friends
Speaker 1: sending you a meme, it's good cope. So you know, whatever,
Speaker 1: connect with other people, it's good. I think this was
Speaker 1: a whole I don't know why this is. This is
Speaker 1: a whole motivational rant. I'm never trying to tell other
Speaker 1: people what to do, but I'm just this is just
Speaker 1: me working out my own brain. This is the this
Speaker 1: is the therapy for me, uh portion of this show,
Speaker 1: and I'm enjoying it. It feels good. And if you
Speaker 1: have me in your ear right now, God bless you.
Speaker 1: Thank you, very very very very much. I am honored
Speaker 1: to have your listenership, and I'm ready to take to
Speaker 1: read some emails. Let's get into it. Although before we
Speaker 1: get into it, I do want to say I am
Speaker 1: hosting my very first art exhibition in Bushwick, Brooklyn on
Speaker 1: Well it's gonna We're having a gallery exhibition opening on
Speaker 1: March fourteenth from seven pm to ten pm at the
Speaker 1: Kaleidoscope Gallery in Bushwick, Brooklyn. And if you live in
Speaker 1: New York City, if you want to come, you can
Speaker 1: check the link to the episode description. I put a
Speaker 1: little thing that you can enter in your phone number
Speaker 1: into and then you'll get a little text where that says, Hey,
Speaker 1: just a reminder that we're doing this thing. And also
Speaker 1: I might do other things in New York City this,
Speaker 1: I might do other stupid art exit. Oh, I didn't
Speaker 1: even talk about what the exhibition is. I'm taking eight
Speaker 1: It's called Lyle Forever presents Trash from around my Room
Speaker 1: and I'm gonna be taking eight pieces of trash from
Speaker 1: around my room and displaying them and you can come
Speaker 1: to take that. It's a free event. It's a free event.
Speaker 1: I don't know why I decided to. I had this.
Speaker 1: I had this event written down in my notes app
Speaker 1: like two years ago, and I was like, you know what,
Speaker 1: we just have to do it. If not now, then
Speaker 1: when let's just do it. Let's just do the fucking
Speaker 1: trash exhibit. And so we're doing the trash exhibit. It's
Speaker 1: free to come and to hang out. There'll be a
Speaker 1: bar there. I'll be there. I'll be hanging out. So
Speaker 1: come through March fourteenth, Kaleidoscope Gallery, seven pm, ten pm.
Speaker 1: And the link to RSVP is in this episode description.
Speaker 1: So come hang out and look at my stupid trash.
Speaker 1: All right, let's look at some emails here. This is
Speaker 1: from ash. Subject line I told my instructor I'd make
Speaker 1: him come. Okay, high Gek. I had my first driving
Speaker 1: lesson today and accidentally sexted the instructor two minutes before
Speaker 1: he got to my house. On the driving app, it
Speaker 1: has a section saying bits out them. What does that mean?
Speaker 1: It has a section saying bits out them, and he
Speaker 1: just filled them all with coming soon. So okay. I
Speaker 1: sent who I thought was my boyfriend a screenshot of
Speaker 1: his driving profile and a text saying I'm gonna make
Speaker 1: him come. Then almost canceled my driving test when I
Speaker 1: saw who I sent it to. Oh okay, So this
Speaker 1: person took us screenshot of their instructor's driving profile and
Speaker 1: then meant to send the screenshot to their boyfriend with
Speaker 1: the with the phrase I'm gonna make him come, but
Speaker 1: they accidentally sent it to the driver. Okay, he was
Speaker 1: actually a good sport about it and we had to laugh,
Speaker 1: so it wasn't weird anyway. Odd first driving lesson. Guess
Speaker 1: I'm stuck till I graduate. Help your driving instructors come well,
Speaker 1: I hope. I don't have anything funny to say about this,
Speaker 1: but it is a funny situation. Let's let's see here.
Speaker 1: This is from Austin. This is a rant. The subject
Speaker 1: line is rant on life. Hey, gek, I graduated almost
Speaker 1: two years ago and I've been with the same company since.
Speaker 1: They've shown me the corruption and greed that drives capitalism.
Speaker 1: I can't do this anymore. My job, which involves providing
Speaker 1: and educating patients on medical equipment, has taken a severe
Speaker 1: toll on my mental and emotional health, and I started
Speaker 1: therapy because of it. I understand patient's anger due to pain,
Speaker 1: but the treatment I received from hospital staff and colleagues
Speaker 1: is unbearable. They don't care about patience. They only want
Speaker 1: to milk money from them. Management even told me not
Speaker 1: to pick up equipment from a patient until they called
Speaker 1: to ask why it hadn't been done so they could
Speaker 1: continue billing them. I've been applying for my dream career
Speaker 1: for an entire year, but the constant rejections are overwhelming.
Speaker 1: Life feels bleak, and I'm struggling to find meaning in anything.
Speaker 1: This repetitive cycle is a never ending hell escape. I
Speaker 1: am unable to escape from Austin. Well, Austin, Hey, man,
Speaker 1: you know what. Here's the funny thing is, like, normally
Speaker 1: I think I would get an email like this and
Speaker 1: I would be like, oh crap, I don't know how
Speaker 1: to respond. But you know, let's I don't know, man,
Speaker 1: I'm in the mood to give it a try. I've
Speaker 1: also been feeling like a little hell scapie here Austin.
Speaker 1: So I'm just gonna tell you you how I you know,
Speaker 1: I'm feeling in the hellscape land. I mean, look, man,
Speaker 1: I think all of my theories and all of my
Speaker 1: quote unquote advice or whatever, it's all just theories that
Speaker 1: I'm testing and trying. I have no you know, hold on,
Speaker 1: there's a fucking in Japan. They make it. They do
Speaker 1: a bell every day at four thirty. I don't know
Speaker 1: if you guys can hear this bell? Why four thirty?
Speaker 1: It only goes off at four thirty? Does anyone know why?
Speaker 1: There's why does a bell always go off in Tokyo
Speaker 1: at four to thirty? Hold on, it's about it. It's
Speaker 1: about an end. That's another good thing to get you
Speaker 1: out of Hellescape is just distractions. Donkey Kong Country Returns
Speaker 1: is they release this is not an advertisement, but Donkey
Speaker 1: Kong Country Returns is. They released it in HD on
Speaker 1: the Nintendo Switch, And I'm gonna use that to help
Speaker 1: me cope with the void. But anyway, I don't know.
Speaker 1: Austin Man, you seem like, well, well, I'm curious what
Speaker 1: you said. You've been applying for your dream career, right,
Speaker 1: so what is your dream career? I don't know what
Speaker 1: that is, but let's say whatever your dream career is,
Speaker 1: I'm sure it's your dream career for a reason. Right,
Speaker 1: So instead of the one thing I've always felt is
Speaker 1: that like there's kind of motivations and then there's vessels
Speaker 1: for those motivations, I suppose, And so it's like, uh,
Speaker 1: why is your dream career your dream career? Is it
Speaker 1: because it puts you around people. Is it because it
Speaker 1: lets you travel? Is it because it lets you help people?
