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Speaker 1: What's up? What type of slip service? I'm Angela yee,

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Speaker 1: I'm g MacGuire, I'm worry how I'm Jesse really, Jesse Rez.

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Speaker 1: We are so happy to have you here with us today.

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Speaker 1: But first of all, let's just say congratulations to you.

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Speaker 1: Whenever I listen to Jesse Rays, I'd be singing her

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Speaker 1: songs like the whole day in my head, trying to

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Speaker 1: do her voice, and and it's so no, that wasn't it.

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Speaker 1: Wasn't it. I can't try to be offended. Keep trying,

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Speaker 1: but I'll be doing it in the car and everything,

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Speaker 1: like on my way. I have a very unique, beautiful voice.

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Speaker 1: Thank you, and it's sticks in your head. So that's

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Speaker 1: a good thing. Thank you. I hear you all day

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Speaker 1: on my station. Thank you. Yeah. So let's talk about

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Speaker 1: a few things now. People have written in questions right

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Speaker 1: for advice, so we're gonna start with that with you,

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Speaker 1: and we want to hear how you answer these people.

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Speaker 1: All right. One person said, I've been with my boyfriend

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Speaker 1: for four years and we're great together. For almost our

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Speaker 1: entire relationship, we've been dealing with sexual issues. During sex,

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Speaker 1: he doesn't maintain an erection, and lately it's been getting

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Speaker 1: worse because he's also been dealing with premature ejaculation. We've

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Speaker 1: spoken about this and I recommended him attending a sex

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Speaker 1: do this yet due to his shirt insurance. So she

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Speaker 1: wants to know what to do. She said, I've occasionally

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Speaker 1: thought about stepping out on the relationship because I'm not

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Speaker 1: sexually satisfied. We're both only twenty eight, that's your age,

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Speaker 1: and I'm too young to be dealing with this. But

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Speaker 1: I still love him. Oh they've tried, like, oh, man,

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Speaker 1: I don't even know. That's hard. It's not hard. Actually

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Speaker 1: it's funny. Um shoot, I don't know if some guys

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Speaker 1: feel like I feel like often you hear that it's

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Speaker 1: such a sensitive topic from men, address it with them. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: but if you, if you, if you like like go

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Speaker 1: full Monty, like completely expressed that you're not holding judgment

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Speaker 1: and then it's just like a regular problem, Like it's

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Speaker 1: just like a regular health problem and you guys can

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Speaker 1: talk it through like maybe maybe um it's like dirty

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Speaker 1: talker help or like going slow Coran A Cockrane remember

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Speaker 1: when um Chad was here? From Dr Johnson and he

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Speaker 1: said that a lot of men use them for to

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Speaker 1: maintain their erection. But there's also like herbal things you

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Speaker 1: could take, like the blue Choo thing is like a

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Speaker 1: herbal supplement, isn't it? And like silver back you have

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Speaker 1: a method juice bar. Yeah, you know why. Sometimes people's

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Speaker 1: diets do affect that. I feel like like sometimes when

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Speaker 1: that's why your erection won't get all the way hard

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Speaker 1: because it blood is not flowing the way that it should.

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Speaker 1: I don't know. Um. I also think that before she

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Speaker 1: steps out on him, she should just in the relationship

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Speaker 1: a great But she loves him, Yeah, she loves him

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Speaker 1: that I just want a hard penis just fly love him.

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Speaker 1: But this little light penis is not Does he still trying?

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Speaker 1: You think? Because you know what's really bad about it,

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Speaker 1: Not only does he not get fully erect, but he

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Speaker 1: also like has premature ejaculation. Yeah, it comes quick. So

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Speaker 1: it's like, not only are you not fully do when

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Speaker 1: it doesn't last long. Yeah, or maybe that is. No,

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Speaker 1: she shouldn't, she's bored. That doesn't that sound like a compliment.

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Speaker 1: When he comes fast, that is a compliment. It would

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Speaker 1: be okay if he could go again. Yeah, he was

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Speaker 1: semi erect and all that stuff. Have you ever had

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Speaker 1: But we were younger so and and he wasn't like

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Speaker 1: How do you know what he does with everyone else?

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Speaker 1: But if he tells you like you know, I'm sorry,

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Speaker 1: just you know, like before before you like, this has

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Speaker 1: But like porn because the guys I watching porn a lot,

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Speaker 1: to feel connected. Yeah, you don't be like the ironize

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Speaker 1: the opposite for men and women. I feel like men

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Speaker 1: have to focus on something else so that they don't

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Speaker 1: then God forbid, he shifted his fucking rhythm or me,

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Speaker 1: like I was right there, just about now. I gotta

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Speaker 1: But why am I doing this to my self? Yeah? Yeah,

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Speaker 1: my career potential, not everything else, because like one day

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Speaker 1: feel like challenged. I didn't feel I didn't feel like

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Speaker 1: I don't like i'd want to be the mom that's

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Speaker 1: I would want to be like running around to interviews

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Speaker 1: But I'd be bringing like interviews and stuffing. You'd be

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Speaker 1: How did you even start doing music? Um? My brother

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Speaker 1: even criminals got Confederate flags on their walls and on

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Speaker 1: and like the trauma that people are creating, it's crazy

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Speaker 1: Did you feel like you've got a lot of support

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Speaker 1: two sides because it was dope. The amount of people

427
00:20:36,440 --> 00:20:38,239
Speaker 1: that each other like you'll think you I've been through that,

428
00:20:38,280 --> 00:20:40,320
Speaker 1: and it just means a lot that you came forward.

429
00:20:40,359 --> 00:20:44,400
Speaker 1: But then like daily, it was like I can't even

430
00:20:44,440 --> 00:20:46,560
Speaker 1: tell you how many with daily women coming forward being

431
00:20:46,560 --> 00:20:48,879
Speaker 1: like listen, two years ago, the exact same situation happened,

432
00:20:49,000 --> 00:20:50,840
Speaker 1: or I got raped or at this or that, and

433
00:20:50,880 --> 00:20:53,560
Speaker 1: I can't come forward because of multiple reasons, because our

434
00:20:53,560 --> 00:20:55,320
Speaker 1: mother is too scary, because I have a family now

435
00:20:55,359 --> 00:20:57,160
Speaker 1: and I don't want to bring that darkness out again,

436
00:20:57,520 --> 00:21:00,960
Speaker 1: and just so many reasons. But it was every day,

437
00:21:01,320 --> 00:21:04,879
Speaker 1: like every day that messed me up. For a minute,

438
00:21:05,000 --> 00:21:07,359
Speaker 1: that messed me up, And people always want to know,

439
00:21:07,440 --> 00:21:09,200
Speaker 1: like they'll be like, oh, why didn't she come out

440
00:21:09,280 --> 00:21:11,680
Speaker 1: like they talk about other people. Why didn't she say

441
00:21:11,720 --> 00:21:13,639
Speaker 1: something when it happened, or I don't believe her, And

442
00:21:13,640 --> 00:21:16,080
Speaker 1: it's like it's not an easy thing to do. It's not.

443
00:21:17,560 --> 00:21:19,240
Speaker 1: People always tell you how to do things that they've

444
00:21:19,280 --> 00:21:21,960
Speaker 1: never done. People are always on the outside looking in

445
00:21:22,080 --> 00:21:24,800
Speaker 1: with their opinion on your life when they've never experienced anything.

446
00:21:24,880 --> 00:21:28,080
Speaker 1: But what they're talking about, what wild. It's so crazy

447
00:21:28,119 --> 00:21:30,400
Speaker 1: to me how people could just make their own assumptions

448
00:21:30,440 --> 00:21:34,159
Speaker 1: and take things and make their own um ideas of

449
00:21:34,200 --> 00:21:36,320
Speaker 1: what happened and what you should do when they've never

450
00:21:36,520 --> 00:21:39,440
Speaker 1: even experienced. That's the wildest thing to me. There's things

451
00:21:39,440 --> 00:21:40,960
Speaker 1: that all of us in this room can say happened

452
00:21:40,960 --> 00:21:44,000
Speaker 1: to us that we've never spoken about for sure, right,

453
00:21:44,400 --> 00:21:47,560
Speaker 1: And I definitely think that sometimes when women do speak up,

454
00:21:47,800 --> 00:21:51,199
Speaker 1: people be like, Oh, she's lying, why would she go?

455
00:21:51,600 --> 00:21:54,080
Speaker 1: Why would she be drunk? It's the whole like she

456
00:21:54,119 --> 00:21:59,479
Speaker 1: got a short skirt on, Like she's mentality type that sucks.

457
00:21:59,760 --> 00:22:02,000
Speaker 1: How do you trust somebody in this business? Like you

458
00:22:02,040 --> 00:22:05,840
Speaker 1: want to do it? Oh? How do you date? How

459
00:22:05,880 --> 00:22:12,280
Speaker 1: do you trust? Man? I feel bad for people that, like,

460
00:22:12,880 --> 00:22:17,840
Speaker 1: I guess, like for the potentials, because I asked, I

461
00:22:17,840 --> 00:22:22,879
Speaker 1: asked like a thousand questions. Everything's and they're a greelling

462
00:22:22,920 --> 00:22:24,600
Speaker 1: And if they're uncomfortable with it, then I know that

463
00:22:24,640 --> 00:22:26,760
Speaker 1: it's not. It's not because you're either going to be

464
00:22:26,800 --> 00:22:28,400
Speaker 1: okay with it or you're not. Because I have trust

465
00:22:28,480 --> 00:22:30,280
Speaker 1: issues that I'm working through, and i'm working through it

466
00:22:30,400 --> 00:22:33,120
Speaker 1: right now. I'm working through forgiveness. I'm working through forgiving

467
00:22:33,160 --> 00:22:35,679
Speaker 1: myself for putting up with so much bullshit in the past,

468
00:22:35,960 --> 00:22:38,800
Speaker 1: because then it affects yourself worth because you ask yourself

469
00:22:38,840 --> 00:22:40,800
Speaker 1: like why did I stay? Why did I think that

470
00:22:40,880 --> 00:22:44,240
Speaker 1: this was okay? So I'm working through those issues. I

471
00:22:44,280 --> 00:22:46,160
Speaker 1: need to make sure that you're good because I got

472
00:22:46,320 --> 00:22:47,800
Speaker 1: I gotta work on that. So I need to make

473
00:22:47,840 --> 00:22:50,240
Speaker 1: sure that you're good before I let you into this world.

474
00:22:50,280 --> 00:22:52,760
Speaker 1: So there's going to be a thousand questions like like

475
00:22:53,000 --> 00:22:55,800
Speaker 1: everything I ask everything, I asked, when's the last time

476
00:22:55,840 --> 00:22:59,760
Speaker 1: you lied? Like, what's the last regret you had? Everything?

