WEBVTT - A Lil Lextra 0:00:00.080 --> 0:00:04.560 Got a rose, baby, it's your birthday, baby, celebrate. 0:00:05.160 --> 0:00:08.880 I feel a libration. Yeah, okay, I kind of remember, 0:00:08.920 --> 0:00:09.760 but I kind of don't. 0:00:09.800 --> 0:00:12.000 That was a vibe. You can put it on your 0:00:12.039 --> 0:00:14.480 play least, your fuck your fucking play least. 0:00:14.680 --> 0:00:16.560 I don't need a playlist to fuck, but I'm a 0:00:16.640 --> 0:00:18.160 fuck to a song if it's there. 0:00:18.320 --> 0:00:20.000 Yeah, you should put that song on your plate. 0:00:20.200 --> 0:00:25.480 A fucked anything working nine too five, I'm fucking. 0:00:27.160 --> 0:00:29.080 How do I got to. 0:00:30.760 --> 0:00:33.080 I'm fucking what was you listening to? Early song? 0:00:33.159 --> 0:00:35.520 And I don't even know what song that is exactly. 0:00:37.560 --> 0:00:41.400 Yeah, it's a party in the USAG. 0:00:41.800 --> 0:01:04.720 I'm fucking what's up, y'all? 0:01:04.800 --> 0:01:07.360 It's your girl lex Pe and it's sure Girls draining 0:01:07.440 --> 0:01:10.280 a call and you are tuned in to another episode 0:01:10.520 --> 0:01:11.480 of poor Mind. 0:01:11.400 --> 0:01:13.720 Where drunk mind speaks sober thoughts. 0:01:13.840 --> 0:01:17.320 We ain't got no guests today, We ain't got no 0:01:17.640 --> 0:01:19.000 guest today. 0:01:19.880 --> 0:01:26.480 And it's show birth that today, it's show birthday today, 0:01:26.680 --> 0:01:30.600 it's show birth oh today. Hey, it's your girl leg 0:01:31.080 --> 0:01:34.160 motherfucking pee. She don't play with these niggas. She don't 0:01:34.200 --> 0:01:35.360 play with these geeks. 0:01:35.800 --> 0:01:38.760 Okay, all right, I like it because I don't play 0:01:38.800 --> 0:01:41.720 with these motherfucking geeks. Oh, I'm gonna go. If you 0:01:41.760 --> 0:01:45.480 want to see me press go. Yeah, let's go. 0:01:46.200 --> 0:01:51.440 Her favorite show is Gaming Throne. You love hu some 0:01:51.600 --> 0:01:59.200 john snow, gotta keep going our freestyles week, But they good, Yeah, 0:01:59.280 --> 0:02:01.120 because I feel like when we was younger, we was 0:02:01.160 --> 0:02:01.880 like off the door. 0:02:02.320 --> 0:02:03.360 We used to be so good. 0:02:03.360 --> 0:02:05.880 But it's also we gotta work on it when we're 0:02:05.920 --> 0:02:08.480 sober because we're not like drunk right now. When we drunk, though, 0:02:08.560 --> 0:02:11.880 that ship be flowing, Dude, it'll be going like old 0:02:11.960 --> 0:02:16.520 next p I'll be holding that drink a little bit. 0:02:16.639 --> 0:02:17.320 The mean John. 0:02:17.880 --> 0:02:19.799 It hit me in that that short period of. 0:02:19.760 --> 0:02:29.000 Time, Who the fucking who got the ones? Who the 0:02:29.040 --> 0:02:33.079 bulletproof President didn't yees for the bitch of shaking ass 0:02:33.480 --> 0:02:34.960 doing hair kitchens. 0:02:35.600 --> 0:02:41.679 I need a piece he take that up? He did 0:02:42.000 --> 0:02:47.280 eat up original pat the original, and like, I'm just 0:02:47.360 --> 0:02:50.560 like I love when I get a good remake. Yeah, 0:02:50.720 --> 0:02:53.760 because people don't be doing the remakes right, Like leave 0:02:53.880 --> 0:02:54.679 that ship. 0:02:54.800 --> 0:02:57.440 In the past, because shot had a lot of classic 0:02:58.840 --> 0:02:59.280 he did. 0:03:01.280 --> 0:03:03.720 I have to say something real quick. We just had 0:03:03.760 --> 0:03:07.840 some Jamaican food. You know the worst thing to do 0:03:07.960 --> 0:03:10.160 is when you eat some food a little bit. 0:03:10.360 --> 0:03:12.320 Oh you got that jerking there? 