Speaker 1: You know? What? Is it? Right? And so instead of
Speaker 1: chasing after this specific thing that is kind of a
Speaker 1: thing that is like a rejection acceptance thing, and you're
Speaker 1: kind of like a allowing other people to tell you
Speaker 1: whether or not you'll be able to achieve those vessels, Like,
Speaker 1: why don't you just take whatever the fuck it is
Speaker 1: that you like about this career and see if you can,
Speaker 1: you know, see see what all your options are for
Speaker 1: kind of satisfying those life desires. I suppose that's what
Speaker 1: I guess, that's what I would do. That's what I'm
Speaker 1: trying to do. It's funny, man, talking about this ship
Speaker 1: on the podcast is helping me kind of reinforce things
Speaker 1: for myself. So so that's good. That's what I'm trying
Speaker 1: to do. Let's keep going, Let's keep going. Uh. Okay,
Speaker 1: this is from this one's a little too long. Hold on. Okay.
Speaker 1: This is from someone who told me not to use
Speaker 1: their name. Don't use my name please. My boyfriend of
Speaker 1: five years has a baby. My story high from Canada.
Speaker 1: I've been watching your show a lot lately, and I
Speaker 1: doubt this will even get anywhere. Well, here we are
Speaker 1: my story. So I'm twenty one and my now ex
Speaker 1: is twenty three. We started dating in twenty twenty. We
Speaker 1: broke up in twenty in October of twenty twenty three
Speaker 1: because I found a lot of porn on his phone
Speaker 1: and it was pretty disturbing. I found pictures of his
Speaker 1: cousin on there. Okay, fast forward. During the time we
Speaker 1: broke up, I started seeing someone and he did also.
Speaker 1: He was with this emo, mentally ill girl who has
Speaker 1: a list of disorders. Okay, whatever, blah blah blah blah blah. Okay,
Speaker 1: fast forward again. We got back together in the end
Speaker 1: of February twenty twenty four, and we were doing good.
Speaker 1: He was decent, was working on himself, and I saw
Speaker 1: some change. Oh she got back together. Then on April first,
Speaker 1: the oh Okay. Then on April first, the girl that
Speaker 1: he was seeing while we were broken up posted that
Speaker 1: she was pregnant and tried to play it off as
Speaker 1: an April Fool's joke. She didn't even say anything to
Speaker 1: my ex, and she blocked us both on social media
Speaker 1: when I confronted her about it. She was playing this
Speaker 1: big game of guests for nine months and now it's
Speaker 1: February and I finally broke up with him because she
Speaker 1: came out and said, yeah, this is your baby. The
Speaker 1: whole situation is fucked. She even tried to say that
Speaker 1: we could all be one happy family and have a
Speaker 1: three way relationship, which just proves how messed up she
Speaker 1: is in her head. But yeah, living life to the
Speaker 1: fullest right now. I guess that is a crazy dude.
Speaker 1: That's such a crazy situation considering how fucking young old
Speaker 1: you guys are. I mean, goddamn, I mean, well, shit,
Speaker 1: you got out of that one pretty good. Uh yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean that's that's that's that's gnarly. That's gnarley. I'm
Speaker 1: not gonna I need something to refer to you as.
Speaker 1: I'm just gonna call your that's gnarly, Rachel. Good luck.
Speaker 1: That's all I got. I'm gonna start. Sometimes I have
Speaker 1: things to say and sometimes I don't. And this one,
Speaker 1: this one, I'm just a little speechless. Good luck, Rachel.
Speaker 1: That one's pretty pretty messed up. I mean, I guess
Speaker 1: I guess it's good that you guys didn't have a baby,
Speaker 1: you know. All right, let's see here, Okay, this is
Speaker 1: from Sam subject line just turned twenty and I'm overwhelmed.
Speaker 1: Any advice? Hey, Gak, my name is Sam. I just
Speaker 1: turned twenty this past December and the spring semester has
Speaker 1: just started. Over the winter, I did some research which
Speaker 1: has gotten the green light to content to continue throughout
Speaker 1: the semester as a one credit independent study course kick Ass.
Speaker 1: I'm also in another independent study course to be doing
Speaker 1: four different projects. I love research, and it's what i
Speaker 1: want to be doing, but I'm doubting my abilities to
Speaker 1: be able to manage my time well and produce good work,
Speaker 1: not only in those projects but also my normal classes.
Speaker 1: I'm taking KIM and kalk Tu, and I'm struggling a bit,
Speaker 1: and I'm afraid to burn out so early. Do you
Speaker 1: have any advice as someone who is older? Thanks? Wishing
Speaker 1: you the best, Sam, Sam, I'm terrible, I have. I'm
Speaker 1: kind of terrible for this because I studied film in
Speaker 1: college and I maybe did work two fucking hours a
Speaker 1: week as a film major in cob My roommate was
Speaker 1: a biology major. He fucking hated me because, you know,
Speaker 1: he was doing real stuff with his life and his
Speaker 1: you know, he always had a bunch of work to
Speaker 1: do and my you know, I was like getting high
Speaker 1: and listening to low fi beats and not doing anything.
Speaker 1: So I'm not good at school. I've never been a
Speaker 1: big school person. But I guess we could. I guess
Speaker 1: if we were to go a little bit deeper and
Speaker 1: get into like the emotions of it, right is like,
Speaker 1: you know, I don't know. It's hard to say because
Speaker 1: part of me is like, well, if you're only twenty
Speaker 1: and this is what you really want to do, like,
Speaker 1: you know, give it. God, dude, I guess give it
Speaker 1: your best shot. I know that that's not I know
Speaker 1: that that's not great advice, but give it your best shot.
Speaker 1: And if you end up falling short of whatever your
Speaker 1: best shot is, just take solace in the fact that
Speaker 1: you tried, you know, so, so that's I think that's
Speaker 1: what I got for you, sam is is just just
Speaker 1: take solace in the fact that you tried. That's all
Speaker 1: I think you're gonna ever really care about, is that
Speaker 1: you know, when you go to bed at night, you
Speaker 1: try your fucking best to do the things that you
Speaker 1: wanted to do with yourself or whatever the hell that
Speaker 1: is worth learning. Okay, this is from Andrew subject line
Speaker 1: learning to be alone. He says, I think you've got
Speaker 1: to be alone slash single and with no friends for
Speaker 1: a part of your life, even if it's just a
Speaker 1: couple of months. It's necessary character development arc. And I
Speaker 1: recommend it to everyone. If you read this, you're awesome.
Speaker 1: Keep going. You know, it's interesting. I definitely I think
Speaker 1: I'll be up. I'll be a little open on this
Speaker 1: this year episode. I'm in the mood for it. You know.
Speaker 1: I think over the years that I've I think over
Speaker 1: the years i've all I've been a very like kind
Speaker 1: of you know, wanting to be alone and do things
Speaker 1: on my own kind of vibe. And I and if
Speaker 1: you're gonna do that, right, if you're gonna learn to
Speaker 1: be alone, I actually agree with this email. I agree
Speaker 1: with this email that you should try to learn how
Speaker 1: to be alone, especially if you're young, like dude, if
Speaker 1: you're in your fucking if you're in your like early
Speaker 1: twenties or something like that, you gotta it's it's okay
Speaker 1: to learn how to be alone and go on a
Speaker 1: little solo trip. And it is, I agree, a necessary
Speaker 1: character development arc. And I think through all the times
Speaker 1: that I've gone on a solo trip or been alone
Speaker 1: or struggled with loneliness. I agree, it's been like a
Speaker 1: big character arc for me. But also, you know, over
Speaker 1: I think over the years, if you do it too much,
Speaker 1: you kind of wake up and you're like, oh, this
Speaker 1: is not I mean again, it's it's It's what I
Speaker 1: was saying earlier. Everyone's brain is fucking wired differently, and so, uh,
Speaker 1: you know, I personally think that having quality social connections
Speaker 1: in your life is probably the most important fucking thing
Speaker 1: on the possibly fucking do for yourself. Right, some people
Speaker 1: aren't as lucky to have those things come. Some people
Speaker 1: are really fucking lucky and those things just come naturally
Speaker 1: to their lives, and other people aren't and they have
Speaker 1: to kind of work a little bit harder for them.