477
00:23:00,280 --> 00:23:02,280
Speaker 1: How do you treat What do you think anybody's going

478
00:23:02,320 --> 00:23:05,080
Speaker 1: to tell you the last time they lie? No, they're

479
00:23:05,080 --> 00:23:09,840
Speaker 1: want to tell you like a before, Like nobody's gonna

480
00:23:09,880 --> 00:23:11,919
Speaker 1: be like, well you know I lied about this, Like

481
00:23:12,000 --> 00:23:14,479
Speaker 1: no one's gonna be honest about that. I am, but

482
00:23:15,160 --> 00:23:23,920
Speaker 1: time like shit in this interview, Um, we's not. I

483
00:23:23,960 --> 00:23:26,040
Speaker 1: don't even know, because I think people tell little lies

484
00:23:26,080 --> 00:23:29,159
Speaker 1: every day, like sometimes not to hurt someone's feelings. I

485
00:23:29,160 --> 00:23:31,199
Speaker 1: don't want to, Like I said, I woke up from

486
00:23:31,200 --> 00:23:34,520
Speaker 1: an app at like six and not six forties three, Okay,

487
00:23:34,720 --> 00:23:36,600
Speaker 1: I woke up from an app at six and not sixty.

488
00:23:37,280 --> 00:23:39,160
Speaker 1: But the reason that I the reason on the price

489
00:23:39,240 --> 00:23:41,720
Speaker 1: is right. You still might a one. No, that's too

490
00:23:41,720 --> 00:23:44,960
Speaker 1: far over. The reason the reason I tell the truth though,

491
00:23:44,960 --> 00:23:47,679
Speaker 1: is because I strong as not even as it is

492
00:23:47,760 --> 00:23:50,359
Speaker 1: to think that. Because some people say, like you treat people,

493
00:23:50,359 --> 00:23:52,000
Speaker 1: and then you get that from the universe, like how

494
00:23:52,000 --> 00:23:53,960
Speaker 1: you treat people, that that's what you get. But then

495
00:23:53,960 --> 00:23:55,760
Speaker 1: there's other people that are the school of thought, like

496
00:23:55,800 --> 00:23:58,399
Speaker 1: you can't think that we're animals, lions don't think about

497
00:23:58,400 --> 00:24:01,399
Speaker 1: how they're hurting, what they're eating, lines on. But but

498
00:24:01,480 --> 00:24:03,879
Speaker 1: I just don't. I resonate with the first I subscribed

499
00:24:03,920 --> 00:24:06,800
Speaker 1: to that. So that's why I forced like I forced

500
00:24:06,800 --> 00:24:10,200
Speaker 1: myself in those situations when I'm testing if I'm willing

501
00:24:10,240 --> 00:24:13,040
Speaker 1: to let somebody in and if they're testing me, I

502
00:24:13,080 --> 00:24:16,639
Speaker 1: forced myself to be brutally honest because that way nobody

503
00:24:16,640 --> 00:24:18,760
Speaker 1: could tell me nothing a year from now when she

504
00:24:18,880 --> 00:24:21,040
Speaker 1: gets difficult, or a year from now when like I don't,

505
00:24:21,040 --> 00:24:23,000
Speaker 1: there's no demons coming up because I laid all my

506
00:24:23,000 --> 00:24:25,720
Speaker 1: bodies out for you. I told like, all my sins everything,

507
00:24:25,760 --> 00:24:29,040
Speaker 1: So if you don't like it, walk away and spare me. Okay,

508
00:24:29,040 --> 00:24:31,560
Speaker 1: so let's give you a scenario. Okay, let's say you

509
00:24:31,640 --> 00:24:34,200
Speaker 1: really like a guy. He's great, he's amazing here in

510
00:24:34,280 --> 00:24:36,639
Speaker 1: bed together, he's not the greatest, and he asked you

511
00:24:36,640 --> 00:24:39,280
Speaker 1: and my the best you ever had? Are you gonna

512
00:24:39,320 --> 00:24:42,159
Speaker 1: say no? Yeah, I'll be like, I'll be like, you're close,

513
00:24:42,480 --> 00:24:54,040
Speaker 1: but I need because my erection. No, you're close best? Yeah, whatever,

514
00:24:54,160 --> 00:24:56,600
Speaker 1: saying but you build him, you could build him, not

515
00:24:56,640 --> 00:25:00,640
Speaker 1: gonna you can help him that he could be bad perfect,

516
00:25:00,680 --> 00:25:04,600
Speaker 1: I would better. But if he says, well, who was better?

517
00:25:05,920 --> 00:25:10,320
Speaker 1: I would be like, you're amazing, But then it's never

518
00:25:10,320 --> 00:25:12,439
Speaker 1: going to get better. But you didn't say what was

519
00:25:12,480 --> 00:25:23,680
Speaker 1: amazing the way you amazing? You? Well, you're just amazing amazing. Sorry,

520
00:25:23,680 --> 00:25:26,480
Speaker 1: there's certain times you have to lie, okay, like you

521
00:25:26,600 --> 00:25:28,760
Speaker 1: never lied about having an orgasm every now and then,

522
00:25:28,880 --> 00:25:31,280
Speaker 1: Like maybe normally you do, but this particular time, you

523
00:25:31,280 --> 00:25:34,280
Speaker 1: know it's just not gonna happen, And he's like, did

524
00:25:34,320 --> 00:25:36,320
Speaker 1: you kind of I want him to know if I didn't, yeah,

525
00:25:36,400 --> 00:25:38,480
Speaker 1: me to like work for it. But I feel like

526
00:25:38,520 --> 00:25:41,240
Speaker 1: if the time you do and he's working hard and

527
00:25:41,240 --> 00:25:45,080
Speaker 1: you just know it's not going to happen, didn't happen,

528
00:25:44,200 --> 00:25:47,800
Speaker 1: and yeah, that's not happening. But I don't. I can't.

529
00:25:47,920 --> 00:25:55,920
Speaker 1: I don't want to act the play I'll act. I'm

530
00:25:55,920 --> 00:26:04,280
Speaker 1: not gonna lie. Well, I mean I am gonna lie.

531
00:26:03,880 --> 00:26:06,720
Speaker 1: If he says, did you come out, be like yeah, quietly,

532
00:26:12,040 --> 00:26:15,160
Speaker 1: I just came you ever. Have you ever cheated? Yeah?

533
00:26:15,280 --> 00:26:19,879
Speaker 1: Once when I was okay, So you stole and you cheated,

534
00:26:20,800 --> 00:26:31,720
Speaker 1: and then Jesse Ray is liar, So tell me what happened.

535
00:26:31,720 --> 00:26:34,680
Speaker 1: Did you get caught? No? I didn't, and it made

536
00:26:34,720 --> 00:26:38,639
Speaker 1: it worse. I felt bad. It was like my first Oh,

537
00:26:38,840 --> 00:26:41,720
Speaker 1: it was rough and it was on vacation and I

538
00:26:41,800 --> 00:26:45,240
Speaker 1: like kissed the guy when I felt awful. I felt

539
00:26:45,240 --> 00:26:47,399
Speaker 1: awful because the guy was my sweet and so I

540
00:26:47,440 --> 00:26:50,000
Speaker 1: didn't tell him and it led to me coming back

541
00:26:50,040 --> 00:26:51,400
Speaker 1: and I didn't even want to see him or kiss

542
00:26:51,440 --> 00:26:53,119
Speaker 1: him because I felt like I had the other guy's

543
00:26:53,119 --> 00:26:55,400
Speaker 1: lips on me. So I was like, listen, we gotta

544
00:26:55,440 --> 00:26:57,240
Speaker 1: break up. And I didn't tell him why. I was

545
00:26:57,280 --> 00:26:59,439
Speaker 1: just like I need space whatever, And then I started

546
00:26:59,480 --> 00:27:01,560
Speaker 1: I put myself in the ship show because I started

547
00:27:01,600 --> 00:27:04,320
Speaker 1: dating this other guy who ended up being like my

548
00:27:04,359 --> 00:27:07,960
Speaker 1: real first love, but I was hesitant to put a

549
00:27:08,000 --> 00:27:10,120
Speaker 1: title on it. I was hesitant to move forward because

550
00:27:10,119 --> 00:27:12,480
Speaker 1: I've never been in love with two people or like,

551
00:27:12,600 --> 00:27:15,000
Speaker 1: feel like you would just really care about two people. Yeah,

552
00:27:15,040 --> 00:27:17,040
Speaker 1: I wouldn't saying love, but I've cared about two people.

553
00:27:17,080 --> 00:27:19,320
Speaker 1: I hate that. That's where I was. And then I didn't.

554
00:27:19,400 --> 00:27:22,439
Speaker 1: I didn't. I didn't know what to do, and homeie

555
00:27:22,600 --> 00:27:25,639
Speaker 1: first one had my email password still and why did

556
00:27:25,680 --> 00:27:27,280
Speaker 1: he even have it in the first place, because I'm

557
00:27:27,400 --> 00:27:29,760
Speaker 1: too damn trusting, But like, why does he need your

558
00:27:29,840 --> 00:27:32,720
Speaker 1: email password? I don't remember. There was a reason, but

559
00:27:32,800 --> 00:27:35,080
Speaker 1: I don't remember. I think I didn't have internet at

560
00:27:35,080 --> 00:27:36,600
Speaker 1: my house or something. So I was on the phone

561
00:27:36,640 --> 00:27:41,840
Speaker 1: with him being like he go through this, Yeah, but uh,

562
00:27:42,119 --> 00:27:43,920
Speaker 1: he saw an email that I had sent a dude

563
00:27:44,000 --> 00:27:46,280
Speaker 1: to the new guy, and then he hit me up

564
00:27:46,320 --> 00:27:47,879
Speaker 1: and was like, I can't believe you did this is

565
00:27:47,880 --> 00:27:49,680
Speaker 1: a lot of drama for a young kid. But he

566
00:27:49,760 --> 00:27:51,600
Speaker 1: was like, I can't believe you did this. I can't

567
00:27:51,600 --> 00:27:53,439
Speaker 1: believe you didn't tell me, because if you would have

568
00:27:53,480 --> 00:27:55,240
Speaker 1: told me, we would have worked through it. Like you

569
00:27:55,280 --> 00:27:57,600
Speaker 1: didn't have to be scared to tell me that you

570
00:27:57,640 --> 00:28:00,280
Speaker 1: had done it. But by this time, when he's only mean,

571
00:28:00,320 --> 00:28:02,679
Speaker 1: he's gonna forgive me. I've already tried to move on

572
00:28:02,760 --> 00:28:04,719
Speaker 1: and got in feelings for this new guy, so I

573
00:28:04,800 --> 00:28:07,160
Speaker 1: was cutting a decision for like a month. I told them,

574
00:28:07,160 --> 00:28:08,479
Speaker 1: I'm like, I need space and I need to think

575
00:28:08,480 --> 00:28:10,840
Speaker 1: about what I'm gonna do. And then the only reason,

576
00:28:11,720 --> 00:28:13,480
Speaker 1: the only reason that I ended up going with the

577
00:28:13,480 --> 00:28:16,080
Speaker 1: new guy was because I rational I rationalized it too.

578
00:28:16,320 --> 00:28:20,760
Speaker 1: If I go back to the original guy, I'm breaking

579
00:28:20,800 --> 00:28:24,360
Speaker 1: two I'm I'm breaking two hearts because if you don't

580
00:28:24,560 --> 00:28:27,240
Speaker 1: really trust somebody, and if I can't trust somebody who

581
00:28:27,280 --> 00:28:31,000
Speaker 1: you cheated on, m I feel like it's hard to

582
00:28:31,000 --> 00:28:33,040
Speaker 1: trust somebody if you're already take on them and got caught.