0:03:12.480 --> 0:03:17.000 Yeah, getting jerky bit okay, because somebody have your naked. 0:03:17.120 --> 0:03:21.400 It's real jerky. I mean it's a little stink. I 0:03:21.560 --> 0:03:23.880 do that all the time. I'll eat something spicy and 0:03:23.880 --> 0:03:26.440 you wash your hands, but it's still be a little 0:03:26.480 --> 0:03:28.720 bit a little resided. Yeah, it's a little it's still 0:03:28.760 --> 0:03:31.840 a little jerky under there. It's a little stewie and jerky. 0:03:32.840 --> 0:03:34.560 I like a little stab a little later. 0:03:34.760 --> 0:03:38.760 Yeah, I do like a little snack sometimes, a little sample. 0:03:39.000 --> 0:03:39.600 Uh huh. 0:03:39.920 --> 0:03:40.640 That food was good. 0:03:40.880 --> 0:03:43.600 What's the It's always so good. I think it's called 0:03:43.640 --> 0:03:48.600 garvy spicy garvy spicy smir in a right shade? 0:03:48.760 --> 0:03:49.320 Thank you? 0:03:49.960 --> 0:03:57.000 Is it up? Norse North? Listen off. 0:03:57.360 --> 0:04:00.480 I don't know what I feel. 0:04:00.560 --> 0:04:05.240 And she will come to you so late birthday. 0:04:04.960 --> 0:04:07.120 You know what, it's my birthday again. 0:04:07.440 --> 0:04:09.960 I first of all, let me just say how blessed 0:04:09.960 --> 0:04:13.840 I am because another year of doing poor minds. I 0:04:13.880 --> 0:04:16.200 just want to say that I have celebrated so many 0:04:16.279 --> 0:04:18.960 damn birthdays on this show. And you know a lot 0:04:19.000 --> 0:04:21.560 of people can't say that they've done that because their podcasts. 0:04:21.760 --> 0:04:23.560 And this is no shade to anybody, but a lot 0:04:23.600 --> 0:04:27.200 of podcasts don't be lasting, like we've had this conversation before, 0:04:27.240 --> 0:04:29.560 Like we're kind of OG's in the game now. So 0:04:29.680 --> 0:04:32.120 I just feel so blessed that it's like, Damn, every 0:04:32.200 --> 0:04:36.560 year I'm on this couch, thank you to Morgan and everybody. 0:04:36.760 --> 0:04:41.160 They decorated this set beautifully, and I just feel blessed. 0:04:41.200 --> 0:04:43.400 Like I said, and every year I'm on this couch, 0:04:44.279 --> 0:04:48.160 so much has happened in a year. Bro. Like last year, 0:04:48.200 --> 0:04:50.360 I was like, I'm so grateful. I never thought i'd 0:04:50.400 --> 0:04:52.200 be here. But this year, I'm like, Damn, look at 0:04:52.200 --> 0:04:56.160 what we've done in a year, Like it's insane, Like 0:04:56.240 --> 0:05:00.200 I can't express how grateful I am, Like I I've 0:05:00.200 --> 0:05:03.479 had so much go on this year, good and bad, 0:05:03.760 --> 0:05:05.520 but when I tell you, it's been ninety nine point 0:05:05.560 --> 0:05:13.080 nine percent good. Yeah, and God's blessings over me, I 0:05:13.080 --> 0:05:15.559 can't even explain it and put it into words. And 0:05:15.839 --> 0:05:17.839 I think where I'm at in life right now is 0:05:17.839 --> 0:05:20.480 just a testament to like what's meant for you that 0:05:20.560 --> 0:05:23.320 God has for you. No man can take that from you, 0:05:23.360 --> 0:05:27.040 like no human being walking this earth can take away 0:05:27.080 --> 0:05:30.640 what God has in store for me, had in store 0:05:30.760 --> 0:05:33.480 for me, and I'm so glad I decided to really 0:05:33.640 --> 0:05:36.360 like walk in my purpose and be true to who 0:05:36.440 --> 0:05:38.640 I am and sit on this platform and be honest, 0:05:38.839 --> 0:05:41.240 no matter how ugly is it is, no matter how 0:05:41.240 --> 0:05:45.960 good it looks like, I just ugly on the fucking boulevard, 0:05:46.080 --> 0:05:50.320 and it has but one thing, like I said, of everything, like. 0:05:50.320 --> 0:05:53.120 I'm just so glad I've always just been a real 0:05:53.240 --> 0:05:54.080 ass bitch. 