Speaker 1: But uh, you know, I agree with this the spirit
Speaker 1: of this email, and like it's okay to learn, you
Speaker 1: gotta you gotta kind of learn how to be alone,
Speaker 1: but you know, don't drag it on too long or
Speaker 1: else you will go insane. Trust me. This is from
Speaker 1: Jane subject line touring musician struggling with daily life after
Speaker 1: Hey Lyle, I'm a musician parentheses DJ who just went
Speaker 1: on tour last year in Asia and now I'm doing
Speaker 1: Latin America. I do longish tours where I stay in
Speaker 1: the city I perform for a few weeks to really
Speaker 1: get a feeling for what it's like and to connect
Speaker 1: with the people here. I'm also commissioning a three D
Speaker 1: artist that helps me pay the bills on the go.
Speaker 1: It's hard for me when I head back home to
Speaker 1: cope with daily life. I just kind of stare at
Speaker 1: my wall, like why why do I have a space
Speaker 1: when I could just be on the move all the time.
Speaker 1: I can't slow down, even though I feel like I should.
Speaker 1: Sometimes As someone who also tours a bunch, how do
Speaker 1: you handle the come down afterwards? Thank you, Jane. Finally
Speaker 1: a fucking email where I feel like I can speak
Speaker 1: on it, dude. So yeah, I mean, I've been touring.
Speaker 1: I've been lucky enough to tour as the therapy get
Speaker 1: go for like basically on and off for two and
Speaker 1: a half years. And yeah, you know, Jane, I'm in
Speaker 1: the same boat here because I'm taking this year off
Speaker 1: of touring, which I think was a necessary thing to
Speaker 1: do because I had to, you know, kind of take
Speaker 1: the time to evaluate a lot of life things and
Speaker 1: kind of kind of deal with them, but I'm with
Speaker 1: you too. Like when I'm on the road, life feels
Speaker 1: really like there's a weird linear thing to it, where like,
Speaker 1: when I'm on the road, all I have to worry
Speaker 1: about is the show I am doing tonight in Saint Louis, Missouri.
Speaker 1: It's a very present thing when you have a show
Speaker 1: and you're performing and going all around, because you're focused
Speaker 1: on the present moment and where you are, and it
Speaker 1: kind of gets you like there is linear aspect to
Speaker 1: it where it's like, Okay, I have this many shows
Speaker 1: to do, and let me walk in this straight line.
Speaker 1: And life is a little scary in the fact that
Speaker 1: it doesn't often have straight lines, especially if you're a
Speaker 1: musician or a gecko or something non traditional. You know,
Speaker 1: life doesn't have a lot of straight lines to it,
Speaker 1: and so touring gives you a bit of a straight line.
Speaker 1: And when you get off a tour, yet you don't
Speaker 1: have a straight line anymore. And that's fucking spooky. So
Speaker 1: how do I handle the come down afterwards? The truth is, Jane,
Speaker 1: I haven't been doing a great job of handling to
Speaker 1: come down afterwards. But I think it's it's probably, And
Speaker 1: actually I'm happy to be reading this email because it's
Speaker 1: making me have to find an answer to this question.
Speaker 1: And so I think, in this very moment, I'm just
Speaker 1: kind of like, you probably have to establish some kind
Speaker 1: of routine, because when I was on the road, I
Speaker 1: felt calm and I felt like I had a routine.
Speaker 1: It was like, you know, go to the airport, do
Speaker 1: fucking this shit, set up the show, do meet with people,
Speaker 1: smoke weed at two o'clock in the morning, and go
Speaker 1: to bed and wake up and do it again. And
Speaker 1: so I think, I think again, Yeah, from person who
Speaker 1: tours to person to tours, it's like touring established a
Speaker 1: routine for me, and then when the routine went way,
Speaker 1: I just started to kind of falter. And so, uh,
Speaker 1: I think the answer is going to be like coming
Speaker 1: up with another routine for yourself, for myself, and so hope,
Speaker 1: hopefully you can find a routine that makes you feel
Speaker 1: some level of excitement, right, Uh, some level of excitement
Speaker 1: for what you had when you were on tour. And yeah,
Speaker 1: it's hard, you know, man, if if you're the kind
Speaker 1: of person where you want you want a lot out
Speaker 1: of life, you want a lot out of uh, you know,
Speaker 1: you live in crazy rock star Land, You're in Asia,
Speaker 1: you're in Latin America, you're you're talking to this person,
Speaker 1: you're doing this. I mean, it's it's, uh, it's beautiful.
Speaker 1: It's it's the kind of you know, it's it's it's
Speaker 1: a beautiful existence. But I don't know if it's sustainable
Speaker 1: to live it forever, or at least you can live
Speaker 1: it forever, but I don't know if it's sustainable to
Speaker 1: live it constantly. And so yeah, you need to kind
Speaker 1: of build some kind of routine. I guess do push
Speaker 1: ups or something. All Right, that was a rant. That
Speaker 1: was a whole rant, But I guess this whole podcast
Speaker 1: is a whole fucking rant. So let's keep going. Caitlin says,
Speaker 1: save me, mister gecko, Hi, gek, I'm having a life crisis,
Speaker 1: and your knowledgeable on these things is a gecko. I
Speaker 1: don't know about that. What are your thoughts on life
Speaker 1: in twenty twenty five and the groundhog from Groundhog Day?
Speaker 1: I don't know much about the groundhog from Groundhog Day,
Speaker 1: but one of my thoughts on life in twenty twenty five,
Speaker 1: I mean, Ski, it's spooky for sure, you know, I'll
Speaker 1: talk about this. This is something that comes up in
Speaker 1: my brain is I don't think it's healthy to know
Speaker 1: so much about other people's lives. And the reason I
Speaker 1: bring that up specifically is that I like, I'm on Instagram,
Speaker 1: as many of us are, and you know, sometimes when
Speaker 1: I'm not doing anything, I'll just find myself scrolling through
Speaker 1: Instagram stories. I mean, you scroll through Instagram stories, You're
Speaker 1: getting all these fucking people's windows into their lives, and
Speaker 1: you start comparing yourself to other people's lives, and you
Speaker 1: start just having all of life thrown at you in
Speaker 1: in fucking twenty seconds. And it's probably not good. It's
Speaker 1: not that's too much information to have. That's my that's
Speaker 1: my scary thing about twenty twenty five is that I
Speaker 1: feel like we have, you know, in many ways, twenty
Speaker 1: twenty five. And the information that we have in this
Speaker 1: in this day and age is good and helpful. It
Speaker 1: allows people to find each other that couldn't before and
Speaker 1: allows you to get answers to shit that you just
Speaker 1: had to fucking sucked, shove down and deal with beforehand.