583
00:28:33,760 --> 00:28:37,320
Speaker 1: I can't trust him at some point, But you don't

584
00:28:37,560 --> 00:28:39,480
Speaker 1: You ever seen Chris back when he's like, okay, now

585
00:28:39,560 --> 00:28:41,080
Speaker 1: you see it on her, But now you don't trust

586
00:28:41,080 --> 00:28:44,240
Speaker 1: her because you feel like at some point that person

587
00:28:44,240 --> 00:28:46,400
Speaker 1: has to get out of a jail free card. And

588
00:28:46,440 --> 00:28:48,400
Speaker 1: I cheated on that's true, and you feel like they're

589
00:28:48,400 --> 00:28:52,360
Speaker 1: gonna be able to by. People always use stuff for

590
00:28:52,520 --> 00:28:55,120
Speaker 1: their back pocket or a rainy day to throw it

591
00:28:55,120 --> 00:28:56,920
Speaker 1: back in your face. I don't care who it is

592
00:28:57,440 --> 00:29:00,280
Speaker 1: to me. That's how I believe. I believe that any

593
00:29:00,280 --> 00:29:03,400
Speaker 1: given time, like if if I did somebody dirty, I

594
00:29:03,480 --> 00:29:05,800
Speaker 1: think in the back of their mind, any given time,

595
00:29:05,840 --> 00:29:08,960
Speaker 1: they could give me back. Yes, I wouldn't. I try

596
00:29:09,120 --> 00:29:12,000
Speaker 1: lightly around people that I might have did. I have

597
00:29:12,120 --> 00:29:17,920
Speaker 1: sucked up too, especially mad Ship damn Yo. I tried.

598
00:29:18,400 --> 00:29:23,120
Speaker 1: Have you ever trying to like save save, save a hole,

599
00:29:24,480 --> 00:29:32,480
Speaker 1: save home? I let them drown. I have them drown.

600
00:29:33,960 --> 00:29:36,520
Speaker 1: You know what do you mean after someone cheated to

601
00:29:36,520 --> 00:29:40,440
Speaker 1: try to like mend it. Oh? Yeah, I tried to do.

602
00:29:40,720 --> 00:29:43,720
Speaker 1: It's such a It's like fighting yourself, That's what I'm saying. Really,

603
00:29:43,760 --> 00:29:45,760
Speaker 1: it's like fighting yourself because you end up feeling like

604
00:29:45,960 --> 00:29:48,320
Speaker 1: because you're like why am I, Like why am I?

605
00:29:48,360 --> 00:29:51,040
Speaker 1: Why am I so willing to forgive you? Why am

606
00:29:51,040 --> 00:29:53,920
Speaker 1: I so willing to like save this? When you were

607
00:29:54,080 --> 00:29:57,320
Speaker 1: so fucking blase and nonchalant, and you think about it

608
00:29:57,360 --> 00:29:59,920
Speaker 1: at a random time, like even having sex with some

609
00:30:00,200 --> 00:30:02,520
Speaker 1: who you know cheated on you, you'd be like, shouldn't

610
00:30:02,520 --> 00:30:05,080
Speaker 1: be going good like that? You'd be like, this, motherfucker,

611
00:30:05,440 --> 00:30:09,160
Speaker 1: did you do this? And you cannot look at everything

612
00:30:09,200 --> 00:30:11,720
Speaker 1: like when that when that happened, I became like in

613
00:30:11,760 --> 00:30:19,920
Speaker 1: Sprancter graduate everything everything, everything, everything, everything, Man, the best

614
00:30:19,960 --> 00:30:25,760
Speaker 1: way to catch a guy is okay, ways, but you

615
00:30:25,840 --> 00:30:28,040
Speaker 1: gotta look for Like if you go in the bathroom

616
00:30:28,240 --> 00:30:32,440
Speaker 1: and he didn't empty the garbage, oh yeah, that's God forbid.

617
00:30:32,520 --> 00:30:35,320
Speaker 1: You see, like wipes would makeup on it, So somebody

618
00:30:35,320 --> 00:30:37,200
Speaker 1: was just taking them to the the makeup hair. A lot

619
00:30:37,240 --> 00:30:38,880
Speaker 1: of times they try to clean up real quick and

620
00:30:38,920 --> 00:30:41,160
Speaker 1: like put stuff in the garbage before you get there,

621
00:30:41,360 --> 00:30:44,680
Speaker 1: and you know whatever, the garbage is a good spot. Yeah,

622
00:30:45,240 --> 00:30:48,320
Speaker 1: I've been known to go through the garbage of garbage.

623
00:30:48,720 --> 00:30:50,240
Speaker 1: But you know what I think, when you realize you

624
00:30:50,320 --> 00:30:52,080
Speaker 1: find yourself doing stuff like that, you know it's not

625
00:30:52,120 --> 00:30:54,440
Speaker 1: a situation you need to be in. Yeah, Like when

626
00:30:54,440 --> 00:30:58,920
Speaker 1: you find yourself like respecting the bed for come stains

627
00:30:58,960 --> 00:31:01,640
Speaker 1: and stuff like that. What about old stuff like say

628
00:31:01,960 --> 00:31:05,160
Speaker 1: they used to live with a woman and they don't

629
00:31:05,200 --> 00:31:07,440
Speaker 1: live together no more, and you still see little stuff

630
00:31:07,560 --> 00:31:11,600
Speaker 1: not that it's like like something that maybe underneath the

631
00:31:11,640 --> 00:31:13,680
Speaker 1: counter the bathroom counting said you go to get the lotion,

632
00:31:13,880 --> 00:31:16,920
Speaker 1: like this bitch bath and body cheap ass ship is

633
00:31:17,080 --> 00:31:19,440
Speaker 1: underneath your hand, Like would you be upset if they

634
00:31:19,480 --> 00:31:23,080
Speaker 1: had like an old razor. I still sometimes use bath

635
00:31:23,120 --> 00:31:26,600
Speaker 1: and body whereas I just sorry, I'm just I don't know,

636
00:31:26,680 --> 00:31:30,360
Speaker 1: but I feel like because I feel like that's weird

637
00:31:30,400 --> 00:31:32,680
Speaker 1: while you don't show that kind of stuff away because

638
00:31:32,720 --> 00:31:36,120
Speaker 1: I stopped talking to somebody because because they kept old stuff,

639
00:31:36,160 --> 00:31:38,320
Speaker 1: because I was a lotion sometimes you run out of

640
00:31:38,320 --> 00:31:41,120
Speaker 1: lotion and you need lotion. It was like it was like,

641
00:31:41,200 --> 00:31:43,640
Speaker 1: oh d amount of stuff to me. I felt like

642
00:31:43,640 --> 00:31:45,480
Speaker 1: it was too much. It didn't look like it was

643
00:31:45,560 --> 00:31:48,720
Speaker 1: used in a while. X Tampa is just still there

644
00:31:48,720 --> 00:31:50,320
Speaker 1: and you're like, I need a tampon. Oh good, he

645
00:31:50,400 --> 00:31:56,720
Speaker 1: has you damn right. You know all I'm thinking about

646
00:31:56,720 --> 00:32:00,959
Speaker 1: why y'all sitting here having you know, she stole much

647
00:32:01,000 --> 00:32:03,960
Speaker 1: like but I'm thinking about everything I left in the

648
00:32:04,000 --> 00:32:07,560
Speaker 1: bathroom at the house when I left it, baby like,

649
00:32:08,560 --> 00:32:10,520
Speaker 1: I just moved away from my ex and I left

650
00:32:10,520 --> 00:32:12,160
Speaker 1: a lot of stuff somebody, and it was stuff that

651
00:32:12,200 --> 00:32:15,320
Speaker 1: I didn't want, Like I sent, I sent my I sent.

652
00:32:15,560 --> 00:32:16,920
Speaker 1: I think it was my daughter or a friend. I

653
00:32:16,920 --> 00:32:18,400
Speaker 1: don't know. I sent somebody to the sort to get

654
00:32:18,440 --> 00:32:20,280
Speaker 1: tampons and they put me Obie's. I don't mike Obi.

655
00:32:20,400 --> 00:32:27,120
Speaker 1: I don't like so I left the day I'm on it.

656
00:32:29,600 --> 00:32:31,960
Speaker 1: I left like motion and stuff that was like almost

657
00:32:31,960 --> 00:32:33,719
Speaker 1: about to be empty, like stuff. I just didn't want

658
00:32:33,760 --> 00:32:35,040
Speaker 1: to pack up in the box. I just left it

659
00:32:35,080 --> 00:32:37,560
Speaker 1: all spiteful. Ship. I feel like a bitch to that,

660
00:32:37,640 --> 00:32:40,600
Speaker 1: to be spiteful, because you know, I wanted she didn't

661
00:32:40,600 --> 00:32:42,560
Speaker 1: feel like I'm packing it, so I left it instead

662
00:32:42,560 --> 00:32:48,080
Speaker 1: of pretty sure, yeah she's coming back. If you have

663
00:32:48,200 --> 00:32:50,960
Speaker 1: some good hair products. God, if you have some Miss Jesse's,

664
00:32:51,560 --> 00:32:56,440
Speaker 1: you know, I'm definitely using that. Damn you in particular,

665
00:32:56,480 --> 00:33:03,720
Speaker 1: I obviously yeah, not you. I hate leaving ship. Don't

666
00:33:03,800 --> 00:33:05,680
Speaker 1: make when you leave your stuff that's good and you

667
00:33:05,760 --> 00:33:09,480
Speaker 1: gotta go back and get it back. So I'm just

668
00:33:09,480 --> 00:33:11,920
Speaker 1: like it take I'm taking it ill. That's why, because

669
00:33:11,920 --> 00:33:13,520
Speaker 1: I don't even want to go back and deal with it.

670
00:33:13,560 --> 00:33:16,400
Speaker 1: Why did you guys break up? We ain't got no

671
00:33:16,480 --> 00:33:19,240
Speaker 1: time for that. Um. I just realized that after ten

672
00:33:19,360 --> 00:33:24,320
Speaker 1: years and and numerous breakups and makeups, that I was

673
00:33:24,400 --> 00:33:27,000
Speaker 1: better off moving on. I don't want to be in

674
00:33:27,000 --> 00:33:29,200
Speaker 1: this anymore. By the time this episode comes out, they

675
00:33:29,280 --> 00:33:34,000
Speaker 1: might be back together. I wasn't one of those for

676
00:33:34,080 --> 00:33:36,360
Speaker 1: like six years, like the oh sorry, I wasn't one

677
00:33:36,400 --> 00:33:38,280
Speaker 1: of those for like six years that like back and

678
00:33:38,320 --> 00:33:43,520
Speaker 1: forth and and the slow, slow clearing of the fog

679
00:33:43,880 --> 00:33:47,360
Speaker 1: when I was finally like, oh I'm doing this to myself. Yeah,

680
00:33:47,840 --> 00:33:49,640
Speaker 1: did you listen to your music and think like that's

681
00:33:49,680 --> 00:33:53,800
Speaker 1: about me? Knew didn't make him fell away like that.