0:05:54.520 --> 0:05:56.240 Don't give a fuck by me, don't give. 0:05:56.160 --> 0:06:01.720 A fuck about a nigga because me being at thirty seven, man, 0:06:01.800 --> 0:06:05.800 life is good. It's great. And this is how I 0:06:05.839 --> 0:06:08.279 know life is good. Cause you know, this is no 0:06:08.360 --> 0:06:09.799 shade to nobody, men or women. 0:06:09.800 --> 0:06:11.240 This is people be lying. 0:06:11.040 --> 0:06:14.159 About they age they do because they're not they feel 0:06:14.160 --> 0:06:17.800 like they're supposed to be doing something by a certain time. 0:06:18.279 --> 0:06:22.160 And or cause they look old, whatever the case may be. 0:06:22.880 --> 0:06:25.919 But I feel like I do not mind saying my 0:06:26.080 --> 0:06:29.400 age because I'm exactly where I want to be in life. 0:06:30.120 --> 0:06:32.880 And life is good. It has been good, it will 0:06:32.920 --> 0:06:35.680 be good, and it is good to me. Yes, I'm 0:06:35.720 --> 0:06:44.640 thirty seven, bruh, and I'm doing amazing. I feel so great, healthy, wealthy, luky, 0:06:45.200 --> 0:06:47.599 you know, but I think I just I mean, I 0:06:47.600 --> 0:06:50.359 feel like I deserve it. I deserve this year that 0:06:50.400 --> 0:06:52.960 I've had and all the blessings. You know, It's been 0:06:53.000 --> 0:06:53.360 a lot. 0:06:53.320 --> 0:06:55.919 Of trials and tribulations. 0:06:55.040 --> 0:06:57.599 But I just feel I feel good to be here 0:06:58.600 --> 0:07:01.360 and yeah, and I'm just glad that I'm so thankful 0:07:01.360 --> 0:07:03.880 again for this platform because I feel like there's so 0:07:03.960 --> 0:07:07.440 many young women and I I kind of shot away 0:07:07.440 --> 0:07:09.720 from stepping into that, like people being like, oh, Lex, 0:07:09.760 --> 0:07:10.440 I look up to you. 0:07:10.480 --> 0:07:11.120 I look up to you. 0:07:11.400 --> 0:07:13.040 And I kind of shot away from that cause I'm like, 0:07:13.040 --> 0:07:14.960 I'm nobody's role model. But I was like, you know what, 0:07:15.320 --> 0:07:18.080 maybe I am, because a role model doesn't always look 0:07:18.120 --> 0:07:19.400 cookie cutter, you know what I'm saying. 0:07:19.440 --> 0:07:20.400 And I'm not cookie cutter. 0:07:20.440 --> 0:07:22.680 I'm not perfect, but I think me being who I 0:07:22.720 --> 0:07:25.760 am is what a lot of people need to see 0:07:25.800 --> 0:07:28.800 and hear. M. You know, my my journey to get 0:07:28.840 --> 0:07:31.880 here wasn't perfect at all, right, But I'm. 0:07:31.720 --> 0:07:33.760 Here now, bitch. Yeah, noah matters. 0:07:34.240 --> 0:07:36.600 So I'm okay with young women looking up to me 0:07:36.680 --> 0:07:38.840 and want and being like, you know what, I wanna 0:07:38.840 --> 0:07:40.880 do what Lex is doing, or she motivated me to 0:07:40.920 --> 0:07:42.560 go do this or motivated. 0:07:42.120 --> 0:07:42.600 Me to do that. 0:07:42.680 --> 0:07:44.680 I'm like, you know what, I'm okay with that now, 0:07:44.680 --> 0:07:47.640 because you know what, I'm a damn good woman and man, 0:07:47.880 --> 0:07:49.880 you know, I feel like I'm a damn good friend. 0:07:50.200 --> 0:07:53.080 I'm a damn good sister. And that was my I 0:07:53.080 --> 0:07:55.560 think that was my New Year's resolution this year was 0:07:55.600 --> 0:07:57.880 to be a better friend and be more present and 0:07:57.920 --> 0:07:59.960 you know, go to church more. And I've really been 0:08:00.040 --> 0:08:02.000 and sticking to that. Like all the things, I think, 0:08:02.040 --> 0:08:04.480 I've been way more present with my friends. 