Speaker 1: But it's also a little too much information, Like I
Speaker 1: don't need to know what some guy I fucking met
Speaker 1: at something four years ago is doing today. I don't
Speaker 1: need to know that, you know, and so, but it's
Speaker 1: also it's also all in our control, like all these
Speaker 1: fucking you know where our brains are trained to be
Speaker 1: on this shit as much as possible, And but it is,
Speaker 1: it is in our control. And so I guess, I
Speaker 1: guess that's a fucking antidote, is too If I don't.
Speaker 1: If I think it's too much information, I'm just gonna
Speaker 1: fucking stop looking at Instagram stories so much, which is
Speaker 1: probably a good idea. So thoughts on living in twenty
Speaker 1: twenty five Enjoy the information era and all of its gifts,
Speaker 1: but don't fly too close to the sun, I suppose
Speaker 1: is my thoughts on twenty twenty five. All Right, I'm
Speaker 1: feeling pretty good. I'm big chillin'. Let us continue to
Speaker 1: take uh more things. This is from Albert, subject line
Speaker 1: in all caps, help, a bunch of exclamation points, and
Speaker 1: then this email is in all caps. Gek, I'm drunk
Speaker 1: af the bar overserved me. Man, I hit my wax vape,
Speaker 1: and I'm currently paying for the consequences of my decisions.
Speaker 1: Please help. PS. I love you man, You're so cool. Albert, Well,
Speaker 1: let's see. Albert sent me this email on February tenth,
Speaker 1: and it is currently March first, so he's probably dead
Speaker 1: by now. But in case if he's not, man, just
Speaker 1: fucking drink some water, Albert, drink some water. Go to sleep.
Speaker 1: Sometimes you just got to drink some water and go
Speaker 1: to sleep, all right, okay? Subject line Okay, this is
Speaker 1: from Thai subject line. I illustrated a children's book for
Speaker 1: adults about death and included a cameo of you in it.
Speaker 1: Whoa Peace Gek. My name is Titan and I'm an
Speaker 1: artist from the Bronx. I recently wrote and illustrated a
Speaker 1: children's book about death and included a little cameo of
Speaker 1: you in it. I've had thoughts surrounding death since I
Speaker 1: was eight years old, but never to the point of
Speaker 1: action toward taking my own life. I'm twenty eight now,
Speaker 1: and I feel this rumination on death has given me
Speaker 1: an interesting perspective on life. I am fortunate to have
Speaker 1: met people along my path who have had similar thoughts, struggles, philosophies,
Speaker 1: and even solutions on how to lead a more fulfilling
Speaker 1: and beautiful life. So I wrote and drew a little
Speaker 1: something that I thought could help others as they've helped
Speaker 1: me over time. Anyway, I think this might be getting
Speaker 1: kind of long, and I really want you to read
Speaker 1: my I'm gonna end it here, but I'd love to
Speaker 1: hear your thoughts on the book whenever you get the chance. Also,
Speaker 1: I love your show man, Thank you for you, peace
Speaker 1: and love Titan. Let me hold on. Then this is
Speaker 1: the page with you in it. Oh, this is cool.
Speaker 1: This is cool. This is really cool. I know this
Speaker 1: is an audio only show, so I can't really describe,
Speaker 1: but basically, I'm I've got a lizard guy writing my
Speaker 1: back the children's book. Maybe I can. Here's a link
Speaker 1: to the physical purchase of book. Okay, here in case
Speaker 1: if anyone wants to check out this book. It's called
Speaker 1: One Day You Will Die, Written and illustrated by Titan,
Speaker 1: and it's pronounced it's spelled t A I I T
Speaker 1: A N. One Day you Will Die, Written and Illustrated
Speaker 1: by Titan. And uh, yeah, it's on it's on Amazon.
Speaker 1: Let's see here. That's pretty cool. Okay, I'm gonna check
Speaker 1: this ship out. I'm gonna check this ship out. Oh,
Speaker 1: they sent me a link to a free version of
Speaker 1: the book. You know, it's okay, So this person sent
Speaker 1: me this email, so a little bit more about what's
Speaker 1: going on with me and in life is this person
Speaker 1: sent me this email also February tenth, also like two
Speaker 1: and a half weeks ago. In the past three days,
Speaker 1: I have actually been having like tons of like insane
Speaker 1: existential dread surrounding death. Uh. It's been actually pretty debilitating,
Speaker 1: pretty bad. But you know, I'm about to go to
Speaker 1: a psych and figure the shit out. So we're, uh,
Speaker 1: you know, we're gonna we're gonna pull through. We're gonna
Speaker 1: be we're gonna come back greater than ever. But it's
Speaker 1: cool because this person's around my age, and it seems
Speaker 1: as though they're they're doing pretty good job at uh,
Speaker 1: you know, dealing with these these these difficult thoughts and feelings.
Speaker 1: So good on, good on you, Titan. I'm gonna check
Speaker 1: out this book. Thanks, thanks for sharing. Okay, all right,
Speaker 1: this is from Benjamin, subject line go kart Rehab. Hey gek,
Speaker 1: I'm not sure if you remember, but about a year
Speaker 1: and a half ago, I called in from a Canadian
Speaker 1: go kart rehab. I do absolutely remember you calling in
Speaker 1: from a Canadian go kart Rehab. I figured i'd send
Speaker 1: you an update, partly because it feels right and partly
Speaker 1: because it's just cool to reflect on how far things
Speaker 1: have come since leaving Rehab. I somehow managed to land
Speaker 1: a full time office job with great benefits, flexible benefits,
Speaker 1: travel management responsibility, the whole nine yards. On top of that,
Speaker 1: I started a small family vending machine business. Very cool.
Speaker 1: And I'm also working on my MBA in business analytics
Speaker 1: because apparently I'm addicted to adding more to my plate.
Speaker 1: I'm also gunning for a promotion to sales manager soon,
Speaker 1: because why not. It hasn't been a smooth ride. There
Speaker 1: were plenty of relapses. Actually, we lost a baby before
Speaker 1: they were born. I'm sorry to hear that, which hit
Speaker 1: harder than we could have imagined. But we also had
Speaker 1: another kid, and just to make sure we're done with surprises,
Speaker 1: I got the old Snip Snip about a month ago.
Speaker 1: Congrats on the sect to me brother. Now we're living
Speaker 1: in a beautiful, brand new house with more space than
Speaker 1: we know what to do with. We share rent with
Speaker 1: my mother in law and brother in law, which sounds
Speaker 1: like the setup for a bad sitcom, but it actually works.
Speaker 1: It lets my wife stay home with the kids while
Speaker 1: they're young, and somehow it feels like we've carved out
Speaker 1: a little slice of stability in the chaos. That's fucking sick, brother.
Speaker 1: I'm very happy to hear that a little spice of
Speaker 1: stability in the chaos sounds like a wonderful thing. But
Speaker 1: it has been work, so much work. I had to
Speaker 1: take the discipline I picked up in rehab and apply
Speaker 1: it in real life, failing, getting back up, failing again.
Speaker 1: Even when I had relapsed and was dependent on substances again,
Speaker 1: there were probably times should have gone back to rehab,
Speaker 1: but I didn't. I just kept clawing my way forward,
Speaker 1: one messy step at a time. I'm still an addict,
Speaker 1: but now it's to work, school and chasing promotions to
Speaker 1: provide for my family. But I've got to handle on
Speaker 1: the substances. More importantly, I've got hobbies and interests that
Speaker 1: actually make me happy instead of just numbing me out.