682
00:33:53,880 --> 00:33:57,720
Speaker 1: He said he got no because it was all the time,

683
00:33:57,800 --> 00:33:59,440
Speaker 1: which I And it sucks because it's easy for me

684
00:33:59,440 --> 00:34:01,920
Speaker 1: to emphathize too, because I'd hate if my if someone

685
00:34:02,560 --> 00:34:05,280
Speaker 1: if someone was someone that said that was gonna forgive me,

686
00:34:05,320 --> 00:34:07,400
Speaker 1: which I said I was gonna forgive and try to forgive,

687
00:34:07,480 --> 00:34:12,000
Speaker 1: just just was still hurt and publicly hurt, I'd feel

688
00:34:12,000 --> 00:34:13,520
Speaker 1: away because then I'd be like, how the funk are

689
00:34:13,520 --> 00:34:16,759
Speaker 1: we supposed to move on? Are you supposed to move on? Well,

690
00:34:16,840 --> 00:34:18,680
Speaker 1: some great music came out of it. If that makes

691
00:34:18,680 --> 00:34:23,000
Speaker 1: you feel anybody, at least I feel like, once you hurt,

692
00:34:23,040 --> 00:34:25,160
Speaker 1: and it's hard to like, it's kind of like if

693
00:34:25,160 --> 00:34:27,520
Speaker 1: somebody break an egg and trying to go it back

694
00:34:27,560 --> 00:34:30,600
Speaker 1: together ain't gonna be the same. So it's always going

695
00:34:30,640 --> 00:34:35,520
Speaker 1: to be some sort of a issue, or it always

696
00:34:35,560 --> 00:34:37,239
Speaker 1: you think I just gave up. You think when you

697
00:34:37,360 --> 00:34:39,600
Speaker 1: cheat that it means there's something wrong in the relationship,

698
00:34:39,719 --> 00:34:42,040
Speaker 1: or have you ever cheated just well the one time

699
00:34:42,080 --> 00:34:45,160
Speaker 1: you did. Is it just like for fun or is

700
00:34:45,200 --> 00:34:47,680
Speaker 1: it always because there's something wrong in the relationship, because

701
00:34:47,920 --> 00:34:51,239
Speaker 1: normally is when it's when there's a boy to feel. Yeah,

702
00:34:51,520 --> 00:34:53,480
Speaker 1: you know, you go to the other person to get

703
00:34:53,480 --> 00:34:55,680
Speaker 1: what you're missing, because they say guy's cheat because they

704
00:34:55,680 --> 00:34:58,360
Speaker 1: can and women cheat because something's missing. Yeah, I believe

705
00:34:58,360 --> 00:35:01,879
Speaker 1: that to God's because that's all they know, because it's

706
00:35:01,920 --> 00:35:04,560
Speaker 1: all the normal. I hate that though, that there's more responsibility.

707
00:35:04,640 --> 00:35:10,160
Speaker 1: Guys are set in the room. Every guy in their

708
00:35:10,200 --> 00:35:13,480
Speaker 1: mind that next vagina is going to be better than

709
00:35:13,480 --> 00:35:16,200
Speaker 1: the good vagina they already have. It's like that the

710
00:35:16,239 --> 00:35:18,000
Speaker 1: next pussy got to be the best pussy I ever

711
00:35:18,040 --> 00:35:19,960
Speaker 1: had in life, And I won't know unless I try it.

712
00:35:20,040 --> 00:35:21,560
Speaker 1: I don't think so. I think they just want to

713
00:35:21,600 --> 00:35:23,279
Speaker 1: try it. I don't think they think it's gonna be

714
00:35:23,280 --> 00:35:26,120
Speaker 1: better than they think it's gonna be better before. I

715
00:35:26,120 --> 00:35:28,560
Speaker 1: say that like a lot of pussy or whatever is

716
00:35:28,600 --> 00:35:32,040
Speaker 1: the same, like I've never heard of I have wax.

717
00:35:32,719 --> 00:35:37,160
Speaker 1: He just not here, but he says that. He says,

718
00:35:37,200 --> 00:35:39,000
Speaker 1: like a lot of pussy is the same he just

719
00:35:39,080 --> 00:35:42,120
Speaker 1: wants to conquer them. You get what I'm saying, Like

720
00:35:42,560 --> 00:35:48,520
Speaker 1: a lot of guys just wanted It's not for no reason.

721
00:35:49,600 --> 00:35:52,680
Speaker 1: Wax was vasseline jars. He does, but he's tell a

722
00:35:52,760 --> 00:35:57,080
Speaker 1: guy he doesn't count was looking for the next best thing.

723
00:35:57,239 --> 00:35:59,680
Speaker 1: And even if they have something that's home, that's good

724
00:35:59,840 --> 00:36:02,480
Speaker 1: and and the woman is everything that they want, they

725
00:36:02,560 --> 00:36:04,400
Speaker 1: still gonna go out and try the next thing because

726
00:36:04,480 --> 00:36:06,120
Speaker 1: they want to know if it's better. I asnot feel

727
00:36:06,160 --> 00:36:07,799
Speaker 1: like they just don't think they're gonna get caught, so

728
00:36:07,880 --> 00:36:10,520
Speaker 1: they don't think that far ahead. Always the first excuse,

729
00:36:10,600 --> 00:36:12,759
Speaker 1: like I didn't think he was ever going to find out, right,

730
00:36:13,000 --> 00:36:16,879
Speaker 1: I wasn't thinking, Yeah, I wasn't. Then we think about

731
00:36:16,880 --> 00:36:18,799
Speaker 1: it as right, guys are as you say, throwing dick

732
00:36:18,840 --> 00:36:22,000
Speaker 1: at us all the time, and we're able to turn

733
00:36:22,040 --> 00:36:26,920
Speaker 1: it down right right up, you know usually normally sometimes

734
00:36:27,280 --> 00:36:29,000
Speaker 1: has there ever been time and you're like, damn, this

735
00:36:29,040 --> 00:36:30,880
Speaker 1: person is trying to holler at me? And I used

736
00:36:30,880 --> 00:36:34,320
Speaker 1: to have a crush on him, so and then I

737
00:36:34,760 --> 00:36:37,440
Speaker 1: held out before, I'm sorry, And then I held out

738
00:36:37,440 --> 00:36:40,960
Speaker 1: before because I was with somebody. Yeah, well I have

739
00:36:41,000 --> 00:36:43,160
Speaker 1: like fought temptation and be like, oh I can't do this,

740
00:36:43,880 --> 00:36:47,279
Speaker 1: Yeah I have. And now that you're single, do you

741
00:36:47,360 --> 00:36:51,600
Speaker 1: be like, hey, hey big the other day, like that's

742
00:36:51,600 --> 00:37:02,000
Speaker 1: core years ago? Yeah, yeah I do because I used

743
00:37:02,040 --> 00:37:05,520
Speaker 1: to just leave them unread because out of respect, because

744
00:37:05,560 --> 00:37:07,279
Speaker 1: that's what you do when you're with somebody. You don't

745
00:37:07,280 --> 00:37:09,799
Speaker 1: fucking entertain those kind of messages. That's what you do

746
00:37:10,800 --> 00:37:14,280
Speaker 1: unless you're a guy. Yeah, but you but you don't answer.

747
00:37:14,760 --> 00:37:17,279
Speaker 1: But guys know, guys, you I don't give a funk.

748
00:37:17,280 --> 00:37:19,600
Speaker 1: If you guys get offended, I'm sorry. But like if

749
00:37:19,680 --> 00:37:23,040
Speaker 1: a guy's just sucking, it's just like the attention and

750
00:37:23,080 --> 00:37:26,600
Speaker 1: they react. But like as a woman, oftentimes you just

751
00:37:26,680 --> 00:37:29,040
Speaker 1: leave a lot of those men's are they're unopened, they're

752
00:37:29,080 --> 00:37:31,880
Speaker 1: on red. But there's a plentiful amount and my dams

753
00:37:31,920 --> 00:37:35,759
Speaker 1: all these opportunities that I haven't out of respect for you.

754
00:37:36,280 --> 00:37:39,560
Speaker 1: So what's your life being a single now? Different? But

755
00:37:39,640 --> 00:37:42,160
Speaker 1: it's at work all the time, so it's difficult. And

756
00:37:42,200 --> 00:37:46,640
Speaker 1: then also it's hard to see hearts, so it's you

757
00:37:46,680 --> 00:37:49,560
Speaker 1: can't really see intentions. You don't really know you know

758
00:37:49,560 --> 00:37:52,759
Speaker 1: what I mean, So it's it's hard. What about just

759
00:37:52,840 --> 00:37:54,880
Speaker 1: going on like an innocent date. It doesn't because it

760
00:37:54,880 --> 00:37:57,520
Speaker 1: doesn't have to be that serious yet. It could be

761
00:37:57,560 --> 00:37:59,880
Speaker 1: just maybe I'll go out with this person I might

762
00:38:00,760 --> 00:38:02,920
Speaker 1: and liking each other like that, but at least we

763
00:38:02,960 --> 00:38:04,879
Speaker 1: could be cool. I went on a day. It was nice,

764
00:38:05,000 --> 00:38:06,920
Speaker 1: it was sweet, it was cool. What did you do?

765
00:38:07,960 --> 00:38:12,080
Speaker 1: What do we do? We went to the park and

766
00:38:12,120 --> 00:38:14,600
Speaker 1: then we went to go eat, or we went to

767
00:38:14,600 --> 00:38:16,400
Speaker 1: go eat and then we went to the park and

768
00:38:16,440 --> 00:38:18,319
Speaker 1: just like put a little blanket on the grass and

769
00:38:18,320 --> 00:38:20,680
Speaker 1: talked and I asked them a thousand questions. That's cute.

770
00:38:21,800 --> 00:38:25,160
Speaker 1: What are some of the questions. So let's hear like, Um,

771
00:38:25,160 --> 00:38:28,920
Speaker 1: are you still cool with your ex? Is that so? Okay?

772
00:38:28,960 --> 00:38:30,439
Speaker 1: If he is? Or if he isn't, what's a better

773
00:38:30,480 --> 00:38:33,440
Speaker 1: answer for you either, as long as they're honest, like,

774
00:38:33,520 --> 00:38:35,960
Speaker 1: just be honest, Like I'll take what I'll take the truth,

775
00:38:36,080 --> 00:38:37,600
Speaker 1: and I won't judge you for it because I have

776
00:38:37,640 --> 00:38:39,839
Speaker 1: exces that I'm friends with, another excess that I could kill.

777
00:38:40,040 --> 00:38:44,200
Speaker 1: So okay. What if he says we're not cool because

778
00:38:44,239 --> 00:38:46,360
Speaker 1: I gave her chlamydia because I cheated at her, But

779
00:38:46,440 --> 00:38:49,279
Speaker 1: that's honest. Oh my god, Angela, did you fix it?