0:08:04.840 --> 0:08:06.760 I've been way more real. 0:08:06.560 --> 0:08:10.480 With myself as far as taking accountability of my wrongdoings 0:08:10.480 --> 0:08:13.280 and things like that. I got a long way to go, 0:08:13.920 --> 0:08:15.840 but I've came a long way. 0:08:16.720 --> 0:08:19.840 Cheers, cheers today. 0:08:19.000 --> 0:08:20.880 Cheers to your whole ass, and. 0:08:23.160 --> 0:08:25.119 Thank you Jod for the tasty drink. 0:08:25.720 --> 0:08:29.840 Yes it's delicious. We're gonna get into that in a minute. Yeah, 0:08:29.880 --> 0:08:35.120 but so okay, you are thirty seven. Now, what would 0:08:35.160 --> 0:08:39.840 you say is the most important life lesson that you've 0:08:39.920 --> 0:08:40.960 learned this far? 0:08:41.760 --> 0:08:45.000 I think the most important life lesson that I learned 0:08:45.000 --> 0:08:47.520 so far is that's how you know. 0:08:47.679 --> 0:08:49.160 I do a lot of media, you know how when 0:08:49.160 --> 0:08:50.120 somebody ask you something. 0:08:49.960 --> 0:08:54.520 You don't Yeah, no, let me think. I think one 0:08:54.559 --> 0:08:58.880 of the one things I've learned is to you have 0:08:58.960 --> 0:09:03.800 to stop sometimes be quiet, and you have to think 0:09:05.440 --> 0:09:09.520 because a lot of times things happen and I react, 0:09:09.800 --> 0:09:13.160 and I'm learning to be quiet, and I'm learning to 0:09:13.200 --> 0:09:17.640 take my time and speak when I want to speak. 0:09:17.679 --> 0:09:19.440 Sometimes I just I don't want to speak at all. 0:09:20.000 --> 0:09:22.840 And I'm learning, Like I said, with this position that 0:09:23.200 --> 0:09:28.400 I'm at in life, I have us both we have 0:09:28.640 --> 0:09:31.400 a lot of pressure on us, and again I'm okay 0:09:31.440 --> 0:09:35.079 with that, but i have to take this path very carefully, 0:09:35.200 --> 0:09:38.760 so I'm trying to just I'm learning too, Like I 0:09:38.800 --> 0:09:41.360 don't know what it is to be a podcaster or 0:09:41.400 --> 0:09:44.240 in this position and wanting to be a media mogul 0:09:44.360 --> 0:09:45.040 and be an. 0:09:44.880 --> 0:09:47.040 Actress and be all these things or wear all these hasts. 0:09:47.080 --> 0:09:48.600 I don't know. I'm learning too. 0:09:49.320 --> 0:09:54.079 But I'm also learning that sometimes when people. 0:09:54.120 --> 0:09:55.800 Are against you or they don't like you. 0:09:55.840 --> 0:09:57.640 And I'm not gonna make this negative about the people 0:09:57.640 --> 0:09:59.679 who don't care for us or care for this platform, 0:09:59.720 --> 0:10:01.840 but I do want to say, I'm learning to be 0:10:01.920 --> 0:10:04.680 quiet because sometimes it doesn't matter what you say, they're 0:10:04.679 --> 0:10:05.800 gonna find wrong in it. 0:10:06.080 --> 0:10:08.360 So the best thing to do. I'm taking. 0:10:08.760 --> 0:10:11.600 Like my sister Beyonce, I'm finna just be quiet with 0:10:11.720 --> 0:10:12.199 a lot of. 0:10:12.160 --> 0:10:13.160 Stuff good bad. 0:10:13.280 --> 0:10:18.240 I am learning to not overshare so much too, yes, 0:10:19.000 --> 0:10:24.120 because as I've enjoyed me being overshare and being vulnerable again, 0:10:24.960 --> 0:10:27.440 when people don't know you, they will try to weaponize that. 0:10:27.880 --> 0:10:30.160 But I'm so glad that I have kept it real 0:10:30.200 --> 0:10:33.240 at the same time because the people who are truly, 0:10:33.679 --> 0:10:36.120 truly supporters and listeners of this show, you know, they 0:10:36.160 --> 0:10:39.520 know me and all that good stuff. But I'm just 0:10:39.600 --> 0:10:41.880 learning just to kind of be quiet, and I'm enjoying that. 0:10:42.040 --> 0:10:44.160 You know, I share what I want to share, and 0:10:44.240 --> 0:10:46.520 I share a lot, a whole lot. 0:10:46.640 --> 0:10:50.520 But you know, I'm like, damn, I'm almost forty. 