Speaker 1: That's new. I still get the thoughts, though they don't disappear,
Speaker 1: they just get quieter. Weed is still a part of
Speaker 1: my life, but I'm trying to get away from it.
Speaker 1: The key for me, Kaisen, what the fuck is Kaisen?
Speaker 1: I'm googling this Kaisen. Kaizen is a concept referring to
Speaker 1: business activities that continually improve all functions and evolve all employees.
Speaker 1: It translates to change for the better, change for the better.
Speaker 1: The key for me kaisen continuous improvement, tiny steps forward,
Speaker 1: even when they feel pointless, especially when they feel pointless,
Speaker 1: is what he wrote. That's cool anyway, thanks for listening.
Speaker 1: Back then it mattered, and if you read this now,
Speaker 1: it still does. I'd love to chat again one take care, crazy,
Speaker 1: get go, man. This is a really beautiful email. Man,
Speaker 1: I I appreciate it. That's really nice. Yeah. Again, as
Speaker 1: someone who is also kind of trying to fucking I record,
Speaker 1: I don't. I recorded a podcast before this one that
Speaker 1: I was gonna release today, but I decided to shelvetz
Speaker 1: because it was I was I went on like kind
Speaker 1: of an insane rant and it felt a little too.
Speaker 1: I was crying. It was a whole thing, and I
Speaker 1: was like, I was like, this is going to be
Speaker 1: art for my podcast, and you know, maybe one day
Speaker 1: I'll share that, but I'm recording this instead. But I'll
Speaker 1: talk a little bit about you know. I'm again like
Speaker 1: at a weird point where like life feels pointless and
Speaker 1: fucking I'm trying to move forward and find meaning and
Speaker 1: do all these things, and so I really enjoy reading
Speaker 1: your email, Benjamin. Yeah, it's cool to hear that tiny
Speaker 1: step forward are helping you even when they feel pointless.
Speaker 1: And also again hearing that you found a little bit
Speaker 1: of this licensability and the chaos. It's a beautiful thing, brother.
Speaker 1: So congratulations Benjamin. Hopefully I'll talk to you again soon.
Speaker 1: All right, all right, this is from Lewis anonymous. Hello
Speaker 1: from Ireland. Yo gek, give me a fake name, Okay,
Speaker 1: Lewis first time emailer, slash caller, but two time show
Speaker 1: goer when you came to Dublin, Ireland, kick ass. I
Speaker 1: wanted to share my current situation as I'm struggling to
Speaker 1: process at all. Recently, my wife and I separated. She
Speaker 1: has always faced mental health challenges, and she decided to
Speaker 1: end our relationship to focus on working on herself. While
Speaker 1: I understand and respect her decision, I can't help feeling
Speaker 1: that we could have tried to navigate this together. She
Speaker 1: explained that throughout our ten year relationship, I was always
Speaker 1: there to support her through her struggles, but she now
Speaker 1: feels she needs to figure things out out on her own.
Speaker 1: Even though we're on good terms, the separation has left
Speaker 1: me feeling lost and questioning the point of everything. We
Speaker 1: were best friends and I truly believed we'd spend our
Speaker 1: lives together. Now, despite having a decent job and being
Speaker 1: relatively young, I'm struggling with feelings of emptiness in the
Speaker 1: urge to just give up. Thanks fake name, I forget
Speaker 1: what fake name I originally gave you. Lewis Lewis. Um
Speaker 1: hmmmm hmmm, ah, Lewis Lewis, Lewis, Lewis, Lewis, Lewis Lewis Man,
Speaker 1: all these man sometimes all these phone calls and these
Speaker 1: emails man, and then kind of comparing them to shit
Speaker 1: going on in my life. It's like I just always
Speaker 1: have more answer answers, more questions than answers. But let
Speaker 1: me think it, let me just try. I mean, I'm
Speaker 1: not I don't have any fucking answers at all, because
Speaker 1: I I would probably feel the exact fucking same way
Speaker 1: if I was in your position as well. Hmm, I
Speaker 1: don't know. Maybe maybe the whole point is to just
Speaker 1: not give up. Maybe that's the whole point is to
Speaker 1: just fucking through the end, through all eighty years whatever,
Speaker 1: if you're lucky enough to get eighty fucking years. Uh,
Speaker 1: just keep fucking going and keep fucking trying. I mean
Speaker 1: that not I keep bringing it back to me, but
Speaker 1: that's that's the only frame of reference that I have.
Speaker 1: Is like, Uh, when I'm struggling with feelings of emptiness
Speaker 1: in the urge to give up, I'm just like, you know,
Speaker 1: I'm a big like, let me do something about my
Speaker 1: fucking problems guy. Uh. And so I'm coming up with plans,
Speaker 1: I'm trying things, I'm executing stuff. Maybe because it might
Speaker 1: take a little while, right, you might be like, all right,
Speaker 1: I just gotta hit the fucking gym and start over
Speaker 1: and do this and do that. And maybe you try
Speaker 1: a whole bunch of shit and it doesn't fucking work.
Speaker 1: Maybe you spend a whole year trying a bunch of
Speaker 1: different shit and it doesn't fucking work, And then you
Speaker 1: just keep trying, and you just keep trying, and just
Speaker 1: keep trying, and you just keep trying, and you just
Speaker 1: keep trying, and you just keep trying. You just fucking
Speaker 1: don't fucking let yourself fall into the trap of emptiness
Speaker 1: and the void, and you don't let yourself fucking drown,
Speaker 1: and you just fucking God. And it's hard, it's the
Speaker 1: fucking hardest goddamn thing, but you just keep fucking God
Speaker 1: dag fucking Okay, I'll do it again. Okay, I'll do
Speaker 1: it again. Okay, Okay, okay, okay, Jesus Christ. And then
Speaker 1: either you'll die and nothing and it will, you know whatever, uh,
Speaker 1: or maybe some maybe fucking you'll you'll you'll through trying
Speaker 1: different things, different remedies, going out, leaving your house, eating
Speaker 1: an apple, whatever, maybe you find something that goddamn works.
Speaker 1: The brain is very uh neuroplastic. Is that the word
Speaker 1: you said? You're young too. I think it's more neuroplastic
Speaker 1: when you're young. But bro, I mean that's where I'm at,
Speaker 1: right is I'm like, uh, okay, I you know, if
Speaker 1: you feel like you're at a bizarre dead end and
Speaker 1: you're just staring at a fucking wall, you just gotta
Speaker 1: knock around and you gotta leave your safe space, I guess,
Speaker 1: and just knock and kick and fucking see what the
Speaker 1: fuck is. Maybe there's a trap door. Maybe there's because
Speaker 1: that's what it takes, right is it takes some new
Speaker 1: action that gets you out of your head to remind
Speaker 1: yourself you're alive. I'll tell a quick story. I told
Speaker 1: this on the podcast that I didn't release, that I
Speaker 1: was ranting and going insane on But I have been
Speaker 1: in Japan, and like I've been talking about a little bit,
Speaker 1: I've had this kind of like insane existential crisis lately
Speaker 1: where I've just been like preoccupied with fucking death and
Speaker 1: despair and like crazy shit. And yeah, it got really
Speaker 1: bad of it the last three days and so I
Speaker 1: was like, Okay, I need to just leave. I need
Speaker 1: to just keep trying shit and leave the house and whatever.