780
00:38:49,680 --> 00:38:54,000
Speaker 1: Did you fix it? It's so scary to hear something

781
00:38:54,040 --> 00:38:56,839
Speaker 1: like that. It's so scary because you don't know if

782
00:38:57,200 --> 00:39:00,480
Speaker 1: because there's two ways you can look at it. Either oh,

783
00:39:00,640 --> 00:39:04,000
Speaker 1: this guy's a habitual liar, or or if a guy's

784
00:39:04,080 --> 00:39:06,600
Speaker 1: never done that, you gotta be worried about those men too,

785
00:39:06,719 --> 00:39:08,720
Speaker 1: like the good guys that have never funked up because

786
00:39:09,120 --> 00:39:11,600
Speaker 1: they've never done it, so they might be more inclined

787
00:39:11,640 --> 00:39:18,120
Speaker 1: to experience that. You just ask a billion questions and

788
00:39:18,280 --> 00:39:22,319
Speaker 1: what's the next question? Come on? Um? Yeah, I'd like

789
00:39:22,360 --> 00:39:24,800
Speaker 1: to ask if they believe in God, and if they

790
00:39:24,880 --> 00:39:27,959
Speaker 1: talk to God, and if they their spiritual if they died,

791
00:39:28,360 --> 00:39:29,920
Speaker 1: was the first question that they would ask? Like, if

792
00:39:29,960 --> 00:39:32,040
Speaker 1: they had one question that they could ask God, what's

793
00:39:32,040 --> 00:39:34,040
Speaker 1: the first question that they would ask? I ask if

794
00:39:34,080 --> 00:39:36,960
Speaker 1: they read? Because I prefer an intelligent man. I asked,

795
00:39:37,040 --> 00:39:40,279
Speaker 1: Like what else? I said to ask how they treat

796
00:39:40,320 --> 00:39:42,919
Speaker 1: their family and how they treat their mother. Yeah, because

797
00:39:42,960 --> 00:39:46,319
Speaker 1: it's important to ask who their friends are, because like,

798
00:39:46,440 --> 00:39:47,960
Speaker 1: show me your friends, I'll show you who you are.

799
00:39:48,000 --> 00:39:49,680
Speaker 1: Like what are your friends like? To your friends cheat

800
00:39:49,800 --> 00:39:51,799
Speaker 1: your friend's party? De your friends do drugs? You are

801
00:39:51,840 --> 00:39:54,600
Speaker 1: your friends ambitious? Because if you're hanging around four people

802
00:39:54,640 --> 00:39:56,640
Speaker 1: that are lay mass and like not doing anything with

803
00:39:56,680 --> 00:39:59,439
Speaker 1: their lives. I can't funk with you because I'm doing

804
00:39:59,480 --> 00:40:01,520
Speaker 1: something with my life and you're going to be contagious.

805
00:40:01,920 --> 00:40:03,920
Speaker 1: What about kids? You ask if they have any kids?

806
00:40:05,280 --> 00:40:08,439
Speaker 1: I don't, but usually because I feel like you could

807
00:40:08,440 --> 00:40:27,520
Speaker 1: like see it, you should always in the beginning, come

808
00:40:27,600 --> 00:40:32,359
Speaker 1: on the right, they're single? And then I asked, well

809
00:40:32,600 --> 00:40:35,680
Speaker 1: is the girl you fucking know you're single? Because somebody's

810
00:40:35,680 --> 00:40:39,440
Speaker 1: always sucking somebody and there's always a guy who's single,

811
00:40:39,840 --> 00:40:42,080
Speaker 1: but the girl is in a relationship with him, and

812
00:40:42,120 --> 00:40:44,480
Speaker 1: it's like, that's something I need to know, And I like,

813
00:40:44,520 --> 00:40:46,040
Speaker 1: for a got to be honest because you never know

814
00:40:46,120 --> 00:40:49,279
Speaker 1: what I might be okay with. So don't just put

815
00:40:49,320 --> 00:40:52,440
Speaker 1: me in a situation because you're scared. To be honest

816
00:40:52,760 --> 00:40:54,680
Speaker 1: because you're scared to lose me or not be able

817
00:40:54,719 --> 00:40:57,160
Speaker 1: to have me or get me or whatever. UM be

818
00:40:57,280 --> 00:40:59,600
Speaker 1: honest because you never know where I'm at in life

819
00:40:59,600 --> 00:41:01,560
Speaker 1: and with my mindset is and where I'm trying to go,

820
00:41:01,880 --> 00:41:03,960
Speaker 1: and I might just be okay with a situation ship

821
00:41:04,160 --> 00:41:06,080
Speaker 1: or you know, as long as I know what's going on,

822
00:41:06,160 --> 00:41:08,759
Speaker 1: I might be okay with the what's going on. But

823
00:41:09,640 --> 00:41:12,560
Speaker 1: the worst thing is to be blindsided by all the

824
00:41:12,920 --> 00:41:16,600
Speaker 1: things the wife or a girlfriend or the kids mom

825
00:41:17,719 --> 00:41:19,799
Speaker 1: exactly when you think. And that's happened to me. I've

826
00:41:19,800 --> 00:41:21,320
Speaker 1: been in the two and a half year relationship with

827
00:41:21,360 --> 00:41:23,960
Speaker 1: a man that was married and had no idea did

828
00:41:24,040 --> 00:41:26,399
Speaker 1: you find out? He got arrested and his wife called

829
00:41:26,440 --> 00:41:27,520
Speaker 1: me and told me she was coming to pick up

830
00:41:27,520 --> 00:41:29,400
Speaker 1: my car because it was in his name. I said,

831
00:41:29,520 --> 00:41:31,880
Speaker 1: when you get here. She never showed up. Damn, so

832
00:41:31,920 --> 00:41:35,480
Speaker 1: he still had a car. No, girl, that was like

833
00:41:35,760 --> 00:41:42,640
Speaker 1: so long ago. It was so long ago, and we

834
00:41:42,680 --> 00:41:45,560
Speaker 1: were like we were like in a public he was

835
00:41:46,480 --> 00:41:49,279
Speaker 1: he wasn't. He was like locally known, he worked for

836
00:41:49,520 --> 00:41:52,080
Speaker 1: he worked in radio. He was locally and you were.

837
00:41:52,560 --> 00:41:55,560
Speaker 1: I was married to you. He was married to her.

838
00:41:55,840 --> 00:41:59,600
Speaker 1: I mean, but we were like, you know, and of

839
00:41:59,640 --> 00:42:01,520
Speaker 1: course the people around him knew that he was married,

840
00:42:01,560 --> 00:42:04,719
Speaker 1: but you were that's the word. Because everyone knows that

841
00:42:04,719 --> 00:42:06,560
Speaker 1: everybody knew I was his girlfriend. It was so weird

842
00:42:06,640 --> 00:42:08,360
Speaker 1: that when I found out he had a wife, and like,

843
00:42:08,400 --> 00:42:12,480
Speaker 1: how but with made sense in hindsight, excuse me? Was

844
00:42:12,520 --> 00:42:14,360
Speaker 1: that we had daughters that were around the same age

845
00:42:14,680 --> 00:42:16,520
Speaker 1: and He never bought his daughter to meet my daughter,

846
00:42:16,680 --> 00:42:18,080
Speaker 1: and that always was weird to me, like why do

847
00:42:18,120 --> 00:42:19,880
Speaker 1: you bring your daughter around? Like I knew her name

848
00:42:19,920 --> 00:42:21,880
Speaker 1: and everything, but he never would bring her around. And

849
00:42:21,880 --> 00:42:24,239
Speaker 1: that's because he was still with her mother, right, So

850
00:42:24,760 --> 00:42:27,080
Speaker 1: I felt like some people are uncomfortable bringing their kids

851
00:42:27,160 --> 00:42:29,000
Speaker 1: unless we're gonna get married. We were in a two

852
00:42:29,000 --> 00:42:34,080
Speaker 1: and a half year relationship and with my child. Were

853
00:42:34,120 --> 00:42:36,279
Speaker 1: you ever going to his house? Never? He lived in

854
00:42:36,440 --> 00:42:41,080
Speaker 1: Well that's another thing. The state, so that was the reason,

855
00:42:41,200 --> 00:42:46,919
Speaker 1: like the old house, that's where's planes at this year. Well,

856
00:42:46,960 --> 00:42:49,680
Speaker 1: it was kind of like no, it was a driving state,

857
00:42:49,840 --> 00:42:52,799
Speaker 1: but it was kind of like, um, everything we did

858
00:42:52,960 --> 00:42:55,640
Speaker 1: was in where I lived, and he worked where I lived,

859
00:42:55,640 --> 00:42:56,799
Speaker 1: and you know what I'm saying. So we never had

860
00:42:56,800 --> 00:43:00,239
Speaker 1: a reason to go to because you would be but

861
00:43:00,680 --> 00:43:02,480
Speaker 1: he like was in and out of my house. He

862
00:43:02,480 --> 00:43:03,759
Speaker 1: didn't have a key or anything like that. But we

863
00:43:03,760 --> 00:43:05,920
Speaker 1: were in a relationship, so he was around and everything

864
00:43:05,960 --> 00:43:09,720
Speaker 1: just happened around where we were. And it's number one've

865
00:43:09,719 --> 00:43:11,640
Speaker 1: never been to his house. If I don't see your house,

866
00:43:11,840 --> 00:43:18,520
Speaker 1: you're not seeing my pussy. Because when you see if

867
00:43:18,520 --> 00:43:21,560
Speaker 1: someone's like mad messier, Yeah, you gotta see what's going on.

868
00:43:21,680 --> 00:43:23,359
Speaker 1: Can your magic on the someone's house? In their house

869
00:43:23,440 --> 00:43:31,480
Speaker 1: is shitty, like a mess, disgusting, the TV with the

870
00:43:31,560 --> 00:43:38,680
Speaker 1: tube in the bag, not the big back TV, but

871
00:43:38,719 --> 00:43:45,080
Speaker 1: if they had VHS tapes. Yeah, that's kind of Have

872
00:43:45,160 --> 00:43:46,839
Speaker 1: you ever gone to somebody's has been like I can't

873
00:43:46,880 --> 00:43:49,080
Speaker 1: date this person. No, but I've gone to someone has

874
00:43:49,600 --> 00:43:51,239
Speaker 1: the next time I come here is not clean, I'm

875
00:43:51,239 --> 00:43:54,720
Speaker 1: not coming back. Yeah. I said that the people's houses

876
00:43:54,760 --> 00:44:00,839
Speaker 1: and cleaned them to make myself comfortable. Help. I helped clean.

877
00:44:00,920 --> 00:44:03,680
Speaker 1: I've cleaned. I've done that more than once. Damn. So

878
00:44:03,680 --> 00:44:06,000
Speaker 1: how did they clean a dick if they can't clean

879
00:44:06,040 --> 00:44:08,319
Speaker 1: the bath or something? No, not to the point that

880
00:44:08,400 --> 00:44:11,640
Speaker 1: it was nasty, but just I'm very clean. You both

881
00:44:11,680 --> 00:44:13,960
Speaker 1: have been to know how I live. I'm a very

882
00:44:14,000 --> 00:44:16,799
Speaker 1: clean person, and I'm like, hello, organizing everything. So if

883
00:44:16,840 --> 00:44:18,200
Speaker 1: I was going to I was gonna be staying there

884
00:44:18,239 --> 00:44:20,719
Speaker 1: for like a couple of days. So while I was

885
00:44:20,760 --> 00:44:22,600
Speaker 1: in there with nothing to do, I just like cleaned

886
00:44:22,600 --> 00:44:26,000
Speaker 1: and made it comfortable for myself. I don't think I

887
00:44:26,000 --> 00:44:28,240
Speaker 1: want to clean someone's house. I clean my own house.