0:10:50.160 --> 0:10:56.400 Bro, and that's a blessing, Like I have never I 0:10:56.440 --> 0:10:59.720 am over that fucking well. Over the hill is fifty, bitch. 0:11:01.000 --> 0:11:02.600 I mean I'm over the mound. 0:11:03.240 --> 0:11:05.280 No, I mean it's a man and then it's a hill. 0:11:05.320 --> 0:11:05.960 I'm over the. 0:11:05.880 --> 0:11:09.080 Moun Yeah, I mean over the hill of being thirty five, Like, 0:11:09.120 --> 0:11:10.760 oh yeah, yeah, you're close to the forty. 0:11:10.840 --> 0:11:12.280 Yeah, I'm definitely close to the forty. 0:11:12.360 --> 0:11:15.199 And it's crazy because, like I said, at this age, 0:11:15.520 --> 0:11:17.920 this is the happiest I've ever been. Like, of course, 0:11:18.000 --> 0:11:20.520 you know I was young, fine, fun, having a ball, 0:11:21.640 --> 0:11:25.440 still all of those. Yeah, but I'm over the hill. 0:11:26.080 --> 0:11:26.480 I'm over. 0:11:27.200 --> 0:11:31.439 But thirty seven is still like I mean it's old er. Yes, 0:11:31.800 --> 0:11:34.480 it's older than twenty four. 0:11:34.840 --> 0:11:37.920 It's older than yeah five, like you not in your 0:11:38.040 --> 0:11:40.880 I'm not a young spring chicken right right, But I mean, 0:11:40.920 --> 0:11:43.080 like I always try to say, like to put things 0:11:43.080 --> 0:11:47.600 into perspective. Though, at thirty seven, if you live to 0:11:47.640 --> 0:11:50.240 be the average life expectancy, you have not even lived 0:11:50.240 --> 0:11:51.040 half of your life. 0:11:51.160 --> 0:11:52.000 Yeah, so I. 0:11:51.920 --> 0:11:55.520 Mean you're still fairly young. Yeah, I've been hit Mino 0:11:55.520 --> 0:12:00.400 Posy Perry Pram that starts at like thirty now it 0:12:00.480 --> 0:12:06.240 starts at thirty five. So what happened? Have genetics changed? 0:12:06.360 --> 0:12:09.000 Like why is it earlier? I think there's just more 0:12:09.040 --> 0:12:12.559 research now. Oh, I like point out and people are 0:12:12.600 --> 0:12:13.120 feeling it. 0:12:13.160 --> 0:12:13.439 I don't know. 0:12:13.480 --> 0:12:16.160 It could be changed. It could be so much stuff 0:12:16.160 --> 0:12:16.959 attacting us now. 0:12:17.120 --> 0:12:20.800 But they got them them eggs, the eggs. They say 0:12:20.880 --> 0:12:23.520 you can't eat the eggs right now. The eggs is bad, bitch, 0:12:24.160 --> 0:12:24.840 every egg. 0:12:24.840 --> 0:12:26.160 And I eat a lot of eggs. 0:12:26.400 --> 0:12:27.360 It's starting a period. 0:12:27.440 --> 0:12:30.720 Some next got that Parry Parry, it got that Perry 0:12:30.720 --> 0:12:34.240 and them eggs bad. 0:12:35.679 --> 0:12:38.040 Yeah. I like. 0:12:40.080 --> 0:12:41.840 But you know, like I said, I like being this 0:12:41.920 --> 0:12:43.199 age because I feel like I just. 0:12:43.120 --> 0:12:46.360 Have so much wisdom now, Like the things that used 0:12:46.360 --> 0:12:47.040 to shake. 0:12:46.920 --> 0:12:50.400 My world don't move me. Yeah, Like the things that matter. 