Speaker 1: And so I went to this cafe. It was called
Speaker 1: the English Only Cafe, and they were having like a
Speaker 1: little like meetup event. I like a shout out meetup
Speaker 1: dot com great for finding shit to do. And honestly, dude, honestly, dude,
Speaker 1: if anyone listening to this, if you're feeling empty and
Speaker 1: you're feeling insane, you're feeling lone, what I This is
Speaker 1: what I do when I'm feeling that way is I
Speaker 1: go on meetup and I'm just like, let me find
Speaker 1: a thing to go to and let me try to
Speaker 1: talk to people at this thing. And sometimes it doesn't work,
Speaker 1: it's a little hit or mess. But when it does work,
Speaker 1: and when I am able to do that, I feel
Speaker 1: fucking great because I tried to get out of the
Speaker 1: goddamn house and I tried to form some new thing
Speaker 1: in my brain to make it feel like, you know,
Speaker 1: life's not over right. And so anyway, I went to
Speaker 1: this English meet up and I there was this table,
Speaker 1: and I went and I sat down at the table
Speaker 1: and I just started like chatting with these folks and
Speaker 1: I chatted, you know, but I chatted with people and
Speaker 1: I was talking. I was talking to this guy and
Speaker 1: he was telling me about like his life, and he
Speaker 1: was telling about like trying to find a girlfriend, and
Speaker 1: he was kind of like he was talking about his
Speaker 1: life and it kind of felt like I was doing
Speaker 1: an episode of the Therapy Get Goo podcast, except I
Speaker 1: was just like doing it for fun and joy, not
Speaker 1: be not to make a fucking podcast. And that felt great,
Speaker 1: and I was like, oh shit, I forgot that deep
Speaker 1: in my like deep in my soul, is somebody who
Speaker 1: I really just believe this that I really fucking do
Speaker 1: in my gut like life and like people and things
Speaker 1: just happen, dude, that that uh take me away from
Speaker 1: that that fill my gut with like emptiness, and I
Speaker 1: just use fog. And then sometimes if you get out
Speaker 1: of bed and you go do something new that you
Speaker 1: didn't usually do, and you put yourself out there and
Speaker 1: you try to introduce yourself to new stimuli, it comes.
Speaker 1: It fucking comes back to you. So I'm at this
Speaker 1: event and I'm talking to this guy and I'm just like,
Speaker 1: you know, ah, chatting with him, and I'm chatting with
Speaker 1: other people at the fucking meet up thing, and I'm like, oh,
Speaker 1: I forgot that. I forgot that I have all this
Speaker 1: stuff that's that is me. And I felt a little
Speaker 1: bit more connected to myself in that moment. And it's
Speaker 1: always really triumphant to go from feeling hopeless to having
Speaker 1: a little moment where you're like, Okay, all is not gone.
Speaker 1: My brain continues to have the capacity to feel good,
Speaker 1: you know. So yeah, that's just again, that's just you know,
Speaker 1: I forget what I fake name I gave you. And
Speaker 1: I also know that I'm not even really talking about
Speaker 1: your email anymore. I'm just trying to relate to it.
Speaker 1: But how do you beat the urge to give up?
Speaker 1: I don't know. Go on, go on meetup and fucking
Speaker 1: try to talk to some folks or do something new.
Speaker 1: I don't know. Yeah, I guess that's it. Just try
Speaker 1: and trying new shit. Just knocking at the fucking door.
Speaker 1: That's what I'm trying, dude. I don't know. I don't
Speaker 1: know if any of the shit I'm saying makes any sense,
Speaker 1: but it's just it's just what I'm trying. All right.
Speaker 1: This is from Evan. Subject line I got fired from
Speaker 1: my dream job on my thirtieth birthday and life has
Speaker 1: never been better. Ooh, all right, this is an email
Speaker 1: I need today. This is from Evan, subject line hey gek.
Speaker 1: Oh wait, no, this is not. I already read the
Speaker 1: subject line, hey gek. I'm a wheelder fabricate welder, fabricator
Speaker 1: and built heavy equipment for nearly a decade leading up
Speaker 1: to my thirtieth birthday. I had always done some custom
Speaker 1: fabrication and artwork out of my home shop and really
Speaker 1: wanted to pursue my dreams. I found a small shop
Speaker 1: that was a two man team and decided to quit
Speaker 1: my safe job to go work for them in the
Speaker 1: hopes of finding mentorship. After two weeks, it was clear
Speaker 1: they had a poor attitude towards someone who was still learning,
Speaker 1: and I was confirmed when on my birthday the following
Speaker 1: week they fired me because I was not what they
Speaker 1: were looking for. Honestly, it was the best thing that
Speaker 1: ever happened to me. So many people are afraid to
Speaker 1: finally start their dream, waiting for a mentor to help
Speaker 1: them get their start. Mmm. I decided to say fuck
Speaker 1: it and just start building cool stuff out of my
Speaker 1: home shop and even started learning how to film and
Speaker 1: edit video to put them on my YouTube channel to
Speaker 1: help drum up more work. This past year, I built
Speaker 1: custom furniture, took a massive road trip in fifty year
Speaker 1: old cars with my friends and girlfriend, built a thirty
Speaker 1: foot long animatronic Beetle Juice sand Worm. Holy shit, he
Speaker 1: has a picture of the Beatles Juice Samworm. That's insane.
Speaker 1: Did a ton of racecar fab for fantastic customers, and
Speaker 1: now I'm just finishing off a custom race car that
Speaker 1: I started for an amazing client, as well as rescued
Speaker 1: a sick dog who needed several surgeries, all of which
Speaker 1: I couldn't do if I wasn't working for myself. My
Speaker 1: advice for everyone would be that the life. My advice
Speaker 1: for everyone would be that your life is just going
Speaker 1: to be hard, regardless if you choose the safe options
Speaker 1: or if you try something crazy and fail. Don't give up.
Speaker 1: Do what you love. And if someone tells you you
Speaker 1: don't deserve to be in the room with all your heroes,
Speaker 1: feel free to nail the door shut. Much love, Evan,
Speaker 1: Thanks Evan, This is a cool email, man. I really
Speaker 1: like this. It's again, you know, at a time in
Speaker 1: which I'm you know, I turned twenty seven recently and
Speaker 1: I think it's weighing on me in weird ways, and
Speaker 1: so you know, I'm I'm honored to get to read
Speaker 1: your fucking email and here that you've gotten to, you know,
Speaker 1: really live a beautiful, fucking awesome life starting at thirty.
Speaker 1: And you know that's really cool. Man. Congratulations. Congratulations is awesome.
Speaker 1: Oh please check out his YouTube channel, Enemy metal Works.
Speaker 1: Let me I'm actually gonna check. Let me check this
Speaker 1: out real quick, Enemy metal Works. Look at this fucking
Speaker 1: guy workshop, No bake pumpkin spiced cheesecake at three am
Speaker 1: with power tools? What a homie dude. This is a
Speaker 1: cool guy. Yeah, go check out his YouTube channel, Enemy
Speaker 1: Metal Works. Oh yeah, oh we had a video pop
Speaker 1: off four point three cave UWS kick ass rock and roll.
Speaker 1: All right, um yeah, thank you for sharing. Evan. Uh.
Speaker 1: Let's see here all right. This is from Faith subject
Speaker 1: line Alaska and alcohol. What's up, gek? The start of
Speaker 1: this year has been a crazy one. January first, I
Speaker 1: arrived in Anchorage, Alaska from Nashville from Asheville, North Carolina.