888
00:44:28,480 --> 00:44:30,680
Speaker 1: If I come to your house, I feel like I

889
00:44:30,719 --> 00:44:34,360
Speaker 1: should be relaxing. I guess, yeah, like you should be

890
00:44:34,440 --> 00:44:35,840
Speaker 1: kind of like when you come to my house, I

891
00:44:35,920 --> 00:44:38,160
Speaker 1: handle everything, take care of you. When I come to

892
00:44:38,239 --> 00:44:41,120
Speaker 1: your house, I feel like you should cater to me

893
00:44:41,160 --> 00:44:43,400
Speaker 1: and take care of everything. You know. So have you

894
00:44:43,400 --> 00:44:46,520
Speaker 1: ever lived with anybody? Uh? Lucy? When I was like

895
00:44:49,920 --> 00:44:53,880
Speaker 1: and yeah, it was whatever. It was like a short lived,

896
00:44:54,360 --> 00:44:59,640
Speaker 1: short lived passion, right. Yeah? Did your parents like him? Uh?

897
00:45:00,000 --> 00:45:05,400
Speaker 1: I feel they like they tolerated him. He got to

898
00:45:05,400 --> 00:45:09,640
Speaker 1: come to Christmas again. Yeah, it tolerated him. He was

899
00:45:09,680 --> 00:45:12,319
Speaker 1: all right. He wasn't a black guy. But it wasn't.

900
00:45:12,320 --> 00:45:16,200
Speaker 1: It wasn't. It wasn't gonna work. We're both hot headed.

901
00:45:17,239 --> 00:45:21,840
Speaker 1: It just didn't make sense. Uh are you still hot headed? Um? Now,

902
00:45:21,920 --> 00:45:27,279
Speaker 1: when I have yoga in my life, your dead as

903
00:45:28,120 --> 00:45:33,560
Speaker 1: yoga love yoga too? Yo. It's crazy. It's like it's

904
00:45:33,560 --> 00:45:37,240
Speaker 1: like it's just different. It's just it's just like someone

905
00:45:37,320 --> 00:45:40,359
Speaker 1: soothing your soul and you just get senter in back

906
00:45:40,400 --> 00:45:42,600
Speaker 1: to earth and you just realize that, like it's what's

907
00:45:42,600 --> 00:45:46,160
Speaker 1: about right now? It's cool. I'm gonna try that. I

908
00:45:46,239 --> 00:45:48,719
Speaker 1: did hot yoga. We did it. When we did it,

909
00:45:48,880 --> 00:45:50,839
Speaker 1: but it was we was laughing at joking. The whole time.

910
00:45:52,360 --> 00:45:54,120
Speaker 1: We was laughing at joking a lot of the time.

911
00:45:54,880 --> 00:45:58,719
Speaker 1: I couldn't meditate and focus. I gotta go without her. Yeah,

912
00:45:58,719 --> 00:46:01,800
Speaker 1: it's hard going with somebody got to grow, especially this child.

913
00:46:01,840 --> 00:46:04,600
Speaker 1: Though here look at her. You couldn't take that. You

914
00:46:04,640 --> 00:46:07,279
Speaker 1: couldn't take it seriously. I was very serious when I

915
00:46:07,320 --> 00:46:11,640
Speaker 1: got to make a joke when they was doing I'm

916
00:46:11,680 --> 00:46:20,360
Speaker 1: not gonna lie that p that's me beginning. Everybody feel stupid.

917
00:46:20,400 --> 00:46:22,080
Speaker 1: Were trying to catch the end of it, but we

918
00:46:22,120 --> 00:46:29,279
Speaker 1: was off started out. All My stay was the in

919
00:46:29,320 --> 00:46:32,919
Speaker 1: the beginning, like, yeah, I didn't want to do the chance.

920
00:46:32,960 --> 00:46:36,920
Speaker 1: It's so weird. That's part of the meditation. I'm sorry,

921
00:46:37,040 --> 00:46:40,040
Speaker 1: I'm immature. How many lessons do you need to go

922
00:46:40,120 --> 00:46:42,200
Speaker 1: before you know what's telling to do that? It's like

923
00:46:42,239 --> 00:46:51,279
Speaker 1: the dope part in the brace until the record. All right, Now,

924
00:46:51,320 --> 00:46:53,560
Speaker 1: here's another question somebody sent in that you can answer.

925
00:46:54,200 --> 00:46:55,680
Speaker 1: She said, I've been dealing with this guy for over

926
00:46:55,760 --> 00:46:58,359
Speaker 1: ten years. When we first met, he was married. Yes,

927
00:46:58,520 --> 00:47:00,839
Speaker 1: I know, we were deployed to at the time. Even

928
00:47:00,880 --> 00:47:02,440
Speaker 1: though I knew that it isn't right, I was only

929
00:47:02,440 --> 00:47:04,839
Speaker 1: thinking to myself, he has since gotten a divorce. Even

930
00:47:04,880 --> 00:47:06,520
Speaker 1: though I don't want a relationship with him, I do

931
00:47:06,600 --> 00:47:08,920
Speaker 1: want him in my life for sex only. When he

932
00:47:09,000 --> 00:47:10,640
Speaker 1: was married, I felt as if he treated me better.

933
00:47:10,680 --> 00:47:13,400
Speaker 1: He was more caring, understanding and loving. And between this

934
00:47:13,440 --> 00:47:15,279
Speaker 1: time he did lose his son to suicide, which is

935
00:47:15,280 --> 00:47:17,680
Speaker 1: definitely tragic, and I do see it change in him

936
00:47:17,680 --> 00:47:19,440
Speaker 1: for the worst. We don't see each other very often,

937
00:47:19,480 --> 00:47:21,120
Speaker 1: but we do talk on the phone almost every day,

938
00:47:21,360 --> 00:47:23,080
Speaker 1: which I do enjoy, but I don't feel like I'm

939
00:47:23,080 --> 00:47:25,239
Speaker 1: the only one he's entertaining. He's deployed right now, which

940
00:47:25,239 --> 00:47:27,319
Speaker 1: makes it even harder to deal with him being with

941
00:47:27,320 --> 00:47:29,319
Speaker 1: other people. I don't have sex with other people, and

942
00:47:29,400 --> 00:47:31,080
Speaker 1: he knows this, so I think he takes that for granted.

943
00:47:31,120 --> 00:47:32,640
Speaker 1: He told me he did sleep with someone while he's

944
00:47:32,640 --> 00:47:34,880
Speaker 1: been away, and I'm very hurt about that, even though

945
00:47:34,920 --> 00:47:37,160
Speaker 1: we're not in a committed relationship. Should I go out

946
00:47:37,160 --> 00:47:38,680
Speaker 1: and do what he is doing and just enjoy my

947
00:47:38,680 --> 00:47:40,319
Speaker 1: time or we're together? Or should I just let this

948
00:47:40,360 --> 00:47:46,359
Speaker 1: ongoing sexual relationship go girl run far fast. She don't

949
00:47:46,400 --> 00:47:49,000
Speaker 1: even really want him, so I'm confused by she do

950
00:47:49,120 --> 00:47:51,560
Speaker 1: but she don't. I feel like she enjoys your sexual

951
00:47:51,600 --> 00:47:59,840
Speaker 1: relationships and other people while he's the But let's not

952
00:48:00,080 --> 00:48:03,319
Speaker 1: get his son killed himself and that's a tragedy. So

953
00:48:03,400 --> 00:48:06,120
Speaker 1: that would change anybody, how they treat you, how they

954
00:48:06,160 --> 00:48:08,480
Speaker 1: look at life, how they are. And I feel like,

955
00:48:08,520 --> 00:48:10,160
Speaker 1: if you really care about somebody, I want to be

956
00:48:10,200 --> 00:48:13,120
Speaker 1: with them, that's something you would take into consideration. But

957
00:48:13,280 --> 00:48:16,279
Speaker 1: she doesn't. She just wanted Yep. Have you ever been

958
00:48:16,320 --> 00:48:18,040
Speaker 1: with somebody that to just like having sex with them

959
00:48:18,040 --> 00:48:21,680
Speaker 1: and didn't like their personality? Yeah, I could tell you.

960
00:48:22,640 --> 00:48:27,800
Speaker 1: I'm calling him after this. It's hard, though. It's hard.

961
00:48:27,920 --> 00:48:32,120
Speaker 1: It's hard because because the mental stimulation is so important,

962
00:48:32,920 --> 00:48:35,799
Speaker 1: so it it's rare because it's not often. But it

963
00:48:35,920 --> 00:48:39,880
Speaker 1: just happened and it was good. So I was like, fuck,

964
00:48:41,400 --> 00:48:44,920
Speaker 1: I just wish you were different. I wish you were smart, smarter.

965
00:48:46,120 --> 00:48:51,719
Speaker 1: I wish that sucks because it's like what you wish

966
00:48:51,760 --> 00:48:53,120
Speaker 1: you could just build the man, like build a bear

967
00:48:53,160 --> 00:48:56,359
Speaker 1: and just like all that time, take this part, this part,

968
00:48:56,360 --> 00:48:59,280
Speaker 1: at this part and be like, can I get his success,

969
00:48:59,800 --> 00:49:02,880
Speaker 1: make it his personality, makes with his looks, mix with

970
00:49:03,000 --> 00:49:05,239
Speaker 1: his sex. Yeah, and then you have the perfect man.

971
00:49:05,520 --> 00:49:10,480
Speaker 1: It's crazy. Does the perfect man exists doesn't Rassell Wilson

972
00:49:10,600 --> 00:49:15,200
Speaker 1: for Sierra. Yeah, you never. You don't know, Like I

973
00:49:15,560 --> 00:49:18,279
Speaker 1: remember that one told me they're smiling, but there's never

974
00:49:18,520 --> 00:49:22,839
Speaker 1: you never behind behind closed. You never know what's really good.