0:12:50.679 --> 0:12:55.440 I have like just honed in and surrounded myself with 0:12:55.559 --> 0:12:58.120 things that matter, so I'm able to wake up and 0:12:58.240 --> 0:13:01.359 enjoy every single day. I have cure my life perfectly 0:13:01.800 --> 0:13:02.880 to where I have more. 0:13:02.720 --> 0:13:03.720 Good days than bad. 0:13:03.800 --> 0:13:06.600 Anything that doesn't make me feel good, I've learned to 0:13:06.640 --> 0:13:12.800 remove it immediately immediately. I'm no longer saying in friendships, relationships, 0:13:12.840 --> 0:13:15.920 anything that just doesn't make me feel good, and it 0:13:15.960 --> 0:13:18.880 doesn't necessarily have to serve me, Like I don't necessaricessarily 0:13:18.960 --> 0:13:21.760 need things from people. I just want to feel good. 0:13:22.200 --> 0:13:23.920 So if you made me feel good, that's why you 0:13:24.000 --> 0:13:25.960 still in my life. If you don't, you be like, damn, 0:13:25.960 --> 0:13:29.520 why we don't talk no more? And it's nothing personal 0:13:29.559 --> 0:13:32.520 against you. You're just not what my nervous system needs. 0:13:33.200 --> 0:13:36.000 So the wisdom that I have now is like, damn, girl, 0:13:36.000 --> 0:13:37.600 you could have been enjoying life if you would have 0:13:37.600 --> 0:13:41.000 been thought like this yeah, but experience comes with age 0:13:41.040 --> 0:13:43.560 and time, and I'm just I'm real grateful. 0:13:43.720 --> 0:13:43.920 Chill. 0:13:44.360 --> 0:13:47.040 You sound like you're at peace. All That's what I 0:13:47.120 --> 0:13:49.880 keep hearing from everything you're saying. It's just like it's 0:13:50.000 --> 0:13:50.680 very peaceful. 0:13:50.760 --> 0:13:51.360 It is. 0:13:51.480 --> 0:13:54.600 I can honestly say, like I said this, I've been 0:13:54.640 --> 0:13:57.400 saying this for months now, this entire year, this is 0:13:57.400 --> 0:14:01.280 the happiest I've ever been. Like, my family's good, my 0:14:01.400 --> 0:14:04.760 relationship is good, my friends are good, my job is great. 0:14:05.360 --> 0:14:07.640 Like I'm like, damn, this is what life is about. 0:14:07.920 --> 0:14:08.280 Yeah. 0:14:08.440 --> 0:14:11.560 And I always tell people cause I have been the 0:14:11.800 --> 0:14:14.760 bottom of the bottom, like I never thought I was. 0:14:14.840 --> 0:14:17.240 Like when I was in my bad places, I was like, 0:14:17.520 --> 0:14:19.800 I'm not gonna get out of this. I have to 0:14:19.840 --> 0:14:21.080 be used to being depressed. 0:14:21.320 --> 0:14:23.480 I have to be used to a nigga who hates 0:14:23.560 --> 0:14:26.280 me and treats me right what he feels like it. 0:14:26.520 --> 0:14:28.880 I have to be used to being around friends that 0:14:29.000 --> 0:14:31.120 kind of make me not feel good about myself and 0:14:31.160 --> 0:14:33.240 making me feel like I do too much. This is 0:14:33.280 --> 0:14:35.600 my life and I used to feel like that, And 0:14:35.960 --> 0:14:38.840 I'm like, no, So, anybody that's watching this right now, 0:14:38.920 --> 0:14:42.840 you're not stuck. You have every day to do better 0:14:42.880 --> 0:14:45.480 for yourself and take it inch by inch. 0:14:45.600 --> 0:14:48.440 But it took me years to get here, you know. 0:14:49.160 --> 0:14:51.360 But it's like, yeah, I feel like my life is 0:14:51.400 --> 0:14:53.560 a testament of like what can happen. 0:14:53.280 --> 0:14:57.280 If you just keep going, keep waking up chap amen. 0:14:57.760 --> 0:15:01.040 I think one of my favorite things about getting older 0:15:01.200 --> 0:15:03.760 is like every year I give less of a fuck 0:15:04.000 --> 0:15:08.280 about bro Yeah, give less of a fucking more about 0:15:08.360 --> 0:15:11.920 being happy that ship is good it is. You see, 0:15:11.960 --> 0:15:15.040 I've been old. I ain't putting that that ain't good, 0:15:16.520 --> 0:15:19.320 but I'm sorry, No, you're good. I was just saying, like, 0:15:19.360 --> 0:15:20.960 I just think that's one of my been my