Speaker 1: I traveled up here. Okay, I arrived in Anchorage, Alaska
Speaker 1: from Asheville, North Carolina bank. I traveled up here with
Speaker 1: my boyfriend of two years because he has a great
Speaker 1: job opportunity and he invited me along. I brought my dog,
Speaker 1: She's a Pitbull Docson mix, and she did better on
Speaker 1: the planes than I thought. Anyway, a few days after
Speaker 1: we got to Alaska, I had too much to drink
Speaker 1: and ended up in jail. That's interesting. I only stayed
Speaker 1: a night, but it was the worst experience of my life.
Speaker 1: I still have a pending case, so I won't even
Speaker 1: know the what is it? I still have a pending case,
Speaker 1: so I won't be detailing the Oh Oh sorry, I'm
Speaker 1: reading the email RNG. Okay, wor's the experience of my life.
Speaker 1: I still have a pending case, so I won't be
Speaker 1: detailing the events, though I do have stipulations stating that
Speaker 1: I cannot drink. Understandably, I am twenty one years old
Speaker 1: and I've had an alcohol problem for a few years now.
Speaker 1: It's hard to stay away from it, even though I
Speaker 1: know I cause trouble when I drink. My boyfriend has
Speaker 1: been supportive, but he's losing patience with me. I feel
Speaker 1: like I'm a magnet for chaos. Any thoughts for me? Uh,
Speaker 1: just start listening to your podcasts, keep doing what you do.
Speaker 1: Thank you, Faith, Any thoughts for you? I'm gonna guess
Speaker 1: stop drinking. I've had an alcohol problem for a few
Speaker 1: years now. Well, I don't want to say stop drink.
Speaker 1: I don't want to just I take that back, just stop. Well,
Speaker 1: I mean I don't take back stop drinking, but I
Speaker 1: take back I don't. I don't mean to trivialize the issue,
Speaker 1: right hm, honest, honest to God, Faith, my faith. My
Speaker 1: honest answer is just like if I were you, and
Speaker 1: if I was in this situation and I was having
Speaker 1: problem with accohoab. I mean, just gotta get help, right,
Speaker 1: You gotta go to AA or or go see a
Speaker 1: fucking therapist or uh, you know, try to go to
Speaker 1: a rehab or something. I know it's I know it's
Speaker 1: hard to find the like resources to do that ship,
Speaker 1: but you just gotta get help, dude. You gotta get
Speaker 1: like real fucking help from uh uh professional people who
Speaker 1: help people get off of substances. That's what you gotta do.
Speaker 1: Just I guess, just fucking I guess faith to just
Speaker 1: decide that you're gonna fucking figure it out right, and again,
Speaker 1: kind of similar to the little spiel I went on
Speaker 1: about the brick wall, is like, just decide you want
Speaker 1: to fucking be better. You want I mean, you want
Speaker 1: to you wanna fucking uh get better, You want to
Speaker 1: beat your problem. You know, just decide you want to
Speaker 1: beat this fucking thing, and uh spend every waking second
Speaker 1: that you can working on how to do it, whether
Speaker 1: that's getting professional help or researching online how to detox
Speaker 1: yourself or whatever. I think it's just a matter of
Speaker 1: like deciding for yourself that you're going to prioritize getting
Speaker 1: rid of the problem so that you can you know,
Speaker 1: go on to live a better life. Uh, that's just
Speaker 1: what I would do. That's just that's again I keep
Speaker 1: bringing everything back to me. But that's because I can
Speaker 1: only speak from my own life. I don't really feel
Speaker 1: inclined to be able to judge other people's lives or
Speaker 1: tell other people what they should do. But you know,
Speaker 1: when I have problems, I mean, that's kind of how
Speaker 1: I try to approach them. Let's see. Okay, okay. This
Speaker 1: is from Dan subject Line Welsh synth Wizard, Oh dear
Speaker 1: Lyle parentheses Therapy, Gecko shoe May. I hail from Wales
Speaker 1: in my early thirties. I have a stable job, I
Speaker 1: can drive, I live with my parents, have a dog,
Speaker 1: and help take care of my sick grandmother who also
Speaker 1: lives here and needs twenty four to seven care. This aside,
Speaker 1: I have a lot of independence, a great relationship with
Speaker 1: my family and friends. I pay rent and I have
Speaker 1: no issues supporting them right now. I had a girlfriend.
Speaker 1: She was fun, high energy, but chaotic and unpredictable, and
Speaker 1: after nearly a year, she broke up with me on
Speaker 1: my birthday and said she was moving in with another guy.
Speaker 1: Even gaslighted me that we weren't even a relationship, and
Speaker 1: then after all that gave me presents that was rough.
Speaker 1: Ultimately I had to cut contact with her, but despite everything,
Speaker 1: I don't regret meeting her. Maybe trust issues to deal
Speaker 1: with for now. On dating apps again, but no success
Speaker 1: so far. I get matches, but often they fizzle out
Speaker 1: by the time I arrange a meetup. It feels like
Speaker 1: applying for jobs. It is absolutely like applying for jobs.
Speaker 1: That all said, I have no rush to get a girlfriend.
Speaker 1: Single life is good and I'm happy. That's fucking wonderful.
Speaker 1: I write a lot, play D and D with a
Speaker 1: bunch of people. I also joined a walking club near me,
Speaker 1: and I make music in my spare time, like Dungeon Synth,
Speaker 1: which is doing okay on YouTube nearly three k views.
Speaker 1: Look up at Angels Sore Welsh Dungeon Synth on YouTube
Speaker 1: if you want a lot of self promotion on this episode,
Speaker 1: but I don't mind. I like it. If anyone gets
Speaker 1: any sort of runoff folks from this podcast into whatever
Speaker 1: fucking thing they're doing, I'm happy about it. Angels Sore
Speaker 1: A n G E L Y S t O R
Speaker 1: Welsh Dungeon Synth. Anyway, I could easily dwell on misery
Speaker 1: how I'm not where I should be. But your podcast
Speaker 1: is great. It teaches about gratitude and what I have
Speaker 1: good right now. I'm so it's so fucking funny because
Speaker 1: the life I feel, like the life of this podcast
Speaker 1: and the life of like what goes on in my
Speaker 1: own like actual brain is difference, you know, because I
Speaker 1: always forget, because it's I always forget to be grateful
Speaker 1: and I always forget to do all this shit. So
Speaker 1: it's actually kind of it's actually kind of cool and
Speaker 1: interesting to you know, talk a whole bunch of shit
Speaker 1: on my podcast and then people reflect it back at me,
Speaker 1: and then I'm like, ah, fuck, all right, I gotta
Speaker 1: do these things. Is that I'm It's weird. It almost
Speaker 1: feels like I'm looking in a mirror in a weird
Speaker 1: way of like I'm putting all this ship out into
Speaker 1: the world and then and then it comes back at me. Anyway, Uh,
Speaker 1: there is an all pervading happiness under everything. It's a
Speaker 1: matter of perspective. I agree, you're the best lyle. No,
Speaker 1: You're the fucking best Welsh synth wizard. Thanks man, This
Speaker 1: is cool. This is a cool email. This All these
Speaker 1: emails are like hitting me. All these emails are hitting
Speaker 1: the fucking spot today. Yeah. Like I said, I I
Speaker 1: recorded kind of a crazy rant episode where I shared
Speaker 1: a lot of fucked up stuff going on with with
Speaker 1: my brain right now. I decided I didn't want to
Speaker 1: share it, but so I'm recording this now. It's because
Speaker 1: I got to put out an episode. Uh. And it's
Speaker 1: funny how all the emails are are kind of like
Speaker 1: on on theme in a sense to you know, just
Speaker 1: like trying to like enjoy life. I suppose this is cool.