975
00:49:23,200 --> 00:49:25,319
Speaker 1: And I remember my dad told me once when I

976
00:49:25,440 --> 00:49:27,399
Speaker 1: was at that crossroads, because I talked to my dad

977
00:49:27,400 --> 00:49:29,400
Speaker 1: about it, and I was like, because I was worried

978
00:49:29,440 --> 00:49:32,440
Speaker 1: and I was assessing my life and assessing if I

979
00:49:32,480 --> 00:49:34,279
Speaker 1: was going to go head first into music or not,

980
00:49:34,400 --> 00:49:36,120
Speaker 1: assessing if I was going to go with dude and

981
00:49:36,200 --> 00:49:41,200
Speaker 1: just like chill out in Florida. And he was like,

982
00:49:42,360 --> 00:49:44,400
Speaker 1: I get what you're saying, but if you're reading for perfect,

983
00:49:44,480 --> 00:49:46,239
Speaker 1: it's not going to come. I'll tell you what real

984
00:49:46,280 --> 00:49:49,800
Speaker 1: love is. True love, real love is accepting the worst

985
00:49:49,840 --> 00:49:53,360
Speaker 1: than someone else is. Tolerance is when you see the dirtiest,

986
00:49:53,400 --> 00:49:56,520
Speaker 1: like like the most annoying ship and it doesn't irk you,

987
00:49:57,120 --> 00:49:59,640
Speaker 1: like the most want to leave, that's love. And I

988
00:49:59,680 --> 00:50:02,279
Speaker 1: was like, that's bleak, But but I get it right,

989
00:50:02,320 --> 00:50:06,520
Speaker 1: because nobody's gonna You're not gonna love everything about anyone. Yeah, well,

990
00:50:06,560 --> 00:50:09,960
Speaker 1: I'm glad you went head first in the music and

991
00:50:10,000 --> 00:50:12,640
Speaker 1: you've had like some of the craziest collaborations with all

992
00:50:12,760 --> 00:50:18,000
Speaker 1: different genres of people, you know, from Eminem to A

993
00:50:18,200 --> 00:50:23,400
Speaker 1: Buggy to Calvin Harris Black now and you know so

994
00:50:23,440 --> 00:50:27,200
Speaker 1: many different people. What was the most amazing call or

995
00:50:27,200 --> 00:50:29,600
Speaker 1: a person that you ever got a call from and

996
00:50:29,719 --> 00:50:31,439
Speaker 1: wanted to collaborate with you with that you were like, Damn,

997
00:50:31,480 --> 00:50:35,319
Speaker 1: I can't believe this is happening. Oh. I feel like

998
00:50:35,360 --> 00:50:40,400
Speaker 1: it's a tie between um Romero Santos because that was

999
00:50:40,440 --> 00:50:46,600
Speaker 1: my first concert when I was fourteen in Toronto. But

1000
00:50:47,239 --> 00:50:49,879
Speaker 1: he made history with that one. Yeah, And I put

1001
00:50:49,880 --> 00:50:51,960
Speaker 1: it into the universe because two months before I got

1002
00:50:52,000 --> 00:50:53,799
Speaker 1: the call, I was like, I want to start making

1003
00:50:53,800 --> 00:50:55,719
Speaker 1: Spanish music. Member. I was like, I want to start

1004
00:50:55,760 --> 00:50:58,560
Speaker 1: making Spanish music because I speak It's my first language.

1005
00:50:58,800 --> 00:51:01,040
Speaker 1: It's just I just had any it and I and

1006
00:51:01,080 --> 00:51:02,960
Speaker 1: I said it two months or a month like with

1007
00:51:04,200 --> 00:51:07,000
Speaker 1: two weeks before I said it. And then I was

1008
00:51:07,000 --> 00:51:09,840
Speaker 1: sitting by the ocean and I got a call and

1009
00:51:09,840 --> 00:51:11,319
Speaker 1: the guys were like, you're not going to believe this,

1010
00:51:11,360 --> 00:51:13,919
Speaker 1: and I was like, yeah, so is that one? And

1011
00:51:14,640 --> 00:51:18,080
Speaker 1: were you guys in the studio together? Yeah? Together together,

1012
00:51:19,520 --> 00:51:23,239
Speaker 1: mad cool man. It's just so cool when you meet

1013
00:51:23,280 --> 00:51:27,560
Speaker 1: somebody like that. Who's not a dick. You know, you

1014
00:51:27,640 --> 00:51:30,319
Speaker 1: meet so many people and I experienced maybe twenty per

1015
00:51:30,680 --> 00:51:33,640
Speaker 1: of the success that he's experienced that our assholes. So

1016
00:51:33,719 --> 00:51:36,319
Speaker 1: you meet him and he's so chill because you never

1017
00:51:36,320 --> 00:51:38,720
Speaker 1: know because he's been famous for a long time. Yeah,

1018
00:51:38,840 --> 00:51:42,320
Speaker 1: he's mad chill, so cool. And then with Calvin Harris.

1019
00:51:42,320 --> 00:51:44,279
Speaker 1: But with Calvin because when I was eighteen, I used

1020
00:51:44,320 --> 00:51:47,080
Speaker 1: to like sneak into I used to sneak my mixtapes

1021
00:51:47,120 --> 00:51:50,080
Speaker 1: and ship into into raves and ship and go up

1022
00:51:50,120 --> 00:51:51,919
Speaker 1: to the DJ and like shake my ship in front

1023
00:51:51,960 --> 00:51:54,439
Speaker 1: of them. So I did it to Calvin Harris once

1024
00:51:54,520 --> 00:51:56,920
Speaker 1: and then six years later he reached out on Twitter

1025
00:51:56,960 --> 00:51:59,359
Speaker 1: and was like yo, and this is before I had

1026
00:51:59,360 --> 00:52:02,080
Speaker 1: signed where anything big had popped off. Figures was just

1027
00:52:02,160 --> 00:52:06,080
Speaker 1: out and um. He was like, Yo, the industry's buzzing

1028
00:52:06,080 --> 00:52:08,120
Speaker 1: about you and everyone's really excited. And I thought you

1029
00:52:08,160 --> 00:52:09,520
Speaker 1: should know. And it was in my d MS and

1030
00:52:09,520 --> 00:52:13,239
Speaker 1: I didn't believe, Like I went to his it was him. Yeah,

1031
00:52:13,280 --> 00:52:15,319
Speaker 1: I couldn't believe it. And then when I tried to

1032
00:52:15,360 --> 00:52:18,560
Speaker 1: tell you when I was waving, so he didn't remember that.

1033
00:52:18,640 --> 00:52:20,480
Speaker 1: He didn't know that I even went until the end

1034
00:52:20,480 --> 00:52:21,719
Speaker 1: of the session because I don't want to just pop

1035
00:52:21,800 --> 00:52:23,839
Speaker 1: introm me like I know you, you know me, But

1036
00:52:23,960 --> 00:52:26,680
Speaker 1: I waited because the session was lit. It was really doping.

1037
00:52:26,719 --> 00:52:27,880
Speaker 1: At the end of the session, I was like, I

1038
00:52:27,920 --> 00:52:30,200
Speaker 1: gotta story to tell you, and then I told you

1039
00:52:30,640 --> 00:52:32,320
Speaker 1: that's so cute. I love it. But I love that

1040
00:52:32,360 --> 00:52:35,839
Speaker 1: you could speak things into existence. Life. Is that's a hack?

1041
00:52:35,920 --> 00:52:38,520
Speaker 1: I don't. It's so it's a hack, it's real life.

1042
00:52:38,560 --> 00:52:42,759
Speaker 1: Actually have a tattooed on my arm, actually received that.

1043
00:52:44,400 --> 00:52:49,160
Speaker 1: She also has a Magic City tattooed. It's not she

1044
00:52:49,280 --> 00:52:53,680
Speaker 1: has a name. Her name is Sans But I had

1045
00:52:53,719 --> 00:52:59,880
Speaker 1: the magat but that place changed my life. It's meaning

1046
00:53:00,000 --> 00:53:01,520
Speaker 1: old to me, Loria. Why you want to be over

1047
00:53:01,520 --> 00:53:05,800
Speaker 1: there telling striper joke? All I do is say that

1048
00:53:05,920 --> 00:53:11,319
Speaker 1: you have your actually receiving something that I've looked for

1049
00:53:11,360 --> 00:53:15,480
Speaker 1: a lot of years now. It's my email signature and everything,

1050
00:53:15,520 --> 00:53:17,680
Speaker 1: Like I really and it happens. I've manifested a lot

1051
00:53:17,680 --> 00:53:20,600
Speaker 1: of things into my life just by putting it out there. Yeah,

1052
00:53:21,080 --> 00:53:24,040
Speaker 1: me too. Work wild, it works, it's wild, how well

1053
00:53:24,080 --> 00:53:27,920
Speaker 1: it works? Well. I just want to say congratulations to you,

1054
00:53:27,960 --> 00:53:29,839
Speaker 1: and we're excited. We love your music. We love, how

1055
00:53:30,080 --> 00:53:32,040
Speaker 1: d thank you? And how do you say anything? Because

1056
00:53:32,040 --> 00:53:34,120
Speaker 1: I love when people could sing their ass off but

1057
00:53:34,200 --> 00:53:37,440
Speaker 1: be singing like that ship that regular people like us

1058
00:53:38,120 --> 00:53:41,279
Speaker 1: want to think, Yeah, thank you. We like to hear

1059
00:53:41,320 --> 00:53:43,879
Speaker 1: that thanks man. I say it freely in my music

1060
00:53:43,920 --> 00:53:48,239
Speaker 1: because it's easier for my folks not to understand. And

1061
00:53:48,280 --> 00:53:50,880
Speaker 1: you got a lot of sold out shows coming up, Hey,

1062
00:53:50,920 --> 00:53:53,040
Speaker 1: I do I think they just sold out? To know,

1063
00:53:53,719 --> 00:53:57,880
Speaker 1: almost New York sold Toronto sold out, left and n't

1064
00:53:57,920 --> 00:54:02,640
Speaker 1: even get in through up what you guys, I just

1065
00:54:02,640 --> 00:54:06,720
Speaker 1: said that for you to say that, no, But seriously,

1066
00:54:06,760 --> 00:54:08,960
Speaker 1: congratulations Jesse ray Is. I'm so glad you came up there,

1067
00:54:08,960 --> 00:54:10,560
Speaker 1: and I love that you speak your truth. Like I've

1068
00:54:10,560 --> 00:54:13,640
Speaker 1: been following you for a while now, and I'm appreciative

1069
00:54:13,680 --> 00:54:15,799
Speaker 1: of it because I think that, you know, we're in

1070
00:54:15,800 --> 00:54:18,600
Speaker 1: the industry where it is really hard, where people are

1071
00:54:18,960 --> 00:54:22,319
Speaker 1: really scared about perceptions and what people might think of them,

1072
00:54:22,800 --> 00:54:25,200
Speaker 1: and so I think it's refreshing to have somebody that's

1073
00:54:25,239 --> 00:54:27,759
Speaker 1: like unapologetic about what it is that they have to

1074
00:54:27,800 --> 00:54:29,759
Speaker 1: say and has the courage, like you said, to speak

1075
00:54:29,840 --> 00:54:32,360
Speaker 1: up and speak out. The best self to be is yourself?

1076
00:54:35,480 --> 00:54:49,200
Speaker 1: Right with that ship on the tramp stamp my board.

1077
00:54:51,920 --> 00:54:57,759
Speaker 1: I was going to say that too, because the Racial

1078
00:54:57,960 --> 00:55:00,000
Speaker 1: Service Live is on to We're not sold out, yeah,

1079
00:55:00,120 --> 00:55:01,960
Speaker 1: like Jesse, but make sure you come and check us

1080
00:55:01,960 --> 00:55:06,400
Speaker 1: out speaking into Existence. We're on tour from October twentieth

1081
00:55:06,480 --> 00:55:11,399
Speaker 1: until November thirteen. So true. Yes, bunch of cities coming

1082
00:55:11,440 --> 00:55:16,279
Speaker 1: near you. Where are you guys on the let's that's

1083
00:55:16,760 --> 00:55:23,680
Speaker 1: New York. Let's see, we're not we have we're here.