one 0:15:21.000 --> 0:15:23.480 of my favorite things about getting older. I just realize 0:15:23.560 --> 0:15:28.200 every year I realize more and more, and getting older 0:15:28.240 --> 0:15:30.840 puts into perspective what really matters, and it's a lot 0:15:30.840 --> 0:15:35.200 of shit. They just don't fucking matter. Yeah, And I 0:15:35.240 --> 0:15:38.160 just don't care as much what people I don't feel 0:15:38.160 --> 0:15:39.880 like I ever really cared that much what people think, 0:15:40.000 --> 0:15:44.160 to be honest, but I think that the older I get, 0:15:44.240 --> 0:15:48.640 I really give a fuck list about explaining myself trying 0:15:48.680 --> 0:15:51.040 to let people know, oh no, I didn't mean it 0:15:51.080 --> 0:15:55.920 that way, or I'm sorry that this offended you be 0:15:56.000 --> 0:15:59.840 offended me cause I know how I mean, Like I know, 0:16:00.040 --> 0:16:03.200 and I feel like the people around me know me. 0:16:03.520 --> 0:16:06.120 They know my heart, they know my heart posture, they 0:16:06.160 --> 0:16:09.920 know what I meant, they know my intentions all of 0:16:09.960 --> 0:16:12.280 those things. So I don't really care as much, like 0:16:12.360 --> 0:16:15.200 if strangers misread me, I don't really give a fuck 0:16:15.240 --> 0:16:17.440 what people be thinking, Like, mmm, I don't know. I 0:16:17.440 --> 0:16:19.240 just think you give a fuck list Like, and people 0:16:19.240 --> 0:16:21.600 have always said that people that are older than this, 0:16:21.800 --> 0:16:23.480 I feel like they have always said, like the older 0:16:23.480 --> 0:16:25.800 you get, you don't care as much anymore. I really 0:16:25.840 --> 0:16:26.280 feel it. 0:16:26.520 --> 0:16:30.240 Yeah, I agree, because I just feel like even again, 0:16:30.320 --> 0:16:32.120 I keep going back to the platform because I feel 0:16:32.200 --> 0:16:34.160 like this is my birthday gift. 0:16:33.960 --> 0:16:38.920 Every year of just like having and one thing I realized, even. 0:16:38.720 --> 0:16:41.960 Though our job is online, I'm so glad that our 0:16:42.000 --> 0:16:47.040 community has really transferred into real life. Like people love 0:16:47.120 --> 0:16:50.000 me in real life and I feel that and that 0:16:50.040 --> 0:16:52.640 means everything in the world to me, more than the money, 0:16:52.640 --> 0:16:55.920 more than going on stage, like to feel love, like 0:16:56.000 --> 0:16:58.360 doing the meet and greets and actually talking to the people. 0:16:58.400 --> 0:17:00.680 And oh, Lex, I was going through this. I'm like, girl, 0:17:00.920 --> 0:17:02.600 you know I was going through it too. But you're 0:17:02.640 --> 0:17:05.160 telling me that makes me feel good. So I think 0:17:05.200 --> 0:17:07.760 the fact that I have that's again learning to just 0:17:07.840 --> 0:17:10.680 be quiet because these folks on the internet who don't 0:17:10.720 --> 0:17:12.560 know you, they don't know you can I can go 0:17:12.640 --> 0:17:16.560 outside and touch grass, and I'm loved outside. So it 0:17:16.600 --> 0:17:19.720 doesn't matter if y'all are doing discourses and think pieces 0:17:19.760 --> 0:17:21.480 about me, because, like I said, the older I get, 0:17:21.520 --> 0:17:23.840 the more I realize I can go and talk to 0:17:24.160 --> 0:17:25.520 people in real life. 0:17:25.720 --> 0:17:28.119 I don't communicate with people all day like this. 0:17:28.359 --> 0:17:31.240 I'm going out, I'm touching people, I'm talking to people, and. 0:17:31.680 --> 0:17:34.719 You know, so, yeah, I agree with you. I'm very 0:17:34.840 --> 0:17:35.840 much there with you. 