Speaker 1: I really fuck with this email the shout at Dan
Speaker 1: the Welsh synth wizard. All right, let's see, all right,
Speaker 1: this is from Kimberly, subject line how do I start
Speaker 1: a majen club? Plus a recommendation for you. Hey, Gek,
Speaker 1: I love listening to your stuff. Come to Milwaukee again,
Speaker 1: and I'll buy tickets despite the wild Ticketmaster fees. Ah fuck.
Speaker 1: All right. Well, I'm trying to take two of your
Speaker 1: Gecko teachings to heart. One is redirecting my energy towards
Speaker 1: things that are more important. Aka the grass is greener
Speaker 1: where you water it. This has helped me from making
Speaker 1: some very This has helped me from making some very big,
Speaker 1: stupid decisions in my life. So thank you. Did I
Speaker 1: say that this is crazy, I'm telling you, folks, I'm
Speaker 1: telling you it's crazy. I say a whole bunch of
Speaker 1: shit to people on my podcast, and then I go
Speaker 1: into my real life and my real brain and it's
Speaker 1: it's it's it's all on fire, and it is a
Speaker 1: kind of psychedelic situation to come back and see, uh,
Speaker 1: you know what's going on? You know, just have have
Speaker 1: all my shit reflected back in me. The grass is
Speaker 1: grainer where you water it. I mean, it is true.
Speaker 1: It is true to foster a community. That's you know.
Speaker 1: That's another thing. I play majong online, but I want
Speaker 1: to play it with real people. The only majng clubs
Speaker 1: in my area are fifty people fifty five plus and
Speaker 1: they only meet during the workday. I want to start
Speaker 1: a Majong club, but I don't know how. Networking shouldn't
Speaker 1: be too much of an issue, but I'm stuck on
Speaker 1: the logistics where to host it. Mostly, I'm not inviting
Speaker 1: strangers into a house that isn't even mine. Any help
Speaker 1: would be awesome. One last thing for you. Watch The
Speaker 1: Tale of Princess Kagua, You'll never feel so good about
Speaker 1: feeling like shit. I get the sense of euphoria from
Speaker 1: just existing. Now. I remember what a privilege it is
Speaker 1: to be alive and to be able to feel things.
Speaker 1: Even the miser. Take its message to heart. It'll change you.
Speaker 1: Thanks million. Okay, all right, maybe I actually we'll watch
Speaker 1: this shit, the Tale of Princess Kagua. What is this?
Speaker 1: I'm going to google this, let's see. All right, cool,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna check this out anyway. How do I start
Speaker 1: a moja club? I mean meetup is great for that shit? Uh,
Speaker 1: definitely in for meetup. Where do you host it? Uh? Well,
Speaker 1: I don't know. Man, Milwaukee has a ton of great bars.
Speaker 1: And why don't you try to find a bar that's
Speaker 1: like slow on a what it says it's only weekdays?
Speaker 1: I mean, why don't you try like a bar or
Speaker 1: a coffee shop or a cafe. Right, That's what I
Speaker 1: would do, is I would find like a I'm sure
Speaker 1: Milwaukee has a hipster coffee shop cafe shit that you
Speaker 1: could like, uh ask if you know, maybe on a
Speaker 1: Monday morning or something like that, you could do a
Speaker 1: little majong club and then you can just promote it
Speaker 1: on meetup and Facebook and Instagram and all that shit.
Speaker 1: That's my recommendation for you. Good on you for doing
Speaker 1: a club. I like that. That's that's again fostering a
Speaker 1: community through through doing shit like this. It's it's, it's
Speaker 1: I think it's the key to life. All right. I
Speaker 1: think I'm gonna do one more e mail subject line
Speaker 1: thinking about getting a a day. Okay, hey man, it's brody.
Speaker 1: All right, Sorry, hey man, it's brody. I'm currently in
Speaker 1: college and spend most of my day on campus. I
Speaker 1: hate using the bathrooms because I used to do terrible
Speaker 1: things in the bathroom in my youth. Uh, shit on
Speaker 1: the seat and leave it, etc. Okay, anyway, so I
Speaker 1: hate using the school bathrooms. But yesterday I had a
Speaker 1: bad case of bubble guts and had to hit the bathroom,
Speaker 1: as most men do. I have hair all down there,
Speaker 1: and today I happen to have a semi solid shit storm.
Speaker 1: This is the email that I'm ending on. I'm not
Speaker 1: reading any more emails. After this. I went to wipe
Speaker 1: and it got everywhere. I wiped it all on my
Speaker 1: ass hair on accident, and it got in my damn
Speaker 1: hand I'm getting real sick of this happening and I'm stuck.
Speaker 1: Do I shave my ass hair is like a weirdo?
Speaker 1: Or get a bidet? Please help? Uh? Interesting, you know
Speaker 1: it's funny. Anytime I have shaved my ass hairs in
Speaker 1: the past, it just causes itching like fucking crazy. Brother,
Speaker 1: it causes itching like fucking crazy. I would recommend getting
Speaker 1: a bi day. I don't have one in New York,
Speaker 1: but I've been in Tokyo for the past two months
Speaker 1: and bidets are sick. I don't know how we live
Speaker 1: without them. You gotta, I think I was. When I
Speaker 1: first started using a bidet, I was a little hesitant
Speaker 1: towards it's letting the water really shove itself up my ass.
Speaker 1: But now, uh, you know, my asshole embraces uh having
Speaker 1: having a water gun UH squirted directly into it, and
Speaker 1: I suggest you embrace it too. Uh. Folks, that's been
Speaker 1: gek mail. Thank you all very much for listening to
Speaker 1: this show. Uh. If you wanna submit an email, please
Speaker 1: send an email to therapy geckomail at gmail dot com.
Speaker 1: That's therapy geckomail at gmail dot com. I think it's
Speaker 1: therapy gecko mail. At gmail dot com. I'm probably gonna
Speaker 1: be doing a lot more of these gek mail episodes.
Speaker 1: I'm enjoying them. They're fun. There there's sometimes when I
Speaker 1: sometimes I need a break from talking to people on
Speaker 1: the phone and I just need to rant into a
Speaker 1: microphone for an hour. So I'll be doing a lot
Speaker 1: more gek mail. Send an email to therapy geckomail at
Speaker 1: gmail dot com. Thank you all for listening, and uh please,
Speaker 1: dear God, come to my little art gallery. It's it
Speaker 1: is on March fourteenth, seven pm to ten pm. Trash
Speaker 1: from around my room. It's on display actually March fourteenth
Speaker 1: to the twenty second, so if you if you miss it,
Speaker 1: you can go see it. And yeah you can RSVP.
Speaker 1: There's a little link in the episode description. And thank
Speaker 1: you guys all for listening to my podcast. Good luck,
Speaker 1: Thank you so much for listening, and take care bye.
Speaker 1: Everyone goes on the line taking your phone calls every
Speaker 1: nine never goes to him. Just teaching you cloud on
Speaker 1: the memory of Linny Expert