1084
00:55:23,719 --> 00:55:25,640
Speaker 1: We leave on the twenty four for Atlanta. I leave

1085
00:55:25,640 --> 00:55:27,919
Speaker 1: on the twenty four for Atlanta. So I'm here. You'll

1086
00:55:27,920 --> 00:55:31,520
Speaker 1: already be being in Atlanta already, Yeah, Bobby in New York,

1087
00:55:31,880 --> 00:55:35,440
Speaker 1: I'll be in d C. Yeah, I live in Atlanta.

1088
00:55:35,560 --> 00:55:37,279
Speaker 1: I live in New York. And Stephanie lives in New York.

1089
00:55:37,400 --> 00:55:39,080
Speaker 1: She's not here. But where are you gonna be? We're

1090
00:55:39,080 --> 00:55:49,000
Speaker 1: gonna yeah, maybe because my flight is the twenty second.

1091
00:55:49,360 --> 00:55:51,520
Speaker 1: You are not leaving and coming back. And I said,

1092
00:55:51,600 --> 00:55:58,000
Speaker 1: change the flight, okay, okay, light basic economy. You can't

1093
00:55:58,080 --> 00:56:04,840
Speaker 1: change it. Sorry, No, I didn't know she was the

1094
00:56:04,920 --> 00:56:08,200
Speaker 1: one that wanted to go back that day. You know,

1095
00:56:08,280 --> 00:56:11,680
Speaker 1: basic economy is no joke, sorry, girl. You know I

1096
00:56:11,680 --> 00:56:13,719
Speaker 1: had a basic economy flight the other day that got

1097
00:56:13,760 --> 00:56:16,120
Speaker 1: upgraded the first class. It's actually my flight back to

1098
00:56:16,160 --> 00:56:21,319
Speaker 1: Atlanta tomorrow. Basic about that. Let's take this back to

1099
00:56:21,360 --> 00:56:23,160
Speaker 1: the little Baby episode when we talked about flying the

1100
00:56:23,239 --> 00:56:27,680
Speaker 1: first class. Oh the baby, I'm sorry, damn yeah, let's

1101
00:56:27,680 --> 00:56:31,000
Speaker 1: say back to the baby baby. Let's take this back

1102
00:56:31,040 --> 00:56:34,040
Speaker 1: to the baby episode we talked about flying first class.

1103
00:56:34,200 --> 00:56:36,880
Speaker 1: D just coach. But that guy smile is so nice,

1104
00:56:36,920 --> 00:56:40,680
Speaker 1: man that he looks so happy, Yeah, so happy until

1105
00:56:40,680 --> 00:56:50,960
Speaker 1: he's not man like he's smelling because they always win.

1106
00:56:52,719 --> 00:56:54,719
Speaker 1: What's your type of guy? Like? If we had to

1107
00:56:54,760 --> 00:56:57,080
Speaker 1: say this is the kind of guy that Jesse likes,

1108
00:56:57,120 --> 00:56:59,400
Speaker 1: what would you say, is your type of guy? Funny?

1109
00:56:59,719 --> 00:57:05,879
Speaker 1: Some aren't kind, not too fucking friendly and not too

1110
00:57:05,880 --> 00:57:08,719
Speaker 1: friendly and I don't want to be for everybody. Yeah,

1111
00:57:08,920 --> 00:57:10,920
Speaker 1: that girl's not your friend. This girl's not your friends

1112
00:57:11,160 --> 00:57:15,040
Speaker 1: not to friendly, smart, funny, kind, friendly? And what about looks?

1113
00:57:15,080 --> 00:57:20,440
Speaker 1: Is that ry not friendly? And I can that's not

1114
00:57:20,600 --> 00:57:23,760
Speaker 1: that's not like I'm the same way. Looks don't mean that.

1115
00:57:23,800 --> 00:57:25,440
Speaker 1: Let's at the bottom of the list with me. Yeah,

1116
00:57:25,600 --> 00:57:28,960
Speaker 1: let's it's like something crazy, but looks might be like

1117
00:57:29,080 --> 00:57:31,640
Speaker 1: second for me. But I like it. But that being said,

1118
00:57:31,760 --> 00:57:36,160
Speaker 1: looks looks isn't that big? But I like, um uh

1119
00:57:37,080 --> 00:57:41,919
Speaker 1: like aggressive, like that attitude that like authority, authority, that

1120
00:57:41,920 --> 00:57:46,919
Speaker 1: that that energy, that energy, big dig energy big looks

1121
00:57:46,920 --> 00:57:49,280
Speaker 1: like give me big dig energy. What's a little dick energy?

1122
00:57:49,800 --> 00:57:55,760
Speaker 1: Quiet and corny fighting corny is scary when every dary

1123
00:57:55,920 --> 00:57:58,840
Speaker 1: like do you think you could possibly? Can you do this?

1124
00:57:58,920 --> 00:58:01,800
Speaker 1: I think sometimes the nigs with the little dicks be

1125
00:58:01,880 --> 00:58:03,840
Speaker 1: trying to have they have an attitude. Yeah, they'd be

1126
00:58:03,840 --> 00:58:08,960
Speaker 1: trying to Napoleon. Yeah, they topping big and like they

1127
00:58:09,040 --> 00:58:11,640
Speaker 1: got a big dick. There's those the ones that don't

1128
00:58:11,680 --> 00:58:14,760
Speaker 1: got a Yeah, I've heard that the skinny ones are

1129
00:58:14,800 --> 00:58:28,160
Speaker 1: like the like tripod playing that trip tripe. Do it

1130
00:58:28,240 --> 00:58:34,400
Speaker 1: to them? The cameras are on tripods. Oh no, no, no,

1131
00:58:34,600 --> 00:58:40,160
Speaker 1: I heard no. Alright, So it looks don't mad at

1132
00:58:40,200 --> 00:58:42,439
Speaker 1: so much? Yeah, looks like it looks don't matter that much.

1133
00:58:42,520 --> 00:58:48,160
Speaker 1: It's morrible like that kind funny smart. Smart's important keep

1134
00:58:48,200 --> 00:58:52,560
Speaker 1: saying that book books wash documentaries. Yeah, man, we gotta

1135
00:58:52,600 --> 00:58:54,360
Speaker 1: have this question. You gotta be able to talk about

1136
00:58:54,400 --> 00:58:57,760
Speaker 1: some ship. It makes sense, especially because yeah, because talking

1137
00:58:57,880 --> 00:59:02,000
Speaker 1: is important, like that communication. That's my love language, I guess,

1138
00:59:02,400 --> 00:59:06,000
Speaker 1: so it's important that that's facilitated. You gotta lay in

1139
00:59:06,000 --> 00:59:10,520
Speaker 1: bed and have those deep discussions. That's cute and need it,

1140
00:59:10,560 --> 00:59:13,120
Speaker 1: but not too friendly. I don't want nobody that's too friendly,

1141
00:59:13,160 --> 00:59:17,440
Speaker 1: said the funk away from me. Nice, smart, kind, but

1142
00:59:17,480 --> 00:59:20,440
Speaker 1: not too friendly, not right friendly, but Jesse Ray is

1143
00:59:20,800 --> 00:59:22,760
Speaker 1: is lip service. Again, thank you so much for coming.

1144
00:59:22,800 --> 00:59:25,360
Speaker 1: Do we thank you your talent. Thank you appreciate you

1145
00:59:25,480 --> 00:59:27,360
Speaker 1: want to talk more about dick. When we were scared

1146
00:59:27,400 --> 00:59:31,280
Speaker 1: when you said your parents, I know were gonna give

1147
00:59:31,320 --> 00:59:34,600
Speaker 1: you once the camera start. Hey, oh wait no, no, no no,

1148
00:59:34,800 --> 00:59:36,080
Speaker 1: we can give it to her now, we're gonna give

1149
00:59:36,080 --> 00:59:42,880
Speaker 1: it you on camera. Okay, Spanish exact say beat that ball.

1150
00:59:43,520 --> 00:59:46,320
Speaker 1: I thought that was too I'm a fake guys Spanish

1151
00:59:47,440 --> 01:00:07,720
Speaker 1: right our eggs? What the team? That's what is it? Chima? Okay,

1152
01:00:07,760 --> 01:00:09,960
Speaker 1: So there's some some little hell. This is cute for you.

1153
01:00:10,080 --> 01:00:12,640
Speaker 1: Handcuffs because I know you like that. They like little

1154
01:00:12,640 --> 01:00:16,200
Speaker 1: soft ones though, Okay, they safe. They have this because

1155
01:00:16,240 --> 01:00:23,520
Speaker 1: we know that you're on the road. So that that's

1156
01:00:23,520 --> 01:00:27,760
Speaker 1: a little from Jack. You back, so you gotta walk down.

1157
01:00:33,400 --> 01:00:35,960
Speaker 1: Have you ever had an Okay, well, here's the booty

1158
01:00:35,960 --> 01:00:38,240
Speaker 1: bling for you, just in case you decided to try

1159
01:00:38,240 --> 01:00:41,400
Speaker 1: it scared first for like an hour. I've heard so

1160
01:00:41,480 --> 01:00:43,520
Speaker 1: many girls said that it's like a whole new world,

1161
01:00:43,600 --> 01:00:45,920
Speaker 1: but this ship scares a ship out of man, a

1162
01:00:46,000 --> 01:00:48,560
Speaker 1: whole new world. Have you ever had a guy just

1163
01:00:48,600 --> 01:00:58,160
Speaker 1: like put his thumb in it? But no, man, And

1164
01:00:58,200 --> 01:01:01,880
Speaker 1: that's the equivalent. Yes, it's like, are you scared the

1165
01:01:01,920 --> 01:01:04,480
Speaker 1: first tim or it just happened. I'm not scared of anything.

1166
01:01:05,640 --> 01:01:09,520
Speaker 1: I am be like bringing you. I'm scared too, don't worry.

1167
01:01:09,560 --> 01:01:11,480
Speaker 1: I've never done it, so I don't even like if

1168
01:01:11,480 --> 01:01:13,200
Speaker 1: I'm about to orgasm and you put your thumb in

1169
01:01:13,200 --> 01:01:18,760
Speaker 1: my butt, it will stop the orgasm. Well I'll be like, yeah,

1170
01:01:18,840 --> 01:01:21,080
Speaker 1: well so I don't think I like it. Yeah, I

1171
01:01:21,120 --> 01:01:23,640
Speaker 1: don't think so either, man. But in case you want

1172
01:01:23,640 --> 01:01:25,720
Speaker 1: to try it, that's some booty bland, thank you, Because

1173
01:01:25,760 --> 01:01:27,240
Speaker 1: if you're gonna have anal, at least you could do

1174
01:01:27,280 --> 01:01:31,360
Speaker 1: a fancy and you need this fancy like tattoo. You

1175
01:01:31,400 --> 01:01:34,600
Speaker 1: need thistle to go along with the with the black.

1176
01:01:34,600 --> 01:01:37,640
Speaker 1: The lube is for the booty blad that that's imperative.

1177
01:01:37,960 --> 01:01:42,720
Speaker 1: But the yeah, what the other one is? But mean

1178
01:01:42,760 --> 01:01:46,080
Speaker 1: squeeze lubricant. They're they're both princes, but yeah, you need

1179
01:01:46,120 --> 01:01:49,240
Speaker 1: the black one for Thank you. You're welcome, we come

1180
01:01:49,240 --> 01:01:53,440
Speaker 1: against you. Service