0:17:35.920 --> 0:17:38.600 Finally, it took me a long time because you've always 0:17:38.640 --> 0:17:40.520 been the one that's like, I don't give a fuck, 0:17:40.560 --> 0:17:42.439 But I'm right there with you of like just to 0:17:42.520 --> 0:17:43.280 not giving the fuck. 0:17:43.560 --> 0:17:46.040 I'll be seeing most of that Atlanta song I just. 0:17:46.040 --> 0:17:50.760 Don't give a fuck man mood, because I'll be seeing 0:17:50.880 --> 0:17:55.040 some of the craziest rumors and things about me and 0:17:55.080 --> 0:17:56.880 I just be like, oh, damn, that's crazy. 0:17:57.480 --> 0:18:00.000 Oh I didn't know I did that, I said, damn when. 0:17:59.880 --> 0:18:02.919 I fuck him. I just think you find a new 0:18:03.000 --> 0:18:05.879 level of peace when you stop always trying to let 0:18:05.960 --> 0:18:07.520 people know that they're wrong about you. 0:18:07.600 --> 0:18:10.400 Yeah, yeah, because. 0:18:10.160 --> 0:18:12.200 You already know that they're wrong. So you just gotta 0:18:12.280 --> 0:18:15.040 let them be wrong. And it doesn't matter how much 0:18:15.080 --> 0:18:18.320 you try to prove yourself to people, It doesn't matter 0:18:18.359 --> 0:18:20.240 how much you you can come with the facts, like 0:18:20.440 --> 0:18:24.960 real hard, real meat, and the truth is I mean, 0:18:25.400 --> 0:18:28.560 it's just not as good as a lie. People a 0:18:28.720 --> 0:18:31.439 fun people love a lie. They're always gonna want to 0:18:31.480 --> 0:18:34.880 believe the worst about you then to believe the actual, 0:18:35.160 --> 0:18:37.840 factual story. And so I think you just have to 0:18:37.920 --> 0:18:39.840 get to a point. And I'm realizing that too with 0:18:39.960 --> 0:18:43.520 us being in this space. Everybody is not built for 0:18:43.600 --> 0:18:46.040 this sheep b But I feel like what separates the 0:18:46.080 --> 0:18:48.240 people that are from the people that aren't are the 0:18:48.240 --> 0:18:51.159 people that's okay with people being wrong about them, Like 0:18:51.200 --> 0:18:54.040 you have to be okay with consumers and people that 0:18:54.080 --> 0:18:56.080 are watching you that don't know you in real life 0:18:56.119 --> 0:18:59.679 being wrong about you and just letting them live with 0:18:59.720 --> 0:19:01.480 whatever lie they want to live with. 0:19:02.359 --> 0:19:04.920 You know, somebody made a video about that. Aliah's face. 0:19:05.200 --> 0:19:07.160 She made a video about that on TikTok the other day, 0:19:07.200 --> 0:19:08.920 and she was kind of safe. Well, she was kind 0:19:08.920 --> 0:19:10.600 of saying the same thing, but more so it's just 0:19:10.640 --> 0:19:14.399 like yeah. She was like, for example, somebody say, you 0:19:14.400 --> 0:19:17.080 buy a house, and you buy a house like, I 0:19:17.080 --> 0:19:19.199 don't know, the Upper West Side of New York, and 0:19:19.240 --> 0:19:22.520 it's a million dollar home, and you're happy and you're 0:19:22.560 --> 0:19:25.399 not showing anybody anything in your house, and you're just like, oh, 0:19:25.440 --> 0:19:26.960 my gosh, I bought this expensive house. 0:19:27.160 --> 0:19:28.200 My dreams are coming true. 0:19:28.560 --> 0:19:32.080 Then somebody gets online and they're like, oh, lexis fronting 0:19:32.560 --> 0:19:36.040 she got a house that's two hundred thousand dollars in Jersey. Yeah, 0:19:36.040 --> 0:19:39.280 she's living in the boondocks or whatever. She's not living 0:19:39.359 --> 0:19:39.560 like that. 0:19:39.800 --> 0:19:39.960 Yeah. 0:19:40.000 --> 0:19:42.560 And then I get online and I'm like, no, actually, girl, 0:19:42.960 --> 0:19:45.440